#i feel like his is the most… theres a lot there yknow? like are past events different? (probably)

[waywardsalt]

each of the thieves’ perfect/alternate… third semester realities are so interesting. like… what it suggests about them that that is what they wanted and consider a perfect (or happier) reality. and then the question of how they feel living in that reality after remembering the truth and until they dismantle it. like… half of the cast (makoto, haru, futaba) is living with dead relatives. ryuji is back in the club that he (kinda not really) ruined and was practically ostracized from. ann has her best friend back, both of them completely clean of the trauma inflicted by kamoshida. yusuke- fucking yusuke’s third semester reality is the most fascinating to me- his perfect reality is one where is mother is still dead and he’s still student under a much… generally better version of madarame- holy SHIT theres so much to unpack about yusuke’s reality

[somethingsomethingcomic]

beware my wine rants

[arolesbianism]

Sometimes I just look at Isabeau and just know that if isat came out and I got into it when I was like 16 he would be my favorite character and I would've gone absolutely buck wild over this man and feel like he was laser targeting me. But alas Odile has a grip of steel on me rn due to her virtue of being a middle aged woman

[al-luviec]

I ran out of tag space but oomf had some good notes

smthn easy for today (sorry)

[pumpkinsy0]

genuinely about to crash out cause this guy ive had a situationship with for the past 2 years has not spoken to me in 3 days … anyways hcs of tarry being confused in their relationship before they both acknowledged it? please🥲

anon,,,u gotta stand up,,,for ur own sanity, GET UP OFF THE FLOOR🗣️🗣️🗣️

•id say this is mainly a thing that happened in hs, bc if they did this at their current ages, theyd b so sick of it so fast and just straight up ask

•the problem w the both of em is that they dont say what they feel and thats how they got into the situation that theyre in LMAOOOO

•ANYWHOO, as per usual they always felt like there was SOMETHING there, but there was always something pushing them away, and in this case, it was darry dating cheerleaders, his weird thing w paul, and just where darry study socially in hs honestly

•tim would never ever ever trust a soc, and as much as he trust darry, thats ALWAYS gonna b dampened by the fact that he hangs out w a lot of soc’s, the JOCK kind of soc’s, so theyre like, double worse (in tims eyes and hes not that wrong tbh)

•but looookkk u cant blame darry for EVERYTHING, hs darry is def dealing w internalized homophobia and hes just scared of that commitment w tim

•theres this pattern between em, where they would have literally thee gayest moment ever, but days later tim would spot darry w some cheerleader and then they avoid each other, then miss each other, then “get back together” annnndddd repeat!!!

•and u can BET, that what got under tims skin most was darry w paul, bc it was literally ALL the problems he had w darry rolled into one AND darry being close w paul in tims eyes is basically like saying “even if we were in a relationship, ur not the kind id be with forever”, yknow???

•tim aint no walk in the park either btw, hes a dick and would get other ppl to fill that void darrys leaving, if hes feeling really hurt, get w another guy to rub it in darrys face later on that tim can do what he want and that hes tooottalllyyy not bogged down by darry

•after darry graduated, i think is where they lost contact w each other for a while, outta sight outta mind type deal, if they did see each other and couldnt avoid talking to each other, it was strictly business and they neeevveeerrrr brought it up

•considering he lost 2 of his #gayluvrs after paul went to college and tim shortly stopped rlly going to school and instead focused on his gang, darry was put off of relationships for a while (2 whole years) that shit made him sick to his STOMACH😭😭

[toestalucia]

SHIPPING INFO. answer the following for your muse(s) so people know how shipping works on your blog.

what’s your OTP for your muse(s)?

im easy...........and like too much.......personally ! i prefer akira with the older wizards, ive talked about being in those ship tags ummmm a lot<3 i cant narrow it down further......the twins are an exception but ive been over that in the past. atm i like emu with mafuyu, rui, nene & akito a lot :D theres def more (like honami i think would be cute! and i do like her with tsukasa too, but emu tsukasa besties....), but im like twice her age so i think about that stuff so rarely LOLLLL i thought hard about the rest of my muses but.......?????????? eight/machina....perhaps...........sofia/forte.......yeong/tara......(cagli teehee)

what are you willing to RP when it comes to shipping?

