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The two things I love most about language are simultaneously that the human need to communicate is so strong that we will invent languages, vocabularies, and new turns of phrases at the drop of a hat (freeing our thoughts from the confines of our mind), but also that language is so naturally limiting that it won't truly encapsulate your deepest, most inner thoughts and feelings (your thoughts are yours, but at what cost). Do you understand how feral this makes me feel. "Please understand me," we tell each other, and we both will be seen but also so, so misunderstood, and it isn't our faults, not really, and we continue trying, trying, trying to be understood.
#language#i can never know what it's like to read myself as an outsider and it genuinely makes me go mad#which is why i am so paranoid about how people read what i make and how i am interpreted and how my tone and themes come across#we try in vain to be understood more than we are and holy shit we are divine#this both comforts me and sends me to insanity by the way. i am never normal about this#i love learning about pidgin language and languages that just pop into existence. we so DESPERATELY want to communicate#and even this post can never encapsulate my feelings. they are too big for words; too big for feelings or diaries or whispers to the stars.#yet another post i made while stealth arching in skyrim. what is this world coming to.
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each of the thievesâ perfect/alternate⊠third semester realities are so interesting. like⊠what it suggests about them that that is what they wanted and consider a perfect (or happier) reality. and then the question of how they feel living in that reality after remembering the truth and until they dismantle it. like⊠half of the cast (makoto, haru, futaba) is living with dead relatives. ryuji is back in the club that he (kinda not really) ruined and was practically ostracized from. ann has her best friend back, both of them completely clean of the trauma inflicted by kamoshida. yusuke- fucking yusukeâs third semester reality is the most fascinating to me- his perfect reality is one where is mother is still dead and heâs still student under a much⊠generally better version of madarame- holy SHIT theres so much to unpack about yusukeâs reality
#thinking abt yusukes third semester reality makes me ill (positive) can you imagine how disorienting it must be for him after remembering#salty talks#salty plays p5#theres a lot to unpack abt the other realities but. holy shit yusukes. esp considering what you learn in the 2nd palace and his confidant#yusuke remains my favorite. futaba is a favorite as well tho#yusukes feels like a very⊠ignorance is bliss kind of thing cuz its like⊠like madarame is the reason his mom died yeah#so the mixture of his mother still being dead but him having a better existence w/ madarame and the sayuri being shown under his moms name#i feel like his is the most⊠theres a lot there yknow? like are past events different? (probably)#persona 5 spoilers#persona 5 royal spoilers#persona 5#persona 5 royal#morganas is the least interesting thats why i didnt mention it. he just gets to be his humansona
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friendly reminder that if you wanna draw you should draw because I wanna see it and reblog it and eat it so it'll be with me forever
you MADE something!!! that straight up DIDNT exist before??? that's so incredibly metal and amazing and sick as fuck im so proud of you
#i dont care you 'skill level' or whatever nonsense#YOU DID THAT!!!#and my god you should be so proud because I am#i should get magnets to print out ppls art and put on my mini mini fridge that only holds like 4 cans of soda#but like esp if youre in you're 20s??? LATE 20'S???? PAST YOUR 20s???? HOLY SHIT IM SOO SO PROUD OF YOU#cuz its so so hard to get yourself to make and create after youre a kid or a teen#esp if you never really fostered that creativity as a young person#like you DID that you mADE that youre so so amazing#this also applies to writing and crafts and anything where you made something#like ive struggled for a long long time to like my art let alone want to make art but listen listen listen#everytime you make something it gets easier to make it again#you dont have to compare yourself you dont have to strive to draw like whoever#the secret is everyone wants their arts to look better or be better or easier even the really really talented professionals#we are learning creatures no one is perfect and its so so beautiful that that is a thing cuz like#i dont want to see beautiful rendered sistene chapel paintings everyday!!!#like theyre great and im in awe but i could be in awe and enjoying art jim bob down the street doodled on a bench#i see my partner doodle in my notebooks when they make phone calls and are on hold and i think its so beautiful#its just shapes but like they were there and they did that and I didnt? its beautiful and fun and reminds me they were there#you are here and im so glad you are because we get to enjoy things and create and love and just exist#life is hard and we created a society that can be so cynical and were so busy all the time#but i love us i love people i want so badly to love us all because we are different and dont always agree but we create and we exist#and i think thats enough at the end of the day. to just exist.#so you made a lil doodle? i want to see it because ive never seen it before and i think its so awesome genuinely that you did that#sucktacular sucks
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for ever and ever curious about the dnd games my dad ran during the summer reading program when he was a teen librarian
#just knowing they existed was instrumental to my development#and when i got to like middle school and learned about jrwi i was like wow.. i could like dnd. its not just my dads thing holy shit..#pussygator proclamations
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Watching a video about why the fear of the ocean is so common because i personally don't find it scary but instead I've just been sitting here like "how is that scary that sounds awesome!!!"
#text#i think im just a weirdo#like to an extent i get it it's like a whole fear of monsters/unknown/things u dont understand#but also when i see a little fucking freak down there i'm like 'HOLY SHIT A GUY!!! HELL YEAH!!!!'#like you show me a barreleye and i'm like 'YOOOOO LOOK AT THAT DUDE!!! HE CAN SEE THRU HIS OWN HEAD!!!'#like im more curious about why they evolved like that and interested in their existence rather than scared or unnerved#i just like the ocean and fish and find them super interesting to learn about#marine biology gotta be one of my favorite sciences
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I also proudly hesitantly present myself as a goober
finally made a sona?!?!? real!?!? no way
also the Fucked Up expeirnece i had the other morning (i drowned it)
#my sona#self sona#sona art#umm yeah#this unironcially feels like coming out#HELPPOPPM#im hppy to finally have a me though#i could neber for the life of me make ocs or sonas ever though ive wanted to as a artist for ages#just never worked with me idk#i dont eben remember where this came from it just existed one day#ll i know is watching hermitcraft with grian as my fav is definitely very obviously a big reason for this#also that one creature from creatures of sornia or whatveer its called on roblox i love them#also holy shit i learned tumblr formatting togday???
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Liberals on tumblr in 2016 when one would have a nuanced life experience that they could not project their own onto & categorize into rigid boxes based on their own life experiences:
#bleats#tfw youâre a dark skinned black woman who benefits from featurism#and also texturism#sorry for like⊠not ticking all the boxes#but me not having 4C hair doesnât invalidate me being black lmfao#Iâm not lying for clout on the internet just because I grew up in the suburbs lmfao my bad#Iâm not âtrying to be whiteâ just because I talk the way I do oh my god lmaooo#itâs either youâre damned if u do damned if u donât when youâre a dark skinned black âexoticalâ or whatever yâall calling it now đ#just let me live lmfao#just let black women live holy shit oh my god#I would have gotten shit for having 4C hair too#itâs genuinely insane how quickly ppl switch up the second they learn I donât have 4C hair#lol rawr x3 donât project your internalized racism onto me lol rawr x3#being a scene/alt girl doesnât mean Iâm âtrying to be whiteâ leave me alone holy shit#itâs so weird being a dark skinned black girl with a multiracial background#and then being called racist because u casually acknowledged your own existence#but if you hate yourself this means Iâm bragging right? right??? lol#itâs either youâre lying for clout or someoneâs projecting their own internalized racism onto u#like Iâm not taking accountability because my existence triggered your own internalized racism dude#weâre the most phenotypically diverse group of ppl#and yâall are usually cool with this#until an âexoticalâ (đ) is confident in our existence#then SUDDENLY your canon event (me having the audacity to exist and be confident about it)#like why immediately cry out âinternalized racism!â the second I say I like my own hair texture#where tf did I ever put down any other hair texture bro#and god forbid when they find out my sister is a natural blonde holy SHIT the masks are OFF#god Also for-fucking-bid u see a photo of our grandparents#then here comes the projection#sorry u saw a random ass family photo and got triggered lol sorry#also if u lack reading comprehension lol u canât scapegoat light skin privilege lol whatcha gonna do
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i watched My Neighbor Totoro for the first time, here's my chronological viewing experience:
woo-hoo! dusty old japanese house with japanese architectural details aplenty
these kids got some ENERGY my goodness
family dynamic's adorable. peak quality dad humor
kids: our house is haunted. parents: that's so cool!
hell yeah, wrinkled old lady rep. we need more friendly old women with potato faces and warts like storybook witches. the backbone of society, these ladies
Plot Summary: Small Child Bothers Local Wildlife
sacred tree sacred tree sacred tree
Introducing Totoro! nobody said this fucker's got TEETH???
Uh-Oh! Inadequate Parental Supervision Detected
(you misplaced your four year old! you're not supposed to do that)
4-year-old: i met a magic forest spirit. dad: oh shit fr?
4-year-old: *angrily hugs sister* missed u bitch
this small child has a smile like a toad. like a really really cute toad. like the cutest toad in all existence. i love her she's perfection please just let this child be happy
rice paddies are so pretty....so back breaking....rice is such a prissy crop
*my crush is stranded in a rainstorm* takethisumbrellait'syoursnowBYE *runs away in panic im so good at flirting*
Giant Chinchilla Learns To Hold Umbrella, Is Fucking Delighted By Experience
take this, it will help you on your quest! *hands u trail mix wrapped in a leaf*
LO-FI HIP HOP STUDY LIST!
crouching down to peer at dirt--A++ top notch foundational childhood experience
mom has a big ass forehead
honey! the chinchillas are performing Rituals in the backyard again
help yeah let's jack and the bean stalk this shit
huh so we're all just climbing aboard the giant chinchilla's tiddies now ok
class trip!
the pure adrenaline of Vegetable Gardening
no! the small child is crying! she is bawling her eyes out. no no no. i can't cope with this. emotionally i cannot cope đ„șđ„șđ„ș
i've only had Mei one hour but if anything happens to her i will raze this earth and everyone on it
please someone make this small child smile again
oh no the tall child is crying too
i can't take this. my heart can't take this.
i need a drink
small child running determined to deliver magic veggies to the hospital. this kid is my hero
she is also unsupervised. so, so unsupervised
babe you are FOUR
godDAMMIT ghibli, you cannot give me watercolor sunsets while a small child is missing. u are killing me. my heart is giving out. this is me, experiencing heart failure.
Totoro to the rescue!
no wait CATBUS to the rescue!
i admit i initially thought the cat was a creep. alice in wonderland prejudiced me. i have revised my notions of smiling cats
i've decided the cat is a metaphor for the magic of a robust public transport system
MEI'S OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and so is mom. she's a lovely lady im sorry for what i said about her forehead. it's a noble forehead.
happy ending YES bitch!!!!!!
ok. ok ok ok. that was magical.
(as a first-time adult viewer i was worried i wouldn't be able to Access the Magic. but i could and i did and it was incredible. that was culture. that was ART. joy distilled into animated form. holy rites of childhood. i understand now. how glorious, this world we grow out of. how full of marvels. i'm going outside to smell grass and sun and get dirt under my fingernails. miraculous.)
#mr ghibli please you cannot do this to my heart#totoro#my neighbor totoro#spoilers#?#initially i misspelled Totoro as Tortoro throughout the entire post#i fixed it but dear heavens i was tempted to leave it in. you're WELCOME
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Why is it so hard to find a list of every single skeletal muscle and what they do that doesn't require that I learn a new language to understand
#also with images that you can actually parse#i swear i saw some kind of interactive tool for this at some point#like i could look up what 'pronate' means but why doesnt the thing I'm describing exist though#i shouldn't have to become an expert at this#like I'll fucking do it but holy shit#this isnt some kind of 'have to learn to code and just make it mydamnself' thing is it
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A fantasy/soft sci-fi story that features a race of creatures who are apparently - for no really sensible reason - all male. And upon encountering humans for the first time, one of them discovers that women exist. And this is an epiphany, and the most splendid news in the entire world as he knows it. Holy shit, women. It takes him some time before he stops making sure that every human he encounters is aware that women exist, it would be a pity if they wouldn't. They do, all of them do, and some of the ones that he addresses are women, who apparently come in a far wider range of appearances than he had previously been aware of. This, too, is amazing.
Neglecting whatever duties he was supposed to be performing while among humans, he focuses mainly on learning more about women. This leads to learning about human romantic relationships, which leads to discovering polyamorous relationships, and the LGBT community. All of which are splendid discoveries.
Eventually, after having not heard anything of their duty-neglecting emissary for months, the people receive one letter that basically goes "I am ceasing my mission and relinquishing my position in order to make a home here. Do not try to seek me, I am currently living in a household of seven women including myself, and I will fight you if you try to remove me. Farewell."
And these people, relieved to finally get a confirmation that they can get someone else on the task, just look at this letter like "what the fuck is a woman."
