#i also wont have access to internet all the time so i wont be on tumblr much either

[imblocking-you]

Percy Jackson show coming out literally is like digging down and unearthing my roots, it was so formative for me, been there through a lot of transitions and phases, through meeting the most important people in my life now, getting to know myself and the world around me, life was so great, but i've grown up and come to know that life continues to be great.

The world doesn't end at 17.

[loveryss]

It is a sh*t weather in Strangerville and it's making me want to not play at all 😩

[the-muse-of-not-writing]

KOSA is becoming a bigger and bigger threat

if trump get elected, there's an almost 100% chance that KOSA will be passed in 2025.

KOSA is a mass censorship bill that will allow the government to not show certain things online, saying its to 'protect kids'.

the things they want to "protect" kids from include LGBT, reproductive healthcare resources, and resources for marginalized groups. but really they'll just censor whatever they want. including information about whats currently happening in the middle east.

(i do NOT have any solid proof for what I'm about to say, so please, unless you can find hard information about it, don't take it as fact: i think that twitter only letting people see ~500 tweets per day is in a similar vain to KOSA. i heard someone say that the reason this change was made was to leave people uninformed for when the time comes to vote. I've also noticed social media sites getting...stricter? over just the past year and a half or so)

parents will also be given access to their childs search history, which could put the child in danger if they don't live in an accepting household. these children wont be left with any safe online places to go.

not only that, if this bill passes, your data will no longer be encrypted!!

even though this bill is targeting kids, this will effect adults too. if you want to use a social media sight, not posting on it just to use it, you will have to dox yourself by uploading your ID online. for everyone to see.

what can you do to help?

call and email your senators. the combination of both will yield the best results. email your senator multiple times. its very common for them to not pay attention to things like this unless they're being bombarded.

signing petitions, telling friends and family, spreading the word. i will have some linked here on the post, as well as some sources that will go more in depth than i did.

if i got anything wrong or have spread false information, please let me know.

i wish i could have found it again but i couldn't: it was this website where you would type out your own personal experiences on how the internet was important to you, what it helped you with, and your reasons on why KOSA is harmful. i remember it being a google form that i had found.

[rosetheocto]

hello to my 16 followers on here and anyone else who stumbles upon this post can you guys do me a quick favor if you live in the US?

Tell your senators that KOSA/Earn It/other internet bills that are similar will not protect anyone.

There are a lot of people that are wording this better than I am but this is gonna censor the internet of anything “inappropriate” (which basically means LGBTQIATS+ content and overall mental health stuff that can prevent kids from killing themselves) so like yeah can we make that law not happen please?

Oh yea also if it does anyone above the age of 16(?) will need to upload their drivers licenses to access the internet and even then all of your personal info will be out there for anyone to grab, plus it’ll be easier for predators to get away with harming kids if this passes, overall we wont be having a good time

Here’s the Bad Internet Bills website

[paingoes]

Rubies

Web 2.0

(Content: living weapon whumpee, guilt, conditioning, past abuse, caretaker new master)

Apollo had stayed true to his promise of making the room less sparse. He’d brought down books from upstairs so Delta would have something to do besides staring off into space whenever he locked himself in his room. He’d given him a journal too, which Delta found tremendously suspicious. Delta had a habit of destroying everything he’d ever written just as soon as he had finished. He would continue on in this tradition. Anyone having that kind of direct access to his thoughts terrified him. He was grateful for the books, though. 

It was Kitty who offered her old laptop.

“Don’t…look too hard through that,” She said with a nervous smile. She’d done all she could to reset it, but she couldn’t be sure there weren’t still some gems lying around in its SSD. 

Delta reflexively recoiled at the offer. There was such a strong impulse in his head to avoid getting caught with the laptop. It carried over now, even when freely offered. She left it on the desk for him. He would only use it in the dead of night, out of pure habit. It didn’t feel the same as it used to. It couldn’t hold his attention for very long.

There was a practical reason to reintroduce it, though. Kitty acted a bit furtive about it; Apollo said they weren’t supposed to be working. That’s what unpaid leave meant. But there wasn’t really anyone else they could kick it off to. They had to go through the archives. 

Kitty had already backed up everything he had posted publicly, plus all the exchanges they’d had in private. He’d focused in more once she’d mentioned it, agreeing it needed to be deleted as soon as possible so that there was nothing left to piece together about his alleged death. But there was other information on there that only he had access to, that they now needed to preserve before scrubbing.

katkittykat: ok we also were gonna try and offer u whistleblower immunity

katkittykat: but forget it i know u wont accept it

ndhakdvsnnd: im not a whistleblower

katkittykat: see what did i say 

ndhakdvsnnd: can you fuck off

They scrolled through the archived chat logs in dim silence. Kitty was sitting next to him on the floor with the new old laptop up on the coffee table. Neither of them needed to say it. It was weird to go through their old texts while in person. 

It wasn’t Kitty’s first time meeting an internet friend. She had done it more times than she could count. Almost all of them had been shyer and more reserved in person, so she had already expected Delta to follow in that trend. But it was clear that what was going on with him is a different beast entirely.

When she turned to look at him, his eyes were cast down again and his head was bowed. Loose strands fell in his face. He removed his hand from the touchpad, letting it rest in his lap.

“I’m sorry,” he said quietly, “I…shouldn’t have talked to you like that.”

“Just bants, man.” Kitty elbowed him — not a good idea. He winced, the pain reigniting in the handprint-shaped bruise around his upper arm.

“It was disrespectful.” He closed his eyes. It was guilt — not fear — that was audible in his voice.

“I’ve never done anything respectable,” she joked.

