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asunachinadoll · 4 years ago

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initial thoughts on chapter 13

AJFDLSDLSLJ;AJFL YOU GUYS THE TIME IS HERE!!! It is that time of the week again and VERY BIG THINGS ARE HAPPENING

Seeing the thumbnail of the episode, I freak out

ALS;HDFLDSKJGLDHLJS OMG!!!!!! AHSOKA!!!!!!!!!!

SK;HGSKGJGLAGSJF

L;ASHGLKSJFL;HGLASKDHG;LSHSA;LKLSDGHSDL

SHE’S SO COOL

MR. FILONI IS REALLY SPOILING US AND WE’RE NOT EVEN THREE MINUTES IN

SHE’S SOOOOO COOOLLLL

HER WHITE SABERS

HER OUTFIT

SHE’S SO BEAUTIFUL AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Ahsoka: stealth mode engaged

Yesss my boysssssss

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, but I love how much Din talks to baby... so precious 🥰🥰🥰

I love how when they’re just flying, Baby sits up front with Dad

“Hey, what did I tell you? Back in your seat.” *begrudgingly listens* --> Hahaha classic dad and child move

Aww baby looks so solemn... does he know what’s about to happen?

The planet looks very monochromatic

The Amban rifle is back!!!

SACK BABY

When that one guy says, “Nice armor” and Din slightly shifts his vambrace to cover up Baby

Din’s stance

This poor town... Din’s gotta be getting some sus vibes

Din shifting his bag so that Baby is hidden by his cloak!! TvT

Beskar spear? Hmmm....

Din just totally making their preposition work for him XD

“I keep it around for luck.”

I like the scenery of this planet... just a bunch of barren trees all over the place

OMG AHSOKA DROPPING OUT OF THE SKY LIKE A DROP BEAR

DIN USING HIS VAMBRACES TO DEFLECT THE SABERS

THIS WHOLE FIGHT SCENE

Ahsoka’s little smile omg Im love her

When she sees Baby 👀👀👀

Ahsoka and Baby with the backdrop of the moon!!

Nervous Dad Pacing

They be talkin through the Force!!

L;AHGSDJGLGHAS;KJ; A OMGGG

GROGU

DID WE JUST GET BABY’S NAME!??!?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Din’s reaction to learning the baby’s name!!!

When Din says his name and he TURNS TO LOOK AT DAD 😭😭

GROGU BACK STORY

Sleepy babe TvT

WHEN DIN SETS BABY ON THE ROCK AND HIS LITTLE PAT TO GROGU’S BACK AWWWWW

“He doesn’t understand.” DIN YOU LITERALLY TALK TO BABY ALL THE TIME HE UNDERSTANDS YOU

Omg Din’s little nod of encouragement

AWWW Grogu’s little hands!!!

“That would be a first.” Omg such a parent thing to say lolol

“I told you, he’s stubborn.” Aww Din don’t be like that. Just give him a second!

YESSS!!! I love Din squatting with the little knob shifter! That’s more like it!

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW DIN’S IMMEDIATE WORDS OF ASSURANCE TO GROGU AND BEING A SUPER PROUD DAD IM SOB 😭😭😭😭

Now Din’s all “What!?! My son Grogu is the best and deserves to be trained!!”

“I’ve seen what such feelings can do to a fully trained Jedi Knight. To the best of us.” Oh... oh my heart.... 😢😢

Nice to hear Din just list off the threats the Magistrate has. He’s very observational like that.

Ahsoka’s smile!!!

“A Mandalorian and a Jedi? They’ll never see it coming.” AHH I LOVE IT

AHSOKA IS SO FREAKIN COOL

Love the visual of the bell being sliced in half

Getting major samurai/saving the village/epic stand-off vibes throughout this whole episode and it’s amazing

OMG THE VISUAL OF DIN AND AHSOKA STANDING IN THE BACK IS SOOOOO GOOD

Din talking to these bad guys is so funny cause he’s like... casually vague XD

Ahsoka fight!!! She’s definitely holding back though... I wonder if she just doesn’t want to bother wasting energy on her lolol

Thrawn name drop!!! :O

“Wait here, I’ll go get him” DIN SOUNDS SO SAD 😭😭😭

Ahsoka’s face, omg she knows she can’t separate father and son

AWWW DIN LOOKING AT SLEEPING BABY MY HEART

DIN IS SO SAD IM GONNA CRI

Grogu’s like nah man and goes back to sleep

AWWWWWWWWW THEY’RE SITTING TOGETHER OMGGGG

DIN IS BEING SO SOFT AND AFFECTIONATE WITH GROGU I CANT HANDLE THIS

And they’re still together!!! Best ending TvT

AHHH SO MANY THINGS IN THIS EPISODE!!! Really enjoyed this one, and so glad to see my girl live action! I’m still nervous as to what’s to come but only time will tell

#the mandalorian #the mandalorian chapter 13 #the mandalorian spoilers #din djarin #baby yoda #grogu #ahsoka tano #chinadolltalks

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mynameseri · 4 years ago

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Okay you know why I am here....GIVE ME 1-20 ON ERIGAWA!!!! Or pick your top 5 fav questions if you've already answered some of the questions hehe I just LOVE ERIGAWA!!! YALL ARE SO CANON <333

THE WAY I JUST LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH. YOUR SUPPORT FOR ERIGAWA IS UNREAL!!!!!!!!!!🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I CANT EXPRESS HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO ME!!!! 😭😭😭 ERIGAWA IS SO CANON (AND CAMPIKA AND CAMZAI ARE ALSO CANON AF)

The way I am doing ALLLLLL of theses I haven’t done yet. Eternal brain rot UNDER THE CUT cause I’m about to pop the fuck off entirely for myself!!🥰🥰🥰

1. Who talks more?

So we both talk A LOT. We seriously never shut the fuck up. 😂 But Akutagawa talks more than I do, especially in social settings. He’s able to strike up a conversation with almost anyone (we love a charismatic king)! I love to hear him talk though, so I just get lost in his words all the time. Whenever I say anything he always has something thoughtful to say in response to it. He truly cares when I talk and he’s so helpful with his responses. 🥺

2. Who made the first move?

3. The favorite physical attribute of your partner?

LITERALLY EVERYTHING HOW CAN I JUST CHOOSE ONE!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍 Everything about Akutagawa makes me so weak. I love his beautiful gray eyes and his sharp nose. His SMILE MAKES MY HEART MELT like damn baby are you trying to kill me!!!!!! I love his slender yet muscular figure. I just want to be in his arms all the time!! They were meant to hold me always!😫😫😫🖤🖤🖤🖤

4. What’s your favorite personality trait they have?

I love his bluntness. 👀 He’s not the type to beat around the bush or be passive aggressive. He’s super up front and it helps keep me in check and make sure we are always communicating well in our relationship. In the beginning he was more reserved, but once he opened up to me he started being vocal about his feelings, needs, etc. It’s also so attractive to see him just be so blunt it could almost be seen as rude to randoms or people he works with. 😂 He does not mess around - it’s sOOOOO HOT!!!!!!🤤

5. What’s your partner’s favorite physical attribute you have?

Akutagawa loves how small I am.😂 He’s constantly making comments about my height and teasing me when I can’t reach things in the house. 😔 He loves to call me his petite little princess. 💞🥰 He’s frequently trying to compare hand sizes, always using it as an excuse to hold my hand afterwards (SO FREAKIN CUTE I JUST LOVE THIS MAN SO MUCH!!). He loves to see me wear his clothes cause they’re so loose and long on me, I’m practically drowning in them but he thinks I look so perfect. He never stops staring!! He totally has a size kink LOL.

6. What’s their favorite personality trait you have?

Akutagawa admires my sweetness.🥺🥺🥺 He thinks I have such a big heart and he wants to protect it with his entire being! He can’t believe how nice I am to people I don’t even know and he always tells me he can just feel that it’s genuine too, since he knows me so well. He thinks it’s an amazing trait, but he’s always telling me to be careful and take care of my own needs too. He’s very adamant about me not letting myself get taken advantage of by others because of my kindness.

7. Who’s more likely to cry during a sad movie?

8. Do you like cooking for your partner or vice verse?

9. What’s their favorite snack (sweet or salty)?

10. What bad habit do they have (that you can’t stand)?

Akutagawa used to love to smoke cigarettes when I met him, which I thought was a gross habit. I convinced him to go onto vaping and we got matching juuls together (couple goals!). Since he has a lung disease, I try my best to get him to vape less and hopefully quit eventually, but he has to make that decision his own! Other than that he doesn’t really have any habits I can’t stand.

12. One thing they’d consider your bad habit?

Akutagawa hates that I bite my nails. He knows it’s because of my anxiety and he tries to be understanding but he really doesn’t like it at all. He thinks it’s gross and he tells me there’s no need for things like that. He’s mad because he thinks I have such cute, small hands and he hates to see the hangnails and messed up nails. So he’s always paying for me to get my nails done and keep them looking good, anything to stop me from biting them! He’s so thoughtful. If he ever catches me like biting at my nails he gently swats my hand and tells me to stop and asks me if there’s anything going on that’s making me anxious.

13. How much time do you spend together?

14. How long have you been together?

It feels like we’ve been together forever! Hehehe but I’ll leave the actual number up to your imagination. Time is just a number!! We’ll be together for the rest of time & forever more, which is what matters most to me 💞

15. How long did it take before you moved in together (if you live together)?

Only a few months! We both had our own places, but we spent so much time together it just didn’t make sense to be living separately! We both hated sleeping alone so we spent almost every night together since our first date. 🥺 Eventually we decided we should just live together to keep things simple and not be spending so much time driving back and forth to each others places when we can just live together instead!!

16. How was your first kiss and who’s the better kisser?

OMG our first kiss was like movie magic perfect!! It was so soft and passionate, underneath the moonlight and stars on the balcony of his condo. We were just talking and he pulled me in and kissed me, talking about how he had been waiting months for this moment. His lips felt like heaven against mine. 🤤🤤🤤🤤 I’d say he’s the better kisser. But if you ask him he’s going to say I am! He loves my kisses so much and I literally can’t get enough of his either. He’s perfect! 😫😫😫💞💞💞💞

17. Favorite way to cuddle and relax together?

18. Who said “I love you” first and how’d the person hearing it react?

19. What’s your favorite kind of music is there’s the same as yours?

My music taste varies but it’s usually a mix of EDM, Pop, R&B, Alternative & Emo, whatever sounds good to me in the moment. He has a similar music taste, liking a little bit of everything, but we both HATE country music HAHAH thank god for that. Some of our favorite music groups are the Neighbourhood and The Weeknd. We both vibe SO hard with them. I remember telling him how much I loved them and his eyes lit up instantly and it just made us fall even harder for each other. We started sharing music & making playlists for each other and now we have like all the same favorite songs and they’re all just tied to our relationship memories. It’s the cutest thing ever! 🥺🌸✨

20. Who’s the more romantic one and how do they show it?

Surprisingly, Akutagawa is more romantic than I am. 😳 I tend to just be very vocal and physical with my love and praise towards him, but he branches out with expressing his love. He’s always texting me to check up on me during the day, calling me if he misses my voice, leaving me notes around the house or in my purse/car where he knows I will see them. 🥺 He’s a hopeless romantic since he’s never felt this way about anyone before. I absolutely love it and try to do more for him to reciprocate the love. 🥰

#EriGawa #eri.answers #selfship.ask.game #I LOVE CAM SO MUCH #I REALLY WENT AND WROTE ENTIRE PARAGRAPHS FOR EACH ANSWER CUZ I WAS FEEEELIN THIS

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fredweesleyismyslut · 5 years ago

