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Of course I forgot to send in the cute birthday celebration challenge forgive meee 😭 (but omg no pressure to answer if the birthday girl isn’t feeling up for it!!)
But let’s try…
Sun + Moon for our blasty boy Bakugo 👀
you catch katsuki in the in-betweens.
he’s grown suspicious of it—you know he out of all people would notice; but you neither confirm nor deny that it’s intentional.
there’s something about katsuki in that sliver of space and time right before sunrise and sunset—right before the shift into something new.
“someone’s excited,” you sneak up behind him, wrapping an arm around his shoulders as you kiss his cheek.
he grumbles before giving you a side-eye, cheeks turning a shade darker under the twilight. his lips part slightly as if he’s about to say something, but he tuts instead, clicking his tongue against the roof of his mouth—no sharpness, no bite.
you look at him curiously, hanging on to the stillness of the hour.
today is supposed to be a busy day—the start of a long trip for you and katsuki; the start of his first ever long trip, actually.
“somethin’ on my face or some shit?”
you snap out of staring, gaze falling straight into his—vermillion red softened into a deep mauve amidst the blue light.
this is why you do it—
the perpetual frown on his face is gone, the tightness of his jaw loosened. there’s a look in his eyes that tells you there’s been something on his mind for a long, long while.
—this is why you catch katsuki in the in-betweens.
you give him a small smile, a little mischievous as you lean in and peck him on the nose.
“now you do,” you giggle as you inch closer on the wooden step.
he rubs his nose immediately, checking for smudges of lipstick, “fuckin—“
“just all my lovin’,” you tease.
you’re half expecting him to get back at you for it—to tickle you or smother you in kisses of his own; katsuki can be aggressive in love, a fact you’ve come to know well over the years.
but he doesn’t.
instead, he stares. a few paused seconds that feel slowed down to eternity. there’s the look again, like something’s been on his mind, combined with the look people say he only has for you.
suddenly, you feel nervous—for what, you don’t know, but your hand searches for his out of instinct. it’s damp when your palm sticks against his, his fingers intertwining with yours like a habit of his own.
he turns your clasped hands over, catching view of the back of yours.
it stays quiet for a few moments—a side of him you only see in times like this. you know there’s a war waging on in his head, a decision he’s been mulling over just waiting to be spilled out.
you know because katsuki only ever sits out before sunrise when he has a lot on his mind.
“you okay?” you whisper.
he hums, rubbing the back of your hand with his thumb, “just thinkin’.”
“you can tell me…” you nudge, “…if you want,” the butterflies in your stomach flapping harder.
you hold your breath.
he chuckles, that damn attractive half-sigh, “don’t know how yet.”
and you think you know what it is—a conversation you have every now and then, always with open-ended conclusions. katsuki has his issues, and so do you—
“just say it how it is,”
you never pressed him for answers, fully content to live at the pace he wanted because you loved him and that was enough.
—but when katsuki looks at you like this, like you’re everything gone right in his life, it’s hard not to think about the possibilities of more.
tears begin to collect along your waterline as he leads your hand into his pocket, your fingertips grazing a small velvet box.
you choke up, tears falling as you pout.
“woke up in the middle of the night with a fuckin’ god awful migraine,” he starts, wiping your tears with his thumb, “so i thought i’d go for a run, y’know, sweat it out and shit.”
you nod, listening.
“but when i got out of bed, you started mumblin’ my name,” he takes a deep breath, “thought you were awake, honestly, but you didn’t say anythin’ when i asked what you needed.”
“looked like you had a nightmare, so i went back to bed, and—” he pauses, collecting his words as he breathes out, “—you hugged me n’—”
his eyes gloss over as he tucks you into his side.
“—you told me you loved me.”
it’s not anything new—you both know that; you tell him you love him all the time. but—
“fuck, i’m ramblin’,” he half chuckles again.
“i love that about you too,” you sniffle, half-giggling as you nudge his chin with your nose.
you intentionally catch katsuki in the in-between’s because you love the side of him that comes out when he’s a little loose-lipped; a little less tense from all the day’s worries. you love the way he rambles, how he goes off on a tangent when he’s especially passionate about something.
he gives you a look so soft, your heart swells.
a small smile makes its way to katsuki’s face as he grips your hand tighter.
“couldn’t go back to sleep ‘cause all i was thinkin’ about was how to keep it this way forever.”
you’ve pictured this moment a few times before, all in different scenarios, situations, locations—always with the note that even if it didn’t happen, you’d be okay.
but now you have this: you and katsuki, on the wooden steps right by your garden bathed in twilight.
“decided on it for a while, just didn’t know when would be right,” he fishes the box out of his pocket, fiddling with it as he takes your hand in his other one.
