#i AM staying hydrated though so win for me

[bylroos]

turns out if you slam back two monsters in about as many hours when you can’t remember when the last time you ate something that wasn’t a single pb&j will make you feel awful. who would’ve guessed.

[gravitasmalfunction]

my controversial opinion is that the risk of discovery and consequences for a business that edits timesheet data should be greater than the consequences for the business for just admitting the scheduling error and paying the overtime that results.

[artful-aries]

Hello, I loved your oblivious reader confession request!!

Would you mind doing the same question but for Pantalone and Ayato?

Please stay hydrated (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤

It is a STRUGGLE for me to drink anything let alone water simply bc I am dumb. But thank you for the sentiment!!! I hope you enjoy this

Confessing To An Oblivious Crush (Pantalone, Ayato)

Pantalone

He’s a bit of a flirt when it comes to the right person, he’s always going to give you special looks, grazing touches, and subtle winks, all of which will fly completely over your head

Needless to say, he’s a little bit stunned when you act so casually around him as though he hasn’t been throwing enough money at you to make anyone flustered. You are flustered to a degree, but not in the way that he wants you to be. You just think of him as nice, a sentiment he almost abhors

Pantalone doesn’t think himself as a particularly cruel man by any means, but the last thing he wants you to think of when you think of him is nice. Seductive? That’s his ultimate goal. Reckless? He certainly can be when it comes to things he wants. Sleazy? He’ll take it if it means you actually realize he wants you. But nice? Nice is for your average, mundane man, and he is anything but that

The subtle dance around your obliviousness is fun for the first few weeks, but he begins to grow just a tad bit impatient as time goes on

He briefly considers buying advertisements in all of the newspapers in Teyvat to announce his feelings for you, but he figures that would go over your head too, likely chalking it up to some strange prank of his, as if he were ever the type to play juvenile pranks in the first place

When monetary sentiments fail to catch your attention, Pantalone shifts gears and gets more touchy. He won’t be inappropriate, but he always manages to find a way to have his hand linger on your shoulder, or his chest graze your back as he scoots by you

It’s in this subtlety that he realizes his efforts are futile, and he has to bite back his pride when you ask him why he’s been so clumsy lately

Pantalone will not stop his efforts until you have returned his feelings or rejected him outright; even if you were to reject him, he would likely just double down and try to win you over even more. When he sees something he likes, he won’t stop until he gets it

Eventually, he grows tired of waiting and just calls you into his office one day, borderline cornering you as he stares down at you with a smirk and announces his feelings for you

He won’t let you leave until he at least gets confirmation that you understand exactly what he means. No, he doesn’t just like you as a colleague or friend, his heart burns for you

When you admit that you feel the same, Pantalone feels a sense of accomplishment, feeling like he is one step closer to being the man who has it all

You are certainly his sweetest conquest so far, and he can’t wait to grow even closer to you in order to see just how much this boon is worth

Ayato

He almost prefers the oblivious types, not only for the cat and mouse like game both of you will take part in even though it’s without your knowledge, but also for the genuine honesty that these types of people often display

It provides almost a sense of mental stimulation for him to piece you together like a puzzle, finding out what buttons to press and how in order to get the reactions he relishes in

You also save him the headache if wondering what you’re thinking or what your goals are; it’s painfully obvious that you have no idea that you have attracted the attention of the head of the Kamisato Clan

He is never cruel or unfair, but he’s certainly not without mischievousness as he flirts shamelessly with you

As much as he would love to spend quality time with you, Ayato is extremely busy, so he makes up for this by sending you lots of thoughtful gifts (gifts so nice that you clearly wouldn’t buy them for anyone else other than someone you deeply cared about)

When he does get to spend time with you, near endless words of praise will flow from his lips, some of his compliments purposefully worded as innuendos solely to watch how you blush and squirm

Ayato finds it remarkable that you can get so flustered at his words yet somehow not realize he is being completely serious. But that just adds more layers to this game of his

He flirts and pulls back, repeating this pattern with various intensity to see how you react, but he will stop if this ends up upsetting you somehow

As his feelings grow more serious, he begins to take a more genuine, straightforward approach with his feelings for you. To his amazement, you still act as clueless as ever despite him talking at length about how he thought you would make a good partner for someone (it’s him, he’s someone)

This will end up pulling a genuine laugh out of him, one that would likely leave you confused because you hadn’t said anything particularly funny

When you ask him about it, Ayato will come clean and say that he found it absolutely adorable how oblivious you were to his advancements

If somehow you were still confused as to what he meant, he would gently take your hand and kiss the back of it, looking up at you with smoldering eyes and asking you if that answered your question

[honeyedmiller]

hi dev! 

to say the vibes have been off lately would be an understatement, wouldn’t it? because there has been a lot of negativity, too much for a place that is supposed to be about finding an outlet for your creativity and people to share your interests.

i know it has been difficult, draining to be around here and face all the discourse cankering the fandom. 

because of all this negativity, i believe it is important to try and balance it out with some kindness. so here i am, doing a little check-up on you <3

so first, how are you, really?

everything you feel regarding what is happening is valid and you deserve to feel happy and safe around here. so please, make sure you take the time you need from posting, from sharing fics, even just from being on the platform. i want you to know it’s okay and i support whatever you decide, for whatever reason.

i also want you to know that you have your place here, as much as the rest of us. you’re loved and wanted and i can assure you the fandom is a far better place with you in it.

i hope you’re taking care of yourself outside of tumblr as well. please remember to stay hydrated and to eat something 🫶🏼

now i would like you to sit back and enjoy the perfect, quiet night in with joel <3

do not hesitate to reach out if you need to talk, i’m here for you! sending you all my love and so many hugs 🫂

anna 💗

hi anna. this is so sweet, and i absolutely love the moodboard.

truthfully, i’m feeling very frustrated with everything that’s been going on lately. from the plagiarism, hateful anons, fatphobic asks and racist slurs being targeted at my mutuals and people i consider my friends is just so fucking gross.

i think i can speak for a few people on here when i say this shit has gotten completely out of hand. the bullying in this fandom is unfathomable and disgusting. these anons are always so bold when they have some really mean shit to say and quite frankly, it’s just draining to see, and i’m sure it’s even more exhausting for the people who are actively going through it themselves.

this used to be such a fun space. i love interacting with everyone on here and sharing my writing and other incredible stories on here, but it’s hard to do so when you feel paranoid about random people following you that may plagiarize your stuff or people who keep a watchful eye on you just to spite you and be hateful.

it’s just not fair. i know we all try and say we can’t let people like those anons “win”, but in all truthfulness, it’s just so tiring seeing something every single day on here. my heart hurts for my friends who constantly get hate, get plagiarized, or even have racist slurs thrown at them. it makes me feel really uneasy and i honestly think these anons forget that most of us are here because we all support one proud chilean man.

this is supposed to be a safe space for everyone, and it’s quite honestly the complete opposite.

sorry for the rant, but things have honestly just gotten so out of hand.

i appreciate you checking in though, you’re so so sweet and the fandom really could use a kind heart like you. i’m so happy you’re in this space, anna. much love 🤍

[nonbinaryvee]

1. How long have you been into hypnosis?

Over 20 years im 35, aol chat and latch key kid lol

2. Describe your first experience with hypnosis

A child therapist when I was 6 or 7

3. Are there any TV shows/movies/books you liked when you were younger that you think got you into hypnosis?

Multiple - one early memory is of the droopy cartoon and Elvira brainwashes him, also the schooby do ghoul school movie brainwashing bat headphones, the snake in jungle book iant a hard hitting memory.

4. Are you primarily a hypnotist or a subject?

Subject but am adapt as a tist

5. Are you primarily a dom/me or a sub?

Super duper submissive lol like it's embarrassing

6. What do you love about being hypnotised?

The loss of anxiety, my brain being "off", and the submission relates to it.

7. What do you love about hypnotising people?

I actually really enjoy training or coaching, so Im not dominant but love helping someone achieve thier goals. I see it a lot like a service.

