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eerieechos · 11 months ago

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“Are you two DRUNK right now??”

#not enough midnight burger fanart out there so I’m doing my part- here are my favorite idiots #not platonic not romantic but a secret third thing #midnight burger #caspar midnight burger #ava midnight burger #ava maddox #midnight burger podcast #Caspar x ava #podcasts #audio drama #fanart #caspava #they are giggly drunks who enable each other’s idiocy #i absolutely cannot get enough of them #Ava gets really touchy and Caspars that guy who’ll be like ‘does anyone dare me to do *inset stupid thing*#and everyone else is like ‘dude nobody’s daring you to do anything’ and he’s like ‘wow I can’t believe you guys are making me do this’#ava wears glasses but they’re in her pocket or somethin idk I didn’t want to draw them #pose is referenced from mellon_soup cause I could not for the life of me draw correct anatomy tonight #and I needed to get this drawing out of my brain and on to paper STAT #I have GOT to stop drawing the knuckles on the hands #it looks fucking terrible and yet I keep doing it it’s like a curse #artists on tumblr #traditonal art #sketch #art #drawing #my art #we open at six #my stupid aro ass when I realized that they’re probably meant to be romantic in the show: 👁️👄👁️#<<that’s me coming out btw 🤪 thx for reading the tag ramble

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gunsatthaphan · 4 months ago

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something very lgbt is gonna transpire in that scene I know it 👁️

#the heart killers #firstkhao #kantbison #gmmtv #thai bl #LIKE WE ALL KNOW THAT SMILE #also cannot get over how baby bison looks like please?????#hes just a little guy who commits crimes leave him alone #on the verge of tears fr #im so fcking weak in my knees for them and i havent even seen them move djhgfd #also the way they look absolutely nothing like firstkhao in this like see how actors ACT????#insanity #jesus its me again #im not strong enough #this time i mean it

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bitegore · 1 year ago

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Zionists want you to conflate Judaism and Zionism. Zionists want you to believe that Judaism cannot exist without Zionism and that all Jews are Zionists. Zionism would have Jews believe that a Jewish state is the only way that they can be safe from antisemitism and will point to any instance of antisemitism as proof that Zionism is the solution- so Zionism wants gentiles to be antisemitic in their support of Palestine. They want you to conflate all Jews with Zionism and the state of Israel, and they want you to treat all Jews regardless of political affiliation as the face of Israel. Antizionist Jews exist, and incidences of antisemitism ostensibly acting against Zionism will not help dismantle the forces propping Zionism up.

Don't do their work for them.

#red rambles #viva palestina #antizionism #i haven't actually seen a lot of antisemitism personally. not recently anyway. but that's more a feature of me not following antisemites #i DO however see a lot of people talking about the people they're seeing throw their support behind antisemites using palestine #as an excuse to conflate all jews with israel #and i cannot stress enough that that is literally what israel and zionist forces abroad WANT.#i am jewish. my entire family is jewish. i want to see palestine free. and i have SEEN how the jewish community gets conflated with israel #both from the inside and out #and i am dead serious when i say that every time someone is antisemitic it strengthens the conviction from people abroad #that it's a terrible sad situation but there's 'no other choice'#if you're being antisemitic you are doing the enemy's work for them. Stop it.#like... look. i am putting this in the tags bc im talking in the tags but i mean this. I do not give a single flying fuck if you personally #are a giant raging antisemite at the moment. Your personal beliefs are your problem and not mine. I do not fucking care. But if you are #being openly and loudly antisemitic *in your support of palestine* you are absolutely not fucking helping. I am so dead serious right now #if you want to raise awareness and you're being antisemitic because of deep held beliefs or whatever i want you to look around and read the #fucking room. Do you understand how much of Israel's international support comes from the idea that they are the only country where jews ar #safe from antisemitism? do you see how every time palestine comes up people point at incidences of antisemitism in anti-genocide actions to #discredit the entire movement? do you not understand how your actions are cutting the movement down at the knees?#i'm jewish and proud of it. i don't like antisemitism. but there's a genocide on and i'd rather work against it than quibble over who i #work alongside. i dont fucking care. you can be as antisemitic as you like in private. stop fucking the movement up.#there are bigger things to worry about here. if i can put aside my own concerns as to who i'm talking to you can hold your tongue #and fight the good fight instead of handing weapons to the people who are trying to fucking flatten gaza.

