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I never thought the day would come, yet here I am, writing about a married couple interacting with one another. I don't know how to feel.
#ao3#ao3 fanfic#fanfiction#fanfic#harry potter#james bond#moriarty the patriot#yuukoku no moriarty#bbc sherlock#crossover#weird crossover#part of a series#shorts#short story#short stories#fictive#serial fiction#serial fanfiction#eurus holmes#enola holmes#william james moriarty#holy shit do I need sleep
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was gonna work on platinuming nemesis on xbox but instead i just spent the last 2hrs unfollowing people on ig š®āšØ I didnāt even get through them all and ive unfollowed 500+ accounts that ive been probably following since 2014 š
i still have another 500 something to sift through but that can wait for another day
#itās mostly brands and random people i donāt even know why i was following them#itās nice to finally start getting toxic people out of all my spaces#plus unfollowing all the brands and influencers cleared up my feed SO much holy shit#i need to take a weekend and try and get my following count on here down a lil#but now i need to go to sleep cuz i have a lot to do tomorrow#and it might be a half day#but im not sure yet#i hope it is#my ass will be playing games all day if that ends up being the case#i donāt know what#but i will be playing them
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vent in tags sorry
cw: mention of loss
#adding a long note to the beginning so no one sees the actual vent in the case that they donāt want to which is absolutely okay#okay thatās probably good#i feel like a failure today.#my car wouldnāt start on friday and i havenāt had a moment to actually call a mechanic until today#called early in the morning and he said heād call me back with a time#iāve reached out multiple times since then and have heard NOTHING#if i donāt get it fixed today iāll have to take my partners car instead#and when i asked them if that would possibly be okay#they started off on a rant about how they were planning to do all this shit tomorrow morning and now canāt if they donāt have their car#but genuinely. how tf was i supposed to know about their plans?? why did they have to say it all like this is completely my fault???#iām sorry that iām still in a not so good mental place right now and might forget to do things in a more timely manner#iāve had two grandparents pass away in the span of a few WEEKS. give me a little grace.#i give them the same understanding every day when theyāre having a rough time#so why canāt they offer me the same thing?#i know theyāre just stressed and tired and busy but FUCK SO AM I#iām just. over it. i want to go to sleep.#and by sleep i mean literal sleep iām not insinuating anything darker i promise#i may be in a rough spot mentally but it is not that kind of rough <3 iām safe#just. very tired. and in need of support.#i feel like iām always giving and rarely getting support in this relationship.#and now iām just feeling like a burden and an inconvenience for even needing the extra support in the first place#the urge to run away and start my life over is strong holy shit
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Okay, that's my Wakfu oc. This is my first time, please be gentle.
Verona, looks about 30-35 years old, Enytrof
2. Waven-era
3. Deputy manager of a small inn in the cityā¦ I donāt know which one, but itās large and thereās a port there.
4. 2-nd daughter in a family of large furniture and antiques dealers. There are 2 older brothers, 2 younger brothers and a younger sister. Hasnāt communicated with her family for about 7 years, they donāt remember her.
5. The hand doesn't work. Essentially dead most of the time, but not rotting.
6. Shortly before the Waven, she made a deal with the god Enutrof (and the other gods through him) to cure her younger relatives, who were very sick since birth. (Later she learns that the disease itself was sent by the gods to bring her to the conclusion of the deal.).
7. In exchange for this, she became a āpartnerā of what the gods themselves called the Abyss. In short, it is an entity/force similar to a black hole. Its goal is to do nothing, just float or stand in the infinity of space and do nothing, feel nothing and not be disturbed by anything. As soon as it encounters an obstacle or feels āirritatedā from external factors, Abyss simply absorbs everything around her. So that nothing interferes with chilling.
(Partner is actually a big word. Verona simply has to sing lullabies to the Abyss (conditionally) and ālullā it so that it stands still and does not move towards the World of Twelve).
Why Verona? She was born with a critically low connection to Wakfu and Stasis. āA body of stone and cosmic dustā - something that exists independently of the energies of Krosmoz. Something that is alive enough to work and "dead" enough not to irritate the Abyss.
(In the future, according to my idea, this power will solve the issue with Nora and Efrim (it will kill the latter, but return him to dofus) and theoretically help in the fight against the necroms. But there are two sides to the coin - you can bring the abyss to enrage and then it will simply begin to devour everything around yourself. So use with caution, or better not touch at all, so as not to stink).
