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just chiming in with my experience as someone who got a lot of notes like three years ago and now it's a dead simblr.
we used to be a proper community; from 2015 to 2019. i think people nowadays don't know how exciting it was to just log on to see people sharing cc just because it was a passion project; that was the norm.
i'm so thankful that there's still people doing the same thing now in this artificial wasteland that simblr has become.
now i think that our decline as a community started with the monetization of cc, now cc isn't a passion project that you can appreciate and be thankful that the creator decided to share it in the first place. it's a product that you buy, and you better like it because you're paying for it.
also, as someone who used to support a lot of creators on patreon back in the day, i don't think that i did it because i actually wanted to support them; instead, their cc had become an exclusive item, and i just couldn't wait to get it.
it's gotten to the point where i think that of the 15 creators i used to be a patreon of, now if i could i'd only support 2, and one of the is not longer active, so let's get that number back to 1.
now the popular cc creators only come here to post their links to patreon, because they are making bank and they no longer need to build a community for it to happen.
or they give the collections to popular simblrs to post with a similar model to a sponsored post, and that's when you get content fatigue because i have seen like five different simblr posting the same damned collection, and even if it has not been released to the public i'm already tired of seeing it.
and i carry some of the fault too, back in 2018 i had no problem with reblogging cc that i liked or other people's posts, but somewhere along the way i got into the mindset that i needed to build my own brand (which i think is what's currently happening on a major scale now) and that meant i only had to post my own stuff. during the time, i was getting a lot of notes; it was getting to the point where i stressed myself with getting posts out just to keep the roll going, and then it came the burnout that made me leave the community for a couple years.
now for me, simblr feels so artificial on a large scale. i think that's probably because a lot more people realized you can make an easy and big buck creating cc for this game, and ea won't care or put rules in place to prevent this happening because they want a piece of the cake too, so they'll never go against big name creators.
but that has left us with a community that feels more individualist and artificial than never before.
dude, it's unreal because i have around 2.5k followers here, and i actually prefer to spend my time here on tumblr in my fandom-specific sideblog, where i have less than 150 followers, but whenever i post i get a real sense of a community responding to my posts.
hell, i have even posted some of my sims there, because if i were to do it here in simblr my post feels like a drop in the bucket.
I've been seeing alot of people felling discouraged from simblr and feeling like they don't belong
Especially when there is alot of posts going around telling you not to focus on popularity etc
But im here to tell you ITS NOT YOU
You did nothing worng you do infact belong here its not your fault people in this community are not interactive (and yes its just this community im in two other fandom spaces and they work just fine people here are the outlier)
And my proof that its not your fault?
I have 3200 follower (all real people i removed the bots myself)
So you would think i would get alot of notes and feel included right?
WRONG
3k+ followers and this year the most notes i got on any non cc post i made was 15 and on cc posts it was 56
The only post that got alot of notes all year was my simblreen treats post and you would think with 3k people watching it would be 1000 notes or something but no last time i checked it was barely over 100
There are like 3 people that occasionally talk to me sometimes on my posts lol (very thankful i know no one owes me anything)
And i have had this blog for 6+ years
My point is
You belong just fine and i personally am happy you are here
Its not your fault people are being stubborn and refusing to reblog on the reblog website
(imma be real with you if i owened this website im removing the like option this is the reblog website you don't need to only like stuff but i dont own it so š¤·āāļø)
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I'll never understand why people participating in fandom spaces think it's okay to put others down for being passionate and organised about fandom. You're literally in a fan forum spending your time discussing fannish topics, many of which are provided by the people you put down. Maybe just don't.
