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Something about Roman telling Kendall that he fucked it in 3.09 diffusing the tension, and Kendall telling Roman he fucked it in 4.09 as adding to it, something about Kendall finding a type of release in failure because at least it means he tried vs Roman finding a condemnation in failure because it means he tried and it wasn't enough.
#it's a really interesting parallel because i think kendall does think it'll work for roman the same way it works for him#he just fails to read roman in the moment of it in the way that roman can usually read him#but then kendall's generally not as good at reading people as roman is#which is a part of what makes their dynamic so interesting#especially as he really articulates in his eulogy that he views force + being able to push forwards regardless as the outcome as his#father's power#whereas i don't think that's the way roman sees it as all#now i'm thinking about the different ways they saw their father all over again#succession 4.09#succession spoilers#hbo succession#kendall roy#roman roy#kendall _+ roman
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Power Couple: The Aftermath (Roman Reigns)
When the Tribal Chief falls, no one helps him back up better than you do. Set after the epic main event of Wrestlemania XL.
Pairing: Roman Reigns/OC
Warnings: Excess fluff and of course, smut.
Word Count: 3.3k
A/N: Yes, I'm still in my feelings, and there was only one pairing I could properly convey my feelings with, because this has also been their story all along. For new readers, I strongly suggest reading the first two one-shots before delving into this one. Hope you enjoy!
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1,316 days.
All wiped away with three slaps of the referee’s hand to the hard canvas.
Even after Cody rolled away from him, Roman could not move. Hell, he couldn’t breathe. Not when the air had been punched out of his lungs, literally and figuratively. It was only when Dwayne pulled him out of the ring by his pants leg that his body managed to kickstart itself into some sort of motion. And even then, all he could do was turn his head to look back and watch as Cody celebrated in the ring with his wife Brandi, holding his title belt aloft for the whole world to behold as the ultimate symbol of his victory.
It should have been you and him up there. It should have been him. Again. But it wasn’t. Because the one time he got careless in battle, it cost him everything. Throwing years of hard work down the drain.
And it made him sick to his stomach.
The sound of ‘Kingdom’ blaring through the Lincoln Financial Field Stadium was torture to the former champion’s ears. His legs felt like lead as he dragged his battered body up the ramp, ignoring Dwayne’s baseless, performative complaints about nothing, as he put distance to the tableau of triumph of his opponent. The weight of this defeat was heavy, suffocating even, and he was desperate to get the fuck out of there, to get out of Philadelphia, out of Pennsylvania and all its environs. As he reached the top of the vast WrestleMania stage, pain surged through his abdomen, forcing him to recoil into himself and double over in pain.
His Wise Man noticed his plight and paused to observe his charge. "My Tribal Chief, are you alright? Do you need-"
Roman shook his head. "I'm fine,” he snapped, willing himself to keep walking until he made it past the curtain. He leaned against the wall and bent over, resting his hands on his knees.
“What can I do, my Tribal Chief?” Paul implored.
“Just…get my wife on the bus and make sure everything’s ready to go. I’ll be there soon."
“Right away my Tribal Chief,” Paul replied eagerly, scurrying off to do as he was told.
It was a good long minute before Roman managed to pull himself back upright, staggering towards his locker room. Walking was so hard, his body hurt so much, but none of it hurt as much as the gut punch of failure. Much worse than any of the bumps he took was the shame, the disappointment engulfing him; so much so that he couldn’t bear to look anyone else in the eye right now.
Because he had failed everyone who cared about him.
He had failed you.
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All good things come to an end. That’s how the saying goes, right? The interesting part of that was that on the surface, it was a throwaway little trope, harmless and benign, until something that meant a great deal to you got taken away in the blink of an eye, or in this case, a three-count. The moment the bell signaled the pinfall that confirmed your husband's time as the Undisputed WWE Universal Champion had come to an end, you knew he would never be the same again.
It wasn't unlike Roman to be a little on edge weeks before a big premium live event. And given the nature of the two main event matches he was locked in for the fortieth annual WrestleMania, you expected he would be grouchy. But this time around seemed different, and not in a good way. He’d been surly towards everybody, including you. He disappeared for hours working out obsessively. He’d even thrown out a female member of the press who had dared to boo him at the press conference on Saturday night. Now, despite the final match of the weekend concluding nearly an hour ago, Roman was yet to return to his tour bus. That only meant one thing; he was not taking this defeat well, and it was up to you to lift him up, like you always did.
When you found the door boasting your husband's name, Heyman was outside, pacing back and forth. The Undisputed title, which you had grown accustomed to seeing on his shoulders on behalf of his Tribal Chief, was missing; a stark, prickly reminder of the outcome of tonight’s proceedings.
"That bad, huh?" you asked, reading the Wise Man’s expression in a second. In fact, he looked on the verge of tears, his shoulders sagging with despair. The weekend had taken an emotional toll on him, too.
"He won’t come out," he informed you, his usually confident voice shaky and helpless. “He won’t let anyone in and he won’t speak to anyone…”
You raised your index finger to cut him off. "Correction, he won’t speak to anyone that’s not me," you stated, shooting him a warm smile, one among countless others you had shared with him since burying the hatchet after years of friction between you. "Go be with your family, Paul. I’ll handle my husband.”
“He’s my family, too,” he declared softly, the conviction in what you used to call his beady eyes, palpable and heartbreaking, “Both of you are.”
Touched and at a loss for words, you could only look on as he turned around slowly and made the lonely walk down the hallway. Turning back to the locker room door, you sucked a breath between your teeth and blew it out, mentally preparing to confront this task head-on.
You knocked timidly and stuck your head inside. If Roman was in as foul a mood as Paul let on, even you did not want to be there. It had taken a few unfortunate incidents over the years for you to learn that even a kiss from his wife wasn't enough when he got too stressed. It never stopped you from trying, though. Kissing was one of your favorite things to do with him after all.
"Knock, knock," you called out softly, listening for signs of movement as you stepped inside and closed the door. The room that was bustling just a few hours ago was now stripped bare and cloaked in dead quiet. It was an eerie contrast to the majestic, sweeping grandiosity that encompassed his entrance to the ring tonight. “Babe?”
Venturing further inside the room, you found him on the couch, his strong, broad back to you, his shoulders slumped dejectedly. An open bottle of Jack Daniels sat on the coffee table in front of him. His ula fala was draped over the headrest, where his title belt would surely have been.
This was the reality no one warned you about after a monumental loss. It plunged you into a cold, dark abyss, wrought with biting silence and dreary loneliness now that the show was over and the lights were no longer bright. The what ifs, buts and maybes crooning in your ear like a morbid symphony. It was an experience all too familiar to you unfortunately, and recently, too; you and your husband had traveled down this terrible road following the tragic miscarriage of your son in the summer of 2022.
Stepping in front of him, you wiggled into his personal space and made yourself at home on his lap. Gently wrapping your arms around him, you sighed with relief when he instantly melted into you and his huge arms enveloped your waist, holding on to you like his life depended on it.
“My baby,” you cooed soothingly, the sound of your lips meeting the side of his head piercing through the emptiness of the locker room. “My love.”
The audible hitch of his breath at your soft words was expected. In the course of your lifetime, those two little phrases had garnered a poignant significance. As words of comfort and solace first uttered by your mother when you were a child, you murmured those words regularly to Roman between sweet, playful kisses when he was courting you, basking in the bliss of newfound love, and again as part of your wedding vows as you became man and wife. They were the first words you whispered to Laleia the first time she was placed in your arms. They were the words that you had cried yourself to sleep with as you mourned the baby boy you had lost. You and Roman had seen each other at your absolute best and worst, and now, in the isolation of this room, with just the two of you and nobody else, this was another bad moment you had to overcome.
“On Matt’s birthday, too,” Roman finally spoke, wiping at his nose with a sniffle. “Fuck, man.”
“I know,” you replied, running your hand comfortingly up and down his upper arm. As he met your gaze at last, you saw that his eyes were bloodshot. Seeing him like this broke your heart afresh. You held him as close as possible, willing all his pain and his hurt into your soul, wanting nothing more than to take it all away.
"I fucked up," he breathed, his voice raw and choked with misery, "I fucked up out there, babe...I let Dwayne down...I let y'all down. I lost the title and I'm sorry."
"Sorry? For what? Over thirteen hundred days as champion?" you countered, "Nine WrestleMania main events? Billions of dollars in revenue? A roof over your child's head and three square meals a day? One loss will never wipe any of that away, don't ever get it twisted."
He exhaled tiredly as he hugged you tighter, resting his head on your shoulder. "I really wish I felt that way right now," he mumbled.
"It'll take some time, but you will," you asserted, running his fingers through his loose hair before tugging it lightly, making him look at you again. "Roman, you changed the industry, just like you said you would when we started this. No one will ever, ever forget what you've done these past four years. Be proud of all of it. You've been through so much, you sacrificed too much to not be proud."
Roman nodded in understanding. He just wished he didn't feel so down. "Baby, I...I want you to know how sorry I am. I know how much you wanted this. And I've been such a dick to you lately-"
You kissed your teeth and waved his apology away. "Nah. That don't matter no more. And I don't care that you didn't win. All I care about is you being safe when you're out there. Being healthy for our family and our daughter, who will be very happy to have her Daddy home, by the way. So we took an L. Okay, we'll only come back stronger. We had one bad night. Guess what? I plan on giving you a better morning, if you know what I mean." You rounded off your words with a wink, your heart blooming when he chuckled in response. "See, there's that smile I love so much. Keep your head up, baby. You did so good tonight. I couldn't be more proud of you."
Roman leaned into you, his forehead pressed to yours, breathing you in and filling his head with your scent. It was like breathing fresh air. “I love you, Y/N. I love you with all of my heart. I don’t deserve you, I never have.”
The tears you'd been fighting all night resurfaced, but you blinked them away as you captured his lips with yours, your hand sliding over the back of his neck. He clung to you, a different emotion quickly overtaking him as he returned your kiss with a bit of aggression, his tongue whipping hungrily against yours, savoring your mouth as though he was tasting it for the very first time. You surrendered to his every whim, your other hand raking through his hair then caressing gently down to his chest, resting your palm over the spot where his heart pumped for you. You could feel how much he needed this moment of intimacy, and you had no qualms giving him anything he asked for.
With one quick tug of your legs, Roman had you straddling him on the couch, bringing you chest to chest with your lush backside resting on his growing bulge. He paused for a moment to take a deep breath, then sealed your mouths again, his tongue invading, probing, a moan rumbling in his chest when you matched his energy, the emotions take over this loving embrace. He could never get enough of you, of the passion that overwhelmed him by your mere presence, immersing him in a love and gratitude he would always feel for you no matter what state of mind he was in.