9. Verona had to agree to erase her entire history until the moment of contact. Contact with the family was lost, and she herself left and got a job living/working in a inn with an old Enytrof woman. They say that old Tartuffe was once the mistress of God himself, hehe, what a connectionā¦
10. Lifespan extended
11. Less than all other relatives, she had a craving for adventure. Calm and even inert, Verona preferred to spend her time making calculations and planning the family business. In addition, she is very sensitive to other people's moods. VERY empathic, and it's very tiring. But this makes her a very pleasant and unobtrusive partner.
I was talking about the OP - and here it is :|
#holy shit#I won't post this right now#need to get used to it#i will queue it so it will be posted while I sleep#I'm only doing this because you did it!!!#crepinjurgen community
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Not enough people talk about whatever the fuck is going on between chigiri and kunigami tbh
#I need to study them#beauty amd the beast comparisons??? in front of MY football game???? get a damn room you idiots holy shit#kunigami called chigiri sleeping beauty and chigiri taunted him back with 'prince un-charming' DO YOU UNDERSTAND THOSE CHARACTERS KISS RIGHT#there is no corner in the blue lock program not occupied by gay people what is this
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as much as this past toronto trip was incredible and i'm so grateful to have experienced it i'm also probably gonna need like at least a week to fully recover from it bc jfc. like last trip resulted in a dopamine-crash that made me spend most of my free time taking naps and even tho that trip was amazing it doesn't even come close to the incredible high points this KITH-weekend had. plus this time i had to come back to a major holiday the day after i got back to the US and i was unable to find time to take my antidepressant today bc i didn't have time to unpack
which like fine i'm gonna let myself rest before i make myself write an in-depth recap. but also pairing this exhaustion with the extreme ambition this weekend instilled in me (seriously, nothing makes you feel like your comedy can change the world more than getting high while watching the SNL movie with scott thompson and having him hype up every weird aspiration you vocalize lmao) means there's so much i wanna do right away but my brain just can't yet. so that's where i'm at!!
#also i think i'm at a point in exhaustion where everything i write is like 5 times longer than it needs to be#i was about to vent to a mutual about one of the 2 low points of this past weekend#(neither caused by any KITH member dw both were just other friends being rude without thinking in a way that made me insecure)#but i realized just the setup for the vent was longer than any reasonable person would text so i'm gonna sleep it off for now lmao#even this post itself. i know it could be like 4 sentences but my brain cannot comprehend how to do that rn lmao#anyway yeah watching the snl movie with scott was the best. like idk how to objectively judge that movie's quality bc the experience#was so tied to just talking over it with scott the entire time. and that one wild moment where i was like#''holy shit did i just accidentally convince scott i'm the future of comedy?? i'm just a stoned 22-year-old saying shit''#fun fact i was actually super close to having scott join my family for american thanksgiving this year lmao#(actually idk if he was considering it but paul was 100% he would say yes and there was no reason not to lmao)#i did ask. he said no (but probably bc of travel times bc we were leaving at 8am and him doing a show on friday which i hope goes well)#and ngl with how exhausted i am i'm kind of glad i got the small amount of rest i had today#which i know i would not have let myself get if scott was here bc i'd want to be hanging out all the time lmao#BUT the fact that my parents went from joking about scott being at thanksgiving to genuinely asking him while in toronto#means that there's a high likelihood i could invite both paul AND scott to our american thanksgiving next year#especially if i invite them in advance rather than like the day before lmao#which like. can we just appreciate how fucking wild that is that it's even a possibility#anyway my grandma did tell me at dinner that she's gonna work on a quilt for paul bellini to support his recovery#and she's also gonna make one for scott bc she doesn't want him to feel left out lmao#so come on my honorary-uncles are already being considered part of the family even if they're not at thanksgiving dinner#hopefully i'll be living in canada by this time next year so who knows i might experience TWO thanksgivings lmao#i hope you enjoyed this very rambly post i need to get my brain working again otherwise every text is gonna end up like this
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ON DA FUCKINT GRIND šŖšŖšŖšŖšŖšŖš„š„š„š„š„š„š„š„
#rad1oart#im going to crash SOOO hard in like an hour just watch#whatever i have a comm to finish i cant afford to crash rn#dawg my mom woke up and was like holy shit youre awake????? must be serious šØšØ#the only other times ive pulled an all nighter was to crunch the fuck out of school work (50 page horticulture assignment I DONT MISS YOU!!#the only allnighter my MOM knows of was in middle school when i had to crunch a fucking essay on the floor of my bedroom#she walked in and was like What The Fuck Dont Do That Again But Also Get That Bag#the acetaminophen is for my headaches and general body achesANIMALS BY NICKLEBACK š„š„š„š„#gang ive been so loopy all morning the only thing keeping me together is this roadtrip playlist me and ollie made#its the rock and metal thats keeping me locked tf in. i am going to sleep in like an hour or two and i will hear the#echos of fucking sabaton in my head#also i keep hallucinating but i cant tell if i really am or if its The House Ghost#both maybe. probably both. 90% chance its both.#coffee tastes like ass btw i hate drinking this shit but i need to LOCK TF IN.#sorry im rambling i literally have barely spoken to anyoneOh Hello Millionaires Fuck Yeahanyways yeah#my dad was up working as always so i had occasional yapping with him about Whatever and then i talked to my cats and myself for#like 4 hours and then my mom and then i said hi to my brother when he audibly said Whar at me
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had about half of the most recent critical role episode left, decided to watch some to calm down before sleep.
