#i am very easily emotionally manipulated i know

[corgiteatime]

yeah sure i'm fine i'm totally normal i'm ok i'm fine i'm normal i'm n

[plutosunshine]

The Shadow Side of Each Sign

What I am talking about here is not only the Sun sign but also its larger size: it is the sign at its core. You can apply this to any placement you have (but remember that depending on the planet, it can slightly differ).

The shadow side of Aries

The most obvious shadow side of Aries's energy is its impulsiveness. These people tend to act impulsively, even in very serious situations. Also, Aries may be short-tempered, sometimes even over small frustrations. These people may be self-centered, putting off a focus on their interests. One of the other obvious shadow sides is their impatience. They want it all and quickly. Aries's energy may be aggressive at times due to their enormous energy. They can be confrontational or overly competitive. Aries is quite easily bored and distracted, always searching for the thrill. It can be difficult to finish projects since they lose interest quickly. One trait that can annoy others is their ego-driven nature: they must be the best, sometimes even at the expense of teamwork. Aries people may be blunt, straightforward, and direct, sometimes hurting others unintentionally. Aries is a fire sign; it is brave and strong, so, at times, these people are afraid of being vulnerable and showing their weaknesses. They prefer action over deep emotional expression.

The shadow side of Taurus

We all know that Taurus is a very stubborn sign. Sometimes, it can be a burden since Taurus may be resistant to change, prone to stagnation, and overly stubborn, even when it is unnecessary. Also, Taurus people are possessive: they may be too focused on material things. It may be expressed even in relationships - when they are too clingy or unwilling to let go. Taurus energy likes comfort and stability; in its shadow side, it may be expressed as laziness and inertia. They like delicious food, luxury, and pleasure, which may sometimes lead to overindulgence. Also, due to their love for stability, they may become too rigid: they stick to routines and habits, struggling to adapt. It is the adaptability that Taurus people may lack at its worst. Taurus people see money as security, so they may sometimes become greedy and too focused on that. Also, it is worth mentioning their jealousy. They may feel threatened when others succeed, or their relationships are at risk. Taurus often refuses to step out of their comfort zone, which leads to resistance to growth. Lastly, I would like to mention their ability to hold grudges forever. They are slow to forgive, and it takes a long time for them to let go.

The shadow side of Gemini

We all know about the inconsistency of Gemini. They may start a lot of things at the same time and finish none of them. They are easily distracted and bored, so it is difficult to stick with one thing. Also, they may be superficial: sometimes, it is too boring for them to dig deep. Gemini constantly seeks new stimulation, which leads to jumping from one thing to another. Gemini loves to share information, sometimes even at the expense of others, which leads to gossiping. The trait most people don’t like in Gemini is their two-faced behavior: they can present different personalities in different situations. It is not because they are evil; they adapt to situations and can quickly change their minds and opinions. Gemini may be quite emotionally detached: they tend to rationalize their emotions rather than feel them. Also, it leads to overthinking because they get stuck in analyzing their emotions. These people are very charming and good with words, which, at its worst, may lead to manipulations. 

The shadow side of Cancer

Cancer rules emotions and feelings, so it is no surprise that Cancer is moody. Their emotions change rapidly, making them unpredictable. One of the main shadow sides of Cancer is their over-sensitivity, which leads to taking things personally and holding grudges. They are vulnerable and get hurt easily. Also, Cancer struggles to let go of people and situations, even when it's unhealthy for them. Cancer may be passive-aggressive since they don't want to express their anger directly and don't address issues head-on. Cancer is very sensitive, and they fear rejection, even if it is small. This leads to withdrawal and building walls to avoid emotional pain. Cancer loves their loved ones and wants to protect them even at the expense of their well-being. Cancer is emotional, so at its worst, they use their emotions to manipulate others or get their way. These people love the past: it is a nostalgia trap; they may live in the past, struggling to embrace the present. Lastly, Cancer always needs validation to feel secure and protected.

The shadow side of Leo

We all know that Leo loves themselves. At its worst, it can lead to ego-centric behavior. They crave attention and validation to feel worthy. Also, Leo may be arrogant, believing they are always right or even superior to others. These people are dramatic: they can exaggerate situations for emotional effect. Leo is stubborn; they want to prove their point even when they know they are wrong. Leo needs to be the center of attention, so others may perceive them as attention-seeking. Leo doesn’t like to show vulnerability and struggles to apologize when it is needed. They feel threatened when someone outshines them because, as we remember, they want all the attention. Leo wants things done their way and can be prone to dominate others. They risk a lot when overconfident, which can lead to consequences. Lastly, their self-worth is tied to external validation and praise. 

The shadow side of Virgo

One of the obvious shadow sides of Virgo is their perfectionism. They hold impossibly high standards for themselves and others. Which leads to their next shadow side — over-criticism. They notice all the flaws and aren’t afraid to tell others. Virgo is an anxiety-prone sign: they overthink a lot and worry about every little detail. They need to control everything: they want everything done in the ‘right’ way. Also, Virgo can be very harsh toward those who don’t meet their expectations. Virgo is a sign that is obsessed with productivity and struggles to relax. They tend to rationalize their feelings and emotions, leading to preferring logic over feelings, making them seem cold and unapproachable. Despite their critical and perfectionist nature, they often feel not enough and doubt themselves. In addition, Virgo tends to downplay their own achievement and worth. Lastly, it is extremely difficult for Virgo to relax, let go, and go with the flow.

The shadow side of Libra

We all know how indecisive Libra can be. They struggle to make decisions, often fearing conflict or regret. Libra is one of the most people-pleasing signs. They put the needs of others first, and often at their own expense. Libra hates conflicts and aggression; they prefer peace and harmony so much that they suppress their true feelings not to conflict with others. At its worst, Libra may be too focused on appearances, charm, and social status, making them superficial. These people often depend on their relationships, whether it's romantic or platonic, too much. They rely on relationships for a sense of identity and validation. Libra is afraid of quitting the relationship because they avoid being alone. Lastly, Libras may use their charm and diplomacy to get their way, which may lead to manipulations. 

The shadow side of Scorpio

Scorpio may be very jealous. They are possessive and suspicious in relationships, making them more complicated. They need to have power over situations and people, leading to control issues. This can be reflected in their relationships a lot. Scorpio hides their true thoughts and feelings because of suspicion, which makes them hard to read. One of Scorpios' most popular negative traits is that they hold grudges for a long time and get revenge when betrayed. Revenge of Scorpio is no joke. Scorpio is a water sign, so they feel everything deeply. However, they may struggle to express those feelings, suppressing them inside. Scorpio is a clever and deep sign, and at its worst, these people are the best at manipulating people: they use their emotions and psychology to influence others. Also, Scorpio is always suspicious: they await betrayal or deception, making the relationships with them hard. This also leads to them struggling to trust others and let their guard down. The shadow side of Scorpio is their self-destructive behavior: they tend to put themselves in dangerous or toxic situations and often sabotage themselves. Scorpio is an obsessive sign: they fixate on people, ideas, thoughts, or situations to an extreme degree. 

The shadow side of Sagittarius

Sagittarius may be very blunt, speaking the truth without considering other feelings. Others may perceive them as rude because of that. These people always seek the next adventure, which makes it hard for them to commit. This sign doesn't like restrictions and limits, so sometimes they may be irresponsible: they avoid obligations or serious responsibilities. At its worst, Sagittarius thinks they already know the world's truth and teaches others that. They are overconfident, dismissing other perspectives. Sagittarius doesn't like the slow process of achieving goals: they get frustrated with slow progress or details. Also, Sagittarius often takes unnecessary risks without thinking of the consequences. Sagittarius is a very free-spirited sign: they prefer freedom over deep emotional bonds. Lastly, Sagittarius tends to ignore the problem, running from it instead of facing it head-on.