Eventually, you pulled away from each other, breathless, panting, lips glistening with each other’s saliva. His heart raced at the familiar gleam in your darkened eyes. You weren’t done with him, not just yet, and this was confirmed as you slowly slid off him and sank to your knees between his spread thighs, pushing the front of his shirt up to expose his newly honed six-pack abs.
“Do you know how fucking hot you looked tonight, Daddy?” you purred to him, leaning in to run your tongue over the ridges of muscle on his taut belly. “Last night? All week? Do you have any idea of all the nasty shit I’m gonna do to you on the bus?”
Roman’s dick jumped in his joggers as his imagination ran wild. He squirmed in his seat, his bottom lip slipping between his teeth as your tongue lapped at his belly, your mouth warm on his skin, all while you rubbed the fullness of his bulge straining eagerly against your touch. “Baby girl…” he choked out, as your fingers peeled the waistband of his pants, unveiling his big, beautiful brown dick.
“Hmm, commando. I like it,” you commented with a smirk, curling your fist around his turgid length.
“Babe, wait…ain’t Paul outside?”
“I sent him home. Plus, won't be the first time he's seen me suck you off.” Your small hand massaged his blunt, plum-shaped head as you licked a trail along the underside of his dick, enjoying the gasps of pleasure that he made. Licking up the pre-cum that had gathered at the tip, your mouth opened wider to take him in. He stared you down with an intense look in his dark irises, which soon fluttered shut as your lips wrapped tight around his flesh, his stomach tensing as he felt himself slide deeper inside. “Awww, fuuuck,” he moaned.
Pulling back for a second, you held his lust-filled stare and stroked his dick a little harder, giggling when it twitched in your grip. A defiant look clouded your eyes as you licked at his tip before pushing him back into your mouth. It was enough for him to nut by just watching you, the visual of your lips sliding slowly up and down his length, that sexy mouth of yours making sweet love to his dick. It felt so good that he sank further into the plush leather of the couch, his head rolling back lazily against the headrest, his toes curling inside his brand new Air Reigns sneakers. All the pain and punishment his body had endured tonight melted away and was replaced with much more pleasurable sensations.
“I love the way you suck my dick, wifey,” he praised you, forcing himself to observe you through his barely open eyelids. “Mmm, that slutty little mouth is warm as fuck…You so sexy, baby, keep lookin’ up at me like that...”
His raspy growls had you glancing back up at him, batting your pretty eyelashes as you sucked him off. Wetness pooled between your thighs at his famished expression. Completely aroused, you picked up the pace as your hands and your mouth worked in tandem, sucking and stroking his dick, pleasuring him from tip to base. His breathing became heavier as he throbbed against your tongue, his hands finding the back of your head as he got lost in the paradise of your warm, wet mouth.
“Damn, baby. I bet that pussy leakin’ for me right now. You gettin’ wet sucking Daddy off, beautiful?” he taunted, his tongue swishing over his bottom lip at the same time your tongue swirled around the base of his shaft. The little moan that escaped your throat told him he was right. Of course he was; he knew his wife better than anybody else. “Good girl. Keep goin', I want that pussy extra wet. I’ma lick all that shit up when we get on the bus.”
With another soft moan, you crawled closer to his body and bore down on him, bobbing your head up and down that long, fat cock. Scooping your hair up into his large fist for leverage, Roman rocked his hips upwards from his seated position, thrusting in and out of your mouth. You relaxed your throat to take him deeper, moaning around his dick and letting him know how much you were enjoying him fucking your face. You rolled his balls in your hand, caressing the heavy, tightened sac to send him over the edge. It was working, as he began thrusting faster, his husky groans of pleasure amplifying as he neared his release.
“Unnnhh, baby, here it comes…Fuck, open your mouth,” he gasped, not waiting for you to do so as he yanked you by your hair to free himself from your intoxicating mouth. You quickly opened wide as he grabbed his cock and jerked it desperately against your tongue. He caught sight of the glazed-over quality of your gaze, and he knew that your panties were completely ruined, your pussy dripping with your need for him. He planned to take care of that very soon.
It was a show more spectacular than Mania, the sight of his gorgeous face contorted with pleasure, his head thrown back, eyes rolled to the heavens as his orgasm washed over his big body. Your moans harmonized together with each spasm of his cum down your throat, making you swallow every drop he unleashed. His grip on your hair was tight and almost painful, but you were turned on anyway, aroused by the knowledge that no one brought him to this state of paramount pleasure like you did. Licking your lips, you scooped him back into your mouth to clean him up, released him with a soft pop when you finished, and tucked him back inside the confines of his joggers. You giggled as he stared dazedly at the ceiling, licking his lips to catch his breath, his big frame slack and helpless as he recovered from the intense orgasm.
"Goddamn, baby...Shit," he groaned.
Wiping your mouth with the back of your hand, you stood up and sat back on his lap, welcoming the gentle press of his mouth to yours in a sweet, grateful kiss. “You feel better, Daddy?” you asked.
"Much better. I needed that so much. Thanks, baby," he smiled up at you, his stomach doing flips as you smiled back. He truly was the luckiest man in the world.
“Mm-hmm. Luckily, there’s more where that came from,” you assured him with another kiss before getting to your feet and pulling him up to his. “Come on, Daddy. Let's go home. We got a toddler to take care of. We'll figure out all the other stuff when it's time."
He nodded in agreement and squeezed your hand. “Okay, baby. Home it is.”
A new chapter in your story had been opened tonight, and the path ahead seemed uncertain and even scary. But you both took pride in the fact that as long as you kept writing it together, your love story was going to remain as beautiful as it already was.
But make no mistake about it; Roman Reigns was going to rule the wrestling world again. That was one story that was never going to end.
THE END
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Thoughts? How sappy was this😢Was quite cathartic for me, loved writing it.
Thank you all so much for reading and commenting!
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Love Language - Vinsmoke Sanji
a/n: this is the first of the 'love languages' series im posting! ofc i had to start with my bbgrill idiot cook. slight warning that yes, this is ranked in the way i think sanji's ll's would be ranked. i've finished writing for the monster trio and i may or may not write one for usopp and nami too (and maybe robin? vivi? we will see.) anyway, enjoy reading! <;33
Acts of Service
This is Sanji's main love language. He loves cooking for the crew and most of all, you.
Given that he's a gentleman at heart, he goes above and beyond to show his love in this way.
Beyond cooking, he often offers you a glass of chill water whenever the sun's glare is too intense.
On top of that, he refuses to let enemies lay their hands on you in battle (even when you're perfectly capable of defending yourself). You could win a battle without so much as laying a finger on your opponents, and vice versa, with Sanji around.
There is so much more I could list under this.
He doesn't like receiving acts of service. He believes you should live an elegant life in the world without so much as lifting a finger (even if you're a pirate.), especially not for anyone else.
Physical Touch
Your touch is his lifeline! He can't get enough of you.
You're almost always there to accompany him whenever he cooks.
You learn that the best place to watch him cook from are the counters, because he'll find any excuse to pass by you and lovingly squeeze your hips or your waist, or kiss your shoulder, neck, cheek, lips, or your forehead. Whichever is most accessible as he casually passes by.
When he's not cooking and lounging with the crew, he likes resting with you on a hammock, limbs tangled together like a messy bundle of rope.
He likes running his fingers through your hair, but he also likes having your fingers in his hair. He goes crazy for you either way.
Words of Affirmation
He's a very vocal person.
He constantly tells you how pretty he thinks you are and how lovestruck you have him. He never fails to tell you just what's on his mind.
Whenever he tries to teach you ways how to cook, a string of affirmations endlessly leaves his lips to help encourage you.
On the other hand, Sanji is used to compliments, but compliments from you just hit different. He'd go soft the moment a praise is uttered from your lips and he'd be like pudding in the palm of your hand.
Quality Time
He loooovvveessss quality time.
Whenever he's cooking, he likes having you watching him. He'd explain to you every step in what he was doing even if you didn't exactly understand what most of it meant (He'd explain the terms to you like you're five. It's cute.).
He's practically fastened himself to you with a stitch. He rarely leaves your side and is always there with you (he may as well be your bodyguard), though he makes sure he doesn't suffocate you with his constant presence.
Giving/Receiving Gifts
Sanji loves to give gifts, though often gives gifts that have more effort than spent Berries.
He would pick a flower – hell, make a bouquet – while you're walking along a village and end up giving it to you at the end of the day.
He would absolutely write you a 10k worded, 1.5 spacing, Times New Roman font handwritten love letter expressing his love for you and still think that isn't enough to show you how much he loves you.
Alternatively, he's brought to tears whenever you gift him something. Whether it's something he wanted or something that just reminded you of him, he'd be very appreciative of it.
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Jealous of a jock
pairing: Ted Logan x reader
summary : You've been friends with Ted and Bill for years now, being an inseparable trio. But Ethan, a jock from your class, desperately needs your help to study for an upcoming History exam. Ted doesn't really like this new friendship and tries his best to make you understand how he feels about it.
Warnings : obv jealousy and a kinda possessive Ted but other than that, it's pretty light! just like every fanfic writer ever, English isn't my first language so keep that in mind while reading!
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I took a deep breath as I walked into the library, trying to calm my nerves. Today was another tutoring session with Ethan, one of the jock's from school. I had been helping him with his history homework for the past few weeks, and despite our very different social circles, we had become quite good friends. We started talking when our History teacher put us together for an oral presentation about the Roman Empire, about how it was founded. When we started working on it, Ethan immediately noticed how much of an History nerd I am, which at first, I was kind of scared of, since he's a stereotypical jock that could make fun of me for knowing so much about "old dudes in dresses".
But, to my suprise, he was more impressed than anything and quite friendly. We clicked the moment I noticed how much he tried to help, even if he didn't understand anything. Our presentation was a success; 18/20, that's when he asked to be his tutor. My friendship with Ethan became quite good, I grew more and more attached to him, which seemed to be causing some problems with Ted, problems that I didn't get why even started.
He just grew more distant and cold towards me, while Bill stayed the same so it really is personal. So his new attitude explains why, right now, it's so awkward between us. I told him I couldn't eat with him and Bill because I promised to help Ethan during lunch, which ended in Ted insisting to, at least, make the walk to the library with me. Of course I said yes, I missed hanging out with him too, but maybe I would have said no if I knew how silent he would be....
As Ted and I continued walking down the stairs, I noticed him staring at me with a look of concern so, I took this opportunity to break the uncomfortable silence. "What's wrong, Ted?" I asked, trying to figure out what was going on. "You've been quiet all the way. Which, coming from you, is really concerning."
"Y/N, I don't like you hanging out with Ethan all the time." Ted blurred out, looking down.
"What? Why not?" I asked, surprised by his sudden change in behavior. Where is this coming from?
"He's a jock, dude."
