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Turned Night Into Day
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There's no reason why Illya should want to talk to him. Really, there isn't. So why's he showing up at his hotel room with a bottle of Scotch and something like an apology on his lips? Or, most of Amor Magnus Doctor Est chapter 8 in Napoleon's POV!! <3
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inspired by Amor Magnus Doctor Est by @cha-melodius
tags:
POV Napoleon Solo, Napoleon solo has no self confidence, insecure Napoleon solo, Reunions, the happy ending to just like me, Mild Sexual Content, inspired by another fic, Napoleon Solo Needs a Hug, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Fluff and Angst, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - Professors
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âIâm sorry,â Illya whispers, the words ringing like a gunshot in the otherwise dead quiet of the room. Of all the things Napoleon was expecting, it was definitely not that. âI heard what you and Gaby were talking about,â and âDid you really get Victoria fired to try and win me back?â seemed the most obvious. Heâs only able to stare at Illya as the words rattle around in his head. In the silence of the room it seems that Illya might want to take it back. He finds himself hoping he will, because while thereâs nothing he wants more than Illya, heâs only good for being left behind. He hopes equally as much that he wonât, because even in the face of reality he still wants him more than heâs ever wanted anything else. âWhat for?â he asks, head tilted to the side, brow furrowed. Illya huffs out a sound that could be a laugh, but itâs too harsh, too bitter to be classified as such. Itâs so sudden that Napoleon actually flinches from it. âEverything,â he answers, like itâs obvious. Like heâd done anything wrong. Leaving him may have been the best decision Illyaâs ever made. He canât imagine how that could be wrong. âFor blaming you when it wasnât really your fault. For shutting you out. For notââ Illyaâs voice catches in his throat, and he takes another swallow of liquor. Napoleon shuts his eyes against Illyaâs next words, âfor not being there for you when I should have been.â A feeble sense of hope takes root in his heart, growing until it threatens to choke him.
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#LMAO bonus points if u find the 700ish word chunk of Napoleon Solo Angst⢠that inspired this whole thing#ive been wanting to write this since i read amde for the first time but i was like naur#but then i wrote just like me and i was like oh wait hold on maybe i can#and then i went to the def leppard/journey concert and journey played open arms and this was born#yes the concert was in august im slow at writing ok#anyway regardless of how long this took#it has remained unbeta'd#alsoooo this was SO FUCKING FUN to write i actually loved the process so so so much#i had a great time it was so relieving to finally do this like every sentence was just like FINALLY IM DOING IT#i love it so much and honestly it was only gonna be around 700 words#but my brain was like no you gotta do this part and then i did and then it was like ok now this part#i was like should i do the whole thing it said ABSOLUTELY NOT#anyway if you've made it this far#READ AMOR MAGNUS DOCTOR EST OR BE DIE#napollya#tmfu#napoleon solo#illya kuryakin#tmfu fic#my fic#inspired by another fic#amor magnus doctor est#lucia writes#lucia talks
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Moving Forward. (Spoilers for YTTD up through 3-1b)
#your turn to die#yttd#yttd fanart#sara chidouin#joe tazuna#happy birthday sara#post-death game au#set in the Kanna/Alice lives route because that's personally my favorite#there are so many little hcs in this#sara will forever have freckles in my art#alice dyed his hair to match reko#also he's trying to get back into music for her#whether that's healthy or unhealthy is yet to be determined#Keiji is not doing so hot#angst#your turn to die fanart#ryoko isn't being mean i promise she just doesn't know how to help#yes sara is wearing joe's jacket#joesara >>>#I'm like 20 minutes late but I hope you enjoy regardless#god this took so long#I ran out of time to shade it I'm sorry </33#I hope you enjoy anyways!!#or don't#sorry for the angst on your birthday sara you deserve so much better
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i miss my son, tails. i miss them a lot.
#mcyt gt#mcyt g/t#my art#giant!ranboo#by nature au#started thinkin 'bout this au again today#part of me kindaa wants to write something for it again? but uhh long story short i!ve got mixed feelings 'bout that#but anyway!!! decided to draw my favorite guy again kdjdksjsks#took me a hot second to remember how to draw rovengers; but i got there eventually skdjksjsks#actually. how many times have a drawn bn!ranboo digitally? 'cause i feel like i haven't done it a lot?#at least not in their rovenger form#regardless;#ratty happy with how it came out!!!
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what if we pulled an "s10 ep5: Fan Fiction" and crowdsourced, casted and shot our own spn reboot/continuation. We could even have someone playing Cas who doesn't actively deny ongoing genocide :D
#ik i dont usually mix fandom and activism for SO many reasons but the âwe need a reboot and WE NEED CAS TO BE THEREâ rhetoric is uhhh#actively harmful to literally thousands of actual human lives#idk how it took me this long to realize that âspn rebootâ does in fact include Noted Genocide Denier Misha Collins#anyway this fandom could probably do it better regardless#and by probably i mean definitely#...kinda surprised nobody has done that already#supernatural#spn#destiel#deancas#spn reboot#supernatural reboot#spn revival#supernatural revival#jackles#jensen ackles#misha fucking collins#misha collins
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i have suddenly become obsessed with a theme that HoO established but never proceeded to extrapolate on, which is:
You are Percy Jackson, and you have been swapped with a boy who was allegedly everyone's favorite person, but they have decided to replace him with you. They just met you. You stand next to his best friend and the people he's known his entire life. In his home. In his cloak. In his place. They stopped looking for him.
You are Jason Grace, and you have just found out you have a long lost sister who completely replaced you in her life with this girl you just met. Your lives and personalities are mirrors. She is you, living the life you were robbed of.
You are Annabeth Chase, and you have just become starkly aware that you have been inhabiting the void left behind by your best friend's long lost brother. You and Luke were just replacements for him. Now you have to look him in the eyes when he has nothing and know you took that life from him.
You are Piper McLean, and you have just found out your relationship is fake and built entirely on the memories of Annabeth Chase. You have been given a boyfriend when hers has been taken away. You have no idea how much of it is real or not but regardless you feel like if your relationship isn't exactly in their image that you have failed.
You are Leo Valdez, and you have just learned that you are the echo of your great-grandfather. You are not your own person. You just exist to be a mirror of him. A doppelganger. An actor and stunt double facing all the danger he never had to but wearing his face. To be there for his best friend decades later simply because he couldn't. You are playing a role. A seventh wheel and a pawn for a goddess who carefully sculpted your entire life for her own purposes.
You are Hazel Levesque, and the only reason you are alive is because your brother couldn't save your his sister. You are a consolation prize. An apology. Your existence here is misplaced in every way but you inhabit it anyways.
You are Frank Zhang, and you are a shapeshifter. Inhabiting your own body feels strange and clumsy when you could be literally anything at any time. You are anything and everything and live your life with the simple certainty of knowing exactly how you will die.
#pjo#hoo#heroes of olympus#percy jackson#riordanverse#jason grace#annabeth chase#piper mclean#leo valdez#hazel levesque#frank zhang#meta#analysis#me shaking hoo: what if we actually address the interpersonal dynamics of the characters. please. please. please. please.#frank is the only person on the boat not having an identity crisis tied to another member of the crew somehow and that is FASCINATING#but also WHERE is all the interpersonal literally anything. hello. please. making grabby hands. everybody identity crisis go.#i wanna see the entire argo ii crew stumbling through trying to figure out their places and senses of self!!!!!#particularly in relation to each other!!!!! we get snippets but we rarely ever get the full thing or a resolution!!!#like. HELLO??? Piper acknowledging that her relationship with Jason is artificially sculpted in the image of Annabeth and Percy???#and that her ideals of what Jason and her can be are just that she feels like they need to be like what Percy and Annabeth have????#and thats just DROPPED COMPLETELY????#poor Jason is getting replaced twice. Leo is not his own person.#Hazel at least gets the resolution that Nico does not truly see her as a consolation prize#but Annabeth gets to be hit with the like EIGHT YEAR DELAY of learning the place she inhabits in Thalia's life is the echo of someone else#cause like. yeah she knew Thalia had lost her brother but i dont think it clicked for her until she met Jason that oh. she *replaced* him#Frank at least has some certainty about his identity in one aspect (his curse). everybody else is floundering a bit#except for maybe Percy but its kind of the camps of ''i replaced this person and it weighs on me'' versus ''i have been replaced''
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Hi! I couldnât find anything on your pinned regarding if you take requests, so feel free to ignore this is you donât.
Iâve been feeling kind of bummed lately about the lack of love towards us mid-size girlies in fanfics in general. Its hard to feel wanted sometimes if youâre not thin enough or curvy enough. Would mind writing a fic with any member of the CoD 141 that just appreciates their mid-size girl? Thank you đ
simon riley with midsize!reader (I'm so sorry this took so long, but I love this request)
simon riley loves a girl with a bit of weight on her. he'd never understand how you could be so insecure about how your body looked (if you were), especially when you just looked so perfect to him.
your body was a perfect balance in his eyes, plush thighs and tummy that he could bury his face in after he arrived home to you.
when you first asked him to leave the room so you could change, he just gave you a blank stare. he just loved to stare at you (he has a staring problem).
you just look so delectable, he could just eat you up (he does).
but aren't your thighs too big? no, better to crush his head when he's lapping at your sopping pussy.
but aren't you not curvy enough? who needs curves anyways? his eyes are glued to your ass or tits regardless
but your tummy isn't flat? who wants a flat stomach anyways? you have organs, lovie, and he'll gladly rearrange them.
but you're not thin enough? he doesn't care, it just means you're well taken care of, and that's all he wants. more to love, anyways darling.
he can still throw you around without breaking a sweat, toss you over his shoulder with a sharp slap to your ass.
he'll happily fuck you in front of the tall mirror in your bedroom, his chest pressed against your back as he hovers over you. his breath kissing your ear, his voice breathy and deep as he mumbles praises.
his hand is laced through your hair, forcing your eyes to the mirror, his other hand around your neck, fingers creeping up to hold your jaw. red marks and bruises forming all along your neck, trailing down your skin with no pattern. chest bitten and glistening from saliva around your perky buds.
he'd fuck you slow, every praise about your body, your appearance punctuated with a sharp thrust of his cock buried in your weeping pussy. the soft slap of his hips against your ass, your skin rippling from impact, reddening.
come on, lovie, you don't get to come until you're saying positive things. you want to come, don't you?
#ghost call of duty#simon ghost riley#simon ghost riley fanfiction#ghost x reader#ghost x y/n#ghost cod#ghost x you#simon ghost fluff#simon ghost riley x you#simon ghost x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#ghost simon riley#ghost smut#ghost mw2#ghost#simon riley imagine#simon riley cod#simon x reader#simon riley#simon riley x reader#simon riley x you#cod x you#cod ghost x reader#ghost cod x reader#simon riley x female reader#simon riley x y/n#simon riley smut#simon riley fluff#simon riley x afab reader#cod x reader
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best kept secret
pairing: dbf!Joel Miller x f!reader
words: 6.7k
summary: In an attempt to keep your relationship secret, Joel agrees to a blind date set up by his best friend / your father. You don't take it well.
warnings: 18+ minors dni, pre-outbreak, age gap (reader is in her early 20s, Joel is 36), secret relationship, angst, explicit smut, oral (f!receiving), unprotected piv, semi-public sex, car sex, creampie, some fluff; lmk if I missed anything!
a/n: so sorry it took me almost a month to post something new ffs - life got busy and my inspiration simultaneously disappeared. but we're back, baby! anyway, dbf!joel owns my ass, so here's my rendition of him. as always, ty to my baby @javisashtray for reading this over for me and helping me through the creative process <3
Joelâs bedroom window offers a perfect view of the sunrise; of shy, pink light creeping over treetops and the roof of your dadâs house across the street.
Itâs gorgeous â breathtaking, even â maybe because you can count on one hand the number of times youâve actually seen the crest of morning. Youâre far more privy to late nights and sleeping in as long as you can push it, never been one to be up with the lark, so to speak.
You donât mind the early wakeup call, though, not when itâs this: Joelâs head tucked between your thighs, his tongue rolling lazily over your clit, your eyes still adjusting to the light as he spreads you open for him.
Heâs humming against you, his coarse beard tickling soft skin, thumbs dug into muscle to hold you in place as your back bows reflexively off the mattress. He looks so sweet like this, so eager to please, staring up at you with blown pupils.
âCâmon baby,â he purrs. âJust gimme one before you go.â
Theyâre the first words heâs said all morning, the first thought thatâs necessitated utterance. His voice is hoarse and deep and drips honey-sweet at your core.Â
Even so, despite how badly you want to â because you always want Joelâs mouth on you â youâre not sure you can.Â
Because you need to get home before Denise next door leaves for her early shift. Before Susan a few houses down takes her dog out for a walk.
Before the neighborhood wakes and somebody sees you leaving Joel Millerâs house. Or worse, before your dad catches you slipping into the house in yesterdayâs clothes, your car in the driveway still cold.
But with another experimental flick of Joelâs tongue, you forget all that, a content little sigh slipping past your parted lips, betraying you.
Just one, you tell yourself, and then youâll head out.
âFuck, okay â yeah,â you breathe, twisting your fingers into the roots of his curls.
With your permission, he buries his nose in your mound. Licks at you again â with more purpose, this time. One long, drawn out lap followed by another. Â
Heâs so gentle with you, so careful, caressing your folds with his tongue like theyâre made of paper. Itâs a dizzying juxtaposition to the way he laid you down last night and fucked you, teeth scraping your neck and cock bruising your cervix.
Youâre still sore, your walls tender where he stretched them, but your pussy is drooling nonetheless, surely making a mess of the bedsheets underneath you.
Because youâre insatiable when it comes to Joel.Â
For the past few weeks, since the first time youâd found yourself in his bed, youâve craved him. Regardless of how sated heâs left you each and every time, youâve needed more.Â
Itâs dangerous and stupid and undeniably wrong, having a fling with your dadâs best-friend. But youâre finding it difficult to consider the morality of it all when just his tongue makes you come harder than any other manâs cock ever has.Â
That tongue, now dipping into your apex, drawing more slick out of you as his thumb finds your swollen clit â Itâs overwhelming how good it feels, how good he is at this.
Heâs bringing you to the edge languidly, savoring the taste of you, the feel of your silky flesh. Itâs like he doesnât want this to be over, needs to stretch the moment as far as itâll go, milk every last second before you slip from his grasp.
But itâs going to end soon; itâs inevitable with the way heâs laving your pussy, the crushed velvet of his tongue gliding through your folds so wet and warm. Your orgasm is building, and youâre powerless to stave it off any longer.
âJoel,â you warn, his name a high-pitched whine.Â
âShh, I know babygirl; itâs okay.âÂ
Two of his fingers hook at your entrance and push in, pacifying you as his thumb continues working your clit. âI got you. Let go for me, sweetheart.â
The soothe of his voice floods your senses like nitrous; renders your body loose and your head foggy. You come apart with a string of shattered breaths, eyes rolled back and fingers twisted into the duvet.
Joel talks you through it: thatâs it, pretty girl; so good for me; always so good for me, and though he sounds so far away, his words are the only thing keeping you tethered to reality.
The world comes back into view slowly. Air settles in your lungs. And you canât help but laugh at how fucked-out you feel when you peer down at Joel, his gaze already locked on you, expectantly.
âOkay?â he asks, rubbing at your inner thigh.
âYeah,â you exhale, corners of your lips pulling taut. âMore than okay.â
He smiles back at you. Props himself up with hands planted either side of you on the mattress and hovers over your feeble form.
âGood,â he whispers, dipping his head down to kiss your forehead, your nose, your mouth. He licks into you, letting you taste yourself on him â a little sweet, a little bitter â and his lips are so soft that you nearly melt. âDid so good, angel.âÂ
You want nothing more than to spend all day in this bed with him. Return the favor a few times over. Learn what he looks like in the afternoon sun against the backdrop of navy blue sheets. What he tastes like after his coffee rather than before.
âI donât want to leave,â you admit against his mouth and he frowns, taking one of your hands in his. He presses a kiss to each of your knuckles, one by one, his eyes never straying from yours.
âI donât want you to either, darlinâ. But you can come back tonight, yeah?â
Tonight. Hours away. A whole day between now and then. But itâll have to do.Â
âTonight,â you repeat. Solidify it.Â
You slink home just as the street lights dim.
The house is quiet when you enter, apart from the incessant ticking of the grandmother clock in the living room. It sets off a throbbing in your head, a dull pang right at the front of your skull that you massage with two fingers as you ascend the stairs.
You move cautiously up each step, wincing at every creak of old wood. It must take minutes to reach the second-floor landing, and then youâre tiptoeing past your fatherâs room, listening for signs of sleep behind the seal of his door. Sure enough, you catch it, a single, drawn-out snore, loud enough that you let your feet fall, shuffling the rest of the way to the bathroom across the hall.
You immediately crank the shower on, climbing in as soon as you see steam. Lathering your skin with citrus-scented body wash, the smell of sex washes off your body and down the drain.
The warm water soothes your sore muscles; bittersweet relief. You stand there until the stream grows icy, stepping out and toweling yourself off just as you hear the familiar blare of your dadâs alarm on the other side of the wall.
By the time youâve dressed and made your way downstairs, heâs already in the kitchen, nursing a cup of coffee with his back to you.Â
Sink empty, counters borderline sparkling, a coaster tucked under his warm mug â your father is a neat man. He does not take kindly to mess.
God forbid, anybody disrupt the sacred balance of his home; move something and forget to put it back, break something of his that should be kept intact.
âHey.â
âHey, kiddo,â he yawns. Turns to face you. âYou were up early. Heard the shower going.â
âCouldnât sleep,â you lie.
âSomething on your mind?â
Heat blooms across your chest and up your neck. Thereâs no way he knows â youâve been far too careful. Still, youâre on edge, and the question lodges itself between your ribs uncomfortably as you frantically search for an answer.
âUh, n-no,â you stutter. âJust work stuff, I guess.â
He seems to buy it, reaching for the percolator and re-filling his mug with a sigh, âJust gotta give it time. You only just started. Plus, itâs your first job out of school. They donât expect you to know it all right away.â
Itâs good advice, if not misguided. You nod as if youâre absorbing it, taking it straight to heart. As if your mind isnât preoccupied.
You grab a mug from the cabinet. Fill it with coffee and creamer. Perch yourself at the breakfast table and take a slow, steadying sip.
The caffeine has just about seeped into your bloodstream when-
-thereâs a knock at the door.
Your dad shoots you a puzzled look, one which you immediately return. Who could that be, so early on a Wednesday morning?
And when he pushes open the door to reveal none other than Joel, you just about fall out of your chair. Your nails absentmindedly dig into the wood of the table in an attempt to brace yourself.
âOh, buddy â hey! Come on in,â your dad says, patting him on the back as he steps over the threshold. âWasnât expecting you.â
You grasp the handle of your mug like a lifeline. For a fleeting moment, you worry the ceramic will shatter in your hands.
Joel is dressed â blue cotton t-shirt covering his broad back and the deep, red scratches you left there when you dug your nails into skin, your legs hiked over his hips and your face tucked into his chest.
The pair of boxers peeking over the waistband of his jeans are different from the ones you pulled off of him last night, the ones he shimmied back into before you slept cradled in his arms.
Heâs a different Joel here, now â your fatherâs friend, your neighbor â not the man who breaks you down with his tongue or the one who calls you his good girl while you take his entire, throbbing length.Â
No, this Joel, standing in your kitchen in the presence of your father, has never betrayed him. Hasnât tasted his friendâs daughter or felt the tight embrace of her wet, warm cunt around his cock. This Joel is reliable, honest, not one to do harm.
You do not desire this Joel, cannot. You must look at him with apathetic eyes. Must keep the boat of your longing at bay.Â
Easier said than done. Itâs as if your desire for him is a feral beast, fed by his touch and left starving in its wake. You feel like youâve just run a marathon, sweat beading at your collar as you not-so-subtly follow the subconscious flex of his hands, the bunching of fabric over his biceps.
His voice bounces off the backsplash, and your fingers tighten around the handle of your mug.
âYeah, I uh â I went to make myself coffee and realized I was out. Was hopinâ you might have some to spare?â
He canât be serious. He came over for coffee? He couldnât get some on the road?
âIâm afraid she took the last of it,â your dadâs eyes point to you, and you ignore the burn of Joelâs gaze when his follow.
âAhh,â he says. ââts okay. Iâll grab some on my way in.âÂ
His fingers taptaptap on the edge of the countertop, bottom lip tucked between his teeth like thereâs something else. Another reason he came here.
And then you spot it â your wallet, dark red leather, poking out the top of Joelâs back pocket.Â
You mustâve left it in his room before you hurried home. Somewhere amongst the mess of trinkets and trash on his dresser. You half-remember dropping it there last night as heâd kneeled in front of you and peppered kisses up the length of your leg.
Thankfully, your dad is oblivious as ever, giving Joel the perfect opportunity to inconspicuously slip you your wallet when he turns around and crosses the kitchen, placing his empty mug in the sink.Â
Joel sidesteps once, twice, extending his arm and snapping it back as soon as you have the wallet in your grasp.
Your father clears his throat. Spins to find Joel exactly where he was. âIâve been thinking,â he starts, wrestling a slice of bread out of the bag and dropping it into the toaster, âI gotta set you up with this co-worker of mine, Deb.â
Joel freezes. You watch as the color drains from his face and his large hand anxiously cards through dark curls. Youâre pretty sure you freeze too, breath caught somewhere in your throat until your dad turns to you and you remember to exhale.Â
âYou know Deb, right, honey?â he asks. You mentally flick through the rolodex of your dadâs coworkers.Â
Thereâs Leanne, tall redhead, hosted a potluck a few months back at which you tasted the worst mac & cheese youâve ever had. And Barbara from accounting, who he got into a heated argument with over who makes the best BBQ in the city. You only remember her name because he hadnât shut up about how wrong her opinion was for a full week.Â
This woman actually thinks the Smoke Shop has got better ribs than Louâs. I said to her, Barbara, your taste buds must be absolutely torched.
But Deb? You donât recall a Deb. Still, youâre pretty sure you hate her, just in hearing her name in this context.Â
You shake your head, no.Â
âWell, I guess you havenât seen her in a while. She was there that day I brought you into the office.â
âWhen I was ten?â you retort.Â
âYeah, I guess it was that long ago, huh?â
You shrug. He returns his attention to Joel. âAnyway, Deb â sheâs around your age, just got divorced about a year back, and sheâs a real nice woman. I think you two would really hit it off.â
âIs that so?â Joel replies. You swear his voice wavers. If your dad notices, he doesnât say anything.
âYouâll like her Joel, I promise. I mean, whenâs the last time you went out with a nice lady? Not since â what was her name â Jean? And if things were going well with her, Iâd hope youâd tell your old friend.â The toaster pops, and he retrieves his slice of toast. Grabs a butter knife from the utensil drawer. Â
âNo, I ainât seeing Jean,â Joel sighs. Flashes you an apologetic glance as your dad slathers his toast in artificial purple jam, blissfully unaware.
âWell, you gotta get back out there!âÂ
Joelâs gaze rolls to the ceiling. âI donât know â Iâm just not real interested in datinâ right now.â
You exhale, then â a quiet declaration of relief that seems to go unnoticed â unperturbed even when your dad continues his pitch.Â
Iâve known this woman for years Joel, Iâm telling you, the two of youâd be the perfect match; sheâs a looker too, real pretty.
Ew. Tuning him out, you check the clock, find that you only have a few minutes before you need to get going. You stand from the table and make your way toward the sink with your now-empty coffee mug in hand.
Would I ever lead you astray? your dad is asking just as you brush past Joel. His hand, idle by his side, catches the fabric of your blouse and you have to fight to ignore the pinprick of electricity it ignites under your skin.
âNo, I know,â Joel grumbles. âI trust your judgment ân all, âts just-â
âWill you just give her a chance?â
âJesus; fine.â
The mug slips from your grip, falls into the sink with a clang.
Your dad glares at you, expression softening only when you gesture to the still-intact ceramic lying on its side in the basin.
Heâs quickly distracted, then, jotting a series of numbers down onto a scrap of notebook paper, the blue ink pressed in so hard that itâs beginning to bleed through.Â
âAtta boy,â he drawls, sliding it across the counter. Joel pinches it between two fingers, folds the paper without looking at it and stuffs it into his front pocket.Â
âPromise youâll give her a call tonight? I may or may not have already talked you up, and I need to know youâre not gonna make me look bad here.â
Joel has to see you staring at him out of the corner of his eye. He must. If looks could kill, heâd be six feet under already. But heâs refusing to meet your gaze, eyes glued to the cabinet directly in front of him as he nods. âYeah, Iâll call her tonight,â he says, a small, unconvincing smile pulling at the corner of his lips.Â
Heâs actually agreeing to this?
You need to get out of here before you say something rash.
The anger bubbles in you slowly, then all at once, threatening to boil over as you slip on your shoes and sling your bag over your shoulder.Â
Marching toward the door, you offer a half-hearted bye, not bothering to look back before you leave.
