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birdmitosis · 1 year ago
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Fanmix-slash-playlist for Slay the Princess! Song list under the cut. There’s 96 songs on this fanmix/playlist, and it’s about 6 and a half hours long.
Some of the songs were not available on Spotify, and they will be linked to on YouTube below. (Some artists have 2 songs on the playlist; aeseaes, The Crane Wives, Hozier, and Stars each have 3 because they were just too perfect. Also, some songs are definitely on here because of other people's fanvids or even just suggestions, and I've made note of and credited all of those!) (All fanmixes/playlists are a perpetual WIP.)
aeseaes - All Things Devour
aeseaes - Semantics
aeseaes - Tongues
AG - Terrible Thing
t h e . a i m s - Violence & Blood
The Airborne Toxic Event - Poor Isaac
Alanis Morissette - Everything (friend suggestion)
Amanda Palmer & The Grand Theft Orchestra - Trout Heart Replica
Amber Run - I Found
The Amazing Devil - The Horror and the Wild
The Amazing Devil - That Unwanted Animal
Andrew Bird - Imitosis
Andrew Bird - Sisyphus
August Greenwood - How To Let Go
AURORA - Your Blood
Baby Storme - This City is a Graveyard
Band of Horses - No One's Gonna Love You
Beth Crowley - Monster
Blindside - Withering
Bring Me the Horizon - Deathbeds
Camera Obscura - Fifth in Line to the Throne
Caravan Palace - Avalanches
Charming Disaster - Ouroboros
Chonny Jash - The Soul Eclectic (inspiration)
City and Colour - Little Hell
Coldplay - The Hardest Part
Coldplay - Square One
Collective Soul - The World I Know
Cosmo Sheldrake - By Being With You
The Crane Wives - Curses
The Crane Wives - Hollow Moon (inspiration)
The Crane Wives - Tongues & Teeth
Crystal Castles - Suffocation (inspiration)
David Bowie - Changes
The Echoing Green - Starling
Electric President - Some Crap About the Future
Elizabeth & the Catapult - Do Not Hang Your Head
Elizabeth & the Catapult - My Goodbye
Ellie Goulding - Salt Skin
Eurielle - Hate Me
The Feeling - Mr Grin
fin - Ship in a Bottle
Florence + The Machine - Kiss With a Fist
Florence + The Machine - What the Water Gave Me
Forgive Durden - A Dead Person Breathed on Me!
Foxtails Brigade - Long Route
Foxtails Brigade - Nun but the Lost
Ghost and Pals - DEATHBODY
Ghost and Pals - In Iolite
Gregory and the Hawk - Boats & Birds
Hannah Fury - Angels & Absinthe
Howie Day - Collide
Hozier - Francesca
Hozier - In the Woods Somewhere
Hozier - Who We Are
IAMX - Bernadette
I Monster - Who Is She?
Jack Conte - Kitchen Fork (inspiration)
Jack Stauber's Micropop - Choice (inspiration)
The Jezabels - Hurt Me
Jhariah - Flight of the Crows
Journey to Bethlehem OST - We Become We
Kate Nash - Paris
Kiltro - Softy
King Gizzard & The Lizard Wizard - Magenta Mountain
lasah - taixu (inspiration)
Lisa Hannigan - Oh Undone
Little Dragon - Twice
The Lord Dog Bird - The Shedding Path
Ludo - The Horror of Our Love
Madilyn Mei - Knotted Constellations
Meredith Brooks - Bitch
MGMT - Little Dark Age
Michelle Branch - Everywhere
Mili (feat. KIHOW) - In Hell We Live, Lament
Mirah - Don't Die in Me
Mirah - You've Gone Away Enough
Moulettes - Bird of Paradise, Pt. II
The Mountain Goats - No Children (inspiration)
The Mountain Goats - Sudden Oak Death
Mr.Kitty - After Dark
múm - Prophecies & Reversed Memories
The Nor'easters - 715 — CRΣΣKS (inspiration)
Olivier Bibeau - Better Run, Better Hide
Passion Pit - Seaweed Song
PEGGY - Villains Aren't Born (They're Made)
Perfectly Human - Bad As
Perfectly Human - Fly Again
Racoon - Took a Hit
Rainbow Kitten Surprise - Devil Like Me
Reinaeiry - When the Sun Loves the Moon
Ricky Montgomery - This December
RIProducer - Fruiting Bodies
RIProducer - What Gave It Away?