"Oh." I said, understanding. "Ted, you really don't have to worry about this, he's actually really nice ! Nicer than I would've thought too." I smiled at Ted, to no avail; he still refused to look back at me.
"You're supposed to be hanging out with us, not him...We're your friends," He mumbled, his tone turning accusatory.
"I know you guys are my friends, Ethan just needs my help. He's failing History class and I'm the only one who can help him." I explained, hoping that he would understand. "Also, I'm allowed to have other friends. You're not the only guys I can help with History, you know."
"You're spending all your time with him! We don't get to hang out anymore !" Ted protested. "We also need your help dude for, like, History stuff..." He rubbed the back of his neck, walking farther away from me.
"I'm sorry, Ted, but I have to help him. I promise I'll make time for us too !" I assured him, hoping to ease his worries but by the look on his face, none of what I was saying was comforting him.
"Fine..." Ted sighed, his frustration evident. "Just make sure you don't forget about us. We miss hanging out with you dudette."
"I won't forget about you, Ted. You're both my best friends !" I said, giving him a reassuring smile while gently rubbing his arm up and down. "You're also too loud to forget."
He laughs, making my cheek redden slightly. Finally, here's the Ted I know ! He stops suddenly once we arrive in front of the library.
I look up at him with a shy smile. "I should go." I say, quieter than intended.
He simply waves at me before turning around, walking away, way too quickly. As I watch him go, I feel something tug at my heart, some sort of longing. I sigh, going in, ready to help Ethan.
As the days went by, I noticed that Ted was becoming more and more distant. He would barely talk to me and when he did, it was always about how much he missed hanging out with me. I tried to reassure him that I still cared about him and Bill, but it didn't seem to make a difference, no matter what I said. A few days ago, he commented about how I lied when I said I would make time for them. I didn't respond, not knowing what to say to that. He's usually so carefree, I wasn't expecting such an attitude from him, it took me by surprise. We haven't talked since...As I was walking to my next class, Ethan caught up to me in the hallway, pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Hey, Y/N, you free tonight? I need some help with my homework !" he asked, flashing me a smile.
"Sure, Ethan. I'll meet you in the library after school." I replied, feeling a twinge of guilt for not spending more time with Ted and Bill, by accepting his offer without thinking twice. Maybe I was getting a little too attached to Ethan.
"Wait, do you have your Spanish class today?" He asked, smirking. "Because my deutsch teacher isn't here."
"Oh no, she's absent too!" We laugh at that realisation. "Well, I guess we can study right now then."
He comes next to me, taking my bag from my shoulders. "Hey !" I gasp, surprised. "You have to stop doing that, I already told you I can carry my bag myself."
"And I told you I can also carry your bag Y/N !" He winks at me, making me roll my eyes. "You're helping me for free so this is my way of paying you." He replies, walking shoulder to shoulder with me.
"What a gentleman..."
I took a deep breath to calm myself as I walked into the library with Ethan, still laughing from what he said. Today was another day I spent doing a tutoring session with Ethan, instead of hanging out with Bill and Ted.
I felt a heavy gaze on me as soon as we entered so, I looked around, until I saw Ted sitting at a table with Bill, both of them staring at me. Bill smiled when I noticed them while Ted just hung his head low. I turn around to Ethan, asking him to take a table for us. After he left, I took another deep breath, preparing myself for whatever mood Ted was in. "Hey guys," I said, walking over to their table. "What's up?"
"Nothing much dude !" Bill said, grinning. "Just waiting for you to show up, we were gonna go grab some pizza's and slushies !"
Ted didn't say anything, just focusing on his fidgety fingers. I frowned, feeling a pang of guilt for how he felt. "I'm sorry, guys. I can't today. I have a tutoring session with Ethan, his test is next week. He barely remembers when the Cold War was so we have a lot of work to do !"
Ted's head snapped up at the mention of Ethan. "Again ? You're always hanging out with him. Don't you have any time for us dude?"
I felt my face flush, taken aback by his tone. There it was again... "I'm sorry, Ted. I'm just trying to help him out. It's not like we're doing anything wrong." I clutched my arm, trying to stay calm. "We talked about this already; I'm helping him, he needs my help."
"Maybe he's using you for your, like, brain dude." He looked back down. "You don't know..."
I bristled, feeling defensive. "He's a nice guy, Ted. And I can be friends with whoever I want." I crossed my arms. "Why are you so angry about this ? You're usually so chill about everything, why is this specific thing getting to you so much ?"
"Yeah dude, what's with the attitude?" Joined Bill, just as confused as me. "Be nicer to the babe."
Ted's jaw clenched as he stood up abruptly. "Fine. Do what you want. Just don't expect me to sit around waiting for you all the time." He paused, looking at both of us with wide eyes. "I'm hungry anyways."
He stormed out of the library, leaving Bill and me staring at him in shock.
"What the hell was that about?" Bill muttered, looking up at me.
I shook my head, feeling just as confused as him.
"I don't know. He's just been acting weird lately." I sigh, rubbing my hand down my face. "Since I started to help Ethan he's like that... I don't understand why tho."
"Maybe he's jealous," Bill suggested, raising an eyebrow.
I scoffed. "Jealous? Of what?"
"Of Ethan," Bill responded, shrugging. "You guys have been spending a lot of time together. Maybe Ted feels left out, I don't know." Bill smiled knowingly at me. "I mean, you did walk in here laughing while he was carrying your bag, dude."
"I, what ?" I think about it for a moment, still shaking my head. "Why would he mind about that ? Ted never carried my bag before..."
I rolled my eyes, but deep down, I knew that Bill was right. Ted had always been a little possessive of me, I just had never thought it was anything serious. We just always had each other so, I simply thought he was afraid I would leave for the more popular kids, maybe it's deeper than that... I look at Bill for an instant, noticing his open notebook.
"Hey, you want to study with me and Ethan ?" I asked, smiling. "I could help you with the Charlemagne chapter."
Bill face immediately lightened up. "It would be most excellent dudette !"
The next week, I had another tutoring lesson scheduled with Ethan, as always. He had his test in two days so this was THE moment to study. It's been days since I saw Ted, I had glimpse of him sometimes in the hallways, he would walk past me after quickly glancing my way. I tried to not overthink it but it was hard, I was missing him an awful lot... Not seeing it everyday of every minute just reminded me how much I like him, how bad my crush on him is.
As I walked into the library to join Ethan who sat at our usual table, I saw Ted sitting alone, looking dejected as always. With my heart starting to pound, I walked up to him, hating how our last conversation ended. The moment I approached his table, he looked up before quickly adverting his eyes, sitting up straight.
"Hey, Ted, what are you doing here?" I asked, kind of surprised to see him here of all places. He usually never hangs out in the library expect if we have to study, he seems to be here quite a lot lately.
"I thought I'd surprise you and come help you tutor Ethan..." Ted said, a hint of bitterness in his voice. "Bill told him you helped him after, you know."
"Really? That's great, Ted!" I said, genuinely happy to see him and especially hear him say that. "Oh yeah, it's great !" I grasped his hand without thinking, dragging him to me and Ethan's table. When he noticed us approach, Ethan smiled nicely. "What's up?" he asked while Ted sat on the chair next to me. "You're Theo, right?" Ethan asked, putting his fist in front of him.
"Ted." He responded simply, fist bumping Ethan's hand with hesitation.
"Right, Ted, my bad man."
"He's really bad with names." I murmured, trying to ease the atmosphere. " Especially Napoléon Bonaparte, he cannot remember his name even if his life depended on it..."
"Hey, that French guy as a hard name ok !" Replied Ethan, his hand up in surrender.
"Napoleon ?" Repeated Ted, before turning to me. "Oh the little angry French dude ?"
Ethan brust out laughing at that, earning us a shush from the librarian. We giggled quietly, Ted shoulders relaxing lightly and is usual smile finally appaering again.
"Guys, guys, let's focus ok ? The test is in two days !" I say in the most neutral voice possible, not succeeding to stop my growing smile from appearing at Ted's one. "Ok, so what famous battle did Napoléon Bonaparte loose ?"
Three hours later, we finally get out of there, sighing loudly. Ethan's leave's us quickly, having a football practice, leaving me and Ted alone in front of the library. I quickly glance at him but feel heat rise to my cheeks when I see that he was already looking at me, a big smile on his lips.
"You were right dudette ! Ethan is a nice dude !" He pat's my shoulder. "He as a most excellent humour."
I laugh, nudging Ted shoulder with mine. "Told you." I respond, adjusting my bag on my shoulder, groaning.
"I can carry it if you want !" Before I can even reply, he takes it from me and slings it over his available shoulder. "There ! Now we're ready to go !"
"Why do you all think I can't carry my own bag ?!" I complain, while catching up with Ted who already started walking. I stop my thoughts for a moment, thinking back on what Billy said to me a few days ago. I look back at Ted who's still smiling, moving his head to the beat of an invisible song. That's when it hits me, finally. I stop in my track, also stopping Ted by putting my hand on his arm. "What's up dude ?" He asks, turning around to face me. "Y/N ?"
"You were jealous of me and Ethan." I whisper, realising it as I say it. "But, not because you were afraid of losing me as...a friend."
Ted eyebrows furrow, confusion written all over his face. "What do you mean?"
"You were jealous, yes ?" I ask, looking up at him. "Be honest."
He's hesitant for a moment, his cheeks reddening slightly. "I mean, yeah...like, kinda. I was afraid he was, you know, mean and stuff." He shrugges, his gaze looking at everything but me. "Turns out he's nice ! And his exam is in two days, so you'll be free again !"
"Ted..."
"Yes ?" He responds, looking at me again, his smile fading when he see's my expression. "Y/N ?"
"Are you..." I gulp, feeling my hand starting to shake. "Ted, I have to admit something to you. I don't know if I'm reading what's happening in the wrong way but I have to try, just in case I'm right." His brows furrow again, now he looks even more lost than before. "Give me my bag, just in case I'm wrong so that I can run away quickly." I chuckle nervously.
"What ?" He laughs quickly "Why would you ran away dude ?"
"I like you." I blur out, looking him dead in the eyes. "Not in a you're my best friend way but in a I want to be way more than your best friend way." I quickly swallow, feeling my courage fade. "I mean, not super mega best friend way either. Romantic way, like couples." I search his eyes. "Ted ?" I ask, my heart hammering in my chest. "Please, say something..."
"Woah dude..." He whispers, taking his head in his hands. "DUDE !"
I jump at his sudden yelling but can't help a laugh when I see him jumping around, punching the air yelling dude and woah multiples time. He suddenly stops, looking at me with the widest smile I've ever seen him have.
"DUDE !" He yells again, running towards me, lifting me in his arms while I yelp.
"Ted ! Oh my god, what are you doing ?!" I laugh while he spins me around. "I'm going to fall, I'll fall !" I breath out, felling my body slip away from his arms. "Ted, what's happening with you ?" I laugh, out of breath while he puts me down, his arms still holding me close to him.