He opened his eyes to meet her own. His expression was wholly disbelieving. It wasn’t a joke to him. She remembered how sincerely he’d spoken the other day. Thank you for saving me. She’d tried to brush it off, but her heart had hurt badly afterwards. It hurt again now.

“Don’t worry about it. Seriously.” She had to resist the urge to squeeze his shoulder the way she would with her other friends; she saw how he had flinched whenever she touched him. Thankfully, he didn’t mention it again.

The loading icon went around and around as the account was deleted. Just as soon as it stopped, the home page of the forum appeared. In bold letters, it read Sign Up.

“You gonna make a new account?” She asked.

“Do you think I should?” His hand hovered over the button. 

“I dunno. You were active way before you started posting all the leaks. I thought you were having a good time with it,” she paused, “Guess it might be kind of touchy now though?”

It did make him really anxious to be on the computer. It made him feel too much like he was about to be caught out, as little sense as it made. He started to shrug, then stopped himself. Disrespectful.

“Yes, miss,” he agreed, “It’s…touchy.”

That was putting it mildly, but he had no desire to say more. He pocketed the thought, though. He probably would get back online later. It just felt like too much to do it now, without her explicit guidance. The thought alone was starting to overwhelm him. He shifted uncomfortably.

“Can I go back in my room, miss?” He asked in a soft voice. 

“Yeah, whatever. You don’t have to ask.” She tried to reassure him. He’d gotten scared at some point; she could see it in the way he held himself. She didn’t really want for him to go off to deal with it alone, but she wasn’t going to force him to stay. She watched as he disappeared behind the door. He’d left the laptop behind. She shut it for him, then stretched upwards, climbing up onto the couch.

=======

“Does he talk to you?” Apollo would later ask her. He added, a bit dejectedly, “He doesn’t talk to me.”

“Nah.” She shook her head.

“Well, it’s still early,” Apollo started arguing with himself when she wouldn’t, “I guess he’s still scared. I’m not sure what I can say to him that isn’t going to sound trite. He always hated it when I tried say stuff like that to him over text. So defensive. I don’t know if it’ll go over better or worse now.”

She could tell he’d been thinking about it often. Fussing came so naturally to him. She’d liked it a lot when they were a little younger, when she was even crazier and badly needed someone to try and reel her back in. It isn’t lost on her that Delta has the exact opposite problem, that Apollo’s delimiting nature could have the opposite effect. He badly wanted for things to be clean.

“You shouldn’t take it purrsonally.” The pun slipped into her voice even when she was trying to be serious.

“I know,” he agreed, “I…don’t think he was allowed to talk before. It’s rude to speculate. I don’t want to be presumptuous. But.”

He threw his hands up at the wrists, not finishing the sentence. There was nothing to do but speculate. It was clear enough Delta had not been treated well; the bruises spoke for themselves. But the particulars of his behavior were a kind of puzzle box. He offered no key for it.

Galatea had dealt with Empire’s lot before, both refugees and defectors. Apollo had met many of them personally. There was always a stilted manner in which they spoke. The customs of Empire still remained enigmatic to all those living outside of it. Apollo had no way of telling how much of Delta’s behavior was just a cultural difference — or even a linguistic one — and how much of it was something deeper. He could not tell how much of it was motivated by fear or confusion or simple exhaustion. How much of it was what he wanted vs what he thought he was supposed to do. Apollo wished desperately for some kind of candor between them. Still, he understood that it would be asking a lot of him at that point. He sighed. 

========

The knock was soft and rhythmic. Delta jumped, immediately moving to hide the laptop beneath his blanket. It wasn’t as good as beneath the mattress, but decent enough on short notice. He mechanically slid off the bed, dropping onto his knees at the foot of it. The door did not open.

“Can I come in?” It was Apollo’s voice on the other side. Yes, obviously. It wasn’t locked.

“Yes, sir,” Delta answered anyway. 

Apollo pushed the door open. His eyes widened a little to see Delta kneeling, but he did not show the same visible alarm that he had before. He slid the door shut behind him, leaning back against it.

“I thought it might be good for us to talk,” Apollo said. He tried to read Delta’s body language, but it did not shift by much. Deliberately controlled. He didn’t answer, staring up at Apollo with huge eyes, patient and expectant. Apollo pushed himself on. It was trite, but if there really was any confusion about Delta’s position, it wouldn’t be right to leave him hanging.

“You can sit. That’s what I wanted to talk to you about, actually. Levon told you he wasn’t going to hurt you, didn’t he? And you know that me and Kitty won’t either? You don’t have to be scared of us. You’re safe here.”

Delta didn’t move off of the ground. His head had lowered a little bit, as if he was being scolded. He didn’t take his eyes off of Apollo. 

Apollo squatted down onto his heels, trying to get to Delta’s level.

“Are you scared?” He asked.

“…Yes, sir.” Delta nodded slowly.

“Okay,” Apollo nodded too, rubbing his chin, “That’s okay. Can I ask why?”

Delta’s wrung his hands anxiously; it was a childhood habit, one he’d mostly gotten out of by the time he’d graduated. It’d returned with a vengeance.

“I don’t know.” He said shamefully. “Sir. I’m sorry.”

“You don’t have to be sorry. It’s okay. I just wanted to check in on how you’re feeling. I can’t tell a lot of the time. You know you can talk to me or Kitty if you’re upset, right? We want you to be comfortable here. You can tell us if something is wrong.”

Apollo doubted it even as he said it. It seemed unlikely that Delta would come to them for anything, that he might not be physically capable of it at this point. But if he introduced the idea early — and reminded him often — it might start to sink in. For the time being, Delta did not respond.

“I’m assuming the kneeling is a habit, right?” Apollo ventured. Delta seemed a bit alarmed at the suggestion. 