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requested: hey, could you do one where the reader finds one or both of the weasley twins walking around the muggle world all confused and lost and since they knew each other from school they show them around the city and it ends in some port of romance. it’s just super fluffy story

A/N: I’m sorry I haven’t been able to get to my requests as fast as I wanted to. I had a lot going on lately and I just started a new job so I’m trying to get used to my new current schedule and trying to get work done. I’ll try and get to my other requests as fast as I can I did this one because it was the most recent one so it was at the top of my list but I promise I’ll get to the other ones so please don’t be mad at me. Anyways, I really hope you guys like thissssss!! I love you all:)))

You were waiting at a bus to get ready to go hang out with one of your friends. They were a friend of yours since childhood, although they didn’t go to Hogwarts you loved being around them. The muggle world was your home at heart, as much as you loved Hogwarts. Sitting on the bench you had your earphones in, listening to your favorite song and softly mouthing the words. Looking up to see if the bus was nearly arriving, you looked around to see a pair of bright red hair. The red hair seemed oddly familiar, but you highly doubted it would be what you were suspecting. Putting aside the thought that it could possibly be anyone you knew you went back to your music until you heard a familiar voice shout, “Oi, Fred, you sure we’re going the right way?!” Shooting your head up, you looked back to where you had previously seen the redheaded boys. They were now across the street and walking past a store near you. “I’m quite sure, mate. I mean we got this map.” he sighed, defeated,”Why do all muggle stuff have to be so confusing? Even their maps are made weird.” You chuckled to yourself as you stood up, “Hey, maybe I can help read that ‘muggle’ stuff.” Fred’s head shot up, “Muggle? We didn’t...Oh hey, y/n” he said slightly surprised as he grinned. George smiled along too, as he waved. “That’d be great we’re utterly lost, because of someone.” Fred punched his brother’s shoulder with a soft glare. Giggling you took the map, “So, where are you heading?” “We’re trying to find this store, it’s suppose to sell muggle antiques.” You held back the question of why they were trying to find muggle antiques and instead looked at the map. It was odd, since you’ve never had to look at a map to get around your town. “Well, I think I know just the store you might be looking for, but we’re not going to be needing this.” You folded the map back nicely and gave it back to the boys. Motioning for them to sit next to you, you sat down. “So, what brings you out here?” George asked. “I live near here, but I came out to go see my friend at a nearby cafe.” They nodded as they shared a mischievous grin, “Care if we tag along? I’m afraid we might get lost again.” Nodding, you pointed down the street at the bus, “That’s what we’re taking to get down there. It’s only a short 15 minute ride.” They nodded, as they stood up to get in with you. Realizing that they probably didn’t have enough muggle money since they weren’t planning on riding a bus, you told the driver, “Three people.” as you paid the amount due. The twins looked confused, like lost puppies, as they followed behind you. Getting a seat in the way back you sat between the twins. They looked amused as they looked out the windows, “Is your friend a muggle too?” Fred asked, looking at you with his soft brown eyes. His eyes always seemed to have a gleam of joy in them, as if he was always ready to tell a joke or have a good laugh. “Yeah, we’ve been friends since we were babies.” Oh shit, you thought, realizing that you hadn’t told your friend you were bringing two boys along, that she’s never met. The cafe was nearby, so you got up alerting the boys that they were getting off here. Walking out you saw your friend through the cafe window. She got up from her seat and waved excitedly. Joy built up in your chest, it had been a while since you had hung out since most of the year you lived at Hogwarts. The boys followed behind as you fast walked into the store and ran up to hug your friend. She hugged so hard, it blew the air out of you. “C-can’t breath.” you muttered, as she let go of her grip. “Ummm...I found them on the way here but this is Fred and George they’re my friends from school.” Your friend looked up, clearly bewildered, as she looked from the twins back to you. “Hey, how are ya?” Fred asked, breaking the silence. Your friend’s mouth twitched slightly as she forced herself into a smile, “I’m great. So, are you guys in the same grade?” You nodded, “Yeah, we have some classes together.” Looking at the boys you smiled, “How about you guys sit down, I’ll order the stuff.” Fred nodded, “It better be good or I’m holding you to another meal y/l/n.” You chuckled, “Don’t even worry I’ll blow your socks off, Weasley.” He smiled as he winked towards you as you walked off to get the food and drinks. “Sooooo...who is he?” your friend asked, wiggling her eyebrows suggestively. You elbowed her, “It’s nothing like that they’re just school friends.” you bit your lip softly before adding, “Also, I’m sorry. I know it was suppose to just be us because we haven’t met in a while but they were lost and-” She cut you off before you could finish the sentence, “It’s completely fine, a friend of yours is a friend of mine. I know you wouldn’t have brought them here unless it was urgent.” Hugging her you swayed her slightly, “You’re the best. You know I love you right.” She laughed softly, “Ugh, don’t get all gushy now. Of course I’m the best and of course you love me because I wouldn’t have it any other way.” You ordered some small cakes and a couple of fancy teas, with the exception of your friend getting coffee. Bring the items back you placed the cakes in front of the boys and talked, so that they could get accustomed to your friend.

Afterwards, you walked out the door with the boys to find the antique shop they had come for along with your best friend. Walking in, the bell on the door jingled, to show a small store with old items. Lots of the items were very dated but you felt the odd feeling of warmth in the store. A old lady came out to the front as she smiled, “Can I help you with anything?” You smiled politely and shook your head. The twins looked around softly bickering as they usually did with the occasional elbowing, as you walked with your friend. Suddenly, a hand grabbed your elbow, “He seems like a nice guy, that Fred.” “Yeah he is, and they’re crazy funny.” you said, thinking back to all the pranks they had pulled and one prank they had pulled on you, that you were still planning to get them back for. “Well, he seems crazy into you.” Your heartbeat picked up a notch as you giggled nervously, “That’s crazy, he’d never. I mean I’ve thought about it but he’s...he’s not into me like that.” Your friend slapped your arm softly, “Shut up, you’re gorgeous. Why wouldn’t he be?” she looked at you sternly as she finished, “Have you seen the way he looks at you?” You looked down the aisle seeing the two redheads, they were so tall that they nearly reached the top of the shelves. Fred glanced over and as he met your eyes he smiled, waving slightly before being whacked in the arm by his brother. “I don’t know he-” She grabbed your shoulder, “He looks at you like you have rainbows shooting out of your ass and as if you were Jesus Christ himself walking on earth. That’s how he looks at you.” Your face felt as if it was burning with all the seven fires of hell as you glanced in Fred’s direction and back at your friend. “He’s the guy you were talking about last year that you were into right? The one that played that crazy prank on you, but felt bad and brought you chocolate.” You nodded at her questioning, Fred had pranked you with his brother last years Christmas but felt bad and brought you chocolate that evening and sat in the common room next to the fireplace to talk with you. Your friend dropped the topic as the boys had found their items to buy and at the counter you noticed a beautiful necklace. It had a intricate design with gold plating and inside was a rose quartz gem. Your eyes couldn’t leave it but you shook away as your friend called out, “Hey, they’re done lets go.” Nodding, you followed out the door as you looked at the things the twins had gotten. They bought a small mini car, the kind from long ago, and a small airplane. You chuckled, knowing that they probably bought it for Mr. Weasley, knowing his obsession with muggle objects. “Oh, wait. I think I left my wallet in there.” Fred said as he patted himself down. He walked back inside, and came out just as quickly. You got to the bus stop and your friend hugged you tightly, and hugged both twins especially Fred as she whispered in his ear. You waved her good bye as you caught the next bus with the twins. Getting off at your stop you smiled, “Well, today was fun. Thanks for coming I’d love to hang with you guys again.” The boys smiled as George replied, “Of course. I didn’t realize all these muggle things would actually be fun but I enjoyed it.” Fred seemed anxious as he furrowed his brows, “Hey, mate, you go ahead I have to tell y/n something.” George nodded with a gleam in his eye as he grinned at you before giving a small wave. Fred rubbed his hands together before he ran them through his hair, messing it up furiously as it stuck up in other directions. You fought the urge to reach up and fix it as he breathed in deeply. “Hey, the food was great but I still wanna hold you to another meal y/l/n.” he said, clearly quite nervous as he pulled out a box from his bag. Inside, was the rose quartz necklace you saw earlier. “ummm...I noticed you were looking at it earlier...and your friend gave me hint that you’d like it too.” You held back a giggle, of course your friend had been behind this. “I freaking love it!” you exclaimed, getting some looks from passerbys as you leaned in and kissed his cheeks. “I’ll definitely accept another meal, Weasley. You better blow my socks off but I think it might be hard to top this necklace.” Fred smiled as he caught your eye, leaning in his pressed his lips to yours, softly parting them them. Kissing your cheek next he stood back up. Feeling the heat rush to your cheeks you grinned, “Definitely topped the necklace, a hundred percent.” Fred chuckled, “I’ll make sure to top this kiss too next time then.” You cheeks heated up even more that he could probably see it, “We’ll see, Weasley.” Suddenly, a loud shout from George caught both your attention, “Oi, lovebirds, let’s get a move on I wanna get back home. Mum’s making dinner and she’s probably worried by now.” Fred sighed softly, “I’ll get going, get home safe, y/n. I’ll definitely send a letter about that other meal.” He winked at you before walking off to catch up with his brother and with a final wave they were gone, leaving you to catch your breath and get back to normal before you could get back home. There was definitely going to be a lot to talk about tonight with your best friend over the phone.

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jamkam123 · 6 years ago

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Women of GoT S8 Ep3

Let start with my favorite: Sansa

Ok first off she is not weak! She wanted to stay up on the battlements with Arya but knew that she would just be a liability up there so she left. I think she was talking to herself just as much as she was talking to Tyrion when she said they needed to look the truth in the face, and the truth is they are not great soldiers they are great thinkers. However she shows her courage when she is willing to fight in the crypts (I have never been so mad at anything as much as I am about the fact that they cut the scene where she killed whites!!!) This moment above was one of my favorites of the episode because is shows their fear, their respect for eachother, and that they are gaining streangth from eachother. They are both hiding because of fear and individually they might have stayed hidden but they realize together that they are strong and brave and that they need to do something and they do. Also I never shipped them before but seriously Sophie Turner has chemistry with everything she comes in contact with 😍🥰

Daenerys

I want to preface this section by saying that she is not my favorite character. Whis that said I think that the reason people think she was useless is because they expected to much from her. The people who expected her to single handedly defeat the NK were not being practical because besides having dragons she is not really that useful in battle, and we knew from last episode that dragon fire would probably not work because Bran was all like 🤷‍♂️. For those who complained that her picking up a sword and fighting was unrealistic and stupid, I would say it would have been if she picked up a weapon for the first time and was Arya level skilled but she was not. It is not impossible that the fear of death and adrenaline would give her the streangth and fortitude to pick up a sword and use it. Even in real life people d amazing things when their life or the lives of their loved ones are in danger (so for me this is compleatly practical). However that fact that between her and Jorah, they beat back an entire swarm of the dead, that gets a little more unbelievable.

Missandei

She stood up for her queen, her friend, the person she believes the most in; this is not a surprise or anything to get rieled up about. It did surprise me that neither she or greyworm died and so I am expecting something from their story line (something other than seeing the breaches again).

Brienne

How did she not die. Don’t get me wrong I love her and I want her to be Sansa’s Queens Guard, but her ark has ended. I thought the only way she would survive is if someone sacrificed themselves for her (like Tormund, Jamie, or Pod). There were sooooo many characters that I don’t understand how they survived and she is just in the long list. If you are in the front lines and never get a break, I don’t care how good you are at fighting one of them are going to die. Ok rant over, I am glad she survived I just don’t understand.

