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Can we know more about Winslow? :0
Sure! I was actually supposed to be working on a reference sheet for him for Art Fight, but I’ve been being lazy about it!!! I don’t have many illustrations so I’ll have to just subject you to WORDS WORDS WORDS.
You can have his final concept art though!
Winslow (his first name is Tony, but he won’t tell you that) is a police detective-turned-private investigator. He is a prodigy with a particular eye for detail and reading people that is supernaturally accurate, with the caveat being that he is completely unhinged. He has a knack for taking information, conjuring theories that make no sense, and managing to glean the truth from it somehow.
Despite being good at analysing people, he is atrocious socially and very few people can stand him. He’s intrusive and arrogant and just kind of smugly acts like he’s the smartest person in the room. 90% of the time he has the same stupid grin on his face. Nobody is sure whether or not he is secretly pretending to be stupid so that people let their guard down around him.
He is haunted by the guilt of a mistake he made during his career. Perhaps more literally than he’s aware of.
I have a lot more to say about his backstory and gameplay, but it is A LOT, so I’ll put it behind a readmore!
TW for some mild cartoony eye/body-horror.
Backstory infodumping
Prior to coming to the Constant, he worked alongside his identical twin brother, Tobin Winslow (first name basis encouraged), who was both 1. less intelligent 2. more normal than Winslow, and thus cursed with the Sisyphean punishment of dealing with his eccentricities whilst also being overshadowed by him. The two worked for the police, until Winslow became fascinated with a string of mysterious fires and disappearances that were happening. He decided to investigate them, and began by looking into the affairs of some people who really didn’t like that.
Tobin told him to stop, got ignored, and shortly afterwards went missing one night and was never seen again. In a rare display of wisdom, Winslow declared “well, fuck. big oof” and fled the state before whoever tried to kidnap him realised they got the wrong guy.
In the years since he has developed an irrational fear of the dark and a healthy paranoia that someone wants him dead. Due to reasons that could be summed up with ‘ACAB’ he started working alone as a PI dealing with missing person cases. The guilt surrounding his inability/failure to even attempt to figure out what happened to Tobin ate him up for a very long time until he attracted the attention of A Certain Someone.
That certain someone offered to help him find out who was responsible for Tobin’s disappearance, but, perhaps a little rashly, Winslow declared that he’d rather never know who was to blame – so long as the person responsible was haunted forever by what they had done.
Unfortunately, Tobin had a different idea as to who was ‘responsible’ for his death.
Aaaand here is Tobin! Or rather "what became of Tobin" or "what is left of Tobin after The Incident".
This art is pretty scruffy and unrefined since I wasn't used to drawing him - sorry!
The gist of what happened is that Maxwell atempted to weasel-word his way into taking both brothers into the Constant via the wording of Winslow's deal, except Winslow failed to mention the estranged brother he longed to reunite with was probably dead. So, Tobin ended up getting turned into a ghost and clumsily stapled to Winslow's body as a second, living shadow.
He is decidedly not happy about this, but this ain't about him.
Gameplay infodumping
‘Winslow’ as a playable character is actually both brothers together as a unit, and you swap between them.
Winslow himself is a very basic character with few perks. In a perfect world he’d have weird abilities like seeing enemy hp or not triggering traps.
Being haunted by his brother increases the damage he takes from shadow-sources and makes his sanity drain very quickly in the dark.
He starts with three items:
the Lamping Light, a torch that doubles as a weak weapon that does electric damage, so long as it has fuel.
the Thinking Cap, which reverses negative sanity auras for Winslow, but only keeps other survivors warm.
the Sleuthhound’s Slicker, a coat which protects you from wetness and allows you to move much faster if it is raining.
Winslow can swap to Tobin (and vice versa) via an ability similar to Wortox's Soul Hop, which makes you vanish as one character and reappear as the other.
Tobin is much frailer, but can do some weird things due to being a ghost. He is stronger in the dark and weakened by the light.
His ghost basically takes the form of his shoddily reanimated corpse, which was hacked up and dumped in some lake or river somewhere. As a result of this he’s a sopping wet beast and is always passively gaining wetness.
Winslow’s Thinking Cap and Sleuthhound Slicker actually change appearance and name when Tobin is holding them, and do different things, like stopping the wetness gain or allowing Tobin to function at full strength in the daytime.
I hate characters with items that render their penalties moot, but I like the idea of a character sacrificing armour in a fight to reach their full potential.
Infodumping Infodumping Infodumping
They are kind of the antithesis of Wendy and Abigail hahaha, although that wasn’t intentional.
Winslow being the more headstrong and confident twin, while Tobin was more reserved and cautious.