“It’s just to be respectful. Sir.” Delta explained in a quiet voice.

He considered this. It might’ve been easier if it was just muscle memory, not a deliberate effort on Delta’s part. The mindset would be harder to get him out of. But Apollo was very glad that Delta had been willing to explain his reasoning to him. It was a good sign.

“Okay. You don’t have to,” He stated very clearly, “You can stand up. We won’t think it’s disrespectful. No one else will, either. You don’t have to do it.”

Again, not much changed in Delta’s expression. He offered the same quiet noise of affirmation, not voicing anything else. 

“Do you have any questions?” Apollo cursed himself for not asking sooner. But Delta didn’t take advantage of the opportunity the way he had hoped. 

“No, sir.” Delta folded his hands in his lap. He’d answered too soon. Apollo wondered if the question had come across as bullying. He got the sense he was starting to push too far out of Delta’s comfort zone. 

“Alright. Let me know if you need anything. Like I said, you can talk to us whenever. We’re right out here.” He stood up, feeling a little bad that Delta was still kneeling. He started to close the door.

He heard a soft “Thank you” just before it clicked shut.

…………

tags:

@catnykit @snakebites-and-ink @vivulapom @scoundrelwithboba @whatwhump

@pumpkin-spice-whump @deluxewhump @fuckass1000 @fuckcapitalismasshole @defire

@micechomper @writereleaserepeat

[eternalera]

discussing project 2025 and how it will most likely NOT affect ao3

tw: p0rn mentions/discussion

ive seen some news in the past few days about something called project 2025 and how it could result in ao3 being taken down because theyre trying to limit pornography and theyre classifying the lgbtq (or trying to) as part of that content.

people are afraid that because of this ao3 might be taken down as a result but here's why it most likely won't and you don't need to worry to much (but should still be cautious just in case). from my reading of the situation theyre mainly focusing on porn sites, porn hub and things like that. theyre started making it so that you have to enter in your drivers ID to prove that you are above the age of 18 so that kids and stuff dont have access to this content.

of course that itself is going to take a while because its a whole damn website, its not just in the US but it's international in itself. the programming and passing the bill will take an extremely long amount of time.

but this bill (or whatever) also violates things such as freedom of speech. writing is a form of speech and you are allowed to write about whatever the hell you want and no one is able to take that away, whether it be online or in real life and believe it or not writing gay fanfiction is a form of speech. especially if youre creating healthy gay relationships and promoting lgbtq content. the government cant just take that away because they classify it as 'porn' when its clearly not.

thats called censorship, limiting what you see so that they can control what you get fed in media and stuff like that. but not only that but if they were to do this then it would also affect sites like twitter, facebook, discord, pinterest, tumblr, literally ANY website where you can make ANY statement this would affect.

and no one is going through with that lets be honest for a second. because at that point its just controlling the internet and whats put out and what isnt. and no one can do that, at least not in america because guess what? YOU HAVE RIGHTS. and i can NOT stress this enough.

the government is NOT allowed to control what media you get fed and what you create. in fact that cant even reasonably define lgbtq stuff as porn because guess what? it wont work. people will riot, they will find a way, and yknow why? BECAUSE ITS NOT PORN.

then again you must be wondering about the explicit fics on ao3 and to that i say what about the explicit stuff on twitter? the bots on tumblr? hell even youtube.

the government cannot control all of this.

and if they were to even try i guarantee that the silly little website known as ao3 will be one of the first not even top five things that they try to target.

they'll target pornhub, youtube, twitter, literally ANYTHING before they get to ao3. and even if they do im more than certain that ao3 will lawyer up and put together a case about why they should stay in tact.

ACTUALLY if they try doing this in the slightest about ANY website that site is likely to fight back.

so while you should stay cautious i dont think any major panic is necessary. in order to take down ao3 the freedom of speech would need to be taken away in an amendment and that is not happening.

so basically, stay cautious but dont be too worried. and if ao3 does get taken down (which it most likely wont) there will probably be a set date where you can download and save everything before then

[ivyminie]

I'm so excited for Jimin's return, but at the same time, I'm very anxious and worried about everything he's going to see. Comments on lives (group or individual), posters at shows, and all the hate some people are willing to direct at him. Will the members of the most problematic ship, full of disgusting people who harass a member of the group daily, never deny this sick narrative? They're almost 30 years old, this is ridiculous. Is it all because of the engagement these people give them? Because I'm 100% sure they know about these freaks and what they do on the internet. So why the silence? Everything got worse during the military service period, when I thought they would leave Jimin alone. I just want him to be free from this.

jimin has been getting hate and gone through sooo much (2017,2018...) when he was so active, and when he became chronically offline, and even when he was completely inactive and enlisted..atp there is no freeing him out of it cause this is pure sick obsession and it won't fade away unless he becomes completely an irrelevant artist that faded into the shadows with no support and no one talking about him(which is not happening any time soon and which is these ppl's biggest dream). As for those members, wanting them to speak to me would a personal satisfaction but in reality it wont have an impact on the hate jimin gets, tkkrs aren't waiting for jungkook or taehyung to tell them to stop hating on jimin to flip the mental illness switch they have, and trust they will still find a way to manipulate even that to the reality THEY want, like we are talking about the same people who read that "get out of your imagination" and made it into a whole different thing and who are strong believers bts members are part of a script and bh is hiding taekook, When taekook were barely interacting and tkkrs lived on crumbs during 2017-2020 it made them even more delusional and insane and they tripled in number so they also didn't even wait for tae to throw bones at them (yes i'm singling him out and i have my theory on it especially in 2022-2023), like atp if even one of taekook publicly dates, they are gonna go with the larries exact same logic. I can still understand the criticism of not speaking out tho, but i'm not here expecting or hoping for it as that life changing move. If they do it, it will be a commendable brave action but idk if any of them can go out and put into words the reality that he is shipped romatically with his fellow member and that another member is getting hated on because of their made up relationship. My highest expectation of these two would be to talk generally against the hate their fans send to jimin but im sure at most it will all be part of a vague statement where they wont even be able to single out those fans for what they are.....and jimin will somehow end up getting the burnt out of it with pjms too, and it will end up in a shitshow (maybe im too pessimistic idk)

Also if you think about it, tae has made statements in the past about how bts is 7 and that people should love all 7 without leaving one out, did anyone listen?