"What's happening ? Dude, you told me you're in love with me !" He responds quickly, his voice trembling. "The most bodacious babe just told me she likes me ! Like, in a romantic way !"
I push him a bit to look at him, surprised. "Wait, does that mean..."
He cuts me off. "Of course it does ! Why would I spin you around ?"
"Do you even know yourself ? You could do it at any given opportunity!" I laugh, in disbelief. "So, I was right, you were jealous of Ethan."
Ted lower his head, his hair covering his face to hide his shamefulness. "Yeah... I mean, the guy's has everything. He's popular, handsome, nice and a jock. Bonus point for being funny !"
I smile tenderly, taking his face in my hands to put his gaze back into mine.
"True. He's veeeery handsome." Ted huff, trying to look away but I turn his face again to make him look back at me. "But I prefer guys with brown hair and eyes, who wear silly jackets with a big smiling face behind, rather than a sport's one. I also prefer guys with a blond friend called Bill. You want me to continue or you got it ?"
I feel the heat radiating from his face on my fingers, if seeing how red he was wasn't enough. We only look at each other for a moment, letting everything sink in.
"I really want to kiss you." He breaths out. "Can I kiss you ?"
"After you apologies."
"I'm sorry for being an evil dude. I shouldn't have ignored such a babe just because of a nice jock guy."
I giggle when he gives my cheek a quick peck. "And I'm sorry for not taking the time to hang out with you and Bill, I should have. I swear that from this day on, I will no matter what !" I finish my speech by returning his quick peck, making him giggle. "Now you can kiss me handsome."
He blushes at the pet name before crashing his lips on mine without a warning, making me yelp in surprise. Quickly, I compose myself and slide my hands to his hair to deepen the kiss while they move in rhythm with one another. It's clumsy, so we smile and giggle through it, he even apologies some times which I always respond with a simple it's ok before pulling him back for more. He doesn't have to be jealous, because no matter how messy and inexperienced our kisses are, I only want his.
"This was the most excellent kiss ever !"
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The curse of the dark Phoenix
Chapter 15: The tyrant’s chosen
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Being a horse and letting another person ride on his back probably wouldn’t be something Roman would’ve ever considered something he’d be proud off. But he was.
His first transformation had been flawless. He’d adopted all the qualities of his target creature successfully. Virgil didn’t feel heavy to him and he kept up a steady pace the whole way through. Even squeezing out a sprint for the last few miles. Winning an unofficial race against Patton.
Not that he’d brag.
Virgil halted him a bit before they reached the end of the forest, before the lake was in full view.
“Best that we draw as little attention towards ourselves as possible once out in the open,” he suggested as he vanished the saddles.
“Alright. Time to turn back. Remember. If something doesn’t go quite right, you can just try again and fix it,” he promised.
Roman took a deep breath. He could do it. Just like with turning into a horse, but now focusing on becoming human…
He breathed in and out. Feeling his body changing. Come on, hurry…
After a few, long, uncomfortable, moments he was back on two legs with two arms a torso and a head… Everything seemed in order… Except… His hair felt longer…
“Well, you didn’t get stuck with horse legs,” Patton giggled. His shift having gone flawlessly.
“How bad?” Roman asked.
“Just, long hair… And it’s still white. But you can fix that. Just breathe for a few moments,” Virgil insisted. Roman nodded and did just that…
“There you go. Short and auburn once more,” Virgil said in approval. “Though it did look good long,” he added.
Roman blushed. Maybe, he could try growing it out… Just to see if he liked it. There were hair growth potions. He could have long hair within 24 hours if he wanted.
Virgil saw how Roman was running a hand through his hair and smirked at him. Roman blushed, knowing he was caught.
“Now. Let’s go,” Virgil said, a little smug. Okay that was not necessary.
“I doubt the temple will have an arrow pointed at it’s entrance. Our best bet is the eastern side, that’s where the closest village is and he cult members will need some supplies and possibly contact with their families from time to time. It makes the most sense to have your exit near the road you need to take to get those things,” Virgil mused.
“Once we get close to that road, we’ll have to find the entrance or have good timing and see someone enter or exit. We’ll need a lot of luck either way. I wouldn’t be surprised if whoever did this has measures in place to protect the cult from detection,” Virgil mused as they came upon the lake. Now Roman was the one who couldn’t help but feel smug.
Virgil looked back at him curiously. Roman shrugged humbly. Virgil was intrigued and impressed.
“Care to share?” Logan stated a bit annoyed.
“Well. We won’t need that much luck. A sunstone needs sunlight to charge right?” Roman pointed out. Virgil’s eyes widened.
“But how are they getting that in a temple at the bottom of a lake?” he realized.
Roman nodded and pointed at a very, very small island with what looked like an open well in the middle.
“I’ll bet money that that shaft ends directly above the sunstone. And if it were blocked by something, say a branch…” he pointed out.
“Then someone would have to hurry to the surface to remove it so the sunstone won’t go without power in the middle of the night and fail to keep their god in his beastly form!” Logan finished.
“That… Is quite smart,” he added.
“No need to sound so surprised. Just because you are the smart one doesn’t mean the rest of us have to be dumb,” Roman huffed.
Logan was quiet for a moment. “I’m sorry Roman. You are right. You made it through the same training as me. I know you can be very smart. Smarter than me in certain ways. I am sorry for doubting you,” Logan admitted.
Roman was a little taken aback now. “Oh… Thank you. It’s… good to hear you say that actually,” he said after a few moments.
Logan nodded. “That goes for you too Patton,” he added.
“Oh, that’s alright. Thanks anyway,” Patton smiled brightly.
“Well. Let’s head to the east side and see if the plan works,” Virgil suggested, more than a little proud of Roman for his strategy.
Virgil looked at him. Inquisitive. Roman glanced at the moon crystals around the high mages neck pointedly. Virgil's eyes widened in surprise, and he cocked his head curiously. Roman shrugged. Modest and offering a bit of the admiration he felt for him and the uncertainty he'd felt about suggesting something that might've been obvious to the high Mage.
Virgil smiled at him fondly and presented him with a feeling of awe of his own. Roman vaguely remembered that feeling pressing at his consciousness when he got past his inner walls while transforming into a horse.
It was not the same awe Roman had shown. The respect and admiration for Virgil's talents as a mage.
Virgil had been impressed, sure. But it was mixed with the sort of awe you feel witnessing a particularly beautiful sunrise.
He blushed. Virgil smiled satisfied, eyes drifting briefly to his lips with want.
Oh gods!
"Ahem," Logan interrupted.
"Sorry. Roman just told me that he came up with his strategy when he saw me put the crystals in the moonlight to charge. He didn't say anything until now because, like how you assumed that your spell wasn't something new, he didn't want to come off as condescending by offering a plan I already had worked out," Virgil surmised. Roman felt excited to hear that the translation was so accurate. They really were getting good at this.
Logan waited for a moment. Studying Roman's expression and concluding Virgil had interpreted everything correctly. The studious great wizard mage shook his head. "I suppose we'll just have to get used to it," he muttered.
"Indeed. We will be a bit more mindful of what topics might be best discussed out loud," Virgil offered before turning to Roman.
"There is something I would like to ask out loud while we walk though," he said softly in a way that had Patton and Logan slow their pace and start their own conversation tk offer then privacy.
"Sure, what is it?" Roman asked, matching Virgil's volume.
"You know how I asked for time?" Virgil asked. Roman nodded.
"And I know you have been very bad at taking it slow," he teased.
Virgil smirked. "If I wasn't taking it slow, I would have kissed you as soon as I knew my feelings were returned," he stated, making Roman flush. Kissing Virgil... that was something he'd been trying not to think about. But now... he was definitely thinking about it.
Virgil chuckled. "I know that the idea of ascending... is a lot. But would you consider it? To give me a bit more time?"
Roman stared in confusion.
"I know that outliving everyone might not appeal to you. But... I need a bit more time to decide if I want to stay. And, if you'd be willing, I'd like to have that time without a ticking clock on your mortality over my head. It is not a demand. Just a request. Would you be willing to ascend and accept the gift of time, just for a few years?"
Roman frowned. "With staying... you mean..."
"I mean, I would grow old with you," Virgil nodded. "You know you aren't the first man I've had feelings for. And the subject of growing old together has come up in relationships before. But this is the first time I've thought of it so soon and without prompting. I don't know how I feel about age and, eventually, death, right now. Too much else is going on. And I don't know how long it will take to fix everything. But... I have seen high mages find partners they couldn't live without. I figured I'd gotten good enough at goodbyes and cherishing memories to not experience that. But... When I get to know someone, there is a moment where I consider how I'll miss them when they are gone. And it's never a happy thought... but it has never... felt so wrong before. And I don't know if that's just due to our bond or because the situation is so crazy and you are the one thing I can completely trust right now... but I'll need time to figure it out. Again. You don't Have to. It's not like if you don't feel ready to ascend then a relationship is off the table. I just thought I'd ask," he explained nervously. Roman felt his heart race in his chest at the implications of all that he was feeling from Virgil. And what he was saying.
"Virgil. I have been taking an interest in what being immortal is like because I wanted to decide whether I would be able to live with it. And the way you see it. To carry on so many stories... to make sure that the ones I love are remembered even if only by me. I think that would be a grand adventure. Especially with a partner at my side. Though it won't be a requirement. Even if it hadn't been you who we found first. Once I heard of the possibility of rising even higher in rank, it would be on my mind as something I might want to do,” Roman confessed. Something wordless passed between them.
"We're here!" Patton announced, pulling them from their little bubble.
"Okay. Time to see if this works," Virgil nodded as he appraised a nearby tree. He chose a branch that had already suffered from a recent storm from the looks of it, but still had enough leaves for their purposes. With a swift pattern of hid hand, the branch was severed and floated over to the island. Roman noticed Virgil's feathers glowing. He was using his own plumage as a catalyst. Brilliant.
The branch covered the well, and the four mages settled in the grass to lie in wait for someone to come out.
They kept quiet. Roman saw Virgil clench his messaging stone in his hand and covered it with his own in a soothing gesture. They'd save his friend. Soon.
Suddenly a rock near the water moved. Someone walked up. Shielding his eyes from the sun.
Virgil jumped up and before the robed figure could even look up a strong wind pushed him back into the lake where he was immediately tangled in fast growing vegetation. They tried to scream but no sound came out.
"Let's go," Virgil instructed, leading the way down the staircase. Roman glanced at the cultist, left trashing in their binds, before following swiftly, pulling the spear out of the satchel. Hoping it would serve him well in battle.
He was right behind Virgil so the moment the sunstone’s magic overpowered his moon crystals Roman could step in and finish whatever enemy Virgil might be facing.