“i know you said that lovin’ me was enough, but forever’s a fuckin’ long time,” he half-chuckles again, a little choked up, “you didn’t think i’d let you waste that on some loser who won’t even ask you to marry him, did you?”
you don’t think you’re coherent when you respond, a mess of tears and all the love you can pour out. katsuki doesn’t even get to show you the ring before you tackle him, nodding into his chest.
it doesn’t matter, anyway—
it was more than enough that he even asked.
n/a: thank u for sending this prompt erika!!! i am so rusty but i am writing this with all the katsuki feelings in me, my heart could burst!!!! sun & moon = twilight just because of the presence of both during that hour; i also just think it’s such a delicate balance to have—which i think also describes their relationship! katsuki has commitment issues 🥲 sorry, i love writing him in the process of healing ajkdndkd also !!! i also think katsuki can be romantic in his own way like wdym he reads all those shoujo mangas … there is stored romance in that boy . maybe not the smooooothest but yk. it works. and also, he wasn't rlly planning on proposing at this moment (more during the trip) but !! just felt right yk?
#katsuki x reader#bakugo x reader#bnha x reader#mha x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#shotorus.workbook#ask#rep#erika.🦇#kedsandtubesocks#HONESTLY. this took me THE FUCKKKK out#ive missed writing so much#this is all i have for now im so soRRY 😭😭😭😭#anyway just some extra thoughts n context; katsuki and reader have been together a while and reader rlly truly loves him#and is willing to be how they are just bc reader loves him that much#katsuki has commitment issues aka more like long term forever life future kind of commitment issues#more like he’s just kinda scared that he won’t be able to deliver what he needs to in the relationship for that long#smth smth unpredictable job smth smth personal angst and he’s just not sure if he’ll be good enuf ever#but he truly does love reader i think to the point that it scares him cos its not smth he can explain#also idt he feels like he’s good at /loving/ bc he’s not sure he knows how / if the way he does is what’s best for reader#honestly i think a lot abt katsuki and all the shit i think he’d be dealing w and it’s a lot …….
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Doodles ft. Class rep Ataru
#I miss him so much#I always forgot I have this au#and have audacity to say: damn. I should write/draw angst more#lmao#honestly nowadays I'm more in humor and fun stuff#thinking my content always light#while I'm very much angst enjoyer#urusei yatsura#ataru moroboshi#uy allstars#urusei yatsura all stars#class rep au#btw he is fine
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Alas, I'm always a Grumbo shipper at heart, I keep getting Scarian ideas, and I try my best to write them strictly Scarian, but I keep failing.
It always ends w endgame Grumbo.
I'll try my best to actually write Scarian at some point :)
...hm, I actually do have an idea for that that I think I've discussed with some friends
#only reason why Im not going for mumscarian is bc I dont ship redscape#which would honestly make this so much easier if I did#and im an angst writer at heart so i keep having to battle against myself when i writing something a tad bit fluffy#grumbo#scarian
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I gave myself a writing challenge and I am fascinated by it
So basically I put the robins in a randomizer to give them a new order/role (because I just...kinda wanted to see what would happen + I like role-reversal AUs) and got results that are giving me a fucking brain blast.
Stephanie, the first sidekick who defines the role
Tim, the sidekick who dies and comes back wrong
Dick, the sidekick who saves Batman from himself
Damian, the sidekick who was never supposed to be a sidekick but would go on to prove everyone wrong
Jason, the youngest sidekick who is still the Kid Wonder
...So this is fucking wild. I've got some ideas and several of these fit perfectly (Dick's role is pretty similar to his one in canon), but some of these are fucking INCREDIBLE to explore (Steph being the first Robin is something I never even considered but tbh I kinda love it).
I probably won't write a fic or anything because tbh I don't like publishing my writing that much, but I might expand this into a full AU and post about it. I might randomize other stuff too (ie, stuff that I cannot change vs stuff that I cannot keep the same) but this fucking rules as a starting point.
#uhhh what am I calling this??#randomizedrobinsau#stephanie brown#oh my god I am so excited to figure out how tf to write this.#because she's my favorite of these characters and having HER be the first sidekick + the one who has a mentor/older sister relationship#with the others?? kickass. though I'll probably keep her and Tim's relationship as 'dating-then-exes' because I think it's funny#and then SHE can be the Robin who Tim got fixated on + figured out her identity?? holy fuck and then the angst of Tim later dying#Tim Drake#tbh I kinda wish he'd gotten a different position because 'sidekick who dies' Tim has kinda been done a lot with the standard#reverse robin aus. But it'll still be fun to write. Definitely going the Joker Junior route with this because Batman Beyond kicks ass#Dick Grayson#He'll honestly probably be the easiest. Like...his role has not changed much outside of being younger/not the one who defines this#But I still think it'll be good to see how well I know Dick beyond his eldest brother thing (which is my best way of relating to him)#Damian al ghul#damian wayne#oh this is gonna kick ass#Bruce does not want his son to be a sidekick but Damian just kinda forces his way into that role#and everybody doubts him because of his history with the league but he later proves himself more than capable#to the point that he can set out mostly on his own and still thrive#Jason Todd#Jason being the baby of the family is also something I have never thought about but holy shit it could kick ass#I really hope that I don't roll 'Jason must die' or 'Robin 5 must die' on the randomizer. I just kinda want Jason to live this time#But unfortunately I double-screwed him because he's on the 'must happen' wheel twice now. I did not think these prompts through#TBH I am so happy that none of them rolled their OG roles. because that would have been so fucking boring
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My graphics tablet may be broken.