Lyanna Mormont

Ok, so this was bad ass but it felt a little too fan service-y. I have had all kinds of feeling for her over the years but it was sad to see her go. I will miss the way she put Jon in his place when he was being stupid (especially because people seem fine when Lyanna does it but they throw a freakin fit when Sansa tell him he is being an asshole).

Melisandre

I have never been a fan of her but she fuckin did the damn thing. She came out and showed us all that Dany is not the only one with a little fire power. I was a little disappointed that there was no conversation about being on Arya’s list but they did have a nice moment. Also I really like that she went out on her own accord and that Davos let her walk into the abyss (because he clearly wanted to go after her and execute her).

Arya

So if you are still reading then I have not totally piss you off yet but I am about to so here we go. I don’t understand why Arya was the one to kill the NK? I screamed with joy when she did (and I am happy that it was not Jon or Dany) but it just does not make sense. I understand wanting to shock people and have someone unexpected kill him but why not Bran or Sam, who have both been studying and obsessing over him for years. Arya has been studying killing and has been a student of the god of death but it does not add to her story line or character arch. it was a cool sense (amazing visuals) but it just does not add anything to the story.

#sansa stark #daenerys targaryen #misandei #brienne of tarth #melisandre #lyanna mormont #got spoilers #got8 #s8 ep3 #night king #battle of winterfell #WTF was this episode

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timeless-season-four · 6 years ago

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Recap of 3x12/13: HeLa and São Paulo

It’s been a week since the season ended, and we’re having a bit of withdrawal. If you feel like revisiting the finale in entertaining fashion, @only-freakin-sunflowers has one last Season 3 recap for us.

Let’s jump right in, so much happened! Be prepared for some stream of consciousness commentary beause really, whose brain imploded here?

On “The Bad Place” Bunker (Yes, Rufus, this is the bad place.)

So we open up where we left off, staring at Future!Lucy and wondering how we reunited.

Aww, she hasn’t seen Rufus in five years so she just stares at him and then hugs him… I’m not crying

Future Jiyaaaaaaa, she’s alive! In some capacity, at least. Cute haircut, girlfriend.

“GARCIA FLYNN SAVED MY LIFE” I KNEW THIS WAS COMING IN SOME CAPACITY, THAT WE WOULD KNOW WHO SAVED HER IN THE ACCIDENT (BE IT FLYNN OR WYATT)

I have a Headache but it’s all so cool.

“This is the reality where we fought as hard as we could, but our friends all died, and Rittenhouse won.”

“You have things– people -- I no longer do. Hold onto them, Lucy. Hold on and don’t let go.” I miss Amy Preston on this day.

Basically, Future!Them paint the most cautionary of tales.

This Garcy scene is, uh, hurting. (All of them do.)

I have Feelings about Future Jiya and Rufus goddamnit.

This was the part of the episode I paused to read up on Henrietta Lacks, she is so cool!

A Moment On One Of Our Local Rittenbitches, Mrs. Logan:

Also the part of the episode where Jessica Logan made her first mistake, my friends. “Of course I trust you”. Yeah. No. Don’t do that, hon.

Jess, I’m kind of impressed that you’re trying to upend Emma. I’ll be even more impressed if it works.

Oh, oh, Temple’s trying to put her down for it. Yeah I don’t f*cking think so bud! AND SHE’S AGREEING TO IT, JESSICA HONEY YOU DESERVE BETTER (I NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD SAY THAT)

And a mood throughout the ages: “Emma what did you just do?!”

JANE LOGAN JANE LOGAN JANE LOGAN:

YOUR DAD MISSES YOU I’M YELLING. “HI DAD” I KNEW IT. (I called it back when we first met Jane that she was Wyjess’s spawn. Tiera Skovbye makes for a perfect mix of them, too.)

Ugh she is SO Wyatt’s kid too. Ma heart.

Jane’s a magician and Emma’s a bitch but what else is new

Back on our “Friend” Emma for a second, and our real friends Lucy and Flynn:

“The last thing anyone needs in any situation is to hear what Wyatt Logan thinks. Sorry.” I’m cackling cause she isn’t wrong but it’s her delivery that kills me.

Oooooo Luuuuucy. I didn’t like it in canon when Emma died, but if she goes down here, by Lucy, I will laugh.

If it’s any consolation, I’m upset over what they did to you too, Lucy.

Text I sent to my best friend, updating her on the situation here: “Flynn and Emma are kicking the shit out of each other”

Sooooo either Flynn just went down like a sack of potatoes or Emma did. Uuuuh.

Well Emma’s fucking alive so -- you funky little fuck.

On Love and Sappy Shit:

IF RUFUS GONNA ASK JIYA WHAT I THINK RUFUS IS GONNA ASK JIYA I WILL CRY

“I LOVE YOU” GARCIA FLYNN, WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY?

So Anyways Onto Part 2, Right?

Mr. Flynn:

Gahh flashback to Flynn’s family no thank youuuu, LALALALA I hate this

“Emma’s going to kill you” “She is welcome to try”

Jiya thinks Flynn………… :(

The Bad Bitch and The Bad Place:

Oh the bitch is going to São Paulo? Lol jk she’s going to the alt bunker *groans*

LOL FUTURE!LUCY IS STILL PISSED

Side note: Emma’s only alive cause she’s too stubborn to die at this point

WTF THAT WAS UNCALLED FOR WHERE DID SHE EVEN GET A GRENADE – WHERE DID SHE EVEN GET A GRENADE? AND FUTURE!LUCY JUST LANDED KAPOOTS IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA LIKE THAT, EXCUSE ME?

Pre-São Paulo:

The fact that Lucy has a headache is…. concerning

“Jiya’s dressed for action ready to go with them” ... yeah I’m picturing a duck in a hardhat, knee pads, and rubber boots holding a butter knife

Nobody’s coming, babe. I’m so sorry.

Interruption, cause I see dead people:

Yeah and you were an idiot, Jess. What else is new.

“Rittenhouse made me a killer” AND SHE SHOT HIM YES BABE. SOUND THE ALARM, MIKE TEMPLE IS FINALLY DEAD.

FLYNN IS DEAD TOO? F*CK.

Back To São Paulo:

No, no Flynn, it isn’t supposed to happen this way!

BECAUSE I LOVE YOU

May I take a minute to (re)discuss my weakness for the phrase “home”

Oyeeee we have an intruder in our nice moment.

“Our Nice Moment,” or the cinematic masterpiece that was this next scene:

*coughs* Emma that was gayyyyyyyyyyy

LOL IS SHE SERIOUSLY PULLING AN ARGUMENT FOR MERCY KILLING?

OKAY THAT. THAT WAS POETIC CINEMA. BYE EMMA. (And Flynn didn’t even know who she was he just did it to save his new friend! that’s wild! he has some good judgement!) (ding dong the wicked witch is dead!)

Did they just fkn get themselves stuck GUYS

RIYA! RIYA! RIYA!

Jiya, that… that hurts me. Right here in the heart.

“WILL YOU MARRY ME” I’M SITTING HERE TRYING NOT TO HOWL, God I f*cking love them.

Some Closing Loose Ends:

Ohhhhhhh f me where did they land -- okay it’s not that bad AND they unkilled Flynn. We like that.

Are they gonna take in this little orphaned gay boy PLEASE

Hi, I support Jessica Logan and her current decisions. Hilary you’ve converted me.

THE FINAL SCENES:

Jiya asking Flynn if he’d walk her down the aisle cause she doesn’t have her dad and he doesn’t have his daughter I’M FINE, not crying, why would you ask that?

But, but where’s Flynn going?

I understand. And I understand Lucy too.

Rufus I love you so much you fucking dork GO SEE YOUR MOM AND GIVE HER THAT BIBLE AND INTRODUCE HER TO YOUR FIANCE

If that mysterious new woman is Iris, imma shit myself. But I’m calling it now. It’s Iris. (That casting, again, that is a Flynn in our midst.)

AMY?? AMY??? AMY????

WHAT WAS THAT HELLO? EVERYTHING WAS GOING SO WELL.

So, uh, needless to say, had a super fun time with this and it was a really great way to end the season! A big, big thank you to Hilary and the entire team at @timeless-season-three, you guys pulled off the unimaginable with this season. Your time, effort, dedication, and creativity does not go unnoticed within this fandom and especially not by me. I hope to be reunited here as clockblockers for a season four, so we can go on more adventures, learn more new things, and experience more of our favourite idiots together! ♡

#timeless #timeless s3 #3x12 #3x13 #episode recap

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tobesokaylee · 2 years ago

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Happy 15th 💞

I survived the cold 🙏. It was a nice evening all in all but I would've preferred sleeping anyway 😭. Only got like two hours. the shows were super nice tho so definitely worth it XD

Gonna enjoy my sleep later once I'm finally home. But I already know it's not gonna take long until I miss them 😭

i am sooooo looking forward to the weekend 💞💞💞. it's almost here. only a short day tomorrow, thankfully

A lil boy at the dentist called me fat today so I'm feeling really good about myself (he wasn't lying lol and he didn't even mean it in a bad way he was more impressed or something 😂 but still)

Don't worry about not answering, i totally get it. I have to force myself to answer message all the time

I've never really thought much about cows tbh. I live in the countryside, so there are always cows somewhere but those are just "normal" one's ig 😂

Hope life is treating you alright <3

Read you tomorrow 🥰

Happy 15th!

I am so glad you had an amazing time! I always hear good things about their shows and I just can’t wait to experience it for myself ❤️.

I have to say, kids just be saying anything. My niece can’t talk yet, but I just know when she does I’ll have to cover her mouth.

🥺🥺🥺 if you have any pictures of cows, please show me when we reveal ourselves! I honestly love cows. All of them! They are like big cats to me 😩😩 I just can’t ever get over how freakin adorable they are! I want one as a pet so bad.

Sorry for my cow rant 👉🏾👈🏾

Until tomorrow! ❤️

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I relate to the OC so much! A few years ago, one of my closest friends did something similar to me. So now I'm crying. But I love New Rules so freakin' much, you don't even know!

Anonymous said:What happened in the last chapt. really resounded w/ me. Related to Mijoo bc I once did something similar to a friend of mine back in high school- she liked a guy who I was sort of friends with, and she wanted me to put in a good word and all, but I ended up crushing on and hooking up w/ him and even now I feel like shit when I think about it. Like the OC, she was the bigger person and forgave me but I'd have understood if she didn't, bc even though it was just a crush, I broke her trust in me.

Anonymous said:Maybe because I've had a whole lifetime worth of Mijoo's I just can't find it in my heart to hate her. It's fucked up what she did, but people fuck up and let emotions run their lives. Y'all need to chill tho.

Anonymous said:If someone would do something like that to me I’d go full on bitch mode and ruin her life no matter how innocent, sweet, petty bla bla I’d ruin her life especially since it actually once happened to me and just like her I didn’t do anything about it because I was to nice back than but now that I went trough shit I know not to let people treat me as they’d do// hope she grows stronger in the future chapters 💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼

queen-bee222 said:Im sorry but i dont like Mijoo. I've encountered so many girls like her and they have always fucked me over😠😠😩

Anonymous said:Hi Lu, thank you so much for the new chapter of New Rules. I wanted to say that I love how you create the OC's personality in a way that relates to many people. I actually cried when I was reading this chapter because the friendship between the OC and Mijoo is painfully similar to my friendship with my best friend. People think I'm this self-confident, sarcastic, heartless person but it's all just a facade. I'm terrified of people learning how paranoid and insecure I feel. I'm a brick in

Anonymous said:comparison to my friend. She's pretty, popular, confident and lovable. We're labeled best friends, but sometimes she turns her back to me like I'm nothing... To treasure someone so much only for them to hurt you in the end is heartbreaking. But no matter how much she hurt or angered me, I could never have the heart to hurt her. We're not the perfect friends I thought we were. Thank you so much for opening my eyes about her and myself.

