#i am so sorry iam so so so so sorry

[thawthebeez]

EVERYBODY SHUT THE FUCK UP GO AWAY GO AWAY NOW

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN KAZUYO WENT TO SHIRATORIZAWA WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THAT'S WHY TOBIO APPLIED TO GO THERE WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THAT GETTING REJECTED FROM SHIRATORIZAWA WAS PROBABLY MORE UPSETTING THAN JUST BEING A HIT TO THE EGO

BOOOOOOOOO FURUDATE BOO BOO TOMATO TOMATO YOU CAN'T JUST DO THIS TO ME

[crystalmagpie447]

Trrrrrrrick or treat >:3

HOORRAYYHOORAY!!!

[junkissed]

his eyes are sooo sparkly i could actually cry he is literally the prettiest man in the whole entire universe. the universe itself lives in his eyes

[trainingdummyrabbit]

ok so i’ve just been feeling. real normal. the thing with angela is that i really really feel like a looooot of people refuse to see her as a complicated, nuanced, and EXTREMELY complex character in favor of disliking or hating her from reasons ranging from her treatment of the sephiriah in lobcorp to point blank misogyny. and like, im not saying you can’t dislike her. like and dislike whatever characters you want. but what’s really annoying is when people actively ignore core aspects of the story or the things that Led to angela becoming the way she was because it’s more convenient or just because they Don’t Like Her. every relationship she has including the one with herself and with carmen as two clearly different people by the end of ruina is messy and complicated turned up to the absolute fucking maximum. it’s easy to paint angela as the villain of the story at first, because that was…..the point. that’s what she was trying to do. in lobcorp she was keeping herself safe by playing that cruelty until it genuinely became an inescapable part of her that guarded the love that carmen (and then Angela by proxy) had for others. it kept her very clearly safe from the things she had to watch, the things she had to do and manage, and how she could never comfort a single person about the hell they were in, NOR could she confide in anyone else. playing off that, i think you could also definitely compare that idea of angela purposefully playing her cruelty up as a purposeful antithesis on her part to carmen’s whole theme of being perfect and their savior. by the lobcorp we play when we finish the 50 days, shes given up trying to be carmen, trying to be good, and is solely focused on herself— and that’s another thing too!!!! to a degree it wasn’t even focused on herself that heavily! a major part of her stealing the light was so that she could spite ayin and spit in the face of his plans, everything he had done for carmen’s “greater good”. angela playing (up) the bad guy is a purposeful thing!!! she’s doing it for a variety of reasons too: she’s trying to keep herself emotionally safe, she’s trying to double down to be as far away from carmen as possible, she’s trying to keep the sephiriah unattached to her and make them similarly cold to the way she is to minimize the pain they have to deal with. and it’s not like angela learned those ideas of “for the greater good” from nowhere. COUGHS.

sorry this is so long im just. so annoyed. i love you angie. im so sorry people don’t get you.

POINTS !!! POINTS AND CHEERS. GOD yeah that part of her character fucking KILLS ME so bad its fucking insane... i never leave my funy lil circle of mutuals so i am not exposed to The Bullshit(tm) but girlies... girlies weve had an ENTIRE GAME t go over this... every day i think abt that one post thats "Congratulations! You have fallen for the ruse this character has put up." bc like. [waves hands around]. MAN.

AND ESPECIALLY LIKE... that purposeful distance makes me think really hard about th pale librarian ending too; presenting herself in a way that breaks that bond before that bond inevitably breaks her-- constantly preparing for the worst because the worst is just what is always given to her. and how she allowed herself to forge a bond between herself and roland, one that ultimately ends up burning her yet again, and becoming a tie she has to snap with her own hands. how this completely reinforces her own self-defensive (and self-destructive) instincts, which ultimately lead to her doubling down on it in confronting the sephirah, ending up completely alone... thinks abt it real hard.

just!!!! grabs and SHAKES.... they werent kidding these hands really are in unloveable hands................... insufferable. iwould kill for them. if anyone is mean to angela ever im exploding them with my mind lasers.

