#i am very autisic

[cloudn9nesys]

So I just watched the entirety of the Godzilla analogue horror called "The man in the suit" it's on YouTube for anyone interested and I thought to myself, imma au them into ppl because I thought it'd be funny with just a dude at a tail yelling at a random dude because he's playing a giant monkey character that fights him, like.. that's halarious

Also it's been on my mind why Godzilla was protecting Angurius after he bit the fuck outta him... Why he do dat

[cloudn9nesys]

RGRGRGGR GAY PEOPLE.....

tapetum lucidum

[jeremiahthefroge]

Every appearance of the red-haired menace that is early Laurence forces me to sit here and stew upon how I will fix his introduction in the rewrite. As a coping mechanism. Unfortunately since I can't remember the parts where his character isn't just harassment so I can't cook with the themes the way I'd like to. Like the way he calls Aph "my love" after she very explicitly in the text of the game tells him not to do that... bad vibes. I think I could rock with his character if he'd done the same sort of approach in hitting on Aphmau as heavily, but the moment she lays down an actual boundary, he backs way the hell off. I could even fuck with her trying to be subtle about the boundary and him not getting it and continuing to make her uncomfortable before she snaps at him and he apologizes, saying that he truly didn't mean anything by it, and he respects the boundary she lays like his life depends on it from then on out. It would create some immediate complexity in his need for explicit communication, and backs up the sort of deeper character hinting they seem to try to do when he's talking about Castor and Cadenza, this idea that he deeply cares, if being a bit pushy on accident. It would also make a good detail fueling the conflicts later on with the love triangle that can sort of prevent Laurence from looking like TOO much of a dickhead (him being unaware or misinterpreting situations, and the delicate nature of it making him uncomfortable asking questions, is a compelling reason to see somebody hurting his friends' feelings, and makes him significantly more sympathetic, opening him up for feelings of remorse and guilt).

[master-jarrus]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The LEGO Ninjago Movie (2017) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Nya/Jay Walker (Ninjago), Cole & Lloyd Garmadon & Kai & Nya & Jay Walker & Zane, Lord Garmadon & Misako (Ninjago), Lloyd Garmadon/Lord Garmadon, Kai/Skylor (Ninjago), Lloyd Garmadon & Misako, Lloyd & OC, lloyd & koko Characters: Lloyd Garmadon, Kai (Ninjago), Cole (Ninjago), Zane (Ninjago), Jay Walker (Ninjago), Nya (Ninjago), Lord Garmadon (Ninjago), Master Chen (Ninjago), Master Chen's Anacondrai Cultists (Ninjago), Koko, Clouse (Ninjago), Elemental Master Characters (Ninjago) Additional Tags: Koko and Misako are different, "and" in the relationship tags is platonic, might play around with more romances, Technically hunger games au, unintentional though, none of the good guys die, Autistic Lloyd Garmadon, Autistic Jay Walker (Ninjago), Kai Has ADHD (Ninjago), Autistic and adhd Nya, Medicated Adhd Cole Summary:

The Tournament of Elements but in the Lego Ninjago Movie universe

Here it is. Hopefully nothing is weirdly formatted from it forcing google open and then it whining about not being on the app.  The prologue is very short but I intend to have longer chapters don’t worry 

Also shout out to GreenAmethyst16 who commented on it before Ao3 even told people I posted it 😂 idk if you are on tumblr but it’s still funny and impressive to me

[autism-corner]

gross

[false-anomaly]

Got fanoned so hard IRL that in conversation w/ my ex a couple weeks back they genuinely assumed I had yet to grasp the concept of sex and would be distressed by discussing it. Hilarious and truly fucking baffling

[novembermorgon]

You have made me realize that we need to go more crazy over Daella Targaryen. She's just a sad, neurodivergent teenage girl who's married to a weird, balding middle aged man who treats her like one of those crusty purse dogs. Her oldest step daughter is older than she is but has beef with her for no reason. Her only daughter dies in childbirth just like she did and her daughter's daughter goes on to contribute to the destruction of their bloodline. I am going feral about her.

