#autistic lloyd

[stanthebluedude]

I saw this shirt on TikTok

Someone show draw Lloykita with it

[silentslxmp]

Autistic! Greenbean AU Headcanons: Stimming edition

HEYAA, so, here I have some stimming headcanons (and probably also do some of this when is anxious) for all of us.

Now, some things you need to know before read:

English it's not my first lenguaje, I'm trying my best but I speak spanish, so if I have something wrong or I less some word conector, please! Let me know

I haven't been diagnosed with autism or any neurodivergence (I've never been to a psychologist or a psychiatrist really) but my friends suspect, many of these things I do myself. In any case, I have been finding out more about the subject, reading and seeing testimonials, even so, if I wrote something wrong or far from reality, let me know! I am interested in learning.

This AU it's a modern AU without powers or something, I have plans and history for this sooo, keep that in mind

-CHEW, LIKE, CHEWS A LOT, he chews the drawstrings of his sweatshirt, the sleeves, his fingers, THE TOWEL, literally ALL

-When he's like 10yo Jay and Nya gif him a chew necklace, probably blocky

-AUDITORY STIMMING, he makes little sounds like a little rat o bird, CLICKS, WHISTLING ORRR repeat some word because it's feel good in his brain

-Stimming with sounds was more frequent when he was a kid, now he makes a lot of masking because he doesn't like the people KNOW about his neurodivergent, he knows it's not something bad and he really can't control that BUT STILL (we can say was Harumi's fault but that's a story for another blog)

-Move his hands, FLAPPING, snapping fingers but they are more common when he has an excess of energy or he is really happy so he needs a way to release that circulating energy. He also jump with flapping and scream when he really excited or talk about something he really likes

-He cracks his fingers, moves his joints, plays with his fingers and with his rotating ring

-The rotating ring was from Kai

-Play with his friends hands, really likes Nya or Kai ones because they have RINGS and blacellete (Cole also have but he prefers rings)

-Shake his legs, his foot, twist his joints and make small movements like swinging AND idk how to call this but my friends call it "taptap de patita" "foot taptap" KSJXJSK

-When his in crisis or overstimulated, he rocking back and forth or just hits and pulls hair

-Tiptoe walking, but also was more frequent when he was a kid, early he learn he can't walk like this because it's weird so more ✨masking✨ know he now it's nothing bad but it's to late for that, so he do it but in really specific moment

BONUSSS:

-Cole made all his friends crochet bracelets, currently Lloyd plays a lot with her but more because of anxiety

Little Greenbean flapping his hands because he's excited

That's all! He really don't do all of that now, It's more in stages. Garmadon and Harumi have an important role. 👁️👁️

Thanks for read (*˙˘˙)♡

[m00nl1ght-sun25]

The burning Fate

Post Seabound/season 15

Warning - Attempted suicide, cursing, past overdosing/drowning (attempt), self harm, implied eating disorder, self gaslighting

Heads up -

 - i hc lloyd as Genderfluid, in this their pronouns will be they/them

- Lloyd and brad are dating (brad is two years older then lloyd- so it’s not illegal or smth and like also lloyd is 17)  also Brad is this kid who was in like season 1 and he went to darklys with Lloyd :)

- i hc Lloyd and autistic, i kinda hint to it in one part (also im not autistic- but i have autistic friends, and if i do smth wrong ever, pls tell me)

- also im not saying if you have any mental disorder or smth your stupid- just ppl think that, when your rlly not-

 - also i have no idea how to comfort- and idk how to write i either- so yea-

Lloyd has been up on top of this building for about an hour. An hour numbly looking down below into the busy street as the darkness surrounds them. Some lights flash into their faces from time to time. But it doesn’t matter to Lloyd, this will be their last few minutes.