i lov drama. with gran it comes natural cuz welcome to ur 'assuming things w/out asking' and 'thinks way too much into the future where they dont want to settle down' captain. i think akiras the most tender of all of them? and most likely to actually bring up issues? sofia is fun because i think about the event where she Doesnt speak in opposites and micah ends up rly confused........being accepted with her weird speech patterns..... natsume too, either staying at the accepting his weird behavior (jumping, scared expression, running) or having the 'i can see youkai' convo....yknow.....its good...i know tanuma alrdy had a convo like that (UNREAL CONVO i miss it) but yknow. Overall ! anything. mostly. theres some 'ohhh angst' topics im not interested in, so i think most stuff stay on the more lighthearted/loving side tho

how large does the age gap have to be to make it uncomfortable?

feel like a fraud everytime i say that i personally wont write akira with some of the 20yo's cuz im always close to deciding to make akira closer to 30. and then i say i like akira with figaro & oz......the ancient ppl......

are you selective when shipping?

rather than selective i just dont ask ppl........and i have no interest in making relationship calls nor liking them........i want to see where the writing goes first cuz i knoowwww i sometimes say gran would say x but then i write it and y happens yknow LOLLLLLL i'd be open to jumping into stuff on discord or something tho i think ? i think i could jump into romance stuff no problemo then cuz it'd feel slightly separated from here...?! cuz idk but theres something when i open this blog that i......its a very slowburn......if ure willing to spend some months writing so gran can become more accepting of the idea then its go go go. does this make sense. well either way im not sure tbh. grans a bit added difficulty too considering how i deal with their age LOLLL since cygames is pushing 15yo still. which gives me a headache seeing how the summer events etc are explicitly yearly.....i cannot write act3 gran as a teen, not when theres a political engagement with alliah like cmon....i refuse..........but since ure following this blog uve alrdy read this stuff in my rules/about LOL

either way akiras easier with romance. i just dont approach ppl about it. whenever i make that farmsim blog i wanna be more casual with this stuff tbh...T_^ for funsies............write some yearning...

how far do steamy moments have to go before they’re considered NSFW?

not far at all. LMFAOOOOOOOO i use that tag very liberally. its unlikely im writing that stuff anyway....

does one have to ask to ship with you?

:DDDDDDDDDD if i ask u we've probably written for years & years && its starting to reach crush-territory anyway (hello kaitlyn) but man idk what it is....romance is just difficult to write on tomblr rn for me...gran does not make this easier. the issues r endless. can i offer u akira.

how often do you like to ship?

(person whos always in ship tags) (smiley face) (smiley face) (smiley face) can u get into mhyk for akira....or farmsims....................ill ship everything in there.....

are you multiship?

YAAAAAA the idea of having 1 ship on my blog doesnt excite me. even tho i dont write romance atm. LMFAOABKAJD

are you ship obsessed or ship more-or-less?

do u wanna hear about the akifi doujins ive read. or the akifau art where faust puts a flowercrown on akiras head.

what is your favorite ship in your current fandom?

THIS IS HOW DIANTHA/CLARISSE CAN STILL WIN. i am also a sabrina/leona fan. 'did they interact' no but they should. ppl who lost their husband(s). ppl who both should be AT THE CLUB. me/canaria. me/crystal

finally, how does one ship with you?

u like my posts & listen to my ramblings and i twirl my hair and send u more asks and then it just happens. foolproof.

tagged by: @convxction faty my beloved my everything u should do it for ur multi too.... tagging: @shiningstages kait i think u should do this for ur multi and ramble............

