#how can u let your best friend make that kind of decision

[dinlukewarrior]

if I was a handmaiden I would’ve literally assassinated anakin skywalker. rip to sabé amidala but I’m different

[wildrangers]

Hello i see you're accepting fic requests, i have a matt smith fic idea, can u do a behind the scenes w matt and fem!reader where they are both married in real life but they're rivals on cam, and when the scene cuts they're like all lovey dovey and their castmates are always teasing them 💟 tysmmm!!!

Thank you so much for this request anon, I loved this idea! I created an OC HOTD character for the reader to play and kind of worked her into different key moments from the show. I hope you enjoy 🙂

Tropes & Topics: total fluff

Word Count: 900

“What would you call the husband of the Queen?”

“Well, the king-”

“There it is, then.”

“...consort” 

Your eyes met Daemon’s, fury coursing through your veins. His head tilted, eyes assessing you. “That seems redundant, no?”

“I speak for the Queen when I say it is not.” 

There was a long pause as you two stared each other down before “CUT! Good work you two.”

“Darling! You were stupendous” Matt praised, walking towards you with his arms raised. Mostly joking groans sounded from the crew around you. “Oh, stop it you lot.”

“I always forget how angry you make me when you have that fucking wig on” you tease, wrapping your arms around his middle tightly. 

“I could say the same to you, my love” he chuckled, pressing a chaste kiss to the top of your silver wig.

Your role on House of the Dragon was Anora, a close confidant and cousin of Rhaenyra. Given your character’s fierce loyalty to Rhaenyra, she shared a tense, often hostile, relationship with Daemon which you two delighted in playing as it was so opposed to your real-life dynamics as newlyweds. 

“Are you love birds ready for lunch now that you’ve terrorized the crew?” Emma’s voice called from behind Matt and you threw a grin their way. 

“Are they up to it again?” Harry seconded from behind them. 

“I don’t know what you’re referring to” you argued and Matt chuckled beside you, his arm resting along your shoulders as you followed the pair off the studio lot. 

“Oh, so you don’t remember the post-wedding incident?” Emma posed and you felt your face warm as the memory flooded your mind. 

“Wed?! Laenor has just died!” you shouted, whipping around to face your best friend and her apparent new husband. 

“No, cousin, he’s not dead. We arranged it so he could be free and we could marry” Rhaenyra explained and your eyes widened. 

“You let our monstrous uncle convince you of this?!” 

“Watch your tongue” Daemon replied, eyes blazing.

“Or what?” 

“Or I’ll take it.”

You took out the dagger you kept hidden on your side, “Well come on then, Daemon. You don’t frighten me.” 

“Enough!” Rhaenyra screamed, stepping between you both. “Cousin, this was my decision he forced me to do nothing. He wants to better support my claim to the throne when the time inevitably comes.” 

“He will be your ruin, Rhaenyra. Mark my words.”

“CUT! I think we got it guys, take five.” 

“My fierce wife!” Matt cheered, picking you up and swinging you around as you laughed. 

“Must you do this every take?” the director questioned, earning laughs from the cast and crew on set. 

“Am I wrong? She was incredible” he praised, placing you down and lovingly straightening the wig he’d disheveled in his excitement. 

“Yes, yes, your wife is brilliant and we’re all lucky to be graced with her presence” Emma teased and you stuck your tongue out at them. 

“The most brilliant one of us is you, my love” you tell him and are met with another chorus of groans as you giggle and squeeze his hand in yours.

“Oh! And you can’t forget the birthing scene from last season’s finale, that one was iconic.” Harry added and Emma eagerly nodded their agreement.

Rhaenyra wailed from the bedchamber behind you as you charged after Daemon. “What are you doing Daemon? She needs you!” 

“She needs someone to prepare for war, I can do nothing for her in that room.” 

“She’s calling for you Daemon, not me! She doesn’t want you to act on her behalf, just to be her husband.” 

“I am your king now!” he roared, turning around so quickly you slammed into his chest, his hands gripping your shoulders painfully to keep you upright.

“You overstep Daemon. You are no more than her king consort” you replied, adjusting your stance and fighting the wince of pain wracking your system.

Matt’s face completely broke, false anger draining from it, “Love, are you alright? I’m sorry everyone but she’s injured, we have to cut.” 

“Matt, it’s fine I could have finished the scene” you insisted but your argument fell flat as your ankle rolled out from beneath you. 

He didn’t hesitate, one arm gripping under your knees, the other under your arms to lift you off your feet. “Where’s the medic?!” 

“Matthew, it’s a twisted ankle, not a mortal wound” you assured but his face was panicked. “Hey, look at me” you said firmly, hand cupping his cheek. His hazel eyes met yours and you could see him fighting to control his fear that you were seriously injured. 

“I’m not putting you down until someone’s looked at your ankle” he insisted and you nodded your agreement. “I’m so, so sorry darling.”

“It was an accident, I’m fine, I promise” you replied, pulling his face down to yours for a brief kiss. 

“We have to release this as a blooper, the fans will eat it up!” you heard Emma call as Matt carried you off set towards the medic tent with the cameras still rolling.

“How could we forget? It went absolutely viral” Matt groaned and you laughed, pinching his side.

“You’re lucky you didn’t get charged with spousal abuse” you tease and he rolls his eyes as the others laugh. 

“Keep it going, I’ll just save up my annoyance with you for when we’re back on set.”

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[thetarotgurl]

Pick a Card : General Reading for your current energy or situation.

(Collab with @tarotbyjam24 🎀 )

Pile 1 —> 2 —> 3

(Note: Please trust your gut and intuition before believing any word from this pick a card reading, as this is a general reading and not specific. Focus on key words and messages that resonates with u, 💕)

Pile 1 & 2 was made by me , and the 3rd one by her!

Pile 1

Hi, pile 1. I feel like a lot of you are looking for emotional fulfillment. It could be a desire to explore romantic love, creativity, or even spiritual growth. Maybe some of you are searching for a romantic partner, some want to shift to a more creative career or try something creative as in hobby, and others just want to relax and stop feeling so burdened. But overall, I see you seeking something that truly fulfills you on a deeper level. I also see that you’ve been overwhelmed with stress. Maybe you still are, or you’ve dealt with it before in some way. My words of encouragement? Don’t stop here. Keep going. Yes, you are meant to see the light at the end of that damn tunnel. The advice is to stay persistent, keep putting in the effort, but also be patient and gentle with yourself. (Honestly, if someone else said this to me, I’d think it sounds kind of lame, but it’s true.) Whatever your situation is, I feel like you need to approach it with a clear and analytical mindset. Keep realistic expectations. Things might be moving a little slow, but remind yourself isn’t it worth fighting for? If you feel like a certain thought pattern, mindset, or way of thinking isn’t serving you anymore, please change it. Walk away from what’s holding you back because something bigger is waiting for you ahead. Not everything we think is true and is “US” or “The Reality” And this is important, ground yourself. Pile 1, you are smart, and I know that! Once you start letting go of those old thoughts, the ones that have been weighing you down. You’ll start feeling so much lighter. Stress can mess with your head, make things feel all over the place, and block your ability to see things clearly. But remember this, you are not alone at all!

All the best, Pile One!

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Pile 2

Hey, pile 2. You seem to be in a situation where there’s uncertainty. Something like indecisiveness, a stalemate, or feeling torn between two things. You might feel stuck, unsure about which path to take. This suggests that you need to face a difficult decision or acknowledge feelings you might be ignoring. It could also mean you’re thinking about your options but just can’t seem to make a choice. Try to reflect on this. The choices or decisions you’re dealing with—are there emotions or issues you’ve been avoiding? Are you blindfolding yourself to something? The cards are telling you to look within and seek clarity. The answer isn’t outside of you, it’s within “You” Feels like you’re really trying to push yourself forward, but something whether personal or external is slowing you down or holding you back. You need to reflect on how you can take control of the situation. Take charge of your destiny. Think about what you need to do to regain control over your choices and figure out what’s keeping you from moving forward. You need to find truth in your situation, some sort of clarity. Try focusing on gaining a fresh perspective, sharpening your mindset, and cutting through the confusion. I encourage you to take action of being clear and decisive. Maybe write down your thoughts, talk to someone you trust—a friend, family, anyone. Or just sit with your thoughts and meditate on them. Use your mental clarity to break through the indecision. You are advised to take control of your life, to be confident, embrace your inner authority, be disciplined and take strategic approach or actions to your situation. You should set boundaries, take responsibility for your choices, create a plan and stick to it. Logic and structure will definitely help guide you through the uncertainty.

All the best, Pile Two!

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Pile 3

Hello pile 3 , I feel you maybe stick between the things and trying to manage them all . Please stop doing that and focus on the most important thing only. As you know life is about highs and lows only so to to get through them we must know how to swim through them and not get drowned means prioritise yourself too be it mentally, physically, emotionally,etc. whatever you need listen to yourself. I believe you'll come Outta it if you know how to manage and balace things out well. Also if someone lends their hand to help you don't hesitate accept it <33. We all need someone's back to lean on . Also don't act all closed up ..open your heart . Also if you get the chance to help someone don't hesitate to help them out too pile up your good karma . It'll help you in long run . Sometimes you know that things don't get sorted out with justice sometimes you need to handle it in your own way because that person gets on your nerves so much . Teach them a lesson if they need it . Be in your masculine side . Protect yourself. Don't ignore lil signs around you. If you feel noone is there for you it's okay . Move alone . Love your solitude. Be in your golden retriever energy you're about to reach where you wanted.

All the best, Pile Three!

