#I should just delete this but I don’t feel purged gonna post and then delete if I regret

[lairn]

I haven’t had therapy in about 6 weeks because of fieldwork. I have an appointment next week and am kinda looking forward to openly crying over my pet and school-related stress.

[awolfnamedluna]

Oh yeah I was gonna send you a song. Here ya go. Not a rickroll, I promise

Alpha. the feel is very much Alpha. also the lyrics too. THIS IS A GREAT SONG AND ITS GOING ON HER PLAYLIST

Also Ash. It has their vibes.

the guy singing also kind of sounds like how Cameron would to me

EVERYTHING UNDER THE CUT BECAUSE THIS RIDICULOUSLY LONG

The first verse has much of the feel of Evelyn: "Shadows fall over my heart, I black out the moon, I wait for you to come around, You got me dancing in the dark (dancing in the dark) I've closed my eyes, But I won't sleep tonight"

"Baby, you should come with me, I'll take you to the dark side, Me and you, you and me, Do bad things in the night time, Baby, you should come with me, And we can kill the lights, Hit the lights, let it blackout, blackout, Hit the lights, let it blackout, blackout (woo!)"

You should read what the arsots says about his lyrics! it fits very well with Alpha

it also fits with Maxena, Ash, Maxilla and Emily

it shows how much they have been through and how they have survived specifically: "Black bird, black moon, black sky, black light. Black, everything black. Black heart, black keys, black diamonds. Blackout, black, everything black. Black, everything, everything. All black, everything, everything. All black, everything, everything. All black, everything, everything black"

Frostbite (Star Wars)

that also fits with Frostbite not because she is partially a grey jedi, because she has seen her friends die in the purge. She had to leave her friends behind like Rex and Wolffe. She was never able to find Wolffe after him and the other tried to kill her. She was severely hurt emotionally since she lost her adoptive father, Plo Koon, in the purge. She also lost alot of her friends (clones) and had to flee to safety.

It hurt her to leave Rex like that but she had to.

Ash (Terminator)

Her having no choice but to leave her home at 17 and try to survive on her own. She had to leave because of her mother who turned into a severe drug addict, what didn't help was that she snuck out frequently to stay with friends to be able to have a somewhat normal life. She would be gone for days on end and everytime she returned her mother would beat her. Her father did too but realized soon that it is useless and let Dariya be. Oh his beloved Dariya, he loved her so much. It was hard for him to tell her to leave. It was a hard choice but a good one. Ash doesn't know what happened to her parents after she left. (rumor has it both of them died. others say that only her mother died due to overdosing. but those are just rumors.... 😏😏) She loved her father greatly, he tought her how to use various guns for self defence.

She adored her father, she always listened to whatever he talked about whenever he came home from being in duty in the Russian military. She also helped him with his alcohol consumption since she didn't want him to end up like her mother. She got him a week sober before she had to leave.

He brought Jackson back home one day efter he came back. He found the poor thing abandoned in some ruins. He wasn't a fit for a military dog so her father volunteered to take him home. Jackson can and will protect Ash when time comes.

Maxena (Witcher)

All she knows is that she was adopted by a cult of witches and that she was an orphan. They tought her magic and how to survive, but ultimately she is the sole survivor of the massacre. She is still being hunted and has a territory where she lives in that is supposedly: "The Black Wolf's territory"

She got the nickname: 'little black pup' from one of her mother figures in the cult and funny enough can turn into a black dire wolf. She also got that nickname from her golden eyes and jet black hair.

One of the teachings in the cult is to 'never look a Witcher in the eye' and another to 'never trust a Witcher' because 'they will put you in a trance if you look into their eyes and use you as they please' and 'they betray anyone who is foolish enough to trust them'

I just realized one of the lyrics is "Black bird" and she has a black hawk named Axel who patrols her territory to make sure it is safe to gather food and materials. He also will warn her if anyone is in their territory.

Maxena trusts nothing and no-one. She is still being hunted. Especially as 'The Black Wolf' which eventually leads to Geralt entering her territory and well that's a story for another time.

Maxilla (BOCW)

She has been in the Spetznaz and in the Russian Military for many years and knows what it can do to you. She has lost lots friends from years of serving.

Perseus eventually recruited her and her best friend Viktor into his Perseus ring. She also knows about his daughter, Valencia, who has disappeared, she along with a squad went to look for her. But as the rest these they came up empty handed.

Then Arash betrayed her due to 'Perseus thinking too highly of her' (bro who wouldn't she is a seasoned Spetznaz and Military soldier)

She was betrayed by Adler at Solovetsky too. She will forever be grateful for Viktor finding her before she died on that mountain. She is now looking forward to meeting Adler again and teaching him a lesson for throwing away such a skilled person.

Emiliana (BOCW)

She is being looked for by her father's people. She left for a reason yet he continues to search for her.

She doesn't stand by what he does. She believes that he is wrong, so she ran away and eventually joined the C.I.A to try and stop people who are like her father.

She did like Bell, it's a shame that she had to be killed, but it was for her own good. Bell was probably her favorite safe house member other than Lazar.

She is basically being actively being hunted down by her father, for what reason? she doesn't know. She only knows is that she cannot be found.

Alpha (MW2019)

She has lots of trauma. as I have stated lots of times. I went into lots of detail about it here

and apparently I didn't save my draft and I forgot what I said what I do remember is:

Erica playing this song to Barry and telling him more about Alpha and her story and them doing little scenarios! and listening to music! which is just cool

yes I have given an oc partial ownership of another oc. but I feel like it fits!

Erica has Alpha and Barry plays Price. it just makes sense

also something along the lines of

that's basically their stories and trauma

I don't remember I'm a dumbass :/

FUUCK! I discrobes they way I visually see the song (with Alpha) and that got deleted! FUCK YOU TUMBLR! stupid app not saving my draft

hey atleast it didn't delete the whole post

that would've been the wort thing ever

I did screenshot some parts tho bc my internet got a bit funky but it was all good eventually

unfortunately no screenshots of the end of this post's draft before it got deleted :/

[sassygirl579]

2020 Creator’s Self-Love Extravaganza

Boy howdy, but it has been a year. So much so that I felt the need to dig up this meme so I can lavish myself with a little TLC, ‘cause you know what? I deserve it! And so do you. This year has been tough, and even in the best of times it can be a real struggle to remember that, instead of being your own worst enemy, you should strive to be your best cheerleader. Remember to be kind instead of cruel, to forgive rather than condemn yourself. Creativity is hard, and it is always a journey, never a final destination, so let’s take a moment and sight-see where we’ve been this year, yeah???

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 favorite works (fics, art, edits, etc.) you’ve created this year and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you’ve brought into the world in 2020. If you don’t have five published works, that’s fine! Include ideas/drafts/whatever you like that you’ve worked on/thought about, and talk a little about them instead! Remember, this is all about self-love and positive enthusiasm, so forget the rules if you need to. Have fun, and tag as many fellow creators as you like so they can share the love! <3

1.) We Will Raise Warriors

Caradin family feels plus quarantine brought on this oneshot that was the first thing I really wrote and liked--and posted--since 2009!  I wrote it on Mother’s Day, for reasons, but didn’t post it to ff.net (my old standby) until a few weeks later (and then accidentally deleted it back in July when I created the preview image--because it’s not intuitive and I’m old 😅).  It’s possible that I might add more chapters in the future (maybe nine or ten.....again for reasons 😉)--but I’ll just have to see how things go.

2) The Lost Get Found

Again, inspired by Caradin feels--but this time, it’s a rather fluffy slow burn that picks up a few days after Season 1 ended.  There are lots of Mandalorian family feels, friendship feels, some interesting appearances (and more to come soon!), some cultural stuff I had to do some mental acrobatics to make work--and certain characters Finally catch the break canon refuses to give them!  I’m kinda hoping this one can pick up a bit once I get past the next few chapters--and that it will eventually become a trilogy (for which I already have titles!)

Okay, those are the only ones I’ve written this year (and TLGF keeps me quite busy!)--but here are a few ideas I hope come to fruition--maybe in 2021?

3.) Tales of Love in Winter

One snowy night, two cousins reminisce about the planet Krownest--where one found love for the first time, and the other rediscovered the love she feared had been lost forever. May write this one in January, if things evolve to the point in the story that it will make more sense than they would under current circumstances 😉

4.) Promise of a Lifetime

My love for Bo-Katan/Fenn Rau is pretty much equal with my love for Caradin--and like so many others, I very much got the sense there was history between them in those two episodes of Rebels Season 4. This one would be a series of flashbacks told to Sabine after Ezra’s little trip with some space whales, but before the Purge of Mandalore, that explain my take on what that history might be 🧡🧡  I think I might use my playlist for them for chapter titles......you know, since the title itself is a song title 😊

5.) Bridges Have Two Sides

A ‘Frozen 2’ quote title because it’s about Satine (older blonde sister) and Bo-Katan (younger redheaded sister)  in the time after Bo spilts from Death Watch and before......sad things happen.  I kinda feel that this is the least likely to get written--but who knows?

I have some other ideas--but some may just end up being chapters in TLGF or one of the orther stories in the series, so I’m not going to go into detail on them at this point--because they would either be spoilers, or not happen at all 😂

I spent way too much time doing this, so I’m not gonna tag anyone--but please do this if you’re so inclined! 🥰

[drop-killa]

Being Honest

**trigger warning: diet culture, purging, and self-loathing** This isn’t a post where I’m self-loathing about my diet culture; it’s a piece of writing about being completely honest and raw about my personal experiences.

So this whole entire blog started because I made an Instagram account, a private one apart from my regular public one, as a form of accountability on my fitness journey. My goals of this fitness journey are to return back to the size I was before I got foot surgery 6 months ago and fit back into my old jeans. THAT BEING SAID I only want to lose 20-30lbs... THAT BEING SAID I am 5′5″ and my goal weight is around 180-190lbs. That’s not most peoples goal weight but I am just a whole lotta woman. I quickly gained weight after both serious injuries I’ve had in my life and I am having a lot of trouble losing it this second time around. Moving on: life is not all about losing weigh but I am uncomfortable. My goal weight is not 120lbs ok? It’s just to return to a normal comfortable size where my clothes fit.

I have been posting “everyday” on my countdown to Bonnaroo in June of 2020. I started typing out this super long caption and I decided it deserved a better home. This blog post doesn’t have to make sense to anyone but me.

Ok so I deleted IG off my phone and honestly I have missed: pictures of cats, rave memes, and posting on my private account.

I've been home alone for almost 2 weeks and I have been absolutely destroying my diet. By diet I just mean "general intake of nutritious food"

I'm not ON a diet: it's a word to explain your nutritional intake

My mom and I live together. She’s pretty woke for being born in 1968 and having lived through an entirely different period of diets and cultural norms but she definitely still has some pretty toxic diet relationships that she will never unlearn. So unfortunately I grew up in a household with some seriously toxic food and diet conversations. I remember when I first hit puberty and started showing cellulite on the back of my thighs my mom was making me do pilates with her because she was convinced I would hate myself when I got older for having cellulite.

She's been out of town.

Being out of the sight of someone who definitely judges me for what I eat is actually doing more damage than being around her. One greasy day of eating shouldn't budge the scale but 2 weeks of greasy eating surely will....

The extent to which I binge is absolutely unbelievable. My relationship with food is not healthy but not in the way that I’m always seeing being talked about online. Right now it’s super acceptable to be have recovered from an ED like anorexia and accepting the fact that you’re 130lbs instead of 100lbs and workout a lot. The people I see preaching about accepting their bodies, besides Ashley Graham and Tess Holiday, are not the kind of bodies that I can relate to.