#idk what to tag this but :/#i don't want to throw shade#i just need to vent#this isn't even about me#but it feels really shitty reading thinly-veiled judgy stuff about people you know and like#i actually wanted to be more active in fandom this year#but uhm i think i'm far more comfortable in small fandom spaces
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HE ALMOST SURRENDERS TO THE KISS
HE WAS SUPPOSED TO SURRENDER TO THE KISS
IM SOBBING
#did I post abt this yet#I've had this in my mind for over a year now but ig I forgot to mention it here lol#no but I'm actually sobbing the way he did want to give in and kiss alice but decided against it to save her ā¹ļøā¹ļø#its not that obvious in the vid bc it all happens so quickly but u could see him soften up a bit after alice's line like :(#also semi side note I read a fic once years ago where alfred wasnt able to stop alice from kissing him in time and so they just wait the#sickness out together and it absolutely BROKE ME#give them their happy ending PLEASE#also for some reason a bunch of my abh libretto posts are getting traction again after almost a year#and out of all of em the stoned post is the most popular lmao#I love that there's still active members in this fandom#hi guys this is for yall <3#I should post abt abh more#alice spencer#alfred hallam#abh#alice by heart#doggo rambles
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rdj the (whitewashed) electric boogaloo
This is a reminder to everyone who's excited about RDJ's casting as Doctor Doom that this casting is whitewashing. Victor Von Doom is a Romani character and has been a Romani character since his introduction in the 1960s. (Fantastic Four Annual #2 [1964]) Not only that, but his Roma identity and the persecution he and his family faced due to it is integral to his character, it is what forms his identity. (Books of Doom by Ed Brubaker) Even if on the off chance this casting is meant to not be Victor but instead be some variant of Tony or whomever else becoming Doctor Doom, it is damaging to the character to rob him of that important cultural background. Doctor Doom does not exist without that history. Fans have been pushing hard to cast Doom as a Romani actor for years, especially since the MCU has whitewashed other Romani characters. (Wanda, Pietro, etc) This casting is not a celebration moment, it's fucking heartbreaking that the MCU repeatedly ignores the important and nuanced cultural backstories of characters.
I know I can't change anybody's mind on whether or not you want to be excited about RDJ's return to the MCU. But I do think at the very least you should be mad that the MCU is baiting us all and destroying nuanced and interesting characters for the sake of self-referential easter eggs and nostalgia bait. Because that's what it is. Feel how you'd like to feel about RDJ's return, but personally, this is soul-sucking. I had such a deep love for the MCU as a teenager, it was obviously something incredibly formative to me, especially Tony Stark. This isn't recreating what I fell in love with the MCU for. This is turning a well-planned and artistic storyline of adaptations into cheap cash grabs and fan service. Because, I think we're past the point of being able to call the MCU an adaptation of anything. They can use existing characters' names and powers, but to say they're being properly adapted is laughable.
This is not an adaptation of Doctor Doom. This is RDJ the Electric Boogaloo because Marvel's fear of losing the interest of dedicated MCU fans overrides their willingness to tell stories that are genuine to the characters. I don't know what there is to be excited about that. The MCU has lost its authenticity and aside from a few projects, feels heartless. Every movie is a copy of a copy. This announcement isn't something celebratory, it feels like a death knell of a cinematic universe that's so desperate to cling to relevancy it's resorting to nostalgia for a character/actor who hasn't even been dead for a decade. We're not getting anything new, we're just rinsing and repeating the same song and dance.
I get it. I love Tony Stark, his death destroyed me and I to this day, rue the ending he got in Endgame. It misunderstood his arc and it robbed him of a satisfying conclusion. But the solution to that isn't dragging the corpse out of the grave five years later to whitewash an existing character with rich and interesting nuance, just to forcibly tie his existence in the MCU to Tony. Whether he is a variant or not. Why would you want someone else's fave's legacy to be destroyed simply so your fave's legacy can go on? Hell, if we were really all so hellbent on the return of RDJ and/or Tony to the MCU, we have the multiverse for a reason. There were other ways to do it that didn't whitewash and ruin someone else. This just. Isn't something to be happy about.
