#heart speaks

[blogsbyhumanheart]

hi humans, this is my first time blogging and the reason to start blogging is not because i am super interested in it but because I want to make this my coping mechanism to get out of my suicidal and giving up thoughts.

my issues? I desperately need a therapist but my parents don't believe in mental health issues.

yesterday I had a fight with my parents because sometimes the words that they use ( ik they love me a lot) hurt me a lot. I feel like because they are paying the fees of my degree course and I am still dependent on them (its normal for parents to financially support their ward for university, here in India ) so i am a burden. i may be wrong but these thoughts plus being away from family with whom I've spent 19 years and with long stored childhood traumas i have started to experience panic attacks.

today i just had this deep-rooted urge to just end everything. End all the pressure, all the fights, all the misunderstandings by ending myself.

i was sitting near my hostel window when amidst all these thoughts i heard my heart saying, "there's help". and it kept on coming again and again. Finally i Googled suicide helpline number. Tried on 4 or 5 numbers but initially nobody picked them (still don't know why that happened) when the last number i dialed was taken over by a counselor who made me calm down with grounding exercises and suggested me to focus on what makes me happy and to SHARE.

Therefore, with the suggestion of my roommate, here i am sharing whatever my heart says and from now on its just my heart saying whatever the fuck it wants to.

warning: It may be quite unfiltered.

[danidoesathing]

physically sick over the fact that. In the game’s canon Viktor is doing whatever he can to get rid of his emotions and humanity. and it’s what him and Jayce clash over most. its the center of their entire conflict

but in arcane it’s torn away from him against his will because of Jayce. Because Jayce didn’t care what Viktor became as long as he got his partner back. Hello. Can anyone hear me

[1alchemistart]

dont got much to offer for The Holiday but have these sillies!

happy valentines day :D

[soranker]

98 lovemail doodles >_<

[lilacgaby]

is he proposing or... with katsuki :((

is he proposing or does he ask for a second alone with your parents?

is he proposing or did he just pay for your nails and pedicure, like he always does, but ask you to get something 'real pretty this time'?

is he proposing or did his mom randomly call you over to help her with dress fitting, and loved the sleek dress on you so much that she gave it to you with a hug and a kiss on the cheek?

is he proposing or did he just take the week off with no warning? and did he just say that you were flying to dominican republic?

is he proposing or-- oh wait he always bought first class. but did you just see a huge tuft of red hair in the seats behind you? and was that all of your shared friends from your time in U-A in really bad disguises?

is he proposing or did he get you new shoes and earrings to wear that match perfectly with the dress his mom gave to you for your date tonight?

is he proposing or did he take you to an expensive beach restaurant, and told you to go all out?

is he proposing or is he oddly nervous for 'no reason', his hands sweaty when he grabs yours to go for a walk on the beach.

is he proposing or is there a table lit by candles by the ocean shore?

is he proposing or-- oh my god he's proposing.

the ocean was the background as he got on one knee for you. the blue velvet box opened, revealing a gorgeous ring with a huge diamond on it, a huge upgrade from the promise ring he'd gotten you as second years.

your hands went to cover your mouth as he said his piece, dedicated just to you. the tears finally came falling as he said those three fated words, 'will you marry me?'

as you accept, you two fall into an embrace. a quick flash snaps, and it's all your friends from U-A, with mina holding a polaroid photo of this moment for you two to cherish forever. the photo captured the moment of when he slid the ring onto your finger.

you continued celebrating the rest of the night with you friends,

and alongside your thoughtful fiance, katsuki.

kiri ver

[pollyanna-nana]

“Actually Falin’s not fat-“ wrong. I spoke to Marcille last night and she told me herself how much she loves sucking on her gf’s fat tummy. Also 12d6 fireball damage

[star-trekster]

ST@CEC 4: Deep Space Nine; In Charles’s Shadow

[apollos-boyfriend]

captainsparklez board game……. captainsparklez board game with all his friends…….

[breesperez139]

Dc x Dp Prompt #6

“I’m a twin”, Damian said one night. He could feel the narrowed eyes of his family drilling holes on his back in disbelief. Not that he could blame them. Damian had never so much as implied being raised with a companion, much less a sibling.

“I had a brother”. Damian paused to recollect himself. He had not said his brother’s name out loud in over 8 years.

“His name was… Danyal”. Damian hated the way his voice wavered, but he could not help it. Danyal was everything to him, his other half. Their heart beat as one and when one heart stopped beating, the other one died with it. At least until his family put his heart on metaphorical life support without ever realizing.

“Where is he now?” His father asked, voice filled with knowing grief and a hint of betrayal. It had in fact been 6 years since Damian first showed up on his doorstep.

“Up there”. All eyes shifted towards the specific star he was pointing to. “Right before he died, he promised me he’d guide me from the stars. Unfortunately, the stars are not visible in Gotham, so my brother is unable to be of much help unless I leave the city.”

“Your brother is Polaris, the North Star?” Tim questioned warily, most likely in attempts to not offend him. Damian was aware of how stupid it sounded, but Danyal had promised, and his brother never broke his promises.

“Yes. Danyal is with the stars now, just as he always wanted”

[genderbinaryisforlosers]

adaine being a war caster, spell sniper, mage slayer, wizard with a sword as an arcane focus and a signature spell of punch you into the stratosphere. everything to me.

bludgeoned somebody to death on her first day of high school, killed her dad in one punch, way too excited to be given a gun and get a go on the cannons.

she would have done numbers as a werewolf.

[ipleadbritney]

us gp 2023 -> mexican gp 2024

[wheres-your-paddle]

He only gets one every four years

[crabgirlfriend]

“WTNV walked so [insert whatever media] could run” no. WTNV did not walk, it was fucking running marathons while other media was crawling on the ground gasping for air. it’s still running and the world needs to catch up

[driftbit]

my two favorite pieces of hbomberguy's video were these two tests/rules he has for video essays and making media:

"When I think a video is being lazy, I do a little test. I check what sources the video used... and I compare it with the sources you would get if you went to the Wikipedia page for the topic." (Hbomberguy, 55:07)

"I have a little rule for quoting that other creators seem to use as well. If someone saw a clip of your video out of context, would it be possible for them to tell you're quoting someone and where it's from?" (Hbomberguy, 48:18)

These rules I think can be applied to both the act of watching and creating. If you're creating something not intended to be cursory in nature, where are you getting your sources? After that first wikipedia search we all love to do, where do you go from there?

If you're consuming something, and it is intended to be informative in nature, can you go to a random time in it and understand where their sources are coming from?

Sources:

“Plagiarism and You(Tube).” Youtube, uploaded by hbomberguy,2 December 2023, https://youtu.be/yDp3cB5fHXQ?t=3307. Accessed 4 December 2023.

[hinamie]

itafushi nation how r we Feeling!!!!!!!!!!!

[cemeterygrace]

the heart eyes howell just keeps intensifying like sir what is this