[my-castles-crumbling]

hi cas <3

cw/tws for medical stuff, complex family relationships, discussion of death

so, for context, im a regulus black kinnie (itll make sense, give me a sec aha). ive got a difficult relationship with most of my family, but most especially my mother and older sister. my sister is a lot like our family's sirius (except if he still had walburga's narcissism, cruelty and manipulation), and she really doesnt get along with either of our parents. my mother is... a difficult woman, in that she likes to victimise herself in every situation, shes homophobic/transphobic/all the phobics, shes also very narcissistic, and likes to make uncomfortable comments without bothering to be nice about it. all in all, i try not to be around her much. im also supposed to be moving out soon, and planned to minimise contact as much as possible once i do.

to the point: my mother was diagnosed with cancer yesterday. my father (hes kind of a neutral party in the family dynamics, btw) was the one talking to me about it, since she's in hospital at the moment. he said they caught it early enough where a bit of chemo over the next few months should get rid of it and she'll be okay, but 'cancer' is a scary as fuck word. he also then told me that this isnt her first time with it — she had a different type of cancer around 20 years ago.

honestly, i feel like my brain is battling itself about how i should feel. on the one hand, ive been looking forward to not having to be around her now for years, and i hold very little love for her at this point. why should i care? she'll be fine at the end of it anyway. but shes still my mum, yknow? and i feel awful having these thoughts about how badly ive always thought of her and how much ive wanted for so long to get away from her and how it almost feels like this is some sort of sick fucking joke from the universe about how i should be careful what i wish for or something.

this whole situation keeps making me think about regulus in best friends brother(? i think thats the right fic) or p much any modern au where walburga dies so tbh ill probably end up writing a fic about it to cope, but still i just... i guess i needed to tell someone? my father asked me to keep it to myself for now so that it wasnt spread around where we live (its a small area; everyone knows everyone).

and the bit with my sister - as i said, she doesnt get along with our parents. i dont talk to her much anymore either because she seemed to inherit a lot of our mothers worst traits, but im afraid that if we do talk about this then she'll have some awful thing to say about it. she makes some really dark 'jokes' sometimes about suicide and death and such, and im nervous that she'll say something about how she hopes it kills her (again, my sister fucking sick, and has zero empathy), because shes made similar jokes about other stuff in the past. i also dont think she'd understand that im still afraid for our mother even after everything shes done, and i hate the way my sister turns on me and rips the piss out of me when she doesnt like what i do.

it all kind of circles back to how im supposed to feel, i guess. part of me wants to not care and brush it off, whatever, but theres still part of me dying for my mothers love and approval and is terrified of losing her, even with the low possibility.

sorry this got so long, and for how heavy it is. i hope youre doing well cas, and thank you for all you do for us <3

Hi hon!

My god, you ARE a reg kinnie.

Here's the thing- there is not a RIGHT way to feel about those things. You have a complex relationship with your mom, so of course you'll have complex feelings about the situation. You don't need to feel guilty for feeling any certain way, because there's no right or wring way to process this. You're allowed to feel scared and neutral and confused and ambivalent. That's okay!

Your feelings aren't a betrayal to anyone, and you have a right to them. You also have a right to any action you choose to take. Remember to do what feels right for YOU, because YOU are important.

I'm here if you ever need to talk <3

Naming you reg kin anon.

[odysseys-blood]

ive been having fun looking through the cards on the intimacy page and seeing what all i can understand/intepret from them and i just wanna ramble a bit about each so thats going under the cut (currently i have owyn, delos, xiel, mishe and heigl so just them until i get the others. also a little bit spoilery ofc)

no particular order so starting w/ mishe

his has the most obvious pieces i think. cityscape with a clock tower when he was raised in one after being taken in by his grandfather. books on shelves surrounding him because thats how he preferred to live etc etc. i think the stars in the inner circle could represent the sky that he loved to watch at the top of the tower during the evenings dotted with stars with everything still and calm. * i think what im most interested in is the outer ring (w/ the zodiac symbols) bc it looks a little like a magic circle and might be a nod to where he was originally from also hes got a very calm and neutral pose but i dont think theres much to glean from that

even with how much time has passed and heigl knowing his wife is dead and gone it still looks like hes waiting for her. which is funny considering her name which i have been ao sad about for days. If you didnt know, her name was Laica (which im sure is supposed to be said like laika. yknow the dog that was sent to space on a one way trip) and she left one day (on their anniversary no less) and didnt come home. but hes still there and he looks like hes thinking hard, probably about all the time he missed spending with her in favor of work. theres ofc also the gravestones at the bottom and the candles for a vigil. also did a quick look because i noticed the roses in his hand and scattered around the edges, and 3 (in his hand) can mean "i love you" and 8 (around the borders) can be a symbol of appreciation. also the roses in the border look like theyre on textile and from his backstory laica seemed to enjoy sewing and knitting.