#... we will not be addressing that i'm a dead blog#no one say a WORD about my inactivity for 4 years this isn't about that /lh#also if anyone tries to get smart about āromani isn't a raceā i don't care and you can shut up.#it's an ethnic and cultural identity. and it should be portrayed correctly.#ESPECIALLY for a character like *victor von doom* of all people. like it is fundamental to him.#i would've included panels of the comics mentioned but most of them use the g-slur and i don't wish to encourage that here#like listen i don't think you need to be a comics fan to be an mcu fan. they're so divorced from each other atp#nor do i think the mcu owes complete comic accuracy. but i do think you should at *least* care when characters are whitewashed.#look. i really don't want this to be a debate on if rdj's return is good or not#i've been frankly baffled at how many old mutuals are excited but. whatever if you want him back i get it.#but it shouldn't be like this. not at the expense of a different character.#this whole thing made me realize i'm *far* more jaded and turned off to the mcu than most of you guys are.#which is fair you can still be an mcu fan. if it brings you joy i'm so happy for you#but how does this like. bring joy i don't get it.#this is soulless. it's uninspired. it's done purely for shock value.#i occasionally get asks to this blog about why i left and asking me to come back#and i get it. i *want* to come back.#but i don't *care* about the mcu anymore. this is not the franchise i fell in love with.#i don't recognize what once meant everything to me.#winteriron will always hold a special place in my heart (as will tony stark)#but like. i just don't have love for it. and it sucks that this bullshit from marvel actively kills the love i had.#this sours tony stark to me. i'm sorry but it does. because was it really worth this? is this what his legacy has become?#this does cheapen his legacy btw. like without question. it turns him into a cheap cameo reference. heart of the mcu my ass.#my fandom circles have *massively* changed#i'm now entirely surrounded by comics fans bc my primary fandom is dc comics. that's what i'm up to these days#and the difference was actually baffling to me. everyone i follow now is *pissed* about this. comics twitter is so mad.#and then i see ppl on here excited and i'm just genuinely surprised this is something you want. i don't get it.#i don't say that to be rude. i just don't get it. how is *this* actually something people *want*.#do i still care about marvel? eh.#i like winter soldier comics and i could give a comprehensive rec list. and i read some other characters i deeply enjoy.
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#YOU CAN PUT MORE THAN 10 OPTIONS?????#This sat in my drafts since the end of the first poll cuz i didnt have the 12 entry#Senmei fans are the strongest soldiers#Theres exactly 1 still active fan so i expect to see you you know who you are#Idk maybe ill kill whoever wins again lets see how obscure we can make it#Suggest series if you want#Sorry yohaji fans and oofuri fans yall got too many votes the first time#I actually have no grasp on how big kyuushi or tsuritamas fandoms are#Kyuushi is pretty big in japanese but not english i dont think#And tsuritama is a 10 year old anime only#Oh before anyone asks i never included princess tutu on purpose cuz despits being old and anime only#The fandom is wildly active#radiant historia#tsuritama#fukigen na mononokean#a gentle noble's vacation recommendation#Phantom of the idol#Gakuen babysitters#Jeweler richard#donten ni warau#Sennen Meikyuu no Nana Ouji#kyuuketsuki sugu shinu#Kyuushi#the vampire dies in no time#i had to redo this poll and take out no home cuz i also got too many votes before#so i replaced it with nekuyan#go read nekuyan#crossplay love otaku x punk#nekuyan#i killed all the fandoms that were above 10% on the last poll but i left gakuen babysitters as a treat
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sometimes i canāt believe i was posting wips every single wednesday and sunday for literal months like who even was that person
#and now i canāt even write a paragraph without taking a month break#or monthS should i say#god why arenāt the words so easy anymore š«š#this writers block thing is doing my absolute head in#i get so excited to still be tagged#and then iām all ā¹ļø cos i have no words to share back#i have so many wips so may ideas but i am so scattered#i miss writing soooo much#and instead of actually writing#i just think about it#and never get any words down#also weāre like a third of the way thru the new season and that is scaring me#i feel like by the time i can write again or finish a fic iāll have missed the boat#and everyone will have moved on#or already written the same idea but better#and itāll be like hey! whatās the point#anyway iāll try to be reassured by the fact everyone stayed active during an 18 month hiatus#and the more fics the merrier#also feels like iām trying to make up for lost time#for all the years the show aired and i wasnāt apart of the fandom#i want to enjoy and savour all the moments of the new season with you all#and get out of my own head#but that wonāt be tonight š„²#š hours#donāt mind me being a sook lol#emphasis on the sunday scaries tonight#literally how is it monday again already im going insane šµāš«#d stuff
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If youāre so disillusioned with who Taylor is as a person and believes sheās changed for the worse, why are you still here as a fan? If you believe her āactivismā isnāt up to your standards, are tired of her not using her platform, see her as an uncaring and callous billionaire, why are you still here and engaging in fan spaces if youāre no longer enjoying her and her work? Just disengaging completely if thatās the case; find something or someone else to pour your time and energy into.