The shadow side of Capricorn

Capricorns may be workaholics, prioritizing career and success over personal well-being. This sign may appear as emotionally cold: they struggle to express feelings. Also, Capricorn is a pessimistic sign: they always focus on the worst-case scenario. Capricorn is an earth sign; they don’t like changes, preferring stability, but it can sometimes lead to over-attachment to tradition and stagnation. Capricorn has serious control issues. They want to micromanage everything to feel secure. They are also quite materialistic: they measure success by status, wealth, and achievements. Capricorn is that sign that is always unsatisfied with their achievements. They want more and want it the perfect way. These people are critical of themselves and others. Capricorn doesn’t like to take risks because of the fear of failure. It can be sometimes a big burden on the way to success. Lastly, this sign sees playfulness and joy as a distraction from responsibilities, which makes it hard to relax.

The shadow side of Aquarius

Aquarius may appear cold and detached from others since they struggle with deep emotional intimacy. They can seem uninterested or indifferent in personal relationships. This sign is rebellious, but not always for the goal, but often for its own sake. They reject authority and norms, even when unnecessary. Aquarius is an unpredictable sign: they suddenly change opinions, interests, or goals. The most popular negative trait is their know-it-all attitude: they believe they are intellectually superior to others. Aquarius is a fixed sign, so it is no surprise they are stubborn: once their mind is made up, it's hard to change. This sign often gets lost in ideas and theories, ignoring practical matters. Aquarius enjoys being different, but sometimes, eccentricity is taken too far just to stand out. 

The shadow side of Pisces

Pisces tend to escapism: they may avoid reality through daydreaming, fantasy, or even addictions. This is a water sign, so they are sensitive, but at its worst, it is taken too far: they take everything too personally and absorb others' emotions. This sign often struggles to say no, which leads to emotional exhaustion. Pisces is one of the indecisive signs. They often feel lost while trying to make a decision. Also, Pisces has a victim mentality, feeling powerless and blaming external forces for struggles. These people can fall into cycles of procrastination or self-doubt, self-sabotaging themselves. Pisces can live in illusion, lying to themselves or others to avoid harsh truths. Pisces sacrifices too much for others, expecting unspoken gratitude, often at their own expense. This sign may be very chaotic and forgetful, struggling with structure.

[sir-phineas-lost]

Claudia Deserves Respect

One of the things I think the last(?) season of The Dragon Prince did right was giving Claudia her due as a character. For a long time now, I feel like both the show and the fandom has had the bad habit of either demonizing or infantalizing Claudia and her motives. Even the corners or the fandom who are sympathetic towards her tend to go on about how she is "emotionally immature" or naive and easily manipulated because she wants her dad back and listens to Aaravos when Viren is gone, but that has never been my read on her.

The big shift in Claudia and Aaravos' relationship this season happens when they are at the Moon-Nexus and Aaravos has a rare moment of introspection and vulnerability with her, confessing that he doesn't really believe that Viren is going to be there. This is obviously very surprising for Aaravos to admit because he has no reason to do so other than genuine guilt about manipulating Claudia after bonding with her and also breaking her and Terry up, but Claudia surprises us even more by admitting that she has already done the introspection to realize that her dad is not going to be waiting for her at the end of this. This is one of those moments that I have seen people argue makes Claudia a passive puppet because "she just wants Aaaravos to tell her what to do" but I disagree. It is important to know that until this point Aaravos has not given Claudia any reason for why inverting the Moon-Nexus would be a good idea other than the vague suggestion that Viren might be there, but she has already come to the conclusion that he isn't on her own. When she answers Aaravos with "Good question. Why don't you answer it?" she is not making Aaravos think for her, she is telling him: "I know you didn't suggest this for my benefit, I know you have an agenda, now spill it". In this moment, Claudia demands to hear exactly why Aaravos is doing this and she decides that his is a cause worth pursuing. Aaravos was open with her and she decided for herself that she is 100% on-board with tearing down the entire structure of the world and making the cosmic assholes suffer.

This is also not demonizing her in any way because it is perfectly in-line with her previously established good traits. Claudia has consistently been the most vocal about voicing the injustice of this world in how poorly the elves and dragons have treated humanity so tearing down the cosmic order is not framed as her just wanting the world to end but her usual way of standing up to injustice by breaking taboos.

Her last big scene of the arc is her confronting Soren and Corvus on top of the Storm Spire where they chased her down with the intent of killing her and she lets them go saying that she is still herself, still nice. This is also something I see a lot of people framing as negative because it is Claudia "holding on to a false image of herself" but I see it as her confirming something about herself. Claudia has changed a lot, but the one thing that remains true about her is that she is nice. She will prioritize her loved ones over all else, but when she has an opportunity to be good that doesn't conflict with her larger goals, she will take it. In this moment she is furious with Soren, who all but confirmed that he will kill her when he gets the chance and not even a sworn oath from his king will stop him. She has every reason to toss him off the edge to be broken the same way their father was, but she doesn't. When Claudia is in control, she chooses to be kind, even to people who are never kind to her.

So if this is the end of the show, I am glad with the position it left my favorite character, because it respects her in both her motives and her autonomy. She is still out there, still scheming to bring down the injustice that our heroes won't even acknowledge. And she is confirmed to not do this out of blind devotion or even blind love for Aaravos, but a genuine conviction in that goal. And above all, she is still the wonderful person who proves that you don't have to be a paragon or follow the arbitrary rules of "good" to be a good person. To just be "nice".

[wyllaztopia]

You mentioned that if we know Denji’s characterization of Killer and Killer’s original backstory that we should understand why he’s so touch starved and has such a messed up definition of love. Is there any way you could tell me who Denji is?? I’m very curious now lol

Denji is a character from Chainsaw Man. I recommend you read the manga or watch the anime - though just the anime alone won't grasp the inspiration I derived from the character into Killer.

I also took inspiration from Gojo Satoru (Jujutsu Kaisen) but more so from his younger self more than the present Gojo.

(These are just drawn for the sake of meme-ing, not actually AG Killer's design)

Further down is explanation and slight spoilers. I don't talk much about it since I want most information to be a slow burn reveal for the characters, as if the audience is getting to know the AGDT cast in real time. (I am a sucker for narratives where it keeps you wanting to psycho-analyze a character rather than revealing everything upfront.)

Starting off with Denji, he's a teen boy who suffered through poverty and taken advantage of for labor just because he's willing to do anything just to get by in life. He's a boy who will do anything to live a normal teen life without having to worry about if he'll die from starvation. Along the story of CSM, he's been treated poorly due to how easily he can be manipulated - he literally has no idea of his own rights as a person. He's also very emotionally unaware because he's lived all alone his life except for a friendly devil named Pochita, who gave his heart to Denji so he can live and become chainsaw man to protect himself. Again, this is just a rough summary I made of Denji's character and I can't exactly explain it here! I recommend watching character analysis video that can further explain him or- you can also check at the original source (manga or anime) yourself which I believe will be worth it since CSM is such a good story.

In AGDT, I suppose you can consider Chara as Killer's Pochita, but in a more unhealthy / partners in crime way. I'll leave that up for the future to explore since at the moment, that's not what I want AGDT to focus on.

As for young Gojo, he's also complicated. He believes himself to be invincible and he can rub off as cocky most of the time. In the story, he holds no compassion or positive feelings for people who are weak - which is essentially everyone for him since he views himself as the strongest. This changed for a while when he was tasked to protect someone - he grew fond of them. However, later on this care disappeared when he perfected a technique - his feeling of pride for himself was stronger than his care for the person he was meant to protect. Gojo is usually nonchalant and playful, also emotionally unaware most of the time as he only thinks about himself (and a fellow 'strongest one' ahem, Geto but that's something I'll ramble for another day). However, he does go absolutely crazy when he's in intense fights since he's absolutely determined to win out of pride.

I would love to talk about what else Killer takes from Gojo but I'd feel like I'd be spoiling everything so I'll leave it for another time to talk about or explore.

There's other medias I took inspiration from for other parts of AG Killer but again, it's a subject to navigate around another time.

I hope this gave some insight on how this variant of Killer is and I hope you enjoyed reading through it!

[mikolovesracing]

i’m gonna rant. and if youre gonna come and comment on this post saying rude shit you can fuck right off with that bc im not having it. reconnect.

