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Request: Basically the reader is the CEO of some big/famous business and has a crush on her secretary but docent think that he likes her. So one day the Readers Sister come to the office for a visit and they are talking in the readers office and her secretary needs to drop off some important papers and over hears their conversation. So then he knocks on the door and acts like he didnāt hear the conversation. Readerās sister says high and the reader notices how they interact together. So when the Readers secretary leaves the Reader is like āhey I think that you guys would look good together. He totally likes you.ā Kinda stuff. And the sister is confused but docent really think much about it. So the Readers sister is staying in town for their friends wedding or something so the sister is always at the office. One day the Secretary decides to ask the Readers sister for help to get with the Reader. And thatās all I got.
A/N: This was so much fun to write, they are so in love with each other, totally would write more of them. This is kind of soft in a hot way, enjoy!
The CEO's minotaur
Minotaur x chubby fem!reader || semi-public sex, heavy making out, office sex
Your sister is in town after a very long time, and you had missed her so much, but right now, with her nagging at you about not acting on your feelings for your hot minotaur secretaryā¦ you arenāt so sure about missing her. (Thatās a lie, you totally missed her, but dang if it doesnāt annoy you to be told you are stupid).
āCome on, you need to tell him, see if he feels the same way,ā sheās saying. Sheās told you that at least three times before in the past couple of days, but you still refuse to believe her. What has a hot minotaur to do with his human boss? Nothing.
āStop it, you know he doesnāt like me that way,ā you try to argue for what feels like the thousandth time. āHeās too goo-ā You hear a knock on the door and shut up instantly, motioning your sister to be quiet, too. āCome in.ā Said minotaur enters the room making you sigh in pent up frustration. His big form looks extra good today, and it does nothing to make you feel any less intense about him.
āI need you to sing these papers, ma'am,ā his tone is so formal, and he keeps sending side looks to your sister as she tries to repress her laughter.
āYes, sure, come here.ā You sign the papers he puts on your desk as you tell him: āIāve told you repeatedly not to call me maāam, just use my name.ā
āOkayā¦ā He says, but you know heās going to do it again. It almost feels like he likes to call you that, like it gives him some sort of satisfaction to act so proper around you. But that canāt be, right? Thereās no way.
You exchange a few more words as he tells you about the calls and schedule for the rest of the day. You give him a list of a few things you need him to do as he smiles, a soft blush covering his cheeks and making you press your tights together. Fuck, you need to get it together.
When he leaves you look at your sister, who is covering her mouth with her hand trying to repress the giggles you bet sheās holding. āDonāt,ā you warn her, already anticipating what sheās going to say.
She shuts her mouth but smiles brightly at you, changing topics. A while later, when your lunch break is over and your sister is leaving, she says: āFor the record, he totally likes you.ā She closes the door just in time to avoid the paper-clip you throw her way, her laughter heard even across the closed door.
Your sister stays in town a few more days, dropping by your office to have lunch with you every single day, saying itās not always that she can spend time with her CEO sister in her important job. You laugh it out, but you are secretly glad she spends time with you every time she comes to the city. You miss her like crazy when sheās not there, and calls just arenāt the same.
Thatās how you are about to round the corner when you hear her voice, talking to someone who shows up in your dreams way too often. āThen how do I approach her?ā Your secretary says with a soft tone that makes goosebumps erupt on your skin.
āJust tell her you like her!ā Your sister whisper-shouts. She was never good at being subtle.
āBut- Butā¦ She doesnāt like me back. Sheās my boss, and so good. Sheās so pretty and powerful, and her aura is so sexy at the same time as kindā¦ And Iām just a minotaur.ā You hate the self-depreciation words coming out of his mouth. You want to scream at him that heās wrong. That you are head over heels for him. Then he says: āSheās just so much better than me,ā and you had enough.
You turn the corner and stare at his stunned face. āYou are wrong,ā you tell him.
Your sister is smiling so big you want to be annoyed with her, but you just canāt. Thanks to her you were able to hear him say those things about you. Fuck, sheās going to hold that over you forever, isnāt she? But at that moment you donāt even care. You just care about his sweet face all blushed in the prettiest shade of brown as he looks at you with big eyes and the hint of a smile.