Tobin is now essentially soul-bound to Winslow the same way Abigail is bound to her flower, so he manifests through him and can’t leave. Due to the wording of the deal that brought Tobin back, Winslow’s incapable of realising Tobin is even there, so he kind of walks around with a second disjointed shadow leering at him ominously that he can’t see. (He gets asked about it pretty much every time he meets a new person, and thus has concluded that everyone in the Constant must be insane.)
Tobin has something of a vendetta against Winslow, but is a surprisingly normal and reasonable guy who doesn’t want to bother the other Survivors. He doesn’t cause much trouble - Winslow himself regularly gets up to worse! Most people do avoid him though, due to him being a weird dripping dribbly ghost with a weeping hole in his head.
He's still pretty cute though.
It’s different in their mod, but in-universe, Winslow tends to inadvertently swap places with Tobin whenever he is startled or faced with danger. So Tobin tends to take a bullet for him more often than not. It’s fine; he’s taken a bullet for him before!
I'm sorry this turned into more about Winslow and his brother and not just Winslow, but it's hard to talk about one without the other!
By the by, if it wasn't already opressively obvious by the gigantic wall of text: I love talking about my characters, so feel free to poke me about them - even if it's something minor.
#dont starve oc#dst oc#my ocs#tane t doodles#tane t art#tony winslow#tobin winslow#asks#i am sorry i talked for so long#i love this guy (plural)#tw mild body horror#tw mild eye horror
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Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,
#sorry it’s how my brain works (sometimes can only see things in terms of tv scene-)#tumblr exclusive video fancy…#dcmk#my art#(quietly coughing and spluttering) OK alright I can feel the creative brain explosion slowing down. geez#coughs.#nyways. weird that there hasn’t really been a main case where poison is involved in a certain way#If I watch my own scribbled boards for too long im gonna get too embarrassed to post. Send post#Subarus hair is still infuriating by the way like take that off your normal hair is easier. The beanie is easier#you like Have to have the side corners on this haircut or it doesn’t look right#anyways. shiho ptsd moments I think she kind of gets irritated that shinichi doesn’t react the same so when he does she gets like#weirded out and vindicated and a little protective. Like woah wait. Love that you understand me rn don’t like that you feel bad I am going…#to…………. ssssssssssit here about it…………………………….. uhhhh. do you want. a rubix cube to get your mind off it#I don’t want to talk about my feelings I just want you to get it. you don’t wanna talk about your feelings either which is……………. Hmmmmmm#I like her. love of my life miyano shiho#masumi sera#conan edogawa#ai haibara#akai shuichi#let conan swear. HE SWEARS A LOT BUT LET HIM SWEAR IN ENGLISH I KNOW HE KNOWS THEM#man needs his emotional support akai family they like him#rigorous trials to being approved by the akai matriarch but everyone else likes him already and have already picked him up multiple times#and shuichi would let him swear
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...okay, one more, because Epel's white rabbit outfit is SENDING me. everyone in this event looks like a decadent little pastry and I want to eat them all.
(credit: lace stock)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#white rabbit festival#for the record i left off some of the bows#canonically he is even fancier#deuce might be the ssr but epel is the frilly little cupcake#genuinely have not been this excited for an event in a while#and that's not a knock on other events i am just SO excited for froufrou bunny frocks#chances are good they're just going to walk around for three hours and talk about. like. the gross national income or whatever#but as long as they do it while dressed like cakes i am happy#sorry if this looks bad photoshop decided to explode and corrupt my files and i lost over an hour of work on it#so i refuse to look at it any more#posting purely to spite photoshop at this point
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*through my tears* wh-what if..Sonic’s first word *sobs* was Tails’ name *passes out*
#I am holding them so gently#babies#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#tails the fox#tails#Miles Tails Prower#Miles Prower#long post#sorry bout that#art#fan art#comic#an 11 yr old being taught to talk by a 4 yr old#yeah that checks out#my art
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First off, I love ur art so much. Ur style is so amazing and the stories u come up with are so fun (or sad) and I think they're incredible.
Second, Law and Luffy at the pool headcanon bc it's over 100 degrees where I am rn. Luffy cannonballs in before they even set up their chairs and Law just stares at him. He refuses to get in, so Luffy has to surprise him and push him in. He's mad, but then Luffy laughs and all is forgiven because he is the sucker for Luffy's laugh/smile.