They hurried down the stairs. The farther they got before an alarm was raised the better.
They hadn’t had a lot of time to study and Roman had only come up with a few ideas to help protect them.
They soon came down to the first floor.
“There’s three floors total,” Virgil announced, his eyes glowing purple. Roman trusted that whatever he just did, ensured that that information was accurate. So this was floor one.
This was their first true hurdle, luckily there were only five cultists on this floor. To their left there seemed to be supply rooms and to their right a small library. Roman doubted any of those books contained anything good though.
One of the cultists turned to the exit. Roman knelt down and willed the door opening to close itself. The stone obeyed him. It wasn’t very thick as he had to draw from the surrounding stone and didn’t want to weaken the structure of the building too much. A few firm hits of a sword or something like it would probably break through. But it discouraged the runner from trying to reach the lower floor and it would delay reinforcements.
Virgil did something similar by sinking two cultist, who’d been blinded by Star rushing them in his amorphous form, up to their knees into the floor.
Patton tackled one in wolf form and then shifted back, putting him to sleep.
While Patton tied his victim up Logan shot an arrow to the fourth cultist that hit him in the tight and turned out to contain a fast working nerve agent. The cultist went down. Roman smirked as the fifth one charged him with a club. He used the blunt end of his spear to knock it out of his hand and then sidestepped him and gave him a firm knock on his head knocking him out.
“They don’t seem like they are high in rank. Don’t expect more senior members to be as unprepared or weak,” Virgil advised as Roman and Logan tied their victims up for good measure.
Roman nodded. Patton took down the barrier with a decisive strike from his staff.
“Nice,” Roman complemented. Patton smiled brightly and then they headed down.
Behind them they could hear the sound of armored men coming down a staircase.
Good. Reinforcements were right where they needed them to be.
Virgil flinched halfway through and stifled a pained cry with his fist before turning into a phoenix again. Roman flawlessly caught him and put him on his shoulder. The stairs were too narrow to fly. But the second floor wasn’t.
Star wasted no time and pounced on the first cultist he saw. Before Virgil took off, before Roman had a chance to take in his surroundings. First he spotted the doorway and did the sealing again.
But this time, a cultist barged through the door and rushed downstairs.
“We are on a timer now!” Virgil’s voice echoed through the room. Oh… Well it seemed managed to maintain human speech now when he was forced to transform.
Roman looked up as he pulled stone from the floor to create an armor for himself. This time there were ten enemies and they were down a fighter. One who could restrain his opponents anyway.
Virgil dove for the cultists and clawed at their faces causing them to let out painful enraged cries.
The room was bigger. And more what Roman expected when he imagined a cult’s temple.
There was an altar in the middle with a chalice, stained with something that Roman feared was blood.
Along the walls were murals. On the left one depicting a fire breathing chimera and kneeling figures offering it food on one side while on the other figures were carrying things away towards a taller figure drinking from a chalice and holding a shiny staff. In front of them a sun god type figure bestowing some kind of blessing on a figure with a similar headdress to the bigger figure in the first drawing. On the right there was a very detailed anatomically accurate dissection of a chimera depicted. That… Was just wrong. Magical beings were near or fully sentient and as Roman learned, in this case probably an actual human being. Not that any of this would be okay with an average animal. But the sentience of the creature made it extra bad.
Stardust whined as the enemy threw him off. Which enraged Patton who turned into a bear and slapped him several feet to the side, causing him to make hard impact on the floor. He came back up bizarrely quickly.
These guys really were tougher than the previous set.
It didn’t matter though. They would still defeat them.
Two cultists came at Roman with clubs, but he managed to avoid the first attack and while the second one hit, it was absorbed by his armor. Good, it worked the way he intended then.
Considering a backhand from a bear hadn’t discouraged the first guy, he opted for some sharp end action. He stabbed one of his attackers in the shoulder, which did bleed and did get him to his knees. The other one he stabbed in the foot. Also highly effective.
He tied them up and reassured them that the wounds wouldn’t kill them while reinforcing the ropes with some Magic. He heard someone rushing him from behind, laid his hand on the floor and just let his magic go ham. When he turned around he saw someone with a raised club, aiming for his head now frozen in place as waterweed had wrapped itself all around him to the point where he couldn’t move a muscle.
Roman looked up to his friends as he went back to patching up the cultists wounds, though he was starting to think he was being much too nice. Still, if they lived they could be punished.
And just because they were nasty people didn’t mean Roman could hold himself to a lower standard.
Logan was panting, his eyes wide as three more paralyzed cultists laid around him. Each being shot at least three times before going down as far as Roman could tell.
Bearton was wrestling with a guy, three others hanging from nasty looking hooks by their robes. Stardust growled and jumped on the guy’s back, biting him making hip cry out and allowing bearton to pick him up and hang him next to his buddies. Then Patton returned to human form and put the four of them under a sleeping spell.
He looked down at Stardust who’d jumped of once Patton had a hold of his opponent.
“You’re such a good boy,” he cooed, ruffling Star’s head, much to the wolf’s delight.
“Well… Those weren’t normal people,” Logan concluded.
“They had a lot of magical parts at their disposal,” Virgil’s voice echoed as he flew to Roman to land on his shoulder once again. “Never mind them though. The soldiers will deal with them. We should go,” Virgil insisted. “The enemy expects us this time and there is only one doorway,” Logan pointed out.
Roman nodded. “I’ll take point. Whatever they send in, my armor can take. And I have a little surprise for them in return,” he stated determinedly.
“… Yes,” Virgil agreed reluctantly.
“Patton, you carry Virgil for a bit. I don’t want him to get hit on accident,” Roman insisted. Virgil disliked hopping over to Patton’s shoulder even less, but he didn’t protest.
Roman took a deep breath and charged down, feeling a fire in his heart. He could do this. He had it planned out. No hesitation. Just push through.
Great plan… But then he got hit with magic. Most of it got tanked by his armor, but that was about all it could take. He fell to his knees, though he oversold how hard the spell had hit. It stung, his chest ached. But he wasn’t out of commission. But his hands were on the floor so he was ready to pull his biggest trick. He was a bit winded, not just from the fighting but also because he’d been casting without any catalyst. Which saved time in combat, but it also left him tired. Especially after trotting all the way here with a person on his back.
He looked up. There were twenty beefy soldiers in loincloths and red body paint, rather than robes before him. Forming a barrier between him and the back of the room where an ornately dressed individual with a staff in hand pointed at Roman. A slain disciple before him and behind him a pillar of glowing sun stone and chained to it in golden chains a chimera.
That, no doubt was Remus.
“Killing your own disciples Marcus?” Virgil’s voice wondered discussed as he, Patton, Logan and Stardust came up behind Roman.
“… It can’t be…” the magic user breathed in disbelief.
“It can. And it is,” Virgil stated, hopping over to Roman’s shoulder.
“Now why did you kill the boy who came to warn you. Giving you an advantage you need, but won’t save you if I am honest,” Virgil insisted.
The mage righted himself. “He failed to be useful in battle, his blood will instead aid me in mine,” the leader said coldly.
“That attitude is why you look like crap. I expect any student of mine to be smart enough not to indulge in dark magic,” Virgil scolded. This guy used to be a student of Virgil!?
The mage cackled and now that Roman looked a bit closer, there was something off about him. He had markings that on first glance looked like birthmarks or scars, but now that he paid attention, they didn’t look right. Almost tar like, some were even bubbling slightly.
“A sacrifice I made for my disciples. It took a while to tame the tyrants beast but I promised them strength and longevity. None of us look in our seventies do we?” he stated proudly.
“So? I don’t look my age either. You aren’t special,” Virgil scoffed.
“But you, like this beast have been shunned by the sun, while I am the sun’s chosen master of time!” the nutjob announced.
“Says the guy wo didn’t manage to become a mage until he was halfway his twenties. You never even became a great mage. You are impatient and arrogant and unwilling to learn what you don’t already have talent for. You were a waste of recourses and time. And you still are. Now, be smart about it and let Remus go. Otherwise, it’ll be so much worse,” Virgil warned, his feathers standing on end.
“The tyrant’s beast? I would, but he hasn’t even acknowledged your presence Shadow of the Sunbird. Your friend has faded long ago and is now a docile pet. He does not even respond when he is harvested anymore,” Marcus taunted.
Roman glanced towards Virgil, wondering if he could go for it.
Virgil’s caution vanished, leaving only cold seething rage. Time to go for it.
He poured all his strength into this next attack. They were at the bottom of the lake now so he pulled not just from the stone, but from the lake as well, even pulling up some sunstones from underneath. If his creation made contact with the big one they’d be charged and it could use them to do some rudimentary magic.
It came with risks it meant the ground under them was less stable. As it was there was a big crater between him and the soldiers. In it stood his creation. A ten feet tall Gollum made of stone.
“Protect my friends,” he ordered. A simple order with enough wiggle room for him. Virgil clearly disapproved though. Noticing that Roman hadn’t included himself in the order. He didn’t need to be protected. He was going to do something potentially dangerous and he couldn’t have his Gollum try to stop him to keep him safe.
“Go take care of the chackles. We’ll keep the bad guy busy,” Roman promised.
Virgil felt mad but then a roar sounded and the Gollum barged through the front lines, Marcus disappeared to avoid his rampage. Clearly the Gollum had decided that taking out the biggest threat was a good course of action. Roman was a little proud. About ten soldiers focused on the Gollum. Leaving a more manageable number for Roman and his friends to deal with.
None of their attacks even phased it though as it rushed for the sunstone and grabbed it tight, glowing with magic. The Chimera stirred and got up. Roused from his slumber by all the ruckus.
They had to work fast. Once the restraints were broken and Remus realized that he was free, who knew how he’d react.
Another reason why he’d made the Gollum so big.
Something had to keep a rampaging Chimera from accidently squishing his friends if his own idea to keep that from happening failed.
Right now he should focus on not getting his head smashed in. Patton and Logan both had gotten the hang of their given weapons. Patton switching between casting and hitting with his staff. Making hybrid forms near flawlessly. Using parts of animals Roman had never seen before. He didn’t know what kind of animal had a tail like that but it could support Patton’s entire weight allowing him to use his donkeylegs to deliver a phenomenal kick that the beefed up cultists just weren’t prepared for. He combined that with eagle wings on his back so he could get a bit of altitude and bring his staff down with all his weight behind it. His arms were thicker and covered in black fur the skin of his hands grey.
He left his opponents dazed on the ground and unable to go back for seconds.
Logan managed to keep his opponents on a distance with arrows that seemed to spark with lightning and halt them in their stride.
