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sparrowposting · 6 days

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Got told I was Doing A Good Job today at work 🥺👉👈 I will be riding this euphoria for weeks

#ik ik low self esteem people pleasing instincts bad.#but consider....praise and affirmation??? from external sources???#girl why do u think i was an obsessive anxious straight A Student #i NEEDED PPL TO LIKE ME AND TELL ME GOOD JOB #once again. academic related praise substituting for parental approval wooooooo #self deprecating jokes which drag my Issues aside. i am genuinely just 🥺🥺🥺🥺#oh im doing okay. they dont think im stupid. even tho i feel like a dumb child and inexperienced

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sybbi · 1 month

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"If enough of us vote third party for president, we could actually GET somewhere with our policy goals!"

Baby girl you can't even get a majority of third party/independents in a single state legislature. In the past 30 years there have been seven independent/third party state governors, and of those, only three were genuinely independent. The rest either got elected as a R/D and switched mid-term when they alienated themselves from their state party, got elected as I and then switched to R/D during their terms (with some of them having served the R/D parties before), or served as proxy candidates with heavy backing and support from one of the major two parties. Even VERMONT, a relative stronghold for independent/third party candidates -- the place that brought you Bernie Sanders -- doesn't have a majority of third party candidates. And when I call them a stronghold, I mean they are the only state (I know of) that consistently elects (less than a handful of) Independent candidates to the state legislature; the place is still dominated by Ds and Rs.

"The highest power in the land can't actually be voted on so there's no reason to vote for the democrats"

Hey princess here are some high school civics question for you: How are Supreme Court judges nominated? :) By what process are they appointed? Who starts that process? :) Why is the Supreme Court considered reflective of who has won the presidency? :)

#the reason you 'cant get anywhere' with your policies is bc youre not the political strategists you think you are #some of you barely know how your own government functions and it fucking shows #and it would be one thing if i looked in ur bios and u were like. 15 or smthg.#but 30?!?!?! you're 30 yrs old and you dont understand that the rsn rvw was overturned under biden is bc trump got his foot in the door???#youre 30 and youll rant abt the long lasting effects of reagan's presidential policies but you cant fathom trump might have left #a similarly long-lasting legacy??#youre 30 and you think the echo chamber you put yourself in on the internet is proof that clrly a vast majority of ppl agree w u #and theres no need to play politics when the democrats couls just wave their wands and fix everything if they werent so evil #despite the fact that both of the ladt two elections about half the population was voting for trump???#the tight margins btwn repub and democrat in congress shld tell you that #you are 30 and dont understand what strategic voting is?#youre 30 and you dont understand the difference between state laws and federal laws #youre 30 and youre upset that joe biden is a 'fascist dictator' but not in the way that gives you everything you want?#youre 30 and youre acting like biden and the dems operate in a vacuum without interference feom political enemies and #moneyed interests that have thrown up lawsuits and obstructionist tactics and misinformation #everytime the try to do something good?#youre 30 and you think palestine will be saved if joe's not in office when the only other viable candidate in the running #was cozy with netanyahu and advocated 'finishing the job' re:palestine and moved the embassy to jerusalem #in a clr fuck you to any palestinian feelings?#youre 30??? youre 30 and you never outgrew the 'mommy and daddy made me mad so I'm gonna smoke to get back at them' mentality???

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dreamyprinx · 1 year

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I bring to you, actual art but it’s me trying to replicate my friend @spaceshmuck’s art style

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#whimsy whispers #crystalart.png #others ocs #strand von zarovich #curse of strand #space tag #GOD this was so difficult and I don’t even feel like I did that good a job but it was also fun #also hi I’m not gonna shut up about my art program crashing and this corrupting right as I was almost finished with it I need people to know #that the universe tried to stop this from existing >:| I did not spend hours going ‘is this how it would draw hands’ and cursing myself for #the damn art to not see the light of day #anyways please look at my friends art it’s SO good like god I’m jealous of its art style and character designs >:’)#like literally such lovely art y’all will check it out because I said so and my word is like law or whatever #I’m like writing these at 4:25zm on a Monday and like this won’t even be posted for another week or so but like #sorry if I’m especially stupid rn I didn’t wanna go to sleep yet so I’m saving drafts and listening to off the wall magical! on loop #y’all should also check out junie & thehutfriends because I find their music fun #just listen to me when I tell you to look at ppls art because I have good taste okay? you can trust me I’m holding your hand and we’re going #to have fun I prommy #also please do not talk about the background it was one of the things I was gonna work on when the art program crashed #the only thing I fixed after that was minor mistakes like not colouring in buttons #anyways ily pretty vampire man and ily my dear friend who’s art style vexes me 💖