I genuinely get the frustration over all of this, but at times i feel like because of all those feelings we start scratching at different surfaces trying to find surface level solutions and it turns into either "jimin should get out of bts" "jimin should stop interacting with jungkook" "taekook should speak up"

Also jimin still had access to the internet during enlistement and there were so many hate trains that happened in that time, i just always hope the hate doesnt get to a level where it becomes offline in concerts or fanmeets (on live tbh he's been there at the heights of taekookers mass emailing big hit against jikook and it never “fazed” him seemingly or made him stop interacting with jk) so overall i can only hope he reaches a level where he is above all of this doesn't check and finds his own healthy balance which honestly i do think he had already found years ago when he freed himself from being on socials and that we also shower him with love that it drowns the rest away as much as possible,and fight for him (ig its also part of stanning anyone who is relevant) and maybe im not better because i dont have a concrete solution but tbh maybe it should actually start with his company taking real actions would be the most rational way to go about it.

[taikavaris-grimoire]

Scavenger Hunt Divination Set

New witch looking for divination tools? Broke witch unsure what to do? Old witch wanting something fun to do?

Look no further! In this post I am showing you how to make divination cards through a scavenger hunt!

All you will need are scissors and glue and access to trash. Maybe a pen.

Let's start with some notes:

1. In this post I talk about making a deck, but in this same way you can also collect a trinket/bone throwing set. It's the way I collected mine, but now want to try it out on a divination deck. 2. Don't look up "inspiration" pictures on the internet, that's not what we are doing here. We are here to dig through the trash, so setting expectations is just not what we want. 3. Don't look up "what symbolizes X" or "Y symbolism", this is an exercise to get to know yourself, your gut, your own expression and connections. What someone sees as symbol of something, might not be the same for you. 4. You will not make this deck in one day, it's a scavenger hunt, things will come to you at different times. This will teach you to keep your eye out for connections. 5. The deck will change as you go on. You will start with a baseline list, but trust me, that will change as you go. You will notice that some parts just don't fit for you or that you need to add something. This deck is not set on stone, and neither are you, so let it change along with you.

----Baseline----

First things first, we need to make a list of things we want. Simple things to start growing our deck.

I will make a list of examples to get you started. In the list might be things that are quite similar to each other, this is just to give options and to show there are many ways to show something. Pick what feels relevant to you, leave out anything that is not fitting, add anything you feel like you want in your deck. Personalise. Make it yours. This is also just a base line, your list can change as you get going and get an idea of what you need. Work on it as you go.

Love (romantic/platonic/friendship) Money / Success Home Health Family / Close circle of people Mother figure / Father figure / Sibling / Supporter / Child Work School / Studying / Learning / Lessons Obstacle Path / Journey / Travel Change / Beginning / End Growth Dream / Hope / Goal Warning / Keep an eye on Hobbies / Art / Music / Magic Hidden / Missing piece Key / Lock

Connection - Detachment Balance - Unbalance Stability - Instability Strength - Weakness Open path - Closed path Clear - Unclear Towards - Away from Negativity - Positivity Calm - Chaos Reward - Punishment Give - Take Danger - Safety

Some things can be presented by a card being upside down to mean the opposite, but if you shuffle your cards too controlled (like I do) that wont work, so I have chosen to list both options, choose what route fits you.

----Card Bases----

What do we make the cards on?

You could get a playing card deck from a second-hand shop if you feel like it, or if you or someone you know have weird worthless "collection" cards laying around you could use those. Paint sample cards from hardware stores are also good material to use. But some of those options might need money, so lets dig out some trash. Cereal boxes, or anything similar, are great for this. Depending on what size you want, you can measure and cut the cardboard to size, or trace with something like your bankcard or id.

As always, be careful with the scissors.

Make more than you have on your list, that way its easy to add more when needed or change things up.

You can either write the things you have chosen on the cards, or just keep the list on you (physical or digital).

----Let the Hunt begin----

Start finding. Start looking. Newspapers, advertisements, pamphlets, old wall calendars, magazines, receipts, old notebooks, anything.

You wont find everything right away, that's the point! Newspapers and magazines change with the seasons and you might come across something just walking on the street!

When you find something, cut it to size and glue it on your card base.

And these are fully YOUR cards, so feel free to write on the card the meaning. Human memory is fickle. This is your deck. Do what suits you, do what helps you.

Trouble seeing what fits? Consider taking a postcard or something, and cut in the middle the shape of your card. This helps you frame specific areas and to see better what would fit.

Don't focus on what looks "good", focus on what makes you think about the intended meaning of the card. This is also when you might come across something that makes you think of possible card meanings that you don't have om your list - add them. You might find unintended treasures on a scavenger hunt!

There you have it. Go forth, craft freely and play around. Feel free to tag me to any creations (or message me pictures of them!) because I would just love to see what all of you come up with.

Happy hunting!

