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sometimes i still get kudos on my IT fics from 2017 and im like “me too. i also think about stenbrough in 2023”
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#911#911edit#buddie#buddieedit#911 fox#911 abc#911 on fox#evanbuckleyedit#eddiediazedit#my edit#otp: you don't need to pretend with me#1k#honestly ive been thinking about this since the lightning#911hiatusparallels#because yes eddie had no idea the tsunami was gonna happen and the same way it wasnt Bucks fault it wasnt eddie#but this is the guy that asked for a sign about what to do about his wife and she died#then he tried to force his best friend to do something he wasnt ready for and he almost died too#and yes therapy eddie is better with his own feelings but i wonder if it crossed his mind#because maddie probably tried to get him into the keep buck distracted rotation#and he said no probably because he knew buck could need a place to escape to#but still#it could've crossed his mind the consequences of the last time he didnt give buck time#the tsunami the lawsuit all that yk#i dont know i just want to put the thought somewhere#it makes sense that eddie would wait him out after the previous moments with buck and death#anyway#yeah#evan buckley#eddie diaz
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SIMS 4 OC BUILDS: Hokage Retreat
As of right now, the last house of my current sims builds is the home of the Seventh Hokage himself! Mumma Chika and their triplets: Nori, Kyo and Hiro, all live in this modern home, located on the outskirts of the hidden leaf village for a bit of well deserved privacy. Although both incredibly busy, Chika and Kakashi enjoy spending majority of their time in their home - entertaining their rambunctious children!
Lookbooks: Ackermans || Rikihisas || Enatsu || Kyutoku || Olalias || Hatakes || ATLA || Ginnivan || Ishimoto || Drakes
Builds: Saitama Loft || Sunset Cosy Cabin || League of Villains Hideout || Tiny Treehouse || Maritime Villa
Tag list (ask to be added or removed): @carrionsflower @statichvm @risingsh0t @simonxriley @tommyarashikage @kanos @confidentandgood @unholymilf @florbelles @thedeadthree @shellibisshe @roofgeese @aezyrraeshh @faerune @tekehu @jackiesarch @minaharkers @sergeiravenov @carlosoliveiraa @rosenfey @greenecreek @queennymeria @heroofpenamstan @tethrras @jamessunderlandgf @a-treides @solasan @bigbywlf @delzinrowe @fenharel @imogenkol
#jess plays the sims#oc: chika hoki#otp: leaves on a branch#the sims#sims 4#sims 4 builds#sims 4 screenshots#my sims#oc sims#can confirm that the triplets have officially been added to their family!#while as hokage - the fam all live in the hokage palace#but I see this as their retirement home honestly#somewhere they can relax in after all their work is done#tho not entirely chilled cus of the kids lmao#build adapted from gallery once more#I have limited time okay#but this one was heavily modified cus it lowkey broke when I added it lmao#like gutting the whole thing and just fitting what I needed#these are so fun tho so I’m hoping you guys are liking them too
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Why do you always draw Luz with the sun and moon earings? It's a very intentional choice.
Short answer: I have Sun and Moon earrings and I think they'd look cute on her!
Long answer: Ooo so I actually have several reasons! Soo there are several design elements that are present throughout the show to represent certain characters. As you probably know I’m a huge Huntceda shipper, and Luz’s main color scheme of purple is complementary to Hunter’s yellow… plus with Luz consistently having stars decorated in her clothes, I sort of associate them with the Sun and Moon! Opposites kind of ships. It reminds me of other ships I like, like Zutara (you rise with the Moon, I rise with the Sun! )and Reylo (light and dark).
I also really like using it because the Collector’s face is that of a Sun and Moon, which remind me of Mexican folk art and artesanias (:
And finally, I think it makes her a bit distinct! I don’t really have a super consistent style…so I wanted to draw her in a way that’s always a bit familiar… I think maybe giving her those signature earrings help her stand out! So if anyone who has seen my art sees a new drawing, hopefull it will recognizable as something I drew!
