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enbypool · 9 months ago

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and maybe its not fair to yori or kohaku for the emotion to be love.. like idk. kohaku's view of her actions VS what those actions truly are are completely opposite

#Also i really hope im being nonstereotypical when it comes to BPD. Kohaku's is just a very extreme case+combined with other mental disorders #It might make more sense for Kohaku to have come from a home where love is distorted that way but I like her backstory?#I mean being in the spotlight and watched all the time since theyre like nobles #Being held to an extremely high standard since childhood #and nothing below those standards being accepted in any form #would have a negative mental effect on someone with BPD already right?#Hmm #im trying to think of the core reason kohakus view of love is so deluded #Like Kohaku was held up to those standards had a very uptight household no mistakes aloud #her obvious disorder was completely ignored; her mother refusing to believe her daughter was “crazy”#and this would destroy their social standing in her mind #and the whole no daughter of mine is some “psycho” type mindset #Kohaku was told to push it all down . pretend she's fine . mantain her perfect grades etc #So yknow there was obvious neglect there. rich parents. I wouldnt say kohaku was spoiled but shed always get what she wanted #So maybe that could be part of her obsession with yori? i guess? and how #a person of such lower social standing would be utterly unacceptable for kohaku to be associated with #and Yori is so unique in Kohaku's eyes- she's an angry righteous person that takes risks and doesn't care #what people think of her when public image was #taught to kohaku to be everything to their family.#so like being with someone like yori could be a sort of freedom from this life Kohaku's forced to live #like Kohaku has always been able to be herself around Yori #even when she started to get really clingy all the time yori didn't mind #and shed try to help her with her manic episodes and everything- her anxiety/paranoia etc #and when Kohaku felt like shed lose Yori (when she met Tatsuko)#she did everything she could Not to lose her. (lying&sabotaging Yori's relationship with Tatsuko)#cus she didnt want to lose the only tether she had outside of her nobility. or whatever.#... What was i talking about originally

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