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namtanlovesfilm · 9 months ago

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23.5 pairing godji & golf, long time friends & trans icons together, IS THE MOST ICONIC THING EVER!!! I swear this show has the best characters, I love them all so much 😭😭😭

#axelle rants #23.5 #23.5 the series #godji tachakorn #golf kittipat #like tbh I feel like we didn't see the development of sun liking ongsa enough & I feel like they got together too quick #(which is a problem with most thai romances in the last couple of years which gets a bit tiring tbh)#(because the getting together is the best part but it's always rushed lately)#HOWEVER the characters of this show are so lovely they're my absolute faves & they make me forgive all of its writing issues lol #I cannot choose a favorite character I'm obsessed with all of them (but my fave is aylin duh)

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rbtlvr · 15 days ago

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AND ANOTHER THING. i know that on a meta level this is literally just How Video Game Bosses Work. but also with how well the game mechanics work into the story in many other cases i don't think it's unreasonable to look at it from an in universe perspective

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i think it really says something that loop only uses their stronger attacks in their second phase. i think it really says something that you have to bring them down to 0hp four (4) times, attacking them repeatedly + proving that you are willing to genuinely hurt/kill them, before they'll use their most powerful attacks on siffrin

#talk tag #isatposting #isat #in stars and time #isat spoilers #in stars and time spoilers #man i am wordy today huh #anyways. i think abt loop a normal amount can you tell. i think about twohats a normal amount can you tell #also wait hold on i just checked the stats page again for this post and. it seems like loop Cannot crit in phase one?#unless im reading it wrong. but like. gestures emphatically if that is true #id need to go fight them again to check but i dont think attack buffs would do anything (bc their attacks are percentage based)#which would mean if both of those things are true the max damage they can do in phase one IS genuinely just 17% of ur hp #+ even if attack buff DOES do smth thatd still only be uhhhhhhh #like 25%? but even then they can only buff once per loop in phase one + they only do that 17% attack once every 3 turns #so theyd only be able to get one of those. so im just gonna say 17% max for simplicity sake #guarding halves the damage down to 8.5% and for the other attack halves it to 5%. you heal 6% every turn with the memory #you could literally just stand there and guard forever and absolutely nothing else. and stay at almost full hp the whole time #if im doing the math right then youd lose a total of 0.5% hp for every three turns. by just standing there and doing nothing but guarding #loop! does not! want!!! to hurt siffrin!!!!!!!! thank you for coming to my ted talk. takes a bow #wait thats not taking into account attack speed actually hold on #okay so its gonna vary based on level obvs + also my sif has the scissors equipped which lowers attack speed and i cant. unequip them </3 #BUT. opened up my act 6 save to check. his attack speed is 186 (at level 76) and loops is 170. so sif outpaces loop #which MEANS [clears throat] sif can probably outheal all the damage loop does given enough time #okay. thank you for coming to my ted talk for REAL this time. maybe ill make these tags their own post i fucking went off so much help m #was joking abt being really wordy today and then went and wrote a FULL ESSAY in the tags like okay

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wonder-worker · 10 months ago

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I've been thinking about the tragedy of Elizabeth Woodville living to see the end of her family name.

I don't mean her family with her husband, which lived on through her daughter and grandson. I mean her own.

Her sisters died, one by one, many of them after 1485. When Elizabeth died, only Katherine was left, and she would die before the turn of the century as well.

All her brothers died, too. Lewis died in childhood. John was executed. Anthony was murdered. Lionel died suddenly in the peak of Richard's reign, unable to see his niece become queen. Edward perished at war. Richard died in grieving peace. For all the violence and judgement the family endured, it was "an accident of biology" that ended their line: none of the brothers left heirs, and the Woodville name was extinguished. We know the family was aware of this. We know they mourned it, too:

“Buy a bell to be a tenor at Grafton to the bells now there, for a remembrance of the last of my blood.”

Elizabeth lived through the deposition and death of her young sons, and lived to see the end of her own family name. It must have been such a haunting loss, on both sides.