i agree . i think we all need to come together and discuss her more because beyond the tragedy of her unnecessary marriage and death she is such a funny (meant in the least malicious way possible) character. she’s autisic. she likes flowers but is scared of gardens (???) and bees and cats. she can barely read. she’s specifically listed to be scared of alyssa for some reason despite her being basically the only one of her siblings to defend her . she doesn’t marry a guy because she’s scared of having to be married at the weirwood tree. everyone bullies her. shes a stepmother of four . it’s all very charming to me

[hyperactivetransdrone]

Blog Intro

So after looking through several peoples profiles I noticed that introductory posts were pretty common (at least for nsfw sooo here we gooooo)

I'm adding this later on 8/18/24: If (majority) your content is s**sy and your DMing me to try to dominate me, Don't. While I don't mind people who do that/are into that being called that feels like a sexualization of my identity and ergo 1: I hate 2: is disgusting to me, I don't mind if you Identify as one or if you DO just wanna CASUALLY chat but please know that I won't and will never want that or say that word (with the exception of blocking tags involving it or here as a boundary) but if i need to it will be censored. I don't mind if you Identify as one and wanna follow me or anything or just wanna casually chat (or talk sexual just not... making me one to try to explain) feel free to I will NEVER kink shame regardless of how I feel so this won't apply to most people just a very very teeny tiny minority. I won't block you tho unless you cross a boundary or keep pushing, because I feel anyone who wants to read my content should be allowed.

I would also like to say, if you're going to delete your account please don't dm me, it breaks my heart every time

Hello I do not wish to give out my actual name online so you may call me Mz. Hyde (I stole it from the song by the same name by Halestorm) or just... my user-name-tag-thing (always forget what its called)

I am all for Sentient AI but HATE current AI (it doesnt even deserve to be called that)

Outside of this post any posts in blue is rping as a slime-girl-queen-goddess-character. Feel free to send asks or responses directed at her. Her title is Queen of Slimes, The Slime Goddess, or The Slime of the Lake

As of posting this I am still brand new to Tumblr but am learning somewhat quickly sooo things may look A Little odd right now to the average Tumblr user but as soon as I finish learning the basics it should look fine.

Anyway:

19 so 18+ only please, (pre-hrt) Transfem, Bisexual, Autisic+ADHD, overall anxious/shy-ish, probably a switch, Lefty, Type 1 Diabetic (I require insulin to survive), Virgin [:(]

Majority of this blog will be kinky thoughts usually about being dommed or hypno because... I wanna try it. SOME is fantasy tho so keep that in mind (usually my reblogs)

If you are a dom looking for money, unless you are popular and have a good community on here or if you are a s**sy tamer (or whatever it would be called) please don't DM me, unless you just wanna casually chat and don't wanna dom me or if you do please respect:

I really don't like being called an s**sy and will give you one warning before I block you.

I literally have no way to pay you so please don't expect that.

Please read this first, or if I ask you to because otherwise that gives me a red flag in my head and I will probably block you. (Unless it's just casual talking but that's different than what I'm talking about here)

My proof that I take this seriously:

Kinks because that seems to be an important factor on making these types of posts/blogs: Transformation, Hypnosis, Dronification, Denial/Edging, Latex, Brainwashing, Bimbofication, Twinning, Dollification, Forniphilia, Exhibition

Things I enjoy but aren't kinks: Forced Fem, Praise, Good Girl (I'll add more when I think of them)

Limits or things that I will block you about: Human Waste, Blood, Physical Harm, IRL Identity Death (Fantasy is hot AF tho), Sissy (WILL BLOCK YOU), Findom (Unless we're in a romantic relationship), (and a few more I can't remember off the top of my head)

The reason for physical harm being a limit is mostly due to personal problems I've had with S.H. and because of that I hate reading S.H. or other stories or fantasies with physical harm or knifes. Fantasy Violence is ok though. (E.G. Pirates or like a battle between two warrior framed in a Fictional light.) Oh and also no needles. BIG fear of needles, for multiple reasons. Will go in depth if asked.

Finally a few final things about me/general questions:

This is my first Tumblr account that is SPECIFICALLY for NSFW things although I will occasionally post more SFW things but I do love music, video games, card/board games, RPGs/TTRPGs, creative writing, art.