I feel like my life will be a forever battle against chewing my nails until they bleed, and potential obesity just sitting over the horizon. I don’t know if that’s normal or that’s a real worry I should have.

I used to binge AND purge. BAD. I really don’t like when people describe foods as “bad” or “oh I was so good today” because that’s obviously a socially acceptable toxic mindset that I would not like to participate in. On the other hand: Purging IS bad. Eating yourself sick with the intention to puke it up afterwards is bad bad bad. I take full responsibility for my own self harm and I also can remember exactly where it started. My best friend, my day one and my forever girl, took about a year apart from each other unintentionally and sowed our own wild oats. She got a boyfriend and I hung around a girl who smoked cigarettes and lost weight by bulimia. I was so inspired by the idea that I could eat anything in the fucking world and just throw it up after and i fucking did. I have been battling depression for what feels like my entire fucking life and this was a super low point, historically, that I saw as a super high point at the time. A lightbulb went off. I don’t think I ever even binged that bad before this time. And unfortunately  the damage cannot be undone.

I have a shit history of self harm- I'm not gonna go into those details. Being an intelligent teenager is difficult and that's another story.

I am known for talking and being unashamed and being honest and open and trying to relate to people on a real level. There are some really uncomfortable and disturbing traumatic experiences in my life that I just won’t ever want to talk about. I never want them to be the subject of any discussion. This is one of the biggest secrets I ever kept. I don’t know that I was ashamed at the time but I liked it so much that I didn’t want to share it with anyone else. I knew what other people would have to say about it and I didn’t want to have to stand there and react and pretend like I was going to change while they gasped and scolded me.  It’s actually kind of funny because tumblr was the BIBLE for kids with eating disorders. All of the realest, darkest information for frustrated teens was on tumblr back in the day. It was the dark teenagers of my generations gateway into the depths of human psyche. It was the first place I read about kids who fucking hated themselves and look- here I am telling this story for the first time on the only vessel I ever learned it on in the first place. Tumblr has always been a safe anonymous place for self-loathing.

I don’t know that this story was ever going anywhere specific and that’s why it was moved from an IG caption to an entire blog. I don’t know that I’ve ever hated myself but I have treated myself so, so poorly.

So I’ve been home alone for 2 weeks and I have been binging so much. I have been such a fucking anxious mess and I appreciated the space during this time because I don’t always want to explain myself - sometimes I just wanna fucking cry my eyes out while I’m blow drying my hair. I do miss having people around to remind myself of normal functions of life like: vegetables and sleep and normal bed times. I’m giving up on this post but I like typing better than journaling so I believe I will continue.

[bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria]

i guess i’m making a warning

[[honestly, part of me didn’t want to do this, because i personally didn’t HATE my time here. but, since they’re burning their side of the bridge...i might as well do the same

everyone, please take caution in interacting with the blog “mlpserver” and joining their discord server for mlp roleplay. while it’s not the WORST server i’ve had a falling out with, and one of the mods there is incredibly kind and chill and welcoming and she would definitely be someone i’d want to connect with again if possible, the others...are not so much.

one of them literally called someone obnoxious to their face for being excited about joining the server and wanting a character. this was a young kid they were talking to

they constantly added little extra rules and addendums to the server, and people got kicked a few times before they were even official rules, thus not even given a chance to follow said rules when they were ACTUALLY added. felt like the expectation a lot of the time was to read their mind and know some slight was a bannable offense

they outright IGNORED their own rules when kicking people. someone i’m very close with got kicked despite being active and not having anything to reply to thread-wise for the last couple days, when the rules outright said to not worry about replying fast and that only people inactive past a week would be kicked. this also happened to a few others in their recent purging

there was little to no warning you ever did anything wrong until you were just removed. this happened pretty consistently, to several people i reached out to, and including myself. hell, one of the mods apparently just held a grudge based on how i apologized to them once, and i just. didn’t know it was an issue, until today, when i got kicked

anyway. i have long ass chatlogs under here, so. have those i guess?]]

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria um, excuse me? i was in your server, as applejack and tempest, and i want to know why i was kicked. i didn't break any rules, and i'd replied to a couple threads just the past few daysi got no explanation or warning that i'd done something wrong, so. i'm coming here looking for answers

mlpserver We stressed several times that we wanted the server to be fun for ourselves as well as the users, and it was decided that it was best to remove the users who were perpetuating a negative environment and making the mods feel like they were in some form of servitude to the users, and not equal. It took the fun out for us and as such this is our last ditch effort to make the server entertaining and worth us putting effort into, else it'll get deleted.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria ...and i did that?

mlpserver Yeah we were slowly eaten away at, despite carefully worded feedback from other mods about how draining the attitudes of some users could be.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria so even though i and a bunch of other users for sure emphasized that we didn't expect every bit of feedback to be acted on and only wanted to post some ideas up if we thought they might be okay, and absolutely didn't expect mods to constantly be at our beck and call all the time or that they even had to be at all, we're just booted now?

mlpserver Yes because with the frequency and the style of wording that people gave feedback made it seem like an expectation rather than a suggestion

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria the last time i'd even been a part of that discussion i said that it wasn't expectation. SEVERAL users agreed on that point, and that was that, and the last time i'd even been part of that talk

mlpserver Like, people spoke to us with a level of entitlement that I wouldn't speak to anyone with unless I was being intentionally rude. Whenever we gave an answer people would just try to counterargue whatever we replied with Like, our answers were never satisfactory for people and so what could have been a suggestion became an interrogation In your defense, you have actually been on the down low these past few days. Equally, it's just not really enough and we feel this is the best decision going forward for us to be able to enjoy our own server. Since that was the original goal of creating it.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria yeah, i'm pretty sure i acknowledged that being shitty and even apologized if i'd done that in the past while being a part of that discussion booting me for something that was from all appearances resolved already by the active mod at that time and myself is...not great also, i know for sure you hit people who were innocent. castoro was like never part of anything besides plotting and threads, and they're not in the server either we both thought the whole thing was just gone and was worried something happened

mlpserver Castoro was booted for a different reason separate to yours and they're independent cases which can't be compared.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria it's not my place to really ask why they were booted, so i won't. i apologize for just assuming it was the same reason as mine coincidence seemed to line things up

mlpserver if they have concerns then they're welcome to get in touch. We just don't want to entertain disruptive people and as an informal server, reserve the right to be selective in our userbase.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria well, i guess i can't argue about that. as much as i want to. because i'm honestly hurt and, since i thought things were okay and had been resolved days or even weeks ago when it originaly happened and was actually brought up, the fact that i was put on a list to be removed is concerning.

mlpserver Your behaviour hurt us at the time; we never felt that we had a resolution since we don't think that the discussion will have caused any critical thinking or genuine remorse about the way you caused us to feel and even with the apology, we don't feel like you knew exactly why or what you were apologising for, which was concerning for us. There was never a 'list' for removal, it was based solely upon attitude and as evidenced by this conversation, we just don't feel like there's a decent enough level of chill to enable us to feel comfortable or safe having you in our server.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria when you specifically came out and said "hey we're doing this for fun, the way these are being put in aren't making this feel fun, we feel kinda like servants at your beck and call and the arguing sucks" (paraphrasing), it's pretty obvious what the issue is

mlpserver The apology was always "if I have", and as such there was never true recognition of one's own actions, so I never felt like you ever took responsibility for your own behaviour.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria you also kept it a broad statement? you specifically didn't name names so, i apologized for if i was a part of that, and then stated i had never intended to do so

mlpserver Of course we didn't, because it's unprofessional to name names and we didn't want to single anyone out in front of the entire server. It's not fair of us to name people directly on the server; we'd like to have credited people with more intelligence that that and have the ability to recognise when they're being mentioned indirectly, without causing upset to those people who are not being disruptive. With regards to the apology, due to the fact that it was an 'if I have', it shows that you never recognised or accepted the fact that you were one of the users contributing to this situation, and as such made the apology feel hollow.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria i understand that. but also, my wording was clearly because i didn't know if i specifically had done something, and wasn't gonna ask when the mod, myself, and a few other users were talkin' it out if i did, then a bunch of others might have, and it wasn't the place for it

mlpserver There's no room for 'if I did' at this point, and the continued use of this phrase goes to show that you're still unwilling to accept the fact that our decision has been made as a consequence of your own attitude and actions, and for no other reason.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria i never made myself out to be above anything, or making mistakes. if i thought that, i wouldn't have apologized at all, because i would have thought i didn't have to essentially, the way i phrased things deemed me unworthy of staying, because you found my apology "lacking" but made no actual indication you thought that, until right now when you already booted me with no word or even discussion about it until you finalized that decision

mlpserver Similarly to conversations on the server, it appears that there is no answer which I can give which will ever be satisfactory to you and as such I think the best discourse is to end this conversation and go our separate ways.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria despite the fact i was never unsatisfied from a discussion in that feedback channel, even when something i suggested didn't happen, and again, had no indication that things weren't okay

mlpserver I mean, surely the indication that things weren't okay should have been the fact that I had to sit down and address the entire server about how to talk to people respectfully on the mod team? That's just... not a discussion which should need to be held. It should be completely obvious to treat people respectfully, and that includes the mods

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria heck, even when rules were suddenly added and people got kicked, and lies were told, i supported you guys and even said you were doing a good job. i know being a mod isn't easy. i've BEEN there before and no no, i'm talking after that. when you came out and were honest about how you felt, we ALL had sympathy, we all apologized, said we would try to not be like that. from all appearances, everything LOOKED to be okay after that yeah it sucks you had to have that convo, but then we all talked about it and the situation was over it was resolved, by all appearances you can't go back to something that's been over and done with for weeks and say "actually i'm not satisfied with this now" and just boot for that? and expect people to be alright about it and for it to not come off extremely unfair?

mlpserver I am very sorry for not handling this in the best way, but I think that given the nature of past (and current) interactions, the issue stems from your incompatible personality with the server users and as such, even with a discussion the outcome was very unlikely to be different in the long run. I mean, server environment, not users. The issue boils down to your attitude with regards to certain elements of the server and taking criticism, and as such I don't think there's anything more to discuss. Good day.

bestfarmhorsethissideofequestria because your criticism is weeks late and seemingly out of nowhere considering how things actually went down but whatever, man. do what you gotta. hope your server doesn't feel too empty

[s1mpl3sp0ng3]

update

i don’t think i’m going to use tumblr anymore.

i’ve been on this website for almost 10 years. i made a lot of friends, i made a lot of mistakes, and i’ve been through both good and bad experiences. when i look back on this blog, i don’t always see something positive. a lot of the time, it feels like a monument to feeling bad; a monument to my tumultuous adolescence that i’d rather leave behind. i don’t like looking at this blog and being reminded of everything i went through as a teenager. now matter how many times i “re-brand” that’s what it all comes back to.

on top of that, a huge number of people i associate with daily got purged. that’s a huge chunk of why i’m leaving, to be honest. i had some amazing relationships on here and some great art/stories that were created that i can now no longer access because of tumblr’s bullshit. i’m still in contact with a lot of them, but there’s so much that got lost. my best friend and i had almost ten years of oc stuff on here that is now inaccessible because they terminated him. that sucks!

it also has to do with tumblr’s bullshit censorship and prioritizing money over its userbase. i understand how business works, but it should never impact your customers THIS badly. innocent people were terminated and never got their blogs back, others didn’t get deleted but were incorrectly flagged and censored, there are posts you aren’t even allowed to see anymore because the algorithms wrongfully flagged them -- meanwhile, porn bots are still a HUGE problem and nazi blogs haven’t even been fucking touched. they still haven’t done shit in reaction to this, only changing the fucking color of the website while ignoring their users. i will not stay on a website this incompetent.

will i delete this blog? probably not. i think at the most i’ll password protect it. while yeah, it’s a monument to times i’d rather forget, there’s still some aesthetic and art-related stuff i want to be able to access at the very least. at some point i’m gonna go through my likes and save some stuff, so for the next few months i may like a few odd posts here and there. (edit: apparently you can’t password protect main blogs so i just made it dashboard-view only)

to all of my followers, thank you for being here and supporting me. good luck to you and i hope your lives turn out to be amazing. <3

[hhemeraa-a]

420

mutuals send me a number and I’ll make a post about you!