The office is already milling with people by the time you stroll in, ten minutes late.Â
The conversation between Joel and your dad is still running laps in your head as you sneak past your bossâs door.
It sticks there through the morning and well into the afternoon, your dadâs words an incessant earworm: I think you two would really hit it off.
The thing is â you canât blame Joel for saying yes to the setup. Not really. Your situation is complicated, messy, bound to end badly.
Maybe heâd be happier with Deb.Â
They could take walks together, stroll through the grocery store or down the street hand-in-hand. Throw dinner parties and shamelessly gush about their relationship to their friends. All without fear of being caught doing something wrong.
Because thatâs what this is, you and Joel â itâs wrong. Not like you werenât already well aware of that. Leave it to some woman youâve never met to rub it in.
The day passes infuriatingly slow.
The pile of emails in your inbox only grows larger by the time youâre due to clock out, stack of reports on your desk barely touched. You wince when your boss stops by your cubicle on her way out, eager for an update.
âSorry, Linda; a couple of these were more time-consuming than Iâd hoped,â you lie. But you can tell she doesnât buy it, not one bit, her expression souring as you shuffle through papers.
âI need these done by the end of the week, no matter what.â
âOf course,â you mutter, face heating with embarrassment. âIâll get them done and on your desk by Friday.â
âThanks.â Her heels are already clacking on tile when you open your mouth to apologize again, your sorry lost to the ether.
You gather your things and scramble to your feet as soon as sheâs out of view, not sticking around to watch your computer power down. By the time you get to your car, Joelâs number is already dialed on your phone.
He picks up after two rings.
âDarlinâ â are you okay?â
Itâs admittedly uncharacteristic for you to call him so early. You usually wait until after dark, when youâve both retreated to your respective bedrooms, away from listening ears.
But this canât wait. Itâs been eating at you all day, digging into your work. If you donât talk to him about it, youâre going to end up unemployed. You donât bother to ask if heâs still on the job site, around other people. âYouâre going on this date.â Itâs not a question. More of an accusation.
âBaby,â he sighs. You try your best to ignore his molasses drawl and the way it seeps into your chest.Â
âWhy didnât you say no?âÂ
âHow could I?â he groans. âThereâs your dad, askinâ me if Iâm seeinâ someone, sayinâ heâs already told this lady about me â what am I supposed to say?â
âI donât know.â Your voice comes out a whine. âMake something up. Tell him youâve taken a vow of celibacy.â
He laughs, low and breathy on the other end. âYeah, baby. Think heâd believe that one, fâsure.â
âFuck,â you huff. âI justâ I donât-â
You want to tell him not to go. To cancel. Fake his own death. Do whatever it takes to get out of this. But you have no right, not really. The two of you arenât dating. You donât have any control over what he does or who he sees. And you donât want that, no. You just want him to choose you.
âI donât wanna go, darlinâ. I really donât. But if I do this, I think itâll get him off my back for a while. He wonât have a reason to suspect that Iâm foolinâ around with his daughter.â
Fooling around. His phrasing is a metaphorical punch in the gut.
Itâs not exactly a lie. You havenât put a label on this thing, whatever it is. Itâs been purely physical: lips slotted to lips, tongues pressed together, swapped sweat and saliva. But hearing it reduced to two words, words with such a casual connotation â as if you havenât been driven by overwhelming desire â makes your stomach churn.
Joel doesnât seem to clock it when you go quiet, a cocktail of rage and sorrow sloshing around your insides. âItâs for the best,â he adds, a shot of hard, burning liquor.Â
âYeah,â you say defeatedly. Choke back the pathetic tears that creep up your throat. âFor the best.â
He ends the call with the excuse of bad cell reception. Promises to talk to you later. Youâre not sure that you believe him.
The phrase fooling around curls up in your head, a wet dog, its fur dripping into the crevices of your rattled brain the entire drive home.
You dodge Joelâs calls for the remainder of the week.
Thereâs no use in talking to him when you have nothing to say, when you know any words you attempt will be overtaken by tears.
Even so, it doesnât stop him from trying. His number lights up the screen of your phone at least twice a day.
He leaves voicemails that you do not listen to. You canât. The last thing you need is his syruppy drawl in your ear. Youâll break; you know you will.
So instead, you delete them. Rid yourself of temptation.
But you still ache for him â a devastating truth. You lumber through the days, bones heavy with hurt. Find yourself kept up at night by thoughts of Joel and the infuriatingly soothing timbre of his voice, the intoxicating callous of his fingertips against your soft skin.Â
Itâs a lonely thing, yearning for Joel Miller.
On Friday, your father beams at the dinner table. Heâs grinning like a child as he stuffs a forkful of rice into his mouth.
âJoel and Debâs date is tomorrow,â he says. âThink theyâll really hit it off, donât you?â
Youâre dumbfounded for a long moment â canât believe that this is your life now: being asked about your thoughts on Joel and the ever-elusive Deb as a couple. When it takes too long for you to answer, your fatherâs fork stills pointedly on his plate, and you sputter.
âOh! I mean, I donât know. Like I said, I donât remember Deb.â You canât help your condescending tone. Your dad doesnât seem to catch it anyway.Â
âWell,â he says, âI think theyâll be a match. Hoping so, anyway. The man has been such a hermit lately â maybe if he has a lady, heâll get out more!â
âYou sound real excited,â you grumble. Stab four peas on the prongs of your fork.
âIt is exciting. Iâve never set anyone up before. And the best part is, the place theyâre going to â the Tavern â itâs got rooms you can rent out for wedding receptions. Just imagine if down the line, they got mar-â
âDad,â you stop him. You think youâll be physically sick if you let him finish that sentence. âSorry, I just â Iâm really tired, all of a sudden. I think Iâm going to head to bed early.â
Itâs not a complete lie. Youâre emotionally exhausted as a result of the past couple days. Sleep sounds like a much-needed, blissful escape right now.
Your dad doesnât question you. He just nods. Swipes your plate from in front of you and brings it to the sink along with his.
Of course, you find it impossible to actually drift off that night. Tossing and turning, you battle the glaring urge to get up, slink into the home-office and look up directions to the Tavern.Â
Not that youâre planning to go there anytime soon â youâre just curious. Thatâs all.Â
Around midnight, you give up, pad down the hallway and into the room parallel yours. The computer dials up slowly, and you chew your bottom lip as you wait.Â
You snatch a piece of paper from the printer and a pen from the #1 Dad mug that sits next to the monitor. Click on the internet icon and type the words into the search bar.
This is definitely a bad idea. Maybe the worst youâve had in a while.
You jot the address down anyway.
Downtown Austin is buzzing with life.Â
Patrons spilling out of bars, tourists striding down the street in their brand new Stetsons â it almost distracts you from the task at hand.Â
At just past seven, youâd told your dad you were going out, meeting a friend for drinks. Heâd been a bit taken aback, seeing as youâre not very social these days, but heâd seemed happy. Relieved.Â
Thatâs not what youâre doing, of course.
No â in reality, youâre turning into the parking lot attached to the Tavern. Itâs packed to the brim with cars, but you still manage to find Joelâs truck, its license plate number burned into the back of your mind after countless mornings of absently reading it as you snuck past.
Itâs idle and empty when you inch by, and even though you knew heâd be here, on this date, your heart still sinks. Because maybe a tiny part of you had hoped heâd stand Deb up.Â
You should leave. It was stupid to come here in the first place. What are you going to do â storm inside and demand that he leave with you?
You consider it for half a second, groaning when you realize how pitiful you are. Defeated, you swing your car into a spot at the back, facing the building, and shift it into park. You hug the steering wheel dejectedly.
From here, you have a straight-shot view of the restaurantâs entrance, a set of double doors at the side of the building. Groups spill out every so often, every pair that emerges causing your back to arch reflexively.
Joel and Deb are probably discussing their interests right now, bonding over a shared connection with your dad. You can vividly picture the smile likely plastered across his face â the same one youâve elicited with sweet filth whispered in his ear.
And youâre here, sitting in your running car, watching the door. Your pulse thumps obnoxiously loud in your ears.
Minutes pass like molasses, slow and thick. You watch the clock on the car radio obsessively, betting with yourself on what time theyâll leave. After thirty minutes of nothing, youâre convinced that theyâre going to close the place out.
But then the door opens again, and you straighten up, immediately met with the sight of Joel and Deb.Â
Sheâs talking animatedly, eyes widening every few words, blonde hair wafting around her narrow face. Itâs undeniable that sheâs stunning, even from far away; possesses the kind of beauty you see on magazine covers in line at the grocery store. The jealousy that pools in your gut burns like acetone in an open wound.
She takes his arm as they walk toward the parking lot, and he lets her, despite the rest of his body appearing strangely rigid.
You wonder if heâll take her home. Lead her to his truck, help her up the step to the passenger seat and sneak a look at her ass under her dress before shutting the door. If theyâll leave her car in the lot for the night, come back to retrieve it in the morning once heâs helped her forget about her loser ex-husband; let the scent of her perfume seep into the bed sheets to cover up yours.
But he doesnât lead her to his truck. You watch as they unexpectedly turn down a row of cars, disappearing from your view completely, his arm still locked with hers.Â
He could still kiss her. Press her against the car. Promise her that heâll call â and he will, first thing tomorrow. Heâs probably just being a real gentleman. Treating her like a woman he might want to marry someday.Â
Maybe he knows, after just one date, that sheâs his soulmate. Heâll buy the ring in a couple weeks. Theyâll be engaged in a monthâs time, and heâll say he just couldnât wait any longer.Â
Sheâs the one thing Iâve been missing.
You stew in the agonizing unknown for what feels like hours before Joel materializes once again, backside illuminated by headlights as he strides toward his truck.
And then â he stops. You see the exact moment he notices your car in the parking lot, his eyebrows threading together and his hands splaying over his hips.
Heâs staring directly through the windshield. At you.
Fuck.
He takes a few slow steps. Stops in front of the hood. Narrows his eyes and flexes his jaw.
With a deep breath, you unlock the doors. Gesture for him to get in the passenger side.Â
He immediately rounds the car, prying the door open and climbing inside just as a SUV pulls out the row he and Deb had walked down.Â
The door slams when he yanks it closed. The sound echoes through the cab of the car.
âYou wanna fuckinâ explain what youâre doinâ here?â he snaps. Youâre afraid to look him in the eye, embarrassment and now, anger, spooling hot behind your ears.
You know youâre in the wrong. You shouldnât have followed him. But does he have to be so hostile?
When your gaze finally meets his, he looks â distraught â jaw clenched and lips set in a straight line. His fingers absently dig into denim-covered thighs.
âI donât know,â you mumble, âI just wanted to see how you were with her.â And itâs the truth; not one you want to be admitting right now, to him, but itâs the truth nonetheless.
âDoesnât give you the right to spy on me.â
âSo what was I supposed to do? Sit at home and mope while the guy I was seeing is on a date with someone else? Oh no, Iâm sorry,â you throw your hands up, form air quotes with your fingers, âthe guy I was fooling around with.â
This seems to strike a nerve. His jaw twitches, and his fingers still on his lap.
âIt wasnât like that,â he grits
âNo? Isnât that all this was to you: fooling around?â
Thereâs a beat. Joel sighs.Â
âNo â fuck, no. Of course not.â
His expression softens. A crack in solid stone. âI tried callinâ you,â he says, voice barely above a whisper.
âI know,â you admit.
He nods. Another beat.
âDid you kiss her?â you ask.
âNo.â He says it with intent, with promise, eyes firmly locked on yours now.Â
Your mouth goes dry.
âNo?â
âNo,â he repeats. âI didnât.â
âWhy not?â
âBecause I didnât want to.â
âYou donât want her?âÂ
âNo,â he says flatly, his pupils bulging in the lamplight, black bleeding into the brown of his irises. âI donât want her.âÂ
âWhy not?âÂ
He leans forward. His weight presses into the center console and his breath fans your face â warm, tinged with the scent of cheap beer.
âI donât want her,â he says, voice an octave lower, âbecause I want you. I thought you knew that?âÂ
The radio drones between the two of you, some classic rock song you think you recognize flitting through the speaker. Your pulse beats staccato in your throat, off tempo.
âYou want me?â you ask, a little breathless, and the next words you say are beyond dumb, beyond reckless, but you say them anyway. âProve it.â
Joel doesnât hesitate. He closes the slight distance between you and kisses you, hard, his tongue frantically sliding against yours through parted lips.
Itâs sloppy, and desperate, and you feel drunk on the taste of him, on longing laced with carnal need. Heâs groaning into your mouth, grabbing your head with both hands, burying his fingers in your hair â as if he canât get close enough, as if heâll only be satisfied once heâs swallowed you whole. Youâre pretty sure you want him to.
Your hands move frantically to his t-shirt, then, bunch into the fabric and pull. You need to feel the skin underneath, need to rove your hands along his bare chest. He accommodates, tugging the shirt by the back of the collar, lips separating from yours ever-so-briefly to bring it over his head and toss it onto the backseat.Â
And then heâs back on you, licking into your mouth again, eliciting a whimper from you when his hand wraps around the side of your throat, just under your jaw.Â
Your palms splay across his torso, wander over warm, golden skin. Youâve missed this, god, youâve missed this â but itâs still not enough. You need to feel more of him. In your mouth, in your hand, in your cunt â youâre not picky. Just need him in whatever way heâll provide.
âJoel,â you whimper into his mouth, fingers winding around his bicep.Â
He pulls back. Peers at you through hooded eyes. âWhat is it, baby?â he asks through labored breaths.Â
âNeed you â please.â
He immediately unbuckles your seatbelt. Lowers his seat back and manhandles you onto his lap. You go easily; slot yourself to him with legs folded on either side of his thighs.Â
Wrapping your arms around the back of his neck, you grind down into his lap. His cock strains against denim underneath you. He groans when you swivel your hips and brush the heft of it again with your clothed heat.
âYou gonna let me fuck you?â he asks into your mouth, his forehead pressed to yours.
Your breath catches.Â
You know what heâs really asking: are you going to let him fuck you here, in the parking lot of a public establishment, where anybody could see?
But you donât care. In fact, youâre way past caring, the emptiness of your cunt too painful to ignore any longer. Let them watch him take whatâs his.
You nod frantically. âYes,â you pant. âPlease.â
Joel nods too, as if heâs accepting his fate. Heâs going to fuck his friendâs daughter in the passenger seat of her car. Thereâs no way around it â not when youâre begging for it. Heâs going to give you what you need.
âOkay,â he soothes, âI got you baby.âÂ
He helps you out of your pants, then; clumsily maneuvers them down and off your legs along with your panties and tosses them aimlessly into the back.
He doesnât bother to take his jeans off. Lets you unzip them and pop the button open, your nimble fingers making quick work of it. And then youâre pulling his cock out of his boxers, stiff and leaking in your grasp.
You steady yourself with hands on his shoulders just as he begins to pepper placating kisses along your neck. âGo ahead baby,â he whispers into your ear. âTake it; itâs yours.â
His head falls back against the seat as you stroke him a few times and line his cock up with your dripping entrance, his hands clasped around your waist.Â
You sink down slowly, savoring every inch of him as he burrows in deeper. Heâs so thick, stretching you like itâs the first time again, your walls fluttering as they relax around his cock.
âFuck,â Joel slurs, fingers digging into your skin impatiently when you still, fully seated on him.
âGotta move baby â please move.â
Heâs so fucking deep, though, his cockhead bumping your cervix, and your entire body feels gelatinous atop him. A cloying sort of heat hangs around your head. You swivel your hips weakly, your forehead falling to rest on his with a heavy sigh.
Joel is happy to take control, bucking up into you so hard you see stars. You canât suppress the string of moans that spill from your mouth, and Joel doesnât seem to mind. Heâs just as loud, anyway, his broken sounds bleeding into yours, bouncing off glass and leather.
Neither of you can muster an actual word, though, not with him rutting up into you, sheathing himself in your pussy over and over again. Heâs relentlessly hitting that spot â the one that has you practically clinging to him for dear life.Â
Itâs approaching too quickly; heâs going to make you come.
One of your hands flies to the roof of the car in an attempt to brace yourself, flat palm pressing into it so hard you worry itâll pop.Â
Joel takes the opportunity to drag you down in his lap, spearing you on his cock, and the sudden change in angle makes you cry out.
âOh fâ ahh, oh myââ
âThatâs it,â he coos, âyou got it, babygirl.â
His words tip you over the edge, your entire body locking up as you gush around him. Youâre wetting his lap, slick splattering his thighs, and he loves it, his fervid moan telling you so.
His movements begin to falter then, hips stuttering underneath you as he chases his own high.
âCmon, baby,â you goad, âplease fill me up.â
He grunts when he spills inside, his face nestling in your chest, heaving as he works through it and begins to come down. You donât move, not that Joel would let you, still holding you on his lap like heâs afraid to let you go.
You nuzzle into his embrace as his cock softens inside you.
You stay like that for a while, probably too long given that anybody could easily look into the car and see you straddling him. You donât have the energy to care.
Eventually, you lift your head from its spot on Joelâs chest. Look up at him with bleary eyes.
âJoel,â you say.
He meets your gaze, face shiny with sweat and his hair a mess. He looks gorgeous like this, you think. The way only you get to see him.
âYeah?â He grazes along your arm with featherlight fingers. His touch raises goosebumps on your skin.
âDid you mean it?â
âMean what?â
âAbout wanting me.â In truth, youâre not sure you want the answer. But you need to know, definitively, if Joel is yours. Youâre done sharing him.
âOh, baby,â he drawls. âOf course I do. Youâre all I want. Do you want me?â
And itâs a stupid question. He has to know that. Youâre nodding before he can even finish it. âYes,â you breathe. âI want you, Joelâ
âThen itâs settled. Itâs me and you. No moreâŚinterlopers.â
You giggle. Reluctantly separate yourself from his body and re-dress. You settle back into the driverâs seat with achy legs.
Youâve never felt more content than you do in this moment.
Still, youâll have to hide â wonât be able to share the news of your new relationship with friends or coworkers, your dad â and neither will Joel.Â
You donât care much, not as long as heâs yours, but you need to be sure he feels the same.
âJoel,â you stop him as he opens the passenger-side door to get out. He stills with one leg swung out the door.
âYeah, darlinâ?â
âAre you sure you donât mindâŚbeing a secret? Donât mind keeping me a secret?â
He looks at you like you have two heads.
He pulls his leg back into the car. Shuts the door and leans over the console again.
Taking your chin between his fingers, he forces your gaze. Makes sure youâre listening.
âI want you â doesnât matter who knows or doesnât know. Long as youâre mine.â
Your chest tightens, and your heart squeezes inside your ribcage.
âIâm yours?â
He smiles. Presses a chaste kiss between your eyes, on the tip of your nose, on your lips. The same way he did the other morning.Â
It all feels somehow sweeter, now.
âYeah, angel. Youâre mine. My girl.â
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Synopsis: You're pregnant by the King of Curses, but as violent as he is, there might just be some gentleness beneath it all.
Warnings: Mentions of cannibalism; a tiny, tiny dash of blink-and-you'll-miss-it spice; murder (it's sukuna).
Part two.
There were many things to consider as a consort to the King of Curses. His proclivity for violence, his cold indifference towards humanity. He's crushed thousands of lives beneath the palms of his hands, spilt blood and sliced flesh beneath his talons simply because the urge had struck him. He's cut down women just like you, for something as simple as breathing too loudly.
It hardly comes as a surprise whenever you wake in the morning, long before the sun has crested past the horizon in shades of gold and lilac, only to learn that another one of your fellow concubines has fallen to your lord's ire. Slain for reasons that you have longed since elected to ignore. They mattered little in grand scheme of things, and they often came down to small, tedious motives: She took too long to respond to one of his questions, she stuttered when she responded to him, she gazed at him for too long without permission.
You've learned long ago not to care. You've snuffed that part of yourself out. Crushed it underfoot as easily as one would do to a troublesome insect. Empathy will not ensure your survival in the King of Curses courts, and you've done well to persist after all of these years.
To nod when expected, to keep your eyes leveled to the floor unless ordered otherwise, to speak only when spoken to even while the urge to berate him burns at the tip of your tongue like something molten. A hot ember in your mouth, but you refuse to spit it out.
You learned how to read him. To see the subtle ticks and expressions that would show on his face, using them as a guide for his fickle moods. You knew your place. You knew how to survive. And as exhausting as it was, it was manageable. All was well, until it wasn't.
â "You're pregnant." It was clipped, blunt, detached. Said so candidly, as though he hadn't said something that had your heart plummeting down into the pit of your stomach like a stone. You had looked up at him then, wide eyed and openly gawking from your place posted at his feet with something like a scoff threating to spill past your lips. Your mind had scrambled, crawling for an explanation, longing for an answer.
That isn't possible. Curses aren't capable of reproducing. You know that he was human once, a long time ago, but that bit of his humanity must have long since perished. Right?
Pregnant. That shouldn't be achievable for you to produce a child with a curse. That had been a small shred of peace, a truth that you had clung to. That you had kept close to your chest, knowing that regardless of how many times he'll take you, carving a place in you for his pleasure, that you'd never have to bear his heir.
You do love your lord, in a twisted sort of way. He isn't merciful, or kind in any capacity. The brutal, corrupt entity that he is. But he does provide a safety that you might not otherwise had, a home and leniency towards your village that others have not been afforded; thus, a grace extended to your family.
Still . . . someone like Sukuna as a father. Was he even capable of such a thing?
It's true that your time of the months was late, but that had been easy to excuse. Your monthly blood had been overdue before. Delayed by stress and anxiety. And with Sukuna as a lover, you would not dare to sleep with another man. Not that you'd want to, anyway.
But surely he was lying. That wasn't possible. You couldn't be pregnant. Not by a curse. Not by him.
Your mouth had opened, lips parting to speak. To gasp or to deny his claim you weren't sure, but he had silenced you before you could even attempt to force a word out. Lazily lifting a single hand while all four of his eyes slipped down to settle on you, glaring red and piercing in the dark of the shrine.
"I wasn't a question." His nose twitched just the slightest, as though he's caught the scent of something odd, but you were certain the there was a smile nudging at the corners of his lips. As though some part of him was pleased.
Your voice was snagged. Dead in your throat. You had to draw in a tight, shaky breath to even attempt to form a sentence. "That's not pos-"
"I can smell it on you." He answered. Still lounging on his throne. Undisturbed while your world crumbled. " It's practically wafting from your pores. Make no mistake woman, you're carrying my heir."
â You had expected a swift death after that. There was no way that the King of Curses would ever entertain the notion of a lowly human bearing his offspring. Tainting his blood line. But the killing blow never came. It nearly made your unease worse. You aren't ignorant to his diet. His taste for human flesh. For the blood of women and children. It made you feel like a pig for slaughter. Meat being preserved for a feast. You've always been a prisoner here, a slave to his wiles, but now you were an animal, a brood mare. You've only ever had to try and save your own skin. To worry for your own life, but now you weren't afforded the luxury of selfishness. You had an unborn life growing in your belly and it had terrified you.
â But instead of shunning you, Lord Sukuna was showering you with a sense of possessiveness that you have never experienced from him before. Sure, you were used to the marks. The blotches of plum and blue and crimson that he would scatter along the flesh of your neck and breasts, the tender pink lines that he would mar along your skin, branding your hips and thighs from his talons. But his greed extended little beyond that. You were free to wander the courtyard with the other courtesans at your side. Small moments of serenity that you were all given in between your duties. Free to gossip, and read, or nap beneath the Sakura and plum trees; admiring the petals as they fall and glide across the currents. Carried off far past the shrine walls.
Sometimes, you'd imagine that those petals were you.
Now those small blessings are a peace that you are no longer extended. Guards now follow your every move. Stalking behind you closely like shadows. Silent, constant, and close. Always looming. Always there by Sukuna's decree to monitor and scrutinize you.
â You were no longer ordered to sit along the steps, posted at his feet like a loyal dog. He had you perched on his lap instead. Cradled on his thighs. Constantly gripped by at least one of his hands in some compacity. He had become keen on holding a palm to your stomach whether he fully realized it or not. Keeping it flat on your abdomen as though he was shielding your unborn child from the world, with the massive height of his body pinned along your back. Keeping you clutched to his chest as he was waiting for a threat to try and snatch you from him.
He'd keep you there for hours, seated between his massive thighs while peasants and aristocrats alike would get on their knees at the base of the throne's steps, bowing on their knees and begging for mercy and exemption from his slaughter. All while you were in something that was suspiciously close to an embrace. Not that you would voice such a thing to him. Not even with the safety of carrying his child offering some sort of immunity. Not at the risk of invoking his anger. But with how tightly he kept you secured in his arms, his chin raised over the crown of your head, there was little else to call it. And you loathed how much you were beginning to find comfort in it.
â Of course, he'd always find ways to shatter that sense of delicate security, whether or not he truly meant to. Namely when he had a servant executed. All because the young man had paid you too much attention; foolishly asking you if you needed any assistance navigating the gardens given your "delicate condition" as he had put it, offering his hand for you to take in the means to help you in your steps. All it had taken was for his fingertips to brush along yours.