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poetka · 2 months

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Realised my main motivation in life is that i want to have a good enough job to be able to live comfortably by myself

#like people always expect so much of me but i don't really have a lot of ambition #and now i got that good job and I'm fine with it. i don't need anything else #like ppl telling me to do a phd are crazy. in the few years it'd take me I'll get enough work experience to qualify for the same positions #as a phd holder. while earning a good salary as opposed to some disparaging grant money #anyway. why would i go back to academia when i couldn't wait to escape it. unfortunately it's a fucking joke #and for what. i don't need to impress people with a title in front of my name #i will only go back to do it if i find something genuinely deeply fascinating to research

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opens-up-4-nobody · 11 months

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#listen. sometimes. when i get emails pertaining to a specific project i worked on that nearly broke my brain. i just stop what im doing #and start playing Losing My Religion by REM. and i wish the person emailing me could see me face down at a table listening to thay song #mostly its fine. its just when someones trying to manage the data files so i kno im gonna have to go back thru and update my code #for a bunch of tiny stuff and its like: does this sound ok? and i just dont care so much that i want to start screaming #and then at the end of the day i hike up a fucking mountain going over what im gonna tell a therapist when my insurance switches #and im gonna say it in a way thats v calm and agreeable but i want to scream and tear my hair out. or maybe i wont b agreeable. i wasnt #last time i was in a therapist office but that guy deserved it and i wasn't being that bad #ugh. im just mad bc working on my stuff makes me so miserable that when i stop its like wow im no longer in agony. cool #coool. fun times. becoming increasingly apprehensive abt how im gonna try to b more healthy abt working while taking on triple #the responsibility with a phd project and being a student and being a TA. i mean. ill try but its gonna b fucking interesting #ugh. had to bust out the burnout playlist. which like. when u try to look at other ppls burnout playlists they all suck #theyre all like former gifted kid burnout Playlists and im like fuckkk offfff. why do u not have the incredibly specific vibes that im #looking for? i just demand the perfect burnout playlist and somehow nobody puts No Surprises on there #like what??? y not? its a song abt being so totally saturated that youve had enough. a heart thats full up like a landfill. a job that #slowly kills u. bruises that wont heal. how is it not THE burnout song? but whatever. i listen to too much radi0head.#ugh. but now my burnout playlist is becoming too much like my My Brain Doesnt Feel Too Good playlist #listen. i just need to curate playlist so that they can express the feelings for me #unrelated

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ajarofpickledtears · 10 months

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people: "sure, do voluntary service! it will look good on your CV!"

people: "anyone can easily get a job stocking shelves!"

me:

#cylas speaks #how do people send dozens of job applications and keep getting rejected and not give up. on. like. life lol.#u know those jobs ppl look down on bc they're supposedly so easy and anyone can do them and you don't even need good education lol #should i take it personally that aldi doesn't want me #what is the reason #i did all the things ppl told me to do #is almost 25 and no uni degree or finished apprenticeship or anything so bad #is it the one year off due to sickness #tell me

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euelios · 11 months

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there are very specific people in my irl life who can say the most innocuous things on earth and still make me steaming mad

#ooough we love venting #especially tag venting #auden.txt #it’s my blog and i’ll cry if i want to #these tags are not a place of honour—#i got told off for making tea too late at night #and it turned into a spiral about how much worse i’ve been doing since i started my job #and like. man. i. i resolve not to trust what i think about my life past 9pm bc it is not good up here rn #a toddler’s Big Feelings in a 20 something body. i never outgrew the me who thought i could compel ppl into liking me by dint of being #so good and perfect that they had no choice #but now the more i do. work and study and hobbies and and and #the more is expected? and i’m just not learning to keep up #i miss my fucking mom i wish we got along like we used to when i was little but i’m just an asshole now and i hate being told what to do #i wish i didn’t need so much fixing.#there’s not even anything wrong just a creeping sense of dread. like heading jaws music in a sunny meadow #i wish people wouldn’t bring up my mental health to imply i’m crazy #i wish it didn’t scare me to seriously consider it #although i did once tell a friend that i felt like. there would be nothing to write in my obituary? bc i had lived such a disconnected life #like some fuck who died far away from home #jesus. i’m going insane. it’s fucking bedtime it’s been bedtime for ages.#things will be better when it’s light out

