#i am sick and need to go to bed now
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come to me
His relief at seeing her is tangible, primal, as he quietly insists heās just tired ā the relentless intensity over the last week, or two, or even dear gods has it really been three finally easing up. Although maybe, in its own way, that easing was part of the problem.
He says itāll pass soon; he knows thereās no hiding it but heās hoping thatās the truth, and the last thing he wants is to worry her.
He doesnāt quite succeed.
With a frown of concern, she watches him take his coat off, an unspoken exhaustion laced through his movement as he increases the hearthfireās intensity, and she passes him the steaming cup of jasmine tea sheād made for herself only moments ago. He gratefully accepts its welcome small warmth with a soft thanks, love, and she doesnāt miss the edge of congestion in his consonants, nor the dullness in his usually intensely vibrant eyes, the encroaching hints of pinkness to his nose.
They take a seat together on the couch and he puts the teacup on the table, apologises to her for all his absences lately, sniffles at first softly then harder, sharper. At his catch of breath she passes him a tissue, and quickly another, as his expression crumbles in surrender to the recurrent insistent need heās been unable to shake: urgent, unforgiving and imperative, the vestiges of his energy rip-torn ravaged as he hurriedly turns from his beloved, unable to fight it, sneezing in urgent, violent triplicate ā heavy, throat-tearing, disorienting.
Her heartwarm blessing is a cherished sanctuary as she trails gentle fingers through his hair, drawing him closer, and oh she always loves his touch but heās far too warm, the thickness in his breathing impossible to miss. She murmurs soothing softnesses, presses a lingering kiss to his forehead, and holds him a little closer as
āAhh-HEHHTSShhuu!ā
sheās not sure about this passing soon at all.
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#a completely random snapshot of my darlings because that's where my brain fixated right now for some reason despite WIPs in waiting?#absolutely yes#my ocs incognito#cerbia#snz fic#anyway so my writing process is the world's stupidest thing; i should know how it works by now but i really have NFI#me in the bath: mmm going to bed after this!#me once dry: you need to write this scene! YES now!#half past midnight. perfect time for it.š
#so anyway i am doing an absolute rarity and posting this without my usual overnight wait-and-make-sure edit process#here's hoping there's no glaring upfuckeries lol#(he's actually really sick here; he just doesn't fully know it yet)
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i hate doing laundry ough it's The Worst
#not only does leaning down to move my stuff hurt my back#but i have to touch dirty clothes and go into the dirty room and touch the dirty machines and i have to wear 2 pairs of socks (so my#normal socks dont touch the contaminated floor) and when i lean over the washing machine my clothes touch it <-the worst part of it all#tbh. now my current clothes are dirty but i have nothing to change into and i will have to wear them all day and it makes me SICK#and i cannot talk abt how dirty the garage (where the laundry machines are) it makes me nauseous that place kills me if i never#had to go into it ever again i would and i have to carry a laundry basket (dirty) and it touches my clothes when i carry it (disgusting)#and now my clothes are even more dirty and i feel like i cant touch any of my things bc i dont want to infect them but i cant just do#nothing all day when i have to do laundry but it makes me so SICK i need smth to cover all of my clothes but everything i've tried misses#some part and my clothes are ruined and it makes me SICK how am i supposed to do school or draw or anything when it's so bad#i have everything scheduled so i can take a shower and go straight to bed after i'm done but still it's so bad and it stresses me tf out#and i have to do laundry every 3 days because i only have 3 towels to use after showering and even if i did have more towels#i still would have to do laundry as often bc i couldnt handle doing multiple loads or having bigger loads my back couldnt handle that#w the system i have set up now it's just bad it;s all bad i hate doing laundry#i dream of one day where i can do laundry in a better way i think it'd involve not having the washer and dryer down steps bc that's#dangerous for one and for two not having them in a garage bc garages stress me out and three to have smth to cover all of my clothes#and 4 to have machines that dont need me to bend down idk if they have ones like that but it hurts#anyway that's it for listening to dux complain abt smth that ultimately doesnt matter and is only a problem bc their brain#chemistry is off#k bye i have to go do laundry *explodes* and take an exam *explodes* it;s an essay exam *explodes* and then im going#to like sit around feeling sick thumbs up emoji
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Fighting the battle against the brain weasels tonight, who are busy trying to convince me to do the thing that I know (think? hope?) I'll deeply regret come morning. Not sure if I'm winning or losing right now.