āIām going to take that as my cue to leave, have fun you two. Donāt do anything I wouldnāt do!ā She tells as she almost runs to the elevator.
You two stare at each other for what feels like an eternity. You scan his form, his proper clothes and soft fur, the way his horns are so big they almost reach the ceiling, the sweet smile thatās spreading across his features as he registers your flushed face. You donāt know who moves first, but before you can process it, you two are in each other personal space, and heās looking at you intently.
āCan I kiss you?ā You donāt even respond, grabbing his horns and pulling him down to devour his mouth in the most hot kiss youāve ever given (or received).
You make out like teenagers, his hands all over your body as yours explore his. Itās intoxicating to finally be able to kiss him like that, to be able to touch him the way youāve been waiting for so fucking long. Heās driving you insane in the best way possible and, judging by his moans, heās no better.
āI need you, I need you, I need you,ā you chant against his lips, pushing him softly to your office.
He hauls you up and your legs come around his waist. He walks you to your desk and sits you over it, doing the whole wiping-everything-off-the-table thing, the most cliche move of all times. You giggle as he kisses down your neck, his horns right in front of your face as you grab them to control his movements a bit more. You pull him up and devour his mouth again.
āIāve wanted you for so long, Iām so fucking gone for you,ā he whispers against your lips, his hands cupping your boobs over the fabric of your clothes as you moan. You canāt even tell him you feel the same way, your brain is foggy with desire as you palm the huge erection inside his pants.
āTake me, then. Make me yours,ā you ask softly.
āYes, maāam,ā he tells you with a smirk. You kiss him again, your hands working on his clothes to open them. You think some of the buttons of his shirt fly away, but you canāt care less.
He moves you enough to get your pants off your legs, ripping your underwear as you gasp. His strength turning you on so much you want to scream his name, but instead, you bite his neck to avoid making too much noise. You canāt forget you arenāt alone in the office, the otherās cubicles might be a few hallways away, but if you let out all the noise you want, they will definitely hear, and that wouldnāt be too professional of the CEO of the company.
He apparently can read your mind, because he whispers against your ear: āOne of these days Iām going to hear your sweet lips screaming my name as I pound into you,ā you groan at his words.
His fingers find your needy hole, pushing one inside without preamble as he starts finger-fucking you into a mess of arousal and pent up frustration. His thumb is on your clit when the second finger enters you, making you move your hips to ride his hand. He hums in contentment, urging you to move faster, to get all your pleasure off him.
āI need you, can Iā¦ Can I fuck you?ā You take a second to process his words, your brain lost in pleasure to what his hand is doing.
āYes. Yes. Yes,ā you agree vehemently as he chuckles, taking his fingers away from your dripping cunt and spreading your juices over his dick. When you look down to see, you have to swallow a gasp at the sheer size of him. āYou are so big,ā you let out without wanting to, covering your mouth in embarrassment.
He chuckles again, caressing your cheek and kissing the tip of your nose. āDonāt worry, maāam, it will fit.ā You donāt doubt his words, seeing as you are fucking drenched with desire.
When you feel the tip of his cock against your pussy, you throw your head back, moaning like a whore as the tapered head breaches you. He breathes hard against your neck, his panting making everything hotter. He keeps pushing and pushing and pushing until heās so deep inside you can almost taste it in the back of your throat.
Your fucking is frantic and desperate. You kiss each other with such desperation that you end up panting against each other mouthās. Itās so hot and needy, is the climax of so much pent up sexual tension between you two that your orgasm catches you off guard.
āIām about toā¦ā You donāt finish the phrase before your body is convulsing and your pussy is fluttering around his girth as he curses loudly.
You bury your face in his neck to muffle your sounds as you come apart in his arms, the pleasure so high itās almost blinding. He follows you over the edge not three thrusts after, and the feel of his come painting your insides is enough to send you over a second orgasm. You bite down on his neck muscles hard, making him groan and shot another load into your tingling pussy.