Roman meanwhile was ready to see what damage a falling star could do in the hands of a great mage. He let his remaining strength flow into the weapon that was forged as a sign of appreciation and friendship and he felt a kinship with the spear. A promise somehow. He fought on and looked up briefly as he heard his Gollum roar. It had grabbed the pilar with one hand and now it was merging with it. The pillar was about four feet tall and that might not sound big, but considering most sunstones were small enough to fit in a child’s hand, it was massive.
And now it was lifted out of the ground and the Gollum wielded it like a hammer.
“No hurt!” it demanded swiping at the cultists who were still trying to bring it down, pushing them back with a solar wind attack. Roman remembered reading about those while helping Patton study at the academy.
“There you go! Good job!” Roman called out before taking in his surroundings again. Suddenly he saw that one of the soldiers had grown a brain to use and had managed to sneak up in Logan’s blind spot. “Logan!” Roman gasped as he made a run for it, knowing he’d be too late but wanting to try anyway. He was closest by no one else could help. He swung his spear through the air to discourage anyone from coming near him and blocking his path. Logan looked up confused. But before he could even look at what had Roman so frantic, two invisible strikes hit the would be sneak attacker. Roman came to a stop. Did he do that?
“No hurt!” The Gollum repeated, clearly annoyed that his attempt at reasoning with the bad guys hadn’t gone well. A slam of his hammer had several enemies sink to their waist in the ground… Good. Right. Gollum had his friend’s back. That left someone to watch out for that Marcus guy.
Roman’s eyes found the cursed mage and he was doing his best to keep Virgil from breaking the Chimera’s chackles. Both individuals seemed to annoy the Chimera at the moment. Roman wondered if he even recognized his friend’s guide form right now. He hoped he did. Otherwise this rescue thing would end up really dangerous for them all.
Not that it wasn’t already.
He charged for the mage. “Hey! Ugly!” he called out effectively distracting the mage.
“Ugly? You want to see ugly?!” Well he struck a nerve.
The mage held out a hand and the body of the fallen disciple started to glow. Roman’s eyes widened in horror as he realized the blood was being drained from it and whirling around the mage in a grotesque ball of thick black tarlike substance, mixing with something similar pouring from the mage who’s eyes were glowing white.
Roman tried very hard not to throw up as he took a few steps back, while the goo covered the mage and then formed some kind of vaguely humanoid creature of nightmares. Oh shit…
“No hurt!” Roman’s Gollum insisted. Considering the nightmare man an immediate threat to the people he was entrusted to protect. He came charging in and knocked the creature in the stomach. While it didn’t leave the dark monster unphased it didn’t send him flying. The two giant creatures started wrestling. Making the ground shake. Roman trusted that he’d at least notice should his Gollum lose and focused on the Chimera in front of him. He held his spear ready. Keeping glancing around him to see if any enemies were approaching. Most were down it seemed. Logan and Patton could probably…
“Here he goes!” Virgil’s voice warned and Roman heard a snap. A wave of green energy went through the Chimera and he rose up with a roar. Yeah, those chackles definitely had been enchanted to keep him mostly docile.
Remus took in a deep breath and next thing Roman knew he breathed a blast of fire at his Gollum and the mage. Both of whom tanked it. In fact. Roman’s creature seemed to be even stronger now and getting the upper hand in this wrestling match. Good.
The Chimera breathed in again and this next blast was aimed at the room. Where Roman’s friends were. No way.
“Hey! Jackass!” He called out. Drawing the beasts attention. “Yeah! You want to fire on my friends you gotta start with me!” he demanded. The idea was crazy. And he wasn’t sure if he had enough energy to pull it off more than once but hopefully that would be enough time for Virgil to figure out how to calm his friend down.
Roman couldn’t back out now because it seemed like Remus was happy to oblige and unleashed the full force of his fire on him.
Roman responded by setting his magic free. Hoping to absorb the fire the way his Gollum had. Begging his guide, the bird that was born in fire, to not let the flames that were both death and birth to him consume him. To let him consume them instead.
His inner fire seemed to grow bigger as he felt the flames engulf him… But they didn’t hurt.
They were… Energy. An ocean of warm energy he could draw from… No, he could be a part off.
He was energy. He was fire… He was magic. He understood it now…
The flames were gone and Roman’s fire raged like never before. “Bad kitty,” he growled.
He heard chaos behind him, people fleeing. Seeing him tank that attack probably wasn’t great for moral. The source of their power had said Die and he said No thank you. Probably looked pretty cool.
Remus cocked his head curiously. Trying to figure out why the annoying little guy wasn’t burned extra crispy.
Then Virgil flew right in front of his face and he was distracted. He made a few rounds and Remus tried to catch him. Virgil flew up through the shaft which was just barely big enough for Remus to follow him through, Star took on his magic form again and followed after them.
The mage monster wailed and tried to grab for his captive. But Roman’s Gollum wasn’t having it.
“Everybody out!” Logan instructed right before the temple started shaking. Clearly a chimera climbing up through the sun tunnel was the last straw.
Roman reached for the ground and willed all bindings undone. The cult members were more concerned with survival than fighting now and rushed up the stairs, followed by Roman and his friends. They couldn’t exactly have them escape the guards.
Coming up on the first floor they saw a collective of guards had been ready to descend down to clear the last floor, the floor they were on now void of cult members.
Good.
“Get upstairs, we’ll worry about arrests when we’re all alive!” Roman insisted. All but two. His Gollum was still holding down the cursed mage and they would be the only ones lost today if Roman had a say in it. He was sad for his creation’s fate. But he was proud of him. He hoped it knew that.
The soldiers followed his orders and hurried up to warn their comrades that might still be in the crumbling building to hurry to the surface.
Roman noticed the chalice was gone as he rushed past the altar. Taken for evidence no doubt.
They rushed up the stairs the walls all around caving to pressure. Gods Roman hoped hat Virgil and his friend got to the surface okay.
“Get back!” Logan warned as they got to the top floor, the bookcases emptied and the supply closets were likely the same.
A piece of ceiling was coming down and that would have meant a watery grave for the three of them, five soldiers and 4 cult members if not for Logan halting the process and reversing it. From what Roman could tell he had put the entire room in a temporary stasis. The structure was trapped in the moments before the building started collapsing.
“Hurry!” Logan growled, prompting the group to rush up the stairs, Logan slowly backing towards them. Roman and Patton waited for him to drop the spell so they could all make it to the surface together.
They’d make it… They had to make it…
Roman fell to his knees in relief as they made it to the surface. After he took a moment to catch his breath he looked up… Everything looked in order. He counted 35 cult members arrested. Good. That was good.
“Oh! There they are!” Patton announced.
Roman looked up and saw a Chimera and something flying make it to the shore a long sprint ahead.
He looked to the knights and something caught his eye. A scissor blade. A unique sort of weapon and one he knew in his gut belonged to that Remus fellow.
“Good work everyone we’ll report back later. We need to finish up some business first. I’ll take that,” he said, grabbing the weapon and rushing* towards Virgil who’d just taken human form and was slowly approaching his friend.
They watched as the distance between them and the reunion got smaller and smaller and Virgil managed to put the moon crystal around the lion neck, making his friend turn into a man.
A big buff man, with hair like a lion’s mane with a streak of gray, his bare back covered in scales and his legs those of a goat. “Oh my,” Patton breathed as they slowed their pace to not ruin the no doubt emotional moment by barging in.
The man cracked his neck.
“Remus… I… I’m so glad to see you… I’m sorry it took so long. I…”
Remus held out his hand and the scissor blade disappeared from Roman’s hand into his own.
And just as they arrived… Virgil’s head fell to the ground. The lights in his shocked eyes dimming before them.
*Don’t run with Scissors kids.
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Faber suae fortunae
Or Maider's love story towards freedom.
81 A.D.
Maider's life had never been easy.
Firstly, because of her family.
Her mother, an authentic oriental beauty, according to her father, had died giving birth to her.
And her father, a jewish nobleman and intellectual fallen into disgrace, had entrusted her to the Ben-Hur family, in the beautiful Jerusalem.
There, Maider had grown up as a sister to the family's heirs, learning to read, write, and do arithmetic. She had been educated to be Sarah Ben-Hur's maid of honor, who was her age. The two had become friends, and Sarah and the rest of the family loved Maider dearly.
They loved her sense of humor, her playfulness, and her voice.
Maider, in fact, had a wonderful singing voice. Clear, powerful. Juda Ben-Hur told her she was the most talented singer in all Jerusalem. Maider didn’t think it was true, but the praise never failed to make her blush.
Her father Jeremiah visited her from time to time, and every single time he taught her a new song. When Maider sang, time seemed to stop. And Maider could feel a strong connection to the divine, with whom she had never had, in her opinion, a good relationship.
Then, in the blink of an eye, everything changed.
The Romans oppression to Jewish people was growing stronger, and one day, a Roman officer visiting Jerusalem saw Maider at the market and ordered his soldiers to take her as a slave. As a possession of the Empire.
She, a young woman with thin light eyes and straight dark hair, would fetch a lot of money as a slave for a wealthy Roman family, and would be a perfect lover for him during the voyage back to Rome.
Maider, blessed with an extraordinarily strong personality and resilience, couldn’t help but burst into tears.
The Ben-Hur family couldn’t do anything but try to persuade the Roman officer. But it was all useless.
Maider was chained and taken to Jaffa’s port.
Her father desperately ran after her, shouting to try to buy her freedom, but a legionnaire struck him with the hilt of a dagger, leaving him unconscious on the street.
Maider started screaming, but the legionnaire gave her the same treatment as her father.
And everything went black.
***
Maider woke up in chains, being pushed to board a ship.
In fact, a merchant ship bound for Rome, as she had learned.
She tried to wriggle out of the grasp of the legionnaire who held her chains tightly, but it was all in vain.
As soon as the Roman officer saw her, despite the huge bruise on her temple, he found her very exotic and beautiful, and with a smirk, ordered her to be taken to his cabin.
Maider was thrown into the officer’s cabin as the ship set sail.
She and the man looked at each other. He was handsome, but his dark eyes transmitted coldness and toughness. He looked at her like a butcher watches a piece of meat.
Maider shivered.
He had a defined physique. If she rebelled, he would overpower her in seconds. So, instinctively, she held out her hands.
"Wait, slow down. Let's be reasonable for a second”.
The officer gave her a puzzled look.
"I was told you were educated, but not that you spoke my language so well”.
"I speak several languages. And I also know that my value as a slave would decrease if you got me pregnant”.
He smirked.
"We'll take that risk”.
Maider shivered again, but did not show it.
"Listen, I beg you. I can make it enjoyable. I'm a virgin; you'll sell me better in Rome with that characteristic. But I've heard stories. Ways I can satisfy you without you taking my virtue”.
He laughed.
"I know what you're talking about. But it's not as satisfying”.
"I can imagine. But let me try. I'm not the only slave on this ship, and I'm sure there are other women just as beautiful whose virtue is less important than mine”.
