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abandonedand-betrayed · 11 months ago
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ruminate88 · 3 months ago
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10/23/24 I don’t trust the world at all
I feel like you spend time just letting that person (or in my case, people) who hurt you physically go and start your journey without them physically in your life but then you have the wounds left behind to deal with and the wounds are more painful. This isn’t dramatic and you’re not crazy!!!
they say if you cared a lot about someone or were extremely empathetic, it’s a lot harder. I mean, I’m not a robot and I’m not cold. I was deeply depressed and suffering already when one of my exes told me “stop being so fragile”. They’re completely heartless!!!!! I don’t even know which ex it was because it was from a secret account. That is what they do…. They continue to find ways to hurt you.
that’s why I don’t do any social media anymore outside of this account and my music accounts. Even then, I almost respond to NO ONE out of making sure I keep myself safe. I can’t tell you when to trust the world again. I don’t see how you trust the world the same. You most likely always have to live being aware of your surroundings. (It’s exhausting though)
You can pick yourself up and carry on even when you feel the weight of the emotional wounds. You will start to feel them over time after being so numb so long. You feel start to understand yourself better and you CAN NOT beat yourself up. I have and it’s only making the process harder and longer. You gotta love and forgive yourself as you also forgive those who hurt you. Don’t stop trying to convince yourself of love and peace. Hope is alive! No, it’s never gonna be like it was before the abuse. Your life is changed unfortunately ❤️‍🩹
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tenwhiteandalusians · 1 month ago
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pertaining to the idea of tenax’s band of strays i do think it’s touching that the kids are the ones who saved him and waited outside the door to make sure he’s okay. for all tenax claims to be harsh and cruel it’s a fine indicator of his character that the kids won’t rest without him and are there every time he’s in danger.
#AND I CAN’T FUCKING BELIEVE I HAD THEM STEALING THEIR WAY OMTO#THE PLATFORMS WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNN oh i love being right#also that all the kids are there watching when he kills the guy whose name i forget because i simply cannot hold names in my brain but the#evil one. who i was like oh thank GOD he died i was so sick of this plot he kept killing everyone & i screeched when he almost got claudia#something something calla saying ‘you’re not a child anymore’ about tenax’s cruelty to the brothers (which in my twisted narratives. sorry.#there’s only one scorpus who KNEW the child tenax was. the child he’s still healing and caring for. all of the children whose eyes he looks#into and sees a hurt that’s just like his? the children tenax saved whether he’ll admit it or not? scorpus saved him. and that’s all)#(also this is a terrible thing to say i knew it about but like. oh i knew it about the master of the house. tenax making sure NO ONE#touches the kids or does anything with them really but Claudia and him—the people he trusts which also now includes calla but he makes sure#it’s someone he knows. also do we have a claudia backstory??? or would i just get to invent a reason why she’s there and what she’s doing#and why she’s so loyal to tenax. did she also see the child he was and that’s why she’s so protective of him but also why she gets along#with calla so well because the two of them see how he’s festered in that. like calla fully has the rights here i think she should rip him a#new one for his lack of decency and good qualities he can be corrupt without being cruel y’know. and he should be called out on his#peter pan ass behavior you’re not a child!! there are such consequences!!! dream a little bigger a little kinder!!! change the dream you#made up with scorpus when you were a young angry teenager and make it fit who you are NOW. the life you want NOW not the life you thought#you should have & deserved. what did you learn from growing up. what changed. what do you need now & what do you want. not the same things#and i too wish that this was 30k and covered their entire backstory#BUT IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION of i also need it to be 100k canon-divergent (presumably. i’m only through episode eight. but i can’t imagine#that they will follow the plot EYE would write because they need to have a second season & you can’t have that without conflict which means#titus overthrown scorpus is gonna die metaphorically or literally etc etc the gold faction in shambles but technically triumphant with#domitian on the throne and tenax in a position of patrician power accepted into their society but still not equal and happy. whereas lmao#domitian you’re getting shipped off to some other city because your plot to overthrow titus failed and yet he is merciful enough he won’t#kill you he just sends you and hermes together (at which point over the months long journey you forgive and re-learn each other bc titus#didn’t know of the betrayal he thought it would be kind to send your (ex-)lover with you. do we see how this works perfectly) & tenax falls#back into the underworld where he now knows he belongs because blood is everything except when it isn’t. when he realizes what he has is#worth more. no matter if the blood he has is tainted or patrician the blood oath he swore with scorpus iron on their tongues means more.#calla’s split lip defending him and their winnings. kwaame’s blood on the hard packed sand of the arena fighting to stay alive and to come#home to them. the fire in aura’s cheeks when she laughs at ivy. SURPRISEEEE EVERY NARRATIVE IS A FOUND FAMILY I GUESS IT SPRUNG ON ME TOO.#and tenax doesn’t mind a little dirt and bribery every now and then. doesn’t aspire to former heights and shining brilliant out of shadows.#the gaudiness of gold &flash of fools’ dreams. YES CAN I FINALLY PLS GET MY BLACK FACTION TO REPLACE THE ILL-FATED GOLD THATLL COLLAPSE W/D
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teg-report · 2 months ago
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Healing from Relational Trauma: Breaking Free and Moving Forward
In this episode of The T.E.G. Report, I’m opening up about my personal experience with relational trauma and the lessons I’ve learned along the way. We’re discussing how the past can creep into our current and what it takes to break free from the cycle. It’s raw, real, and packed with insights you don’t want to miss. I’d love to hear from you—what resonated most? Drop your thoughts in the…
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ruminate88 · 3 months ago
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Erm… I’m trying to feel it and release it. Too long I was numb after my ex Cody brutally discarded me TWICE and then ghosted me. To which then, I ran and found someone else to obsess over who ALSO discarded me annnnnd then I had to run again but found a guy I DO NOT obsess over at alll but he was so nice and no drama so I choose to be with him and marry him quickly but feel so disconnected despite my efforts to force myself there. I mean, I give it all ive got to feeeeeeeel anything. I did when we were dating. I felt safe with him and opened until we got married. Suddenly everything he does is a trigger 😳😨 annnnd now I have to actually stop running away from the pain of Cody but don’t know it yet. I just know I compare every thing my husband does or says to my exes. I over think 24/7 and I closed up and shut down. I couldn’t express my honest and real feelings cuz I’m terrified my husband will get his feelings hurt at me 😓
I hate that I did not meet my husband first 😓❤️‍🩹 why’d I have to meet these toxic men who make me obsessive over them and chase them in circles while they carelessly murder my heart and make me beg for affection?? 🥴 I just wanna believe in myself and believe in love again. I don’t wanna run from love. I wanna be vulnerable and real. I’m always feeling “fake” around everyone who seemingly cares for me… I always feel exposed and deep shame for the past.
I’m ashamed I obsessed over my exes 🥺 I know that’s not healthy love. I fear people will judge me for staying in abusive relationships where I basically worshiped these men and kissed their feet begggggggging them to want me. They’re just people like me. They’re no more special or valuable than I am. God is no respecter of people. He be treating us all the same… SOO HOW DID I THINK MY EXES WERE SO AMAZING? 🥺😓 I’m sorry to them. I couldn’t treat them in a healthy manner and they certainly didn’t treat me well either. I only stayed cuz I believed they were what I wanted more than anything. I thought they could get better with enough love and patience but they didn’t want to change for me. They didn’t understand what they even needed to do or be for me. They’re very wrapped up in their own world. I didn’t really exist in their world the way they existed in mine ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 When will I be able to get past this or open up ???
“Never forget, pain is just a temporary guest. You must never let it make a home out of you.”
— f.e. marie
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unveiledglamour · 7 months ago
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Navigating Heartbreak: Unveiling the Real Process of Self-Love
“It’s happening for you not to you.” That’s what my therapist kept saying. I couldn’t understand it at the time. The only thing I could understand was the deep pain I was feeling.  Betrayal and heartbreak are tough. Around this time last year, I was facing the most horrific betrayal. I felt it in every way physically, mentally, emotionally. It’s crazy to think it’s only been a year because truly…
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esotericalchemist · 1 month ago
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𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄 - 𝐏𝐡𝐨𝐞𝐧𝐢𝐱 𝐑𝐢𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐆𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐔𝐩 𝐓𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐓𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐬𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 & 𝐏𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
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This is the eighth post in a 12-part series dedicated to helping you glow up using the wisdom of astrology. Each post explores a different astrological house and its influence on key areas of your life, offering transformative insights and actionable steps to help you thrive.
In this post, we’re focusing on the eighth house—the house of emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. This house represents the profound and sometimes challenging areas of life that require courage, depth, and surrender. Glowing up your eighth house means embracing the transformative power of change, cultivating meaningful connections, and managing the flow of resources and energy with awareness and intention. Through the lens of your ruling sign, we’ll uncover how to harness your potential for emotional and spiritual rebirth.
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𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs deep emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Aries ruling this house, your approach to these themes is bold, dynamic, and fearless. Ruled by Mars, Aries in the eighth house brings an intense and action-oriented energy to your journey of transformation, emphasizing the importance of facing challenges head-on, cultivating passionate intimacy, and taking charge of financial or emotional entanglements. Your glow-up involves embracing your inner warrior to navigate life’s profound changes, building trust in intimate connections, and fearlessly pursuing your personal rebirth.
Emotional Resilience: Courage in the Face of Transformation
Aries in the eighth house equips you with the courage and determination to confront life’s challenges and emerge stronger. You’re naturally inclined to face adversity head-on, using your resilience to break through emotional blockages and achieve growth.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on cultivating mindfulness and self-awareness. While your instinct is to act, taking time to process your emotions and understand your triggers can lead to deeper healing. Practices like journaling, breathwork, or martial arts can help you channel your intensity into constructive outlets.
Embrace the transformative power of change. Whether you’re overcoming loss, betrayal, or a major life shift, trust your ability to rise from the ashes with renewed strength and purpose.
Intimacy: Passionate and Empowering Connections
Aries in the eighth house brings a fiery and passionate energy to intimate relationships. You approach emotional and physical intimacy with intensity, often seeking connections that feel raw, transformative, and deeply empowering.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on balancing your passion with emotional vulnerability. While your boldness is magnetic, opening your heart fully and allowing trust to deepen can create even more meaningful bonds.
Explore ways to build intimacy that align with Aries’ adventurous energy, such as engaging in shared physical challenges or exploring activities that push boundaries together. Prioritize partners who respect your independence while also valuing the depth of your connection.
Financial Mergers: Taking Charge of Shared Resources
Aries in the eighth house empowers you to take the lead when it comes to shared finances or resources. You have the confidence and drive to manage joint investments, handle inheritances, or resolve financial entanglements with determination and focus.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, focus on creating clear agreements and boundaries. While your decisive nature is a strength, collaborating with others on shared financial goals requires communication and compromise.
Consider exploring entrepreneurial ventures or dynamic investment opportunities that align with your bold energy. Your natural leadership can transform financial challenges into opportunities for growth and empowerment.
Spiritual Rebirth: Fearlessly Embracing Transformation
Aries in the eighth house is a catalyst for personal transformation and rebirth. You approach periods of change and upheaval with bravery, using them as opportunities to reinvent yourself and shed what no longer serves you.
To glow up your spiritual journey, embrace practices that challenge and awaken you, such as meditation retreats, shadow work, or intensive workshops focused on personal growth. Trust your instincts and inner fire to guide you through moments of profound change.
Lean into Aries’ pioneering energy by setting bold goals for your spiritual evolution. Whether it’s exploring new philosophies, diving into occult studies, or pursuing a transformative healing practice, allow your fearless nature to lead you to profound self-discovery.
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𝐓𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐔𝐒 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Taurus ruling this house, your approach to these themes is steady, grounded, and deeply connected to sensuality and security. Ruled by Venus, Taurus in the eighth house brings a calm and nurturing energy to your journey of transformation, emphasizing emotional stability, trust in intimate relationships, and building wealth and security through shared resources. Your glow-up involves finding strength in patience, embracing the transformative power of trust and connection, and creating a solid foundation for emotional and financial growth.
Emotional Resilience: Grounded Strength in Transformation
Taurus in the eighth house offers you the ability to navigate emotional challenges with patience and stability. You prefer to approach transformation methodically, allowing time for healing and growth rather than rushing through intense emotions.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on grounding yourself through nature, meditation, or mindfulness practices. Activities like gardening, walking in the woods, or simply spending time in calming environments can help you process emotions and find balance.
Trust your ability to rebuild after life’s challenges. Taurus’ earthy energy reminds you that transformation doesn’t have to be rapid—it can unfold steadily, like a seed growing into a strong tree.
Intimacy: Sensual and Secure Connections
Taurus in the eighth house brings a deeply sensual and loyal energy to your intimate relationships. You seek connections that are both emotionally and physically fulfilling, where trust and comfort are central.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on creating a sense of security and stability with your partner. Build intimacy through consistent acts of love, such as thoughtful gestures, physical touch, or quality time spent together.
Explore ways to deepen intimacy through Taurus’ love for beauty and sensuality. Sharing a home-cooked meal, enjoying a couple’s massage, or creating a cozy space for connection can strengthen your bond. Prioritize partners who value loyalty, respect, and the slow-building trust that Taurus cherishes.
Financial Mergers: Building Shared Security
Taurus in the eighth house emphasizes building wealth and stability through shared resources. You approach financial mergers with caution and a focus on creating long-term security, whether through joint investments, inheritance, or collaborative financial planning.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, prioritize communication and transparency with partners. Use Taurus’ practical energy to create budgets, savings plans, or investment strategies that align with your shared goals.
Consider exploring ways to grow wealth through Taurus-ruled activities, such as real estate, luxury goods, or creative ventures. Your steady and patient nature makes you adept at managing and growing resources over time.
Spiritual Rebirth: Transforming Through Stability
Taurus in the eighth house invites you to embrace transformation through grounding and self-worth. You find spiritual rebirth in moments of stillness and connection, often through practices that honor the beauty and abundance of life.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate rituals that celebrate stability and self-care, such as practicing gratitude, journaling, or engaging in art or music. Lean into Taurus’ love for beauty by creating a sacred space where you can reflect and grow.
Allow yourself to transform at your own pace. Taurus reminds you that rebirth doesn’t have to be disruptive—it can be a steady and nurturing process that leads to profound growth and lasting change.
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𝐆𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐈 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Gemini ruling this house, your approach to these themes is intellectual, communicative, and ever-curious. Ruled by Mercury, Gemini in the eighth house brings a dynamic and inquisitive energy to your journey of transformation, emphasizing emotional growth through dialogue, exploration of ideas, and adaptability in the face of change. Your glow-up involves embracing transformation through learning and connection, deepening intimacy through honest communication, and managing shared resources with a flexible and innovative mindset.
Emotional Resilience: Transforming Through Understanding
Gemini in the eighth house equips you with a natural curiosity and adaptability that helps you navigate life’s challenges. You process emotional experiences by analyzing and understanding them, often finding growth through learning and exploration.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on journaling, therapy, or engaging in meaningful conversations with trusted individuals. Talking through your feelings or exploring new perspectives helps you process emotions and uncover deeper truths about yourself.
Embrace the transformative power of knowledge. Dive into books, podcasts, or courses that inspire growth and help you develop tools for navigating life’s complexities. Gemini reminds you that transformation can come from staying open to new ideas and perspectives.
Intimacy: Honest and Communicative Connections
Gemini in the eighth house brings a lively and curious energy to intimate relationships. You seek deep connections where open communication and intellectual engagement are key. Conversations with your partner often play a significant role in building trust and emotional intimacy.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on fostering transparency and authenticity in your relationships. Share your thoughts, dreams, and fears with your partner, and encourage them to do the same. Gemini’s energy thrives on dialogue, so making time for meaningful conversations can strengthen your bond.
Explore intimacy through shared intellectual pursuits—reading together, attending workshops, or engaging in stimulating debates. Partners who value curiosity and mental connection will be most compatible with your Gemini eighth house energy.
Financial Mergers: Adaptive and Innovative Approach
Gemini in the eighth house brings versatility and a love for learning to financial partnerships. You’re adept at exploring multiple options, finding creative solutions, and adapting to changing circumstances when managing shared resources or investments.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, focus on clear communication and active collaboration with partners. Use Gemini’s analytical skills to research and diversify your financial strategies, ensuring that you’re making informed decisions.
Consider exploring ventures that involve communication, technology, or media—areas where Gemini energy thrives. Your adaptability and innovative thinking can lead to success in dynamic or rapidly evolving markets.
Spiritual Rebirth: Growth Through Exploration
Gemini in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through curiosity and learning. You find renewal by exploring different philosophies, engaging in discussions about life’s mysteries, or seeking knowledge in areas like metaphysics, psychology, or the occult.
To glow up your spiritual journey, allow yourself to experiment with various practices, such as meditation, journaling, or attending workshops. Gemini energy benefits from variety and exploration, so don’t be afraid to mix traditional approaches with innovative techniques.