#ask#the owl house#toh#lunter#luz noceda#Sun and moon ships my beloved#ALSO IM SO SORRY I WANTED TO ANSWER THIS A LONG TIME AGO#but I wanted to draw something for it#but I have too many projects going on so have a WIP for a doodle#I also know a lot of people don’t like the ship comparisons but this is for me ok…#they are all my OTPs#also can I just saw thank you for noticing?#I was honestly wondering if anyone had picked on it yet#like it’s not like it’s hidden or anything#but it’s a small detail that I’m happy that someone noticed
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Taking an enormous amount of psychic damage in the Meijer produce department as the entire second half of my current loustat wip comes to me all at once
#Lestat de Lioncourt stop being such a feral lovesick beast in my brain challenge#anyway hoping to have ample time to work on it this evening because I neeeeed to get this thing out of me I feel infected lmao#it’s honestly so nice to feel this way again but hoooo boy is it A Lot#otp: all my love belongs to you#interview with the vampire#loustat#writing tag
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they don't know about my dark past (i was close mutuals with the most passionate finchel and mileven shipper on the goddamn planet for almost as long as i've been on tumblr and longer than i've had this account)
#if it weren't for her id still believe finchel shippers and milevens were a lie like no one can be PASSIONATE about THEM right#okay but honestly i dont give a shit. im from the glee fandom everyone there is besties with people who hate your otps and blorbos#and drag each others ships all the time and ship like kurtbastian or smth#and tag properly (mostly)#i guess that was my tolerance era. id never follow a finchel now#15 year old me: we can have none of the same opinions on fandoms and still be friends! hashtag maturity#me now: yeah but honestly im just here to vibe if 90% of what you post annoys me im not gonna follow you or seek out a friendship lol#(old mutuals im here to stay though however much you spam my dash with things idgaf about)#(i still loved her but we blocked each other 2 months ago because she turned out to be a hardcore zionist she can go to hell if i care now)#anti finchel#anti mileven#anti milkvan#but damn the way she was probably the longest moot id had at that point
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was feeling pretty ill today (headache, body aches) and very complain-y to himbo and he ordered delivery to me from my favorite fried chicken place for lunch AND left work early to come home and give me a massage 🥹🥹
sometimes i wonder what i did to to deserve him because i suckkkkk
#but at the same time he will say the stupidest most annoying shit ever that makes me want to kick his goddamn teeth in#imagine having to endure the most irritating commentary u can’t turn off and they know it#but honestly#is it even true love if u didn’t want to choke the bitch here and there#anyway if this sounds familiar yes there is good reason behind all my otps 😁#true love#OTP vibes
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my stendy heart has been fueled and I can’t hold back my love for them anymore u guys every stendy fic i’ve read has been *c h e f ‘ s k i s s*. read this immediately
#otp: i cant do it alone#THE LAST CHAPTER FDSJKNGSNJGSDNJ#wildest dreams started playing when i read it and i was screaming sobbing crying#LIKE GOOD FUCKING BYE#stan was so soft w her#and when they crashed into each other after their confession... DECEASED#i love pining i LOVE IT#the tension... BEAUTIFUL#i'm unhealthy#i have a disgusting obsession with them I DON'T CARE#it's stendy until the end of time#honestly probably in my top 4 ships of all time I SAID WHAT I SAID#*updates otp list*#honestly they top adrienette LMAO#top 3: sonaze ' jelsa ' stendy#delicious food#I WAS FED A MEAL#i'm just#WOW#this is so good if this doesn't get it's last 5 chapters i will be committing arson#thank u#STENDY SUPREMACYYYYYY <333333333
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Valice Calendar In Honor Of 15 Years
Yeah, you read the title right -- as of 2023, I will have been shipping Victor Van Dort from Corpse Bride with Alice Liddell from American McGee’s Alice and Alice: Madness Returns for FIFTEEN YEARS. I actually went back into my old LiveJournal/Dreamwidth entries some time ago to see if I could pinpoint when the hell I actually started shipping them -- turns out it was June 22nd, 2008 when I first mentioned having shipping thoughts about them (in response to a TV Tropes binge apparently). Granted, it was in the context of “what the fuck, me, you know they’d be a terrible pairing,” but -- yeah. We see how long that attitude lasted. XD And that means that next June, it’ll be 15 years! Holy hell.
