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I don't think my GRANDPA wants to watch SENSE8 with me, Netflix! So yes, when I visit him, I WANT HIM TO HAVE HIS OWN PROFILE AND ALGORITHM. And it's none of your business!
#netflix#mind your business#separate profile#for my GRANDPA#i dont want to watch his war documentaries#and he doesnt want to watch my queer shows#or reality tv shows#or horror movies#i CERTAINLY dont want to watch SENSE8 with him when we visit#ok#okay#okay???#we watch 72 dangerous animals together tho#we find common ground#hes cool with me being queer#but theres a lot of nudity and sex in sense8#i dont really think this a queer problem#its like an intergenerational problem#sex and graphic violence arent really his thing#i dont want the algorithm from my account to recommend what i watch#does this make sense?#probably not#but netflix#leave me alone#i just want him to have his own profile when i visit him!#im not adding a household to my account#sense8#72 dangerous animals#72 dangerous animals australia was THE BEST ONE#but i cant find it anywhere anymore 😢
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Curtwen Week Day 6: Happy Ending
#I like to believe that there is a universe where they get to grow old together#just one#look once upon a time I read a fic that had me bawling my fuckin eyes out where they get to grow old together#I do want to say that I believe in personal growth and I think that Curt can 100% have a happy ending without Owen- where he can grow#away from that experience and where he can healthily cope with the trauma he ended up with#where he can find solace in something other than alcohol and where he can find it in himself to forge new relationships and build his#connections with people like Tatiana#etc etc#I just want to make it known that this is one of many happy endings that could happen#(amongst the several sad ones that I know also exist)#ALSO I wanted to draw the old men and I do what I want#but yeah something something if the universe is infinite /ref#maybe this is a universe where the banana incident never happened and they were able to retire together#ough#the curtwen feels are really getting me today#I adore them#also I used a new brush ive been having fun with this past week#doesn’t it look cool?#I really like drawing with it and I like how it looks so#we might be seeing more of this one in the future#although 6b is still my guy#damn y’know hypothetically- if Owen (depending on the au) and Curt lived to be in their 60s (at least) they would witness the first Pride#god can you imagine that?#At the very least Curt being around for stonewall and everything that came after that with queer rights#FUCK anyways#fun fact: a group of frogs is called an army#isn’t that cute#reminds me of that one person on TikTok that raised like a thousand frogs- they had a literal army of frogs#crazy#curtwen week
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my dad bought me a copy of good omens before the tv show came out bc he thinks it's such a phenomenal book and I read it and agreed and then like 1/4 of the way in I (queer teenage girl) asked him (50 year old straight man) "crowley and aziraphale.. is that like... a thing?" and he goes "oh idk i never really thought so why" and I was like "just really getting that vibe also he calls him love like... a couple times" and this man said "yeah but they're british." so anyways happy yeah but they're british to that season two finale stay strong out there my soldiers
#also do not clock my dad for this okay LMAO he has always been cool w gay ppl and is the biggest supporter of my being queer#he is simply a heterosexual man who did not pick up the cues#i don't even watch the show but he called me when he finished s2 and was like lol guess what#good omens#aziracrow#ineffable husbands
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Trans-Kirito story-idea
After the SAO beta-test, Suguha "borrows" (read, follows her god-given right to be an annoying little sister) Kirito's NervGear.
As Suguha very much doesn't want to run around "as a boy" (yuck), she redoes the body-scan.
Kirito is very much not amused by Suguha stealing his shit, and takes it back. Kirito checks that nothing is actually broken (it works just fine), but doesn't think about "resetting" the body-scan.
The in-game avatar isn't changed (Kirito picks "male"), and Suguha the preteen and Kirito before his growth-spurt have very similar body-types), so any "this feels a bit odd to get used to"-feelings are attributed to Kirito lying about his height.
SAO starts, and Kirito is having zero issues with his avatar.
SAO becomes a death-game and Kayaba makes the mirror-item happen.
The mirror-item uses the recorded body-scan to create the avatar (and a video-feed for recording faces and facial-expressions).
So Kirito now has the body of a preteen girl, and the face of a very cute boy.
Let the chaos begin.