Connect with like-minded individuals who share your passion for growth and discovery. Discussions and shared learning experiences can provide profound insights and accelerate your spiritual transformation.
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𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐑 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Cancer ruling this house, your approach to these themes is deeply emotional, nurturing, and intuitive. Ruled by the Moon, Cancer in the eighth house brings a protective and healing energy to your journey of transformation, emphasizing emotional depth, trust in intimate relationships, and finding empowerment through vulnerability and care. Your glow-up involves cultivating resilience through self-compassion, building intimate connections rooted in emotional security, and navigating shared resources with intuition and a focus on mutual care.
Emotional Resilience: Healing Through Emotional Depth
Cancer in the eighth house connects your emotional resilience to your ability to nurture and process feelings. You navigate life’s challenges by leaning into your intuition and finding strength in emotional awareness.
To glow up your emotional resilience, embrace practices that allow you to honor and process your feelings, such as journaling, meditation, or working with a therapist. Your ability to tap into your emotions is a gift—use it to heal and grow through life’s transformative moments.
Spend time in environments that feel safe and nurturing, whether that’s your home, a comforting natural space, or with close loved ones. Cancer reminds you that transformation is most profound when approached with care and self-compassion.
Intimacy: Nurturing and Trusting Connections
Cancer in the eighth house brings a deeply nurturing and empathetic energy to your intimate relationships. You seek connections that feel emotionally safe and where vulnerability is welcomed and reciprocated. Trust and care are the foundation of your bonds.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on creating a secure emotional environment with your partner. Share your feelings openly and encourage your partner to do the same, building trust through mutual understanding.
Explore intimacy through shared acts of nurturing and care, such as cooking together, offering emotional support, or creating comforting rituals. Partners who value emotional connection and are unafraid of exploring depth will resonate most with your Cancerian eighth house energy.
Financial Mergers: Intuitive and Caring Management
Cancer in the eighth house emphasizes managing shared resources with intuition, empathy, and a focus on long-term security. You approach financial partnerships with caution and care, ensuring that decisions are emotionally aligned and supportive for all involved.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, prioritize transparency and communication. Use Cancer’s intuitive energy to assess whether a financial arrangement feels supportive and fair.
Consider exploring financial ventures that reflect your nurturing nature, such as real estate, hospitality, or community-driven initiatives. Trust your instincts when it comes to investments or collaborations—your gut feelings are often spot-on.
Spiritual Rebirth: Empowerment Through Emotional Healing
Cancer in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through emotional healing and self-nurturing. You find renewal by exploring the depths of your feelings, addressing past wounds, and cultivating a sense of inner security.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate rituals that feel nurturing and aligned with your emotional needs. Practices like moon rituals, journaling your emotions, or creating a sacred space in your home can help you connect to your inner self and promote healing.
Lean into Cancer’s connection to the past by exploring your family roots or ancestral traditions. Understanding your personal history can provide a powerful foundation for spiritual rebirth and growth.
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𝐋𝐄𝐎 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Leo ruling this house, your approach to these themes is bold, expressive, and deeply empowering. Ruled by the Sun, Leo in the eighth house brings a radiant and transformative energy to your journey, emphasizing personal strength, creative rebirth, and finding intimacy through authenticity and generosity. Your glow-up involves embracing your inner power to navigate change, building deeply fulfilling connections that reflect your authentic self, and managing shared resources with confidence and leadership.
Emotional Resilience: Strength Through Self-Expression
Leo in the eighth house connects your emotional resilience to your ability to express yourself authentically and shine even in challenging times. You thrive on reclaiming your inner power and using life’s transformative experiences to fuel your creativity and self-discovery.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on practices that allow you to channel your feelings into creative outlets, such as art, writing, or performance. Sharing your story or helping others through your experiences can also bring a sense of purpose and healing.
Cultivate self-confidence by acknowledging your inherent strength and resilience. Leo reminds you that transformation is not only about overcoming challenges but also about embracing the opportunity to emerge stronger and more radiant.
Intimacy: Authentic and Generous Connections
Leo in the eighth house brings a passionate and generous energy to intimate relationships. You seek connections that feel empowering and celebratory, where both partners can share their authentic selves without fear of judgment.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on creating relationships that honor your need for admiration and mutual respect. Share your desires openly, and encourage your partner to do the same. Celebrate each other’s individuality, creating a dynamic bond built on trust and encouragement.
Explore intimacy through Leo’s love for creativity and self-expression. Try activities that bring joy and connection, such as dancing together, creating art, or planning bold and memorable experiences that deepen your bond.
Financial Mergers: Leading with Confidence
Leo in the eighth house empowers you to take the lead in managing shared resources. You bring confidence, charisma, and vision to financial partnerships, making you well-suited for ventures that require bold decision-making and a touch of creativity.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, focus on collaboration and clear communication. While your natural leadership is a strength, working with others to develop shared goals ensures long-term success.
Consider exploring ventures that align with Leo’s creative and dynamic nature, such as artistic projects, entertainment, or luxury goods. Trust your instincts and boldness to guide you in navigating opportunities for financial growth.
Spiritual Rebirth: Transforming Through Radiance
Leo in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through self-discovery and creative renewal. You find empowerment by reclaiming your inner light, overcoming fears, and stepping fully into your authentic self.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate practices that celebrate your individuality and self-expression. Activities like visualization meditations, affirmations, or creating a vision board can help you connect to your highest potential.
Lean into Leo’s connection to joy and playfulness by exploring spiritual practices that feel uplifting and empowering. Allow your transformation to be a celebration of your growth and the radiance of your true self.
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𝐕𝐈𝐑𝐆𝐎 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Virgo ruling this house, your approach to these themes is practical, analytical, and service-oriented. Ruled by Mercury, Virgo in the eighth house brings a precise and healing energy to your journey, emphasizing the importance of understanding the details of transformation, cultivating meaningful intimacy through thoughtful care, and managing shared resources with organization and discernment. Your glow-up involves embracing transformation as a process, finding empowerment in service and self-improvement, and navigating intimacy and resources with clarity and mindfulness.
Emotional Resilience: Healing Through Practical Insight
Virgo in the eighth house equips you with the ability to analyze and understand emotional challenges. You find strength in breaking down complex situations into manageable steps, allowing you to process and heal through deliberate action.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on creating routines that support your mental and emotional well-being. Journaling, meditation, or seeking therapy can help you uncover insights and develop tools for managing life’s transformations.
Lean into Virgo’s love for growth by viewing challenges as opportunities for self-improvement. Small, consistent steps toward healing can lead to profound and lasting change.
Intimacy: Thoughtful and Healing Connections
Virgo in the eighth house brings a caring and detail-oriented energy to intimate relationships. You thrive in connections where thoughtful gestures, shared acts of service, and mutual growth create a strong bond.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on building trust through consistent communication and meaningful actions. Small acts of care, like remembering your partner’s preferences or offering support during challenging times, can deepen your connection.
Explore intimacy through Virgo’s practical and healing energy. Activities like cooking together, engaging in wellness routines, or working on shared projects can foster a sense of closeness and mutual support. Prioritize partners who value growth, effort, and genuine care.
Financial Mergers: Organized and Practical Management
Virgo in the eighth house emphasizes careful and organized management of shared resources. You approach financial mergers with an eye for detail, ensuring that agreements are fair and well-structured.
To glow up your approach to financial partnerships, focus on transparency and communication. Use Virgo’s analytical nature to review agreements, budgets, or investments carefully, making sure they align with your long-term goals.
Consider exploring ventures that reflect Virgo’s practical strengths, such as health and wellness businesses, education, or environmental sustainability. Your ability to focus on details and create efficient systems can lead to financial growth and stability.
Spiritual Rebirth: Transformation Through Service and Self-Improvement
Virgo in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through service, self-reflection, and meaningful work. You find renewal by contributing to others’ well-being and refining your own habits and routines.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate practices that promote self-awareness and growth. Activities like mindfulness, yoga, or personal development courses can help you connect with your higher self and create meaningful change.
Lean into Virgo’s love for service by exploring ways to contribute to others’ healing and transformation. Whether through mentoring, volunteering, or creating resources for others, your acts of care will also nourish your own soul.
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𝐋𝐈𝐁𝐑𝐀 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Libra ruling this house, your approach to these themes is harmonious, relationship-focused, and centered on balance and beauty. Ruled by Venus, Libra in the eighth house brings a graceful and diplomatic energy to your journey, emphasizing the importance of fairness in shared resources, cultivating intimacy through trust and mutual respect, and navigating transformation with elegance and equilibrium. Your glow-up involves finding empowerment through meaningful connections, balancing your needs with those of others, and transforming your life with a sense of harmony and purpose.
Emotional Resilience: Graceful Balance Through Transformation
Libra in the eighth house equips you with the ability to find balance and harmony in times of emotional upheaval. You navigate transformation by seeking equilibrium and looking for solutions that benefit everyone involved.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on cultivating inner peace through practices like meditation, journaling, or engaging in calming creative activities. Surround yourself with beauty and harmony—whether in your environment or through your social connections—as these elements help you feel grounded during challenging times.
Lean into Libra’s love for balance by exploring ways to turn difficult moments into opportunities for self-discovery and relational healing. Approach transformation as a way to create harmony within yourself and your surroundings.
Intimacy: Harmonious and Trusting Connections
Libra in the eighth house brings a diplomatic and romantic energy to intimate relationships. You seek connections where trust, mutual respect, and shared values create a foundation for meaningful bonds.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on building trust through honest and balanced communication. Share your thoughts and emotions openly while also listening and understanding your partner’s perspective. Libra thrives on fairness, so creating a relationship dynamic that feels equal and supportive is essential.
Explore intimacy through Libra’s love for beauty and connection. Plan shared activities that foster closeness, such as attending cultural events, enjoying elegant dinners, or collaborating on creative projects. Partners who value fairness, romance, and mutual growth will resonate with your Libra eighth house energy.
Financial Mergers: Fair and Elegant Management
Libra in the eighth house emphasizes fairness and diplomacy in managing shared resources. You approach financial partnerships with a focus on creating balance and ensuring that all parties benefit equally from the arrangement.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, prioritize clear communication and fairness in all agreements. Use Libra’s natural sense of harmony to negotiate terms that feel just and supportive for everyone involved.
Consider exploring ventures that align with Libra’s love for beauty, culture, and collaboration. Artistic projects, partnerships in design, or joint ventures in luxury or fashion can align with your eighth house energy.
Spiritual Rebirth: Transformation Through Harmony and Connection
Libra in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through balance, relationships, and beauty. You find renewal by cultivating harmony within yourself and your connections, often seeking growth through relational healing and shared experiences.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate practices that align with Libra’s love for connection and aesthetics. Rituals involving art, music, or even creating a sacred, beautiful space can help you connect with your inner self and navigate transformation with grace.
Lean into Libra’s diplomatic energy by working on relationships that matter most to you. Whether it’s healing a rift, strengthening a bond, or forging new connections, your path to spiritual rebirth often involves your interactions with others.
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𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐏𝐈𝐎 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house is Scorpio’s natural domain, governing emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Scorpio ruling this house, your approach to these themes is intense, deeply emotional, and transformative. Ruled by Mars and Pluto, Scorpio in the eighth house brings a profound and magnetic energy to your journey, emphasizing the importance of facing life’s challenges with courage, cultivating intimacy through vulnerability, and embracing personal rebirth as a path to empowerment. Your glow-up involves diving fearlessly into the depths of your emotions, creating connections that are transformative and healing, and navigating shared resources with strategic focus and determination.
Emotional Resilience: Transforming Through Inner Power
Scorpio in the eighth house grants you the ability to confront life’s most challenging and transformative moments with unwavering strength. You’re no stranger to emotional intensity, and your resilience lies in your capacity to face pain, loss, or upheaval head-on and emerge stronger.
To glow up your emotional resilience, embrace practices that help you process and channel your emotions constructively. Journaling, shadow work, or deep meditation can help you uncover hidden layers of your psyche and transform past wounds into sources of power.
Lean into Scorpio’s transformative energy by viewing challenges as opportunities for renewal. Allow yourself to release what no longer serves you and trust in your ability to rise from the ashes, more empowered than ever.
Intimacy: Deep and Transformative Connections
Scorpio in the eighth house brings an intense and magnetic energy to intimate relationships. You crave deep, soul-level connections where vulnerability and trust create a foundation for profound emotional and physical intimacy.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on building trust through honesty and emotional depth. While your natural intensity can be magnetic, cultivating open communication and mutual respect is essential for sustaining healthy relationships.
Explore intimacy through Scorpio’s love for depth and transformation. Engage in activities that foster emotional closeness, such as meaningful conversations, exploring shared passions, or embarking on journeys of personal growth together. Partners who are unafraid of exploring life’s depths will align best with your Scorpio eighth house energy.
Financial Mergers: Strategic and Empowered Management
Scorpio in the eighth house emphasizes a strategic and focused approach to managing shared resources. You have a natural talent for understanding complex financial dynamics, making you adept at navigating investments, inheritances, or joint ventures.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, focus on building transparent and equitable partnerships. Use Scorpio’s analytical skills to research opportunities thoroughly and ensure that all decisions align with your long-term goals.
Consider exploring ventures that reflect Scorpio’s transformative energy, such as investments in healing practices, technology, or industries that involve innovation and deep change. Trust your instincts and strategic thinking to guide you in creating wealth and stability.
Spiritual Rebirth: Empowerment Through Depth and Renewal
Scorpio in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through deep self-exploration and empowerment. You find renewal by diving into the mysteries of life, confronting your fears, and rising above challenges with newfound strength.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate practices that resonate with Scorpio’s transformative energy, such as breathwork, energy healing, or exploring metaphysical studies like astrology, tarot, or the occult. These practices can help you connect with your inner power and navigate rebirth with confidence.
Lean into Scorpio’s fearless nature by embracing change as a natural and necessary part of life. Each transformation brings you closer to your authentic self, empowering you to live with purpose and clarity.
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𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Sagittarius ruling this house, your approach to these themes is adventurous, optimistic, and expansive. Ruled by Jupiter, Sagittarius in the eighth house brings a bold and philosophical energy to your journey, emphasizing growth through exploration, transformation through higher understanding, and a fearless embrace of life’s mysteries. Your glow-up involves finding wisdom in transformation, cultivating intimacy through shared adventures and philosophical alignment, and managing shared resources with a visionary mindset.
Emotional Resilience: Expanding Through Growth and Understanding
Sagittarius in the eighth house equips you with the ability to navigate emotional challenges with optimism and a desire for growth. You view life’s difficulties as opportunities to expand your understanding of yourself and the world, often seeking wisdom in times of transformation.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on practices that align with Sagittarius’ love for exploration and meaning. Journaling your experiences, studying philosophy or spirituality, or attending workshops that inspire personal growth can help you process emotions and find clarity.
Embrace Sagittarius’ adventurous spirit by seeing each challenge as part of a larger journey. Trust in your ability to learn, adapt, and emerge stronger and wiser from every transformative experience.
Intimacy: Adventurous and Expansive Connections
Sagittarius in the eighth house brings a free-spirited and open-minded energy to intimate relationships. You crave connections that are both emotionally and intellectually stimulating, often seeking partners who share your curiosity and passion for exploration.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on building trust and mutual respect while leaving room for individuality and freedom. Share your dreams, philosophies, and aspirations with your partner, creating a bond that thrives on shared growth and adventure.
Explore intimacy through Sagittarius’ love for learning and discovery. Travel together, engage in spiritual practices, or attend lectures and events that align with your shared interests. Partners who value growth and exploration will resonate most with your Sagittarius eighth house energy.
Financial Mergers: Visionary and Optimistic Management
Sagittarius in the eighth house emphasizes a big-picture and optimistic approach to managing shared resources. You’re drawn to investments or ventures that promise growth and expansion, often excelling in opportunities tied to travel, education, or international connections.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, focus on combining your visionary mindset with practical strategies. While Sagittarius thrives on optimism, ensuring that your decisions are grounded in research and planning will enhance your success.
Consider exploring ventures that align with Sagittarius’ expansive energy, such as international investments, higher education programs, or opportunities in media and publishing. Trust your ability to see the bigger picture and take calculated risks that lead to long-term growth.
Spiritual Rebirth: Transformation Through Exploration and Wisdom
Sagittarius in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through exploration, learning, and the pursuit of higher truth. You find renewal by seeking out new philosophies, expanding your horizons, and connecting with the mysteries of life on a grand scale.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate practices that inspire curiosity and growth, such as studying world religions, attending spiritual retreats, or exploring esoteric wisdom. Sagittarius thrives on variety, so allow yourself to experiment with different modalities until you find what resonates.
Lean into Sagittarius’ adventurous energy by viewing transformation as an exciting opportunity to learn more about yourself and the world. Trust in your journey, knowing that each step brings you closer to your authentic purpose.