Sarah Blasko - Bird on a Wire
Satin Puppets - Bad Moon Rising
Seeming - Someday Lily
Sharon Van Etten - It's Not Like
Shayfer James - Boots Worn Through (inspiration)
Sheena Ringo - la salle de bain (inspiration)
Sleeping At Last - Mind
Sleeping At Last - Taste
SNAKE POOL - FIGURE IN THE BACKGROUND (inspiration)
Snow Patrol - Open Your Eyes
Solas Composer - He Who Devoured the Dark II
Southwest Statistic - Fairy Tale (friend suggestion)
Stars - He Dreams He's Awake
Stars - The Night Starts Here
Stars - No One Is Lost
Subsignal - The Bells of Lyonesse (inspiration)
Sunset Rubdown - For the Pier (and Dead Shimmering)
Talking Heads - And She Was
Trespassers William - I Know
TV on the Radio - Stork & Owl
Will Wood - Vampire Reference in a Minor Key
Woodkid - Ghost Lights
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romans-empire · 2 months ago
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Hot take but I don't see Clover ever becoming a lawyer like most adult Clover HCs. In my eyes, they would become a detective or private investigator.
The kid climbed up a mountain with a missing poster on hand and willingly jumped down to the Underground unknowing if it was the right choice or not just to find out the truth of the missing children. Additionally, the entire process of learning about the Ketsukane tragedy-mystery!!! They are very determined to find out the truth by their own hands and deliver justice when needed!! Clover is a very hands-on person and I don't think arguing and presenting evidence would cut it for their brand of truth-seeking and justice.
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zoieru · 9 days ago
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a v e n o i e
she fell first x he fell harder ノ begrudgingly (on my end) intrigued strangers to lovers~ ノ mutual reluctant pining ノ ace of hearts x ace of spades ノ wants too little x has too much ノ expressive x scared of vulnerability ノ small things x grand things ノ wounded soul x wounded soul ノ terrified but only you understand me
dappled sunlight ノ found solace ノ iridescence ノ lingering kisses ノ cold fingertips ノ melodic giggles and eye rolls ノ safe space ノ held after a nightmare ノ eyelashes fluttering on cheeks ノ tears on neck ノ nuzzles into soft skin ノ messy healing
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coriander-candlesticks · 7 months ago
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Me: I'm not sure if my health can withstand a commute. Should I try to go in tomorrow?
Apollo: no
Me: should I plan to work from home?
Apollo: no
Me: ...
Apollo:
Me: migraine?
Apollo: migraine.
#(cue it starting immediately afterwards)#i managed to take some painkillers in time to stave the migraine off but i still felt like shit the next day#so i couldnt have worked regardless#this was monday night (and tbf sunday & monday were *extremely* tiring days. i was falling asleep while crocheting & playing ac#which is rare even considering my fatigue issues)#yes/no divination has been great as a way to consult apollo without pulling out the tarot deck (which is more time consuming and takes#a *lot* more spoons)#the only issue is that when i do the stones or tarot i tend to get on a Divination Kick tm which is. not helpful b/c what am i going to do??#i've already finished asking what i needed to ask???#i should probably funnel that burst of dopamine/hyperfixation into researching different methods actually#gonna add that to the routine#also! working out the kinks with the yes/no method. doing it on my floor? no good. inconsistent results. Feels Bad. Loud#doing it on my bed? wonderful 10/10. very consistent results. Feels Good. not loud#i still do tarot on the floor though b/c having a flat sturdy surface is nice#for reference: my commute is 2-2.5 hrs each way via public transit. the sensory experience drains me *very* fast if im not careful and#we're in Purgatory Weather season where it's *juuust* warm & humid enough to maybe be a problem but isnt one For Sure#*and* the state fair is on so the trains are gonna be packed when im trying to get home#coriander says#helpol#hellenic pagan#hellenic polytheism#apollo#theoi#pagans of tumblr#hellenic community#paganblr
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outlying-hyppocrate · 3 months ago
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coming back here feels like paying a visit to the fucking dead.