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5 Times the JL Learned Batman was Married and the 1 Time They Met the Spouse.
One. Two. Three. Four. Five.
Five.
Barry sped into his seat. The chair rocked with the sudden occupation and settled just before the monitor flicked over from the Justice League logo to Batmanâs face.
Barry leaned over to Hal. âIs it just me or is he extra scary all large up on the screen like that?â
âI donât know,â Hal whispered back with a smirk. âI think the glare loses something.â
âHum. You know, I donât think heâs actually glaring yet. I think thatâs just the pain,â Barry decided.
The fact that Batman wasnât at a hundred percent was obvious. Instead of his usual heavily armored suit, he was in some sort of under shirt that definitely wasnât made for heavy fighting. More startling, he was in a domino like Nightingale wore rather than his full cowl. The edge of a white bandage was stark against his neck.
âOh come on, donât say that,â Hal whined, though kept it low enough for only Barry (and nosy Supermen) to hear. âThatâs just depressing. Spooky shouldnât be down and out like that.â
âYou know heâd be here in person if he wasnât, and I mean,â Barry said with a little gesture towards the screen.
Whatever Hal was going to say got put to the side as Wonder Woman stood.
âObviously, the last mission was a hard one,â she said, as if Batman being too hurt to come in person wasnât example enough of that. âI believe we can all agree that going over the facts to make sure we are either better prepared for the next threat like this or can even prevent it is wise. Batman, if you willââ
Wonder Woman cut herself off with a bemused smile as she looked at the screen.
There was someone else on the display with Batman. The League couldnât clearly see the person what with the lighting and camera angle, really they were hardly more than a shadow, but that wasnât too important. What caught Barryâs attention, at least, was the look on Batmanâs face.
It was soft.
Maybe they could just see more without the usual cowl but Batman was looking at the person like Barry had never seen the man look at anyone else.
Batmanâs mouth moved, but there was no sound. Still it was obvious that he let out one of his little huffs of air before he leaned forward to accept a water bottle and something else. Medication, Barry guessed, by the way Batman knocked it back. He shook his head once before he glanced back at the screen.
Instantly his face schooled into his normal stoic mask. It was so quick a transformation that if Barry hadnât seen the soft look himself he wouldnât have believed it ever existed.
The other figure moved off screen as Batman unmuted. âMy apology, apparently I was over due some medication. My husband is a little⊠pushy about that.â
A loud snort of laughter came off screen.
Batman glanced briefly that way.
âHoly shit, Batman has a husband?â Barry whispered.
âWild, right?â Hal murmured back.
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Id also like to point out the story we are told about WHY she left is made up entirely by Marcille, she's just guessing, and SURE it could be a 99% accurate guess, it could just be the way Ryoko Kui decided to fill us in on what happened since Chilchuck is oblivious to it himself and there was no other way to include it in the narrative. But like, the only concrete fact we know is: she left. She isnt given a chance to explain herself, we never see her side, we just know that she left.
The only thing we get is Chilchuck alluding that Marcille's intuition is eerily accurate, but shes still making assumptions about WifeChuck's feelings and reasons- something we cant even be entirely sure of without her input.
People on here love to think relationships are super cut and dry, that if things go wrong that means there was a Bad Guy and a Victim, theres no room to speculate that maybe his wife showed a lack of initiative or empathy, or maybe she never even voiced that their lifestyle was bothering her. Chilchuck clearly lacks emotional intelligence but that doesnt make him a monster, so why isnt she equally condemned for not being more patient or understanding with the man she agreed to marry? Relationships are more than just an exchange, its about working together as a unit to overcome obstacles, share in triumphs and grow together.
It is completely counter productive to shift blame from one side to another, if there is no shared responsibility there is no relationship, it just isnt going to end well if you see every conflict as "their fault", it causes you to dehumanize and resent your partner and its just... a useless way of thinking, theres no room for that train of thought if you want a healthy relationship.
So yeah.. at the end of the day I dont see a point in being like "Chilchuck was a bad husband" or "Wifechuck was a bad wife", it doesnt matter, they both failed at doing whatever was necessary to make the relationship work. You either win together or you lose together, no healthy relationship is just one person being like "yep, i won, the relationship is good because i made it good, no input from this other person, they're just along for the epic ride i solve all the problems and resolve all the conflicts!! Go me!!" It would completely defeat the purpose of being on a "team" if only one person reaped all the benefits, so why isnt the blame shared when the team also loses? Why we always gotta assign a bad guy and a victim?
He spent a long time without having seen his wife, that is by definition being a bad husband, even if he lied about the infidelity.
she left him
like she left. they are separated. you can argue him being emotionally distant enough for her to leave is bad, and you can be upset with him for not chasing after her, but she walked out first. him not following after her was not a moral failing on his part. it was a choice he made, and her leaving so definitively implied she wasn't anticipating him coming after her anyway.
like. ultimately though i think trying to shoehorn him into "good" or "bad" is missing the point? and equally missing the point of dunmeshi on the whole. no one is "good" or "bad". chilchuck made mistakes, he clearly made his wife feel unloved enough to leave, but we know from the things he says that it was never his intent.
you can criticize him for causing this relationship to fail without claiming he was just 100% bad, and i would encourage you to read dunmeshi with your mind open to nuance, friend. if you wanna hate chilchuck that's your right but you are arguing with the wrong person
#disclaimer: im NOT saying toxic / one sided dynamics DONT exist#im saying people jump to that conclusion ALL the time#Ive never had a single break up that didnt involve my friends teling me my ex was toxic or a 'narcissist'#and im like HMM#actually i think we just werent on the same level emotionally#actually i think they just struggled to address conflict#actually i think we just lacked the tools to work through our trauma#actually i think we just had different commitment levels#actually i think we were just moving in different directions in life#its so crazy how sometimes 2 people together just doesn't work out and no one has to be the evil entity who plotted this from the beginning#sometimes people are just doing their best but they suck at it bc they never learned how to do it right and no one was patient with them#i know crazy right? but yeah its probably a huge red flag and toxic if anyone makes a mistake ever or cant cope or struggles#or just isnt perfect and says everything exactly right and knows exactly how to treat you without you ever telling them#anyways sorry for getting pressed and ranting on your post op#i just see people taking fictional rships way too seriously and i just hopre and pray they dont treat real relationships like this#like holy shit đźâđš
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HARD LAUNCH | minho drabble. established relationship.
âDo you guys have french fries?â
âMinho.â you hiss, nudging his shin beneath the table.
He cocks an eyebrow before turning back to the waitress. She smiles softly, laughing at the two of you.Â
âWe do, yes.âÂ
âWonderful,â Minho grins, âWeâll have a side order of those too.â
âPerfect. Iïżœïżœïżœll put that in for you guys and check back soon.â The waitress says happily, collecting the menus and scurrying off to tend to another table.
As soon as sheâs out of earshot, you groan, covering your face with your hands.Â
âWhy would you do that?âÂ
Minho chuckles, shakes his head probably. You wouldnât know since you canât see him.
âDo what?â
Still using one hand to cover your eyes, you pull the other away, pointing an accusatory finger in his direction. âI told you Iâd be fine. Whyâd you have to ask for french fries? Thatâs so embarrassing.â
Minho hums. Unbothered. âYou know whatâs worse?â
âLiterally nothing.â you mumble, returning your other hand to your face. It only serves to muffle your voice more. âThis is humiliating. Weâre in a nice restaurant and you ordered french fries because of me. Oh God. Iâm going to hide in the bathroom.â
A good choice, you think. Minhoâs in god damn slacks for crying out loud. Every second that passes is another second that your pity order of french fries is probably spending in the deep fryer, right next to the lobster tail and shrimp tartar that everyone else has a mature enough palate to eat.Â
Before you can move to get up and make a beeline for the toilet, you feel Minhoâs fingers wrap around your wrists, pulling until your hands give way to your face. You crack one eye open and then the other, his amused expression coming into view.
âWhatâs worse than ordering french fries is me knowing youâll be hungry if there isnât something familiar for you on the table.â he says pointedly, like your reason for feeling embarrassed is unnecessary. âBesides, who said I didnât want any?â
âMin, look around,â you say, turning your head to glance at the room, âThe napkins are cloth. Cloth! Nicer than my bed sheets. We canât be seen eating french fries in a place like this. I told you Iâd beââ
ââfine. Because as long as youâre here I can do anything.â Minho recites, word for word, cutting you off.Â
Heat rushes to your cheeks immediately, spreads like wildfire when Minho smiles and leans on to his forearms. His button up tightens over his shoulders, hugs his arms, sleeves rolled up to the elbow.
âJust like how youâre doing this for me, let me do something for you.âÂ
You and Minho have been seeing each other for four months now, but even at that, youâre still not used to his straightforwardness.Â
Seeing Minho has been nothing short of a dream. What started as just interacting at parties because of mutual friends eventually gave way to him asking for your number, and then hanging out separate from your friend group, until one day he plucked up the courage to ask you out. Since then, the two of you have been inseparable, always spending every free moment together. Laughing, talking, even sometimes just existing in the same space. Itâs nice. So, so nice.
âShouldnât I be the one blushing right now?â Minho teases.
âShut up.â you say, tearing your gaze away from him.
He laughs again before reaching out and placing a hand on top of yours. Soft. Minho is unbelievably soft.
Itâs the thing you love the most about him. But more than that, more than the delicate skin of his fingers or the brush of his lips against yours, you love the softness of his eyes.
Minho is hard to crack, his emotions shrouded most of the time. Not that he wants to be, but because thatâs just how he operates, or so youâve learned.Â
But despite all of that, his eyes are a dead giveaway. When heâs looking at pictures of his cats, or staring at you from across the room, or right now as steaming plates of some of the finest cuisine Seoul has to offer are being placed in front of him.
âHoly shit.â he whispers, staring in awe as the waitress walks away from the table.
âIs it rude for me to take a picture? Like, would anyone get offended?âÂ
Minho scoffs. âBabe, I would be offended if you didnât document this right now.â
âOkay, okay,â you laugh, pulling out your phone.
âDo I get to be in it this time?â
You look up to find Minho pouting across the table. Another thing about your relationshipâ nobody knows yet.Â
Youâve been teasing about the possibility of a boyfriend for two months now, you and Minho only having made it official about a few weeks ago. The most anyone has been able to see are carefully positioned photos where only his hand or other inconspicuous parts of him are visible.
Itâs not that you donât want people to know. Itâs just hard with his job and all. Privacy reasons.
"For someone who likes to claim that people won't give me a hard time because of your fame you sure do seem eager to test that theory."
Minho smiles mischievously. âWell, yes. But Iâm also waiting because I want to show you off.â
You busy yourself with opening your camera app to stop the heat creeping up your neck. âYeah, yeah. You big flirt.â
Minho laughs but obliges, scoots back to let you get a good few pictures of the food.Â
Photos arenât enough to do it justice, though. So you opt for a video, scanning the table with your camera, only the bottom half of his torso visible across the table. A silk white button up only three-fourths of the way buttoned, sleeves rolled to his elbows.
Minho watches silently, his face unreadable. And then, at the last second, he dips his head down so fast you donât even realize whatâs happening until his face is fully in the shot, a shit-eating grin pushing his eyes into crescent moons.
âMin!â you laugh, ending the recording.Â
He chuckles, straightening back out. âPost it.â
âAre you insane?â
âNo, but Iâm going to be if you donât post it and then eat with me.â He nudges the plate of french fries towards you. âCome on.â
âYou really want me to post it? Youâre sure?â
Minho smiles. Soft. âNever been more sure about anything in my life.â he says, neither of you willing to address the weight of his words.
He grabs your hand, plants a kiss on the back of your knuckles. The resulting flip of your stomach is enough to give you the courage to hit post and tuck your phone away.
Whatever happens, youâll deal with it later. Together.
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a star that outshines
fem!reader x second year!miya osamu
oneshot, fluff
âMiya twins are amazing, arenât they?â
âUndeniably, yeah.â
âThey are truly monsters on the court.â
An ocean of compliments about the Miya twins drowns the whole atmosphere, the talented and skillful brothers who have made their names in the volleyball industry. You mentally agree with each of the positive comments about the brothers, while your eyes are locked onto the specific grey-haired twin, Miya Osamu.
Yeah, you have a crush on THE Miya Osamu.
You like him so much that you started going to their practice matches almost every day like everyone else, just to see him play. The sound of the ball hitting the court, the squeak of sneakers, and the cheers of the crowd become the soundtrack of your afternoons. The smell and sweat and the sight of his focused expression make your heart race.
