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vigilskeep · 2 years ago

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i like fade dreams to have a twinge of horror—it’s a dreamlike, subconscious version of what a demon drawn to the worst parts of you thinks you want—and what i think would be insane is if tristan’s fade dream was that he and fergus had entirely switched places, making him the elder brother, the heir, the non-mage, oriana’s husband, and oren’s father. for best results bryce should also be king so in a weird way he’s stealing alistair’s place as well and so it’s a real mirror image of alistair seeing himself have a normal family

#i love. writing characters who are fundamentally envious #like catnip to me.#i think it would activate his least favourite parts of himself in a way that pleases me #tristan cousland #hitting post on this and going 2 sleep

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yangjeongin · 2 years ago

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HYUNJIN x ESQUIRE KOREA

#stray kids #createskz #bystay #staysource #dancerachasource #hwang hyunjin #hyunjin #*mary #*edit #only reason i edited these was 1. i saw carlys text post. 2. i spent 5 hours helping my niece do her homework #and i needed to do something that required less than 2 braincells before going to sleep.#my one and only chill activity of my only free day in the week :) live love laugh or whatever i guess. gnight #*hits #*hyunjin #*mary:hyunjin

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chososcamgirl · 2 months ago

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i miss the month and a half that i was unemployed last year. that was when sjap was at its peak too. i think unemployment is the way to go.

#just kidding i love my current job its so fun #speaking of it i fell down in the back room on wednesday and i have a big ass bruise on my arm now.#laughed the pain off….#anyways working on valentines day #opening with my hot co worker😛😛😛😛#who has a gf😞😞😞😞#im kidding guys hes like 5 years older than me if anything he sees me as a little sister #my spam account is sick of me talking abt him #uhhhhh anyways i need to stop letting fear control me bc it gets so bad sometimes like my anxiety gets so high when i have to so stuff out #of my comfort zone. i was doing pretty good post move because i had the ‘nobody knows me who gaf’ mentality but i feel like its coming back #idk idk idk #im not gonna think about it too much #i start uni in 2 weeks im excited #i need to do my photo id somebody remijd me to do that tmr #i need to do a lot of things #did yall see that meteor hitting earth in 2032 that is so crazy #suuuchhh little time to do sooo much #ok enough im spiralling going to sleep love u all

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cauldron-burn-and-fire-bubble · 4 months ago

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nothing but sleep.

#been a WHILE since i did any traditional certainly since a full piece like this and of course i dont like the photos but WHATEVER #this line hits hard for me. not gonna get into it rn but it's the same vibe as miles to go before i sleep from robert frost #alan wake #alan wake 2 #art #colored pencil #edit a few hours later: banged this out in 1 session and immediately took photos to post and i really dont like how it's looking now #but i dont feel like deleting the post so let this just be a reminder to myself to Let That Shit Rest. like a steak.

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deoidesign · 11 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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kittycatred · 24 days ago

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i have accidentally nearly pulled an all nighter with these blogs....its a few mins away from 6am help /silly

but uhhh quick mini updates if you want more blog content aside from here !!! cause ive been doing alot of red blog avm stuff lately

on my main @solariex ive been doing a bit of being a "red replacement" since reds asleep, everything is under the tag #sols red replacement arc its rlly funny & also thank you avtumblr blogs for dealing with my nonsense in those asks i hope theyre not TRULY annoying !! /silly (its still ongoing but still !!)

if you like this blog and you like to regularly attend yappathons, @redblogavm is your wish granted !! ill post alot of rambles of how i write red, azul/ghostie, the arcs, scrapped ideas, ect ect ect !!! this is mostly for me because i think abt this blog alot but hopefully some of you enjoy it as well !!!!