#random thoughts#(this post was made ten days before my return is scheduled. please keep in mind all my disappearances were planned.)#on the topic of the post. i keep. missing myself.#seeing my old self in pictures and reading my posts. i'm not that person anymore.#obviously i'm not going to be. i'm young. lots of changes are set for me.#i hate being sometimes. just being.#but we all do right ?#all of the past versions of me are dead. the only things i have left of them are facets.#i miss them. like i've missed you!!#but then again the attention and lack of it is. why i am here again. or maybe i'm just ready to be a person rightly.#not. really. but i'll have more to say in perhaps other posts. i'll schedule those too.#in the meantime. see you later!! sorry for being an asshole and disappearing again. i bet you really thought i was dead this time.#well. okay obviously not. it's only been a month hasn't it ?#less than even. how silly am i..... (':#i'm so fucking disgusting i need to shut my mouth. augh.#i was about to come in here and be like “ask me anything!!” because i'm crispin the dumb actor bitch.#my stupid fucking persona has taken over my entire blog. and the most ironic thing is that crispin isn't even his name.#(<- not that negative usually. while this is true it's also not nice. apologizing on someone's behalf.)#edit: 04.02.2025. eight days before return. i thought we'd have more to add but. suppose not.#this is everything whether you like it or not.#DO NOT MIND THE TORRENTIAL YAP I HAVE WRITTEN IN THE TAGS.#edit: 08.02.2025. i just want to be myself again. outlying-hyppocrate. formal and poetic and pathetic.#and i'm not. but i'll grow back into his skin subconsciously. him.#edit: 11.02.2025. i'll probably be sleeping when this sends out.#i fall asleep so early now........ 6pm and tangled dreams.#so fucking tired. doing well and not.#stream pocky boy by yeule ! ! !#no actually. i do have more to say. wait a minute.
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cicadagaze · 9 months ago
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heartbreaking! man wants to play clangen but he fucked it up trying to edit updates in so he wouldn't have to transfer all his mods over
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noblebluebird · 1 year ago
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Casting the characters of Hyrule Warriors in EPIC: The Musical
This is what happens when a Legend of Zelda geek has been listening to the EPIC soundtrack nonstop for weeks. I have no shame.
Here are the ones I am certain about:
Odysseus - Link
Penelope - Zelda
Telemachus - Young Link
Antinous - Ganondorf
Polites - Linkle
Eurylochus - Lana
Polyphemus - Ganon (Monster form)
Circe - Cia
Tiresias - Fi
Winions - Fairies
Sirens - Zora
Calypso - Marin
Zeus - Hylia
Athena - Nayru
Posidon - Din
Hermes - Ghirahim
Aeolus - Skull Kid
Scylla - Ruto
Apollo - Shiek (Different from Zelda in this AU)
Aphrodite - Agitha
Ares - Volga
Hephestus - Darunia
Hera: Farore
That's all I got for now. I'd love to hear any thoughts or suggestions. I know this is kinda a small niche demographic, but I still think it's fun! Enjoy!
Edit: This list is just gonna change from time to time. Don't worry about it.
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amelikos · 6 months ago
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I am already a big enjoyer of Friede and Amethio's rivalry and dynamics in general, so if Crave turns out to be Amethio's father, I feel like this knowledge would reframe their rivalry in very interesting ways and give additional readings and perspectives..