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𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐍 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Capricorn ruling this house, your approach to these themes is grounded, disciplined, and focused on long-term goals. Ruled by Saturn, Capricorn in the eighth house brings a structured and pragmatic energy to your journey, emphasizing transformation through responsibility, cultivating intimacy through trust and reliability, and managing shared resources with a strategic and goal-oriented mindset. Your glow-up involves embracing transformation as a deliberate process, building secure and enduring connections, and creating lasting success through careful planning and determination.
Emotional Resilience: Strength Through Discipline and Structure
Capricorn in the eighth house grants you the ability to navigate emotional challenges with steadiness and resilience. You approach transformation with a focus on practicality, viewing difficulties as opportunities to build inner strength and maturity.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on creating systems and routines that support your emotional well-being. Practices like structured journaling, goal-setting, or working with a mentor or therapist can help you process emotions and develop tools for growth.
Embrace Capricorn’s grounded energy by setting clear goals for your personal development. Whether it’s overcoming past trauma or building healthier habits, your disciplined approach ensures steady progress toward healing and transformation.
Intimacy: Trustworthy and Enduring Connections
Capricorn in the eighth house brings a loyal and dependable energy to intimate relationships. You seek connections that are built on trust, mutual respect, and a shared commitment to long-term stability and growth.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on building relationships where both partners contribute equally and consistently. Show your dedication through actions rather than words, and prioritize partners who value trust and reliability as much as you do.
Explore intimacy through Capricorn’s love for tradition and structure. Create rituals or routines with your partner that reinforce your bond, such as weekly check-ins, shared projects, or working toward mutual goals. Partners who appreciate your steady and supportive nature will align well with your Capricorn eighth house energy.
Financial Mergers: Strategic and Goal-Oriented Management
Capricorn in the eighth house emphasizes a methodical and disciplined approach to managing shared resources. You excel in financial partnerships that require strategy, foresight, and a focus on building long-term wealth and stability.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, focus on clear communication and detailed planning. Use Capricorn’s organizational skills to create budgets, investment strategies, or contracts that align with your goals and protect your interests.
Consider exploring ventures that reflect Capricorn’s strengths, such as real estate, corporate investments, or industries that emphasize tradition and sustainability. Your ability to think strategically and act responsibly ensures steady growth and success.
Spiritual Rebirth: Transformation Through Responsibility and Legacy
Capricorn in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through accountability and the creation of a meaningful legacy. You find renewal by aligning your actions with your higher purpose and building a life that reflects your core values.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate practices that connect your personal growth with your sense of duty and contribution. Activities like long-term goal-setting, legacy planning, or engaging in community leadership can bring clarity and purpose to your transformation.
Lean into Capricorn’s disciplined energy by viewing spiritual growth as a steady climb. Trust that each step you take, no matter how small, contributes to the foundation of a meaningful and empowered life.
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𝐀𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐔𝐒 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Aquarius ruling this house, your approach to these themes is innovative, unconventional, and future-focused. Ruled by Saturn and Uranus, Aquarius in the eighth house brings a progressive and visionary energy to your journey, emphasizing transformation through intellectual growth, cultivating intimacy through shared ideals, and managing shared resources with creativity and ingenuity. Your glow-up involves embracing change as a catalyst for innovation, building connections that honor individuality and unity, and exploring unique approaches to wealth and personal evolution.
Emotional Resilience: Transformation Through Innovation and Perspective
Aquarius in the eighth house equips you with the ability to navigate emotional challenges with intellectual curiosity and a visionary mindset. You view transformation as an opportunity to break free from outdated patterns and embrace new possibilities.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on practices that stimulate both your mind and spirit. Engage in journaling, therapy, or group discussions that allow you to explore emotions from a fresh perspective. Technology-based tools, such as meditation apps or online communities, can also support your growth.
Embrace Aquarius’ forward-thinking energy by reframing challenges as opportunities for innovation. Trust in your ability to detach from the past and move toward a brighter, more inspired future.
Intimacy: Unique and Idealistic Connections
Aquarius in the eighth house brings a free-spirited and idealistic energy to intimate relationships. You’re drawn to connections that are intellectually stimulating, egalitarian, and rooted in shared values and ideals.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on building relationships that celebrate both individuality and unity. Open communication about personal boundaries and mutual goals can strengthen your bond while honoring each partner’s independence.
Explore intimacy through Aquarius’ love for exploration and innovation. Engage in activities that foster intellectual and emotional closeness, such as volunteering for causes you both care about, exploring new technologies together, or creating future plans that align with your shared vision.
Financial Mergers: Creative and Inclusive Management
Aquarius in the eighth house emphasizes a unique and inclusive approach to managing shared resources. You excel in financial partnerships that require creativity, collaboration, and a willingness to think outside the box.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, focus on transparency and teamwork. Use Aquarius’ innovative mindset to explore unconventional investment opportunities, such as technology startups, renewable energy, or community-based ventures.
Consider leveraging tools like financial apps or collaborative platforms to manage resources efficiently. Your ability to embrace new ideas and foster equality in partnerships ensures successful and forward-thinking financial management.
Spiritual Rebirth: Transformation Through Vision and Unity
Aquarius in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through innovation, community, and a commitment to the greater good. You find renewal by connecting with progressive ideas, aligning with collective goals, and embracing a vision of universal growth.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate practices that expand your perspective and foster connection with others. Group meditations, humanitarian work, or studying futuristic philosophies can help you align with Aquarius’ transformative energy.
Lean into Aquarius’ love for technology and progress by exploring tools that enhance spiritual growth, such as virtual workshops, guided apps, or online communities. Transformation is about embracing the collective and honoring your unique role within it.
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𝐏𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐒 𝟖𝐓𝐇 𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄
The eighth house governs emotional resilience, intimacy, shared resources, and personal transformation. With Pisces ruling this house, your approach to these themes is intuitive, compassionate, and spiritually profound. Ruled by Jupiter and Neptune, Pisces in the eighth house brings a dreamy and empathetic energy to your journey, emphasizing transformation through surrender, cultivating intimacy through emotional connection, and navigating shared resources with trust and a sense of flow. Your glow-up involves embracing emotional and spiritual healing, building soulful connections, and trusting the universe’s timing and abundance in your evolution.
Emotional Resilience: Healing Through Intuition and Surrender
Pisces in the eighth house connects your emotional resilience to your capacity for intuition and spiritual insight. You navigate life’s challenges by tuning into your inner wisdom and finding strength in surrendering to the flow of life.
To glow up your emotional resilience, focus on practices that nurture your emotional and spiritual well-being. Meditation, energy healing, or connecting with water-based activities like swimming or baths can help you process emotions and release stress.
Lean into Pisces’ compassionate energy by forgiving yourself and others for past mistakes. Trust that healing is a journey, and your ability to surrender and flow through transformation allows for profound growth and renewal.
Intimacy: Soulful and Compassionate Connections
Pisces in the eighth house brings a deeply emotional and spiritual energy to intimate relationships. You seek connections that feel transcendent and where mutual empathy and vulnerability form the foundation of your bond.
To glow up your intimate life, focus on fostering emotional depth and spiritual alignment with your partner. Share your dreams, fears, and innermost thoughts openly, creating a safe space for mutual understanding and growth.
Explore intimacy through Pisces’ love for romance and creativity. Engage in activities like stargazing, creating art together, or meditating as a couple. Partners who value emotional connection and soulful experiences will resonate most with your Pisces eighth house energy.
Financial Mergers: Trusting and Intuitive Management
Pisces in the eighth house emphasizes a trusting and intuitive approach to managing shared resources. You’re drawn to financial partnerships that feel aligned with your values and where mutual support and trust are paramount.
To glow up your approach to financial mergers, focus on balancing your natural trust with practicality. While your intuition is strong, grounding your decisions with research and clear communication ensures stable and successful partnerships.
Consider exploring ventures that reflect Pisces’ compassionate and creative nature, such as artistic endeavors, charitable initiatives, or spiritual businesses. Trust in your ability to manifest abundance while staying aligned with your higher purpose.
Spiritual Rebirth: Transformation Through Compassion and Unity
Pisces in the eighth house invites you to embrace spiritual transformation through compassion, creativity, and connection with the divine. You find renewal by surrendering to the greater flow of the universe and aligning with your soul’s purpose.
To glow up your spiritual journey, incorporate practices that deepen your connection to the divine, such as prayer, visualization, or exploring mystical studies like astrology, dream work, or the Akashic Records. Pisces thrives on connection, so engage in group meditations or spiritual communities to enhance your journey.
Lean into Pisces’ boundless energy by exploring the depths of your imagination and intuition. Trust that transformation is a sacred process, and every experience brings you closer to unity with your higher self.
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pearlprincess02 · 3 months ago
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8th house synastry overlays (asteroids)
inner planets overlay & outer planets overlay
north node in 8th house overlay
north node person: in this synastry, the north node person is drawn into a profound journey of transformation and growth through their connection with the 8th house person. positively, this dynamic encourages the north node person to embrace vulnerability, explore deep emotional bonds, and confront fears surrounding intimacy and shared resources. their relationship can lead to significant personal development, helping them to tap into their potential for regeneration and renewal, ultimately guiding them toward their life purpose. however, the intensity of the 8th house energy can also present challenges, as the north node person may grapple with issues of control, possessiveness, or fear of losing their independence. if they resist the lessons of surrender and trust, they might find themselves caught in cycles of emotional turmoil or dependency, preventing them from fully realizing their potential in this transformative relationship.
8th house person: for the 8th house person, the presence of the north node brings an opportunity for deep personal evolution, urging them to confront their shadows and embrace transformative experiences. this relationship can help the 8th house person recognize the importance of shared vulnerability and the power dynamics inherent in intimate connections. on the positive side, they may find themselves developing a greater understanding of their emotional depths and the necessity of letting go in order to grow. however, the challenges posed by the north node's influence may also trigger fears around loss or betrayal, prompting the 8th house person to either withdraw or become overly controlling in response to their insecurities. if they can navigate these fears and embrace the lessons of mutual trust and emotional sharing, they will unlock their full potential for growth and healing within the relationship.
couple tropes: transformational pair, soul growth journey, deep divers, intimacy teachers, shadow work partners, destiny fulfillers, power strugglers, resourceful team, fear confrontors, regeneration duo
south node in 8th house overlay
south node person: in this synastry, the south node person brings a sense of familiarity to the relationship, often invoking deep-seated patterns and unresolved karma from past experiences. positively, this can create a strong bond based on shared understanding and emotional depth, allowing both partners to explore themes of intimacy, trust, and shared resources with an intuitive grasp. the south node person may help the 8th house person reconnect with past lessons, leading to personal growth and healing of old wounds. however, the challenges arise when the south node person's attachment to past patterns leads to stagnation or dependency. they may struggle to release old habits, such as avoidance of emotional vulnerability or fear of commitment, which can prevent both partners from evolving. if they remain entrenched in these patterns, they risk repeating cycles of pain and conflict rather than moving toward the growth opportunities that the relationship can offer.
8th house person: for the 8th house person, the presence of the south node signifies a profound exploration of karmic themes related to intimacy and transformation. this relationship can evoke memories of past connections and emotional experiences, providing the 8th house person with an opportunity to confront and resolve deep-seated issues surrounding control, power dynamics, and shared resources. on the positive side, they may find themselves able to process and release past emotional baggage, paving the way for healthier patterns of intimacy. however, the downside is that they may also find themselves entangled in cycles of dependency or emotional drama, struggling to break free from old habits that no longer serve their growth. if the 8th house person fails to recognize the need for transformation, they may inadvertently perpetuate negative patterns, leading to feelings of frustration and emotional entrapment.
couple tropes: familiar strangers, emotional historians, karma confrontors, resurfacing Issues, intimacy revisitors, dependency duo, shadow partners, the transformative journey, the pattern repeaters, healing connection
lilith in 8th house overlay
lilith person: in this synastry, the lilith person often brings intense and powerful energies that awaken both partners’ hidden desires and obsessions surrounding intimacy and power dynamics. on the positive side, this connection can lead to a profound exploration of sexual attraction and emotional depth, allowing both individuals to tap into their raw, authentic selves and embrace their desires without shame. this synergy can facilitate deep conversations about taboo topics, promoting a safe space for vulnerability and self-discovery. however, the challenges arise when the intensity of these hidden desires turns into obsession, potentially leading to possessiveness, jealousy, or a fear of abandonment. the lilith person may struggle with navigating their own emotional depths, leading to potential power struggles and unhealthy attachments. if not carefully managed, this relationship can oscillate between passionate connection and destructive obsession, making it essential for both partners to maintain open communication and healthy boundaries.
8th house person: for the 8th house person, the presence of the lilith person activates their latent desires and can bring a heightened sense of awareness to their own obsessions and vulnerabilities. this dynamic can serve as a catalyst for transformation, allowing the 8th house person to explore their sexuality and emotional depths in ways that feel both exhilarating and intimidating. positively, they may experience a sense of liberation as they confront and embrace their darker desires, fostering a deeper intimacy with the lilith person. however, the downside is that the intense energy can lead to overwhelming emotions, making it easy for the 8th house person to become fixated on the lilith person or lose themselves in obsessive thoughts. if the 8th house person fails to maintain balance and boundaries, they may find themselves spiraling into emotional turmoil, leading to issues of dependency or control. ultimately, the journey is one of self-discovery, where they must learn to navigate their desires responsibly while fostering a healthy, dynamic connection.
couple tropes: forbidden lovers, intense connection, shadow explorers, obsession duo, desire unveilers, power players, secrets keepers, emotional alchemists, healing partners, passionate turmoil
chiron in 8th house overlay
chiron person: in this synastry, the chiron person brings their unique brand of healing and pain to the relationship, often navigating the depths of emotional and psychological wounds tied to intimacy and shared resources. positively, this connection can foster a profound healing journey, as both partners confront their traumas and vulnerabilities within a safe space. the chiron person may act as a guide, helping the 8th house person to unpack their pain and embrace transformation, leading to greater intimacy and understanding. however, this dynamic can also evoke significant challenges, as the chiron person may inadvertently trigger the 8th house person's deepest fears and insecurities. if they are not careful, this relationship can oscillate between deep healing and painful reliving of past traumas, creating a cycle of dependency or emotional turmoil. therefore, open communication and a commitment to healing are essential to navigate the complexities of this relationship and unlock its transformative potential.
8th house person: for the 8th house person, the presence of the chiron person highlights their own wounds related to intimacy, power, and vulnerability. this relationship can serve as a mirror, reflecting their deepest fears and emotional struggles, which can be both enlightening and painful. on the positive side, the chiron person may provide the 8th house person with the support needed to confront their fears, facilitating a healing process that encourages emotional growth and resilience. this connection can lead to significant breakthroughs, as the 8th house person learns to navigate their pain and reframe their experiences. however, the downside lies in the potential for overwhelming emotions, as the 8th house person may find it challenging to face the intensity of their wounds. if they become too enmeshed in their pain or overly reliant on the chiron person for healing, it may hinder their personal growth. Ultimately, the journey is one of balance, where both partners must navigate the fine line between pain and healing to foster a nurturing and transformative relationship.
couple tropes: wounded healers, the painful reflection, healing journey, intense connection, emotional alchemists, trust builders, shared secrets, power struggle, the catalyst for change, healing romance
juno in 8th house overlay
juno person: in this synastry, the juno person brings a deep sense of commitment and loyalty to the relationship, often elevating the bond to a level of profound trust and devotion. positively, this placement encourages an emotional intensity that fosters a sense of security, allowing both partners to explore the depths of intimacy and vulnerability together. the juno person often feels a strong connection to the 8th house person, viewing them as a partner worthy of deep devotion and fidelity. however, the intensity of the relationship can also create challenges; the juno person may struggle with feelings of possessiveness or fear of betrayal, which can lead to jealousy or insecurity. if not managed carefully, these feelings can undermine the trust they’ve built, potentially leading to conflicts or emotional distance. ultimately, this relationship thrives on open communication and a mutual understanding of each other’s needs for trust and devotion.
8th house person: for the 8th house person, the presence of the juno person highlights their deep desires for loyalty and emotional security within relationships. this connection often fosters a sense of shared devotion, as they both seek to navigate the complexities of trust and intimacy together. on the positive side, the 8th house person may find themselves feeling profoundly connected to the juno person, enhancing their willingness to open up and invest in the relationship. however, this can also lead to challenges, as the 8th house person may fear vulnerability or feel overwhelmed by the intensity of the juno person's commitment. their tendency to conceal their deeper feelings or fears can create misunderstandings, leading to potential rifts in trust. therefore, the success of this relationship hinges on both partners’ willingness to communicate openly about their feelings, fostering an environment where trust and devotion can flourish without the weight of unexpressed fears.
couple tropes: soulbound lovers, intimate confidants, committed partners, trust fall, intense devotion, the fear of betrayal, emotional healers, mysterious connection, power couple, devotion in darkness
eros in 8th house overlay
eros person: in this synastry, the eros person experiences a profound and magnetic attraction to the 8th house person, igniting intense passion and desire. on the positive side, their connection allows for explorative and adventurous sexual experiences, where both partners are encouraged to delve into their deepest fantasies and hidden pleasures. the eros person may find themselves captivated by the 8th house person's sensuality, leading to a dynamic and exhilarating sexual chemistry. however, this intensity can also lead to complications; the eros person may feel overwhelmed by the depth of emotions involved, risking the potential for possessiveness or jealousy if boundaries are not respected. when the eros person's desires clash with the 8th house person's complex emotional landscape, it can create tension and misunderstandings, necessitating open communication to ensure both partners feel secure and satisfied in their sexual connection.