#sword art online#in this setting. kirito is ofc an egg. and asuna thinks that kirito is a very cute girl. which kirito has issues with denying.#klein calling kirito ''cute'' also has some... interesting consequences. probably.#this also has the consequences of kirito probably having a LOT more issues with returning to real-life. bcs dysphoria.#but also like... imagine the hilarity of kayaba realizing that the strongest players in his game are two teenage girls. who are dating.#and he has to come to terms with having beef with a girl who looks like she's like... ten. or something.#silica likely considers kirito a lot more ''cute prince-like girl her own age''#silica being completely innocent about kirito's gender-identity regardless of if kirito is ''out'' or not.#if kirito is still clinging to eggshells? kirito sees silica happily calling her ''oneechan'' and can't break her heart like that.#but like. kirito having a deep voice? cool! not a lot of girls have that! kirito dressing like a boy? also cool! she looks like a prince!#lisbeth cottoning onto kirito's queer-vibes immediately. lisbeth not sure if asuna is a chaser or not. lisbeth tries to stay in her lane.#but lisbeth also has a desire to wrap kirito in chains and throw her into a river. ''you bROKE MY SWORDS''#argo is also likely to end up struggling with ''call me oneechan. fufufu''-feelings popping out of the woodwork.#(even if she won't act on them beyond cracking jokes. the fact that kirito would likely be silica's size? the feelings would come.)#laughing#story ideas#writing#gender
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I hope everyone knows that Jago is canonly a trans man 🙏 and that everyone respect that fact without being weird about it
Reminder that your OC doesn't have to be Bi to be with him! Implying that you have to be bisexual to be attracted to trans people can be seen as/is transphobic
I want to make IT REALLY DAMN CLEAR that there's NOTHING wrong with shipping him with a bisexual person BUT if the only reason they're bisexual is because Jago is trans, that's not good! This might be due to internalize transphobia and you need to unlearn this false "rule", if someone tries to force that fact into you or your ship, be wary of their intention
And Yes that's something that need to be said in this fandom, I'm sadly aware someone though it was cool to imply Mitch must be bi in my ship since Valentin is trans. I have a guess as to who it was, you're just being transphobic yet again, but it's nothing surprising
Be aware of the lurking terfs and happy shipping 🤠✌
EDIT to add that screenshot of the data MrHands gives you
"Born as Jagoda" Jagoda being a commonly feminine slavic name !
#Take this as a reminder or general information if you didn't know#Nothing happened- that I know of at least- just me being a bit worried knowing the type of people that hides behind anonimity#and sadly lurks in queer people's space while being fucking nasty#ALRIGHT that's it hgfhg#I'm glad he's getting LOVE cause he's a really cool dude OwO#Cyberpunk 2077#Phantom Liberty#jago szabó#vent#rant
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Can you expand on what you mean by Baron being "too cool" to really fit a horror monster? It's a very interesting concept and I'd love to hear your thoughts. Is it that they're too active/involved/tangible and it detracts from their scariness?
I feel like I should preface this with a wall of disclaimers lmao 1/I am a hardcore, down-to-the-marrow, avid, deeply sincere horror enthusiast, esp. horror creatures. this usually means my mileage is vastly different from the average populace's, and my scaredy bone has been disintegrated by longterm exposure. most things in a piece of horror media won't scare me! so I practically never use that on its own as the scale to talk abt horror experiences, but when something does scare me it's always a special occasion to be treasured. 2/canon d20 is never really meant to be horror horror, and for good reasons: it doesn't fit the company's output, it takes a kind of carelessness in production estimation that is always a huge risk, it's often vulnerable in a way that kinda goes against how TTRPGs usually facilitates vulnerability, and for most people it's just! stressful! d20, even with the "horror-themed" seasons, generally just plays with horror tropes and stays focused in its goal of being a comedy improv tabletop theater show. 3/fantasy high's chosen system is DnD, which as I've mentioned before is before all a combat-based game system, which means the magic circle of play is drawn based on stats that facilitate and prioritize combat. want or not this affects every interaction you have in the game, and given fantasy high's concept from the ground up (everyone's going to school of DnD stuff to get better at DnD) it's doubly relevant. 4/This Is Fine I have no quarrel with this. my meters are internal, I do not ask this show to be anything it doesn't advertise itself to be, and what it is is fucking great! I like it! when I expand on this ask's question it will be like a physicist going insane in a lab. that's the mindset we're going in with.
disclaimers done. my stance on horror as a genre is that it's a utility genre rather than a content genre or a demographic genre; it is the discard of narratives. it's the trash pile. horror, above being scary, is about being ugly and messy, it's the cracks on the ground any story inevitably steps over to stay a genre that isn't horror. the genre's been around long enough to develop a codex and a general language that medias and makers and enthusiasts of the genre can use to talk about and build onto, but if you go into individual pieces there's really no unifying Horror Story. one person's beautiful life can be another's horror story, it's just how it is.
this makes The Monster a deeply intriguing piece of the genre. thing is a monster is in a decent percentage of any story - it's just when the antagonist force steps into something past a certain line traced out in the story's world. monstrousness is in pretty much every western fantasy story, it's in any story with a hero and something to vanquish or win; more than anything it's a proxy of that thing up there. the line in a narrative's world. the monster is the guard of the unknown lands, where heroic, civilized people don't tread.
what does this mean in the context of horror? the genre is about that perceived lawlessness, that "unknown land" so to say. we're in the monster's home. that's the literary context that we often walk into a horror piece with; the monster knows more than you about where you are. it may not understand you, but it holds more information than you, and with that it moves swifter than you, has more covered than you, and is more assured in its existence in this context than you. it's a struggle to catch up to it, it's nigh impossible to get one over it, and you're never sure it'll 100% work, because you just don't have the information necessary to.