ok from here i have a bit less to say/its a lot less concrete continuing:

owyn's looks the most peaceful to me tbh. out of all of the ones ive seen hes the only one thats smiling and seemingly content. what i will point out though are two things: one being the eagle, which im wondering is just a bird he might know or if its the one that was the messenger between helsinf and whoever it was that was warning him about people pursuing beastmen like owyn, and the other being the flowers in the border. unlike with heigl's theyre kind og hidden behind the border designs which feels to me like it represents his past with experimentation (and from what i can tell it was probably experiments eith the vialis curse). i wonder if he still thinks about it at all

i think the first thing i noticed is just how. empty delos' feels. like its still just as elaborate as the others so i dont mean that it LOOKS empty..but it FEELS like it is. despite how confidently he appears for the most part in the actual story here it looks like hes trying to hide. he doesn't want to be seen and i think its a mix of not wanting to take on his father's duty as the zarketh yet (mix of not feeling worthy of the role as well as feeling that if he takes it then its the same as writing off his father as dead which u see in the current event) plus feeling shame for not being the protector he swore he would be even if nothing that happened to his family is his fault. because at the end of the day he was supposed to be there for them no ifs ands or buts. and while the ocean is an important part of zarcove and a symbol of it i think you could also take it for the feeling of him drowning in his own insecurities and grief and lonliness

i forgot who i saw point it out or if it was on here or twit ill look late but i really didnt notice at first that he isnt smiling. i guess bc it looks so close to his actual sprite and he has a small smile there but it rly is a blink-and-you-miss-it detail i like. honestly to me his feels a bit empty like delos' just instead that "emptiness" is filled w/ a pretty background that screams opulence but like. it means little to him because thats just what he was expected to inherit. honestly while it has a church look to it (which i wouldnt understand much rn how that would fit in anyways i havent unlocked his last room) it does also remind me of a bird cage a little and i wonder if the floating pages have anything to do with all of the books and general entertainment he just couldn't have while growing up

[finn-shitposts]

Pls share the exo fic

IVE BEEN ENABLED!!!!!

SO its my most read fic of all time with over 300 visits, cos i was keeping up with it as it was being released back in the day!! (in the midst of the Tempo comeback and all :') ah nostalgia)

At this point ive read it over 10 times to completion, but ive had to put a note to self in my bookmarks to leave it alone for a bit so i dont get sick of it xD ive also tried to force all of my kpop friends irl to read, it but theyre all very ace and a good 40-50% of the fic is R rated lol - and its hard to skip those scenes cos they also contain plot half the time yknow

Its very sweet and plotty, mostly about Chanyeol (our main character) finding his self worth again after moping forever about his asshole ex, by dating his neighbours (Xiuchen who are already together)! It has some rly fun character introspection, flipping of traditional secondary gender roles, some cheesy stuff like chanyeol being a firefighter, xiu an ice sculptor and chen an electrical engineer! Overall its just AAA a very comfortable fic of finding love and healing and its one of those rare fics that feels very true to real life. Like the way people interact/member dynamics, the flaws and virtues they have, the everyday occurences that come up and how they react to those things - a lot of fics will breeze past that and i adore how this fic makes the everyday mundanity scenes feel special <333 and ESPECIALLY how those things are incorporated into the omegaverse worldbuilding, so it feels natural? So many fics just go yeah theres this whole other secondary gender thing, yeah people have wholeass heat/rut cycles and pheromones and shit but then do NOTHING interesting with it like dude the implications of a world like that are insane!!! The weird rituals and gender roles/expectations that would come from that!!! How the entire social buildup a world like that would change!! AnywY thats not specifically what this fic is About, but it addresses those things as a constant throughline in the bg of the fic, so i never find my immersion being broken :]

(also unrelated but kris is the bad guy ex in this which ,, this was pre the prison sentence, author had a premonition lmao.)

Ok no more rambling from me or ill start retelling the whole plot, but if you read it i hope you enjoy!!!!