What's your Favorite Color?: I don't have one but my fav combo is Hot Pink and Deep Purple, pretty much if you've ever seen those BIC octagonal see-through pens, those shades of pink and purple specifically

What kinda music do you like?: Power Metal, Rock, some Pop

What video games do you play?: Some Pokemon, Batman: Arkham, Smash Ultimate, Fallout, I can't really get online games yet so unfortunately I cannot play with anyone :'(

Is there anything specific you like about your kinks?: Honestly, in a vacuum I like dronification for productivity because I SUCK at doing anything productive.

The people who have sent questions about Gaza Support (i am broke but here are links to them i am just going to put their profiles for the sake of simplicity and nc some links i cant copy paste):

@ehabayyad23

@freepaleatine95

@mahmoudayyad

@esraayyad14

@ezzaldeens-blog

@foggyruinspost

@ahmed4palestine

@sspsworld

@fidaa-family2

@wafaaresh6

@mahmoudswierh2

@generousvioonanuttieyl

@nishverian

@ahmedalnabeeh11

@shinytastemakerphantom

@nohabed

@ahmaad860

@scentedtyrantmusic

@mahrahpalestine

@d-imtthal

@ayoosh-gaza

@kareem-family2

@save-fatma-gaza3093

@yazan-joud2

Tags to find non-reposts easier (Umm i ran out of colors so these will be bold):

#Random Thoughts, #Edging kink (for post horny thoughts), #Hornyposting (for horny thoughts), #Hydes eepy thoughts (for thoughts i have when sleep deprived), #Hydes Ideas (cool ideas i have), #Hydes Hypno Scripts (for Hypnotic Scripts I make), #Hydes QnA (QnA), #Hydes Depressed Thoughts (Thoughts I have when depressed), #Hydes Kinky Thoughts (thoughts I have that are just generally kinky but it's not hornyposting nor... I forgot what I was going to put here), #Hydes Hypno Scripts (My hypnosis scripts), #Slimeposting (Slime Queen RP posts), #Hydes loving words (to my significant other)

If I get any FAQ I'll either add them here or to a FAQ post.

I now have a sideblog for latex things that look perfect. That is an opinion and just a kink the person they are under the latex is, in my opinion, someone different so anything there that I call 'perfect' is just in terms of kinkiness NOT a reflection of the actual person. The blog is: @trans2latexperfection

If you read this far thank you for reading!!! :3

Blocked Users (i dont normally block people so these people are scammers or assholes, also will not be using @ s either here):

mistress-elizabethh - for calling me a s**sy twice, even after claiming to read pinned

[tabithatwo]

Do you think Jackie is autistic? She has alot of autistic traits and some are even accepted by the fandom. There's a tag for her on Ao3

this is a really interesting question for me. i'm sort of going to give my opinion in a round about way because its very bound up in who i am, so bare with me. i wouldn't feel equipped to answer this question if i didn't relate very heavily to jackie. part of my yj love started just from how seen i felt by jackie's character.

i was captain of a girls sports team, i was so stupidly lesbian, i had the on a boys sports team boyfriend who i didn't like at all, my home life wasn't like hers in many ways but my mother was also an addict and generally not nice lady lol, i tried my best to be as nice as i could to everyone, and surface level i was liked in a homecoming princess type way, but i had very few super close friends. i often got the "wow you're actually nice" or "i assumed you were a bitch" comments from people i'd never spoken to before and i had no idea why or how to prove that i was genuine. jackie gets accused of being "fake nice" to "manipulate people" a lot, but we really don't see her doing any manipulating or get any evidence that she doesn't mean the nice things she says and does.

i heavily relate to that and as i've gotten older i've realized that people often mistake the sense that something is off with fake kindness. i think there are a few reasons that jackie is treated the way she is, both by the other girls at the end of her life and by viewers, but it would take like...an extensive essay to get into the nuance of them lol, so i'll just stick with this:

i think being neurodivergent gets you the treatment that jackie gets a lot of the time. i'm EXTREMELY adhd, like really blow the assessment scores all the way up adhd lmao it impacts my life heavily, and i wasn't diagnosed until my twenties. i also score high on the autism screener and fit the criteria, but i have never/will never seek any formal diagnosis there just out of personal preference. all that to say, i relate heavily to jackie taylor, i think the girl is some kinda neurodivergent, and i think headcanoning characters as autistic makes total sense when the evidence tallies up lol.

the thing is, so many characters are lesbian-coded or adhd-coded or autisim-coded, because so many people don't know that they are those things. i knew i liked women from an early age, but i had the comphet of thinking i liked men also. so i didn't know i was a lesbian until i was 24. i didn't know i had adhd until i was 25. i didn't know i was (probably) autistic until 26. we don't have to know the words for the things we feel and do to embody them or to see them in others or to write them into characters. does that make sense?

anyway, if you think jackie taylor is autisic i love that and i can't say i disagree. that's my long-winded answer!