with that framing you can kinda see where I'm coming from here: horror's often about the breaking of rules. I always think a monster's most effective when it breaks well-established rules of both existence and visual storytelling. think Possum (2018) or Undertale's Omega Flowey or the Xenomorph Queen - unique change in medium, unique change in graphic, unique change in design language, etc. in that sense I actually really like how canon baron plays out: they don't really function like anything else in the fantasy high universe, the bad kids have not managed to kill them when they've felled literal gods, their domain in fhjy literally introduces new mechanics to encompass their existence! from an experience design standpoint they slap mad shit. BUT! I can't help finding their character, like as a character riz (and the other bad kids, eventually) interact with, to be very... coherent? in design. this is kinda hard for me to articulate in words, it's more often a sense you get once you've looked at enough of these scrumptious fuckers, their general design and the way they show up is just kinda too clean, so to say. always kinda newly made? fresh unboxed. it, once again, makes sense for their lore - they are looking for more about themself from riz - and their function - they're an antagonist in a game experience, they're meant to be interacted with in a way that produces results and meshes with the existing magic circle - but that shininess takes away from the implied history they should have dominion over and the person they're haunting doesn't.
from another angle there is kinda something there about how put-together canon baron is as a concept; the domain they call home is riz's deep-seeded fears, extremely vulnerable things he's drawn borders around to quarantine and refused to walk into. things that from his perspective would irreversibly shatter certain pleasant fictions his world is built on top of. canon baron, While Extremely Cool, I feel is kinda too neat to connect with and signify the apocalyticized mess that'd result from this paradigm shift. the part where they're in riz's briefcase and looking through every mirror is Very Cool And Fucked Up! but ultimately the show draws a line around them as well, by making game-physical, tangible spaces they're in (the mirrors and the haunted mordred manor) and put riz and the bad kids there only when they need to confront stuff. riz is meaningfully narratively away from baron's unknown land for most of fantasy high.
with that and all of my disclaimers in mind my conclusion here is if canon baron wants to be a Horror Monster they'd have to cross way more lines. be a Lot more invasive. hence (holds up my class swap baron like a long cat)
#ask#not art#tldr a lot of fantasy high's and d20's nature plays against having a Horror horror piece in it. there's no space for emptiness or dread#that's one of the most attractive things to me about horror. the monster signifying a new world you don't understand#you see something on the deserted streets and you realize: oh. the world doesn't work how I've been thinking it does#if u've noticed how much this has in common with queer experiences haha. yeag#man. actually I should also put the I Am Not White disclaimer in there too lmao a lot of the notion of The Monstrous is! traditionally#about maintaining and upkeeping a ''social order'' (read: the powers that be)#and a Lot of Wilderness Fiction is deeply and maliciously colonialist#so when I say ''the unknown land'' and ''the monster'' I am pretty much speaking From one of those unknown lands#and from the position of one of those monsters#the fear of the monstrous is so very often the fear of being consumed by - or becoming - the monstrous yourself#and well. when you're already there in the eye of the zeitgeist. You Can Do What You Want Forever#all that to say it Is important to me that baron is made of riz's lies. even more so in this funny class swap thing I make for fun#like as a horror protag he makes me insane. he loves lines! he loves lines he drew himself. he replicates these borders in himself#that mirror the world he lives in that's so hostile to him. that kid Loves rules. he bows to even the ones that hurt him#like. u get where I'm getting to right I did make a whole comic kinda near this subject he's Already The Other#baron is a monster's monster. baron is a mirror image. GODs I cant help but wish they were messier#it's kinda why I make class swap baron to be like. an ever nearing realization. like I warble abt all this but I genuinely do also find#canon baron to be just as visually coherent and thematically perfect as riz if not more. it's hard to beat how cool the mirror stuff is#it's hard to beat that doll face in iconic visuals! I have to strike according to my strength rather than trying to beat canon#so instead of reflection it's captured moments. instead of a blank face it's the lack of one. mmm. maybe I'm just kinda breaking things#for fun also but that's My prerogative in my house awooga <3#well. thats kinda my thoughts on the general subject. thank u for listening. I will bake something soon dyou want some
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[Start ID. A digital drawing of Minos Prime from Ultrakill, who's wearing a strapless slit dress and sandals of the same deep purple. He faces towards and slightly to the right of the camera, his head is tilted further right. With one hand he gestures in a vague pointing motion, his arm folded and held close to his body. There is nothing in the background, but bracing himself on one arm, Minos is implied to be leaning against something about the height of a countertop. The background is a blank purplish black, save for three diagonal stripes in the colors of the bisexual flag. End ID]
Shading study that quite literally came to me in a dream two weeks ago, after this post apparently beamed itself into my mind
(also a few edits below the cut! they're very slight but whatever :])
[Start ID. Three different versions of the previous drawing. The first changes the tone of the lighting from blue to pink, and similarly the shading from pink to blue. The second replaces the faint black border with pink, purple and blue, syncing with the stripes in the background. The third combines both these changes. End ID]
