#honestly i'm so pissed off at this point

[darkangel0410]

Hey, guys, I hate to do this but I'm in a bind, and I need help moving - my fucking asshole of a landlord told me this past week that he's not renewing my lease in September and he refuses to let me wait until Jan or Feb when I'll have income tax money - so I need to raise $5,000 by then because he's already told me he'll start the eviction process at that point, and I don't want that on my record

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[nametakensff]

Have you guys ever been so disgusted by family snz that you actually start crying

[sysig]

Bitter breakup rivalry (Patreon)

[telesodalite]

Another rambling thought, sort of stemming from the last thing, but what if Misfire gets so upset about Krok believing he's contacting his old squad, and pretending or implying that they're still alive, because he's harboring some sort of repressed grief over Thundersaur?

Thundersaur's dying request being to free Flyhigh before he ends up in jail for a dozen counts of "accidental" murder implies a certain kind of closeness or something felt towards Misfire. Yet, we don't really see anything returned from Misfire's side? Outside of the "-You're just jealous because you've never had someone look out for you." comment he makes in response to Spinister's disbelief towards him being the type to end up on someone's "dying wish list".

So, there's that. What can be gleaned from just that? Not much ig, at least nothing concrete. But taking into account Misfire's relationship with Grimlock, and Grimlock's later view of Connie, perhaps something can be assumed about his relationship with Thundersaur.

Whether I'm reading into it too much or not, there is a theme of a sometimes rough but well intended trickle down kindness when it comes to the Scavengers and their story.

A favor or act of kindness is shown to one, and they return it back or onto another, sometimes unintentionally. There's emphasized acts of selflessness with them, even though we know them to be quite selfish, which, really only emphasizes those moments more. If they were written as less of a joking break between the drama of the Lost Light cast, perhaps this theme would've played a deeper more defined role. But anyways, my subjective character favoritism aside.

The point here is Misfire cared for Grimlock, and in turn, Grimlock chooses to care for Connie because it's "his turn" to look after someone. One act of empathy leads to another. There's a time to decide when it's your turn.

So it's possible it goes further back because of that. Thundersaur cared for Misfire, then it was Misfire's "turn" and he cared for Grimlock, and Grimlock cared for Connie.

So why doesn't Misfire say or mention anything about Thundersaur? Grimlock cares a lot for Misfire, wouldn't Misfire have cared a lot for Thundersaur?

Well, in a way, there's a possible answer for that. Misfire is shown to be uncomfortable when faced with admitting he cares for people, or needs people. He's uncomfortable with vulnerability. He gets defensive and snappy when pressed about it, or he deflects it away from himself, which is somewhat of a stark change to his more casual dramatics and honest friendliness. So he doesn't like talking about how he feels, how he really feels.

But he also admits to Grimlock he understands missing the people you cared about. He admits this in connection to Grimlock recalling the last time he was with his "Dino-Buddies", just before Grimlock was taken to Garrus 9. Misfire "gets it", even though it's hard, he gets it.

With all that possibly pointless evidence, we can guess that yeah, Misfire did care for Thundersaur. It's just that he, like the rest of the Scavengers, has his own repressed and poorly managed issues relating to his past and his own negative emotions.

Also, the death thing. He's real casual about dead stuff. He exsanguinates and cannibalizes corpses as a job/hobby, and enjoys it. There's an implied acceptance that he's okay with the fact that the Scavs will eat each other as soon as someone happens to keel over, which includes him also being dead and eaten. He's cool with that, ig. Or at least, he's cool with eating the others if the situation presents itself.

So he's got a weird relationship with life and death. When you're alive, you're a friend. When you're dead? Well, it's not really you anymore, is it? It's not someone you care about anymore, it's just a corpse, not a person, it's just resources in an empty vessel, not a friend. Nothing worth getting emotional or upset about. Perfect for being comfortably detached.

Because this is getting way too long tho, here's the point I'm trying to get to.

Why does Misfire lose his shit a little when Krok starts panicking and trying to call for his squad? Here's my theory, I guess.

Thundersaur is dead. He died, and he's gone, and Misfire knows this. He wasn't there. He didn't get to say goodbye. He didn't get to return the favor or repay the debt. He didn't get to show Thundersaur that he cared for others too, that he passed that on.