8th house person: for the 8th house person, the presence of the eros person activates their desires for intimacy and emotional connection, enhancing their sexual experience in profound ways. this synastry fosters an atmosphere of deep eroticism and exploration, where the 8th house person feels liberated to express their sensuality and desires. positively, this connection can lead to a transformative sexual bond, characterized by a profound sense of unity and emotional depth that elevates their experiences beyond the physical. however, the intensity of this placement can also be challenging; the 8th house person may struggle with vulnerability, feeling overwhelmed by the depth of their emotions and desires. if they harbor fears or insecurities, it can lead to emotional withdrawal, creating barriers to fully enjoying the passionate experiences with the eros person. to maintain a fulfilling sexual connection, both partners must prioritize honest communication about their needs and boundaries, ensuring they navigate their desires together.
couple tropes: forbidden lovers, passionate explorers, emotional seduction, sensual alchemists, fantasies unleashed, intense lovers, jealous hearts, the bond beyond the physical, risky rendezvous, transformative duo
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Gosh I’ve been stuck in this “Andrew” chapter for too long 🥺💔 Sure, I’ve learned so many lessons but not enough to change the pain Andrew caused me. I just wanna enjoy my life for a change. Everywhere I read, it’s not “him” I even miss… it’s “dopamine” I miss 😭🤪🥴 it’s so uncomfortable to hear and makes me not trust myself that I can get so attached to someone that not only doesn’t attach himself at all but isn’t even real. He wore a mask and mirrored me. Scary!!! How do I know who isn’t mirroring me and who is legit????
“There comes a day when you realise turning the page is the best feeling in the world, because you realise there’s so much more to the book than the page you were stuck on.”
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moonlitstoriess · 4 months ago
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Bound in Silence- Rhysand x fem!Reader part 2
A/n: 8.7k words! Phew! This was definitely a rollercoaster of emotions but, I hope you guys enjoy it!💕
Part 1 here
After surviving her fall, Y/n embarks on a path of healing while Rhysand begins to realize the truth about their bond. As Rhys grapples with guilt and confusion, Y/n must learn to rebuild her life. But when their paths cross again, Rhys will need to fight for her forgiveness, hoping to mend what was once broken.
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She shouldn’t have survived.
The wind had howled in her ears as she plummeted from the cliff’s edge, the ground rushing up to meet her, a cold, hard end she had welcomed. The pain, the heartbreak—it had been too much, too consuming. But as the world around her blurred, she felt a sudden, violent impact, not against solid ground, but against something softer—brush and sand.
When she opened her eyes, it was not death that greeted her but the harsh light of dawn streaming through the trees above, the sound of waves crashing against the shore in the distance. She lay in a thicket, a tangled mess of branches and brambles that had broken her fall, offering her an unexpected refuge.
Her body ached with bruises from the impact, sharp pain flaring in her ribs and a throbbing headache pulsing at her temples. She felt the grit of sand embedded in her skin and the taste of salt on her lips. But she was alive.
Y/n struggled to sit up, her hands trembling as she pressed against the ground for support. Panic surged through her. The memories of the cliff, of the choice she had made, washed over her like a tide pulling her under. Had she really leapt to escape the torment of her heart? The betrayal she felt was still fresh, the sting of Rhysand’s indifference cutting deeper than any physical wound.
As she surveyed her surroundings, a dense forest framed her, the trees standing tall like silent sentinels. The sunlight filtered through the leaves, casting dappled shadows on the ground, and the distant sound of waves served as a haunting reminder of the world she had tried to leave behind. But where was she? She had no idea how far she had fallen or where this path might lead.
Y/n took a moment to catch her breath, the air crisp and sharp in her lungs. She was alone, utterly alone, with no family to return to, no familiar faces to seek comfort from. The weight of that truth settled deep in her chest. She had thought—foolishly—that Rhysand had been her salvation, her anchor in that hellish place. But in the end, she had meant nothing to him.
Pushing herself to her feet, she wobbled unsteadily, pain radiating through her ribs. The instinct to survive propelled her forward, one shaky step at a time. She didn’t know where she was going. The road ahead seemed just as empty as the one behind her.
But it didn’t matter. Nothing mattered anymore.
Each step felt heavier, and with every movement, she fought against the urge to collapse back to the ground. The memories of Rhysand—their stolen moments, their laughter, and the warmth of his presence—crashed over her like the waves she could hear in the distance. He had made her feel seen in a way she had never experienced before, and now that light was extinguished.
As she wandered deeper into the forest, the sun began to dip lower in the sky, casting long shadows among the trees. Y/n found a small clearing where she sank to the ground, her body protesting at the sudden relief. She closed her eyes, letting the sounds of nature surround her, searching for solace in the rustling leaves and chirping birds.
What she realized, in that moment of stillness, was that surviving wasn’t enough. She needed to reclaim herself, to remember who she had been before the darkness took hold. The journey ahead would be long and fraught with challenges, but the thought of facing them alone no longer filled her with dread. Instead, it ignited a flicker of determination.
“Whatever lies ahead,” she whispered to the trees, “I will find my way.”
With that resolve, Y/n pushed herself back up, brushing the leaves from her clothes and glancing around. The forest was alive with the sound of chirping birds and rustling leaves, and she couldn’t help but feel that life, despite its challenges, was still worth fighting for.
She pressed on, each step feeling heavier than the last. The forest wrapped around her like a shroud, the branches swaying gently as if whispering secrets she couldn’t quite grasp. She staggered through the underbrush, branches snagging her clothes and tearing at her skin, but she hardly noticed. The pain in her ribs was a constant reminder of her fall, pulsing with each movement, and fatigue settled in her bones like a thick fog.
She tried to focus on the path ahead, but her vision began to blur, the edges of her surroundings fading in and out. She needed to find shelter, a place to rest and gather her strength. The sun dipped lower, casting long shadows that seemed to dance mockingly around her, urging her to give in to the darkness that threatened to swallow her whole.
With every step, Y/n felt herself growing weaker. Her legs trembled, and the world spun slightly around her. She stumbled, hitting the ground hard, the breath leaving her lungs in a gasp. Panic surged through her as she fought to regain her breath, but the pain from her injuries was overwhelming. She lay there for a moment, staring up at the canopy of leaves above, feeling utterly defeated.
Then, as she struggled to push herself back up, she heard voices in the distance, their laughter ringing through the trees. At first, she thought it might be a cruel trick of her mind, a hallucination born from the exhaustion and pain. But as the laughter grew closer, a flicker of hope ignited within her.
“Did you hear that?” one voice said, clear and bright. “I think someone’s out there!”
Y/n’s heart raced, a mix of fear and hope flooding her veins. She wanted to call out, to let them know she was here, but the words caught in her throat. She could only lie there, trying to steady her breathing as the voices approached.
Moments later, a group of travelers emerged from the trees, their expressions shifting from joviality to concern as they spotted her on the ground. They were a motley crew—rough and worn but with a kindness that seemed to radiate from them. The tallest among them, a woman with long, dark hair and bright blue eyes, rushed forward.
“Oh, gods! What happened?” she exclaimed, kneeling beside Y/n. “Can you hear me? Are you hurt?”
Y/n tried to respond, but the words wouldn’t come. Instead, she looked up at the woman, her vision swimming as darkness crept at the edges of her sight.
“We need to get her out of here,” another voice said, a man with a thick beard who stepped forward. “She looks injured. We can’t leave her like this.”
The group quickly moved around her, their chatter fading into a distant hum as Y/n felt herself drifting. Hands gently lifted her, and though every movement sent jolts of pain through her body, the warmth of their concern began to wrap around her like a comforting blanket.
“Stay with us, okay?” the woman said, her voice soothing. “We’re going to help you.”
Y/n wanted to cling to those words, to believe that perhaps this was her chance to find solace. But the world began to fade, the faces of her rescuers becoming blurry as she lost her grip on consciousness. Just before the darkness took her, she felt a warm hand clasp her own, a connection that anchored her for one fleeting moment.
~~~~~~~~~~~~
Velaris was a sanctuary, hidden from the world and its chaos, but even its beauty couldn’t soothe the turmoil within him. Rhysand leaned against the balcony railing of the townhouse, staring out at the starry sky, yet his thoughts were far from peaceful. Feyre was with Tamlin in the Spring Court, and every moment spent thinking about their time together made his chest tighten with frustration.
He had felt so powerless during her trials, watching from afar as she struggled, battling her fears and doubts. His heart had raced as he witnessed her strength, yet it ignited a fury within him that simmered just below the surface. Tamlin didn’t deserve her. He was blinded by his love for Feyre, unable to see the darkness creeping into their lives, a darkness that Rhysand feared would swallow her whole.
“Damn it, Feyre,” he muttered under his breath, clenching his fists. “You don’t belong there.”
The weight of the Night Court’s responsibilities pressed heavily on him, and he found himself retreating deeper into his thoughts. The war with Amarantha had left scars that would take time to heal. But all he could think about was Feyre’s laughter, the way her eyes lit up in defiance, and the warmth that enveloped him when she was near.
Suddenly, he felt a pang of icy cold hit his chest, a feeling of.....nothing overtaking him. Rhysands body shuddered. He could now feel a string of sorts a....a bond. A bond with her, with y/n. But why was it so empty?
A shiver ran down his spine, and he closed his eyes, reaching out instinctively through the bond he shared with Y/n. Instead of comforting warmth, there was nothing but an oppressive silence. It was as if she had vanished, leaving a void that echoed with despair.
Since when did I have a bond with her? The thought sliced through his mind like a blade. He had dismissed their connection, buried it under layers of his feelings for Feyre. But now, the absence of Y/n felt like a cruel twist of fate, a reminder of what he had ignored for too long.
Panic surged through him as he searched for any hint of her presence, any sign that she was safe. But all he felt was the chilling silence, a stark contrast to the vibrant energy that had once flowed between them.
“Y/n,” he breathed, the name feeling foreign on his tongue. “Where are you?”
He pushed himself away from the balcony railing, his heart pounding in his chest. He needed to know what was happening, to understand why the bond felt so strained, so distant. A part of him clung to the hope that she was simply out of reach, that she was safe and sound somewhere beyond his grasp.
But the gnawing sense of dread would not let him rest. He was tied to her in a way he had never fully understood, and now that connection was fraying at the edges, unraveling into something that filled him with an ache he couldn’t quite place.
It hit him then, like a thunderclap in the stillness of his thoughts: Y/n was his mate. The realization sent shockwaves through him, unraveling the tension in his chest and filling him with a potent mixture of dread and yearning.
She mattered. She had always mattered, perhaps more than he had ever let himself admit.
As he stood there, the weight of his decisions began to settle upon him. He had taken her for granted, focused solely on his feelings for Feyre while ignoring the depth of his connection with Y/n.
He had to find her. He had to understand what was happening.
~~~~~~~~~
Y/n awoke in a small, dimly lit room, the soft murmur of voices and the sound of footsteps moving outside the door barely reaching her ears. Her body ached, every movement sending sharp reminders of her injuries. She tried to sit up, but a firm hand gently pressed her back down.
“Easy,” a woman’s voice murmured. Y/n blinked, her vision clearing enough to see the woman from before—the one with long, dark hair and kind, blue eyes—sitting beside her. “You’re still hurt. Your ribs were bruised, and you were half-frozen when we found you. You need rest.”
Y/n grimaced, ignoring the throbbing pain as she forced herself into a sitting position. She wasn’t used to lying still. “I’m fine,” she muttered, but her body betrayed her words, her legs too weak to support her even if she tried to stand.
The woman, who had introduced herself as Lira, smiled gently. “Stubborn, aren’t you? It’s alright to let someone help you.”
Y/n’s eyes flicked to the door. The laughter of children and the hum of distant conversations filtered in from outside. She frowned. “Where am I?”
“A village,” Lira said, watching her carefully. “Small, but we’re a close-knit community. Everyone knows everyone here. We help each other, share what we have.”
Jealousy flared in Y/n’s chest, sharp and uninvited. A place where people lived in peace, helping one another without a second thought. It was so different from the life she knew—so far from the chaos and heartbreak that had led her here.
Y/n’s voice was rough as she asked, “How long was I out?”
“A few days. We did what we could to help you recover. But you’ve still got some healing to do.”
Silence fell between them. Y/n’s gaze remained on the door, but her thoughts were far from the village. Her mind returned to the cliff, to the crushing despair that had driven her to jump. She had wanted the pain to end—had thought it would, but here she was, still breathing, still hurting.
Lira’s voice broke through her thoughts. “How did you end up in that forest? You were in pretty bad shape when we found you.”
Y/n hesitated. She didn’t owe this woman her story—didn’t owe anyone anything anymore—but the weight of it pressed down on her, and maybe, just maybe, telling a small part of it would help ease the burden.
“I had a mate,” Y/n said softly, her voice barely more than a whisper. Lira’s brow furrowed in sympathy, waiting for more. “He chose someone else.”
The words tasted bitter on her tongue, but they were the truth. Rhysand had never even known. Never knew that she had felt the bond snap into place, that the invisible thread between them had formed. It didn’t matter now—he had chosen Feyre, and that choice had shattered her.
Lira’s eyes were filled with gentle curiosity. “Why didn’t you tell him?”
Y/n shook her head, her throat tight. “It’s… complicated. He never knew, and by the time I realized, it was already too late. He… he was in love with her.”
Lira was quiet for a moment, processing Y/n’s words. “I’m sorry,” she said softly. “That sounds… painful.”
Y/n didn’t respond, her gaze distant, as if she could still see the edges of Amarantha's court from where she sat. The love she’d seen in Rhysand’s eyes when he looked at Feyre had been undeniable. He had never looked at her that way, not even close.
“Maybe we can contact your family?” Lira suggested, trying to be helpful.
Y/n’s jaw tightened, her eyes flickering to Lira’s kind face. “I don’t have anyone.”
“No one at all?”
Y/n shook her head, a cold emptiness settling in her chest. She had no family left—no home, no place to return to. “It’s just me.”
Lira sighed softly, her brow creasing in thought. “Then stay here with us,” she offered, her voice warm. “At least until you’re healed, and after that… you can decide where you want to go.”
Y/n’s instinct was to refuse immediately. She had seen too much, been through too much, to believe in the kindness of strangers anymore. She didn’t trust it—not after what she had lost. And yet… this woman, this village… they didn’t know her, didn’t know what she carried, and still, they had taken her in.
“I don’t know if I can,” Y/n said, her voice barely audible.
“Why not?” Lira asked gently. “You’ve been through something terrible, that much is clear. But there’s no need to face it alone.”
Y/n glanced at her, doubt gnawing at her insides. Could she trust these people? Could she allow herself even a moment of peace in this quiet village after everything?
Lira smiled again, softer this time. “Just think about it. We’re not going anywhere.”
Y/n gave a small nod, her mind already spinning with the enormity of her situation. She had nowhere to go, no plan for what came next. Maybe, for now, she could stay here—just until she figured out what to do.
~~~~~~~~
Rhysand’s mind raced, the weight of realization crashing over him like a tidal wave. Y/n was his mate. It wasn’t something he could dismiss anymore, not after the sudden void he felt through the bond. For so long, he had tried to push aside the connection, telling himself that Feyre was his priority. And yet, here he stood, drowning in guilt and confusion as the truth settled in.
She had always been there, a steady presence in his life—loyal, fierce, and strong. He had admired her, even cared for her, but it wasn’t until now that he understood the depth of that connection. And now, she was gone. Or worse—hurt.
“Mother above,” Rhys muttered, dragging a hand through his hair. He had been so blinded by Feyre, so consumed by his need to protect her, that he had failed to notice what had always been right in front of him.
The bond had been subtle at first, an almost imperceptible tether that he had never fully explored. But now? Now it was like a raw wound, aching in a way that made his chest tighten. He couldn’t feel her—couldn’t sense her. She was gone from his awareness, and that terrified him more than anything else.
Rhysand clenched his jaw, his thoughts spiraling into a panic. What if something had happened to her? The Night Court had always been a place of sanctuary, but the world beyond Velaris was filled with dangers—dangers that Y/n, in her current state, might not be able to fend off.
“I’ve been a fool,” he whispered, the words bitter on his tongue.
Turning away from the balcony, Rhys stormed back inside the palace, his steps quick and determined. He couldn’t just stand here and do nothing. He needed to find her, to reach her through the bond, to bring her back if she was in danger.
But how? He had never explored this connection before, had never let himself dwell on what it meant. And now, with Y/n’s presence completely cut off, he wasn’t sure where to begin.