#airas life#the brain sucks sometimes#need to work through whatever is in my head right now#probably shouldn't delete everything I've ever written#and disappear#I actually like most of it you know?#and would be very sad in the morning#I don't think this is burn out#because I'm still enjoying writing and sharing and the process#I just... don't really know what's going on in my brain right now#but I shouldn't make choices like this when sick and tired#I'd say it's time for bed but that would require getting the brain weasels to shut up#and to stop crying#i don't even know why I'm crying#or why I feel this way#came out of nowhere#okay I'm done#I just had to say this somewhere#it was getting suffocating#but who am I supposed to talk to?#anyways the tags felt almost safe#pay no attention to the girl behind the curtain
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I just tried to write for an hour and it was honestly painful. I wouldnāt say Iām experiencing writers blockā¦ maybe more so, Iām a broken record that just wants to repeat the same words and descriptors and is having a difficult time concentrating and forming coherent and meaningful sentences.
I think out of the 7 or so paragraphs I wrote, maybe 2 or 3 are passable and thatās coming from a brain that is running on fumes at this point so Iām not even sure Iām all that confident in that either.
#I probably shouldnāt write after work when Iām already tired and now even more exhausted but itās really the only time I get to write#I also have my ankle MRI results appt tomorrow and maybe am stressing a little on that too#I hate that I got sick because I really donāt want to go more than 2 weeks between updates because it physically pains me to do so#because it feels like Iām letting down the reader and I know I need to stop the negative talk and the self doubt#but I just feel like I need to rant because Iām frustrated and exhausted#Iām just going to stop and go lie in bed and cuddle my Leon plushies and hope this is just a little speed bump that will pass soon
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apologies for not being active... I might not be for a bit longer ... I am..... sick
#I'm so upset I was doing perfectly fine and then my boss came in sick#and guess what now I am sick#I shouldn't be going to work today because I need to rest#buuuut I must... continue on....#I hope I'll feel better tomorrow or the next day because I have a package filled with akis coming soon.... lol#aki tuck me into bed and take care of me pleaaase#feed me some soup...
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God... I'm part of a few mycology groups on facebook and some people posting shit pictures of like white mushrooms they found asking what they are because they want to eat them....
like babygirl what? That's how you die
that's how you fucking die.
No.
If you don't know beyond a shadow of a doubt what mushroom you're looking at, you don't fucking eat it
I'm
"I cooked them and they turned yellow is that good?" I'm going to fucking lose it
#like yes i am technically an amateur mycologist#I do not have a degree#but I want to get one eventually and plan on going back to school for it (once I have a solid job again)#so like... seeing stuff like that is so fucking stressful#'these look like the ones from the grocery store :)' BABYGIRL SO DO IMMATURE AMANITA OCREATA AND AMANITA PHALLOIDES#YOU WILL EITHER DIE OR NEED A LIVER TRANSPLANT#AND EVEN IF IT'S NOT ONE OF THE DEADLY ONES IT'S PROBABLY AN AGARIC WHICH WILL MAKE YOU SICK FOR A FEW DAYS#EITHER WAY NOT FUN#Anyways I was gonna go to bed but now I'm stressed out#odt
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Post concert sickness has been especially rough today with a heavy, throbbing head (especially around the nose) and getting out of breath very easily. I am glad I managed to finish my hamburg sketch page but I think that will be all I have energy for today - fingers crossed that I woke up tomorrow feeling just a slight bit better so I can enjoy my 11 month hrt anniversary
#flashing#sort of?.quick movements at least#but yeah it had to be a gif of the plague george himself#also sort of random but scrolling to find this gif i looked at one where nace lifts bojan after ruissi#and for the first time in forever i actually craved/longed to be lifted#to be hold lovingly in somebodys arm and feel weightless in their strong grib#but alas today i ate way too much for i probably weigh a ton#i am already feeling self concious about being heavy and clumsy bc height#i dont need feeling heavy because heavy alsooĆø#*also#very typical tho that the one time i want to be lifted is when i am sick home alone and going to bed#and also all my faves are tiny#except for maybe nace#i wouldnt ask h or Jere to lift me#heck probably not even bojan#again i feel just like huge when next to shorter people#and while I know jere is more stocky and might be able to handle it (and h had a sickpack) i dont want to hurt them#random babble i will stop now#micahs thoughts
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Arcane being meaningful shot after meaningful shot needs to be studied