#(the quote is by Richard Woodville in his deathbed will; he was the last of the Woodville brothers to die)#elizabeth woodville #woodvilles #my post #to be clear I am not arguing that the death of an English gentry family name is some kind of giant tragedy (it absolutely the fuck is not)#I'm trying to put it into perspective with regards to what Elizabeth may have felt because we know her family DID feel this way #writing this kinda reminded me of how I am just not fond at all about the way Elizabeth's experiences in 1483-85 are written about #and the way lots so many of the unprecedentedly horrifying aspects are overlooked or treated so casually:#the seizure and murder of two MINOR sons and the illegal execution of another;#her sheer vulnerability in every way compared to all her queenly predecessors; how she was harassed by 'dire threats' for months;#how she had 5 very young daughters with her to look after at the time (Bridget and Katherine were literally 3 and 4 years old);#how unprecedented Richard's treatment of her was: EW was the first queen of england to be officially declared an adulteress;#and the first and ONLY queen to be officially accused of witchcraft #(Joan of Navarre was accused of her treason; she was never explicitly accused of witchcraft on an official level like EW was)#the first crowned queen of england to have her marriage annulled; and the first queen to have her children officially bastardized #what former queens endured through rumors* were turned into horrifying realities for her.#(I'm not trying to downplay the nightmare of that but this was fundamentally on a different level altogether)#nor did Elizabeth get a trial or appeal to the church. like I cannot emphasize this enough: this was not normal for queens #and not normal for depositions. ultimately what Richard did *was* unprecedented #and of course let's not forget that Elizabeth had literally just been unexpectedly widowed like 20 days before everything happened #I really don't feel like any of this is emphasized as much as it should be?#apart from the horrifying death of her sons - but most modern books never call it murder they just write that they 'disappeared'#and emphasize that ACTUALLY we don't know what happened to them (this includes Arlene Okerlund)#rather than allowing her to have that grief (at the very least)#more time is spent dealing with accusations that she was a heartless bitch or inconsistent intriguer for making a deal with Richard instead #it also feels like a waste because there's a lot that can be analyzed about queenship and R3's usurpation if this is ever explored properly #anyway - it's kinda sad that even after Henry won and her daughter became queen EW didn't really get a break #her family kept dying one by one and the Woodville name was extinguished. and she lived to see it #it's kinda heartbreaking - it was such a dramatic rise and such a slow haunting fall #makes for a great story tho

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sifloopboning · 23 days ago

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once again back on my 24/7 tpe siffedloop bs. you see i have Visions. specifically with the sense-sharing (though works without it too) & somno. listen. im sitting across the desk from you (we are in my office). this got so fucking long so im putting it under a readmore

you know good and damn well sif will have trouble sleeping postcanon. so sif AND loopie can has a little treat in the form of loop having sif take sleep aids to knock him the fuck out so loop can fuck them in their sleep to masturb8. that way sif gets to have a good sleep with little to no anxiety and wake up feeling relaxed + the satisfaction of Being Useful to loop + getting a good grade in being a sex toy (something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve). meanwhile loop gets to feel good abt themselves for helping sif relax + get off / have sex without the Embarrassment and self-consciousness that comes from Performing for a partner + the high of being in 100% complete control of sif and having literally all the power in the situation AND knowing sif trusts them enough to give them that power in the first place.

like i knowww when loop gets started theyd be anxious and feel awkward and overthink every move due to how they are as a person. and i KNOW in my heart of hearts once they properly Get Going king arthur herself could not pull them out of sif. respectfully. like i think theyd genuinely go into a Lustful Frenzy the likes of which has not been seen before. i think they fuck that gay little traveler selfcest style so hard they both get craft exhaustion symptoms after. respectfully.