So! Given that 15 years is a bit of a milestone, I thought I’d set up a “Valice Calendar” for the next year so I know which dates I should try and acknowledge as Important Valice Dates. :) Some of these should already be familiar to my regular followers, as I’m already in the habit of doing something special for them, while the rest are from that deep dive into my journaling past:
January 27th -- the date that I posted my first Valice fic, “Suffocating,” on my LiveJournal! Which was obviously in 2009, not 2008, but still a momentous occasion! Also, conveniently, the birth date of Charles Dodgson, aka Lewis Carroll.
February 14th -- Valicetine Day, obviously :)
May 4th -- the historical Alice Liddell’s birthday, and thus my Alice’s birthday!
June 9th -- Johnny Depp’s birthday, and as I have a habit of using actor birthdays if a canonical one is not given for a character, thus my Victor’s birthday! (Also, amusingly, the birth date of Michael J. Fox, and thus also my take on Marty McFly, which comes up in “Secundus.”)
June 14th -- release date of Alice: Madness Returns in North America! (According to Wikipedia, anyway, but I can confirm because I got my copy from GameStop the very next day.)
June 22nd -- as stated above, the first time I mentioned thinking about shipping Victor/Alice back in 2008! Even if I thought at the time it was also a pure crackship. XD
JULY 7TH -- Victor and Alice’s wedding anniversary! Which I picked because a) I liked the idea of a summer wedding and b) it’s easy to remember. *facepalm*
September 10th -- first mention in 2008 of me associating songs with the ship (I believe it was “Love Me Dead”); the entry indicated I’d already started associating any vaguely romantic songs with them, but this was the first time I mentioned a specific one, so we’re going with this.
September 23rd -- release date of Corpse Bride in the United States! (According to Wikipedia again, but I’m inclined to believe them.)
October 6th -- Mad Hatter Day (because of the date -- 10/6 like on his hat) and thus just a general Alice day of mention. (I’ve also seen it stated as a release date for the first game, but I’ve never been able to fully confirm that.)
October 31st -- Halloween! Not a specific Valice date, but this is the holiday that sees the biggest spike in interest in the two fandoms, sooo. . .
November 27th -- first mention of me starting to seriously think about fanfic for Valice! Seems weirdly appropriate I’d publish the first one exactly two months later. :p
December 6th -- release date of American McGee’s Alice in North America! (Again, according to Wikipedia -- as stated above, I’ve also seen October 6th cited, and November 22nd on at least one site, so -- I’m just going with this!)
December 8th -- the first time I had one of my RP Alices (”save_us_alice,” though she didn’t have her journal at the time) call one of my RP Victors (”deadgirlsliekme” -- the proper spelling had been taken!) her “boyfriend.” While I’d obviously started genuinely shipping them before that, this is the first date that I saw anything about the pairing being Official, so again, we’re going with this.
December 27th -- my birthday, which -- as the person who came up with this ship -- I feel deserves to be recognized. :p
So yeah, that’s kind of the official Valice Calendar! :D Except -- well. You guys know that a certain OT3 has become very popular around here as well, huh? So yeah, because I know me, here’s also a handful of Valicer dates --
January 8th -- the actual creation of Smiler Always, the sim that informed the look of all my human/humanoid Smilers for my AUs, and their insertion into the Chill Save.
May 31st -- the actual opening date of The Smiler roller coaster! (It was supposed to open earlier, but delays in the final construction meant that it missed the first two dates.) Meaning this is the birthday of my own Smiler!
December 27th -- yes, doubling up with my birthday, because -- well. December 26th of 2021, I watched “One Night In - Alton Towers” with my parents, which led to us looking up a bunch of the rides on YouTube so we could see what they were like. Which included one called “The Smiler,” which I found myself very intrigued by the next day. . .meaning you can trace my Smiler obsession and the eventual creation of the OT3 to me binging Smiler videos and lore posts on my birthday last year.
December 31st -- the date four days later where I realized that the “private hypnokinky AU with Victor and Alice using the coaster’s theming for private fun times” had somehow become “I have made a human Smiler, a vampire Smiler, and a robot-run-by-an-eldritch-abomination Smiler for three different AUs VICTOR WHY DO YOU WANT TO FUCK A ROLLER COASTER” XD AKA the more EXPLICIT creation date of the OT3.