[itsaspectrumcomic]

man ok idk if youll be able to advise on this or something but like. do you know anything regarding dealing with like internalised ableism?

i live in a rural part of ireland, right? and idk what it is about rural ireland but some of the people are heinous. my school is in a small miserable-ass town and like. God, man. not everyone sucks, of course but like. jesus lol additionally i have a ~mildly ableist~ mother (a "we're all a little bit autistic" and "erm. youre not disabled because youre not in a wheelchair or blind/deaf" etc etc type stuff. + "npd = bad person" which isnt particularly good for me specifically because i have npd (that i both Cant get an official diagnosis for, for various reasons, and im not really Looking for one either because i know what i am and its not like you get support for it because ~ooh scary narcissist~.)

and like. idk if this is Obvious but that can kinda cause a weird-ass relationship with You (being Me in this case, yk how it is with the second person perspective when. ranting) and The Concept Of Being Disabled. like, objectively. im disabled. im autistic, ive definitely got adhd (that im hopefully going to get examined for at some point cause college stuff requires it for the disability forums and stuff. gotta love that. fuckin 80% comorbidity right?), ive got a laughable number of repetative strain injuries, i have a sensory processing disorder, an endocrine disease that effects my Entire cardiovascular system, a spine that felt a lil quirky and bent in too much. so on a so forth

but also like. it feels wrong to call myself disabled. yk, like im doing a disservice to all the other ~actually~ disabled people (being Anyone but me lol) (none of this is At All helped by the fact that my mother refuses to listen to me regarding Jack Shit about my health in Any way. "oh you nearly passed out on top of a hill because of your cardiovascular condition? erm youre just not exercising enough actually" "you dont have depression [said while i was filling out an assigned mood diary after being forcefully brought to camhs for Reasons" like. shut the fuck up and Listen to me please. at least Entertain the idea that i could be right about something for fucking once lmao. cause ive been right about EVERYTHING regarding my mental health so fucking far so. fuck off /nay ofc) (also man. like, even if you ignored the physical issues ive got im still disabled on account of being autistic. like, motor function is fine, despite being a lil clumsy and/or unsteady sometimes but like. my emotional needs are Fucked. think of the response youd get if you asked a. fuckin. 8 year old or something to do algebra. but with a very emotionally stunted and traumatised 17 year old lol. lmao, even /lh)

so like. if youve got. any advice or whatever on any of this thatd be Super cool + no pressure obvs. sorry this is a whole. like. fucking essay's worth of Random Guy Complaining To You On The Internet lol

-🐢 <- just so i can find this again if you respond. i Like Turtles. i am Normal about the tmnt and also turtles The Creatures. i wont talk at length about turtle mutant anatomy (i am deceiving you)

Internalised ableism is a really hard thing to deal with, especially when you're surrounded by people who constantly re-enforce it. I've also spent a lot of time worrying that I'm not disabled 'enough' to deserve certain accommodations, that I'm making an unnecessary fuss. But the truth is, autism IS a disability and if there are accommodations that can help support you, you deserve access to them. You're not taking away from others with disabilities by advocating for yourself.

It's taken me a long time to understand this and I still worry sometimes. What has helped is talking about my experiences with people I know understand, like my therapist or best friend, and learning about the experiences of other autistic people through books, social media, YouTube and even real life.

I'm sorry your mother and others aren't being understanding - remember that's a them problem, not you, and try to spend your time with people who do understand.

🐢🐢🐢 <- the turtles wish you luck

[the-autistic-spider]

this is Daniel James aka apollo

this is a close up of his face as you can see he has freckles

the lines under the screen are wires that go into his body as he has wires running right along his veins to control all the cybernetic parts

also most of the info is on the drawing here V

the text under photos will be a bit more descriptive

this is technically a young justice (show) oc

he can sing to boost/weaken his teammates/enemy's so if he sings a song about speed most of the team will be faster

if he sings a song about luck the team will be more lucky (depending on the song the more draining it will be like luck would be extremely draining on energy)

but the song must be sung live to work but it works as long as its live through a speaker

he stole the jacket (no need to elaborate he just stole it)

originally his name was Apollo and his hero ID was DJ

but i didn't like that so it became Daniel James aka Apollo

because of civilians hearing him being called DJ and Apollo they assume his full title it D.J. Apollo

the drones he has are made for him along with the headphones as he is extremely sensitive to sound so they stay on 24/7

after he got the screen over his left eye he is able to access the internet and more as the parts where originally a phone

he lost his left arm in his first fight against the full project sound wave

origin: while out in Gotham (before he was a hero) he was hit in the face by a stray bat-a-rang thrown by robin (he had no tech on his person at the time) which made him lose his left eye as later that day he grabbed his phone his bag and it fused to him replacing his left eye with the screen you can see.

his main rogue's origin:

his uncle Liam franklin was working on a classified project that DJ knew as

Project_Sound_Wave

his uncle was in an accident with the project causing him to need a blood donation and the only one available was DJ so he unknowingly gave his uncle his meta gene through blood donation

the accident left his uncle with 2 personality's where he would do something but be unaware the other personality only called them self P_S_W aka Project_Sound_Wave

sound wave has the exact same powers as DJ but they absorb the sound around them to weaponize it as his vocal cords are fully gone from the accident

he has speakers in his hands he can use to fire pure sound to launch himself up/launch teammates/enemy's away

the speakers he has on his belts are specially made for him by his uncle and link to him by Bluetooth (yes he has a Bluetooth connection) and they can fold out to become drones to boost his musical boost range.

the speaker in his throat can change his voice to match with any song he sings to sound correct

doesn't like robin much as he found out about a second part of his powers by being hit in the eye by a stray bat-a-rang

recorded songs wont have his power boost effect it has to be sung live for the effect to work his voice being projected live through speakers is fine though as long as it is a live singing

feel free to redraw in your art style just credit me please=]

[indigitalembrace]