@rubenpig is rubens blog ran by me as well !! if you loved the ruben takeover, you get it 24/7 there !!! i plan to use it in story stuff too if needed but itll mostly be a silly thing in comparison to here !! & bread and ruben jr can be seen more often on there most likely !!

not red blog related but shameless self promo, if you like this blog you might also like our new other blog @influcorp !! it is NOT a roleplay blog as how this one is, its more of an au askblog (of green having an influencer arc during ava s3), HOWEVER !!! roleplay and askblogs and anon blogs can interact !!! asks as far as giving stuff and all just work a little different there but we made a post abt that so !! :3c

ACTUAL RED BLOG RELATED: hence the accidental allnighter, i posted alot of cool stuff !!! theres azul lore, sleeping red from the outside word, and more of reds nightmare !!! woo story progression !!!

also, (yes im self promoing this it took too long to make), THIS post as apart of azuls lore, oooooh what if there was a secret message ??? im sure the gifs and tags dont mean anything at all !! amiright ?? that would be crazyyy guyss :3c

OKAY THATS ALL !!! ENJOY THE NEW FOOD !! THE CONTENT !!! WAHOO !!

#i say all nighter but after i hit that big ol post now button #i am gonna make pizza rolls and go RIIIGHT TO BED !!#i am so tired but the audhd said silly posts !! so then i made silly posts at 1am !! then i blink and its 5:54am what the heck #anyways yeah enjoy all the contenttt woooo i would say id sleep in but i havbe to get up in like 2-3 hours to take my brother to school #but anyways GOODNIGHT CHAT o/ have a good whatever timezone your in !!#[ ooc ]

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fantomette22 · 5 months ago

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ARCANE TONIGHT!!!

Need to wait 10hours… trying not to get to much spoils…

Apparently it’s quite insane. Can’t wait

#arcane season 2 #arcane #watch me rb this in 10h and loosing my shit #we wait 3 YEARS #post depression arcane is gonna hit hard. i don’t sleep well this past days how i am going to sleep?!

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medusa-was-innocent · 7 months ago

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Wow this sucks

#I’m literally gonna cry wtf #I’ve been trying to get back into writing so I was going through some old journals and reading the poems I wrote back in 2015 #and I left my favorite pages sitting on top of my notebook on my bed and my family’s dog came in while I wasn’t looking and destroyed it all #like they’re completely gone #some of the few pieces of writing from my teenage years that I’m actually proud of and wanted to revisit and it’s completely destroyed #I’ve found 2 scraps and they’ve got about 4 words in total #this was multiple pages full of writing #this is so discouraging I don’t even want to write anything now #like I started taking an online poetry workshop last week trying to push myself out of my comfort zone and maybe possibly move in the #direction of trying to get some of my poems put out there #and I’ve been in a huge writing slump for the last like year #and I was hoping this might get me out of it but now I don’t have any motivation to do it #I just wanna cry #I can’t go back to being a teenager again I can’t rewrite the way I felt back then #and now it’s really gone forever #I’m so sick and im working 3 jobs and I just want to be creative again but I’m tired #and I’m about to get hit by this giant hurricane #I’m really overwhelmed I think this was just the straw that broke the camels back #brb gonna go cry myself to sleep over lost poetry #sorry this is me venting feel free to ignore this #vent post #will probably delete after I’ve gotten more than 5 hours of uninterrupted sleep

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yukinyaminyato · 4 months ago

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god i finally got to watch arcane s2 ep7 and i was crying literally the whole time..... not even kidding or exaggerating. i love jinx (powder) and ekko so so so much i love timebomb and while i do also love traumatized characters, giving them a chance to be happy just makes my heart ache aaaaaa 😭😭 crying screaming throwing up etc etc.

i just wanna yap abt arcane (ok more like abt jinx and things related to her tbh) to someone but i have only one friend who has watched the series (and tbh she was the one who dragged me into it without even trying) so. Yeah. 😔 And it's not like i could even put my thoughts into words bc there's too many of them. hhhhhh im unwell. Help.

#yes i know i still have 2 eps left. and yes i know i will cry even more 🥰🥰🥰 but for some reason this ep hit me rlly harddd #the love in ekko's eyes when looking at powder ARE YOU KIDDING ME ????? the boy's so soft #they deserve the world.#(oh and i guess jayce was in the episode too. literally couldn't care less tho.)#Im Going Insane im feeling too many things at once. vibrating from emotions.#mby ill go read a happy timebomb fic and then try to sleep. Yeah? yeah. Bye.#my posts #arcane

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sonknuxadow · 1 year ago

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did you guys know that Lovely Gate 3 ...For Egg Quarters

#listening to my sonic music playlist now #ohhfuck yes back 2 back came on right after i hit the post button. sonic rush soundtrack is so good #i was about to turn the music off and go to sleep but the werehog battle theme just came on .#and naturally i have to listen to that one all the way through