———

i can’t fathom what today did to lando.

his deflection of compliments from lewis hamilton in the max verstappen podcast room was heartbreaking. ik it looked like he was being an asshole and yeah! yk what, he probably was! but if you just had your second win pulled from you on a VERY PUBLIC STAGE, wouldn’t you be too?

and yes i understand that he under cut oscar im not saying that was right. dont get me twisted rn.

but can yall fucking stop with the lando norris hate club please? its such bullshit! i hate seeing it! forget hes an f1 driver and remember hes a person? that has real feelings? and real emotions???

he was used today! go back and listen to the team call of them emotionally manipulating him. its fucked!!!!

not only that but lando is incredibly hard on himself. lando truly is his own worst enemy. this man will beat himself up over anything, he cannot accept that he is worthy of celebrating himself and it kills me because i know what that feels like.

it hurts to see.

i know hes hurting.

he was hurt by his team.

fucked over by strategy.

and he still has to have happiness for oscar because he is a good person at heart and he has said that he can be more of a dick, yall forget how fucking nice he is. he puts effort into others and celebrates his friends and he is a good person at heart. yall are making him out to be this spoiled bitch brat and saying horrible things and im over it. ik zak brown treats him like he hung the moon and stars. and ik that oscar piastri DOES NOT get the same recognition. but that doesnt mean we get to come on the internet and whine and bitch that he was even slightly rude to lewis hamilton and that he didn’t seem pleased about p2

NEWSFLASH: he fucking wasn’t!!!!! oscar racec better than lando today, yes. but their team dangled a carrot in front of lando and took it away. they spoiled what could have been a great celebration for both drivers.

think about the sportsmanship he had today when he let oscar through. he could have easily said fuck you strategists, i’m in the lead.

so no! he didn’t want to! would you?????

he had to give up a win.

and please dont take this like im unhappy for oscar i am thrilled for his maiden win.

but even in oscars voice.

he isn’t celebrating himself either.

because mclaren hurt both of their drivers today. not just one over the other.

it feels wrong to be happy and sad simultaneously for a mclaren one two.

but neither of them seemed thrilled today.

not even oscar.

i think they have the power, they have the car, they have the drivers

put into perspective for a minute how cohesive of a team oscar and lando are, they work together closely and they have the opportunity to make big plays with big results! they respect one another and they have good chemistry and they listen to one another and they give each other a leg up.

its bittersweet.

but proceed with kindness in your words and hearts. celebrate oscar like theres no tomorrow(i am!) but equally treat people with respect. including lando.

thank you.

[sparklingcarer]

It is difficult for me to speak up and to put my feelings into words, but I am going to do so in the hopes my words can provide someone some kind of comfort. There is a lot of rightful hurt in the community but I worry that it is misdirected and that there are misconceptions exacerbating the situation. The doc contains extremely vague and far-reaching claims with no backing, such as pink backgrounds meaning incest and even the word "animal" meaning incest, in a comic literally about animals. It worries me how much people are taking these details at face value rather than questioning it and the motives of who shared it, as well as other similar claims made in the doc. I think the taboo nature of the doc's main topic has emotionally riled people up into accepting theories more easily, which I worry about too. For a long time now I've seen the occasional person harass Kittycorn and make up things about kit, and those same people are likely taking advantage of this situation to mix in lies with the truth. For your sake, please keep that in mind as you navigate all of this, misunderstandings will only cause more hurt. Leaving those claims aside and simply addressing the incest, Kittycorn was not able to start therapy regarding CSA until only 5 months ago. Many therapists and psychologists affirm that it can help one process and heal their trauma to recontextualize it in a way where they are the one in control. Kittycorn used kits characters and art in private for this purpose, understandably so given how comforting her characters are to her, and this was an AU never meant for anyone to know about but a few trusted people.

Kittycorn's trust was betrayed and her privacy violated, and the people behind the doc exploited that to expose the fanbase to that content in a context that misrepresents it as canon. To those who take comfort in these characters, those AUs are not them; to those who kin these characters, those AUs are not you. It is an awful thing for everyone involved, the fans of sparklecare did not deserve to be suddenly exposed to that AU and manipulated into thinking their comfort comic contains triggering content which it does not, and Kittycorn did not deserve to have something so personal and private be shared without their consent and be blamed for the pain the exposing of that content has done, rather than the leakers who did so. Their actions are the ones that have caused so much harm.

If you aren't a victim of CSA I implore you to listen to those who are. If you are a victim of CSA and these revelations about Kittycorn and kits coping methods make you uncomfortable engaging with what was once a major source of comfort for you, I am so sorry and I implore you to take all the space and self-care you need to work through this. Sparklecare's creator and fanbase are all victims in this situation, everyone is understandably very hurt, but please, focus on healing and understanding, rather than letting bad actors use you to spread more pain.

[soberpluto]

Know Your Soul Purpose With Your Big 3

It's been so much time since I've been here, but it's amazing to be back! Now, here's a topic I was wondering about today...

All our configurations hold divine meaning, in that before we are born, our souls chose the type of experiences we needed to undergo as part of our next visit on Earth. What makes us "us" is perfect in design. And what we're "made of" can be neatly seen in our birth charts. No birth nor birth chart happen by chance.

While it’s accurate that specific karmic work (which is part of our life's mission) is indicated by studying the positions of Saturn, its aspects, planets falling in water houses and the configuration of lunar nodes, I feel we can also find great part our soul's purpose (our main lessons) by analyzing our Big 3. This is equal to drawing a picture of the blueprint of our unique navigation system, our compasses through our human experience.

To make a draft of your soul's blueprint, take these steps!

Look at your chart to know your Ascendant, Sun and Moon signs and chart ruler(s). If your rising sign has two rulers, take them both into account. In my case, I always use whole sign system.

Identify the houses of your placements.

Start drafting your Ascendant, Sun and Moon signs' significations using the tables below, including both positive and negative traits. If we're moving through life based mostly on our positive qualities, it's very likely we're on the right track. Conversely, living constantly under the influence of our negative traits marks potential blockages to get where we need to be.

Add to your blueprint areas in which you naturally express your placement's traits (houses). This is important because you will know where your mission will be accomplished more easily or naturally.

Have fun!

If you're having a bit of trouble to come up with yours, take my own example...

I am proud of myself when I present to the world as passionate, powerful, magnetic, and intuitive (positive Scorpio rising qualities). I realize that when I become vengeful, jealous, obsessive and/or mournful (negative Scorpio rising qualities), I am attracting unnecessarily challenging circumstances that hinder my lessons in my life. My personality (rising sign) projects most in my physical appearance image and identity, in my close communities and in the pursuit of my dreams (Chart Rulers in 1st and 11th house). I feel my life has meaning when I act as a nurturing, sensitive, creative and empathetic person (positive traits of Cancer sun), but when I become needy, emotionally instable, insecure and/or manipulating with others (negative traits of Cancer sun), I realize that I am blocking myself from living in my fullest potential. The area where my conscious self (Sun sign) shines most is in my path towards higher learning, distant travelling, truth seeking, legal affairs and spirituality (Sun in 9th house). I feel safe and fulfilled when I can be brave, independent, assertive and passionate (positive Moon in Aries traits). But, when I realize that I'm repeatedly reacting in a violent, selfish, impulsive and/or inconstant way (negative Moon in Aries traits), I know that am blocking my ability to be peaceful within myself and move ahead in life. My emotional needs (Moon sign) are best taken care of through my habits, health care, daily routine, service to others, jobs, and pets (Moon in the 6th house).

Now, what information can you derive from this description? What does this tell about my purpose in this life?

Naturally, I am pulled to creative, healing and spiritual work. I studied Industrial Design in college, but I've expanded my career in other directions, including developing and managing intermittently art and esoteric online businesses while also holding an office job in Change Management. I am also the eternal student, self-learning and passionate about higher knowledge. I like to share my insights with others and help them find their own truth, their own awakening. I am drawn to intense (and sometimes not so positive) experiences and relationships, and have drastically changed my own image, jobs and spiritual views along the years. I've certainly went through a lot of turmoil, but also have gained significant life lessons and valuable wisdom thanks to the way I approach life. I cannot help to be deeply emotional, empathetic, passionate, excitable, idealistic and inspired, for the good and the bad! Even though it's not been an easy road, I realize that little by little my purpose is being fulfilled... and I hope you all do!