#the tags got NERFED so let's try this again.#peridots-art#minos prime ultrakill#ultrakill#ask to tag#organs#...? gore maybe? for the whole ''transparent chest/visible cardiovascular system'' thing. not very detailed/realistic though so#i don't think this has all of the same charm as i usually find in my posts. but i tried my best to make it work so i don't think it matters#also ''not too happy with how this turned out'' is something i've seen tacked onto posts worthy of being preserved in museums#i heard someone say his snakes should be ball pythons. i'm not autistic about snakes so i decided to listen to the masters#i still have seven levels to p-rank before i can meet this guy!! halfway there (lust/greed and 1-3 remaining) i've only had my own copy#of ultrakill for a week and i already have 33 hours in. anyway he's grown on me i think. absolute bi king and only monarch i respect <3#i think it's interesting how i now define my queerness by being gray-ace and trans when i first only identified with bisexual. it's still#an important part of me even if sometimes i forget. sorry that sounds completely unrelated but it's related to my feelings on this piece#anyway (i wonder how many ''anyway''s i've slapped on so far) i also find it interesting how often people draw him with this body type.#i think it's cool there's variety in how people draw the uk characters. it just kinda feels right here? i know i unfortunately don't draw#fat characters often at all (partially due to being a primarily fandom blog who likes to stick to canon designs. i wouldn't say i have#trouble with drawing a realistic amount of fat even on rather thin people though lol) but i try! also genuinely unsure what counts as like.#fat vs chubby? or whatever? i don't know exactly how the terminology works and a fair amount of minos' bulk is muscle anyway but. yeah 👍#men are pretty in dresses my final message. goodbye#peridots-described
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He looks so different with glasses 😂 did not recognize him at first
terribly funny how much more generic he can get with a thick frame of raybans like ive always believed the whole glasses as a disguise would never work irl but i got punked so hard that when i first saw him in glasses i was like "oh another man" glossed over him then felt the same sensation as when i forget to buy milk at the store, swiped back, scrutinised this for far longer than im comfortable admitting publicly and went "oh my god THATS MY MAN GIRL WHAT ARE YOU DOING"
#ask#i went “maffhew where the hell have you been loca”#she is but a beautiful female protagonist “shackled” by a thick pair of glasses#to me she is even more beautiful with the glasses#but also just another man#ive specifically seen this type of man in so many fucking places...#the fruity english teacher that also teaches the creative writing course because he genuinely enjoys spoken word#the one where you walk into his class see the open class layout... look up at him... look at his fit and go#huh... itd be rude to ask if he has a husband but... you know...#the class where you can tell hes in because you can smell his maple syrup candle from the courtyard#despite there being a whole gym between you and the building hes in because his door is always open and anytime the building door opens#you smell a whole wiff of autumn... it is in fact summer... and always summer where you are...#he doesnt talk about his lovelife at all doesnt even mention anything about it#but everyones curious but hes cool and you dont want to make him uncomfortable so you dont ask but you know you know?#its why you squeal in glee when he shows up to open mic night at the blackbox in the 300 building with his husband in tow because once again#he adores spoken word and gave extra credit to anyone who preformed and he wants to support his students#and hes just so smiley and giggly all night because he finally gets to be with his secret husband and its so perfect and theyre so perfect#and he also your dad because you have daddy issues and having a male figure in your life whos queer and supports you is so important-#you know what!! i think we know a little too much about each other i will stop now!!!! you get the idea!!!!!
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People with he/they pronouns are metal
#I wanna go back to using all pronouns but people would default to using the one they associate with my perceived gender#they/them was a way to force certain people to remember that i'm non-binary#but also#the thought of being referred to aa she/her forever terrified me#at the time i wasn't sure about how i felt about he/him#maybe i'll try it out again#neo pronouns are cool too#trans#nb#non binary#queer#lgbtq#he/they#they/them#pronouns#nonbinary
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If one thing can be said about me I will interpret Fabian and Mazeys relationship in the queerest way possible.
#he’s never had someone he could talk about dance with!! she’s cool!! he thinks she’s hot!!#like I still hc him as gay idk maybe bi but to me their relationship is like if I was gonna date a girl it would obviously be you#and let’s be fr Fabian?? Being introspective?? Absolutely never. he will be constantly running from the gay allegations#I AM COMING AROUND ON THEIR RELATIONSHIP I THINK THEYRE SILLY#sometimes the canon ship is just the vessel for your own queer beliefs and that’s okay❤️#mazey phaedra#fabian aramais seacaster#fantasy high#d20 fhjy#fantasy high junior year spoilers#fhjy
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Sometimes I just think about Soi Fon. Like that shit was so insane. Easily one of The characters of all time. You’re going to give me a woman who hates the physical manifestation of her soul because it’s loud and explosive and she doesn’t think it’s “proper” that it suits her, but it’s so obvious it does because she’s angry and stubborn and loud and explosive!!! And then the fact that she never ever calls upon that physical manifestation of her soul until things are so dire it’s practically that or death? The fact that in so many ways she lets her emotions build and build and build until they quite literally explode???? And then!!! AND THEN!!!! Add in that she hates her bankai because it’s “inappropriate” for an assassin… for her role as captain of the Stealth Force… the position she inherited from Yoruichi after she abandoned Soul Society for Urahara… She despises the physical manifestation of her explosive nature, the nature she hides until she can’t, just like she shoved down her feelings for Yoruichi, the betrayal, the hurt, the love, until she quite literally couldn’t anymore and it all came back up in a BANG!!! Like god… oh my god, no one will ever do it again and kubo did not deserve such a cool fucking character in the least
#bleach#soi fon#yorusoi#<— because like this definitely feeds into it#like I refuse to believe soi fon didn’t have some form of romantic feelings for yoruichi like it’s so OBVIOUS#also like add in the lesbian angle to this???#oh… MY GOD it just makes it so much more intense#hiding from your feelings and swearing up and down they shouldn’t suit you that they’re not right for you#even though they obviously are#I can’t fuckin do it man#it’s been YEARS but the soi fon brain rot is still just SO strong#I really did fuckin imprint on her#but tbh in general I hate to give him any credit but kubo did kinda go off with characters who hated/hid their bankai#like the whole thing of hating your soul hating your very being#unparalleled. wish he actually did anything cool with those particular character arcs#like the soi fon ikkaku and yumichika character arcs could have been PEAK#(also don’t even get me started on the three of them being some of the uh… um… well ya know a teeny bit queer)#it could have been so good#but again kubo can’t write and hates gay ppl so lmao#wild that he genuinely created some of the coolest queer characters ever kinda on accident#like whoopsie#anyways I’ll shut up now#kaz rambles
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Persephone captain marvel au. Hear me out.