āFuck,ā you breathe out when your heart slows down a bit.
āGive me a few minutes,ā he jokes, making you giggle.
#minotaur#minotaur x reader#minotaur x human#minotaur x you#patreon commission#comission#monster#monster fucker#monster imagine#monster x human#teratophillia#monster x reader#terato#monster boyfriend#monster fuqqer#monster romance#monster kink#monster love#monster lover#monster smut#monster x you#monsterfucker#monsterfucking nsft
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anwyay gripping sun saying he wanted BOTH moons, and nexus back. ;u cant have both; 'why not' YEAH WHY HMN??? HMNN???
plot nonsense thats why
#also the voiceactor probably doesnt wanna do that and thats absolutely fair#LET SUN HAVE HIS BROTHERS GDI#anyway nexus baby when?#'u were power hungry' didnt start off that way and we all know it but sure okay#im assuming nsp is partly to blame if it effected lunar similarily with his repressed emotions#WHICH THEY SEEM TO IMPLY SO IM LIKE STARING#plot developement where u gotta wait for em to confirm or just continuously go 'dont worry about it#he was evil its fine' as if he wasnt a good dude at all#sams spoilers
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Steve has a bit of anger issues and a problem with repressed trauma so i thought it would be so funny if he would have got vecna'ed and talk back at vecna like if the mf can't just kill him on the spot.
I just imagine Steve being done with all his bullshit villain talk and call him a manchild freddy krueger wannabe who is so full of himself even when he has been defeted for three consecutive years by literally kids and teenagers.
Anyways, something something, here is something i wrote about it that i never finished.
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And okay, Stress Steve didn't know how not to say things, he just gave away whatever thought he may have, it didn't matter if it was venomous or vulnerable, but most of the time just works to embarrass himself saying out loud his dumb thoughts, he just talks and, oh boy, he talks.Ā
Stress Steve didn't know when to shut up, Steve would say that he could be a Robin 2.0 but it was more about what he said than how much he talked (or rambled in Robin's case), which was more than he liked to admit.
Now, Afraid Steve wasn't much of a talker, he was more of actions, from freezing in place to just move. He gave barely any thought at what he would do but he did, maybe just a few seconds but he analyzed and thought about it.Ā
Contrary to popular belief he did think before acting, probably not enough, but he didn't have time to do that (Robin wouldā and didā argue with him about it).
The point is, when Upside Down shit happens Stress Steve and Afraid Steve kick in, so he has a weird combination of saying dumb shit and doing even dumber shit, like when he was literally yelling at a child, that child was Erica and she didn't even bat an eye, but still, you can get the point.
[Insert Steve and Vecna's talk]
So now not only he has Stress Steve and Afraid Steve in his system, Angry Steve has joined the mix andā¦ listen, Steve is trying really hard to be a better person, he really is, scouts honor, but he knows that he can hurt people with his words.Ā
He would see the deepest insecurity and sore spot he can find and spit in it to make the other bleed, make them hurt, and if he couldn't find it he would instead make them snap, yeah, he is trying to stop but it is a part of him that it doesnāt quite go. It's in his blood. His DNA, or whatever.
He knows himself (he had to know himself if he wanted to be a better personā he doesnāt dare to think he can be a good person, just better, never good), thatās why he tries to just have Stress and Afraid Steve around when shit hits the fan because in the first round, Angry Steve appear and everyone knows how that went (I'm sorry Jonathan, I did deserve that punch). So Angry Steve is most of the time locked in a cage, deep down in some part of the still healthy brain that Steve has left.
Anyways, that doesnāt matter now, because Angry Steve has come out and is ready to spit at anyone who crosses his path, and maybe Stress and Afraid Steve can keep him on a leash but that doesnāt mean he isnāt there. Steve is just lucky enough that the one who crosses his path is Vecna.
How good is his luck that the moment he wants to make someone angry just like him, that the other one is a monster from another dimension that has quite literally his life in his hands and can kill him in any moment, ha.
Just his luck.