What about you? Let me know what you find out about yourself!

Thanks for reading! 😘🖤

Written by @soberpluto

[amai-sakura-chan]

Amai sakura

Name: Amai Sakura fumi

Nicknames: Reine d'etoiles it means queen of stars, and because she litterally has stars in her eyes and uparupa / ウーパールーパー its japanese slang for axolotls i think according to google and because hes seen her regrow her hair and a few limbs at a fast rate too like axolotls do.

Age: 16

Birth date: 28/5/xxxx

Dorm: Ramshackle

Likes: Cute people, smiles, candy

Dislikes: Lies, discrimination, men

(Appearance)

A shorter-than most girl with light brown skin, Her curly hair is often styled in twin pigtails while her hair color changes quite often usually it transitions from a soft pink hue at the roots, gradually transforming into a bright purple at the ends, creating a magical ombre effect. Her eyes resemble the night sky with a glowy star in the middle of each. She is usually spotted with her iconic dark grey vest, a white oversized sweater similar to Kalim's, a dark midi-skirt with ruffles underneath. Tights and black shoes.

(Personality)

Ame usually has a cheerful personality towards most people she encounters. She likes to smile and tease people. Thanks to her cute looks, she's often perceived as naive while she's very smart and can easily understand people emotionally, sometimes even overwhelming people. She often is seen laughing and smiling, but if she sees someone attempting to manipulate her, she switches to cold in an instant

(Background)

(This'll be really short because I'm planning on writing a chapter for this)

She grew up with divorced parents and a cunning father, a loving and naive mother alongside a very irritable brother. She often had fights with her brother and her father. Whenever her parents got into trouble, Ame was the one fixing it up, leading to her believing she only exists to help others

(Trivia)

- Strongly dislikes her father and is very envious to Silver and Lilias relationship

- Often has and still will threaten most nrc students, often even the headmage for ex. Leona with cucumbers, if you've seen those cat videos, you'll know. The tweels with salt Crowley with rodent poison. Malleus lilia and sebek with iron >:) has threatened crowley with poisons and more to force him to get stuff for her and grim

- Leona, Ruggie, Jack, Floyd, Jade, Idia, Lilia, Malleus, and Sebek all aren't safe from her. She loves looking at their teeth and talks a lot about it. Has studied them on multiple occasions, asked them to open their mouths, and with a flashlight, they studied each and every tooth in their mouth (not in a weird way she is just fascinated by different looking teeth)

- Idia has often mumbled that she looks like "the typical manga heroine" while Ame couldnt understand anything of what he meant

- Her bows are more than what they look like. Not just cute accessories for her hair, they double as sensors/antennas. They help sense danger and stuff about people she can use them to sense creatures around her and information about creatures whenever needed. they also turn black under strong senses of magic.

- Has put stickers on the faces of the people she's met at least once

- Because her parents were divorced, and she had to switch every week between her moms and dads house. It eventually got her used to be without a parent or permanent home half of the time, so she didn't really miss her family much, nor did she feel weird when she moved into Ramshackle

Tagging: (It's just who tumblr recommended. If you wanna be tagged, make sure to tell me)

@babyghoul138 @gimmeurmoneyagh @twtysevapr @oya-oya-okay @angelwishess @blood-red-hummingbee

[littlepuddingsworld]

in the language of love

CW unhealthy relationship (threat of physical violence, emotional manipulation, controlling behaviour), low-key forced relationship, mild dommale elements?, mildly abusive-ish reader? [taekjoo]

unpopular opinion, but LEEWON looks more like a chaser than someone who enjoys being chased and you are ready for this conversation. the same goes for taekjoo. I mean. look at them!!! yes, they look like 11/10 babygirls, but they're not 'bitchy' at all,,,, I do not know how to describe it. it's like.

CHU WANNING would love to have special attention paid to him, including partially, but unobtrusively, disturbing his space because "you can", but LEEWON and TAEKJOO give completely different vibes. like. they would chase someone just out of a desire to chase and emotional intensity, like when someone runs away from you and you want to catch up with them because. CHU WANNING would never do that. and if LEEWON is still playing and clearly not fully into these catch-ups, then TAEKJOO really looks like someone who would do it out of pure impulse and then did not understand why, but if something provokes him, then he goes for it. he just looks so composed on the outside, but he's completely fucked up on the inside, and I'm here to say that he's definitely that type who catches up to catch up because if he is provoked inside to catch up, then he will catch up.

especially yanderes.

I am sure that LEEWON would be no better than Caesar, if not worse, because if Caesar is "just" emotionally unstable and does not cope well with emotional situations, then LEEWON would be absolutely destroyed by the very fact that you may not want him (not just emotionally, but generally, as a person, that you may consider him insufficient decent) and he would clearly be prone to physical aggression and gaslighting, telling you what you should and shouldn't think because you obviously can't draw enough conclusions on your own, so he'll tell you what you should think about and where to look, because you're his partner and you have to behave accordingly.

he's someone you'll never win in conversation because, yes, he's emotional and choleric, but he doesn't move on emotion; it is important for him to be the best and the most, and he clearly would not think twice if he feels that you are not reacting enough or looking around, and I am sure that any attempt to pull away would cause a reciprocal approach, more than aggressive and clear, until you agree.

... you're just moody.

what he does is fair and right. so why are you acting like you're unhappy about something? he's doing everything for you - and you keep thinking that he's not good enough? why don't you try to stop thinking if you don't keep the good of the two of you in your head, unlike him? just stop it. he'll think for the two of you. just being around is enough for you. stop twitching. do you doubt his right? do you doubt his authority? do you doubt him?

exactly.

so. stop. it.

...

...

...

... do you want him to just... cook for you? your favourite dish.

or he can order a delivery, since you make that face. and he can massage your shoulders. you shouldn't look so sad and bothered, really. you look a lot better when you know he's right and you only take his words in. It's just the two of you in your world. you do understand that, don't you? you're smart, you just don't have the same thoughtfulness as him, but that's okay. he will explain to you what should be in your head and who. don't look at the others. others are outsiders.

there's only him for you.

... in the end, at some point you will simply realize that it is easier to do what he says and move with him along the current than to try to convince him somehow or, even more so, try to leave. he wants the best for you and he knows what's best.

your futile struggle only delays your mutual happiness. together.

TAEKJOO doesn't think twice - but he's not someone you can easily fool. he trusts all his senses and is more than smart enough to understand what is wrong around him; he keeps his feet firmly on his feet. perhaps that's why you don't perceive him as a threat at first - he's dangerous, no doubt, but not in... that sense. he doesn't smell dangerous. he seems calm, collected, logical, rational - someone who do not do something without meaning or with intention to just have fun or hurm.

TAEKJOO doesn't spend a lot of time thinking, he doesn't talk a lot out loud (more precisely, he talks, but for some reason you like how much he talks), he's not the most intrusive, even if you feel he's emotional. it's even a shame when you realize that what you used to think was the 'norm' wasn't. TAEKJOO doesn't smell dangerous, you never feel danger from him - at some point you just realize that everything

is

wrong.

you're just playing around. it wasn't serious. you just like to annoy him a little bit sometimes. he is so emotionally collected, but so emotionally sensitive, and you just like to poke him a little, especially when he is so obedient, malleable, follows you when he understands that you are ready to lead and he can trust you with it. he just wasn't cut out for it - and he is... cute. he's not trying to fight for dominance, he just wants to do his job well - he doesn't get into your personal space, doesn't get into your soul, doesn't force you, and he's so charming that when you realize something is wrong, it's just too late.

