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silentmouthpiece · 2 days ago

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I wish Jimmy wasn't a static villain, but I'm glad he wasn't. It's terrifyingly interesting to watch this man crumble underneath the weight of his mistakes. Kinda wanna put him in a blender.

Jimmy resents Curly for not being satisfied with the ideal life that he [Jimmy] could never achieve on his own. A life style that we all are told are the marks of success, but we have to break our backs and trudge through mud to even get a glimpse of and it's not even what most people want or need. Jimmy bought into the golden standard he believed Curly achieved and tried to mimic him. But Curly, a captain shaped by the greedy corporate powers that be, is only a facade of a captain. A mirage that disappears when you get closer, but Jimmy is delusional as fuck so he taped that mirage to his forehead and kept chasing it like his life depended on it.

In his eyes I guess it did.

Jimmy's relationship with Pony Express is weird as fuck, but I think it makes sense if Jimmy attaches so much importance to it because it influences his life so much. Curly, Jimmy's golden ideal, gives him a chance to escape his "rough life" with Pony Express and climb up the ladder to achieve that golden standard for himself. Pony Express is such a shitty ladder though, with its lackluster policies and disregard for their employees and working conditions but Jimmy holds on because it's his lifeline. As a a pilot he gets to take control of his life. It's not easy and it's far from ideal but it's better than home, so he makes it his home. One things that you do when you're home is get comfortable enough to shit in it.

Jimmy rapes Anya on the Tulpar. On the job for Pony Express. He did it at least 2 out of 11 months in, because Anya notes that there are eight months left on the ship to Curly and we know she knew she was pregnant by then. I don't know why he did it, I cannot fathom what compelled him to allow himself that impulse but he did it. In doing so he planted the seed for the life he wanted to achieve that would strip it from him before he even accomplishes it and it grows out of his control.

Let's rewind a bit. Curly revealing to the crew that Pony Express was going down and laying them off was essentially heaven closing the gate on Jimmy with a nice helping of spit on his face. It was bad news for everyone, but woooow Jimmy took it real personal after the talk he had with Curly about a week(?) before. About leaving Pony Express for something more fulfilling. Jimmy put two and three together to make four and accused Curly of being happy with this outcome and leaving them behind for a more satisfying life while everyone else is left with nothing to show for their struggles working for the company. We know that's not true, but Jimmy is essentially witnessing his golden ideal, who handed him this fool's gold of an opportunity to achieve the golden standard, close the very door he opened after telling Jimmy that he doesn't even like said door. Jimmy loses it and lashes out.

(... you know... that might be why Jimmy did... all that. If they got the news before he ever assaulted Anya Jimmy didnt have too much to lose that he hadnt lost already, so why not take control however he can and feel good.) Ah fuck, wait, no. Shit... fuck!

If Jimmy raped Anya because Pony Express is going down and Polle represents Anya and/or the unborn baby... im not even sure where Im going with this but if he raped Anya cuz he felt cheated of the ideal life (one that typically says you need a spouse and kids) I will put myself in the cryopod with Curly. Im not saying he did it to start a family, but as a means of taking whatever slice of cake he can before it all goes to shit.

I said all that to explore why Jimmy cracked so hard but now I feel like I unearthed something and I dont know how I feel about it. Ack!

I dont know if I need to make this clear, but I am not excusing his actions. I'm trying to get into his head. Turning him over to see what made him tick the way he did. It's fun.

Edit: i did a follow-up reblog that sums it up better

#jimmy mouthwashing #mouthwashing #curly mouthwashing #anya mouthwashing #tw sa mention

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jvzebel-x · 1 year ago

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here's an update for all the "tOuRiSm iS fOr ThE pEoPlE" fucks. always remember that the second anyone steps foot on that land in the name of "tourism" or any other haole institution, that is colonizing&that person is a fucking explicit modern colonizer who made the conscious decision to be one and has spent a lot of fucking money on that trip to get their title. only that kine want more of their kin there-- don't pretend that shit is for anyone else.

drop dead of spontaneous combustion specifically, not even the sharks would want that pīlau fucking meat.