But while he accepts it, he doesn't want to think about it. Doesn't want to dwell on it, doesn't want to acknowledge that he misses Thundersaur. He's dead, he's gone. So it doesn't matter. Misfire can't need him anymore, and he doesn't want to admit he needs anyone anymore, because someone he relied on is dead, and he wasn't there for them to rely on in turn.

So he doesn't think about it. But Krok does. Krok thinks about it, and talks about it, and still admits to needing his dead. Even if he won't acknowledge the fact that they're dead, and gone, and never coming back, no matter how much he wants or needs them anymore.

And it feels unfair, and Krok keeps unintentionally poking at that repressed grief Misfire won't touch. A reminder with every click of that dismembered finger, that you can't always just will away the grief of loss, of death. There's going to be reminders everywhere. Even close to you. And so, faced with reminder after reminder, the repression breaks, and Misfire snaps because-

They're all dead.

Krok's squad is dead. Thundersaur is dead. Why can't they accept that and just move on to never talking about it, never mentioning it, never thinking about it again?

Because, in their own ways, neither of them have ever truly moved on.

[adaines-furious-feast]

Yo, Wizard and a Sorcerer ramblings undercut

Cannot stop thinking about after sophomore year spring break.

Your girlfriend has had a complete psychic death and as you watch the live stream of something that has already happened (but not yet because chronomancy) you're faced with the fact that the person you knew was gone long before the god you were planning to bring back together took away her magic forever. But you still love her and now she's being chased by a van with hands.

You watch the kid you kind of fantasised about one day being a sort of step-dad to die (at the hands of said girlfriend) and be brought back. You know you shouldn't but you can't help but hate this kid because if she had just understood sooner maybe all this could have been avoided. And no, you're definitely not making excuses for the kid's mom and projecting your own weird mommy issues onto the situation.

I mean, at least your girlfriend's husband is dead. Only bright side to all of this.

Oh yeah, and the god that you were planning to bring back is back. But She has no idea you exist and you can't worship Her because in the process of trying to bring Her back you got sacrificed to the guy who is trying to murder Her ex-wife. And maybe you check out one or two meetings at her new church but the cleric just seems to be fucking about. She doesn't seem to care all that much and she's completely ignoring all the meanings that you've been reading into this god for years. But you can't do anything.

And there's no going back, the only way is forward and that's by helping your psycho co-worker become a god of rage and maybe one day you'll look at yourself and look at how Arianwen changed under the influence of the crown and you'll tell yourself this is different and you're trying to make things right.

Fun new way to re-watch Junior Year.

[raiiny-bay]

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[thevioletcaptain]

"The writers wrote this DeanCas scene / this queer Dean moment and then still called us delusional."

No, they didn't. But I'm sure as fuck calling you delusional right now for repeating this completely fabricated bullshit for the past decade without once stopping to wonder "but wait, which writer said that and when?"

Because if any of you had ever bothered to do that you'd realize that not a single one of the 52 credited writers of spn has EVER said anything remotely close to this.

Several writers have, in fact, said the opposite--and feel free to do your own homework on that, because the receipts are out there, and maybe if you dig them up yourselves you might actually pay attention--but people have been projecting and playing fandom telephone for so long that baseless bronly quotes have been falsely attributed to the people who were actively and deliberately writing this stuff into the bones of the show for years, and who eventually made it as canon as they possibly could within the confines of the network's grip on a dinosaur Bush-era TV show.

I swear this take was exhausting to see continually crop up when the show was still airing, and I've gotta say it's even more exhausting now because THE WRITERS UNEQUIVOCALLY WROTE IT INTO THE TEXT OF THE SHOW. AND THEY STILL HAVE NOT ONCE SAID THAT WE WERE DELUSIONAL FOR SEEING WHAT THEY PUT THERE.

For crying out loud the core emotional arc of the final goddamn season was Dean and Castiel's relationship.

Castiel flat out confessed his romantic love for Dean in a scene that was written first thing in the season, that was built toward with deliberate intent for multiple years. Through that confession the show retroactively confirmed that all of the subtext and parallels and on and on that meta writers had been pointing out for years was in fact exactly what we thought it was.