#something something about amethio rejecting his father and friede stepping in to be the positive male figure in his life at that point#Not saying friede takes on that role (dad) because i don't interpret him that way at all#however he is very much meant to be someone amethio takes inspiration from#most adults in amethio's life aren't inspirational i think so friede is probably the first person he met who is free and independent etc#i need to be moderately invested in that theory so i'm not disappointed if it doesn't turn out to be true lol#but i think it adds a lot to the narrative.. amethio and liko's parallels etc and even friede's character!#the thought that he is giving back to the younger generation after being nurtured by teachers and mentors#oh friede the man that you are. the coolest guy ever that you are.. luv you#horizons tends to be very intentional about its writing.. the mentor character (friede) has been helped by Very Specific People#and feels indebted to them. before his rvt era. those people are liko's mother (lucca) and roy's grandfather. and director crave.#hmm. i wonder what that means!#(not saying friede isn't helped by the rvt. but they act as equals. lucca was a hiearchical superior as a teacher etc.)#also. on a personal level. i think it's funny if friede knew amethio's dad before meeting him#crave going like 'i'm glad my son has taken a liking to you professor friede :) i hope you can continue to get along'#and ame being like 'we don't get along? smh'#we'll see where that leads. but hz doesn't really trick its audience. it expects us to pick up on all these themes and hints here and there#like how this ep points out that yeah gibeon still being alive at this point seems odd and for him to be ame's grandpa too.#it's intentional! so i'm just pointing out reocurring patterns.. but yeah. we'll see#friede#hz074#character notes#episode notes
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milfbrainrot · 5 months ago
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i feel like i type so much more than is reasonable when i do talk to people but i also don't get to socialize a ton so i just have soooo many words in me and if i'm like, tired or short on time, it is so much harder to restrain to the already-pushing-it point i can sometimes manage ;-;
#txt#i am used to posting long things that are essentially a conversation with myself because i either don't#want to bother others with certain topics or i just am used to anything i have to say really being... worth saying...#so i will sometimes go back and add more tags because i'm still thinking about it after the fact and the gap in time where someone#would have said something to prompt further thought is just. me continuing it with myself. bc i'm still thinking about it.#and then that translates into how i talk to other people where i sometimes feel like i either have too much to say without only#keeping what's of utmost relevant importance#(which is also due to me knowing if i don't say it Right Now Immediately i will forget if it does become relevant again)#so i am expecting people to read too much#and/or i then am not... listening to people? or i come off like im not listening to people?#even though i rly do try to be attentive i just forget sometimes to leave space for other people to talk because i am#used to only talking to myself so much lmaoo so i think i come off like i only want to Talk At people due to how Much i share#and sometimes i probably am not as attentive in convos as i would like to be but i try to be! i just dont know if the balance is there#but i also don't rly know how to be more concise bc of that mix of not wanting to forget and also not wanting to be misunderstood#and being so excited to get contribute etc#anyway there are also a lot of social things i HAVE been neglecting by accident i am so sorry if youve sent me an ask etc#and you've gotten silence i am getting to things slowly ;-;#i just mean moreover in active conversations the way that i act is like. i always worry i am doing something wrong all the time forever#and maybe i would worry less if i could put more of my thought dump energy into observing others more attentively#to get a better read on things lol#me coming back to this post as an example bc i had another thought:#i also type rly fast and my brain goes rly fast so while i do clean up what i say typically#others might find it more convenient to be more concise due to typing slower#whereas i don't think before i type i just type as i think one to one#i lose thoughts otherwise but Thinking Before I Speak is a lost art to me rip#but then if i am talking to people irl or on voice i am so much more reserved. i ramble a lot!!#but it's easier for me to fall back
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sunset-moth · 1 year ago
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I have a set of binds for Titanfall 2.
It's a bunch of lines for boarding my titan and triggering the self-destruct sequence, since you're locked into animations for a second or two and have nothing better to do but reach over and tap a bind. I thought it might be annoying, but the majority of responses are "haha thats funny" or "damn thats cool," both of which are the intended result. There are a few people who tell me to shut up, but that happens binds or no binds, so... Meh!
i think one of my favorite responses so far has been "cabin got the protagonist lines, damn" (my IGN is SnowboundCabin.)
I've also had a few people ask how I do it, since it's not just a single bind, but rather a list - 127 detonation lines, 202 boarding lines. So, I'm going to release the AHK script I use for it. (Comes with enclosed instruction book!*) This one's a blank template, but I'm also going to post a few of my favorite lines.