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orcelito · 11 months

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Tfw u were discussing a quit-risk employee JUST yesterday. And then she no-call-no-shows 😐

#speculation nation #by 'quit-risk' i mean someone who just doesnt do her job right so we cant promote her #but thinks it's her God Given Right to be a supervisor & was threatening to quit if she got written up even one more time #(she only got written up like. twice. ive actually been incredibly lenient with her.)#like theres a process to the training. you have to learn to prep things in the back. u take a test & when u pass u get trained on drinks #and you CERTAINLY cant become a supervisor until after you know drinks #girl was given her test. given all the opportunities. didnt take them. and yet is still dissatisfied.#like girl idk what to tell u. no we r not unfairly singling u out u just have not been doing ur fuckin Job #anyways she's been on rocky ground for basically since she got here. maybe she just got sick of the place idk.#she called ME. BOSSY. FOR DOING MY JOB!!!!!!#im the most lenient goddamned assistant manager ever while still Technically doing my job #i let employees get away with so fucking much.#but im Bossy for telling her to do her job 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄#technically theres a no phones allowed rule on shift. but i dont rly enforce it.#i just kinda nudge ppl along to do things if things need done. but for phone use here n there i just look the other way.#but apparently expecting some1 to do the work theyre being paid to do us tooooooo much #honestly it'll probably be a good thing if she leaves. just means im gonna have 2 pick up more hours probs #but she was only scheduled like 10 hours a week or so. im sure we'll manage.

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the-everqueen · 1 year

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anyways it's cool that i literally can't feel a sense of accomplishment for anything i do but also my entire sense of self-worth depends on me accomplishing things

#like in the past three months i've defended a dissertation; moved across the country; accepted a job offer #written and posted a 13k word fic (longer than any fic i've ever written before)#and i STILL feel worthless and like a waste of space #i don't even know if i want validation at this point #like i feel embarrassed when ppl tell me congrats or try to dwell on my achievements #but at the same time...tell me i'm good i need to know i'm good #brain things

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sparrowposting · 6 days

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What do u mean I have to go to work and do laundry and see my family and I can't simply fast forward to the next friend hangout/ttrpg session/etc

#the duality of fran #SO MUCH GOOD STUFF LATELY #but also. the Horrors (so much family stuff upcoming)#i just wanna. hang out and have fun and talk and just!!!!!#ALSO WHY DISTANCE FAR.#i love parallel play i am a hangout in tbe same room doing separate activities girl. cmon.#anyway. ANYWAY. i dont even dislike my job #i just think 8hrs a day plus commuting is TOO long #shorten the workday or make it a 4 day week i would be much happier and more productive #i dont mind my work! i like some parts of it alot!#i just. want a better balance with the things i care abt #ESP since im also like. cooking. cleaning. running errands #none of which are inherently awful to me. i like cooking sometimes #but limited time and energy!!! and i want to socialize in my silly introvert way!!!#tldr. pf tonight was a super short mini ses and just spend the rest of the time chatting #and im. auwaghbbhbbbhhh #me telling myself im introverted so i need to be alone 24/7 #vs me realizing that i DO like hanging out w ppl if theyre the right ppl/trustworthy/NOT MY FAMILY #and i DO like being social and laughing and doing all that #yeah need introvert recharging time #but not complete isolation #complete isolation was simply just. preferrable to my family. ykwim???#which i feel guilty abt saying bc bro3 is still a kid and i need to care for him #but also. NOT seeing my family often has been. so good for me. yall #i know im guilty and my grandparenrs are going to die one day and im wasting time #but also. seeing my parents is like. i am going to kill everyone in this room and then myself.