[zooterscooters-ocs]

theres actually another little guy i’m always itching to talk about so.

ohhh Evening Galilei… named that because i went “hey this would be funny as fuck” 3 years ago and never changed it. born to be bitter, mean, and used, turned out to be someone i could maybe rely on to get me some milk from the store. on a good day.

i almost feel like i had to reclaim every part of him from what he once was i’m ngl.. he was always the guy who was “just like me fr” even when he was getting left high and dry in the middle of nowhere. i mean. just like me for REAL but. yknow.

calling back to that post i made about lilith, he was the oc i was comfortable putting all my bad traits into, making him an absolute miserable person, much like i felt i was. he was self centred, stuck up, selfish, rude, lowkey gross. but beneath that was just a damaged man in need of a redemption arc, which he was so close to having, but it turned out to be total bs. he was insecure, somehow managing to blame himself for the fact he was manipulated into faking his death and leaving the only place he knew, travelling into the unknown, only to be left with fuck all and a crippling addiction to the homemade alcohol he was taught how to make. but it just felt so real. until it wasn’t. SAD. he died out there alone.

a lot of his actions and feelings during his old story and life was just me hitting him with the projection beam throughout some of the most difficult years of my life to date. i mean. like. his “lover” was kinda based of the guy i then thought was the love of my life. like ooookay. 2021 was a time for sure. don’t look at me i had issues. anyways. it’s in the past now and im with someone so much better than him i never give it a second thought. ♥️

since i fell out of contact with guy previous and started my own stuff, i’ve been piecing together a better story for him. it’s far more thought out and more true to how i originally wanted him, and suits his backstory and home life far better. i literally had to go like “right there’s no way he’d do all this with a loving family like that. he can be a little rat because he’s got things going on, but he’s not an absolute douche canoe.”

he still has his issues, and i still heavily project onto him to this day, but as i’ve grown and got healthier, got in a better place in my life, i find that he, along with lilith, have also found better stories and outcomes, and have more to them than “god i feel BAD i need to torture my homunculi NOW !!!” which i do appreciate, both from a story teller perspective, and as a guy looking back on his past to see his growth

anyways expect more eve stuff soon i fucking hate this guy KILLS HIM

[steel--fairy]

ship meme things!! sorry if its potato quality, i did the memes on my phone then had to send them thru discord to get them on my tablet to draw the pics lol

random notes under the cut:

per the scale world models (the closest we get to canon heights for these two), steven is something like 5'10 and wallace is 6'0 but i refuse to acknowledge steven could ever be tall. man radiates short king energy. wallace gives model vibes, so he gets to be extra tall

because of their height difference and difference in body types they can't share clothing but they do share a lot of jewelry.

wallace likes to use very classic pet names, yknow darling, sweetheart, my love, etc

steven had a crush first (yearsss of pining) but wallace was the one to act on the feelings

theyre in the middle for bug because theres no option for "pet the bug because thats armaldo and he lives there too"

neither can drive or have ever taken any lessons. all flying or teleporting by pokemon. or just walking lol

stevens cooking is edible. thats the best you can say. wallace is actually a great cook however.

occasionally holding hands is the most pda they do. steven dislikes pda. wallace doesnt mind it necessarily, but also likes keeping his private life private so he doesn't mind not doing pda.

wallace has had a number of relationships before steven while wallace is stevens first

steven, stemming from years of pining, is more likely to get jealous but doesn't dwell on it for long. wallace meanwhile knows steven doesnt like flirting and attention so theres little jealousy on his side.

atlantios is my hc last name for wallace : ) i thought there would be enough room to write it out legibly orz

they met (for more than one conversation) at 18/19 and 21/22 when steven went to challenge the sootopolis gym. wallace had just taken over by the time steven got there.

they are both prep-nerds i dont make the rules (wallace more prep, steven more nerd)

idk if the "updog" one is who asks or who falls for it, but steven would fall for it lmao

wallace initiated the relationship but steven zoomed through basically every other first

wallace is more talkative on average, but stevens more likely to talk nonstop for three hours so it sort of averages out. quantity vs quality

neither are really drinkers. wallace because of some things in his past, while steven just doesnt like it

neither are really frivolous but stevens definition of "not a lot of money" is veeeery different from wallaces lol

[ankhisms]