8. How do you feel when hypnotised?

When I'm really deep I'm absent like totally disassociation. Like floating in water almost with the reverberation of the water

9. How do you feel when you hypnotise someone else?

Like when I zone out playing a video game, I need to hit the right buttons to win the game. So I get self tranced kinda.

10. Are you a difficult subject?

Yes and no. Im super easy to drop, enjoy, and play with. However my subconscious is pretty wild, and hard to pin down into a focused direction. So long term results may very lol..

11. What’s your ‘signature move’ as a hypnotist?

Doing what the subject wants, staying very in limits, and leaving the subject with a deep enjoyment of water. Actually enjoying the taste of possible...cause it's almost sadistic to make anti hydrating people hydrate lol

12. What’s your favourite kind of hypnotic induction?

Consented to conversational hypnosis that leads into Ericksonian themed guidance.

13. Do you like visual fixation (on spirals, eyes, swinging objects etc.) for hypnosis?

I love it lol. But sometimes it's better for bdsm rp hypnosis and less for getting good results.

14. What are your favourite kinds of hypnosis play?

I really enjoy fetish creation and accidental self help for others. For me...well, I like hard kinks cnc addition, memory play, corruption, if I had irl hypno dom ild be pretty free use..

15. What other kinks do you like to incorporate into your hypno play?

Pet play, equipment, feminization, toilet play,.identity play, all sorts. It could literally make any scene more fun for me. It's my number one kink.

16. For you, is the appeal of hypnosis primarily sexual or not?

It's both relaxing, a hobby, and sexual. It's kinda just my favorite thing lol

17. What are some post-hypnotic suggestions you particularly enjoy (for others or yourself)?

I love simple pleasure triggers. .good girl is so classic, good boy, good pet , those are just the best.

18. Describe your best experience involving hypnosis

My long term enjoyment of Bambi files.

19. Describe a bad experience you had involving hypnosis? Why was it bad? Why did it go wrong?

I worked with a subject over the course of months, experimenting with hypnosis capabilities, we decided to try and have their hair color change through natural causes. What ended up happening was that their subconscious took over, made them go into what.thwy described as "drone mode" even tho that had never been a theme we used. And purchased hair dye, almost got kicked out of their home as they were just 19 and parents hadn't accepted them as fem. It was pretty scary and not meant to ever become unsafe for them, we took a few days to de program her entirely after that. And then she ghosted me. I understand why, even though it was all consented to, I learned a lot about the limits of hypnosis.

20. What’s one tip you have for other hypnotists/subjects?

Every one's sensations are hyper individualistic as a newer subject. The one thing I'd want both sets to know, is that new subjects should not be directed to feel anything like heavy or light or floaty. Just say trance or hypnosis, then identify the feeling they associate to trance. This is the number issue i see, new subjects feel like failures because they're sensations don't line up with the guides suggestions this loosing faith and trust in the trancing process. And for hypnotists it's probably just because of troupes and the average trance script as those things in them.

21. Do you have any tips for how to negotiate hypnosis play?

It has to be consented to before scene starts.period. consent is sexy. Even if it's premising cnc. Communication is key to any relationship, and kinky dynamics are just that personified. Having an understanding of what the subjects long term wants are important with hypnosis play, also it has to be stared that deep real hypnosis is a R.A.C.K practice if done right. If the subject is blanking an entire trance, that's akin to needing a trip nanny while using hallucinating on illicit things. Like asphyxiation play, public humiliation, and a few others hypnosis can have out-of-the-scenes consequences. Hence why knowing your subjects over all goals for interaction is sooo important. Do they want an escape? Or do they want to loose human rights(in a kinky consenting way for 24/7 pets).

22. Do you like your hypnosis to involve power exchange, or not?

I enjoy it when I'm the subject but avoid it as the hypnotist

23. For you, how does hypnosis fit into a relationship? Just in the bedroom, or as part of BDSM relationship?

It can be both. Or one or the other. It's such a dynamic activity I would personally hate to limit it.

24. Are you interested in a 24/7 hypnotic enslavement relationship?

Yes. Way more than a healthy amount lol.

25. Have you ever experienced strong, sudden feelings for a hypnotist/subject? How did you deal with that?

Yes. It's kinda normal for me for anyone who's nice to me, for me to immediately dive deep. I just roll with it when it's not reciprocated as it's the sop at this point lol

26. Are you interested in hypnotising/being hypnotised by people of a gender you are not attracted to?

So as a pansexual... n/a lol. But I do prefer feme people so getting tranced by masq people? Still yes lol

27. What’s your favourite work of hypnosis erotica?

There was a omniscient therapy story that was great lol but don't get to read much

28. What’s your favourite spiral?

The ones in my DMs lol is there a bad one?

29. What’s your favourite hypno-themed image/caption/piece of art?

I really enjoy the indie artists that just randomly have hypno smut plastered online. They all deserve oral for their valiant efforts to keep the masses under hypnotic horny controls

30. What’s your favourite audio file/audio file producer?

Hmmm 🤔 platinum puppets is winning right now .

31. What’s your favourite book/movie/TV show that includes hypnosis?

Hmmm anime lol

32. Describe your biggest fantasy involving hypnosis?

The hole 10 yards honestly, life take over. For me, getting actually kidnapped and changed to their liking

33. Do you have any fantasies about non-consensual hypnosis? Describe them

...yes...waking up to pictures getting taken of me then blanking out again, waking up in a pink room and not being able to.focus, then it starts again. Then getting shown all the porn I've been made into while not in trance. Simple private messages with no description, hypnosis files linked and told to listen with no knowledge of the script. So many ways to give my mind away 🤤

34. What’s one fictional character you’ve fantasised about hypnotising/being hypnotised by?

Poison ivy

35. Do you like intelligence loss/bimbofication hypnosis? Why?

Probably my favorite. I can't stop thinking. About things wildly out of my control. Also choices give me anxiety. You know who doesn't do that? Dumb bimbos

36. Do you like amnesia play? Why?

Yes, it's just an intense rush being unaware of my own actions..a loss of control able to be identified internally. It's like the control is inside me. And it's lovely

37. Do you like freeze triggers? Why?

Yes and no .they just don't really feeze my body.

38. Do you like pleasure triggers? Why?

Mmmmmmmm yeah. For one good girl is a trigger I cant stop. At all. It happens 100%. No choice so it s just fun. But who doesn't want pleasure??? Like obvious

39. Do you like alternate personalities created through hypnosis? Why?

Not really. I don't wish my natural state on any one. It's hard

40. Do you like feminization hypnosis? Why?

Yes. Its such a nice thing for trans fems. And honestly it just a great way to do forced.fem link scenes

41. Have you ever experienced a “hands-free” orgasm as a result of hypnosis?

No, 😔😔😔 but the amount of leaking and throbbing without touching is wild

42. Which famous person do you think has the most hypnotic voice?

Tom Hiddleston

43. If you make hypnosis content, what’s your favourite piece of content you’ve made?

I don't yet but plan on it

44. Have you ever used hypnotic conditioning to help you or someone else with a part of your/their life?

Bambi files helped me accept myself as non binary trans fem. And have helped many people get better healthy lifestyles myself

45. Have you ever been to a hypnosis convention? Did you enjoy it, or not? Why?

I have not..but wow does that sound fun.

46. How has being involved with hypnosis/the hypno community improved your life?

Out of all the communities online, hypnosis is the most accepting of extreme thoughts that don't translate to extreme actions. Being able to express things and explore in a safe community has been life saving for me multiple times over the years.

47. What is one thing about the hypnosis community you think could change for the better?

Hhmmm I wish hypno therapy practicers were more willing to help the hypno kink community be ethical and just ban hammer it so much from open discussion.

48. Who is one person in the hypno community you really admire?

Mind Mistress. Old but gold. And her team in the 2000s was just the best thing ever

49. What is your favourite hypnosis-themed blog on tumblr?

Neural Nets and pretty patterns is solid. I dont know much about the creators. But the content is on point.