Ever since Nya left Lloyd's life has gone back to hell. First of all, Kai and Jay will always be yelling at each other, no matter how loud Lloyd made the music, they could still hear their older brothers yelling at each other. Most of the time it'd just get to the point where it was too much for Lloyd and they just couldn’t hold it anymore and cry, they couldn’t help but get overwhelmed by it all. It’s all their fault though. It’s their fault. They're a horrible leader. Nobody wants a stupid, disabled kid to be their savior.

After nya left the ninja, Lloyd also started to relapse… just like after the sons of garmadon and harumi. They locked themself in their room all the time, never coming out. Not eating, and they would get the extra razor that they have to… hurt themself. They have the scars all over them, not just their wrists. Their thighs, shoulders. Just really anywhere that they can hide it. Where they can hide how hard everything really was for them. They had to  hide, they couldn’t be seen as weak. They’re the green ninja, they’re the one who has to protect everyone.

This isn’t the first time they tried to kill themself.. Lloyd thought as they looked over the edge of the tall building. A month after Nya left them to merge with the ocean, they tried to drown themselves, but Kai tried to find them and stopped them before it was too late. They were forced to stay in the mental hospital for a few weeks, it wasn’t because the ninja thought that they were psycho or anything. Just they tried to kill themselves. When they got to be sent back home, they snuck out one night. No word or anything. And just ran away. So they’ve been living with Brad, Gene, and Sally for about 7 months.

The other time Lloyd tried to end it all was after they moved in with brad. They got a lot of pills and just chugged them all down, it worked. But Sally found them passed out on the floor, and called the ambulance before Lloyd actually died. After they were sent home, Brad kept a close eye on his lover.

Lloyds honestly is kinda embarrassed and disappointed in themselves for failing twice to kill themselves. Well… is it them..? because really, they could’ve done it, but then people keep finding them. They should really try to do it when no one is around or anything. But hey… no one is around right now… just five more simple steps.. and all the pain will be over, they’ll no longer feel the stinging sensation in their arms or thighs after this. Because they’ll be gone. Just like everyone always wanted. For the blonde brat , that was Lloyd Montgomery Garmadon, to be dead.

Funny thing is right now they're not even fully blonde. They dyed their pink with red tips. It makes them think of valentines though, not going to lie. But does it matter? no. Nothing matters. Everything is all useless. All that matters is that in a few seconds, they’ll be free. Free from being the green ninja, free from being the leader and the reason your team fell apart. Free from destiny. Maybe that’s why they’re still alive. Because destiny needs a puppet to pick sticks at, to try to entertain itself. Fuck destiny, man. Fuck it.

Lloyd lets their mind wander as they take one step closer to the edge, one step closer to death.

They think about when they went to The Wailing Alsps, with Clancee. This snake pirate, who was very familiar and lloyd feels like they’ve seen before. And it wasn’t just because of when the whole thing with chen was going on.. some other time… A time Lloyd can’t put their finger on. But anyways When Lloyd and Clancee went to the wailing alsps and almost died, they thought of kai. How Kai was always there for them, and was like the brother and father Lloyd never had. Lloyd is the one who’s leaving, just like last time. But… this is what Kai wanted… The night Lloyd ran away they and Kai got into a fight… Not Jay and kai. But Lloyd and Kai.  It was in the heat of the moment when Kai yelled that he wished he never saved Lloyd from that volcano. Which right after Kai realized what he said to lloyd. But it was too late. The damage was done.

Four more steps…

Three more steps…

Fuck it all. Lloyd thought.  Fuck. Destiny can go find some other blonde bitch to do its bidding.  In Lloyd's last few seconds they just felt rage. The closer they got to the edge the more they got angry.

The last few years their anger has gotten worse. But it gives Lloyd something to think about. It lets Lloyd actually feel something. Sometimes it’s like they're not angry at all, but the next they’re fuming. Like right now.