Ahhh hello!! Tysm for the kind words! 😭❤️ funny story it is ALSO 100 degrees where I am and I have spent today recovering from dehydration and heat exhaustion 🫠🫠
#I had heat stroke like 2 yrs ago and since then am such a weenie in the heat#and yesterday I went to the zoo w my friends and it was Too Hot and I ended up ignoring feeling bad for too long#and ended up right on the edge between heat exhaustion and heat stroke#but my wife is awesome and saved me and I didn’t even puke 😎#I did have to leave my long weekend trip w my friends early tho#which really sux#ANYWAY HI HELLO SATURN!!#we’ve been mutuals as long as I can remember having this account#so I have that weird thing where I’m like yea ofc I have talked to them before!!#but perhaps I have not I am sorry#just know I have always loved ur url#okay okay tags sorry u just came in with something v close to home today 😂😂#my art#one piece#lawlu#lulaw#law x luffy#luffy x law#trafalgar law#one piece law#trafalgardwaterlaw#monkey d luffy
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X-MEN: DAYS OF THE FUTURE PAST (2014)
#they should invent an iteration of cherik that doesn't make me want to kill myself#mine*#cherik#x-men#xmenedit#gifset#filmedit#erik lehnsherr#charles xavier#otp: i want you by my side#they never talk about this again btw#guys be honest do u think it blew up in their faces in genosha (it totally did. it 100% did)#i think its important to note that in most of the movies (esp. the prequels) erik is always very intently staring at charles without#blinking. and that the one avoiding eye contact or not being able to hold it for too long it's charles#charles does avoid erik's eyes a lot especially in dofp#while erik is always the one doing the intense staring into charles' soul thing BUUUT in this scene#you can see erik breaking eye contact for a brief second when he says 'for what happened. i truly am'#you don't get it he's so sad!! HE'S SO SORRY!!!! and yet he can't bring himself to look at charles in the eye because he gets too emotional#and also the second erik says 'for what happened' charles breaks eye contact too#they are hurting so bad and they can't look at each other in the eyes without getting emotional.................. i'm so normal about them
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Would love to hear more about what you dislike in Arcane?
Not to be rude everyone can have their own interpretation but just curious because I felt the majority of the women were treaty well by the narrative.
it's about the focus of the narrative as a whole. in season 1 we were primed for a story centered entirely around vi and jinx and their relationship. for the first two episodes in there entirety, jayce doesn't exist beyond one background line--we don't even see his FACE. he and viktor are, in season 1, essentially set dressing. they exist to explain the magic system of the world and the class struggle that exists within it, and while they may have had their own secondary narrative it was SECONDARY to the MAIN CHARACTERS OF THE SHOW, jinx and vi. (and to a lesser extent cait and mel.) by season 2, though, jinx and vi are afterthoughts in their own story. they become the secondary narrative to jayce and viktor's insane magical cult thing. the final episode dedicates about 5 minutes total to the two of them and ends with jinx implicitly dying off-screen. can you see how insane of a writing choice that is. to spend a full 10-episode season setting up the central relationship between two female characters and then dedicating MAYBE 5 minutes to resolving it by KILLING ONE OF THEM in the last 10 minutes of the very last episode of your show. not to mention mel, who by the end of the series functions basically purely as a deus ex machina and whose growth as a mage happens entirely off-screen while her own mother exists purely to be a villain in jayce and viktor's story. it's just so abundantly clear to me that the writers decided that what they'd written jinx and vi into was going to be really complicated to resolve, and so rather than taking the time to make an interesting resolution out of it they threw it out and poured all their energy into their male faves. what we're left with is a story that doesn't feel FINISHED, let alone cohesive, because the writers literally threw out the buildup of season one in favor of their male side characters.
#like yeah the female characters were 'treated well by the narrative' in terms of like. being big strong fighters ig???#the problem is that by season 2 they all became the fucking backdrop for viktor's crisis of faith#i've been talking to my sister a lot about this lately. i really don't think nonlesbians can understand how exhausting it is#to not give a single solitary fuck about male characters. because EVERYTHING centers men. literally everything#you can only pretend male characters are lesbians for so long.#not to mention HAVING SEX IN A PRISON CELL IS NOT A SATISFYING RESOLUTION TO THE CAITVI NARRATIVE???#like yeah ok animated lesbian sex. that was awesome. where's the rest of their fucking story#anyway. sorry. if i sound angry it's because i am#asks
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thinking about gohan and vegeta and how their bond is underrated
the difference in their reactions to each other 😭
Gohan being the first one to step between Vegeta and Certain Death, twice, without an ounce of hesitation, and Vegeta saving him back despite his feelings about battle intervention.
Vegeta knowing Gohan's the best of all of them
Vegeta and Gohan both born prodigies assigned an unfair amount of responsibility to be Great and be a Saiyan Messiah(tm) way too young by a stubborn and proud if not (relatively) well-meaning father who didn't see any other option and I just think Gohan doesn't get enough credit as like. The first serious muscle behind Geets' personal growth.