Forgot that i even signed up to do a box office shift for the current show at the theater which i now have a very sour relationship with which ill ramble a bit about under the cut but basically something just came up with my mom where i wont be able to make it to do the box office and i had been dreading it so im just like (completely monotone voice and deadpan expression) oh how terrible. Its so horrible that i cant go do free work for this organization that hates me. So sad. Anyway

Didnt want to really dwell on it when it happened so i didnt post about it but like two weeks ago i did a favor for my martial arts classmate who is a jewlrey artist and sells her work at the local farmers market, she had surgery and needed to rest so i took over her farmers market booth that saturday and the guy next to me was someone i knew- the father of the person from that theater id say i have the most positive relationship with and their parents do a lot of work with the theater and are nice and have never been weird to me so it was nice to have someone i knew in the booth right next to me. Anyway since theyre very involved in that theater they know the more higher ups in that theater board etc etc and anyway the like current owner of the theater came by his booth AND one of the people involved in the performance i did last october too (WHICH I STILL HAVE NEVER BEEN PAID FOR WHEN THEY SAID MULTIPLE TIMES THAT THEY WOULD PAY ALL THREE OF US ACTORS)- i could maybe see the owner not knowing me since ive never been in a show hes directed (although i have auditioned for his shows) but the other lady ABSOLUTELY knows me and would have recognized me. Anyway i wanted to be friendly and at least say hi to them even if talking is hard i wanted to be nice yknow but they just. POINTEDLY ignored me. And i dont think this is me being paranoid or missing a social cue/misreading a situation before. Ive been ignored and isolated plenty of times in my life. They were talking to this guy 3 feet from me and refusing to look at me and then making a point to walk in the opposite direction so they didnt have to walk past me. And honestly at the time i felt like this burning feeling of anger and confusion and hurt where its like i literally have no fucking idea why this group of people have decided that they dislike me and that they dislike me enough to not give me ANY roles in any show i audition for and to only ever ask me to do unpaid shit for them (when they KNOW i live farther away than anyone else) and theres just a whole laundry list of how ive gone out of my way to do everything i can to be helpful and kind and to like be a good part of what i hoped was a cool theater community but in the end i just get exploited, lied to, and then treated like i fucking killed someone. I literally have zero clue what i could have done beyond just generally having visible traits of not being ~normal~ enough for them. It just is frustrating especially when this group is always talking about being progressive and inclusive and shit but i know damn well they treated a disabled actor know who uses a cane like shit and wouldnt cast them bc of that.

Anyway tldr i think im done with that theater. Ive had enough and their whole "theme" this season is "the american dream" and i just am like. Actually fuck that fuck the american dream and fuck the united states i dont want to do theater with neoliberal bootlickers anyway

[samthecookielord]

SAM OC BLIND DATE TOURNEY ROUND 1 PART 1 RESULTS

In case any of you are new here, I announce who lost instead of who won to maintain anonymity of those still competing!

This time around I'll be including little descriptions about each loser (inspired by @/pastel-player)! Feel free to ask further questions if any of them pique your interest :3 I'd be happy to talk about em!

Match 1 and 2...

Carimus and Margaret lost!

Damn you guys took out the whole family in round 1 lol (maggie was also a round 1 loser in the previous tourney)

Carimus: West of Loathing protagonist, part of the "2 bards 1 evil wizard" timeline. He's an edgy snake oiler with a rocky past who firmly believed that nothing in this world could love him (and then something in this world loved him).

Margaret: Shadows over Loathing protagonist, part of the of the "2 bards 1 evil wizard" timeline. She's a cheese wizard, one of two twin daughters of Carimus, and doomed to be evil from the start because she was my shadow taint run lol!! She eventually morphs into the evil monster girlboss Margaret but cooler (or MBC for short).

Match 3 and 4...

Beddin Spectre and Loony lost!

Beddin Spectre: I DONT THINK IVE POSTED HER BEFORE. She's a Shadows over Loathing protagonist, and a milk mage (like cheese wizard but a little to the left). She inspects every bed she can find, even ones she shouldn't be able to reach normally. How does she do it I have no clue honestly she's just built different

Loony: The main protagonist of Pocket Clockwork and an AU version of Moony. She's a lot more quiet and timid than her original counterpart. Loony lives in a small town named Minut Town, going by a nice perfect little schedule every day. Until, yknow, plot happens and such.