His heart pounded, and the gnawing fear clawed at his insides. He didn’t know if she was safe. Didn’t know where she was. But he would find her, no matter what it took.
Rhysand closed his eyes and reached deep into himself, seeking out the bond, trying to find any flicker of her. He focused on that missing warmth, on the piece of him that felt like it had been torn away. And in the quiet of his mind, a whisper—barely there—flickered. A spark of something. Pain. Despair.
He gasped, the sensation hitting him hard, and for the briefest of moments, he felt her—felt the depth of her agony, the exhaustion, the loss.
“Y/n…” he breathed, his voice low, anguished. Wherever she was, she was suffering.
Rhysand knew he had to act quickly. There was no time to waste. He had to find her before it was too late.
With a sharp breath, he called for his wings, already preparing to leave. He will explain everything to his family later. Y/n—his mate—needed him now more than ever.
Rhysand landed softly in the clearing where he had last seen Y/n, his heart pounding in his chest. The forest loomed around him, dark and quiet, the air heavy with the scent of earth and damp leaves. Shadows stretched long in the fading light of the moon, casting an eerie stillness over the scene. His wings rustled as they folded behind him, but his mind was already racing, already searching.
This was where he had last seen her—right here, among the trees and the underbrush. She had watched him and Feyre have their conversation after Amaranthas death. Y/n thought she was hidden within the trees but he felt her, he always felt her presence, one would always feel the presence of one's mate. But he was too much of a fool to realize it sooner.
He moved through the clearing, his eyes scanning the ground, searching for any sign of her. A broken branch, a trace of her scent—anything. But the air was thick with silence, and the bond between them was weak, almost nonexistent now.
"Y/n!" Rhysand’s voice echoed through the trees, but no answer came. His shadows spread out, feeling through the dark, desperate to find any trace of her. But there was nothing.
He pressed forward, moving deeper into the forest, the trees closing in around him. The memories of their time together—of her strength, her resilience—pushed him on, even as doubt gnawed at the edges of his mind. What if she was gone? What if she was hurt, or worse?
He couldn’t think like that. Not yet. He had to find her.
"Y/n!" he called again, his voice strained, raw with desperation. He stumbled through the undergrowth, his boots sinking into the damp earth, his breath coming in short, sharp gasps. Every step felt heavier than the last, the weight of his failure bearing down on him.
But the forest remained silent.
Rhysand reached the edge of a small stream, the water trickling softly over the rocks. He crouched down, running his fingers through the mud, searching for any sign that she had been here. Nothing. His chest tightened, his heart hammering against his ribs as the realization began to settle in.
She wasn’t here.
His hands clenched into fists, his nails digging into his palms as he rose to his feet. The bond was slipping away, unraveling like a thread being pulled loose. He had never let it guide him before, never truly acknowledged its presence, but now, as it faded, the loss felt like a wound he couldn’t heal.
He had to keep searching.
Rhysand pushed further into the forest, his movements frantic now, his wings twitching with the urge to take flight again, to cover more ground. The trees blurred around him, the shadows twisting and bending as his magic flared, but there was no trace of her.
No warmth. No bond. Nothing.
Hours passed in a haze of desperation and despair. The moon climbed higher in the sky, casting pale light through the canopy, but it did little to ease the gnawing fear growing inside him. By the time he reached the edge of the forest, Rhysand felt hollow, the weight of his failure pressing down on him with every step.
He was running out of time. Out of hope.
When he finally made the decision to return to Velaris, his wings were heavy, his body exhausted, but his mind couldn’t rest. The flight back felt longer than it should have, his thoughts spiraling into darker and darker places. What if she was gone for good? What if he had missed his chance—missed her?
The moment he landed on the balcony of the House of Wind, the emptiness hit him like a tidal wave. He dropped to his knees, his fingers curling against the cold stone as he tried to catch his breath, tried to steady himself.
But the bond was still faint. Almost gone.
He stood slowly, his mind racing. He had searched where he last saw her. He had searched the forest. But there was one more place she could be—her home. The Dawn Court. She was from there, had roots there. Maybe she had returned, seeking refuge among her people.
It was a slim hope, but it was all he had.
Rhysand straightened, determination burning in his veins. He would contact Thesan, the High Lord of the Dawn Court. He had to know if Y/n was there, if she was safe. But for now, all he could do was wait—and that waiting felt like a slow, torturous pull on his very soul.
She was his mate. And she was gone.
The thought settled into his chest like a cold, hard stone, and Rhysand knew that until he found her—until he brought her back—there would be no peace. He would flip this world upside down to find her.
~~~~~~~
Y/n lay back down, her body sinking into the soft mattress as she stared at the flickering flames in the hearth. Lira’s offer lingered in her mind, but doubt gnawed at her. It wasn’t just the village’s kindness that unsettled her—it was the thought of staying, of settling, when her entire world had crumbled around her.
Her heart felt heavy, weighed down by the memories of Rhysand and everything she had lost. How could she heal in a place like this, where people lived in peace and harmony? She wasn’t like them—she carried too much darkness, too much pain.
Still, there was something about this village, something about Lira’s gentle demeanor that made Y/n want to believe, if only for a moment, that maybe she could find some peace here. Just for a while.
The thought was almost laughable. She had no right to peace.
Lira stood up from her chair, sensing Y/n's internal battle. “I’ll let you rest,” she said, her voice soft. “But if you need anything, just call for me.”
Y/n nodded but didn’t respond as Lira slipped quietly out of the room, leaving her alone with her thoughts. The sounds of the village continued to drift through the window—the laughter, the conversations, the gentle hum of a life Y/n had never known.
Her hand unconsciously drifted to her chest, to where the bond with Rhysand had once tugged at her heart. Now, there was only a hollow ache, a reminder of what had been and what could never be. She had loved him—fiercely, silently, and without hope.
And he had never known.
The thought made her chest tighten again, that familiar grief washing over her. She had been nothing to him, just another face from Dawn, another puppet to use and discard. And now… she was nothing at all.
The hours passed slowly. Y/n found herself drifting in and out of sleep, her body still weak from the injuries. In her dreams, she saw flashes of her past—Her life in Dawn, her little trinkets that she would create to make some living, Rhysand. And then, always, Feyre. Her face haunted Y/n, the reminder of who Rhysand had truly chosen.
When she awoke again, it was darker outside, the village sounds quieter now. Lira hadn’t returned, and Y/n was grateful for the space. She needed time to think, to decide what her next move would be.
But even as she lay there, trying to come up with a plan, her mind kept returning to Lira’s offer. A part of her wanted to accept it, to stay here and heal. But another part, the part that had seen too much betrayal, too much loss, didn’t trust it.
Would they still welcome her if they knew who she really was? What she had done?
Y/n sighed, turning onto her side as the fire crackled softly beside her. She wasn’t sure what her next step would be, but for now, all she could do was rest.
She closed her eyes, forcing herself to take a deep breath. The pain was still there—deep and unyielding—but for the first time in a long while, Y/n allowed herself to hope that maybe, just maybe, she could find some kind of solace here.
Even if it was only temporary.
In the days that followed, Y/n grew stronger. Lira visited her often, bringing food and checking on her injuries, but never pressing too much. The village’s quiet kindness was unsettling at first, but slowly, Y/n began to let herself relax, just a little.
She spent most of her time in bed, staring out the window at the bustling village below. Children ran through the streets, and neighbors helped one another with chores and daily tasks. It was a world so far removed from the one she had known that it almost felt like a dream.
And yet, despite everything, Y/n couldn’t shake the feeling that she didn’t belong here.
Each time she looked out that window, she was reminded of what she had lost, of the bond she had ignored for too long. The thought of Rhysand, out there somewhere, filled her with both longing and anger. She didn’t know if she’d ever see him again, but the silence between them weighed heavily on her.
Still, for now, all she could do was wait. Healing, Lira had said. Y/n wasn’t sure if that was possible, but maybe, just maybe, she could try.
Weeks turned into months.
What Y/n had initially believed would be a short stay to recover gradually became something more. She healed, both in body and in spirit, under the quiet care of Lira and the village’s close-knit community. Slowly, the bruises on her ribs faded, the aches in her muscles eased, and her strength returned.
At first, Y/n had kept to herself, only interacting with Lira when necessary. But as time passed, she began to open up, if only slightly. Lira’s patience had been remarkable, never pushing, always offering a hand when Y/n needed it. The woman’s kindness was a balm to wounds Y/n hadn’t realized still bled.
As she regained her strength, she was introduced to more of the villagers. There was Tamir, a kind-hearted farmer who often brought her fresh produce, and Ayla, a weaver who sat with Y/n by the fire on particularly cold evenings, sharing stories about her family and life in the village. They accepted Y/n without question, never asking too much, never prying into her past.
For the first time in years, Y/n found herself in a place that felt almost like home.
It wasn’t easy, of course. The memories of Rhysand still haunted her in quiet moments—his smile, his laughter, the bond she had felt snap into place and left unacknowledged. But in time, those memories dulled, becoming less sharp, less painful.
She had spent so long thinking about him, about what could have been. But now, as the months slipped by, she began to accept the truth. Rhysand had made his choice, and it hadn’t been her. Feyre was his love. And Y/n… she was learning to be alright with that.
It wasn’t that the pain disappeared—it would always be there, in the corners of her heart—but it no longer consumed her. She found herself laughing with the villagers, working alongside them, and even joining in the village’s small celebrations. She was happy, or at least as close to happiness as she’d felt in a long time.
There were nights when the weight of her past pressed down on her, but those moments grew fewer and farther between. The village, with its simple, peaceful life, had given her space to breathe, to heal.
Lira, especially, had become a close friend. They spent many evenings talking, sometimes about nothing at all, and other times about everything. Y/n found herself confiding in Lira, telling her small pieces of her past—the loss, the heartbreak, the weight of being forgotten. Lira never judged, only listened, offering comfort in the form of quiet understanding.
Y/n no longer felt the crushing loneliness that had driven her to that cliffside. She wasn’t sure what the future held for her, but for now, she was content to stay in this village, to continue healing, and to figure out who she was without the shadow of Rhysand hanging over her.
She still didn’t know what would come next, but for the first time in a long while, she wasn’t running from the uncertainty.
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Velaris — One year, three months, fifteen days, six hours, twenty-two minutes, and forty-five seconds since Y/n disappeared.
Rhysand had counted every second. Every agonizing, suffocating second since he had realized she was gone. He stood on the balcony of the River House, staring out over the Sidra, his eyes dark with the weight of his obsession. A full year, and he was no closer to finding her.
He had sent his forces, his shadows, his spies, to every corner of Prythian and beyond. The High Lords had been contacted—every last one of them, including Thesan, the High Lord of the Dawn Court, where Y/n had once called home. His meetings with Thesan had been civil, yet tense.
“She hasn’t returned,” Thesan had said in one of their many conversations, his voice steady but laced with concern. “If she were here, I would have told you, Rhys.”
But that hadn’t stopped Rhysand from ordering Azriel to watch the borders of the Dawn Court, to scour its lands for any sign of her. He had sent out scouts across Prythian—Illyrian patrols sweeping the mountains, Velaris soldiers keeping their eyes open in the cities, and spies dispatched to the human lands. Nothing.
Nothing for over a year. And it was driving him mad.
Rhysand hadn’t rested in months, not truly. His nights were spent pouring over maps, tracing routes, re-reading reports. He had memorized every possible lead, every whispered rumor of a lone female seen wandering the wilderness. But none of them had led to her.
“Maybe she doesn’t want to be found,” Cassian had said one night, his voice gentle but firm, as he sat with Rhysand in the war room.
Rhysand had glared at him, his jaw clenched, his hands tightening into fists. “That’s not an option. She’s my—” He had stopped himself before finishing that sentence. She wasn’t his mate, not officially. The bond possibly had never snapped for her, but for Rhys, it might as well have. His heart knew it, even if the Cauldron had not sealed the bond. She was his.
Cassian had only sighed, shaking his head. “Rhys, I’m worried about you. We all are.”
And they were. Amren had pulled him aside more than once, telling him to stop his frantic searching, to focus on the things he could control. But she didn’t understand. None of them did. Y/n had been his anchor in ways he hadn’t even realized until she was gone.
Azriel had been his silent shadow through all of it. The spymaster had spent countless nights by his side, searching with him, strategizing, offering the quiet kind of support that only Azriel could. They didn’t need words. Rhys knew Azriel understood what it felt like to long for someone you couldn’t have.
But there were moments—moments when the weight of his failure pressed down on him so heavily that he felt like he couldn’t breathe. He had taken to disappearing from the River House, vanishing into the forests outside Velaris, retracing the steps to where he had last seen her.
And then, there was the cliff. Rhys still remembers how when he smelled the faintest remnants of her scent, right there, right at the edge of the cliff, his chest flared with panic as he frantically searched for her but found no trace. Given how faint the scent was, Rhys knew that she wasn’t here recently. But did she kill herself? Did she end up throwing herself off this cliff? Even the mere thought of that made his gut twist, his hands shake. No. She couldn’t have died. No body, no proof. But…..
He stood there, letting the cold wind of the mountains blow past him. The silence that had followed her disappearance.
“Rhys, you need to stop this,” Mor had told him after he’d returned from one such trip, disheveled and exhausted. “You’re tearing yourself apart.”
He had only shaken his head. “I can’t, Mor. I have to find her. I need to.”
Mor had looked at him with sadness in her eyes. “What if she doesn’t want to be found?”
It was the same question Cassian had asked, and Rhys had no answer for it. What if Y/n didn’t want to be found? What if she had left because she wanted to stay hidden from him?
But he refused to believe it. He couldn’t believe it. There had to be another reason—something he hadn’t uncovered yet.
And so, Rhysand kept searching. He kept sending his forces out, kept interrogating every lead, every sighting, every whisper of a female matching her description. He visited the forests, the places they had once been together, hoping for some sign, some shred of her presence.
But there was nothing.
Every day that passed without her only deepened his despair. He had lost weight, his face drawn with exhaustion, his eyes dull with sleepless nights.
But how could he let go of Y/n? How could he forget her, when every part of him screamed that she was out there, somewhere, waiting for him?
His conversations with the inner circle had grown colder, more strained. They were concerned, but they didn’t understand. Not really. How could they, when none of them had lost someone the way he had lost Y/n?
Rhysand stared out over Velaris, the city lights reflecting off the river below. One year, three months, fifteen days, six hours, twenty-seven minutes, and thirty-one seconds.
And still, she was gone.
~~~~~~~~~
Y/n sat on a wooden bench outside the small cottage, her eyes watching the children play in the distance. The crisp evening air brushed against her skin, a reminder of how peaceful life had become in the village. Her heart, though, still felt heavy with memories of another life—one she had tried to leave behind.
The soft shuffle of feet approached, and Y/n turned to see Elder Miriam, one of the village’s wisest, sitting down beside her. The old woman’s face was lined with age, her eyes sharp but kind. She had been the one to welcome Y/n when she first arrived, offering a place to stay and a quiet understanding.
“You’ve been here for some time now,” Miriam began, her voice gentle but firm. “Longer than most who come seeking refuge.”
Y/n nodded, her gaze dropping to her hands. “I didn’t expect to stay this long.”
“And yet, here you are,” Miriam continued, her hands resting on her lap. “There’s peace in this village, but I see it hasn’t reached your heart yet.”
Y/n swallowed, feeling the truth of the words settle inside her. “I’m… trying.”
Miriam studied her, the silence between them filled with the soft sounds of the village. “You’ve been through much. That much is clear. But what are you still holding onto, child?”
Y/n hesitated, unsure how to voice the conflict inside her. “There are people I left behind,” she finally said. “A life I thought I could escape from. But it follows me, no matter how far I run.”
Miriam nodded, her expression thoughtful. “The past has a way of lingering. It’s not something you can outrun. Healing doesn’t mean forgetting, Y/n. It means learning to live with what’s happened, not burying it.”
Y/n bit her lip, fighting back the emotions that threatened to surface. “I thought if I stayed here long enough, I could… rebuild myself. Become someone new.”
“And have you?” Miriam asked, her tone still gentle.
“I don’t know,” Y/n whispered. “Some days, it feels like I’m better. I’m learning to be happy again. But then, there are days where… I feel like I’m right back where I started.”
Miriam placed a hand on Y/n’s shoulder, her touch warm and comforting. “You’ve come far, more than you realize. But you must ask yourself—what is it you’re truly afraid of? Is it the life you left behind, or is it facing the feelings you’ve kept locked away?”
Y/n looked away, the truth painful to admit. “I’m afraid of going back,” she said quietly. “Afraid of what it would mean to confront everything I left behind.”
Miriam nodded again, her eyes full of understanding. “The village has been a place of healing for you, and it’s given you time. But time, Y/n, doesn’t erase the things we carry. It only gives us space to understand them. You cannot live in fear of what’s behind you. It will find its way to the surface, one way or another.”
Y/n felt the weight of the words settle in her chest. For the first time in a long while, she realized how much she had been avoiding—not just Rhysand, but the truth of her own feelings.