Okay, that should cover just about everything. XD Next year, we celebrate Valice (and Valicer) in style! :)
#valice#valicer#valice calendar#shipping#otp#ot3#yes it's been freaking 15 years#I myself am shocked#what is the passage of time#also I'd link to that original post#but it's honestly not exactly comprehensible on its own#I used to do a thing where I'd have all the different versions of characters I'd made up#(at the time primarily different Doc Browns)#commenting on my activities and arguing with me and stuff like that in my entries#so yeah if you didn't know all the acronyms and whatnot my old entries can be - weird#plus some of these things were hard to track down because I used to do like one-sentence entries a lot more often#like what the hell#when did I go from that to NOVELS#I guess I've gotten chattier in a sense as I've gotten older?#but yes the list of Most Important Valice Dates#and Valicer#because let's face it that OT3 has kind of taken over#not complaining just an observation :p#queued
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Do you have a favourite ship?
It's tough to say, considering I always get a new favorite as I hop between fandoms! However, I think I can sum up almost all my favorite ships like this:
One character is goofy and silly, while the other is more grounded and serious.
Silly falls in love every time Serious lets loose and has fun, showing their own goofy side.
Serious falls in love every time Silly gets real with them, showing their own grounded side.
They kiss.
#keep in mind these don't need to be EXTREME cases of silly vs goofy#Silly isn't necessarily a dumb clown all the time and serious doesn't need to be a battle hardened veteran#it's just that there's probably a clear distinction in who does the taxes in the relationship#this trope is an age old love in my life since what was probably my first OTP: Soriel#Frenrey is another big fave of mine this applies to#honestly if I reached enough I could apply this to anything I've ever shipped#Taakitz is another#and of course you already KNOW I have OCs for this#ask
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i wanna write a valentines day fic but idk who or what to write it about lol
#im so used to having one otp and now I dONT and it's kILLING ME#i guess probably because my otp is brodinsons rn like they are the One True Pair in a brotherly sense and that doesn't really work for this#and it was lokius for the longest time after the show came out but I had to keep unfollowing lokius posters because they'd shit on sylki#and now they're not really at the forefront of my brain rn#i'm thinking maybe a domestic romanogers or fosterson fic or something?#bc none of my loki ships are all that Cute and Fluffy and Domestic yknow#also lowkey considering clint and nat but like not even clintasha#just clint getting nat flowers because it's valentines day and she's single as always lol#honestly i probably wont even write one but I want to#back on my bullshit
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If I had a nickle for every time I got into a severely niche canon ships that has the trope gentle girl x brooding boys with spiky hair all while being the most lonely diehard shipper ever for both of these ships, I'd have two nickels
Which isn't alot but it's weird that it happened twice
#samewada#蓮メイ#Born to be a weeb fangirl with a strong talent for drawing#Cursed and doomed forever to suffer being a lonely monoshipper of shipping niche pairings#and having no one else to share the same brainrot fangirlings with 💔#part of me wishes both ships had more shippers who has the same levels of brainrot like me#and more monoshippers too. but then i remember the horrors of#what happens when something small blows up and it attracts all toxic people and more puritans. its a win and lose situation#im feeling the worst of the blues tonight honestly#going into the renmei tag on ao3 only to realize theres hardly any good fics except for like 5. the rest is just filled with all of my notp#and landmines and like i know if i could i can learn how to write and make my own stuff. but at the same time i dont know if i want to#commit to doing that. learning new things is too hard for me#im glad ao3 has the mute button though so i can mute anyone that writes my notp. but man i just wish their filtering system didnt#refresh everytime i visit my otp tags. its so annoying#my day immediately gets soured when i see my notp in my otp tags. i dont force myself to read things i dont like either but man#its annoying#again i wished ao3 updated their filtering system. i want to filter and make it permanent forever instead of refreshing everytime i visit#but anyway yeah im just upset tonight lol. upset at twitters situation to the point my drawing spirit left. idk if i'll get it back to draw#i had so much plans looking forward to drawing renmei until elon ruined shit for everyone. sigh#i hate getting into niche stuff. i hate being a diehard fan and being lonely.#shipper woes#text post