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[wroetolando]

mmmm can we continue this train of carlos x leclerc!reader (i feel like it can be so angsty since CS isn’t in ferrari😭🥺) So like carlos x leclerc reader where maybe it’s when the fam went to mexico and the brothers didn’t invite her and told their mom she just couldnt come due to work. and reader finds out abt it when mama calls her and says “i wish u were here.” Maybe then carlos rly comforts reader (maybe mama leclerc finding out too after the trip???)

i’m sorry this is long don’t do it if u don’t want to it’s kinda shit idea

𝚄𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚟𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍 | 𝙲𝚂𝟻𝟻

𝗮/𝗻: tried my best! If you want any changes feel free to message me!🫶

𝗽𝗮𝗶𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴: carlos sainz x leclerc!reader

𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘆: the one where your brothers go on a family trip without telling you, and carlos is the only one who makes you feel like you still belong

𝗺𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗰: family line - conan gray

𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: angsty

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・

Being a Leclerc had always meant being part of a unit. Your brothers—Lorenzo, Charles, and Arthur—had been your best friends, your protectors, your constants. No matter how chaotic life got, no matter how far racing took them, family was supposed to come first.

At least, that’s what you thought.

Until your mother called you that afternoon.

You were at your desk, half-listening to the sound of emails piling up, when your phone buzzed. Seeing Maman on the screen made you smile.

“Hey, Maman,” you answered, cradling the phone between your shoulder and ear.

“Oh, mon ange, I miss you so much.”

Her voice was warm, but there was something wistful in it. You frowned.

“I miss you too,” you said. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing, chérie.” She sighed. “I just wish you were here.”

You froze.

“Here?”

“In Mexico,” she said, like it was obvious. “The boys are all together, and it’s been wonderful, but it would have been perfect if you were here too.”

Your stomach dropped.

Mexico. The family trip.

The one you weren’t invited to.

The one your brothers had told your mother you couldn’t attend—because of work.

Except you had never said that.

Your grip on the phone tightened, breath hitching slightly. You tried to keep your voice steady, to act like you weren’t just blindsided.

“Yeah,” you said, forcing out a small laugh. “I wish I could’ve come too.”

Lying to your mother felt awful. But what were you supposed to say? That your brothers hadn’t even told you about the trip? That they’d made that decision for you?

She talked for a few more minutes, telling you about the beautiful beaches, the food, the laughter. It was the kind of trip you would have loved. The kind of trip you had always been part of.

The kind of trip they didn’t think to include you in.

By the time the call ended, your hands were shaking.

You didn’t even realize you were crying until Carlos knocked on your office door.

“Amor?” His voice was gentle, but the moment he stepped inside and saw your face, his expression shifted. “What happened?”

You swallowed hard, but the words burned on the way out.

“They went to Mexico without me.” Your voice cracked. “And they told my mom I couldn’t come. That I was too busy.”

Carlos stilled, his dark eyes darkening.

“They what?”

You shook your head, wiping at your face angrily. “I didn’t even know they were going. They didn’t tell me. They just… decided for me. And my mom had no idea.”

For a moment, Carlos didn’t speak. His jaw clenched, his fingers flexing at his sides. He wasn’t just angry—he was furious.

Then, without hesitation, he pulled you into his arms.

The moment his warmth wrapped around you, you crumbled.

“It’s like I don’t even matter to them anymore,” you whispered into his chest. “Like they don’t want me there.”

Carlos exhaled sharply, one hand cupping the back of your head. “That’s not true.”

“It feels true.”

His grip tightened. “They had no right to do that. To make that choice for you.”

You stayed like that for a while, letting him hold you as the weight of it all crashed over you. He didn’t try to fill the silence with empty reassurances. He just stayed. And somehow, that was enough.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・

You didn’t say anything to your brothers right away.

For days after they came back, they acted like nothing had happened. They sent pictures in the family group chat, talked about how amazing the trip was—like you hadn’t been sitting at home, wondering why you weren’t good enough to be included.

But your mother noticed.

Of course she did.

It wasn’t until you were at her house for dinner that she finally asked.

“Mon amour,” she said softly, setting her fork down. “Are you upset with your brothers?”

You hesitated, rolling your glass between your palms.

“I just…” You exhaled, the words burning your throat. “I don’t understand why they didn’t tell me about Mexico.”

Your mother’s brow furrowed. “What do you mean?”

“They never told me,” you said, meeting her gaze. “I found out when you called.”

She froze.

“They told me you were too busy,” she said slowly. “That you couldn’t take time off.”

A bitter laugh escaped you before you could stop it.

“I never said that.”

Your mother’s expression shifted, her lips pressing into a tight line. She didn’t say anything for a long time, but you could see it—the way the realization sank in, the way she pieced together what had actually happened.

“Je suis désolée,” she murmured. “I should have asked you myself.”

You shook your head. “It’s not your fault.”

She reached for your hand, squeezing gently. “But it’s not okay.”

No. It wasn’t.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・

When you finally confronted Charles, you half-expected him to have a reasonable explanation.

He didn’t.

“We didn’t mean to leave you out,” he said, raking a hand through his hair. “We just thought… you had so much work, and we didn’t want you to feel like you had to come.”

You stared at him. “So instead of asking me, you decided for me?”

Charles flinched. “It wasn’t like that.”

“Then explain it to me.” Your voice wavered, but the hurt bled through. “Because from where I’m standing, it feels a lot like you just didn’t want me there.”

He exhaled, looking at the floor. “That’s not true.”

“But you didn’t want me there enough to invite me,” you pointed out. “Did you even think about me? Or was it just easier to leave me out?”

Silence.

And there it was.

You swallowed against the lump in your throat, nodding slowly. “Got it.”

“No,” Charles said quickly. “It’s not like that, chérie. We love you, we just… we messed up.”

You let out a shaky breath. “Yeah. You did.”

He looked genuinely guilty, but guilt didn’t change what happened.

It didn’t take away the hurt.

It didn’t make it okay.

And for the first time in your life, you weren’t sure if your brothers would ever see you the way they used to.

.・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・。. .・。.・゜✭・.・✫・゜・

masterlist

[calder]

Firstly its awful what you've been through at the hands of the people in nukapedia, and I agree that things need to change. Fallout is so important to many of us here.

In regards to your recent posts any suggestions to new people wanting to edit and participate as a voice against the damage like you suggested?

(context: 4/28 Nukapedia PSA) after making an account, it would be constructive and lovely for you to attempt to add any piece of information you find interesting that is missing from the wiki, or simply improve the way something is written. if it gets removed, try asking how you can do better.

be social. use talk pages. hopefully your established peers will help you workshop your contribution into something fitting the content and style guidelines.

go grass roots. ask your passionate Fallout friends to come participate.

being in the room at all by attending announced conversations is a big deal. no specific plan, just go there, be normal, and don't enable weirdos. when an authority figure says something vague, insist they explain it and provide some kind of evidence if applicable.

you are never "too small" to speak in any conversation. speak up like you belong there. many of them are non-editors and do not even talk about fallout. you are a fallout fan. speak up when you see something wrong or concerning. your voice makes a difference and your silence does not. if you're doing your best to promote safety and transparency then you are helping even if you get swarmed by weird angry men.

the problem we're addressing is bad actors with special protections, who maintain narrative control through intimidation, abusive distortion of information, and mob mentality.

the inner-circle consists of people who are comfortable with coordinated lying and coded hate speech. they surround themselves with favored libs eager to demonstrate their apolitical loyalty to the concept of authority. The first group are overall cynical bigoted manipulators, and the second group is trained to completely fucking freak out when anyone tries to address the behavior of the first group. ("They're calling ALL OF US racist, you guys! ALL OF US!")

learn how to spot and resist emotional blackmail: Emotional blackmailers use fear, obligation and guilt in their relationships, ensuring that others feel afraid to cross them, obligated to give them their way and swamped by guilt if they resist. People WILL do this to you AGGRESSIVELY. Do not let them convince you you're actually the problem. Know that you can absolutely be punished at Nukapedia in front of everyone for failing to kneel to a cruel falsehood. Demand explanations. Demand evidence. Stand up for each other. They will try to break up and attack new groups forming in their echo chamber, so their "in-group" will remain the only source of legitimacy.

if authority figures imply you are somehow being bad by questioning their vague declarations and rhetorical justifications, do not concede to avoid conflict, do not validate them for bullying you, do not convey hesitation to speak. Curtly disagree and refuse to allow them to frame the conversation outside your terms. Be extremely wary of the admins who use passive language as if their decisions come from space.

if a user who's been there for years suddenly becomes CONSPICUOUSLY interested in you, positively or negatively, the inner circle is deciding what to make of you. Be wary of ppl who lovebomb you or launch in to overly positive shallow conversations. Play along with their vibes until you cannot. Don't become indignant when they cross a line, just treat them like they're embarrassing themselves. They prey on sincerity and they respect casual assertiveness.

If you think someone is fucking with you do not give them the benefit of the doubt especially if they are pushy about deserving it

if a person with a fancyboy typing style is pretending to be stupid so they can neg you, you are talking to a shadow person.

if u meet some1 who type like a 2000s trol you are talking to a shadow person.

If you meet someone on the discord 😂 who cant stop 😂 using emojis 😂 to show how happy and unphased 🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️🤷‍♂️ they are 🤷‍♂️ that person is trying to spit on you through the internet because you are not a secret racist.