TONE :: PILOT BOARDING ::
PLEASE KEEP YOUR ARMS AND LEGS INSIDE THE ME AT ALL TIMES.
MY BODY IS A TEMPLE TO A GOD OF DEATH.
I CAN'T BELIEVE I PUT DOWN MY BOOK TO BE HERE.
THIS TITANFALL SPONSORED BY PIZZA. (courtesy of @inucaseclosedfan)
I WON'T 'ROCKET JUMP,' STOP ASKING.
I'D CALL SHOTGUN IF I WASN'T THE CAR.
DEPLOYING FUZZY DICE.
CALL ME BOB ROSS THE WAY I PAINT TARGETS.
I AM HUNGRY FEED ME BATTERIES.
DON'T GET DORITO DUST ON MY CONTROLS.
THEY ASKED FOR NO PICKLES!
I THINK I'M IN THE WRONG TF2.
TONE :: DETONATION IMMINENT ::
DON'T FORGET TO LIKE AND SUBSCRIBE!
YOU'RE NOT INVITED TO MY BIRTHDAY PARTY!
WAIT I CHANGED MY MIND HOW DO I-
CAN I GET A BETTER PILOT NEXT TIME?
WAS I A GOOD TITAN?
WATCH THIS COOL TRICK RONIN TAUGHT ME!
LEAKING ENEMY BROWSER HISTORY
DEATH BEFORE DISHONOR!
NICE KILL. ONE SMALL PROBLEM. I HAVE NUCLEAR EJECT.
And my all-time favorite:
TONE :: DETONATION IMMINENT :: POST MY SPECS TO THE WAR THUNDER FORUMS.
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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 1 year ago
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HIII THABK U FOR THE TRIVIA AND ASHE SONG before i take forever 2 answer those or forget here is a blank ticket to please please talk about prime defenders and their AWFUL emotional literacy and processing skills i would literally love to read that essay so much ive also been thinking about it incessantly. big eyes staring up at u.png. ok ok peace out GOODNIGHT !!!! <33
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i lied actually im not going to bed im judt thinking about this ans listening to St. John on a loop now. hello catkiss.gif i forgot how youve filled me with so much joy. that cat is so fuckign cute
anyway. hi :) prime defenders huh. this is gonna be less of an essay and more of a sleepy ramble but ohhh i have so many thoughts. they all process things so differently and none of them are good at it they all need therapy so bad. ms.g where is the hero therapy why didnt you build that into w.a.t.c.h ma'am
vyncent is probably the best at actually processing things out of all of them, he just internalizes everything to the point where he wont talk about it unless hes pushed past the breaking point. vyncent is actually very.. emotionally intelligent? i want to say mature but that feels like im singling him out because hes the oldest. i just feel like because he grew up on Fauna and had to be in basically survival mode in a world full of monsters trying to kill you.. that makes a person grow up quicker than they should. i think vyncent had a good childhood and for the most part his parents took good care of him but just.. living in that world doesnt seem like it leaves room for a whole lot of expressing emotions. vyncent is good at quick analysis of a situation, but unless a problem directly interferes with the current goal he doesnt externalize it to everyone else. but bottling up his feelings and emotions just builds up pressure over time until something like the lich makes him blow up and let it all out at once, usually in a dramatic monologue format bc condi is really good at those god damn it. also they played off the fact that vyncent said all of that to the lich and then missed his attack as a funny thing but i like to think of it as. he got too overwhelmed w his emotions and lashed out too soon it made his fighting messy. vyncent is so angry and honestly after what hes been through he deserves to be !!!!