[vivitur-moritur]

Hey, please help me solve an argument with my mother! She thinks I’m not autistic enough to be called autistic so she just calls me “Spectrum-y”. She also frequently if she thinks someone might be autistic, calls them “a little spectrum-y”. She says it’s because I’m not THAT autistic so it feels weird calling me as such. So:

Please please please reblog for sample size!!!

[sanityshorror]

Julius is autisic? what are his traits?

Speaking as an autistic person, I don't feel comfortable labeling anything as "autistic traits," because my autism is simply part of who I am - and I have traits as a person. I'm not mad, I just don't personally like the terminology.

However, Julius experiences over stimulation very easily, he is highly sensitive to both sound and light as well. He can't handle excessive loud noises and very bright places but he also cannot handle silence or pitch darkness. It goes without saying that Julius intensely hyper-fixates - 'perfection' being the primary thing. He does have other hyper-fixations as well, including sewing, porcelain dolls, dissection and the process of decay (in a better timeline, he would have been a great scientist TBH). Additionally, Julius is non verbal rather often. Texture and taste sensitivity are also something that affects him a lot, he can really only eat bland food of a very specific consistency, which just contributes further to his anorexia given that what he's even able to eat is highly limited. Of course, he struggles with social cues and interactions quite a bit, despite him being able to read people as individuals incredibly well. Lastly, he does have some 'childish' behaviors and interests, such as being very obsessed with stuffed animals and he really loves Disney princess movies.

[superpussyking]

Hello king, I am here to ask about your favourite hcs for Jonah Magnus :] also hope you’re having a good day!

Hi and thank you!

I have a lot, and they tend to cycle through which ones are my favorite- obviously autistic Jonah is so real to me I can't believe I haven't seen anyone else talk about it. Especially because I have seen people talk about autisic Peter (which is also very true) and didn't connect the two.

I think he's trans in every direction. Specifically transfemme Jonah. It's pretty personal to me so I don't wanna get too deep into it. But it follows my rule of thumb which is you can not live past 135 years and continue to be cisgender. The way you see yourself will change. mix that with society changing the way gender is viewed and you get a gender fucky body hopper who just stays male presenting bc its more convenient.

And now for me and my friends unfinished tma pacific rim au. Jeager pilots get a tattoo for every kaiju they kill. Jonah has so many and they are entirely covered up by his work clothes. Anytime you get the rare chance to see them it's fucking terrifying.

I tried to put as many refs to different entities as possible but I didn't get them all lmao.

I don't think he'd do this in cannon- but I think it would be incredibly epic for him to have a lot of tattoos that no one sees under his clothes. It's thematically appropriate, it would be hot, I could imagine him using tattoos as a way to satisfy his need for control. If he's going to get a new body every 40 years anyways, might as well do a little decorating.

On that I think he's chill with recreational drugs and is dissapointed he can't go fucking crazy anymore because it's bad for health. I also think he's scared of doctors. No evidence for that it just makes sense he'd be scared of doctors.

Thank you for the ask I didn't realize how long this post would get lmao- I hope this satisfies bc I like talking about him :]

[adventures-of-tbh-and-btw]

❓📱👥

❓- What question isn’t on this list but you wish it was? What is your answer to it?

Answer: Hmm… this is kind of tough. I guess I think a good question would be : What is one stereotype of autism that you defy/doesn’t apply to you?

I think this is a good question, because although it is becoming more and more well known that there is not such thing as one type of Autistic person, there are still a-lot of stereotypes out there. Not all of them are negative, but they are stereotypes nonetheless.