HOWEVER.
Take some fanart I did in 2019
Please help I'm back in the fucking building again





#minecraft#mctv#minecraft rp#artists on tumblr#artistsupport#fanart#art#fairy tail origins#angst#Guys I just always loved drawing angst clearly#Just realized all of them are slayers of some kind#it's fineeeee#my art style was so chibiii#God 2019 was WILD#Wait that means I started watching these mfs in FUCKING 2018?#Holy fuck I'm old#anyway I love them all dearly and I need closure please please please#I beg#If I had the motivation to write fanfictions I would#I have been crying about Origins for the past week and idk why#like genuinely I'm not even kidding#I should maybe rewatch something to get closure but idk#Imm just watch Mitch's most recents videos cause he's a vibe#I am starting to forget the lore and honestly that realization is fucking horrible#Somebody refresh my memory#Somebody overshare and feed my hyperfixation#I low-key really love fto and fairy tail in general like so much#Please let's rp guys please
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Does ink has disorder of any kind?
I assume this is related to Ink in Perseverance lol. Okay, s o. I tend to write Ink with some tendencies that I have because it's easier to write more realistic depictions of things if I draw from my own life as inspiration lmao. As such, the only thing I am confident saying he has is social anxiety, as that is the only thing that I'm officially diagnosed with.
That said, I've seen people comment that he displays depressive tendencies, as well as having vivid flashbacks and tends to dissociate as what is sometimes typical of PTSD. Since I mostly write these things based off of personal experience, I am hesitant to say he has these things lol, especially since "mental health testing" doesn't exist in my world as much.
Does that mean he doesn't have them?? E e e e h h. Let's just say the only thing I am 100% sure in saying he has is social anxiety✧˖°.
#I tend to write Ink having a lot of self image issues and anxiety in my other fics too#I can just write more realistic depictions of stuff if I draw inspiration from my own life#Like s u r e; I can do research and write about things I haven't personally experienced pretty well#I just find it gives it that ✧˖°.personal touch✧˖°. if I write about things that I know what feels like#Besides it just hits d i f f e r e n t you know#Ink's canon soullessness; although not delved into in my main fic as much#It's just got so much angst potential man#It's so good#I am fine with any other headcanons though#I've had neurodivergent people say they could relate to my Ink a lot#And I honestly think that's a based and sort of really cute headcanon so I completely support it#Even if I don't explicitly make him neurodivergent lol#That might change in the future if I get freaking diagnosed with more stuff#'Cus then I can safely tell my imposter syndrome that I have clearance to give the disorder to the characters#It won't be able to argue “wElL tHaT's NoT a *ReAl* DePiCtIoN oF dEpReSsIoN-”#Because it'll be like “sike; it actually is 'cus I was officially diagnosed with it heheh✧˖°.”
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Turned Night Into Day
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There's no reason why Illya should want to talk to him. Really, there isn't. So why's he showing up at his hotel room with a bottle of Scotch and something like an apology on his lips? Or, most of Amor Magnus Doctor Est chapter 8 in Napoleon's POV!! <3
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inspired by Amor Magnus Doctor Est by @cha-melodius
tags:
POV Napoleon Solo, Napoleon solo has no self confidence, insecure Napoleon solo, Reunions, the happy ending to just like me, Mild Sexual Content, inspired by another fic, Napoleon Solo Needs a Hug, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Angst, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - Professors
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“I’m sorry,” Illya whispers, the words ringing like a gunshot in the otherwise dead quiet of the room. Of all the things Napoleon was expecting, it was definitely not that. “I heard what you and Gaby were talking about,” and “Did you really get Victoria fired to try and win me back?” seemed the most obvious. He’s only able to stare at Illya as the words rattle around in his head. In the silence of the room it seems that Illya might want to take it back. He finds himself hoping he will, because while there’s nothing he wants more than Illya, he’s only good for being left behind. He hopes equally as much that he won’t, because even in the face of reality he still wants him more than he’s ever wanted anything else. “What for?” he asks, head tilted to the side, brow furrowed. Illya huffs out a sound that could be a laugh, but it’s too harsh, too bitter to be classified as such. It’s so sudden that Napoleon actually flinches from it. “Everything,” he answers, like it’s obvious. Like he’d done anything wrong. Leaving him may have been the best decision Illya’s ever made. He can’t imagine how that could be wrong. “For blaming you when it wasn’t really your fault. For shutting you out. For not—” Illya’s voice catches in his throat, and he takes another swallow of liquor. Napoleon shuts his eyes against Illya’s next words, “for not being there for you when I should have been.” A feeble sense of hope takes root in his heart, growing until it threatens to choke him.