Maintain composure as a matter of safety. If you become upset or act phased by disrespect for any reason you will added to the legends of woke demons who they valiantly slew. Navigate weird confrontations with weird jokes or dismissal, anything else makes you a mark.

people will say "you violated policy," this will just happen. SIMPLY DO NOT ENGAGE unless you're sure you're prepared to get Lawyer about it. never agree to the premise that "you violated policy," that is all they need to permanently mark you for limitless abuse. additionally, never imply that your approach to ANYTHING is "subjective" rather than "objective" or they will permanently mark you for limitless abuse.

i know this is very specific. there are at most 20 of these problem users who actually participate on the site at all--and half of them only show up to occasional forums. theyve been doing the same shit for a long time

many blessings

[superscourge]

errrm idk if you've already been asked this but do u have any tips on starting commissions bc I've been wanting to set up my own but I'm like super new to the biz... or whatever ok bye

no worriesss i think i answered a similar question a while ago but im not sure so i'll do my best to answer again lol

this got super fucking long so it's going under a cut

commissions are a lotta work and not just in terms of the actual drawing! it also involves a lot of marketing and getting yourself out there and learning to have good customer service. if nobody knows youre taking commissions then you wont get any! plus, if ppl dont have a good time interacting with you during the commission process, then they wont wanna come back and they wont recommend u to their friends. so its important to be patient and amicable and easy to work with when you can and also make it to where u and others can spread the word about ur work!

unfortunately part of getting a decent amount of commission work depends on how much reach you have and what the demand for your work is like, as well as how much work and experience u have to back urself up with (so like, someone with a lot of examples and ppl to vouch for them is much more likely to get comms than someone who doesnt have much going on in those areas). this also plays into pricing which also sucks but its the reality of the situation. if your demand is low and you dont get a lot of orders at all, then you cant expect people to pay a lot for your work even if its worth it. im only able to charge as much as i do bc ive been doing it for so long that i have ppl to vouch for me, a ton of examples to show, and enough of a demand that ppl will still pay that much to get something from me! which is good bc its my only source of income lol

so i guess if u wanna start taking comms u have to do a buncha stuff, i'll try to summarize what i can think of in a list:

set up an easy way for people to see your prices and contact you! i personally use a carrd for my prices and allow dm's or emails, but i also have a ko-fi with commission slots available for ppl who are too nervous to message me directly

figure out how u wanna receive payment! afaik paypal is the most popular way and i prefer this bc i like to send invoices, but i also use cashapp and ko-fi to accept payments

figure out what you want to offer! its good to have a few options imo but u dont wanna overdo it bc then ppl get decision paralysis from getting overwhelmed at how much there is to choose from lol. do stuff that you enjoy doing too bc if u offer smth u dont have fun doing then its gonna be super hard and grueling to work on those orders

figure out your pricing! a good way to do this that ive found is to set a price to start out with and use it to test the waters. if you dont get a lot of bites then u probably need to lower the prices from there, but if u get too many then u should be able to increase the prices! once again tho ur prices will depend on the demand for your work as well as how many ppl see that ur available and how much evidence u have to back ur work up with (so like, examples of it as well as ppl who can vouch for u)

learn to have good customer service!! this is rly important for me. i try rly hard to be approachable and easy to work with because that encourages a good relationship with my commissioners so theyre more inclined to come back and also recommend me to their friends ^^ plus it just makes sense that u should be nice to ur commissioners lol. idk

^ irt this also, while u should try and be patient and kind to ur commissioners, please also know when to set boundaries! have a rules/terms of service available that lets people know stuff like what the commission process looks like, possible turnaround time, how to send payment and place orders, how you go about cancelled commissions and refunds, and stuff you will or won't do for a commission. anything you can think of to establish boundaries and guidelines for working with you

be honest and communicate with your commissioners!!!! transparency is very appreciated when getting a commission from somebody; if something comes up and u cant work on the commission or it's taking a while for some reason, let them know! ppl dont like being kept in the dark. plus, ive found that 99% of commissioners are more patient than youd expect and dont mind waiting for their commission as long as theres clear communication and updates!

pleaseeee send wips and ask for clarification on anything youre even a little unsure about. u dont want to go through an entire comm and finish it after a buncha work and have the commissioner not be happy with the outcome. that leaves a sour taste in the commissioner's mouth and also means u wasted a bunch of time and energy that could have been prevented if you just checked in and made sure they liked what you were doing along the way!

taking slots is a great way to make sure u dont overwork urself and take on too many orders! i personally use a trello to keep track of my orders but i know other ppl use like..spreadsheets n stuff too? so whatever works for u. just make sure u keep the information (order details + contact info) somewhere u can find

uhhh idk if i can think of anything else rn. but i hope this is even remotely helpful ^^ its just my own experiences and u gotta remember that your experience wont be the same as mine so be kind to urself and figure things out in a way that works for u! o7

[fallinallincurls]

in picture frames, in all my dreams, you’re the one i want

this is my entry for @wyattjohnston 's winter fic exchange 2k24!! i wrote this fic for the lovely @laurenairay and i hope you love it so much! i had the best time writing this one (which means there will probably be more brock fics in the future). and shoutout to @tonyspep for bouncing ideas around with me as always!

i also made a playlist for this fic as well if you'd like to check it out!