Associated with duality, reincarnation, resurrection, childhood innocence (and it getting ripped away by adults), and her 'counterpart' Kore, which is her in her returning aspect of spring, youthfulness, new life... Come on. Is that not the closest thing to Billy you've ever seen in ancient Greece? Where he gets his powers?
It all starts with Teth Adam, and his devastation at the death of his son. He finds the old paths, breaks them open, and storms down into the underworld to demand him back. His is not a new story.
But where Persephone might ordinarily be inclined to ease her husband's scorn, give the troubled mourner a chance, she is speaking to the champion of magic, the world's mightiest mortal. The chance of success is too high. The challenge would not be enough. The death was too high profile and would risk too many attempting to follow in his footsteps. The man is too unstable, too powerful, too close to the heart of magic for it to be safe - for any of him - to grant his wish and risk his false hope.
They deny him.
Enraged, implacable, Teth Adam lashes out. The battle is long and drawn out, neither side tiring even as both weaken, but Persephone, in either form, is not one of war, and she is felled as her curses shatter, her furies tossed aside like dolls. The sound of Hades' scream as Adam's surprise leaves him open flattens the rubble of their throne room.
The wounded champion escapes, hounded by cerberus and skeletons instead of his son's shade, as her husband crashes to his knees beside her. She has not a mortal soul, and thus will be going where even Death cannot reach.
But Adam killed the goddess of reincarnation, and Billy has odd dreams. He's pretty sure he needs to ease up on the stress. He's restless in winter and distracted in summer, he can sleep outside in howling storms as long as he's tucked snug in the boughs of a tree, he's had the luck of never tasting a rotten fruit. Sometimes it feels like there's ghosts in his hideouts and the kids at school try and bribe him to curse their enemies.
When he chosen to be Captain Marvel the wizard chokes on his own speech when the smoke clears. They stare at each other.
"Well," says Persephone, "that was unexpected. Hullo."
"Hello," the wizard replies, "I was under the impression..."
"I don't think the laws of interference quite apply until I'm immortal again," he says.
The wizard's relief is palpable. It's understandable, he looks ready to keel over from old age. "Can I ask...?" he gestures at the new body. It takes a second to understand.
"Oh, I'm a boy now. For a while."
And that's that.
Until green lantern is killed in battle.
#Billy as Kore - spring youth maiden flowers#And the captain as persephone - death curses ghosts reincarnation. ✨royalty✨#I especially like that it works with whatever interpretation of cap/Billy you have!#Aspects of the same person. Billy having a limited recollection of his past life and minimal powers compared to cap's fully grown self#Also the idea of big burly sunshine strength cap being in truth the Soul of a young innocent maiden kidnapped from her family would#Infuriate in universe alpha males. Brings me life.#Billy/Kore: innocent cinnamon roll too good for this world too pure#Cap/persephone: gaslight gatekeep girlboss#Cap would keep his death powers under wraps and NEVER curse. Unless it's Adam or darksied or something. Then a simple 'gtfo' works#Not that he ever keeps it simple. Everyone on comms has their ears SCALDED. They're all in shock. Cap stops just short of another 10 plague#Cap (looking at gls body): aw my husband's gonna be so mad at me *rolls up sleeves*#Gender queer Billy vibes ftw#I'd say bigender or gender fluid. Bigender needs more rep.#Wonder woman is shooketh but glad. Her uncle has Not been a happy bunny.#Idk just isn't it cool???#shazam#billy batson#captain marvel#dc captain marvel#dc comics#justice league#wizard shazam#rock of eternity#greek myth au#Kinda#persephone#Kore#black adam#<< man boutta get a whooping from his precious victim who got the ultimate power up
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*grabs popcorn* why did you tag 'the writing did her so dirty' re: taylor kelly?