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#LMAO bonus points if u find the 700ish word chunk of Napoleon Solo Angst™ that inspired this whole thing#ive been wanting to write this since i read amde for the first time but i was like naur#but then i wrote just like me and i was like oh wait hold on maybe i can#and then i went to the def leppard/journey concert and journey played open arms and this was born#yes the concert was in august im slow at writing ok#anyway regardless of how long this took#it has remained unbeta'd#alsoooo this was SO FUCKING FUN to write i actually loved the process so so so much#i had a great time it was so relieving to finally do this like every sentence was just like FINALLY IM DOING IT#i love it so much and honestly it was only gonna be around 700 words#but my brain was like no you gotta do this part and then i did and then it was like ok now this part#i was like should i do the whole thing it said ABSOLUTELY NOT#anyway if you've made it this far#READ AMOR MAGNUS DOCTOR EST OR BE DIE#napollya#tmfu#napoleon solo#illya kuryakin#tmfu fic#my fic#inspired by another fic#amor magnus doctor est#lucia writes#lucia talks
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Every once in a while I think about the ship I've been obsessed over for close to two years now and feel like I'm ascending to another plane of reality. Like sometimes you just encounter a ship that hits every single mark and is perfect in every regard and you're left stunned how something like that can even exist
#Anyways I'mma put the actual inane ramblings in the tags#Medic and Engie make me so ill every time I think about them for a while I feel like tearing into things and biting people and throwing up#How something like that can exist completely defies me#I don't know how something that perfect can exist#I'm typically a multi-shipper and while I still kinda am I honest to god don't really care to write other ships#Not cause they ain't good (they are pretty damn good) but because Engiemedic is just on another level#Like dammnnn!! that's why I've spent so long writing a fic about them!#I can't fathom it honestly how characters like that can exist#They're like a slightly warped reflection of themselves#They're both intelligent mentally ill lunatics with no morals whatsoever#The only thing is that Engie is marginally better at hiding it#If you go into headcanon territory than WHOO!! OHH DAMNNN#Like what gets me the most about Engiemedic is how they're so similar#They think and exist on the same wavelength#In tune with each other. Their neurons braided like wires#If I start talking about how the machine and the flesh are not opposites but rather one in the same we gonna be here all day#I just can't...believe the ship exists#Like man how does this happen#You want humour? Goofy wacky experiments and silliness of them violating several conventions#You want angst? Hell yeah they've got plenty of it#Fluff? Buddy I start wailing and sobbing if they accidentally brush hands while working on stuff#I could write about them for ages and not get bored they can fit in every circumstance#They make me SICK they make me CRAZY I love them so so much#They would do anything for each other#I look at what they have and I can feel like I understand what love is#I need to write more oneshots and minifics about them they're so flexiable and fun#Can't wait to do parallels with them in these upcoming chapters#Either way GODDDDD I love these two so much I could go on for hours about them#especially if I'm allowed to talk about headcanons#sp-rambles
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just here thinking abt the end of my toji x vampiregn!reader (who belongs to the universe of Anne Rice vampires) that has been suspended for an undetermined period of time.
“I have a son.” His voice is weak and more fragile, which prompts you to stop. Your head appears in his line of vision; you don’t seem guilty or sad for him, just listening to his story. It seems Toji Fushiguro had earned that much.“He is the most beautiful thing I have ever created. His name is Megumi Fushiguro.”
“I am sorry about that.” You reply as a courtesy.
“No, no, let me finish. He is perfect. Head to toe. When he laughs, I barely see him laughing nowadays, except sometimes, with his half-sister. Even when he is imperfect, he is perfect. There is a picture of him in my pocket.”
You grab his wallet out, opening it. There is a picture of a big, chubby baby smiling at the camera. There is also a woman's face in the background, smiling, but you don’t ask. You glance at Toji’s face to see him with tears in his eyes. You lay on top of him, grabbing his face so he can look at you.
“Are you afraid he will forget about you? Afraid you will be just nothing and just a memory when he grows up? Because this is all, we are in the end. Memories to our loved ones. I know because I have lost so many people. And there is nothing we can do about that, immortals or not.”
Your mind hits with flashbacks as Toji's thoughts fill your mind: Megumi’s first steps. Megumi’s first word (it was something that sounded like Papa in Toji's mind). Megumi’s first day at school. Megumi learning how to ride a bike.
“Your son will have those memories to cherish forever. Now, close your eyes.”
Toji Fushiguro closes his eyes to never open them again.