“You’re stronger than you think,” Miriam said softly. “You’ve survived, you’ve healed. But true peace will only come when you allow yourself to face what’s still left unresolved.”
Y/n took a deep breath, the knot in her chest loosening just a little. “I don’t know if I’m ready.”
“No one ever is,” Miriam replied with a small smile. “But readiness isn’t the same as willingness. And you, child, have always been willing to face whatever comes. I’ve seen it in you since the day you arrived.”
Y/n glanced at Miriam, the warmth in the elder’s words easing some of the fear that had gripped her for so long. Maybe she wasn’t ready to confront everything waiting for her outside the village, but maybe that wasn’t the point. Maybe all she needed was the courage to try.
“Thank you,” Y/n said quietly, her voice steadier now.
Miriam smiled, giving her shoulder a gentle squeeze. “Take your time, but don’t wait too long. The world won’t wait forever, and neither will you.”
With that, the elder rose from the bench, leaving Y/n alone with her thoughts, the peaceful hum of the village life surrounding her. For the first time in months, Y/n felt the pull of something beyond this quiet haven—something she had tried to ignore, but that was always there, waiting.
Maybe it was time to stop running.
A week had passed since Y/n had left the village. The cool morning air nipped at her skin as she stood at the edge of the forest, the place that had been her refuge for over a year. The memory of her time there was fresh—both a blessing and a burden—but she had made her peace with it. She had healed, not just physically, but in the deeper places that had been broken for so long.
Her heart was lighter now, no longer weighed down by the constant ache of loss. She was ready to move on, to return to the Dawn Court and begin her new life. A part of her would always belong to the village, to the people she had come to love during her stay, but it was time to face the world again.
The day she left had been filled with quiet goodbyes, but the most difficult one had been with Lira. They had shared a bond—a deep understanding that went beyond words.
“You’ll come visit us, right?” Lira’s voice had been soft, but there was a seriousness in her eyes. She stood in front of Y/n, her hands gripping hers tightly.
Y/n smiled, a bittersweet warmth in her chest. “I promise,” she said. “I’ll come back when I can. This place will always be special to me.”
Lira’s lips curved into a smile, though her eyes shimmered with unshed tears. “Don’t forget us. And don’t forget yourself, either. You’ve grown so much, Y/n. Don’t let that go.”
Y/n shook her head, her voice thick. “I won’t.”
Another villager, an elder Y/n had come to cherish, patted her on the back. “You’ll always have a home here,” he said warmly. “No matter where you go.”
She nodded, grateful beyond words. “Thank you. All of you.”
They stood in a quiet circle, the weight of the farewell settling in the cool air around them. The children she had watched over waved from behind the elder, their faces glowing with sadness and hope.
“Take care of yourself,” Lira said softly, pulling Y/n into a tight embrace. “You deserve to be happy.”
Y/n held her close, taking in the familiar scent of the village—the woods, the earth, and the faint traces of fire. “I’ll try.”
With one last lingering glance, Y/n turned toward the path that led out of the village, the weight of their love and friendship carrying her forward. She didn’t look back. She couldn’t. Not this time.
Now, she stood at the gates of the Dawn Court, her heart thudding in her chest. The sprawling palace beyond the gates shimmered under the morning light, and the familiar sight tugged at her—both comforting and foreign after so much time away.
She was different now, she knew that. The woman who had once been so broken, so consumed by heartache, no longer existed. In her place stood someone stronger—someone who had faced the darkest parts of herself and come out on the other side.
Y/n stepped forward, her boots crunching softly against the gravel path. A new life awaited her here. She had accepted that Rhysand was not hers, and with that acceptance came freedom—freedom to create something new, something that was hers alone.
As she approached the entrance, she took a deep breath, steadying herself. This was home, after all. And no matter how far she had run, she was always meant to return.
The guards at the gate gave her surprised looks, but they bowed respectfully, recognizing her. They knew her face, even if they couldn’t comprehend the transformation she had undergone in her time away.
Home. It sounded strange, but as she stepped through the gates and into the Dawn Court’s embrace, she realized how true it was.
She had come full circle.
With each step, the memories of her old life resurfaced, but they didn’t crush her as they once had. Instead, they reminded her of the strength she had gained, the scars she had earned, and the peace she had finally found.
This was a new beginning, and Y/n was ready for whatever came next.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It was another miserable day.
He had counted every single second of her absence, the guilt festering in his chest like a poison he couldn’t escape. No matter how much time passed, the ache didn’t ease. The weight of what he had done—or rather, what he hadn’t done—crushed him.
He had searched everywhere, sent emissaries to the furthest reaches of Prythian and beyond. He’d begged, bribed, and even threatened other courts for information. Thesan had been his most trusted ally in the search, offering resources and keeping an eye out. Rhysand had sent his Inner Circle across borders to find her, but it had all led to nothing. Y/n was gone, and the only thing he had left was his regret.
He hadn’t been there for her when she needed him most. Not during Amarantha’s reign. Not when she had withered under his very nose, and certainly not when she left. His thoughts always returned to those last months. The months he had spent prioritizing Feyre’s safety and neglecting Y/n’s slow unraveling. He had failed her.
He was sitting at his desk, head in his hands, feeling the familiar hollow ache settle deep in his bones, when the door to his study opened.
Azriel stepped in, his shadows swirling around him like an ever-present cloak of darkness. The spymaster’s face was unreadable, but Rhysand knew him well enough to see the urgency in his posture.
“Rhys,” Azriel said, his voice calm, but there was something behind it. Something that made Rhysand sit up straight, a flicker of hope—a feeling he hadn’t allowed himself in months—stirring in his chest.
“What is it?” Rhysand asked, though he wasn’t sure he wanted to know. Hope had become a dangerous thing for him, always leading to disappointment.
Azriel paused, letting the weight of the moment sink in. “Thesan contacted me. His guards… they’ve seen her.”
Rhysand’s heart stopped. For a long, agonizing second, he couldn’t breathe. “Seen… her?” he echoed, his voice barely above a whisper.
Azriel nodded. “Y/n. She’s back at the Dawn Court. She returned a week ago. Thesan’s guards have been keeping an eye on her from a distance, but she’s home. Alive.”
Rhysand felt the floor tilt beneath him. She was back. After all this time, after every failed attempt to find her, every sleepless night spent tormented by guilt, Y/n had returned. The relief that flooded him was overwhelming, but it was swiftly followed by a wave of doubt so strong it made him dizzy.
“I should… I should go to her,” Rhysand said, standing abruptly. His mind raced, his heart pounding in his chest. He had to see her, had to know if she was okay. But then he paused, his hand falling away from the desk. His thoughts crashed into one another, the doubt settling in.
Would she want to see him?
“Wait,” Rhysand murmured, his voice barely audible. “Should I even go?” He turned to Azriel, his brows furrowing in confusion. “I… I wasn’t there for her, Az. Not when she needed me most. What if she doesn’t want to see me? What if she’s better off without me?”
Azriel’s dark eyes flickered with something like exasperation, but it was laced with sympathy. “Rhys, are you serious right now?”
Rhysand dragged a hand through his hair, feeling the weight of his guilt crushing him again. “I ignored her. After Amarantha, after Feyre… I neglected her. The last months she was with us, I wasn’t there for her. What if she’s moved on? What if she’s better now without me?”
Azriel stepped closer, his shadows swirling around his shoulders. “You’ve been searching for her for over a year. You’ve nearly destroyed yourself trying to find her. And now that she’s back, you’re doubting whether to go to her?”
Rhysand clenched his fists, his jaw tight. “I hurt her, Az. I let her slip away. What if she hates me for it?”
Azriel let out a breath, his eyes softening. “Then you go to her and you tell her that. You tell her how much she means to you, and you beg for her forgiveness if that’s what it takes.” His voice lowered, more gentle than Rhysand had ever heard it. “You’ve been waiting for this moment, Rhys. Don’t let your guilt stop you from fixing what was broken.”
Rhysand stared at his brother, the weight of his words sinking in. He had been waiting—praying—for this moment, for the chance to make things right. But now that it was here, all he could feel was fear. Fear that Y/n wouldn’t forgive him, that the damage he had caused was too great to repair.
“I will kneel if I have to,” Rhysand said quietly, the words heavy with desperation. “I’ll beg her to forgive me, to let me back into her life.”
Azriel’s lips curved into the barest hint of a smile. “Then go. Don’t waste any more time.”
Rhysand nodded, though the fear still gnawed at him. But beneath that fear, a flicker of hope remained. He would see Y/n again. He would kneel, beg, do whatever it took to fix the mistakes of the past.
And maybe—just maybe—he could find a way back to her.
Rhysand stood in silence for a moment, letting the realization sink in. He wasn’t sure what he would find when he saw Y/n, or if she would even want to speak to him. But there was no turning back now.
With a deep breath, he turned to Azriel. “I’m going to Dawn,” he said, his voice steady, though his heart trembled. “I have to see her.”
Azriel nodded once. “Good luck, Rhys.”
Rhysand didn’t answer. He didn’t need to. He simply disappeared, winnowing into the wind, his heart pounding as he made his way to the one person who mattered most.
~~~~~~~~
Y/n sat at the small table in her home, the afternoon light filtering through the curtains. The room was modest but comfortable, much different than it had been a year ago. Before she left, she had been barely getting by, working tirelessly just to make ends meet. She had spent her days repairing small items, doing odd jobs, always tired, always worn down. Back then, the work had been a necessity—a way to survive, not something she took pride in.
Now, it was different.
Y/n’s fingers moved over the smooth wood of the small jewelry box she had just crafted. She had taken up woodworking after returning from the village, and while it wasn’t glamorous, she found peace in the craft. People in the Dawn Court had taken notice of her work, and word had spread. Slowly but surely, she started receiving more commissions, her skills improving with every piece she made.
She wasn’t rich—not by a long shot—but she was comfortable. She didn’t have to worry as much about her next meal or paying for firewood. Her house, which had once felt so empty and cold, now felt like a home again. The work wasn’t just about money anymore. It was about creating something with her own hands—something that others appreciated.
Y/n leaned back, wiping the sawdust from her hands, and looked around her small space. It felt like she had finally found a balance. She was content. It wasn’t the life she had imagined for herself all those years ago, but it was a good life. She was healing, slowly but surely, and for the first time in a long time, she felt hopeful about the future.
There were moments when her mind drifted to the past—when memories of Rhysand surfaced, and the pain of what could have been tugged at her. But it didn’t consume her anymore. She had made peace with it, in her own way, and she knew she had to keep moving forward. This was her life now, and she was determined to make it her own.
Y/n wiped her brow, the scent of fresh wood filling the air as she placed the finished box onto the shelf beside a few others she had completed earlier that week. A soft smile tugged at her lips. It was a simple life—one she hadn’t expected to love—but there was a calmness in it that soothed her in ways she hadn’t realized she needed.
Her hands were no longer idle, no longer weighed down by the burden of survival. Now, when she worked, it was with purpose, and each completed piece felt like a small victory—a testament to her growth, her healing. The dark days when she could barely muster the energy to get out of bed felt distant now, like a different life entirely.
She stepped back from her workbench, glancing around her small home. It was far from luxurious, but it was hers. She had made it feel like home again after being away for so long. She had become part of the local community again, and though life wasn’t easy, it was manageable—and even enjoyable at times.
Y/n sighed, letting the moment settle over her. She was content. She hadn’t thought it possible after everything she had been through, but somehow, she had found peace.
She walked to the window, looking out at the familiar streets. The weight of the past year didn’t feel as heavy as it used to. Dawn had changed for her. Before, it was a place where she had simply existed—barely making it through each day. Now, it felt like a fresh start, a place where she could rebuild herself without the shadows of her past constantly looming over her.
Her thoughts drifted to the village she had left behind just a week ago. It had been hard to say goodbye, but she knew it was time. They had become like a family to her, and the promise to visit would be kept. But she needed to come home—to her own space, her own life.
The memory of her farewell lingered, the promises exchanged that they would stay in touch, that they wouldn’t forget each other. She smiled at the thought. She wouldn’t forget them either. They had been the ones who had helped her when she didn’t know how to help herself, and that was something she would always carry with her.
But here, now, she was finally ready to move forward. Ready to build something new for herself.
Y/n was walking through the busy streets of the Dawn, enjoying the calm, steady pace of life here. She had just visited the market, her basket filled with items for her latest craft project. The sun was warm on her face, and for the first time in a long while, she felt truly at peace.
As she turned the corner, two figures in armor approached her. They wore the unmistakable insignia of the Dawn Court—palace soldiers. Their faces were unreadable, and as they came closer, she felt an uneasy flutter in her stomach.
“Y/n,” one of them said, his voice firm yet not unkind. “You are required at the palace.”
Her heart skipped a beat, confusion surging through her. “The palace? Why? Did I do something wrong?”
The second soldier didn’t meet her gaze, only repeating the first soldier’s words. “We need to escort you to the High Lord. Please come with us.”
Fear and confusion knotted in her chest, but the soldiers gave her no further explanation. They began to walk, clearly expecting her to follow. Y/n’s mind raced with questions. Why would High Lord Thesan summon her? What had she done? She couldn’t think of any reason she’d be needed at the palace.
As they passed through the grand gates and into the opulent halls, her nerves only grew. The palace was more beautiful than she remembered, but she was too anxious to appreciate the elegance of her surroundings. The guards led her through winding corridors until they reached a large, ornate door.
One of the soldiers knocked, and the door was opened from within. They motioned for her to step inside.
She hesitated for only a moment before walking in.
The room was grand, with tall windows casting golden light over the finely furnished space. But it wasn’t the luxury of the room that caught her off guard.
It was the two men standing inside.
One was High Lord Thesan, smiling warmly, his demeanor calm and welcoming. The other was Rhysand.
Her breath caught in her throat. Rhysand? Her legs nearly gave out beneath her at the sight of him standing there, looking tense, his usual smug expression replaced with something far more serious. His violet eyes found hers the moment she entered the room, and she felt every nerve in her body light up with an old, painful familiarity.
Thesan stepped forward first, his kind smile not wavering. “Y/n,” he greeted, his voice smooth. “I apologize for the sudden summons. I imagine this is not what you were expecting today.”
She blinked, still too shocked to speak, her gaze flickering from Thesan to Rhysand and back again.
The High Lord chuckled softly, clearly sensing her confusion. “You are not in trouble, I assure you,” Thesan said gently. “I wanted to make sure you had a chance to… speak with Rhysand. I believe there are things that need to be said.” He glanced between them before adding, “I’ll leave you two to talk.”
Y/n’s throat tightened as Thesan gave her one last smile and exited the room, closing the door behind him.
And then it was just her and Rhysand.
The silence was suffocating. Rhysand stood a few feet away, his gaze locked on her, an uncharacteristic tension lining his features. Finally, he spoke, his voice low and filled with a vulnerability she hadn’t expected.
“Y/n… I’m sorry.”
She didn’t respond at first, still trying to piece together how this moment had come to pass. “Sorry for what?” she finally asked, her voice sharper than she intended.
“For everything,” Rhysand said, stepping closer, though he still maintained a respectful distance. “For how I treated you before… for abandoning you. I spent the past year searching for you, desperate to make things right. I—” He paused, swallowing hard. “I should have told you sooner. You are my mate.”
Her chest tightened, a sharp laugh escaping her lips before she could stop it. “I know.”
Rhys’s eyes widened in surprise. “You knew? Since when?”
“Since long before you disappeared into Feyre’s shadow,” she replied bitterly. The anger, the hurt, it all came rushing back in full force. “Why didn’t I tell you? Why should I have? Would it have made a difference when you were so focused on her that I may as well have been invisible?”
Rhys flinched at her words, guilt etched deeply into his face. “It would have mattered,” he said softly, his voice barely above a whisper. “You mattered.”
“Then why didn’t you act like it?” Y/n’s voice trembled with emotion, her hands clenching at her sides. “Why was I nothing more than a tool to you when Feyre came along? I watched you—watched as you ignored me, as you barely looked at me. And now, after a year of running and hiding, now you come to apologize? You expect me to just forgive you because you finally decided I was worth something?”
Rhysand’s eyes were filled with sorrow and regret, his normally proud and arrogant demeanor shattered. “I don’t expect you to forgive me. I came to beg for it, if that’s what it takes. I was wrong, Y/n, in so many ways. But you have to know, you are my mate, and I will do anything to make this right. I will kneel, I will grovel, I will—”
But she shook her head, cutting him off. “It’s too late, Rhysand. You’ve already made your choice.”
Rhys took another step toward her, desperation in his eyes. “Please, Y/n. I never stopped caring. I was a fool. But we can start again, we—”
“No,” she interrupted, her voice firm, though it cracked with emotion. “You don’t get to come back into my life now and demand forgiveness. I’ve rebuilt myself. I’ve moved on. You should have done the same.”
And with that, she turned on her heel and walked out, leaving Rhysand standing alone, the weight of his mistakes heavy in the air.
