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Should I... post character ref sheets...
#I spent so long making them it would be silly to never share them#but also they're not what I'm confident creating soooo#I am still Nervous#ya girl still gets the “but what if it's not good and I'm made fun of for drawing bad” fears#I have worked hard to get good at the art I make#and literal realism is not that art#so they Could Be Better#but I also love my blorbos and want to sharrrrre#I love furry's culture with OCs... it's my culture... BUT THE SHAME!#OCs#original characters
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diagnosed with autism via peer review
#also known as#other autistic ppl politely informing me that my Behaviors and Tendencies are extremely autistic of me#tbh i have suspected for a while that i had something else going on besides just adhd#i just took the cat-q which assesses autistic masking and Oh Boy#ya boi's been hella masking for a Long Time#sort of assumed it was Just The Anxiety and i mean is almost certainly Also The Anxiety#but i keep feeling like i am consistently choosing the wrong dialogue option in conversations w neurotypical ppl#and apparently having dialogue options in the first place counts as scripting 😬#anyway i have a lot of thoughts about it. it's not particularly distressing tbh#i just am nervous about like. referring to myself as An Autistic Person without a formal diagnosis#i am aware of the community stance re: self diagnosis being valid#i am still nervous#can i even use the actuallyautistic tag. is that allowed
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post-canon siffrin design!!!! might change it up more of course but!!!! yeah!!!!
he does HAVE something to represent odile and bonnie too,,, it's not just his partners (romantic & queerplatonic), he's got his family too, i just don't know where to put them yet :) so for now assume he is carrying them in his multitude of pockets!!
#paper craft#isat#in stars and time#siffrin#isat siffrin#isat fanart#isat spoilers#spoilers#yknow!!! jic!!! i mean it's post-canon so not really but i mean...#anyways i'm nervous posting thi one but i wanna try n post my arts anyways so o7!!!!!#it... is to be determined if i'll draw this design a whole lot bc i am anxiety : ) but!! this is a lil design in my hea.d....#also siffrin does wear His bonding earring (the simple star stud) but wear's loop and isa's on his belt bc he doesn't actually like earring#in his ears* BC LIKE... IDK. THE AUTISM. but he likes the symbolism of it all so he'll still keep their bonding earring and have his gay li#stud <3#aaaaalso fun fact his lil without-cloak design is so painfully reminescent of my dnd character;s designs :)#bc i project onto both#and they're both rogues#teehee!!!
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my first attempt at digital art (never again🥲) for mctober💘
Eloise Babbit✨
slytherin
5th year
favorite subjects: arithmancy & ancient runes
least favorite subject: beasts (animals make her nervous🥲)
hobbies: reading & thinking (IT’S A HOBBY OKAY??)
#if u read my fic maybe u know why animals make her nervous🥲#also…if you are the angel who left me an essay comment on my last chapter today just know I love you🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹#when I started posting my fic in January I NEVER EXPECTED PEOPLE TO READ IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!😳 but it makes me so happy#that so many people do🥹🫶 I know it’s a crazy story and doesn’t follow the game at all#so to hear these things and to catch all of the little foreshadowing things I’ve been hinting at this whole time?????????#😳💘#anyways I’m still a digital art disliker (I like seeing it but not making it)#but I wanted to try it out and this is my art documentation blog🫶#im going to be WAY less active these days as well#SO IF I MISS THINGS (WHICH I WILL) PLEASE KNOW I AM SAD I MISSED THEM😔😔😔😔#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#mctober2024#also with mctober I will post drawinfs but nothing elaborate like the amazing ones I’ve already seen#hope you like these anyways🙏💓
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little bit personal but i’ve gone through lots of weight fluctuations in my life and no matter what size i am, summer is always hard for me.
which is why i cannot stop thinking about being ghost’s partner through summer.
we already know that he’s a man of few words, prefers to observe more than anything. so he really doesn’t miss the meticulous way that you plan out your outfits.
shorts have to be a certain length, shirts have to be at least long enough to hit your hips and sleeves long that are up to mid bicep. hell, he’s even seem you choose to wear pants all summer instead of even attempting shorts. too anxious over how you’ll be perceived to let yourself enjoy a nice warm breeze on your legs.