#toji fushiguro x reader#fushiguro toji x reader#toji fushiguro#fushiguro toji#toji fushiguro x you#fushiguro toji x you#toji fushiguro fanfic#toji fushiguro angst#fushiguro toji angst#im so sad this might never see the light of the day#I BIT A BIGGER PIECE THAT I SHOULD and couldnt chew anymore#but honestly one day i will write with he emotional baggage this is needed#reader is part of the anne rice universe of vampires SO IT NEEDS SO MUCH WORK
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Voltober 23. Fears and Anguish - Sons of Billionaires
Author's notes: I didn't think I would write one shots for this fanfic during this challenge, but I think I'm up to 3 of them now (the other will be posted a few days before halloween)
Masterlist - Part 22
Content: halfa whumpee, panic attack, nightmare, angst
@voltober
Nightmares | Phobia | Wracked with Guilt
Vlad woke up to the sound of screams. They were, unfortunately, becoming familiar to him at this point as Danny was plagued by nightmares now, especially since his therapist had started helping him work through what his parents had done to him.
Vlad rolled out of bed, grabbing his robe and putting it on, tying it closed and heading down the hall, running a hand to shake his hair out of his tired eyes.
He opened the door to Danny’s room and he stepped in, leaning over the bed and shaking Danny’s shoulder.
“Badger? Are you alright?”
Danny startled awake, the blanket tangled around his legs. His eyes, glowing green in the dark, blurred with tears.
“NO!” he screeched, putting his hands up as a shield up around himself. “PLEASE! NO!”
Vlad backed off, keeping his hands up. “Woah, woah. It’s okay, badger. It’s just me-”
“STAY AWAY!” Danny screamed, tears dripping off of his chin. “HAVEN’T YOU DONE ENOUGH!?”
Vlad backed even farther away, and the guilt he thought he had worked through came back all at once. He flinched back, keeping his hands where Danny could see them. “I’m not going to hurt you. Remember?”
Danny stared at him with wide wide eyes, uncomprehending of what Vlad was saying.
“You know what? That’s okay, I’ll just go back to bed. Let Henry know if you need anything.”
Vlad backed out of the room and gently closed the door. It hurt to leave Danny like that, but if he had been having a nightmare about Vlad, he did not want to make the boy uncomfortable. He found his way back through the hall and let his robe drop in a heap before he climbed back into bed, the blankets down at his waist as he laid on his back, looking up at the ceiling. He would need to let the therapists know about this, and talk with Danny in the morning. He didn’t know what this would mean for their situation, but if Danny no longer felt safe in the manor, Vlad would not force him to stay here.
His heart hurt at the thought and he closed his eyes, breathing out deeply through his nose as he tried to purge the guilt from his mind. Yes, what he had done to scare the boy was terrible, and he wished he could go back and do it all over again, but he couldn’t. He would just have to do what he could and hope that Danny would be alright. And he would do his best to make up for every moment of pain and fear he had ever caused the boy.
He was about to roll over and attempt to quiet his mind to sleep when he heard feet on the floorboards outside his room. He turned his head as the door was pushed open and Danny sheepishly looked in.
“Vlad?”
“Yes, Danny?” Vlad asked, sitting up.
Danny shuffled his feet. “’M sorry.”
“That’s alright, my boy,” Vlad said gently. “Nightmares are scary, and sometimes it can be confusing when you wake up. Are you feeling better?”
“Yes.” Danny took a step inside and closed the door, staring at the ground and fidgeting. “I’m not scared of you anymore. I just wanted you to know.”
Vlad smiled. “I am relieved to hear that. I was afraid we would be having a difficult discussion in the morning. Is there anything I can do for you?”
Danny looked up, embarrassment written on his face. “Uh, no, not really.”
“Are you sure? I can and will help you with anything.”
Danny looked down quickly and shrugged. “Don’t wanna sleep alone,” he mumbled.
“Ah, I see. I have a hard time sleeping after the nightmares too, sometimes. This bed is very big if you want to stay here for the night.”
“I’m not a baby,” Danny said, despite the hesitant step he took forward. “I should just go back to bed.”
“Whatever you want to do, badger,” Vlad said. He scooted over in the bed so he was on the far side, showing how much room there was in case Danny wanted to stay.
It seemed the small halfa made up his mind as he climbed into the bed, tucking himself in and closing his eyes fiercely.
“Goodnight,” he said firmly.
“Goodnight,” Vlad said with a smile. He rolled over to give Danny some privacy as he fell asleep, but he himself did not fall asleep until he was sure Danny had fallen back to sleep.
VTB Part 24
Sons of Billionaires
#whump#whump writing#halfa whumpee#panic attach#nightmare#angst#voltober#vtb-no.23#danny phantom#sons of billionaires#fanfiction#one shot#danny#vlad#vlad is the best dad#i love him so much honestly#I love them all#I wanna write more about them#alas#I have so many projects#so I can only write as often as I can
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I made a ✨️video thesis✨️ on caryl's clashing attachment styles to exile by ts (all 4 mins 42 secs not sorry) to fill the hole tboc left in me. 💔
I mostly made this for my own mental health. I hope you like angst. ✨️ (the ending is nice)
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#honestly this started bc I NEEDED to deep dive into daryl's headspace to find any possible semblance of him in his tboc behaviour#idk that it achieved that for me but it somewhat filled the hole that i wanted to be filled by tboc giving caryl a resolution to their#find me fight after carol literally flew across the atlantic ocean to be with him#im gonna be so back and forth up and down about this fandom for the foreseeable bc I want to enjoy the things I enjoy about it but#the spinoff makes me feel so upset and just so many negative emotions honestly#im truly happy for anyone who is genuinely able to enjoy it I just cant I wish I could#I still have hope that maybe the future will be better but idk mostly it just makes me really sad#i want to make more edits and lean into my love for carol and mmb and previous iterations of caryl but yeah idk how much it will happen#bc its all angst with no relief or payoff#not me just using the tags to write my own little novel down here bye#caryl#twd caryl#Youtube
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if someone is wondering why am i religiously posting about 90% of elves/celebrimbor scenes and posted exactly 0 times about numenor, the answer is because i don't care.