#Gohan the best boy 🥲#We love a LAD#this has been in my drafts for so long because idk how much I want to spam dbz on my dash but aLSO I AM SEEING GOHAN LOVE AND I LOVE GOHAN#AND AS A VEGETA FAN I MUST CONTRIBUTE TO THE GOHAN LOVE I LOVE THAT PURE-HEARTED BABY BOY#goku gets a lot of credit for geets growth but he was an anchor and a goal post -- which are important things to have!!#but lbffr gohan trunks and bulma are the ones who did ALL the heavy lifting and ALL the emotional labor until Vegeta could do it himself#'but goku was a great influence!' sure. but not as great an influence as gohan. Goku's a sweetheart but he's inconsiderate in so many ways#Gohan was the example. Gohan mentored the Trunks that shifted Vegeta's priorities. Gohan saved Vegeta's life without hesitation.#Gohan is the first person to genuinely say 'thank you' to Vegeta and Gohan is the first person that Vegeta genuinely says 'i'm sorry' to#Give Gohan his Goddamn Credit when we talk about the people responsible for Vegeta's growth!! He did SO MUCH!!
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Go for a drive with me until we end up sitting in a parking lot and talking for hours
#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#idk if i’ve professed it here but i LOVE parking lot talks😤#all my fav conversations have happened in parking lots#like lets drive and sit and talk and hold hands and i’ll fall SO in love SO fast#im gay and i like sleeping#hehe you may think im online rn but this is actually another scheduled post >:)#ive been so busy lately and the sleep hasn’t been sleeping (rude)#so im actually probably asleep rn >:)#and yet you see the post anyway >:)#you could see this post and immediately nap after it goes up#and then we’d basically be sharing a long distance joint nap😤#nap buddies separated by space but not time#doomed to have beautiful sleep but never together#😔😔#okay sorry done being obnoxious and going to sleep now😤#which for you is the PAST#because i am bamboozling all of you so HARD by scheduling this😤
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#sbs#this is going to be entirely unrelated to the sbs above here bc i havent seen reservoir dogs#but i feel like i havent done a little tag life update in a minute#as of time of queuing this the season has been going for about a week#work hasnt been too bad we're normally done closing by like 3:45 but we still have to wait for the bus#which doesnt leave until almost 5 which. i get it.#like the lifties dont get done til after 4 and same with retail and such#bc rentals arent due until 4:15 so they have to stay open for at least that long#but man its not fun just chilling in the lodge for over an hour until the busses start loading#but the work is fine i'm enjoying it enough#hopefully by the time this posts i'll have been able to start taking my ski lessons which i'm super excited for#i want to learn to ski so so bad#also!! i managed to befriend one of the ski instructors on accident#he's from the same area i am as well so we talked a lot about that lol#but he's sweet i like talking to him#i made a comment about how my brother was getting so old bc he turns 18 in june and he went#so what does that make me#sorry but you are 21 you are baby to me (a whole 24 years old)#the difference is i've known my brother for his whole life and you for all of like. three days#but yeah that's mod's life so far its been chill#but man i get winded just climbing the stairs up to the lodge every morning#tbf we are at like. 11000 feet above sea level so like#the air is suuuuuuuuper thin#also we're right along the continental divide too#its beautiful 10/10 would recommend#also editing this on 11/21 to add the steve buschemi screengrab
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snow leopard! satoru taking care of reader when they're sick !!!!
🥺🥺🥺🥺OH NONNIEEE HE'D BE SOO SO WORRIEDDD!!!!!!!! he knows you're gonna be sick before you do btw!!!! he picks up that your body temperature has risen and he can feel you shivering and he can hear you sniffling during the night and he gets so upset wahh:(((( poor baby:(((((( he gently wakes you up and brings you some water and meds and then he helps you change your shirt if needed. aaand then he pulls you into his chest, purring quietly as he tries to lull you back to sleep. he's gently patting your head and stroking your back, and his tail is just trailing over your legs too - he's pulling out all the stops to help you get some rest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and ofc when you wake up again he's already there, sitting at the end of the bed with his head cocked to the side. he's got you some tea and some meds and he will personally hold the cup to your lips bc he doesn't want you to move a muscle. you're his baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if there's any need for a bath, he'll do that too. i think i said it somewhere before that he doesn't actually have anything against water so it's all fine with him; he washes your hair for you and scrubs your body while nuzzling his nose into the side of your face. snow leopard!gojo is so big on physical touch like more so even than non-hybrid him so he has to be glued to you at all times. he doesn't care if you try to push him away bc idk what if he manages to catch the flu too, he'll still be there.
iiif it's like a period cramps kind of sick or just any sort of stomach thing i suppose his favourite thing to do is to knead your tummy!!!!!! he knows exactly how much pressure to apply and his hands are always so so warm too it feels so fucking good and it helps so much too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he often just lays his head on your belly too (that's more just bc he wants to though i think..)