Like how right now just the thought of Garmadon makes them want to go smash their “fathers” face into a fucking wall. Or Harumi. Definitely Harumi. She messes everything up and then just goes and dies just like that. At least she’s out of their life. even if they can never stop thinking about her… Or the version of Harumi in The Prime Empire game Lloyd and the other ninjas were trapped in.

Lloyd took a deep breath in through the noise and out the mouth.

Taking another step closer.

Two more steps…

One more step…

Lloyd looks all the way down. Heh… So this is it.. The end of the line. Maybe i’ll get to see my real father.

Just as Lloyd took the last step they swore they heard the door slam open to the top of the building… and some yelling..? But all Lloyd could feel now was the air in their face, the wind messing with their hair. And… It stopped…? did they fall that fast to the ground..?

No…no… No! why.. NononoNO!

They feel a hand gripping tightly on the wrist. A familiar voice yelling for them to stay. A sound that is almost like someone sobbing..?

Lloyd hazily looks up to the person who’s stopping them. Only to see Brad, His eyes red and bloodshot, Tears running down his face as he finally manages to pull Lloyd up. Brad falls to the ground and wraps his arms around his partner. Sobbing and hugging them tightly. Lloyd gets some anger inside of them because Brad stopped them. But they can’t help but just stare blankly as Brad sobs that he almost lost lloyd.

“I-I…”

Lloyd tries to get anything out to brad. But they can’t. They just feel numb again, as Brad holds them.

After a few moments Brad gets it under control and wipes at his eyes. He then stands up and tightly holds Lloyd's hand, it doesn’t hurt. But it doesn’t matter. Brad waits for lloyd to stand up before they say

“I… I love you… I’m sorry.. I’m sorry Lloyd.”

Brad doesn’t seem to know what to say at this moment. I mean… What can you say after you find your partner almost killing themselves…? ‘Why?’ ‘What about me?’ ‘Don’t leave?’ ‘People are going to miss you’ ‘I will miss you’ No… None of it seems right… Brad just stays quiet and looks down at Lloyd, love in his eyes.

He hugs Lloyd again tightly and then lets go. Tightly holding Lloyd's hand.

The door to the top was still open from when Brad came running up here to get to Lloyd before it was too late.

Brad closed the door and walked down the stairs with lloyd.

Lloyd just blocked everything out and thought… They were almost free.. Free from it all. But they couldn’t have it. They can’t die apparently. Damn. Destiny really doesn't want Lloyd to die.

Fuck.

[master-jarrus]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The LEGO Ninjago Movie (2017) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Nya/Jay Walker (Ninjago), Cole & Lloyd Garmadon & Kai & Nya & Jay Walker & Zane, Lord Garmadon & Misako (Ninjago), Lloyd Garmadon/Lord Garmadon, Kai/Skylor (Ninjago), Lloyd Garmadon & Misako, Lloyd & OC, lloyd & koko Characters: Lloyd Garmadon, Kai (Ninjago), Cole (Ninjago), Zane (Ninjago), Jay Walker (Ninjago), Nya (Ninjago), Lord Garmadon (Ninjago), Master Chen (Ninjago), Master Chen's Anacondrai Cultists (Ninjago), Koko, Clouse (Ninjago), Elemental Master Characters (Ninjago) Additional Tags: Koko and Misako are different, "and" in the relationship tags is platonic, might play around with more romances, Technically hunger games au, unintentional though, none of the good guys die, Autistic Lloyd Garmadon, Autistic Jay Walker (Ninjago), Kai Has ADHD (Ninjago), Autistic and adhd Nya, Medicated Adhd Cole Summary:

The Tournament of Elements but in the Lego Ninjago Movie universe

Here it is. Hopefully nothing is weirdly formatted from it forcing google open and then it whining about not being on the app.  The prologue is very short but I intend to have longer chapters don’t worry 

Also shout out to GreenAmethyst16 who commented on it before Ao3 even told people I posted it 😂 idk if you are on tumblr but it’s still funny and impressive to me

[yummyangst]