Match 5 and 6...

Halo and Romy lost!

Halo: I Was A Teenage Exocolonist AU version of Halkinna. His full name is Halokinesis! Instead of telling you about Halo I'm here to say IWATEX IS A COOL GAME YOU SHOULD CHECK IT OUT ON STEAM!!!!! THERE'S TIME TRAVEL. THERE'S SPACE. THERE'S PRETTY PEOPLE TO DATE AND/OR BE COOL BESTIES WITH. THERES REALLY GOOD ART. THERES CARDS (AND THE OPTION TO TURN OFF CARDS) ok thats all

Romy: Shadows over Loathing character. This particular version of him is a split off fragment of Hellstrom's soul. He didn't inherent many of Hellstrom's memories... Just capitalism. Yeah

Match 7 and 8...

Alegreya and Winterr lost!

Alegreya: West of Loathing protagonist, part of the "2 bards 1 evil wizard" timeline. She's a beanslinger who got stuck in a cave for 33 years then got saved by her brother Rufus. Yay!

Winterr: Soul reaper, originating from my thsc askblog. Most of the time, he's calm and collected. She's just a silly little guy your honour

Anyways I hope you guys enjoyed massacring my entire loathing oc population sgddsvgdsdhrdhfdfhhfs it was so funny to watch

[maskspurpose]

the revstar fandom asked: in the new event we saw firsthand how wataru still hasn’t dealt with all his emotions concerning the war, that he still is quite upset about it and has mixed feelings about eichi then. But we know wataru also Loves eichi, very much so, otherwise he wouldn’t be in fine most likely wouldn’t still be an idol yadda yadda. so, i ask… what do you think this means for wataei? that wataru is still having troubles figuring out his emotions towards eichi, although he clearly values him and wants to be with him. do you think he’s telling himself he loves eichi unconditionally to avoid dealing with his past emotions, even though there may be some grain of truth in that?

i'm waiting until the event is fully translated to like actually settle on my opinion on this bc theres a lot of nuance imo? i dont think hes lying to himself (or others) about how much he loves eichi-- his feelings about EICHI are actually some of the few times he allows himself to like... express the fact that he's felt negative emotions before (ep:link has a few good examples of this-- he talks about it with hokuto and later with eichi on the rooftop, he used to not be too sure about him but grew to love and admire him over the year together) and i think it's in part because there's this like... really solid base of to some extent uncertainty but also of knowing what it feels like to be... opponents in some way that he was able to build up the love he now feels? idk i like the idea that his decision to remain an idol alongside eichi was like... complicated for him and involved a lot of thinking and agonizing about it because it goes against his normal "patterns" where instead of facing any negative emotions that may occur he just... leaves. he tries to do it to the theater club in transparency and masks, he left the eccentrics after the war, but even after the disaster that was the rooftop proposal he stayed with eichi, yknow? 

there's always an aspect of avoidance to how wataru acts and i wouldn't characterize wataei as like an ideal relationship. they're both BARELY 19 at the end of the event story and both deeply struggle with communicating because of their past which is an important thing to consider so i think interpreting stuff differently is also fine fdsjksakdh. i think a lot of wataru's actions in the past can be seen as him like... trying to overpower his past negative memories with good ones (altered being a huge one, i think diner live also counts) and i think seeing that as him like trying to Not Deal With any negative feelings he might have is. valid. 

i think emotions are always complicated, especially love and i think figuring out what love means you and for your relationship is. a normal and ongoing part of a relationship that never really stops. i think a lot of what happens in the event story is like... BECAUSE tori and wataru love eichi they want... to push him (and fine) into a direction that is different, kinder. i need to reread the sanctuary epilogue i think. wah. 

another thing is that like i think it's not just watarus feelings about eichi but his feelings about The Student Council which like YES eichi is the face of but other people like keito and tsumugi were also instrumental during the war. wataru has a good relationship with nagisa these days, his relationship with keito is.... Something for sure and the fact that him and tsumugi are really awkward around each other the like two times theyve talked ever is also really good. idk what i'm trying to get at with this just... i think the fact that tori doesnt specifically ask wataru about eichi but rather the student council (as an institution) is another thing-- it might not JUST be about eichi, it could be about other people and what the student council in general represents to wataru. 