william wisp. my boy. god hes just like me fr so much so that it physically hurts sometimes. anyway. i always think back to the scene where theyre all in the cabin talking about themselves/sharing backstories and william keeps desperately trying not to talk about himself. the fact that hes so ashamed of his powers he hides wisp form every time. two of his powers are LITERALLY a) turning invisible and b) turning intangible, usually as an excuse to leave whatever situation hes in ("accidentally" falling through the floor at opportune moments in season 1) . theres. a thing that happens at the end of episode 13/beginning of epidode 14 that youre really close to and i wont spoil yet but god it has to do with this so extremely much please come back to my inbox when you get there. youll know what it is trust me. um. yeah. so anyway. i think a lot of this comes from a place of. he doesnt want anyone to be scared of him. williams not stupid hes incredibly smart and insightful he knows his powers are objectively SCARY. hes scared of himself constantly, he doesnt want anyone else to feel that way about him, so he shifts focus whenever those aspects of himself are brought up because if someone were to think about it for any amount of time theyd realize the truth that hes scary and dangerous to be around (<< william logic. hey remember how one of the reasons he originally left deadwood was because the monsters there were attracted to the wisps and therefore Him so he left to keep his friends/family out of danger)
i think a lot about williams death and the immediate aftermath, i dont know how much you actually know and how much of this comes later but . how does he go home after waking up from that. his parents know about his powers, so they MUST know what happened. what do you think he told them when he god home muddy and dirty and broken and probably bloody after being missing for. god knows how long. how does he look his mother in the eyes and tell her her little boy is dead. but hes also not because hes standing right in front of her. how the fuck do you think he felt the first time he went into wisp form and saw his body laying there !!! of course he wouldnt want to talk about that!!!! youre gonna have to pry william wisps emotions from his cold dead hands !!!!!!!
dakota's response to the ashe situation was to run away in the woods and do nothing but train for 10 months. he didnt think about it for 10 months. i dont even have a whole lot to say about dakota other than like. stunned silence whenever his inability to process trauma is brought up because grizzly does such an incredible job at being like "you ask dakota how hes doing and his face is just blank" << paraphrased actual quote from an episode i cannot remember which one. either 11 or 12 ?
also because im thinking about him im including ashe in this. we didnt get to see a whole lot of his canon reactions to extreme emotional situations so a lot of this is just coming from My Mind but ashe seems like hed be the type to repress a lot of his emotions too. being alone in your house/in your room for extended periods of time will do that to a guy. i think he feels a lot of things and will probably very openly cry/scream/get angry when hes alone but as soon as he knows another person is there he can immediately flip the switch to turn it all off like nothing happened. very much a deadpan "im fine." if someone asks how hes doing, even if hes got like. the remainder of tear tracks down his face. cannot physically express his emotions in the presence of someone else
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st4rstudent · 1 year ago
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Ok the fandom wiki is back to normal as of earlier, so if you accidentally stumble upon it, it'll be fine.
However please make sure to keep using the New and Improved Wiki, which is not only easier to navigate and is more pleasant, but also the new preferred wiki. (Not only to mention the various issues that Fandom wiki has). Bookmark it or something if you need to.
As future reference, it should be noted that vandalism on the fandom wiki will not help take the wiki down due to fandom's policy, despite previous otherwise thoughts (myself included) and the continuous vandalism only brings traction to it. As well as, mentioning the new wiki will have the possibility to demote and ban the current mods of the fandom wiki.
As silly as the entire thing was, please make sure to use the new wiki and refrain from going back to the old one. Especially since last night made the fandom wiki get a lot of traction.
As a reminder, here are some extensions you can use to help avoid using the fandom wiki: 1 (redirector) 2 (wiki.gg redirector) 3 (wiki indie buddy)
and here's the reddit post about it
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See. It's like I know that if something makes you happy then it isn't a stupid purchase because it makes you happy. But man just hearing an outside source say it is different. Brain and the power of validation or something.
Anyway, apperently the little Dr.C Fingz can't be shipped in an envelope because the post office won't allow something that isn't completely flat. This information and me asking my co-worker what his rule of thumb for buying something stupid is which lead to the "if it makes you happy then it isn't stupid"
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squaduck · 28 days ago
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Huh.
Thanks to all the strangers who liked a single post, and thanks to all the weirdos who stuck around.
But also, what? I pretty much do nothing.
I occasionally reblog stuff, sure, but not a whole lot.