[shepfax]

combo of day 3 and 4 post-op journal

this one has a photo in it of my body post-op so viewer discretion is advised. there is no blood, sexual content, or overall frightening imagery but it is "raw" so to speak in that it's actively healing flesh so it'll be under the readmore.

so yesterday (Jan 7th) I got to take a shower for the first time since surgery. this was my first chance to see my chest uncovered and when I tell you I legitimately could not be happier I mean it. my surgeon is apparently a fucking master human sculptor (my primary doc said today that she's typically on task for cis people's cosmetic procedures anyway) and she gave me a body that really, truly looks the way I always knew it should.

look at that. a fucking masterpiece. incisions lovingly shaped under my natural chest wall, nipples realistically placed, it's just organic enough to look symmetrical without actually being so, which is exactly how I wanted it for fear of looking artificial. it's soft, not flat, just like me, and it's mine. it's truly, honestly beautiful to me.

also I got a note that the pathology was normal on the tissue they removed and it confirmed that I lost 3.35 lbs of dysphoric meat. big win for me.

the showering itself was low-key awful though I'll be real with you all. removing the soft dressings from my bolsters and drains (which I was instructed to do I promise) made me all the more aware of them and while the bolsters are 100% numb the sensation of the drains made me almost faint it was so viscerally offensive. I sat in the shower and my wife helped me wash my head, arms, and back for as long as I could handle being out of the compression vest. putting it all back on was fine but then it was like. you know how you pack a suitcase perfectly before a trip and then you can never get all the shit you brought to fit the same way back into the suitcase? it feels kinda like that. ever since I unwrapped everything and re-wrapped it, I am suddenly slightly more aware of it's presence and it sucks ass. the drain outputs keep pinging me with a gnarly little itch of pain and the shower dressings I wore over the bolsters ripped out a bunch of my chest hair and those areas are itchy as fuck now. grrr

for physical activity I tried some of the neck/arm exercises the doc sent me and went with my mom to the grocery, picking up scar care gel for future use.

a friend of my family sent me not one, not ten, but a pack of 24 silly straws as a get well gift. I have aggregated 23 of them into a vase as the world's silliest bouquet and use one to stay hydrated.

today (Jan 8th) I took it very easy, with a small breakfast, a big hefty nap and a virtual appointment with my primary doctor for medication recheck on my hormones. she was very happy to hear about my experience with my surgeon and plans to recommend her to others in the future. big moment: I made myself lunch for the first time since surgery (literally just a banana cut in half with some peanut butter in the middle)! activity was only a short walk around the neighborhood with my dad, both because I was exhausted from poor sleep and because it was cold & windy.

tomorrow is my first post-op appointment with the surgical team and I believe it's the day I get my bolsters off but I could be wrong. we shall see what the future brings😀

[giggly-squiggily]

OK OK OK - I think I finally had a fun idea for a request! I've been getting back into Black Clover recently and I love this idea: Asta and Yuno are having a tickle fight while - of course - fighting over who's going to be the next Wizard King, and Asta is getting upset because he thinks Yuno is letting him win. But, either because Yuno admits it or Asta's one braincell (affectionate, ofc) puts it together, he realizes Yuno's actually enjoying being tickled and it turns into a very unfairly one-sided tickle attack where Yuno is trying not to completely lose his composure. Bonus points for lots of teasing! <3

Only if you want to, of course, friend! I hope you're enjoying your break and have a wonderful Halloween! Stay hydrated! ^^

*flies into the sun and back again* AHH YES!!! God I love this prompt- and these two! And LEE!YUNO! I'm absolutely smitten by their friendship! I've gotcha covered, friend! :D (Snuck some Yunleo in because it's me lols)

No matter the setting, where they were or how far in their own journeys they come, Yuno and Asta’s relationship stayed the same.

“I’m gonna become the Wizard King first.”

“Nah, it’s gonna be me.”

Asta sat up from his spot across the campsite, glaring halfheartedly at his friend. “You always say that.”

Yuno looked up, raising a brow. “Say what?”

“You know what! The whole ‘No it’s gonna be me’ thing!” Asta turned so he was properly facing Yuno now, face lit by flames. “I can’t tell if you mean it or you’re just trying to motivate me.”

“Oh I mean it. One day, I’ll be Wizard King.” Yuno nodded. “You can be my right hand if you want, though we might need to get you a stool to stand on.”

“A stool! Who are you calling short?” Asta mock gasped in shock, standing in indignation. “I’ll have you know I’m the perfect height for a Wizard King! You on the other hand are too tall. When I get there, you’re gonna have to sit all the time as my right hand.” He nodded, already envisioning Yuno crouch sitting on one of those tiny stools Sister Lily made them use whenever they acted up. “Heh, you’d look like a goblin.”

“So I’d look like you, right?” Yuno’s lips quirked up at Asta’s glare. “Sorry- was that a low blow? I figured it would go right over you.”

“Oh, you're itching for a fight, aren’t ya?” Asta cracked his knuckles as he slowly made his way around the fire, eyes gleaming with guaranteed mischief. “Just so you know- I’m not going easy on you.”

“I don’t know- you better go all out. I might not feel it if you don’t.” Yuno couldn’t fight down the laugh when Asta gaped.

“Oh it is ON!” The shorter boy roared as he tackled the other, beginning to wrestle. Sure, the fire was a good three feet away, and there was the possibility they might roll into a rogue ant hill like last time.

But hey- that’s the fun of adventure right?

Soon Asta was sitting comfortably on top of Yuno, fingers flying over his sides, drawing out a variety of giggles. “HA! Take my ultimate attack, Yuno! Asta’s Wizard King level tickle!”

“Thahahahhat’s not even a thiihihihng! Shohoohohohrtstahahahhahaa!” Yuno yelped beneath him, legs kicking helplessly behind them as he attempted to curl in on himself. His hands came over his face almost immediately, hiding his growing smile. “Wahahhahahahait!”

“No way! This is what you get!” Asta declared, even as his voice started losing steam. He paused then, brows furrowing as he looked down at Yuno. “Are you going easy on me?”

“Eh..eheheh..whahaht?” Yuno asked, his laughter dying down when he met Asta’s eyes. “What are you talking about?”

“Are you going easy on me? It seems like whenever we fight lately, you let me win.” Asta seemed to droop then, face clouding over. “It’s like you don’t wanna play anymore. Like…you’re just bearing through it to get it over with quicker.”

“What? No, that’s not it at all.” Yuno reassured him quickly. Perhaps too quickly.

“Well, what is it?” Asta asked, anger touching his voice. “Am I too weak for you now? I know I’m not in some fancy team like yours, but I’m still-”

“Asta.” Yuno cut him off, glaring himself. The look held so much conviction it choked off the remainder of the shorter boy’s words. “Don’t say that. Never say that.”

“Well, what is it?” Asta asked, quieter this time. Anger was gone now, replaced with confused hurt. “Why don’t you fight back?”

Yuno’s own glare dropped, replaced with…embarrassment? He averted his gaze, cheeks starting to redden. “I erm…it’s stupid.”

“So is your face, but I’m still here.” Asta replied automatically, earning a shove and a snort.

“Shut up…okay fine, I’ll tell you. But you have to promise you won’t laugh.” Yuno glared at him until Asta nodded. “I…kindalikeitokaysothere.” Yuno covered his face again, ears bright red.

Asta blinked. “Uh…that was a bit too fast. Could you say it again but slower?” Yuno groaned behind his hands. “What? I’m not good at fast sentences.”

Not to mention Yuno- usually unflustered, cool as ever Yuno, was a blushing mess! This must be something pretty important for him to act so…different. Asta hadn’t seen this version of him since he told him he was dating Leopold.

“Alright, alright. I…kinda like it. Being…tickled.” Yuno seemed to wince at the confession. “It’s…nice. Really nice actually. I don’t really know how to react when it happens so…yeah.” Yuno didn’t move his hands, too scared to see what would happen.

Asta chewed on it for a moment, humming. “Oh. Okay.”

Yuno blinked, finally looking at him. “Huh?”

Asta looked relieved. Happy really. “I was scared you were gonna say you were bored of me! That’s all? Man, Yuno- you act like that’s something to be ashamed of!” Asta shook his head fondly, reaching out and flicking the other’s forehead with barely any strength. “So that’s why you don’t fight back huh? You’re too busy having fun.”