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thatone-churro · 9 months ago

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not to be emo on main but i miss when my birthday meant something to me :/

#and holidays & events in general :/#idk when it started but i just. stopped seeing them as special days or whatever they’re just another day on the calendar #now i may not know when but i think i know why: depression 🥴#but still i miss like. not being able to sleep the entire WEEK leading up to my birthday #but in recent years it’s just been me waking up. going ‘oh okay’. wishing a happy birthday to 2 of my best friends w/ the same birthday #and then i go about my normal shut-in routine. it’s just. augh.#it’s not like i’d rather go out and have a big thing because no i enjoy my introvertedness #and i like having an excuse to spend a day that way but. it just makes me sad to see how it just doesn’t affect me anymore :/#this ain’t even about milestone birthdays i haven’t even hit the last one yet i’ve been like this since i was like 15 😭#grace being stupid #text post #personal

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lairn · 10 months ago

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I haven’t had therapy in about 6 weeks because of fieldwork. I have an appointment next week and am kinda looking forward to openly crying over my pet and school-related stress.

#I had to give my rabbit a shot today but the tech taught me wrong and penicillin was spilling everywhere and I had to try 3 times and then #just drove all the way back to the vet where they tried to charge me #but my tearful strained voice explaining the situation hit the mercy button in their hearts #and they showed me what the tech didn’t and gave her the shot for free #only 12 more shots to go haha ha hah aha ha ha hahaha #I’m normal it’s fine one day off because fieldwork went through Saturday and then back at it #not sleeping enough!! very tired!! my poor beast has made 3 vet trips in 2 weeks including the overnight stay #aaaahahahaaa #I need to sleep later than 5 (with drunk screams starting at 4) tonight please please #I should just delete this but I don’t feel purged gonna post and then delete if I regret

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polarisbibliotheque · 2 years ago

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Nemesis writing session update :)

Oh yes!! Finally!! A decent writing session tonight!!

It's 5 a.m, I don't even think it's considered night anymore

But I wanted to ask you guys something: Chapter 6 on Nemesis, reader is meeting Dante and heading to their first job together! It has around 2.9k words and it has a nice chapter ending line so...

I'm thinking I'm going to make this chapter a little shorter so Chapter 7, with the hunt alongside Dante per se, can be a little longer and not so rushed story-wise!

What do you guys think? Would you be fine with a shorter chapter after all this time...? "^^

Also, I've been using this video to write and it might be good for relaxing, focusing, working, studying or just sleeping ^^

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now I'm gonna have some shame and go to sleep :')

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copia · 1 year ago

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what is it about 2:51 of atlantic that makes me feel like i'm drowning with him... it's causing me physical fear and i didn't know music alone could do that

#sleep token #sorry no i'm not going to sleep #i knew 2 new songs in one evening was going to be too much yet here i am getting lost in them both #i don't feel like i can talk about atlantic honestly i just have to experience it #wait wheres that post i saw the other day ... 'what an album' 'it's the first track' or smth #jshdbckjdhbs i get it now #what an album!!!#what a band ohhhh my god #eyes like frozen planets just orbiting the vacuum i am #..........cant handle this #still going to rewind tho #from the top please vessel #hit me with that one again cheers

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zaddyazula · 11 months ago

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all i ate yesterday was a cup of spicy ramen and a packet of white digestives so i gobbler my brother’s cold curry that he didn’t eat i would do it again very tasty

#it is 2:50am 😇#also when this is posted it will probably be after i go to sleep because i seem to have hit the post limit again #zad talks

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thethingything · 1 year ago

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okay yeah sure, 7 hours of sleep at the wrong time. for fuck's sake

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #guess who feels just as shit as he said he would if this happened #imagine if you will the experience of falling asleep at 4pm and waking up at 11pm #when you wanted to go to bed at midnight because you know if you don't sleep between midnight and 8am #you'll feel like you just didn't sleep at all #and now it's gonna be a nightmare to actually get any sleep between those times #because almost every time you've tried for the last 2 weeks you've been woken up way earlier than you wanted by people being loud #and you've hit a point where everything revolves around you trying to sleep at the right time but you can't fucking do that #and every time you sort of get back on track something else fucks it up for you

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