#i fucking hate court intrigue#also earien really rubs me the wrong way#apart of all her other choices#kemen.#really girl???#out of the whole numenor you decided that kemen is the one#it really tells me all i need to know#this era of numenor is so frustrating i can't#give me mariner's wife#give me the founding of numenor#do not give me pharazon the bitch and his slimy son#elendil and isildur are obviously fine#as is my boy berek#if there was an episode dedicated solely to elendil's unresolved grief i could write an entire book on that#beacuse look at him#*slaps his fine ass*#this bad boy can fit so much angst and suffering in him#but earien kemen and pharazon literally make me pause the episode every 10 seconds to pace my frustration out#stupid fucking bitches#rings of power#numenor#ar pharazon#earien#kemen#elendil#isildur#berek#silmarillion#honestly even reading the fall of numenor is so frustrating to me#tolkien
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Guess who's officially out of excuses to not work on Five
#snowbird#rumi erudite#sera kaishurr#ao3 link#writing#augh#my precious excuses....#i actually didnt have HEAPS to fix for thid one purely because of the skill gao between three and four#obviously i changed enough to boost the total word count to 24k 0_0#shes dense. shes an absolute unit of a fic#slaps snowbird. this bad boy can fit so much angst in it#honestly i can do whatever i want forever#this is my way of exploring the universe and its FANTASTIC#it does mean im never working on my book so maybe this thing is made of excuses#and by working on my book or my game i mean starting them#and by starting them i mean learning the adequate skills#theyre vague concepts really-_-
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to the anon(s) who asked me to read Kryallaorchid's work over on ao3....I barely slept I binged all 20 chapters and i loved every second of it 😭😭😭😭😭 I loved how she connected tt03 to the rest of the dc universe (even if it was just tidbits in Touch[redux]) aaaaaah
#the angst was sooo good#it was such a great slow build up#it made the payoff so much better#honestly was so surprised to enjoy a firs tperson pov#also this makes me crave good SMUTT#im already picky on normal writing but its even worse for rated m stuff#if my man is not getting rammed and a moaning mess then i do not careeeee#anyways im rambling down here#punni talks
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no clue if i'm doing the valentine's ask game right at all BUT-!!
i'm curious how cass & leona / selene & angelica / carmilla & jade would spend valentine's day 👀 (you can pick which ones to yap about i know it's a lot ghdlkjs)
omg ian, hiiiii!! first of all happy valentine's day, i hope you're having a great day <3 also i think it's less of an ask game and more of a "i'm okay receiving valentine's day asks" kind of thing, but !! ofc i'm more than happy to yap about my ocs (when am i not, is the real question)
i originally wanted to write sth for all of them but i have such a headache (+ i'm still struggling with wrist pain bc i just can't give them a break), so i decided to write a drabble for carmilla and jade bc it came easiest to me and then give my brief thoughts on the other pairings instead
Carmilla & Jade [Surf and Turf]
“I admit I’m not closely accustomed with land dwellers’ Valentine’s Day traditions, but to think that it would encompass kidnapping your beloved into the woods… How very intriguing indeed.”
“Oh shush, you. It’s not much further now,” Carmilla giggled, continuing to lead the way into the woods just shy of NRC’s campus. The sun had already begun to settle in for the night, cosying into her bed behind the horizon and illuminating the students’ trail with the last golden rays. It wouldn’t be much longer, however, until their path would be lighted by the flickering blue flames at Carmilla’s command. “So Valentine’s day isn’t a thing under the sea?”
“Hm, as many of humankind’s customs do, it has started catching on with merfolk. Though mainly with those living closer to the surface,” Jade answered easily, still placidly letting himself be led up one of his favourite hiking trails by their intertwined hands. His mood had been rather cheerful ever since the fox had appeared in his dorm with an enigmatic grin and the promise of a surprise. “It has yet to sink into the waters of the deep sea, if you will. And I reckon our Valentine’s gifts would be rather unique, too. Perhaps I could interest you in a seaweed bouquet?”