TAEKJOO follows passion, instinct - when there is an impulse and it leads somewhere, TAEKJOO follows it. you respect that.

until that impulse doesn't turn against you when you get all "bored and stuff and-"

and TAEKJOO is not the kind of man you want to run into when he wants something. he is malleable, even a little flexible, allowing you to do what you want as long as you lead where you need to go - he does not have that flexibility, but he has enough physical strength to convince you to stay put.

sometimes you two need to talk.

in private.

TAEKJOO is not someone who will offend you or force you - but sometimes you just leave him no choice. what's wrong? not as fun as when you were teasing him? what a pity. he just got a taste of it.

obviously, you only understand physical language, right? he is not one of those who hits or even fights, even if it is really easier at times, but it is much more convenient to talk to you this way. he's not "intimidating". he's just talking. it is his... comfort zone. you like to push him out of it, don't you?

it's fun for you to know where to hit and constantly, constantly, constantly push there with the idea that he's probably having as much fun as you. and then just "get tired" because "it got boring."

did you get bored? 'not enough adrenaline and thrill', right? just get up and walk away as if nothing had happened? he is patient. he's really patient - you know that yourself, you are not as dumb as you sometimes behave to get away with your "little silly things".

he's not the best with emotions, he's not the "smartest" with it, he's "more of a critic and evaluator than an actor" — but even he has patience.

and you really better not provoke him in the future.

it's easy, right? just be there for him. don't look around. don't flirt with anyone. don't look at anyone for too long. don't think about anyone for too long. don't praise anyone too enthusiastically besides him. don't talk about anyone around him too lovingly. speak lovingly only about him. don't talk to anyone heart to heart except him. don't ignore him. don't be gentle with anyone else.

... his mother will love you. he will introduce you soon. it would be awkward not to introduce her to his future spouse. after all, you wouldn't waste his time and energy, wouldn't take his feelings if you weren't serious, right? there is no point in delaying the logical continuation. his job is not the most suitable for family life, perhaps, but this does not mean that it is the only possible one if you are burdened by it. after all, the feelings of lovers are much more important, right? his mom will be thrilled.

after all, he loves you so much.

[frickerdoodledoo]

share jerigrim thoughts (demand not request <3)

Oh hey Tumblr decided not to notify me of this! How fun!

Anyway, Jerigrim.

There's of course the number of popular dynamics they fulfill, Stormcloud x Sunshine, Socially Awkward x Awkwardly Social, Big and Bulky x Scrawny Beanpoll, "If I don't talk about my problems they'll disappear" x "I do! I'm sad...", "He makes me laugh" etc

But there's also a bit of canon content. Unfortunately, in canon, Yorgrim doesn't actually get too emotionally close to anyone in the party, which I do believe is a coping mechanism. But of those in that party, I do see his relationship with Jericho as one of his strongest, aside from Briggsy, of course. Jericho is one of the first to extend a hand of connection to him, while it's clear the others are a bit offput by his standoffishness and delayed entry to the party.

Jericho is making strides to ensure he's included from as soon as Lockwood Manor, lagging behind to make sure Yorgrim is okay, trying to help him cope with the panic of seeing the horrific crooked spirits. And in turn, Yorgrim warms up to Jericho quickly, easily entertained by his jokes and accepting his awkward attempts at help.

And then there's the part which I point to for a lot of my Briggrim material as well, being Yorgrim's death. Of the four remaining party members, it's clear that Briggsy and Jericho were hit hardest by his demise. It could be chalked up to Jericho not being used to loss, but whenever what happened that night at the crooked house is brought up, it's always Yorgrim's name that comes up first for both of them, despite the fact that Farryn died as well.

Regardless, all of that can validly be seen in a platonic light. So now we move on to headcanons on why it would work.

First of all, look me in the eyes and tell me either of these two men are neurotypical. You can't. Because they are two sides of the same autism coin. They bond over being horrible at social cues and not understanding why civilizations work the way that they do, Jericho provides his optimistic perspective on things Yorgrim initially considers frivolous. Neither of them have any idea how "dating" or "being in love" works but boy oh boy do I enjoy being in this mans company basically 24/7. Jericho is also deeply and horribly touch starved and this very large man is a very good hugger so that's a plus.

They are both so, so sad. The thing is, both of them have very similar traumas. They both see the outsider perspective of each other's backstories and understand the other wasn't truly at fault for the actions of people they were supposed to trust. Yorgrim knows Jericho can't control Virgil, and he can't truly be held solely accountable for the actions of a literal demon possessing his body. Jericho knows that Yorgrim didn't single-handedly murder everyone in his village, and that in reality, he was manipulated by his cheiftain and has been forced to shoulder the burden of blame ever since. Both of them understand that the other is not evil, just a man burdened with a duty they were never given a chance to deny nor understand. But they both harbor so much guilt and self-loathing for the very thing the other can plainly see as out of their control. The parallels are sickening.

I could keep going but I am sick and also exhausted.

[writtenbyjeanofarc]

— Johan Liebert - NSFW Alphabet —

Discussion

Alright, so I finally made the decision to take on this challenge and put my creativity into work while making this.

Note that I am not very good with headcanons since I suck at character analysis myself (I lack basic comprehension skills).

I’m just relying on my luck hoping there’ll be people who can relate to these headcanons of mine.

Though I don’t consider Johan to be big or standing out on the topic of romance and sex, it wouldn’t hurt to explore how he’d be like if he ever succumbed to these feelings.

I headcanon Johan as aro-ace, but since sex or having sexual thoughts/fantasies are a part of human nature, I wanted to write this in the RARE scenario where he succumbs to these feelings.

Perhaps someone strikes his fancy in order for him to give two fucks about them—to a point where it starts to affect him physically, emotionally, and mentally.

The possibilities are endless.

So without further ado, here’s the NSFW alphabet indeed, and if Johan is quite OOC here, don’t mind it. I forgot most of the things that happened in the show anyway.

NSFW under the cut!

NSFW Alphabet

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

I personally have this headcanon that after sex, Johan is a pillowtalker at heart. By definition, pillowtalking is an act of exchanging private conversations, intimate and deep ones. Especially in bed.

When he’s not manipulating someone to committing suicide using guilt, he spends his time communicating with his partner about what he likes (and dislikes) about them, or what he feels about the world. He’s being fairly honest with how he feels, though he masks it as something humorous and lighthearted, but still frightening to his partner.

No, he doesn’t have dark humor, but he’d be the type to talk to you about something controversial and ask your opinion of it. Scenarios like that.

If his partner fell asleep afterwards, he would leave a short letter indicating that he catered to what they needed before leaving, and for some reason, write light possessive content that have this “I’d kill for you” type of vibe.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His and their eyes. The eyes are basically a window to one’s emotions. Johan has high emotional intelligence, and can see through how people feel. Granted, he usually doesn’t feel guilt or remorse for manipulating orphans, so he’d probably use your eyes as an advantage to target you.

Also, this may be OOC, but hands. He doesn’t connect with many people besides his sister and Dr. Tenma, so being able to “connect” his body to yours mainly has to do with hands. He’s not big on physical touch, but at the rare moment, he probably is touch starved like any other human being would be, and will usually be the one initiating it.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

His cum is pretty thin compared to other thick liquids that come from other men.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

He collects a stash of mementos (that remind him of his person of interest) to jerk off to. He’s personally fond of keeping memories and storing them in a secret drawer with a lock so people won’t be able to access them. He’s quite possessive in a rather soft way.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

I personally think he has little experience with sex. He doesn’t yearn for someone physically that easily, considering he isn’t easily swayed by external advances like seduction and flirting. Instead, he’d manipulate them back.

That being said, he might be a virgin.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

I’m sure whatever his partner wants goes. But if there was something he’d normally go for, it would be missionary. (I know, it sounds vanilla as fuck)

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He keeps it balanced. He can be humorous when they’re trying things out, experimenting.

But when he’s close, I’m sure he gets serious in a rather calm way, murmuring sweet nothings on his partner’s ear as he’s about to bust a load of nut from deep within.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He isn’t one to be conscious about body hair, but imo he does shave in case something between him and the person of interest happens. He doesn’t keep a purely shaved cock, however, perhaps just a quick trim.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

He’s not very romantic in a sense, but he occasionally dabs in with emotional support once in a while.