Alright you weenie, here we go. 

We’ve known each other for a while now, though off and on again. We got really close and then you disappeared completely (literally, you deleted everything, even your discord), then you came back and pretended to be a completely different person and then told me who you were after like... a few weeks, then you disappeared again and now you’re back! It has been a fucking rollercoaster with you man. I will admit, I was real salty that you felt you had to lie to me for that whole time you were pretending, and I haven’t exactly forgotten about that, though your reasoning behind the disappearing act was understandable. Like, if what I remember you had said happened happened, then yikes. Good on you cause the world is wild. 

I also know you’re constantly going through ups and downs with your real life, but when you’ve spoken to me about it recently, it makes me really excited for you that you’re still making strides despite how difficult everything can get. You are hella strong and hella amazing and you like popped out a whole child which is really impressive cause I sure as hell ain’t gonna do it. kdsjhgsd I think you should be kinder to yourself some times, but I also think you gotta kick yourself in the ass other times. You have this weird rollercoaster of productivity and purging that makes me want to shake you senseless, but you get shit done and that’s all that matters. 

Your muses are great and I can tell you put sooooo so so so so much work into them. You gotta stop using similar FCs tho cause I swear two of your muses look exactly the same and I never know the difference until I read through a bit. With how your schedule is and how I’m on the other side of the world, I think we sort of just grab each other and meme whenever we can and I have zero complaints. I have so much fun when I talk with you, and I’m always ready to throw down with your muses. I feel like 90% of what we do is shit posting but that’s the fun of it. I want more of that one muse. You know the one I’m talking about. I love him. He’s Myles’. We’re coming for his fingers and toes.

I’m terrible about reaching out because I’m just really busy and timezones and all, but pls, I really enjoy hearing from you so I’m going to try and make the effort to send random faces in the dead of night so you don’t forget me.

[thedogsled]

So you’re staying on tumblr?

Many of your friends have been flagged as NSFW, which will mean that they are having all of their content up until this point turned private. They can stay, but they have to post content that Tumblr deems acceptable.

Some people have already been deleted, and had the requests for reinstatement denied. They can’t stay.

Some people post NSFW content, and won’t be able to post or repost their content here. They can stay only if they stop posting NSFW content and post content that Tumblr deems acceptable.

Some people are seeing what this is doing to their community and their friends and moving in solidarity with them, or because they can no longer access the community and support structures they relied on.

Like it or not, your communities are falling apart. They aren’t falling apart cause some members of them can’t read, or because they’re being paranoid or whatever. People aren’t just leaving because porn is banned, it’s bigger than that now.

Tumblr has made it clear that the communities here are all a commodity to them they intend to squeeze every last possible buck out of. You make them content for free, what do you get? Searchability? Functionality? To live in freedom from being recced nazi blogs?

External links still don’t work, and still aren’t searchable, curtailing many people’s incomes and simple functionality of the site, as well as making archives pointless.

Arbitrary terms have been made completely unsearchable.

The removal of the restricted content banner was made because tumblr didn’t have the manpower to deal with all the flagging requests. It’s engineering staff is falling apart, there’s nobody to fix the things you have problems with.

They LIED to us. They said they wouldn’t do this. They’ve been planning it for months. They’re still pretending this is just about child porn. It isn’t.

And in the meantime, tumblr will now be dictating what the difference between illustrations and classical art is. It will sit in judgement of the gender of a nipple, sexualizing one and handwaving the other, and generally fucking over everything else in between. 

Tumblr will not delete your blog and make the choice for you. Its userbase numbers, real or not, are a commodity to them. Personally, I upload content based on my FAITH that the site I’m uploading it to won’t self destruct or decide to ban all that content. I don’t have that faith in tumblr any more. (not that I ever did, I came here from Dreamwidth VERY reluctantly.) I also don’t trust the company from a moral point of view. It’s shown its true colors, which means that I cannot stay and continue making content - and therefore money - for it. 

A petition might make you feel good (and I don’t blame anyone for trying) but please just for a moment imagine the CEO coming back and saying “gee guys, you’re right! I see now that porn is totally healthy, and that your communities can’t get on without it. I was wrong to banhammer all your friends and implement a bot who can’t tell the nipples for the trees. I’ve decided I don’t want to make any money from this sinkhole of a site anyway, and we definitely don’t need to be on the Apple store cause fuck those guys amirite?” It isn’t gonna happen.

Will I delete? Ethically I should, but it won’t be on December 17th, because I want to be able to guide my community to the places I’ve gone to. I will be gone in spirit, however. But trust me, as soon as fandom is settled in elsewhere this blog will be gone too, because I cannot just sit here and accept what this company thinks of us, what it’s done to us, nor magically believe that they’ll see the error of their ways and undo it. The harm is done. (P.S. my sideblog is already deleted)

And while I speak from my corner of fandom, I want to be clear: this isn’t even really about fandom. Fandom is a sideline of the big issue happening here. My outrage extends far far beyond it. I’m not just pissed off because this decision from tumblr is destroying hundreds of thousands of hours of effort put in by fandom creators, or hundreds of thousands of hours put in by creators and curators on the big blogs that give us gifs and art and searchable (except not recently) content. The damage to us is small fry to the damage it’s done to communities, the fact that livelihoods are being destroyed, and that people may end up made homeless or even dead as a result of this purge and the deconstruction of support systems that have held people up for years and let our communities support the people inside them. 

When I talk about deleting my blog and leaving, it’s in solidarity with those people too, and the understanding that while this has shit on us, it has shit on other people a whole lot harder, and I can’t sit here and go “well, I wasn’t marked NSFW and shit on and destroyed so I don’t need to change my patterns.” I can’t. Even if not a spec of shit has flown in my general direction, could I keep mum and stay quiet and let everyone else take the fall in this crapshoot because I can go back to my fandom activities, I’m not a pervert, so it’s fine. This is no longer even about if you used NSFW content or not. It just isn’t.

This site talks a lot about activism and morality, doing good things, being better people, solidarity with communities who have been shamed and shaded and pushed into obscurity, speaking out about LGBT+ content being associated with porn and female created fandom content being swept away as nothing of value. When it comes down to it, this is your moment to make a decision on whether those things were just all hot air, or if you mean to do something about it. Will you sit in your comfort and say “well it’s just hurting other people it has nothing to do with me” or will you say “this is immoral” and do something, even if it’s hard, even if it makes you uncomfortable, or it means you have to learn a new website to do it. Is that really the hill you want to die on? “I can’t be bothered to learn how to use Website X and that’s how I justify staying”? That’s not good enough for me. I know my history, and while nobody is taking people out and shooting them in the street this time, I still won’t be on the side that closes my eyes and lets this kind of purge happen.

And don’t you even dare come at me like “if this is the cost of getting child porn off this site then so be it”. Because that excuse is bullshit. This isn’t going to stop child porn, and it probably isn’t even going to stop it on this site. It’s just going to make the perpetrators cleverer with how they get around the rules. Stopping child porn is how you stop child porn, not setting fire to everything else.

I will be going. I will eventually be deleting. These are not empty words. Maybe that makes me a killjoy, but I really don’t care. 

[seenashwrite]

Cards Against Supernatural: January 27th

◄ SUNDAY JANUARY 27th, 8:00/8:30 P.M.-ish* CST ►

(* As always, this is not precisely when the game starts - I aim to have the rooms open at about 15 til so we can ideally start at the time above - we take a little time for everybody to get logged in & settled in chat, so feel free to come & hang out while you wait!)

If you see this? You’re invited. ALL SPN Family members who are at least 18 years & older are welcome!

💡 IF THIS WILL BE YOUR FIRST GAME WITH US, YOU NEED TO MAKE SURE IT’S GONNA BE YOUR JAM & VISIT CASPN HEADQUARTERS 💡

—> This is a mobile-friendly page and contains tons of need-to-knows —> This is NON-NEGOTIABLE FOR NEW PLAYERS

🌟 Post with game link + password AND the links to the Discord room will go up closer to start of game 🌟

—> Make sure you are ready to go at Discord prior to game time so all you have to do is click-n’-chat! —> At the game site and on Discord (if you do not already have one), make sure you use your Tumblr name or a variation thereof so we know who you are - this prevents unnecessary confusion. 😁

🃏 Find out ways you can contribute to the decks, the most recent CASPN updates, quick tips for players, & how to join the tag list below 🃏

YOU CAN HELP MAKE THIS GAME BETTER!

Anytime you spot a great quote - and it will probably be on a gif! - that you think may work as a question/answer, shoot it my way and I’ll see if I can work it in.

Please include the season & episode number so I know which deck to put it in. FYI: We do not need any from seasons 3, 5, or 6 - those decks are complete or near completion.

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UPDATES

On Dramatic Fic Readings…

If you’re a vet, you know we’ve been having a blast with these, closing out our games with a dramatic reading of a Fic Wreck by yours truly.

For our purposes, to be a Fic Wreck Dramatic Reading candidate, it means:

Features a heinously out-of-character Dean and/or Sam –> this is the core characteristic & is non-negotiable

No smut/kinks/Wincest/ABO –> this is non-negotiable

In the 500-700 word range or less (so, a Drabble)

Can be on Tumblr or from an outside site (FF.net, AO3, Wattpad, et al)

If on Tumblr, preferably at least a year old/not currently circulating on all our dashes with great fervor

Preferably not anyone’s BFF or whatever - and NEVER someone in our group, though y’all are certainly welcome to volunteer any of your own short fics if you just want to hear it read aloud in my crazy voices

Preferably features an immature/annoying/etc. “Y/N”

Preferably has an inexplicably high note/reblog/kudos/etc. count for what it is, which is a wreck

Preferably has a plot that is objectively ridiculous and/or plot points that are crazy confusing

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New CASPN Perma Chat!

This is the permanent chat room for the CASPN Crew, the link is set to never expire. It will not be deleted like the weekly chats, so feel free to use this space to make suggestions or let your fellow CASPN buddies about things you may need (such as a beta) or things you’ve got planned (such as a challenge) or upcoming events (such as a convention).

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VERY IMPORTANT REGARDING VOICE CHAT

If you are going to participate in the voice chat over at Discord *PLEASE* make sure you are in a quiet place, and if you are unable to do so, kindly mute yourself and just listen until you are able.

Also, kindly mute yourself if you need to speak to someone on the phone/someone who is with you in person, and mute yourself if your environment becomes noisy - it happens! No worries! Just jump back in when that’s done/when it’s your turn to read

Have this set up and ready to go prior to game start, and ensure all other apps/messaging on your device of choice are muted.

If you are in voice chat just so you can listen because you can’t/don’t choose to read aloud, that of course is fine, but you need to have yourself muted, please, and communicate via chat that you need myself or someone else to read your hand.

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TIPS & TRICKS FOR IN-GAME FAQs

(A kind reminder: most everything I/veteran players are asked in chat during games is covered at CASPN Headquarters)

Should your mic go out/no one can hear you in Discord, same thing applies as it does when you get duplicate cards/can’t choose a card over in the game - REFRESH! Just refresh the browser page for Discord, and give it a second, and it should remedy itself.

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🏷️ Tag Me In The Future, Nash! 🏷️

TO BE TAGGED, YOU *MUST* SEND AN ASK! I will not tag you any other way, nor will I tag you if you’ve never played with us before. Them’s the breaks.