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✰ Pairing: Lando Norris x fem!reader
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✰ Summary: in which they finally get to actually see them
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landonorris you’re so cute 🤍
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user92 i love how oscar is so done with them
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user92 omg hey oscar *debby ryan face*
carlossainz55 finally 🙄
user929 I AM SO NORMAL RIGHT NOW
user73 i love them so much
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oscarpiastri get this off my feed 🤢🤢
↳ yourusername just beacuse you don’t show off lily doesn’t mean lando can’t show me off OSCAR
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user828 i am loving this
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user04 when is it my turn to be happy
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user03 who allowed the to be this freaking cute
user23 when he dedicates a whole post to you>>>
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hey everyone sorry for not updating lately exam season and the holidays really took up my time but i hope you enjoyed this last part, but i can make some snippets if you guys want <3
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daniel and sebastian defo the type of couple to explosively break up at breakfast and be making out sloppy style at dinner, people ask ominis whose side he takes when they argue and he threatens to avada himself
Exactly
I’ve let my inbox pile up for long enough I NEED TO GET TO THEM NOW SO HERE I GO
Oooof I had a hard time with this one….. I was stuck between pride and greed. I mean if you push Daniel’s character to the veerrryyy extreme he’d be a success hungry guy who craves recognition and validation 😅 And Daniel’s main flaw would be his short temper LOL
Doesn’t like being seen as less than > goes out of his way to be the best > gets mad when he doesn’t reach his own expectations/what he thinks other people’s expectations are + insecurity of his own abilities = anger issues…… does that make sense 🤔😰 hopefully HAHAHA
What makes Daniel laugh? Sebastian 😙 NAAAHHHH but fr pretty much just anything that makes the average teenage boy laugh….. like skibidi toilet (ironically) 😸 Sarcasm, irony, anything that’s funny bc of how unfunny it is, I think that describes Daniel’s humor in a few words
For his laugh… hmmm
Well first he’s not the type of guy to really laugh out loud or cackle, when something is funny it’s usually more like one of those short little exhale laughs yk ??? But I mean if he’s really going to LOL he would be sorta airy, breathy, starts with a wheeze kinda laugh that just goes silent and then broken by a sudden gasp for breath YK??? Likeee I suck so bad at explaining but those out of breath laughs is what I’m imagining
Ominis is both of their friends but it’s a little complicated 😅 ofc Ominis would be conflicted cuz of the dark arts stuff yk still he doesn’t hate either of them. Daniel and Ominis had a very rocky start, in the end they respect each other on their own choices and views. Ominis separates Daniel from Sebastian’s actions, so he isn’t angry at him for whatever happened with the relic and Solomon etc. (even if he lowkey enabled Sebastian 😰)
I like to think that Omini would take on the role of the “responsible one” in the group when they’re together, while Sebastian is the one coming up with the crazy ideas and Daniel is like “ok!!!”. He’s still closer to Sebastian than to Daniel just bc of how long they’ve known each other but yah they’re all good friends and hang out yay !!! 😙
HI ANON ! TYSMMMM it’s so shocking to read that people like Daniel too…. Like THAT’S MY OC GUYS !!! 😦 WHAAATTT !!!??!!