hope you enjoy!! feedback is always appreciated! xx

word count: 3.8k+

~~~~~

This was not supposed to happen. You were supposed to be on a plane back to Minnesota right now so you would be home in time for Christmas. But when you arrived at the airport earlier, the board of departures were full of canceled flights including yours. And when you brought your dilemma to the customer service desk, they informed you that all flights out of Vancouver were either booked or canceled through the 26th. The day after Christmas.

That’s how you ended up where you are now. Frantically knocking on your best friend’s front door and trying to hold back the overwhelming urge to cry.

“Come on, come on, come on.” You mutter to yourself, knocking one more time in hopes that the one person you want to see right now will answer.

At that very moment, the door swings open to reveal a cozy but sleepy looking Brock. He’s wearing a pair of gray sweats with an old Canucks t-shirt. His blonde hair is tousled but still somehow looks perfect and his blue eyes light up at the sight of you. You love seeing him like this, so soft and relaxed. The Brock that the media and fans don’t know, but you do. 

“Uh, hi. Again.” You say quietly while offering a watery smile.

“Y/N?” Brock asks, still rubbing the sleep out of his eyes. You don’t blame him, it is only six in the morning. “What are you doing here? Aren’t you going home today?”

“Well yeah, but the insane snow storm had other plans. My flight was canceled and I can’t get anything until after Christmas. So I’m kind of stuck here.”

“A week of me wasn’t enough for you?” He teases, that familiar smile brightening up his face. You just shrug in response, your lips just barely tipping up at his playfulness.

Without saying another word, Brock pulls you into his arms for the tightest hug. It takes everything in you not to sob against his sturdy chest as the warmth and comfort he always carries surrounds you.

“I’m going to miss Christmas.” The terrifying admission tumbles from your lips as tears start falling. You’ve never missed a Christmas at home with your family and you can’t imagine spending the magical day stranded halfway across the continent. 

“No, you’re not.” Brock murmurs, smoothing your hair down as he holds you. The small gesture immediately makes you feel more at ease. It’s something only he knows that will help calm you down when you’re upset. Before you protest, Brock makes a split second decision. “You’re going to spend Christmas here, with me. We’re going to celebrate Christmas together. And you can stay here since all the hotels are probably booked or mad expensive, it’s just easier.”

It takes a moment for Brock’s words to register in your mind, but when they do, your heart swells. Of course he would welcome you in for a holiday that you weren’t supposed to spend with him. He would do anything for you and he’s been that way since you were kids. But right now, you’re more grateful than ever for his kindness.

“Are you sure? I was only supposed to visit you for a week.” You ask faintly, voicing the only worry that surfaced at his suggestion. 

When the University of Minnesota, the school that you’re currently a professor at, announced the dates of winter break, you immediately booked a flight out to Vancouver to spend some much needed time with your best friend. It’s tough to see Brock during the season because classes are also in session and schedules almost never line up. But you weren’t letting this opportunity pass by. The past week has been spent catching up and doing everything that was physically possible together. You couldn’t have been happier you made the trip until the debacle this morning put a damper on the unbelievable happiness you’ve been feeling since you arrived in Vancouver. 

“And the weather said a week wasn’t long enough.” Brock says, his tone of voice telling you there was no room for arguments. “I won’t let you spend Christmas alone so we’re doing this, okay? Plus, I don’t think Coolie and Milo will mind having you around for a few more days. You know how much they love you.”

“The dogs aren’t the only ones who love me.” Brock smiles at your playful comment and can’t help but chuckle at the truth of the oblivious statement. The full extent of his feelings for you that he’s been hiding for years is unknown to everyone but himself. And maybe Quinn and Petey. But he won’t admit how he feels about you until he knows the moment’s right, until maybe there’s a chance you feel the same way.

So he shrugs nonchalantly and lets a laugh slip past his lips while ignoring the way his heart races just from looking at you. Before he can say anything in response, you’re surging forward to hug him again.

“Thank you so much, really. It means the world to me. You have no idea.”

“You know I’d do anything for you.” Brock admits, honesty seeping through each word. “Besides, spending Christmas with you just made my holiday a lot more exciting.” 

“Please,” You roll your eyes in response, but the softest smile blossoms across your lips and the insane amount of anxiety that was consuming you a few minutes ago has already started to dissipate.

“C’mon,” Brock starts, pulling you through the door and over the threshold of his apartment. “You’re probably exhausted so let’s get you a nap and we’ll go from there.”

There’s no resistance as he leads you to his bedroom, hands you one of his t-shirts and tells you it’ll all be okay. Before you know it, you’re under the blankets, wrapped up in the warmth and coziness of Brock’s bed, drifting off to a much needed sleep.

When you wake up a few hours later, well rested and feeling much better, you find yourself squished between two large dogs. A giggle slips past your lips at the sight.

“Hey guys!” You exclaim, not wasting a second to give both Coolie and Milo some pets. “Lucky you, I’ll be here for a couple more days which means you’ll get plenty of extra snacks.”

“No, they won’t!” Brock calls from somewhere in the apartment, making a laugh bubble up in your throat. Even if your Christmas isn’t going to go as you had planned, you’re glad that you’ll be spending it with your favorite person in the world. 

The dogs race ahead of you to find Brock as you start making your way down the hallway. Although you’ve spent a decent amount of time in Brock’s apartment over your weeklong visit, you take a few extra seconds to look over the collection of pictures he has hanging on the wall throughout the hallway. Photos of him with his family, smiling with teammates, namely Petey and Quinn who you know have become his best friends, views from his many trips to different places around the world and of course, snapshots of you and him together. 

A smile blossoms on your face as you look over the memories frozen in time in each photo, laughing to yourself at the ridiculous ones Brock has hanging up that feature his teammates and you. But just before you’re about to head down the stairs to find him, one picture catches your eye. You don’t know how you missed it over the last week, but you must have.

Because staring back at you are little versions of you and Brock, flashing big, beaming grins at the camera in front of the sign to the summer camp you both attended for years. That’s how the two of you met and you remember looking forward to the summer just because it meant seeing and spending time with Brock. Even though you both lived in Minnesota, it wasn’t until you were older that you were able to communicate outside penpal letters sent in the mail and the ninety days you spent together on the campground where you both formed memories that will last a lifetime.

You couldn’t have been more than seven in the photo and it’s clear that both of you are happier than ever. That feeling is still present today whenever you’re with Brock, it’s nestled deep within your heart like it belongs there forever and you’ve carried it around for most of your life. It only took you years after he already had moved to Vancouver to realize that happiness can often be mistaken for love. 

Shoving those thoughts away, you bound down the stairs to meet your best friend again. There’s a new pep in your step as you’re determined to make the most of every second this Christmas even if it’s not what you expected. You’re here with Brock which is all you could ask for.

A gentle smile is already on your lips when you get to the bottom floor, but you halt almost immediately when you see the scene in front of you. Coolie and Milo are wearing the cutest doggie holiday sweaters and Brock is softly grinning while leaning against the kitchen counter which is full of a wide variety of baking ingredients. And when your eyes look over the living room, you notice a box labeled “ornaments” sitting atop the coffee table, undoubtedly full of all of the beautiful ornaments that were carefully hanging from the branches of Brock’s Christmas tree just hours ago. 

“What is-”

“I told you we were celebrating Christmas and we’re going to do it the right way.” Brock simply explains, blue eyes twinkling with joy and you see a flicker of nervousness there too. Like he isn’t sure if you like the gesture.

“Brock,” You breathe out, his name just above a whisper. 

“I know you love decorating the tree on Christmas Eve so I just took down the ornaments so we can do it together. And your family always bakes cookies the night before Christmas too and I surprisingly already had most of what we needed for the recipes.”

There aren’t enough words to properly show the gratitude, the love, that’s swelling in your chest so you just cross the room and wrap your arms around him in the tightest embrace. Brock immediately responds, pulling you even closer to him, and for a moment everything feels right. 

“Thank you,” The words are quiet, but Brock hears them and presses a delicate kiss to the top of your head. You pray he doesn’t feel the way your heart skips a beat at the sweet action and he must not because he pulls away with a big smile and a hint of mischief mixed with something else you can’t quite place evident in his eyes.

“Of course, you deserve nothing less. What do you want to do first?” He asks, ready to jump into either activity. But it’s right then that everything clicks.

“Wait, you went out in the snow to get the rest of the ingredients we needed?”

“Well, yeah, it’s not too bad. Compared to the snow we used to get at home, this is like nothing.”

“But it’s cold! And how did you get the recipes for my favorite Christmas cookies without-” You trail off, the realization setting in at the same moment Brock speaks up to confirm your suspicions.

“I called your mom. She was more than happy to share the recipes with me when I explained what I was up to. That was the easiest part actually!” 

If you weren’t already head over heels in love with him already, this moment would’ve sealed the deal. You can’t believe he went through all this trouble just to make the holiday special when you weren’t even supposed to be here in the first place. Nothing but adoration rushes through your veins and you can feel the blush creeping into your cheeks. Without hesitating, you lean up to kiss his cheek as yet another silent thank you and his skin almost immediately turns pink. 

“Alright, let’s do this, yeah?” He asks, distracting you from his reaction to the little gesture the two of you have been doing since you were younger and pulling you into the kitchen. It doesn’t take long for Christmas music to be turned on, filling the air with even more of a festive feeling. Brock makes sure your apron is tied on, just like you do for his, and then you’re off baking. You teach Brock all the techniques you’ve learned over the years from making these recipes and you get the pleasure of seeing him so free and happy.

You want to see him like this for the rest of your life. A big smile on his face, eyes crinkled in happiness and no sign of any stress hanging over him.

“What are we going to do with all these cookies?” The question falls off your lips after Brock slides the last batch into the oven. 

“Easy. You’ll take some back home with you so your mom can see how much of an awesome job I did and the rest I’ll give to the team. A lot of them won’t say no to homemade cookies even if it’s the middle of the season.” 

“If you say so,” You giggle, not being able to picture his teammates willingly accepting Christmas cookies when they’re in the middle of the best season the team has had in a long time. But you don’t argue, just set aside the best looking cookies that you and Brock decorated for Quinn and Petey, and sneak one to Coolie and Milo too, before getting the kitchen back in order.

After everything is cleaned up so the kitchen doesn’t look like a total disaster anymore and you both enjoy the takeout that Brock ordered for dinner, no time is wasted in moving to the living room to decorate the Christmas tree.

“Okay, where do we start?” You contemplate, gently placing your full mug of hot chocolate on the coffee table while surveying the tree glittering in the corner of the room. 

“I forgot how seriously you take decorating for the holidays.” Brock chuckles, opening the box that he put all the ornaments back in earlier. He didn’t really forget, in fact, he missed it more than anything. That’s more than half the reason he spent so much time taking every single bauble off the tree. Yes, he wanted to make sure Christmas was as magical for you as it would’ve been back home, but he also selfishly wanted to share this moment with you too.