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I just read chap 2 of new rule!!! And I almost cried!!! Because I can relate and feel how the oc feels!!! this story really reminds me of what happened to me in the past with my ex best friend!! We both had crush on the same guy and I didn’t know at first she even liked him then being the snake she is, she talked tons of shit about me in front of my crush and then coming to me lying through her teeth saying my crush told her that he liked her and then she caused so much drama for me that I won’t even talk about till it led me and my crush to the point we stopped talking to each other over an argument that she caused by lying and I could’ve expose her ass and make her ashamed of what she did but I just decided to hold everything back in my chest & forgive her, I give up on him even tho I still like him a lot and seeing him is a suffer for me… I don’t talk to my best friend anymore not because of him, because she did so many other things to me and later saying that she’s sorry and pretending to be the most innocent girl on earth!! I was tired of this… ughh I’m sorry idek why I talked about this I just felt like letting it out 😪

Anonymous said:Holy crap, the new chapter for New Rules stings like a bitch. A similar situation happened to me with my friend and this guy I liked. I told my friend that I liked the guy, and she told him soon after, which I wasn't really angry about. I remember feeling so lost when he knew my feelings and I didn't know his. I would talk to her about it and she would tell me that maybe we just weren't meant to be. I didn't find out until a couple years later when he said

Anonymous said:"Yeah, remember when we liked each other?" in one of our conversations, that I found out that he told her to tell me that he reciprocated my feelings. She never told me until I told her about my conversation with him. She said she liked him too and that it would've been hard for her to see him happy with someone who wasn't her. This is where I really connect with the oc's thoughts. How could you put a relationship over a friendship like that? I found it so selfish.

Anonymous said:I think the most difficult part of a situation like that is thinking what could've been. Maybe we would've made the best couple ever. Maybe we would've gotten married or had kids on the future. You just can't know. It hurts like a bitch, and you're just left clueless. Anyway, amazing chapter as always! I can't wait to read more once you have time to grace us with your beautiful words once again 💘

Anonymous said:Can you believe that I relate too much to the OC? A very close friend did something similar to me a few years ago in high school. So here I am, crying. But I loved this chapter sooooo much.

Anonymous said:This chapter hurt me a lot. Cuz I feel like I do so much more for my friends and then they ditch me right when they get into a relationship. It hurts even more when it's a good guy. I've never had a guy genuinely like me for my personality, just for my body. It makes me wonder if anyone would even like me for me, but that notion hasn't been proven yet so. :/ I'm kind of tired of feeling compelled to put other people first, though that's just who I am guess.

Anonymous said:1- WHY DO I IDENTIFY SO MUCH WITH THE OC OF NEW RULES? lemme tell you this...I was bffs with a girl for years, she always tried to be with the guys me and my friends were with, she even fucked the guy who I had my first time with and told me ON MY BIRTHDAY PARTY. The thing is I let so many fucked up things slide only because I thought our friendship meant more than some guys, until I realized she didn't care about me feeling bad because of her actions, she cared more about fucking a dude than

Anonymous said:2- our friendship. I wonder what will it take for the oc to snap, she may try to forgive mijoo, but when you just forgive someone that easily, they don't learn their lesson, they will do it again and again because they know they can do it because you will forgive them at the end. I hope Mijoo isn't the case but Idk... thank you for writing something real as New Rules, really makes you think about things.

Anonymous said:When I got the notification that you'd updated New Rules I swear I've never clicked a notification so fast asjdkakck No but real talk when I finished reading I was genuinely convinced that me and the OC were the same person, I hate how I relate to this story but it's so good!! Teared up towards the end bcus feels ;-; Thank you for creating such wonderful writing, my non-existent soul is blessed (and so are you) ^ - ^

Anonymous said:I am literally on the brink of tears, Lu. I feel like a lot of girls can in some way relate, because at some point, we were all immature little babies who had no idea how to handle ourselves or relationships, so we just flew by the seat of our pants. The way the OC feels and what happened with her and Jimin and Mijoo reminds me of a similar situation that I was in, and for you to capture those feelings so nicely was a punch in the gut.

Ah, Im reading through all of your asks and my heart is breaking for all of you guys :( im legit tearing up here knowing that so many of you can relate and that you’ve gone through such similar experiences. I hope that you have those toxic ppl out of your lives and that you’re all doing well now. I love you all D:

#new rules #this srsly made me so sad :(:(:(:((#i want to hug you all #i want to have a giant group cuddling session with wine #anon #lu answers

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briteboy · 7 years ago

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MORE ASKS I’VE BEEN IGNORING!!!!!!!

GET ‘EM WHILE THEY’RE HOT

P.S. ALL OF U WHO SENT ME THE CHAIN THINGY ILYSOMUCH

Why is her step-douche such a foken piece of shit? omg i hate him

some mysteries are never meant to be explained tbh. why is he so ugly and evil? who wronged him? but also who cares he’s in jail forever now good riddance ugly

I know this is probably really bad, but after I saw the newest molly posts, I thought of that video where the little girl is yelling "MISS KEISHA, MISS KEISHA, oh my fukin gosh she fukin dead"

OMFGFD I DIDN’T KNOW WHAT THAT VIDEO WAS SO I JUST WATCHED IT AND I’M LAUGHIN

i don’t blame u i bet when it happens i’m gonna be like “u know she ded”

(To the previous anon) i agree with you so, so much! In Poland, these dumbass politicians are letting shooting pregnant bisons (?? Im not sure how they're called) become legal. Like BITCH WHAT. Can you imagine??? A fucking pregnant lil' cow getting shot????? I feel Molly's pain on an emotional level rn (sorry if this is too nsfw, just needed to get that outta my system...)

i think this was in response to someone saying that hurting pregnant women is one of the worst crimes but um WTF shooting animals at all makes me itchy but pregnant ones..............nah that’s......nah

it’s ok get it outta ur system i’m here 4 u

the first thing I check in the morning is your account.... you have me whipped! ;|

OMG WHA LMAO REALLY that’s wild. i feel like i’m the only one who looks at my page which is dumb but like idk i still feel like a little kid that no one cares about lmao. but then you guys exist and amaze me with your responsiveness every day and i just ;____________; ily all

hi Sunny. first of all i'm gonna say i love your story and your editing style so much! your blog is goals like literally. i need an advice if you don't mind. you always find such amazing angles for your pictures while mine are so boring. any tips or tricks you can share?

HI thank you so much ;-; sooooo i’ve been thinking about this question the past couple of times i went in game, trying to figure out how to describe how i take pictures. for one thing i live in tab mode lmao. meaning you press the tab button on your keyboard to go into camera mode and get all these sexy angles and super zoom and stufffff. i almost always zoom in super far idk why. so there’s one tip. i honestly just play around with going up and down with the q and e keys (i think?) until i find angles i like. i take a lottttt of pictures with so many different angles just so i have a lot to choose from. basically i try to focus on different things in each picture in order to get a mix of the most diverse and dynamic shots possible. you just need to experiment and get creative. i know that’s the most vague advice ever but really just try a new angle that you’ve never considered before and i bet you’ll get cool results. an interesting setting is also the biggest factor, because certain objects and their placements will give you interesting results.

i honestly want to print out your reaction pic to that one post and just hang it on my wall, put it in my heart locket necklace, stamp it on people's faces, start an email thread with it. i love it.

an add on to the last ask i sent about your reaction pic. i've been looking at it religiously since it was posted, and i dont regret a minute of it. LMAO I'LL STOP NOW.

SAKJDLJKGKSDAF STOPPPP LMAOOO i looked so ugly but that was my pure unadulterated reaction to that question and i trust you all to not judge my ugliness and instead share this reaction with me. i’m glad u liked it that much, i just printed it out and i’m cutting it into a small heart to put inside ur locket ok

everytime i hear cigarette daydreams by cage the elephant i think of a serious case of the novembers like its so fitting and then i get all emo when i listen to it lmao rip

OMMMMGGGGGGG YESSSSS how have i never made that connection before honestly. cage the elephant is one of my faves and i’ve seen them perform twice actually!! i’m watching the music vid for that song now and even that reminds me of my story ;-; i cry

thank you for sending this, and also i cry @ the fact that you used the actual title *dies* now this song is gonna make me emo til the end of time thx

i might sound like some crazy stalker fan but i just want to say you are so freakin awesome and nice and funny and cute and (i can go on forever) so caring! i love your blog so much and all the hard work and care you put into all your posts and followers. thanks for making my day and making me smile so much. you have no clue how much i look forward to seeing your posts and your hilarious hashtags and answers from asks and AMAZING story posts. im sorry i just wanted to let you know ur awesome ily

OFMG WHAT!!!!!! I AM ONLY AN EEL!!!!!! but no you don’t sound like a crazy stalker, i actually love this, you’re too sweet, thank you ;-; i’m just blushin so much reading this omg. YOU EVEN LIKE MY TAGS WOW that’s true love. ily ;-; <333

how do you get your sims' facial expressions to line up with your scenes? I feel like my sims' faces are never right :(

tbh i just use a lot of the same neutral poses...my go-to’s are @helgatisha‘s poses lol. they’re the easiest to work with when i do just plain talking scenes, and often i tweak my sims’ eyebrows and mouths with the liquify tool if i want them to look a bit more concerned, sad, mad, happy, etc., it works like a charm!! i also tend to play around with angles, you’d be surprised how much a different angle can enhance a scene.

Hey smol bean, I'm sent you an ask and now I feel bad that it probably made you feel anxious because you didn't answer it. It was the one about you not liking my posts, I have anxiety too so I'm sorry If I made you feel sad. I think I'm just looking for validation from people I look upto you get me? Anyway sorry again, don't worry about it! Love you!

hiya bb, i know you saw my answer to your original post (and i’m sorry it got some negative attention, i didn’t mean for that to happen by any means) anyway don’t sweat it, and i really appreciate this follow-up message. you didn’t make me feel sad, i just wanna know what i can do. it’s just a hard question y’know. i understand what you mean, i think everyone wants validation to some degree. tbh you can just come off anon and message me, i promise it’s not as nerve-wracking as it seems! ily

How did you make Santi's tattoos? I want some like that for my Sims but idk how to do it

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I HAVE A FEELING THAT MOLLY IS GOING TO DIE DURING THE BIRTH OF THE BEAN OR IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH HER STEPFATHER FINDING OUT ABOUT THE BEAN

WELP U WERE RIGHT ABOUT ONE THING

how did you make your characters page on your blog like that?

uoohhh like what?? i used this theme (monolog) if that’s what you mean aheh. here’s a guide on how to use custom page themes

okay so THIS IS MY THEORY: they might keep the baby and molly might actually carry it to full term, but then the kid dies in childbirth and either molly also dies or maybe kills herself or gets killed later? or maybe she's still alive but just won't speak to santi anymore cause she like can't look him in the eye after all of that or idk?? since ppl were sending theories i wanted to add mine lmao. another possible theory is that the stepdad finds out and kills her but thats TOO DARK omg

TOO DARK U SAY...WELL!!! it’s not AS dark as you guessed but only marginally

If Molly turns out to be alive and raising their kid alone (though from what I'm seeing in response to most questions I think that may not be the route) am I allowed to slap Santi (unless Molly didn't give him the option to help) because raising a child alone is not easy I've watched my mom do it for years.

YEAH i would give you permission to slap him lmao he would be a grade A piece o’ shit if that were the case. i would never ever write that tho because santi does own up to his actions if they’re that detrimental. his altruistic nature, no matter how backwards, would never allow him to do that.

There will be complication with the abortion so she will not be able to carry a baby anymore and she's going to kill herself OR her step dad is going to find out and he'll beat her to death. And in both situation Santi his blaming himself because he wasn't there at the right time... Okay I really really hope I'm wrong now !

