#hopefully it’ll be better

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

Vent post below the cut about being aroace and amatanormativity. Yes I’m okay nothing happened im just mopey.

Thoughts I am having:

- I do not feel comfortable with the idea of me having a romantic partner

- I don’t even really enjoy the idea of just one best friend I’m dedicated to, like a QPP; I don’t think I have that attraction either

- I like my roommates well enough, but I won’t be in college here forever; I have grad school, and then internship, and then. Being a neuropsychologist. All of those things cannot be at my current college, because they aren’t taking students or employing people in that program.

- I was completely on my own in my current apartment for the first week and I didn’t like it. It was very lonely and I had a lot of anxiety about being alone if something bad happened. I don’t think I want to live alone in the future.

- I absolutely do NOT want to live at home if I can avoid it. I love my family very much but I would honestly rather be alone, with the loneliness and anxiety, than be at home 24/7.

- I also didn’t enjoy living with roommates I wasn’t close friends with. I got lucky in sophomore year that I made fast friends with my roommates, but freshman year sucked, not least because I felt alone even with two other people living in the same 2 bedroom dorm suite.

- It doesn’t help that I’m autistic and ADHD, which doesn’t make me the best roommate in general. I struggle to remember to clean up after myself, I don’t make new friends easily, executive function makes it hard to do chores around the apartment, and I’m not the greatest at communication. Heck, sometimes I just fully forget to shower for a week. I try my best to be a good roommate but like. I’m never not going to be disabled. I’m not going to magically be a great roommate to get people to like me more or to make friends faster.

- So then. I want to live with multiple friends of mine, who understand and accommodate my needs, without being romantically or queerplatonically attracted to any of them, just as roommates who enjoy each other’s company.

- How on earth is *that* gonna happen?

I know I’m borrowing trouble and that it’ll probably work out fine I just feel. Lonely. I’m aroace, and like. There’s no sexual or romantic or queerplatonic attraction at all. It’s just platonic. But to most other people, those other types of attraction matter a lot in who they live with or stay around. And I can’t provide any of that. Obviously amatanormativity is not accurate to human relationships and people can live together and just be good friends and nothing else, but like. Practically. I don’t really have any examples of that happening irl. And I just feel sad about it being a lot harder not to be alone.

[jackassbroadcast]

Been alittlewhile but the homo grind never stops ‼️‼️

[lazylittledragon]

all the progress i’ve made so far for isobel!!

maybe a bad idea to do all my cosplay firsts in one outfit but it’ll be Fine what could go wrong

[grail-lifesupport]

@caer-gai not quiiite on prompt but Tristan and Dinadan bought Palamedes a questing beast.

it’s his new favourite

(visiting knights prompt: Sir Palamedes knight of the Questing Beast)

[an0ma1y-th3d0ma1y]

Hey guys :] So I’ve not really been doing well these past few days, mostly just slacking about missing the TAF and other personal things. And so to make up for missing it I decided to do a lil spidersona appreciation post for all my moots :)

(P.S if I missed any of you guys then I’m sorry and I’m just as grateful for all of you goobers :])

@parker-fluff @pocky-dragon @just-a-fluffy-knight @mushyblushyredhead @jettorii

[star-shaped-froot-loops]

I wanna post more oc art so meet my girl Vega!! They used to just be loop isat but slightly to the left! They’re different now! Trust!

[pupkashi]

life update for any of those who keep up with pupkashi lore: I’m applying for grad school ! I’m so scared and nervous

[tj-crochets]

Hey y’all, weird question time again! Any of my fellow POTS/dysautonomia peeps out there also have trouble keeping warm in the winter? Specifically, like, feeling like you just randomly stop producing body heat. I know that’s an exaggeration, but sometimes no matter how many layers or blankets I have on me, it does not help because I cannot warm them up myself, I have to get a hot water bottle

If that’s a thing for you, do you have any alternate suggestions of more portable heat sources? Hot water bottles work well at home but not when I’m out and about

[deus-ex-mona]

when you’re trying to sleep bUT T H E .

[i-may-be-an-emu]

Don’t worry about them they’re fine

Totally no angst or sad depressing things or pain they’re going through :D

[cruesuffix]

For some reason all I can think about is polycrue. I CANT GET THEM OUT OF MY BRAIN AHHHH

Anyways, imagine this. Tommy's sick, and in turn needing more attention than ever. Mick, being the parent of the group decides he's going to (attempt) to make some sort of soup to try and make him feel better. One small issue, Tommy's all up in his business while he's making it, not to mention the smell of food has attracted the attention of Vince and Nikki. So now he's in the kitchen grumbling about how he's "never going to cook for them again" and that "they're all bothering him".

And perchance when he gets the soup done and they all eat, the boys fall asleep on him, clinging to him and cuddling up to him in their sleepy food coma state.

ANON AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! polycrue ftw polycrue ftw!!!

this is absolute gold. from sick and (most likely) whiny tommy, who just has to have attention at every second. grumpy ass mick who went from doing a good deed to being two seconds away from giving up and letting all of them starve. down to nikki and vince who practically came out of nowhere and will now dedicate their time to getting in micks way. aughhhh and then they all eat the soup and fall into blissful little sleepy food coma naps while all cuddled up to mick who has no choice but to just let them cling onto him and sleep in peace. maybe he watches them sleep and smiles to himself. god this is so cute and fluffy!!! (fluff always helps me feel better after a particularly rough day) anon i’ll be totally honest, i’m so jealous of your writing skills. you always come up with such good prompts and ideas and hcs. either way, i needed this! thank you for always coming in and writing masterpieces in my askbox!!

[gaysforbyler]

I have a psychiatry appointment at the end of the month! I’m finally going to be medicated

[sugarcoated-lame]

hi friends!! 🧡

no one asked, but i know i’ve been super MIA this week. i’ve been training for my new job (my first full time job) and the hours are honestly kicking my ass 💀 so i just haven’t really had the time or energy to be on tumblr

i’ve still got another week of training so i probably won’t be on here a ton this week either, but i just wanted to say i see all the asks and tag games and things i’ve been tagged in and will try to get to them all soon! love y’all 🧡🧡

[dragons-in-spaceee]

sometimes I worry that im too excited about the phm film and the reality will disappoint, but then I remember how spectacular the martian film is (even though they cut some stuff!) and I breathe a sigh of relief

[losersimonriley]

Many, many thanks to @yllu-stration for letting me tattoo this piece from their gorgeous Simon Riley flash sheet 💚 They’re the sweetest, please give their work some love

This was certainly an adventure, hunched over my own thigh as the stencil rubbed off almost immediately and my machine kept running out of battery <3 the joy of tattooing 💀 will probably post another pic when I touch it up in a few weeks— the lines need work and shading needs to be finished but! I was too excited not to share immediately!

[jumioxox]

drdttober day twelve - traditional clothing