[ooc: since this is a long message I’m not encoding it, but it is encrypted in-universe]

spooky. sup.

i got somthin big cookin. but for this to work i need intel.

first, i need a favour. i cant do much thanks to the watchdog. i so much as twitch my fingers on the keyboard in the wrong place an time and this whole operation will come crashin down. so. if u can, watch the shrimp for me when they are online doin mundane stuff. because if they do stuff like use social media, play games that require a registered account, use their email and especially if they get online deliveries to their house, those all will have info that will help me figure out where they live irl.

second: tell me everything u know about how pinkie can access an affect the real world. whats the limitations. how much warning would i get. what r the access points. do devices need power for it to be able ta use em? how functional do they have to be? would pinkie be able to exit a screen the size of a pager or somthin? does it need an internet connection to jump pcs or can it do that without it?

and can it be hurt in the real world? can it be hurt by destroying its host device while its occupyin it? or is the only way to kill it digitally? did you ever have a program specifically set up for that (if so, y u no gimmie dat earlier!? rude!). how long would it take?

also any info u have picked up on shrimp or their livin space that might be useful for an irl confrontation would be suuuuuper handy as well.

give me all ya got on all these things. if its a lot, just send me a zip file or somthin lol.

i do have some unfortunate news. i think we gotta change our 'meeting site' soonish. ill send ya some prospectives later. i have a feelin that it might get compromised.

i mayyyyyy have poked the shrimp with a stick. don’t worry, they wont be able to tell the actual pc I used. I am da disquise master. it is me. also i lied. ive scrounged up some burner laptops anyway. my friends r awesome (dont worry they aint involved they just knew I needed the laptops for reasons and they are used to me Enacting Shenanigans).

oh. And one last thing. when I get there, hightail off that pc asap. im gonna signal u and give you a path to a safe pc. Do Not Hesitate. cuz trust me no matter how I decide ta play this u will *not* wanna be on that computer when im doin my thing. and ill almost certainly be disabling the wi-fi in the process.

id like u ta not be double dead. low key fond of ya spookster.

Goblin out

[ooc: If there is a lot of info to give and you don’t want to post it all here, message me and we can work something out like a google doc or something. Or maybe there’s not much for Sonny to say. I dunno, I’m not driving this crazy train lol]

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[junkypenni]

Hello supporting friends ! My family and I have been suffering and struggling over staying safe and alive for almost 260 days due to the gruesome and catastrophic war over Gaza. Our house and our livelihood source have vanished with the black days of the war and we became displaced, hopeless , homeless and desperate because we can't provide the simplest daily needs . It's a tragedy and hardship. We have been living in a small dirty tent all these sad days, facing famine, terror of bombings , shortage of medical care and with no sanitation facilities . It's incredible hell on earth, and this is why I am asking you to be beside us against these sad days. Support us with the means you have either by donating whatever you can or sharing my link to other donors. Be helpful and supporter to people in need.

🇵🇸‼️I WONT FORGIVE ANYONE WHO IGNORES.‼️🇵🇸

ive been offline for a while but thank you so much for reaching out. this is way too important to just let rot in my ask box.

If you are reading then you are capable of helping Basel Ayyad and his family, even by simply just reblogging.

His father's stores were bombed, Burned and left to nothing but rubble. His eight member family have been forced to leave their home and to live in the south of Gaza in Rafah. they are living in a very small outdoor tent with barely enough food, water, or any kind of hygienic care and health care. In addition to this, his daughter is suffering a rare disease in her growth and her sight for years and with the lack of medical supplies, her health conditions are getting worse by the minute.

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some other links to help Palestine:

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[morphringwiselove]

rambling about art struggles (sorry)

i think what's limiting me during drawing is that im thinking too much about line art / not knowing how to combine line art and color in a manner that im satisfied with

really sorry for how rambly this gets forgive me (this is also barely edited and im barely conscious)

95% of the art i made in my life has been done traditionally and in monochrome; usually i dont bother to ever color it bc i only had access to shitty colored pencils and everytime it would always fuck it up, constantly smudging into each other

4% of the time was like when i was in middle school and discovered how to fucking pirate paint tool sai and i blindly did whatever i could with a mouse (read: i gave myself carpel tunnel a lot lmao). i think i still have access to like 4 drawings i did thanks to google photos and the only ones i can really look back on positively were the line art ones and even then thats cause i used deviantart bases lol

heres the literal 1%: i did an art class back in late 2020 - early 2021 (can't remember what level it was? or what it specialized? it was the third art class i ever took. it might be intro to painting?) and i got to use acrylic paint for an assignment! i fucked up using it because i painted it with the goal of filling up the insides of the lineart instead of using the palette knife to create texture. my subject was an otter in the water (fun thing to say) and the assignment was to create some form of pop art, depict contrast w color (otters are brown i know, wanted to use orange highlights against the blue water) and to show i know how to depict varying textures (fur, liquid).

i did not know how to fucking do that!!! couldnt get any help either due to covid fucking happening and my poor ass's only connection to the internet was my fucking phone data and it was draining fast LMAO

the reason as to why i was so poor was because back in October 2019 my life fucking got flipped upside down and i had to give up a lot and had to desperately try to find a job while being a student. (will not go into specific detail due to me not wanting a pity party about it and it being too personal. im only going to say that caregiver burnout is fucking hell)

a prior assignment to that class had us practicing on depicting textures on some sort of paper (it was stiff yet bendable iirc) with a white and black color pencil (white for fur, black for eyes). i was watching aggretsuko at the time and fenneko is a fav of mine so i picked that type of fox as my subject. im really proud of the way i depicted the fur but fucking hated how i fucked up the eyes. was supposed to show the "glossiness" of it and i dont have a pet irl to reference so ahhhHHHH it ruined the piece for me. pretty sure i have it saved somewhere but since its not fandom related im hesitant to post it.