“If anyone could make that sound appealing, it would be you, I’m afraid,” the fae laughed, equally bright. With all her Valentine’s shoots wrapped up ahead of time, she’d been eager to spend time with her merman. Though confident in what she had prepared for him, there was still an undergoing current of nervousness within her. “Without wanting to spoil anything, I guess you could say my gift isn’t your typical bouquet of roses either.”
Putting his free hand over his chest, Jade gasped in faux surprise. “And here I was thinking you were leading me up the mountains to grant me with an overpriced armful of cut flowers and a heart shaped box of chocolates.”
“I should have known you’d figure it out. Oh dear, you know me too well, it appears,” Carmilla played along with a heart wrenching sigh. Then, she stopped in an inconspicuous part of the trail. “Ooh we’re here already. You trust me, right?”
“I do, of course,” Jade replied, tilting his head to the side, intrigued by the implications of her question. When Carmilla untied a silky ribbon from her outfit, he understood her intentions immediately. A shiver of electricity zapped down his spine in anticipation as he leant forward slightly, so she could tie it gently around his eyes. My, wasn’t she the most darling girl ever, keeping him on his toes and surprising him at every turn?
In the end, the blindfold didn’t stay on for long in this terrain, only serving to ramp up his anticipation even more at the last moment. After a few careful metres over the forest soil -though he noted that someone seemingly removed all tricky obstacles- the ground beneath his shoes became softer with the texture of grass and moss, leading him to believe they’d arrived at a forest clearing of some sort. With his vision blocked, his other senses had sharpened but instead of taking in nature’s sounds, Jade honed in on the company of the person next to him. He didn’t need to see her to be conscious of Carmilla’s presence surrounding him, flickering in and out like one of her fairy lights but never leaving his side.
Then, the knot in the silk scarf came undone, the ribbon fluttering down to rest over his shoulder. Jade blinked a few times, trying to process what it was he was seeing.
“So, what do you think?” Carmilla supplied, slinking next to him and wrapping an arm around his, gently encouraging him to take a closer look.
They were indeed standing in a small glade, one Jade had never noticed despite his frequent hikes around the area. Looking back over his shoulder, he could say with certainty the path the two of them had taken had not been there before. Or had been very well concealed. Small, floating lights illuminated their surroundings, dipping the pine trees and moss in warm light. What caught his attention most of all though was what was growing inside clearing. Mushrooms of varying shapes, sizes and colours -some even glowing with bioluminescence- were sprouting all around them, decorating the area. It was clear they were not native to Sage Island, for he had never seen them before. Also obvious was that someone had taken great care in growing them.
“Do you like your gift?” Prodding the eel a little, Carmilla carefully studied his reaction. Perhaps the silence would have felt intimidating if she couldn’t spot that particular gleam of fascination in his heterochromatic eyes she loved so much. “I remembered how interested you seemed when I told you about the mushrooms I saw back in Briar Valley. So I contacted an old friend who still lives there to see what I could do.”
Strong arms wrapped around her in response, pulling her fully into his space, coaxing a surprised laugh from her. Reciprocating the action, Carmilla leaned fully into him, savouring the closeness and the safety of happily burrowing into his chest. Even as Jade let go, he didn’t allow her to float past his reach. Instead keeping Carmilla anchored to him by cupping her cheeks in his gloved hands.
“My dearest pearl, you didn’t seriously believe I would dislike this surprise of yours, did you? Surely you know me better than that.” He sealed his warm words a telling kiss, one that Carmilla all too happily tip-toed up into. There was rosiness to both of the students’ cheeks as they parted again, their fingers intertwining instead. “In case I must make myself even more clear, I doubt I have ever received a more thoughtful gift. You’ve set a high bar for me to clear when it’s my turn.”
“Well, I wouldn’t want to make it too easy for you, right? I’d hate for you to grow bored of it,” Carmilla teased, giving his hand a fond squeeze. There was a mischievous gleam in her eyes as she added, “Perhaps, however, you should check the entire gift before you start scheming with revenge.”
“Oh? What else could you possibly have prepared? You really do love going all out, don’t you?” Shaking his head affectionately, dual-coloured eyes tracked the movement of her arm as she reached behind her and pulled a book out of thin air. Handing it to him, Jade recognised the handwriting on the cover as hers immediately. “Is this-“
“A compendium of sorts, written by yours truly,” Carmilla offered, winking at him. “Someone once imparted on me the importance of taking notes when it comes to horticulture.”
“How is it that you make me fall in love with you even more than I already have?” Carefully flipping through the pages, ghosting his fingers over delicate writing and detailed illustrations, it really started to sink in how much planning had gone into this surprise. It spurred his motivation to plan what he would give her in return. Oh, he couldn’t wait to return to his room and get creative.
For now, however, he was content to stay in this small sanctuary a little longer. A blanket was spread over the grass for the two to settle down on, Carmilla happily leaning her head against Jade’s shoulder as he poured over the book and compared it with the mushrooms in front of them. Every now and then, she would point out certain things to him, adding bits and pieces to his fascinated rambling. Mostly though, she was just happy to listen to his voice, basking in the tranquility and peace of his presence and letting his excitement infect her, too.