Maider felt like sinking for what she had said, but she had to stay alert. At that moment, it was life or death.
She didn’t know that, but she had been lucky. The officer was smarter than the average. He quickly realized that with some adjustments, he could get the best out of the situation. He would humiliate the girl but preserve her virginity. And he would still sleep with any other woman he wanted. It seemed inviting to him. Something new.
"All right, young slave. Show me what you can do”.
Maider tried to isolate her mind. She would have liked to cry, scream, and struggle.
But it would have been useless.
The officer had to think she was strong, intelligent, and cunning, at least as much as he was.
No matter how much he humiliated her, he had to consider her his equal.
Only then would she arrive in Rome unharmed.
She gave him a lascivious look and approached him.
***
Twenty days of hell.
Twenty days in which Maider managed not to be violated but humiliated herself in every possible way.
Twenty days in which she slept in the officer’s cabin, on the floor, letting herself cry only when he was asleep.
Twenty days in which she almost lost herself. Almost. Because in moments of solitude, she sang her parents’ songs to herself and felt she was not alone.
Once arrived in Ostia, the passage to Rome was without particular problems.
The other slaves on the ship called her the “officer’s whore," and whenever they saw her, they did not spare her insults.
Fortunately, at Ostia they were divided. She, as she would later understand, was among the high-ranking slaves destined for noble Roman families.
She was cleaned and well-dressed.
In Rome, they put a sign around her neck and pushed her onto a small stage.
She was in the Esquiline, a noble area full of villas and beautiful buildings.
Despite this, she observed the faces of her potential future masters, terrified.
A tear ran down her cheek. Fighting on that ship had been useless: she would become the slave of a ruthless Roman, and who knew what he would do to her.
She thought of Jerusalem. The Ben-Hur's house, her friends, the life she had considered difficult, which now seemed like paradise.
"Ladies and gentlemen, we have a real gem here! A 25-year-old slave from Jerusalem. No, she's not entirely Jewish: look at her thin eyes. Her origins are from the far East. An exotic and educated virgin jewel, a girl everyone would want in their home!"
Sneers and smirks among the bystanders. The noblewomen observed her impassively.
Maider held back a sob.
"The auction starts at one thousand sesterces!"
And, for no apparent reason, she began to sing:
"You can't take my past
You can't take my history
You could take my pa, but his name's a mystery..."
At that very moment, the Aedile Ludi was passing through the market. He was a thirty-three-year-old man, not too tall, with dark hair and blue eyes. Once the king of the Suburra for his shady dealings, he had recently left the neighborhood to live in the Esquiline. That morning, he was leaving home to go to his betting tavern, which still earned him a certain income and from which, for some reason, he could not separate himself.
That man was named Tenax.
And hearing her singing, he stopped abruptly.
He then met her gaze.
Green eyes into blue eyes.
For a moment, time stood still.
Maider stopped singing, looking at him.
The auctioneer took the opportunity to grab her chin.
"What did I tell you? A constant surprise, this exotic jewel!”
Maider looked at him with disgust. Struggling.
"Get your hands off me!"
The man slapped her.
Usually, Tenax would not intervene. He was a man of gray morality, but for some reason, this time he felt he should act.
He met the girl's gaze again.
He was captivated.
He stepped forward and said:
"I offer three thousand sesterces!"
The auctioneer looked at him in silence.
Maider looked at him in silence.
The bystanders looked at him in silence.
"Oh, Aedile Ludi..." murmured the man, "All right. She's yours, if you want her”.
"Yes”.
And he signaled for the girl to come down from the stage.
Maider obeyed, eager to escape the grasp of that horrible man.
Tenax grabbed her by the arm, handed the man a bag of money, and together they walked towards home.
***
Maider looked at him with a mix of fear and fascination.
Fascinated because she found him to be a handsome man.
Afraid because she feared that behind those big blue eyes hid a violent man who would take advantage of her without pity.
After all, he hadn't even untied her.
Among the thousand doubts occupying her mind, an uncertain question escaped her lips:
"Who are you?"
He was surprised to hear her speak.
"My name is Tenax”.
"I am Maider. What does it mean that you are an… ehm, Aedile Ludi?"
Tenax gave her an even more surprised look. Was she a talker, or was it anxiety making her babble?
"That I oversee the games at the Flavian Amphitheater and the Circus Maximus”.
"Oh. So you're an engineer”.
"Are you studying me?"
Maider met his gaze. He understood her immediately. She appreciated his sharpness with a bit of fear.
"When I'm nervous, I tend to babble. Not knowing what you want to do with me makes me nervous”.
Tenax felt exposed. The girl was right: what the hell did he want to do with her? She was too clever to relegate her to washing the floors of his large villa.
Indeed, and he hated to admit it, he found her far too interesting to make her a simple slave.
"You will stay with me. I have a housekeeper who will assign you tasks. Done with the questions?"
"Actually, no. But if you command me to be silent, I will”.
Tenax sighed.
"Actually, I don't know what I prefer. Slaves are usually few of words”.
"Until a couple of weeks ago, I was a free person. I was educated in a great Jewish family. I can read, write, do arithmetic..."
"And sing”.
They met each other's gaze again. Maider blushed.
"Only for a selected few”.
Tenax wanted to laugh but did not show it. He saw her open and close her hands: her wrists were still tied.
"If I untie you, will you run away?"
"I would get lost after five minutes”.
"Probably”.
He paused for a moment and cut the ropes tying her wrists with a dagger. Maider sighed in relief, massaging the abrasions.
"Thank you, Tenax”.
He gave her a nod of acknowledgment.
Once they arrived home, Tenax knocked on the door.
"Claudia! It's me”.
After a few seconds, a middle-aged woman moved the heavy door aside.
"Tenax. I wasn't expecting you so early”.
Then her eyes fell on the girl. With an eloquent look, she asked her master who she was.
"Her name is Maider. I want you to show her the house. If you have any particularly heavy tasks, get her to help. Get to know each other”.
With that, and with a nod of his head, he left.
Claudia extended her hand.
"Come, dear”.
Maider smiled softly at her, taking it.
***
Hey! It's Eli here. Thank you for reading! Let me know in the comments if you liked this chapter and if you want to read more ❤️
Here you have Maider and Tenax ❤️
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So i was scrolling through the drew tanaka tag as one does and found this post by @curseofdelos that i was like !!!!! about, and i read through it and I was like. Yes, but also…
So this is my also. I suggest reading the post first as it does very well in explaining the issues with Piper and Drew’s writing and why that’s harmful.
But I’d like to take it a step further and extrapolate to the bigger picture of cabin 10.
What about the boys?
TL;DR: There are a lot of in-text and meta negotiations of masculinity versus femininity that occur in /influence PJO/HOO, and that leaves boys in the Aphrodite Cabin in an awkward limbo.
Before we get into the nitty gritty, I first want to establish that masculinity is not femininity. Which like, duh, but that means that anything that is not masculine can and will be considered feminine. Point blank, no nuance (There is a literature backing, but I think its a bit too much, so I’ll just put it at the end if you wanna find the article I’m referring to).
And that’s what Rick is operating on, while you can’t deny it is a spectrum, at the time of writing TLH and such, there was a general societal understanding of masculinity as being macho and strong and rejecting softness for hardcore or whatever. And this positioning is where femininity comes in, and where we can begin to talk about Cabin 10.
Rick writes Cabin 10 as inherently feminine, thus attaching “beauty” to this narrow idea; best shown through describing the cabin as a Barbie house and Piper's claiming ordeal. It is a place where there is nothing “masculine,” leading to the stereotype of Aphrodite kids not being able to fight, since war is masculine and thus out of their purview.
This does deconstruct with Silena and then Piper, but the existence of Drew proves that it is still upheld and important enough to the story.
I do believe that Rick tried to have his “oh you can still be feminine without being hyper feminine!” moment with Piper & Drew’s conflict, however, he failed to give Drew enough agency to make it seem like there was a genuine conflict rather than just “mean girl v girl-next-door.” (again, @curseofdelos explained it very well, go read!).
Now with the girls out of the way, the boys are kinda… lost in the sauce? The only Aphrodite boy we get is Mitchell and it is very telling that a lot of people hc him as gay… which again is the posturing of masculinity vs femininity and whatever is not masculine is therefore feminine. And being gay is being attracted to masculinity and this feminine etc etc (according to societal norms). The fact that he is the only male Aphrodite kid rep is again, telling and really affirms the inherent femininity of Cabin 10.
“Hey! He’s not the only ‘Aphrodite’ Kid! What about Michael!” And Michael just further proves my point! He’s the son of Venus, and Roman counterparts are considered as more “warlike” than their Greek ones. War being considered masculine and a rejection of femininity, as established earlier w/ Cabin 10 kids not being warriors. Now, Micheal exists as a (hyper) masculine counterpoint to Drew’s (hyper) feminine, making the Roman Venus a direct opposite as the Greek Aphrodite.
This is actually, kinda commendable in terms of plot, since it helps reinforce the differences between Greek and Roman and how extreme they were. Great storytelling device, bad everything else.
One more thing I want to touch on is the vilification of femininity, and why it must be rejected in the pjo/hoo. You can only fight if you adopt masculine traits, and therefore not fighting and still surviving means that you are doing something dishonorable like, abusing charmspeak (Drew) or using magic (Circe, Medea, etc) or even spying (Silena). Which is a very masculine idea, of how things should be solved by violence ( i mean, look at violence perpetrated by men compared to women in our society…) I think I’ve said this before, but in Piper’s arc, there needs to be an antagonist to prove how she doesn’t “fit in” at CHB, and create that tension of her either choosing to save her father and betray or continue the quest as is; and that antagonist ended up being Drew, and that makes sense bc Cabin 10 is against what Piper is characterized as, and she just is a rejection of that femininity.
Anyways, let me not get away from myself. Basically, within the story, there is no real opportunity for the characters to reject gender stereotypes without falling into others. And Rick wrote himself into that hole.
Literature Referenced: Shippers, Mimi. “Masculinity and Femininity, Theories of.” The Wiley Blackwell Encyclopedia of Gender and Sexuality Studies, 2016. Edited by Nancy A. Naples. John Wiley & Sons, Ltd.
#and again within the context of the cabin 10/aphrodite/venus#drew tanaka#michael kahale#riordanverse#pjo#hoo#pjo meta#piper mclean#while id love to talk more ab clarrise and her gender identity (talking strictly w/ how she negotiate gender roles)#I just don't have the wherewithal....
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Happy Birthday, @lilyoffandoms!!!
You are the most lovely, talented, generous, and all around amazing person. I am beyond lucky to have you in my life, as Daenarya is to have Maiele in hers. I hope you enjoy this portrait of our silly besties by the wonderful ArtbyAinna (IG) as well as the little drabble that goes with it. Have the most amazing day! Love you always!