he asks you once if you’re warm, approaching the conversation the best way he knows how, only to have you laugh and tell him that the pants just hold you better. don’t need to give people a reason to comment on your appearance. he nods and you seem happy that he’s happy with your response.
but he’s not. listen, simon’s not really one to jump to defend someone’s ego from being bruised. god knows the team rags on johnny too often for him to pretend otherwise. but this? nah, this is different.
he’s all too familiar with the way bodies react and absorb the shock and trauma of war. has seen soldiers of all shapes, sizes, identities tank hits like no one’s business. there’s absolutely nothing he despises more than for the untrained, ill informed cretins offering opinions on someone else’s body. specially if it’s ever directed at you.
he’ll never say this though. at least not outloud. though, his actions do speak for themselves.
small pats on your hips as he passes by you. wrapping his arm around your lower belly instead of your waist, you try to swat at him but he just pulls you back into him. insisting that he lays on you when you’re stretched on the couch, dropping kisses on your clothed belly while his hands draw patterns on your plush thighs. if he’s feeling cheeky he’ll sink his teeth into them just to get a little squeal out of you.
even in public he doesn’t ease up. pulls you into his lap in front of your friends, knows you love it despite your protests. lounging out on a patch of grass along the walking trail, he pulls you closer to him and has one of your legs draped over his. massaging the fat there as you chatter about nonsense.
idk simon riley just really loves you and loves the body that keeps you alive and feeds your personality.
#.txt#.cod#.ghost#bro what am i on#THIS IS NOT PROOFREAD AT ALL I literally wrote it mid lunch break#im still wfh because of my fractured ankle but#its getting warmer and im getting nervous :)#the only shorts i wore last year were biker shorts#so this year we're def doimg something more#also shout out to all the fat reader truthers#you guys were the ones that got me back into fanfics#anyways#enough of that#simon riley#simon ghost riley#simon ghost x reader#simon ghost x you#simon ghost riley x reader#simon ghost riley x you#simon ghost riley x gender neutral reader#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#simon riley x plus size reader#simon ghost riley x plus size reader#simon riley x fat reader#simon ghost riley x fat reader
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My rendition of @tempo-takoyaki's DTIYS!
Congrats on the milestones! And to everyone else, please go check out their 'Drawing TGCF (except I haven't read the books)' series!
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#svsss#tgcf#wei wuxian#shen qingqiu#xie lian#better drawn mdzs#(Vaguely??? I think SQQ came out handsome enough to put him in my special gallery)#Showing up to submit this less than 3 days before the DTIYS ends is filling me with a bit of anxiety but it is done!#Initially I was going to do a descending level of realism/detail but noses make me nervous still. One day I'll get there.#The irony is that I was planning on drawing something to celebrate tempo finishing season 1 of their series only to find this DTIYS!#*and* it was their birthday recently. I am compelled to lift them into the air and shout their praises.#What a genuinely kind person with an art style I want to bite into like a crunchy apple!!! The *range* is incredible!#Also their xie lian is probably one of my favourite interpretations. So done with everything but not misanthropic.#Remembers everything and lets other's spin in circles with their lies for the sheer chaos of it all. Teases relentlessly. Deeply sad.#Give it a read! They are planning on continuing on so now is a great time to catch up!#Thanks for hosting this fun art challenge Tempo! We all appreciate you deeply B*)#I hope you have a better year in 2024 - you truly deserve the best.
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Jurassic World: Rebirth is set 5 years after the events of Dominion!!
So how old are the campers?
Darius: 23-24
Brooklynn: 24-25
Sammy & Ben: 25-26
Kenji & Yaz: 26-27
#i feel old just looking at this#my babies I need to know where they are in the film!!#i am still nervous for this film but Im tryna be positive#jurassic world chaos theory#chaos theory#camp cretaceous#jwct#jwcc#jurassic world camp cretaceous#jurassic world rebirth
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I forgot to show the finished owl I carved! SO here it is: eagle owl hand carved out of sassafras wood, sealed with linseed oil, tiny bit of posca pen acrylic paint on eyes.
Side and back views:
#owl#whittling#i think he turned out pretty neat but i am still SO GD NERVOUS TO GIVE HIM TO MY FRIEND TONIGHT
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[intro]
Bakugou is a prideful, arrogant person. He holds himself to the highest standard; he is the best and everyone else is simply below him. Everything he has ever done was in pursuit of being number one, shining above the rest. He has to have a perfect victory, he has to be a perfect student, he has to win to save.