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tariah23 · 2 years

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Another annoying day at work

#I want to say a lot but I’ve already complained and had an attitude at work all day and got so worked up I was out of breath and my boss #gave me a gummy I was like 😑 I’ll take it #don’t even feel like going into details I’m tired man i just got here and it’s already-#I don’t want to quit tho #good money #but man I am not a slave either gtfoh #and don’t make it seem like I’m not doing enough/ my part when you got everybody else sitting on their asses on their phones and eating and #shit and standing around acting like they’re doing shit (the concierge’s 😑 they literally don’t do anything but greet guests and show them #to their lockers and stand around looking pretty like that’s literally it) so don’t get up in my face talking about we need this and that #like I’m only one person I’m one nigga we keep telling them to hire more ppl in our department there’s like 4 of us and 3 of them are #transitioning soon then it’ll just be me all by myself like bro this is so unprofessional #even other departments are like they need help 😵‍💫-#rambling #Sunday’s aren’t usually hectic but today sure was #and the coworker who I usually work with #well they forced her to come in to close instead of coming in as a mid like usual because I was wondering if she called off #it’s so stupid #my sis usually closes but she’s on a trip rn #and there’s another girl who doesn’t show up on sundays and misses work a lot anyway because of school/ family stuff #its literally never anyone’s fault if they call off it’s always the jobs fault for not having coverage/ hell never the person #then I already had a feeling that today was gonna be annoying because the girl who calls off often wasn’t coming in but I figured that #someone else would’ve finished the shit in the back at least but nope I had to play catch up and do the shit from yesterday and this morning #so there was a lot to do and this bitch comes back there talking about some you need to prioritize this and that and do this and that as if #I don’t know how to do my job as if I wasn’t just doing what she said needed to be done etc etc like she isn’t even the boss she’s just #another worker like girl get your bosse’s pet ass out of my face #killing stabbing slamming

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pepprs · 2 years

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meant to post abt this yesterday and ik it’s kinda mean but i think the counselor i have rn is the worst one ive ever had possibly even worse than (or tied w) the one i had over the summer who kept ending our sessions well before the full hour was up when i was going thru a horrible time and kept spending the sessions mostly talking abt herself and her own problems. actually no now that i write that out she was probably the worst (though she was one of the warmest / nicest and our personalities meshedreally well so i feel bad saying that she was the worst). but the one i have now is so…. lke idk. my experience w the worst counselor made me rly want to work w a clinical intern again bc i wanted someone who would like. actuallytake things seriously and give me the time i was paying for and spend all of it talki ng abt the things i was paying to talk abt and draw from the most recent / cutting edge info instead of entirely personal experience (WHICH AGAIN I FEEL SO BAD ABT BECAUSE. my work is all abt healing each other by sharing things like that and i realt did like her but it just wasn’t appropriate i guess bc it was a counseling relationship!) but my current counselor is so… rigid and restrictive. like i think he is trying too hard to apply what he’s being taught and he seems like nervous and talking out of his ass and he masks that by taking up SO much space and spending like 3 minutes responding to every one minute i talk and literally like strongarmimg the convos and deciding what we’re going to talk about and moving us on to a new topic abruptly before i feel ready to move on and like taking time out of our sessions to do paperwork / admin stuff so he doesn’t forget later (and a lot of the time i think he’s doing it while im talking bc i see his eyes moving around his screen and the light on his face like he’s not even listening to me). and it fucking sucks. i want to crack him like an egg so bad and make him realize it doesn’t have to be this way but i know that’s not my responsibility and in our session last night i basically gave up trying to create enough space for myself and just let him steer things bc i was having side effects and it was just rly unsatisfying

#purrs #i know it is entirely within my right to address these things both for my sake and for his / his future clients but im so scared lol like i #don’t want to tell him he’s doing a bad job and making it hard for me to navigate but literally when you keep steamrolling and silencing me #and cutting me off and forcing me around… yeah. also he has to record our sessions and show them to his profs / supervisors and it’s so like #idk. ive been recorded in sessions before and im totally fine w it but there’s 2 things abt this specific instance of it thst distress and #annoy me. 1) when we sign on to our session he says like 2 things to me then starts the recording and is TOTALLY fake and forcing it like #hello tess welcome to our session and he’ll repeat some of the stuff he said but in a more like.. extensive way so it just feels rly fake #to me lol. WHICH ALSO REMINDS ME 1.5) not related to the recording but every time he asks me questions he asks like… 3 questions but doesn’t #give me space to answer the two like it’s just a bridge for him as he&/ working his way to the thing he actually wants to ask me and i #fucking hate when ppl ask me questions and then answer them themselves or like don’t want to hear the answer. i had 2 profs like that in #brighton and it fucking pissed me offff so being around someone who does that again is rly agitating ik it’s just a nervous habit but yeah.#and 2) i am kinda concerned that none of my counselors profs or supervisors have seemed to call him on how he doesn’t give me space or let #me guide the convo. like idk maybe it’s just that all of my counselors before him were too loose w me but i feel like it s not supposed to f #feel this rigid and i am kinda scared abt the implications of no one actually watching these recordings and see how i try to speak but he #almost always talks over me and i just give up. lol. i like him he’s a nice person i just think he’s nervous and trying too hard and it #would be passable for like.. the little kid clients who usually go there but it doesn’t feel good for me a 23 year old who has had like what #6 counselors before him all of whom gave me space and didn’t shove me around. i miss the counselors i had from oct 2020 - jul 2021 and sept #2021 - feb 2022 they were the best ever and i am inches away from terminating here and just trying to go to wherever they are full time now #and working w them again bc they rly got me and i didn’t know how good i had it lol. i guess i don’t need someone as good anymore bc things #in my life are objectively better than they were during those times but my mental health is still bad so i would uhhh… like someone good #and don’t think that’s too much to ask and need to get it into my head that i CAN ask it. ok rant over #*no one actually watching the recordings has seen / pointed out to him how he steamrolls me etc etc