“Erm…yes. I suppose so-ah! Ahehehehehehhe!” Yuno snorted when Asta’s fingers returned to his waist, pressing into the soft spots there once more. “Wait, whahahhahahahait!”

“Wait, nothing! You just told me you like being tickled! I’m not gonna let this info slide!” Asta grinned, a new determination in his eyes. “Now I know you’re having fun, I suppose I can go all out, huh?”

“Hahahahng on! Not ahahahahhahall ohoohohohohut!” Yuno could barely talk now; Asta’s fingers worked their way up his ribs, scratching into the spots between with surprising precision. “Ahahahahhahsta!”

“Oh, it’s Asta now? What happened to Shortsta?” The other teased, delighted. “Hm, your Ki reads differently. I guess that should have been my sign you were enjoying yourself all along, huh? My bad. Looks like I’m gonna have to make it up to you!” He dropped a hand to Yuno’s stomach, earning a squeak. “Heh, still so ticklish here.”

“Shhohohoohohortsiahahhahhaha! Plehhahahhahhahahse!” Yuno gave up on covering his face, pushing at the hands tracing random symbols against his stomach. His face was pink with laughter, and his smile was warm and charming. Oh, if only he had a spell that allowed him to make records. He’d show everyone it- “Look at him! Look how happy my friend is!”

One day that might change. For now, he’ll enjoy it for himself for now.

“Aahahahhahahhahstahhahahahahaha! GAH NOHOHOHOOO!” Yuno’s voice nearly cracked when Asta went for his neck, making him scrunch up and shriek. “DOHOHOOHON’T NOT THEHEHHEHERE!”

“Remind me to do this in front of Mimosia and Sir Spectacles next time we meet.” Asta grinned cheekily at Yuno’s reaction. “I bet they’d be thrilled to hear it.”

“SHUHUHUHUHUSH! GEHHEHEHET OHOOHOHOHOFF!” With a blast of wind that sent Asta flying, Yuno squirmed backwards, gasping for breath as he rubbed his neck. A foot away, Asta landed gently on the soft dirt, unharmed and near breathless with his own laughter. “Oo, do that again!”

“No whahay. Not with the fire.” Yuno groaned, unable to stay annoyed with Asta laughing before him. “You’re such a child.”

“Oh, we’re back at the short jokes, eh?” Asta grinned, though he made no moves to attack him. Instead he got comfortable, laying in Yuno’s spot. “Whatever. We’ll see who’s making jokes when I’m the Wizard King.”

“I already told you, it’s gonna be me.” Yuno rolled his eyes before lying down as well, not bothering with relocating. “But seriously…thank you. For not thinking I’m weird or anything like that.”

“Oh I think you’re weird, but it’s never for things like this.” Asta grinned, laughing as a gust of wind pulled his bandanna over his eyes. “Thanks, I needed an eye mask.”

Yuno snorted before closing his eyes, letting sleep take over as well.

No matter where they were, who they became or what journey lies ahead, Asta and Yuno would forever be them.

And they couldn’t ask for anything better.

I hope this was good!

[drabsyo]

Hey drabs,

Firstly, I'm so sorry for my whack English for it's my second language. And I know this is an ask box, but this is the only way I know to send you message anonymously in case this message sounded cringier than what's in my head. lol.

I wanted to say that I hope everything is going well for you because I know that looking for a job these days feels like looking for diamond in a gold mine, which basically almost impossible and I myself is also looking for a job.

And also, I wanted to share a few things in case you get ghosted by the company after weeks of the interview.

1. Have you ever tried Glints or LinkedIn? I don't know what your line of work but perhaps you want to try to apply through those two apps maybe?

2. If the point above still doesn't work, perhaps you should try internship first. I got my first job right after graduating high school because my mentor saw my works are good enough and he recommend me to his boss. But then again, these kinda things are also based on luck, and not to mention that most companies don't pay their intern, so hopefully we don't have to use this tips.

I also wanted to share somethings that helped me to stay sane and during times like that.

1. Don't forget to eat and stay hydrated. As long as you stay hydrated and not hungry, you'll be more focused on the questions the interviewer asked.

2. Don't stay up late. Same goes like the point above, you'll be more focus and have more energy if you sleep enough. And If you're a night owl like me, well... don't forget to drink coffee after you woke up. lol.

3. After all the interviews done for the day, don't forget to reward yourself. Regardless of what happened or whether or not you're accepted, don't forget to reward yourself. It doesn't have to be something grand, something small can do. For me, I usually eat my comfort food that is those korean instant ramen or have a little gaming session.

I know these stuff are basically generic, but I just wanted you to know that no matter what, you are awesome. Sending you all my support and hugs, good luck Drabs ❤

Hey anon! Oh my goshhh first of all, thank you so much for this. It's been a rough few months, exhausting really. I received your message right after I finished my interview, and I know it sounds lame, but it almost made me cry! To know that you care enough about me to leave me this message is so heart warming. So. Thank you. ❤

Your English is wonderful, please don't ever apologize for that and this message is not cringe at all, FAR from it. I'm saving this ask!

I haven't tried Glints or LinkedIn yet. It's also the first time I've heard of Glints, so I might give it a shot. Thank you for the tip! I'll go check it out. My usual method has been applying for jobs on JobStreet.

Glad to hear your mentor was really impressed by your works!!! ❤ I did have an internship before, but the company where I had my internship in ran out of budget for our department so they weren't hiring. Plus, my supervisor from there also resigned. And I was also the unpaid intern!

I keep forgetting to stay hydrated. Yesterday, the interviewer made us wait for an hour and twenty minutes before the interview started and no one would tell us what was happening. I was so thirsty, it was embarrassing. Not to mention I had a fever, yikes. Hope you're staying hydrated on your job hunt too ❤

Ughhgghh I am a night owl too and I absolutely hate it, anon. I love it, but I also hate it? You know what I mean. I am looking into night shift options though. My friends who work the graveyard shift tell me it's disorienting. Maybe we should consider it, what with us being night owls and all? Hm.

Yes!! A quick gaming session does wonders for my anxiety after an interview. That, or I play some music really loud to tune out my thoughts for the day. Or I just lay in bed. Pet my cat. Read fanfiction. Go on tumblr. And now, I have this ask to go back to too ❤ It's the small wins, for sure. I'm happy to hear you give yourself these small rewards too ❤

Anon, this means a lot to me. Grinned like an idiot reading your tips. And please, take your own advice too. Stay hydrated, do things that make you happy, try to get 8 hours of sleep, and take care of yourself. I sincerely hope you're doing great, staying healthy, and are loved. World's tough. Really tough. You've got me in your corner, anon! Sending you hugs!!!! And all my love ❤❤❤

[ambitionthegaybear]

Tedious Tasks To Stay Healthy and Slow Down Aging

Lets be clear, why you do not have to be vain, but most people whether your gay or straight lets face it. We all want to try to slow down the aging that is happening to our bodies. Why we may not want to look like we are in our 20's we want to slow the process as much as we can so we can look healthy, vibrant and be able to enjoy life and keep up with our loved ones. With this being said. ITS NOT FUCCCCKKKIIING EASY! LOL

Its especially not easy if your 46 and have issues with being some what inpatient about your day and what you want to get done, that you dont prioritize your own self. Well if you are doing this, like me you need to keep reminding yourself that your worth it, and that we only live on this rock once. Do you love yourself enough to want to take care of yourself. The answer needs to be yes. So right now the 3 tedious tasks of taking care of myself is what I need to force myself to do starting today.

Hydrate - Keeping hydrated with actual water instead of sugary sodas or teas at work. This has been a struggle of mine since I was younger and still plagues me. I have been able to do it multiple times, and will do it again. This is very important for your body organs, and YOUR SKIN!

Quit Smoking - This is a battle that I am going to win, even though I have failed it numerous times. I have to remind myself that I can live a healthy long quality life, or be a burden on my loved ones and in poor health. I always choose the healthy long quality life. However this has not been easy. I have had 2 cigarettes today already and probably should not of. I have one left which will be gone here soon, and I do not plan on picking up another.