I AM UNABLE TO TAG ON THE DAY OF GAMES, suggest you look out for the post, come try the game on for size & if you enjoy it, kindly send an ask stating you’d like to be tagged after you know you like it & are able to participate in future games

IF YOU HAVE CHANGED YOUR NAME, it is YOUR responsibility to send me an ask - I will not track you down or assume you want to stay tagged

FOR THOSE WITH SETTINGS THAT PREVENT TAGGING, you do not have to follow me in order to participate, however I will not follow you just so I can tag you - I am following some CASPN players, however it is only when I find their content of interest or I was already following them prior to the original deck’s conception -  if you want to be in the know about the game dates/times, I suggest you (a) follow me and/or #CASPN which is unique to the weekly games I run, or (b) make a side blog with standard settings that is purely for the purpose of being on this tag list (ex: “CASPN-[your handle])

Tag team, back again…

@impandagrl​​

@salt-n-burn-em-all​​

@coffeeandwinchesters​​

@gryffindorable713​​

@rozadolphin​​

@abbessolute​​

@ohio-cnk-80q3​​

@a-screaming-ghost​​

@ferferelli​​

@growningupgeek​​

@thefanwithoutfear​​

@ericaprice2008​​

@butiaintgonnaloveem​​

@bumbleball13​​

@ultimatecin73​​

@looksmokin

@muchamusedaboutnothing​​

@crowleyshellhoundspn​​

@idreamofhazel​​

@blackcherrywhiskey​

@winchesterprincessbride​

@bemyqueenofdarkness

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* The Cannot Tags! *

It either (1) looks like the blog under this name is inactive, (2) you’ve changed your name and not told me, or (3) there’s a setting on YOUR end that prevents it.

None presently as the list has been purged/updated as of 11/11/18

❓ WHY AM I NOT TAGGED? you may ask ❓

Reminder: I’m taking roll at games so I can keep up maintenance on the tag list - if you aren’t participating often [read: approx. every 6 wks/6 games] & you haven’t let me know to move you to my “Hiatus” list, then you won’t be tagged on posts, but I’ll keep you on the CASPN tags page, listed at the bottom under the time frame you were removed.

It is possible I made a mistake if I get busy and neglect to c/p the roster frequently throughout the game - all you have to do is speak up. The biggest issue I have with keeping up is when you use some rando name in game that neither I nor any of the other players recognize. If you want to stay on the tags, you need to use a name I’ll know. Otherwise, I couldn’t care less, call yourself whatever strikes your fancy! :)

Want to be back on “active” status?  Want to be removed altogether? No problem! Kindly communicate your wishes with me via Ask.

[pornofthero]

this blog going forward

so sorry for the radio silence here lately. it’s taken me a while to figure out what i’m gonna do with my n/sfw content, and among travel, school, and mental health, it unfortunately took a relatively low priority

but, i’ve decided i won’t be posting my n/sfw content on tumblr anymore. i know people have been avoiding getting flagged by tagging their work ‘#sfw’ but i honestly don’t want to resort to that. i tag my work as n/sfw in part so people can find lewd nonsense if they want it, but also so people can block it if they don’t want it. i don’t care if i get flagged, but i do care if my weird nonsense pops up on someone’s dash unwanted

and, honestly, i can’t really be bothered with trying to keep up with all the tricks and tips to avoid getting flagged, so i figure it’s best to just throw in the towel, pick up, and move somewhere else

that being said, i have created a newgrounds account. i won’t be abandoning this blog completely, i’ll be happy to reply to asks/messages and have conversations here, but the content won’t be coming back (unless tumblr does a complete 180 but who honestly knows at this point). maybe i can get away with cross-posting links to newgrounds when i post something new, but that will have to wait and see

i still feel awful about accidentally deleting what was here, especially after posting/reblogging “don’t worry i’m not going anywhere!” so much. it’s a lot to ask you guys to follow me to another site after all that, but please consider checking me out on newgrounds and making an account to keep up with my work. and it’s not just me - several n.sfw artists have migrated to newgrounds following the december 2018 purge

i’m sorry i sat on this for so long. hopefully i’ll get back into the swing of things when it comes to drawing (i’m starting cbt soon so that should help) and i can be properly active again

thanks for sticking with me ✌️💙

[pickyperkypenguin]

some updates on my social media situation plus random reflections

lately i’ve been feeling like i have flooded myself with social media after that unfortunate tumblr ‘purge’, getting accounts where i thought i will be feeling better, or where the people i liked to follow were moving. before that, i had just tumblr for a very long time (i don’t count mugbook, because this one i use for irl purposes and it is as honest as my linkedin), and then i got instagram (@pleurotus.ostreatus), it seemed like a cool shiny new platform at the time. now i also have twitter, pillowfort and dreamwidth (which i, surprisingly, actually use). 

i really loved the idea of people collectively moving to pillowfort, because while it had its own disadvantages, it was the most similar to tumblr place, with the same kind of allowance of both very short and very long posts, multimedial profile and improved rebloggability. unfortunately, since i got the key in the last re-opening, i tried to hang out there for some time (still trying, sort of), but it looks like nobody actually moved there with their activity, and the communities i wanted to engage in are all basically dead, with very few people trying and not getting responses. not much interaction going on (understandable, as specific tastes require a large active user base, to actually find people of common highly specific interests). judging by the dates people were trying at the time of the purge, but then they lost the interest, perhaps for the same reason i did now, few months later.

anyway - pillowfort? would love the place, if the activity levels were different. sad, but understandable. still have the account, still maybe-trying (but more as a secondary thing)

twitter. oh twitter, how i hate twitter for its forced shortness and the overall feeling of chaos. also, feels so much more public, the media much more mainstream. in my experience people have no idea what tumblr is, unless they are some brand of a nerd and probably got one themselves. twitter, on the other hand, is a thing that even politicians and other public figures/celebrities/famous people that barely grasp the internet can (and often do) have. the subjective safety feeling is like level zero, despite getting a separate email account for it. on the other hand, basically the whole fandom sphere i liked to stay in the vicinity of moved there and is active, robustly so. if i want to still consume that, i just have to submit and take it as it is, no other choice. and the largest part of my being on the internet for entertainment purposes is being in a fandom i like currently, so not going to resign from that. well, adjust or perish, dude, i say to myself.

instagram - as i mentioned, i got it first after tumblr, made it all nice and - as i foolishly thought - semi-anonymous, as in not obviously identifiable as irl me - but then i understood it was owned by the cursed mugbook, since irl people started to follow me there. like, randomly. it just found me by the mysterious algorithm, which i certainly didn’t wanted. never had it linked with anything, it just goddamn found me and wrecked its havoc. also, i’m not much of a consistent creator (which i still hope will change in the future, but that is a part of a larger problem), so just ‘being’ there doesn’t do much, you just sort of hange there in the empty space. so, a heads up - i will be deleting my insta, and i think all of you i have followed there i have also followed at at least one other place, so shouldn’t be too much of a loss. had some private accounts followed which gave me the allowance, but never followed back, so don’t think popping into their dms with the info that i can be found elsewhere would be anyhow welcome. still, gonna regret those a bit.

dreamwidth i am, as i said, surprisingly for myself, still using - maybe because it is easier without the barrier of the language, as i write there just in my native, but also because nobody reads me there and i can write whatever the hell i want, topics as personal and obscure as i like. it’s nothing more than a glorified diary, not a social media by the means of actual social interaction, but it has been an interesting experience for me, allowing me to monitor my own progress in whatever i want. it’s nice to have that opportunity.

and... tumblr. dudes, i had this corner of the web for myself for so many years (longest i have ever consistently been and interacted on the internet), met - even if briefly, in this weird internet-specific sort of way - so many interesting people, talked to them, actually interacted in fandom spaces instead of just lurking like i tend to... there are so many positive things about it. i liked it so much here. now, however, i’m feeling like this has become just a habit, and not a habit of documenting my life in any meaningful way. a habit that i would perhaps be better off without. i don’t know yet. maybe it is a signal to finally say goodbye to this place. i don’t know, i will probably not have enough balls to actually deactivate or delete my account here anytime soon, but it is something that i definitely should consider. if that comes, i will surely post a heads up, if it comes to that. but it is something i will surely be thinking of.

[tl;dr: i’m deleting my instagram, thinking of generally reducing the amount of my social media accounts, esp considering i am not overly active there and but am wasting a hell lot of a time on them, perhaps deleting/deactivating my tumblr in the future. don’t want to lose the contact with the people, even if we were just quietly orbiting in each other’s vicinity.]

[fibrielsolaer]

Smash Ultimate tier list based entirely on which characters I like and which I hate

BSP = Big Sexy Personality

FBNIS = Fun, But Not In Smash

MPATBUD = Mario Princesses Are Terrifying Blow-Up Dolls

S Tier

Kirby: absolutely the man, if you don’t love Kirby you’re probably the asshole who got this roster flooded with Marth World pricks

Pikachu: He quicc. He thicc. He’ll Thunderbolt you to hicc

Except it’s a she because I only ever play Librechu ;p

Bowser: BSP

Zelda: She is so cute, I can finally stand playing as her

Pichu: He is so cute, it almost makes up for how stupid he is

Ganondorf: He’s finally fucking cool. He uses the goddamn sword now

Lucario: What if Mewtwo was a Shaolin monk hunk

I only play purple Lucario for reasons you’re best not knowing

Toon Link: He’s the cartoon that Link and Young Link watched and modeled themselves on

Ridley: HOLY SHIT IT FEELS AWESOME TO PLAY RIDLEY

I love how the game designers know he’s way too small so when you fight him in Classic Mode as Samus he gets Giant modifier

K. Rool: BSP

Piranha Plant: The pain from the pipes, this disrespectful piece of shit is so stupid he wraps around to greatness, with his inclusion I’ve changed my mind and now say fuck it, add Bandana Waddle Dee, hell add a regular Waddle Dee if you want, I don’t even care anymore

A Tier

Luigi: Few people know that he and Mario are actually identical twins, his brother merely wears a fat suit (the weight of which has crushed his spine) so they can be told apart

Ness: I like the picture you get when you play for 20 hours

C. Falcon: This is the guy who beats up Incineroar. As the positive icon of the people he never shows any emotion except for “YUS!” and “SHOW ME”. All Might was probably based on this jackass

Jigglypuff: Like so many other Pokemon, its adorable facade is a veneer for an expansive and unfathomable eldritch demon. The difference is, despite how fucking many Pokemon like that there are, nobody has found Jigglypuff’s secret and lived to tell

Young Link: He’s actually Link’s son, who idolizes his father and wants to follow in his footsteps. His dad has strayed from the path but young blood here carries on the true faith. Also, FBNIS

Mewtwo: He was the original Damn Cool Pokemon. He jockeys with Lucario for that role now but all they ever do is sit there charging their neutral Bs talking about how the planet will explode in 5 minutes

Roy: He knows that the Marth World infestation is soon to be purged, because there are like five actual Marths including him, so he decided to become the best Marth World character so he alone will survive

Pit: The only cunt from his series besides Dark Pit who had the decency not to change voice and try to pretend it was the same fucking one. I never play as him ever but Sakurai sure cared more about making him fresh & fun post-Uprising than any of his other goddamn characters

Charizard: BSP

Dedede: BSP

Bowser Jr.: This rude little shit is the guy who you invite to a party and he brings his whole crew, excuse me no I didn’t invite Wendy and Horton and Lenny and all these bitches, but fuck it y’all cool

Simon: I like his funny walk and he looks like Conan the Barbarian

Richter: I like his funny walk and he looks like a dork

Isabelle: Do you know this literal bitch killed me with a fucking stop sign 3 times before I unlocked her, why isn’t that a reaction macro