In second he was there. Living, breathing, rosy cheeks and a kind smile. And then red. A crest of blood fanning out from his neck. And those gentle eyes. A brief flicker of life in them, and then dull. Muted like a set of worn marbles.
His severed head met stone with a heavy thud, rolling and rolling softly until its traction was halted by grass and moss. His body followed only moments later. No longer held up by spirit and blood, it gave beneath its own weight; knees buckling to collapse like a felled tree.
Despite the balmy nature of the breeze, gentle and humid, you felt frozen. As though your veins had been rushed with chilled water. You couldn't breathe as you stared at his body, disconnected and lifeless like a child's toy that's been carelessly broken and discarded.
"Pathetic vermin. He should know better than to touch things that don't belong to him." His shadow stretched over you then, eclipsing you from the light as the moon does the sun. His cursed energy prickled over your skin, seeping past the barrier of your garments to brush over your flesh, locking your limbs in place.
"A simple warning would have sufficed," you mumbled. Forcing your words out past the heavy feeling of your tongue. They feel broken and hushed all at once, but you can't stop looking at the way the rich maroon seeps out across the fresh green of the lawn, mixing with the morning dew.
His voice slips out into your ears then, a low rumble, possessive and unyielding. "I don't do second chances."
â You could hardly call a being like Sukuna soft. He was all hard edges. Harsh. From his brash, unyielding attitude to the rigid planes of his body. Taut muscles and serrated talons. Violent teeth that were honed to tear through flesh and snap bone, but it was undeniable that something in him had relented. Turned malleable by the sight of the bump peeking out from the layers of your skirts. Not quite tame, but . . . tolerable.
â He had requested - ordered - that you sleep with him in his quarters from that point onward. A command that split through the haze in your skull like the snapping of a neck.
Your brain was still cloudy. Fogged over and drawn blank by an intoxicated thrum, limbs lax and exhausted after he had drawn orgasm after orgasm from your body. Tipping you over the edge and under a rush of pleasure with a sadistic kind of delight; a sharp, wolfish smile had been split across his face.
The mere idea of getting up from your place on his bed and shuffling your way back to your sleeping quarters on wobbling legs, smeared with cum and sweat had seemed horrendous, but you knew what was expected of you. It had been muscle memory when you nudged your body up from the bedding, slipping your legs over the edge as you scanned the floor for your tattered jĹŤnihitoe; ripped and torn in his fervor to have you naked. Discarded somewhere carelessly.
Then a hand was gripping you. Holding you tightly by the nape of your neck as one would scruff an untoward cat. It had a cold dose of fear skirting beneath your flesh, shivering down your spine and locking you in place as easily as the grip on your neck.
"You're to sleep here from now on."
It was firm. Final. No room for you to argue. And you didn't.
â It's lead you to an unexpected discovery. The King of Curses can purr. You had hardly believed it when you first heard it. A low, repetitive hum that had roused you from your sleep in the night. A guttural noise right beneath your ear, breaking periodically in between the gentle rise and fall of his chest. It had caught you entirely off guard. So much so, that in the moment, you assumed you were imagining it. A hallucination brought on by sleep. But the longer you stayed awake, forcing your eyes to remain open as you lifted your head to stare at the slumbering King of Curses, it was unmistakable - he was purring.
Like a kitten would. A soft, gentle sound that juxtaposed horrendously with an entity like him. It nearly made you laugh, but you had just enough wit and self-restraint to contain the sound before it could bubble up to the surface.
You aren't certain how long you had remained that way. Slightly propping yourself up to admire him in the dark, tracing over his face as the light of the moon poured into the room, painting over his skin in hues of blue and soft white; painted by the night.
His scowl softens in his sleep. The furrow between his brows fading into something placid, that arrogant grin - more of a snarl, really - now neutral. He almost looks harmless in moments like these. No glinting teeth or glaring, burning eyes. It's here that you can imagine that he isn't a possible threat. That he won't place you between his fangs and bite until there's nothing over left except for scraps and shards of bone.
â He's kind in his own way. A thought that you never once expected yourself to have. Not in regard to him, at least. But he tries, in his own way, to be gentle. When walking with him in the past, you were always expected to trail after him by a few paces, never at his side, but now he makes an effort to guide you at his side. Keeping a hand secured to the small of your back so that you don't fall behind. Now he he's forgone that all together and has taken to totting you around all together as easily as if you were made of feathers and cushion.
It's become a chore to move. Your sense of balance has been altered for the worse, thrown off by the weight of your belly that longs to tip you forward. And the swelling of your feet does little to help, smarting and uncomfortable. You're a stranger in your own skin. Sluggish, as though you've been packed in tight and tugged down by stones.
He's rushed you before in the past, glaring down at you from over his shoulder without a shred of sympathy. He appeared as though he was possibly considering in finally smiting you down, inconvenienced by your lumbering as you willed yourself to follow after him down the corridor in a sluggish waddle.
"Walk any slower and you'll truly be testing my patience."
On any other occasion you could have brushed it off. Ignored it as simply as the other comments he's made at you before, but your ability to control your temper has become poor as of late. Turned brittle and weak by the changes in your body. It's made your tongue loose and sharp, and without thinking you had snapped:
"My apologies for my current state, my lord, but this is just as much your doing as it is mine. So unless you intent to assist me, I suggest keeping your comments to yourself."
As soon as you blurted it out and registered the sound of your own voice, you fully expected to have you head struck clean from your shoulders. You always imagined that the last thing you ever see would be the carmine flash of his eyes before your vision went dark.
His eyes are indeed on you. Still observing you from over his shoulder. They narrow, thinning down into a familiar scowl, and you're certain that this is the end of line for you. It's fallen silent. The world drawn to a hush as you count down the seconds till your death. It's involuntary when your hands drift down to cover your stomach, fingernails clinging at the silk as though it might possibly protect your child.
But the killing blow never comes.
"You're a testy thing today. I'll ignore it - just this once." The rumble of his voice is the only warning you get before he's shifting on his feet to face you. A pair of hands fasten around your hips, a single strong arm slipping around to support your spine as you're suddenly lifted from the ground to be held to his chest. It happens so suddenly that it nearly disorients you. A complaint rises up from your chest, but as soon as you register the relief that melts over your feet at the absence of carrying your weight, it has you falling silent. Settling to sit complacent, and at ease in his hold.
â He's come to tolerate your defiance. No doubt pardoning you because of the heir you carry. But there were many instances where he would not relent, no matter how stubbornly you tried to remain in your opinions. Namely in regard to the denial of indulging in a very particular craving.
Initially you had thought nothing of it when Masami had tripped. Somehow stumbling on her skirts and collapsing down onto her knees in a nasty fall. You had rushed to her as quickly as you could, some of the other girls following in suit to crowd around her.
She had raised her hands then, facing them up towards her face so that she could inspect the skinned flesh there. Inflamed pink and riddled with small red abrasions that marred the heels of her palms.
Small wounds in the grand scheme of things. Something that you yourself have obtained throughout the years, but not once has the sight of it achieved such a response. You're certain that you could smell the blood beading past the parting of the skin. It wasn't a scent that you've learned to associate with blood, all pungent and iron. This was pleasant. It was rich, enticing, melting along the summer air like something buttered and warm. It made your mouth water. Suddenly your stomach was too hollow. Famished.
Your focus narrowed down, and you couldn't help but to admire how the sunlight glinted delicately along the red. Glittering faintly like flecks of gold on the seeds of a pomegranate. You wondered then, what it would taste like to run your tongue along her palm. To have the blood spread into your mouth.
It wasn't until someone said your name, loud and sharp, that snapped out of your daze. Jerking in place as though you had been stung. It wasn't until you met Masami's stare, her eyes wide and a little panicked that you realized that you had been staring. Focused intently on her wounded hands with the same hunger of a dog eyeing a slab of meat.
Sukuna had found out, of course. He had eyes and ears everywhere, shadows tucked into every corner; and no matter how quietly one might whisper in the amongst themselves, he always manages to hear.
He had shocked you honestly, when he had taken to approaching you about the topic rather than opting have Uraume slip human flesh into your meals. Still, you had refused. This was something that you could not possibly get yourself to budge on. The thought of it made you nauseous, it had your stomach turning despite the hunger pinching at your gut.
Reduced to a complete stranger in your body as the child in your womb altered it into something unrecognizable. Riddling it with twisted urges that made you want to run away from yourself. Haunting you with a hunger that would keep you awake at night, fantasizing about a craving that should make you fall ill. That should have you trembling with dread, and yet your mouth would only water at the thought.
The stare that he had leveled you with unamused. Arresting as it fixed you in place and forced you to still. As motionless as a statue as he looked down his nose at you, all four of his eyes latched onto your form in glints of searing red; a glint of fangs showing past his curled lips.
"Do not forget that it is my child you're carrying. Denying your hunger is only prolonging the inevitable. You'll cave eventually."
And he was correct. He typically dines alone, but since your pregnancy he's taken to having you accompany him for his meals. He had respected your demand that you were only served human food. Though you never missed the almost arrogant way that he would observe you as you plucked rice into your mouth. Like he was relishing in yourself induced suffering. Like he was waiting for you to break. The curiosity in his eyes always present, but like a challenge you tried you hardest not pay attention to the scent of cooked flesh permeating around the dinner table.
Try as you might it wasn't long until you had all but stolen a cut of meat from his meal, cooked rare and bleeding. And like some sort of ravenous animal, you had scoffed it down, clutching it with trembling fingers that shoved it in your mouth quicker than you could fully chew. Unable to pay your guilt, or the delighted expression on his face any mind as the famished pit in your gut finally felt something close to relief.
â As much as you love your child, there are times where it's already begun to display too many shared characteristics with their father. Namely the ability to disturb you and ruin your sleep. They get restless in the night; like clockwork, tossing and turning in your belly and battering the inside of your stomach with a near constant stream of kicks.
They weren't even born yet, and already they seemed to be throwing a tantrum. Pitching a fit as though they were demanding to be released.
It would force you awake, keeping your eyes wide open while sleep stung at them, weighing them down with the temptation to slip closed. But as soon as you would begin to nod off, it's as though the baby in your womb knew, and they'd make sure to punish you with a harsh nudge of their little foot. It's a wonder how something so small can deliver such a harsh strike. Enough to have you wincing; the air hissing sharply through your teeth while you glare up ceiling like you might find salvation in the shadows settled there.
"Are you determined to interrupt my sleep, woman? Why do you keep whining and huffing?"
As enticing as you usually find the sound of his voice, the sudden sound of it rumbling across the quiet is only grating. Your annoyance flaring, worn thin by the bout of kicking that's being delivered to the tender stretch of your stomach.
It had your voice cracking out with equal irritation. Unrestrained in your ire. "That's because your child won't stop kicking at me."
You can't stop yourself from turning your head over to glare at him, meeting his scowl, finding the intense red of his eyes in the dark.
"How annoying." He grumbles, face pinching into a peeved grimace. It makes you tempted to try and climb up from the bedding and leave his quarters all together. Perhaps you could take a walk around the estate until the baby settles. Sometimes if you speak to it, or hum lowly in those old lullabies your own mother had sang to you as a child, they calm down. Soothed by the sound of your voice.
It's as though Sukuna can sense your intent, and in a blur, he's gripping you by the torso to tug you up to his chest in a grip that's uncharacteristically gentle. Nestling you against his body as though you could possibly break.
He's done it before and yet it always manages to shock you into silence. To have you fall quiet and motionless lest you break whatever spell has fallen over him.
It makes you wonder if this is what it would feel like to be a rabbit drawn in to slumber with a wolf. Nestled against its fur, expecting a flash of snarling, drooling teeth, but only finding comfort and warmth instead.
"Troublesome, aren't you?"
There's the desire to retort. To give some sort of scathing remark in defense of yourself. To remind him that the child in your belly is very much his doing just as much as it is yours. Then one of his hands is slipping across the swell of your stomach, smoothing over the skin in a gesture that should be too soft for a man like him.
Using the same hands that are covered in blood from slaying thousands, sorcerers, men, women, and children, to cradle where your child rests. It clicks then that he isn't talking to you.
You dare to glance up at him, and it quickly confirms that his attentions are pinned down on your stomach. The expression on his face is tired, exasperated, but you swear that you can see something almost tender melting at the irritation there.
You wince when the baby lands another kick just beneath your belly button, directly where Sukuna's palm sits, as though they can feel the pressure of it.
"Restless, are you?" He muses, caressing his thumb along the bump. "There's plenty of time for all of that later. There will be many a sorcerer for you to torment once you're older, but for now it's time to rest. Let your mother sleep."
It's so conversational, the way he speaks to them. Talking as though they might possibly answer, and with how strange a being like Sukuna is, you truly wouldn't be surprised if he revealed to you that he could communicate with your unborn child in some manner.
You can feel the baby shifting, some part of its body brushing against your stomach as it moves. And act of defiance possibly, and you half expect to receive the sting of another kick, but it never comes.
You're practically holding your breath as you await another strike, yet there's nothing. Only calm. Only the dim sound of your steady breathing and the soothing hush that's fallen over the dark of the room.
Finally, there's peace. The warmth of Sukuna's body seeping into your back like the steam of a hot bath and just as easily it has your limbs unwinding. The weight of sleep engulfing your body, causing your eyes to fall heavy, the lure to slip shut falling over you like the comfort of a blanket.
His voice purrs out then, low and hushed, thrumming along your shoulders while he whispers a delicate command.
"Sleep."
But that time, you're certain he was speaking to you.
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hungarian/nomadic magyar tumblr circa 998AD dashboard simulator
đď¸ vĂĄndor-lĂł-979 Follow
not yall still spreading emese's foundation myth??? she literally claims she fucked a bird????? like either she's lying or she cheated and she's trying to cover it up or well. i dont even want to consider the third option
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tengri forbid women do anything???
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szĂŠl-kĂśnnyĹą-szĂĄrnyĂĄn-szĂĄllj Follow
okay im sick of the discourse let's do this.
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đ istvĂĄn-rovĂĄsĂĄra Follow
that took so long lmao -> !!!!!!!â§âáââ§
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đ´ csillagĂśsvĂŠny Follow
i'm so serious rn if you support """istvĂĄn""" in any way just unfollow and block me. we do NOT need him or his dumbass god and what he's been doing to our people to spread his religion is shameful.
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btw we all know your real name is vajk stop larping as a christian it's EMBARRASSINGGGG
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love seeing my mutuals reblogging this /s anyway op has multiple posts on their blog supporting quartering and human sacrifice. in case you were wondering. anyway stand with IstvĂĄn
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1) we dont even do human sacrifices, are you fucking stupid??? show me ONE post where i talk about that. 2) are you seriously forgetting that your bestie istvĂĄn LITERALLY QUARTERED HIS UNCLE?????
#sorry to put this dumbass on the dashđ dont even engage just block them #ur not making it up the tree of life lmao #discourse
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friendly reminder that just because you're white passing doesn't mean you're not a real magyar!! people with mixed parents are just as valid <3
đ attila-nĂŠpe Follow
cranky coz ur ancestors decided to mix with the europeans arent you
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isnt your girlfriend literally frankish????
đ attila-nĂŠpe Follow
you had to have done some serious stalking to find thatđ and first of all i didn't have a choice, my parents picked the tribe, and second of all she's not my "girlfriend" i got her via ritual kidnapping (WITH consent. before anyone gets weird)
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Couldn't you have kidnapped another magyar woman? Or someone from another mongoloid tribe?
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ohh sure so now human pet guy is gonna chime in to advocate for the kidnapping of our women while being lowkey racist. what are you even doing on nomadblr????
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what the fuck happened to my post
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for the nth time, you're only a true shaman if you were born with teeth OR with extra fingers OR in the sac. the rest of you are faking & we can tell.
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okay people keep spreading this but this is literally just wrong?? like congrats on the 6 fingers op im glad u and Little Golden Father have a special connection (genuinely) but like. tĂĄltos and sĂĄmĂĄn and mĂĄgus and garabonciĂĄs and javas etc are all different things with completely different requirements and life paths which you should definitely know if you're claiming to be one?? especially since your post says shaman but you're listing the criteria for a tĂĄltos, and your username looks like a play on garabonciĂĄs so. which is itđ¤ maybe get your facts in order before trying to gatekeep
anyway don't listen to op!! your connection to the Upper World is yours alone and you're the best judge of what the Fathers and Mothers want your path in life to be!!
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It breaks my heart that the majority of my people still refuse to see the One True God and insist on sticking to their pagan spirits. I fear that when judgement day comes, we will all be wiped out thanks to their foul godless ways.
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how tf am i godless when i literally have dozens of gods? little mothers and little fathers are in everything all around us & it must suck ass to live in a world where you're not surrounded by the small gods that inhabit everything. manifesting that the fene and the guta tag team beat your ass tonight
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hadĂşr will literally strike op down personally. he told me himself. whispered it to me sweetly even
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while i agree with you, i feel like you might also have ulterior motives, nomadblr user hadĂşrsimp
#but live your truth! doubly so on the posts of these freak repressed bible lovers. meanwhile on the #COOL side of magyarhood we walk around butt ass naked!!! op have fun never experiencing joy ever again tho #discourse
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posting from an alt so i don't get cancelled but lowkey i'm starting to think koppĂĄny was right.... maybe this christianity thing isn't gonna work out after all
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WRONG BLOG
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THIS WAS A JOKE. IGNORE THIS
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ISTVĂN????????????? đ
#the usernames wont make any sense unless ur hungarian and insane about the era im sorry. i hope the rest is funny to foreigners too thođ#i woke up in the middle of the night and typed out the majority of this then fell back asleep#hopefully that provides some nice extra context to jt#it's especially funny coz I've been meaning to make this post for like. legit at least 7 or 8 months now#so ig inspiration struck in the middle of the fkin night. finally. well here you go#dashboard simulator#dashboard sim#history#hun mythology#mythology#hun culture
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SHUT UP âN LISTEN | JJK
PAIRING: street racer!brotherâs bestfriend!jeon jungkook x fem!reader
SUMMARY: Trust was broken, and wrong decisions were made. You were now left alone facing the consequences of your own actions, realizing it was never a good idea to fuck around with your brotherâs friend. But maybe that was another lesson you were meant to learn.
WC: 17.3k
WARNINGS: brotherâs best friend trope, angst, like a loooooot, unnecessarily dramatic dialogues that I think were a bit too much but that worked out for the plot at the end. Fluff because I didnât want to end it on a sad note again. Way too much feelings and emotions. Smut +18, unprotected sex, fingering, oral sex (both receiving), a lot of begging, slight dom!jk, choking, making out, smacking, praising, pet names (doll, good girl, princess, baby, sweetheart, etc.), jk calls reader his good little slut, big dick!jk, mentions of belly bulge (very brief), doggy, missionary, jk begging a little bit towards the end. Let me know if Iâm missing anything.
A/N: itâs finally here, the part 2 of shut up and drive, it took me some time to finally get it done, but Iâm happy with the results. Also it was initially intended to be max 5k but I got a bit carried away and ended up being this super lengthy one shot so I apologize in advance. Anyway, enjoy your reading!
part 1 | masterlist
Most people experience a variety of emotions throughout their lives; happiness, sadness, anger. You can find happiness in the simple things in life, like buying your favorite food, your favorite drink, or when you go out with your friends. Sadness usually comes along when something bad happens, like losing a loved one or missing an important moment. Anger is presented in the form of violence most of the time, but it can also be delivered through words; hurting just as much as any punch would. Nonetheless, thereâs also another emotion that has a huge impact on people, one that can conquer your body in the most unexpected moments.
Fear.
Usually defined as an unpleasant feeling that installs itself in the deepest part of our hearts and souls; fear is that one emotion capable of paralyzing people when faced with dangerous situations. Regardless of it being an abstract concept, like any other feeling, anyone at any point in their life has experienced that same emotion.
It is fear that you feel when you notice a stranger following you at night; it is fear that you feel when encountered with a wild animal. It is fear that goes through your body when someone tells you they have bad news.
And it was that same emotion that you felt when your brother verbalized the one thing you were trying to avoid.
âHow long have you been fucking my best friend behind my back?â
It felt like your heart dropped to your stomach the moment that question flew out of Taehyungâs mouth. Nothing would have ever prepared you for it; for the inevitable confrontation you oh so much wanted to avoid.
But life can be funny sometimes, and it would put you through situations that would cause you an unbearable amount of anxiety and fear.
âYouâre not gonna say anything?â His voice was the perfect example of exhaustion and disappointment; two emotions you didnât want your brother to experience.
It took you exactly ninety-eight seconds to regain your ability to speak, only to scramble to find a poor excuse that would get you out of the mess you got yourself into.
âI donât⌠um, I donât really know whatââ
âYou donât know what Iâm talking about?â Taehyung cut you off. âIs that what you were going to say?â
The words were caught in your throat, making it impossible to give him the answer he was expecting. But then again, would you be able to respond wisely if given the chance to speak properly?
âIâm sorry.â
The answer to that question would be no; you were not capable of forming a valid argument that would make your brother dislike you any less in that precise moment.
âYou know, I thought you would finally be honest.â Your brother sighed, shaking his head in disappointment, âI guess I was wrong.â
No man will ever be worthy of messing things up with Taehyung; a mental statement that you prayed would be proven right, but ultimately it seemed like you were the rightful culprit of a crime you didnât realize you committed.
âTae, listenâŚâ You began saying, but your brother was not ready to hear whatever you had to say.
âYou wanna know whatâs funny?â He asked rhetorically. âIâm not even mad that you guys are together or whatever.â Taehyung chuckled, humorlessly. âBut you lied to me, and thatâs not something I can take lightly.â
You knew that, and yet you decided to go behind his back to mess around with one of his closest friends. In hindsight, the outcome of your web of lies was fully deserved, however, it was hard to accept the possibility of the rupture of you and your brotherâs bond.
Hoseok and Jimin, on the other hand, could only stand there and watch everything fall little by little. It saddened them, knowing that the messy situation the three of you were involved in would not be easy to deal with, and most likely would end up badly. Trust was broken, and wrong decisions were made. None of them pondered over enough to realize the weight of the actual problem. But alas, thatâs the lesson you were meant to learn.
âGuess loverboy can drive you home tonight, right?â Taehyungâs bitter tone was like a knife digging in your soul. âIâll talk to you guys later.â He turned towards the two other boys, before retrieving his car keys from his jeansâ pocket.
With nothing left to say, Taehyung started his way back to his car.
âTae, wait! Donât be like that.â None the wiser, you tried to reach out and stop him, but someone else got a hold on you before you could.
âLet him be, I think itâs better for everyone if he cools down before you talk to him.â Always the voice of reason, Hoseok intervened at the right time.
It was hard to watch Taehyung walk away, knowing that he would probably let his anger and frustration out the wrong way. It was true that your brother would usually need some time to calm down and come around, just like Hoseok said, however, you also knew that Taehyung could be a bit impulsive and reckless sometimes. His well-being has been put to the test an uncountable amount of times, and more often than not anger would cloud his vision and the only thing he would see is red, which would cause a much bigger problem than him just being upset.
Truth be told, there was not much to do. It was either making the situation a whole lot worse by pushing your brother to his breaking point, or waiting until his anger and frustration had subsided. The latter seemed to be a better option, and so it was decided that you would let it go for the time being.
It couldnât be that bad, right?
âY/nâŚâ a familiar voice rang through your ears, making you snap out of your thoughts. âCan weâ?â
âTake me home.â You interrupted Jungkook harshly.
Maybe it was the way he was acting so cautiously; or perhaps it was the fact that he didnât even attempt to explain what was really happening to Taehyung, but the idea of being near Jeon Jungkook for a second longer irritated you beyond belief.
âWhat?â He seemed to be taken aback, âI mean, yes, Iâll take you home, but first I wantedââ
âI donât wanna hear it, just take me home.â
The hurt look in his eyes almost made you apologize, but the moment of weakness was short-lived; the frustration and worry you were feeling at that moment were enough to blind you, preventing you from seeing how your cold attitude was affecting him.
âHoseokâŚâ You started saying, âYou coming with us?â
The brown haired man shook his head, sporting a soft grin on his face to break a little bit of the tension surrounding you.
âDonât worry about me, Jiminâs gonna give me a ride home.â
Looking to his right you found the blond guy nodding his head, confirming that he would take care of Hoseok.
âAlright then.â
You started your way towards Jeonâs car, not really waiting for him; the sooner you got out of there the better. That place was starting to become a horrific nightmare the more you stayed there anyway, and it wasnât really worth it to wait a second longer.
Jungkook was right behind you, like a silent follower, not uttering a single word due to the fear of being ignored. And somehow he was right about protecting his heart from your cold demeanor, for it was your silence he would get if he had started a conversation in the most inconvenient of times.
But how can you blame him? Had you been in his shoes, conquered by fear of losing the person who makes you feel more alive, along with your best friend, at the same time, you would be scared of saying and doing the wrong thing too. The only difference is that Jungkook wanted to fix things up for the first time. He wanted to redeem himself and be the bigger person for once; changing his usual I-donât-give-a-fuck attitude and not ignoring his responsibilities. Because as much as he didnât want to admit it, he was just as guilty as you were, and it was time for him to be held accountable for his own actions and decisions.