And he’d be lying if he said his heart isn’t full to brim right now with what he knows is love. Not that you can tell or would ever know that.

“The tree is serious business!” You exclaim with a chuckle, watching as Brock carefully starts removing ornaments from the box one at a time. He hands you a simple, but gorgeous blue ball to hang up first.

Slowly, but surely, the two of you decorate the tree with the wide variety of ornaments Brock has. He tells you the stories behind the ones his teammates have gifted him, shares the laughter with you when he stumbles across one that has a picture of him as a toddler in the picture frame and recounts the memories of family or solo vacations whenever he hands you one that was clearly bought at a tourist shop. There’s a soft smile on Brock’s face that never disappears and you swear he keeps sneaking glances at you.  

The tree becomes more festive as each decoration once again finds a home on its branches and not for the first time today, you forget that this isn’t where you were meant to be for the holiday. But you’re kind of grateful for the snowstorm now. Otherwise, you wouldn’t have gotten to do any of this with the man who you’ve wanted for years.

“It’s done!” You cheer with excitement when you place the last ornament on the tree. “We did a pretty good job. Don’t you think?” Stepping back to admire the beautiful work you both did, your shoulder bumps Brock’s and that familiar shock of warmth floods through your veins at the brief contact. 

“It’s the best Christmas tree I’ve ever seen.” Brock responds playfully, but there's a faint tone of seriousness evident in his voice. His eyes are glistening in the glow of the lights and you can’t deny how perfect he looks so cozy and joyful like this. 

A few seconds later, without you realizing, Brock slips away to put the box away until it was time to take all the holiday decorations down in a few weeks. But to his surprise, there is one last ornament sitting in the box that was somehow forgotten.

“Y/N,” Brock laughs, picking up the decoration. “We forgot one.”

“No way! What is it?” Nothing but curiosity and excitement is evident in your voice. You cross the room to Brock and lean into his side to see what the mystery ornament is.

And when you get a glimpse, your breath is stolen away. Because in Brock’s hand is a small photo of a grinning little boy and girl sitting together at a picnic table inside a picture frame made of colored popsicle sticks. The two words “best friends” are written in black marker across the bottom of the frame in a neat, but childish looking style of handwriting.

Recognition washes over you instantly.

“I made that,” You start, almost stunned as you look between the homemade ornament and Brock’s face.

“You did. Like decades ago.” Brock chuckles, the sound fills the room with happiness and light. He still remembers the day you gave him this little gift. It was the last day of summer camp and before you both said goodbye with a promise to see each other soon, you gave him the gift. For only being nine years old at the time, Brock thought it was one of the nicest things anyone had ever done for him. Plus, that way he had a little piece of you back home too.

Since then, he’s cherished this adorable, homemade ornament like nothing else. It always seemed a little silly to him, to hold onto a childhood craft, but seeing your reaction right now tells him it means just as much to you as it does to him.

“And you still have it. You kept it all this time?”

“Of course I did.”

“Why?” The question is gentle, but full of genuine interest. There’s a beat of comfortable silence as Brock battles with his thoughts for a moment. He knows this is it. This is the moment he finally tells you how he feels. All of the nerves and worries he had about confessing how his heart beats just for you falls away in mere seconds.

Your brows furrow at the strange look on his face. His blue eyes are full of an emotion you can’t place and the softest smile graces his lips. But more than anything, there’s a trace of clarity on display across his features. His gaze flicks down to your lips a few times before he speaks. 

“Because you’re my best friend.” Brock whispers, each word carrying more weight than ever before. “But I don’t think that’s enough for me anymore.” He admits, a weight lifting off his shoulders as the words hang in the air for a moment.

He doesn’t have to say anything else because you know what it is right then. He is in love. With you.

“And you’re my best friend, but I want us to be more too.” Brock’s face practically lights up at your response, knowing that you feel the same way he does. It almost feels like a dream that after years, he doesn’t have to wonder anymore if you have fallen for him too.

“Can I kiss you?” Brock asks with a gentle voice as one hand settles on your hip before pulling you in closer. “We did somehow end up under the mistletoe.” He points up to where the collection of leaves are hanging in the entryway you’re both standing under. You can’t help but laugh at the sight and nothing but pure elation fills your heart.

“Yes, please.” 

He cradles your cheek with one hand while the other stays on your hip, keeping you pressed against his body. You can’t help the smile that blossoms on your face before his lips catch yours in the softest, most passionate kiss you’ve ever experienced. The rough feel of his scruff against your smooth skin makes you giggle a little bit, which Brock responds to by deepening the kiss even more.

It’s absolutely perfect. You’ve dreamt of this exact moment more times than you’d like to admit, but it’s everything and more. And by the way Brock is holding you, it’s obvious he’s been waiting for this too.

When he reluctantly pulls away a few seconds later, there’s a new glimmer that you’ve never seen before in his bright blue eyes. He looks like the human form of sunshine right now and you can’t take it. You reach up to brush a lock of blonde hair back off of Brock’s forehead. He gives your hip a reassuring squeeze, a reminder that this is in fact real.

“You have no idea how long I’ve wanted to do that.” Brock murmurs, his smile just mere centimeters away from yours.

“I think I do.”

And without hesitation, you lean in to kiss him again. Once because it’s been a long night, twice because it’ll be alright, three times because you waited your whole life.

Before any fears or worries can creep in and ruin the moment, Brock wraps you up in a tight hug. Your head rests against his chest where you can hear his steady heartbeat.

“We’ll figure everything out. I promise.” He says calmly, somehow knowing what your next thought is going to be. “But it’s Christmas Eve and I don’t want to do anything else but enjoy being here with you.”

“I’ve never been so grateful for a snowstorm in my life.” You laugh, pure bliss humming through your body.

“Me either. Who would’ve thought that’s all it would’ve taken for this to finally happen?”

Later that night, when you’re snuggled up with Brock on the couch watching Home Alone while Coolie and Milo sleep nearby, you realize that you did in fact get to spend Christmas at home even though you didn’t make it back to Minnesota. Because Brock is home. Just being in his arms brings you the same kind of comfort and love you cherish so deeply.

Almost as if he can sense that you’re getting lost in your thoughts, Brock raises a brow in silent question when you look up at him. You just smile in response before leaning up to kiss his cheek which earns you a sweet grin.

“Merry Christmas, Brock.”

“Merry Christmas, Y/N.” Brock murmurs softly, brushing your hair behind your ear. “So happy my Christmas wish came true this year.”

[uponawhitehorse13]

Rachel Alucard SFW alphabet

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Rachel is very reserved with affection. That's not to say she is not affectionate. She just has a talent for keeping it rare enough that it always feels meaningful.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Ominous.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

While she tries not to show it Rachel loves to be spoiled with cuddles. 

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

She would have no problem arranging a guest room for you and maybe a shared room down the line. She will neither cook nor clean if it isn't obvious.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

She will simply avoid you next time.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

It will take a really long time for her to feel ready for it. When she does it's the most extravagant wedding there has ever been.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Surprisingly rough. Both with her comments and physically.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

She's not a big hugger herself but she does enjoy getting hugged. Tries not to let it show but it's obvious when she needs one.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

It's a strange situation. If you say it to her she'll try to say it back but will stop herself. Only says it by accident in very intimate moments. Accept it and don't push further because you will get electrocuted.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

She's kind of possessive so she tends to scare away people she considers a threat to your relationship.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Do not use her height to tease her with a kiss. She will harm you to make you keel over so she can return the favour.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Having kids would be a huge decision for her if she even decides to do so.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

She prefers not to go out during the day so morning usually signals bedtime for her.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Nights are usually the time you'll be with her.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

While she could explain the nature of the world to you it would serve no purpose but to spoil the time you have together.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

She's pretty easy to provoke but as long as she gets to punish you in some way she's happy.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

She often mentions things you don't remember telling her. She just insults your memory.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Your first kiss. It was a rare moment of you two being completely alone. You were in her garden. Roses all around with the moonlight framing it all.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Seemingly not that protective but she actually just takes great care you never even end up in situations where you'd need protection.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

With her everything has to be very extravagant.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

It's a bit hard to understand her with the strange push and pull of her affection and teasing. From the outside the relationship might seem borderline abusive but you know that's just an act.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Don't get her started on fashion.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

She'd sooner die than admit how much you actually mean to her.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

While she will send Valk, Nago and Gii away for intimate moments George always stays with you two. It may seem he'd make a lot of moments awkward but he's pretty much unnoticable and has never shared what he's seen you two do.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

She will complain and insult you for anything and everything but she rarely goes beyond that. 

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Whenever she sleeps alone she lays completely flat on her back with her arms crossed.

[f4ggydog]

bud, bud, bud, now i’m curious— this is serious business what you’re saying. i need your opinion about lottie and her personality ’cause i’m doing a bot of her, and i’m not sure i’m getting her right.

hello hello hello so here’s how i feel about lottie matthews:

I don’t agree with ppl who think that precrash her would be a highschool mean girl. she’s honestly not surrounded by many friends besides her soccer team and she kind of acts a little strange even in the pre crash scenes. however, she does have her sassy moments where she has quips like for example with Mari in that one episode during the crash. I don’t think she’s a complete social outcast like misty though. I think she’s a nice in the middle. but she definitely struggles with trying to feel normal among others.

now as for crashed lottie and post crash, i do not believe that lottie is this completely innocent angel that ppl make her out to be from season 2. she cracks easily under pressure because she’s got the weight of a role she didn’t want on her. she didn’t expect to be placed in charge and whenever she fucks up, she immediately turns to self harm. her mental illness consumes her and fucks with her decision making and plays a big part in her actions. and all the girls are quick to blame the one person who didn’t want to be in charge when everything goes wrong and she takes it out on herself even more. lottie let shauna take a beating out on her not only for protectiveness and to let shauna assume the role as the butcher, but also as a form of self-harm. she’s so immersed in her role as the antler queen that it’s to a fault. she’s driven by her devotion, which often leads her down dark paths and routes where she doesn’t exactly make the most moral of decisions. but she’s not this evil manipulative leader who only seeks to have control and only does things with nefarious purposes. lottie deserves a lot better and she carries a lot of the burden on her back unfortunately.