#video footage of haole families already in burnt wasteland is so fucking dystopic its almost funny #'funny' in the way of 'i might have rabies bc im foaming at the mouth lol'. bc fuck if i wouldnt literally #rip these ppl to fucking shreds. god bless whoever took the pics&vids bc i couldnt havd held my tongue.#you know we're all fucked when the governor is holding private back-chamber business-only meetings #to decide to open a fire wasteland two months after 1000+ ppl were killed&where ppl are still looking for remains to tourism #&it honestly seems so much less disgusting bc theres literally footage of haole families already disregarding any form of boundaries.#like this is what we've come to lmao.#i have so. much. violence. in me&no where to put it lmao. i want to go home. i miss home so bad. i am so fucking homesick.#i think the next person who responds to finding out im from hawaii w anecdotes of their trip there will probably get knocked out.#like i dont actually think i should be held responsible for that first hit. anything after is fair game tho i guess.#undescribed

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genekies · 5 months ago

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tag vent

#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas #and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when #we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates #just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night #ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me #ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but #she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening #he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by #people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again #i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends #and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer #than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they #helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that #they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient #im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk #tag vent #vent in tags

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crunchycrystals · 3 days ago

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fortunately and unfortunately i care a lot about everything all the time

#crunchyposts #i am one of the most opinionated poeple in the worldits honestly crazy #i have a lot of love and a lot f hate in my heart and its very heavy and incredible and awful and magical and my brain is a prison #if you get it you get it #me and annabeth shaking hands fr #this post is a compilation of many thoughts ive been having such as 'once someone said i had a lot of opinions on something #and i didnt realize how true that was until now'#and also 'why is it so deeply inherently embarrassing to admit you have wants and desires'#and the common factor???????? i throw my whole heart into most things #including caring very much about not caring #well its time to reread home is where the heart is but i guess im already there #the equivalent of me projecting directly onto annabeth and almost crying every time i reread a line i have saved in my bookmarks #OH WAIT THIRD POST I WAS GONNA MAKE THAT I NEVER MADE:#'i have never half assed anything in my life i physically cant' gee i fucking wonder why

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maplemaplemaplemaplemaple · 29 days ago

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whateverrr. sashamilla with this must be the place by talking heads as their first dance song at their wedding. if you even care .

#home is where i want to be but i guess im already there WAHHH #i was making a comic with them for this song ages ago but i gave up. will revisit one day perhaps …#maple rambles

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orcelito · 1 month ago

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Despite all odds, I have arrived home safely👍

Turns out that the earlier goop was the better goop. The adderall goop. The adderall has worn off now though. So I am. Very incredibly out of it.

But I am home. And I will take my quick shower. And then I will climb into bed.

I do need to eat. But... later...

#speculation nation #im the special kind of tired where im more tired than hungry #which is to say my every cell is yelling at me to get some fucking sleep.#and i dont think id be much more successful at eating rn than i was this morning.#i ate. half a can of chef boyardee. which was half bc i was so focused on typing and half bc i could barely stomach it.#so i at least ate Something. but not as much as normal.#i did have an ensure in the middle of the day. so theres some nutrients too at least.#i'll eat after i get a few hours of sleep. when the edge is no longer so desperate.#and hopefully i'll be able to stomach things better then.#honestly have all nighters always been this hard or am i just getting older? i havent actually pulled an all nighter since uhhh #well there was kind of one on dead dad day. but that day sucked just in general.#last time i think was april '23 when i read t.rimax volume 9-14 within a 24 hour period while also finishing a final presentation.#even then tho i got like 2 hours of sleep. it was still pretty rough though.#like ok i guess those times were pretty awful and also i did get at least some sleep. which is more than today.#so it makes sense for me to be in worse shape rn. i also didnt get as much sleep the night before last as i wanted to #i got... ...maybe 4 hours sleep??? ummm. which isnt a good thing actuslly. no wonder im so fucking exhausted.#i can barely type right now i will be honest. it was so hard to bike home. it took all my focus to not drive off a bridge #or get pushed into traffic by wind. oh boy the wind sure did try.#then i almost tripped down the stairs at my apartment after grabbing the mail bc i Briefly was focused on my mail 🙄#barely present. total mess. but at least im home. and i already did all the thinking i need to do today.#i was brave. i perservered. i was tempted to give up around 6 am ish but i was like No. this is getting done TODAY.#so i did it. i turned it in. and i so bravely did my in class work for my 2nd class. even though i was so mentally not present the whole way #i did my thinking... i am home... rest soon.#actually its kind of funny im lying on my couch rn and i think if most other ppl were in my current state theyd fall asleep right here.#but the power of my insomnia is so. powerful. i am not at risk of falling asleep without meaning to.#only time thats ever actually happened are like. a handful of times i was like. the most tired ive ever been in my life. etc etc.#in fact idk how well i'll be able to fall asleep for my nap. i certainly couldnt last night despite how hard i tried.#hopefully this time... i am truly tired enough....pls i need to rest i am so tired 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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plasticsandwich · 9 months ago

