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Tryp Bates and Greg Dixxon Leather Goods (2024) dir. Jasun Mark

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New haircut

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Spring Is Finally Here

Spring is finally here and seasonal depression that I thought I dodged this year, is actually fleeting now. Thats right, after the New Year I started having seasonal depression, but I was able to power through it. One of the reasons I think it came on this year is because our next door neighbor has been having yelling fits. Hes constantly accusing us of messing with his electronics. So daily he pounds on our walls, and shouts threats most of the day. Its gone on long enough and our Landlord is actually putting their foot down with him. So hopefully peace soon.

Speaking of peace, now that the weather has finally stayed nice longer I am feeling most of the clouds moving out. Probably a lack of vitamin D to be honest. There are so many times as we age that we dont realize or forget how much vitamins and healthy foods and minerals play a part in keeping our physical and mental going. Being out in the sun more the last few weeks has definitely helped with those moods.

Me and Randy have to go to Chicago for one of his appointments Wednesday and why no Dr appt is fun, we are looking forward to the 3 hour road trip up and back.

I plan on being more active over here, and will be posting more soon. Hope everyone is having a great start to nice spring weather.

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The top 10 sex positions of 2024! Learn how you can spice things up in your bed room. However before switching to a new sex position with your partner, I strongly recommend that you discuss these first before trying them.

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Got myself something new for my bday 😈

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2024 Is Off To A Good Start

So its been a hot minuete since I have written on my personal blog and I am sorry for that. There was a lot of growing that was happening in 2023 and healing as well. I was getting down and was settling to be mediocore and thats not what I really wanted, but also understood that I was going through a healing process as well. So to pick up where we left off.

I finally kicked the Mountain Dew and Soda habit all together. Drinking more water, and taking my vitamins and minerals. One of the things I had to do in order to be more productive why working 2nd shift, was switch my eating habbits and times that I eat the most. This way when I do go to bed at night my body is getting a full rest and not digesting foods that I would intake shortly after bed. I noticed what it was doing to my body. We were going in the opposite direction.

Now that I am getting this in check we been hitting our business goals like mad! One thing were still working on is getting our Just For Fans up and running. Still have a few videos to do to finish the confirmation and have the account live. This will have Adult content but not all of it will be porn.

Our online sex toy business is steadily growing over at Elevate Your Kinky

Now to get our other projects up and going. Why I am 47 now I do not feel it! Changing my habits and diet has been a really big game changer for me, and mindset is the biggest one.

So I am going to make a point to post more over here, and hope to be reading some of your posts as well. Here is to a successful 2024!

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Having Low Days Mentally

So I am having a mood drop, its been getting worse as the day goes by. So decided to not really focus on anything, and kind of relax by making dinner, and called a friend to see if he could deliver some cannabis so we can medicate.

These days use to be a lot worse as I would just keep fighting the mood and trying to bring myself out of a funk. I have found out that allowing it to happen from time to time and just shutting down is a great way to get through them and they dont seem to follow over into the next day. So this is what I am doing.

Then I was sitting here and thought that I have not blogged in a long time over here, and felt like sharing this with you all. I know most of us have been there or might even be going through it now.

Another coping technique I have is spending time with my boy friend, which I will be doing with the gaming tonight. Its always nice to be just escape from reality and for us to just get lost in our own world and be happy. Its definitely what is needed today.

I really need to get my affirmations up, and start meditating somethings I have been really putting on the back burner and I have no idea why I am doing that. However knowing what I am going to do the rest of the day is helping me stay on kilter and its not getting any worst. I also texted a couple of old friends and just chit chatting back n forth when people have time.

The quitting smoking is going up and down, but I am back on the uphill swing of it, and should be fully tobacco free in a couple of days! I am excited about that!

Hope your all doing well, and if you have these kinds of moods how do you cope with them?

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I Havent Forgotten About Tumblr

Just wanted to my new friends here know that I have not forgotten about posting over here. Life has been getting hectic and we are busy with getting our start up off the ground, and creating content.

Well as you can tell the content is not here. However me and my life partner Randy Alexander are both very much active over on Twitter personally.

I just got home, and its Saturday night. He is cooking dinner, and after dinner were going to post some videos of doing bong rips, and a little chatting. Come on over and join the conversation with us!

Beware you fill find adult content on both of our Twitter handles and some of it is us.

Me https://twitter.com/Ambition761

Randy https://twitter.com/R_AlexanderEsq

This does not mean we will not be creating content on Tumblr, its just were moving as fast as we can, and trying to get use to having all these platforms to give attention too.

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Exactly.

Autism

Life in an Autism World (Pinterest)

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Hey everyone! Its been a busy few days, so have not been able to pop on over here. Kind of having a energy drop of a mood today. Its not too serious, but decided to stop being productive today and to pick up the bong, relax, make dinner and have some sexy time with my boyfriend tonight. Things that bring me joy =)

Still struggling with the 3 tedious things from my post earlier this month, but I will get there. Keep moving on things even if you feel your failing, because that is the only to learn and to succeed.