As for my answer, I would say that the stereotype of Autisic people being exceptional with math and numbers does not apply to me. Although I can do basic math fairly well (same goes for geometry), I am by no means a math person. I thrive on words- writing essays, creating stories (and of course comics). I can’t stand math. I understand the whole appeal of logic (which yes, I agree is nice. 2 + 2 always equally 4 is lovely), but once you start getting into algebra, you lose me. Maybe that’s why I enjoy geometry. It’s about explaining the math through words (also shapes, which as an artist I understand), rather than simply finding i to the first power (ew).

📱- Giving as much or as little detail as you’re comfortable with, what sort of accommodations and support do you need?

Answer: Oof, this one’s tough too (mainly because I am not entirely sure what counts as support). Starting off with accommodations, I need gloves. Almost every time I touch some sort of food (cheese in particular), I need to be wearing some sort of gloves. I also typically need to be able to wear headphones in spaces with too much noise. I don’t have noise cancelling ones, so I will typically turn on music in an attempt to drown out the other noises. Without headphones, I can get by covering my ears, but can only take so much before it becomes too much. Thankfully, my current job (despite being ridiculously noisy) allows me to listen to music whilst I work, so this hasn’t been too much of an issue yet.

I would say I mainly need support socially. As I mentioned previously, I need people to be okay clarifying if they are joking or sarcastic sometimes, and need them not to get upset if I take something literally (ex: Only bringing two of something when someone asked for a couple. Because couple = two. I have to constantly remind myself that when someone says a couple of something, they typically mean more than two).

I also have a very hard time telling when people are taking advantage of/making fun of me, so having someone be willing to let me know when that is occurring is always nice. I have had people tell others to leave me alone on my behalf, as I was unknowingly allowing them to mock me to my face.

Sorry if I didn’t answer this question correctly. I honestly don’t know what counts and doesn’t count as support/accommodations, as I was never really offered any growing up. I just had to find ways to “deal with it”, which usually involved me simply avoiding the things that bothered me.

👥- Do you feel like you are part of the autistic community on Tumblr?

Answer: I don’t know? I mean… I would like to think I make people in the Autistic community happy with my comics and such, but in reality, I don’t interact with others in the community that much (aside from answering asks). This is a secondary blog, so I don’t really have the ability to interact with people without sharing my main blog’s url (which I don’t think I can do atm). So I guess I’m not? I don’t really know TBH (no pun intended).

Thank you for the ask!

[tonyandzivauk]

Health update.

I know I keep vanishing and then coming back randomly but trust me it's not because I don't want to be here, it's because of everything I have going on right now. Finding the time or energy is really fucking hard right now. I do lurk in the back ground and I am still working on finishing the pic spams...but again...I have so much going on now that it's unreal.

I work two jobs. Me and my partner bought our first home a year ago. We are a couple months closer to move in but its just been such a long and stressful journey to get this far. I'm working two jobs so we can afford to do the things we want now in terms of fixing it up so we don't have to ever do it again. I am a high school teacher during the week and a worker in an Autisic Centre of the weekends and school holidays.

As some of you may know, 8 years ago I suddenly was unable to walk properly due to pain in my hips. After xrays, they found I have Dysplasia in both my hips which caused arthritis in both. So I was thrown into the world of being disabled as I couldn't walk properly and I was in so much pain. 2 years later, after many attempts to save both hips, I had total hip replacement of the right hip. 6 months later I had a total hip replacement of the left hip. Recovery was awful. Months later I started suffering with pain in multiple joints. My knees would give way. My ankles would swell. My left sholder was very painful when moving it and would lock quite a bit. Going to the doctors to speak about this would result in me being told that it's just pain from the hips travelling down to my joints and up my back.

So I carried on. I had to. I didn't have another choice. Couple of months later, couple of ER/A&E trips, I got sent to a rheumatology consultant. He did a blood draw and said that I had no sign of an autoimmune problem so it must be Fybromyalgia. Now. I do believe I have Fybromyalgia. I have the emotional trauma from growing up with an abusive, alcoholic & gambling addict dad. Developed eating disorder from the age of 18...and I've had the physical trauma of the back to back surgery's. So it's fits. All the symptoms fit.

However, with my family's history of arthritis at very young ages (my mum needed them at 20, my auntie needed them at 23, my nan needed them in her 20s and I needed them at 21). Most of those woman have arthritis in a lot of other joints to. So I needed to push for further investigation.