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āSteve, What did you do?ā
"I may or may not have called Vecna a Freddy Kruger wanna be"
#steve harrington#stranger things#vecna's curse#steve gets vecna'ed#anger issues#ramblings#vecna stranger things#robin buckley#platonic stobin#just a thought
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hi anon again and no you didn't bore me at ALL!! i loved hearing about the welsh arthurian mythos and i want to know more. please tell me where i can read about them and tell me interesting facts you like about it!!!!!!!!
Anon, I am hugging u. Thank u for saying I didn't bore u!!! So glad u liked my mad ramblings!!!
Okay, so The Mabinogion is probably a good place to start. It contains four branches of Welsh mythology which sorta ties into Welsh Arthuriana because some of the gods (Manawydan, Pryderi, Gwyn ap Nudd, Mabon ap Modron, Bendigeidfran's head.) pop up in both. Also, it contains Culhwch and Olwen which is a tale concerning Arthur's cousin Culhwch going on a quest with Arthur and his knights so he can marry Ysbaddaden Pencawr's daughter, Olwen. It's believed to be the earliest-written Arthurian romance preserved in manuscripts. It also contains three other Arthurian romances which are either Welsh tales that have been adapted by De Troyes and then back into Welsh but with a twist, or just based on French romance tales that have been repressed for the Welsh. (Idk really know which one is true but they're all fun!!!)
There's also the tales of Lludd and Llefelys (a personal fave.), The Dream of Rhonabwy (a fictional dream containing Arthurian characters but also actually REAL LIFE Welsh ruler Madog ap Maredudd.), AND The Dream of Macsen Wledig which is essentially one man's quest to bonk a hot lady in Caernarfon. (Tbf, Macsen Wledig is somewhat of an Arthurian figure in his own right cuz he too is seen as a Mab Darogan (prophecised son) in Welsh Culture because he united the Welsh under one banner, and then died, and then Wales immediately split into kingdoms again.)
You can either access Charlotte Guest's translation which I am sure @queer-ragnelle has scanned, or Sioned Davies' new translation which has handy dandy footnotes and such.
There's also Gwyn Jones and Thomas Jones translation which uses a lot of the medieval language but was also made into a beautifully illustrated book by Alan Lee (An illustrator who is famous for LOTR illustrations). Jeffrey Gantz's edition is, I think, the most recently published edition but you can tear Sioned Davies from my COLD DEAD HANDS. Or, if you like poetry, one of my old English lit lecturers, Matthew Francis, has done a poetry version of the four branches! It's amazing!!!!
Also, Naxos has an audiobook version read by Matt Addis which uses Guest's translation but is good for listening to. I love it.
(You'll also want Trystan ac Essyllt, 'The Triads of Britain' and 'The Arthur of the Welsh' which are written by Rachel Bromwich, and I recommend O.J. Padel's 'Arthur in Medieval Welsh Literature' for more on how he's portrayed through that. And if you like modern re-tellings Seren Books has a box set of them! Each one is a re-telling of each branch of the Mabinogi, Culhwch and Olwen, the three romances, and the others. Very fun!)
Now in terms of my favourite things: Peredur being Urien's first cousin irl made me be like WHAT? Like, they're SO interconnected it's MADNESS. Urien, Owain, and Peredur are all related. Also, the fact that Welsh Arthuriana has swallowed up eight irl monarchs (Edern ap Nudd, Cunedda, Owain, Urien, Geraint, Peredur, Macsen Wledig, Cynon ap Clydno (Owain's sister, Morfudd's, lover), and Cynyr Ceinfarfog (Cai's dad), one poetic genius (Taliesin - who wrote about Urien as it goes!!! BTW read the tale of Taliesin. Sjdddkxk. The Jones and Jones translation has it, the Davies translation of the Mabinogi does not.), Emrys Wyllt who was the inspiration for Merlin, and sixty-seven thousand gods, as well as a few saints.
My favourite fact about Welsh Arthuriana is probably that Gwalchmai and Peredur probs had a relationship, Arthur is canonically in love with his boat, Cai literally says 'if u held my dick like that I'd die.' in Culhwch and Olwen, and Gwenhwyfar's a fuckin GIANTESS. šššš I have many more facts but like I don't want to clutter the feed!!!!!