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What NOT to say to autistic people

You can’t be autistic, there’s nothing wrong with you.

It’s hard for everyone.

Get over it, it’s not that bad!

It’s not that loud/bright!

You just want attention.

It’s not autism, just an excuse.

Just try, it’s so easy!

Why can’t you just relax?

You just need to grow up.

Why can’t you act like your age?

But your don’t look autistic.

You’re fine, you don’t need labels.

Everyone is a little bit autistic.

Lil Penguin Studios/Autism Happy Place

Autism

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Good Morning!

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Tedious Tasks To Stay Healthy and Slow Down Aging

Lets be clear, why you do not have to be vain, but most people whether your gay or straight lets face it. We all want to try to slow down the aging that is happening to our bodies. Why we may not want to look like we are in our 20's we want to slow the process as much as we can so we can look healthy, vibrant and be able to enjoy life and keep up with our loved ones. With this being said. ITS NOT FUCCCCKKKIIING EASY! LOL

Its especially not easy if your 46 and have issues with being some what inpatient about your day and what you want to get done, that you dont prioritize your own self. Well if you are doing this, like me you need to keep reminding yourself that your worth it, and that we only live on this rock once. Do you love yourself enough to want to take care of yourself. The answer needs to be yes. So right now the 3 tedious tasks of taking care of myself is what I need to force myself to do starting today.

Hydrate - Keeping hydrated with actual water instead of sugary sodas or teas at work. This has been a struggle of mine since I was younger and still plagues me. I have been able to do it multiple times, and will do it again. This is very important for your body organs, and YOUR SKIN!

Quit Smoking - This is a battle that I am going to win, even though I have failed it numerous times. I have to remind myself that I can live a healthy long quality life, or be a burden on my loved ones and in poor health. I always choose the healthy long quality life. However this has not been easy. I have had 2 cigarettes today already and probably should not of. I have one left which will be gone here soon, and I do not plan on picking up another.

Skin Care - Exfoliating and putting lotion or shea butter on skin during/after bathing. This takes time for me being a bigger guy, however maybe only an extra 20 mins tops to my hygiene routine. However that's 20 mins I feel I could be working on our business, or lately napping. Seasonal depression is a bitch too! LOL but cant dwell on that, and need to keep in the NOW. So with that being said I plan on giving that its rightful attention it deserves. More so then I have been doing.

So those are tedious to me, probably because of the seasonal depression, but also they are life changes. They are something most of us did not take care of when we are younger, and your 3 might be different then mine, but we all have them.

Well I dont want to run on, so I am going to leave it at this and since I did get up at 530 AM I might as well make use of my time to get the above done. When it comes to our health and how we look, it all goes to our habits in life. If you want to look healthy and your best as you age, you need to adjust your habits. Plain and simple =)

I hope to be more active over here this week!

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We just had dinner company leave, well lunch. However I am feeling vamished and drained that I am eating yet again! I am not going to beat myself up over it tonight. I need to definitely rest and take a break from the world tonight. Spending time with Randy is a great recreational and recharge thing to do. Hes amazing.

Well hope everyone is having a great weekend so far! Stay positive but remember its ok to just take a break!

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Do Men Want Platonic Friendships?

One thing I have wondered and I am now 46 years old and was introduced into the gay community (LGBTQIA) at the age of 17 by a distance cousin running into me at work at the skating rink I was working at, and took me to one of our areas cruisng spots for the first time. Now he mentioned during the evening that he was bi sexual and I did not know why I was dropping him off. However he visited with me for a while, and then mentioned he had to do what he had to do for money. He then parted ways, when a guy pulled up and flashed their lights. He got in the car, I honestly did not know what was going on, but he waved and I left. I did not go far, I went to a gas station and then went back and got my manhood taken care of for the first time by a guy. Well this not my coming out story but the point is once I experienced I wanted it more but also wanted a connection.

During my late teens, and early 20's I was a slut. I did not however think every attractive guy wanted to screw. We had friendships, that were even platonic. I valued those friendships so much. Later on in life those friendships became hard to come by, most guys were wanting in your pants the first night or has the assumption that sex is going to happen when you seriously wanted to just vibe with a bro and geek on movies and smoke pot.

Well during my 15 year marriage, my now ex husband wanted to have dinner parties, and groups over for movies and crap like that, but it 90 percent of the time ended up in sex whether I participated or not. Sometimes I did but then felt bad about it, or not as emotionally proud of myself or felt empty. Now fast forwarding to now, I am in a healthier relationship, we both met through poly relationships that we both were in, and now were exclusive taking a break, but we want to have other gay friends!

Just friends, if something develops later on, to where that turns physical it would of happened on its own.

Just dont know if its us, or are there others like us out there having the same issue? Or is it in most of our genetics to be animistic and wanting to screw and get off all the time?

Seriously open for conversation on this.