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i guess i should make a cohost now

#pretty depressing to hear how they've actually handled this case #considering the stupid fucking CEO actually dug through her blog to find posts where he personally was 'threatened' before terminating her #he literally could not avoid seeing all the posts where she was harassed by leagues of terfs. and chose to ignore them #no action taken against YEARS harassment. only 'death threats' towards the staff. okay #i guess admitting fault on their end would force them to admit their incompetence towards helping her and other trans women #and incompetence in properly reinforcing their guidelines in regards to the people & terfs who harassed her #better to just get rid of her than to admit any of that. huh #i want to put together an actual post with information just proving how horribly mistreated by staff she was #but with all her blogs fully terminated... not easy to find the posts im looking for #diary #others have already done it too but like. with few concrete examples and re-traceable evidence #not like any more proof is needed. but it hits the point home much much harder

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tamagotchikgs · 6 months ago

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last night i was poking around in my mouth as u do and i reached back where i had always felt this hard thing w my tongue for awhile now but was like ah maybe it's just like. my gums being inflamed in the back or smthn BUT,, no i poked that thing with my fingernail n it is a tooth that is a whole ass wisdom tooth

#NO WONDER... MY JAW IS IN PAIN ALMOST ALL THE TIME.... HUH..#i wonder if that period where i literally couldnt move my jaw from the pain for like a week was when it was emerging #otherwise the pain is like not awful. not bad enough it's noticeable u know im used to it i have so many aches n pains in my body naturally #like my entire head has a constant ache. if u touch my cheekbones ill drop my head like a cat into ur hand dude it is .#it's like the most relieving ache . like u have just lifted a massive weight off my shoulders. and it's been that way since i was a kid #i think i googled if thats what it was before n they were like no if it were your wisdom tooth youd know :) it would hurt u so bad #which i despise btw because this means nothing to me BHJAH.... like they said the same thing when i broke my foot the nurse that did intake #i was a kid & she was like dont worry if it were broken youd know and you wouldnt have walked in here on it ... fellas . it was broken #& i could never see anything when i looked in the mirror #but it's just because it's slightly covered by like swollen gums back there which i always thought was just because i chewed too hard #but.#no i guess it;s because something was erupting like an alien #i used my lil pokey tool to squish em out of the way and i can see it #it's so weird just having a tooth u know u shouldnt #like i . i want to just grab it i want to just hold it in my hand #why does it have to be so securely in place whihc is something i wouldnt never say for my other teeth HJBA #i am not going 2 have it removed any time soon im .#i have wanted to go to the dentist my whole life but i am too scared #esp w the damage from my ed and depression im so embarrassed #i honestly want to though #there is nothing that would make me feel more like an actual person then to just. get a cleaning #get my maintenance done LMAO #i do my best at home but u kno #i use an electric spinning toothbrush i floss i use mouthwash i do it all 2 try n handle what damage there already is #but it still would do wonders for my mental health and oral health #apparently partial impactions which is what i have can be really bad n get infected so . aha...h. 👍:).. ..h.

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trashbaget · 8 months ago

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tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍#but like. i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation.#which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what)#anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴#i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.)#anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡#but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦#cheers to being fools universe

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immamapletreekid · 7 months ago

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work anxiety starting before work itself hahahahaahahahahahahhhaha