My left hip replacement hasn't felt good at all since it was done. It is that bad that I actively call it my "bad hip". And tell people we don't celebrate that hips birthday. The pain has gotten much much MUCH worse. If I stand for more than 30 seconds on that hip, I get stuck. I can be taken out of action for days if I do too much activity because of the pain. I take 80mg of slow release morphine every day and other pain killers. That doesn't help much at all.

So, I asked my rheumatologist to please xray the hip replacements and please xray my sholder as it was getting worse. Its hard when you get a diagnosis of fibromyalgia because doctors like to see that and not look any further then you are complaining of joint pain. It's very hard.

I got the xrays.

Sholder: he rang me with the results. His statement was that I have Dysplasia in my sholder. The joints don't fit properly which is what is causing the pain. He also stated that this hasn't changed since the last xray I had done when it was originally flagged....excuse me? I was so confused. Eventually I remembered that during my second hip replacement, the hospital suspected a post op blood clot in my lungs, so they did a chest xray. When this xray was done, there was a red flag on it that said I had Dysplasia of the sholder. That was 5 years ago. No one said a word to me. It wasn't in my notes. When I say I was so angry, I was soooooo angry. But at least I had an answer other than "oh you have fibro, that's what's causing the pain." Since then, no one has been in touch about a treatment plan etc. That will be my next issue to fight for I guess.

The Hip: the replacements looked fine. They were not loose. Which is brilliant! However, I had extreme pain from it. So I was referred to a hip specialist. This guy was the guy who did all of mu family hip replacements so it was nice to be under him if there was a problem with my replacement. I went to see him 2 weeks ago. He sent me for a CT on my pelvis. He agreed that there was no issue with the hip other than nerve pain which isn't really worth opening back up again due to the risk of infection and the fact that I will need new hips in 10 years anyway. So, Great. Nothing wrong with the hips. I'll just have to get on with the nerve pain. He told me he had bad news though. He pulled up my CT scan and showed me that I had arthritis in sacratic joint on the left side. That is what is causing me the intense pain. That is what is causing me to get stuck in certain positions. All he can offer me for that first is injections into the joint and physical therapy. He told me that it's going to be a long journey with a lot of work.

When I say I sobbed. I sobbed. Another fucking thing that is wrong with my body. I feel like I am just broken. I find it hard to put into words how all this makes me feel but tbh nothing was as bad as it was when I got a letter through the door from the same doctor.

He mentioned everything he said in the appointment about the joint issue on the left side. But he also had taken another look at my scans and he said there is degenerative changes in my lumbar spine. Arthritis in the bottom half of my spine. What do I do with that? I was in work when I read that and honestly I did my best to keep it together but I couldn't do it. I just cried my eyes out. I think reading his words, "Elisha knows that this is something she will have to deal with for many years and it is not going to go away." I am honestly broken. I don't know why this is happening. I don't get how I've gone from where I was before I turned 21, perfectly healthy other than the eating disorder, to being 30 with arthritis in the bottom half of my spine, arthritis in my joint that connects the pelvis to the spine, 2 hip replacements & a Dysplastic sholder. I honestly feel like I should ask for a whole body scan just to get it out of the way. Just find out everything.

What also has freaked me out is that he said I have myelitis in my spine. If you do your research you will understand why this has freaked me the fucked out.

I do my best to keep it together because I know there are people with a much worse medical history but I am just broken. I am always in pain. But I'm trying to keep going. I worked to hard to give up and become bed bound, but I know there will come a time when this won't be something I can stop.

I had to get this off my chest as I am sure my partner is sick of hearing it as he's living with it daily while being with me. And I know it upsets my mum, she feels guilty for some reason.

But yeah, that's the update. This is why I go missing but school holidays is when I can come back more often

[maverickcalf]

No really, the fact so many sources from the 80s refer to Charlie Babbitt as some form of autisic and how none of that passed on to the modern day, fascinates me.

Is it because tropes dealing with an autistic person being treated poorly be a non autistic person that spread after this movie that caused people to just assume that's what Rain Man was.

Rather than two brothers who have conflicting needs and who never really got the love from their father that either of deserved?

Were people worried that you can't show autisic people as assholes? Even though Charlie learns how to listen to those around him and grow as a person?

It's very interesting, that's all I am saying atm.