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jvzebel-x · 1 year

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#i genuinely-- GENUINELY-- believe more ppl would understand the phrase 'acab' if they were ever present for a camp sweep.#'''bUt ThEyRe JuSt DoInG tHeIr JoBs''' okay if you can give me that excuse after seeing a swat team worth of cops #shred tents in 30°< weather while trashing clothes&blankets at 3am in riot gear #youre actually just a bad person&should probably just admit that lmao.#like its currently illegal in pdx to hand out tents on the streets. street teams are no longer allowed to hand out life saving material.#this was enacted immediately after the last cold front bc fires happened bc how the fuck else do ppl stay warm #on the streets in 20°< weather. &like i dont think ppl realize how quickly you can go thru tents on city streets #SPECIFICALLY bc cops shred tents during camp sweeps. this is yet another in a continued line of laws passed #that-- to anyone who is willing to put in ANY EFFORT AT ALL-- are very obviously angled to kill homeless ppl.#&i really think that if more ppl saw the actual reality of what this all looks like together theyd at the very least #be embarassed if not ashamed to try to defend the pigs&their job which is literally to harm ppl lmao.#tell me theyre just doing their jobs after watching a team of them demolish everything a family has in the world.#there will for sure be officers laughing&physically+verbally abusing the ppl there. that will for sure be happening #bc i cannot stress enough that to do the fucking job in general you have to be a bad person willing to do heinous things.#but are the ones NOT doing that any better lmao? can you genuinely tell me theyre any better or feel any form of pity #as they do the exact same job as the awful ppl around them they just dont laugh or go even further while they do it?#its still legal in most states in the usa for cops to fuck fs street workers to prove theyre swers then arrest them after bc pRoOf lmao.#can you GENUINELY look me in the eye&tell me those cops are better than the ones that outright rape swers once theyre in custody?#i just. i just cant stand ppl who hold horrible beliefs wont further examine them at all&STILL need to be reassured #that theyre good ppl lmao. just be a bad person are you fucking serious why bother bending&breaking to deny it.#just like famous nepo babies crying about 'my mommy+daddy just FUNDED&CONNECTED me i wasnt GIVEN success :('#so you not only get to have EVERYTHING on a silver platter you also NEED to be assured that this wasnt what happened??? NO.

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ethicstownpod · 2 years

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This has a point - bear with me! I turned twenty-two a non-specified number of days ago. I was at work. My colleagues, upon learning this, got me a card and a cake and threw me a party before our DnD game. They put all this together in the span of my right hour shift; I've only worked there six months. My colleagues are some of my favourite people in the whole world.

My flatmate loves tiktok, an app I despise. But every day she saves rat videos, and then shows them to me when I get home from work/class. My other flatmate once hand-drew me wrapping paper of a hideous little cartoon man because he knew it would make me laugh.

My cousin, who’s eight, always asks everyone else if they want to play with his X-box before he does. There’s a girl in my class who always stops people on the way out to tell them she really liked the points they were making in discussions that day. Every discord server I’ve ever been in has a channel for sharing pictures of your pet. I’ve never met a person who doesn’t want to brag about their friends. I love when you make a baby laugh on the bus, so they try to make you laugh in return.

And now the point! The point is that I think people are so good. So unbelievably, fundamentally good. And I want to write people like that. Even when they’re not being actively good, there’s So Much Good inside of them. There are so many wonderful people in my life, I feel I would be doing them a disservice by not portraying just how amazing people can be.