Even without using her unique magic, Carmilla could feel the love between the two of them, spreading a warmth throughout her like no other. A few years ago, the fae couldn’t have phathomed going out of her way for somebody else like this, let alone spending days and weeks on a mere present. Now she was glad she did.
Cass & Leona [Golden Hour]
“Oi herbivore, do you know what day is today?”
“Friday.”
“…It’s Valentine’s Day.”
“So you guys have commercial holidays too huh?”
In a total reversal of expectations, Leona is probably the one who brings up Valentine’s Day as a topic during lunch break in the botanical gardens. While Cass is also aware of the traditions, it’s not something she particularly cares about and she didn’t think Leona was the type to either. Which she is kinda right about, to be honest.
The only reason Leona entertains the custom in the first place is because, despite himself, he really didn’t want to disappoint any expectations he thought Cass might have. And, secondly, he’s not dumb. He knows Cass is well-known and well-liked by quite a few people and he’s normally not all in people’s faces with their relationship. Meaning, he wants to shut down the possibility of anyone getting any funny ideas about confessing to her.
So, he very unceremoniously gives Cass a present in the form of a piece of jewellery. This could either be a beaded or golden bracelet, a necklace or a charm for her camp necklace or a hair accessory he can braid into her locks. As long as it’s unmistakably his and easy for others to identify as such, he’s content. There’s a high chance it’s actually a piece of his jewellery that he already had on hand and decided to give her on a whim. Definitely not because he cares about some herbivore and enjoys the idea of her always carrying around sth that he gave her. Definitely not. (He cares. So much.)
Cass lets him do as he pleases, both because she is actually a little flustered over the fact that he’s very openly staking a claim over her and because she thinks his attitude about it is funny. Sure, he is very nonchalant about it, which probably would’ve soured the day for others, but Cass is all about someone’s actions and the meaning that’s read between the lines.
Leona’s lucky she knows he cares for her because if she didn’t, he wouldn’t get away with pulling her down for a nap after that circus. As Cass tells him about his day, he’ll hum and absentmindedly run his fingers over the jewellery, half considering if he should get her to also wear his jacket.
(At least other beastmen should get the hint by now not to try anything funny…)
Selene & Angelica [Shipname tba]
Selene and Angelica’s Valentine's Day is a lot more low-key than others might first suspect. Not because they’re not head over heels for each other. No. It’s because for them, every day is Valentine’s Day (more or less). They give each other gifts and affections throughout the year as the mood and inspiration strikes them. So sure, they’ll hang out but it’s business as usual for these two.
#┊✩彡 divine correspondence ♡#┊✩彡 cherished guests ♡#┊✩彡 letter from - ian ♡#i neeeeeed to make masterlists for them (mostly for my sake)#but i'm playing with the idea of a new theme even though i love this one dearly#i just haven't found the right header yet#so i thought i'd wait (+ i want to make new dividers for them which troubles me more than it should tbh)#anyyyywayyyy#surprisingly the ocs that are chronically in love get the shortest section i know i know#but obviously they're just as in love today as every other day so what more can i say#cass is pretty much the same though; if she wants to gift leona sth or go on a date she will just do it even if it's like the middle of may#plus the idea that leona of all people is the one to initiate this is so funny to me like just admit that you care you big idiot#cue to the ramshackle girls sitting down in a crisis meeting discussing what cass could gift a fucking prince for white day in return#and do i need to say anything about carmilla and jade#i already know what his white day gift will be but i will 100% forget to write that in time for actual white day lol#also carmilla leading him into the woods… typical fae/ will-o-wisp behaviour jshhshs#honestly now that i think about it carmilla’s gift feels more like a birthday gift than valentines#oh whatever i wanted to write it#i hope this is not horribly misspelled and flows somewhat okay; needless to say i've not been proofreading much today (but i had to answer)#also i recently noticed that selene/angelica are the only ones eligible for an ending with no angst#the other two... not so much (though i can absolutely decide on how far i want to twist the knife)#twst ocs#carmilla hawthorne#cassandra yuule
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I have to admit that this fandom has conditioned me well.
I just need to read or hear the words Tyger Pax and my stomach turns into a pit full of anxious scraplets trying to eat each other because scrap is about to go down.
Nothing good ever comes from that place.
#transformers#bumblebee#you know why he is tagged#but like honestly#i read a fanfiction yesterday and my stomach just somersaulted when the author mentioned that they were fighting at Tyger Pax#Bee was not even involved in that specific battle - he was a side character in the fic#But I was still so nervous#because of the power that name holds in canon as well as fanon#I have read so much good angst about Tyger Pax that it is now just ingrained into my nervous system#Tyger Pax#love it though - power of a name and stuff#because the other way around it means that if I mention Tyger Pax in a fanfic I am writing people will know to be afraid#and now that is fun to play with :) and will have absolutely no repercussions for any fics I am currently working on#just babbling some thoughts
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