Hope my rambles were helpful in some way! Have a good day/night, anon! āŗļøš§”
#anon ask#anon ur super nice djdjdkd#arthuriana#welsh mythology#mabinogion#the mabinogion#welsh myth#y mabinogi#the mabinogi#arthurian legend#arthurian mythology#oh fuck also the mab is a good book rec too! its a modern retelling and its targeted for kids but michael sheen does the foreword!#its SO FUN#the third branch is written from Cigfa's perspective and it SLAPS#king arthur#arthur pendragon#merlin#queen guinevere#owain ap urien#urien rheged#taliesin#sir kay#the four branches of the mabinogi#charlotte guest#welsh folklore#welsh legends#arthurian literature#arthurian legends
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Kind of a weird one, but I think it'd be cute if Zayn instructed Adaine on how to put on nail polish.
It just doesn't seem like a thing she got to play around with much, not even because the Abernants would be against it or anything but just because that poor girl was so repressed and uncomfortable in that house at all times. I think it just didn't even occur to her to play around with her appearance? She probably didn't get into makeup in the sense of self expression either, I just think it would've been expected of her to know how to "look presentable" (like cover up imperfections but never do anything too bold or unnatural). By fifteen a lot of teenage girls do makeup right? Idk, never got into it. But yeah Adaine was very stiff and always looked a certain way and never really personally decided what to look like until Highschool.
Then her friends help her pick out clothes, and I like to think Fig and Fabian cut her hair at some point. (And it's not even that big of a difference, but it just feels good to have a haircut that she herself asked for specifically, if that makes sense?) And then when she befriends Zayn, and maybe probably when they're in Mordred, it's just like hey yeah Zayn bedazzled himself he knows this stuff. Sitting in her wizard tower with him hovering next to her, being her second opinion on colours and "oh it's okay, don't worry too much about getting it on your skin it's easy to scrub off after it's dried". Reassurance and the occasional tip as teenage girl kind of anxiously sits in her room free (in a sense) of her shitty parents for the first time and feeling kind of euphoric about getting to be "normal" and silly?
I imagine if Adaine got comfortable enough in her own skin and processed some more of her trauma between junior and senior year and like, started being interested in other people she'd confide in Zayn about crushes and they'd be stupid highschoolers talking about cute people. I don't know if I think Adaine gets to that point?? But it's a cute hypothetical haha. For what it's worth I think Oisin (post rage crystal and very ashamed) has a crush on her and when she notices and tells Zayn he's like girl ew. Kill him?? He's very dramatic in my head. Or, I guess he's dramatic canonically lol. But I think he's more petty. He's funnier if he's petty.
Zayn isn't that important anymore when he stops being plot relevant so their friendship isn't expanded on a lot, but from what we've seen it's very dear to me. Cute wizard friends with shitty parents (and a big part of said shittiness is caused by conservative elven values) to bond over :)
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newsflash assholes, everyone in the butcher shop is repressed!