#taylor swift#Iām sorry but Taylor isnāt an activist or politician follow the people who actually do that stuff if youāre looking for it#Taylor is a singer-songwriter she did not get into music to get into politics stop expecting that from her#like itās not that hard to disengage if you truly believe sheās a bad person and isnāt the same person she was 5-10 years ago#donāt put expectations on people and place them on a pedestal because theyāre never going to meet exactly what you want#itās funny because people outside of the fandom view her āactivismā calls to voting as huge and doing enough#weāre the only ones harping on her to do more#if something isnāt bringing you enjoyment stop doing it#my friend and I were talking about Stan culture and stuff and agreed that people want celebs to speak out on issues is so they can feelā¦#morally good in supporting them and know that their values align and that theyāre not problematic or whatever and thatās not a greatā¦#mentality to have. like if people are only speaking out for the sake of optics itās not genuine and doesnāt contribute to anything really#Iād rather celebs speak out about issues they have experience with and not regurgitating things to look good that they have no knowledge of
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you seriously cannot make this up: you have people reblogging fic featuring a racist character as half of the main ship in the morning then trying to give morality lessons in the evening by calling others homophobic over a joke.
THE CALL IS COMING FROM INSIDE THE HOUSE, BABES.
#the finger keeps being pointed at buddie shippers like the other side is not doing anything wrong at all when there is SO MUCH that#could be said about them. and it's all because people want to seem like their choice of preferred ship at the moment is rational and correc#and the thing is it would be so much more honest to say that at the moment you are more compelled by the other ship. some of us may not#understand it and may judge it because HOW. but in the end it's your right!! it's ok!!! you ship what you ship. but to make it seem like#this is the correct choice by saying that it's just the buddie fans turning you off the ship or being crazy... that's stupid. then you also#wouldn't be invested in the other ship because it also has crazy fans and people being terrible.#and like for years and years the buddie side of fandom has had to self-reflect A LOT. and sure not everyone has done it but so many of us#have refused to let others get away with things simply because their otp was ours too. we shamed racists during the chimney punch debacle.#we have called people out on gross top/bottom discourse. we have acknowledged that there are sides to the fandom that have been wrong.#but i have yet to see one single b*ckt*mmy fan engage in public self-reflection about their side of the fandom.#and if the problem was simply with the fans around others well okay whatever you'd be doing a bad job. but to actively also engage in the#bad behavior and then call out others. PLEASE KSKSKSKSKSKSKSK like c'mon!!!!!!!#and at this point words like homophobia keep being thrown around and it's actually vile when they refer to things that are VERY MUCH not#rooted in homophobia at all. twice now a joke that was NOT homophobic has been called homophobic and i think people should reflect#on why they need things to be homophobia so bad when they don't agree with them.#so yeah anyways THE CALL IS COMING FROM INSIDE THE HOUSE#discourse#.text
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actually what the fuck IS going on with the lemon demon bandom like what
I normally just talk about this in private but I've noticed that as opposed to every popular indie band/musician fandom, lemon demon specifically is really really empty and only has people pass through to talk about the top ten most popular songs (via Spotify algorithm) and then leave. It's not like there isn't things to talk about, Neil has a massive discography and several other projects to his name, so I'm just kind of like. Huh.