I’m truly motivated by such messages when I get them 😿😿😿 I know I don’t answer every single one like this but I NEVER DELETE THEM !!! I keep them in my inboxes and read them whenever I need a little push to draw so THANK YOU ALL
HAHAHA well I hope you’re being careful when opening my posts at school….. some of them are uhhh 😳
I honestly had no idea what OTP meant for the longest time, I just saw it everywhere BUT YAY THAT’S SO EPIC YET STRANGE TO HEAR LIKE…. I CAN’T BELIEVE PPL LOVE THE QUIDDITCH BROS ???!! (I think I’m just gonna call them that now)
And finally thank you to these two for the sunflowers 🙏 I was surprised to even get one THANK YOU 🌻🌻
#i’m so sorry i took so long to reply I’VE BEEN LAZY#yes quidditch bros is a good name for them#i’m keeping that#ask#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#daniel anderson#sketch
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@crxwleyss thank you for adding these stellar tags and for GETTING IT 💯
Fascinating how the Metacrisis Doctor has been given three separate names and three separate storylines that all directly contradict each other in the extended universe and yet the there is no canon group insists that there’s only one that exists and it’s somehow more important than the actual tv show, those two other extended universe stories (one of which is a Big Finish audio), and everything RTD has said
#doctor who#tentoorose#tentoo x rose#I will throw bows with anyone who wants to defend that storybook abortion nightmare#to repeat this for the 700th time SHE HERSELF would not even allow RTD to read it#like she fuckinggg KNEW it was a slap in the face to this wonderful relationship he established#she popped off on Instagram all smug like ‘omg I FORBID you to read it Russell’#imagine having the power to contribute to the storyline of TentooRose#and just being like ‘lol let’s make Rose a bitch and their relationship suck and Tentoo feel pathetic’#how dare you#I would do anything to have the power to write official TentooRose content#and she took that power and ruined the ultimate OTP in so many peoples’ eyes#people who will never care to look into the BF audios or the Titan comics about them#which I disagree with OP (respectfully) and think are 100% complementary to canon and to each other#but people who might have only seen the ‘corin’ BS who were already doubtful about TentooRose felt so validated#it honestly tears at my soul in a multitude of mentally ill ways#to the point that I need to stop airing out my feelings here#I’ve had a rough go of it lately and am having a difficult time reining in my intensity#tentoorose is a place of peace for me and people are so awful about them#the creator of this arc and this couple outlined it clearly and has expanded on it and said they’re happy#but people totally misinterpret it and act like they know better#like no fam you really have no idea#don’t wear your media illiteracy as a badge of honor and try to make us look like we’re the idiots#okay I really need to stop#I’m just so sick of this and extra sensitive right now
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Why Spuffy
Decided to put this here so I can find it more easily. Originally answered on r/Fanfic: What is your OTP?
Why? There are a lot of assumptions made about Spike/Spuffy fans. Like, we're just whores for good cheekbones. We're blinded by Spike's abs. We're all just abuse victims waiting to fall in love with the wrong person. And honestly, after 2+ decades of this nonsense, it'd be nice to just say: "read this then get back to me."
So. What is your OTP?
Buffy/Spike from BtVS. They've owned my heart for more than 20 years and show no signs of slowing down.
At first, it was the enemies-to-lovers thing. I've always been a sucker for that. Especially for a villain who turns to mush for a hero in the falling process. That is still true, but my love for them has become more nuanced the older I've gotten. I just turned 39; I fell in love with Spuffy when I was 17. What I love most about them today is that their history as enemies means they know each other better than anyone, have seen each other's faults, have done the worst things they could do to each other, and have a very honest, non-rosy view of their relationship. Spike is also the only man in Buffy's life (on the show; I'm not counting comics) who owns the hurt he's caused without making it her fault or imposing his view of things and convincing her he's right. He shows her that loving her doesn't always mean sacrifice or suffering, the way it was with Angel or Riley, but that she can make someone want to be better. And he also knows her well enough to know she will assume the responsibility of the soul he sought for himself (the most effective and tortuous sentence for the demon who hurt her), so he first tries to hide it from her, then encourages her when she starts dating Robin Wood that she owes him nothing, that she doesn't need to consider his feelings. It's the first time someone she's been intimate with has not been petty or jealous at the thought of her moving on. And because he has seen the best and worst in her, when he says he loves her, it's with a view of the whole person Buffy is.
And for Buffy, loving Spike is about loving herself. He was her outlet for her depression, a representation of all the bad things she thought about herself when she was at her lowest, and she punished him for that. She was conditioned to believe her friends' acceptance of her had strings attached. By Season 7, after she has come to peace with the worst thing she went through, she is no longer apologizing for herself or making excuses. She is unapologetically in charge. Loving Spike means loving the parts of her she always thought were ugly or twisted or irredeemable, going all the way back to how she carried the burden of Angel having lost his soul when she was a 17-year-old girl in love and had no idea what was going to happen. Furthermore, how she was made to feel responsible (side-eyeing Xander here; Giles and Willow get a pass but Xander was the most egregious offender). She also assumed the responsibility for her relationship with Riley falling apart even after he negged, gaslit, and cheated on her. Spike showed Buffy that she is not the problem in relationships, and allowing herself to love him meant an acceptance of self she struggled to find throughout the course of the show. In the end, after bringing out the worst in each other when they were at their worst, they learned to bring out the best in each other. It's just beautiful.
And that's why Spuffy, friends.
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