that was two hours ago bc holy shit was i uh. not expecting the whole last hour. holy fucking shit, did ashton ever push that damn red button. we got the perches. we got sam hiding in the hood. we got the book-on-the-head. we got the yelling. we got what i am now referring to as matt's 'molly face' every time he rolled. i have not been this tense since the otohan fight and... this felt like a different kind of tense? also it's been a while since then i hadn't realised!
what an absolutely fucking wild series of events and rolls and i cannot believe that worked.
#critical role#cr spoilers#critical role spoilers#bell's hells#c3e077#salmon watches cr3#for the record it's a very positive 'holy fucking shit'#like was it a stupid decision that was *very clearly telegraphed* by the dm?#yes! of course!#was it also completely in character for ashton and did it make sense for them? 'big risk big reward' 'nobody is going to miss me' etc?#yes!#and like look#big decisions make the game right#that's how the story works#good story is built on the tense shit and the conflict and the terror and BOY was it good (but also oh my fucking god)#GOD what an episode what a night#i need to attempt to sleep now. apparently#incredible work a+ no notes#'an unprecedented creature' indeed#how's aabria doing tonight between the ring of temporal salvation#and the titans she both caused and saved this mess#also i am SO glad i caught up in time for this episode my god#yes i know the episode aired on thursday night#but like. timezones. and i didn't finish watching it last night bc i was dead tired#incredible episode. very much looking forward to rewatching the last hour again sometime soon. gotta try and sleep now.
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Before and after the sleep token concert tonight.
Aside from feeling like an old man ("my feet hurt my back hurts I need water" - you know the drill) I am thoroughly excited. What a wonderful experience!
...also I think I scared two girls in pajamas when I stalked the foyer of the hotel for something to drink right now...
#me#myself#nihil#sleep token#we do need to teach the next generation concert/moshpit etiquette though holy shit#but I won't rant. instead I will bask in the experience
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Did driving practice today. Actually did parallel parking practice this time, even tho I really didn't want to still. Finally got it into my head that I can maybe do this.
SO......
I have scheduled my driving test. For November 13th, 3 weeks from today.
#speculation nation#IM SO NERVOUSSSSS but i need to do it. i need to. worst case scenario i fail and have to try again another day.#i was actually gonna try to schedule for a week from today but they were full up for the next 2 weeks.#so. 3 weeks! my therapist is gonna be happy for me when i tell her haha#this is. something ive been avoiding for over 10 years now. but i decided at the start of this year that This would be my year.#Year Of Unfuck My Life. and im finally doing it. im going to finally get my license.#it's so. huge actually. a similar level of Holy Shit factor as me graduating.#which seems like an uneven comparison but honestly ive just been so so so scared of this driving test#an insurmountable obstacle bc i was stuck at school away from family to help me practice etc etc#very tied up with me being stuck at school for so long actually. the neverending purgatory of being Stuck In Place.#but my cousin lives closer to me now and hes been helping me out. and i am so very grateful.#augh augh augh augh. life is so busy and it feels like everything is happening at once AAAAAAAAAAAA#but im taking it all in stride. i am. oh god i might have to just practice and then take my audition video all on the same day.#bc i am too tired to deal with it rn and i have an exam tomorrow so idk if i can practice then. also i have to clean.#i will make it work. i will make something work. for the love of fucking god i will make it work.#no time to write barely any time to relax but thats okay i am Go Go Going and trying to keep enough time to sleep#(prior few nights being the..exception lol.)#i certainly wouldnt want to live this way for too long. but just a few more months. i can do it.#next semester hopefully wont be as busy. i'll have 3 hard classes but if im lucky they wont even have much homework.#i can do it. i can get through it. i will get my license in 3 weeks (manifesting) and i will get my own car.#i will find a new apartment to live in. i will Hopefully find a job.#within a year my life is going to be much much different.#my life is Already much much different than it was just a year ago. tho this year has been more... metamorphosis.#in a year's time. i will be 28 years old. and the pieces will Finally be falling into place (hopefully!!!!!)#for now. god i need to rest. will probably go to sleep early tonight. need to be rested for my exam tomorrow.#first tho i gotta shower and feed both me and the cats. yes.