Incineroar: He pretends to be a bad guy so that kids’ heroes will beat him up on TV and they will be happy. He is so sweet

B Tier (Everyone Is Meh)

Mario: Meh

Donkey Kong: Meh

Link: The dad who strayed from the path, I really don’t like the Breath of the Wild Link, FBNIS

Fox: Meh

Sheik: Meh

Dr. Meh: Mario

Falco: Hands off my meh

Mehrth: He’s kinda cool but Roy is way cooler

Mr. Game & Watch: What an annoying asshole

Wario: It’s not the cool Wario, it’s the stupid Wario Ware one, and he brings all his obnoxious waifu friends with him. It’s Wario after he retired from his teen Youtube star days at the age of 30 and he’s trying to stay young and cool-looking but his stoner friends keep fucking it up

Solid Snake: Meh, too indirect for me, FBNIS

Squirtle: Meh-est of the Pokemon Trainer trio, he just doesn’t provoke like any reaction from me at all unlike the other two

Diddy Kong: Meh

Olimeh: This is the most boring goddamn character, everything you do you have to pluck fucks

ROB: He barely animates

Villager: I kinda wish Animal Crossing let you be an animal too. The lone human character is really boring

Mega Meh: You got: FBNIS

Little Meh: I dunno I’ve just barely ever played him

Mehninja: Maybe I should actually try playing it once ever

Duck Hunt: If there was a B-and-a-half tier I’d put this one there because you can delay the side-B and set up Snake-level GOTCHA combos, otherwise the novelty wears off fast

Ryu: He is the 2nd-least likeable guy, what a turbo douche

Bayomehtta: She’s rule 63 Dante, her game was always just a DMC ripoff that relied on her tits & ass to differentiate from it

Inkling: I like the yellow hair girl one but I ABSOLUTELY HATE THE CRINGY-ASS ASSIST TROPHY AND WILL ABSOLUTELY UNFAIRLY BLAME THE CHARACTER FOR THIS.

C Tier

Samus: She is the most FBNIS character

Ice Climber: They’re really un-cute and I hate their desync thing

Metaknight: This guy was so much cooler before he talked, or rather, before he screamed AYAYGYGYAYGYAGA

Ike: Marth World has like 2,000 characters ranging from pegasus knights to barbarians to psychic dragon-girl dancers, and yet we keep getting these boring fucking swordsmen

Pokemon Trainer: Get absolutely the fuck out you twerp you don’t even do a goddamn thing and you die the second any one of your THREE fighters is KO’d so you don’t even incorporate the actual spirit of your original character unlike literally everybody else

Venusaur: If I evolved this ugly fucker I would delete my save

Lucas: If I had an Absolutely Gone Machine that could erase anything in the world and delete everyone’s memory that it ever existed so they would shut the fuck up about it, Mother 3 would be precisely the fourth thing I deleted

Robin: Least shitty post-Melee Marth World character but I just haven’t bothered to try it out to see if it’s actually good or not, probably because I’m just too allergic to Marth World by now

Dark Samus: Cool, but why

Daisy: MPATBUD, but this one has the closest thing to a personality. Unfortunately it is a fucking terrible and horrific personality

Zero Suit Samus: hey cool Samus is Barbie now

Ken: Remember how I said Ryu was the 2nd-least likeable? Well here’s Liquid Ryu to seize the coveted spot

Cloud: Yeah hey, let’s take the one Final Fantasy protagonist with like the least connection to Nintendo, no it’s fine, every goddamn Marth World game except the one that justified its worldwide presence has a character in but we’re not gonna use Cecil or Buttz or Terra

Corrin: Any hope this bitch had to go on my “Is a dragon so I like it” list was ruined by how absolutely infuriating it is to fight against Corrin especially that one Spirit match where he spams his INSTANT FINAL SMASH THAT HAS LIKE AN INFINITELY VERTICAL HITBOX fuck this goddamn digimon

D tier

Yoshi: I’ve hated this thing ever since it stopped going BAWONKA WONKA and started going blblblblblbl

add Birdo as an Echo and I might forgive you

Peach: MPATBUD, Peach is usually able to manifest either the behavior of a real person (Paper Mario) or the appearance of one (Smash), but sadly never both, she is doomed to blow-up-dollery forevermore

Sonic: Please add any other Sonic character, any at all, I’ll even take Charmy, I fucking hate Blue Bubsy

Wolf: The only reason he is not the furry-trashiest character in Smash is because Krystal is an AT, this cocksucker deadass awoos

Wii Fit Trainer: Next to her, Mario Princesses almost look human

Rozzalinda: MPATBUD and this one is the worst, far and away the worst Mario Princess, she is the creepiest fucking woman. WHY IS IT THAT NOBODY IN MARIO ACTS LIKE A HUMAN FUCKING BEING EXCEPT THE CHARACTERS WHO AREN’T FUCKING HUMAN. tl;dr the only people who say rosalina is their waifu collect people’s faces

Mii Fighters: you dress them up to make a parody of a character and then never once actually use said parody because they are stupid

Palutena: remember in Uprising how they could make fake Palutenas, this is one of them, they have a fake Viridi too, you know it is because starting in smash 4 it is clearly two different actresses trying way too hard to sound like the old ones and i can’t get over it sorry. (also she plays like shit)

Pac-Man: I only liked him when he was a pizza

Shulk: does he ever shut the fuck up

Lucina: add a red nose and it’s Marth: Tumblr Edition

Chrom: oh fuck off

Robin’s bitchass final smash still calls this clown

even if you use it on Chrom

he is so ashamed of his audacity he fucking fucks himself

[fleetofshippyships-archive]

WIP tag meme

aaah, I was tagged over 2 months ago by @parkkate O.O sorry for not doing this sooner @parkkate​ XD I’ve been offline for a few months! Just now catching up on everything I missed! but I’m ignoring asks for now because my inbox is a mess

The Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous.

I’m gonna cheat and only do this for my drarry wips, since I post everything else on another account now, and tbh I have so many drarrys it’s still gonna be a long ass post XD

Oh man *sweats nervously* I’m a bit of a hoarder in all aspects of my life...I don’t even know where to begin! 

I’m not tagging anyone cos I was tagged 2 months ago and I have no idea who has and hasn’t done this and don’t want to be a pain. But if you wanna do it, go a head, and please tag me so I can be nosy and hopefully find someone with a wip problem as bad as my own so I can be less embarrassed XD

Also I’m putting this under a cut for reasons

1. 4th year au idea 

Sooooo, right off the bat, I often open a new file to jot down an idea even though I have docs specifically to dump ideas...and then at some point during the process of jotting down basic details of the idea...I start writing it....? This is one such occurrence...but I had to open it to check...and now I want to keep writing it XD

But also yikes it’s super dark

2. ... 4th year au idea

I swear, this is an entirely different wip and I am going ‘wtf’ at myself because wtf that’s confusing! I had also totally forgotten the existence of this before opening it....probably because of the name of it and the only reason I apparently have 2 files the exact same name is that one is a word doc and one is a libre office doc XD

3. drarry character death idea

Soooo, I need to stop turning idea files into wips without changing the names because I actually forget they are wips apparently

Also, I really want to finish this RIGHT NOW IT HURTS SO GOOD GIMME GIMME GIMME

4. Veela fic followup

LOL LOL LOL I’m rewriting my veela fic so I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to end up doing with this XD I might have to try and merge it with the re-write if the story has a similar outcome when I’m done. or maybe I’ll just turn this into its own thing....

5. Veela fic present tense

I really need to get back to working on this, this is actually the full re-write that re-doing the tenses spawned...I was binge writing this before my life went to hell but then my life went to hell and I went offline for like three months and didn’t do any writing or anything XD

although, the last time I looked at it I got the itch to change it back to past tense so who fucking knows what I’ll do with it now

6. Veela fic Draco pov

Curse my obsession with alternate povs of the same story and Draco for being such a good angsty pov

7. Veritaserum idea start

At least this one has ‘start’ in it so I know it is in fact a wip and not just an idea outline XD

7. Veritaserum

So, turns out I started that fic over in a new file and just left the old one lying around XD I do that too often. I should delete that other one...

Also...this better not turn into another ‘Amortentia’ with me unable to think of a fucking title and going with the file name because lame

This is also my first time trying to do god’s eye 3rd person instead of 3rd person pov...also first time trying to do this weird structure thing...I dunno but I like it XD

8.  CTS followup

9. CTS sequel

Two separate followups set at different times in the same story verse... I hate myself. I love them both. I can’t pick which one to stop writing so I’m gonna keep them both around and try and make them merge at some point...

10. MMB saying sorry

11. another erase the shame

12. next erase the shame

I work on followups and lose interest so often (usually because people bug me for followups and I get very ‘fuck you’ about it and stop writing them...but I keep them around and tinker with them every now and then soooo they’re still technically wips

13. Tea and Coffee oneshot series (Tea and Coffee, Coffee and Dark Marks, The Cottage Kitchen, next untitled one)

There’s also a present tense version of the first one of those *sweats nervously* first 3 are finished, of course, but my original purpose is lost to them becoming a long fic soo....gonna merge them into one long fic soon...once I decide what tense I like better......kill me now

14. Communion of the Soul (folder name)

This is the sequel to One Touch and this is spread across 5 files because apparently I did that and even though each time I got to work on it I have to figure out which file holds which part of the sequel timeline and which I feel like working on...I have yet to merge them into one file to make my life easier...

15. Crumbling Facade

ugh working on this always makes me want to re-write restraint and actually put in the major plot line, or what was supposed to be Harry’s major plot line before the relationship crap got away from me and I had to cut out all the plot stuff because by the time I got around to addressing it, it started reading like a completely different fic and I had to cut a huge chunk and end it instead, because back then I sucked more than I do now and couldn’t juggle

sooo...I still work on this in starts and stops and then get frustrated for having to stick to Restraint’s chain of events when I have better ideas now for working in Harry’s plot about his damn magic problem and ARRGEHGEHGFVEDHDBVUIOFNBFKDB EFBVJ

I should just let Crumbling Facade take me where it wants to take me and fuck Restraint

16. Potter’s Insatiable Heart

This is my longest wip at 130k XD and I’m stalling now because if I keep going with it where I was intending to go it will end up my longest fic and I’m getting intimidated by the length and how much work it will be to edit that long of a fic so I just go in and write a few paragraphs now and again, get scared of the length and move on to another wip XD

I also periodically binge read this bitch because I love it to death even though it’s severely flawed XD

17. Corset Drarry

oh boy, when I started writing this this I was weirded out by writing a kink I didn’t understand and kind of tailed off and left it...then I did kinktober for voltron and now I’m laughing at myself because corsets and lingerie is so fucking tame after that kinktober list and all the the crap I wrote for it XD

18. Music in the Periphery

Emily bugs me about finishing this a lot...I bug me about finishing it, progress is non-existent because I have a clear plan for it and when I have a clear plan I can’t write for shit

19. Saying Sorry (Round 2) (MMB)

I gotta kick that habit of starting over with something but keeping the first attempt and still working on it parallel to the second attempt, because then I wind up with 2 fics too similar to each other to post both and I’m completely unable to pick which one I like more *facepalm*

Also, MMB is dead if I can’t stop turning the next fic attempts into angst, I just look at that big fluffy mess and want to angst it all up

20. scrapped MMB ficlets - theo’s letter

not technically drarry thought the greater series is drarry...torn between making it mmb or making it its own fic for a rare pair

21. Weather the Storm

*cries* my 6th year war au, I have such plans for this, but the plans get in the way of writing =(