#IM BAKCIJ THE FUCKIGN BUIDLIGN .AGAIN. AUSUSUXHEHWHGLHKF #im grateful i have an internship for this summer with the way the job market is like currently.#im grateful that i have the opportunity to lessen the burden on my parents shoulders. im grateful that this job can pay rent and groceries #and tuition for a few terms im grateful i get to gain experience while still in school that will hekp me in the future #IM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THIS!!!!! BUT STILL I FUCLING HATE EVERYTHJGN #i hate being unable to eat anything ir sleep at night bc all i can think about is shit i have work tomorrow i have to email this guy and #finish these tasks and impress my manager and be approachable and enthusiastic and eager to learn and not make any mistakes #and not fail anything bc im getting graded on this its alwags grades its always the fucking grades #isnt it. it was the grades that had me crying on walks home from school when i was 9 and it was grades that made me waste away 9th grade #it was grades that made me unable to stomach anything during weeks with tests and it was and is still grades that #dictate every single fucking part of my life #and even tho the ppl who used to yell at me for getting a B in math in 5th grade are no longer yelling at me for getting 60s in linear algeb #ra and stats and calculus and cs #haha.ha when ur university is famous for its.. horribly high suicdie rates #i find that the yelling comes from me now. ive replaced the adults who would sit beside me at the dinner table #yelling bc yea guess what 8 year old me didnt understand division at first #god i hate this school so much. i hate what im studying im gratefula nd am so privileged to be ahle to further my educarion and receive #all these experiences mot everyone can have but god everytime i return to the city where the school is #i feel like throwing up and sobbing and just never ipening my eyes again #haha yea. i hope i csn get a job to support myself in the future #i hope i can still have time for hobbies #why si everyone at school so good at everything #ive met more people who have passed their rcm 10 and arct exams for piano than those who havent #i have classes with people who have already published research papers with professors in the states #my classmates can breeze through a cs assignment while still playing fir varisty teams. working out everyday. goijg ti parties.#eating and cooking balsnced meals each week. having a social life..the whole combo #meanwhile i get overwhelmed because i have to respond to an email and finish an assignment in one day #how do i become like them #why was this about work anxiety at first and why is it about the eternal imposter syndrome and lack of self confidence #i just want money man... i dont give a shit about snything anymore

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creaturewoman · 7 months ago

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born with a weak heart I GUESS I MUST BE HAVING FUN

#talking heads #music #jaded #home is where i want to be BUT I GUESS IM ALREADY THERE

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enbypool · 9 months ago

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and maybe its not fair to yori or kohaku for the emotion to be love.. like idk. kohaku's view of her actions VS what those actions truly are are completely opposite

#Also i really hope im being nonstereotypical when it comes to BPD. Kohaku's is just a very extreme case+combined with other mental disorders #It might make more sense for Kohaku to have come from a home where love is distorted that way but I like her backstory?#I mean being in the spotlight and watched all the time since theyre like nobles #Being held to an extremely high standard since childhood #and nothing below those standards being accepted in any form #would have a negative mental effect on someone with BPD already right?#Hmm #im trying to think of the core reason kohakus view of love is so deluded #Like Kohaku was held up to those standards had a very uptight household no mistakes aloud #her obvious disorder was completely ignored; her mother refusing to believe her daughter was “crazy”#and this would destroy their social standing in her mind #and the whole no daughter of mine is some “psycho” type mindset #Kohaku was told to push it all down . pretend she's fine . mantain her perfect grades etc #So yknow there was obvious neglect there. rich parents. I wouldnt say kohaku was spoiled but shed always get what she wanted #So maybe that could be part of her obsession with yori? i guess? and how #a person of such lower social standing would be utterly unacceptable for kohaku to be associated with #and Yori is so unique in Kohaku's eyes- she's an angry righteous person that takes risks and doesn't care #what people think of her when public image was #taught to kohaku to be everything to their family.#so like being with someone like yori could be a sort of freedom from this life Kohaku's forced to live #like Kohaku has always been able to be herself around Yori #even when she started to get really clingy all the time yori didn't mind #and shed try to help her with her manic episodes and everything- her anxiety/paranoia etc #and when Kohaku felt like shed lose Yori (when she met Tatsuko)#she did everything she could Not to lose her. (lying&sabotaging Yori's relationship with Tatsuko)#cus she didnt want to lose the only tether she had outside of her nobility. or whatever.#... What was i talking about originally

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swordmaid · 1 year ago

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something so hilarious to me is that shri'iia becomes an oath breaker bc she failed to follow the tenets of lolth's paladins when she's on her own in the surface. like she did such a bad job on being a Lolth Paladin that she even ended up fucking an elf

