#he just kinda worms into my brain.......

[teddybeartoji]

ineed nanami so badly it’s insane atp i need him to finger me to sleep while he tucks my head in his neck gently Imliterally cryinf goodbye

JASDHAJDGHADHAWDHGA YESSS!!!!!!!!!!!! YES AND YES AND YES!!! YOU KNOW HE'S GONNA TREAT YOU SOO SO FUCKING GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE'S GONNA LET YOU HIDE YOUR FACE IN THE CROOK OF HIS NECK, WHISPERING PRAISE INTO YOUR EAR ALL WHILE BEING KNUCKLES DEEP IN YOUR PUSSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND AFTER HE'S DONE HE'S GONNA KISS YOUR FOREHEAD SO FUCKING LOVINGLY IT ALMOST MAKES YOU SICK AND HE'S GONNA CLEAN YOU UP AND THEN HE'S JUST GONNA CUDDLE YOU AND PLAY WITH YOUR HAIR UNTIL YOU FALL ASLEEP!!!!!!!!!! HE'S THE PERFECT MAN I'M AFRAID NONNIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[strawberri-draws]

shuichi posting

[jadecantcreate]

i wanted to write a quick 3-chapter fic for day 4 of loa shiptober (how they met i think) and i (a fool) was like. yeah. i could totally write 3 chapters in a few hours. i was wrong. SO wrong. haven’t even finished kremy’s (the first one).

so instead have a maybe-past-kremy design that im conflicted about compared to his current design, as a peace offering

[pickgle]

[girlwiththegreenhat]

trick or treat!!

for you: cruise columbo

[theswedishpajas]

The man truly can’t take a genuine compliment 🙄

[boyfriendyke]

there r a lot of things about the myth of psyche and eros that makes me a little insane but one of them has always been the tasks from aphrodite and the unfairness of it. they're not intended to be possible. they're so obviously not meant to be possible, and psyche isn't fucking hercules, you know, she's not a demigod or whatever, she's mortal and these aren't mortal tasks!! it's why psyche has to be helped with each one, fucking by like ants and river gods and shit. and so like. idk. i know ppl see psyche and eros as like a story about love and shit which obviously it is but as a kid psyche and eros always felt like a story about being able to accept help

[toytulini]

me, stupidly and weirdly resistant to listening to audio books vs reading a physical book for no real reason: man i wish there was a way to like, read a book while i crochet like i do with tv shows and movies and podcasts

[scarefox]

one of my clinic therapist once again: you just need to be brave and tell your father about your "super big" secrets it would solve some of the pressure on you

me: it's difficult to just tell my father about stuff he very likely won't understand, accept or like. He works a bit different than other people. (could possibly have borderline disorder with narcissistic traits)

therapist: and if he works a bit different, that's alright. You said you work different too 🤷‍♂️

me:

Am I the only one thinking that's a stupid suggestion?? It's like knowingly detonating a bomb with no care for the surroundings instead of defusing it or letting it detonate in a controlled way (telling him some stuff after I solved my problems / secrets my own way).

Telling him about my problems he is not supposed to butt in and drag me down again, wont solve my social anxiety and neurodivergent related issues I have with work life.... Besides the fact that I don't feel mentally stable enough to go into a conflict with him.

[pestercide]

Look LOOK I know Moloch HATES Skid and Pump but he looks like he's about to say 'Don't talk to me or my sons ever again'

[hugh-lauries-bald-spot]

big fan of milfs and their little lap dog men

[alchemiclee]

been trying to figure out what exactly it is about aventurine that feels perhaps relatable, or what it is that makes me want to study him like a bug...

and camr to the thought that he's pretty pessimistic for am optimist...but also ob the other side of the same coin, he's optimiaric for a pessimist. kinda both at the same time,.or depending on the day or how you look at him maybe.

he's an optimist becuase he knows he's going to win. he always wins. he has always won his gambles. he knows it will happen again and again. his luck, or gift, or blessing, or whatever you want to call it ensures that. but he's also a pessimist becuase he knows that "win" also always comes with some kind of suffering for him. he wins all his gambles, but at what cost? a lot, actually. so is it really a win? he knows he will win, but he also knows he will be used, abused, sacrificed, broken, or in pain. he expects those to be a consequence of his winning luck, to the point of making sure it happens and becomes self-destructive because of it. he acts calmly like it's ok and is the outcome he wants and calls that a win because it's what he plans and expects. he bets on it and it happens.

but at the same time, he's slowly breaking and seems to want it to end. he tests the limits of his luck to see if it's a real "gift" or if it is all a coincidence and has an end. he probably wants to meet the end to end the pain and suffering, but knows his "luck" won't allow it. he wants to be against the luck and see if he can win. a whole contradiction it itself. his luck kept him alive so many times and continues to do so. it will always do so, unless perhaps his end is the goal. what if he bets on losing this time? bets in meeting his end? he needs to get lucky enough to achieve that goal. flip his lucky fate by turning his luck around, make his end the final lucky win.

but it seems like he either lost for once and didn't meet his end....maybe his luck truly does intend on keeping him alive...or he changed his mind in the end and got lucky enough to get out of meeting his end once again...

he's still a bit of an enigma to me and i'm not sure exactly what happened. but he's for sure a complex and amusing character (even if I still want to put him into a snow globe and shake it as hard as I can) and this whole penacony story is too complex for my soggy trashcan brain lmao but i'm enjoying the ride

[hassianlovebot]

My Palia oc!! Thank you @blighted-elf for the template!!!

[arundolyn]

its really interesting to me how the resident vampires in general of gg and bb have such completely different ideologies. mostly in reference to slayer and rachel but i think this somewhat extends to clavis also bc iirc he wasnt an observer but still kinda played by the same rules. theres at least a plot reason for rachel not to stick her nose into anything plotwise but she still kinda does anyway and i think even if she didnt have the bystander restrictions she wouldnt deign to interact with anyone all that often. i like the dichotomy of the alucards' general attitudes towards humans being at least moderately scornful and superior to some extent even if not actively despite still ultimately wanting to help out (mostly rachel tbh but theres still elements of the typical fiction vampire superiority complex type shit just in general vibes wise for all three of them, esp in relation to like. fuzzy) and slayer's attitude that humanity is a beautiful thing and wanting to help the people he comes across despite having no particular incentive to do so aside from personal fascination and goodwill. rachel already built in having some level of scorn for humans as lesser and also having ample incentive to never interfere with the main storyline as it carries out but doing it anyway because despite these things she still cares despite the active threat to her Literal Existence vs slayer having no skin in the game either way if he does or doesnt help anyone out but still deciding to try to help others find their way regardless just because if nothing else its the most interesting thing to do from his perspective. he has no external motivation TO or NOT TO interfere with anything, its just essentially long term people watching and hed rather do good than do nothing

[seventh-district]

it’s the last Sunday before Sunday’s banner ends so i suppose it’s about time for me to finally boot up HSR and pull him home… wish me luck

[keeps-ache]

workin on a thaaang