Nonetheless, there was still that emotion that would prevent him from initiating a conversation that was already set to happen. Fear was, for lack of better words, fucking him up, just like it did you moments ago.
You could feel his burning stare at every red light you were encountered with, yet you refused to look his way, not giving him the satisfaction of staring at his doe eyes that would lure you into giving him the chance to explain himself. That, however, didnât prevent him from finally gathering the courage to speak.
âI still wanna talk to you about tonight.â Eight words uttered with fear; a sentence verbalized with the utmost caution, only to fall on deaf ears. âI know youâre not in the mood to have a conversation right now, and youâre most likely mad at me, but I just want you to know that Iâm sorry it happened this way.â A sigh escaped his lips, leaving him with a heavy weight on his chest, not fully finding the right words to say. âThings went wrong, that much I know, but neither of us had a way of knowing all of this would go down tonight.â
A humorless chuckle abandoned your mouth, cutting Jungkookâs speech off.
âAn apology is not enough to fix all of this, Jungkook.â You started saying. âTaehyung must hate me right now. And for what? Me fooling around with his friend when I shouldâve kept my distance.â
Anger, sadness and regret can be demonstrated with a variety of physical acts, but all those emotions can be also delivered through words, hurting as much, hurting even more. Like a knife digging in the soft material of a pillow, your response cut deep in Jungkookâs heart.
An interesting reaction, taking into account that the boy has never, not even once, shown an ounce of weakness around you. It is true that he was softer than most guys when he was with the people he trusted and loved, but there was a slight switch in his attitude when it came down to you. Was it infatuation? Was it stupidity? Jungkook wasnât sure, but he knew well enough that the things you were saying stung more than they should.
âYou say that as if you regretted everything that happened between us.â He dared to speak once again, after pondering what his response should be.
âMaybe I do.â
Why does it hurt so much the words that were flying out of your mouth? Why was the situation affecting him in ways that it shouldnât?
âMaybe I regret everything, maybe I wish nothing ever happened between us.â You didnât actually mean it, but people tend to say things that hurt others when theyâre angry. âIt doesnât matter if I do, though, you knew this shit wasnât even worth fighting for.â
Jungkook stopped the car abruptly, ignoring the honking of the van behind you.
âNot worth fighting for?â He repeated, clearly offended. âAre you hearing yourself? Youâre acting as if all of this was just my faultâ
âI know it wasnât all on you, I played my part too, but why does it matter so much to you all of a sudden?â You inquired with a venomous tone. âYou were the one who said this wasnât anything serious to begin with. You told me not to get my hopes up because we were just friends who happen to fuck all the time.â
That conversation was engraved on your brain, memorized to the very end. It hurt to repeat the words Jeon said to you, it hurt to remember every single detail of that night, but it was time to accept that neither of you were meant for the other.
He wasnât yours to take, he wasnât yours to keep.
And yet you wished that at the end things could be different.
âSo it was all meaningless to you?â Jungkook demanded an answer of you.
His heart was beating fast, his hands were starting to sweat and there was a frown falling upon his eyebrows, making him look sort of adorable. For you at least, Jungkook has always been like a big puppy in search of attention, seeking for peopleâs affection and love when he couldnât even love himself enough to commit to someone. He was an interesting guy, that much you could admit, but it wasnât enough to go through the hassle of giving it a try to an already nonexistent relationship.
âYou just wanna end things like this?â Jungkookâs mind was going crazy, he couldnât comprehend how you could act so nonchalant and heartless about it. âI just⌠I canât just let youââ
âThereâs nothing to end.â You cut him off. âYou canât end something that never started.â
Like cold snow falling upon his face in a swift motion; like a hundred knives digging in his soul and ripping his heart out; like the most saddening ballad cutting deep in someoneâs mind to bring back the memories of a past lover.
It all hurt the same, it all happened as fast. It all was just equally awakening.
âIs that what you want?â
Jungkookâs dead voice wounded you just a little, but it wasnât enough to stop your answer.
âYes, thatâs what I want.â You confirmed.
Without wasting any other second, Jeon started the car again, letting out a heavy sigh while maintaining a hard grip on the wheel.
And for better or for worse, not a single word was uttered the rest of the ride to your house; representing the finish line of a race that never even started.
Seven days, four hours, twenty minutes and thirty-two seconds. Thatâs how long it has been since the last time you heard the voice of your brother, or even knew anything about him, for that matter. Seven days since you last saw him; seven days since one of your biggest fears came true; seven days since Taehyung looked at you right in the face with an expression full of discomfort and disappointment, one that he has never shown until now. Seven days since Jungkook tried to talk you out of ending things with him.
Seven days have passed and not much has changed, besides the fact that you have felt lonelier than before. The monotonous routine of attending lectures, studying, going to work and then coming back home alone was damaging your mental health and your stability was starting to decay. Sadly, you didnât have anyone else to blame but yourself. It was a hard pill to swallow, but in the end it was all the consequences of your impulsive actions.
Had you thought about everything more thoroughly, the outcome would have been way different. No one would have felt betrayed, because you wouldnât have had the need to hide anything from anyone to begin with. No one would have gone home feeling broken or with a heavy weight on their shoulders.
A lot of things would have been different, but rather than dwelling on the matters that have already happened, you decided to keep your mind at bay.
Work and school kept you occupied, but it didnât relieve the pain that was poisoning your weak heart whenever you received a message or a call from someone who wasnât Taehyung. His two friends kept you updated about how he was doing, but it wasnât enough for you; you needed to hear it from the guy himself. Which seemed to be a task rather difficult due to the current situation.
Jungkook tried to reach out to you a few times after that night, but on the fourth day of calling and texting you nonstop, he finally let go of the idea of fixing things up, with one final text where he poured his full heart, just for you. If Jeon had been any more honest at some other point in his life, he didnât acknowledge it. For him that long text was his truest self, his bare feelings abandoning his body with the hope of reaching you on time. Nonetheless, you two were living in different realities, it seems. You didnât even dare to read the message, opting to block him and ignore how unhealthy and wrong it was to act that way.
It was unfair of you to treat him so poorly, but your pride stopped you from seeing the bigger picture. You were at fault, in the same way that Jungkook was; both of you took the decision to intertwine your bodies that one night, and both of you decided to maintain the secret encounters. It was a crime committed by two bodies, but that sadly left three broken hearts behind. Two at fault and one caught in the crossfire.
Youâve caught yourself wishing you wouldâve done things differently; no secrets, no betrayal. No guilt, no fear. However, it was that same predicament that led you to meeting Jungkook, and as much as you didnât want to admit it, you were grateful for that. Behind his fuckboy persona there was a kindhearted guy that not everyone knew, but that you wish could be yours; Jeon was, for lack of better words, the type of guy that any girl would love to have as a partner, but alas you wouldnât be the one to experience it.
And that cold and saddening truth was what prevented you from ignoring your pride and reaching out to him.
âY/nâŚâ a distant voice called your name. âY/n!â
Looking up from your long-forgotten class review, you stared at one of your closest friends, Eunbi. She was a 5â6, black-haired girl, with the personality of a fifty-year-old woman trapped in the body of a twenty-three-year-old girl. In better words, she was your best friend. You met her during orientation and you two hit it off right away; have been inseparable ever since.
âIâve been calling you for a solid minute.â She chuckled lightly. âYou okay there?â
You sighed, taking off your glasses to rub your eyes. An annoyed groan wanted to leave your mouth, but you were quick to suppress it before making any unwanted noise while being at the library.
âYeah, Iâm fine, just tired I guess.â
Eunbi looked like she knew you werenât completely honest, however, she didnât push any longer for an answer and you were grateful for that. You werenât in the mood to explain the whole disaster you were into with your brother and his best friend.
âWanna stop here and go grab some coffee? Iâm kinda tired too.â
You wanted to decline and keep studying, but truth be told, if you kept up the act of trying to busy your mind with anything to keep it away from the topic you didnât want to speak about, it would damage you more than it already has. So the distraction was greatly appreciated and a decision was rapidly made.
âYeah, I could use some caffeine.â
Both of you abandoned your comfortable seats at the library, gathering your belongings to start your way out to the nearest coffee shop. The breeze caressed your skin with its refreshing wind; there has been a sudden change in the weather that has put the barely tolerable heat on pause. The gray clouds were adorning the sky, which in result made you curse under your breath for not having an umbrella with you.
âSeems like itâs going to rain.â Eunbi lamented, for she didnât bring anything to protect herself from the water either. âWe better hurry to get there before it starts.��
Your gaze moved slowly down from the gloomy sky, observing your surroundings with a deep sigh trapped in your throat. The saddening weather didnât help you to cheer up, but maybe the tall guy waiting for you a few feet away would.
It took you a few seconds to realize that it was your brother who was waving at you while leaning on the hood of his car. Taehyung seemed relaxed and nonchalant, clearly not aware of the immense joy that he had brought upon you by just being there, due to finally seeing him after so long.
âTae?â A small whisper fell from your lips. âEunbi, can we raincheck? I um⌠My brotherâs here.â You looked over your friend on the side, while smiling apologetically at her.
âOf course, donât worry about me. We can have that coffee another day.â A soft smile was all you received after that, while your friend made her way home.
Uncertainty was quickly taking its place in your chest, making it a bit difficult for you to be calm and collected. There was a weird feeling making your fingers tingle, while your skin got coated with goosebumps; one that you rapidly disclosed as fear.
You feared the reason your brother was at your university. You feared the inevitable conversation you most likely will have with him, but above all, you feared the outcome of said conversation, scared it might break you more than the whole situation already has.
Your heart was pounding rapidly against your chest while you were, albeit reluctantly, walking towards Taehyung. His soft grin didnât mirror your awkward grimace, already creating a tense atmosphere between you two.
âWhat⌠What are you doing here?â Your question came out rather strongly, in comparison to how nervous you were. âArenât you supposed to be working?â
Taehyung nodded, looking down at his feet for a brief second.
âAm I not allowed to come see my little sister?â
No, when you havenât contacted her in a whole week, youâre not.
âI guess so.â You finally answered, opting to take the easy route and avoid arguing at all costs.
âGet in, I donât want you getting sick because of the weather.â
A simple sentence that held a lot of meaning behind. Not only was it the fact that Taehyung finally had the courage to present himself in front of you, but he also continued to care for you, even when the prospect of the bond shared between the two being more than broken by now was a possibility he strongly believed in.
Regardless of the initial surprise that painted your face and that invaded your heart, you followed his words and entered the car, tossing your things into the backseat. The ride to your house was filled with an awkward silence, neither of you daring to talk due to not knowing what to say to make things better. Your brother would often sigh and look at you, only to give you a tight-lipped smile and continue driving.
It was safe to say that things were far from being like they used to be, at least for now. It had never been a problem to start and maintain a conversation with the older guy sitting next to you, but it seems like now it was a complete torture for the both of you to be in and share the same space.
A pang of guilt struck your chest for the awkward situation you were found in. A little voice at the back of your head telling you that it was all your fault, and that you should do something quickly to fix it up.
The truth was that you, once again, didnât know how. It was uncharted territory, not even once in your life had you been in a predicament such as the one you were currently living. It was safe to say that you didnât know what to do.
Despite being clueless and frustrated, you finally found the courage to form a coherent sentence to break the uncomfortable silence. And it was with a shaky hand fisting your skirt and trembling lips that you finally spoke.
âSo⌠Itâs not like Iâm complaining or anything, but why exactly did you come to pick me up?â You inquired, staring right at him âYouâve never done that before.â
Truth be told, Taehyung didnât think this through, he didnât even imagine he would get this far; the only thing he knew for sure was that he didnât like the current situation. It was already hard to digest the news of you and his best friend being somewhat together âat least from his perspective thatâs what it wasâ, to add the burden of not being on good terms with you to the pile of concerns that Taehyung had.
On top of that, he felt guilty. Guilty for being so hard on you, guilty for not letting you explain yourself, guilty for not caring enough about you and Jungkookâs feelings before shutting both of you out. But then again, it was a normal reaction, one that was expected from him.
It was due to that that Taehyung decided it was finally time to talk with you and sort everything out, the only thing he didnât foresee was how awkward and hard it would be to communicate with you after a week.
âWellâŚâ He drifted off, stopping at a red light. âWe need to talk⌠But I think itâs better if we do that once weâre at your place.â
It was decided, and silence had, once again, conquered the space inside Taehyungâs expensive car. You didnât bother to try to break it this time, opting to save all your energy for the, most probably, draining conversation that you and your brother would have in a matter of minutes.
The moment you saw your building becoming nearer and nearer you let out a sigh of relief. Being trapped in such a small space with such high and thick tension engulfing both of you was making you feel upset. You were thankful for the fresh air gracing your face once you stepped out of Taehyungâs car, however, your joy was short-lived due to the cold droplets of water falling rapidly from the sky.
âHurry up inside.â
Both of you made your way quickly towards the entrance, not sparing a second glance to your landlord at the door, but rather walking straight into the elevator.
Once you were in the warm insides of your apartment, you finally let your shoulders slump, while a tired groan abandoned your lips. Taehyung followed suit, taking his shoes off at the door and walking towards your living room.
âMake yourself at home, Iâll go change.â You shared before going into your room.
Comfortable clothes, thatâs what you were seeking for. If a disaster was bound to go down, at least you would be wearing your soft pair of pajama shorts and that one shirt you stole from Jimin when you were over at his and your brotherâs apartment.
It was a matter of a few minutes before you encountered Taehyung once again. His eyes were locked on his phone screen, looking rather entertained by whatever he was watching.
âIâm back.â You informed him, while taking a seat next to him. âDo you⌠perhaps wanna talk now?â
Hesitance and curiosity were invading your mind and soul at the moment, making you feel uneasy. You shouldnât be so aggravated or feel so anxious, it was your brother sitting beside you, not a stranger. But then again, you werenât prepared for the conversation, and instead of taking things easy, you were overthinking every single thing about it.
âI donât really know how to start this.â Taehyung avoided looking at you, which in result caused you to feel hurt. âI wanna say a lot of things but I donât think I have enough words to express them.â He chuckled lightly, fidgeting with his fingers while looking right into his lap. âIâm gonna start with the obvious. I was mad, that night at the race, I got really upset. I donât know what pushed you to make the decision of hiding such a thing from me, but it really hurt Y/n.â
You knew that already. You knew that you fucked up and that it affected Taehyung more than he would like to admit, but it was the path you chose, the only thing left to do was walk through it and accept all the consequences.
âThere was no need, you know?â It was then that he looked at you. âLike I told you that night, I wasnât upset about you two being together and I never would. What you do with your love life or who you decide to be with is none of my business. I canât stop you from liking someone, even if that someone is my best friend.â Taehyung let out a sigh, searching for the right words to say. âI got mad because you lied to me. I donât like when you do that or hide things from me, it makes me feel as if you donât trust me. And I really donât want to think thatâs the case.â
âItâs not!â You were quick to say, already fearing he would get the wrong idea. âI swear I trust you, you are the only person I actually confide the majority of my life to.â You sighed, feeling a heavy weight on your chest. âIâm sorry I made you feel that way.â
âI think itâs partially my fault. Maybe I havenât been doing a good job at being a trustworthy brother.â
You wanted to say no, to make him stop thinking that way about himself, but he didnât give you the time.
âWhat I want to say is⌠I might have been mad at you, at Jungkook and at the whole situation, but Iâm also sorry for how I reacted.â Taehyung finally let out the words that were bugging him ever since that night. âIâm sorry I shut you out completely for this long, and Iâm sorry for not talking things through sooner. I canât control the decisions you make, and most importantly I shouldnât be upset about the guys you get involved with. I justâŚâ Taehyung drifted off. âI was just worried about you getting hurt that I didnât notice the big mistake I made. I didnât take into account your feelings and how my words would hurt you and for that Iâm so fucking sorry.â
Seven days, five hours and fifteen minutes. Thatâs how long it took to finally hear your brotherâs voice again. Thatâs how long it took to finally sort things out. Thatâs how long it took Taehyung to say those awaited words.
Seven days passed, and not even once you stopped thinking about what would happen if you were to have the opportunity to explain everything.
Until now.
âTaehyung,â You whispered, âyou donât need to apologize, I should be the one apologizing. It was so fucked up of me going behind your back and messing around with Jungkook.â You sighed. âI didnât think things through and it almost cost me your trust and love, and for that you have no idea how sorry I am.â
Taehyung smiled softly at you, reaching out to squeeze your hand.
âDonât be so hard on yourself.â He said.
âIâm not, Iâm just being honest.â You lightly argued. âStill, Iâm sorry for lying to you, for hiding things from you, for⌠For messing around with your best friend. You didnât deserve any of it.â A tight-lipped grin was sent his way. âI promise I wonât do anything like that again, I value our bond more than any quick fuck.â
Taehyung hissed, retrieving his hand from yours.
âWhen you say it like that it sounds weird.â
You chuckled, poking his side in a playful manner.
âHey, Iâm trying to be serious here, donât ruin the moment.â You complained.
âIâm sorry, but itâs weird listening to my little sister saying she had a quick⌠well, that.â He grimaced, shaking his head to prevent himself from getting any unwanted mental image of it.
âItâs not like you donât do it.â You scoffed, feeling suddenly defensive. âBut thatâs not the point of this conversation. What I really wanna know is⌠Are we good? Do you forgive me?â
Taehyung smiled at you sweetly, âOnly if you forgive me too.â
It was a no brainer. You would do anything to go back to normality, to have your brother in the same way you have always had him. To not be scared of saying or doing the wrong thing; to finally be free of lies and secrets.
âI do.â You responded cheerfully.
You found yourself wrapping your arms around his torso, while resting your head on his shoulder. One of Taehyungâs hands came up to caress your hair, sweetly, while the other was softly patting your back. You were finally where you neededâ wanted to be, and somehow it still felt weird.
There was a feeling of something missing, like a part of you was still holding onto an invisible string, tying you to someone whom you werenât ready to face just yet. It didnât take much to figure out why you were feeling that way, but it only served to leave you with more doubts and confusion.
Why was your heart calling his name? Why was your soul hurting for him? Why was your mind thinking of him?
All those questions were left unanswered, although you already knew the reason. The line between accepting the hard truth and ignoring your feelings was so thin that you didnât even notice when you crossed it, but you definitely felt it. Like salt rubbed on a fresh wound, your heart ached just as much when the thought of Jungkook finally letting go of you was presented in your mind. Thatâs mostly why your heart, mind and soul were so desperately seeking his presence.
Maybe thatâs even why you would tear up at night while staring at your phone. Waiting for a text, for a call, for anything that would let you know that even in some twisted reality, Jeon Jungkook felt the same for you.
âYouf shouf call hif.â
Eunbi was stuffing her face with a fresh baked bagel, not really minding how little you could understand about what she was saying, due to her full mouth.
âCould you please swallow your food before speaking? I canât understand you.â A grimace took place on your face, while watching your friend enjoy her food.
You werenât against Eunbi being so openly in love with whatever she was eating, but there was a limit for your patience when it came to eating etiquette.
âI saidâŚâ She finally swallowed the bite she took. âYou should call him.â
A confused look was sent her way, while you took a sip of your iced coffee.
âWhom?â You asked, looking at her quizzically. âBe more specific, I just told you about whatâs been going on in my life and I mentioned a lot of people.â
It took some convincing but Eunbi finally got all the gossip out of you. It was weird at first, to confess to someone else rather than to the people involved in the problem about everything that happened, let alone about your painfully obvious feelings. Because, although you werenât ready to openly admit it yet, Eunbi didnât need to know much to understand what was really happening in that complicated heart of yours.
âYour brotherâs friend.â She answered after taking a sip of her drink. âThat guy, Joncook.â
âJungkook.â You corrected her with an annoyed sigh. Whether she has been purposely pronouncing his name wrong or she seriously couldnât remember it, you didnât know. âI already told you his name is Jungkook.â
âPotato, potahto.â Eunbi shrugged, cleaning her mouth after finishing her food. âPoint stands. Call him.â
âWhy would I? Didnât you listen to anything I just said?â You asked thoroughly confused, âClearly heâs not into me, otherwise he wouldnât have said that it was a no strings attached type of thing.â
Eunbi wanted to hit you in the head to knock some sense into you. It was obvious, not only to her but to anyone who came across you two during those months of secret encounters. Jungkook, the rebellious and cold hearted man that anyone deemed as the raunchiest fuckboy, but that surprisingly most people would be willing to fuck. Thatâs who Jungkook was, but for Eunbi, for his friends and even for your own brother, Jeon was just a guy afraid to show his real feelings for you.
Almost too sickeningly cute, with his doe eyes and dumb smile, ready to go to the ends of the Earth to make you laugh or at least get a grin out of you. It was so painfully obvious to anyone but you how badly in love he was. It wasnât infatuation, although at first it was a huge possibility; it wasnât a simple crush despiste starting as one. It went beyond that, beyond the weak barriers of taking a liking of his best friendâs sister. It was more than just saying that he thought you were attractive, although he clearly thought that.
Jeon Jungkook had it bad for you. But how could you be able to see that?
The only face he would ever show you was one full of indifference, overconfidence and nonchalance; adorned with a smug smile and a pair of darkened eyes that warned you with a simple look that pure chaos was about to ensue. However, he did treat you differently than most girls. Jungkook would never get out of his bed at one in the morning just because your friends ditched you at a bar at the very last minute and you were too scared to call an Uber or a taxi.
Heâs never remembered the coffee order of the girls heâs hooked up with, but oddly enough he remembers the exact amount of sugar you like in yours; Jungkook wouldnât even remember their names. But yours? Yours was embroidered on the very front of his brain, not willing to erase it, not willing to forget it. Your order would be the first thing that comes to his mind every time heâs at a coffee shop, and more often than not heâs made the mistake of ordering yours instead of his, only to realize what he did a second too late. Your name was always at the tip of his tongue, risking his opportunity to fuck a random girl he met at a party. All because he almost said your name.
All those things were unmistakable, not easy to be looked over or ignored.
But once again, how could you be able to notice that the man was head over heels for you? When you wouldnât even let your heart accept its own feelings.
âDo I really need to say it?â Eunbi deadpanned, staring at you with an annoyed look. âMy god, Y/n, youâre not usually this dumb!â
âExcuse you?â You look offended, and rightfully so, but you were also ignoring the fact that your friend was just trying to make you see the obvious. âYouâre being mean right now.â
âAnd youâre not being reasonable.â She sighed in exhaustion. âAt least think about it, alright? If what you told me itâs anything to go by, that boy has it bad for you.â
Thinking is all you did, thinking is all you knew; it seemed to be like an easy task, but in hindsight it was way more difficult. It took you two more days to actually come to the conclusion that Eunbi may be right, and for those two days your mind didnât have a peaceful moment to even worry about your upcoming exams. Your brain was completely fried at that point, full with possibilities and theories of what the outcome of finally confronting Jungkook might be.
The first possible outcome was the least feared out of the thousands.
If you were to reach Jungkook through a text, he would not reply. Now, that wasnât really that bad, and in a more down to earth mindset, it would be completely deserved. Your not so reasonable side of your brain reassured you that he would and most likely will reply to any text you send him. Why wouldnât he, after all?
The second possible outcome was one that you didnât want to acknowledge.
If you were to call him, Jungkook would hang up after telling you to fuck off for not reaching out sooner. Seemed fitting and a very Jungkook-thing to do, but still you wished for that scenario to be false.
The last one was the worst among the assumptions swimming through your head. If you were to finally confess your feelings⌠he would reject you.
Rejection as a whole seemed like a terrifying experience. People would often avoid getting to that point, whether it would be them facing rejection or being the culprit of someone elseâs broken heart. You had been on both sides, had gone through both experiences; it wasnât anything you would like to live again. Hence to why you were trying so hard to suppress your feelings.
Poor and weak heart of yours, it didnât choose who you love, but it certainly chose who you hurt. And as it turns out, it wasnât only your brother who got caught in the crossfire.
Ever since you were a kid, flowers made you feel at ease. Their smell, their texture, even their bright colors. Anything about flowers was as relaxing as a day at the beach, at least for you.
You grew to be that one girl completely enamored with nature, and your fascination for flowers was only enhanced once you realized that people would use them as a token of love and appreciation for others. It was romantic, it was pure, it was honest. Gifting flowers to those who you loved and appreciated, to those who you held close to your heart, was such a kind and lovely gesture.
It was the purest act of love you could come across.
The meaning behind every kind of flower was such a wonderful thing to discover. Daisies were often a symbol of happiness and purity; whereas hydrangeas symbolize comfort in times of sorrow, especially at funerals. Orchids often represented beauty and strength, as well as the flowers birds of paradise. Roses, often associated with deep passion and love, had variations in meaning due to their colors; they could represent innocence and purity if they were white, or friendship and warmth if they were yellow.