You like him so much that you intentionally leave at the same time he leaves his dorm just so you can walk near him. And it works, because you always coincidentally walk behind him and his friends, listening to whatever they are talking about. The scent of his cologne lingers in the air, a subtle reminder of his presence.
You like him so much that you started visiting your best friend, Hikari, in Class 1, just hoping to see him and wishing that he would notice you too. The anticipation of possibly seeing him makes your heart race every time you walk into the classroom.
You like him so much that when you accidentally learned his favorite food, you started liking what he likes too. The taste of his favorite dish becomes a bittersweet experience, a connection to him that he doesnât even know exists.
You like him so much that you wrote love letters, but they were never sent to him. Because youâre afraid.
Afraid to face the fact that he will most definitely reject you.
Because heâs Miya Osamu, whose fame is at the top of the school alongside his twin Miya Atsumu, and of course, they have a bunch of pretty girls lined up to be their girlfriends.
So one night in your dorm, you asked your best friend.
âAm I being a creep?â
She raised her eyebrows, eyes still glued to her phone with a lollipop in her mouth.
âNot really, why?â
âI think Iâm being a creep,â you huffed out a sigh.
âWhy would ya think that? 'S not like ya peep him in the bathroom or send him ya unwashed pantiesââ
âI reeeally donât like your use of examples.â
âWell, 'kay, listen, itâs totally normal when yer in love! And as long as ya donât do anything stupidly crazy, yer safe as hell,â she continues as she sits up and stares down at you.
You hum, staring at the ceiling blankly as your friend continues to scroll through her social media. You think, you have no chance with Miya Osamu. Well, itâs just a crush, youâll get over him eventually. So thatâs when you decide, you have to stop chasing someone who is way out of your league.
And you did. You stopped going to his practice matches, you stopped visiting your best friend so often, you even stopped coincidentally walking near him to school. You avoided him every chance you got, until after a few days it became too obvious. So why, when your best friend has her earphones plugged in, while the teacher is unavailable for class, does Miya Osamu walk up to her and say,
âHey, uh, been meaninâ to ask,â
Your friend looks up at him with a raised eyebrow as she takes off her earphones.
âWhy havenât I seen ya cute friend lately? Yâknow, the one that always comes taâ hang out with ya?â
And it makes her eyes widen.
Not long after that, she immediately bombs your phone with a whole lotta texts.
hikariđ€
hey
holy shit
omfg
yo
MIYA LIKES YOU TOO
answer me dammit!!!!
YOOO
miya fuckinf osamu LIKES U TOO
OPEN YOUR PHONE
You should have made a move earlier, Osamu,â Suna said, his voice slightly muffled by the jelly stick in his mouth. He glanced up from his phone, his eyes glinting with a mix of amusement and curiosity.
Osamu shrugged as he sank into his chair, the cool metal frame pressing against his back. The faint hum of the gymâs fluorescent lights buzzed overhead, mingling with the distant echoes of volleyballs being spiked and sneakers squeaking on the polished floor.
Little did you know, Osamu had always noticed you from the crowd. He noticed how your eyes would light up during matches, how you would nervously tuck a strand of hair behind your ear. He noticed the way you always seemed to arrive at school just as he did, your steps quickening when you saw him. He noticed everything about youâyour smile that could brighten the dullest day, your infectious laughter, your favorite snacks that you always had in your bag.
But you didnât know that. You didnât know that he knew about your big, fat crush on him. You didnât dare to even strike up a conversation with him, always too shy to make the first move. So when he stopped seeing your presence in the crowd, his heart ached with a longing he couldnât quite understand. Thatâs when he finally mustered the courage to ask your friend about you.
âDid you ask for her number?â Suna asked, his tone casual but his eyes sharp with interest.
Osamu smiled, a soft, almost shy smile that reached his eyes. He nodded, his fingers tracing the edges of his phone. â(Y/N)âïžâ was saved in his contacts, the star symbol a small but significant detail that made his heart flutter.
Will you be surprised if you received a message?
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What! Are your top five reveals in One Piece! Which ones made you go âholy shitâ or âhell yeahâ the most!
i'm taking reveal here to mean 'points at which previously-hidden information is revealed to the audience,' not just where we're told something new. so:
THE FREEST MAN ON THE SEA: maybe not as dramatic or seismic as some other things on this list, but to me luffy telling rayleigh that to him being the pirate king just means being the freest in the world is the single most important thing we ever learn about luffy's character, and it defines the themes of the whole series. it recontextualizes everything about luffy and the way he interacts with the world and the way he pursues his goal because now we finally know what that goal actually is, and what it means to him. and for the whole first half of the story we don't know this! it's easy to forget because we're, what, six hundred chapters past it now, but we get all the way to sabaody without really knowing what drives luffy, and then we get it and it slides into place perfectly.
WORLD SANK: a recent one, but so satisfying and well-placed. the sunken world reveal is the best kind of big lore reveal, to me, because it's something that makes so much sense it was completely possible to predict it years ago (and people did), and now that it has been confirmed, it's opened up a massive world of implications and questions that are incredibly fun to think about. i'm really excited to see where the story goes with it.
NIKA: i'm sort of rolling everything we learn about gear 5/nika/joyboy in the 1040 chapters of wano together here; i've written at length before on this blog about why i like the nika reveal so much, so i'll just say now that it takes one piece's most fundamental and powerful themes and symbolism (liberation and joy and the sun) which have been built up across the story and reveals to you that those things are a real literal force in the narrative strong enough to turn a draconic tyrant into a garden snake. and having established what he has now about nika, the way oda has continued to explore the implications of that figure existing in the world has been absolutely fabulous to read.
RAIZOU IS SAFE: a smaller and more arc-specific one compared to some of the others on this list, but i just really like the way this reveal is done. the interval between the dressrosa team's arrival on zou and the reveal that raizou was there the whole time isn't even particularly long, but it's the execution which makes it; the devastation of the city, the solemnity of the whole moment, inuarashi and nekomamushi bowing their heads, luffy and the strawhats' reactions. i like the minks a lot, and this is the moment that defines them as a group, as well as establishing the themes of loyalty and sacrifice that will go on to become very prominent in wano.
ROGER WAS DYING: i've talked before about how i really like the handling of roger as a figure and how our knowledge of him evolves and becomes more personal and human over the course of the story. the turning point in that evolution is the introduction of rayleigh; his reveal that roger was not caught, that he turned himself in because he was dying, and that they found the truth of the world there at the end of the grand line. it shifts the whole presentation of the story; we've been told about roger from the very start of the very first chapter, and it's here that we learn the information we thought we had about him has been woefully incomplete. there's a bigger mystery here, one greater than just 'what treasure did roger leave.' and i really like we get this context about roger in the very same scene we learn what it means to luffy to be the pirate king.
#conclusion that one sabaody scene where everyones just sitting there talking is the most important in the whole series#one piece#jonny answers#not japanese#opspoilers#<- for the egghead stuff here#arc: sabaody#arc: egghead island#arc: wano kuni#arc: zou
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â Word count: 15k words (sorry â ïž)
!! 18+ ONLY !!
Guess who finally mustered up the courage to write a Coriolanus Snow fic, and holy shit, this might just be the longest once-off Iâve ever written.
My dear @quicksilversg1rl , this fic goes out to you 100x over. I hope this makes up for the fact that I couldnât put Tom under your tree âčïž I hope that itâs enough that I put him in your dreams instead <3
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WARNINGS:
dom!coriolanus, some out-of-pocket makes-you-go âwtafđâ Coriolanus moments, smut, swearing, possessiveness, manipulation, toxic relationship, choking, pet names, degradation, edging, lots of italics and dashes (sorry I was feeling myself (not literally you sicko) ), masturbation, unprotected sex, cockwarming, dryhumping/wethumping(?), fingering/fisting, oral sex f receiving, the therapy youâll need after reading these warnings
âŒïžDO NOT PROCEED IF YOU ARE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THE ABOVE-MENTIONED WARNINGSâŒïž
SYNOPSIS:
Coriolanus had always known you held potential to win the games, from the day heâd laid his eyes on you at the 10th annual reaping. You were the key heâd been missing all these years, and how he saw almost every opportunity unlocked by your presence at that yearâs hunger games.
The secret of how heâd risen into power? The answer was much simpler than anyone had expected. You. Sure, Coriolanus had done his fair share of treason and murder to contribute to his status, but it was your victory that had granted him access to the Plinth fortune and made his ambitions possible. He wasnât a man that liked to share credit, but he thought your performance in the games a worthy enough candidate.
To show you just how thankful he was, heâd invited you to live with him after the games, for however long you pleased, and heâd made it his mission to show you all the pleasures the Capitol and his lifestyle had to offer. He liked having you near him at all times, and he liked it even better when he was inside of you.
What he didnât like, though? When you flirted with other men, especially when it served to get a rise out of him.
Coriolanus Snow doesnât like sharing, and he doesnât tolerate disobedience, either. Youâd learn that lesson the hard way.
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Coriolanus was a man bred for purpose, like his father before him, and it was a purpose he often reminded you ofâa means to keep your neediness at bay, to tame your urge to be at his side every waking hour of the day, a ploy to remind you just how little value you posed to him outside of a night of fleeting pleasure. He marvelled in the opportunity to make you feel insignificant, a false promise too-quickly forsaken the moment your existence captured another manâs desireâa man that wasnât him.
In the midst of a party heâd rather not have attended, he watched you from a quiet corner of the venue hall, conversing away with a man he hadnât had the displeasure of meeting just yet. He didnât know whether you were honestly that painfully oblivious to the desires of the man before you, who clearly wanted nothing more than a taste of one of the renowned hunger games victors, or whether you had deliberately struck up a conversation to get a rise out of Coriolanus.
But when his eyes narrowed on your hand that reached to move a strand of your hair back to the security behind your ear, he knew then exactly which particular game you were playing.
You always did that when you felt subconsciousâwhen you knew you were being watched. It was a tell that Coriolanus had come to identify the more time heâd spent observing you. Heâd needed toâit was necessary in order to know the truths you would not tell him. Not out loud, at least. But now, he was pretty fluent in your body language, in more than one way.
He watched you tilt your head to the side in the slightest manner, an act that often sent all the conservativeness of men toppling over the edge. Your lip suctioned into a concentrated bite as you offered small, attentive nodsâyou were getting him to think youâre interested in what he has to say, pretending not to notice the way his eyes traced your lips and occasionally flickered across your peeping breasts.
The sight stirred an anger in Coriolanus, his fingers tightening around the glass of wine clutched in one hand. He lifted the wine to his lips, taking a sip as though it would somehow quench the imminent fire that threatened to take control of all reasonability. He couldnât let you get a rise out of him, not in public where he had an image to uphold. Goddamn you and your games, he hated being the one to play it. That had been the fate of you and the districts, not himâCapitol-born and rich beyond imagination. Was this his retribution to pay? Sentenced to your little games after all heâd brought upon you?
You moved a hand to caress the manâs shoulder, offering a sweet giggle. And then there it was, the slightest glance in his direction, fleeting but an obvious beckon for attention. Coriolanus clenched his jaw as you purposefully turned your back on him, his eyes boring into your exposed shoulder blades, framed by a dress that paraded all the right aspects of your bodyâa dress heâd picked out for you. He hadnât gone through all that effort to make you look so ravishing, only for another man to enjoy it. It had been for him, a reminder of what his prize would be after enduring this insufferable party.
Heâd planned to rip it from you, as mercilessly as he could offer, to toss it onto the floor and you onto the bed, naked and accessible to whatever he desired. However, you seemed hellbent on denying him a good night. He watched you reach for the manâs hand, your motion suggestive as you tugged on him and began to lead him away from the mayhem.
Coriolanus knew exactly where you were taking him.
He watched you weave your way through the dancing bodies, the music falling into the background as he trailed your every moveâthe way the man blatantly admired the curve of your ass. What an unacceptable circumstance, to think his favourite toy was not his own limited editionâone only he could afford to play with. After all, why had he endured the battlefield of this unfair life to claim a reward that promised power and money and control, only to feel so helpless in his infatuation over you. He hated what primal need controlled him, rendered him incapable of letting you go.
What had it all been for? The poison, the betrayal, the heinous crimes heâd committedâall to prove that he bore no seal of humanity, felt no obligation to love, until you came along, making him look the fool each time you batted a devious lash or wrung those perfect lips around suggestive words. Each time you spoke was like fragments of an enchantment, slowly being made whole and taking its magical toll on his entire being, beginning to claim everything he wasâmaking him obsess, making him weak.
The day heâd gotten you as his tribute, youâd had been nothing more than a missionâa means to secure a prize that would set him for life. But there had been something about you, something that had drawn him in like a sudden whirlpool, now he couldnât escape the obsession youâd cursed him with. Heâd never before felt the burden of caring about another personâs life, needing to know what they were up to at all times.