#lolth: fuck elves fr!#shri'iia thinking it was literal and on her way to fuck a vampire elf: yeah! fuck elves!#joke aside im thinking up of her timeline. the oath breaking is like half-way through act 1 / after the whole tiefling-goblin dilemma #is resolved. but she doesn't accept the oath breaker role until the end of act 1 so she just spent the whole time grappling the fact that #her resolve + sense of self (since her oath is a culmination of that) is gone and the astarion romance was just a distraction for her #or else she'll have to face that sinking void 💃🕺 not to mention the stress of the tadpole. realization that she can't go back home anymore #realization that she'd probably get hunted down by lolth and her followers for failing her / and get turned into a drider if she ever #returned back home. the whole loss and dread of not knowing where to go/what to do when nothing wants you anymore #when you're worth NOTHING now ... slowly seeing her relationship with her matriarch for what it really was. .. trying to process THAT...#so when a distraction presents itself she just jumps into it no thoughts head empty. so its also her using him as much as he's #using her. she's like i already broke all the lolth paladin rules let me break one more i guess 😭#oc: shri'iia.#omg im finally remembering to use this tag smh

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dirt-str1der · 2 years ago

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Me (im brain poisoned): i think this is kiryu and haruka

#Yakuza loveblog #haruka is his LITTLE angel. fuck our lives both #home is where i want to be !!! but i guess im already there ...#i come home. she lifted up her wings. <- like do i have to say it ...#did i find you or did you find me ? haruka is straight up his little blessing he loves his baby so much ...#it was literally fate that pushed them together. her birth father hunting her down. her stumbling right into the arms of her adopted father #do you understand what it means to be someones little baby ... to be cared for protected .. raised ...#kiryu is a man that should never have been a father and yet and yet and yet haruka chose him above anybody else #maybe just maybe (she thinks) maybe she was pur on this earth to be his child ...#stick by him ... make him a little less lonely .. if someone asks this is where ill be ..#im just an animal looking for a home ... and share the same space for a minute or two ...

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palms-upturned · 2 years ago

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#meg talks #came home to a notice of a lease violation and i was like ?! WYM #turns out it’s bc. i have one (1) small plastic storage bin on my patio tucked into the corner where u can hardly even see it #can landlords like. die #i am so pissed off sorry im fucking poor and can’t afford to make my patio look all pretty to raise ur goddamn property value #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #it’s fixed easily enough i guess but oooooo the fucking thought of calling them tomorrow like #sowwy for using my living space in a way that harms no one and nothing #won’t do it again pinky swear 🥺#GO TO HELL!!! AAAAAAA #IM ALREADY CRAMMING THREE PPL INTO A ONE BRDROOM APARTMENT I DONT HAVE FUCKING SPACE FOR SHIT!!!!#im literally so pissed off over like nothing im just. this made the stress bubble burst ig #now i want to scream from a hilltop or smth

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pepprs · 2 years ago

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bad enough that i am stuck in my life but even worse when i have to work through / around the stuckness in front of people i care about / explain it / be perceived in experiencing it. UGH!!!!!!

#purrs #i live in my childhood home i share a bedroom withy sister it hasn’t been redecorated since before we were born i don’t even have a license #ive never dated or even been liked like that by someone i know except one time ive never done like 75-80% of the things ppl my age do and i #gonna show up empty handed and empty brained to everythi ng and be seen as stupid and uncaring and whatever when really im just tired and m #life is so flat rn and i don’t have the strength to pull it up by myself and give it shape again but i have to. i don’t think i have covid #thank GOD) but i can say even without having ever gotten it and hopefully never getting it that it has ruined my life like genuinely. i mea #good things have come out of it too but i was already socially / emotionally stunted and then being locked down for a year and a half like #literaly not leaving my house for anything but medical stuff until july 2021 was so PRPFOUBDLY damaging. i feel like someone has taken a th #motion blur tool i. photoshop and just drawn like a scribble over me so some parts of me are stretched to where they need to be and other p #parts are stuck at like age idk 16 and i think i need to have most of the parts motion blurred to like… move forward! but i can’t make that #happen and i have to explain it and move around it and it’s so EMBARRASSING omg. girl help i am flowering on the wall i am blooming late i #am hiding in my shell and i want to come out but i also DO NOT so i am cowering in fear forever and never standing up for myself or standin #up at all to be honest!! lol 😸👍#anyways this post is brought to you by how INSANELY much i do not want to reply to a particular email in my inbox or spend my time tonight #[redacted] on express when i am already so exhausted. and if that makes me a bad person then so be it i guess i am one #* i don’t even have a LEARNERS PERMIT let alone a license. lawl <3

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