However, among all those types of flowers, the ones you were holding in your hands at the moment were the hardest ones to carry with you. For no other reason than their meaning.
Striped carnations were often known for representing regret and remorse. They were used to apologize for past actions or mistakes.
It seemed fitting, so you bought the bouquet when you passed by a flower shop on your way to Jungkookâs house.
It took you way too long, but it was after one decisive night in that lonesome room of yours, fighting back the tears while finally reading those soft and beautiful words Jungkook used to pour his heart out, to confess his unmistakable love for you, that you finally made the decision. It was now or never, whatever the outcome of this might be, youâd face it and endure it.
So it was with shaky hands and wobbly legs that you carried yourself to Jeonâs apartment, holding the flowers tightly, afraid that they might disappear if you loosen the grip.
Several seconds passed with you standing outside his door, fearing that if you knocked reality might finally hit you in the face with the bitter truth: Jungkook didnât want you anymore.
âAre you gonna stand there all day, or youâll finally let me get in my house?â
That husky and seductive voice. It was hard to miss and hard to mistake it for anyone elseâs. That particular voice tone has been playing in your head ever since the night everything went down. It was obvious who it belonged to, and the undeniable fact only made your nerves reach a whole new level.
âSee, I wouldnât usually complain about a pretty girl standing outside my door, but I really need to get these bags inside.â Jungkook didnât seem bothered by your presence, and even if he did you would never notice.
Maybe you made the right choice to come and finally talk, or maybe you didnât.
Truth was that as it has been stated many times before, you were very oblivious, so it would be no surprise if you read the room wrong. But then again, he called you pretty, right? Wouldnât that count for something?
âIâ Yes! Fuck, sorry, I didnât know you werenât home.â
First apology of the night; many more to come.
âWould you mind helping me get my keys?â The dark-haired man in front of you turned around, just the right amount to insinuate that you grab the keys from his back pocket. âThe left one.â
Hesitantly, you reached out and dug into his pocket to retrieve the keys and give them to him. There was a light and soft touch when your fingers brushed that sent a slight shiver through your body.
It has been so long since the last time you were this close to Jungkook that you were already forgetting his touch, his smell and the way he could mesmerize you with a single look.
âCome on in.â Jeon led the way inside his house. âGet comfortable while I put this away.â
Jungkook was quick to make his way to the kitchen, getting the groceries out of the bags and setting everything in their respective place. It was hard for you to loosen up and get comfortable in a space that became foreign to you. Had it been any other time, you wouldnât have thought twice before sitting on the couch, or even following him to the kitchen to tell Jungkook about your day while he loaded his fridge with meat and veggies. But now it was different. Now you felt an increasing tension between you two, which made you stand stiff in the middle of his living room, rethinking your decision of finally confronting him.
It was not that you were a coward âmaybe you wereâ but more so the fact that you didnât know how to have a proper and serious conversation with the guy in question. The talk you had with your brother was orchestrated by Taehyung himself, you only chimed in to apologize profusely, which shouldnât have been enough but seemed to be more than sufficient for your brother. However, this time the ball was in your court, you were meant to do the talking while Jungkook was expected to listen attentively or at least pretend he was.
Maybe you shouldâve thought this through before putting your plan into action, but it was too late to back down now, and in all honesty, you werenât sure if you were capable to postpone this conversation any longer.
âI gotta admit, when Taehyung told me you were planning on paying me a visit I didn't believe him.â Jungkookâs voice rang through your ears once again, he walked back from the kitchen, becoming aware of your quizzical look. âOh, he didnât tell you we were back on friendly terms, I see.â He chuckled, beckoning you to sit on the couch with him.
Not only did your brother omit the fact that he was back to being friends with Jungkook, but also he couldnât keep his mouth shut about your plans of finally talking to Jeon, which made you upset by default. You thought that by now secrets and hiding things would have been out of the picture between you and Taehyung, but it looked like it was only you who decided to go down the path of honesty.
âYou two⌠Is everything okay between you and my brother?â It was only fair to ask, although you already knew the answer.
Jungkook nodded, looking away from you.
âHe called me a few days ago to talk, and wellâŚâ He drifted off. âI would say that everythingâs back to normal.â
âThatâs good.â You nodded.
It truly was. It might not seemed like it, but you were equally concerned about their bond being broken as you were about yours with your brother. It would deeply pain you to know that they couldnât continue to be the best of friends after the incident. It sent you a sense of relief that they were on good terms again, at least you didnât have to worry about ruining their friendship anymore.
âAre those for me?â His sudden question made you blink repeatedly. âThe flowers, I mean.â
Looking down at your lap you realized that you were still tightly holding the bouquet of striped carnations.
âOh⌠yes, theyâre for you.â Your hands moved slowly to softly place the bouquet on Jungkookâs palm.
âWhy thank you.â He seemed surprised. âUsually Iâm the one gifting flowers, not the other way around, so this is a first. Although, I donât know if I should feel flattered or concerned that youâre giving meâŚâ Jungkook stopped for a moment to look at the flowers more attentively. âStriped carnations.â
Of course he knew the meaning of the flowers. When has Jungkook not made you feel like a total idiot due to his undeniable intelligence?
âYeah, wellâŚâ You drifted off, not really knowing what to say.
The dark-haired guy let out a soft sigh, while the ghost of a smile took place on his lips.
âWhy are you here, Y/n?â Jungkook asked, silently urging you to answer honestly. âWe both know youâre not here just to deliver these.â
You took a deep breath, avoiding his eyes for a second. In theory, it shouldnât be this hard to answer his question or to start the speech that you have been memorizing all these days, but it was easier said than done. It was as if all the words in the English language had vanished from your brain, and you were left with dumb sounds that wouldnât help your case.
âMaybe I should change my question.â Jungkook placed the flowers on this coffee table, before speaking again. âAre you sure you want to go through this today? Itâs obvious you came here to talk about us, but how I see it, you might not be ready for it yet.â
You shook your head, squirming in your place to find a more comfortable position.
âI wanna do this, I really do.â You assured him. âI just donât know how to start.â
The tattooed man nodded, carefully sliding a bit closer to you.
âMaybe you can start by telling me why you gave me those flowers.â
Jungkook, bless his heart, always knew how to get the best out of you. It was easy for him to get people to talk about things they didnât even know they needed to let out. It almost made you think he had some sort of magic going on that would compel others to be open about their feelings.
âThey⌠They symbolize regret.â You finally answered. âTheyâre usually given when you want to apologize to someone.â
It was certainly easier to explain the meaning than to actually do it, but it must count for something, right?
âMhmm.â He hummed, waiting for you to continue with your explanation. âWhy give them to me then?â
âBecause I want to apologize to you.â There, you finally said it, there was no going back. âIâm sorry, Jungkook.â Taking a deep breath you continued. âIâm sorry about what happened that night, Iâm sorry for the way I treated you afterwards; Iâm sorry for putting all the blame on you when I was just as guilty. Iâm so fucking sorry for the things I did and said.â
You felt like you could finally breathe, like a weight was slowly lifting off your shoulders.
âYou didnât deserve any of that.â Tears were starting to cloud your vision. âI didnât mean it when I said I wished I didnât meet you. It was so stupid of me to say it, getting to know you has been one of the most complicated yet amazing things that have happened to me. And Iâm truly sorry that I wasnât able to show it.â
Jeon reached out to wipe away the tears that were starting to run down your cheeks.
âPlease donât cry.â He begged, almost too quietly.
It pained him how aggravated and distressed you were, right in front of him. Jungkook knew it was only right for you to apologize but it wasnât fair that you were suffering so much when he was at fault too.
âIâm sorry too.â He finally apologized. âI did things wrong, I shouldnât have agreed to hide all of this from Taehyung. I knew we werenât doing the right thing, but I let it slide because it meant I could have you longer.â
Jeon regretted how things went down, but it would be a lie if he said he didnât enjoy his time with you. Jungkook knew that the moment the truth was out, it would only complicate everything for the both of you; not to mention that he was scared that Taehyung would prohibit him from being near you. Jungkook was so weak for you that he couldnât stand the possibility of losing you so easily. And so it was decided that it would be kept as a secret for as long as you two deemed necessary. However, he didnât really think that the outcome would be so painful.
âI just⌠I couldnât bear not being with you. I couldnât let you go.â Jungkook confessed. âIâm sorry. A lot of things wouldâve been different if I did.â
âNo.â You shook your head. âEven if you tried, I wouldnât have let it happen.â You brushed the tears away, trying to keep your composure. âCould you please forgive me? I donât⌠I donât want you to hate meâ
You were silently praying that the answer to your question would be yes. It scared you that he reserved the right to reject you and move on with his life. After all, it wouldnât surprise you if he did, it would be rightfully deserved.
However, Jungkook once again proved to you that he was way different from what you picture him to be.
âI already forgave you, sweet cheeks.â
His smile, oh how much you missed his smile. It was the rainbow you needed to see after a storm. Like a warm blanket during a snowy day. Like the comfort you seeked when everything outside was falling apart.
It was so him, and it almost brought you back to tears when you finally saw it. Shining so bright and pretty on his face.
âAnd Iâm afraid that thereâs nothing you could do to make me hate you.â His hand reached out to cup your cheek, making you lean into his touch. âWould you be willing to forgive me too? I know I hurt you with the things Iâve done, butââ
âYes. I forgive you, Kook.â You smiled at him softly.
âThat means weâre good, right?â
If only it was that easy.
There was one thing that was still bothering you and it was the unmistakable feelings for the boy in front of you. Confessing has always been hard, but when it comes to confessing your feelings to Jeon Jungkook, it was ten times worse.
âActually, thereâs something I still need to talk about.â You approached the matter carefully.
âWhat is it?â Jungkook felt uneasy, he didnât know what else you had to say, but it was making him nervous. As if he knew something bad would happen. âAre you still upset?â
âNo! No, no, itâs not that.â You assured him. âI⌠it might be a dumb question but⌠That text, the one you sent me the last time you tried to reach out to me.â
Why was it so hard to say it?
âDid you mean it, all of it?â
A sigh abandoned Jungkookâs lips, and the hand that was once holding your face, slowly retrieved to fall on his lap.
That was it, he was gonna reject you. That was the thought running through your head. His lack of response set a crack in your heart, making you feel vulnerable, making you feel dumb. It was obvious what his answer was going to be, why did you even have to ask?
âYou read it?â Jungkook finally spoke. âI thought you simply decided to ignore it.â
You sighed, feeling ashamed of your actions.
âI did at first. I mean, I only got to read it as of recent because I⌠might have blocked you.â You cringed after finally confessing what you did. âI know it was childish, trust me, but I was mad at the time and I thought it was for the better.â
Jungkook simply nodded, showing you a reassuring smile.
âSo yes, I read it, and I would be lying if I said it didnât surprise me.â You looked like in his eyes. âThatâs why Iâm asking⌠Did you really mean it?â
The words adorning your screen late at night while you were reading the long paragraph he sent you were engraved in your brain. It was all memorized at this point. You spent night after night reading every single word while tears were spurting out of your eyes, lamenting that you didnât open his message sooner.
I would never forgive me for the pain Iâve caused you.
Iâm sorry for being a coward and not saying this to your face.
You already knew how sorry he was, not only because he apologized only a few seconds ago, but Jungkook also poured his heart and soul into that message, letting you know how deeply sorry he felt for what he put you through.
This is me being honest, this is me being true to myself.
The confession was the hardest part to read, but it was equally shocking and relieving to know thatâŚ
I wish I could say this to you, face to face.
He indeedâŚ
But I canât hide it any longer.
Felt the sameâŚ
I love you, Y/n.
For you.
âI did. I meant it, with my whole heart.â Jungkook smiled at you, sweetly, delicately, lovingly. He wanted to express his love for you in any way he could, in every gesture, every word, every smile. âI donât know if I might regret this later or not, but what I know is that I donât want to act as if I werenât so madly in love with you.â
His answer drew a gasp out of you. It was one thing reading his confession and getting to know his real feelings for you, but listening to him say it out loud was a new, different experience.
Jungkook looked at you as if you held the world in the palm of your hands, as if you were the remedy for his pain; as if you were the only person worth fighting for. And maybe you were. Heâs never felt any sort of feeling that could come close to the emotions he has experienced and continues to experience with you. His heart has never beaten so hard to the point of feeling as if it were to escape from his chest. It only felt like that when he was around you.
You were the reason for Jungkook's many sleepless nights, when Jeon could only think of every little detail about you that he loved so much. Your laugh, your smile, the way a frown would be adorning your face when you try to concentrate, or how adorable you look while playing with any pet you come across.
It was so hard for him to get you out of his mind; so difficult to erase the feeling of your skin burning against his, of your lips traveling all around his body to leave marks that he prayed would last a lifetime, because maybe that way, at least a part of you would stay within himself.
âI know you might not feel the same.â His husky voice echoed through the walls of his living room after a moment of silence. âAnd I didnât say all those things in hopes you would reciprocate my feelings. I just couldnât keep hiding it anymore.â
His words were running through your mind, as a distant noise. You wanted to say a lot of things, to scream from the top of your lungs that you loved him just as much, or maybe even more than he did you. But your brain and mouth werenât connected, as it seems, because instead of putting an end to both of your sufferings, you opted to ask him:
âHow long have you felt this way?â
Jungkook sighed, reminiscing about all the moments where he felt like falling in love with you. There werenât that many, in all honesty, but every single one of them felt like the loveliest of dreams.
âIâm not entirely sure.â He confessed. âMaybe it was when I first met you and you were so nervous around me that you even tripped over your feet and fell onto me.â A smile was slowly appearing on his face, âOr perhaps it was when I picked you up from your friends house that one night. You were absolutely hammered and babbling about one of your friends doing a backflip while drinking a shot.â
âI was a complete mess that time.â
It was embarrassing to remember that night. You drank and ate so much that you ended up emptying your stomach the moment you walked in your house. The majority of it was a blur, but despite your clouded memory you could still remember the silly things you were saying to Jungkook.
It also happened to be the first time you almost confessed your feelings for him.
âYou say that, but back then I thought that you were the most beautiful girl Iâve ever seen, with that green dress and your rosy cheeks.â Jungkook reached out to caress your face with his thumb. âThe way you smiled at me that night⌠it was so hard for me not to kiss you until I lost breath.â
His words felt like a warm hug to your heart. Love is always a nightmare when you fall alone, and for so long you felt like it was only you who felt the chemistry between the two.
âTruth is, that I donât know when or how I fell for you, it just naturally happened.â He smiled at you, cupping your cheek once again. âAnd I think itâs your fault I fell this hard.â Before you could protest, he continued. âHow could I not develop feelings when youâre such a lovable person, Y/n. So caring, kind and beautiful through and through. Anyone would be lucky to have you in their life and call you theirs.â
âDo it then.â A clear and determined glint was adorning your eyes. âHave me and call me yours.â
Your bold request surprised both of you. Jungkook wasnât expecting you to say such a thing, let alone that you would indirectly confess that you wanted him in the same way he did you.
âWhatâd you say?â
âIf youâre willing to have me, I want to be yours.â The anticipation was killing you, making all your senses be on the lookout for any sign of discomfort on Jungkookâs face. âI like you, Kook, and I mean it with my whole heart.â
Jeon couldnât believe what he was hearing. He had already accepted the fact that you didnât reciprocate his feelings. A one sided, unrequited love was all he got, but perhaps life finally decided to give me a breather and let him have the ounce of happiness that the boy desperately craved all along.
âYou mean⌠you feel the same?â He asked carefully, waiting for your answer impatiently. âYou loâ, no, you like me too?â
With a soft nod and a bright smile, you answered: âI do. I do like you, and I do love you, Jungkook.â
The words felt foreign coming from your mouth, as if you never imagined yourself proclaiming your love for the boy on countless nights. Reality, however, was way better than any hypothetical scenario where Jungkook would run to you to say it was mutual.
You could see the exact moment when your words finally made sense in his head, when he finally realized that this was not a dream and that you, in fact, felt the same for him.
âYou better not be joking.â Jeon teased, still being a bit apprehensive that you might laugh at his face as part of some twisted prank to break his heart. âThis is⌠not how I imagined this would go.â
âMe neither, but I can promise you that Iâm being as serious and honest as I can be.â
âI believe you.â
And he really did; deep down Jungkook knew that even if life would want to turn on him and watch him suffer, you would never play a part in that. Your words felt sincere, despite the hesitation in your voice and your fidgeting fingers.
Jungkook was sure that he could lay his heart in your hands, and let you take it away to make it yours, and he would never have to worry of you hurting it.
âNow, does that mean weâre good, right?â He asked once again, with a bright grin on his face.
âYes, weâre good now.â You giggled, sliding closer to him.
âSo, can I kiss you now?â
You stopped in your tracks, with your wide-eyed gaze and tingling fingers, ready to feel his skin on yours.
It has been a long time since the last kiss you two shared, you would be lying if you said you werenât needy for his kisses or his touch, and so, without a second thought you leaned in, stopping just a few inches from his face.
âDo it.â
Jungkook didnât need more than that. Your words were enough to make him lose his composure and crash his lips against yours.
A warm sensation spread all around your body, filling you with ecstasy and the serotonin you much needed, also luring you to take more and more of him. Your hands started a slow trip up his torso to finally wrap around his neck and pull him closer than before.
Jungkook was holding you with such delicacy, as if he were scared that you would break. It felt like a lifetime since the last time he had you like this and the boy was afraid he would do something that could ruin the moment. Days and days Jeon spent replaying in his head those moments full of passion and need that you two loved to share; the times where he would have you in his arms, silently claiming you as his, while his lips traveled across your skin to paint your flesh with hues of red and purple. Back then, Jungkook could only hope that said marks would fade slowly, letting him enjoy the way your body had proof that the only man able to take all your inhibitions and make you reach the sky was no other than himself.
Now, feeling you like this, touching you like this, without the fear of someone seeing you and starting rumors, without the worry of hiding from your brother, and with the clear understanding that both of you feel the same for the other, Jungkook could finally enjoy the moment to the fullest. His warm hands engulfing you in his tender touch distracted you from his desperate lips running up and down your neck, and from his teeth sinking into your flesh.
A moan escaped from your mouth, parting your lips while a rush of heat conquered every inch of your skin. It was becoming difficult to keep the moment nice and romantic, without turning it into a hot mess of kisses and inappropriate touching.
âI love you, Y/n.â Jungkook whispered into your ear, before pulling slightly away to look right into your eyes. âI really do.â
His soft gaze ignited a bubbling feeling at the pit of your stomach, making you want to stay like this forever, just staring at each other with tender smiles. But a part of you knew it wouldnât be enough, you wanted more, craved more, so it was no surprise when you pushed Jungkook to rest on the back of the couch while you moved to straddle him.
âShow me.â You asked. âShow me how much you love me.â
A sly smirk took place on Jungkookâs face, while his hands acted automatically to be placed on your hips and hold you down on his lap.
âIâm not sure you can handle it.â He teased. âThat you can handle me.â
The tattooed man was looking for a challenge, to start a play of who can handle more before they get so desperate that clothes start to fly out all around the house.
âTry me, then.â You argued back. âI promise you, youâll be surprised to find out how much of you I can handle.â
A scoff passed his lips while his hands tightened the grip on your hips.
âYou sure you want this night to go like this? Donât you prefer we take this slower?â Even if there was a light mocking tone attached to his voice, concern and worry were also adorning it.
Jungkook was still scared that tonight might be just a dream and that once he closes his eyes you would slip through his fingers to never be found again. He didnât want to make or say the wrong thing, and it worried him that falling into old habits would do the damage he was trying to avoid.
âDo you want to take things slower?â
It was a possibility you never considered, but coming to think of it, maybe it was better to take it easy before rushing to do things you might not be ready to do just yet.
It was a fresh start after all, but maybe that didnât implied fucking on the same night you two finally confessed your feelings for the other.
âI want you, but I donât want to ruin this chance we have now.â His answer warmed your heart, making you smile at him. âI donât want to make old mistakes and make you think Iâm only using you for your body.â
âI know youâre not, at least now I do.â You assured him. âI want you, Jungkook, and I want this with you, but if youâre not ready thatâs completely fine, we donât have to do anything.â
He shook his head, wrapping both of his arms around your waist to hold you close to him.
âI just wanted to make sure you were okay with this.â A kiss was softly placed on your lips, before Jungkook suddenly stood up with you in his arms, carrying you to his bedroom. âBut if weâre gonna do this, letâs do it somewhere comfortable.â
âThe couch was comfortable enough.â You giggled, holding onto him to make sure you didn't fall.
âMaybe, but my girl deserves better than that.â
The last time you were in his room was when Jungkook decided it was a good idea to stay in, instead of going out with your friends. He managed to convince you to stay with him, as he promised you a night full of food, drinks and his head buried in between your thighs.
Back then you didnât care to observe the little details that made Jungkookâs room so him.
His walls were painted with a somber hue of blue, adorned with pictures of him and the rest of his friend group or his family. Your brother appeared in most of the photos, as Jungkook cherished every single moment they have spent together. There was even a picture of him and his dog, Bam, which was currently at his parents house, framed on the nightstand. The rest of the room was as any guyâs room would be; clothes scattered across the floor, that you would often steal from him whenever you were at his place; messy desk with cans of beer and energy drinks, as well as his computer and a pair of headphones; two vapes were also left on the desk, next to a pair of rings and a watch.
The bed was adorned with a single pillow and white sheets. He didnât need much as he lived alone, but anytime you were over Jungkook would try to accommodate his house to make you feel comfortable.
âSorry for the lack of pillows.â He apologized when he put you down on the soft mattress. âI didnât know you were coming over, or I wouldâve gotten the one you like so much.â
âItâs not like weâre gonna use it right now, so weâre good.â You chuckled tugging his shirt to bring him down to you. âNow, please do something, Iâve been waiting for way too long to have you like this again.â
âSo impatient.â He smirked, running his hands up and down your sides. âLet me take my time with you, like you said, itâs been too long.â
Jungkook started a trail of kisses down your neck, while his hands pushed up the fabric of your shirt to knead your hot skin.
âWe need to take this off.â He didnât waste a moment to take your shirt off, admiring your upper body with hungry eyes. âFuck, I missed seeing you like this, baby.â
Jeon didnât give you time to reply before his mouth attacked your lips once again. There was desperation and neediness coursing through both of your bodies and it was palpable how bad you wanted one another, which in result made the two of you act clumsy while getting undressed.
Jungkook struggled to take off your bra and pants but he finally did, leaving you only in your underwear. His hands ran up to fondle your tits, feeling them and tugging at your nipples while his lips were rapidly traveling down to the place where you needed him the most.
âSo fucking perfect, you have no idea how much I wanted to have you like this.â He confessed, placing wet kisses all around your inner thighs.
âJungkookâŚâ You called for him in a breathy voice, while squirming in your place.
The sensations he was sending right to your core were making it impossible for you to stay put.
âPleaseâŚâ You begged.
âPlease, what?â He asked. âWhat do you want, beautiful?â
It was hard for you to talk, especially with his mouth so dangerously close to your soaked cunt, but you managed.
âPlease touch me.â You moaned out, hands traveling down to pull his hair and get him closer to your core.
âIs this not enough?â Jungkook inquired, playfully. He didnât relent, getting out of your grasp to do as he pleased. âDo you need more, baby?â
A nod was all he got, but that wouldnât cut it, not for Jungkook.
âUse your words.â A harsh smack was delivered to one of your thighs, making it jiggle. âCome on, be good and tell me what you want.â
Groaning you rested your weight on your shoulders to look down at him with desperate eyes.
âPlease touch me here.â Your hand moved rapidly to caress your center through your wet underwear. âI need you so bad.â
âThatâs all you had to say, sweetheart.â Jungkook didnât waste a second longer on teasing you, instead he made sure to take off your dripping panties, putting them to the side and forcing your legs to stay wide open. âLook at that, so pretty and wet for me, huh?â He ran his fingers through your folds, smearing your juices all over. âThis is just for me, right baby?â
You nodded vehemently, chasing after his touch.
âYes, only you can get me like this.â
The tattooed guy dipped down, placing a dangerous kiss right under your navel, so close yet so far away from where you needed him the most. A fire was ignited in between your legs, and Jungkook was the perfect remedy for that. His lips traveled down slowly, coming face to face with your dripping cunt. He took his sweet time licking up and down your folds, his wet tongue felt wonderful against your burning flesh, making you elicit the sweetest of sounds just for him.
âFuck, that feels so good.â Moan after moan, your composure and sanity were slowly disappearing, leaving you with an ardent need to grind against his tongue. âFaster, pleaseâŚâ
Your boy couldnât deny any of your wishes, and so his pace quickened in a matter of seconds, running his tongue up and down as fast as he could, only momentarily stopping at your clit to suck on it before continuing with his ministrations. Jungkook was avidly eating you out, enjoying the taste of your juices on his hot tongue and the feeling of your entrance clenching on it whenever he let it slip in. It was like heaven on earth, like a much needed meal he waited for so long. And just like a starved man, Jeon did his best to devour you until there was nothing else from you that he could take.