I don't even follow your story very closely but every time I see your posts my heart hurts.

OMFG...that’s how u know the pain is real

but like wow my stuff is really so visceral that even my apathetic followers can feel the hurt...that’s real...that’s real my guy

omg!! you should 100% play or at least watch a playthrough of life is strange! legit the best game ever made, its so beautiful. the storyline kills you a thousand times over (much like your beautiful story) <3333

yaaaa i’ve heard lots of good things about it!! my bf played it actually, maybe he’ll revisit it again someday and i’ll watch him do it (i’m only a fan of video games if i can watch them like a movie lmao) thank you btw <3

I am shook and I worship you and your story and you are amazing WOW BYE

WORSHIP LMAO WHAT!!! PLS I AM UNDESERVING...ily tho don’t worship false gods

Do you let Molly and the younger versions of your characters frolic around your main save or do they have a separate one?

UM YES LMAO because i didn’t even know you could have separate saves until after i started the flashbacks lmao i’m...a noob. i don’t want separate saves anyway because 1) it’s too much of a hassle switching back and forth and 2) it gets too confusing for me and i’d be afraid of overwriting one save with another and NOPE too much anxiety for that soooo yeah there’s three santis in my game: child, teen and adult lmfao (fun fact: teen santi’s name is literally just Lil Santi)

I made it to my senior year with 6 A's and 1 B ... Be proud of me too? 😂 Lmao I told this to people and some of them were just like .. okay cool?! LMAO it's so funny but also kinda sad

I AM PROUD OF YOU TOO!!!!!!!!! my smart childrens

“okay cool” UM PLEASE that’s a feat...at my school if you got an A in a class in senior year you were allowed to be exempt from the final. so yeah that rules. ily

#nonsims #saviorhide #anonymous #THEY ARE DONE #FINALLY #EXCEPT WCIFS LOL DON'T...don't hate me #i try

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I’ve watched way less TikTok and been trying to be careful who I listen to, what advice I take and of course NOT watching the videos that say “Your ex is coming back” 🤪🤪🤪 This particular video though, was helpful:

It ALL makes sense why I feel bad and don’t want anything. Why I don’t go for any dreams of mine or why I feel bad to ask for stuff. I jumped at the first guy who was actually nice to me and married him…. Obviously I had been given soooo little by Andrew for over a year, that I was starving for kindness and affection! Desperate for someone to truly see me, care about me and fill me up. My husband was sooooo nice but he’s not perfect. He doesn’t support me in every single area of my life. He’s gotten better and I do see he’s capable of empathy, sensitivity, change and being emotional but I jumped way too quick.

when we were engaged and bought our house, I kept calling it “his house” and “his money.” But people were saying to me, “that’s your house and money too once you get married” ahhh I was super uncomfortable with that!! I found out how much my wedding ring cost and oh I felt sooo horrible 😢😢😢

like, when my husband stresses over us not having enough money to do more things or buy more things, it just makes me frustrated and wanna push him away. Like, I don’t CARE about freakin money or stuff. I just wanna feel better and I just want him to hold me. Men are not usually super emotional like women anyway and I’m not even comfortable to ask my husband just to hug me and tell me it’s ok!!

also, I had to beg Andrew to pay me attention and that sucked. I don’t wanna beg for anything ever again. I don’t wanna beg my husband to stop caring so much about stupid money and see me. Just be with me. Why can’t being with me, even if we’re not rich, be enough??? I know men want to be the provider and that’s great, I support my husband’s job and hard work. I occasionally tell him how grateful I am for his hard work and I tell him I understand how expensive the cost of living is BUT I DON’T FREAKING CARE about all that right now!!

I’m tired of men using me and not seeing me. My husband never yells at me or puts me down. He goes to work, comes home and sometimes tells me about his day unless he’s tired then maybe he’s more quiet and he’ll watch tv with me and it’s just quiet and peaceful but I feel disconnected and all I want is for my husband to embrace me and let me feel comfortable. Instead, I just internalize everything, keeping all the pain to myself. I’m uncomfortable to talk about it all to him. plus my husband would not understand me talking about Andrew anyway, he would assume I still love Andrew and that is not worth it to me to trigger all that. My husband is the one who had to FaceTime Andrew for me and threaten him to leave me alone. He doesn’t like Andrew and I just fear he’ll be upset but maybe not 🥺 I just am too scared right now to find out. I don’t like holding it all in either and I feel very secretive, like I’m lying to my husband pretending I don’t think about Andrew when I know I do. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

I don’t want anymore confusion or drama. That’s why I almost always wanna just be left alone. I don’t want anybody to do anything for me or give me anything. I believe this all stems from being conditioned so long to accept nothing because Andrew, Cody and Jake gave me nothing but humiliation, betrayal, heartbreak, CRITICISM and confusion. That’s what I was fed for most of my 20’s. I never had a guy ever see me or care about my feelings. I felt rejected and attacked at every turn. Obviously there’s no real tags for this post for obvious reasons. #vent

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lupodefae-blog · 7 years ago

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PART I.

So I'm writing this simply because yesterday I talked to someone I have a very serious interest in and after a few minutes into the conversation they said that I haven't really shared much about me. That they didn’t even know I'm from New York and not from here. So I'm writing this at 9:50 because I guess I don’t really reveal much to anyone about me. So what better way to reveal all then to just write??? I don’t know… well might as well start My name is Benigno Agosto III, ya I'm the third. My father and grandfather being the first and junior, but more on them later I suppose. I was born in Manhattan, New York but memories of it at my younger age are pretty fuzzy. My mother is Katie and I get everything from here xD minus the skin tone. My father is Benigno Agosto jr. i… honestly don’t know much about him what so ever. All I know and remember is he is a very abusive man and alcoholic. Which was kind of my reasoning to act certain ways when I was younger and how I cat now sort of. We left NY when I was very young but came by it every now and then just for the trips sake. I met my father one time in my life and called him twice. When I called him I was 8 and I simply said 'hi I am your son' to which he didn’t even remember me, saying I'm not his son. So that was great as one could imagine. I met him when I was 13 and he showed no excitement, no emotion toward a crying kid hugging his dad for the first time. So that was fun as well. Then I called him one last time when I was 20 to tell him how I was, he was doing okay and we chatted for a bit. It was okay I guess. But he wanted me to call him dad, which I refused and explained I couldn’t give a man that title who out right abandoned his son and never gave so much as a happy birthday for his whole life. I feel no resentment anymore, when I was younger that’s all I had but no longer. I have 2 sisters on that side of my family and they are both pretty nice, I see my mouth and attitude comes from that side as well, blessings and curses I suppose xD When I was in the beginning stages of school I guess when my creativity came up, I really liked to draw, I liked singing and pretend to be a knight (which I came dressed to school as when asked to come as what I wanted to be when I was older) I had one friend named Huy. Now Huy was what I wanted to be like because he was SUPER cool and drew REALLY WELL. Like he was drawing DBZ characters in 5 minutes when I was drawing weird trees and little animals in hours and they weren't even good. But he told me to keep trying and I did, my teacher Mrs.Cashmen was my teacher and fully supported me and my like of art and me wanting to be better at it. She saw me as sweet and kind, even though I was super quiet (those who know me now yeah, I was EXTEREMLY QUIET) but other then them it was like I was against everyone… like everyone had something against me so I got into a lot of fights that no one even knew about. Around 3-4 grade, cant remember too well because it was just so long ago I had a major crush on one girl named Sarah. I didn’t know what to do, but I thought a good way to get girls was to be what dad was (bad idea) so I stole her Gameboy thinking if I did I could help her look for it and get her to keep talking to me. Eventually I just felt really mean and shitty and just told her the truth. We stopped talking after that obviously which really sucked. Around this time I was still getting into fights, but I had more friends. I saw Mrs. Cashmen from time to time and she always made me feel better. Huy went to another school from what I recall. But like I said I had friends who talked to me. At this point I gave up on art from the amount of comments about how I sucked and how I wasn’t good, so did the thoughts of being a comedian, and actor, and anything involving art really. I got into more fights, but this time for friends instead of them on me. Because I wanted someone to be there for me, so I thought it would be the same for others. unfortunately a kid proved that somewhat wrong when he and His friends jumped me after school for… w.e. reason. From there I got even more distant and to myself. Around that time suicidal thoughts came into play. Wanted to take pills but I didn’t know what would do anything, I wanted to cut myself but I was too scared of having to feel myself bleed out, I wanted to shoot myself but had no way to a freakin gun. Eventually I attempted to jump off my schools balcony on a Wednesday, I was gonna jump but a my gym teacher came and stopped me, I wish I remembered his name because I really appreciate his words. He just told me about how sad everyone would be if I did do it, family and friends, my mom who lost her brother to suicide. So instead of jumping I got taken to the hospital and had an evaluation right after. I lied and said I was okay but I really I didn’t wanna go away somewhere without my mom, because in that time that’s all I really had. After the event I didn’t make big attempts on my life, instead I just drew, wrote and though about what I would do if I could. All the negative thoughts kind of put me in a weird circle of thinking of myself. That if I don’t hate myself everyone will and keep hurting me, if I didn’t hate myself I wouldn’t get anywhere. If I'm breathing I need a find a way to stop so everyone will just leave me alone… but those were inner thoughts. After around grade 5 or 6 I lost all fucks and just got into fights left and right, and fought back really hard. Suspensions and held back one time for the amount of damage I did to one kid, but never once did I start the fights. I met Cristopher and a few others from my early days. They showed me how to be really happy and helped me get back into art and expression and I got a bit better after that. Crushes became relationships, relationships broke down and I got super sad and hard on myself, then they came to help me get better. I guess those were the better years I guess. High school came!! Well fuck, honestly I didn’t think I would really get that far. Thought id be gone before that. But here I was. I saw a girl who was literally my biggest crush in life like I even took the theater class I was in at the time all because she was going to take it too. Very bad I know but that was my thought process at the time xD I was so bad at flirting and my looks weren't as good as they are now (truly was an ugly duckling) messed that one super bad because I just looked weird and stuff. Had a crush on a new girl who was there only for a few weeks and had to go back to Florida after, but we had a relationship for a bit. We did some stuff I never did before most in a sexual context but nothing crazy. I thought id lose her if I didn’t play to her interests, so I played along with the sexual things so I wouldn’t lose her, I lied about being an awesome graphic designer and got caught lying about that and tried to walk around it all and that kind of lead to a break up. Well earned on my end. But she's doing great which I'm very happy to hear. Lots of relationships from that time and lots of break ups, where I was at fault, they were at fault, it was both parties, and some times there weren't many reasons why it just ended. All around honestly it was fun when it was fun and sucked bad when it sucked. All around alright experience College came and I guess at that time is where I came to be the me a lot of you have met and enjoy the most, so I guess I can ramble about stuff in life between all of the times xD I wanted to be a knight, but no one is being kidnapped and taken to castles anymore and no dragons were around to fight so I scrapped that at a young age. I then wanted to be a comedian and actor and performer, then I was told I sucked and I wasn’t funny. But now I am funny as fuck so to those who told me I sucked can suck it now! Bitches!... Ahem, now then. I wanted to be a vet after that because I loved animals, but I hate school just as much as I love them sooooo that went out the window. Now I'm in school trying to get a degree in Law and Psychology, mostly because I want to be a councilor, because I wanna help people who didn’t get the people I did… because everyone really needs SOMEBODY there. I love dogs, I like comedy and horror movies, even though I scream and freak out I still love the rush of horror, I like sitting at home and just relaxing, I enjoy my friends and hanging outside and going out because I didn’t get to any of that till college really. I like sweets, love chocolate but it makes me break out (what a sad life I live) but I eat that shit anyway because fuck it. I like working out even though I'm not super big yet. I like acting and wanna be a voice actor for fun and maybe be in a game or two xD I hate cats because they are the bane of my existence and they hate me. If its kittens then we can have a nice middle ground. I hate dolls because of my Chucky and a few Spanish movies involving dolls, if you ever give me on I will kick the shit out of it and kick the shit out of you simply because you gave it to me. I hate spicy foods, I cant take the heat, but id try it if you truly wanted me to. I dislike seafood, the texture just feels off, but I can eat sushi!!! Mostly because of the other stuff with it. I hate people who abuse others and hate those who hit women, and if I catch that shit anywhere I have been known to jump in that shit and stop it… even though chances are I will get in a shit ton of trouble or get beat I will do it anyway. I right now wanna start a business but I don’t wanna tell anyone about it because I'm afraid someone will do it before me and I cant risk that, because this business plan is one of the only motivations I have right now. I am called a flirt when truly I just enjoy complimenting people and knowing they are happy and see something good in them, not to gain anything out of it. I have the outward appearance of someone who might model, write awesome stuff, take wild adventures and live a great life with woman and money But I am a nerd in a handsome body xD I play dungeons and dragons, video games, and honesty am super shy despite the mask I wear that shows me being so super out there and up in crowds. I play guitar and don’t think I'm too good at it, I write a lot of poetry and stories… but I hate what I wrote. I take selfies and pictures of things but I hate what I capture on cameras at times. I am a guy who shows so much confidence but really has very little views on himse