Like you know it's bad when not even AO3 has a wide selection of ficsāand I don't even read fanfiction.
no shame to only passing through or listening to what's popular, you do you, I just thought this was kinda weird.
#I would just say the fandom is in a low period from 2020 but I'm not actually sure that's the case#there's just zero community and it kinda sucks for someone like me who's really passionate atm#Maybe things are just more active elsewhere and Tumblr specifically is really bad but I'm still like. Huh.#Tbh I didn't even really want to talk about this but since it's almost been a year I might as well say Something#mos text post#lemon demon#neil cicierega
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Mmmhh...
#(Basically rant on my last two posts)#I know I've said it before and sorry for coming off as annoyingā#but I really wish we still had a central bsd blog on Tumblr like fy-bungoustraydogs or bsd-central or things of the kind.#I think now everyone rushes to post news first. And although there's merit to it in knowing news as soon as they happenā#in the long run the death of this kind of central official content ***fan*** blogs is such a huge loss of fandom spacesā#especially for the archiving purposes they solved. Especially today that T/witter and G/oogle have basically become unusable.#Literally. Literally. I've been doing official content archiving since I was 11#(because that's the very specific kind of mental illness I have)#and let me tell you that the quality of web search and especially reverse image search only got worseā#in a way that is very evident and noticeable. Which is crazy tbh and not how things should work.#If anyone would like to start a bsd-central kind of blog I'll be the first one to follow.#Actually if anyone actually wants to establish it feel free to contact me and I'll be more than happy to share the resources I have!!!!#It just needs to be something multi-modded for a series of reasons I won't get into right now#I just can't personally do it (not as main admin at least) because that would be modding my FIFTH active bsd blogā#and that's a little too much even for me.#On top of some ethical concerns I have regarding whether it'd be fair for me to mod a fandom central bsd blogā#when I feel like I can't genuinely share the same amount of love for the franchise other fans share#On top of. You know. Getting a degree eventually hopefully.#Then years after the blog has been solidly enstablished and aquired enough credibility it could even open a free donations found to investā#in buying and scanning and releasing bsd content that hasn't been shared yet like the guidebooks or illustration books or everything elseā#for everyone to see...#The dream. (Is realistically never going to happen) (Won't stop me from daydreaming about it every day)#((Still salty I couldn't afford the guidebooks only due to the shipment prices. I *would* have scanned and uploaded them.))#That was a long and idealistic rant. Kyotag out#Edit: *Modding my SIXTH bsd blog#Apparently I mod so many blogs I lost count of them
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wait. there's a Those fic server?
it was more of a thing about 4 years ago, but yep!