#except niko#we love her and the crumb of emotional intelligence she brings to the group#edwin is the most out there about it but like charles and jenny and are right up there#crystal i think is too but just not as much as the rest of them#shes emotionally intelligent enough to recognize her and others feelings but she doesn't necessarily want to work through them#as evidenced by the fact she takes any chance to not talk about how david the demon affected her until she literally cannot escape it#idk if she knows she does this and that might be why she seems less so than the others who deliberately deflect#edwin straight up refuses any time emotions are brought up and deflects so obviously#he knows hes repressed and hes okay with it#its a very British way of going about it tbh#charles has been angry for the last thirty years and has been smiling the whole time#and jenny is jenny#we all know jenny#she knows shes repressed and shes keeping that shit#shes in therapy and her therapist is like okay jenny lets talk about feelings and she goes ??? what feelings#k mumbles#dead boy detectives
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how funny it is that you are the first to crack
#orihara izaya#priest shizuo#shizuo heiwajima#fallen angel izaya#shizaya fallen angel au#in memory of god#drrr#shizaya#durarara#ESA MANO ARBITROO#you know what else is funny#that in canon izaya has a dark color palette but shizuo's is light and it works bcs of the way people see them you know#even though shizuo is feared he's like this ray of sunshine so powerful strong and brilliant#but izaya is always in the shadows working#but in this au#i want to show the opposite#shizuo is the one in the shadows all dressed in black barely holding it all#repressing his emotions unlike shizuo in drrr#on the other hand izaya is still izaya#he's not innocent but his playfulness is more childlike bc this is his first time living amongst mortals#he's curious and revengeful#inmature and doesn't repress anything#he explodes and fights and he's so sensitive urghhhhh#but he's not more experienced than shizuo#okay i'll shut up sorry#ithink this is the first time i've drawn a kiss like zoomed in#i'll get better so i can draw them making out and fuc-#my art
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itās been four months since December 2022 and Iām still not over the fact that Reigen was apparently so haunted by guilt from that one time in S2E2 where he scolded Mob for eating too many french fries that it showed up in the super emotionally charged eyecatcher montage during the series finale.
I wonder if reigen will ever find the closure he needs to free himself from the poltergeist of regret that obviously follows him around as a result of this incident. the confession incident really had reigen re-evaluating everything from the past three years.
#okay but this is such an āemotionally repressed but also sensitive and doting family memberā thing#itās hard to explain#but my dad is a gruff and rough-n-tumble farmer man#but heās also very sensitive and doting#so sometimes he will say something kind of blunt or tease me or scold me over something#and it really wonāt even be that bad#but he will sit there for the next couple of hours and stew over whether or not he hurt my feelings#like that shit will haunt him until eventually he calls me and apologizes#bc heās sensitive but also not super in touch with emotions so heās not sure where the boundaries are sometimes#and by that point i will have mostly forgotten what even happened in the first place#but i always get the post-joke/scolding regret call#especially bc i was always a kid who was very sensitive to rejection#i dunno if this makes any fucking sense#itās just very āemotionally repressed family memberā core#the girls who know will know#mp100#mob psycho 100#shigeo kageyama#reigen arataka
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we really had evan ābuckā iconic-line-of āwell, uh, wish i could helpā buckley. newly realized bisexual buck talking to his sexy male best friend about his sexy male best friendās sex life and about how pent up said sexy friend feels, while this same sexy bff aggressively uses a bench as a prop toā¦ āsquatā quickly, up and down, and buckās only response to all of this is āwell, uh, wish i could helpā??????? iā
#no#no NO#NO NO NO#donāt touch me iām still not okay about it#that sexually ass charged scene like wtf#theyāre freaks!!!! freaks!!!!!#idgaf now that buck knows he has attraction to men thereās no wayā¦#the amount of repression he has to be going through rn#though is he really repressed or is eddie just oblivious?#idk man this has me fucked all the way up#911#eddie diaz#evan buckley#buddie
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transfem loop + siffrin... you agree
i does agree.... i does in fact ... write a 7k word essay on the subject..... if you would like to perhaps click that link and read it if you were not already aware...... kisses u on the forehead......... sorry its that long but i had to cover all of my bases you know how it is with textual analysis when you're trying to draw a distinction between "headcanon" and "reading of the text" because those are different things.... to meeeeeeee.......