He pushes and pushes and won’t let anyone see his weaknesses or his insecurities. He can never lose, he can never fail, he can never show that he regrets or hesitates or that he hasn’t thought everything through. He must never be vulnerable in every sense of the word.
Then why is he standing in the rain.
To apologize shouldn’t be a sacrifice, but it is for Bakugou. To pour his feelings, to admit his wrong, to let down all of the walls he has built and be vulnerable. And in front of his whole class.
He is willing to sacrifice his pride, to fully sacrifice any superiority he could have, to bare his soul and even risk rejection. Because he knows Midoriya is more important. Because he wants him to come home, he wants him to know his true feelings, because he wants things to change.
Because Midoriya has changed him. Midoriya has opened his eyes; by showing him he’s allowed to be open, that his feelings should be expressed, that he has so much to learn, and so much of that was learned through Midoriya just existing.
He isn’t sacrificing his safety frivolously because he’s expected to as a hero; he is doing it because he has grown. He is doing it because he has finally admitted to himself that he wants Midoriya to be with him and safe.
So I will sacrifice this for you. Not because it will change anything, as much as I want that I know that I can’t just fix all the wrong with just this. And I am willing to do as much as it takes to earn your forgiveness. But I don’t need that from you, not now and not ever if you don’t want that, I just need you to rest. I did so much wrong. And I am sorry for everything. You don’t have to do this alone. Lean on us. You are so strong and being supported doesn’t discount that. You’ve taught me that.
I hate the rain. But I will brave it for you.
He would do everything in his power, admit so many things, just to get Midoriya to take care of himself. We see him being the most vulnerable he has ever been in front of people that aren’t Midoriya. He does so much completely out of character, all in pursuit of being there for Midoriya.
For Izuku.
He finally gets over himself and finally tells Midoriya the feelings he has felt for so long.
He lets go of this idea he is inherently better and finally acknowledges that his hatred for Midoriya has always been about his own shortcomings and insecurities. But he still wants to be better, they are still rivals. He isn’t going to sacrifice that part of him because that is just who he is; he is still going to push to number one.
But now it’s different.
There is verbal and vocal acceptance and respect. Before it was unspoken; their relationship had changed ever since Ground Beta. They were proper rivals, with mutual respect and care, they were actively making each other better.
But Bakugo finally verbalizes it and tells Midoriya, not only is he sorry, but he wants to actually have a proper friendship; he wants to continue to become better and earn his forgiveness. He wants them to push each other to be better, he wants to continue to fight for the top spot, he still wants to be the best.
But when did it become something else?
When was the turning point when it started to shift from wanting to surpass Midoriya and be the best, to wanting to keep up with Midoriya and stay by his side?
Bakugou has already sacrificed himself for Midoriya before. His body moved on its own; with no hesitation, he would save Midoriya. He has already risked his life for him. But there is a layer to it that I don’t think people talk about.
He tells Midoriya he shouldn’t try to win this on his own.
He disguises his concern with an insistence that he’s in it to fight for himself when he initially joins the battle. But it is to fight by Midoriya’s side and support him.
But taking the hit for Midoriya, jumping in the way isn’t just support. This is sacrifice. This is giving yourself to ensure the safety of someone. And it was second nature.
There are two reasons and both are a sacrifice of something in the moment.
It is knowing someone is so valuable, so great, in all senses of the word, that they must be protected. Bakugou is sacrificing his body and admitting that Midoriya needs to stay alive, for personal reasons and/or for the world. He needs Midoriya to be okay, Midoriya can’t fight alone and Bakugou will do anything to make sure he will be okay.
But the sacrifice of ideology.
With every development, he has relinquished parts of himself. When he sacrifices himself he is not only sacrificing his body but is admitting that he can’t do this on his own; he needs Midoriya too. This isn’t him wanting to be better than Midoriya, it’s him wanting to do it together.
Midoriya changed him.
He doesn’t die for Midoriya. He wakes up and just as his last thought was Midoriya, so was his first as he woke up. He runs to his side. People are dragging him back, trying to have him rest, knowing before he even said anything that he would lose his mind over Midoriya’s situation.
Everyone sees how Bakugou feels about Midoriya.