#MY BABYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#OH HOW I'VE MISSED TALKING ABOUT HIM WAHHHHHH#HE LOVES YOU SM THOUGH OMFG#HE NEVER LEAVES UR SIDE HE'S GONNA BE THERE EVEN WHEN YOU JUST GO TO TAKE A PISS#CUTIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE#the purring to lull you to sleep actually kinda broke me damn why did i do that to myself.............#lmao#ANYWAY NONNIE MY ANGEL I AM SO SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT#I AM HERE NOWWWWW#HE LOVES YOU AND I LOVE YOU MWAH MWAH MWAH!!!!!!#friends!!#snow leopard!gojo#mickey is daydreaming#cw hybrids#gojo fluff
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thoughts on how the sam & dean part of the fight before sam left for stanford went !
i am addicted to thinking about precanon so thank you for this <33
i think people r generally way too optimistic about how that initial seperation between them went. dean is awful to sam about stanford even years after he left and years after he came back!! hes still very visibly angry about it in s5 which is NINE YEARS after he left in the first place and refuses to even tolerate the idea it was a good moment for sam. i cannot comprehend how people think 22 year old dean had the emotional maturity to even let sam go without a fight, nevermind be supportive about it.
like. theres this amazinggg art on here of sam hitchhiking to stanford and all the comments are like 'erm that black eye would be from JOHN actually!' (side note but it is so funny to me how spn fans decide john hit them based on implication (which i agree w... to an extent...) but dean hitting sam onscreen multiple times somehow translates to 'DEAN WOULD NEVER DO THAT'. erm. okay.) 'nooo dean would've given sam a lift!'
and like. what show are you watching. if dean would've given sam a lift he would've done it to the bus station in moody silence and then locked the doors of the impala so sam couldn't get out to catch his bus to stanford and they would've started physically fighting for the car keys and dean eventually wouldve let sam get them and sam wouldve left. or something. but it would not be some sweet brotherly moment bc that directly contradicts canon <3
i do think the worst of the fight is between sam & john - that's always what's implied in canon - and in my head dean's just standing there stonefaced maybe refusing to even talk to sam until theyre left alone somehow and he breaks. but i also think dean hits sam at some point, will always have the image in my head of sam showing up to stanford w a bloody nose and fending off questions. (internally hes like no my dad didnt do this it was my brother so its fine. <3.) theres a scene like this in one of my fics so im just drawing from that. but. like....
idk how dean/john finds out. if dean found out before john, i think dean probably wouldve run to him about it in an attempt to get sam Not To Go as much as it would be nice if he didnt, so i reckon they have to find out at about the same time. i think sam is unsure what to expect from dean, who of course (as far as we see both in flashbacks and in canon) alternates between genuine care and support and angry, desperate possessiveness. he probably hopes for the best and expects the worst and gets the worst.
there r definitely lots of different ways it could go....maybe sam tells dean and dean tells john. maybe sam tells john without telling dean at all and thats how dean finds out which totally wrecks him. maybe sam tells them both at the same time. maybe sam never tells them and they find the acceptance letter. this is why stanford fight is sooo fascinating. i feel like i could write five different versions of it and all would be possible/interesting.
but whichever way, i just dont see dean as contradicting john. he generally Doesnt Ever precanon, this is established, he admits it himself, thats why its such a huge moment when he defends sam at the end of s1.....sam going on about dean 'protecting him' is 1. more subtle and probably to do with dean being the one to shoulder most of johns emotional baggage than the heller misinterpretation of 'john hit dean but not sam and thats what this means!!!' (tho i am sure dean did genuinely Protect sam sometimes including from physical violence. of course he did. this isnt to discredit that..i just emphasise the Sometimes.). and 2. partially just classic Sam Rewriting History (u always protected me from dad, from lucifer....girl he did those things very little certainly not always. know your worth sam winchester).
so if dean gives sam a very angry lift (to a nearby bus station...there is absolutely zero fucking way hes driving him to stanford and tbh i already find this quite unlikely but possibilities r interesting) its on john's say-so or at least not disapproval. which like. sure maybe. john certainly is concerned about sam's safety even after he kicks him out, checking up on him at stanford etc, id believe that hed want to ensure sam Gets there even if the fight ended up so bad he told sam he couldnt come back. tho hes stubborn and i dont think hed say it. so maybe itd be a case of dean kind of picking up that that's what john wants and complying even though right now half of him wants to never see sam again and the other half wants to tie him to the radiator so he can never leave. sorry i am literally brainstorming fic ideas in this ask answer now.