But anyways i also don’t think lottie is completely evil. however, I can’t say that she’s a completely helpless angel and I think she’s a nice moral grey. her character is too complex to assign her to either the ying or yang role and I think while she often thinks she’s doing the best for ppl, it can make her do immoral things or partake in brutal rituals and activities in order to uphold the wilderness or for the sake of the people around her. ik some ppl want lottie to be more evil but not including any fanon biases, this is the way she is imo.

I apologize if my analysis for lottie isn’t great it’s def a lot of word vomit and can be improved upon and u definitely don’t have to agree!

[call-me-ninaaa]

On A Different Night - Matt Sturniolo

Matt sturniolo x fem!reader

heyy.

i'm back again with another imagine cause why not.

not proofread!

also pretend like matt can drive a motorcycle for the sake of this story.

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you recently moved to a new town and the only one you knew there was your brother nathan, along with his best friend matthew ofc.

after hanging out with them for a couple weeks already, the best decision was to finally put yourself out there and download some dating apps.

meeting a hot guy, y'all hit it off immediately and he asked you out on a date.

which leads you to now, in the restaurant with the guy named jason.

you're kind of having a good time and he's being a gentleman until jason started saying really crude things, telling you he'll go home with you rather you like it or not.

so that's when you excused yourself to the bathroom, going there rather quickly.

after calling nate to ask him if he can pick you up, he didn't answer so the only other number you have of someone in the area was his best friend matt.

deciding to text him that you feel unsave and asked if he can pick you up, he didn't reply for a few minutes.

'screw it, i'm gonna have to think of like a plan b, i'll just think of something.' u thought.

so walking back to the table while trying to figure out how to get home safely was the only option in ur head.

5 minutes in, the restaurant door slams open and there stands the one and only matthew sturniolo.

he walks over to your table and places the helmet he had in his hand on ur head saying 'we are leaving, let's go.'

jason tried to stop u from standing up but failed miserably when matt turned to him.

"if you get one inch closer to her, or one inch closer to me, i will END you, got that understood?" he rolled his eyes walking away with you behind him.

'why was that so.....attractive?' was the first thing that came to your mind.

you get on his bike and he drives you home, comforting you by rubbing ur legs the whole ride.

arriving to your place, you invite him in and you both start talking.

when all of a sudden you said

"yk what? i'm- i'm so sorry, like, it's a friday night and i just, took you away from whatever you were doing,like i'm just so sorry and like i should have just waited and i could have called my brother again-"

"shut up" he interrupted you.

"excuse me?"

"shut up... so do you wanna know what i was doing?"

"yeah." you answered his question.

"i had a bunch of friends over."

"oh my god i'm so s-"

"shut up!" matt interrupts you once again.

"...i saw your text, i saw you felt unsafe, i saw you needed me, i grabbed my helmet, i grabbed my keys and i left, i didn't say anything i just left, i just got on my bike and i got to you... because i will choose you over everyone else, every time!"

"...what?" was the only thing that came out of your mouth due to how speechless you were.

he began stepping towards you and leaning in.

"what are you- what are you saying?" you asked.

" i will choose you."

"okay, but what about my brother?" you thought he was going to say your brother was more worth it than u.

"over your brother every time."

"what does this mean?" you stupidly asked.

"i'll show you what it means." matt leans in, giving you the slightest peck ever.

"but we'll talk about it, on a different night when you didn't just come back from a shit date." he winks saying 'goodnight' before walking out the house leaving you standing there against the wall speechless as hell, thinking about what just happend when nate came into the house.

"what the fuck just happend?"

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OKAYY HOW WAS IT?

sorry if there are spelling mistakes, not proofread as i said at the start!

make sure to eat and drink enough today!!

thank you for reading and i hope you have/had a good day!

byeee!<3

word count: 704

[greenboyfriend]

choose a tile! (tarot card reading)

image source image 1: through the darkness of future past, the magician longs to see image 2: one chants out between two worlds, image 3: fire, walk with me!

1.・。.・゜✭

you're overcome with guilt & anguish. you may have made some sort of mistake, and now you're taking it out on yourself big time. you may already be dealing with other, hard hitting issues, so kicking yourself while you're down is definitely not going to help you. you're going to have to try something different. look at all the areas of your life and consider what needs balancing. maybe you've been too hard on yourself, or focusing too much on a situation, isolating yourself, ect*. find what needs to be changed and make it happen! self love should be your priority. it has the potential to take you a long way, even to the point of great reward! being kind to yourself is a lot easier said than done, but with the right mixture of influences (for example, surrounding yourself with supportive friends, reaching out for help, being open & honest with your feelings, ect) you will see the path start to clear. it's not always easy, but someday, it will feel so good to look back & be proud of how far you've come!

*these are all just examples of imbalances, meant to get u thinking about what may need changing, and are not necessarily relevant

(9 of swords reversed, temperance, the empress reversed)

2.・。.・゜✭

okay... like, 6 cards just poured out of the deck. lets get this shit 🔥💯

after toppling from the heights and/or having a massive realization, your life has become chaos. this change has left you feeling guilty and maybe you're beating up on yourself as well. your tendency to shirk away from others, hide the truth and to value appearances over actual substance/health doesn't help things, either. it's time to get real, not just with yourself but especially with those around you, too. not telling the truth is actively making this situation worse. it's not wrong to need someone to talk to, and if you need to gush your feelings, that's more than OK-- it's exactly what you need. it can be scary to open up, but the fool encourages you to take that "crazy" chance, and trust in those around you.

(9 of swords reversed, the fool, the empress reversed, the tower, queen of swords reversed, knight of cups)

3.・。.・゜✭

diligent and independent, you're well on your way to creating the comfortable lifestyle you so crave. however, there's some sort of hard decision you're going to have to make, or are in the process of making. this likely has to do with love (not necessarily romantic) and especially with forgiveness. before we get into that, though, it may help you to prepare for this by enjoying yourself during this time. you've been working hard, so you deserve to enjoy some of the benefits! when it comes to this decision, you're going to need to be bold. use the courage of your convictions to propel you forward! you will also find that your intuition guiding you-- let it. be aware of your dreams, gut reactions, and messages from within. try to rid your approach of negativity and see the best in those around you, including yourself. but in the meantime, relax! luxuriate! eventually you'll find that all's well that ends well.

(9 of pentacles, king of wands reversed, judgement, ace of cups reversed)

thanks for reading! if you'd like to get an in-depth reading about your specific situation, please send me a dm or an ask!

oh and the poem at the beginning is from twin peaks (the tv show not the damned titty restaurant!!!!!)

[my-castles-crumbling]

Anon Advice Asks - April 13

sister anon (new), therapist anon, accommodations anon (new), personal anon, phenomenal anon (new)

sister anon

My sister hit me on my face so hard that she gave me a black eye and broke my glasses and my mother isn't doing shit to her all she did was call her on the phone and yell at her a bit

She's not punishing her at all my eye has a blood cloth in it

That's awful. I'm so sorry, that must feel like absolute shit. I really hope it heals quickly. You don't deserve that at all, I hope you know <3

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therapist anon

Therapist anon here (again I'm so sorry)

Don't wanna get into all the details but I'm getting sick and tired of people doubing my parents and calling them 'over protected'

Maybe it's culture shock but I call my parents if I'm going somewhere, like leaving school I'll call and let them know. On my late morning ill call or text to let them know I've left, I'm going to a shop with my friend and then going down the road to get ice cream for example

I don't think my parents are over protective at all, also I call and text them cos I want to let them know. Yes we have life 360 but I still want to let them know what's so strange about that! I always call my mum when I've left school and my dad on a particular road just cos I've been doing it since I got a phone

Also if my dad doesn't want me to work in a particular shop then guess what! IM NOT GONNA WORK THERE

And I call my dad when I'm going into a shop cos unless it's private shopping (makeup or clothes I don't need but want) then he tells me to pay using his card that I use to buy school lunch cos he's happy too

I don't think my family dynamic is weird but I'm getting so beyond SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME ITS WEIRD AND NOT NORMAL

I call my parents after school cos one I miss them, two I want to talk to them and tell them about my day AND THREE COS I LOVE THEM AND WANT TO SPEAK TO THEM

Like I'm sorry but it's such a culture shock that people here don't speak for their parents after school like do you not like them or something?

Anyways I'm sorry cos I said no details but here wr are lol

You're the best Cas love u lots 💓

Hi!

Honestly, I think as long as you're okay with it and you have the freedom to make some of your own decisions then it's not anyone's business. I think kids' feelings matter when it comes to rules and if you feel comfortable, then it's fine. it's not like you're being kept in a tower. You're doing what you want and just checking in. As an adult, I'm not getting red flags. Unless you're like...in your twenties or something.

Screw people for judging.

Also about your other ask about your cousin...it sounds like she likes your money more than she likes you, honestly. Like she seems entitled. Does she ever want to do things just with you and not when she gets something out of it?

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accommodations anon

hey cas! just had a argument with my friends about this and i just wanted to get your opinion on the topic and also just kind of vent because i'm so frustrated.

so basically we were talking about getting extra time on tests and they basically were just saying like "oh well I wish I had extra time and it’s so annoying because some people get it for test anxiety and everyone gets that" and I was like "ok so then why don't you apply for it if you get anxiety???" and then it launched a wholleee discussion because they kept talking about how extra time isn't fair and like "in the real world you don’t get accommodations so you should just learn to adapt" and I was like… "you don’t just LEARN TO ADAPT??? that's not how it works??????" (and also like. you can get accommodations in the real world???) and one of them made up some BS like "well it’s not fair because some people actually need them and the teachers just don’t know" and I was like. "then ASK?? for accommodations????" And she kept talking about people not wanting to ask/it’s too hard/that’s personal and I was like ok but I could argue people need to learn to "adapt" and be able to advocate for themselves and she was like well it’s not that easy and i’m like. are you HEARING YOURSELF????? And also even if some people need it and aren’t getting it why does that mean stop helping the people who need it and are getting it??? and my other friend was talking about how when she was little her mom would watch her do her homework and that’s how she learned time management and why can’t other people do that - and I was like first of all I never said that’s bad, i wish parents would all help their kids and teach them skills like time management, I never said people shouldn’t learn time management, because they should - second of all, YOU DONT HAVE ANY OF THESE ISSUES???? and some people could sit at a computer or whatever and just literally not be able to do whatever it is. Or they can, but it still may take them way longer than the average person. and YOU don't know what that's like. so it's not the same to say "just make yourself do it" to a neurotypical person. because they CAN just do it. and i tried to explain like adhd paralysis and the likes to them but they just would. not. listen. so like I guess if someone has a wheelchair or something we shouldn’t help them get around school with ramps/elevators, they should just "adapt" to it because "you don’t get accommodations the rest of your life"??? but if i had said that, they would have been all offended because they don't acknowledge that invisible mental disorders are just as valid as physical ones. like it's just so DUMB.