Coriolanus recalled seeing you for the first time, the day of the reaping, after the tributes had been transported to the Capitol. He remembered seeing you thrown into the zoo displayâthe way you had instantly found your feet and ran a hand through your hair, made unruly by a rough and sleepless night. Your brows were knitted closely together with unmistakable anger, a look that promised vengeance to the Capitol despite the silence on your lips. Your dress had been made ragged to match your hair, evidence that the bats had showed no mercy toward your pretty privilege. Maybe it had been your looks that had drawn them in, after all.
Heâd been ready to deem you a lost cause, disappointed that once again, heâd been stuck with rigged odds. He had been convinced that somewhere beneath that shredded fabric on your skin, you bore the kiss of rabies, doomed to die like countless before you. But heâd seen a few of the other tributes, bearing the same tells of their struggle with the bats in their shredded clothes and tired eyes. One of those amongst the suffering had been your fellow district twelve tribute, Morgan Lark, and he had possessed the worst wounds out of all the affected.
Itâd been less than a few hours until the wounded tributes started retching up fountains of white, their eyes glassy and their movements frantically lost on them. Yet there you had sat, watching with perfect control and composure as they had dwindled into mere husks of the people they used to be.
Coriolanus knew then that you had been differentâstronger, a tribute that might just prove the risk to be worth it. Heâd insisted on investigating the cart youâd been transported in, eager to know the truth behind your journey. Had you truly been strong enough to evade the consequences of the bats? The mystery of it all was pressing enough to consume his every thought. He needed to know. His future depended on it, depended on you.
That evening, after much persistence and a bribe that he honestly couldnât have afforded, heâd gained access to your cart. There wasnât much to look at, given that it was nothing more than an empty container, without even the courtesy of a blanket. The scene was almost hauntingly familiar, personal. Nonetheless, heâd paced the walls, eyes searching every aspect of the metal, every dent and hole in the floor. Heâd found nothing other than a few rusty nailsânothing interesting, that is until heâd picked one of them up and inspected it closer to find its apex crusted with blood.
A few of the nails were identical in their blood-coating, not a coincidence. Coriolanus gathered them up into his fatherâs handkerchief, almost regretting the decision as the rust stained the symbolic, white fabric. He placed them cautiously into his blazer pocket, scanning the cart one last time before making his departure. He made a beeline to the morgue, where the bodies of the five infected tributes had been placed shortly after their passing. He needed to see Morgan Larkâs body, to know what secret you could have hidden in his death.
Once heâd gained access to the corpse, heâd pulled back the white covering. A strong waft of formaldehyde greeted his senses and burned his eyes teary. He had been surprised that the body was being preserved, though he didnât doubt that Dr. Gual had plans to somehow extract and weaponise the rabies in the next games. The chemicals had instantly become so overwhelming that he had to pull his handkerchief from his pocket, empty the rusted nails onto the tray and cover his mouth and nose with the fabric to keep his nausea at bay.
Coriolanus studied the corpse, struggling to contain his pressing disgust as he laid his eyes on the shredded flesh. The bats had gone to town on Morgan, leaving little sections of skin intact. Heâd mustered up the courage to get close enough to inspect the wounds, noting that the scratches embedded along his body were not all the work of the bats. No, some of them had been too deep of a wound for a batâs claws to commit. He had a very good idea of the origins of those wounds, his eyes flickering to the rusted nails on the tray.
He knew then that it was not strength or immunity that had protected you from the touch of death, but your keen mind and craftiness with sharp objects. Coriolanus had pieced together a rough picture of what had happened: youâd managed to get close enough to cut Morgan with the nails, ensuring wounds that were deep enough to bleed profusely, which attracted and encouraged the bats to attack him. You hadnât been so lucky to go completely unnoticed by the bats, hence the disheveled dress, but you had sure as hell been lucky enough to have been spared from their bite.
What a clever girl you were, perhaps too much for your own good.
Coriolanus had to admit that heâd been impressed by your crueltyâyour drive to survive. It gave you an edge, a promising reason to win. He liked those odds, you were becoming a plausible risk to him. Just what would you have been willing to do to a tribute youâve yet to meet, if youâd so easily betrayed a fellow district partner?
As heâd left the morgue that evening, he couldnât deny the smirk that had wound his lips the entire trip back. He knew then that, for the first time in all his years as a mentor, this might be the year that heâd finally claim the Plinth prize.
What a worthwhile pick you had been. He liked good investments, and you had proven to be the best one yet. Youâd taken that entire game, playing it smart, staying lost in the shadows and gathering what scraps you could make into a worthwhile means of defence. You werenât the strongest or the most skilled fighter by any means, but you were smart, and that was a quality lost on many of the tributes. They all marched around, boasting their strength as some sort of show of dominance. They thought it made them ferocious, earned them another hour of life, but Coriolanus knew that it only drew attention, that they were stupid in bringing about a speedier death. You had known that, too.
Coriolanus slipped out of his mind, watching as youâd stopped by one of the tables to grab a snack, making a point to be sloppy so that the strange man would feel honour in being able to wipe your lips clean, spurring on his ego and his erection. You had pulled that trick on Coriolanus many times. He hated seeing you provide that same sort of attention to anyone else.
His attention was diverted to a pair of Capitol business men, who had approached him and were attempting to bombard him with pitches he couldnât have been more arsed to consider, not when he had something more pressing on his mindânot when you had deliberately stolen his attention away.
How incredibly selfish that you should demand his time even when you were not at his side, or laying below him with your legs spread open and cunt practically begging for his generosity. He didnât tolerate time-wasters of any regard, so heâd ensure that you made up for it.
He lifted a dismissive hand toward the face of one of the men, who fell silent with a look of indignation, but even he wasnât fool enough to unleash his temper unto the heir of the Plinth fortune. Had Coriolanus known that murdering his best friend would have come with so many perks, heâd have made a point to bring about that particular death benefit much sooner.
He lifted the glass to his lips, draining the rich wine that had been marinating the depths of the glass for far too long. He beckoned over one of the runners, placing his empty glass onto the tray before turning his attention back to the business men.
He offered an insincere dip of his chin. âMy apologies, but Iâve more pressing matters to tend to. Please, do enjoy the beverages,â he slipped between their dumbfounded bodies, before adding, âand the women, if itâd please you.â
Coriolanus manoeuvred his way through the crowd, his eyes not once leaving you, even if he had to watch you relentlessly flirt with the other man. Not only were you good with your hands, but you unintentionally weaponised your beauty, too. He had always thought you to possess an innocence that seemed to frame your features, a natural gift that kept eyes focused on the contours of your face rather than on the schemes of your hands. That had always been your advantageâin the games and in your everyday interactions.
It made him angry that youâd remade his mind in this way. No matter how much Coriolanus tried to remind himself of the purpose heâd been bred for, all that heâd done to get to where he was now, all the people heâd carelessly murderedâthere was no denying the truth:
No matter what higher, callous deity he claimed to be, he was only just a man, carved from anger and burdened with otherworldly jealously. All because of you.
Just as Coriolanus had managed to push past the last of the dancing bodies that had been blocking his path, he spotted you leaving through the doors, dragging your new pet behind you. His footsteps were brisk as he made for that same doorway, his fists balling at his sides as he stifled the urge to redirect his anger unto the unsuspecting door man. No, heâd best save that anger for you, transform it into something that would make you suffer, as heâd been forced to endure this evening.
He slipped through the doors, instantly greeted by a much quieter atmosphere, the laughter and music of the event muffled behind the now closed doors. Across the room, he saw you slip into the elevator, glimpsing just a hint of a smirk on your perfect lips as the doors slid closed and engulfed his view of you.
Annoyance pricked at his chest, heâd have to wait for the elevator to come back down. That was too much time gifted to you, time that could easily be used to bring you one step closer to coming undressed for that man. Heâd never found himself wishing for a stairwell more than he did right now, but Capitol architecture stupidly insisted that stairs were a concept made only for the districts.
Coriolanus trudged his way over to the elevator, running an impatient hand through his hair as he watched the countdown of the various different floors commence on the monitor. His residence was the topmost floor, an expensive suite that the Plinths had gifted him on his day of recognition. Heâd been kind enough to allow you to stay in one of his rooms, to have you in his proximity at all times where youâd more than once enjoyed the free luxury of his lifestyle, and this is how youâd repaid himâby bringing other men into his sacred space.
He couldnât help but imagine what you were up to at this instant. The thought of you trapped beneath the man on one of the sofas overlooking the city made him bite the inside of his cheekâthose were the sofas heâd so often pinned you to, forcing you to admire the view as he admired you, demonstrating his praise for your beauty through the actions of his fingers in your cunt.
When Coriolanus had first met you, he had thought you hated drawing attention, especially when it warranted a much speedier death in the games. Youâd always been so reserved, so hellbent on silence as you kept a calculating eyes on anybody who wasnât you. Heâd like that quiet air about you, it was a call for guidance, a plea for somebody to claim your trustâhe knew he could have given that to you.
But now, Coriolanus could have laughed at that thought.
You, hating attention? What an odd facade heâd so easily been fooled byâbut heâd grown smarter since your first encounter. He knew the real truth now. What a glorious night that had been, the first time heâd taken you to bed. He could still smell the desperation that had trailed from your cunt as his nose burrowed into your swollen and beckoning clitâthe way his hands had squeezed the skin of your inner thighs a faint blue in his attempt to trap them against the bed. Theyâd been so eager to wrap around his neck, to make him prisoner within your euphoria. Heâd shown his disapproval by wedging your thighs further apart, an action that earned a shocked moan from you, coupled with a gasp at the growing aggression of his tongue inside of you.
How he enjoyed being the puppeteer of your body, pulling your limbs every which way until youâd been contorted and opened up for him to exploit. You often needed reminding that you were sentenced to his will, made prisoner to his desires.
He could still feel the faint traces of your arousal that had painted pictures across the sharp lines of his jaw, mercilessly freed by the way his tongue had ravished your folds and plucked from you what little dignity and silence you had managed to fashion up until that very moment. No matter how much youâd pretend to feel indifferent to his attention, your body had always betrayed youâit was unashamedly and passionately thankful to his ministrations.
Your pathetic moans still echoed on a loop in the dark corners of his mindâan ear worm he couldnât discard of, though he couldnât honestly admit that heâd want anything of the sort. It spurred him on, serving as a constant reminder of his pretty possession, and just how much you needed himâhis touch, his validation, his attention. He was the poison-kissed oxygen that you couldnât help but inhale, fooling yourself that it would somehow replenish the air in your lungs and give you the freedom of living, existing, all the while your every bodily cell came closer and closer to becoming his. It didnât take much for him to claim all that you were and all that you could be, only the right words and that glorious goddamn night in bed.
Heâd completely remade you in his image, branded you with his bedroom generosity, always leaving you with just enough to satisfy, but never enough to last for more than a few hours. You always came back begging for more.
What an attention whore.
At last, the elevator dinged its arrival, the doors opening to welcome Coriolanus inside. He slipped in almost instantly, moving to press the button of the top floor. When the doors finally closed, he became trapped in the air lingering inside, noticing a trace of your sweet perfume. Heâd come to admire that scent, thought of it as a way to identify every place youâd been in. But your sweet scent had fused with the musky odour of that strange man, an unpleasant smell that suffocated your own in mere seconds. He could only imagine that same odour plastering itself to your neck and all across your clothes as the man forced himself onto you, enjoying what didnât belong to him.
After a few minutes, the elevator came to a stop, the doors sliding open to reveal two intertwined bodies at the other end of the lobby. You were pinned against the doors to Coriolanusâ suite, the manâs hands wandering beneath your dress and up your magnificent thighs, shrivelled lips sloppily searching the skin of your neck. Your head was tossed back against the wood, eyes sown shut as you let slip the sweetest of moans, a sound that Coriolanus had claimed as his own.
He barged through the elevator doors, the sound of his angered footsteps earning your attention. You lowered your head to him, watching with a playful smile at what was about to unfold. He ignored it, the satisfaction in that grin, the sense of achievement at your ability to control him, have him trailing after you like a dog on a leash. Heâd let you have this moment, to savour its short-lived existence because once he was through with this man, heâd show you just how much trouble youâd caused him.
Coriolanus grabbed the oblivious man at the collar of his shirt, too far gone to think with his brain rather than his cock to notice heâd appeared, and plucked him from you. He shoved the man away, who stumbled backwards with his footsteps serving as clear evidence of mild intoxication. The toad began protesting, before his eyes finally found Coriolanus and his lips clamped shut on a look of realisation.