22. Soulmate AU (folder name)

fucking hell, this is 10+ files and I’m not naming all of them, current count is 5 completed versions 60k+ each, 1 incomplete alternate version, all of which I’m seriously unsatisfied with, none of which I can bear to delete, all of which I periodically go and tinker with, thus leaving them all wips i’m such a fucking hoarder but also I have never gotten over all the awful comments that were on the original soulmate fic on ffnet before my purge and now I can’t ever be satisfied unless it is perfect and wont result in such horrible comments again

23. Turnabout (folder name)

Once again, multiple wips in here of the same 60k finished fic I’ve been unhappy with since the moment I finished it and keep trying to fix by starting over and changing things here and there to change the course of the story. Honestly ready to hit the delete button with this one unless my latest attempt pans out, liking it so far buuuut I’m a mess about my writing so who knows

In the Ways that Matter was based off this fic XD

24. Dependency 

Oh boy, I abandoned this cos it was so dark I got too uncomfortable writing it...I’ve since started revisiting it after being in the Voltron fandom gave me a new tolerance range for dark content XD

Plan on posting this on anon if I ever finish it, obviously changing the title XD it stopped being relevant after the first 30k anyway 

25. Dependency V2

LOL light version of the above that removes most of the dark aspects while maintaining the core plot, but I’m finding it a bit dull XD not sure how long I’ll keep trying to chug along with it

26. *censored title*

hahahaha omg why is this in a different subfolder, this is actually one of the soulmate au ones only it’s actually a spin off au of the original soulmate one I from ffnet and therefore it’s new ground and I’m less unhappy with it

.....I’m probably going to stop working on turnabout today and work on this instead now

(censoring the name because I might post this on anon because I’m too scared to post another drarry soulmate fic under my own name)

27. Retrospection

Sooo, I’m always on and off this fic cos it triggers my anxiety and depression, but fuck that I want to write it so I keep trying XD

I’m also thinking of splitting the two main plots and only going with 1 and using the other to write another story....see if that eases how difficult it is for me to write without self triggering

28. Sequel to mornings

29. Sunrise (loose prequel to mornings)

30. Surrender

I had no idea what this was, opened it and then holy shit THIS BITCH, THIS SLOW BURN FRIENDS TO LOVERS PIECE OF BULLSHIT. I DON’T WRITE SLOW BURN! I DON’T WRITE FRIENDS TO LOVERS. I REFUSE.

but also I really really really love what I wrote so far and now I’m itching to write more *cries* making this list is leaving me with so many open files to work on

31. day 2 ass worship

32. day 3 sensory deprivation

*laughs nervously* the kinktober oneshots that starting turning into a long fic hahahaha cos I really needed more wips

33. Perception of Angels

*wistful sigh* one day I will be able to finish a heavily plot driven story full of fantasy elements and creatures and magic I made up, and when that day somes, Perception of Angels....or that timetravel war au drarry fic idea I have sitting around.....which isn’t on this list only cos I’m not stupid enough to start writing it

So that’s all the drarry files in my wip folder.... I also have heaps more for other ships and fandoms, but I’m keeping that separate =)

And...now I have some writing to go do, cos after 2 months of being unable to write thanks to the bullshit in my life, I started binge writing again 2 days ago =) and opening a few of these to remind myself what they were has a lit a fire under my ass

[bluerosesburnblue]

Liz Liveblogs Bravely Second: Final Thoughts

Alright, as promised, let’s take a deep dive into my experience with Bravely Second. I’ve done the postgame, not really much to talk about. All it really is is unused dungeons that appeared in Default, but not Second, repurposed to hold missing enemies with a set encounter rate. Game’s been 100% completed besides some of the Ba’al bestiary entries, which I’m working on. (And by 100% I mean all Bestiary entries completed, all item/equipment journal entries completed, all character levels and job levels maxed out, all songs unlocked in Chompcraft, and all Titles collected.) So, now that there’s nothing left to do but hope for the best at Fort-Lune, I’ve taken some time to organize my thoughts and gone back through the liveblog to see if any of my opinions have changed

Speaking of the liveblog, I saved it in a word document when the Tumblr purge happened, just in case, and that thing ended up being 98 pages/53823 words long. So wow. That’s more than the entirety my college thesis paper. Kinda nuts how much I can write when I’m motivated. So now I’m gonna write EVEN MORE

Major spoilers for Bravely Default, Bravely Second, and also Undertale follow below

I suppose I should start this post by talking briefly about my history with the series, since I only liveblogged Bravely Second and don’t think I’ve said much about Default before

I beat Bravely Default about three years ago (shortly before November 8, 2015 if the email I sent to my best pal anheiressofasoldier, who I will not tag as she’s avoiding Bravely Second spoilers, is any indication). I binged the game while at college, because I wanted to be able to play Bravely Second when it came out (...whoops). Around the time I really started getting into the game, indie darling Undertale came out, and I spent a lot of my time bouncing between playing Bravely Default and having Undertale playthroughs going in the background while doing schoolwork/grinding in BD. I learned one thing about my tastes during that time: I really love meta plots in games and the way that they both utilize the system’s capabilities to mess with the player and integrate the player into the story, expanding the lore and fostering the sense that you, behind the screen, really are a part of this story and a member of the world of the game, just like all of the other characters. It is a fascinating story mechanism, and it’s a surefire way to get me invested in the narrative

Makes it kind of funny that the Undertale spiritual sequel/AU, Deltarune, came out just as I was finishing Bravely Second. I guess the two series will always be tied together for me

For those unaware and who also don’t care about spoilers, Bravely Default and Undertale are both RPGs with similar twists at the end. Namely that you, the Player, are a full-blown character and active participant in the world of the story. And also that saving the game is an in-universe thing. Bravely Default reveals during its final boss battle that another realm exists, the Celestial Realm, and when it’s depicted the game uses the 3DS camera to show the player’s face, creating the narrative that the villain, Ouroboros, is attempting to break out of the “game” into the “real world,” and the entire plot of the game has been revolving around this fact. It is also revealed that “The Celestial” has been keeping Tiz alive and guiding him, and when he severs the bond between himself and the Celestial, he collapses and the game ends. You, the player, lose control of the character because he breaks your bond, which means you can’t play anymore

The first hint that there may be more to Undertale’s story of a human falling into the Underground land of monsters is during the final boss of a Neutral run (necessary to get the Pacifist ending and the first ending most people see), where the main villain, Flowey, abruptly crashes the game. Booting it up again causes the intro to glitch out and the save file to show what appears to be Flowey’s own save file. When accessed, the player is loaded into a black void with nothing but a save point. Accessing that causes Flowey to delete your save file (not unlike what Providence tries in Bravely Second), which begins the final fight against him. During the fight, he makes use of Save States to reload you back into the way of his attacks. This messing around with the player’s save data is only the first part of the game’s meta twist. Another reveal happens at the end of its Genocide route, where the player actively guides their character into eradicating every last monster in the Underground. You have to actively stay in each area of the game and kill everything you see until every enemy encounter becomes a blank screen with the message “But nobody came...” There’s no way to just accidentally end up on this route. Like, I cannot stress that enough. Very few people actually see the Genocide route, but its reveal is integral to understanding the overarching story

The final boss of the Genocide route is designed to actively screw with the UI (which is what I referenced when fighting Providence). His attacks change the shape of your action box, where you’re intended to dodge attacks in bullet hell segments, around. Some of his attacks are in the menu, hitting your icon in the text box and the buttons to select your action for each turn, constantly damaging you. There’s no downtime in this fight. You have to always be moving, because now he’s attacking your safe zones, just like Providence’s Bravely Second attack. There is no safe place from damage against these bosses. The trick to beating Undertale’s Genocide boss is to wait him out and dodge his attacks until he’s tired, and then use the time he’s asleep to move the action box into the menu to access your commands. Then, at the very end, you’re taken to a void and speak to a child you’ve never seen before, who informs you that you’ve both been controlling the main character of the game, Frisk. In a Neutral or Pacifist run of the game, this child is content to let you take control, and in fact may not even awaken as an entity possessing Frisk at all. In a Genocide run, however, they get so gung-ho about killing that they take control from you at various points. Noticeably, in the Genocide route, “Frisk” seems to act on their own a lot in cutscenes, something that they only do occasionally in other routes. The Mysterious Child informs you that they are the Fallen Child that the player named in the beginning, and that they also believe that they are some manifestation of... I don’t know how to phrase this. Game addiction? Completionist tendencies? They call themself “the feeling you get when your stats go up” or something along those lines. They ask you to destroy the world of Undertale with them and move on to the next game, where you’ll do the process over again together, killing all enemies and the “beating the game,” over and over until there’s nothing left. Accept their offer and the games ends there, the game’s world is erased. Refuse, and the Fallen Human informs you that you were never in control and attacks the player directly, causing damage numbers to be displayed across the screen and the game to crash instantly after. Booting it up again in either situation leaves you with nothing but a black screen with wind noises. 10 minutes after booting up that screen, the Fallen Human will offer to reset things so long as you sell them your soul. Accept, and every time you play a Pacifist route again the happy ending will play, before showing Frisk abruptly becoming possessed by the Fallen Human

I’d hazard a guess that what takes Undertale from being a goofy, lighthearted game with fun jokes and a lot of emotional moments into a ridiculously fascinating game to analyze is that reveal. The realization that the Player is a character takes that game’s story from good to great in a very short amount of time. Everything changes. And that’s exactly what happened to me with Bravely Default, which suddenly went from a cute throwback game to nostalgic RPGs (of which I have played none so there really isn’t any nostalgia there for me) that I genuinely enjoyed both the story and gameplay of to a brilliant game that I couldn’t get enough of. In fact, I’d go so far as to say that seeing that plot thread in Undertale is what made me appreciate its appearance in Default and hope that the lore there would be taken up a notch in Second. And honestly, I’d say it did. Gameplay-wise, it doesn’t go nearly as hard into it as Undertale does, but I don’t think it really has to. It’s not the same game, it just draws on similar themes, and I think it does that really well with the 3DS hardware. And to the Bravely Series’s credit, its integration of the Player into the narrative is done very well

So with all that said, what do I think of Bravely Second as a product? I had expectations, obviously. I expected to get more lore about the Celestial and the Celestial realm and was not disappointed. I went in spoiled on quite a few things, namely:

Anne is Airy’s sister, and is evil and works for a purple-ish pyramid named Providence

Ringabel is in it. Or at the very least, Alternis takes his helmet off. But it was probably Ringabel

The Kaiser’s real name is Denys Geneolgia

Obviously I knew who the asterisk holders were, since I had a list, so that spoiled Yōko as an antagonist to an extent, as well as a few tricky methods to beat bosses, namely Rev

A general overview of some sidequests, mostly Profiteur vs. Holly, Barras vs. Einheria, and Khamer vs. Alternis. You know, the controversial ones

Tiz/Agnès, Ringabel/Edea, and Yew/Magnolia are endgame ships

There is one time loop in the game. Not a world change, but a genuine time loop

I didn’t even pay much attention to pre-release info for Bravely Second, but try as I might, I can’t ever seem to completely avoid spoilers 😓. Oh well. The good news is that none of them really ruined the experience for me

Bravely Second is something that I haven’t seen in a long time: a good sequel. Good GOD have I seen games ruined by their sequels. Maybe I’m just bitter about the sequel hook in TWEWY Final Remix, which makes it seem like the writers have no idea what to do with a sequel, despite having a rich world to set it in. SO MANY sequels just rehash the first game, contradict its ending to get rid of everyone’s happy endings, or else try to explain things that didn’t need explanation (and explain them poorly at that). Bravely Second completely destroyed any of those worries for me. Everything feels like an expansion of the world and characters, done tastefully and with nothing but love for the first game that it’s expanding the lore of. I really felt the heart that went into making it while playing the game, and I have so much respect for the people who made it