You guys ever think about how guilty Lloyd must've felt after Zane's first death? It was his destiny to destroy the Overlord; HIS, not Zane's, but he ended up being too weak and having to hand the responsibility of it over to his brother, someone who he could think of as a safe space, a role model, one of the only people that probably wasn't all that rude to him when he was a kid compared to Kai or Jay, and it all ended up in him having to watch Zane explode and what remained of him scattered everywhere. He must've felt like Zane's death was his fault. He had to have. I'm not normal about Lloyd tbh

[verybiggerbook]

It’s so funny that people ramble and rave about old hollywood until it comes down to watching a silent film, then they get all “eughhhh it’s boring!” WYM IT’S BORING??? THIS IS WHY HOLLYWOOD IS WHAT IT IS AND YOU SAY IT’S BORING?? Anyways, thank you for coming to my TedTalk😋

[ghostscrown]

I kinda want to write a full meta about the queercoding and trans allegories in Dragons Rising so far, because there's SO MUCH to say about it and I'm in an analyzing mood

[lojdziknindzas]

spot the difference

[cherrybombfangirl]

I see Autistic/ADHD Lloyd headcanons all the time, but none for his parents which is weird because both ADHD and Autism are genetic. So lets fix that, and during Autism Awareness month no less, yay, #RedInstead bitches!

Autistic Garmadon and ADHD Misako Headcanons (for Autism Month!)

Misako hate is not welcome, we don't do that here, you will be blocked. Autistic Misako headcanons are welcome, I love you if you have that headcanon :). I'm autistic and adhd, so a lot of these will be based on my experience, and I'll try to keep it mostly fluff headcanons, featuring a little bit of Lloyd's autism and adhd <3

Autistic Garmadon

He and Lloyd share a lot of the same autistic traits

Like how if you distrupt the routine or there's a change in established plans both of them will start getting anxious and irritated

You don't distrupt the routine! Stick to the schedule damn it-

Or how both of them CANNOT stand bright lights, never turn on the overhead light, lamps and low lights only. and only predictable/controlled loud noises like music is ok, other loud noises bad

Also they both auditory stim ALL the time. Same song on repeat for days until the new favorite comes along, and they have the same taste in music (rock and punk), so while working on stuff or training one on one they'll blast the same song on repeat

Also both of them are hyperempathetic and get emotional very easily. Hence why they're a lot more emotional and open around each other

Also the Pathological Demand Avoidance is VERY STRONG with both of them. tell them to do something and they'll immediately dread and despite that thing and that thing is the last thing they want to do. (i.e. *is about to go do the dishes* "Hey can you do the dishes?" ... "I was about to. Even wanted to. Now I hate them and that's the last thing I want to do. Thanks for that. Fuck you.")

Both of them also have a very hard time unmasking (for different but similar reasons of how their childhood was), and get exhausted and burnt out fast. Luckily being around each other helps them unmask a bit easier

Garmadon loves Mac-n-Cheese, he'd eat just that for the rest of his life if he could. But only Misako's recipe, all other Mac-n-Cheese tastes WRONG (Lloyd also loves Mac-n-Cheese, but only his mom's recipe)

Sometimes he straight up forgets to talk. Like, he doesn't need to, he doesn't like talking to people, and he just... forgets that he has the ability to talk. So sometimes he might go a while without talking, thinking nothing of it. Then he'll vocal stim or use his voice and shock himself a little because oh shit i forgot i have a voice-

He hid it for a while because he thought it was embarrassing, but he has a huge special interest in sharks, and he is the number one shark defender, he could talk about them for hours (his favorite species is the Lemon Shark and Cookiecutter Shark <3).