#a headcanon is when i say shit like loop has feetie pyjamas.#a reading of the text is when i go jesus christ dude im not sure someone that repressed has a particularly great grasp on their ideal Self#lucabytetalks#isat spoilers#back on the homestuck tangent sometimes i think about how ppl picked up on the trans coding of roxy but were so set in their ways that#they thought it mustve been in the past and not a potential future... and then got real mad about a character being like.#complexly transmasc with a nuianced relationship to gender and not Easily Brushed Off Before The Narrative Begins Binary Trans Woman#one of the few times i think ive seen it be That way around? but i think it comes down to that whole. visible transgenderism happening#during the plot vs Invisible transgenderism that shh its okay you dont have to actually think about you can just say for brownie points#BUT MAYHAPS THAT IS MEAN. mayhaps that is mean. but i know what i saw back in the day.#sighs homestuck tangent over anyway uhhh yeah hold on isat fans ill throw you a new bone instead of getting off topic uhhh#isabeau seems like such a pragmatic planner to me i think theyve got contingency plans for whatever family they want to have in future#logical nerd with his transition timeline planned out and it includes a flowchart with an 'IF partner has X then i need Y to have a kid'#shrodingers op isabeau . guy with a gender spreadsheet and punnet squares. i think it being that methodical is funny#it also speaks to his occasional hesitance but thats too dark of a read i think im not going to stake anything serious on that#i have thoughts on isa but they're more obviously aligned with what he literally says with his words in-game. not really much worth#elaborating on besides poking at how his insecurities and appeasement to others might inform his literal decisions#i have maybe a few bullet points in my head for him. not 7k words
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h-how do you ever finish any of your work? genuine question because you seem to be productive despite your agreste syndrome and I need to learn your ways. but also how do you ever finish any of your work
unclear. last night i stayed up and finished a report worth 25% of my grade at about 5am, arrived on time for my 9am lecture, and spent about half of it zoned out while thinking about seventeen year old emilie agreste. and i was one of the most active participants in the class discussion
#in some ways it IS the move to go to grad school right out of undergrad#because your body can still sort of operate like a college kid#iām on about 3ish hours of sleep rn and this morning it felt SO over but now iāve eaten something and weāre so back#i also donāt really do caffeine. except sometimes iāll go get one of those panera death lemonades#i might be able to snag a short nap before work#but anyway about seventeen year old emilie. i was thinking abt how she was in that movie solitude and adrien said she was seventeen#WAIT. NO. HE SAID SHE WAS SEVENTEEN IN THAT PHOTO ON HIS DESKTOP NOT IN THE MOVIE#well. okay whatever iām gonna tell you what i was thinking about anyway#OKAY iām back i just checked the wikipedia page and then i watched the end of gorizilla. to make sure iām not lying. because iām normal.#anyway i was thinking about the solitude film and how itās super rare and old and obscure and whatever. and how apparently#emilie wrote it herself and andre produced it#and iām thinking about how gabe was discovered by audrey and thatās how he got his start in the fashion industry#so now iām like?? did gabe and emilie first meet on the set of solitude? because gabe was designing costumes or whatever?#and thatās how audrey found him? have people already thought about this??#also i just checked and it doesnāt say emilieās last name in the credits and also itās āgraham filmsā with the twin rings logo m#so iām assuming sheās still emilie graham de vanily at that point#anyway it comes back to seventeen year old emilie because i started imagining seventeen year old runaway emilie having her new life in pari#after escaping her british nobility life#and the first thing she does is write and star in an original movie. of course.#and she meets this repressed bisexual punk upstart costume designer who is so the opposite of everyone sheās ever known#and heās immediately so unhealthily obsessed with her. which she appreciates.#and then they proceed to have the most toxic doomed evil relationship of all time#also she gets cheated because once gabe gets money he represses himself SO hard that he is now exactly like all the people emilie grew up w#but at least heās still obsessed with her#this is what i was thinking about during class today. i donāt know how i get anything done either.#ml#anna rambles#asks
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Luz borrowing Hunter's scroll to call Amity after she sleep spells him because even though Hunter's breathing and she can feel him breathing, "Sleep followed by petrification" was Belos' "Humane" way of putting down Hunter and she's A Little Bit Crazy and Traumatized so she's like "I need someone here who can Fight Me to the death if it seems like I'm going snap and try to petrify him. Amity can you come to my room and spend the night please I need you to protect Hunter from me :(((("
i've had a couple friends with OCD talk about how strongly they see themselves in AU luz & nowhere has the evidence Ever been stronger than in this ask.
luz. baby.
you have OCD.