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bubblywimp-blog · 7 years ago

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22 July-An Idea of What’s going on in my life

Okay! so i’ve decided to write until i get a response from you guys..or until i get bored.

okay so, it’s been a month since school started..me and Iomhara have been coping well..adjusting to the lamos in our class..well..we arent really adjusting, when the school started me and she used to practise maths sums and study….mostly because of the classes we both had..my teacher gives us a hell of a homework and the math’s one makes really hard tests..my parents take tution tests seriously so i need to study..study hard!

Flashback

Ugh! i am early again!..now i have to wait for some time until someone i know shows up..

A guy entered the door..his name is shaan..a weirdo..his gang was once playing truth or dare and i heard my name being called over..i looked in his direction and saw him pointing at me saying “this is Lara..there the one whose doodling.” and his other friend looking at me..hell that was awkward cause i caught them looking and talking about me and since they were playing truth or dare the were probably talking something like-She’s cute,i’ve a crush on her, given a chance i would go out with her..blah blah blah. not saying that i am THE CHICK but i know they were talking about this stuff cause they were embarrassed when the saw me looking, me being the generous human i am just looked their way for a minute or two and then started doddling again.

so after that incident it was awkward with them..

now its fine..i’ll come to them later

the thing now is he is the second person that enters this god damn classroom after me..its irritating because we just sit there in a really awkward silence.

I was feeling a bit nauseous so i decided to open the windows thats when i noticed the the blue team’s(this team has a real name that is a more reasonable one but can’t disclose it) senior football selections were taking place today..and fuck! thats where he was..shining like literally shining..man he was the first one i put my eyes on like aww..he is just so cute well not cute he is hot af!..we’ll name him footballer. there was also this dashing new head boy he is a goody two shoes..tani had a crush on him in 8th grade for only 6 months that is..he is incredibly cute! like the dream boyfriend..the good one the one who is sweeter than the whole honeydukes together(Harry Potter reference!)..and humble,genreous,gentle, he is every good adjective in the dictionary.but not my type.now guess what?..this guy we’ll call him Lost Teddy Bear(LTB for short - cause he sure looks like one-but in a cuter way),so LTB thought i had a crush on him cause i used to lookout for tani and he well sometimes..okay! i’ll be honest..many times caught me saying ‘he’s there’,’look he’s coming this way’ and all this shit!

and then he started noticing and ignoring our group..i was doing the same.eventually tani got over him,i told you she is never the commitment type..kine of me but more bold i will get bored if :

i find someone new

something bad happens like he tells me to stop,he has a hardcore crush on someone,etc

or he starts looking ugly

i stop seeing him

gradually i loose interest.

btw that Nilay guy did the pineapple cut..if thats what its called..he looks so weird and i dont like it so interest meter a bit low..

now this teddy bear was also trialing..how many things can you even do eh?..like you are the head boy,so automatically you would be good in academics,you play football,you are the guy most girls would want to date..i can tell that..girls are always trying to flirt with him. the next thing that would happen is i would see him dancing and singing in two voices..like literally are you a super being or something??..plus he has read almost each and every famous book series

The Hunger Games,Maze Runner,Harry Potter,Percy Jackson,and what not

i know this much about him cause well 1.he is famous and 2.his best friend is in my class or was in my class he and GQ were really good friends and this guy had a crush on me,hell! he even waited for me..he waited for 3 years proposed 3 times like boy! i dont like you romantically! sorry but i have frien zoned you! and there is no bloddy thing in this bloddy world that can undo the effect! this guiy you know was really good..sweet and totally into me but no! me being the most stupidest human bring on the planet i friend zoned him!..the thing with me is -i dont like people who like me i want people that have no interest in me,most of the time it is like that.I had literally friend zone each and every datable guy in my class..so back to teddy bear and this teddy is in 12th grade now

so they were trialling..alot of people were there..

now back to my pretty footballer!!..my first reaction when i saw him was fuck

i mean how can someone be that hot!!

and why the hell am i writing in italics..better turn it off...its getting creepy..okay so yeah done..

i was drooling over my babe(technically he is not mine,doesnt even know i exist..) when Arya entered she is a fine gal. nice one to have a chat and talk about boys..well she is like did you see? so many guys are trialling!..and most of them are sooooo hooooot!!!

and i am like i cant see them i am lost in his beauty

“which one?” asked Arya

“the one with the red shirt” i said

“the one that blocked the ball right now?”

“yeah that one”

“he looks hot”

“do you know there is this guy in the green house..i saw him during one of those shitty house meetings..and he is just so cute!!!..and guess what! he is national level boxer and a state level football keeper!!..his personality is so awesome!..we’ll call him boxer” said Arya

“uh-huh nice one!..which grade is he in?” i asked

“11th grade i’ll take you to see him during recess” replied Arya

“righto!”

“hey do you wanna see this footballer guy face to face..they may be coming upstairs for changing!” proposed Arya

“of Course!”

so then we were waiting in the corridor which was filled with students..seniors,juniors,9th graders on the left corridor,11th graders etc on the right one..and then he entered..i swear he’s got abs...and he is so tall so cute..so awesome!..of course he did not notice me,of course he did not bother to turn and say sorry when his sweatfull body..if being more specific then- his shoulder brushed against mine..of course still he does not know that his smile makes my day..of course he does not know that he is the reason me and Iomhara eat our lunch as fast as we can..ofcourse he wont come out when he is finished with his lunch..of course he wont bother..

i told my friends about this tani and aki said that i was being a low standard bitch who would fall for anyone fair and tall...but this is so not true,pratham is fair and fairly tall...i hate him.i hate him because he is a playboy.If Footballer is a playboy then i won’t be that crazy about him.

And well Iomhara was not that excited about him(this was when she had not seen him)..the same was with aura..the thing is if my friends,whenever i tell them about a guy and they don’t know him that is they have no idea of his appearance, they automatically lose interest. Plus Iomhara had a glimpse of him once and he appeared to her as FAT! like literally he has freakin’ hottie abs for heavens sake!..but then she came around and is like he is okay-okay..aura had the same opinion. but no! he is awesome i dunno what happens when i see him but the way he talks the way he smile the way he walks even though my friends say he is a bit lanky,i dont care!!..its been a month since i have been into him..! and now that i think of it,i shouldn’t waste time on people who don’t even know i exist..but then again he could know i exist,if i talk to him..but he does not even come out during lunch breaks..

anyway this aki has a crush just like mine..but this one he is a bit different..lets call him Yan, so when i first saw him i was like “girl you deserve better”

and then aki is like i dunno i just feel something when i see him.

like literally! he is skinny, is not even that handsome!..he is even taken!!..i dont think so footballer is in a relationship.

Yan’s a 11th grader,his class is next to mine. so once he was passing by and is asked him his name,very innocently he said “Yan.”

i gotta admit that was kinda cute but still! he is a prefect!!!..anyway after a few days when i saw him again i had the urge to go and say hi so i did he even greeted back though it was with hesitation and Iomhara is like what did you just do,and i am like i wanted to say hi. A few days passed with hi’s and bye’s.Iomahara started doing it too but with a ‘bhaiya’ it means brother. she does this because she wants to make it clear that she is in no way interested in him,as for me i like to keep ‘em confused!..so this hesitation began to slip away and after that he was like ‘yeah i know these girls..so better be good and say hi’

Yesterday was the schools first academic council meeting those are the meeting in which you can complain loads about teachers and the school but no one does that cause the blame would come on you and well i was chosen along with a super smart guy of my class..he looks a bit like jerry from tom and jerry. we arrived a bit early and there was a bit of time left(or we can say our principal arrived a bit late-that bastard! always arrives late and i could not take a last round in the corridor to see my babe-not really my babe he is..)

when i arrived i saw that Yan was also there..our periodic test had just gotten over and we were as usual roaming the corridor when i saw Yan,Iomhara said hi to him and he returned it back but when i did,i dunno if it was the hustle bustle in the background or something but he did not notice me.. i felt kinda bad tbh..anyway during this council meeting i was hoping that footballer would represent his class but no! rather a guy who had his face shape showed up! no literally! first of all i am with all the people who just want to complain and then i need to put on my collar button see that my hair look neat and sit up straight because i am sitting in front of the principal,the vice principal,the coordinator and all the head teachers and then this footballer does not show up! anyway i told you before that Teddy Bear is the head boy so automatically he was in the meeting jotting down points next to the pretty head girl and he is so cute! a cutie literally that was the only entertainment for me! though i think he noticed me and then was like ‘this stalker girl! how can she be in this council! i dont think so she is that good in her studies all she does is crack jokes with that girl group of hers’

and i can tell he and Yan both were dead surprised to see me there. well when my class teacher Eela told me that she had given my name for that i was too,cause i dont come sincere and studious on the first glance..atleast i dont think so i do..

anyway after all those stupid little complaints from people, a guy from 12th grade (the same year as teddy bear) came up he is the academic prefect and gave an awesome speech! like seriously dude you rock!..he was giving us tips on how to study for competitive exams.you know this guy he came 7th out of 5000 people! that too in a really tough exam! and he was keep saying that seniors should be more approachable,juniors should try to seek help from them and all i really liked this point-not with the academic meaning(know what i mean,if you don’t i make it simple for you-footballer is my senior!!!,,so i was thinking about him!) anyway the speech was so awesome! ..man so so so flattered i was!..

anyway his speech ended and then we were allowed to disperse,when i was going towards the exit and looking here and there i caught Yan’s eye and guess what? he smiled,i did not even say hi or make the first move! he genuinely smiled!!! god! if i am able to make friends with him maybe i can set things up for aki!!

and right now i am really irritated on teddy bear like seriously dude! just stop noticing me! i know you do! i feel the awkwardness!

after the meeting when we were dispersing,Iomhara and me were going down the stairs and i saw Teddy Bear talking with the head girl,they are always talking to each other..don’t tell anyone but i kinda ship them

and i can swear in front of the ministry of magic that i saw his eyes flick towards me and then back to he girl!..its bloddy awkward you know!

so thats pretty much and also the gorrila guy sid on which aura had a crush on..aura got over him! like i am so happy!!

and after sometime that animal got in a relationship with a girl named Ifa. this sid guy is always irritated,irritated by anything..he can even be irritated if you breathe! i wont be surprised if he is irritated by his own breathing..its kind of funny to see him like that!..me and Iomhara like to irritate him! especially me !