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[thehandwixard]

FUCK I FORGOT ABOUT THIS ok so let me catch yall up:

finished traverse town, got through wonderland, beat cerberus, at the start of deep jungle. we caught up? also my bestie has started streaming the game so im getting double exposure

gameplay thoughts right now: path of the mystic is actually pretty fun if youre doing anything that isnt aerial combos, which is most combos if anything flying is involved but thats ok. ripple wave is very rewarding to land and clears out a lot of goons around you. of course, choosing path of the mystic limits the amount of cool, actiony abilities i have, and this early on in the game you cant equip all the abilities you want for your combos, but it like. works. sora's bread and butter combo is rewarding to pull off, though its difficult to avoid getting hit out of it. i wish it was a little easier to stack finishers, but thats not really a thing.

its very difficult to manage items, though, for me at least. you have a lot of control over donald and goofy's ai in kh1, but that still doesnt mean you control their actions, so you have to be careful about the items you give them. sora donald and goofy are all also just kind of weak and inflexible at this point in the game, and theres not a quick way to get a lot of items. that said, i dont think thats BAD for this early in the game, just can make things tedious.

anyways to get into story stuff: a lot has happened in a short amount of time, and not a lot has happened in a long amount of time. wonderland is just kind of for getting your bearings, and the grinding pads it out, but it sticks out to me just how dire the cheshire cat is allowed to be. he and alice are by far the shining stars of the world, and for alice thats mostly because she's really the first.. like. princess sora is tasked with rescuing, and he is made unable to. wonderland also has our first segment of "donald and goofy dont believe theyre allowed to meddle in world affairs, but sora sees someone needs help so he does so anyways" which is fun. idk HOW recurring that is, but i think its important. esp with the like... nuance that at least donald and goofy are upset that they feel like they cant help. like they want to.

as he should, the cheshire cat comes off as a force that knows far more than anyone else can comprehend, and is easily the most lively and real character in the world. my friend singled out "if you want to find the shadows, try turning on the light" as a parallel to dive to the heart's "the brighter your light, the darker the shadow" yknow. common wordplay and shit but its still interesting. hes also the one who teaches you blizzard magic.

not much to say about olympus coliseum really? phil is ok. teaches you thunder. the hades bits ARE very funny in a specific sort of way, much has been said in the past about his VA kind of phoning it in, and that combined with the... strong Attempt. at animating him makes the whole thing really uncanny. however the part before you leave the world and have the option to talk to cloud is realllly digging at me in a good way.

i really don't know much about cloud except some like... slightly advanced basics such as his backstory, general shit hes doing, and like.his mental state at most times, which gives him and sora a really interesting instant connection

sora speaks with a genuine gravity to cloud, and it really comes across like he went out of his way to go back and talk to him, to ask if he was ok. we know that cloud is searching for sephiroth, which makes him indirectly implying sephiroth is his light... Loaded

hes really cute in this game. uhh sora's meeting with cloud also is a major part of my hashtag truth that sora kind of figured out he was into guys through the journey and meeting all sorts of cool and hot dudes and in general making connections with queer people. learning whats out there.

deep jungle is The Real Shit though.

in many ways its where the main emotional plot picks back up again and some additional threads are pulled on. sora is in a place reminiscent of his home, one that donald didnt want to go to and called 'backwater' and he crashed them onto it looking for riku and kairi. its high tier donald jackass moments to the point where when sora was explaining to tarzan hey im trying to find my friends goofy and donald, he corrects himself, and goes back to kairi and riku. and thats not a dick move from him, cause donald is being an asshole! and also now sora is hallucinating kairi without a good prompt (imagining kairi waking him up in the place of yuffie) so hes doing normal.

sora's a normal boy with many outlets to express his emotions

[orpheusofthestars]

this is just something ive been thinking about for the past while but... something ive noticed is that, while ive been a lot less depressed and have been able to maintain interest in things again, a lot of my interests lately are the same things i liked in middle school (which was, basically, right before the depression got Bad)

i dont really have anything to elaborate about this but i feel like theres probably things to be said about it