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Does anyone have any tips on how to ask your parents if you can go to therapy. I don't have the balls to ask but I've been feeling like shit for fucking years now, and atp it's just annoying. I annoy everyone around me and that really fucks with my head, idk why
Anyways, I'm probably just gonna kms, so it doesn't really matter, lol
#lol#idk man#send help#im insane#i need sleep#im just a girl#depressing shit#idk how to tag this#real#idk#therapy#feeling like shit#holy shit#wtf#im so silly#idk what im doing#im tired
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trigger warning. do not read if you dont want to read something triggering.
#my bf is a fucking rapist#i told him i didnt want to have sex again because it was getting late and i have work tomorrow#and he usually takes a long time to finish after round 1 so i didnt want to stay up an extra hour#and he started manipulating me and pleading and saying he loved me and i dont know why i capitulated but#the fact that i said ok after 10 no's?#and i was crying#i was crying while i sucked his dick and while he fucked me#and he told me to struggle more because he found it hot#he thinks rape is hot#and after he joked about being a good manipulator and being able to get me to disregard my boundaries#which is true#but like he knows im an abuse survivor and have trouble with boundaries#the fuckdd up thing is he was the one who taught me to have boundaries#he told me to tell my mom to eat a dick when shes egging on my eating disorder#he told me i didnt have to stick around when my mom was calling me slurs for breaking dishes or failing classes#and here he is being proud that he managed to get through an abuse victims boundaries#he also joked about waking up to the cops at his door#which like shows that deep down inside he knows what he did is wrong#and if i wasnt such a cool girl i could get him into trouble#not like cops here persecute rape anyways but#i pretended to like it after the fact because i still needed him to take me home and i didnt wanna start a fight#but holy shit#idk what to do...#i mean im going to leave him fuck the trip#im shaking i dont even know how ill be able to go to work tomorrow#when this whole thing was over me wanting to get a reasonable amount of sleep on a work night#misiabear rants
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I am done with Nona and everything is worse now
I teared up during the last chapters....... Nona.......
#I need to get a good sleep and gather my thoughts and emotions#I also need to reread a few passages and do some research but#holy shit#tlt spoilers#ntn spoilers
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Getting off my ass and downloading my favorite fics to put on a jump drive I bought with a fuck tonne more storage than the two I already had from when I was in school and, wow, this is actually so much easier than the rest of the stuff Iāve been downloading for various reasons (articles on stuff I want to have around but worry might be impacted by this new presidency). You just pick pdf (or whatever you like) and bam! Itās right there in your downloads ready to be stashed away, no annoying nitpicking where I have to delete stuff I donāt need in the document or huge blank spaces, itās just ready! Like, listen. I love āprint friendly and pdfā Firefox extension, but I always have to end up deleting some stuff that is just taking up space. It does its job! Itās just not going to be neat and tidy when the website doesnāt intend for you to do this. Archive of our own does that whole thing of making a pdf themselves! This is going to go so much faster than the other stuff Iāve been downloading as pdfs
Anyway, I love you as well Smithsonian magazine website for not only being free, but also just having that extension on all your articles! Thatās actually how I found it in the first place. Before that I was copy pasting every paragraph into a pages document and it was way more tedious.