So guys-actually i was planning to write on how my day went but i was practically writing this whole day,not this post but setting up the account and all and i am pretty slow at things so yeah!..anyway this is pretty much about whats going on in my life right now..i will tell you about my summer vacations in a different posts,but for the time being lets keep it this much!

LaraAngel

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ame-saku · 8 years ago

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Hakuouki Tag Game

[Poll made by shenanigumi]

Tagged by @hades-no-daifuku and @msbeastlyeevee thank you sooooo much sure is taking some time doing this but hey, it’s better to post then not to.

How and when you got into this glorious fandom:

I’ve known this fandom since the game released on PSP which is, around 2012, I believe. I don’t remember tbh. But if i remember correctly, as I check on my load, it looked like I save the game since around 2012 so yeah... Though I’m not a bookworm or into otome back then though I actually play it cuz a certain samurai reminds me of someone in Bleaaaargh. *cough* Niisama *cough* However, I return back to play Hakuouki as I grown a little older and decided to play several routes. Aaaaaaaaand I’m stuck in this fandom because of Kazama’s sudden kiss in CGI WAS SUPPOSE TO CHOOSE THE NORMAL ENDING FIRST. DAMN I MISUNDERSTOOD HOW GUIDE SHOW ME

Favourite character in terms of development:

I’m not really good at seeing the character’s development. But…definitely Souji. As I replay his route, I’ve noticed that Souji was very cold toward Chizuru in ‘common route’ especially when she was worried about him when he was coughing in blood. The colder he was, the more I find myself to dislike his cold attitude toward Chizuru. However, it didn’t last long as Souji eventually opened on her little by little, which I finds myself to love him back.

A character you’d get along with irl:

Hmm… I don’t know maybe Souji? Although Saitou is more suitable to me as I enjoy staying a peaceful atmosphere like him, but it may turned awkward eventually, so Souji is the best person to get along. I enjoyed getting teased lightly, not in sarcastically or heavily however as they can snap me quickly. The more they teased me or making me feels comfortable, the more I slowly opened up with them. I can be hardly open up to those who don’t give me a light joke or talk to me a lot.

A character you are most like:

Mostly Saitou as I’m a very quiet and introvert person, doesn’t shows any expression a lot even if people try to surprise me. I also enjoy someplace quiet where there isn’t a lot of people. There are times I also had a social anxiety. But from my friends’ perspective, I’m more as Hijikata since I often being tsundere all the time like, ‘I hate everyone, I want them all to stay away from me’ although what I meant was, ‘I’m a terrible person, I wasn’t meant to be with them’.

Least favourite character:

I like all characters, including Kaoru, and Serizawa. …Maybe except Hijikata and Niimi however. But I have a complicated feelings about Hijikata. It’s not hate him but at the same time, it’s also not favourite as well. He’s just… between them, but far away from favourite list, I guess?

Of course everyone hate Niimi, who wouldn’t? He’s nuisance and can be annoying in Reimeiroku that brings my blood boil just looking at him appeared in Reimeiroku. Well... it’s good thing that he’s finally dead.

Personal favourite husband:

IT’S FUCKIN KAZAMA CHIKAGE OFC!!!!!! CANT YOU SEE WHO’S ICON IMMA USING?!!!! I DON’T FREAKIN CARE OF WHAT HE’S DONE IN EVERY ROUTE(except his own) IT’S JUST SHOWS HIM HE HAS MANY PERSONALITIES TOWARD THE MAIN SAMURAI ROUTE(except Harada as he doesn’t appear in Harada route, except in bad ending, only approaches Chizuru alone, not along with Harada pfffft)

Favourite route:

Ofc, it would be none other than Kazama~ True there isn’t enough development between them before Shinkai coming. Everyone in the Shinsengumi died and bla bla bla. I can’t helped it but I suddenly love his sudden kiss on his CG truly. I wasn’t really expected to see this ending before. I was expected they’re just become friends and finally respected to each other or something. IM FREAKIN LAZY TO FIND KAZAMA WITH PURPLE WESTERN CG ALRIGHT

Souji route is also one of the second best route. . It’s nice to see Kodou as a good guy in Souji’s route(tho i can’t love him in Hijikata route despite he’d protected Chizuru from rasetsus. But somehow his words in Hiji’s doesn’t makes him a good guy or something) Other than that, another reason that I love Souji’s route is his quotes was so beautiful that I can’t stop playing his route;

“If you agreed to go live with him there, that'd make you a monster. Killing people to try and hide your own pain? That sounds like a fury to me.

And what you really want is to be yourself again. Not a fury.

Or do you want to give up because you're a monster, and just spend the rest of your life hiding from the world?

You're Chizuru. You're not a monster.

If you give up on life, then I'll take it from you before you forget who you were.

If you don't want to die, you've gotta give up in giving up.

You need somebody who's gonna be strong for you, and I'm way too stubborn to even throw in the towel, so..”

I can’t expressed myself in words how much I love his quotes is. But all I can say is, it’s a very heartwarming one. I’ve always thought myself that when the time has come I would eventually hiding myself away where no one can find me. Neither they know of my death. But Souji’s words, however, kinda changed me little by little.

As for Saitou’s route, the more I play it for a few times, the more I enjoy seeing KazamahadacrazythingforSaitouI mean Kazama’s evil side. I’m okay with whatever role Kazama’s taking as. Evil, terrible, bad, anti-hero-ish. Once the character is in my trash list, I can’t bring myself to hate or dislike it.

If it’s included Urakata though, definitely Aritomo. I may not know what’s going on with his route, possible something to do with another war or something(so glad it doesn’t has to do with Ochimizu and all). There are times Aritomo was quite strict and stern(ah wait, I recognized this character before. Who could that be?), and there’s also times Aritomo shows his cute and stundere moment.

Who you’d wish had a route:

Well since Yamazaki and Sannan got route, I FREAKIN WANT AMAGIRI TO HAVE A ROUTE AS WELL!!!!! Honestly tho, cant we all dating other Onis beside Kazama orz. (actually tbh, choosing of all Onis route, I would definitely choose Amagiri trololol) Ah yes, just seeing Sakamoto has a route, it’s a little unfair how Nakaoka didn’t got a route as well

I mean, I like how he can be a dork, but at the same time

A freakin badass.

Just imagined how Nakaoka acted clumsier than Chizuru’s, but when an enemy tried to attack her, he would become her shining knight armor.

Daaaaaaaaaaaammmmmnnnn

Least favourite route:

One of the worstnot-so-the-best route would be none other than Heisuke route. Just as Eevee-senpai’s stated, there’s so many confusing in there and I definitely not into childish, precious and cinnamon roll samurai.

Even I’m not a fan of Yoosung in MM

I have more reasons why I hate Heisuke route but it be best to keep it away.

Favourite Chizuru ship:

KAZACHI ofc. I also adore OkiChi and maybe IbaChi as I always had a soft spot for childhood friend(exceptional for Heisuke in SSL as he’s still looks like a kid).

Top 3 ships over all:

Hakuouki

KazaChi. I wasn’t expecting to ship them harder the moment I got his good ending trololol.

AmaSen. When I play Kazama route for several times, I used to thought that there’s a hint of AmaSen there. Such as he brings Sen to Kazama’s location without protest, and the other one is he couldn’t able to go to Ezo with Kazama/Chizuru cuz he’s worried of Sen WAY MORE than Chizuru’s safety lolol. And so, I was like, oh now that’s a good and interesting pairing there.

But when I ‘watch’ Story of the Shinsengumi of Amagiri’s route, I was completely flabbergasted to see how Sen and Amagiri have a very close relationship. It’s not the kind of relationship between the Princess and the Guardian. It’s much more deeperfuck you Heisuke route how dare you make Amagiri forget Sen True that Amagiri respected her very highly but I believed there’s something even better than that. So in conclusion, They. Are. Fuckin. Canon. Deal with it.

Aaaaaannd KazaSai. At first, they’re actually my guilty pleasure pairing, but the moment I’ve read the fanfics between them(which are mostly smut-ish, yet had a very nice plotline oneshot. And another one’s angsty, which is MY FAV; not just Saitou lose his left arm, he also lose his voice to say ‘I love you’ to Kaza urgh I cried so much that fic.. HOW DARE YOU) Yes yes, I understand this pairing is more as abusive(?) But hey, there are more people(which is, mostly japanese writer/artist) draw/writing these two as a not so abusive-ish.

Urakata Hakuouki

Takasugi x Kozue. His route and CGs kinda intrigued me. Some reviewers say that Izou’s way better while the rest of routes treated Kozue like a big bro or something. While Izou is special..? Umm I don’t know???

Aritomo x Kozue. I wasn’t expecting to fall in love with him little by little. HIs caring/worried toward Kozue was very something. Compared Hijikata though, he’s not over-protective or tells her to stay away from him or something. I like this kind of tsundere.

Nakaoka x Kozue. I was quite curious of him the moment I found Nakaoka/Takasugi CG where Nakaoka is all like ‘TAKASUGI-SENPAI!!!!’. Really, if Otomate ever makes Urakata SSL, Nakaoka and Shiranui should’ve create ‘Takasugi fan club’ by now pffffft. Aaaanyway, back to Nakaoka x Kozue pairing, like TakaKozue, his route quite intrigued as well. There are times Nakaoka acted a bit dorky, and there’s also Sakamoto the COCKBLOCKER. And her Niisama is alive there too...!!!!!

Do you write/draw/contribute to the fandom in some way? (If not, did you want to pass along the names of blogs that do and what you like about them?)

I have a writing blog in tumblr which is, @byaichi126fic and Fanfiction.net. However, right now, I’m focusing on writing KazaSai fics and possibly Change fic only. I also intending to write OkiChi fic, which is, requested by guest reviewer from Hisuru Hana fic. It’s been along time however, BUT her words giving me inspired to write it.

I also have an art blog. However, I don’t draw much. It depends. But, my fav Kazama/Saitou palette color already lost in my old laptop. So, the only way to make me draw once again is I have to send my old laptop to the electronic shop to fix it.

Thank you very, very, very muuuuuuch for taggin me. It’s makes me so happy for getting notice~

Pretty sure everyone got tag already but, again, curiously taggin so...

@amiliephan, @kawaiisakuraoni

#hakuouki tag game #byaichi126 long post

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sooooda-pop · 6 years ago

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Oh wow.

So yesterday at work I got into an arguememt with my ex boyfriend. He yelled at me behind the counter and I couldn’t leave or really respond because I. Was. At. Work. But luckily my wonderful friends D and Sierra came and picked me up from work. Seeing them always puts me in a better mood.

After they picked me up we went to my place and talked with my brother for a bit. Which was also really nice. I haven’t been able to spend much time with him because we work opposite schedules. But we have a movie night planned and I’m Excited.

After thaaaaat I went to a party that Mr.Pretzel had invited me to. It was extremely overwhelming and when I started to have an anxiety attack Mr. Pretzel took me outside and talked with me to help calm me down. Which I’m glad for because that would’ve been extremely embarrassing. >.< Not too long after the boy, Angie and Kylan came out side and we all went to their place.

At their place we got high and watched at really dumb movie. The boy took us to Jack in the Box. I was too high to really remember the trip but apparently I was really fascinated by my jacket string. When we got back to the apartment I got to hold hands with the boy ☺️

After the movie me and the boy went back to my place. On the car ride he told some really bad jokes and I still laughed cause I was under the influence. And when we got to my place I had too much energy and we played with one of my cat’s toys. And I accidentally took ANOTHER hit from my bong. He got a switch and we played games and talked and it was probably my favorite part of the night.