anyway....SORRY id say long ass answer as always but this is actually INSANELY long......sorry guys im about to embark upon getting tested for adhd and maybe then my rambles will be, while not shorter in length, more cohesive? tldr fandom is wrong dean is an absolute ASS during stanford fight. obviously sam leaving devastates him and how does dean cope with devastation or perceived abandonment do we think?? hm?? he is just as angry as john for the same and different reasons. and thats really so much more interesting than him being Secretly Supportive. <3
#SORRY SORRY OH MY GOD. THIS IS SO LONG.#normally id end up writing half of this in tags but this time ive said like everything in actual body of the post. who am i#spn#sam winchester#dean winchester#stanford era#would you rather#supernatural#oliver talks#loaded gun#second child#john winchester#sam & dean#sam & john#dean & john#woah lot of tags on this one.............#inspo#thank you theo my most beloved mutual <33
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let it be known that i love prince inigo with my whole soul. however sometimes it is SO much fun to think about owain and his two most loyal-est knights you ever seen: worst guy in the world #1 and worst guy in the world #2. i love retainer inigo and severa so much. retainers who bully you and make fun of you and trash on you but they’d leave behind everyone and everything they ever knew to follow you and protect you in a whole new universe. they love you so much that they’d swear allegiance to total strangers but that loyalty pales in comparison to what they’d do for you. and they were all lovers!!!!!!!
#ann plays awakening#awakening trio#sometimes i forget owain is literal royalty and like#in the bad timeline hes probably like. the second most important person there?? unless luci has a sibling#obviously she’d need her own retainers but unfortunately i am thimking awakening trio thoughts. i miss. i love them in any form#that they are handed to me#i love them as best friends. as forced circumstance allies to family. as lovers.#i know i said lovers in this post but im not sure they’d ever label it as that#to me its very much ‘its not exactly romantic but its too intense to be platonic’#what i am getting at is queer platonic awakening trio btw. in case that wasnt obvious#like no matter who they are or where they go they are eachothers people dude. like literally do not separate#anyways im gonna be thinking long and hard about who should be everyones parents in this timeline#i have what i call my ‘main’ pairings and thats what i use for most of my headcanons (ex prince inigo)#but i’d like a completely separate one for owain retainer trio#i think im pretty set on fred!severa#i couuuldddd pick fred!inigo which i do think is SUPER compelling as well but something about freddy!severa… also shes so cute as a brunette#like sorry… shes just so beautiful#ive been having a lot of thoughts aboht tharj!inigo and i need to figure out if thats current bias talking or if im cooking with that one#i got no idea who owain’s second parent should be. robin maybe? idk#i mean his second parent isnt quite as impactful in regards to trio dynamics in this case just because he’s always the prince but. idk#i really like the idea of half plegian owain but i ALWAYS run half plegian owain cuz im always pairing lissa with robin or henry so its like#this isnt new 😭😭😭 but god. PLEGIAN OWAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hm. though. hear me out. manakete owain???????????????? ehhh????#sorry. idk. i love how changing the parents of the second gen can change their characterization. its like my favorite thing ever#i think its why im so attached to all of them. theres always new things to explore with them!!! its so much fun!!!!!!#graaarfggjjjhhhhhhn!!!!
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just watched bottoms! it was a relatively small theater, but still, i don't think i've been in such a filled, interactive crowd since covid. people were CACKLING, and it was clear everyone was having fun with their friends they had come with. the movie was So camp, So hilarious, So fucking incredible.
when it's available to you, GO SUPPORT IT!!! queer cinema is ever-evolving, and supporting history-makers like this film is so awesome
#i am so sorry if it is not in your country i hope u can see it soon <3#my homie and i had LONG happy debrief after watching it bc there was so much brilliance to talk about#truly astoundingly funny#bottoms 2023#bottoms movie#queer movies#sapphic movies#oliver's ramblings
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Regarding #EndOTWRacism’s summaries of 2023 OTW Board election candidate positions
Before I begin, let me say now that while I am a volunteer with the OTW, my views are personal and should not be taken as any kind of official statement from the org, its leadership, or other volunteers, especially not the candidates in question. My focus here is on the Asian candidates for obvious reasons, but this post is not meant as endorsement or disavowal of any of the candidates, whose bios and platforms can all be read here.
Do not take this as an excuse harass the mods running EOTWR. I cannot make myself clearer.
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I am making this post to express my extreme disappointment with End OTW Racism’s post purporting to summarize the platforms of the candidates for the upcoming Board elections. It is no longer rebloggable, but can be read here.
The way that the candidates with Asian names were spoken of is deeply insulting when compared with how candidates with English-language names were discussed. Asian candidates had their platforms misrepresented, their expertise downplayed, and their lived experiences reduced down to “bringing an international presence” to the board, which was then further caveated with, “diversity alone is not going to solve the issue of racist harassment currently allowed in the OTW’s policies and enforcement practice”. While it is true that diversity alone is not a solution, it’s pretty offensive to essentially have “remember! Just because they aren’t white doesn’t mean you should vote for them!” tacked on to one of the Asian candidates’ platforms.