But Rhysand didn’t stop. Determined to win her back, he threw himself into a relentless pursuit of her forgiveness. Every day, he tried to reach her in some way, even if she wouldn’t let him in.
He sent her gifts—delicate, handcrafted items from the finest artisans in the Dawn Court, things that would have brought a smile to her face just months ago. Each time, he watched from a distance as she took them from her doorstep, only to leave them discarded by the door, untouched and unacknowledged.
Rhysand poured his heart into letters, filled with apologies and promises, penned with the kind of vulnerability he had rarely shown anyone before. He would slip them under her door, hoping that maybe one would catch her attention. But each time he checked, the letters remained sealed, never to be opened, reminders of his failure piling up like stones in his chest.
He would linger in the shadows, just outside her home, drawn by the pull of her presence. He watched her move about her day—working on her crafts, laughing with neighbors, sharing stories. His heart ached at how vibrant she seemed, yet he felt like a ghost haunting the edges of her life. Each smile she shared with others was a dagger, a reminder of what he had lost.
In moments of bravery, he approached the marketplace, hoping for a chance encounter. He would linger near the stalls, pretending to browse as she passed by, but she never looked his way. It was as if he were invisible, a figment of her past she refused to acknowledge.
He even tried to connect with the villagers, asking about her and expressing his desire to help her, but they were loyal to her. They would only nod politely, never divulging her whereabouts or responding to his inquiries. They could sense the pain behind his facade, and their protectiveness toward Y/n was fierce.
Days turned into weeks, and Rhysand’s resolve only strengthened. He would find small ways to make his presence known. Sometimes, he would send the occasional flower with a note saying, “I miss you.” Other times, he enlisted Azrael to check in on her, to gauge how she was doing. Each report from his friend was a bittersweet reminder of how far he had fallen from her good graces.
Yet despite all his efforts, Y/n remained steadfastly indifferent. She had rebuilt her life without him, and the fortress she had built around her heart was impenetrable. No amount of gifts or letters could pierce it.
As the seasons changed, Rhysand continued his quiet vigil, each day filled with longing and regret, praying that one day, she would see him not as a shadow of her past but as a man who desperately wanted to be part of her future.
Y/n was kneeling in her garden, the vibrant flowers blooming around her, but her heart felt anything but bright. She was lost in thought, trying to focus on her plants when she suddenly sensed a presence behind her. Her instincts kicked in, and she turned quickly, catching sight of a tall figure with dark wings.
“Who are you?” she demanded, standing defensively, her heart racing.
“Y/n,” he replied, his voice calm yet intense. “My name is Azriel, I’m a friend of Rhysand’s. I’ve been… watching over you.”
“Watching over me?” she echoed, confusion and anger flaring up inside her. “Why? What do you want?”
“I wanted to talk to you,” Azriel said, stepping forward slightly but keeping his distance, as if respecting her space. “About Rhysand. He’s been… suffering since you left.”
Y/n crossed her arms, her expression hardening. “I don’t want to talk about him. He made his choice.”
“He didn’t know what he was doing, Y/n,” Azriel pressed, his tone earnest. “He’s been lost without you. The gifts he sent, the letters—those were all from a place of regret. He didn’t realize how much you meant to him until it was too late.”
“Regret?” she scoffed, shaking her head. “It’s easy to feel regret when you’ve moved on with someone else, isn’t it? I was nothing more than a passing thought to him while he chased after Feyre.”
Azriel frowned, sensing the pain in her words. “I can’t deny that Rhysand made mistakes, but he has changed. He’s been searching for you for a year. He’s been—”
“Searching?” she interrupted, her voice rising. “How much of a fool do you think I am to believe that? I don’t want to be another one of his burdens or a way to soothe his guilt.”
Azriel took a deep breath, trying to find the right words. “I understand your anger, but you deserve to know the truth. You deserve to hear him out.”
Y/n’s heart raced with conflicting emotions. She was furious with Rhysand, yet there was a flicker of curiosity buried deep inside her. “And what makes you think I want to hear anything from him? What if he’s just going to hurt me again?”
Azriel stepped closer, lowering his voice. “Because you deserve closure. You deserve to understand why he acted the way he did. If you don’t give him a chance, you might carry this pain forever. You may think you’ve moved on, but deep down, you’re still holding onto that hurt.”
Y/n’s expression softened slightly, but she quickly masked it with defiance. “It’s easier to keep it all buried, Azriel. I don’t need him in my life. I’ve built something here, a life I’m proud of.”
“I see that,” he said, nodding. “But are you truly happy? Or is there still a part of you that wonders what could have been?”
She hesitated, the truth clawing at her heart. “Maybe I could talk to him again,” she admitted reluctantly, the words spilling out before she could stop herself. “But it doesn’t mean I want to forgive him. It doesn’t mean I’m ready to open that door again.”
“Just consider it,” Azriel urged gently. “You don’t have to decide everything right now. But Rhysand is here, waiting for you. He won’t stop until he gets the chance to explain himself. And when you’re ready, you can choose how to respond.”
Y/n turned back to her flowers, avoiding Azriel’s gaze, trying to gather her thoughts. “And what if I don’t want to respond? What if I just want to forget?”
“Then you’ll have that choice too,” Azriel said, his tone calm and understanding. “But know that you can’t run from your feelings forever. If you want to heal, you have to face them.”
After a long silence, Y/n sighed, her shoulders slumping slightly. “I’ll think about it,” she said finally, her voice barely above a whisper.
As Azriel nodded, she could feel the weight of his presence, a reminder that her past was still very much alive, no matter how hard she tried to bury it. She knew that eventually, she would have to confront the truth about Rhysand—and about herself.
The sky was painted in soft shades of dusk, the sun casting its final golden rays over the pristine lake. The place Rhysand had chosen was breathtaking—a secluded spot nestled between the hills, where the water sparkled like diamonds under the fading light. Wildflowers swayed gently in the breeze, their vibrant colors contrasting with the deep green of the surrounding trees. It was peaceful, a place that felt almost sacred in its stillness.
Y/n approached the shore, her footsteps slow and hesitant. She had agreed to meet him, but every step felt heavier than the last, like she was walking toward something she wasn’t ready to face. Her heart thudded in her chest, her mind filled with doubts, fears, and anger she hadn’t yet let go of.
And then she saw him.
Rhysand stood by the edge of the lake, his back to her, his wings tucked tightly against him. The sight of him stirred something deep within her—a pang of old pain, old longing, and something new, something she couldn’t yet name. He seemed so out of place here, in this tranquil setting, with the weight of his own emotions heavy on his shoulders.
He turned as she neared, his violet eyes locking onto hers, a myriad of emotions swirling in their depths—regret, hope, desperation. He took a step toward her, but stopped himself, as if afraid that one wrong move might send her running.
“Y/n,” he said softly, his voice thick with emotion. “Thank you for coming.”
She didn’t respond immediately, crossing her arms over her chest, her posture guarded. “You wanted to talk. So, talk.”
He swallowed hard, his gaze dropping to the ground for a moment before he looked back at her. “I don’t even know where to begin. I… I made so many mistakes.”
“You can say that again,” she muttered, her voice colder than she had intended.
He nodded, his shoulders slumping slightly. “I didn’t realize… how much I hurt you. I didn’t realize how blind I had been to everything you were going through.”
“I was right there, Rhys,” she said, her voice rising with frustration. “Right in front of you, and you didn’t see me. Not once. Not until it was too late.”
“I know,” he whispered, his voice breaking. “I know, and I hate myself for it. I was so consumed by everything happening with Amarantha, with Feyre… I thought I was doing what was best, that I was protecting you by keeping you at a distance.”
Y/n scoffed, shaking her head. “Protecting me? By ignoring me? By treating me like I didn’t exist?”
Rhysand flinched at her words, guilt flooding his features. “I thought… I thought that if I distanced myself, if I kept you away, you wouldn’t be hurt. That you’d be safer if you weren’t involved in everything that was happening. But I see now that I was wrong. So, so wrong.”
She bit her lip, the anger still simmering just beneath the surface, but there was something else there too—a crack in her armor, however small. “Why didn’t you just tell me? Why didn’t you talk to me?”
He ran a hand through his hair, his expression pained. “I was a coward. I didn’t know how to face you, how to admit that I had failed you. And by the time I realized… it felt like I had already lost you.”
“You had,” she whispered, her voice trembling. “You did.”
Rhysand stepped closer, his eyes pleading. “But I don’t want to lose you forever, Y/n. I can’t. I came here to beg for your forgiveness, to do whatever it takes to make things right. I know I don’t deserve it. I know I’ve done nothing but hurt you, but I’m asking—no, I’m begging you to give me a chance to prove that I’ve changed.”
Y/n’s breath hitched, her heart torn between the lingering hurt and the raw sincerity in his voice. “And what if I can’t forgive you? What if it’s too late for that?”
He stared at her for a long moment, his expression solemn. “Then I’ll accept that. I’ll accept whatever decision you make. But please, just give me the chance to try. Let me show you that I’m not the same man who pushed you away. Let me prove that I can be the person you deserve.”
Y/n’s eyes filled with unshed tears, her emotions threatening to spill over. “You hurt me, Rhys. You made me feel like I was nothing.”
“I know,” he whispered, his voice cracking. “And I will regret that for the rest of my life. But you are not nothing. You never were. You are everything.”
She turned away, her hands trembling as she tried to hold herself together. “This… this is all too much. I don’t know if I can trust you again.”
Rhysand closed the distance between them, his voice soft but urgent. “I won’t rush you. I won’t push you. But if there’s even a part of you that thinks we could find a way forward, I’ll wait. I’ll wait as long as it takes.”
She wiped at her eyes, refusing to let the tears fall. “And what about the mate bond? You didn’t even acknowledge it, didn’t tell me—”
“I didn’t know,” he said quickly, his eyes wide with desperation. “I didn’t know until you were gone, until it was too late. I felt it after you left, like a piece of my soul was ripped away.”
Y/n stared at him, her heart pounding. “I knew,” she admitted quietly. “I’ve known for a while.”
His eyes widened, shock and confusion written on his face. “You knew? Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Because I didn’t think you’d care,” she said, her voice wavering. “Because you were so focused on Feyre, on everything else. I didn’t want to be another burden for you to carry.”
Rhysand shook his head, his hands clenching into fists at his sides. “You were never a burden, Y/n. Never. I was just too blind to see what was right in front of me. And I hate myself for that.”
Y/n turned back to him, her gaze softening ever so slightly. “I’m not ready to accept the bond yet, Rhys. I’m not ready to just… let everything go.”
He nodded, his expression pained but understanding. “I understand. I’ll wait. I’ll wait for as long as it takes, and I’ll do whatever it takes to earn your trust back.”
She swallowed hard, the weight of his words sinking in. “Maybe… maybe if we spent more time together, if you showed me that you’ve really changed… maybe then I could consider it.”
Rhysand’s eyes lit up with a glimmer of hope, and he nodded eagerly. “Anything. I’ll do anything you ask.”
Y/n sighed, the heaviness in her chest lifting just slightly. “This doesn’t mean I’ve forgiven you, Rhys. I’m not there yet. But… I’m willing to see if you can prove yourself.”
He stepped closer, his voice low and filled with determination. “I will. I swear I will.”
She nodded slowly, a small, tentative step toward the possibility of healing. “We’ll see.”
As Y/n spoke those final words, a calm silence settled between them. The tension that had been weighing the air down began to ease, and the light from the setting sun cast a warm glow over the lake, reflecting in soft ripples on the water. Rhysand, still standing close but not too close, let out a breath he hadn’t realized he was holding, his shoulders finally relaxing.
He gave her a tentative smile, one that was full of relief and gratitude. “Thank you… for giving me this chance,” he murmured softly. “It means more than you know.”
Y/n glanced at him, her expression unreadable for a moment before a small smile ghosted her lips. “Don’t thank me yet. You’ve got a lot of proving to do, Rhys.”
His eyes sparkled with a mixture of affection and determination, and for the first time in a long time, a bit of the old, charming Rhys peeked through. “I plan to, darling. You’ll see.”
She rolled her eyes, but there was no malice behind it, just a faint glimmer of amusement. “Don’t get cocky. This isn’t a victory.”
“Not yet,” he agreed, a teasing lilt in his voice. “But it’s a start.”
They both stood there for a while longer, just watching the lake, the breeze gentle against their skin. Y/n didn’t pull away when Rhysand took a small step closer, their arms nearly brushing. The proximity felt different now—less suffocating, more… reassuring. As if, for the first time in ages, she wasn’t standing completely alone.
Rhysand didn’t make any bold moves; he didn’t reach out to touch her, respecting the distance she still held. But there was a warmth in the silence, an unspoken understanding that they were no longer quite as far apart as before.
Finally, after a few moments of peaceful quiet, Y/n turned to leave, the conversation having drained her emotionally. She needed time—time to process everything he’d said, everything she’d felt.
As she walked past him, Rhysand called after her gently, “Can I at least walk you back?”
Y/n paused, glancing over her shoulder. For a heartbeat, she considered saying no, but then, with a soft sigh, she nodded. “Alright. But just this once.”
Rhysand smiled—genuinely, this time—and caught up to her, falling into step beside her as they began to walk down the path back toward the city. They didn’t speak much, the silence between them comfortable now, and Y/n found herself not minding his presence the way she once had.
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ruminate88 · 8 months ago
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All my life you hear, “Haters are gonna hate” and you try to convince yourself that “they hate you cuz they ain’t you” lol it’s jealousy…
That’s all cool until it’s someone that you love deeply that hates you and is jealous of you… then you can’t just laugh that off 😔 When you have believed they were your favorite person that you waited all day to talk to and then when they did come around, they try to act superior to you or smarter. They low-key are putting you down while pretending to have love eyes at you and you’re professing your undying love to them… 💔💔💔
My last relationship was away at college and so we would communicate mostly through Snapchat or kik, sometimes we had two convos going between kik and our phone numbers. He would sometimes message me in class but not always. He would seemingly be sooo busy and I would wait hours and hours for him. Then when it’s bed time, I would get those selfies on Snapchat of him turning in the for night, asking me how I am doing and telling me how beautiful I am. He would say how he wished I was there to cuddle him up and I felt so close to him…. However, that was the most positive of it all. His undertones and his nonchalant behavior towards my feelings, confused me from his words.
Me waiting allll day for hours wanting to get closer and wanting to be in his life. I tried to make plans to go visit him on campus and he had excuses of why it wasn’t a good time for me to come see him 💔💔💔 I KNEW there were red flags and lies but I wanted so bad to trust him and be with him. The way he flirted with me so much, he made me feel crazy good but now when I look back at everything else I missed, I see just how much negative energy there was surrounding him. I don’t believe now he ever really wanted to see me or be with me, even though he kept saying so. He promised me I was his priority and he was going to make more time for me but also tell me how “busy” he is with school and his frat bros. I would offer to break up and he’d whine to me about it and act upset at me. Very confusing!! I couldn’t get it right with him.
At the end of it all, he blew me off and downplayed our time spent. The nights talking before bed and sending pictures. Complimenting each other. Sending kissy faces and heart emojis. Calling me “babe” and promising me he wants me. Waking up to good morning selfies in the shower, asking me if I slept ok…. He might have wanted something from me but it wasn’t good. I’m not sure what it was or what it meant if nothing at all. Many days I sat in isolation on my phone staring at his saved selfies he sent me, letting tears fall as I beg him to be real. I had FaceTimed him more than once so physically, he was the guy in the photos but mentally and emotionally, he was just mirroring me and pretending with me. The way he subtly discarded me at the end, even though I’m the one who physically ended the relationship, he was checked out and moved on before that. It’s so clear to me now how I had rose colored glasses on and thought he was everything to me. The way his responses were shorter and empty. Very robotic and I begged him for answers. I was also very worried to say anything to upset him or push him away. 3 times I tried to break it off and “set him free” but every time he was so defensive towards me and promising me he would change for me. I told him over and over I wanted to be closer to him and spend more time. I was tired of feeling like I wait around on him to pay me attention and most of his attention was sexual. He promised it was more than that.
I believed him when he said after college he would find a good job and settle down and have kids. I believed him when he said he “did want to be with me in person” and that he did care for me but every time I was upset or sharing my feelings of sadness over him, he would always freak out and tell me he didn’t like that I was that way, he actually said one time, “you scared me talking like that”. He didn’t like when I cried because he can’t feel it back for me but yet he would always tell me what I wanted to hear. Make me believe I’m crazy for his behavior BUT his actions did not match his words. I KNEW IT but struggled to admit it. There were crazy amounts of fog and I was losing my mind going insane over him! I was so lonely in the relationship it was very very one-sided yet I loved him and was waiting for him to change.