He sacrifices himself because Midoriya can not die on him. Midoriya has to stay alive. Midoriya has to keep fighting.
There can not be a world that doesn’t have him in it.
This is the culmination of what has been developing ever since the final exam where Bakugou finally works with Midoriya; the day that win to save, save to win was noticed. Then furthered after Ground Beta where they finally talked to each other and something changed within them both.
But the final sacrifice is the culmination of Bakugou’s character.
He knows what this decision will mean. Everyone screams for him not to. He knows that he is going to die. He knows he will not win this fight.
This isn’t dying for the cause. This isn’t just a hero complex. This is because he can help Midoriya and he will. This is for Izuku.
I will sacrifice myself for you. To give you more time, to give you even the slightest chance of winning. I will sacrifice myself for you because you are who can win. I am going to die. I am going to die and in my final thoughts, I will ask if I will still be able to be by your side.
It is no longer can I beat you. It is no longer can I surpass you. It is can I still catch up to you. It is can I still even be equal to you. He has already sacrificed the idea that he could beat Midoriya, that isn’t what he wants anymore. What he wants is to stay here with him.
I will sacrifice everything I am. I have wanted to be the best. All my life I have wanted to surpass you and everyone around me. But you. I will let that go for you. I let it go in my mind for so long now and I have never wanted to admit it. Is it even possible? Is it even possible for me to catch up to you? Is it even possible for me to stay by your side. I can’t be that anymore. I am sacrificing even that now. I will never be number one now. I will never become the person I always dreamed to be. I will never surpass you. I am forever sacrificing that now. I will die here.
But can I still be with you?
The sacrifice of his life is him fully relinquishing everything he is, admitting that he can’t keep up, losing all of the progress he has made, letting go of everything that made up his character.
And the last thing on his mind is if he can still be able to be by Midoriya’s side.
He won’t let him go again.
#EDITED BC I REALIZED I DIDNT PUT A READ MORE SO IT MUST BE SO OBNOXIOUS#so I finally finished putting in the images and mustered up the courage to post it#I’m always so nervous about posting opinions or anything long bc I get super passionate and I’m scared it’s wrong—#i added pictures as evidence but in reality is was bc i was super insecure that no one would want to read all that--#the intro was so long and was also made to apply to both togachako and bakudeku so i just made it a masterpost instead#this is still very long i am sorry but i have so many thoughts#but like yeah this is just my little essay about sacrifice and love and how they’re intertwined#and it goes both ways#but that’s for another day and another essay#togachako follow the sacrifice and love perfectly#so I will probably write one for them as well… maybe#bkdk#bakudeku#bnha meta#bakudeku meta#bnha analysis#mha analysis#bnha spoilers#<- for the whole manga but cmon if ur reading this you know it all#bakugou katsuki#midoriya izuku
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Getting ready for @breannasfluff Ravioli's week by drawing up some designs for boyos and girlies ✨
#actually fighting for my life internally because i didnt render#i legit am nervous--#like its SO FLAT#BUT THEY STILL ARE PRETTY I HOPE----#really went ham on detais as usual#they all look so fancy#lu ravio#lu legend#lu fable#lu hilda#linked universe#linked universe legend#ravioli ship#art#fanart#illustration#sweeteastart#LU Fanart#Sweet link meet art
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"We lost nine minutes"
#HAHA I AM V NERVOUS TO POST THIS#i spent a really long time on it and there are still parts I don't love but I need to stop messing with it#because i almost just effed it up beyond repair lol#anyway the point is tho that i learned a lot!#Singe has been helping me immensely she's a gem and an excellent teacher#ANYWAY#the x files#fox mulder#dana scully#x files#txf#mulder and scully#fanart#screenshot study#mytardisisart
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oops all rock (springtime edition)
i’ll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime i’ve been scribbling a lot on paper…
could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (don’t do that ever again)