Edit: if you want someone to chat to about it check the notes of this ask for an offer anon :)
#it still exists but it's kinda like#only used now by maybe 4 or 5 people who have been in it for years and post about their lives to each other like every few weeks haha#meaning no Those discussion has actually happened in ages and it's not rly alive enough to bother promoting it or something#maybe if the fic updates again someday we can think about opening it up again but rn i don't have the drive#or if you're like a friend that i dm with and want to join it i would consider it but im the only active mod left#and kinda not in the mood to need to moderate it for real#not trying to sound unfriendly just setting expectations appropriately haha it's more like a group chat with half a dozen fandom folks rn#who arent even talking about death note or Those most of the time anymore#anon#ask#p
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hiya just a small psa, first off--thank you for those who sent in writing asks, I'm going to answer them soon. also I am going to try and update Gibbous on Oct 12 (as a bday treat for myself) but if it doesnt happen, then I'll just post a small teaser on here of what I have so far of it. My mental health is still a work in progress, despite my post after Spoke No More (iykyk in terms of having a mental high followed by an immediate mental low haha) but if I go radio silent on this blog, it doesnt mean anything bad, it just means I need to take time to care for myself
#kat talks#time to ramble in the tags: i think the worst part of going through a negative spiral is when you know youre dealing with irrational though#patterns but they do feel very real in the moment lmao#its so frustrating! anyways i am having a hard time with my bday coming up because due to Events in my life i feel like#i have aged five years in a negative way and I've weirdly been thinking of myself being much older than i actually am#it feels like im dealing with howls moving castle curse irl is the best way i can describe it#so anyways i do want to be able to finish Gibbous chapter so that is something positive i can look forward to for my bday#but im also not going to let my happiness depend on that#because I've placed my happiness in so many things this year only to be let down by it all#i do want to write more and interact in fandom in a more active way but i am going through a lot rn#so if we have talked in the past please know im not intentionally ignoring you! its not anything personal towards you i promise
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being the same age as most long term lolitas were when they started getting into it but its different now bc there is just so much less of a community it feels like... like for me i feel more like i am finding a lot of individuals but no local communities bc its just rlly died down i think... like i found a 2013 pph article about a lolita meetup downtown. i dont think that wld happen now even if i COULD find a local community
#i think if theres not a lolita tea party/panel this year at pcm i will host one next year...#by then ill have been actively in the subculture for like a year and ill know a little more.. rn im JUST starting out i wld have no clue#what to do... but like i have ideas for stuff that wld be soo fun and ive always wanted to host/participate in an event or panel#once i was picked to participate in the fandom state alchemist test or w/e its called but then they wldnt let me after they saw my boot#which was so fail bc i absolutely cld have done tthe challenges with a broken foot. BLAH anyway#or like i hope they try the jfashion show again UGH probably not since it had to be cancelled due to lack of participation...#i jst would looove to have lolita friends in the area... idk how successful i wld be at converting someone and my sibling doesnt count#or ONE lolita friend... i only know of one lolita in maine and shes pretty well known in the NA lolita community from what i can tell so#ive met her a couple times actually she is very nice. idk what i am trying to say tbh#im more open to making friends at pcm in a lolita context and not a cosplay context bc every cosplayer ive interacted with for more than a#passing comment or picture turned out to be like umm a freak#or one of my moms students <- student who made all the dresses for the haunted town tour cosplaying kanaya that one year and then me showin#my mom the meetup pictures and her going omg.... thats d///////#she was a really really incredibly seamstress btw her costumes were beautiful. anyway. iconic.#i think probably i havent talked to anyone in a while and it is wearing me down i have to make these massive posts every day
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do you guys know that your likes are appearing on people's dashboards now? not in large numbers or anything. i've been seeing smutty fanfictions on my dash and i mean i'm not judging you, but i do wanna give fair warning that it may just appear on there for other people.