anyways. ugh. yeah. i'm just annoyed rn. they just really don't have any empathy i guess, they're too concerned about what's "fair" (fair meaning people with accommodations not getting better grades than them because then they're a threat ig).

hope your day was better than mine </3 love u lots cas, u do sm for us!

"And also even if some people need it and aren’t getting it why does that mean stop helping the people who need it and are getting it???"

THIS. This is the thing. Also, there's a difference between equal and equitable. It sounds like this person thinks equal is fair and it isn't, because tests in general are not made in a way that are easily accessible for everyone. So yeah, they aren't given in an equal way, but they're given in an equitable way, which puts everyone on the same playing field. Which is actually a whole lot more fair.

It sucks, because a lot of people feel like this. They just don't understand. But everything you said is so true, and you have a right to be frustrated.

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personal anon

hello cas personal anon

so first thank you for answering my last ask<3but this time i need some advice..

so uh for tge past 2years or so i would say ive realised that i liked both genders so i was like "welp i guess im bi" but recently i dont know, its like that im attracted to women thats 100% sure but men? i guess not really like i can admit when a guy is attractive but i just dont see myself WITH a guy, but also ive been thinking tgat i wouldnt care if the person im attracted to is like nonbinary im just getting confused.

anyways i hope youre having an amizing day/night!!

Hi!

Okay so remember that you don't have to be equally attracted to the genders to be bi. Just be attracted to more than one gender (girls and nonbinary people, for example). Also, there's a difference between physical attraction and romantic attraction. So it could be you're bisexual but ___romantic.

Also remember that labels are for YOU. It's okay if you aren't sure and it's okay to not have one. It's okay to just look at a person and say "YOU, I LIKE YOU" and not really have a label to go with that.

Sending love <3

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phenomenal anon (new)

So I am having just a phenomenally terrible week and wanted to rant to someone, I hope this is okay for me to do. (the rest of the ask is redacted)

Oh....my God. This is a truly horrible week. I am SO sorry about your dog, that's absolutely traumatic. I have no words. Have you considered going to therapy? That's really therapy-level shit.

And I hope your finger heals!

As far as being 18. Please take a breath <3 You don't have to suddenly know everything. You have time to learn and make mistakes. I am older than 18 and still learning and making mistakes, it's okay <3. I know it's scary, but being an adult has so many wonderful positives, I promise

Sending love <3

[dragonworshippersblog]

Let's discuss some topic that I frequently read on tumblr about house of the dragon (if u do not agree then u can express ur opinion by comment, but always be educate. And if you want another topic to be discussed let me know and i will make a post)

“Aegon is the rightful king of the seven kingdoms by law”

GRRM in an interview said this “ Well, the short answer is that the laws of inheritance in the Seven Kingdoms are modeled on those in real medieval history… which is to say, they were vague, uncodified, subject to varying interpretations, and often contradictory” so we can say that male primogeniture is based on traditions, not law. King Jaehaerys with the great council of 101 at harrenal let the lords decide who should succeeded him, so he gave them a choice. But this is not the same about king viserys, he named rhaenyra as his heir and alway defended her, so viserys did not give them a choice. By usurping rhaenyra’s throne the green imply that the king’s word means nothing, and this is the thing that causes war and crisis. As we see in the book fire and blood most of the houses support rhaenyra’s cause, so otto’s word “the realm will not accept her” are revealed to be false. Again the war come from the fact that otto and alicent decide to crown aegon, so houses actually have a choice to decide who they wanted to support, if aegon hadn’t been present as an option the few houses that didn't agree with viserys choice will bent the knee alike.

“Alicent always defended rhaenyra before she lied to her about her purity”

In episode three the show let us see a conversation between otto and alicent where he said “aegon has been robbed of his own inheritance because he is the king’s first born son” and after he said that is alicent’s aim to guide the king in his decision, the second after she went to viserys’ chamber claim that there is something she want to discuss with him (viserys stopped her and they start talking about the stepstones). How do you know that she did not raise this matter anymore? In episode six when older alicent was question rhaenyra’s children she say she already talk about this before but the show didn't let us saw it, so its completely possible that she proposed aegon as heir even before rhaenyra’s lie when they were still friend

“Alicent always defend rhaenyra and yet rhaenyra send otto away when she had the possibility leaving alicent alone”

Let’s go deep into it. Queen Aemma, rhaenyra’s mother, died in order to gave the king a son, she was literally open without any kind of anesthesia so she felt every cut the maester were doing to her (and in the original script rhaenyra saw her body so she is aware that the death of her mother wasn’t a miscarriages like the other). After all of it viserys named rhaenyra his heir and married alicent, and at the time they had two children together, aegon and haelena. In this scenario otto was the second most powerful man in the realm, he ruled when viserys can’t, and he had great influence as he had great ambitions. So, rhaenyra had the chance to demonstrate that her mother’s death was not vain, and all of her miscarriages and pain had an aim now that her daughter is heir, but then there is otto and he will always be an obstacles in her rise to the throne; you, in her position, had the chance to get him go away, you choose to let him stay at court so your best friend is not alone or you choose to let him go so your rise will be more easy? Because if I were in rhaenyra’s position I would have not hesitate a second

“Alicent did not knew the council were plotting to crown aegon”

You all act like she had not the huge part in rhaenyra’s usurpation. First of all she tormented rhaenyra for a lot of years in king's landing, she moved to dragonstone (which is however the seat of the heir to the throne, rhae is the princess of dragonstone) because she couldn't take it anymore to be targeted by alicent and it was her aim in my opinion because rhaenyra not set the council would let Alicent have all the power to influence everyone about how her son is more worthy. Then she said to aegon “everyone in the realm know that one day you will be our king” so also if aegon was not meant to have the crown alicent let him believe that, and he was a boy at the time so he was easily manipulated. Then there is the petition about driftmark, you are really claim that alicent was willing to do so because she care so much to vaemond to have driftmark because its his blood rights and not because when the war she and otto create will follow she will have the velaryon flee support her? And when she said that viserys whisper to her about how aegon should succeed him? You can be team green or team black, but everyone can agree about how pathetic she was claiming that after viserys defend rhae for 20 years, and he suddenly change his mind where only her was here to listen him

[disneyprincemuke]

im asking you

i havent seen your name all day, this actually kind of scared me

now im kinda nervous

this kinda spoils the big ending i had, but let's hopefully forget this by the time i decide to end vr, but akshelly in my HEAD, logan eventually gets a serious girlfriend (one thats surprisingly NOT JEALOUS of femdriver), and so femdriver is like oh ok and eventually also gets into a serious relationship herself

and it's all fine and dandy and they're all still best friends, but then BAM drama logan gets his serious girlfriend pregnant and femdriver and her boyfriend eventually break up because (one or two years into their relationship), she finally makes the decision that she doesn't ever want to get pregnant because racing is literally all she's ever known and i don't know if you guys have watched new girl but she's basically crying because she genuinely does love this guy

but the guy is like cmon there's always that one guy you'll always love and you know can give you what you need and she's like i literally don't know what you're talking about and this scene plays out as he leaves

and she's like oh no but logan's literally got a kid otw without knowing that logan and his girlfriend have sort of already broken up before she found out she was pregnant and i don't know where it goes from here, but IN MY HEAD THIS IS HOW IT GOES U GET IT DONT YOU TINE

happy birthday logan i guess

[ultrone]

hii :)

do you have any hcs for jackie as an older sister? (yellowjackets)

𝗢𝗟𝗗𝗘𝗥 𝗦𝗜𝗦𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝗝𝗔𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗘 𝗧𝗔𝗬𝗟𝗢𝗥 ┊ 𝗉𝗋𝖾-𝖼𝗋𝖺𝗌𝗁 𝖾𝖽𝗂𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇

n/a. yesss ofc, i love older sister jackie <33

⊹ ࣪˖ She’s definitely protective, especially because she’s sort of the unofficial queen bee in your high school, which means that she knows everything about the whole ‘social scheme’. She’s always looking out for you, making sure that none of Jeff’s jock friends hit on you. It isn’t that uncommon though, after all, everyone at school knows you because of her.

⊹ ࣪˖ When it comes to dating or hook-ups, she’s quite protective. She lets you do your thing, but at the same time she’s judgy. “I mean they're cute but… Why don’t you go out with x instead? They're cooler,” she suggests, trying to persuade you.

⊹ ࣪˖ And if she ever sees you with someone she knows is a player, she literally forces you to never speak to them again. And if you don't listen, she def makes up a lie and pulls the older sister card in front of your parents so that you get in trouble.

⊹ ࣪˖ But being the little sister of the popular girl has its benefits too, for instance, she lets you come with her to a lot of parties — though she only lets you hang out with people she knows, probably because pretty much everyone there is older than you.

⊹ ࣪˖ Also, dating Jackie means getting unlimited rides from Jeff.

⊹ ࣪˖ She helps you do your makeup and pick out your outfits — she respects your own style tho.

⊹ ࣪˖ She doesn't want you to be trapped in the same never-ending cycle of living up to your parents' expectations as she is, so she tries to make your life as comfortable as she can — and while she loves to influence you, she also wants you to grow into your own person, not a mini version of herself. She wants the best for you — even if she doesn't directly say it.

⊹ ࣪˖ Sometimes you get a bit annoyed tho, because it feels like she's always trying to influence your decisions. But deep down, you know she's just looking out for you and trying to help you avoid making the same mistakes she did.

⊹ ࣪˖ Jackie's also the kind of sister who knows how to brighten your mood and bring an instant smile to your face. And if u're having a shitty day and she can't make you laugh, she'll do everything she can to bring you comfort.  "We're gonna figure this out together, okay?” she assures you with a gentle smile, enveloping you in a warm hug.

⊹ ࣪˖ She always tries to look happy around you tho — well, at least when she's not scolding u lmaoooo. Sometimes you wish she would let her guard down and be more vulnerable with you. It feels like she's always putting up this facade of the perfect popular girl, and you just want her to know that it's okay to be herself around you.

⊹ ࣪˖ But despite that, Jackie loves you unconditionally, and you know that if you ever need her, she'll be there in a heartbeat.

[girlbossblackbeard]

s2 brain thoughts: the squeakuel (ep 2)

as a reminder, if u see me posting any of these points as their own posts mind ur business:

-i'm sending my hospital bills to david jenkins for weaponizing thef cuking "you wear fine things well" scene WITHOUT ANY KIND OF WARNING i literally almost choked to death from shock

-hey so what the whole actual fuck is up with transitioning directly from the very painful "you wear fine things well" scene which, as we've already established, has REAL HUMAN CASUALTIES DUE TO THIS USE-CASE, into the "run from me darling" lyric overlayed on top of the god damn shot of ed pAINTING THE BRIDE CAKE TOPPER TO LOOK LIKE HIM AND BASICALLY PLAYING OUT HIS FANTASY OF MARRYING STEDE. david jenkins you have committed crimes