#amity is like 'he sleeps with you basically every night and you've never petrified him before....?'#and luz is like yeah but i'm thinking about how i could do it. which is functionally the same mentally for me as doing it except 150 times#in a row. with all the associated mental anguish.#amity: ....okay. i'll be there in a few minutes. don't... do anything drastic. okay??#luz: i can wait. i won't hurt him. i promise#amity: i meant to yourself. but okay!#luz being like amity i'm so sorry to ask it of you i know you're not in my guard and don't want to be around me but#nobody else knows i'm evil :((( and amity like where do i even begin. okay. sure. i'll protect hunter.#toh#replies#princess luz au#and who is that other witch#horrible mindscape trauma pals#shitty idiot repression gang#luz noceda#amity blight#hunter toh#ocd
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Au idea that just hit me - vampire Heart, werewolf Mind, ghost Soul, paranormal investigator Whole
#Chonny Jash#Cj Heart#Cj Mind#Cj Soul#Cj Whole#I'm gonna go think about this for a bit#'wait wouldn't Heart be the werewolf because the moon and Mind the vampire because fancyā' OKAY HEAR ME OUT#Heart does not like the sun for.... obvious reasons (bro does not sparkle)#BUT Mind?#Mind hates the moon because he doesn't actually like being a werewolf it makes him feel out of control#And he's all about control and order bc he's Mind#Also kind of dark but like#What if Soul doesn't know how he died (maybe he was drunk so he forgot or it was traumatic so he repressed it)#So he teams up with Whole to try and solve it#This is turning into a scooby doo au oops
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dream who sees his relationship with the corinthian like some kind of angsty ust unrequited love situation and the corinthian who is so used to loving his king he thinks itās obvious to everyone in the dreaming and outside of the kingdom as well
#corintheus#dream of the endless#the corinthian#dream knows all his love affairs end badly#and he definitely doesnāt want a bad end for the corinthian#so heās just full of repressed feelings#and cori on the other hand is like okay i know my king would never want me in *this* way#it hurts but itās fine really#spoiler dreamās stupid flat ass DOESNāT think coriās love is obvious#yes i also believe dream has flat ass letās be real
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Okay so um. To the Soichiro enthusiasts who donāt headcanon him as straight (specifying this because Iām assuming straight is the most commonly agreed on), what do you headcanon him as?? Personally my default headcanon is that heās bisexual but genuinely just doesnāt realise heās attracted to men, but him being a really closeted gay man is also really fun to explore. Idk I want to hear peopleās thoughts
#posts that could kill tsugumi ohba#note: in the case of the latter i do still think soichiro loves and cares about sachiko!!#just not in the way he would if he was attracted to women if that makes sense.#<ā idk if i needed to clarify that but just in case that wasnāt clear#i donāt know how to explain my reasoning for extremely closeted gay man soichiro#but it just makes sense to me in the same way extremely closeted gay man light does. except itās different except itās the same??#idk#anyways both hcs are fun to me#because in a scenario where he realises heās attracted to another man both of them involve uncovering something Deeply Repressed#but a lot varies depending on whether that repression was done subconsciously or intentionally#okay is anyone seeing the vision or do i just sound insane#soichiro yagami#death note#soichello#soimatsu#waichiro#loichiro#ryuchiro#<ā sorry for the ship tag spam but this is sort of my target audience
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Mildly obsessed with the concept of Lan Zhan being cursed to act in every impulse.
Edit: for clarification, I specifically meant truth serum
#my friend sent me a text almost instantly going āyouāre talking about aboās rightā#I was in fact NOT#lan zhanās just particularly amazing because heās just so. repressed.#okay so any mxtx boys being cursed with a lack of impulse is amazing honestly#that man knows how to say like one word only and he USES it#āmnā#lan zhan#lan wangji#mdzs#mdzs lan wangji#mdzs lan zhan#mdzs fandom#mdzs lwj#mxtx mdzs#mdzs fanfiction#mdzs fic#mxtx fandom#mxtx novels#mxtx#mxtx characters#mxtx fanfic#mxtx hell#mo xiang tong xiu#mxtx au#mo dao zu shi#grand master of demonic cultivation#mdzs au#grandmaster of demonic arts#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#the grandmaster of diabolism
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