Now, it does hit some similar plot beats, like the betrayer fairy who turns out to be working for an extradimensional being looking to mess with both the Celestial Realm and Luxendarc, but I love the twists it made to the formula. Bravely Default was a deconstruction of nostalgic JRPGs, where the helpful guide turns out to be working for the villain and tricked you into doing their dirty work, and instead of saving the world you were dooming it. Bravely Second then takes that plot and flips the perspective on it. They make the person being led by the fairy to open the Holy Pillar the villain, and he believes that he’s saving the world just as vehemently as the party did last game. Which almost makes him the perfect sympathetic villain, since he serves as a counterpoint to the main party who can understand exactly how he got into that position once the full extent of it has been revealed

At no point did I feel that Bravely Second’s added lore hampered the game, or ruined what I knew from the first game (I can easily ignore how silly it is that “oh all of the asterisk holders you killed last game were actually alive!” because I understand how much extra effort it would have been to design all new holders for old asterisks just to justify their inclusion in the game. It also might backfire for fans of the original characters who’d want to see their old favorites included.) Bravely Second’s lore expansions are only ever beneficial to its narrative. The expansion of the Celestial lore and the Plague, largely footnotes in Default, are turned into driving parts of the narrative in ways that only seem to make the world feel larger and older. Lived in. I can only hope that Bravely Third, or whatever it end up being called, keeps up the trend

And Bravely Default didn’t have the happiest of endings, with Ringabel getting a second shot to save his version of the party, but at the cost of abandoning the friends he’s made on this journey. Tiz is comatose, Til and Olivia are still dead, Edea is alone, and Agnès is left to reform her entire religion while fully believing that one of her friends is gone forever and the love of her life may never wake up. I am extremely grateful for being able to take that bittersweet ending and make it a happy one

On top of the amazing graphical upgrades, which stay true to the feel of BD while making everything feel grander, and the tweaks to the battle system to allow for minor enemy variation and the Another Round feature, which gives some incentive to carefully managing BP consumption, and some really fun new jobs, and I’d say I like Bravely Second even more than Bravely Default! (And browsing the internet, it seems like that’s an unpopular opinion. Dunno why, might be the fact that Second is goofier in its first half than the overall tone of Default and relies less on nostalgia for old RPGs). Bravely Second is where I feel the series went from a neat homage with some interesting gameplay innovations to a real adventure with its own unique world and story to tell

So what about the main characters, then? I’m gonna consider the main characters Yew, Magnolia, Edea, Tiz, Altair, Denys, and Anne, as they’re the ones who arguably drive most of the plot

Yew Geneolgia is the character that I was most worried about when I started playing this game. I was really expecting him to just be “Tiz but Younger” and I was happily surprised by what I got. If the liveblog didn’t make it clear, I LOVE YEW. He is such a genuinely sweet boy, who’s chipper and nerdy and so dedicated to his loved ones and I can’t help but relate to him. He’s like the perfect little brother I always wanted (I love my actual younger brothers but they ain’t perfect). His growth is incredible. He goes from a scared kid singing off-key to himself in the woods to keep calm to staring down the god of the realm of people that act as gods to him and telling him to get lost, all without ever losing his kind and dorky nature. He learns the importance of taking your mistakes and growing with them. His sense of familial duty is so wonderful to see, and he serves as an excellent foil to last game’s lead character, Tiz. We went from a low-class farmer and dutiful older brother to a high-class noble and dutiful younger brother, and the flip in perspective with the lead characters only serves to highlight the flip in perspective on the story as a whole. Yew is a Good Boy™ and I couldn’t ask for a better lead character in the game, especially since he’s not even on the cover of any version of the game? Bravely Second is Yew’s story and it’s a damn good one

Magnolia Arch is... honestly kind of underwhelming? She was marketed as the big female lead of the game, she’s the star of the teaser at the end of the international version of Bravely Default, she’s on the cover of some versions of the game! And I... uh... I like her just fine, but I don’t feel like she really served much purpose. She’s got a nice design, I like how sweet she is and her sense of curiosity as a newcomer to Luxendarc, but I don’t feel like she had much... point? She really feels like she was just there to introduce the major plot point of the Ba’als and be a love interest for Yew. I just can’t think of anything she really contributed to the game besides that. I don’t hate her by any means, I just wish there was a bit more to her than minor worldbuilding, especially with all of the buildup she got

Edea Lee is the person I would call the actual female lead of the game, just a different part of the game than Yew is. She’s the protagonist of the sidequests (sans the Yōkai quest, where she gets slightly lesser billing than Yew, but is still a major focal character.) Also, like Yew, she had little marketing. I really respect what they did with Edea. She was one of the most developed characters last game, having her whole arc where she learned to see the shades of gray in morality. So where do you go from there? How do you keep the character interesting without contradicting or repeating their character development from the last game? And my god did they do it with Edea. I love how she legitimately seems to have grown up in Second. She’s learned to see the complexities of situations and acts as a mentor figure to Yew, while still retaining her spitfire qualities... in the main story at least. Her development is actually about taking what she learned in the last game and applying it to a leadership role (which is what the sidequests are supposed to do, but really fail at in execution. More below.) She gets a different arc that complements her arc from last game, where she takes what she learned and now has to figure out how to apply it to a new role. The focus is less on learning to be a decent leader and mediator. It’s a continuation of her character, and it works really well. Ultimately, I’m happy with what we got of Edea (in the main story not... not necessarily Sidequest Edea, who may as well be a different character impersonating the real Edea for how much they have in common)

Tiz Arrior has a similar dilemma to Edea, and a different solution. What do we do with a character who’s already had a full game to be developed? Edea got a new arc that extends off of her first one, taking it in a new and mature direction. With Tiz, however, they decided that he would remain flat in Second, since he got the development in Default and seems content with where he is, personality wise. Like Edea, he’s placed in a mentor role, which I do really enjoy, but Tiz’s real strength in this game is how they used him for worldbuilding. He’s the perfect avenue to explore more of the lore surrounding Celestials, being the closest character to them thanks to his bond with one in the last game. So what does Bravely Second do? What it does best. It takes plot beats from the original and flips the perspective to give the player a new and better understanding of its world and characters. In this case, they take Tiz’s Celestial bond from the first game and give him a new Celestial to bond with, who is more than happy to exposit on his world and the world of Luxendarc. Like Magnolia, I feel like Tiz is much more of a worldbuilding device than a character in Bravely Second, though unlike Magnolia I can excuse this since Tiz already had a whole game that he was the main character of to be developed. We already like Tiz, so he has nothing to prove to us, and it feels good to see him get his delayed happy ending. Weird, though, how the two characters shown on box art for this game have the least impact as characters, though I suppose you could argue that they’re both tied to the main plot though other means. Other means such as...

Altair. Oh, Altair. You weird vegetable-loving alien man. He really grew on me, actually. I find it really interesting that despite constantly stating that the player is a Celestial and implying that the real world is the Celestial Realm, Altair comes in and almost seems to contradict that. Through him, we learn more about the Celestial Realm and, by extension, who and what kind of entity the Player is in this story. Is he aware of who we are? Who knows! He’s a good avenue of lore that I’m fond of. And if Yew is the emotional heart of the main story, then Altair is the emotional heart of the climax. His bond with Vega is what drives a lot of the overarching plot, and it’s a sweet romance. I dunno, I like Altair. I wish he was a little more meta-involved, and gave a little more info about the Celestial Realm, but he did good for what he needed to be. Team Dad’s good

Denys Geneolgia is tied for my favorite character with Yew and I’d talk about him but I already did and nothing’s really changed about my opinions since then, though the rewritten talk with Anne might need to be changed since she apparently doesn’t even know the player exists on the second loop, somehow. Oh well. I wouldn’t be upset if he was a party member in Bravely Third though *wink* *wink*

Anne is cool. Anne is a good foil to Airy, and my rage at realizing that she’s been playing the player since the beginning of Bravely Default is definitely a highlight. She’s a good foil to her sister from the last game. I mean she’s basically Airy taken up to 11 and without the pretense of being a good guy in this game. No, she got that out of her system last game and is in full blown Manipulative Bitch mode this game. She’s a fun villain to have on screen. Very punchable. I’m not sure if there’s much more to say about her, though. I would have loved to see her interact with the player more than the one scene where she taunts us. Just really rub it in that even though we’re a god in Luxendarc, she still managed to deceive us. Maybe expand on her relationship with Airy a little more, focus a bit more on her status as a foil to Denys. She’s a good antagonist, I just would’ve done more with her

We’ve covered the good, so what’s the bad? The sidequests. I’ve gone on a lot about the sidequests but I cannot stress enough how much I disliked all but the Chapter 6 sidequests. They are so formulaic, and that formula actually hampers the story they’re trying to tell with them. The sidequests are Edea’s spot to shine, and I can so clearly see what they were trying to do with them. They’re training Edea for her role as the Grand Marshal of Eternia, where she will end up facing two forces that oppose each other and have to make a decision about her nation’s involvement, which becomes evident during the Templar quest, which all of these seem to be leading up to. The problem, though, is that they’re trying to set up Edea as a mediator and then outright contradict that by having her just choose a side with no thought of compromise, desperately try to validate her choice as the only correct one, frequently claim that the other side’s argument has no merit, and then beats them down to make them agree with her. I mean, what!? That’s not mediating! That’s not my Edea!

By forcing us to make a binary choice, they completely gloss over any moral ambiguity in the situation, and the epilogues always focus more on how Edea feels about her choice, and not the impact that the choice has on the world as a whole. I can somewhat understand why they wanted to implement a choice system into the sidequests to make use of the second loop, but good gracious does it NOT WORK. And it doesn’t help that at least half of, if not 2/3 of, the sidequests try to make a situation morally ambiguous that really shouldn’t be? Or that has a clear correct answer? And all the rest are just really petty disagreements and none of them expand upon the world or characters in any meaningful way. Edea’s sidequest story of becoming a great mediator to make her father proud and grow into the role of Grand Marshal could have gone somewhere if that was a consistent thread between them and not a concept that solely exists in the Templar quest that tries to make the rest look good with hindsight. They really were the worst part of the game. The narratives weren’t enjoyable and the gameplay was just repetitive. Meet two bosses from the last game, listen to grievances, go through old dungeon from last game, pick a boss to fight, meaningless resolution. Rinse. Repeat. But in all honesty, the poorly written sidequests are my only big criticism of the game, and they’re entirely skippable to the average player. (I don’t recommend that you skip them because they offer useful jobs, but you certainly could if you wanted to)

Overall, I’d give Bravely Second a solid A. It is, unquestionably, one of the best games I’ve played in a while. Which is almost word-for-word what my final verdict for Bravely Default was in the email mentioned at the beginning of this post. This series consistently manages to suck me in and keep me invested in its world and characters. I adore it. I love the Bravely series so much and I’d happily buy whatever they come out with next so long as they never try that sidequest stuff ever again. Ever. (Though playing the game is probably gonna mean buying a Switch. Mmmm.)

Moving forward, what are my hopes for the hinted at Bravely Third? Ringabel’s certainly been teased a bit, so I’d hope to see him make a return. Especially as a playable character. I’d love to see his role with the Planeswardens expanded on and what their impact on the lore is. I could easily see Magnolia returning as a playable character, too, just for that little bit of extra development that she desperately needs and her implied relationship with the Planeswardens. I’d really love it if they brought Denys back and made him a playable character, finally giving him an actual, well-crafted character arc. Not to mention that his ties to both the Sword of the Brave and the Eye of Foundar make him an excellent candidate for the plot that the end of Bravely Second teased (also gives me more Geneolgia brothers content).