^After he starts unmasking a bit he starting being a bit more open about it as well, and that year for his birthday Misako gets him a shark onsie. He just about melts, immediately puts it on, and wears it almost every night. (She thinks its adorable)

For a really long time, he thought the things he was experiencing were a side effect of being part dragon/oni, but then Wu told him "I don't experience any of that, sorry." and then he thought it was a side effect of the venom, but then after the Final Battle it was gone AND HE WAS STILL EXPERIENCING ALL THESE TRAITS, so he couldn't figure out wtf was wrong with him

^Misako was like "Idk sounds normal to me *shrug*" (She has ADHD, of course it sounds normal to her XD)

Lloyd knew he was autistic and adhd for a while because of the other ninja, who were also varying neurodivergencies. When he told his parents about it, they both didn't think anything of it because they didn't know it was genetic yet.

Then Garmadon found out it was genetic and was like "No... me? No way... I'm just an anxious introvert, there's no way."

Then he takes like ten different online assessment tests, and is like "Yeah, i knew it, i knew i wasn't autistic, those questions were worded dumb anyway. No I don't have a problem with socks, you see I have a system-"

And then Lloyd (who connected the dots once he found out autism was genetic) was like, "Dad... Dad... that- that is autistic... having a system for socks to avoid having problems with socks, avoiding places with loud noises and bright lights, and prefering to be by yourself or in silence is very autistic..."

Garmadon: "WHAT"

They figured out how to unmask and fuction as their authentic selves together and it's awesome

ADHD Misako

Similarly, she and Lloyd share a lot of ADHD traits

Like fidgeting, A LOT, always needing extra stimulation and needing to fidget. Usually with nail biting or lip chewing, until they learn less self destructive stims

They also hyperfixate in the same way. Both of them will get lost in the hyperfixation for hours, forgetting to eat, drink or sleep. until they try to stand up or someone reminds them. (Lloyd hyperfixates on comics the same way she hyperfixates on archeology)

Both of them have the worst sense of time and object perception. ("Oh yeah that project will only take fifteen minutes" *takes four hours*) (*losing track of important items and forgetting to eat ro drink water all the time*)

Rejection sensitive dysphoria is very strong for both of them, constantly worrying about annoying other people and being a burden, so they're people pleasers a lot and the slightest whiff of rejection sends them into a self hate spiral that can last for days or weeks (It took a very long time for her to get out of the self hate spiral after her and Lloyd meeting for the first time and him blowing up at her, which she thought she deserved for her huge mistake that she deeply regretted. Eventually they talked and Lloyd came to her and said she shouldn't hate herself forever, he wanted her to be his mom, and she could make up for it now. She still gets into that spiral sometimes.)

Also both of them zone out a lot. Sometimes many thoughts. Sometimes zero thoughts. Staring into space (they love car rides for this reason)

Both of them can be very all or nothing in a lot of things. No social interaction or all the social interaction. Doesn't talk at all or can't shut up. Constantly overshooting it.

Also due to the lack of object perception, both of them are kind of terrible at driving. They can't tell how far away the signs are until they're right in front of it, and are always taking turns that are way too big. Over or underestimating distance a lot. (Garmadon is a pretty terrible driver too, he gets overwhelmed easily). (Also Kai and Nya can confirm that teaching Lloyd to drive was a nightmare, Zane had to do it)

Always hyperfixating on something archeology/history related, she's a huge nerd and cycles through ten different topics (she was a weird kid that liked the morbid stuff in history). Usually dinosaurs, she's secretly obsessed with dinosaurs and hyperfixates on them all over again every other week. A lot of the time Garmadon has to remind her to eat or sleep because she'll be lost in hyperfixation for several hours.

Also has a lot of anxiety and has a hard time sitting still, always has to be moving or fidgeting with something in her hands

Similar to Garmadon, she didn't think anything of it when Lloyd told her he had ADHD, and when she found out it was genetic she thought, "No, it couldn't be me, I just have anxiety..."

She was in denial about it for a while, until Lloyd talked to her with Kai and Jay (Also ADHDers).