#emma posts#I feel like an old woman who figured out how to use her email#more and more every day#I am not bad at computers while also being bad at computers#Iām getting sidetracked here though#I really just keep developing tricks to solve my computer problems but then thereās an easy solution that I just donāt know about#like that Firefox extension#am I good or bad with computers? I think a secret third thing#Iāll think Iām bad with them and then Iāll see someone who is just straight up terrible with them and Iām like#āwell. im not great. but im also not thatā#I wonāt ever be able to download every fic I want to read#Iām sorting through my bookmarks to take what I think I should grab. but I have so much in the āwant to readā thing#I donāt know if my jump drive could pull that and all my non fanfiction off#I really havenāt purchased a jump drive in awhile though#I saw the storage on one of the first to come up and was like āholy shit!ā#girlie has not purchased one since 2015 okay#I really hope I just end up doing this and then it turns out I didnāt need to#but if I didnāt do it and it turns out I needed itā¦#no. wouldnāt want that#I need sleep. I just started laughing at the thought of having illicit Wikipedia articles on a jump drive like some heinous shit#but itās literally just an article about the history behind Yule or something#forbidden out of Africa Wikipedia article PDF#I donāt know what kind of stuff falls under the stuff in that project 2025#they have brains that work in ways I donāt understand#you know some of them would be like āyou have to take down your article about ice age humans because creationism real I guessā#āhow dare you have information on the history of religion?!ā scandalous#and I know I can never afford to buy books on every single one of those things#but science magazines and Wikipedia articles? sure#Iām getting really sidetracked but this is making me feel like I can do something#itās giving me some sense of control and distraction and if I donāt have those things to channel this energy Iāll just get worse
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NSFW WARNING!!!
contains: trans Rody, rainbow kiss/period sex, cunnilingus
So I've been seeing a lot of vampire Vincent content on twitter lately.
Other than that, I also found out that masturbation and sex can actually help reduce period cramps.
Now,, hear me out...
Rody hates getting period cramps. He knows that masturbating could at least help with reducing the pain but he doesn't really wanna get his hands dirty. But not to worry! His vampire boyfriend is there to help him out :)
Cue to Rody lying down on the sofa while getting his pussy roughly eaten out by vamp Vince.
He's got his legs and thighs spread wide open, making an easier access for the taller male to tongue fuck him. And Vince couldn't help but to dive his face deeper into his boyfriend's sloppy cunt like a man dying of hunger.
No but seriously, Rody's blood is rapidly driving him insane.
His skillful long tongue continuously hitting each and every one of Rody's internal sweet spots. He would also attack Rody's clit by wrapping his lips around the exposed bud and then starts sucking, causing the redhead's body to quiver with over stimulation.
In the end, Vince got his face all dirty and messy with the latter's red fluid but hey, he's not complaining ĀÆā \ā _ā (ā ćā )ā _ā /ā ĀÆ
He doesn't know what made him so horny but his guess was that Rody's sweet blood had some sort of aphrodisiac that made him crazy with lust.
#dead plate#vincent charbonneau#rody lamoree#dead dove do not eat#dead dove fic#I need to sleep holy shit
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I am going to loose my mind trying to organise this funeral. And it's just me doing most of it alone so i cannot stop. I have to keep going
Okay.... warning i did hit 30 tags. Like u been warned if u open my tags u will be scrolling
I need a cigarette so bad and I can't drink because health. And I'm SO WIRED
#i slept after doing funeral stuff#had a dream my dad was alive and there had been mistake#woke up 7am did funeral stuff#went to sleep again and woke up with Health Symptoms#briefly sat outside#more funeral stuff#emails#phone calls#planning#checking anf rechecking anf recchecking and rechekcigng my damn to do list and emails bc i am so traumatised by#the amount of times i will forget literally any and every thing of little or great importance#music planning#email#photos and massive crying fit#break to eat#looked through 7 photo albums until my mother got mad bc she doesn't wanna do that#looked through cd after cd after cd for 3 hours of photos and some did not have photos and some had funny childhood things and i learnt a#lot about my dad from the cd from the old Brick Box Computer backup from 15 years ago and laughed so hard i triggered my asthma#and couldn't stop cry laughing hysterically for minutes#more photos#checking obsessively my email again anf adding shit to the to do list#and now....#i .... need to sleep but I'm so fucking wired#this is just like when i was at uni#i would work day in day out until i passed out. fall asleep with my laptop on my chest. dream of essays snd research papers. wake up and#start writing without even leaving bed#no fucking wonder i was so suicidal holy fuck???????#all I'm doing is funeral planning for my father but it's like being at uni again with deadlines just not enough time and the urgency
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