Skin Care - Exfoliating and putting lotion or shea butter on skin during/after bathing. This takes time for me being a bigger guy, however maybe only an extra 20 mins tops to my hygiene routine. However that's 20 mins I feel I could be working on our business, or lately napping. Seasonal depression is a bitch too! LOL but cant dwell on that, and need to keep in the NOW. So with that being said I plan on giving that its rightful attention it deserves. More so then I have been doing.

So those are tedious to me, probably because of the seasonal depression, but also they are life changes. They are something most of us did not take care of when we are younger, and your 3 might be different then mine, but we all have them.

Well I dont want to run on, so I am going to leave it at this and since I did get up at 530 AM I might as well make use of my time to get the above done. When it comes to our health and how we look, it all goes to our habits in life. If you want to look healthy and your best as you age, you need to adjust your habits. Plain and simple =)

I hope to be more active over here this week!

[daxhalfawake]

I just wanna share a little win today 🥺

It's going to be under the break, though, because there is talk of weight and fat loss. I'm going to try to add correct tags for blocking but if I miss any please feel free to let me know.

So, back in May, I went to the doctor thinking that I would leave with a scheduled gallbladder removal surgery. Instead, I walked away with news of a more complicated-to-resolve condition, Non-Alcoholic Fatty Liver Disease (NAFLD).

I had been on metformin for about a month due to recently discovered insulin resistance that I have likely been struggling with since I was very young, based on symptoms. I've been overweight since I was probably around 5ish.

I had been having symptoms that I believed were a bad gallbladder, my body reacting to the pregnancy hormones that had just dropped, since late February. By May, I was struggling to eat, struggling to stay hydrated, and I was scared. But that was the earliest I could be seen by any doctor.

Since that visit, I've adopted a diet similar to the Mediterranean diet. I don't eat more than 12g of added sugar most days. I don't have more than an oz of dairy. I can't eat almost any of my autism-safe foods because 99% of them were ultra-processed and finding adequate substitutes has been complicated. But I am still eating, and I am doing my best to exercise more than I had been (which was mainly zero, because I was severely depressed).

Well, I did some low-level research so that I could give myself a goal to reach; bc 'lose weight' on its own is discouraging. My wife and I joined a health program that gives you 24/7 access to a health coach and a specialist and they are great at motivating. And, today, I've surpassed my goal of losing 3% of my body fat (by a lot, actually, I don't weigh every day because it stresses me out). This should mean, hopefully, that my liver is now healing itself again because I was in early stages of the disease.

I was nervous about how quickly I'm losing weight at first, but my doctors are not concerned and the combination of meds I'm on facilitate weight loss at least x3, plus I've cut out almost all added sugar, so I'm trying to not be too worried unless the doctors tell me to be. Therefore, if folks comment here, I would very much appreciate not being told I'm losing weight too quickly. I know it's fast. And I am always worried about it in the back of my mind because I know it can also cause problems, but I'm here today to celebrate achieving something I have been fighting for, for the last couple months, and I was told I needed to lose 30lbs this year.

[returntosaturn271995]

Thursday, November 30th: Healthy Girl Era

Being an adult, much like staying hydrated, is never never-ending process. This is kind of nice in that there's no real destination you can be beaten to or end up in, but it's also kind of annoying to wake up and realize: wait? I have to do it again? But I did something mature yesterday!

That's how they get you. No good deed goes unincorporated into the daily schedule.

Today's outfit going into my date: Oversized cream turtleneck, Chanel necklace, light wash jeans, white veja sneakers. Hair in a loose bun, minimal makeup.

Excitement going in: 3/10. He's giving off kind of douchey vibes (used the word prolly), but this is more about my dating strategy than it is about our likelihood of getting along. Considering I'm given to limerance, my only goal is to enter a date to observe the other person as opposed to trying to seem datable.

Review pending. I'm also walking to Costa Brava because I'm trying to beat the little move meter on my phone and am giving my shins a rest from running today.

Little wins:

Homemade delicious bagel with lox, chicken salad sandwich, and epic carrot and spinach smoothie for health reasons. I will destroy my food-ordering habit and it will be O-V-E-R for these hoes.

25 minutes of leg stretching yoga action, I am currently over 30 hours of practice.

Meditated on patience with the recommended straight back, at this point it's just pleasant as opposed to mind-numbingly boring. My breath is actually under control.

Dropped off rent check early for once

Cleaned the kitchen and bedside table

Lookin' fly in my Levi's.

I'm so peaceful and healthy now. Sigh. Boring. Pleasent though, would cancel on this guy and nap if I hadn't promised.

Text out of context:

Erin Burks: I want to get an MRI done again but I do not want to look at the co-pay for it

Hannah Mcpherson: Lmaooo my coworker has the same insurance plan I do and she got one on her knee and it was insanely expensive

Erin Burks: Lol yeah, better to just stroke out. If I pass out make sure to call an Uber and not an ambulance, I’d actually rather lapse in to a coma that wake up in medical debt.

Hannah Mcpherson: Honestly depending on if during a coma feels like 2nd life or not could be fun!

Erin Burks: If they don’t take blue cross/blue shield, so be it! Bring on the next simulation

Hannah Mcpherson: What if that’s what were in rn 😇

Erin Burks: Then I’d like whose controlling mine to give me a roommate who gives me less intrusive thoughts Preferably Jacob Elordi in a white T-shirt and jeans while we’re asking for things

[hunnynectarine]

Jan2023

So now that we’ve officially reached the end of our first month in 2023, I am happy to report that I’ve enjoyed a lot of poetry this month. I’m unsure about whether this activity for the month actually counts because I read poetry on Tumblr all the time really so it’s equally been very easy for me to execute. Honourable mentions in regard to the ones I’ve already posted include:

Rambutan by Stephanie Burt

The Years by Alex Dimitrov

Straw Topology by exitwound

The reading 4 books this month hasn’t really happened but I am about 25% into The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo partly because I’m intrigued and because my sister already had it on her bookshelf so I just told myself ‘Why not?’ We’ve officially only just ended exam season so a lot of January has just been reading over articles for financial accounting and strategic management. I feel like reading bits deffo helps me understand certain topics better so all in all a good win. I read that one article about suicidism by A Baril which was interesting to know more about which in theory shows that a lot of taboo subjects can cause more harm than good by suppression or censorship. I have a Goodreads account if anyone wants to be mutuals on there too? My goal for this year I’ve reduced down to 12 books which I think is the most realistic and the inherent goal is just to read more and learn stuff which I think will suffice, any extras will just be added bonuses. I've reblogged and liked so many excerpts from Hanif Abdurraqib, A Little Devil in America: Notes in Praise of Black Performance that I might need to give that a read at some point.

I’m starting intermittent fasting again starting today. There’s something freeing I like about having more time in the day to do other stuff that I like even though I do like eating food. I bought myself a drinks tumbler a few weeks back and I enjoy having iced water in it now, something about cold drinks just tastes a lot better and I’m staying hydrated at the same time. Next month in Feb is taking more pictures and learning to say yes!!

[mania-sama]

final update for post-op day one: good amount of pain. i was prescribed two different painkillers (ibuprofen, hydrocodone, as well as an infection pill) though, so overall the pain could definitely be a WHOLE lot worse. eating and drinking anything is fucking nightmare. because my mouth tastes like antiseptic, its very hard to swallow water since it tastes SO bad. obviously i can't eat any hard or warm foods today, so i had a grand total of:

ONE small chocolate sonic milkshake (i prefer m&m blast but i CANT EAT THE M&MS)

TWO cups of yoplait kids' yogurt (i hate greek yogurt and prefer the kind loaded up with sugar because who am i if not giving myself diabetes)

ONE bowl of extra creamy chocolate ice cream

TWO half cups of water

i ate only nutritious meals and am well hydrated! apparently tomorrow i can have scrambled eggs but judging by the pain i've had today and my poor jaw muscles i'm gonna say that's a no-go. also, what made eating so hard was, because of i don't have much control over the lower half of my face (and it hurts to open it too wide), it was very hard to get anything into my mouth and make it stay in my mouth. spoons are just big enough that, in order to eat it comfortably without accident, i have to open my mouth wider than i can make it. so i kind of just shove the spoon in there and hope for the best (eating the milkshake was really hard).