#first time i saw this a blog i have not seen on my dash in years liked a harry styles fic last week#what's interesting is that knowing this is both good for small artists whose likes didnt pay the rent (but ppl didnt wanna reblog)#but ppl realizing this are ultimately going to make it bad for fanfic writers whose readers wont want to interact w the post#fanfic worked different from fan art likes did pay the rent for fanfic writers#bc they still boosted the piece in tags of people actively seeking out fanfiction#people didnt actively seek out fan art in as large numbers#tumblr stop trying to make likes visible people actually dont want that here#peoples dont reblog/delete later posts are gonna be seen by more people when their followers leave a like as a sign of concern or sympathy#and more embarrassingly frankly im gonna know whos lurking looking for harry styles smut#and i dont know that people want me to do that! people took advantage of likes being private#you cant just change that after all these years that sucks#tumblr#fandom#bullshit#shut up kaily#edit: i just disabled seeing likes on my dash but still this statement applies#i dont think that keeps your likes off others' dashboards
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happy new year :-)
#i dont want to make a big long post because the idea of @ing u all makes me rly nervous#but if ur reading this at all thank u for making 2022 so baller for me#genuinely it was a rly good year for me both irl and online and u guys were a part of that!!#very very grateful that i got into this corner of the hc fandom#very grateful for peter cora and rio for getting me into this nightmare and even more grateful for everyone ive met along the way#idk if its weird to mention mutuals if we dont actively talk to one another but im particularly thankful for#joey for making me laugh and for skizzposting unabashedly#clay for keeping me (in)sane during double life#honey for. every single thing u have ever created. uve done so much for this community and for me personally SKDHDHKFG#august for actually probably radicalizing me with the scardubs agenda#creati for being my crafting buddy#and also grace and sadie who need no description#u two are so dear to me its weird to even put u on here LOL#thank u for letting me crash at ur places for concerts and also for being a part of this fandom I GUESS#this is rambly already but i do want to say that i hate like. assuming my significance in other ppls lives#which is 100% why i didnt @ ppl in this#bc im sure theres ppl i mentioned in these tags who maybe dont even recognize me a little bit#which is ok!!#if i am a speck of dust in ur life then i am lucky to have been a speck of dust ykwim#in a world so big it is amazing that i found so many ppl who impacted me here on the silly blue website#ok if uve read this far i love u <3#i hope this year is gentle to u i hope u find peace i hope u get rest and i hope u laugh a lot#<333
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i am Again in that mood where i rlly want to make more friends/mutuals into ffxiv but 1. don't know how + 2. it's Tough bcs (for understandable reasons) i am still a minor (17) and most players are very much older than me ............... i hope the future will be slay tho š„ŗššš
#āÆ ź°į starry thoughts ą»ź± *Ā·Ė#āÆ ź°į ffxiv ą»ź± *Ā·Ė#i am very lucky tho !! to have my twin i do everything w/ <3#and a best friend i met on twt one of the last times i wanted to meet more fandom people >< <33 who is Actually my age too#and then a mutual here who is active on another acct i think nowadays (i hope they r well) but they are just a few years older#and the way they interacted w ffxiv was a bit similar to me / what i wanted to find more in others. same w the best friend.#and then actually making a friend In ffxiv but this was like. 2021. and i'm not going into all of those details bcs i Will yap too much#but i'm really thankful for my fc (and static in that fc) then :( being reaaally young and raised to obvs take care on the internet#LMFAO they managed to find out we were teens anyway and it was. really healthy ngl! a certain distance was remained#but they didn't like. made us feel like outsiders (??) but respectful to the age diff :3 and also we got along w/#the uni students in there and the guys (gn) our age (who were. still all a couple years older LMFAO) but did actually make a friend#we still talk to when we can a lot !! ^_^ (ignoring uh recently being busy bcs of gr 12. but yeah <3)#anyway. i yap so much holy fuck But.#i haven't talked much in any case to anyone abt ffxiv lately. and to my ffxiv friends too.#i'm like 95% sure i'm still on good terms w them all but. it feels lonely (?) i haven't yet gotten back to rlly talking w ffxiv ppl again#and i never really have been able to Ever anyway. i'm currently still getting back into the ffxiv mindset too bcs school got me busy.#so... idk where i'm getting w this now tbh LMFAO. i hope i can get more friends into ffxiv! and make more friends into ffxiv. and talk#again more w/ my friends already in ffxiv. and get my friends who are starting to get into ffxiv More into ffxiv. <3#honestly it's like this ^^ a lot w/ a lot of interests of mine but it's cool bcs i have my twin :3 and i do have more friends now into#a variety of interests and w/ similar attitudes etc etc etc and i Am only so young. i'm just abt to go into uni etc... <3#well. i will shut up now LMFAO but yeah. this is a little wish and 'prayer' of mine i suppose. :] !!#to get what i want i'll retain the power of hope and love but also put My work in nyeheheheheheheh
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