I personally thought of the “I was born to smother you with flowers” line and thought….maybe he could actually have a knack for sweet nothings and charming little messages, verbal and written.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

He starts jacking off slow and gently, but it soon evolves into something slightly rough in rare cases. Though he isn’t a rough, brute man with no manners, his patience can get tested if he doesn’t come faster.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

I don’t know if stalking is considered a kink but if it is then he has it, with his role being the stalker in this case.

Other than that, he doesn’t have much interest in unusual sexual situations making him quite vanilla.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

In his house, or his partner’s house. If he’s feeling lucky, then the library.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

People’s psyche.

Analyzing his person of interest is what turns him on, what makes him feral and craving for more.

The urge to manipulate and guilt trip drives him crazy to the point of wanting to ruin them, emotionally and sexually.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Being touched, kissed, or held without consent.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

He mainly prefers giving, even though he doesn’t have much experience and skill. Just like how he initiates conversation smoothly, he’d be able to carefully analyze what you want, and give it to you based on your body language (he is very good at analyzing people’s thought and emotional patterns).

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Slow and sensual. Anything fast, stiff, or aggressive turns him off.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Johan doesn’t like them. He likes to take his time dissecting an individual if he ever plans on sleeping with them.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He is game to experiment and take risks, but does it with precise control over his emotions. He doesn’t raise his voice and lash out if something goes wrong, but will do everything in his will to fix things.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

He personally goes for one to two rounds. Not because he lacks the stamina, but because he grows bored and doesn’t feel the need to pursue or fulfill his sexual needs. His sexual needs don’t last, and are very fickle. He can be subject to not continuing if he gets tired.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Personally, I don’t think he has the interest to pursue buying a toy.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Expect him to tease you in every way possible. He’ll edge you completely without regret, testing how much you can take before you can just give in and cum at his will.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He moans softly like a young man would, since his voice is pretty high-pitched. He gasps on the occasional note, even going as far as to scream like that scene where he fainted in the library.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He enjoys whispering filthy things to his partner’s ear, mostly backhanded compliments and talking about threatening them playfully. He enjoys adding fuel to the fire even when it’s highly unnecessary given the situation.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Basically nothing much, except for a boner that arises when aroused at a mentally stimulating situation.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Usually low. He doesn’t yearn or crave for sex like how I stated in the beginning, mostly refusing advances out of the many people who fancy him.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Barely. He would rather continue doing other things like reading a book, sending an e-mail, but he isn’t the type to sleep right after as he prefers to keep an open eye on his person of interest.

[jyeshindra]

Astrology Testimonials (I)

Hey y'all! I'm doing a new series on my blog where I document my personal testimonials of how I have experienced my particular placements. This way, other people can gain insight on how astrology manifests for the individual and those who share similar placements may compare.

On being Jyeshta Moon

A big theme with Jyeshta is authority and power. Jyeshta often rises to some position of authority over the course of their lives (Naomi Campbell, Donald Trump) and if they don't this theme of power/authority will present itself somehow.

For me, I have always witnessed power being abused! Whether it was in my own home or in work environments, this has repeatedly come up in my life. My father controlled the emotional climate in my home but was cold and emotionally absent. He misused his authority as a parent to control and constrict his home and failed to fulfill the duties of his role (no shade, Dad! Love you!)

When he passed away, I learned about his secrets from my mother and through the events that took place after. Mismanagement of our finances, adultery, and other scandals emerged, which continued this theme in my life. More happenings of my father misusing, abusing his authority. My mother isn't entirely innocent either but I won't shade her here (lol).

I was hungry for money when I came of working age and came in and out of a lot of different fast food positions. I would rise to the position of manager quite easily (another Jyeshta theme) and constantly witness my bosses and fellow managers mishandle or abuse their power. (iykyk, ff industry can be very toxic and abusive)

Because my father passed away at 13 and I learned his secrets between that age and 15, I spent much of my teenage years having this deep awareness that power could be misused. I would see it in institutions, in my teachers, at school, among my peers. In the world...hell, everywhere! Also, as a black person, I am no stranger to systemic oppression--another abuse of power. This too has given me a lens to engage these Jyeshta themes.

Such experiences then manifested as a deep mistrust of authority and by extension, my own authority. I have a difficult time believing people in power and at times have an unhealthy amount of skepticism within my mind. I feel at times I have seen too much. It can make me hopeless and almost corrosive inside. Thankfully, my Pisces sidereal placements (Revati) balance out my cold pragmatism.

All that being said, I am changing. And I am making space for a different framing of power. I am reclaiming my own now as I enter young adulthood (I am 22 years old!). I will always have a bit of a thirst for power. I can't describe it. I just know I'm meant for it. It suits me. And I know that all these insights on how power has been abused has cultivated a deep belief that if power chooses me, I will try to wield it responsibly.

So, I do everything with intention. Everything. I lead with intention. I love with intention. I speak with intention. I pray with intention. I manifest with intention. I do my best to be mindful and aware.

Those who use their power over others do not understand themselves. There is something in their hearts that is wounded and something in their minds that distorts their cognition. Wielding your power to abuse, lie, cheat, manipulate, hide, extort, abandon, indulge, etc. is an indication that healing is necessary. Rehabilitation is necessary. A change is needed--more love, is needed. And if that change is not sought, karma will come. This, I believe.

-jyeshindra

[ehh-is-the-name]

I ENTIRELY disagree with your statement that cobs and mephone are one in the same. They just arent!!! they arent!!!! it's comparing a person who Was Abused to their Abuser. And i think thats really dangerous, especially because cobs did things knowingly and out of ill will and is absolutely manipulating suitcase and knife in his speech to them, but also because mephone literally has/had no fucking idea he created the contestants.

theres something wildly different between creating a fantasy UNKNOWINGLY where everything goes your way (kinda- i'll yap about that later) and you have your contestants and your show where you can be the perfect host you always wanted to be!!... And creating Sentient Beings (who you know are sentient) and sending them off TO WAR only to physically and emotionally abuse one of them when he comes back with Only ONE of the children you sent him to steal. like. Fellow mephone apologist, he's not really that bad!!!! there is hope!!!

Back to the whole. 'everythign goes his way' thing- A key difference between Cobs and Mephone to me is that Mephone, not even knowing he created the contestants, doesn't force them to do anything. He's kinda... dumb? like, let's be real, his biggest threats come up to 'you'll be kicked off the show' and yada yada... Like. take Marshmallow.

He (UNKNOWINGLY) created marshmallow to be on HIS show. But when she chose to leave... he didn't stop her. And yes, he knew she left because of his confrontation of mepad where he expressly asks him 'why did you let marshmallow leave?' Mephone 100% KNEW. but he didn't stop her (nor apple, for that matter) from going off and starting a life of their own.

MEPHONE DOESN'T WANT CONTROL OF HIS CONTESTANTS LIVES.

Yes, he's a jerk, YES, He's absolutely terrible to his contestants sometimes, and YES, he will have to deal with the consequences of his actions.

BUT. He's not anything like cobs-- at least, not where it matters.

Cobs tried to kill mephone, multiple times, when mephone tried to start his own life. Mephone views his contestants as real, sentient people- Cobs doesn't! He sees the contestants as toys, if anything... And he sees his own creations as tools. Valuable tools.

So like. what im trying to say. Is uhhh sorry for yapping so long and i hope you have an awesome day!!! I've just seen this whole Mephone=cobs thing going around and it gave me a headache SO SORRY FOR MAKING YOU DEAL WITH IT </3 but i do hope thsi was informative!

First off- LET'S GO I LOVE II DISCORSE THANK YOU FOR RESPONDING THIS IS WHAT COMMUNITY'S ALL ABOUT!!

Anyway, I will say, that I'm giving you a hug and crying into your shoulders for bringing up the marshmallow thing- I completely forgot about it even though we literally just saw her again (I think it's pretty clear that my priorities are ALL over the place).

Rewatching the scene I get what you're saying.