I finally found the words for this answer. For me, it has everything to do with the way she was written in 5A as if they were domesticating her, partially at the expense of what really made her an interesting character. I’d like to have seen her as that girl everyone loves to hate, but for the right reasons. “She’s a bitch.” Yes, and? “She hurt all these people.” Yes, and? Also… and this is just fan-canon, not something that I think the show would’ve (or could’ve) done, but pansexual Taylor in an established relationship with a woman is my absolute favorite 🫶.
Like… I hate to give buddie fans any points because most of them are committed to misrepresenting the point and a scene, but the whole “if Eddie were a girl, they’d have kissed already” held a bit of water during the Buck x Taylor era, but not because Buck and Eddie are queercoded, but because Buck x Taylor had the same vibe as “two people who met through work and only really have work in common, but dated anyway.” The two of them talked about their work lives more than any couple on the show. I feared that if either of them had a change of job, they’d cease to have anything to talk about, which *would* be the case for two people who are co-worker adjacent, but shouldn’t be the case for a couple. IMHO, Buck x Taylor wasn’t a result of Buck’s comp het, but societal comp het. They also—as I mentioned previously—seemed to stifle a bit of Taylor’s passionate, ambitious, career-above-everything characterization for a little bit there in 5A, and she kinda simply became Buck’s GF. There was a degree of domestication for her character there, and I hated that for her.
Also… 911 honest opinion? I think Buck and Ali should have had a longer arc. 🫣 More on that below:
It really seemed like they had been narratively setting something up between Buck and Ali, given how the show paralleled Buck + Ali and Maddie + Chim with that one outro monologue about how sometimes the best things start with second chances. Because that monologue that introduced us to Buck x Ali had been all about “second chances,” I genuinely had assumed that she was coming back and that they’d work out their issues. Their relationship also felt narratively weighty because of *why* Buck chose to date her. He had a choice between old habits (re: Taylor Kelly) or making his happiness (re: the Buck Actually theme). They also chose an apartment together. Plus, their “break up” did not feel very final. Something about it felt unresolved.
Cast contracts permitting, if *I* had been on this project, I would have written Buck & Ali as tentatively working on their differences post-injury. When their relationship does end, I’d explore the concept that sometimes, genuinely liking one another—or love—is not enough (which I think would have been great to explore after the Daniel reveal, as love was not enough for a happy Buckley household). Ali & Buck may have progressed past health scares and job fears, but find themselves on two different paths in life (with her job and dreams taking her one way and his keeping him at the 118). Here we could also incorporate Buck’s Big Mistake™️ that we saw in his relationship with Taylor: keeping/hiding things from his partner and overcompensating for that out of guilt to keep the relationship. Maybe that something is family related (re: Daniel) or maybe job related (revisit old wounds that weren’t actually healed during the sniper arc, an emergency he expressly doesn’t tell Ali about for fear of her reaction). Hell, it could be Taylor-related (with Taylor, someone he has a previous dynamic with, “being Lucy” in this situation), if you really want, although I’m personally disinclined to taking this hypothetical story in that direction (mostly because I hate cheating arcs, but also because I think Buck and Taylor work better as friends).
I also think Buck could have still grown into the person he is now through this hypothetical of events instead of through shorter-term relationships. Reasons I think this turn of events could have also worked for Buck’s growth:
We would still get Buck 3.0 seeking out therapy after being crushed, being dumped, and being assigned desk duty. Maddie points out that he’s not handling it well, and he takes it upon himself to do something about that, just like in canon. Maybe later in that season or early next, we find out that Ali had reached out, and Buck reaches back out to her following his conversation with Abby and some therapy, not wanting to leave things unsaid and knowing he hides his true feelings from people. Maybe he tells Ali about him wanting to work on himself and start again. This means that, yes, he’d spend season 3 single before getting back together in early season 4 to “try again” and “see where it goes.”
However, Buck will still be lonely at this time, now essentially having bought into the comp-het idea that part of the reason for our loneliness is not being partnered (just like in canon, but he’d be partnered instead of single during this). If work or a difference in life pulls Buck and Ali apart, we’d still get Buck dealing with this gaping loneliness. It’d be less of a “He hasn’t put himself out there since Abby” and more a “He’s in a relationship and still feels alone.” Maddie and Chim invite Josh to poker night not because of Buck’s “tragic singleness,” but because Ali couldn’t come (which means we still get everyone’s favorite Buck x Josh joke). The scene will lay the ground for the relationship issues he’ll run into in late 4B. Something like, “Buck never gets out of the house” or “He has a girlfriend, but no one would know,” while Josh tells him to be glad he’s got someone because it’s “rough out there” (all while still foreshadowing Josh’s later gay bashing that episode). And this hints at an element of compulsory heterosexuality to this scenario: Buck doesn’t just feel the need to make the relationship work because he wants to be there for people, but because he feels a need to be partnered. His parents are visiting and they’re always disappointed in him, but they’ve met Ali and they’re happy Buck’s partnered. So, he stays. He reads the love languages book (absolutely quackery of a theory, imho) for some ideas on relationship growth and making it work and he stays. He expresses that he really wants this relationship to be successful and meaningful (and that’s why he’s trying the self-help book), and he stays. But maybe we get the Buck equivalent of “my relationship feels like a performance.” Maybe Buck expresses some discomfort with what are essentially traditional aspects/dynamics of het relationships (something the 5 love languages is centered around). Things like, “I want to provide, but I also want to be taken care of.” We’ll also get a few scenes that suggest he and Ali don’t know each other well (like not knowing what to get each other for special occasions, and some conversations between Buck and Bobby). But, otherwise, Buck & Ali’s interactions with one another are sweet and romantic. He goes on a successful date with Ali instead of Monica. He also goes on a successful double-date with Monica x Albert, with Ali as his gf. Ali’s genuine affection for Buck really shines when Buck runs into his season 4 family issues, and she gets along with everyone in Buck’s life, including Maddie, Chim and Albert, and even his parents. Their personal lives will seem to go strong because it’s the way their work lives interfere with their personal lives that will drive the wedge between them. Red’s warning about being too consumed by the job and how hard this is to compete with swirl around in Buck’s head the whole relationship. Buck fears that much like Red, he’ll never be able to make it work.