âDonât stop, Iâm so fucking close!â You could feel his fingers opening your folds to make their way inside your cunt, pumping in and out at a slow pace. âOh my god!â
Your hands were still pulling at his hair, desperately trying to get a good hold on him to bring him closer and closer to you.
âYou taste so freaking good, baby.â Jungkook pulled away to inhale some air before diving in again and smothering his face with your soaking folds. âFuck, best pussy Iâve ever had.â
His nasty words were making your eyes flutter shut, with a stream of curses falling off your lips. It was ridiculous how good he could make you feel with his mouth and his fingers, you always wondered how he knew exactly what to do to make you see the stars. Jungkook was so good at reading your body, even better than you ever could; his touch was delicious, charged with the right amount of passion to throw you over the edge.
âYou getting close, doll? Wanna come on my tongue, hm?â
âYes, please! Iâm so close.â You begged, breathlessly. âI justâ fuck, need it⌠need to cum, please.â
A chuckle vibrated against your cunt, making you shiver. His fingers slipped out of your hole, leaving you empty and needy.
âGo on, pretty, cum for me.â
It was almost automatic; the moment those words left Jungkookâs mouth, the waves of your pending orgasm finally crashed over your body, making your legs shake and leaving your skin coated in goosebumps. Eyes fully shut and mouth widely open, not caring about the obscene sounds coming out of it like a chant. Jeonâs name was repeated over and over like a broken record, just like a fervent believer would pray away their sins, so vehemently, so desperately. His name was attached to your brain, making it the only coherent word leaving your lips.
âThere you go, thatâs my good girl.â He caressed your sides softly. âYou look so beautiful when you cum.â
His praise made your head feel fuzzy and the fire between your legs was fueled once again, ready for another round.
Slowly you opened your eyes, blinking away the tiredness and trying to focus on the boy in front of you. His face became clearer and clearer, providing you with one of his breath-taking smiles.
âYou good there?â Jungkook asked, sweetly, while a tender kiss was placed on your lips. âDâyou wanna take a moment?â
You shook your head, still recovering your ability to speak properly.
âI wannaâŚâ A whisper ran through his ears, prompting him to lean closer. âWant toâŚâ
âWhat do you want, my love?â
My love.
Jungkook has never called you that before, and if you were to be true, it felt fucking amazing to hear him say it.
âYou, I want you.â It was your final answer, looking right up at him with a fierce glare.
Your hands reached out to palm him through his boxers, feeling his hard erection twitch under your touch. The dark-haired boy hissed at the sensation of your fingers wrapping around his cock, while giving it a light squeeze.
âYou donâtâ shit, you donât have to.â Jeon reassured you. âLet me⌠take care of you.â
âBut I want to.â You argued back, slipping your hand inside his underwear. He felt heavy and warm, and so painfully hard that it made you feel bad that he had to stay confined in the small space of his boxers while he ate you out. âLet me taste you, baby.â
You were craving his cock ever since you stepped into his room; the mental image of his dick pumping in and out of your mouth left you salivating, almost whimpering at the thought.
âPlease, I wanna make you feel good too.â
Jungkook closed his eyes for a brief moment, pondering if he should let you have your way or if it was better to turn you around and fuck you into oblivion. He reasoned, at the end, that he could do both. Jeon would let you have your fun for a moment, and afterwards he would completely destroy you with his cock.
âHow can I say no to such a pretty baby?â He grinned at you, getting in a more comfortable position while taking his underwear off. âItâs all yours, sweetheart.â
Scrambling quickly to rest on your hands and knees, you took his cock into one of your palms, slowly stroking him and smearing the drop of saliva you spat onto his dick, to make it easier for you to move your hand.
It was such an amazing sensation, your small hand struggling to wrap around his thick cock, fighting your own urge to pump him dry until he was whimpering and begging. Maybe another time youâll be able to see that side of him, but tonight you were determined to make him cum in your mouth, and so deciding you wouldnât waste a second longer, you took his red head in between your lips, rocking your head slowly to take more and more of his length. Little by little you were able to fit almost all of him inside your throat, choking a little bit when his tip reached a bit too far.
âFuck, that feels amazing, baby. Keep going.â He moaned, looking down at you and the way his dick disappeared inside your mouth with ease. âJust like that, donât you dare stop.â
Your pace increased, ripping moans and groans out of the boy. Your heart swelled with pride for making him sound and act like that; it took you way too long to be in such a position once again that you were fearing you didnât have the same effect on him anymore.
âFaster, doll, I know you can go faster.â His hand weaved through your hair to get a hold on your head and guide your movements. âThatâs right, fuck, your mouth was made only for my cock.â
It truly was, his dick fit almost perfectly and without further complications. The way you were so eager to take him in, without flinching or gagging was truly amazing for the man in front of you. Jungkook was mesmerized by your ability to suck him off until he didnât have much to give.
âShit, stay still for a moment.â He ordered, placing both hands at each side of your head. You did as told, waiting for his next move. âThere you go, I want to fuck this pretty mouth of yours.â
His hips swayed beautifully, thrusting in and out of your throat. His cock was reaching places like never before and brought tears to your eyes due to the effort of keeping your jaw relaxed and opened for him.
âThatâs it, such a good little slut, letting me use you, huh?â He teased, smirking right at you. âYou like it when I use you like this, donât ya?â
It was as clear as day that you did, no need for an answer, yet you tried to nod, which only caused to boost his ego due to how much you struggled to move.
âMhm, I know you do, baby.â His pace increased and so did his moans; it was difficult for the tall guy to be quiet, especially with the delicious feeling of your mouth on his cock.
All of a sudden he pulled away, letting you recover your breath and positioning you to lay back down again.
âAs much as Iâd love to keep fucking your mouth, Iâd rather stuff this pretty pussy with my cum.â Jungkook leaned down to suck on your neck, making sure to leave a mark on a very obvious spot, where everyone would be able to see it.
Feeling like you belonged to someone, like you were a nice piece of jewelry owned by a man like Jungkook, it should have caused you a very different feeling from the one you were experiencing. Your eyes shouldnât be searching for him, impatiently, to see that look of determination in his orbs that would tell you that you belonged to him and him alone. Your hands shouldnât reach out to touch his back, sinking your nails into his flesh just like his teeth did in your skin; a weak attempt to reciprocate the feeling, to make it clear who was the only girl who would make the great Jeon Jungkook so desperate and needy. But they did, and you enjoyed it; you loved the hiss coming from his mouth and the shiver coursing his body. You adored the way his eyes softened for a brief second, while looking right into yours and straight into your heart.
It was like a stroke to your ego, knowing it was you who he craved, who he needed. It was you, and it would continue to be you for a long time.
Jungkook finally pulled away from your neck, standing tall in front of you and guiding himself to slide up and down your folds, coating his cock with your juices. His tip was nudging at your clit every time he went up, making you gasp and shudder.
It was a torture, feeling him so close yet so far from your entrance, the worst part was that he enjoyed getting you like this; Jungkook loved toying with you. And it was so unfair how much the boy could make you crave his touch, but not give it to you.
âJust put it in, for fucks sake.â A frustrated groan abandoned your lips.
You couldnât handle the teasing anymore. However, you didnât think about the consequences of your words and how bad it would end for you for demanding such a thing.
Jungkook stopped all of his movements, slowly drifting his gaze up, to look right into your eyes. His gaze darkened, making you recoil in your place, while your legs started to close in anticipation of his next move.
Jeon moved to get close to your ear and whisper, âIâm gonna let it slide just because Iâm as eager as you to fuck you dumb, but be careful with what you say, princess.â Slowly, he pulled away, to then harshly open your legs and slap your clit with his cock. âTurn around.â He ordered.
It took you a few seconds to register his words in your brain, but finally you did as told, albeit reluctantly, because you wanted to see and feel him from up close while he fucked you into oblivion.
âDonât turn your face.â He caught you trying to look over your shoulder, guiding your head to look right into the pillow.
âBut I wanna see you.â You whined, not fighting him anymore.
âShoulda thought about it, before acting like a brat.â A slap was delivered to your ass cheek, making you flinch and whimper. âAnd be grateful Iâm being nice enough to fuck you, despiste your nasty attitude.â
Jungkook positioned himself with your entrance, anticipating the tight grip of your warm walls.
âIâm sorry.â You apologized quietly, in an attempt to make him relent and change positions.
âToo late for that, baby.â He chuckled while thrusting all the way into your tight cunt, not giving you time to argue any longer. âFuck, this is heaven.â His head lolled back, placing both of his hands at each side of your hips to guide your movements.
âOh my fucking god!â You exclaimed, feeling his veiny cock reach every crook of your insides.
Moans and whimpers were falling from your lips uncontrollably, due to how good Jungkookâs dick felt. He hasnât moved yet since he thrusted in, but the sensation alone of being filled to the brim with his length was enough to make you see stars.
âMo-Move.â You stuttered, trying to bounce back and create the much needed friction. âPlease, move!â
Jungkook could only smirk, enjoying how vulnerable you were at the moment, completely at his mercy. He controlled your body and pleasure perfectly, knowing the spots and touches that would get you shuddering in pure bliss.
âNow you remember your manners, doll?â He grunted, slowly retrieving from inside your pussy, all the way out until your walls could only wrap around the tip. âHow convenient.â
You wanted to argue and clap back, but it was impossible to form a coherent thought while being tortured like that. Jungkook didnât care that he was also stopping himself from feeling the ridiculously amazing sensation of fucking into you, as long as he could teach you a lesson and make you regret your words and actions.
âPlease, please, please.â You cried out, trying to move, but giving up after the tall man stopped you with a harsh smack. âJungkookâŚâ
The way you said his name made the guy feel some type of way, but still not enough to give you exactly what you wanted.
âYou gotta ask me nicely, princess, and I might give it to you.â
He wanted you to ask nicely and ask nicely is what you did; gathering enough strength to softly utter the words, you tried to clear your throat to finally speak.
âPlease, Kook, can you fuck me so good until I forget my name?â Such a sweet tone for such a lewd request. âI need you to fill me up with your cock, please.â
The tattooed guy leaned down, wrapping one of his strong arms around your neck while dipping down to whisper in your ear.
âMmm, you sound so fucking pretty when you beg for me like that.â His gentle lips kissed up and down your jaw. âYou did good, baby. I think you finally deserve it.â
Without previous warning, Jungkook thrusted all the way in again, filling you up to the brim, however, this time he didnât torture you with a slow pace or any sort of teasing. Jeon didnât waste a second longer and commenced to rapidly pound into you, until you could only whine and whimper.
His arm wrapped around your neck was slightly obstaculazing your breathing, but you wouldnât have it any other way. It felt immensely good to be fucked nice and hard while every single inch of Jungkookâs body was engulfing you.
âFuck, you feel amazing, baby.â He moaned. âClenching on my cock, so good.â
His free hand traveled down in between your legs to rub your clit, making you so sensitive and causing even more moans to fall from your lips.
âSh-shit, oh god!â You exclaimed with a trembling voice. âSo big⌠so deep.â
A chuckle rumbled from Jungkookâs chest. He has always loved how dirty you would get for him, speaking nonsense about his size and how good he fucks you. It was truly an ego boost.
âYeah? You like how deep I go, baby?â He panted, due to all the effort he was putting into destroying you with his cock. âYou love when I fuck you like this, donât you?â
You could only nod, it was hard to form a coherent sentence at the moment.
âLook at you,â he laughed. âYou canât even talk.â
You couldnât protest, couldnât even move. The only thing you could do was relax and allow your body to enjoy the way Jungkook was so avidly thrusting into you. Your arms and legs were starting to give up, feeling too tired to keep your body up; you just wanted to lay down.
Jungkook could feel your exhaustion, and so he quickly unwrapped his arm from your neck, to then turn you around and get you in a comfortable position, all of this while still fucking you senseless.
âThere you go, better?â He asked, genuinely concerned about your wellbeing.
âMhm.â You hummed, closing your eyes while your hands fisted the sheets. âDonât stopâŚâ
âWouldnât dream of it.â
Jungkook felt like dying with the way your walks were clenching on him. Your pussy felt heavenly, so warm and so tight only for his cock. He knew he had already ruined you for any other man you could possibly meet in your life ânot like heâs gonna let that happen, anywayâ, and he loved that fact. The dark-haired boy enjoyed how you would only crave him, need him, beg just for him. This side of you, no one knew, he was sure that not even your past boyfriends got to see you like this. So free, so dirty, so beautiful and tempting. It was only him, and Jungkook could only wish it continued to be like that for a long time.
Amidst Jungkookâs wandering thoughts, he didnât realize you had opened your eyes once again, looking right into his own, with such a fierce stare. Your hands started a slow trip from his thighs up to his chest, caressing his honeyed skin which was glistening with sweat; shining just right under the moonlight. Your nails softly scratched his flesh, making the boy tremble under your touch and lean into your hands to feel more of you. It was getting to that point where he no longer held power or willingness to be dominant. Jeon was starting to lose himself in you, in the way your cunt was wrapped around his cock, in the way his length would poke your stomach because of how deep he was; in the way your mouth was softly calling for him, accompanied by obscene noises that he only loved hearing if the came from you.
âYou look so fucking pretty, Y/n.â The lack of a pet name sent a warm hug to your heart. You knew he was being serious; no teasing, no mocking. Jungkook was speaking from his heart, completely enamored with the view of you; panting underneath him while your body welcomed his embrace so perfectly. âI could never get tired of looking at you, my pretty baby.â
There were not enough words in the English language that could help you express how grateful you were for having a man like Jungkook in your life. But perhaps there was no need, since you knew that showing it was always more effective than saying it.
Your hands wrapped around his neck, pulling him down to mesh his lips with yours. His swollen lips moved slowly and gently, a stark contrast to the way he was fucking you. His cock was wildly ramming into you, while his lips were softly caressing yours. His tongue quickly made its way inside your mouth, starting a fight with your own to assert dominance, nonetheless, it was futile, that fight was already won by him and you could only back down and enjoy his touch.
âIâm so close.â You moaned, wrapping both of your legs around his waist to make him go even deeper. âI need toâ fuck, I need to cum.â
Jungkook shook his head, heavily breathing while gathering his thoughts to talk properly. The feeling of it all was making him feel dizzy.
âJust⌠Just wait a bit longer.â He ordered you.
You groaned, fluttering your eyes shut while trying your best to hold it until he told you to let go. It became a torture once again. You knew you wouldnât be able to wait for too long, especially with the change in pace and how deep his cock was reaching. His tip was nudging at that sweet spot of yours, making your whole body stutter and whine so perfectly that it made Jungkook grunt into your neck.
âIâm almost there.â He announced, manically pounding into you. âJust a bit more, princess.â
âI donât⌠I donât think I can wait⌠anymore.â You cried out, fisting his hair while your hips were desperately moving on their own volition, searching for some sweet release. âIâm gonna cum.â
It was not a warning anymore, it was a fact. Your orgasm was rapidly approaching, making your body tremble with the waves of your awaited release. Rather than holding yourself back, you finally let go, enjoying the sensations and pleasure your orgasm brought with itself.
Jungkook hissed at the way your pussy clenched on his dick, making it almost impossible for him to keep moving.
âOh, fuck.â He cursed, looking down at where your bodies were joined, feeling a bit lightheaded from how good it felt. Your cum was coating his cock, making it shine so perfectly. âThatâs my good girl, make a mess on my dick, come on.â
His encouraging words only made it even difficult for you to come down from your high, but the boy couldnât care any less. Jungkook rejoiced in the feeling of pride for making you feel that way, to make you so vulnerable and weak that the intensity of your release would make you go dumb and turn you into a babbling mess. Not a single thought was behind those beautiful eyes of yours at that precise moment, and Jeon loved how lost you looked, reaching out in need of his comforting touch to ground yourself after such intense orgasm.
Your hands found his, intertwining your fingers to form a hard grip.
Jungkook kept fucking into you, desperately searching for his own release, not stopping for even a second to catch his breath. He needed to cum and needed it now.
âCan I cum inside you?â Jeon was so quick to ask when he felt his orgasm building up in the pit of his stomach. âPlease⌠I wanna fill you up.â
It was such a different side of him. The whiny and needy side of him you loved so much. His begging got you weak in the knees and made your stomach flutter with adoration.
You nodded, gently caressing his face while kissing his lips once again.
âLook at me, please.â Jungkook begged so sweetly. âKeep your eyes on me, I need to see you.â
âLet go for me, baby.â You smiled up at him, staring right into his eyes, while noises full of passion echoed through the room.
His whiny moans rang in your ears, making you feel fuzzy inside.
âFuck, so good.â He moaned, resting his forehead on yours, his eyes never looking away. âI love you, Y/n. I love you so fucking much.â
âI love you too, Kook.â You said, breathlessly, feeling his warm cum filling your already sore pussy. âJust like that, so good.â
Jungkook kept rocking into you until his legs couldnât hold him up and he ended up crashing into you. His strong arms slowly wrapped themselves around your frame, keeping you close and safe. He hid his face in the crook of your neck, with his hot breath hitting against your skin. A stream of incoherent curses were coming out his mouth, making you giggle. Neither of you dared to speak for at least five minutes, silently deciding to enjoy each other while recovering from each of your intense orgasms.
It truly felt like heaven on earth, whether it was because of how long you two have been apart, or because of Jungkookâs amazing skills; whatever it was you felt amazing and finally complete. The missing piece of the puzzle was finally here, making your life ten times better and brighter.
Jungkook was the first one to break the silence, with his babbling and groaning.
âWhat was that?â You asked him to repeat himself.
âI saidâŚâ He sighed, pulling away from your neck. âIâm fucking spent.â
âMe too.â You giggled. âBut it was worth it.â
âDamn right it was.â
Jungkook finally pulled out, watching his cum slowly flow out from your cunt. Two of his fingers gathered the liquid coming out of you and pushed it back inside, making you gasp in surprise.
âWe canât afford to waste any drop now, can we?â He smirked at you while his fingers danced slowly inside you. âYou always feel so warm, baby, no wonder why I love your pussy so much.â
After a few seconds, Jungkook retrieved his fingers from inside of you and wrapped his pink lips around them, liking every drop of both of your cums.
âSo sweet.â
A part of you wanted to push him to lay down and ride him until your legs couldnât keep you still, but you were so tired and exhausted that even the idea of putting any effort into making Jungkook lay down made you groan.
âCome here, baby.â Jeon wrapped an arm around your waist and pulled you into his side, making your head rest on his firm chest. âLetâs rest for a bit before I fuck you again.â
You hit him softly in his stomach, causing both of you to giggle.
âJust how much stamina you think I have?â You asked.
âNot so much, to be honest.â He joked. âBut itâs bold of you to assume I would make you work for it a second time. Iâm not that mean, baby.â
âYeah, thatâs what you want me to think.â
You looked up at him, only to realize Jungkook was already staring at you. His doe eyes were looking right into your own, making their easy way into your heart. Jungkook had a way to always make you feel special whenever he looked at you. He did it back when you two were nothing more than a quick fuck, and he did it now when your souls were finally intertwined.
âI meant it.â He started saying. âI really love you, Y/n.â
âI know, Kook.â You assured him. âAnd I love you too, just as much.â
A soft kiss was delivered to your forehead. âI just wanted to make it clear. I spent too much time hiding my real feelings that Iâm scared youâll get the wrong idea and feel like Iâm not being honest enough.â
Your hand flew right up to rest on his cheek, caressing his cheekbone tenderly.
âI understand the sentiment, but thereâs no need to hide from each other anymore. I can feel your love now, Jungkook, and itâs one of the most amazing sensations Iâve ever had.â
Your words helped the boy to feel at ease. Jungkook was on high alert for any discomfort he might cause you unwillingly; he feared you would simply leave his side if he such as said that your hands were starting to get cold. That kind of feeling was something you didnât want the boy to experience and you were more than happy to reassure him over and over again that what he felt was not only reciprocated but it was also enough for the both of you.
âLetâs sleep a little bit, Iâm too tired to even talk.â You snuggled into his side, hiding your face in the crook of his face while your arms wrapped around his torso.
Jungkook smiled fondly, looking down at your already sleepy figure.
âRest well, princess.â
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How To Balance Your Daytime and Nighttime Activities So That You Don't Burn Yourself Out More Than You Already Have
It had been a long few minutes since he'd opened the door and there were a lot of questions running through Dick's head. Most pressing of which was how this kid seems to have information he should not have.
"How did you..?" he asked, but the words wouldn't leave completely. There's so much he wants to know, so much he wants to ask.
"How do I what?" Danny tilted his head like the child he seems to be is.
"How do you know?" Dick knows he sounds weak. There's no hiding that, but there are a lot of implications in what the kid has said so far and none of it is painting a very happy picture for him.
"Oh!" Danny had the audacity to smile, "You want to know how I know you moonlight as a vigilante!" And of course he knows. Dick knows he knows, but he'd held a little bit of hope that the child Danny was mistaken. Danny's smile softened a bit as he explained, "Your hair and voice match up in both jobs almost perfectly. Not to mention your build and how you hold yourself. There's also the matter of your overall vibes, but that's not something living beings can normally pick up on." Excuse him? "Well, not living humans, at least, so no worries on that end!"
"Excuse me?" Dick was fairly sure his heart just stopped beating for a moment there.
"Anyway, I was a hero back home for a while, too. I know what it's like to have to walk the tightrope between maintaining a civilian cover and a hero persona. I know how it feels to have to keep secrets from everyone because anyone who knows will be in danger." he rambled, Though, admittedly, our circumstances are quite different. I was working as a hero all hours of the day as well as going to school. You only have to worry about properly balancing between day and night jobs. Either way, me having more to bounce between just makes me al the more qualified to help you!"
Oh. Oh he did not like that. He didn't like a single thing that just came out of the kid's mouth. Because that's what he is, a kid. "Are you...Are you alright?"
"Not in the slightest," Danny admitted with an even smaller smile. Then, it brightened, not quite to a grin, but to something similar, "But I'm here to make sure you are."
He gets points for being honest, but Dick felt his heart shatter. He knew for a fact that he'd never worked with this kid before. He also knew that the Justice League didn't know about him. If they did, he would've been picked up and dropped with either the Young Justice team or the Titans.
Dick wasn't going to ask why he became a hero because that's not his place. It's more of a 'third mission with the team' kind of questions, anyway. Most of the heroes didn't have many options when they took up the mantle. Asking what Danny can do is a more appropriate question, but he wasn't going to ask that, either.
"Now that that's out of the way," Danny turned a few pages from the table of contents to another one that was topped with 'Why Sleep Scheduling Is Important' in the blue glitter pen that Dick was starting to suspect he favored. "You're not getting enough sleep. Following you around - no one's been able to find me for a while, so don't worry about that - for the last two weeks has given me some really worrisome information on you."
Dick was worrying. He was worrying a lot and even more questions were coming to the forefront of his mind.
"Your dayjob is as an officer on the Bludhaven Police Force, or BPD for short." He was looking over the page he'd turned to very aptly and Dick realized that the kid had notes written on him. "The average hours per week for police across the country is forty hours. Gotham and Bludhaven are the exceptions. As a member of the BPD, you work a solid two days and two hours. Six nights a week, you work as Nightwing from eight in the evening to three in the morning. The last day, you take off, which is good. No deserable pattern, so good on you for that. Regardless, that's seven hour nights and ten hour days, with one day off and one day on call as an officer. Seven hours are now left in your day for personal time, eating, and sleeping. That's not a healthy way to live."
Oh, god, the kid had honest to god notes on him! What the hell!
Danny didn't even skip a beat as he pulled Dick's attention back to him and his binder. "I've drawn up a schedule for you to follow." The back of the page had a meticulously drawn schedule, complete with blocks of time to eat, sleep, work both jobs, travel, personal time, and still have a bit extra left over. It was titled 'Ideal End Result' in green marker. "Drastic changes right away will only affect you negatively, so we're starting off smaller." The next page over had another schedule titled 'Where To Begin'. "I've only pulled one hour from your Nightwing hours because I know important that time is to you and the city. I am, however, going to be having you submit an appeal to your boss to cut back your hours from fifty a week to forty a week. That way, you'll only be working eight hours a day and not ten. You'll still be on call for one day, and you'll have that last day off. Altogether, you'll be going be going from working seventeen hours a day to fourteen hours a day. Nine in the morning to five in the afternoon, and eight in the evening to two in the morning. Not including breaks at work or travel time. It opens up a few more hours for you to sleep!"
"You really think the chief is going to pull back my hours?" Dick raised an eyebrow in question.
"He will if he knows what's good for him."
"You know I can arrest you for that threat, right?"
"Yeah, but you won't." And, damn it, he's right.
Although, there was now another thing he had to know. "How to you plan on enforcing this schedule of yours?"
Danny seemed to have been waiting for this. He got a gleam in his eye as he pulled a black folder from his bag, not breaking eye contact with Dick. He placed it on the table and pushed it across. "Congratulations, it's a boy."