So unless you think that somehow we managed to be spot-on correct about everything on Cas' side but forgot how to interpret layers of text on Dean's side, you should be able to understand that we were given two equations and one answer.

1 + 1 = 2 is what they gave us for Castiel.

1 + 1 = ? is what they gave us for Dean.

If you think they did it by accident you're kidding yourself. If you think they left Dean's answer as a question mark for some malicious reason you're kidding yourself. If you think that "the writers" think we're deluded for reading into all the layers the deliberately included in the story then you're kidding yourself.

Quit uncritically spreading anti trash around like it's truth.

[cookinguptales]

anyway, my conspiracy theory is that the academy loved fêting Greta Gerwig as long as she made niche arty films for women, but as soon as her work actually started rivaling the attention (and box office draw) that the men were getting, she was a lot less fun to have on the ballot.

I also think it's very telling that I keep seeing film twitter be like "oh, so you think that Justine Triet didn't deserve her spot? is Justine Triet not good enough for you?"

like wow, is there a reason why you think that Gerwig would've gotten Triet's spot specifically?

:|

[girlscience]

I hate getting into something that has a canon(ish) sapphic couple, but I only end up caring about one of the two women 😭😭😭

[goldentigerfestival]

I love the vocal nuance in this exchange, but also posting this for my differences posts because this is one of the changes that infuriates me the most. Yuri didn't threaten Ioder, did not threaten him with a weapon, and just said he'd punch him in a lazy, half joking voice (half joking as in, he really doesn't want to hear that - that's just his way of saying so; but that's not the voice of someone who is super angry and threatening).

My other huge grievance is that this is a recurring issue between them in the dub. Yuri is pretty much always vocally rude to Ioder. Ioder has done nothing to wrong him or anyone and has only ever done good for the people where he's able to.

Yet despite Ioder being nothing but sincere, honest and polite with Yuri, in fact even happy to see him here and there, dub Yuri is outright tonally rude to him leading right up this scene where he threatens Ioder in this dark voice. Meanwhile he's actually just supposed to be… lazily telling Ioder he'll punch him in his Yuri Lowell way of saying "I don't want to hear that".

The dub really just wanted to turn Yuri into this dark edgelord and I hate that for my goofy, silly boy.

[smile-files]

the feeling when you care so much about a character that you worry about their gjinka's outfit not being narratively meaningful enough

[servuscallidus]

I drive like shit I hate this

[letbuckfuck]

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[insaneillusionist]

I love searching for mental illness tags I can pin on myself so I can fix what's wrong with me like a little checklist.

Anyway if anyone tries to suggest I might have a specific mental illness unless I ask for you to tell me, I will most likely block you or ignore that. This is one of the few boundaries I am forming, and it is a hard one.

[mikodrawnnarratives]

After she successfully pushes everyone away in her goal of surviving. After she gets what she needs. Her blood crawling for more. More more it is not enough it will never be enough she needs more. After all that...

Do you think Maggie can't escape the silence? The empty and hollow feeling in her gut? She opens the door to the apartment she can finally pay toward, and there is not a noise. The buzz in her veins as if doused in ice cold water. With the truth of it all.

There is no annoying nerd chatting on about how wonderful the world is, joking incessantly. No sandy haired boy looking at her with the most flabbergasted face that she's come over through the window again. That boy would probably think it was amazing she got this far.

Do you think Maggie would crush every one of those thoughts under her heel when she remembers pushing him away too?

No one to boss her around. No one to scorn her for what she's done to get here. No one.

Just silence.

Do you think, in an empty room, as the divide between Heroes and Villains escalates outside, do you think she'd sit down and have no choice to listen to the echo. The only comfort she can allow herself being to wrap her arms around herself and imagine it was someone else? I think so. I like think she'd hug herself as she slides to the floor. Alone. In the silence. The screaming, glass shattering silence.

And maybe, she'd wonder, why did she survive.

[vagabondfromkanto]

//I've noticed that most people have a rule about godmodding and/or powermodding in their rules. Decided I also need one, with a twist.

The twist being "My muse's canon main superpower as per the finale is the power of endless 'NO U' and I will not hesitate to use it if you start bullshitting" ✨