Eventually, however, we would get Buck figuring out that he doesn’t have to stay with someone just to stay with someone. (“I’m not happy. And if this isn’t a healthy relationship, then maybe the best thing for me to do is be the one who leaves.”) So, in early 4B when issues he thought they’d worked through rise again and maybe Ali discovers that Buck’s keeping something from her (I’m leaning toward him purposefully keeping aspects of his job from her, like not telling her about the sniper [among other things], once more revealing how Buck puts other’s comfort above his personal life and happiness and again reinforcing the idea that Buck’s career is too “consuming” and too “dangerous” for some partners, but also revealing that he doesn’t trust Ali not to run again -> but this leads Ali to not trust that Buck won’t keep important things from her and also leads her to realize that he will ice her out of important parts of his life), Buck decides, “I do like you, but I don’t think this is going to work out.” He then spends all of season 5 single, and it would be cool to see a “I’m working on myself, I want to be single” storyline, which would factor well into his further self-improvement arc during the interim-Captain storyline. He will then still meet Natalia in season 6 and they’ll be drawn together and apart for many of the same reasons as in canon.
But crucially, this means that I’d have kept Buck and Taylor friends in seasons 4 & 5 because 1.) I think the men of 911 do not have enough women in their life platonically outside blood relations, 2.) I found their dynamic *before* they started dating much more compelling, and 3.) them making Taylor Buck’s GF seemed to stifle her character a little, so she was less the ambitious, passionate reporter and more just… a sweet girl. In my hypothetical, she’s still there in seasons 4-5, and ever the go-getting reporter. Maybe she has less screen time, but she’s still there. Many of the work-related scenes between her and Buck would and could (and should) remain. Anything related to investigations and her reporting would absolutely stay. I think that Taylor could neatly fit into a similar role that Josh does with Maddie. She’s blunt, no holds barred. He tells her about his family, roommate, and relationship issues in S4, and she always gives him the tough answer. She confides in him when the pandemic becomes too much. They team up for the hit-n-run investigation and the treasure hunt (Ali also joins them). She is his friend—and maybe one of the only ones outside the 118 family— who is there when his best friend, Eddie, gets shot (but clearly—and crucially—not in the same way Maddie is there for Chim or Karen is there for Hen because she’s *not* Buck’s GF or a potential LI, and also not in the same way that Ali is *not* there for Buck, given Buck goes to lengths to hide this development from Ali, like putting on his vest in secret). She is still hard on him for his “neediness” and “impulsivity.”
IMHO—not too much changes between them. There’d be fewer scenes between them, sure. They wouldn’t kiss. Some of their more emotional conversations would be less couple-y, like the coffee date where he talks about his family. (And I personally love the idea that this whole time they’re friends, Taylor is dating a woman and Buck has met this woman or heard about her, but that is, again, just fan-canon.) Also, we’d miss that scene of Taylor in her black lingerie (sorry lesbians) and Buck in that grey A-line Tee (sorry to me), but not much is otherwise changing. Hell, even the way things eventually break down doesn’t need to change (minus the issue with Buck asking Taylor to move in after he and Lucy kissed). Buck will still learn that he can’t fix everything because Taylor will still prioritize her career over her friendship. Plus, a friendship crashing and burning is its own beast, and one that would teach Buck that it’s not just in his romantic relationships that he gives too much of himself. (Cough, cough, a lesson he could learn with Eddie.)
Also, with this breakdown coming so soon after breaking things off with his gf, his best friend damn near dying, and his sister running away, Buck will go to lengths to try and fix the issues in his friendship, lengths like going to Oklahoma to support her (a trip where he meets her GF in my fan-canon). He wasn’t enough to inspire Abby to stay. He couldn’t make it work with Ali. Eddie fucking got shot. Maddie’s run away. And now a difference in world views has put him and a friend at odds with each other (something that *seems* fixable). So, he’ll try his damndest to fix things, desperately wanting this to work out as everything else goes haywire. “I can’t lose a friend, too.” “You were there for me after Eddie got shot, I want to be here for you now.” “Everything else is a mess; I want to help where I’m needed.” No more losing people. Except, it doesn’t work. Meaning, Buck would still come to understand himself and his localized view of himself relative to others vs. Taylor’s more universal view of herself as their friendship falls apart.