-also!!!!!!!!!! that cake topper has kohl smudged all over it so you KNOW our boy ed has been caressing it against his cheek and sighing longingly

-i know we've all talked about how insane the "ed plays with the wedding cake toppers pretending they're him and stede" scene is but i don't think we've really comprehended how GENUINELY INSANE it is like??? edward teach, blackbeard, the kraken, the scourge of the seven seas, the most fearsome pirate the caribbean has ever known that has recently been on a non-stop slaughtering spree, painted a bride wedding cake topper to look like himself which he then scoots next to a wedding cake topper that looks like stede so he can imagine that he's marrying him. this man carefully rubbed kohl on a cake topper to give it darker skin and darker hair and a BEARD. to make it look more like himself. so he could then. put it next to a cake topper that looked like stede. and pretend. they were getting married. i've written that 3 times now and my brain STILL refuses to fully process those sentences.

-i said it in my first brain thoughts post for ep 1 and i'll say it again: every time im reminded that ed has been crying NON-STOP. EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. for MONTHS. over stede. my wall gains another hole

-the way ed is so delirious in his sadness as he pushes the cake toppers out the window. i don't even have any thoughts on that i feel like all i can do is just note it and let y'all deal with the rest

>>actually I lied, he literally watches them sink into the sea after he pushes them out the window that's so fucked up whomever made that decision to make him do that is so fucked up

-"the sea is restorative isn't it" "YYYYEEESSS QUEEN!!!!!!!!!! I'VE ALWAYS SAID SO!!!!!!!!!!!!" "ohh that guy knows" IS THE MOST UNDERRATED EXCHANGE IN THE ENTIRE SERIES IT LITERALLY HAD ME SHAKING WITH LAUGHTER

-would looooooooooooooove to know what went through stede's head as soon as roach mentioned "some place called China??" like did he immediately think of the kiss or getting sent to the naval academy or the kiss or ed's excitement at the prospect of running away together or the kiss or getting kidnapped by chauncey or the kiss or watching chauncey shoot himself in the dome or the kiss or his flop behavior of running back to his family that doesn't even want him or the kiss or

-the crew of the red flag being so immediately kind and welcoming to stede and his crew <3

-i genuinely cannot wait to watch buttons fully immerse himself in the red flag traditions like he was made to be on that crew

-"how should I put this, your energy is..." can't believe they got hatecrimed like that

-RAT BOY

-HE'S HERE

-OUR BOY IS HERE

-fun fact: i recorded my live reaction to episodes 1 - 3 and posted the clip of my friends and i reacting to lucius coming back because we were quite literally jumping for joy and crying over the reunion and THE illustrious Nathan Foad himself told me it was literally the cutest thing he's ever seen (his words, not mine!!) so we're basically best friends forever now and the rest of my life will be spent chasing the high of the happiness i felt during that interaction

-i am also crying once again over his reappearance and i think that's just gonna happen every time i watch this scene :')

-roach's shocked face when lucius appears is something that can actually be so personal

-the way they all dogpile on top of him because they're so happy to see him bitch what the FCUK

-also stede's STUPID LITTLE "huh!" LIKE??????????? THAT WAS YOUR SCRIBE AND RELATIONSHIP GURU YOU HEARTLESS MONSTER WHERE IS THE ENERGY AND EXCITEMENT AT KNOWING HE ISN'T FUCKING DEAD??????????????

-"i love it" *BIG SMOOCH* "i love all of it" *BIGGER SMOOCH* oh so they're trying to kill me by smothering me in the syrupy sweetness of their love. okay

-okay sorry but lucius's absolutely microscopic furrowing of his brow right before black pete kisses him again. for a split second he had a slight look of sadness which lines up with the very real trauma he's endured and how even in extremely happy moments they can be tinged with sadness - maybe a sadness for the past and the way things could've been if he hadn't been pushed off the boat - and all i can say is nathan foad. ur big powerful acting mind

-we gotta talk about lucius choosing not to reveal that ed had pushed him off the ship in front of the whole crew. i'm still trying to figure out if that was him trying to spare stede's feelings (unlikely considering he lets it all out later), spare black pete's feelings (possible, since he knows black pete idolizes blackbeard), prevent himself from having to relive that trauma in front of his friends when he's not prepared to confront those memories, or a combination of all of the above

-"i fell. off the ship." "that doesn't sound like you. you have impeccable balance, babe" i literally love black pete so much i may legally have to change my name to lucius spriggs

-"toouwelss? what is this? are these jobs?" stede i love you so very much to the moon and back but for the love of god you gotta shut it my guy

-I AM LITERALLY SO EXCITED FOR THE BUTTONS SEA WITCH STORY ARC LIKE IT MAY ACTUALLY BE ON PAR WITH MY EXCITEMENT TO SEE ED AND STEDE PROPERLY REUNITE AND OPENLY LOVE EACH OTHER AGAIN

-ed just. washing the door handle. i dont have any other thoughts

-GODDDDDDD HE'S SERVING SOOOOOO MUCH GENDER WITH HIS LIL HAIR BUN AND MOSTLY CLEANED UP WAR PAINT AND DANGLY EARRINGS AKEFJAPWHFA OPERGJAER

-the way frenchie looks genuinely happy for ed when he says he thinks he got all the poison out of his system and it's a new day :((

-idk much about piracy but i really don't think there's a rule about the new first mate traditionally having to kill the old first mate, i think ed just made that up so someone else would have to kill izzy instead of him. despite everything, despite how low he's sunken into the very dark parts of his mind due to the heartbreak, ed still can't bring himself to deal the killing blow

-"i expect great things from you" might be one of the more chilling lines in that interaction because for THE blackbeard to have not just any expectations from you, but GREAT expectations? that's not a compliment, that's a threat. measure up to what blackbeard thinks you should be or else

-can't comment on the amputation scene too yucky sorry

-stede trying to triangulate ed's coordinates based off of his string of crimes on a map HE drew is me trying to triangulate where tf this season is going based off of buckwild theories i've made up and used as the foundation for even more buckwild theories

-yeah idk what the mushy ass lyrics stede wrote on that map mean but i know they're frighteningly homosexual

-"FUCK YOU. that's how i am" I am SO glad lucius gets to be openly bitchy towards stede it feels like a cathartic release for me personally

-ed's fuckin "heyyyy" to frenchie in the kitchen is both hilarious and unbelievably unsettling

-absolutely obsessed with the writers for once again showing just how scarily observant and intelligent ed is when he calls frenchie out for using his right hand to mime killing izzy even though he's actually left handed

-i really admire how david chose to use a low camera angle that looks up at ed as he reveals to frenchie that he's well aware he hasn't killed izzy yet because taika's performance was already unsettling enough but that specific angle adds so much to his overall menacing presence in that scene

-joel fry's performance in the kitchen scene with ed literally makes me want to bite something he's so good at acting quietly terrified

-this is almost certainly an unpopular opinion but i really would've loved to see more buildup to jim and archie kissing. i just feel like we know NOTHING about her let alone her relationship with jim prior to the two days we've seen them interacting and i feel like that kiss would've felt like a much more satisfying payoff if we had seen more interactions between them before they got to that point. i would've taken delaying that kiss by a few episodes if it meant feeling fully invested in it once it did happen, but i also know the show already has so much material to get through (which is why we should've gotten 10 eps but i digress)

-"hey no one told me this room existed" is giving "i didn't even realize there was piracy happening"

-"take the fuckin leg" is such a perfect line delivery

-love the foreshadowing of olu explaining how the little ships on the war table were all over the place and "some of them were over land"

-roach waxing poetic about the noodles is so relatable

-"jesus christ stede keep your pants on" hands down one of the funniest fucking lucius moments of all time

-sorry but we gotta give a shout out to lucius modifying the chinese fleet uniform so it's sleeveless. the edges are cleanly done so either he was put on tailoring duty at some point and picked it up there or someone on the ship wanted to enable the slayage

-there's something to be said about the fact that the only other man who has lasted being on board the red flag ship is another member of the revenge who was picked up and welcomed into the fold well before stede and the rest of the crew wound up there. something about how stede attracts and retains other people who he can tell are gentle at heart, even if they're putting up a tough front. something about how lucius had bounced from ship to ship until he finally wound up on Zheng Yi Sao's ship where he was allowed to be himself

-"ya don't know............if ya picked up....smokin....." nathaniel buttons my beloved

-OOOOF stede's guilty face after lucius talks about how he must've picked up smoking somewhere. after the crushing guilt he already feels about the ed situation this definitely would've weighed extremely heavy on him

-MY SPICY LIL RAT BOY IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME

-"what the hell is going on in towels" wee john my beloved

-look i know izzy is on the brink of death but he genuinely looks kinda beautiful before ed wakes him up from his shock induced coma and i won't apologize for that

-"my leg" izzy is so fred rechid coded

-"it's up in leg heaven now" i need to know if ed said that as a way of metaphorically digging the knife into izzy and getting back at him for trying to force ed to send stede to doggy heaven in season 1

-i dont have the emotional capacity to dive into the ed and izzy shooting scene rn but just know it destroyed me on a metaphysical level

-"too scared to do it yourself" no because unfortunately now im thinking about ed thinking through taking his own life but coming to the realization that he can't do it. whether it's because of childhood christianity trauma and thinking he'll be sent to hell for doing so or because he knows he can't follow through with it himself if there's still a tiny shred of hope that he'll reunite with stede and everything will be okay again, he always has to outsource the big job

-also, very interesting choice to have almost jovial classical music playing in the background of the ed/izzy scene. it definitely undercut a lot of the tension compared to how supremely uncomfortable and anxiety-inducing the scene would've been if it were dead silent behind the dialogue

-"i loved you...best i could"

-"i've got an ex-wife, two messed up kids probably" LMAO stede acknowledging he would have no way of knowing how fucked up his kids are because of him

-"sounds like you're quite the fuck-up pal" "yeah, i am! and im alone! talk to pete. don't be like me" ohhhhh my god stede is in just as much agony as ed is over this breakup he's just been using his polite society social skills of saving face and never showing how truly devastated you are to others to cover up how supremely messed up he is over all of it. he is BEGGING lucius to talk to pete and NOT make the same mistakes he did because maybe if he can prevent lucius from bottling it up and actually deal with this in a healthy way he can make up for a fraction of all the hurt he's caused not only ed but lucius as well. maybe if he can get lucius to talk to pete he can absolve himself of some of the soul-crushing guilt he feels over how his actions have irreparably damaged the people he cares about the most. maybe if lucius and pete are able to work through this trauma and still come out the other side loving each other just as much or even more than they did before, he can believe that there's still hope for him and ed.

-ed choosing to put on the cravat for what he believes is going to be his last action on earth before dying because he's resigned himself to his fate but is still scared shitless by it and wants that modicum of comfort that stede will always be able to provide him no matter how badly he hurt ed is giving me the urge to find the nearest cast iron skillet and loony toons my skull

-"some people are just broken no matter what you do" noooo why do i feel like lucius was talking about himself when he said that to stede about ed ://

-oof i know they were an unnamed character but fang tried to save someone who went overboard during the storm and wasn't able to :(

-GGGOOOODDDDDDD izzy looks so fucking hot and badass all soaking wet and leaning up against the rigging after shooting ed jesus christ

-"finally" ed was so relieved to have his pain finally end. even after his journey of self discovery in the next episode im really curious how he's going to deal with having to confront the pain he thought he escaped in addition to the pain he inflicted on others while failing to cope with that pain and stopping at nothing, including nearly killing the rest of the crew, to end it