MY FOOD RECOMMENDATION: the milkshake was the best because it made the horrible chemical taste in my mouth go away. the rest weren't thick enough or strong enough to knock it away entirely. shout out sonic for making their milkshakes super thick. i can't even drink through a straw anyway so it was a win for me. ironically though i don't usually drink milkshakes because they fuck up my stomach, but i don't have a choice anymore!

ratings:

pain: 6.8/10. my jaw and mouth hurt a LOT (like right now because my meds haven't really kicked in) but at the same time, i know it can be a lot worse. i only got my bottom two removed. what sucks is that i also have a constant headache from dehydration, and there's not much i can do about that right now.

stitches: 10/10. thought they would cause me issues, but they haven't. they've behaved very well

icepack: 7/10. i hate wearing it because it's inconventient and also literally just legwarmer with ice stuffed into it. it has also already fallen apart on me. HOWEVER it is the only thing bringing down my swelling and it does reduce a lot of my jaw pain when i'm wearing it (i'm not wearing it now, which sucks and is why i'm in so much pain now). i kinda get used to it even though it's uncomfortable on my skin at times.

swelling: 5/10. right after surgery i was swelled like a chipmunk, but that's mostly the gauze they had in my mouth. it goes down while i'm wearing the ice pack, and i'm not really bothered or uncomfortable with it yet. my swelling supposed to peak on day 4 i'm pretty sure

talking: 2/10. i can DO it (could not do it very well out of surgery. but again. i had massive cotton balls in my mouth & my lower lip/chin was completely numb), but if i do it for too long it irritates my pain. if you asked me to talk now, i probably would deny because it hurts, not because i can't do it at all. most of my small muscles are hard to work with, so i can barely even smile in most times.

overall: 5/10. an hour / two hours after surgery is the hardest time span. i was mentally out of it from the anesthesia for about twenty minutes (cried upon waking up because i was slightly panicked and my emotions were completely out of wack. then i cried again when i saw my father who was driving me home. literally no reason, just had trouble controlling myself). then, the pain kicked in when i was at home waiting for my medication, and i had to switch my gauze. really awful time span. however, i took the meds, went to sleep, and it's been alright since. i thought i would be reading a whole lot more fanfiction, but it's really just been an assortment of watching tiktok, sleeping, and attempting to eat.

this live updating will be a PSA for anyone who is looking to get their wisdom teeth removed lmao. if there are any questions, you can ask, or if you just wanna pray for my soul, that's fine too.

about to get my teeth yanked out of my skull, wish me luck

[mehidktbh]

Okay okay okay I’m back and this request is kiiiiinnnndaaa similar to the other one in a way but like also different sorta.

How about the same three boys (my favorite angels💕) Tommy, Jason, and RZ Mikey with a reader who is just not strong. I lost my muscle and am now just generally a physically weak person. When I think about the big strong slashers, I lowkey kinda like feeling weak bc they’re just so large and I’m kinda sorta rly submissive (as previously mentioned lmao😳)…

Like how would they react to a weak reader who lowkey likes that the slashers are so much stronger. It could be playful wrestling matches, them just showing off, anything honestly.

I loved your last one so so much and again, take as much time as you need and pls don’t overwhelm yourself because I totally get it! Thank you so much💕

A/N: Omg yes! I can relate so much, I just want a strong man in my life. Is that too much to ask for :( But thank you sm!! You are so sweet and I always cry when you request stuff, you are too kind!

THOMAS HEWITT

- He adores you...

- No joke.

- But come on how can he not, we all know Thomas will love you either way!

- He is into anyone and all body types so when he sees that you don't have that much muscle this man is falling head over heels for you. You're so cute and he is definitely protective over you, keeping you away from any victims or his family. He knows how his family can act and feed on the vulnerable and we all know Thomas would rather die than see that.

- Though if you're thinking about hoping to get your muscles up, good luck. Unless you actually talk to Thomas and tell him that you want to be more muscle he probably won't let you carry anything heavy. Your carrying plates? Nope, it's his now, Picking up something that's heavy and you're bending your back a little bit too much? NO! Didn't you know how much that could hurt you Y/N!? Shame on you >:(

- Also you can't tell me this man wouldn't give you piggyback rides 24/7! Or carry you around all day.

- if you want to do playful wrestling matches with him he is so down. I mean he always goes soft at you, but in the end, he'll let you win and always exaggerate how exhausted he is, just to get his point across on how you won the game fair and square.

JASON VOORHEES

- *Cough* Size kink? *Cough*

- Jason all very much adores you, I mean who wouldn't.

- Through I think Jason would also maybe let you exercise, you know... Gotta keep that muscle up now Y/N! Through can you imagine waking up early just to go outside in the freezing cold while Jason hands you a bunch of logs to do wights with. SO CUTE!

- I mean Jason would be your personal coach, he cheers you on from the side and encourages you to keep going. But also making sure to force enough water down your throat, gotta stay hydrated.

- But then again Jason also doesn't mind if you don't want to excise, he is happy with the way you are now. He's like Thomas, he will love you no matter how you look.

- If you ever bring up about playful wrestling matches he'll be nervous at first but agree after some time. And when you finally get to play he's just standing/sitting there waiting for you to make the first move. And he'll also be extremely soft, and also let you win every game :)

- He'll also make sure you're eating enough food, plenty of greens and iron in there. Through some times he will need his mother's help and others he'll let you lead.

RZ MICHAEL MYERS

- Omg the thought of him lined up against your body, he is amazed.

- Michael is super caring and supportive of you, he is always happy coming home to your caring face and warm hugs. He'll always pick you up no breeze and maybe swing around a little.

- He would never really make you work out just to get your muscles up, you look perfect and an angel the way you are now. Why change that? If you are really into getting your muscles up and stuff, Michael would be more than happy to help you or instead watch intensely at the gym as you work out instead.

- He'll make sure you eat right and always have enough iron in your food. Through he knows your more than okay to keep up with feeding yourself.

- And if you ever bring up wanting to have some playful wrestling matches with him, he'll say yes! Michael wouldn't be ruff but he wouldn't be so soft either, his man won't push your limits but he will know much he respects you as a human by making sure he doesn't go too soft on you.

- And if you like your matches ruff then oh God, your in for a ride with him. He'll happily let himself win some matches much too your complaining and sometimes he'll let you win.

[pensat-i-fet]

A Manchester Affair (Rúben Dias): Chapter 6

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When she woke up a couple of hours later, Lucía felt like a new person. Her body still felt weak, but most of the symptoms were gone.

She was no longer feeling hot because of the high temperature, but because of Rúben's body next to hers. He had also fallen asleep, but not before putting his arms around her to hug her tightly. She tried to get up without waking him up but the moment she moved, his eyes opened.

"Are you ok?"

"I am, yes. A lot better".

She tried to get up now, but he stopped her. "Don't move. I'll bring you whatever you need".

"It's ok. I can get up. I don't feel dizzy anymore and it'll be good to move a bit after spending the day laying down", she said, stretching.

"I'm serious. Stay here. Are you hungry? Thirsty?"

"Rúben", she said, trying not to laugh. "I need to pee. You can't help me with that".

"I can take you to the bathroom…"

"Oh my God, stop it!", she told him, laughing at how serious he actually was.

She could notice his eyes following her while she walked to the bathroom. And when she got out, he was still sitting in her bed staring at her.

"See? All good!"

"You almost fainted in front of me a couple of hours ago. Don't judge me for worrying".

"Yeah, well, migraines suck".

"I've never had one".

She frowned at him. "I hate you".

And that, finally, made him laugh.

"Rob brought me food, you can have some if you want".

"Rob?"

"A colleague from work", and then she realised what time it was. "Shit! I missed the match! What happened?"

"3-1 win for United".

"What?", she was shocked by that score. Arsenal had not lost a match this season. In fact, they had won all of them. "Who scored?"

"Ummm, two from Rashford and the other goal was scored by the new guy".

"Antony?"

"Yes, that one".