#my art#sos awl#debating whether to just dump my sketches from my soujourn to hell or save them to be transferred and finished as digital stuff#or like both idk. i don’t know how ppl feel about WIPs#i’m happy to post art again ;w; thank you everyone who welcomed me back i’m slowly getting through everything i missed while i was y’know#and thank you for the sweet messages while i was gone i am bbghkjh i need to calm myself and respond !!!! love#rock tumbling (sos)#story of seasons a wonderful life#bokumono#story of seasons#harvest moon#hm awl#harvest moon a wonderful life#bunny sighting 😳 i still have THOSE wips too#there’s certain things i wanna prioritize once i can use my tablet again and those are one of them#but i will also probably post new stuff alongside finishing old unfinished stuff….. i hope that is OK……#idk i’ll have to talk more later! right now i am nervous!!! i love you all!!!!#fanart#awl rock#bokujou monogatari#hm anwl#unfortunately this scum neet still has my entire heart so. most of the notebook is just him pulling goofy faces… sorry……..#also a lot of lumina and nami…. and molly…. they r really cool…#ceci is also cool and i’ve drawn a collage of her that i just. never posted#mostly drawing HMDS related stuff about the descendant characters#OK I’LL STOP TAGBLOGGING#i am once again back in DS for girl hell. i want to make a series of posts about differences in the English vs the Japanese version#and also fun secret things related to DS#this is all in the future i gotta finish all my unfinished stuff…. uuuu….#i love you all mmmmmwah (i cast sleepy time blanket and sleep forever)
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what a silly guy
#✸ ;; doctor's office#my first drawing post on this page EVER . . . sort of just a doodle BUT STILL HTI S IS A BIG DEAL!!!!!!!11!!! geeuelp i am nervous!#bloodborne#bloodborne alfred#alfred hunter of vilebloods#alfred bloodborne#alfred the executioner#bloodborne fanart#my babygirl . . . .//silly#sorry his big ol nose isn't visible from that angle!!!!!! THE HORROR!!! </3 //SILLY
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the thing about grad school is sometimes you read an article for class and the article starts out like "what's the answer to this question?" and somehow transitions into "well, we gathered a lot of information and we still don't know. we should really think about that one" and i kinda fuck with that vibe extremely
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The moment there is a bit of cool weather where I live, all I can think about is rumbelle. I've been thinking alot about Lacey too so here are a few of the sketches I've done :)
#rumbelle#ouat#golden lace#mr. gold#rumplestiltskin#belle ouat#lacey french#lacey x gold#my art#my fanart#digital art#A day of cold weather after all this heat and I'm thrown back to late August/September of 2013#I've just watched OUAT and I am heading to my first year of college and the other first year girls are just as nervous but they're nice#and some watched OUAT and when season 3 started that September we huddled on the couch and watched the episodes as they aired#the cold makes me remember that first year watching OUAT in the dorms with those girls and how cold it could get in winter#after the first year we mostly went separate ways-not for any bad reason just naturally. I have such good memories of those girls though#we celebrated birthdays and holidays together-I still have the shirt of Captain Hook they gifted me#I hope they're happy wherever they are#I found OUAT and Rumbelle when I was discovering myself#those first three seasons hold such nostalgia and magic for me#on another note#Lacey was such an interesting character that I wish they did a little more with#I've been sketching some things out and little doodles about her#like who were her friends? who did she talk to? what are some subtle similarities to Belle but the curse distorted?#I can't imagine having someone look at me but want someone else and other people in town say who you are is wrong/incorrect#I've just been thinking about Lacey bristling at the thought and I remember feeling a little bad that no one really wanted her but Belle#and what about intimacy? perhaps Belle's and Lacey's preferences could be similar but Lacey is more overt about it#anyways just some things I've been thinking about lately :)#I couldn't decide with the golden lace pic if there should be lipstick stains or not so here's both :)#used refs for some posing and hand gestures
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I made these like a year ago for a friend group presentation and I never had the guts to post them until now
#rock afire explosion#beach bear#showbiz pizza#dook larue#rolfe dewolfe#rae#rockafire explosion#billy bob brockali#fatz geronimo#beok#? are we still going with beok for beach bear x dook? idk man#uh context for these were that i was trying to poorly explain the rae characters and their relationships to my friends#they do know beach bear x dook isnt canon but it's funnier#also dook is taller in that kiss meme cause he's easier for me to draw. in my mind beach bear is very tall#also i do have more of these low effort memes if yall want them but for now im just posting my favorites#i lost the originals otherwise i wouldve cleaned them up before posting them. if theyre low quality its cause i had to take these from the#presentation itself :(#rip my original versions of these#i may be cringe but i am free#sorry for rambling btw i get nervous when i make original posts
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