[maraschinotopped]

who up ultraing they neo (fanart for @neos-ultra of that cringefail boy. smile)

[labratboygirl]

oooruurgghhhhhhh ilove every sing,le friend ive made on here with all my fucking heart ……... imbeing so seriosu

[yespleaseandorweirdbed]

selfish asshole..this act is getting old

[butchboromir]

i am like 0.1 seconds away from redownloading dating app and setting the age range to 40something

[t4tklonoa]

me btw. if u even care

[goldiipond]

i see people switching hyperfixes every few months and wonder how im able to stay obsessed with the same thing for years at a time and then i see a new show or game and have to slowly pull my brain towards it like a large stubborn dog on a leash

[silent-sentinels]

oh. oh.. oh immmm so tired ofbeing angry. oh im sooooooo tiredd o fbeing angry oh my god oh my god

[artsy-1diot]

why does inspiration feel like being mentally hit by a brick but like in a good way

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

I'm sad today but I can't cry for some reason so

Imma just link songs that make my brain go djis8ekeeikeke9sks so I hope imma feel better and hope you feel good too

everyone thank Imai for music that makes me feel like I am a washing machine

I love it jdiskemeokekwksmsoowowkekejejwn I love BT :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((<(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍💜💜💜❤️❤️💜❤️❤️🤍❤️🤍❤️🤍👁️👁️🤍👁️❤️🤍❤️🤍❤️🤍❤️❤️🤍❤️🤍❤️❤️🤍❤️🤍❤️🤍❤️🤍❤️🤍❤️❤️☹️❤️❤️🥹🤍💙🥹💙💙🤍💙💙🤍

some other stuff that make me go nrenejnenene actually idk what that last song is i found it in spotify and it kind of kills ms for some reason but like in a what the hell way. like its kinda good but its not idk its good

uwuwhejwjejwjwjei3iej3jj2jwjejjejejejejejejejeijekke like seriously what do you do when you feel frustrated but cant seem to let it out. imsmsmsmksmekskekejejekejejejejejejejejejjeieieiejjeoeiejejiwiwjwheje i feel so helpless omg.

usually j private these posts but idk maybe it will help me fele better if i post thid but also what tje fuck am i doing and what the fuxk is wrong with me

Sorry please dont care about this

i just idk who to talk to and i cant even explain anything i feel even if somebody listens so imma just scream into the void today

but please dont feel sorry and dont care jm just gonna have my period or some shit but i feel sad andd d notjing takeeess it awas todayysyyyyyyyyyyyy

dmdkdkdkkeororo4o4p4p3oo3o3keo4o4oo3o3o3o3o3oo3o3o3o3oo3o4o4o4orkkrorororkrkrkkrororo4kroro4k3ii3oroeo4oeoeori94949499494o394o4o39299393oei3i3ieiei3i

i want to boop a snooott :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

please boop my snoot :((((((((

im not drunk im just clinically insane

i just want to feel reckless once and act on impulse so imma just Post this

[argentuminmortalis]

❛  what if something happens to you ?  ❜ I mean. Duh

“Kai my love, I’ll be fine. I’m not completely helpless, I poisoned myself and your parents and survived…granted, I had the antidote for myself…but still! Nothing bad should happen!” Even though we all know if Kai is involved and concerned, it is unlikely nothing bad will happen.

@gloryundimmed

[trainingdummyrabbit]

[woogleart]

hi hiii i would love to hear more about bovary!! their background sounds super intriguing, how did that engagement go especially w their importance/wealthy family??

Hiii!! Ive been thinking about this ask since forever bc Bovary is so silly

Also please beware that this is quite explicit and deals with suicide, abuse and underage marriage so everything else will be under the read more

Actually their family did not care much/were always very busy so Bovary fled themselves into fantasy worlds inside books and imagined themselves in various scenarios. Plus they were so rich Bovary was taken care of by maids most of the time as well

Also before Bovary came across Faust and signed the contract, they presented and lived as a girl

Their husband Charles fell in love with them right away when they met by chance at a party. Bovary was considerably younger than him and it felt quite exciting for them to have an older man be interested in them which in turn made them say yes to the proposal immediately

Their family was absolutely fine with it since the guy was a wealthy man and had a great social standing so Bovary was married off

Thing is just,, that now their husband expected them to perform their stereotypical roles as a wife which meant that Bovary was bound down in expectations and lost the childlike innocence which they approached this marriage with

It just felt too normal and not as exciting how they imagined it which caused them to start to cheat and use their money to attract suitors and shower them in gifts

So basically their marriage sucked and they rather fled themselves into fantasy worlds and also got deep into debt considering their spending habits

Also Charles did try to accommodate them actually. Since he is a doctor he gave them the body modifications to present more masculine as well as hormones but that only made Bovary more dependent on him as he basically had an entire part of their life in his hands not to mention that he didn't take Bovary fully for a guy still intending for them to be the mother to his child and everything

In the end Bovary was so miserable they ran away and wanted to kill themselves with poison at which they met Faust who offered them a new chance with the contract, which they took immediately mainly because of the fairytale feeling of it. Therefore Faust became a somewhat special person to them