âYou come into my house, drink my wine, enjoy my woman, all without a trace of shame?â Coriolanus snapped, his voice gruff with built-up anger.
The man fashioned an apologetic look. âI didnât mean any offence, Mr. Snow, I swear by it!â His hands made frantic gestures, eager to exonerate himself. âIt was her that came onto me, she invited me back here, suggested we get to know each other betterââ
Coriolanus lifted his chin, his glare cold as he stared down his nose at the man. âAre you implying that itâs her fault?â It most certainly was, but if Coriolanus had to endure all that had just happened, he intended to have some fun with it.
The man stilled with a look of uncertainty that passed between you and Coriolanus, his hand moving to scratch the back of his head.
âAre you even a man at all, if youâre so easily influenced by a girl that bats her lashes at you and caresses your arm one time?â He had to ignore the irony in that statement; he couldâve almost been talking into a mirror. âYouâre pathetic, blaming your lack of control and better judgement on her,â he said, eyes hardening as he took a step forward, the man simultaneously retreating a step with a gulp.
âGo find whatever excuse of a manhood you claim to have in somebody elseâs cunt, and donât let me catch you back in this building. It wont be words that warn you off next time.â His hands clenched into fists at his side, itching to grab the fleeing man and grace him with a well-earned punchâbut he wouldnât gift you that satisfaction, too.
When the elevator doors closed on the stranger, Coriolanus turned to face you. You were picking at your nails busily, as though the entire interaction had bored you beyond interest.
âWhat were you thinking?â He snapped at you, inching closer to glare you down.
You glanced up from your hands, offering a mere shrug as you crossed your arms and glanced up at him cheekily. âI wasnât thinking at all, really,â you admitted. âJust wanted to feel some good things.â
Bitterness found its way onto Coriolanusâ tongue. âDo I not make you feel good enough?â He scolded coolly, his eyes searching yours angrily. âWould you rather I call that prick back and have him stick his two expired inches inside you?â
A hint of hurt seemed to widen your eyes, your expression shaped with confusion. âDidnât think you cared what I got up to,â you muttered, glancing off to the side.
Coriolanus knew that to be complete bullshit, a feeble play at attempting to settle your own insecurities. He knew what you wanted to hear from himâthat you mattered to him, that he wanted you to himself, that the mere thought of another man touching you would send him into inexplicable rage. To an extent, those were all true, but not in the way you'd wanted them to be, not in a way he was capable of giving.
He restrained the anger he felt towards you, knowing that he needed to take a gentler approach. You weren't in a state fit to endure his anger, not now. He needed to coddle you, to keep your emotions intact, otherwise he risked losing you. He couldn't have that.
âI care,â he said at last, moving a hand to grip at your chin. Heâd forgotten how soft your skin was, itâd been weeks since heâd been permitted to touch you, business keeping him away from your warmth. He moved your face to his, searching between your eyes and your lips. âAnd you know that I care, too, or you wouldnât have put on this little display.â
âYou donât careânot really, Coriolanus,â you snapped, your hand plucking his from your chin. âYou constantly remind me that Iâm nothing more than pleasure to you, an object you love to parade around, so as long as itâs your name engraved on me.â
Correct, he thought, his hand returning to his side. He gazed at you, the cogs of his mind reeling busily as he cautiously selected his next words. He couldnât be angry with you, not now when you were so fragilely being kept together by emotion. It mattered what he said to you, even if the words werenât honest. He knew that you needed reassurance, something akin to love to cling to, to keep you satisfied beside him. The condition that came with having a toy he loved to play with, was having to look after it, to ensure it didnât break or wear with time.
That was exactly what he had to do with you, so he fed you whatever conniving words he could to keep you indulged in whatever illusion youâd had about your relationship with Coriolanus. A necessary evil to preserve his hold over you. He was selfish that way, but you were far too entertaining to let slip, and he did rather enjoy youâyour company and your body.
Truthfully, you did have some sort of hold over him, and heâd let just enough of that truth show to control you, to convince you of his love for you.
âIn all my years of existing, I've never once felt compelled to share my life with somebody else," Coriolanus told you softly. He moved his hand to return that same rogue strand of hair back behind your ear. "Not until you. I can't explain it, the way the mere thought of you with another man sends me into an unparalleled rageâto think that he could give you something I couldn't. The thought of somebody touching you the way I touch you. . . It's unbearable, unacceptable." He placed his hands on either one of your cheeks, lifting your head to face him. His words had too easily buttered you up, moulded your face with a look of infatuation. âIf I didnât care about you, I wouldnât have followed you all the way up here. Iâd have let you fuck whoever you want, whenever you want, however you want. But the fact is, I careâa lot.â
You still harboured a certain look of uncertainty in your eyes, those damned eyes that made him go feral. He could tell that you wanted to believe him, but you had reservations that he hadnât yet satisfied with his words. He needed to say more, do more.
âDo you see me chasing after any other girl the way I chase after you?â He pressed on, grabbing your face a little more ferociously, just to sell the point. âYouâve consumed me, reduced any ounce of respect Iâve once had for myself to nothingness. I couldâve had you pawned off the Capitol after the games, to do whatever bidding they demanded of you, but I chose to keep you by my side, to spoil you with everything you deserve for winning the games. Tell me one person whoâd be willing to do the same for a district nobody that they held no care for?â
Your eyes had grown teary at his words, your bottom lip quivering beyond your control. You had meant to look tougher, Coriolanus could tell, unmoved by his words, but you were only just a naive girl burdened with the need to be loved. So you believed it, every poisonous word dripping from his lipsâlapped it up hungrily like a douse of honey, in fact. Perfect. He was gaining back your trust.
You caved into Coriolanus, his hands falling from your face to wrap around your body and keep you against him. His one hand curled around the nape of your neck while the other wrapped around the small of your back, so perfectly shaped to accommodate his arm. How could he be convinced that you were not made just for him, when every aspect of your body seemed to be carved just for his touch? The hand on your head began to move with rhythmic strokes across your hair, his lips moving to place a kiss on the crown of your head. He rested his chin where heâd placed his kiss, as though sealing in the sensation, before he spoke up.
âYou were incredibly selfish tonight,â he murmured. You pulled back subtly to glance up at him with slightly furrowed brows, and he lifted his chin from your head to gaze back at you impassively. âYou put me through hell, making me watch as you flirted with that man, touched on him all over as you promised him sex. Do you think that was fun for me?â
Your eyes glinted with a hint of guilt, your lips parting with a soft no.
âNo,â Coriolanus agreed, his eyes undeniably annoyed as he glared at your guilt-ridden expression. His fingers ventured along your back, finding the zip to your dress, the only thing keeping your body prisoner in the fabric. He tugged at the zip, harshly at first, his need to punish you poking through his actions, but he had to refrain from that for the time-being. More slowly, he began to pull the zip down your body. âI think it only fitting that you should be punished for your little games, donât you agree?â His eyes flickered back up to yours coolly, almost challenging you to disagree.
The fabric of your dress grew loose on your body, the straps beginning to slide along the slope of your shoulders. You glanced up at him in silence, not wanting to admit the words, but the neediness on your expression told him that you were all game for your punishmentânot that it ever was something unpleasant. Coriolanus was always generous when it came to putting you in your place.
âGlad weâre on the same page, dove,â he said, the dress releasing your body at last. It pooled onto the floor around your heels, leaving you barren save for the bra suffocating your breasts. He glanced down at your lower half, faintly surprised to find that youâd neglected the courtesy of wearing any underwear. "Was this supposed to be an apology?" He asked, glancing back at you through a charming smirk.
A smile broke through onto your lips. "I thought it'd make undressing me quicker," you replied, lowering yourself to remove the heels from your feet. You were glad to be free of that hell. They made your calves look good, but they were torture on your feet.
"Well, aren't you considerate?" Coriolanus responded, then paused before adding. "So you knew how this night would end, with you and I nothing but a sexual amalgamation?â
"It was more of a hope,â you replied as you straightened yourself up.
Coriolanus' constraint gave in at your insinuations, his hand moving to caress your cheek, his eyes lowering to your perfect lips that he craved to taste in that very moment. You reached up to deliver the unspoken need onto his lips, but he kept you grounded with a hand around your collarbone. "You're not kissing me with those lips," he told you. âNot after that prick has wiped his saliva all over you.â
His hand left your body to reach into his blazer pockets. He pulled out a key, his hand snaking around your waist to slip the key into the door hole. His face was intentionally leaned close to yours, his eyes narrowed with a mixture of concentration as he struggled to unlock the door, and because he could smell the manâs cologne clinging desperately to your skin. Heâd need to take care of that before the evening could proceed, it was a detrimental hinderance to his cock. At last, the doors gave in with a loud click, and he pulled the key from the lock.
He leaned back with a curt beckoning of his chin. "After you,â he said, placing the key back into his blazer, his eyes not once neglecting yours.
You gave him a long stare, almost daring to be disobedient before you clearly thought better of it. You bent over to collect your dress and your shoes before turning to push the doors open. Coriolanus dropped his attention to your ass, which practically begged for his approval as it bounced with your every step. He entered inside after you, closing the doors behind him.
You ventured a few steps into the well-furnished living room of the suite and tossed your clothing onto the nearest sofa, your eyes trained on the glass walls that offered a breath-taking view of Panem. Youâd always marvel over the cityscape as if it was your first time seeing it, but in all honesty, it was the fact that the lights of Panem fashioned a different colour each night, and it always seemed to illuminate new buildings and views that youâd never noticed before.
Coriolanus watched you, your hand absentmindedly reaching to hold your elbow as you admired the viewâone that youâd already seen countless times before, he thought. He wondered whether you were contemplating your circumstances in this instant, as if the reality of what youâd done had finally started to sink in, and what the consequences to follow would be. He could read you fairly well, but there were still moments that your thoughts were lost on him.
âAre you scared?â He asked, his voice echoing throughout the empty space.
You turned to face him, your hands falling to your side. The lighting was dim, but the amusement etched onto your features were clear. âScared? I didnât survive the games only to be scared of you, Coriolanus Snow. Besides, this is hardly our first rodeo. I canât imagine thereâs much more surprises you could spring on me.â
Coriolanus cocked his eyebrows, smiling at those words. He appreciated your effortless wit. Most of Panemâs ladies were annoyingly submissive in their conversation, saying only what they thought he wanted to hear, as though itâd make them more desirable to him. You didnât need to be told what to say, you just said it, and he was glad for it. Control could be exhausting, especially when he strove to maintain it in almost every aspect of his life. It was refreshing to know that he didnât have to control your personality, too.
âGood,â he said, inching closer until he could reach out a hand to grab your arm. He turned you around forcefully, cool fingers teasingly tracing the skin of your shoulder as he made his way down to the clasp of your bra. He undid the hook, freeing your breasts from the pretty white lace, before tossing it onto the sofa beside your other discarded items. He turned you back to him, his eyes instantly lowering to the hardened nipples crowning your soft breasts. âSomebodyâs eager,â He jested, his voice a soft rumble as his eyes rose to meet yours. âDid you want something from me?â
âYou know I always do, Coryo,â you responded, taking your lower lip into a subtle bite.
Coriolanusâs eyes hardened at that nickname. âDonât call me that,â he demanded. That version of himself had died a long time ago.
Your eyebrows cocked at his tone, your lips momentarily pursed before you asked, âshould I call you Mr. Snow instead?â
âJust Coriolanus,â he replied, rolling his shoulders to remove his crimson blazer. Your eyes were stalking his every move. He could tell that you wanted nothing more than to reach out to what little clothing remained on his body and tear it away mercilesslyâthat you wanted him to take you right here at this very instant. But he was faintly impressed at your patience as you decided against any reckless action, instead opting to wait for his next command.
He folded his blazer and draped it over his arm, his free hand beckoning for you to follow him to his bedroom. âCome on.â
Your eyes followed his footsteps, your disbelief keeping your feet glued to the ground. Coriolanus glanced over his shoulder when your footsteps didnât commence behind him. Your reaction was justifiable. Heâd never once once invited you into his room in all the months youâd lived with him. He knew that you were foolishly thinking that this moment marked an intimate milestone in your relationship, that this act was an attempt for him to show just how much you meant to him.
âProblem?â He asked.
You willed away the dumbfounded look on your face, offering a half-hearted no as you caught up to Coriolanus. As if the sentiment was fragile, you merely walked ahead of him in silence, afraid that one wrong word would revoke the invite.
He trailed behind you as you approached the door to his bedroom. You tossed a glance over your shoulder as you sought out confirmation in your actions. Coriolanus gave a small nod, an encouraging smirk poking through. You smiled back, turning your attention to opening the door. You slipped inside, your attention instantly flying to the furniture that occupied the space. It was modest, very limited to necessities.