End OTW Racism seems more concerned with whether or not candidates used the buzzwords they wanted to hear rather than with how racism is discussed holistically within the statements. While I can appreciate that EOTWR has a specific agenda, to say things like, “[s]he does not mention racism, racist harassment, or hiring a DEI consultant in her platform, so outside the outreach and support she mentions, there is not enough for us to conclude that these would be priorities for her” regarding Zixin Z.’s position, directly following the statement, “[s]he also mentions the need for outreach towards non-English-speaking fans and has a desire to provide support to volunteers from minority groups” is fucking laughable, especially after the initial mistake of stating that Zixin Z. only wanted to do more outreach to Chinese-speaking fans. Again, I understand that people make mistakes and that this mistake has since been corrected, but I hope it prompts some reflection on the sort of biases that would lead to such a mistake in the first place. It may have been completely innocuous, but in charged discussions about racism, please understand that it gives an impression that is difficult to shake. I do thank you for not trying to hide that this happened.
Why is Anh P.’s lack of discussion on TOS/PAC a point against her, while Zixin Z.’s years of experience on PAC, her role as a mod on Weibo, and her background in nonprofits don’t even warrant a mention? For that matter, why did none of the Asian candidates’ skills or experience warrant mention? Qiao C. and Zixin Z. have both been volunteers with the organization for several years now, and Anh P. has years of moderation and volunteer experience elsewhere prior to her work with the OTW.
It is so fucking frustrating that despite each one of these candidates specifically talking about the need for diverse voices, they had their platforms essentially passed over because they didn’t use the right words, and it is particularly fucking aggravating to see that EOTWR will use Chinese issues as props when trying to press OTW leadership on the racism that occurs within the org, but then completely fail to connect the dots on why these candidates are running because the wrong language was used. Zixin Z. is one of the Weibo mods, for fuck’s sake.
The entire post feels like an exercise in virtue signalling, from every time it was brought up that a candidate did not provide pronouns in their platform statements, despite every one of them having pronouns provided in their bios (why mention this detail at all? You could have simply used the pronouns), to what felt like willful obliviousness to the anti-racism stances in the Asian candidates’ platforms. It feels like the concern starts and ends with racism in Anglophone terms, on Anglophone terms.
I can respect the driving ideas behind EOTWR, even if I disagree with the way that EOTWR pursues their goals. I do believe that we want the same things in the end, and therefore chose not to interact with the many posts I have seen about the protest. However, I saw the summary post and could not let it pass without speaking.
For a protest group supposedly dedicated to ending racism in the OTW, this felt incredibly hypocritical, conscious bias or not. In my most charitable frame of mind, I can see this as misjudging and overcorrecting to ensure that there was no favoritism shown to the obvious non-white candidates lest EOTWR be accused of tokenizing– again, it is true, that diversity in and of itself is not a solution to racism.
In my least charitable and most bitter frame of mind, I feel inclined to wonder if EOTWR, much like the OTW itself, is uncomfortable with the lack of influence they could exude over an international candidate. It would be much, much easier to push their agenda forward with more culturally familiar candidates, particularly white ones. Guilt and public scrutiny are powerful weapons and easy to wield against those with perceived privilege in our current atmosphere, often to the detriment of the actual discussion at hand in my experience. I know that’s cynical. It’s hard not to be. (For clarity's sake: I do not know the other candidates' races. This is a hypothetical.)
This isn’t a demand for an apology. I think we fetishize the capital-A Apology to the point where I find them sort of meaningless unless they are given freely. I don’t need EOTWR to agree with me, and I don’t really want to keep talking about it. Rather, I would prefer that EOTWR take action to do better as they continue in their campaign. What that action is is their decision. If they truly mean to stand against racism in the OTW, then I’d like them to demonstrate it.
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DO NOT HARASS EOTWR MODS. I AM FUCKING SERIOUS ABOUT THIS.
#endotwracism#votetoendotwracism#organization for transformative works#otw#ao3#archive of our own#fandom#otw board#otw elections#discourse#racism#end otw racism#i'm so so sorry everyone#but i'm upset i really am.#mine#mymeta#i guess.#i mean it i don't really want to talk more about it okay. i will probably mute this post#even if i reblog it a few times#long post#statistically average
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///ARCANE s2 finale SPOILERS ///
LONG POST
SO. THAT VIKTOR ARCANE LEAGUEOFLEGENDS GUY HUH.
some observations that are my personal opinion and/or interpretation of viktor's transformation and physical state. (my screenshots, idc if u repost them or whatever just don't say they're yours, etc)
minor edit: added a sentence i could've sworn i'd written that i hadn't and so my paragraph made no sense lol
love love love the aspects of body horror and character design going on with viktor's post-sourdough-starter cyborg body here, so i was trying to get a better look at it to maybe sort of figure out how his body was transformed, and what it's made of now (metal, magic, a third secret thing, idk)
so it looks like, in general, his skeletal structure and the metal parts in his back brace and his leg brace were fused together and then fused *into* his musculoskeletal structure, not just sort of copied by the hexcore. You can see here he has actual bolts in his spine before he got robot-ified, and to me it seems like this could have been a way for his brace to hook or snap onto his spine more securely to give him extra support.