I'mma be soooo fuckin honest this scene went right the fuck over my head, and by that, I mean I didn't know if Mephone was being genuine with his confusion or fuckin' anything actually. When I say ii 16 has killed me and left me rotting in a gutter, I'm so serious. Mentally I am in a gutter and your ask has at least rolled me back on the curb so I can breathe air instead of sewer water.

Literally reading your thing has made me remember other posts I have seen and taken to heart about this phone, like examples A and B. (They're both tumblr analyses that are kinda outdated 'cause of the bombshell but still pretty good imo). Mephone DOESN'T want to control the contestant's lives and, although he can be a dickwad at times, he still cares about them. Though is that just because they're his OCs in a way? I-

I say all that but I'm also like, I don't want to be completely throwing away everything Cobs is saying just because I feel ill every time he talks. You right, it's very clear that this whole thing is heavy with the manipulation but fuck man I think I'm just easily manipulated... I'm being so serious when I say I lost what hte fuck I was typing in the middle of this and I don't think it's coming back to me. I rolled back in the gutter, sewer water is my home I fucking guess.

Anyone who's listening to me at this point- I don't recommend it I actually don't know what the fuck is happening. I think I still have it in my head that Mephone knows about the whole "making the contestants thing" which makes it hard to fully embrace what you're saying. I should clarify tho:

Mephone and Cobs aren't the same, but the things he's indirectly picked up from Cobs (because of his abuse) are presenting harder than I thought originally. And I think that's what I really meant when I wrote the note. Or at least, that's how I feel now. It's been a couple days since I wrote the stuff in the blockquote. That's the best way to explain how I feel about the Mephone = Cobs situation—yes, but genuinely, in all honestly, no they're not the same.

And do not be ashamed of ranting, really, we love it here. Plus, my friend called this the 9/11 of inanimate insanity and yeah there's a lot of fallout and theories rn. Perfect time for discourse 'cause we're all going through the wringer.

[theyanderespecialist]

Base Yandere Trenderman Headcanons: A Dramatic Yandere! (Creepypasta)

[Hello, My Sexy Muffins! I am here with a new chapter! This one is going to be with the base yandere headcanons for Trenderman so let's do this! Please enjoy this!] 

(Disclaimer: Trenderman in this is another one of Slenderman's brothers. He is older than slenderman and younger than Offenderman and Splendorman.  Disclaimer: Trenderman is not yandere in canon! This is just for fun and not to be taken seriously at all! Simping for fictional characters and yanderes is fine! Just do not be illegal or gross about it. You Know Who You Are! You Dirty, Flaky, Biscuits! Yanderes are not ideal partners to have in real life. Also, remember to separate fiction from reality and headcanon from canon! Thank you!) 

-Base Yandere Headcanons With Trenderman From The Creepypasta Fandom- 

.Trenderman is one of Slenderman's brothers and has white tentacles like his brother Ofender. .He HATES Crocs (I mean he would have hated me in my youth cause I LOVED Crocs when they first came out And were like 15 dollars a pair) .He thinks they are the most tacky and ugly shoe.

.He also despises the swag look!

.He loves you, you are the love of his life, and he wants you to be his partner.

.Of course, if you have horrible taste in fashion then you can bet your sweet little butt that he is going to give you a makeover.

.That is right he is the type of yandere that will have you looking good and stylish and trendy, he is trenderman after all.

.He is the type of yandere that has custome clothes made for you all hand made.

.He wants on the best custom-made clothes for his darling.

.So he would do his best to make them perfect.

.Of course, he is also a drama queen type of yandere.

.In which he is so dramatic when it comes to having rivals, you being into someone else, and so on.  .He would also be one of the pettiest creepypastat yanderes there is. 

.That scum bag man wants to try and steal you away from him. 

.That woman is clinging to your arms like a slut.  .Yes he is the type of yandere that is judging his rivals. 

.He would mock them for their lack of sense and style and saying they have no chance to win you over. 

.He would be the type of yandere to mentally and emotionally break them down and then destroy them before killing them. 

.He would even make some of them into his mannequins. They wanted to be close to you, well now they can, just you are unaware that they are who they once were. 

.He does have a dark side in which he would stitch together some of his victims, using their bodies as the fabrics that he uses for it. (Think the walls and ceiling in Jeepers creepers.) 

.Although he rarely has victims, he does not have victims often and most of the time the only victims he has are the people who hurt you. 

.May it be emotionally, physically, mentally, or any other form of harm towards you. 

.You are the love of his life and he knows that he cannot and would not let anyone get away with hurting you. 

.Also he is a bit self-absorbed and that makes him a bit of a cocky and arrogant yandere. 

.Thinking he is the best man for you and the best option for you all together. 

.Also he thinks he can easily win you over and get you to be his. 

.He is very self-assured in himself that he can win you over and make you his, and his alone. 

.When he does confess to you he is the type of yandere that was so full of himself that he even had outfits ready for yours and his wedding. 

.If you do turn him down he is genuinely shocked and breaks down. 

.How could you do this to him!?! Did you not love him!?! Was he not good enough!?!  .He would have a semi-full meltdown learning that you do no love him. 

.He did not plan for this and there is no way he will be able to accept your rejection. 

.In Other words, while he makes a scene of your rejection and being such a drama queen. 

.He is using it to manipulate you to make it seem like he cannot live with you and that he needs you. 

.All in all, he is a hardcore manipulative yandere who saw his chance and was going to use it to manipulate you into his arms. 

.He would also be the type of yandere that while manipulating you would almost make you feel like the bad guy for rejecting him. 

.Now if you did accept his love he is soon going to be asking to marry you and make you his spouse.  .If you are male/trans male/non-binary masc/or just prefer masculine clothes you can bet she will make you something that makes you feel handsome and like masc/man you are .Your wedding day to him will be glorious but he refuses to let you wear crocs.  .If you are female/trans female/non-binary femme/or just prefer feminine clothes he would do the same thing but with your dream dress. 

.Once again it is your wedding day and he will make it amazing no matter what you want to wear. 

.He also tends to be a perfectionist when it comes to his clothes for you. 

.This carries over to how he treats you as a darling. 

.He has the perfect way to confess his love, he has to have the perfect outfit for it, and has to make every single moment so perfect and special that you will remember it for eons. 

.You will be with him forever after all because he is going to find a way to make you immortal like him and his brothers. 

.That way you will never ever be able to leave him! 

.Side note, if you had kids with him he would make the custom outfits and then be heartbroken when they get stained or the little babies grow so fast that they did not even use twenty-five percent of the clothes he made. 

.He would not be made but oh boy is he dramatic, just like he is as a yandere. 

.Always telling the story of how you walked into his life, and even though it was actually fairly simple he makes it sound like a drama romance with tragedy and how he had to woo you and win you over. 

.But there is always a dramatic twist and it becomes his thing to say whenever anyone asks how you and he met.  .You are glad he is excited but man oh man, he needs to calm down with the dramatics sometimes. 

.If you rejected him at any point and tried to run away from him, he may very unlikely, but still slightly possible, cut a leg off.  .Keeping you wheelchair bound, so that you have to depend on him and you will never ever be able to leave him.  .He loves being needed by you so he would for sure love you needed him for basic tasks when you possibly lose a leg.  .So much so that if you tried to run again he would even take your other leg as well. You should have learned your lesson.    [YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS another chapter done! I hope you all enjoyed this, and stay sexy, all of my sexy muffins!] 

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Louis de Pointe du Lac, as originally written, could be regarded as one of lit's most famous "also rans", someone who was originally positioned as Thee Tragic Figure of the series, only to be almost immediately superseded both in the readers' and the author's minds with Lestat. Like, you know Louis because of the original book, but Lestat is the one everyone talks about, Lestat drives the rest of the series, Lestat has all the best lines.

And the movie, as much as I personally don't like it, only sort of dug this further into the pop cultural understanding of the story. Brad Pitt is at his most "I am relying on pretty" boring and sulky; when there is a performance, it's largely annoying. And Tom Cruise... I mean, it's literally nothing next to what Sam Reid does in my mind, but it was at least very off-brand for him at the time, and he was doing SOMETHING, and he (and Kirsten Dunst) have the most iconic Moments, the camp, the arguably most memorable part of the movie (the very end with the Sympathy for the Devil cover playing us off).