Sorry for the long tags. I'm just going slightly insane and didn't want to make a mile long post. (Also, did anyone know that there's a tag limit??? It's 30 tags apparently.) (also also, because tmi, im disabling reblogs.)
#100 likes#tumblr milestone#thank you#dont worry it hasn't gone to my head too much#i was going to write a whole bunch about how “oh but i don't do anything!”#but i realized that that would be dumb#this definitely feels undeserved. but considering that its cumulative over a long time it's not that crazy#i was also going to write about how most of my posts are just because I want attention. but that's kinda the point of social media.#also i need to unpack that more. probably not online.#i feel like a faximile of all the wrong parts of the blogs i like#i simultaneously need more and less inhibitions#i was writing a whole bunch of stuff (like a LOT) but then i remembered this isn't quite an endless void to yell into#I've definitely got problems and tumblr seems like an inadvisable solution#ugh. i promise that i am actually loved and stuff irl. i just struggle to ask for help and I'm too stoic for my own good#it'd just be awkward to start asking for help because I've dug myself in too deep without asking for help#edit: where i said stoic earlier also add stubborn.#whoops. starting treating this like a void again#I'm probably just burnt out too. I've heard that's common for gifted kids. (new lore: i was labeled as gifted)#I'm going to stop writing this in the tags of a random ass post#some of what I've written would make more sense with the tags i deleted. whatever.#im just#yelling into the not-quite void#so i don't want to start a conversation about any of this because I'm just thinking about it myself#after re-reading this i have determined that its incomprehensible. too bad. I've gotta get some sleep#y'know what? heres a summary of the tags i deleted#i overcomplicate things and will likely not stop#im bad at talking about stuff because i verbalize it and then think more and then negate what I've already said#I'm failing an English class because of the aforementioned overcomplication of things#all of this is almost certainly TMI but too bad. its incomprehensible anyway.#re: more/less inhibitions. more as in no tmi. less as in i should reblog more. (eg: i have 69670 liked posts vs 486 posts)
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Idk of it's something else or if it's just the effect PureShadow/ShadowVanilla has on me, but part of me has the urge to draw Darkmatter ships (none of them are healthy, darkmatter's only gonna make them worse)
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I love being within walking distance of a bakery
#bumpy cake get in my mouth challenge tehe#Still trying not to spend much but I rarely buy myself treats#and I’ve been strictly making my own food for the past few months due to ~tax season~#and ~auto insurance season~ being directly on top of each other#But now that I have the first auto insurance payment out of the way I can relax a bit#Personally can’t fathom buying a large coffee every morning like some people my age#I mean whatever makes you happy but if you spend 3–5 dollars every day that adds up quickly#Although I do save money very aggressively for what I earn so I’m probably biased#And even though I have a lot saved for my age I will not touch it until it is absolutely necessary#Not sure what I’m saving for other than adaptation expenses… maybe a house? Top surgery? Something like that#I’m definitely going to wait on top surgery until after I’ve fulfilled my duties with my current student so that’s like…#uh… four years?#Why does my life move along in fours. I guess that’s just my lucky number :)#And NO ONE HAD BETTER OUTBID ME FOR THEM#I will be pissed because I and the entire school know I’m perfect for their needs and that we get along wonderfully#and even though I have basically no seniority I’m better than a lot of paras with a lot of seniority#who may outbid me like they did to one of this student’s former paras who was good like me#And if that happens again I swear to fucking god—#My student deserves better than to have a rotation of substitutes as their 1:1. Just please leave me in there.#I like them. They like me. We respect each other. I am alert and durable with strong young bones in my body#Just please keep me with them until they graduate. For their sake mine and everyone else’s.#I’m keeping the dialogue around them positive but also taking a very grave tone with people about what to do around them#for everyone’s safety and also so no one bids for them but me because I know what I’m doing and should stay right where I am#for the same reason that a heron should not attempt to pick a crocodile’s teeth like the little bird does#don’t fuck with our symbiosis#There are only two other people I’d trust in my position because they’ve worked with them before#and they’re not herons fish bison or perhaps zebras#they too are little birds
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