#like come on man. i need to go cinema š¬ every other minute#viktor working on hextech while jayce is in the background readying himself in the mirror. come on now#also i am pretty sure that when vi arrives at the lanes and also when jinx enters the arcade the music sounds very similar to#what could have been. leitmotif even#and in both instances the situation turns sour after they feel at home(with the laitmotif playing). thats so fucked#you're hot cupcake came way too fast. damn vi really got her#and just for me... a little upwards shot of vi manspreading on the sofa... as a treat#VIKTOR GET UP!!!! SKYLAR GO AWAYYYYYY!!!! FOR YOUR SAFETY PLEASE!!!!!#this montage is fucking vile akdjaksjdksnals#another vile montage to imagine dragons until vi knees sevika in the face and jayce leaves a naked woman in bed to go see sick viktor ajdkaj#when the girl you just met leaves you in a brothel to go pick a fight and you gotta go save her.... toxic gfs.....#i am jk btw thats so funny ajdkajs also sevika does shimmer TWO times to beat vi. crazy. what emprisonment does to a mf#talking tag#watching arcane
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Muz has Covid. On the literal anniversary of having it last year. The older two kids are symptomatic and presumed positive, even though they tested negative. Tonight, Ducky has an orchestra concert. And I am once again flying solo just before Christmas. I DO NOT LIKE THIS REPEAT OF LAST YEAR, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
#personal#daisy whines#i am getting past wanting to cry and now I am just mad#trying to balance all the things we're supposed to be doing this week with the uncertainty of if Ducky and I will get sick#oh and Muz is supposed to have a medical procedure next week#as long as his symptoms have improved he'll be out of isolation by then#but mothertrucker i don't want to sleep in the living room for days again#i hate that#I like my bed#and we need to so so much Christmas shopping still#i mean - it's pretty much all going to be online#but it's harder to coordinate when we're in different rooms
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BRUH
EVERYTIME I feel like im starting to feel better my body just turns around and flips me off
mf sends me off w a shove down the stairs, nausea, sweating/tremors, headache, confusion, dizziness, it pantsed me, it stole my lunch money, it gave me a swirlie, i cant fuckin win
#venty? venty-ish idk#bruhhhh i might have to go back to the hospital once my medication is up#really not looking forward to that#i am so fuckin bored in this bed dude i havent been able to do anything fun i need cocomelon tiktok adhd stimulation hdhsdhjh#tried drawing and my body was like#nausea upon ye#ive just been rotting in bed on yt and character ai#at least i have husband leshy to talk to me 24/7 LOL#also i managed to eat something flavoured without vomiting#i may also be getting a yummy chicken noodle soup today teehee#rubs my little mitts together in anticipation#anyway yea kinda /neg post but uhh i have been feeling like ass ever since that outpatients visit lol#granted im feeling a lot better now but im still getting symptoms occasionally#like just earlier i was going on abt how much better i was feeling#then i woke up covered in cold sweat feeling nauseous lmfao.#like ur kidding#what happened between the time i fell asleep and the time i woke up#chill tf out pls i dont want to go to hopital#grrr#tw sick mention#tw vomit mention
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dryheaving rn i cant breathe whriutyeriufnkds WAEEEEEEEEEE i capital n Need him. im im im im yeah no thanks like guys Stopwhat if i die I NEED HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry im crazy i love sunghoon so much guys hes so special to me and he always will be like he makes me laugh and smile and hes the most gorgeous man itw and when he smiles an angel is born and babies laugh and double rainbows form and the sun shines and birds sing and hes like a the marias song or a stephen sanchez song or a sabrina carpenter song specifically from eyes wide open more specifically best thing i got and i hope hes happy always and i hope the world explodes when hes sad
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¤#middle picture third line.#I CSANT BTEUTYARE#I WANT HIM SO BAD IAUEWFHER#okay Sunghoon theme Soon probablu.#wowowoowow im actually sick whys he so gorgeous#i need him btw#hes my boyf for reals.......#sorry i kind of spiraled originally it stopped after i need him but then i looked at him again adn Well.#I LOVE HIM SO MUCH :((((((#hes my muse everything i do and think and look at is for or about him#hes just so special to me once again like idk guys stop#GET ME OUT OFTHIS ENGENE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#why isnt he real im so sad#sometimes i watch his old lives when im going to bed cos his voice is so comforting and i like seeing him being happy Stop. im kmsing#he makes me so HAPPYYYY im crying these pictures arent even that life changing compared to shirtless sunghoon but#I DONT KNOW lately hes been so happy and it makes me cry cos i missed him sooo much and im glad hes happier now#okay cringe bye i need to be sedated something about him makes me want to kiss his cheeks and hug him like#regardless of delusionness or whatever hes one of my favorite people ever i am very happy to be alive at the same time as him#imagine i missed him like what would my life even be#okay for real bye this is the most parasocial thing i have ever written he doesnt know me and i dont know him But.#i want him to be successful always#made this at 12:31AM CST.
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ive been either working and going to school at the same time or doing the other when im not doing one for so long i'm going to start my first summer vacation in five years after tomorrow! yay!