I think the circles in the middle of the brace over his sternum might have also snapped into bolts in his chest, and you can see them better here
the cloth and leather parts of the brace have either dissolved or been turned into metal.
--I just want to take a side note here to note what im sure other ppl have mentioned but I haven't seen talked much about at least recently, is that viktor's disability wasn't just his mobility issues and bad respiratory health, that he must have been in terrible pain to have a procedure as extreme as bolts being put into his spine and/or chest deemed necessary / beneficial to his quality of life.
In the scene where he tries to destroy the hexcore, he can barely push himself up, and it takes all of his strength to lift a stool over his head that's only a few pounds :(
He later asks jayce to destroy the hexcore because he can't, and ive seen most people interpret that as him not wanting to destroy his life's work, but i always viewed it as him not physically being able to--the hexcore was too strong, and it snapped out at him and knocked him over just at the threat of him destroying it.
That circles over to another thing i thought was interesting, is that when he comes out of the goop he still seems very weak and unstable, even though he now has his back brace and leg brace fused to his skeleton. He still has to use his crutch to walk toward jayce and make effort to straighten his legs, because they're still twisted. It makes me wonder if the hexcore didn't so much heal him as dull his sense of pain so he couldn't feel it, and its energy forced him to move.
That's something i thought was interesting, and it made me think of his line about not feeling cold--he then says he feels something that is exactly how I'd describe coldness to somebody who's never felt it before, it just seems like now, his nervous system doesn't process it in the same way as he used to recognize the sensation of coldness. Interestingly, he still describes it as "unpleasant"
back to the design of viktor's body: what exactly is it made of? Here's where the body horror aspect of it comes in, because i think there's a possibility that's still mostly his body and what we're seeing here is exposed, preserved muscle fiber, because the hexcore either burned or melted off his skin or it literally rotted away while he was in the goop. There's a few artsy little flourishes from the hexcore magic peeking through, but except for the slightly darker color, it looks eerily like how muscle fiber on preserved cadavers looks, down to the way the little filamenty veins are. Granted it could just be a metallic structure the hexcore created, visually mimicking human muscle structure. Or the sourdough starter could have been something super gross like magic sentient cosmic energy formaldehyde--that also makes sense to me because of how when his hair grew out some of the tips had lost color, like they'd been bleached.
anyway the visual aspect of his resurrected hexcore appearance that makes me think of a reanimated cadaver most was how strange and unsettling i found it that he's completely gray and glowing with purple sparks, is that for some reason he's still got a bellybutton and almost a normal skin-like surace to that part of his stomach.
On the other hand, his hip socket and the rest of his pelvis is bony and skeletal. You can kind of see his pelvis not being attached with muscle fiber to his hip socket in that lower corner, it looks the same atp as when he's in his cosmic form.
the jokes about "jayce hugged him with his whole ______ out!!!!" just make me sad bc obviously any extraneous soft tissue was completely obliterated, (I say obviously but idk how many ppl literally believe they were censoring human body parts here.)
Like, he doesn't even have fingernails anymore. The only reason he has a stomach still is because abdominal muscles are a skeletal support structure.
That gives the he heebie jeebies so good, honestly, and what an fascinating choice by the design team instead of giving him idk, age of ultron steel robot shaped abs, which i've seen a lot in like human--robot transformations, he's this horrifying mix of petrified/preserved cadaver tissue, magic metal, and sentient cosmic energy. (Even more tragic and sad if you think about it that way and that jayce might have been hugging his dead friend's preserved, skinned corpse)
the "reanimated corpse" idea fits into the interpretation that viktor's emotions and thoughts are still his, but they've been very dulled by the power of the hexcore, because a reanimated cadaver body isn't going to be able to work as effeciently that way anymore.
or idk maybe the idea that he was still sort-of there, faintly is one i like because it makes me feel better, i can at least pretend some part of him felt comforted being held in such a horrific situation. had to post this screenshot bc that sad little face when hes getting hugged is destroying me
Anyway. many thoughts, many feelings, many possibilities and interpretations. Do with this what you will. I, for instance, will be walking into the sea and never returning probably
#arcane spoilers#arcane#viktor#victor arcane#SDFJSDGH#jayce talis#sort of idk i don't rly talk much about jayce in this#long post#i am so sorry how long this is.#i gave up on meta or commentary posts a long time ago but i came back this once bc i feel like im going insane lol#kisses the design team on the mouth tbh#SPOILERS#body horror
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