overall the class made me realise that regardless of skill i rlly like drawing textures and i dont really understand why? tried to reasoned it out to be that i just really like textured blankets and that theyre comforting. i purr like a fucking cat when i like hug one and i hate it

i feel like nowadays with how scatterbrained and stressed i am i visualize blobs of color in my mind instead of clear subjects with clear outlines. i feel like i need to embrace that side more (or at least try starting with that when doing digital art). maybe now i wont be so fucking stuck and pressing ctrl z all the time lol

[slutsofren]

Hi hi!! Just wanted to say happy belated birthday!!!! I’ve been off tumblr for a bit and was sad I missed it + your high lady asks! :(

If you’re in the mood to indulge another question, I’m curious about how you see Az’s personality playing into a relationship with reader!feyre? We’ve definitely already seen some lovely hints of it and I can’t wait for more. So curious to see your take on it. I feel like we all agree that any batboy is a my wife guy but he’s so broody and fierce in a way we never see from Cass & Rhys + there’s no real canon of him in a relationship or smutty situationships so in always interesting how fic authors see him playing out!

Also maybe a silly question but what guilty pleasure do you think reader!Feyre misses most from her original world? Personally feel like I would miss so many snacks and trash tv shows lol

OOOOOH YES YES

ok hi thank you for the bday wishes!!!! 🤍

but on to the juicy stuff!!! so i see az as being more......... man of few words but when he says something you better listen? like bc he is often relegated to the shadows (pun intended) he means what he says when he says something, he wont waste time on babbling. he's a man of action and acts of service and gift giving, he does not do anything just for frivolous reasons. with THAT being said, reader!feyre and az will likely have a more of a quieter relationship, reader!feyre already feels like an island lost to the seas so having someone who would rather be quiet but still spending time in the same room is more his speed and theirs together.

i liked the idea of sjm mentioning az was the freakier of the trio which LOL yeah i can see it. relationship wise- az has had his fair share of bedmates but he has never been one to keep them around long. i feel like az struggles with it. he doesnt have commitment issues per say but he definitely struggles with his view of self worth. high lady azriel feels like if he cant provide his services then what good is he? hence his love language being acts of service as previously mentioned.

when the time comes i have already given MUCH thought for how the bats and IC will react when the truth of reader comes out but for a healthy dose of (ily thank you for interacting with me here kiss kiss muah muah) i will say azriel is the first person to "forgive" reader and comfort them......... i mean it just makes sense

NOW LOL as for what would reader miss from earthly things i think anything to do with the internet and technology. im a millennial, i grew up with the transition of old ass nokia phones where you could only play snake on it and now i have a whole ass mini computer on my phone, i think reader ABSOLUTELY MISSES the convenience of having a cell phone and access to kindle unlimited or social media or google at their fingertips 😭😭😭

but wahh i love these !!! im always down for insight asks or directors cuts!!! love youuuuu anon 🤍🌹

[nullb1rdbones]

okay but jewish orthodox communities are fucking nothing like catholic/christian groups of that nature AT ALL

source: I visit Muncy to see family and have seen that family since i was very small, i KNOW this community

and specifically this community...this community where the women cover their hair and wear ankle length skirts, where the men have payot and wont be caught dead withous a tallis, THIS Community where every resturaunt is kosher and you'll be squinted at if you drive on shabbat, THIS COMMUNITY has been so chill. for context i usually stay with my grandparents where we spend all day at an old folks home. not only is most of the staff dedicated, smiley folk from all over the world (jamaican, ukrainian, probably coming in from new york -- not really worth mentioning but they're all so nice and JKLD my grandma's old nurse didnt do half of her job and they still kept her for a year which :( but also yeah!! no xenophobia that i could pick up on, quite the opposite) but even some of the oldest members of the community decide not to follow the religious 'rule.' old ladies will wear pants, shorter skirts, reveal their hair, and they will recieve NO flack for it FROM ANYONE

and when i was sitting outside one time next to a group of old ladies, one of the ladies had a little 1 year old grandson who was bored out of his mind, so as I was waiting for my grandma to get back from a walk i sorta played peekabo with him for the better half of an hour. and the ladies looked over at me and went "oh how nice of you ^^" even though I was (1 very obviously queer (2 very obviously not from the community

and also after my grandma outed me to my slightly more religious aunt (as in EXTREMELY religious WILDLY religious MATRIACH of the community religious), her response was just "shrug. she'll do what she wants. lets get dinner as a family :)"

they almost all have phones, MOST people have access to the internet. it felt like I was walking through the 80s, honestly, kids playing with chalk on the sidewalk and riding bikes and walking to the convenient stores. the biggest drama was the fact that my boy cousin wanted to impress the people he was going to camp with, so he asked his sister to drive over and bring his 'cool' pants, and she was like...'what. why.' 'i want to look cool' 'is everyone wearing dress pants' 'no, just me' 'wh' and she did it anyway so she could pick up icecream on the way back HJGJLDS

and even my littlest cousin, who is very obviously autistic, definitely isn't recieving any school mandated support but is handled with the loving community approach of "oh, let him do as he pleases, he means no harm" and if anyone bullies him they have to deal with his parents

its just AAAAGH its so wholesome, and even as far the more conservative approaches go, its more of a dartboard than a specific community rule. like for instance even if the people nearest to the center of the board were extremely strict with the rules and narrow minded, the people in the outer ranks would be much more accepting. its like different social circles, you cant get ostracized by the entire community because everyone has different levels that they're willing to go, and to everyone in the area its more unusual to be as extreme as my aunt

AHGHHHHH college is making me long for a simpler life drawing chalk on the sidewalks and living in blissful ignorance of what fandom drama is. TAKE ME BAAAACK

[our-queer-experience]

Is there any update on KOSA?

here’s a petition to stop it, an article on it’s problems from may, and they’ve updated the bill text to avoid “unintended consequences”.

this is going to be a very long text where i try my best to disect bill text, so im putting it under the bar. short answer, the updated text is better

“minor” is now defined as someone under the age of 16 years old and “child” means anyone under the age of 12.