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#part 2#please read part 1#I had to redo a detail there to make something here make sense#dc x dp#dp x dc#dp dc crossover#dcxdp#danny phantom#dick grayson#dick needs a hug#dick needs sleep#danny's a hypocrite#work life balance#excelt it's being explained by a hypocrite 7 years younger than him#reverse adoption#is it really adoption if the kid shows up one day and just doesn't leave?#danny is going to make sure dick takes care if himself#good thing danny's sister and friends drilled this into his head#'this' being the importance of a proper work life balance#I maintain that Danny is a hypocrite#It's not adoption papers btw#It's a backstory#How To Balance Your Daytime and Nighttime Activities So That You Don't Burn Yourself Out More Than You Already Have
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I call this one "found family but it goes horribly wrong in an irreparable way" :)
I've been doing a lot of cotl comics but I kinda lost my comic making endurance after not working on art since last september, so I made this to help me flex my art muscles. Apologies for the watermarks lmao they kinda kill the mood but I've already had people repost my art when I put it on reddit so...might as well get the credit if my stuff is gonna be reposted regardless. RAMBLE INCOMING!!
Thinking about how shamura was most likely the one to find + raise their adopted siblings and help them survive the mass deicide that happened thousands of years before....OUUGH. I have so many ideas for comics that take place when half the bishops were still lil kids. I have one in progress right now actually. But it just hurts when I remember how it all ends- they loved their family for so long and yet they credit their love as what caused it to fall apart!!! The lore of the bishops only sunk in when I was dealing with my own heavy sibling angst, and I was like wow....shamura supported the sibs so much they accidentally encouraged their brother into being a heretic, and couldn't close pandora's box in time to save him or the rest of the family. They blame themself for the past 1,000 years and seem to be totally okay with dying for what they did?? Like when they get sent to the shadow realm they tell you to "finish the job" instead of leaving them in purgatory. And despite being the bishop of war, they are the only bishop to not have a "desperate" phase where their attacks get more brutal. They're not desperate, they just want to get it over with. All their other siblings are dead by then anyway so it's not like they have anything to stick around for, even if they were healthy enough to win the battle. Plus I mean...narinder is the bishop of death so they probably just want to see him one last time. Owch
Don't get me wrong I love to hate narinder and his only role in my cult is the guy who cleans the outhouse, but I really like his dynamic with shamura vs. the other siblings. I kinda see him as the troubled kid that couldn't assimilate into the family and shamura took it upon themself to try and fix him. It's interesting thinking about how they're the only one he shows remorse for despite feeling the most betrayed by them. I don't think he 100% hates them, he's just been locked in gay baby jail for so long he's had nothing better to think about than "my sibling encouraged me to experiment with my godly duties, and then punished me for it!!". He's not wrong? But also is shamura that wrong either??? Idk it's complicated with no real answer and I like it a lot, I wish the game told us more about what the bishops were like before they got their shit rocked during the schism. I would've loved to see shamura before their brain was turned to mush by their tbi + 1,000 years of suffocating grief and crushing guilt :)
ANYWAY thanks for making it to the bottom of this rant, here is a sketch I did a while ago of shamura + baby leshy from a prequel au thing I don't have a name for yet:
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Cling
Rating: M | This is smut! Minors, DNI! No one under 18!
Summary: For as long as you could remember, you and Steve have been close. What others see as clingy, Steve sees as comforting, right? Or, you fell in love with your best friend and suddenly, everything is too much. Warnings: Unprotected PinV, oral (f!receiving), blink and you'll miss it angst. Pairing: Steve x fem!Reader Words: 5.5k
Though the sun had long disappeared, dipped below the horizon in a blaze of oranges and reds hours ago, the scent of artificial coconut and chlorine lingered as you lounged beside the Harrington pool.
The kids disappeared with Eddie the moment the sky tinted pink, off to finish a campaign they spent much of the day discussing, and Robin followed soon after with a weak excuse designed to hide her true destination of Vickyâs house - despite the fact that you all knew.
That left you and Steve, always the last two standing.
Steve stretched out on a lounge chair to your left - sunglasses resting atop his head, t-shirt forgotten somewhere in the backyard, garishly patterned swim trunks resting low on his hips. His eyes were closed, chest rising and falling evenly, though you knew he was far from sleep.
Regardless, you took the chance to study him in the rare moment of silence.
The apples of his cheeks and the bridge of his nose were tinted pink, not burned enough to cause concern but clearly effected by his time in the sun. His hair was wild and beginning to curl, free of gel and still a little damp from his last dip in the pool. The weeks of swimming, back in the pool where he spent so much time growing up, had toned his arms - his shoulders, his stomach, his thighs - and you could see the result of his resumed habits so clearly.
A swath of hair covered his chest, tapered into a faint line that disappeared into the band of his trunks, and you were struck by just how many times youâd been here - sitting to his right, smelling of chlorine and coconut. Over a decade of friendship, more than half your life, and youâd witnessed Steve go from a lanky boy to a confident twenty-something.Â
Moments like this reminded you of why your best friend was one of the most sought-after bachelors in Hawkins and why, somewhere along the line, you joined the long list of those desperate for him to give you the time of day.
Only, you were lucky enough to be one of the few that had Steveâs full attention. There was little question that he knew everything - nearly everything, not this, never this - there was to know about you. Even less of a question that you would be sharing his bed later on, though not in the way youâd secretly started to want.
âQuit starinâ at me, creep.â Steveâs voice came then, before you could begin to spiral and question whether you could handle another night of sleeping beside him - wrapped in his embrace, his sheets, his scent - and you hummed.
âJust seeing if I need to get the aloe,â you teased, hoping it sounded as light as you meant it. âShouldâve listened to me, when I told you to put on sunscreen.â
Steve laughed. âYou mean I shouldâve sat still while you attacked me with it. I wouldâve, if youâd given me some warning. Not nice to just start mauling a guy.â
âI know you dream about me mauling you.â The deflection was easy, reflexive, and accompanied by a laugh that rang a touch hollow in your own ears but Steve huffed, good-natured, anyway.
âHm. Think thatâs the other way around.â He cracked open an eye, then, and turned his head to glance at you while you reached for his half-empty beer in an effort to avoid meeting his eyes.
âPlease,â you scoffed, though it was weaker than you intended. âI canât get you to stop touching me.â
Despite his upbringing - or, really, because of it - Steve sought physical affection in those closest to him. It was true that he hadnât stopped touching you over the course of your friendship, hugs and holding hands and cuddling on the couch. There was never any hesitation, never any awkward shuffling or adjusting. It was as natural as breathing, comfortable, and lately, you savored every brush of his skin against yours.
Still, Steve waved a dismissive hand and reached for the pack of cigarettes he discarded on the table after the kids left. âSure.â He lit one, fixed you with a teasing grin as he took a drag. âEasy for you to say when youâre the clingiest person I know.â
The observation was not unkind. If anything, it was soft - fond. It was a joke heâd made before, once or twice, but the label âclingyâ struck a nerve that he likely had no idea even existed. One that hadnât existed until recently.
There was a conversation that you werenât supposed to hear. It was Eddie, asking the kids if he had a chance - whether you and Steve were, you know, a thing - and their varying responses. He only asked because of how close you were, he explained, how often Steve had an arm around you or you clasped his hand in yours.
Someone, you didnât catch who because the words rang harsh in your ears, dismissed his concerns with the dreaded refusal, âJust friends.â Though another followed it with, âIâd be annoyed if I were Steve. Sheâs always all over him and theyâre not even dating. So clingy.â
Eddie laughed, as did the others, and you waited just beyond the door for a few moments to pretend that you hadnât heard.
After, you tried to distance yourself, if only a little, without arousing Steveâs suspicions. Despite being called clueless, unobservant or even stupid, despite his difficulty connecting the dots, there was little about you that escaped his notice. It was difficult to create space when none had existed since you were children and, clearly, you hadnât done a very good job, anyway.
âYeah, well, Iâll unstick myself from your side.â You intended the quip to be teasing, a joke that earned you a laugh or a soft swat as you passed him by, but it came out wrong. The words were acidic, tasted bitter in the back of your throat as they rolled off your tongue, and you could see him wince from the sting of them as you stood from your chair. âIâm gonna go shower,â you deflected, unable to look at him. âChlorineâs burning my eyes.â
Steve sat upright as you gathered your towel and discarded clothes, your empty soda can and the tube of tropical sunscreen. He stubbed out his cigarette and reached out, hand searching for yours and coming up empty for the first time in a long time.
âWait,â he urged, rising to his feet as you busied yourself with removing any trace of your presence from the immediate vicinity. âDid I⌠what did I say? Whatever it was, I didnât -â His brows furrowed as he lifted the hand you avoided and carded it through his hair, sighing when you winced at the sound of his sunglasses clattering to the ground.
âYou didnât - itâs nothing.â Steve tipped his head, an attempt to catch your eye as you blinked back the stinging sensation - chlorine, really, and overwhelmed, traitorous tears. âJust tired.â
From the corner of your eye, you caught sight of his face. He wore a concerned frown, warm eyes raking over your form as he recounted the last few moments, before he winced. âOh. Shit. Hey, you know Iâm joking,â he insisted, taking a half-step closer. And when you took a full step back, he frozen, uncertain - unused to the distance. âI didnât mean it like that. You know I love it when youâre close to me. Itâs nice. Iâm not - that was a shitty thing to say.â
âItâs okay.â You waved him off, a dismissive hand held aloft for a moment before dropping to hold your towel close to your chest, and hoped he believed the crack in your voice was from the yelling youâd done earlier in the day. âItâs true, âsâwhat everyone thinks, anyway.â
âWhat?â He looked confused, frown deepening as he tried again. He took a cautious step to close some of the distance and lifted a hand to reach out for you before thinking better of it. His hand fell to his side and you clutched the material in your arms tight to your chest to keep from reaching out yourself. âNo one thinks that.â
âThey do,â you confessed, finally lifting your head to meet his gaze as you forced a laugh. âThey think itâs weird and sad and annoying that Iâm, like, all over you. They think Iâm, like, obsessed or something.â The admission was uttered casually, as easily as you could manage when your heart felt as if it might beat out of your chest, and Steve took another tentative step forward.
âWho said that?â
Though it was phrased as a question, it came out a demand. His expression shifted, flickered from soft concern to annoyance - not at you, very rarely at you - as he waited.
âI overheard the kids joking about it,â you told him with a sigh. âAnd back when you were dating Nancy, Tommy and Carol said something. So did Billy. It didnât bother me then âcause Tommy and Carol and Billy were morons, but now, well⌠Maybe they were right. I - Iâm sorry. I donât mean to be so⌠attached.â
Steve stepped closer then, insistent despite your feeble attempt to keep the distance, and reached out for you. One warm, large hand fell to your waist, fingers finding bare skin still warm from the sun while the other cupped your cheek. He was patient, soft, as he encouraged you to meet his eyes once more.
âThey were total morons. Iâm honestly surprised they paid enough attention to someone else to notice,â he huffed, rolling his eyes at the memory of your former friends. âAnd the kids, theyâre just kids. They donât - donât listen to them, alright. I donât think youâre clingy or annoying or sad or anything else. I think youâre my best friend and I like being close to you.â
Though it brought you comfort to hear how adamantly he denied thinking you were clingy - how adamantly he denied finding your constant presence annoying - the reminder that he only saw you as a friend did little to ease the roiling in the pit of your stomach.Â
A fresh wave of traitorous tears stung at the backs of your eyes and you did your best to blink them away as you nodded. âYeah,â you nodded, acknowledging him with a watery half-smile. âOkay.â
âHey, Iâm serious,â he asserted, dipping his head to search your face for the answer to a question he had yet to ask. âI want you close to me, like, all the time. Robin laughs at me but I donât really know what to do when youâre not there. I like it when you hold my hand or sit on my lap. It⌠it makes me feel like you want me with you as much as I want to be with you.â
Though the lump in your throat persisted, though the tears still threatened to fall, you immediately reassured him. âOf course I want you to be with me. I love spending time with you.â You sighed, allowing yourself to melt into Steveâs touch. âItâs always been us.â
âAlways has been, always will be,â he confirmed, smile soft but still a touch concerned. He hesitated for a moment, seeming to weigh his words for the first time in a long time, before he settled on asking, âWhatâs up, babe? Whyâd it bother you so much?â
âItâs stupid.â
Immediately, Steve shook his head. He refused to allow you to wave it off, to dismiss the tease that clearly hurt your feelings, as his thumb stroked your cheek. âItâs not, not if itâs bothering you.â
âI justâŚâ You inhaled sharply, eyes closing as you attempted to gather your thoughts. Though Steveâs closeness wouldâve brought you comfort under ordinary circumstances, it made it difficult for you to concentrate as your heart began to beat a touch too fast. âJust been thinking,â you finally began, choosing your words carefully. âIt was fine when we were kids but, I mean, weâre adults now. What happens when one of your dates pays off and you find someone to fall in love with? Donât think sheâll be too happy with, you know, this. Itâs not like we can cuddle on the couch or have sleepovers for the rest of our lives.â
Steve remained quiet for a long moment - a silence that stretched on forever, thick and suffocating - and you swallowed the emotion clumping in the back of your throat before opening your eyes. You were met with his warm gaze, soft brown eyes flickering with an emotion you couldnât quite read as he took a half-step closer.
âWhat if⌠I mean, we could.â Two words, and you felt frozen in uncertainty. Everything around you, everything outside of Steve, ceased to exist. You could feel your heart thudding heavily in your chest, your breath caught in your throat as you waited for him to elaborate. âThe dates,â he began, now looking as nervous as you felt, ânone of them have felt right. They donât feel like this, like us. They donât make me feel like you do.â
For months, youâd dreamt that Steve felt the same way. You imagined that somewhere, beneath the fond smiles and teasing jabs lingered the same nerves, the same butterflies, the same all-encompassing love. You imagined that his head was full of the same âwhat-ifâsâ as you shared his bed, the same hope that youâd share the same bed for the rest of your life. You dreamt that he would one day confess his love and end your hopeless attempt at getting over him.
But now that it seemed within your grasp, so close you could practically feel his heart beating just as erratically as your own, it felt too good to be true.
âWhat does that mean?â
The question came as a whisper, afraid that if you spoke too loud you might break whatever spell had been cast over the backyard, but Steve heard it clearly. He met it with a half-smile as the hand on your hip began to trace nonsensical patterns across your skin - a nervous habit that made you feel as if your skin was on fire.
âMeans that I want to keep holding your hand and having sleepovers,â he elaborated, voice soft in the still of the night. âMeans that I⌠I donât want to keep going on dates with anyone but you. Every time I think about the future, it changes - what Iâm doing, where I live. But youâre always there and thatâs all I want. Iâve been trying to pretend like Iâm not in love with you but I donât want to pretend anymore.â
Steveâs confession rang in your ears, crashed over you like a tidal wave, and left you unable to speak - unable to breathe. He waited, patient, understanding, as your racing thoughts scrambled in search of something coherent. But when you failed to gather anything resembling a complete sentence, you decided to allow your actions to speak for you.
In the way that youâd started to imagine as you drifted off to sleep, you dropped the items in your arms and lifted your hands to tangle in his hair to pull him in close. He smelled of summer - cigarettes, cheap beer, artificial coconut and chlorine - and something so unerringly Steve that you suddenly couldnât imagine being this close to anyone else.
The hand on your cheek was encouraging, soft and warm as he tipped your chin, and you gave in to the urge youâd been fighting. With one step, you pressed yourself close - your chest meeting his, the warmth of his bare skin setting your nerve endings alight - and pressed your mouth to his.
Despite your expectations, there were no fireworks, no sparks or heavenly choirs, but there was an instant sense of comfort. Kissing Steve felt like coming home, warm and easy, as if youâd done it a thousand times before.Â
There was no awkward shuffling, no tentative brushes of uncertain lips. Instead, you moved together seamlessly. His body slotted against yours perfectly, fit exactly as if you belonged there - together, intertwined. His lips were soft, as plush as youâd imagined, and his skin was so warm that you wondered if you would be branded with his touch before the night was over.
Though your fantasies varied - desperate kisses, eager to make up for lost time; filthy ones, a mess of lips and tongues and teeth, as you swapped spit and stumbled down a dark hallway toward his bedroom; soft kisses, designed to convey years of unspoken feelings - this kiss destroyed them all.
It was soft, slow and eager as you sought to become acquainted with the taste of one another, and laced with the underlying promise of a beautiful future.
Steveâs touch was eager, unrestrained and achingly familiar, as he held you close and swallowed the soft noises you made. Every breathless gasp and quiet sigh of pleasure, was met with a hum of his own as he slipped the hand on your cheek to the back of your neck.
Neither of you wanted the kiss to end, content to breathe in one another until your lungs collapsed, but the lack of oxygen and the reality of the situation had you feeling dizzy enough to break away. But as close as youâd always been, Steve kept you pressed tight to his body and rested his forehead against yours.
âTaking that to mean youâre in love with me, too,â he teased, breathless as he searched your face for any sign of regret, of hesitance. When he found none, he smiled - bright, happy, easy. âTotally not cool of me to admit, but Iâve wanted to do that forever.â
âYouâve never been cool, Stevie,â you returned, giggling as he pinched your side.
âWas gonna be nice,â he huffed, pretending to be put out though his grin never faltered as he shifted his head, brushed his nose against yours. âTell you how pretty I think you are, how I want to spend the rest of my life with you; all that mushy stuff. But since you wanna be meanâŚâ
Before you could blink, giggle out a teasing apology for your perceived slight, Steveâs arms fell to your waist. He held you close, lifted easily, and carried you the few steps to the edge of the pool. The moment you realized his intentions, the moment you opened your mouth to squeal out a plea for him to stop, Steve stepped over the edge and plunged you both into the water.
Even as you fell, sinking into the deep end, Steve kept you close. He hauled you both back up above the water, laughing as you huffed - thankfully used to this, almost expecting it as he attempted it every year.
âSteve!â
âWhat?â He grinned, dark hair dripping into his eyes as he guided you both into a more manageable depth and encouraged you to wrap your legs around his waist. âAll this couldâve been avoided if youâd just been nice to me,â he reasoned.
âIâm always nice to you, Stevie.â You werenât - your friendship was an equal mixture of soft encouragement, soft words and even softer touches, and teasing jabs - but Steve hummed, just the same. âBut I can be even nicer.â
âKnow what would be really nice?â When you hummed, Steve returned a hand to cup your cheek - tipping your head to meet your eyes, only a hint of insecurity swirling amongst the warm, soft brown. âTelling me Iâm not getting all this wrong. I⌠I know I donât always get it,â he acknowledged, swallowing thickly, âbut I⌠I get this, right?â
âOh, Steve. The reason I got so freaked out about the clingy thing,â you began, lifting your hands to brush the damp hair from his forehead, âwas because I was afraid youâd see it, how in love I am. I⌠Iâve been in love with you for a while. Youâre it for me, Harrington.â
Steve grinned, then, relieved - elated, clearly brimming with joy at the revelation - and leaned forward to close the gap. The press of his mouth to yours was eager, firm, and relieved some of the ache in your chest, the fear that this was something youâd dreamt up, too good to be true. He crowded you against the wall, body caging you in as his tongue traced the seam of your lips, and you sighed as you tangled your fingers in his hair.
Though the pool water was cool, the press of Steveâs body against yours had you melting. He always ran warm, left you blistering in the wake of his hands exploring your skin, and you felt your heart hammering in your chest as his fingers mapped the slivers of skin heâd only held through fabric.
âBabe,â he breathed, mouth barely parted from yours as you shifted your hips, âdonât wanna do this in the pool. Not the first time. Let me take you inside.â
The urgency in his tone drew a soft moan from you, eager to feel his touch and touch him in return. âPlease. Waited so long, donât wanna wait anymore.â
Desperation, eager and hurried, that had lingered beneath the surface of the entire encounter - a desire to give in, finally, after waiting for so long - showed clearly as you both rushed out of the pool. Steve remained close to you, one hand on your hip even as you both roughly toweled off, and ushered you into the house.
The Harrington house was as familiar to you as your own. It was a space you could navigate with your eyes closed, under the worst circumstances, and you were grateful for the knowledge as you and Steve rushed up the stairs to his bedroom without pause.
As many times as youâd stepped foot in Steveâs room, as many nights as youâd spent wrapped in his sheets, there was an understandable difference in this moment. The tension was palpable and, despite how eager you both were, you both faltered for a moment as the door clicked shut behind you.
âThis⌠we donât have to do anything,â he began, stepping close, his palm warm against your waist. âWe can just shower, maybe watch a movie or something before bed.â
Again, rather than fumbling for a coherent sentence - attempting to make sense of the thoughts that remained scrambled in your brain - you reached out for him. Steve sighed as your fingers tangled in his hair and tugged, eyes blazing with a heat that made your head spin, and you almost hated to lose the sight of his parted lips and lust blown eyes as your mouth pressed to his.
Steveâs hands began to wander, fingers mapping your skin in a desperate bid to commit it all to memory, as he walked you backwards. The plush of his bed hit the back of your knees, duvet soft, and he followed you down easily. With a knee pressed into the mattress beside your hip, a hand beside your head, Steve hovered above you, mouth never leaving yours.
While his fingers traced the skin of your stomach, your hips, your shoulders, your thighs, you brought your own to his chest. You raked your nails over his exposed skin, committing the warmth of him to memory, as he broke the kiss to lavish your neck with attention.
As he nosed at your jaw, lips pressing fleeting kisses to your skin, his hand fell to your breast, eagerly cupping the soft flesh over the damp material of your swimsuit.
âSo fuckinâ pretty,â he breathed, reverence lacing his tone as his hand flexed. âSo warm, so soft. Smell nice.â
âItâs the sunscreen,â you gasped, words pitching higher as his lips latched onto the spot just beneath your ear. âYou should try it.â
âMm. You can put some on me tomorrow,â he offered, tongue darting out to soothe spot heâd nipped.
The promise was laced with an eager desire that had your hands wandering, nails raking over the trail of hair dipping into the band of his trunks, and you could feel the contraction of his stomach as he inhaled sharply. You knew that you tasted of chlorine and chemicals, of summer, but Steve didnât seem to mind as he continued pressing open-mouthed kisses to your skin.
Eagerly, he began to dip lower, his lips exploring your heated skin and leaving a trail of fire in his wake. Every touch was electric, sent a shockwave through your system and left your chest aching with a warmth that you hoped would never cool. You could feel the arousal pooling in the pit of your stomach, gathering slick between your thighs, as Steve nipped at the skin of your chest.
Skilled hands made quick work of the fabric covering your chest, easily ridding you of the damp suit without lifting his head from your skin, and you felt your breath catch in your throat as Steve began to make his way down. He nipped at the delicate skin of your chest, stubble scraping your skin in the most delicious way as he shifted to free his hands.
As Steveâs hands shifted, cupped your breasts and hummed, your own hand dipped beneath the band of his trunks. Your fingers brushed the warm skin, reveling in the stuttering breath Steve released, even as his own hands began to trail downward.
âAlways pretty,â he complimented, voice rough as he began to follow the path blazed by his hands, pressing kisses down your chest and stomach. âBut this,â he hummed, grinning when you whined as he moved out of reach, âtoo fuckinâ pretty. Not fair.â
âYouâre one to talk.â It was breathless, a gasp that escaped as his lips latched onto a patch of skin near your hip, and Steve grinned. âYouâre so beautiful, Stevie. âSâdistracting.â
Steve continued to sink lower, mouth blazing a devastating path across your skin, as his hands fell to the plush of your thighs. He spread them easily, settled between them, and glanced up at you from near the foot of his bed with a devilish smirk that reminded you of the days of King Steve - handsome, flirty, charming.
âHowâve we never done this before?â His hands drifted closer to your aching cunt, so close to where you desperately wanted him yet so far away as his mouth pressed to your inner thigh. âWanna spend the rest of my life here.â
âHavenât even got my bathing suit off,â you teased, though it was weak - wrecked, already so entirely destroyed for him. But Steve took it as a challenge.
Almost immediately, Steveâs hands slipped beneath the band of your bottoms and tugged, easily working the damp fabric down your thighs. The moment they were gone, tossed across the room to be found later, he settled back between them and grinned.
Before you could tease, make a joke about him being eager, Steveâs hands shifted exactly where you wanted them. Warm fingers swiped at your slick folds, gathered the evidence of your arousal easily, before they lifted to his waiting mouth. Your lungs constricted and breathing felt impossible as you watched him lap at the slick, an exaggerated moan leaving his lips as he pulled them free with a wink.
âKnew youâd taste amazing,â he complimented, dipping his head to nip at your inner thigh.
Steve nosed at the juncture of your thigh as his fingers returned to your folds and you could feel his triumphant grin when you gasped as his thumb found your clit. But he didnât allow you time to speak as he dipped his head and licked a stripe along your slit.
Large hands found your thighs, fingers digging into the plush skin to keep you spread open as he lapped at you. There was no tentative tasting, no hesitant swipe of his tongue; Steve ate you like a man starved.