The bed, needlessly big, was slightly undone, the comforters left untidy as though heâd just climbed out of bed and the covers half pulled from the pillowsâa picture frozen in time. A plate and a mug was stacked onto the bedside table, the previous dayâs clothes draped across the sofas near the windows. Your eyes were fixating every detail around the room, as though burning a mental picture into your mind as a souvenir for later.
Coriolanus moved to place his blazer beside his other clothes on the sofa. âSorry for the mess,â he offered, moving to undo the buttons of his waistcoat. âAs Iâm sure you know, I donât usually have the worry of entertaining guests.â
You turned to face him, your eyes lowering to his skilful fingers. âI like the mess,â you responded, making your way over to him. âIt feels personal, seeing this side of youâallow me to.â You shooed his hands off the waistcoat, taking his place in undoing the buttons. You glanced up at him seductively, your eyes flickering down to his full lips.
He watched you undress him, slowly but surely, knowing that he couldâve done a much faster job. But he allowed you to take on the role, knowing that it made you feel important, that your body would show him just how thankful you were and how much these little details meant to you. Once you had unfastened the last button, you removed the waistcoat and admired his toned and broad physique, painfully concealed behind his white shirt.
Coriolanus glared at your wandering eyes, wondering whether you were trying to picture him naked. Heâd never been fully undressed in all of their little rendezvous, it was something far too intimate for him. And there had only been a few occasions where heâd fucked you with his cock and not his fingers or his mouth. Heâd found himself deriving the utmost pleasure when he got to solely focus on how you came undone for him, how powerful his every movement upon you really was.
When your hands moved to undo the buttons of his shirt, he grabbed at your wrist. âNot yet,â he told you. âYou still reek of him.â You frowned at his words, your hands falling to your sides in disappointment. âCome with me,â he said, moving past you toward the bathroom. âWeâre going to take a little bath.â
Your interest peaked at his words. âWeâre going to bath together?â You asked curiously as you followed after him.
âYouâre going to bath,â Coriolanus corrected as he reached the large alcove bathtub. He leaned over to turn on the tap. âIâm going to watch.â His hand trailed the many soaps and balms that lined the rim of the bathtub. Heâd made it a mission to collect every scented product he could manage once he got his hand on the money, simply because he could, and he liked smelling good.
âSounds perverted,â you shot at him, crossing your arms as you watched him draw your bath.
He grabbed ahold of a rose-scented oil and began pouring it into the water. âYou didnât agree to live with me because of my normalcy,â he said distractedly. âBut because you knew just how much my so called perversion had to offer your pathetic, little, touch-starved body.â
He tossed a glance at you over his shoulder, satisfied by the red gleam that had snuck onto your cheeks. He turned his attention back to the tub, reaching for a bottle of bubble bath. He began adding it to the water, a few droplets reaching up to stain his shirt.
âIn any case,â Coriolanus continued. âItâs the least you could do for me after tonightâs shit-show.â He placed the bottle back against the wall, closing the tap once the water had reached an appropriate level. He unbuttoned the cufflinks of his shirt and rolled up the sleeves, taking a few paces back. He jerked his head at you. âGo on,â he demanded.
You unfurled into a dramatic stretch, parading your breasts as you faced him. âJoin me.â
He fixed you with an unwavering stare, not so keen to play into another one of your games. âGet in.â
With one last glare, you turned and dipped one leg into the bath, instantly pulling back with a hiss. Your head snapped to face him. âItâs too hot,â you protested.
Coriolanus moved to retrieve a chair from the corner of the bathroom, placing it a few inches from where you stood. He sat himself down, offering a mere shrug to your words. âGood observation.â
âIâm not going to burn myself bloody just so that you can get off,â you spat.
âThen letâs kill some time while we wait for the water to cool down,â he suggested, his eyes once again tracing over every inch of your exposed body with keen interest.
You looked open to his request. âWhat did you have in mind?â
Coriolanusâs eyes flickered back up to you. âTouch yourself,â he said earnestly. You paused at his words, suddenly looking self-conscious, before you hesitantly began to caress your breasts. He watched your fingers squeeze and grope at your skin, imagining that it were his own hands in their stead, only heâd be a lot less kind in his touch. Your fingers trailed teasing circles around your nipples, further hardened at your own toying and his intense observation.
âLower,â he ordered, feeling frustrated at your lack of venturing into your lower extremities.
Your eyes glinted at him, a look that seemed to say greedy. Yes, he was. Who could blame him? Heâd grown up starving for most days of the year, now heâd take as much as he wanted.
His eyes fixated the hand that lowered in a painfully slow motion across your stomach, reaching that sweet spot housed between your legs. As your fingers began to fondle with your clit, you threw your head back with a pitiful moan. He knew he couldâve extracted a louder sound. He almost felt obliged to take over, but he had to remind himself that you were undeserving of his touch, that you needed to be punished with the urge to feel him, yet be denied that pleasure.
A few minutes of your fondling had passed before your ministrations eventually became too overwhelming to maintain control over your body. You lowered yourself to the bathmat, your hand not once leaving your cunt. You spread your legs open, offering a broader view to Coriolanus. Your eyes were glazed over as you glanced at him. He tilted his head slightly in approval, feeling his own cock growing interested at his view of your pathetic situation.
âThatâs good, sweetheart,â he praised, noting the way your eyes lowered to his pants. He parted his legs slightly to take the pressure off of his growing erection, eager to hide his arousal. He didnât want you to notice just yet how much he was truly enjoying this. Your movements eventually became more erratic, incoherent sounds spewing from your lips.
âI need you, Coriolanus,â you managed to blabber out, your tired head resting onto the rim of the bathtub, eyes periodically fluttering closed as you alternated between consciousness and whatever universe of pleasure was found behind your eyes. âPlease,â you begged.
âYouâll have me soon,â he said, âwhen I see it fit.â
âIâve been good for you,â you protested breathlessly. âIâve done everything you told me to.â
âYou have a lot to atone for,â Coriolanus pointed out, his eyes lowering to where your hand had slowed its movements. âDonât stop until I tell you to.â
You glanced at him past your tired lids, but you obliged nonetheless, adding a finger inside of your cunt to increase the pressure. He supposed it was fair, if he had refused to place his own fingers inside of you. He couldnât help the smirk that crept onto lips as he watched a stream of white begin to trail from your opening, recalling how good you tasted. It was a shame, really, that it would go to waste onto the bathroom mat instead of onto his appreciative tongue. From the sound of your pathetic mewling and your ragged breathing, Coriolanus knew that you were growing close to your high. He didnât intend for the fun to end just yet.
âI want you to continue until you feel like youâre going to cum,â he told you, though he wasnât sure youâd heard him past you own noise. âAnd then I want you to stop just before that happens.â
âThatâs mean, Coriolanus,â you managed to say.
âYou havenât seen mean yet, dove,â he said. âNow stop talking and focus.â
Your fingers picked up their pace with a newfound eagerness, the knot in your stomach growing inescapably larger, the urge to come undone becoming harder and harder to contain. Coriolanus wasnât sure youâd obey his command at this point, you looked too far gone to resume control over your own actions. His eyes narrowed, watching closely at what fate youâd choose to follow. Much to his disappointment, you practiced constraint, your hips shooting up with anticipation, only to sink to the floor as you denied yourself the orgasm.
You glanced at Coriolanus past your teary lashes, a silent request for praise. He heeded your need, rising from his seat to crouch beside your slumped figure. He combed the loose hair from your face, wiping away the beads of sweat that dotted your forehead.
âYouâre too good for this world,â he murmured sweetly. He felt as though he could have choked on the banality of his words, but the soft look in your eyes as you gazed up at him made it worthwhile. He nodded to your hand, still resting on your cunt. âShow me how good you felt.â
You pulled your hand from its playground between your legs, creamy white webs entangled on your fingers. They pulled a string along your stomach as you lifted your fingers for Coriolanus to study.
âIt almost looks like you donât need my help,â he chuckled, his hand fastening around your wrist to bring your fingers to his lips. His blue eyes bore down into you as he took each of your fingers into his mouth. One by one, his tongue hungrily weaved around them, claiming your juices from your skin.
You gazed at him with a wild look ablaze in your eyes. âDonât I deserve a taste?â You said. âAfter all, I did all the hard work. I deserve to taste the fruits of my labour.â
âYou should be modest,â Coriolanus said once he removed your fingers from his mouth. âNobody likes a brag.â
âDonât be so hard on yourself,â you retorted lightly, your eyes glinting with exhaustion. âI like you.â
âMhm,â he offered softly, placing your hand gently onto your chest. He reached his hand between your legs, an action that caused your thighs to stiffen around him. âRelax,â he cooed, pressing his palm into one of your thighs, encouraging you to open up to him.
âSorry,â you said, easing off the defensiveness. âIâm sensitive down there at the moment.â
âIâll be careful,â he promised, gazing at your fragile expression. Fuck, he could take you right here. His fingers moved with caution as they glided along the folds of your drenched cunt, gathering up your cum into untidy clumps. He followed a trail of arousal that had traveled down into the cleft of your ass, pressing a teasing finger into your asshole.
You gasped at the sudden invasion, and Coriolanusâs throat rumbled with a chuckle. He removed his fingers and brought them to your lips. You glanced at his slender fingers, not needing much convincing to take them into your mouth. You turned your attention to him as you began to suck at him suggestively, exaggerating your head bobbing as you made a point to cover the entire length of his fingers.
He watched you with a lopsided smirk, enjoying the whore-like behaviour you so willingly offered him. Now and again, heâd thrust his fingers a little too deep, more than what your throat could handle, which caused you to gag around him. Strings of your saliva had begun to slither down his exposed forearm, pleasantly warm on his skin. He imagined his cock in the stead of his fingers, enjoying the same warmth and wetness your mouth had to offer.
When youâd decidedly had enough of licking his fingers clean, you pulled your lips from him with a characteristic pop. Coriolanus reached that hand over the bathtub, dipping it into the water to feel its temperature. It had cooled down considerably, but it was still warm enough for a worthwhile soak. He withdrew his hand and wiped his fingers onto his shirt.
âThe bath will get cold soon,â he told you. âGet in.â
âIs that all?â You asked disappointedly.
âGet yourself cleaned up, and Iâll show you what Iâve got in stock for you.â He straightened up and took a few paces back as you perked with new resolve and found your feet.
He backed up to reclaim his position on the chair, crossing his legs as he watched you. Your back was momentarily on him as you climbed into the bathtub, the water sloshing a welcome. You submerged yourself into the warmth almost instantly, a content groan reverberating in your throat. His eyes lowered to your hand, which had began to spread the foam of the bubble bath across your bare chest and breasts.
âThe waterâs so good,â you murmured.
âDonât get too relaxed,â he warned.
âWhy donât you join me, Coriolanus,â you said, your eyes fluttered open as you moved to fold your arms onto the lip of bathtub. You rested your chin onto your arms, glancing at the erection he could no longer conceal. âIâll take good care of your little cock, that should keep me on my toes.â Your expression beamed at your choice of words, deliberately chosen to get a rise out of him.
Coriolanus merely scoffed at your teasing. He had many things to prove, but the size of his cock was not one of them.
âYou sure you could handle me, since youâre still so sensitive down there?â He asking mockingly. He leaned back into his chair, his hand coming up to clench his chin, the other grabbing his elbow.
You tilted your head prettily to one side. âOnly one way to find out,â you murmured, leaning back against the wall of the tub as you kicked your foot out and onto the edge. Water splashed partially onto the bathmat, but most had been caught by the bare floor.
Coriolanus lowered his eyes to the puddle. âYouâre making quite a mess for someone whoâs been in here for less than half an hour.â
âGive me an hour and youâll see just how much of a mess I can make,â you challenged.
He lifted his chin to face you, his eyes narrowing the slightest. This side of you was something heâd never experienced before; you were a lot more daring, undoubtedly brought on by the importance you felt at being allowed the opportunity to bathe in his bathroom and in his company. Heâd like to test just how long you could keep up this illusion of bravery, and how quickly youâd drop it when he had you sprawled onto his fingers.
âCome here, then,â he said, uncrossing his legs and spreading it as an invitation for your thighs.
Your eyes snuck a peak at his hard on before you broke away from your slutty pose and climbed from the warmth of the tub. You took a few steps toward Coriolanus, water and soap slithering down the curves of your body and onto the floor.
