#✉.leewon jeong

[littlepuddingsworld]

in the language of love

CW unhealthy relationship (threat of physical violence, emotional manipulation, controlling behaviour), low-key forced relationship, mild dommale elements?, mildly abusive-ish reader? [taekjoo]

unpopular opinion, but LEEWON looks more like a chaser than someone who enjoys being chased and you are ready for this conversation. the same goes for taekjoo. I mean. look at them!!! yes, they look like 11/10 babygirls, but they're not 'bitchy' at all,,,, I do not know how to describe it. it's like.

CHU WANNING would love to have special attention paid to him, including partially, but unobtrusively, disturbing his space because "you can", but LEEWON and TAEKJOO give completely different vibes. like. they would chase someone just out of a desire to chase and emotional intensity, like when someone runs away from you and you want to catch up with them because. CHU WANNING would never do that. and if LEEWON is still playing and clearly not fully into these catch-ups, then TAEKJOO really looks like someone who would do it out of pure impulse and then did not understand why, but if something provokes him, then he goes for it. he just looks so composed on the outside, but he's completely fucked up on the inside, and I'm here to say that he's definitely that type who catches up to catch up because if he is provoked inside to catch up, then he will catch up.

especially yanderes.

I am sure that LEEWON would be no better than Caesar, if not worse, because if Caesar is "just" emotionally unstable and does not cope well with emotional situations, then LEEWON would be absolutely destroyed by the very fact that you may not want him (not just emotionally, but generally, as a person, that you may consider him insufficient decent) and he would clearly be prone to physical aggression and gaslighting, telling you what you should and shouldn't think because you obviously can't draw enough conclusions on your own, so he'll tell you what you should think about and where to look, because you're his partner and you have to behave accordingly.

he's someone you'll never win in conversation because, yes, he's emotional and choleric, but he doesn't move on emotion; it is important for him to be the best and the most, and he clearly would not think twice if he feels that you are not reacting enough or looking around, and I am sure that any attempt to pull away would cause a reciprocal approach, more than aggressive and clear, until you agree.

... you're just moody.

what he does is fair and right. so why are you acting like you're unhappy about something? he's doing everything for you - and you keep thinking that he's not good enough? why don't you try to stop thinking if you don't keep the good of the two of you in your head, unlike him? just stop it. he'll think for the two of you. just being around is enough for you. stop twitching. do you doubt his right? do you doubt his authority? do you doubt him?

exactly.

so. stop. it.

...

...

...

... do you want him to just... cook for you? your favourite dish.

or he can order a delivery, since you make that face. and he can massage your shoulders. you shouldn't look so sad and bothered, really. you look a lot better when you know he's right and you only take his words in. It's just the two of you in your world. you do understand that, don't you? you're smart, you just don't have the same thoughtfulness as him, but that's okay. he will explain to you what should be in your head and who. don't look at the others. others are outsiders.

there's only him for you.

... in the end, at some point you will simply realize that it is easier to do what he says and move with him along the current than to try to convince him somehow or, even more so, try to leave. he wants the best for you and he knows what's best.

your futile struggle only delays your mutual happiness. together.

TAEKJOO doesn't think twice - but he's not someone you can easily fool. he trusts all his senses and is more than smart enough to understand what is wrong around him; he keeps his feet firmly on his feet. perhaps that's why you don't perceive him as a threat at first - he's dangerous, no doubt, but not in... that sense. he doesn't smell dangerous. he seems calm, collected, logical, rational - someone who do not do something without meaning or with intention to just have fun or hurm.

TAEKJOO doesn't spend a lot of time thinking, he doesn't talk a lot out loud (more precisely, he talks, but for some reason you like how much he talks), he's not the most intrusive, even if you feel he's emotional. it's even a shame when you realize that what you used to think was the 'norm' wasn't. TAEKJOO doesn't smell dangerous, you never feel danger from him - at some point you just realize that everything

is

wrong.

you're just playing around. it wasn't serious. you just like to annoy him a little bit sometimes. he is so emotionally collected, but so emotionally sensitive, and you just like to poke him a little, especially when he is so obedient, malleable, follows you when he understands that you are ready to lead and he can trust you with it. he just wasn't cut out for it - and he is... cute. he's not trying to fight for dominance, he just wants to do his job well - he doesn't get into your personal space, doesn't get into your soul, doesn't force you, and he's so charming that when you realize something is wrong, it's just too late.

TAEKJOO follows passion, instinct - when there is an impulse and it leads somewhere, TAEKJOO follows it. you respect that.

until that impulse doesn't turn against you when you get all "bored and stuff and-"

and TAEKJOO is not the kind of man you want to run into when he wants something. he is malleable, even a little flexible, allowing you to do what you want as long as you lead where you need to go - he does not have that flexibility, but he has enough physical strength to convince you to stay put.

sometimes you two need to talk.

in private.

TAEKJOO is not someone who will offend you or force you - but sometimes you just leave him no choice. what's wrong? not as fun as when you were teasing him? what a pity. he just got a taste of it.

obviously, you only understand physical language, right? he is not one of those who hits or even fights, even if it is really easier at times, but it is much more convenient to talk to you this way. he's not "intimidating". he's just talking. it is his... comfort zone. you like to push him out of it, don't you?

it's fun for you to know where to hit and constantly, constantly, constantly push there with the idea that he's probably having as much fun as you. and then just "get tired" because "it got boring."

did you get bored? 'not enough adrenaline and thrill', right? just get up and walk away as if nothing had happened? he is patient. he's really patient - you know that yourself, you are not as dumb as you sometimes behave to get away with your "little silly things".

he's not the best with emotions, he's not the "smartest" with it, he's "more of a critic and evaluator than an actor" — but even he has patience.

and you really better not provoke him in the future.

it's easy, right? just be there for him. don't look around. don't flirt with anyone. don't look at anyone for too long. don't think about anyone for too long. don't praise anyone too enthusiastically besides him. don't talk about anyone around him too lovingly. speak lovingly only about him. don't talk to anyone heart to heart except him. don't ignore him. don't be gentle with anyone else.

... his mother will love you. he will introduce you soon. it would be awkward not to introduce her to his future spouse. after all, you wouldn't waste his time and energy, wouldn't take his feelings if you weren't serious, right? there is no point in delaying the logical continuation. his job is not the most suitable for family life, perhaps, but this does not mean that it is the only possible one if you are burdened by it. after all, the feelings of lovers are much more important, right? his mom will be thrilled.

after all, he loves you so much.