"I'm so happy for him", she said, with a huge smile on her face. He was a good friend while they both were at Ajax.

"Let's celebrate by eating".

"So, do you get these migraines often?", asked Rúben while they ate.

"Not really. I have 2, maybe 3 per year. They knock me out, though".

"Is there anything you need? Medicine or something?"

"Hydrating is the main thing and", she looked around to notice she had finished the drinks Rob brought, "I ran out of drinks. Great".

"I'll go buy more", he said, already getting up.

"Rúben, you don't have to. I can just drink water".

"No, I'll go. It's fine".

Just as he said that Lucía’s phone rang. She had many messages she still didn’t feel like answering. 

"Hi, Scott. Congrats on the win!! You want to come to see me?", she looked at Rúben, who nodded. "Sure. When will you be here? Ok, see you in 10. Bye".

"I'll go get the drinks. You can let me know when he is gone and", he continued, looking away from her, "if he doesn't leave, I'll leave the bag outside of your door".

"You don't need to hide from him".

"You say that, but your face says otherwise. It's fine. I just care about you being fine".

"Rúben".

But he didn't listen. He just left, and a couple of minutes later, the doorbell rang.

"Hey".

"Hi! You don't look so bad".

"Thanks?", she laughed.

"That came out wrong. My mum used to have migraines and she looked terrible after them. I expected the same for you but you look the same. Maybe a bit paler. Have you eaten?"

"I just did. I took a nap that did wonders for me".

"Amazing", he said, giving her a hug. "Do you need help with anything?"

She thought about the plan for the rest of the day. "I need a shower. I feel gross".

"I can't help with that. Erik won't like it".

She rolled her eyes at him and laughed. "How about you take the clothes off my bed so we can put clean ones when I'm done showering?"

"Yes, Ma'am", he said with a salute.

**

"I can stay with you tonight if you want", said Scott while he helped her make the bed. "You have two spare rooms".

Her mind went to Rúben. His mood had changed when he found out Scott was coming and now this…but she wanted him to stay. The problem was she wanted Rúben there too, but that wouldn't work. How did she find herself in this situation?

"Hold that thought. I need to text someone before I forget", she told him, leaving the room.

Lucía: Scott wants to stay here to make sure I'm fine but I can tell him no.

Rúben: do you want him to stay there with you?

Lucía: I mean, it would give you a break from looking after me. You’re probably tired of me 😂

She saw the three dots showing up and disappearing multiple times until he sent a simple "ok". She didn't know what to answer back and then another text showed up telling her he was leaving the drinks by the door. It made her feel horrible for him but she hadn't done anything wrong, right?

Lucía went to tell Scott that it was ok for him to stay.

"Should we watch a movie?", he offered. And she nodded.

When she heard some noise outside the door, she ran to it.

“I’ll be back in a second, my neighbour was picking something up for me”, she told to a confused Scott.

“Ok”.

“Hey! Rúben!”

When he turned around he looked at her like a teacher who was about to scold a child. “What are you doing out of the house? Go back inside. What if you faint again?”

“I won’t. I needed to talk to you. And thank you, for everything”.

“No need to thank me, it’s just what friends do. I’m sure McTominay would have done the same if he didn’t have a match today”.

Instead of stopping to think about the meaning of his words, she just hugged him. “Thank you”.

And when she turned around, she noticed the door was closed and she didn’t have her keys. 

“You’re not going inside?”, asked Rúben.

“I’m waiting until you leave so you don’t realize I’m locked out of my house and I have to ring the doorbell”.

She only heard a light chuckle and his footsteps as he went back upstairs.

**

The next morning she woke up feeling fine. A bit tired but the migraine was definitely gone.

"Morning little Lu".

"Morning Scott".

"You look good. Are you feeling better?"

"Fresh as a daisy", she smiled.

"Good. The team was falling apart without you".

"I know".

Once everything was ready, they both went to wait for the lift. And because fate seemed to want to laugh at her, when the doors opened, Rúben was there.

"Morning", she said.

"Morning", he answered back.

He and Scott looked at each other, not knowing how to react. Scott knew she had a couple of City players as neighbours, but she had never mentioned who.

"This is awkward", he said, laughing. "No offence, mate. It's just funny she lives surrounded by another team's players. She works for my team, you know? We need to find you another apartment, Lucy. Or you can move in with me".

Rúben didn't really answer. He just made a weird noise that she guessed kind of sounded like an agreement.

The door opened and they all got out quickly. Lucía noticed Scott putting his hand on her back. It was a gesture that meant nothing to them. But what would Rúben think?

She turned to look at him but found him already turning to go to his car.

"Bye! Have a good day!"

"You too", he answered without really looking at her.

**

"You ok?", was the most asked question she had that morning. Everyone was treating her like she was going to break or something. While she was still mad at herself for getting sick on matchday. She kept asking all the players for updates on their fitness but they insisted on asking about her instead. 

"I'm fine, guys! Can't you see?", she said, hoping it would stop their nonsense.

"Yeah, it seems like Scotty looked after you really well", said Bruno, and Lucía could tell what he meant with his tone.

"Really funny".

"What? It's true. He ran to look after you like a knight in shining armour. Didn’t even stay for the post-match talk".

"Leave it", she heard Licha say, "you are making her uncomfortable".

She sent him a look that said thank you.

"I'm just saying that you and Scott can stop pretending. No one cares if you two are dating or doing whatever it is you’re doing".

"But we are not dating!", she said to Bruno, annoyed at him.

"Who aren't you dating?", asked Scott when he was getting closer to their table.

"You".

He laughed. "Well, yeah. I knew that much".

"Then tell your teammates. They love gossiping".

"Well, you didn't even say goodbye after the match to go to her. And you are always hugging and stuff like that. And you spent the night at her place. I don't know, you can't blame us for assuming", tried to say Bruno to defend himself.

"Yeah, I spent the night there in her spare room. I'm not going to apologize for looking after my friend", he shrugged. 

“Whatever you two say”, said Bruno, not convinced. 

And with that, they all moved to the next topic and left her alone…for now.

**

On the way to her apartment, Lucía changed her mind and pressed Rúben's floor on the lift instead of hers.

"Hi. What are you doing here?", he said when he opened the door.

"I wanted to clear the air between us. And to apologize just in case Scott’s comments offended you. He’s just…he says the first thing that comes to his mind without thinking".

"It's alright".

"And, you know, the next few weeks are really busy with European matches and things like that so, we won't see each other much but I just wanted to say that and see you, I guess".

"Ok".

She was about to say goodbye and leave when he finally talked. "We can see each other on Wednesday or Friday, maybe".

"Sure. I'll check my calendar and let you know", she smiled.

"And maybe we can do something outside of here?"

"What do you mean?", she was confused by his comment.

"Like, go have food somewhere. Go watch a movie. I don't know".

A part of her wanted to say yes, but it sounded too much like a proper date and the idea of it scared her. Between these walls, she felt safe. How she would feel outside remained a question mark. 

"Sure. I mean, friends do that", she said with a nervous laugh.

"Yeah. Um…I need to go meet the team soon. Sorry to cut this conversation short".

"That's fine. Have a good trip and match". 

"Thank you".

And after a quick stare contest, they said goodbye and she left. Even an idiot could tell that didn't go too well but what was she supposed to do? Rúben confused her a lot sometimes. And she didn't like that. She did like him, though. More and more every day. And it terrified her.

**

That next Friday Lucía met Rúben, who she hadn’t seen at all since Monday. After some debating, they decided to go to the cinema and maybe grab some food afterwards. He was buzzing after scoring his first Champions League goal and she couldn't help but love how he talked about it. Like a kid who just got his favourite toy.

“So you like horror movies?”, asked Rúben while he drove them to the cinema.

“Yes. It’s a family thing”.

Even though that sounded like the simplest comment, it made her remember how bad her relationship with her family was. They had barely talked in the last 10 years and the last time they did, her dad praised her ability to always find an excuse to avoid visiting them. But she knew how that visit would go and that she'd be much happier avoiding it until it became literally impossible to do so.

“Family tradition of watching horror movies then?”, laughed Rúben. “Your Christmases must be fun”.