Idk why but I go into littlespace more at night and it’s really nice when he sleeps over because he makes me feel little so easily. He’s gotten so affectionate and sweet and it makes me feeeeeel sooooo haaaaappy.

Also waking up with him is so freakin pleasant. Like I get all of the morning kisses and it makes my day a million times better.

I’m still crushing very hard. Pls kill me. (:

#the boy #personal

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godess-of-the-void · 6 years ago

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Numinetale 7

So Papyrus, Blueberry, Gaster, and the kids are staying in Snowden. While the rest of us are going to the Ruins. Any questions?”

Chara raised their hand. “kitchen knives are in the drawer next to the sink. only as a last resort, alright kiddo?” Sans smoothed out their red hair. “stay sharp.” Chara made a face at the pun while Frisk giggled.

Gaster cleared his non-existent throat. “You can do tests on the Void Dragon SOUL. Just leave enough to make my new SOUL.” VI gave the Royal Scientist a wink.

VI, Temmie, and the boys headed to the Ruins. Sans was feeling a little chatty. “man, this just keeps bringing up memories.”

Red looks at Sans, “Good or bad memories?”

“both? alot of good. but also alot of bad.”

Red shifted next to Sans, “I don't have hardly any good memories. The only good memory I have in the Underground is when the kid showed up and we are on the surface. I mean, Boss and I was until now.”

Sans eye sockets trained on Red. He wanted to asked about his AU, but he didn't. He have already saw the two edgelord’s LV and that already gave him theories about it. Red's testament confirmed most of his theories.

“Guys? We’re here.” VI opened the door that leads to the Ruins.

***

“Sooooo... How do we get closer to him without getting attacked by friendly fire?”

“that is assuming he is friendly. He looks more like you, red. but missing the scar, both eyelights look normal, and he is freakin tall as your brother without his heels.”

“My boots make my legs look fabulous. Thank you very much.”

They been hiding by the entrance to the flowerbed for what feels like a long time. The boys noticed that he looked just a dangerous as he looks lonely. VI snapped her fingers. “Oh Mary, contrary, how does your garden grow?" The tall skeleton perked up listening to VI's voice. “Come with me, and you'll be, the seventh maid in a row."

“My answer was laughter, soft as I lowered my head.” The skeleton joined the singing. “You're too late, I'm afraid, this flower's already dead.” He looks to the entrance. “You can come out. I won't hurt you.”

VI and the gang came out to greet the tall Sans. He wear a red turtleneck and a black and red scarf. A four pointed star dangled in front of his chest. Sans was right that he looked more like Red then all the other Sans they meet. Red walks up to the taller version of himself and lifted his hand. “Take my hand and greet a new friend.” The two skeletons took each other's hand and electric sparks danced around them. “Heh. The old hand buzzer trick.”

“Always a classic.” The taller Sans winked at his shorter doppelganger. “What can I do for you guys?”

“Actually. We are here for you.” Stretch shrugged. “Something about your Soulmate back from the dead but still sick.”

“If that was a punchline it's not funny.”

“We're not laughing either.” Edge kicked a rock. “I personally would think a joke about a dead Soulmate would be a thousand times worse then my brother's god awful pun battles with Snowdrake.”

“Wait. What would you do if her brother's Soulmate was a human?”

Edge looked at him with a shocked expression. “Support him of course! Why?” Edge voice lowered dangerously. “What did your brother do?”

“Killed them a thousand times. Disowned me after my girl sacrificed themselves to open the barrier. Thinking that I was trying to protect them so I can have all the credit of freeing the monsters and stealing his glory.” Tears started to form.

Edge and Red grabbed the other into a hug. “We will be your brothers. And we will support you and your Soulmate.”

***

They returned to Snowden to the sound of battle. The gang raced to town armed and ready to fight. “Chara! Your form is terrible. Even though Frisk is only doudging their fighting stance is on point.” A scruffy but high pitch voice was heard near the skeleton's home. A loud blast was also heard followed by a laugh. “Bwahahahaha! Very nice surprise attack Asriel!

When the gang finally found the kids they stood there with hanging jaws. “Are those skeletons teaching the kids to fight?” Stretch looked at the darker version of his brother. He was as short as Blueberry, but his body armor looks similar to Edge's.

“Chara! Where have you learned how to hold a knife? Mutt! Show them how it's done!”

“Yes, M’ Lord.” A tired looking skeleton in a orange turtleneck and leather jacket with a fur lined hood moved behind Chara and showed them a way to hold their knife better.

Wing Dings stepped out and saw the others, “Ah! You are back. Come. Come. I want to introduce you to couple of friends.” Dings waved his hand at the newcomers. “Everyone this is Slim and Black. Believe it or not but these two are actually two halves of a Gaster I used to know. I used to call him Valium before he split in half.”

“Bwahahaha. So you are Wing Dings friends, huh?” Blackberry shook everyone's hand, “Sorry we wouldn't be any help for your SOUL. Our LV is too high for use to be Judges even when we were Gaster.”

VI smiled at the small version of Edge. “That is alright. We are happy to have you as allies. Were you training the kids?”

“If Fell is here I wanted the kids to defend themselves. Even if our Underground is similar to Fell's, we don't use kids the way that creep does.” Blackberry and Slim's eyelights flashed in anger. “We don't do that kind of shit to kids.” Red and Edge nodded in silent agreement.

“Thank you. Very much.” VI glanced at her friends and returned her attention back to the newcomers. “I appreciate your help with teaching the kids to defend themselves.”

“Welp. M’ Lord and I have to go.” Slim made a low bow to the female skeleton. “Fell hasn't figured out that we are Valium split into two different individuals.”

“And we would like to keep it that way till you free those other guys from the True Labs.” Black grabbed Slim by the collar and Slim teleported the two of them out of town.

***

“At least we got a clue on where to look for the others.” VI glaced around her and the group. Scanning the area for potential danger.

“I can't believe gaster have friends that are playing double agents.” Sans whispered. He didn't even wanted an Echo Flower to even hear what he was saying. “according to gaster we may have more allies then we know.”

“Oh! Do tell!” A sharp gagged bone shot out of the ground. VI and the others did a quick dodge. “Awwe. Missed.” A Sans with a red eye and fractured skull came out of the shadows, followed by a Papyrus with blooded teeth.

“Hue. Blood and Teeth. So unpleasant to meet you.” VI teleported in front of Blood. “Though, to be honest I don't think I hate you. If anything else I hate your Queen Undyne. Especially when she gave you that hole in your head.” VI brought out two containers of food from her inventory. “Hot cat and spaghetti?”

***

“I can't believe you bribed them with food!” The tall Sans, that everyone decided to call Love, was shaking his head in disbelief.

“They are from an AU where they are starving. Starving so bad that they were eating humans and was driven to insanely.” VI looked back. “I should feel sorry for them.”

Temmie hopped ahead, “Your SOULLESS, remember. It is not that you don't have feelings. It's you can't place -Ack!”

A Gaster Blaster Beam barely missed Temmie and VI. The Gaster Blaster looked weird with black Hate oozing out of the Blaster's eyes and mouth. A manic laugh was heard before a Sans with Hate dripping out if his eyes and a red target on his chest appeared. “Killer.”

“Hehehehe. That's my name! Hehehehe.” Killer of UV!GR@Rahafwabas lifted his knife and licked it with his ectoplasma tongue. “Time to die.”

Thick vines shot up, grabbed Killer, and slammed him against a wall. Knocking him out. “Sans! Papyrus! You're okay!” A cute little Flowery with big eyes popped up from the ground and wrapped his vines around Red and Edge. “Oh! You have my boot.” A blur of yellow and green went in the boot. “Finally!”

“Heh. You wasn't kidding about the boot being a security blanket.” The thick vines slithered off Killer. Another Flowery came out of the ground. This Flowery was bigger than your average Flowery, but still pretty small. He got out a case with glasses inside, “My spouse would kill me if I break my glasses while underground.”

“Spouse? You're married?” VI smiled in reconizon. “Yandere from PG!PP@Newspaper! The only Flowery that ever married.”

“Ugh! Why does the Omniverse calls me that?” Yandere but on his glasses. “Hey Boots! We found your friends. Will they help me get my spouse back?”

“Was your spouse taken to the True Labs?” Love kneeled down to meet Yandere at eye level. “My Soulmate is there as well.”

Yandere looked at Love as if trying to read the sincerity of his words before removing his glasses and placing them back into the case. “Meet me at Temmie Village!” Then the Flower was gone.

***

They arrived at Temmie Village. Boot was telling Red and Edge how Yandere and a few others found him and sheltered him in Temmie Village. There was one other Flowery, a God of Hyperdeath, a baby bones, and a gray kid with big black eyes that been teaching them about the Multiverse. They were having trouble with the baby bones, but didn't trust any nearby skeletons to help care for him.

“VI?!” A blur of black and red knocked VI down in a hug. “I can't believe you are here!”

“Player? Player of UP!OR@Yunan! It is good to see you again!” VI wrapped her arms around Player, “Still causing trouble?”

“I am a Dirty Hacker. Of course I am still causing trouble.” Sans’ and Stretch's eyes flashed at hearing that phrase. Player noticed and turned towards the others. “I may not be good, but I am not evil either. I do what I want simply because I can. However, everything I do is out of love. In fact my LV is not Level of Violence, nor Game Level, but true love I have for your Worlds.”

“Player here is from a World where the Underground is a video game. But Player wanted to be everyone's friend and sends everyone to the surface. The problem is they live through Game Codes and Worldlines trapping them in a loop.” VI patted Player's head. “My mother found them and changed their code so they can get out of the loop. Now they can revisit worlds and join their friends on the surface without triggering the loop. Where originally everytime Player breaks the barrier and join everyone to the surface the loops starts again.”

“Speaking of loops. Almost got stuck in one by entering the Lab. Your mother got me out.” Player crunch up their face. “Something is wrong with her. Her Code was different. And don't think I didn't noticed your Code, Princess! What did you do to your SOUL?”

“Storytime later! Hyper is back!” A one eyed Flowery pointed above them. A God of Hyperdeath was flying over them, going for a landing. Hyper was tall and wearing a black shirt and leather pants, his eyes were bloodshot and the fur on top of his head was black. “Hyper! How are the others? Are they okay. Is Aliza okay?!”

“Calm down Eyeball. Your human is okay so far. But I am worried about Sweetheart and Science. Fell have been dragging Sci deeper into the True Labs and Sweetheart is getting weaker.” Hyper noticed Love, “Sans! Your here! I know you don't recognize me, but it me! Your Flowery!”

“Flowery?” The moment Love noticed that Hyper was holding his jacket he grabbed the tall goat and have him a good squeeze. Hyper returned the hug. Then realization hit him like a brick. “Wait. Sweetheart?” He push Hyper way but still had his fists wrapped around Hyper's arms. “As in MY SWEETHEART!”

“You were always calling them Sweetheart, so I used that as a nickname.” Hyper blushed in embarrassment before his mood sobered. “They are really weak Sans. The flowers are all over their body.”

***

Player took the baby bones Papyrus, that everyone started to call Bean, Eyeball, Temmie, and Boots back to Snowden. Leaving VI, Sans, Red, Edge, Stretch, Love, Hyper, and a very stubborn Yandere to plan the break-in-break-out mission.

The plan sounds simple enough. Hyper enters the True Lab alone to inform the prisoners of the rescue. He will also be the eyes and ears of what's going on in the Lab. Yandere will also do the same but remain in the vents, his speed and silence will help him relay messages to the others.

Red, Edge, and Love will enter using the main elevator from Alphys’ Lab. The idea was to distract Fell, Pred, and the Nightmare Squad to the upper levels. While VI, Sans, and Stretch will enter directly from the elevator from the castle.

Simple right? Wrong.

#undertale #vi #numinetale #story

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