“In acting in the best interests of minors, a covered platform shall take reasonable measures in its design and operation of products and services to prevent and mitigate

(1) mental health disorders or associated behaviors, including the promotion or exacerbation of self-harm, suicide, eating disorders, and substance use disorders

(2) patterns of use that indicate or encourage addiction-like behaviors

(3) physical violence, online bullying, and harassment of a minor

(4) sexual exploitation, including enticement, grooming, sex trafficking, and sexual abuse of minors and trafficking of online child sexual abuse material

(5) promotion and marketing of narcotic drugs (as defined in section 102 of the Controlled Substances Act (21 U.S.C. 802)), tobacco products, gambling, or alcohol; and

(6) predatory, unfair, or deceptive marketing practices, or other financial harms.”

alright, that seems fairly self explanatory, so i won’t break that down(this is bill text btw).

1) IN GENERAL.—A covered platform shall provide a minor with readily-accessible and easy-to-use safeguards to, as applicable—

(A) limit the ability of other individuals to contact or find a minor, in particular individuals aged 17 or over with no relationship to the minor;

(B) prevent other users, whether registered or not, from viewing the minor’s personal data collected by or shared on the covered platform, in particular restricting public access to personal data;

(C) limit features that increase, sustain, or extend use of the covered platform by a minor, such as automatic playing of media, rewards for time spent on the platform, notifications, and other features that result in compulsive usage of the covered platform by a minor;

(D) control algorithmic recommendation systems that use a minor’s personal data, including the right to—

(i) opt out of such algorithmic recommendation systems; or 

(ii) limit types or categories of recommendations from such systems;

(E) delete the minor's account and delete their personal data;

(F) restrict the sharing of the geolocation of a minor and provide notice regarding the tracking of a minor’s geolocation; and

(G) limit the amount of time spent by a minor on the covered platform.

this… is where things start to get iffy. from a psychological standpoint, a lot of this is a net good- trying to decourage impressionable children from spending time on sites full of content known to be harmful(ed content, sexual content, hate speech and cyberbullying) but it also cuts kids off from a lot of the world. what about the 15 year old trying to survive an abusive household and has a 19 year old friend who wants to help them move out when they’re eligible to? an adult reaching out to a kid posting suicidal content, since god knows teenagers probably wont? any interaction between an adult and a minor isn’t inherently harmful. restricting kid’s abilities to show off their location on the internet, i can get behind that. limiting the amount of time spent on the internet… probably good, but can also have harmful repercussions. the trans kid whose only support is online, the disabled kid whose friends are all online, the autistic kid that has no connections irl. this just cuts them off from the world.

(2) DEFAULT SAFEGUARD SETTINGS FOR MINORS.—A covered platform shall provide that, in the case of a user that the platform knows or reasonably believes to be a minor, the default setting for any safeguard described under paragraph

(1) shall be the option available on the platform that provides the most protective level of control that is offered by the platform over privacy and safety for that user.

(b) Parental Tools.

(1) TOOLS.—A covered platform shall provide readily-accessible and easy-to-use tools for parents to supervise the use of the covered platform by a minor.

they do get into what supervising looks like, but this is where my alarm starts to go off. i think some of these restrictions- the amount of time spend on there, harmful content on mental health disorders that are learned behaviors, prevention of sex trafficking, that’s all great. but putting these controls in the hands of the parents enables abuse. how many kids would start getting beat if their parents saw what they were up to on the internet? especially with the fearmongering about trans kids right now.

(2) REQUIREMENTS.—The tools provided by a covered platform shall include—(A) the ability to control privacy and account settings, including the safeguards established under subsection (a)(1) (B) the ability to restrict purchases and financial transactions by a minor, where applicable; (C) the ability to track metrics of total time spent on the platform; and (D) control options that allow parents to address the harms described in section 3(b).

tracking transactions? oog. what about kids who buy over the counter medications like melatonin or painkillers like advil? unless a child was suicidal, i’d be apprehensive to giving parents that information. what about buying binders or tucking garments? books on sex ed? actually, any kind of book the parent disagreed with? mm.

(1) REPORTS SUBMITTED BY PARENTS, MINORS, AND SCHOOLS.—A covered platform shall provide—

(A) a readily-accessible and easy-to-use means to submit reports to the covered platform of harms to minors;

(B) an electronic point of contact specific to matters involving harms to a minor; and 

(C) confirmation of the receipt of such a report and a means to track a submitted report.

(2) TIMING.—A covered platform shall establish an internal process to receive and substantively respond to reports in a reasonable and timely manner, but in no case later than 14 days after the receipt of a report.

nothing for me to add here, reporting content sounds great actually. can be abused, but overall great

d) Advertising Of Illegal Products.—A covered platform shall not facilitate the advertising of narcotic drugs (as defined in section 102 of the Controlled Substances Act (21 U.S.C. 802)), tobacco products, gambling, or alcohol to minors.

this sounds great, but what does “advertising” mean? does that just mean ads, posts where people talk about information on drug abuse, or fictional stories?

ok edit: this has been in my drafts for a while and i dont know if i’ll ever get around to finishing going through the bill, the link is above and i encourage you to check that out, but im tired and i’m focusing on a lot of other political things rn.