#i cannot stress enough that i genuinely think the Absolute Hottest part of this whole thing #that turns loopie into a Hole&Pole Starved Beast #is the amount of trust they are given. ESPECIALLY bc its sif bc they know personally how insanely difficult it is for them #to give up control / trust someone to not hurt them in any way #like thats insane to loop i think. hence why they get a little silly. maybe tell sif they love him in the throes of passion #while sifs passed out. yes they probably still get embarrassed enough to want to jump off the favor tree afterwards. kyaaaa #247 hats #somno mention cw #intox mention cw #kinda #another hot post from me!#siffedloop

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worstloki · 2 years ago

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people just ignore Thor was a feral child, huh? like his life goal was probably to demolish another race at age 12 and he was probably begging to go to war and attempted to murder their father for not letting him via telepathy that he didn't have.

#people are like ''loki stabbed thor at age 8'' like im sorry but thor is older and im pretty sure he would've given loki the knife #Frigga was probably like ohhh you can wage war when your brother is old enough to go with you. can't let you two go alone!#and Thor naturally was like ''ok. i will Arm the Child''#like for SURE Thor was the kid eating dirt while Loki just sat next to him looking very confused about it #Thor: Father said we are Part of Asgard and need to Eat To Grow and then one day will be Big Enough to Fight !#he tries to feed Loki the dirt so he'll grow up quicker too but Loki starts crying and now Thor's forgotten about it and trying to calm him #Thor like no no don't cry i'll find us something else to get big with :(#carries him away and gets dirt all over them both because his hands were still dirty #fast forward the bros are sitting on the ground under a table monching on lemon cakes (or whatever) absolutely COVERED in dirt #they have left a dirt trail behind them so their hiding spot won't be effective for long #and also Thor doesn't think voices should get across what is clearly a sturdy table cloth so he's not sure how they were 'discovered'#Frigga: you cannot get dirty and go in the kitchens #Thor: LOKI WAS SAD. AND WE NEED SUSTAINENCE TO GROW MOTHER. WE MUST FEED.#Frigga: -_-''#(Loki is still munching on a lemon tart. the same one despite the room change because he's eating it slowly while Thor reasons with Frigga)#(half of the words anyone is saying go over his head but he is enjoying the expressions being made)

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girlivealwaysbean · 3 months ago

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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point

#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow #2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too #like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does #i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made #after school was leaving my work and therefore my life #9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday #i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics #barely affects me #but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well #it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be #i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time #like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news #i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc #i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't #make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc #but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully #drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood #when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily #at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know #we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly #in the dead of night in our room #i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus #that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their #body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive #i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times #like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not #have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone

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tallahasseemp3 · 20 days ago

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this year i am going to bake as much from dessert person by claire saffitz as i possibly can, aiming for one bake a week. i've already made two things from the books (one of them repeatedly) and making my third tomorrow 😈

#txt #cannot recommend it enough if you want to get into baking especially given that she has videos available for most recipes in it #just really clearly explained and outlined and not intimidating at all.#i even successfully made dinner rolls which last time i attempted them from a diff recipe sucked absolute ass.

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dungeons-and-dragon-age · 1 month ago

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varric's death is actually great for the rook!addie agenda

#laya plays dav #<- still my dav related ramble tag #dav spoilers #oc: adriel #oc: liam hawke #i would have to figure out how the death reveal goes because there is no way in her universe that liam wouldn't be told about it #and there is also no way that he wouldn't insist on her getting tf out of there #in part *because* it already cost varric's life #so it *would* come up #except if i find a way for liam and fenris to be out of the picture for a while #which. thing is in my head they are currently also in minrathous #bc as both natural progression and as the veil is getting more precarious i absolutely imagine fenris's lyrium side effects to get worse #so theyre on the hunt for trails of danarius's old research or any other leads in that direction #to maybe find out how to mitigate the damage #and while they're at it maybe helping varric in his endeavours too; there's quite a bit of overlap for them i think #and in general there's no way varric doesn't utilise every connection he has in hunting down and stopping solas #in any case liam is having the WORST time in veilguard fr especially if addie is rook #the blight already took both his siblings and now it's on its way to take his husband and daughter too #and as if that wasnt enough solas killed one of his best friends #i'd probably age addie up for a rook timeline? but something juicy about keeping her young too #she wouldnt be The Leader TM in that case but she would insist on joining/helping the veilguard #and she *is* stuck with solas in her head so it's not like they can just ignore that #rn the main thing standing in the way is that i cannot for the life of me get her to look right in the cc 😔

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notbecauseofvictories · 2 years ago

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I never want to read about people having healthy, loving relationships in fiction. Not for any particularly noble or logical reason, I just hate it.