Those plush lips wrapped around your clit, eagerly tasting all you had to give, as his fingers returned to your puffy folds. He swiped them through your slick, gathered it on his fingers, before pressing them into you and working to open you up.Â
âYouâre,â a gasp interrupted you, stole your breathe as Steve glanced up at you from between your thighs - his shoulders keeping you spread open, hair caught between your fingers. âFuck, Stevie, youâre good at that.â
Steve preened under the praise, lashes fluttering at that and the combination of your fingers yanking at his hair, as his fingers - longer, thicker than yours; easily pressing into the spaces you could never quite reach - sank deeper into you.Â
As desperate as you were to feel him, to have him push you over the edge, this wasnât the way you wanted to go. You wanted to feel him, to feel his weight pressing you into the mattress as his lips met yours, and you told him as much as you tugged at his hair.
âWanna feel you, Stevie, please,â you begged, stomach tight and chest aching as you desperately sought to catch your breath.Â
âFuck.â Steveâs forehead pressed to your thigh, warm breath fanning over your sticky skin. âWanted to hear you say that forever,â he admitted, eagerly clambering up to shove his trunks down his hips.
As Steve shoved his swim trunks down, you tipped your head - eager to see if the rumors were true. And just as youâd heard, Steve was larger than you ever couldâve imagined. He was bigger than anyone youâd been with, bigger than anything youâd seen, and you couldnât help yourself as you reached out to touch him.
The tip was an angry red, dripping precum, and Steve swore as your thumb brushed at the pearly bead. âFuck, youâre so big,â you whined, wondering how he would fit - eagerly anticipating the stretch of him.
âCanât say shit like that,â he huffed, laughing - pink cheeks blazing, embarrassed and secretly pleased at the attention - as he settled above you. âEgoâs already too big,â he teased.
âNot the only thing,â you returned, grinning when he laughed, fingers dipping between your thighs. âFuck me, Stevie, please.â
âAnything you want,â he promised, hand wrapping around the base of his cock and guiding it to your puffy folds. He dragged the head through the slick, both of you moaning at the contact, before he notched the head at your entrance and pressed forward.
The stretch of him was delicious, too much and not enough all at once, and you swore you could feel him in the back of your throat as he sank into you. He went slow, careful, eager not to hurt you, but with every inch he sank forward, you were desperate to feel him fully.
Finally, after what felt like forever, Steve was pressed fully into you. It was overwhelming, being so impossibly close to him - completely intertwined, bodies as one - and all you could do was pull him into a searing kiss.
The kiss was a mess, a clash of tongue and teeth, uncoordinated but so satisfying as his hand gripped your hip. You could feel him surrounding you, all-encompassing, and you never wanted the moment to end.
Even as his hips began to snap, his rhythm steady, deep, you struggled to catch your breath - to care about anything other than the warmth of his skin against yours, the scent of him, the weight of him over you. The only thing you could say was his name, repeated like a prayer as his thumb found your clit and his lips remained just inches from your own.
Steve was all that existed, all that had ever existed, and suddenly the future was bright. There was hope, an eager desire to spend the rest of your life here - in this moment, with Steve pressed close - and you couldnât help but whimper out a desperate, âI love you,â as you felt yourself barreling toward the edge.
The words were returned in a reverent chant, equally desperate, as you felt his hips begin to stutter. You were both nearly there, just a few presses of his hips - another swipe of his thumb, another press of his mouth to your heated skin - and you were careening over the edge with Steve following shortly after.
Warmth flooded your veins, his spend filling you so completely, and his lips sought yours despite your shared inability to regain your breath. It didnât matter, not when all that existed was this moment, and you didnât care that Steveâs weight had fallen to press you deeper into the mattress.
For a few long moments, you both lay there - gasping, fighting to catch your breath and return to the moment at hand - before Steve pulled away just enough to settle at your side. There was no distance left between you, slick skin pressed together, and you wouldâve been content to lie there forever.
Steve, it seemed, felt the same as he settled into the pillow and leaned in to press a kiss to your forehead.
Though the afternoon began with a fear that Steve would see you as clingy, that he would never love you in the way you loved him, you were ending the night in the only place you wanted to be; clinging to your boyfriend, sated and happy and looking forward to the future for the first time in a long time.
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Author's Note: This was inspired by a sunscreen, believe it or not. Don't know how we got here but it was a fun journey.
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kiss her, you fool (Hotch x fem!Reader) -- one shot
Anyway I'm back in the fucking building again!!!! Listened to "Kiss Her You Fool" by Kids That Fly and had this one shot written in like an hour. The love for Aaron Hotchner never dies apparently
Summary: You're in the middle of spring cleaning when Aaron calls and says he forgot something at your place (he didn't).
Warnings: tooth-rotting fluff! I just wanted to write some romance
Itâs the middle of the day and youâre in the middle of a cleaning frenzy when your phone rings for what looks like the third time. Itâs Aaron.
âHey! Sorry,â you laugh, grabbing the TV remote to pause your music, phone pressed to your ear with your shoulder. âIâm spring cleaning and clearly way too far in the zone. Whatâs up?â
âThatâs okay,â you can hear him smiling as you readjust your phone in your hand. âWould it be alright if I stopped by? I think I left something there last night.â
You furrowed your brows, spinning around the living room. You definitely wouldâve noticed if he left something here last night. Youâve practically turned your entire apartment upside down to clean it.
âAre you sure?â you ask, moving to lift the couch cushions for a third time. âWhat was it?â
âIâm not sure,â he says, which totally isnât suspicious at all. âCan I just come look?â
âI mean,â you let out an awkward laugh. âI guess you can. Iâve been cleaning since this morning, though, so I think I wouldâve spotted it, butââ
âIâll be there in fifteen,â he says. âIf thatâs okay?â
You sigh, selfishly glad youâre getting to see him again, two days in a row. It feels like youâve hit the jackpot. âYeah, of course itâs okay.â
âGreat, see you in a few.â
âSee you,â you bite back your grin, ending the call. You turn the music back on, a little lower so youâll hear him when he knocks.
You have no earthly idea what he couldâve forgotten. He had his phone and jacket in hand when he left. He never took his wallet or keys out of his jacket pockets, so they mustâve stayed there. Unless either of them fell out, but again, you feel like you wouldâve noticed.
Whatever it is, heâll either find it or realize it isnât here. Regardless, youâre getting to see him again, so youâll take it.
With his job, the days that you do see Aaron are typically one long day spent together here and there. Yesterday was an exception, a rare dinner mid-work week because he happened to be done at the office early and you were free, so obviously the opportunity was taken advantage of. Itâs only been a few weeks of seeing one another, so you both take any chance you can get.Â
Despite this, though, things have movedâŚslow. Slower than you expected because, to be frank, every guy youâve been with has been quick and to the point. Not that you always minded that. Sometimes you wanted the same thing â quick, hot, heavy. But those days have since left you, and you went through a period of seeing no one, aside from one guy who left as soon as you said you were interested in moving slowly.Â
Itâs nothing against Aaron, but when he first introduced himself at your local coffee shop, you kind of assumed heâd be the same. Itâs hard not to assume when everyone acted that way, and when the men who frequent said coffee shop donât exactly have the best track record for being polite and respectful.
Aaron, though, took weeks to ask for your number, let alone to join your table one morning to sip his coffee â and even then, you offered him the seat; he didnât invite himself. That alone was enough for you to agree to give him your number, and then to an official first date.
He kissed your cheek after the first date, your forehead after the second, and kept to those areas alone. You found yourself wondering if something was wrong with you somehow, but he wasnât disinterested. Quite the opposite, actually, from how he held your hand and kept his arms around you, how he made sure you were safely inside your apartment before heading off, how he still texted when he arrived home to ask you if you were still safely inside.
Or when he had to cancel a date last minute, and sent flowers to your apartment in lieu of his presence. He apologized over the phone, but the flowers had an apology note attached too. And another apology when he arrived at your door four days later, fresh off the plane, with a real explanation of his job and why he didnât have time to explain it all to you before he left.
Your friends think itâs a little crazy, that itâs been almost a month of dating and there hasnât been a single kiss â âOn the cheek doesnât count!â they argue. You think it does. If anything, youâre just happy thereâs no pressure.
The underlying anxiety is there, sure, of what if it never happens? But you canât bring yourself to entertain the thought. Mainly because you want to kiss him so bad, youâre practically going to leap onto him one of these days.
Youâre mid-dance when a knock sounds on your door and you jump, having forgotten Aaron said he would be here soon. You turn the music down as you head for the door, unlocking it to let him in.
He stands there in his usual dark suit, sans tie this time so the top buttons are undone, bouquet of flowers in hand and dumb smile on his face.
âWhat are these for?â you ask when he hands them to you.Â
He steps inside and shuts the door, pausing to press a kiss to your forehead. âBecause I wanted to.â
You give him a look, cheeks feeling warm. âIf you keep doing this âbecause you want to,â Iâm gonna need to open a flower truck,â you joke, gesturing to the other vase of flowers sitting in your window. And thereâs another in the bathroom. And one in your bedroom.Â
âJust let me know what kind of truck you want,â he teases.
You press the flowers to your nose to hide your smile. âOh, what did you forget? Youâre welcome to look for it, butââ
He lets out a laugh, scratching the back of his neck. âWell, I might have lied.â
âI knew you were, you idiot,â you swat playfully at his arm. You turn to head into the kitchen in search of another vase. âI got off the phone and paced around like what did he possibly leave here? I figured maybe your wallet or something, but I definitely wouldâve found it earlier. You shouldâve seen the living room this morning â I had the couch on its side and the coffee table in the middle of the hallwayââ
Youâre in the middle of rambling, digging around under the sink for a vase, when Aaron pulls you up by your hand, spinning you to face him.
ââit was a disaster trying to vacuum. Remind me never to do that unless youâre over here to lift all of it. I think I nearlyââ
Heâs smiling at you, and you donât have a single moment to spare to register that heâs leaning in before his lips are on yours.Â
You sigh into the kiss, pleasantly surprised to be interrupted in this way, and glad your hands are free so you can hold onto him. Maybe this is why itâs good he hadnât kissed you yet â one second of it and youâre ready to collapse under the sweet weight of it all. His arms circle your waist to lift you up, and your arms circle his neck, keeping him close. As close as youâve really wanted him.
When you finally break for air, itâs only to press your foreheads against one anotherâs, not wanting to move too far.
âWell,â you laugh.
âTechnically,â he says, pausing to peck your nose, âthatâs what I forgot last night.â
You roll your eyes. âYou are so stupid.â
âMm, just because it makes you smile,â he says, kissing your lips again, and again. âWhat are you doing tonight?â
âIdeally,â you pause, letting him kiss you again, âordering dinner in and making out with my boyfriend until the sun rises. You?â
âYou know, I was thinking about taking someone special out to dinner,â he pauses, pulling you closer again, âand then kissing her until she tells me to stop.â
âThat could be forever, for all you know.â
âThatâs fine with me.â
You grin and he kisses you again, pausing to say, âSorry, I canât help myselfââ
âTrust me,â you move even closer, your eyelashes practically touching his cheeks when you blink, âyou donât need to apologize.â
He responds by kissing you some more, and more, until heâs lifting you into his arms and placing you on the kitchen counter.Â
âAaron!â you squeal, nearly crushing the bouquet. âLet me move the flowers at least!â
âIâll buy you another,â he says, just a whisper away from kissing you again.Â
âYou knowââ You have to pause in between words as he presses his lips to yours. ââI still haveâcleaningâAaron,â you giggle. âI need to put my apartment back together.â
âDo you?â he asks, relenting only slightly, his fingertips pressing into your lower back, keeping you against him. âDo you need help?â
âI do actually,â you chuckle, running your fingers through his hair. âThe couch isnât back where it was.â
He smirked. âI noticed.â
You tug on his hair slightly to tease him for that jab, only it lights a new spark behind his eyes. Your cheeks grow even warmer. âNo, seriously,â you say. âItâll stress me out if itâs not back in its spot, but thenâŚâ
He nods, kissing your lips. âThen weâll get ready for dinner.â
âAnd then come back here for a movie?â
âWeâll see how much of the movie we actually pay attention to,â he smirks, eyes traveling all over your face.Â
The urge to let him ravish you right now against the kitchen counter is so strong it nearly makes you lightheaded. But soon Aaron is helping you down, pressing another kiss to your forehead.Â
âDid you get to vacuum under the couch all the way?â
ââŚkind of.â
âCome on,â he chuckles, pulling on your hand, leading you back into the living room. âCall me next time?â
âIf I get kissed like that during spring cleaning then Iâm doing it every day,â you reply, mostly joking. Kind of. âFuck I forgot the vase for the flowersââ
Aaron kisses you to interrupt you once again. âOne thing at a time,â he says.
The kissing doesnât stop, and you never do get to vacuum under the couch. It can wait.
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The Boys Preference: Taking Care Of You When You're Drunk
A/N: Not requested, just an idea I had! Still not feeling great, but I will definitely get back to requests tomorrow :) This is just a lil thank you for your patience my loves! Feedback is always appreciated! đ
Butcher notices you've been drinking a lot more than usual. Ever since you found out he was dying, you've been trying not to think about it or worry about it, and the only way you can do that is by drinking. Getting drunk is just a fun side effect. He'll drive you from the bar, taking your shoes off before tucking you into his bed. He hates the idea that you're hurting yourself like this because of him, because he didn't listen to you and he took the V without regard to his or your safety. The least he could do was hold your hair while you threw up and bring you a glass of water and some Tylenol. You don't talk about it, though. You don't want to talk about him dying, you don't want to face that future, and you don't want to talk about your growing problem. You were drinking on the job, too, maintaining a certain numbness so that nothing else could hurt you.
Hughie hates that you're drinking more. He understands why. More and more stuff just keeps going wrong. More and more issues pop up. It's hard to be positive or optimistic. It was easier to find your way to the bottom of a bottle than to come face to face with any of this stuff. He doesn't mean to pry, but he asks you a lot of questions. The main one is why are you doing this? You just shrugged. It's so hard to explain. Everything feels like too much. You were tired, and scared, and you weren't sure you wanted to do this anymore. What was the point? He tried to cheer you up. You had the serum in the severed leg, you were so close, why give up now? You wanted to be that hopeful. You really did, but you couldn't.
Annie definitely lectures you. This is the third night in a row (this week alone) where the bartender called her, your emergency contact, taking your keys from you. You've been drinking a lot more, ever since you left The Seven and joined The Boys. You worked with Vought for so long, she knew there was a lot you weren't saying. She tried to talk to you about it, but you were so cagey, shutting her out instead. Shutting everyone out. It was awful, that much she knew. Still, everyone went through something. That didn't give you the right to get as drunk as you were as often as you were. You're barely listening, but she gives you her speech anyways. She'll keep telling it to you until something changes.
M.M. hates taking care of you when you're like this. The biggest thing he can't stand is the vomit. He stays as far away from you as possible, yelling from the across the room if you're okay. He offers hand sanitizer and napkins and mouthwash, but he refuses to get any closer than that. The noises alone make his skin crawl, let alone the smell. He's in charge now. He feels like he has to take care of everyone, regardless of the issue. You getting drunk wasn't a problem yet, but he knew he'd have to talk to you if it got worse. Drinking every night just to function during the day wasn't you. You couldn't keep going on like this. If that included tough love, so be it. You needed to hear it.
Frenchie drinks with you. He never goes as far as you, realizing that at least one of you should be slightly more sober. He doesn't really mind when you get drunk. Something happens with you. You become happier, sillier, more fun. You smile and laugh more. He likes seeing that. He likes knowing you're at least a little happier. Life had become so hard lately. Your past was catching up with you, and you didn't know how to handle it, so you got drunk. He understood the concern from everyone else, but he knew yelling and lecturing would change anything. At least he could be there for you. At least he could take care of you and laugh with you and be there. That's all you really needed.
Kimiko is quite gentle when you're drunk. She walks you home from the bar and takes off your shoes and asks you questions: Are you nauseous? Are you hungry? Thirsty? She gets it. When she saw the posters of the Shining Light Liberation Army, she drank more than a few beers. Anything she could get her hands on. Sometimes, you just need a little liquid courage to face the hard things. She makes sure you have pain relief for the headache you'll feel tomorrow and gets you something greasy to put in your stomach. She doesn't like or want to villainize your actions. You were all tired of this, fighting a battle you could not win. She stuck up for you when the others thought you were being messy or stupid. You just needed some time, that was all.
Bonus! Homelander thinks you're messy, a degenerate, and he won't tolerate it. When he knows you're drunk or hungover he makes a special point to seek you out, to punish you. You're a member of The Seven, you should act like it. The same way it infuriates him when Sage lobotomizes herself, he feels that when you start drinking. You have a public image to uphold. Even when you go out in civilian clothes, anyone could spot you. Anyone could ask for a photo or ask questions. It was stupid and selfish and reckless and as long as he's in charge, he won't tolerate it. He humiliates you, he says, because he cares. You think it's because he likes having power over you when you're at your most vulnerable.
Bonus! Soldier Boy thinks you're a lightweight and calls you out on it any chance he can get. There's no keeping up with him. Even being a Supe, you could still get incredibly drunk. Your tolerance was a lot higher than humans, but nowhere near Soldier Boys. He doesn't really take care of you when you're drunk. It's more like lying you on your side and leaving you to sleep. He's not very caring towards anyone, let alone someone he considers lesser than himself. He's fun to drink with, but the fun pretty much stops there. If he's feeling extra considerate, he might throw a blanket over you, but that's as far as he goes. He'll leave you and keep on drinking for the rest of the night. You being drunk won't put a damper on his legendary partying.
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More Hearts Than Mine-Luke Gets Injured
~More Hearts Than Mine by Ingrid Andress~
Author's Note: a little delayed since he is back playing but anyways Summary: Y/N takes care of Luke after he gets injured Warnings: implied smut Word Count: 1,619
Her schedule was starting to get overwhelming, she decided to take a few more credits this semester to try and graduate a semester early. It was only week two in the semester and sheâs already spent majority of her time at the campus library studying.
Usually, her phone would be on silent as she was studying. She was always desperate to focus. It was only noon and she was finished with her classes for the day but she wanted to get ahead on her work for the week.
Reluctantly she pulled her phone from her pocket to see a handful of missed calls from Jack. It was weird for him to text her, let alone call her multiple times. Without hesitation she quickly called him back. Jack answered after a few rings.
âWhatâs wrong? Is Luke alright?â she whispered as she glanced around her.
âHeâs fine, but he busted his shoulder at practice. Itâs not great, heâs on a shit load of meds, Iâll take his car back to yaâlls place tonight, can you come pick him up?â Jack explained in what seemed like on big long word. Her eyes widened as she quickly shut her computer, she rested her phone between her shoulder and her ear.Â
âHow bad is it?â she whispered as she shoved her computer into her bag as she stood up and started walking towards the exit.Â
âDonât know yet, heâs getting a scan right now.â Jack muttered, sounded like there was a lot of shuffling on his end of the phone.
âJack?â she questioned as she stepped out of the library, luckily her car was parked close enough to where she could leave in the matter of minutes.Â
âY-yeah?â he let out as he got closer to the phone.
âA scan is probably not a good sign, right?â she asked. He hummed on his end of the phone.
The drive over to the practice rink felt like eternity but it was only fifteen minutes. Jack tends to get over protective of Luke, so it very well could be nothing. But she wanted to see Luke regardless.
She hopped out of the car instantly to see Jack talking with Nico outside the player entrance door. Jackâs eyes widened once he saw her walking towards him. âHeâs inside,â he explained as he took a few steps back towards the door.
âHey Y/N,â Nico muttered as he smiled politely towards her. She smiled towards him as she followed Jack inside. âHeâs a little loopy,â Nico explained as he followed after them. Y/N nodded as she followed down the hallway. Jack turned and entered a room that was brightly lit.Â
Luke lifted his head up as if he was drunk. His eyes widened and a sleepy grin formed to his lips. âGirlfriend,â he mumbled before he tilted his head back against the seat.
Y/N smiled as she walked towards him. The teamâs doctor stood beside him. âDoesnât look like heâll need surgery,â he said reassuringly. Y/N nodded as she rested her hand onto Lukeâs arm that was not in a sling.Â
âHeâll just need lots of rest, the pain killers heâs on right now are only for today and tomorrow. Heâll just use over the counter until he doesnât need it anymore,â the doctor explained as he handed Y/N the pill bottle with only two pills in it. She nodded as she shoved the bottle into her purse.
âAlright, can you guys help me get him into my car.â Y/N explained. Jack and Nico took a hold of Luke, cautious on his shoulder, and started guiding him out of hte room.
âGod, Iâm getting flashbacks to the Zach Bryan concert,â Jack muttered as he guided Luke out of the facility.Â
âOh donât remind me of that,â Y/N said while laughing as she followed after the boys.
They managed to get Luke into the passenger seat of the car, the medication was a lot stronger than Luke thought they were going to be. He tilted his head back against the headrest. Jack shut the door on him, a chuckle leaving his lips in the process.
âIâll drive his car back to your guysâ place, so I can help you get him inside.â Jack explained. Y/N nodded as she took in a long breath.
âThank you, Jack,â she mumbled as she met his eye, taking a deep breath in the process. He nodded as he jogged towards Lukeâs car a few parking spaces away.
Y/N jogged around towards the driver seat of her car and she dropped down into the seat. âYou alright?â she asked him. He opened his eyes slowly, glancing down towards his arm.
âThey said Iâll be out for only a few regular season games,â he mumbled, tilting his head to the side to meet her gaze. She put the key in the ignition as she met his eye.Â
âThatâs good to hear, my love,â she mumbled. He smiled towards her as he shut his eyes.Â
âDamn, Iâm fucking tired,â he muttered.
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The next morning, Luke was sleeping in late, his shoulder in a sling. He struggled to get comfortable for majority of the night but he was finally sleeping comfortably. Y/N stood in the kitchen making breakfast, knowing that he would be starving the second he wakes up.Â
She was swaying back and forth to the country music playing through their tiny speaker. She hummed along to the song as she poured the protein pancake batter onto the skillet watching it immediately start to bubble.Â
âCause, oh my god, he walked in like a 6â2â dream, Heaven-sent. He says what he means and he means what he says,â she sang along to the song. She spun around to see a sleepy Luke with his arm in a sling leaning against the kitchen counter. âShit, Luke scared the hell out of me,â she said while she held her hand against her chest. He chuckled as he titled his head back against the cabinet.
âWhatcha making?â he asked as he scanned her frame. Her body was only covered with an old t-shirt of his and very tiny shorts. She smiled towards him as she flipped one of the pancakes.
âAn amazing breakfast spread, you go relax,â she offered as she pointed towards the couch with the spatula. He shook his head as he ran his hand over his shoulder wincing in pain. She frowned. âGo sit,âÂ
He sighed as he walked towards the couch, sitting down. He squinted his eyes shut as he felt his arm throb. He was listening along to the music that was playing in the background.
It took a few minutes before the breakfast was ready. She was carrying two plates as she walked towards the couch. She excitedly handed one of the plates to Luke, cautiously. He sat up, resting the plate onto the coffee table.
âThis looks amazing,â he muttered as he brought the food towards his mouth, taking a large bite. âWow, this actually taste good,â he teased.
âOh shut it, I can cook,â she said before biting a perfectly crispy piece of bacon.
âAre you sure Jack didnât sneak in and make this for you?â he teased again as he took another bite.Â
âHardy har,â she said sarcastically. He smirked as he continued eating the food.Â
âThank you, baby, really this is amazing,â he let out as he met her gaze. She smiled softly towards him as she reached for the remote. He winced in pain as he leaned back.
âI can go grab that medicine that your doctor gave me,â she said, already standing up.
âNo, no better not. I donât want to feel like that again,â he said as he waved her off. She nodded as she leaned back into her spot on the couch, glancing towards him every so often. âIâll grab some Advil or something after this amazing meal,â he said with a smirk on his lips.
She rolled her eyes playfully as she met his gaze briefly. She put on a random show as they continued to eat their breakfast in comfortable silence.
It had been a handful of hours later and it was safe to say Luke was already over being injured. He felt useless and lazy. He already hated the idea of being held up in bed but he wouldnât complain about Y/N taking care of him.Â
He was laid up on the bed, his laptop in his lap as he was watching a movie. Y/N walked into the room, smiling towards him. She took note of the frown on his face and tilted her head to the side.
She walked towards the bed, delicately resting her hand onto his cheek. He tilted his head into her hand. âItâs only a month in a half,â she muttered. He pouted his lips as he shut his eyes. âLuke,âÂ
âYou know what could make me feel better?â he asked, fighting a small grin forming to his lips.Â
âWhatâs that?â she teased as she slowly climbed onto his lap, being extra cautious of his arm. His eyes scanned her frame, biting his bottom lip trying to prevent a wide grin. He couldnât form words as he continued to admire her frame. She rested her hands onto his jaw as she ran her thumbs across his jawline.
She leaned towards him, kissing him delicately. His free arm, slowly started running up and down the back of her thigh. âHowâs that?â she mumbled against his lips. He hummed as he pressed his lips against hers once more.
âItâs a start,â he let out teasingly.
âAsshole,â she mumbled against his lips before she kissed him more urgently.
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