This also all still leaves Tommy to be different compared to Buck’s past romantic relationships, most of which happened on his partner’s terms rather than his own. It also still leaves Taylor in the series and her impact on Buck remains without half-nuking her character. Buck also maintains much of his character growth, as I will always maintain that Taylor was very important to Buck’s character growth.
#Evan Buckley#Taylor Kelly#Ali Martin#911 ABC#Aromantic Taylor Kelly is also something that can be so special to me#And I love the idea of two people who used to hook up deciding upon being friends#That’s so cool and adult and normal#and the HC of Taylor being queer herself and she and Buck hitting it off as friends is also so special to me#like… it’d really support much of Buck’s existing queercoding#Like I said… misogyny stifled her character and misogyny is the driving force behind a lot of her fanon bashing#Honestly? Part of this is because I really dislike cheating storylines#unless it actually affects the two character’s dynamic in some way#it felt like there was so little consequence for Buck hiding the kiss from Taylor and overcompensating out of guilt#compare that to Hen— whose wife literally moved out to deal#and it took several seasons before those wounds between them were healed and trust had been restored#like— the issue is not that Lucy kissed Buck while he was inebriated#it’s that Buck kept that from Taylor and overcompensated out of guilt#and there are other ways to explore that which don’t involve perceived infidelity#like… hiding a large work emergency from your partner — including icing them out and lying to them to hide this#and then overcompensating for that out of guilt
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I know I JUST said that I would be too busy to make art in the coming days but I. did it anyway. guys looks it’s lethia I love him so much. look he even has little bug-person symbol flags he’s so cool (HE DOES NOTHING) (SERIOUSLY HIS ENTIRE PURPOSE IS THAT HE DOESNT DO ANYTHING AND NOBODY REMEMBERS HE EXISTS) (HE WAS RELEVANT FOR ONE MINOR INCIDENT AND EVEN THEN EVERYONE FORGOT HE WAS THE START OF IT ONCE A WIDER CONVERSATION ABOUT THE INCIDENT STARTED)
#pdbc#art#ughhh I love him so much!!! if only he did more#I say that as if there’s something stopping me from giving him a bigger role#he just wouldn’t be the same if he was important…..he’ll be confined to random doodles and being in the background forever#still working out his design. this is Probably final but I might tweak some stuff#first of all I dunno if the arm fluff should go on the elbow or wrist. both would seem too cluttered#second of all I need to well. make him not look so cluttered#I want ti make it obvious he’s a privet hawk moth and those have really cool stripes but stripes are a one way ticket to cluttered designs#like even when drawing it I got confused where his leg was because it blended in with his abdomen yiiiikes okey#also his eyes are Probably more drooped but I just wanted to draw him wide eyed and goofy lookin#my beloved…..making him trans also made me more comfortable in being queer so he has a special place in my heart#I should draw the bug people more I love them. they’re so small too#like most characters are above average height (around 5’8+—#there must be something in the water on fincg island considering one of the only characters who isnt tall isnt from there. anyway)#but the bug people are around 3 to 4 feet tall. sure they’re rapidly evolving bugs but they’re still bugs they’re gonna be a lil short yknow#tumblr crashed when I posted this this is a hate crime (it is because I’m yapping way too much in the tags)
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WEIRD OLDER QUEERS I LOVE YOUUU
#this is a general statement#but also opened up feeld after like two weeks and immediately matched with this guy* who i immediately thought just had an awesome vibe#(is it bc he reminds me of philip sallon maybe. it’s okay i know my own red flags)#i don’t actually know what pronouns he uses. something to ask tomorrow#they’re also really not that old ftr they’re in their forties it’s just the difference in experience i mean#feel sort of excited abt the idea of pursuing gay sex for the first time in ages they just SO immediately met me at my level and made me#- feel so comfortable#we’ll see what comes of it i have a good feeling but even if it doesn’t work out i feel more optimistic moving forward#just a very nice change of pace to go oh that person looks cool. oh we get to talk. oh they are cool#me & my ex are also gonna do something at some point. i know he wants to it’s just a matter of stupid scheduling#anyway. more to the point. I LOVE SEEING QUEER PEOPLE LIVING & BEING HEALTHY & THEMSELVES#ted talks
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Oml ur real fun at parties huh, #1 I said 'whatever you jerk off abt' sarcastically, I don't think you ACTUALLY jerk it to trans ppl shitass, I mean you constantly talk about them, like how some ppl constantly jerk off. GOD you're insufferable. also!!! Queer is not a slur :)) as a queer dude !! Bozo
Oh it was SARCASTIC rapey comments my bad.
You find me insufferable yet you keep messaging me.....fascinating....
#anon#sexism#homophobia#Hey that's real cool about queer not being a slur do you think Oscar Wilde knew that when he got called that during his sentencing or?#I'm sure the men screaming it at me while driving by my house were being super supportive :)
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