#i could do 3 weeks but im doing just 2 and then one a bit later this year#i mean. i tehnically did have one vacation last year. but it was me being on sick leave so i dont think that counts#bc i was literally recovering from a surgery#also tbh. i am in need of a break. ive been not sleeping properly for like a month or two so i need to catch up#and fix my sleep schedule#and i do crave having nothing to do#i am going to do nothing but rot in bed and play video games#and also go to a con and see friends but i swear i will do nothing for at least half of my vacation#my performance at work has honestly been pretty poor for a bit now bc i need a break but now i get it so im fine#leevi talks
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I will say while I've loved most of elden ring I'm really glad I'm down to just 2 more main boss fights (malenia + maliketh) before I start the endgame boss fights... whew š®āšØ
#really gorgeous world but frankly its unnecessarily long. theyre gonna kill me for saying that but its true..#some areas/bosses just become overly repetitive when the game is THAT massive like its unavoidable#they tried rly hard to distinguish every area + honestly its a great effort but it couldve been half the size and just as good#like i just did the elphael ulcerative tree spirit bc i wanted to finish millicents questline. and come on man we didnt need another one#the design is sick + loooove the animation. but its a bad fight not bc of the difficulty but bc its janky as hell#lock on doesnt work properly bc of its size and the way it moves. u cant see shit on ur screen fighting them melee its just hack n slash#and theyre always in the most dogshit arenas possible for them like spaces w no maneuverability. its just not fuuuun#especially after youve fought 5 or 6 already earlier on in the game..#and its cool to have variations like the scarlet rot ones but we already HAD one of those just before lake of rot!! the gimmicks worn off#i did everything except maliketh in farum azula today as well and again. it didnt need to be that long. killing beastmen gets boring#after like the first 20 combat is just mashing buttons.. even the platforming is getting dull bc ive done 120 hours of it now#and theres only so many combinations of ladders and hallways and so on that u can possibly cram in here..#i say all this with fondness like i truly do love it. but it couldve been a lot tighter! regardless ill still 100% complete it#and i get most ppl dont try to get every single armament and talisman etc so they probably dont waste time FULLY exploring like i am#ahhh. anyway ill probably do malenia and maliketh tmr bc im right outside both of their arenas. and then call it quits this weekend#ill get my first ending next weekend probably... and hopefully by june ill have 100% and then i can play something else š#ik the dlc comes out in june but ill probably take a month or two break before i get to that#it doesnt even neeeed a dlc.......its excessive as it is just make a new game by this point ahhhhh#anyway its like 1am i need to SLEEP. i said i would go out to watch for northern lights but its overcast and im tired and my roommate#didnt wanna come with.. so i was gonna go to bed early instead but i guess that didnt happen lol#gonna feel like shit tomorrow bc i have to be up early to take my meds and she'll wake me up anyway.. but cross that bridge#typing is getting difficult bc im so sleepy okay goodnight everyone#.diaries
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doing really bad in ways i canāt talk about which is making it worse
#just cancelled a meeting so i could cry in the office LMAOOOOOOO š„°š#purrs#the mortifying ordeal of my therapist being on her honeymoon rn š¹š¹š¹š¹š¹#i think i am just a bad person and my needs hurt people who need me. and itās not fair to them and idont know what to do with that.#i think i may have to move out sooner than i am ready to and not listen to anyone telling me to keep waiting. this is not sustainable. itās#not sustainable for my family because i hurt them with my needs. and itās not sustainable for me to be unable to need and get what i need#without hurting them. i think whatās so hard about this is that i have to do it alone and everyone is against me doing it but i have to do#it anyway. i donāt know. i donāt want my sister to see this and get hurt. if you do see this im sorry i canāt be what you need. im sorry my#needs hurt you. but theyāre needs. i have to be selfish even though my brain is screaming at me in your voice that i donāt. i just need to#escape it all. i am allowed to need independence and alone time and im sorry i was cruel about asserting it but i need to assert it and no#one at home understands why but I need to. im not talking coherently i just feel so wretched and sick to my stomach with guilt and grief and#frustration and shame and i have to facilitate a huge session in an hour and a half.#delete later#like my friends / mutuals / mentors / etc can tell me until theyāre blue in the face that i am not a bad person and i deserve to live an#independent Life etc etc but none of you are actually in my house and you donāt see how it is and how i am the cause of all of it and how im#stuck and making things worse. and i canāt summon my strength or calm down or anything. i donāt know. i have to get ready for the session i#just canāt even think straight. my family is right and i am also right and i canāt assert my rightness over theirs. so im stuck forever.#if i could i would leave work early and go home but thereās no one to take me home and home is actually the worst possible place to be#right now LOLLLLL. i just need to curl into a bed and cry. also im about to get my period so thats probably why im like this lol
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#i know its probs the luteal phase doing itās thing to make me feel miserable but the fact that i am just upset at everything around me rn#i canāt stop bingeing on a bunch of snacks and shitty food combinations that make me feel sick#and inevitably i purge bc i just cannot contain this much food in me#on top of the fact that i am remembering the times i was treated cruelly before i āglowed upā#it just fills me with disgust because why didnāt i deserve kindness back then?#itās caused me to assume that any kind act is just artificial to me now. never feels genuine#i think i just need to wash my face and go to bed#istina.vents#tw ed implied#tw ed recovery
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