You stopped short of his legs. âYouâre sure?â You asked, eyes making a point of the shirt and pants he still wore. âWouldnât you be more comfortable with a little less on?â
Coriolanus grunted from a place of impatience, reaching out his hand to grab at your wrist. He pulled you into his lap, rough hands guiding your hips to comfortably straddle his clothed thighs. The soapy water coating your body began to bleed into his clothes, his pants the most affected, but he could hardly be arsed in this moment. He just needed to feel you, needed to use you. His fingers gripped at your thighs, his heavenly blue eyes boring down onto your strained expression as he began to forcibly guide your bare cunt over his bulge.
Coriolanusâs movements set a generous pace, endorphins bolting through your core each time his bulge struck your sensitive clit. The texture of his pants was harsh on your skin, creating a friction that seemed to generate copious amounts of heatâscrew sticks and stones, this method of fucking could have started all the fires in the world. You wrapped your arms around his neck, your lower half instinctively beginning to cooperate as you rocked back and fourth in sync with his guidance.
Your head came to rest in the chiselled crook of his neck, his earthy fragrance fucking heaven-sent on your senses, further engulfing you in bliss. His throat vibrated against your ear with strained moans, they came as subtle grunts that prompted his hands to speed up the pace. He was so eager to feel you, to settle his drawn-out erection. You winced as his fingers burrowed into the skin of your thighs. Heâd neglected all caution in your handling, his need to control your movements overpowering what slither of consideration heâd held for your comfort.
It didnât take long for the stinging sensation to blend with your pleasure, slurred moans pouring from your lips as you felt cum begin to leak from your entrance. It lubricated the fabric of Coriolanusâs pants, offering some relief from the coarse material. You screwed your eyes shut and pressed your face into his shirt, eager to muffle the mewls of pleasure you seemed to have zero control over. His chest rumbled with a breathy fuck, and you felt his body momentarily convulse with the overwhelming feelings your bodies shared.
You turned your head, your nose brushing against the skin of his neck. Your eyes fluttered open, drinking in the view of his adamâs apple, so prominent and manly. It bobbed as Coriolanus swallowed a moan. You brought your furthest hand forward to hook the side of his neck, pulling him against your lips. He didnât resist, itâs almost as though he was too focused on his own work to pay attention to your own dealings. You littered sloppy kisses all across his neck, placing extra emphasis around his adamâs apple. You kissed all around the bulge before giving into your thoughts and dragging your tongue over it, leaving a sloppy trail in your wake.
The warmth and wetness of your tongue on his throat made Coriolanus release an unexpected groan, a hand leaving your hips to wrap around your throat. You let slip a chuckle at his action, and he held you out in front of him, his cold eyes glaring into yours as he decided to brutalise his movements. You moaned loudly, the sound strained as you forced it past his suffocating hold on your neck.
âCoriolanus,â you choked out breathlessly, your hands sliding along his broad shoulders. âI need you inside of me.â
âYouâve waited this long,â Coriolanus muttered. âYou can wait a little longer.â His hold on your throat grew tighter, your vision starting to blur behind a mixture of fresh tears and your compromised oxygen.
He watched your eyes flutter closed and your teeth clench as you inched closer and closer to your edge, your nails digging through his shirt and into his shoulders, steading yourself against his aggression. His singular hand on your hip began to cramp at his incessant groping and steering, but he was beginning to feel his own orgasm approaching, and that was motivation enough to push throughâthat, and your whorish desperation.
He released his grip on your neck, the air returning to your lungs as a cough and a splutter. He hooked the nape of your neck and pulled you into the comfort of his shoulder, urging you to rest your tired head there as he finished you both off. With both hands once again firm on your hips, he picked up the pace. He rested his chin onto the crown of your head, his eyes fluttering closed as he allowed the scent of your conditioner to swallow his senses.
With each movement, he brought you down harder onto his cock, craving rougher strokes. The squelching of the cum coating your folds and spreading along his pants was music to his ears, and he gritted his teeth to bite back his ragged breathing so that he could continue to hear the way heâd transformed your cunt. He could feel his own pre-cum trickling from his tip, the warmth spreading along his shaft by the generosity of your wet folds. Fucking hell did he yearn to be inside of you, almost as much as you craved him, but he had to be stronger than his own desires.
It didnât take long before every nerve tracing the length of his cock began to fire rapid impulses, the prolonged stimulation proving to be too overbearing. His lips parted with strained breaths, the black abyss behind his eyes beginning to birth a cosmos of anticipatory stars. The image built and built until he thrust you one last violent time along his cock, his hips rocking up into you, delivering just the right ounce of pressure before white engulfed his vision.
His grip on your hips loosened, his ears buzzing with the aftermath of his high. He hadnât even realised that youâd come undone before he had, your whimpers and vulgar pleas lost in his concentration. The only evidence of your orgasm was the new patch of wetness that had marked his pants, a generous mixture of squirt and cum.
Your breathless voice sounded at his ear as you moved your head from under his chin. âI want to feel like that all the time.â
âThat can be arranged, dove,â he chuckled hoarsely.
You felt his hand leave your hip, the skin there instantly growing cool. He dragged his fingers repeatedly along the wisps of your hair. It was as though he were petting a dog, only his touch was a lot gentler and more intimate. You allowed your eyes to flutter closed, your lips parting with a content sigh as you waited for the ecstasy of your orgasm to dissolve. You rested your chin on his shoulder, listening to the calm of his breathing, focusing on his hand caressing your hair.
You pulled back to glance at him, his eyes questioning as he returned your stare. Your attention moved to his lips, they looked so soft and plump, not nearly red enough. Youâd been robbed of the opportunity to nibble on them, to contort them between your own lips, to taste the wine heâd downed at the party. You didnât think youâd be properly satisfied until you got your wish. Did that make you ungrateful?
Coriolanus offered a faint smirk, your thoughts loud and clear. How selfish of him, heâd forgotten to kiss you during your little ride. Not a train-smash, he had the entire night to make up for that. His hand on your hair tightened there, forcing you into his vicinity. You wanted to protest at the hairs pulling at your scalp, but you hadnât gotten the chance, not when his lips silenced yours in a hungry tumble.
He didnât kiss you as often as you wouldâve liked, but when he did, it was always imbued with passion, his movements erratic like heâd been starving and you were the first source of food heâd encountered in days. You got lost in the movement of his lips, the pace so fast that you couldnât properly match it, though not for lack of trying. You allowed yourself to be swept up in his kiss, accepting that he was in control.
Coriolanus moved his hands to grab ahold of your breasts, his attention marvellously divided between fondling them and tracing his tongue along the inside of your mouth. You moaned into him, the sound muffled and lost to your entanglement. His teeth scraped against your bottom lip, offering a sharp nip that caused you to wince in surprise. You felt his lips broaden in a smug smile, his hands neglecting your breasts and trailing a seductive path down your waist to deliver a crisp spank to your ass.
The skin stung where heâd struck you, but he was so quick to soothe the ache with gentle rubbing. The curves of your ass fit so perfectly into his palms. He pulled his lips from yours, not sparing even an instant for you to process his movements before his sharp nose found sanctuary in your cleavage. He littered kisses there before moving to plant a trail around the circumference of your breasts.
âCoriolanus,â you moaned, your head lolling back.
He hummed against your skin, a halfhearted acknowledgement. His hand found its way between your thighs, his middle finger sliding between your labia where beads of your brand new arousal waited to greet him. He slathered his fingers in your juice, lubricating the skin before he slid his finger into your entrance.
Your entire composure collapsed at that, the built up suspense of needing him inside you satisfied at last. Your entrance clamped around him at first, the sensation always forgotten with how few and far apart these glorious moments were spread, but within a fraction of a second, you melted onto his finger.
You nibbled at your lower lip, the bite deepening as Coriolanusâs teeth found your nipple. He alternated between tugging at your hardened buds and swirling his tongue around and all over it, mischievously marking steaks of saliva along your skin. A few seconds later, his ring and index finger joined the party within you.
Your grip on his shoulders lowered down his back, eagerly clawing at the hard and chiselled muscles, but his damned shirt got in the way. You pulled back, Coriolanusâ lips robbed of your breasts. He glanced at you, his fingers continuing their thrusts. Your hands flew to tug at the buttons of his shirt. The first few youâd managed to undo, but you had finite patience for the others, resorting to an aggressive tug that split the buttons from the fabric.
âAre you going to pay for that?â Coriolanus jested lightly.
âIâm sure thereâs plenty more shirts where that one came from,â you said hastily, yanking the sleeves down his broad shoulders.
You instantly dove in to kiss at his chest. Heâd never been excessively muscled, but he was still strong and toned, his frame broad and absolutely mouth-watering to gaze upon. Your hands wandered along his chest, sliding along his shoulders and down his arms. You attempted to tug his shirt all the way off, Coriolanus aiding your motion as he momentarily pulled his fingers from inside you.
He rolled his shoulders and removed his shirt, tossing it onto the floor. You glanced at his torso, now completely exposed to you. You couldnât stifle the smile on your lips, thinking that he looked a lot like a male stripperâbare-chested yet still clothed from the waist down, presenting himself on a chair. All he was missing was a sexy dance of some sort.
Coriolanus frowned at your gawking. âWhatâs on that mind of yours?â
You pursed your lips. âNothing,â you answered, placing a kiss on his lips. You moved to murmur in his ear, ânow If itâs not too much to ask, would you kindly stick your fingers back inside of me?â
When you withdrew to look at him, Coriolanus wore a wicked smirk. âWhat a slutty thing to say.â His fingers returned to your cunt, but instead of easing his way inside, he opted for his whole hand at once.
You didnât know whether you were more shocked at his gesture, or the way your cunt had easily welcomed him. His movements were considerably less cautious than before, but you didnât care about that now, only that he was finally inside of you. You let out a lengthy moan, so eager to verbalise your appreciation. Your hands moved to cup your breasts, squeezing and kneading them together as you tilted your head back.
You closed your eyes and focused on his hand inside you, how each thrust grew deeper and closer to your sweet spot. Itâs as though heâd already mapped out your insides, his fingers knowing exactly which way to wander. Gods, you truly didnât know whether you or Coriolanus enjoyed this more. He kept up a regular pace for a while, and youâd quickly grown impatient and needy for his brutality.
âFaster,â you complained.
Coriolanus slowed his movements, coming to a complete stop. He wholly expected the miserable look on your face as your head snapped down to face him. How could he allow you to think that he was here to serve you, as opposed to you serving him. He wasnât just going to hand you what you wanted, life certainly hadnât been that generous with him. No, youâd have to work for it.
âOkay, we can go faster,â he said, cocking his head slightly. You regained a spark at those words, but it quickly blew out at what came next. âBut youâll do it yourself, since youâre unsatisfied with what Iâm giving you.â
âI didnât mean it like thatââ you attempted to protest, but Coriolanus cut you off with free his index finger pressing against your lips, his lips fashioned in a hush.
âNo talking,â he murmured. âJust get to work.â He beckoned down to your cunt, his hand motionless inside of you.
Devastated at having to do the work yourself, you crossed your arms around his neck, your expression adorably resentful as you lifted your hips and began to ride him. Coriolanus lowered his free hand to rest at your hip, his attention wandering to your breasts. He couldnât have ignored them even if he tried, not when they were bouncing inches from his face and calling out for attention. Your moans quickly commenced, your hips already starting to tremble with your next orgasm. You tossed your head back, your movements becoming uncoordinated, like your body had already started to give up.
Coriolanus felt your walls begin to clench around his hand, glancing up to glimpse your face. âLook at me,â he called to you. Your head lowered to face him at once, your eyelids drooping. âAre you going to cum?â He asked, and you nodded eagerly, followed by a strewn out moan.
Good, he thought. His hand on your hip began to press against your movements, interrupting the pace youâd managed to get going. Your eyes widened as your orgasm retracted into a dissatisfying gasp, the high that had been building instantly collapsed at your sudden lack of movement.
âCoriolanus,â you snapped, your tone coming across as a whine. Youâd become frustrated with his teasing, and your body shared the sentiment. Your clit ached now, exhausted tremors seizing every muscle of your body. âYouâre being a dick!â
âNo,â he countered, pulling his hand from your entrance. He looked condescending as his eyes flickered across you face. âIâm punishing you, just like I promised. Youâre getting exactly what you deserve, but youâre spoiled and used to getting your way.â
You didnât have anything to retort, so you glared at him in silence, ignoring the hurt that his words had inflicted upon you.
âDonât pout,â he murmured, wiping his wet hand along your thigh.
Then, without warning, he hoisted you up at the thighs and manoeuvred you bridal-style from the bathroom towards the bedroom. He lowered you onto the undone comforters of his bed, leaning down with you to place a swift kiss on your furrowed brows. He straightened up at the foot of the bed, his hands reaching for your calves.
âYou want to cum?â He asked, his fingers wrapping around your legs to pull you down the bed and closer to where he stood. âIâll make you cum, over and over again.â That was a promise.