Lucía just said yes and changed the subject. Talking about her family with other people was always the hardest thing to do.

The movie ended up being just alright but she had a good time watching it. It had been a while since she went to the cinema.

“Did you enjoy it?”, she asked Rúben when they both were on their way back to the car. 

“Can I say no without you thinking I’m a coward? I didn’t like the jumpscares”.

That made her laugh. “It’s ok. It wasn’t great. I’ll make you a list of good horror movies that don’t just rely on silly scares”.

“Or we could watch a comedy”.

“Are you going to sleep with the lights on tonight, Dias?”, she teased him.

“I might. I'll have to hug you extra tight if I have a nightmare”.

And she had to bite her lip to not laugh at his cute reaction. The movie didn’t scare her at all. 

**

The rest of the evening had gone well. But there was something about Rúben’s behaviour that made Lucía uncomfortable. And she felt bad about feeling that way in what was a stupid vicious cycle. 

“Today was great, don’t you think?”, Rúben asked again when they were about to fall asleep.

“Yeah, it was fun”.

“It was. It was nice to be out together and just do things together in general, right? We should do it more often”.

“Yes”, she said, giving him the smile she knew he wanted to see before cuddling him and closing her eyes.

That night he didn’t make her sleep with the light on because he was scared about a movie, but he managed to scare her with his words.

[thatfreshi]

Health Anxiety (Markiplier x fem!reader)

Hi everyone! It’s been a while, but I am back on the fanfic grind. TW for anxiety for this story. Basically Mark is sick with god knows what and you’re very nervous about it, but he comforts you through it despite not feeling great :)

Things normally went quite smoothly in the Fischbach household. You and Mark both work from home, and when you’re not working you’re making sure the house is in order. It doesn’t always go as smoothly as you’d like considering it’s hard to focus on work when your husband is screaming in his recording room, but you put up with it because it’s his passion and earplugs exist. 

However, what was supposed to be a normal Tuesday quickly turned into something different. You woke up to Mark, quite loudly, blowing his nose in the bathroom. Now at this moment, you remembered yesterday, when you noticed his voice was a little scratchy. And you also remember how much you pestered him about taking some medicine to get ahead of the sickness, but in true Mark fashion, he forgot.

“Good morning. I’m pretty sure all of California is waking up because of you.”

It probably came off a little snarkier than you meant it to. He came back into the room after he heard your jest.

“I’m sorry love, good morning. I didn’t mean to wake you up.”

Instead of processing his apology, you focus on the fact that he can barely speak. It seems as though whatever he’s sick with has already ruined any chances he had at talking normally. He flops down on the bed and stares at you while you chuckle.

“What are you laughing at?”

He playfully furrows his brow in between squeaks.

“Laughing at the fact that you sound like a dumbass.”

You smile sweetly at him, and instead of retorting, he hits you with the nearest pillow.

“Hey! Not fair. If you’re going to have a pillow fight, you have to announce it to make sure everyone knows!”

You push the pillow back at him and end up laying on top of him, giving him a quick kiss.

“Yeah, but if I didn’t catch you off guard I’d never win in this condition.”

He starts coughing in between laughs. You start getting a little concerned, and he can tell.

“Hey, it’s okay y/n. It’s just a cold. I’ll be fine.”

It doesn’t reassure you. You’re paranoid about this kind of thing, meticulous in your care for him.

“Well let me get you some meds and some breakfast and we’ll make sure you’ll be okay, okay?”

He immediately protests.

“No no, I have things to do today! It’s recording day and I have an important call about a project!”

You squeeze his hand.

“And those things will just have to wait until you’re feeling better.”

You smile at him, and he doesn’t argue any further. He knows by now that you’re somehow more stubborn than he is. And with that, you start heading to the kitchen.

You get out a serving tray and grab an assortment of cold meds, as well as a glass of water. As soon as you turn on the stove to start cooking, you feel Mark’s arms wrap around your waist.

“I thought I told you I’d bring you your breakfast?”

You can’t be too mad. He just follows you around like this sometimes. 

“Yeah, but I got bored by myself.”

He leaves a kiss on your neck as you grab the frying pan.

“Okay, okay. You can stay in here but you better go ahead and take your meds and start hydrating.”

He takes his hands off of you and turns to the counter, mockingly saluting you.

“Yes ma’am!”

He laughs a little to himself and you roll your eyes, grabbing some eggs and bacon from the fridge.

“Oh shut up, you know I’m just trying to help you.”

You close the fridge door as he takes his first round of cough syrup for the day. You don’t like when he gets sick. It’s not common, but when it happens, it freaks you out. There’s always that nagging fear that the worst might happen, but his light-hearted tone helps keep you sane.

“I know love, I appreciate it.”

He knows you get anxious when he’s sick, so he tries to be as reassuring as possible. That doesn’t mean he doesn’t try to work when he should be resting. You silently hope he will just stay in bed or lay on the couch with you today.

Mark takes this round of meds while you finish breakfast. 

“Smells good.”

He hops off the counter. Well, more so slips off the counter. The next thing you know there are random stumbles and curses behind you. When you turn around Mark pretends like he stood up with zero issues.

“Babe, I am begging you, please don’t twist your ankle on top of whatever else is wrong with you.”

You sigh as he goes to lay on the couch, awaiting breakfast and your next lecture about how he should be taking care of himself. He doesn’t mind though, because you’re just showing how you care.

Once breakfast is finished and you’re both sitting on the couch ready to dine, Mark looks at you suspiciously,

“You’re not gonna do that thing where you stalk me all day and make sure I don’t work, right?”

You roll your eyes and laugh a little.

“First of all, I cannot stalk you if we literally live in the same house. Second of all, yes.”

These two statements lead to a playful argument over the dictionary definition of stalking and Mark pouting about how he won’t be able to get everything done in time. By the time the ‘arguing’ is over, he has agreed to try to stay away from his work and that you should binge watch something stupid you can both make fun of. You both agree on The Bachelor.

After a while of making fun of some straight white guy whose name is either Trevor, Travis, or something else beginning with a t, Mark interrupts a couple of episodes in as his coughs get proceedingly worse. You pause the show with a worried frown.

“I’m telling you y/n, I’m okay. I’m taking everything I can, I’m resting, it’s all going to be fine.”

You don’t believe him though. It’s usually not this anxiety-inducing, but things have been stressful in other parts of your life and this was the last thing you wanted to worry about. He knew things had been hard at work, but he didn’t know how much worse him being sick was going to make things. You don’t even respond as your mind swirls with all the things that could be wrong with him.

“Y/n? Hey, look at me.” 

He tries to mask the cough as he turns towards you on the couch.

“You know what else would make me feel a lot better?”

You start to tear up a little, but still manage to look up at him.

“What?”

“If we got you to relax a little, and you realized that you don’t have to single-handedly take care of me all the time.”

“But, what if you forget something, or what if you get worse and I’m not there, or, or-”

“Y/n, you trust me right?”

You pause. Of course you trust him. You’ve always trusted him. You never even considered or a second that you may have been overburdening or smothering him.

“Of course I trust you! I’m sorry, I just-”

“No love, that’s not what I’m saying. I appreciate that you want to take care of me, but if it’s making you feel worse then I can’t ask you to put yourself through that. Don’t apologize for caring.”

The conversation was a rollercoaster of anxiety for you, and it was clear Mark still wasn’t feeling well, and yet he was trying to get you to calm down anyway.

“So, if I don’t have to take care of you and keep track of all the cold meds and stuff, then what do I do?”

You ask, the tears slowly going away.

“How about we just go lay down, cuddle a little, and I’ll try not to wake up the entire state again, okay?”

After a pause of consideration, you agree.

“Alright. But, if you need something and you don’t tell me I swear to god!”

“I will tell you if I need something. Scout’s honor.”

You start laughing much harder than you expected, considering he was never even in Boy Scouts. Sure, it wasn’t that funny, but it was funny to you.

You both spend the next couple of days laying around, mainly in bed, continuing your Bachelor binge on your laptop. Turns out though that Mark had strep, so you both spent much longer than expected on bedrest.