Story-wise, Bravely Default was centered around parallel worlds (or space), and Bravely Second explored the concept of time, so perhaps we could see alternate Realms/dimensions in Bravely Third. It would be interesting to see them expand upon the lore of the Celestial Realm, especially now that there are characters aware of the Player’s existence, such as Denys and Magnolia. Having Deneb around could also be an interesting choice, as she’d certainly know what the cataclysm in the Celestial Realm was and the capabilities of the Celestial Beings, since she is one. I’ve seen the idea of Deneb as a party member thrown around, and I wouldn’t be against it. Maybe if the whole party was made up of people aware of the Player’s existence, we could have more Player-party interactions. Dialogue choices in cutscenes for us, maybe, where we can talk directly to the party

I wouldn’t be against a Ringabel-Magnolia-Denys-Deneb party. I think that could work really well. Just a team composed of blond boys and silver-haired girls

I love Yew Geneolgia to death, but I think I’d keep him as a side character. He’s already had his story, though a look into what he did after Bravely Second would be much appreciated. Show me my son who reformed the Crystalguard and became the most well-loved member of House Geneolgia in history! At least give me a good sibling reunion! Give me the hug between Denys and Yew that I was robbed of in Bravely Second!

Don’t undo any of the happy endings everyone got. Tiz and Agnès are happily married and retired, and Ringabel and Magnolia make it back home safe to their significant others post-Bravely Third

I guess I’d also kinda like to see a good Cryst-Fairy around at some point. I like the idea I’ve seen around of the Player having their own fairy servant. That could be fun to play with. Maybe with those Party-Player chats I mentioned our dialogue choices could be telling our fairy what to tell the party. Speaking through our own, personal Cryst-Fairy, if you will. Though again, if we’re still expanding the lore, maybe they could go into the state of being of Cryst-Fairies more. Anne gave us a bit to work with, so I suppose I just want more elaboration on how they’re all siblings, how they feel about being siblings, etc. Maybe there’s a good fairy and a bad fairy in the same game and they bicker like real siblings

Also, can they give us confirmation as to whether Yōko was a Luxendarc native or not? And if not, can we see her home realm? That’d be cool. I’d like to see the Yōkai world please

I guess that’s really it, though. For now, that’s all I have to say on the Bravely series! Again, I’d like to give a huge thanks to everyone who’s read through the liveblog and/or commented on any of the parts of it. Seriously, you guys rock and I don’t know if the liveblog would’ve gotten as big as it did if it wasn’t for you guys and the support you provided. If any of you guys want to chat, don’t be afraid to hit me up. My ask box is always open

So! I’ve been Liz, this has been Liz Liveblogs Bravely Second, and I hope to see you all again if/when Bravely Third drops so we can all get lost in the world of Luxendarc together one more time!

[aion-rsa]

Twitch Streamers Feel Attacked by Confusing DMCA Takedowns

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Twitch surprised many streamers yesterday by informing them that they are once again pursuing content takedown claims related to the Digital Millennium Copyright Act (DMCA).

A quick update about our ongoing work to give you more control over your content and help you make informed choices about using music on your channel, while respecting the rights of our music community partners:

— Twitch Support (@TwitchSupport) October 20, 2020

As the Twitch support team notes in the Twitter thread above, this issue dates back to June when Twitch started responding to takedown claims processed by the Recording Industry Association of America. The gist of the problem is that many Twitch streamers have used music and other copyrighted content in their streams for years now. As Twitch grows, more and more of the copyright holders are becoming aware of these practices and how they may or may not violate the copyright laws associated with these songs and other licensed works.

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Everything has been pretty quiet on the DMCA front since June, but that all changed yesterday when many streamers received an email from Twitch saying that they’ve begun the content review process again and will be enforcing new policies in the near future.

It is INSANE that @Twitch informs partners they deleted their content – and that there is more content in violation despite having NO identification system to find out what it is. Their solution to DMCA is for creators to delete their life's work. This is pure, gross negligence. pic.twitter.com/mhdXU5lEc5

— Devin (@DevinNash) October 20, 2020

The most important thing to note about that email is the section where Twitch informs affected streamers that they have automatically removed flagged content and that streamers should consider those removals to be a “warning.” Starting on October 23, though, they will be processing DMCA takedowns once more and will presumably be issuing penalties to streamers whose content violates these DMCA rules.

Here’s the problem: According to many streamers, they are not specifically being informed which of their videos violated DMCA regulations. So, if you’re a streamer who has been on the platform for years and has hundreds or thousands of videos on your account, then it’s kind of difficult to know what, exactly, you did wrong. Twitch advises their streaming partners to review their clips and VODs, but many streamers have decided to just delete everything rather than risk anything.

As you might imagine, many of those streamers are not happy with Twitch’s lack of communication.

I seriously don't understand why Twitch is so unable to provide documented reasoning as to what rules you break when you break them. There is a giant throughline for years now of people not knowing why they are suspended, hit with a warning, and now what content is DMCA'd.

— Sam (Teawrex), but spooky. (@TheTeawrex) October 20, 2020

Deleted all my twitch vods and clips DMCA too scary To those upset at all the lost combos, there will be combos that are 10x better moving forward

— Zain (@ZainNaghmi) October 20, 2020

Last DMCA sweep I got 2 strikes for the same song, cake by the ocean in just dance from back in 2017 when I was playing it. Which meant one more and I'm banned. I Purged basically everything. And I no longer play copyright music. I didn't get this big email, surprisingly. 😬

— Alinity (@AlinityTwitch) October 21, 2020

While it sounds like many Twitch streamers are fine with not playing licensed music on their streams moving forward, many believe they shouldn’t have to delete everything they’ve ever done simply as a precaution. As we mentioned, the fact that Twitch doesn’t even specifically inform streamers which videos violated their policies (at least in that mass email) means that there’s little in the way of precedent to work off of in terms of knowing what not to do moving forward.

That’s an especially big problem for streamers who never played licensed music on their streams in the first place and genuinely have no idea how to address this problem.

The worst part about this DMCA situation is there is no indication of what it was or when it was. I have Vods from several years ago still. I don’t play music on my stream so it must be a soundtrack from a game. Which is frustrating as I’d happily delete the VOD

— DansGaming (@Dansgaming) October 20, 2020

If all of this sounds vaguely familiar, that may be because YouTube was hit by a wave of DMCA claims years ago that greatly impacted how content is created, distributed, and promoted on that platform. In fact, there are more than a few YouTube content creators who feel that Twitch streamers shouldn’t be as surprised as they currently are.

As a youtuber who has dealt with DMCA for years I have very little sympathy to twitch streamers who have played full on top 40 music every stream for years. They all knew it was wrong and didn't care. pic.twitter.com/7GdO2Szrc0

— TheQuartering (@TheQuartering) October 20, 2020

Of course, reactions like those don’t necessarily account for the streamers who never played music in the first place and are now receiving takedowns for reasons that they can’t quite explain and reasons that Twitch is not conveniently relaying. Furthermore, there are some who lived through the YouTube takedown era who fear that the ramifications of that platform’s copyright strikes will soon spread to Twitch.

So here's what's gonna happen next : (Since I lived through this already on youtube) it'll start with music DMCA's but soon pissy devs will be using the system to delete coverage of their title or discussion of topics they disagree with during play to pull your vods on twitch. pic.twitter.com/cDYfuDTD3C

— Splattercat (@SplattrCatGames) October 20, 2020

That’s an interesting point to keep in mind. While this current situation really only affects streamers, their fans, and possibly their business partners, the messy world of copyright strikes has not only historically impacted how games are covered and shared but have even resulted in some games being removed from digital platforms or otherwise being drastically altered to comply with the thorny world of content rights and who controls them.

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Cinensis speaking.

I created this account that will be deleted in a moment once things has calmed down just to offer an explanation and also as the last defense of my person considering my deletion was taken for me having something to be ashamed of or feeling guilty after recent pitchforkings.

I sure am not.

I wasn't even gonna offer replies to @guardiandae tirade but after they just kept on and on and on. I'll allow an explanation that isn't 75% assumptions.

So here is a list:

- If you honestly believe anything she is saying, I won't stop you. Feel free to have whatever opinion you want about me but allow me to say anyone who knows me even just a tiny bit knows what kind of person I am.

- I have never yelled enough time already that I was never against NSFW artists. I have NSFW artist friends, me being Ace change nothing about that and guardiandae and I even made post in the pasts talking about that very thing. ( but of course she ain't saying that lol.) I explained myself like 3467532 times already. Not liking that content DOESN'T equal disliking the people making it.

- ( that one made me laugh because the accusation was so ridiculous.) The eclipse AU was turned into Zenith because I was looking to made an original story since a WHILE for portfolio purpose and my own friends came to me telling me potential ideas, which then developped the story in a completely different direction. ( Zenith and the eclipse au are nothing alike aside for Sola's design. That's it. ) it has ZERO to do with Doon's and Myself's parting.( but yeah let's use that to further your shitty agenda.)

- I don't take out my wrongs in situations and Doon and I parted ways because I was not in a right place emotionally because of hormonal therapy, which left me extremely distressed and unstable BECAUUUUSE of therapy ( ya know totally reconstructing your hormonal system is bound to have side effects.( one I was being followed for by my endocrinologist.) Some people dealt perfectly with it and understood while others didn't. So I knew when to leave them the fuck alone because I was being a royal pain the ass, but I can safely say now it's all over with and I am doing juuuuuuuust fine.) However my hormonal therapy side effect ain't a damn excuse and I know I hurt some people ( unintentionally.) but USING THAT BY SAYING I PURPOSELY GO AROUND EATING PUPPIES FOR BREAKFAST and that I am a manipulative bastard/someone who use people is just...so incredibly wrong and shitty I have no words. Taking the 3-4 people I had arguments with out of the 14 000 is laughable...( and arguments do happens. No one is perfect.)

- There is only shitty people that use all past arguments between people WHO HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH US to use for your arguments.

- Your own friends wouldn't come to me saying you are taking this way too seriously and way too far if you were in the right, dae.

- You totally assumed I purged you off my blog when I explained I purged my blog of anything not having to do with art or general gifsets and pictures because I had Hiveworks guidelines to follow and since the Tumblr is linked to it: I deleted most of my blog's content that was just replies to people or even my own posts lol. Like I said: you totally made this about you and turned this into some kind of insult against you when it had nothing to do with you. NOTHING.

- if anyone was ever hurt by anything I said or did: they are welcomed to come talk to me on instagram if they wish so. I'll promptly apologize and explain whatever needs explaining. I assure it's never my goal to hurt anyone.

- random anons are NEVER a valid source of anything Dae. You should know better.

- THIS WHOLE ARGUMENT HAS NO PLACE IN PUBLIC. THIS ISN'T HIGH SCHOOL. Gosh...

- it's been an entire year since we last talked. Find yourself a hobby, go out , breath some fresh air.

- When you responded with all the hatred and rage in the world to me at me , I was right smack in the middle of my little sister's birthday party. It sure was merry afterward lemme tell you...which is why I just deleted everything. I had no more patience left.

- If peopke ask why " all artists are leaving Tumblr" this is why. This senseless pitchforking for personal shits or arguments.

- like I said previously : believe whatever you want to believe. You can't be liked by everyone...but at least I'll give a chance to clean my slate . I don't even want people to side with me here. I just want this to be over.

- I won't be back on Tumblr , ever. Do a party Dae for all I care while I'll celebrate with my own peoples who genuinely care and never backstabbed anyone because they had nothing better to do.

- do yourself a favor and go to your friends, talk about cows, fangirl about stuffs, enjoy life, if I am suuuuuch a bad person, the best thing you can do for yourself is to enjoy your own life.

Sincerely

The last post written by cinensis on here.