Your lips parted with shock, words scattering from your tongue as his hands travelled over yours knees and grabbed at your thighs. He pried your legs apart, exposing your cunt to him. The last view you captured of him was the way his eyes traced your exposed lower half, a barely noticeable smirk pulling at one corner of his lips. Then, his head dipped into you, his tongue flat and rough on your folds.
You threw your head back into the sheets, your fingers instantly curling into the material as if it were the only thing keeping you grounded and preventing you from getting carried away into another universe. Coriolanus was conscious to strike his nose against your tender clit every so often, clearly enjoying the way it sent a jerk through your body. It was like his own personal control-switch to play with. You were too exhausted to limit the noises that you produced for him, so everything came out a loud and blabbering mess. You didnât ever want to stop being touched this way.
Coriolanus was a clean man. He liked to keep his hair tamed, his jaw void of any developing beard that he felt would deface his appearance. But it had to have been a week since his last shave, you thought. You could feel the faint stubble poking through, grazing your intimate area as he ravished you below. It was the perfect addition to your arousal, adding just enough noise to push you into overstimulation.
You fought the urge to lift your lower half from the sheets, to greedily claim a deeper thrust of his tongue. He wouldnât take kindly to that, and you didnât think you had the capacity to endure any more teasing. Instead, you opened your thighs even wider, your hands releasing the comforter to grip at your breasts.
Coriolanus approved of your behaviour, his praise coming in the form of his tongue up your entrance. You let slip a breathy gasp, your jaw clenching at the lightning that seemed to obscure your vision.
âFuck, Coriolanus,â you drawled, tears pricking at the corners of your eyes. âPleaseâlet me cum!â
He hummed against your clit, the vibrations serving as the fucking icing on top of this sex-themed cake. You core knotted, your breath catching in your throat. Your eyes screwed shut, the pressure building and building and threatening to spill over as Coriolanusâ tongue picked up the pace. He twirled your clit around, his fingers pinching at your thighs, and just like that, your body released all the tension of the evening.
Your chest bobbed up and down with heavy breathing, not feeling as though you could bear to open your eyes. Itâs only when you felt Coriolanusâ warmth withdraw from your thighs that you lifted your head to glance up at him. He straightened up and met your gaze with an impressed look, his perfect lips offering a smileâa genuine smile. The sight set off butterflies in your stomach. He was proud of you and your performance.
âYou did well, dove,â he praised.
You beamed at his compliment, words not easily extracted from him. The sheen on his jaw caught your attention, your heart jolting with shame to see him absolutely doused in your juice. It trailed well down his neck and onto his chest, making a point to follow the natural contours of his pecs.
âIâm sorryââ a hand flew to your mouth, hardly believing that youâd produced a mess of that magnitude.
âSorry?â Coriolanus mocked, his perfect teeth flashing in a laugh. âDonât be. Itâs a compliment. You show your appreciation like a real woman, just the way I like it.â
You watched as his hands lowered to his red trousers, his fingers moving to undo the button. You glanced back at him in alarm.
âYou didnât think we were done just yet?â He asked, his smile turning wicked as he unzipped his trousers and pulled it down. âI edged you twice,â he explained. âAnd Iâd like to think Iâm a fair man. So,â he paused and lowered his underwear, which freed his erection. âI owe you another good time.â
He stepped out from the last of his clothing, towering over your body as he inched his way toward you. âI wonât lie, though,â he murmured once heâd reached your ear. âIâm doing this mostly for me. I think Iâve waited long enough to feel you, really feel you.â
You glanced up at him, your eyes large and pleading like a pathetic mutt begging for scraps. âI donât think I can take any more, Coriolanus.â
âDid it feel good, what you did just now?â
âIt felt like heaven,â you told him softly.
âThen this time will feel like being completely reborn,â Coriolanus insisted, his hand relocating hair from your sticky face. âAnd even if it doesnât, youâll push through because this is your punishment, and punishment is not always meant to be enjoyable.â
You glanced off to the side, hating how much the cold look in his eyes stirred something inside of you.
Coriolanus found satisfaction in the way his words kept you silent. He grabbed your chin and turned you back to him, his thumb pressing into your lower lip before he planted a hollow kiss in its stead. He placed his forearm beside your head, leaning onto that side as his other hand reached down for his cock. He gave a lazy pump across his hard length, a pathetic attempt at spreading his pre-cum. He didnât need to do any better, not when your drenched cunt offered enough lubrication for him to enter without a struggle.
And it did, without a single hitch, as he pushed himself inside of you. Your soft gasp sounded in his ear, his attention still trained below. Once he was sure he was properly inside of you, he turned his head up and placed his arm on the other side of your head. You felt so warm and welcoming, definitely a lot more relaxed than the previous times heâd stuck his cock inside of you.
He began to thrust, not having much patience to start slow and gradually build up the pressure. This entire evening had been leading up to this moment, the opportunity for him to be in this exact position. Heâd spent all of his patience, now he just needed to finish what heâd set out to do. He was pleased to feel your hands snake beneath his arms and take up a hold on his back, that is until your nails suddenly sunk into his skin.
He let out pained moan, his gaze growing fierce at the satisfaction on your face. Two could play that game. He withdrew his length a far way out, his tip almost slipping from your entrance entirely, before he rammed himself back inside with an animalistic thrust. His tip collided with your g-spot, a harsh and sudden greeting to the sensitive area.
You let out a scream, your stomach lifting against him. Before you could process the shock, he rammed into you again, and again, and again. Each time, he returned with the same force, and not once did he fail to miss his target. Your nails in his skin continued to sink deeper, the both of you reduced to nothing more than grunting and gasping.
The bed creaked with every movement, the room echoing with the raw percussion of your skin-on-skin contact. Coriolanus bucked into you with such aggression that he began to moan with every sway of his hips. His hands, trapping your head on either side, slipped behind your head to grip at your hair. He yanked, opening up your neck to him. You moaned as his lips buried against your skin, the tip of his nose flattening into you as his teeth sought out your skin.
His movements became jerky, his teeth gritted as he grunted against your neck. You slipped a hand from his back to bury it into his hair, fastening your fingers around his blond wisps that had turned curly from the sweat of his activity.
âIâm going to cum,â he breathed into your neck, his hand flying to one of your thighs. He pulled it up to wrap around his lower half, his thrusts growing violently needy. âFuck,â he spat, then called your name desperately. You felt too good, especially now that your walls seemed to clench around himâhe knew that you were close, too.
Your second orgasm arrived, the hot wetness pooling around his length. He couldnât maintain his control anymore. At last, he gave himself over to his pleasure, his movements becoming sluggish as he felt his release inside of you. He didnât stop his thrusts, not until he felt himself empty every last drop inside of you.
Coriolanus collapsed beside you, his hand finding your cheek and pulling your head against his chest. For many minutes, nobody spoke, each one struggling to regain their breath. His other hand held your lower body against him, keeping his cock secure inside of you. He could feel your mingled juices leaking along his thigh and onto the sheets, a mess he didnât mind right now.
You burrowed into Coriolanusâ arm, a tired sigh leaving your lips. âFucking hell,â was all you could manage to say after an ordeal like this. Tonight had been his most brutal fuck thus far.
Your body ached everywhere, and you werenât sure your swollen clit would ever forgive you for what youâd brought upon it. You supposed it served you right for trying to make him jealous by flirting with another man. Youâd never stupidly test his limits that way again, that was for sure. You two laid in comfortable silence, riding out the last of your highs.
âCoriolanus,â you called to him softly, your fingers playing with his. âDo you love me?â
Coriolanus tilted his head down to you, his eyes widening at the sudden question. His lips parted to say something, but he quickly bit on his tongue. It was clear that your need for his attention had grown into something more profound, that youâd started to care about him in more than just what he had to offer your body. He turned his gaze up to the roof. âMy position doesnât permit me the time to love,â he answered carefully.
Your hair shuffled against his arm as you sat yourself up to face him. âWhat the hell is that supposed to mean?â
He turned his gaze back onto you, calling your name softly. âI have goals to achieve in this world. It leaves little time for relationships.â
Your eyes held disappointment. âThen whatâs the point of all of this?â
âThe point,â Coriolanus said, taking your hand into his, his thumb rubbing comforting circles across your skin. âIs that we keep each other company, offer a comfort that others couldnât gift us even if they tried. We satisfy each other in ways that only we know how to.â
âSo Iâm just a source of entertainment to you?â You snapped, attempting to pull your hand from his, but his grasp on you tightened.
âAm I anything different to you?â He asked, his tone level, his cool eyes challenging. âDonât mount a high horse, not when you entered this knowing exactly what you were in for. I take care of you and I make you feel goodâthatâs plenty more than you wouldâve gotten back in the district and in any other location in the Capitol, for that matter. Would you rather go back to your district, back to a cold bed and an empty stomach with nobody to rely on? Maybe youâd rather I put you on the market for as some Capitol slut looking for her next sponsor. I can make that happenââ
âNo!â You interrupted, your hard eyes thawing with a look of horror, like youâd recalled all the terrible memories of your life in the district. It was far from pleasant, a past youâd have liked to forget for good. You had nobody, nothing to return to.
As for the Capitol, you knew that there were infinite weirdos and perverts that would marvel at the opportunity to get their hands on a hunger games victor, especially one that had been branded by Coriolanus Snow more than once. You could only imagine what sort of prize that made you, a collectible to be displayed. The thought made your stomach turn.
âI donât want that,â you said, your head lowering in defeat. âI just want you.â
Coriolanusâs eyes raked across your figure, so slumped in submission and hopelessness. He realised then just how much heâd broken you, reshaped you into a lapdog that would only eat directly out of his hand. âGood,â he murmured. âI want you, too. Only you.â His free hand moved to cup your chin, tilting it to face him. âAnd maybe. . . you could teach me how to love.â
Your eyes widened at those words, the hand clasped in his going stiff. He tugged at you, pulling you into him. Your head found its way nuzzled into the crook of his neck, his chin moving to rest atop your head. He continued to play with your fingers, his other arm cushioning your neck and holding you against him. He felt your breathing slow into an easy sleep, your warm breath flushing against his chest. He closed his own eyes, breathing deeply at the sweet scent radiating from your hair. He allowed it to lull him to sleep, mulling over your interaction.
Heâd known the truth for years alreadyâthat his heart bore no capacity for love. It had saddened him, at first, made him feel as though heâd been formed wrong in the womb. His father had loved his mother enough to bring him into this worldâhis cousin, Tigris, had loved him, too, to the point where sheâd have sacrificed everything to ensure that heâd survived the war. Sejanus, too, had loved him like a brother, trusted him with all that he was, and it had ultimately killed him.
All his life, Coriolanus had been cradled with love, but heâd been forever cursed with the inability to return it. It had taken him years to accept it, until one day, everything had clicked into place.
Perhaps he wasnât meant to love, not when the world had become a disastrous mess in need of order, in need of somebody to bring it to that stage. He knew then that he could offer the order that Panem needed. Peace came at the cost of blood, and blood came at the cost of strength. Strength meant that love had no place and no say in the hard decisions to be made, for its love that made you vulnerable, and vulnerability was a weakness. He didnât bear that weakness, and he never would.
As for you? Well, you were somewhat of a complicated matter as of now. When it came down to itâthe decision between you and his destiny, heâd choose destiny without a doubt. But for now, heâd keep you close. Heâd shower you with attention, spoil you with his touch, offer you everything youâve ever wanted in a partner. And once youâve lost all worth to him, heâd discard of you.
Coriolanus knew that his path was one headed straight for the top, to claim the title of president of Panem. All that heâd done to get here, everything that heâd achieved up until now, it was all just the beginning. He was glad nowâthat he could not find it in himself to love anyone. It left him free of any liabilities, gave his enemies not even a fraction of power to hurt him.
For itâs the things we love most that destroy us.
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You MUST know I had to include that iconic line
Anyways, Iâm sincerely sorry that this fic is like 15k words. I always tell myself to keep it simple but Iâve literally got no say over what happens once my fingers start typing away. I hope you all have enjoyed this read. Iâm not TOO sure how I feel about it, but I think Iâve just gotten to the point where Iâve proof-read it so much that I honestly canât stand it anymore.
This is my first every coryo fic and it was incredibly daunting to write, considering that he is such a complex character to portray and because I unintentionally resorted to flowing between his and the readerâs perspective, which I usually hate, but shit happens. Iâve never read the books (I am getting them for my birthday yay) so it was difficult to get inside of his mind given that Iâve never trod there before. In any case, I hope that I did his character justice in this blabbering mess, even if I did add my own sadistic twist lmao.
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