#I have to make friends in reality! I have to date and have emotionally honest conversations with my mother in reality!#I have to fucking self-actualize with my goddamn stupid self #IN FICTION I NEED YOU TO NEVER SPEAK OF YOUR EMOTIONS AND BLOW SOMETHING UP TO AVOID DEALING WITH THEM #have terribly ill-advised sex with someone who you feel complicated feelings for! and then #and this is key ABSOLUTELY DO NOT ADDRESS IT #no one ever gets therapy. everyone represses the hell out of everything they're feeling and then they die.#......maybe MAYBE you get a dramatic deathbed confessional but that's only if you've been viciously repressed enough to earn it.#anyway I need these characters to live the life I cannot because apparently I want to be ''fulfilled''#and not ''viciously repressed and an unknown cipher to the people I love''#......................................................I'm drunk and annoyed.#from the bookshelf

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sapphireswimming · 1 year ago

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I just!! Am Screaming!!!! Sean said they were just going to keep sending him back into the field one more time just one more job you gotta do until he was dead but he never said no! he could have left Candela Obscura at any point, after any job, but he chose to stay there! even after he'd reached the end of his rope! and everyone else continued to stay with him! for him!! Marion told Sean he was only there because of him. Auntie Bee admitted she was only there to stay near him. if he ever said he wanted out they would have not only let him but left with him! and if Sean and Marion were both out, Jean would have been to! Nathaniel would have followed as soon as he paid his debt to Allison! they didn't want him to keep going until he broke! they were trying to be there with him for him by him beside him because that was literally all they could do for him! they all could have been happier outside of Candela Obscura but Sean was there so they weren't going to leave! they loved him!! the love was there!! the love was there the whole time and it mattered of course it mattered but it didn't do anything!!!! it didn't do anything except keep them all together until it was too late! and I! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#candela obscura #candela obscura spoilers #cr spoilers #circle of needle and thread #sean finnerty #this chapter! killed me!!#I haven't been able to stop screaming!!!!!!#no coherent thoughts in my head but OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG #omg they did so good I cannot believe how incredible this was #chef's kiss tragedy just absolutely chef's kiss #i just! they were all there for him!!#and it wasn't enough! and he broke!#and he was willing to sacrifice them all!#all of the people who were only there because they loved him enough to stay!!#and by the time we get to this chapter it's too late to leave!#it's already too late almost before the episode starts because the creatures have their eyes on Nathaniel before he even joined CO #they can't leave in episode 2 because they're all marked and leaving does nothing to save themselves!!#the only way out is through and it's the last job any of them will ever have to take #one way or another #and oMG #ss

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shark-bark · 3 months ago

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sammich :3

sorta a redraw of that one piece of official art of her!

#you absolutely cannot tell who my favourite ace attorney character is from my blog #shes been through enough get this gal a sammich and a break #ace attorney #ace attorney trilogy #ace attorney fanart #phoenix wright ace attorney #my art :]#maya fey #gyakuten saiban #i promise i can draw other ace attorney characters and do regularly #trying to be better about posting them

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rabbithaver · 3 months ago

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every so often i will see a post from a leftist on this website that is so egregiously ableist that i remember that like. oh yeah the userbase of leftists on this website is violently anti-disabled people and will jump at any chance to demonize any of us for any reason. i just forget that fact because i'm extremely dedicated to curating my space

i'm paraphrasing here but i saw a post that said, "every time i see an American [disabled person] mention being scared about the election because they're afraid of losing their benefits i have to laugh. anybody who wants blood-soaked money from the US government deserves to starve" which. like. goodness that's a lot to unpack. i think we should burn the whole suitcase instead !