So it's honestly SUCH a testament to the innovation of the show's writing and the brilliance of Jacob Anderson's performance that Louis has been reinvented, not only as a compelling protagonist, but as a character that is EASILY as complex and multilayered as more traditionally antiheroic/villainous types like Lestat and Armand and Claudia. He's more than the beautiful, tragic object of Lestat and Armand's affections, he's more than the guy telling us the story.

Louis is self-loathing and self-aggrandizing; he's victimized by Lestat, and he manipulates Lestat, very aware of his own emotional hold over him (might we note how much agency Louis had over Claudia's turning, and how Lestat in no way would've done that if not for Louis... and that act was arguably one of the most selfish in the series, if emotionally understandable). He's controlled by Armand, yet we get hints that he's actually quite dangerous and perhaps in some sort of self-delusion about just how dangerous he is (and Assad certainly plays Armand like he's nervous as fuck about Louis knowing the truth--and I don't think that's JUST about the possibility of Louis leaving him once he finds out).

Louis tells himself that he loved Claudia more than anything and that she was his "spark in the dark", when we see that in reality their relationship deteriorated over time and continued to do so, even after the person who was seemingly a wedge in their relationship was vanquished. We see hints, perhaps, that Claudia was no more the ideal daughter in his mind than Lestat was the ideal lover.

And that last scene in the premiere? When we're not sure who the "you" is? Sad and kind of horrifying, too. Because like--what will Louis do to Claudia to further his own love and obsessions? Who does Louis prioritize more--Claudia, Lestat, Armand? Maybe none of the above. Maybe himself and what or who he thinks will stave off his own loneliness, his need for love and validation and, yes, power.

None of this is a criticism of the character. The show already did something SO good and SO smart by turning Louis from a white slave owner to a Black man with money and social standing, still so held back by the laws and environment of his day. Vampirism gave him agency, yet the show, in season one, showed the potential for Louis to still be the perpetual tragic victim (in episode five especially). And maybe they'll still slip up and do that.

But increasingly, with the reveal in the s1 finale and the s2 premiere, I think we're getting the implication that the thing Louis could be protecting himself from mentally (with some help from Armand--I don't think Louis's memory issues are all Vampire Magic, though) is something horrible that he did. A choice he made. Because Louis does have agency, and the narrative allows him to be someone with conflicted desires and a complicated sense of self. Someone who doesn't love PRETTILY. Someone who is manipulated and manipulates.

Like, I've joked about him being this kind of like vampiric Helen of Troy because of the allure he holds for powerful figures like Lestat and Armand, but I also think it's so powerful to explore the way that Louis uses that appeal and ALSO makes fucked up decisions on his own because he is... into being adored, frankly. Even if the people who adore him also hurt him. He gets caught up in his own romanticized retellings of his life story, whether heartfelt or tragic, because in those retellings he can pretend that he had no choice, he had no ability to say otherwise.

But like--Louis could have stopped that woman from being decapitated, potentially. Louis didn't have to walk away from human affairs. He chose to do so, just like he chose to beg Lestat to turn Claudia. Just like he chose to deny her Lestat's true death.

And I think there's like, an attempt to reckon with this in the unreliable narration of the books, but I also think that this is so dependent, in Anne Rice's version, on spinning to Lestat... That Louis's culpability and untruths are overshadowed by his Everything. Here, the story lets us soak in Louis's mind, and Jacob Anderson's performance really seals that. I find it so smart.

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This will be a long post where I talk about sexuality and gender identity.

My first longterm relationship was with a deeply closeted lesbian. And wow, was I in love with her. She was my best friend. She inspired me to be a better person. And the sex was amazing. But a few years in while I loved her, she was unhappy. She cheated on me and broke it off.

Then she experienced how difficult it is to remake your life and date women as a woman. After several months she told me she was bisexual and she wanted to give it another try. Then it took a lot of work and was rocky at times. But I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. Raise kids with her.

I found a year-long internship hundreds of miles away. But that seemed romantic to me, and I wanted to gain those skills to be a better person. It was okay, we'd still talk. Well, she slowly refused my calls. It got to the point where I told her I wanted to hear her voice and could she please be available once a week at this time. And she wasn't. So I went home to see her. And we talked around the problem. She told me she was unhappy. And I asked her if we broke up and she saw me years later with someone else's kid how would she feel. And she said "I would feel nothing." So I broke up with her.

Last I heard she worked it out and met the right woman. She's married and lives far away. I still have a lot of affection for her. I have zero hard feelings and am happy for her. None of the rest of what I say is her fault. It's mine.

I then found what made me a good beard is I am bad at relationships. I love to be a people pleaser. And I am attracted to people with problems of which they don't want the solution to come from themselves. I've been in horribly emotionally abusive relationships. Sometimes physical. I've been hit. Sometimes publicly humiliated. Which I am not into. I am easily manipulated by guilt and anger. Especially guilt. Eventually I decided to be single for a while.

That was ten years ago. The last time I was in a relationship and had sex Barack Obama was in office. It was two months before Trump rode that golden escalator. A lot has changed in the world.

At first it was easy, because #MeToo was at its peak. And a lot of people were reevaluating relationships and dating. Then, I realized my friends were still dating and sexually active. What gives?

I did go out on a few odd dates, but they would tell me, "Oh, you darling. You're not ready." They were right.

Abstinence was hard at first. I'm a people pleaser. I love giving pleasure. What I missed most of all was giving oral sex. Especially to women lovers. Men too, but especially women. I adored that. And I was good at it. Ironically probably that's what kept the spark going early in that first relationship?

But you know, I got good at celibacy and not dating. I learned how to be by myself and what I like to do for fun. And, I found that after ten years, it blurs a lot of things.

For instance, if I were asked, "Are you straight." No. I am attracted to women. I do not want to date them now.

"Are you gay?" Man, I love to chat with a certain type of Southern bear. If he has a soft voice, seems gentle and cuddly. Minds his own business. And there is another very particular personality type of gay man that I am intensely attracted to, but would never date. Because it would be amazing, and then would use me all up and move on. Absolutely devastate me. I love this type in media. Ben Whishaw plays a lot of them. I look from afar but no. Also "Are you gay." No.

"Are you bisexual?" This worked for a long time. But it is wearing a little uneasy on me now. I'm celibate. I feel attraction, but I am celibate.

Gender! I am assigned male at birth. And during that whole childhood male socialization thing it felt like I was handed a basket. I asked, "What is this for?" and was metaphorically told, "You put masculine traits and signifiers in there and carry it everywhere so people can check your basket if they want. And that seemed dumb. But I tried for a bit. I liked Star Wars as a kid but NEVER wanted to be like Han Solo. I saw the appeal but I could never be him. Seems like too much work. I liked Luke Skywalker. He was softer-spoken. Spiritual. He rocked those cunty Chanel boots. Same thing with a legion of floppy hairs anime boys, though I grew out of that phase.

"Are you a cis man?" Uhhh, I don't care?

"Are you trans?" Definitely not. Too much shaving. I am okay with my body and do not want to alter it hormonally or surgically. Seems like a lot of work. I like being feminine to certain point, but not trans.

"Are you nonbinary?" See 'bisexual' above. No longer fully works for me. Though I have come around to He/They pronouns. I might grow into Any/All but I'm not there yet.

I wear mostly 'men's' clothes, but I favor women's jeans. I am tall and have long legs and strong thighs and for some reason my body type wears holes in men's jeans. So I prefer women's though the pockets are bullshit.

Am I into any alternate sexualities, fetishes? I'll give it a look, what do you got? But put any of that into action? Nah. My sexuality is I would prefer not to. Sort of my gender too.

I do know what I want to grow into, when I am old and wise. I want people to address me as "Curious Gentleman Bachelor". That has a sophisticated ring to it. Gentlemen is a bit gendered, but I give that a pass.