I never knew possibly he had a fear of intimacy and that he couldn’t express feelings but also had other girls so, truly I look back and question was he just trying to look at naked women and talk dirty to us all?? I probably wasn’t even his main supply even though he’s calling me “babe” and promising me he doesn’t wanna break up. It made NO SENSE!!! He kept hurting me at every turn. 💔💔💔 I never saw his words as demeaning till after we break up and I open up about my mental health. The way he dismissed me and treated me like I’m only good enough to talk dirty to, I saw him in a different light and it was so hard to accept it all but I didn’t have a choice. He hurt me worse when I finally moved on, he had a new gf but he’s trying to FaceTime me but hangs up after a ring or 2. He wanted me to stay in trauma bond and in pain. He couldn't let me go on in my life without exerting himself in it. I’ve NEVER been able to make sense fully or get him off my mind. I asked myself so many times, “how can you love someone who treats you so badly???” But a trauma bond and obsession is NOT love. Understanding that has been a process in itself. The intermittent reinforcement of “ignoring me 2/3 days” but then suddenly messaging me “hey babe 😘 how have you been?” Acting like everything is normal but yet my heart was on edge so heavy and going in circles with him. I was up and down with him daily. I would stalk his Facebook calendar back then to figure out what he’s doing when he’s away from me. Often he wouldn’t update any of his socials unless he was just hiding me from his post but he would leave me grappling and begging for his attention. I’m sure it was on purpose but I just don’t have proof.
I don’t know when you forget if ever. I beat myself up saying it shouldn’t hurt at all anymore it’s been too long since I blocked his number. Should I beat myself up?? Am I crazy and pathetic the way Andrew made me feel? 🥺❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 Get him out of my system!!
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verstappensrealwife · 2 months ago
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Silver Springs - Ex!Oscar Piastri x Singer!Reader
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[oscar piastri masterlist  / f1 masterlist]
ʚɞ in which... oscar goes to his ex girlfriends concert after cheating on her.
ʚɞ angst -> fluff? ending.  ⋆⭒˚.⋆ 900 words + SMAU
ʚɞ warnings: NOT an oscar ending, cheating, oscar's sisters are made to be much younger (like under 10). lana del rey faceclaim.
ʚɞ poll at end of fic to decide who she dates next!
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When you and Oscar split up, it wasn’t amicable like he told the media. He broke up with you, and you were distraught. Going black out on social media for months before announcing a new single. It wasn’t long before writing the song that you found out the reason it all really ended. He had said, “Mclaren says no more distractions,” You soon found out that just meant “No more you.” 
This revelation came a few weeks later when he was seen posted up with a girl. The timelines of your relationships overlapping. Distraught was now the understatement of the year.
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The release of the single marked a turning point in your narrative. The song, dripping with raw emotion, resonated deeply with listeners. The lyrics were painfully direct, a window into your heartbreak and the betrayal that followed. Fans dissected every line, piecing together the story and speculating about who it was written for. 
The album followed, a cohesive story of love lost and the journey back to self. While some songs still bore the weight of your pain, others hinted at healing, even defiance. Critics hailed it as your most vulnerable and mature work yet. Headlines shifted from speculations about your personal life to accolades about your artistry.
Meanwhile, Oscar stayed silent, perhaps believing the storm would pass. But the scrutiny on him intensified, especially as the timelines between his relationships were publicly examined. The girl he was seen with became a topic of conversation too, though you never once mentioned her. Your silence in interviews about him spoke volumes; you let the music say it all.
As the months passed, you began to flourish in ways that no longer revolved around heartbreak. 
By the time the album tour rolled around, you had fully embraced your own narrative. On stage, in sold-out venues, you exude confidence. The heartbreak that once defined your every move was now just one chapter in a bigger story—a story of resilience, transformation, and unapologetic self-love.
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Oscar’s sisters sat on either side of him, laughing and chatting as they waited for the next song, blissfully unaware of the storm brewing on stage. To them, this was just another concert—a chance to see one of the biggest stars of the moment, someone they might have even admired from afar before all of this. They didn’t notice the way your gaze had frozen the moment you spotted him in the crowd. They didn’t feel the heat rising as you stared him down, the room suddenly smaller, suffocating.
The intro to Silver Springs started, and the audience quieted, the opening chords rippling through the venue like an unspoken promise of something extraordinary. As the spotlight shifted back to you, the weight of the moment settled. You gripped the mic tighter, your knuckles white, your shoulders tense. You knew the song would hurt to sing. What you didn’t expect was how much it would hurt him.
You began softly, your voice trembling with emotion
"You could be my silver springs...
Blue-green colors flashing..."
Your eyes found him immediately. The spotlight didn’t extend to his seat, but you didn’t need it. You could feel him, your gaze cutting through the crowd like a blade. For a moment, he looked back at you, then quickly away, shifting uncomfortably. His sisters kept chatting, oblivious, swaying gently to the melody.
But as the song built, so did your intensity.
"Time cast a spell on you,
But you won't forget me..."
You leaned into the words, your voice growing sharper, angrier, the crackling edge of your heartbreak evident in every syllable. You didn’t just sing the song—you lived it, every word a pointed accusation. Oscar shifted again, staring at the stage now, his jaw tight, his expression unreadable but tense. His sisters seemed utterly at ease, clapping politely during an instrumental break, their chatter not stopping for a moment.
And then the line came:
"I'll follow you down 'til the sound of my voice will haunt you..."
You let the words hang in the air, staring directly at him. The audience roared, swept up in the passion of your performance, but you didn’t even register them. This was personal, a message delivered with precision and fury.
Oscar’s sisters finally caught on to the awkward tension between you and him, but they only exchanged confused looks, still clueless as to the weight of what was happening. They turned to him, whispering something, but he didn’t respond. He just sat there, staring at you with a mixture of regret and defiance.
As the song reached its emotional crescendo, you pushed through to the final verse, your voice soaring. By the time the last note faded into silence, you stood there, staring into the dark where he sat, breathing hard, your heart pounding.
The audience erupted into applause, breaking the moment. You straightened, taking a deep breath and allowing a small, almost imperceptible smile to cross your face. You turned and walked offstage for a brief interlude, leaving him there, knowing he’d felt every word.
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I hope this was good 🫣 I’ve not done an SMAU before
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pinksobg · 1 month ago
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What can help you level up this time? ❤️🧺🎀
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This is a direct and insightful reading designed to guide through different aspects of journey. Each pile reflects a unique vibe, offering specific messages that correspond to various areas of growth. I hope you enjoy it and that it can provides meaningful reflections for you! ❤️🌷
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🌷How can your intuition/spiritual connection improve? – Ace of Swords, Seven of Cups.
Seek to act more rationally, resolve unresolved internal issues, ask for help from the Universe/Your Belief with more clarity and confidence, finish projects, reflect on recent choices (or the lack of them).
🍵How to improve in work/studies? - Seven of Swords, King of Cups.
Set healthy boundaries with yourself or colleagues, be cautious of tendencies to overwork, work with love/passion and enjoy the journey, appreciate/cherish what you have right now.
🎀 How to take better care of yourself? - Knight of Pentacles reversed, Eight of Wands.
Don’t define your worth by just one thing (e.g., your income or the need for a specific relationship). If possible, move your body. Keep progressing in the area you love/what you enjoy doing. Invest in new good things for yourself, like healthy habits or something you've always wanted to try.
Song: APT – Rosé + Bruno Mars; Chasing That Feeling – TXT.
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🌷 How to improve your relationships overall? – Three of Swords.
Heal past wounds, heartbreaks, or even betrayals. Ask for help if possible. Have more compassion for yourself. Connect with what you love. Be patient with yourself. Be proud of all you’ve accomplished.
🍵What is “missing”? – Five of Swords, Page of Pentacles.
Try to understand what you perceive as “defeat.” Move forward with what you can learn. Turn your struggles into opportunities.
🎀 What could help you be happier? – Two of Cups reversed.
Spend more quality time with yourself. Get to know certain aspects of yourself better. Do something nice for yourself (like taking yourself out to eat something special, lighting a candle, or anything that makes you feel good).
Songs: Bad News – Kiss of Life; No Doubt – Enhypen.
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🌷How to improve focus on your goals? – Five of Pentacles reversed, Seven of Pentacles, The Hierophant.
Believe in positive changes. Invest in your passions. Help others. Ask for help from someone you trust (like a mentor, for example). Be patient and persistent with yourself and your goals. Improve your planning and organizational strategies. Think about the rewards.
🍵How to improve self-confidence? – Temperance.
Understand that nothing is perfect; everyone has difficulties and flaws. Value what you already are. Recognize that you are good enough. Step out of your comfort zone little by little, in ways that feel good to you. Accept love for yourself, from others, and the love others have for you. Connect with water, animals, or nature in general. Journaling.
🎀 How to take better care of yourself? – Ten of Wands reversed, King of Pentacles reversed, The World.
Acknowledge your past struggles and pains. Try to move away from a scarcity mindset. Recognize that you have and will have everything you aim for. You are doing well. Recognize that you are already good enough (the same message again). Acknowledge the wholeness within you and your ability to create.
Songs: Thirsty – Aespa; Nemonemo – Yena.
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Regardless of the pile you chose, remember that every step of growth is valid. Trust the process and, above all, trust yourself. ❤️❤️
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patronsaintofelsewhere · 1 year ago
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Thoughts on Angel Crowley & Healing from Trauma
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(Minor Good Omens S2 Spoilers)
As someone who’s endured my own Trauma and dealt with the resulting PTSD, watching Crowley’s journey from a joyful, silly, and entirely innocent angel to a withdrawn, lonely, hyper-vigilant demon as a result of the Fall both shattered my heart and confronted me with the fact of myself, and I’d like to talk about it. 
When you* experience Trauma, you experience an existential disorientation and a profound sense of grief over the world you thought you knew–one where you were safe and nothing bad had ever happened to you. “Innocence died screaming,” and all that.
You're also therefore mourning the loss of who you were, and struggling to make sense of who you are now. Which is why this conversation is so gut-wrenching:
“I know you.” “You do not know me.” “I knew the angel you were.” “The angel you knew is not me.” 
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This dialogue admittedly still makes my eyes swim. It’s reminiscent of the many conversations I’ve had with people close to me who knew me Before and After. Not only are you grieving the loss of your own innocence, so are those around you, and it feels like you’re wearing their loved one’s face like a mask.
And then underneath the grief, there’s a river of–what you’ll later discover is misplaced–guilt. They want you to be who you were. Fuck, you also want to be who you were -- to not have experienced what you did -- but you can’t.
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And when they catch a glimpse of something that reminds them of Before-You -- because it's not like that you has just up and vanished, you've just changed -- they say things like, “I feel like I have you back!” Like the After-You is a consolation prize, something to be tolerated while they wait for the Before-You to return.
It’s not malicious. They love you. They want you to be happy. But it just serves as a reminder of your loss and suddenly you’re acutely aware of how alone you are with the Thing that hurt you.
After trauma, you’re lonely and you're afraid. But those emotions make you feel quite naked, because both of those things would require you to depend on other people to feel better and, at this point, the thought of doing that is far too scary, so to the world, you’re angry. Thus begins the cyclical self-fulfilling prophecy.
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And that cycle goes a bit like this: People see the mistrust and the bitterness and the volatility (the shield that keeps people at an arm's length and helps you feel safe). They don't see the profound sustained fear underneath, the desperate need to feel seen and accepted. And so people pull away.
And that real or perceived abandonment feeds the monster that’s taken up permanent residence in your ribcage and screams at all hours that you’re not worthy of love, that you’re irreparably broken, and you’ll always be alone. And you pull away from the people that love you. And the cycle repeats. And you start to believe all of the bad things about yourself that the monster tells you.
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Being confronted with a character who you adore and who you also relate to closely is bittersweet in that it’s both immensely painful, but also offers you an opportunity to interrupt that cycle, to explore a different -- perhaps more forgiving -- lens through which to view yourself. To practice self-compassion by proxy, if you will. After all, we tend to extend far greater empathy and forgiveness to others than we do to ourselves.
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Angel Crowley, "who squeaked and squealed when he was happy; who flailed his arms around and made explosion noises with his mouth to explain nebulas; who preened when told his stars were pretty,” (joycrispy) reminded me a lot of “Angel T,” or rather myself before Trauma.
And Crowley's story is tragic. I was heartbroken and angry for him; I felt the depth of the betrayal he experienced at the hands of someone he loved who he'd believed loved him; I found myself wanting to protect him, to comfort him. Crowley did not deserve what happened to him.
And, over a decade later, I realized that I’d finally accepted that I’d been an innocent, just like Crowley had, and I didn't deserve what happened to me, either.
And -- if you find yourself relating to this post -- neither did you.
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Once we can tell ourselves that and actually believe it, we can start to lower the shield. We can allow people closer, including ourselves. We can bring the parts of ourselves we may have hidden away back to the surface. We can soften again. We can truly start to heal.
Crowley, at his core, remains the same. He is still kind, deeply loving, playful, silly, and – against all odds – hopeful. But his trauma has changed him; his innocence is gone.
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He struggles to trust others; fears abandonment; engages in unhealthy coping mechanisms; finds it easier to prioritize and tend to Aziraphale's needs and desires than his own; and has difficulty expressing his emotions.
But he also gained an abundance of empathy, a deep love for humanity, and a strong sense of justice.
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We adore Crowley exactly as he is now; we don't wish for him to be who he was before the Fall. And neither does Aziraphale.
In kind, we won’t be who we were — nor should we try to be — but we can be something new, a different version of ourselves that is equally good, equally worthy, and equally deserving of love. 
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After over a decade, I think my Trauma wound has mostly healed, as much as Trauma wounds can, anyway; it’s a dull ache rather than an acute pain. Yet Crowley's story assuaged that remaining hurt like a salve I hadn’t realized I needed.
So thank you to @neil-gaiman for giving us such a beautiful story, and to David Tennant, Michael Sheen, and the rest of the cast and crew who bring the characters we love to life on screen.
Good Omens truly is a gift. May it continue to inspire us to offer kindness and love to ourselves and one another. 🖤
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* I am aware that I say “you” when I should use the singular first-person “I,” but I still struggle with this when talking about my own trauma. So I’m using “you” and you, reader, will deal with it x
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unveiledglamour · 1 year ago
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Letting Go
Letting go is probably one of the hardest things to do. Letting go of people, expectations, old versions of ourselves, old believes, old habits. Whatever it may be, its challenging, its emotional, its uncomfortable. It’s easier to stay in the familiar because you’re comfortable in it even if it’s not completely satisfying or fulfilling or up to standard. Its familiar and familiar means safe, you…
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keksalot404 · 1 year ago
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Uh oh! Some BOZO decided to play UNDERTALE and UNDERTALE YELLOW at the same time (Both games FUN value was 66) and now the timeline is F*CKED (By about one year; It wasn't that long till Frisk came along)
This is the Guide to UNDERTALE ROM LEAK, mostly a frame of reference for me and you regarding this AU born from a doodle and a dream. Those who just want to see the art with no context, feel free to click the top pic and swipe down or something.
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A Tale of 2.5 Souls
Seems like whatever the reason Frisk went to the mountain, they ended up tailing Clover, where the game begins. Control between the 2 fallen children is split, meaning that both Frisk and Clover are free to express their quirks and personalities more.
Adding to that, NarraChara is also here, being visible to Frisk, Clover, AND the player due to more determination in the area. Frisk still has higher DT than Clover, so they're in charge of LOADing and SAVEing as well as playing leader.
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Prepare For Trouble, Make It Double!
Now obviously the timeline can't really be UT or UTY if all major events need to be dealt with. The universe's solution? Now every Major Character (and perhaps minor ones) are paired up with their cross game counterparts. While encounters for each monster can be seperate, eventually they will cross paths with eachother and the fallen humans.
With each section of the Underground now longer with even paired area newly connected (More on how that works later), it'd feel like even 2 player characters can't make it easy. Fortunately for a certain route, you may get some help...
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Kanako
To fill a void for a Certain Short Scientist, seems fate pulled a few strings, and brought a new friend back from near-death! If you don't kill any monsters during RUINS, Kanako will sense your pure hearts and join the party, acting as the Ralsei to this Diet Fun Gang.
With healing and shield magic, she'll make your journey a lot more manageble, at the cost of not being able to kill any monsters all the way until Asgore (She will still allow you to spare monsters by lowering health but if she senses a chance to kill she will block the attack and scold you for it.)
Being a much more attentive protector than the Skeleton, she'll accompany Frisk and Clover through the emotional highs and lows of their journey, and perhaps maybe...
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You'll find out the true reason she's helping you.
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Stronger Monsters
For the characters of the 2 timelines being destined to meet, it is also true that destiny will point into blocking your path. For the Major Battles at least, you'll have to fight both of them at the end of each paired areas. An example being meeting North Star in Wild East only for Starlo's betrayal being calling Undyne to hunt you during Waterfall.
Expect combo attacks, fused soul modes, and complex strategies when facing the duel bosses. Some might even compromise Kanako from assisting. No fight has the same solution as the UT and UTY fights (except maybe Papyrus and Martlet), so be prepared and stay determined!
So have fun while you can, won't you? It's not likely you will get these games together again. You wouldn't waste this once-in-a-while experience just to do something you'll regret.
You wouldn't waste it just to see what happens...
...right?...
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