#i inserted [disabled person] because they used a fucking slur instead and i didn't want that in my post #like i feel like there should be room for disabled people like me whose lives literally entirely depend on accessing said >#> extremely limited benefits in conversations about whether voting in this election makes you complicit in genocide #which like! i do understand. i do. it's nauseating to think about what this shit ass country is doing. it's horrific. i do not blame anyone #> for not wanting to be a part of that. *and* i am also terrified for my own life because i remember the first time trump won it suddenly >#> became IMPOSSIBLE for ANYONE to get on benefits. EVER. and so many disabled ppl i know went to renew benefits theyd had for decades >#> just to be denied. one of whom was a below-the-neck paraplegic. he died because he lost those benefits!!! because trump won #i really do understand why people dont feel right voting for harris. or why they don't vote at all. i truly do. but holy shit i am so scare #and yes! i am aware that people in palestine and gaza are suffering so much worse. and i wish i could change that #but every single person in power in the US is pro-israel and eagerly drinking the anti-palestine kool-aid. no matter who wins >#> things will not change in that part of the world. and it is infuriating. when the revolution comes this will change. but it hasnt.#the revolution will not save me as a physically disabled person. it will not save any of us. we do not matter to leftists. i am sorry but >#> this is the one thing i have learned after being in leftist spaces for over 10 years. and posts like the one i mentioned prove it #so i am very sorry. i really am. for being physically disabled. but i cannot survive another 4 years relying on my parents for everything #if trump wins i will be killing myself. this is a promise. i cannot do that again #i know it makes me a bad person to be afraid that harris will lose. but people on the left already think i'm a bad person for being disable #i want the genocide to stop. i absolutely do. i also want to survive. i am terrified that the US leftists will sacrifice disabled people #like me so they can feel good about being put in a real life trolley situation #again. im sorry. im so fucking sorry. i wish i was a better person. i wish i was able to give more. i know that if i was just a good #person i would be able to have a job and give to every palestinian gofundme on my dash. i would be able to do more than my daily clicks >#> and reaching out and calling representatives that don't care. if i was a good person i would be able to convince my parents that z*onism>#is deeply fucking racist. and that israel is wildly racist and killing palestinians for fun. if i was a good person i would be able to make #>them leftists too. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry im not good enough. im sorry that im scared. im so scared and it's not right for me to be #when so much worse is going on because of this countrys bloodlust. im sorry that im benefiting from being born here i dont want to be #im sorry for not having any other options. if i was a good person i know i would have them. im sorry. god im sorry im so fucking sorry

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carbonateddelusion · 1 year ago

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I know I haven't said much about it, but legitimately, "running away" was one of the most pivotal life decisions I've ever made. Probably THE first major life decision I've made, and also the best. If you have an opportunity to go, leave. Get out of there. If you are not safe at home, emotionally, physically, whatever, and you're able to leave, do it. It's going to suck such major ass for a while because you're going to have to deal with the scars they've left on you, but I wholeheartedly, full-throatedly, with-my-chest promise you that it is going to be better. You're going to be better. If you have the privilege of being able to escape, no matter how difficult it feels, then RUN.

#whatever you leave behind is not your responsibility. sometimes you're gonna have a fucked relationship with the siblings you 'abandoned'#but they have to understand that you had to leave. and that you were actively fighting to take them with you the entire time #it's okay to be selfish. you need to be selfish to start to recover.#if you have to be homeless please look up and do your research on local resources first. plan things out.#i was lucky enough to have family who'd been waiting years and years for this moment to happen #if you can go and have your college dorm as a safe haven then absolutely take that chance #if you can go and rent an apartment with the money from your job then take that chance #plan shit. do it. even if your brain fights you. you do not want to be out there without proper precautions or else you could end up-#-seriously fucked over.#also i know i'm encouraging people to get out but in equal measure:#if it isn't safe to leave you are not lesser for staying.#if it's winter and you can't be out there alone you are not complicit in your own abuse yk?#if you have family you CANNOT leave behind like extremely young siblings then you are not at fault for staying.#i was lucky enough to be able to leave quickly and (relatively) painlessly and i'm aware that not everybody can do that #sometimes staying IS the better choice. but that's a choice YOU have to make not me #assess your situation properly. are you staying for your own safety or because you're scared?#etc etc. obviously take all of this with a grain of salt i don't have all the life experience in the world just what little i have #also: prepaid phones are a godsend. MRIs. canned food. make sure to have first aid kits if needed. plan ahead. have a stash somewhere safe #rox rumblings #me things

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