Kai asked, "Your teachers sent a lot of notes home about you being 'a pleasure to have in class' weren't you?"

Misako: "How the fuck did you know?"

Kai: "That was me before I had to drop out. I was the perfect little teacher's pet. So was Nya."

Misako sat there for a minute having a crisis because everything made sense now but also like no way, really?

She and Garmadon love talking about prehistoric sharks like the Megladon because that's where their interests intersect

^he also gets her dinosaur encyclopedias every year for her birthday and she loves it (they have diagrams of skeletons and fossils and stuff)

[sandytrish008]

Fanart I made of the Party Members from Mother 1 and 2, in order Ness, Paula, Jeff and Poo, Ninten, Ana, Lloyd and Teddy, all of them as anthros 🧢 I have been playing a lot both of them and I plan to make more fanarts about the franchise! (I didn't do the Mother 3 ones either because I haven't played it yet and I haven't gone into the story much, but soon....)

[silentslxmp]

Autistic! Greenbean AU Headcanons: Kid! Lloyd Edition

Now, some things you need to know before read:

English it's not my first lenguaje, I'm trying my best but I speak spanish, so if I have something wrong or I less some word conector, please! Let me know (I use Google Translate in this ocation because I got lazy lol).

I haven't been diagnosed with autism or any neurodivergence (I've never been to a psychologist or a psychiatrist really) but my friends suspect, many of these things I do myself. In any case, I have been finding out more about the subject, reading and seeing testimonials, even so, if I wrote something wrong or far from reality, let me know! I am interested in learning.

This AU it's a modern AU without powers or something, I have plans and history for this sooo, keep that in mind.

WEELLLL, here I am again with more hc and a character sheet :D

Note: I know sensory vest usually don't have turtlenecks, sorry, take that as creative license (?)

I made another list with stimming hc:

- Lives with Wu after Garmadon murders his mother

- He witnessed the case :(

-His dad was probably autistic too jaja

- Probable selective mutism

- Hyperfixation in dragons, ALL dragons

-He has a lot of accumulated energy that he cannot release anywhere but at home

-Tics and spasms when he is stressed/anxious

-The first days after the murder he could not sleep due to the intensity of the tics and spasms

-He actually doesn't remember much of what happened that night, but he knows something bad happened

-He has a rather toxic relationship with Garmadon, he loves him very much because he was the most present father (despite everything Garmadon did) he generated a certain anxious attachment

-In his mind, Garmadon was bitten by an evil snake, turning his father into pure evil, because in his head it does not fit that his father did something bad

-He received therapy 1-2 times before moving in with Wu, but due to Misako's lack of time he couldn't continue (because Garmadon is a capacitist jaja)

- He returned to therapy :D

-He got him a sensory vest because he had a hard time doing anything (especially when Wu is not around or he has to do with being with other people)

-The stuffed animal he has (which is his favorite) was given to him by Garmadon

-He has a stuffed dragon bigger than his in his room, Wu bought it for him the first few days to help him cope with the situation

-Stimming with sounds, but Garmadon found it irritating so he forced himself to stop doing it

-He has a Poly Pocket type box but with a dinosaur theme, so he took out the dinosaurs and put dragons instead

THATS ALL 👁️👁️

If someone have any doubt or question just do it! I'll happy to answer it. ヾ(*'∀`*)ﾉ♡

Thanks to read. ♡︎

[lloydgaymerdyke]

when i tell you i literally feel like the wolf meme whenever i see llorumi hate. its like. the only thing i ever get mad abt

[invaderbb]

Let me save you

This is how crystallized actually went/j

[portrait-of-a-moron]

What’s a ninjago Headcanon you’ll die on a hill about I need to know asap for science (I love peoples headcanons they’re so cute))

Like character, plot thing, anything!?

[ninja-rot]

They're all autistic, your honour!

original alignment chart

I love them sm!!

[juette]

merianto. he doesnt even need to sing to seduce people