A Royal Portrait
Pairings: Mal Volari x Daenarya (F!MC) ; Tyril Starfury x Maiele (MC) Book: Blades of Light and Shadow Word Count: ~900 Rating: General, no warnings
Synopsis: Daenarya and Maiele pose for a royal portrait.
Mal Volari and Tyril Starfury found themselves in the elegant gardens of the White Tower palace. Rich tapestries and gilded frames adorned the walls of the halls that led them there. The garden itself teemed with vibrantly colored flora and was bathed in warm, beautiful sunlight. Before them stood Daenarya and Maiele, their partners, radiant in their regal attire, posing for a portrait. The air was filled with a sense of nobility, and the room was abuzz with whispers of admiration for the pair's noted accomplishments in saving the realm of light.
A mischievous smile spread on Mal's face as he sprawled across a lavish red velvet chair, one leg hanging over the armrest. He watched Daenarya with unabashed adoration as she hugged close to Maiele, the pair wearing matching grins. His gaze drifted to Tyril, who stood aloof, his stoic demeanor a stark contrast to Mal's own.
As the artist worked diligently, Daenarya and Maiele shared secrets in hushed tones too quiet for anyone to overhear, their laughter echoing through the space. An occasional reminder by the artist to keep still kept them in check.
Mal's eyes sparkled as he tried to decipher their whispers. He was certain he could read lips. He thought he had gotten it down to a science, yet Daeanarya had assured him time and time again he wasn't even close. Whether that was true or she just wanted to keep him guessing, he could never be positively sure. Either way, it wouldn't stop him from trying.
Tyril continued observing in silence, his gaze never leaving Maiele. His face was an unreadable mask, but a faint hint of a smile tugged at the corner of his lips, almost imperceptible to the untrained eye, yet those who knew him were familiar with the sentiment. It hadn't left since the moment Maiele entered his life.
Mal's prolonged audible exhale broke the serene atmosphere. When his sigh didn't get the reaction he intended, he repeated the gesture louder and with a more dramatic flair, pulling the eyes of many in the room, but he was only after one.
"Are you quite alright?" Tyril scowled at his uncivilized behavior.
"Since you asked—" He slipped further into the plush cushioning. "Why do Daenarya and Maiele get a royal painting, and we don't?" he grumbled, his tone laced with playful envy. "We were there too."
"You were given the choice to have a portrait commissioned," Tyril responded, his voice measured and precise, not giving into Mal's tantrum. "However, you chose that ridiculous diamond instead."
Mal held out the gem in question, allowing it to catch the sunlight, scattering it into a dazzling array. "This diamond deserved to be freed, not hidden away in some rich snob's collection. I did it a favor." Mal's smile grew wider as he admired the gem's brilliance. "Leaving it would have been a disservice to such a precious treasure." He hugged and petted the stone as if it were a cherished pet.
Tyril's attempt to hide his frustration failed, a subtle crease forming between his brows that betrayed him. "I hope you plan to give that to Daenarya." His tone was firm as their gazes met in shared understanding. "She's far too good for a rogue like you."
Mal's shoulders slumped in feigned defeat. "Yeah, I know," he admitted, his eyes shining as he glanced toward her. "Perhaps I could have the diamond split in half. This way she and I can have matching stones. I get a piece, and so does she. That's romantic, right?"
Tyril's patience waned with each passing moment. "I hope for your sake that was in jest."
"So, that would be a no on the romance angle?"
A quiet exhale slipped from the elf's lips, betraying his diplomatic presence. His focus returned to the subjects of the royal portrait. His muscles relaxed as his gaze once more settled on Maiele, who continued to whisper and giggle along with Daenarya.
"Wait—" Mal interrupted the elf's thoughts again. "Why aren't you getting a portrait?" A mischievous glint sparkled in his eyes; his lips spread into a sly grin. "Did you take a gem too?"
Tyril's stoic countenance faltered as it only could in the rogue's presence. His brows knit together, and he regarded Mal incredulously before composing himself. "Certainly not. I have little need for glittering trinkets or having my portrait hung in a palace to collect dust." Despite being of a noble house himself, Tyril found the concept of ostentatious displays of wealth and vanity tiresome.
"So your portrait isn't hanging triumphantly in House Starfury at this very moment?" Mal wagged his brow at Tyril.
"If such a portrait were to hang, it would be at the request of Maiele supported by Adrina," Tyril explained, the slightest purple hue flushed on his cheeks. "I protested profusely."
"He is something, isn't he," Mal mused, his attention shifting back to the subjects of the current portrait. "They both are."
"Indeed." With one word, Tyril said so much more. The admiration in his tone and the pride filling his eyes spoke volumes.
"Perhaps they're both too good for us," Mal quipped.
"Just this once, you may be correct." Tyril couldn't stop the smile spreading on his lips as Maiele's gaze met his.
The pair settled into silence, watching as Daenarya and Maiele continued to share secrets and laughter, their close bond on display even from a distance. The artist's strokes captured their essence, freezing a moment of their shared happiness and devoted friendship for all eternity.
Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed this!
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give us some Francex Spain headcanons please
This is so long and unorganised, apologies. TL;DR - Francis is lucky Antonio is so placid, because the moments he bites back genuinely frighten him, but the status quo of him sitting neatly on top of Spain always seems to swing back around. Again, Francis is lucky Toni's life ambition is to own a cafe...
For proper context - I imagine Antonio as Castille first, then comes to represent Spain as a whole, though I imagine there will be representations of Galicia, Catalonia/Aragon etc. just like there's the regions of Japan or Picardy for France or indeed how Arthur represents the UK internationally, but of course his brothers are still very much around. So, just for why I think Francis and Antonio have a relationship which goes way back.
Francis and Antonio I imagine as a sin/cos curve... like when Francis is up high, above Toni, things are 'correct' and in their natural place. They're friendly as Antonio is such a mild mannered friendly kid he's quite content to sit and listen to Francis crow about his amazing Kings and fancy court and so on. Francis loves to brag about how it's him that's the true heir to Rome, not the Germans. Spain nods, thinking about other more important things back home.
France used Spain very much as a bulwark against the al-Andalus parts of the Iberian Peninsula - as Francis at the time of Charlemagne and thereafter loved to see himself as the saviour of Europe, so as time goes by and we zip by the occasional Castille/France team up versus England/Portugal you start to get an increasingly influential Spain by the late 15th century, and the trouble is... Toni wants the same thing as Francis. And oddly enough, he's better at getting what he wants, despite seemingly not really trying. Maybe because he is honest to goodness just a little bit less... smug? But sometimes reading Spanish history in the 1500s is going like: Oh. Well that was convenient. It's not the reality of course, but it must have been very frustrating.
Antonio also dislikes the same things as Francis. So it's interesting. When they're fighting my God do they go at it. When they're on the same side their a pretty solid duo. But I love the idea of Antonio just pissing Francis off at times, and like... sometimes just by vibing. The man's vibes are zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. And Francis - depending on his ego that day - finds it rancid. I know a lot of people don't like the way Antonio is characterised, but I love him as he is so shh. He's so disconnected at times from the reality going on around him. Only his immediate circle matters. He doesn't seem to really understand his Civil War. I think compared to Francis, who is much more in tune with his people... it gets messy.
The trouble comes because Francis is jealous, and likes his standing as number one in Europe. No-one can challenge that. But Antonio does, for a good century or even two, and maybe Antonio doesn't necessarily mean to, but his King and Queens do, or maybe Antonio finds that ambition suits him. The 15th through to mid 17th century gives him the ability to out class Francis. Maybe it's not intentional at first, but once Antonio finally grasps what he may be about to lose during the Thirty Years War and then the failing of his line of the Habsburgs... the ugliness comes out full force.
But... Like to show the overlap once Spain starts to really assert themselves in the late 15th Century, and how truly infuriated Francis must have been at points. They both have a vested interest in Italy - Antonio wins that one. Francis has a stake in Barcelona - Antonio wins that one. They both want the Low Countries. Antonio wins that one. Antonio gets Holy Roman Empire. And the actual creme de la creme... Antonio has divided the world in two with that blooming Treaty of Tordesillas. And the Pope was the one to approve that one. The Pope! The guy who says France is the most important nation for Christianity in Europe (save HRE but... oh look Spain is now Holy Roman Emperor too Jesus Christ).
Needless to say, Francis feels the universe is conspiring against him. God's not still mad about that Avignon Pope... is he?
So Francis is forever looking for ways to kick Antonio in the shins - to go back to him being the main guy in Europe, the guy who wants it and works for it and you know Francis more than anything wants to admired. Antonio... oh. Not sure what he wants more than anything really. A peaceful life. Which he did not get to have for most of his existence really. Arthur and Sadık are handy for Francis to use from time to time to deal a smack to Antonio, but otherwise it's him looking at this guy who - let's be generous - is not the most ambitious man going, who seems to just grow more and more powerful, more and more influential and it eaaaaaaaaats at Francis.
But you know. Habsburgs. Religion. War. Antonio finally understands what he stands to loose, and ah. There's the ambition and drive. But he still looses, and now there's a Bourbon in charge and he is unable to ever fully get back up to that the ascent that the Trastámaras started. Pacte de Famille pops up again and again in the 18th Century, and I like the idea of it being characterised as Francis using Antonio's love of the Italies, and the fact that Arthur is increasingly a pain in the fucking arse for the both of them. Again, both Francis and Antonio love the same things. They also hate the same things. Sometimes that thing is a god awful English dude and sometimes love and hate are indistinguishable.
Like, Francis can loathe Arthur at points, but at least Arthur works to be a pain in the arse. Toni... wants to own a cafe. And he isn't even that good at it.
#this is so unorganised and i didn't talk about anything post 1800 but you get the point#early modern french-spanish relations is a yo yo and i love it#hetalia#hws spain#hws france#headcanon#op#q&a#historical hetalia
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Invisible String
Part 1/2
Roman Roy/Reader
You attend your boyfriend's brother's wedding.
For everyone who just wanted Roman to get one single hug at Connor's wedding.
Spoilers for S04E03 Connor’s Wedding
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You stand by a floor to ceiling window, sipping on a champagne flute, wary not to drink so much you get drunk, not yet at least. By the time you hit the dance floor at the reception though, you plan on being nice and tipsy. You and Roman have a tendency to draw some attention at these events but you treasure the moments with the two of you, in front of the whole world, displaying how much you love the man you are with for everyone to see. Neither of you can really dance, but the champagne helps.
You scan the modest crowd for him as you nod politely at the discussion of table settings that Willa’s mother has wrapped you into for the past several minutes, but Roman is still nowhere to be found, having slipped off to a private room with his siblings to handle business matters. At their brother’s wedding. Because of course. Roman has kept you in the loop as best as he is able, and while he assures you repeatedly that their plan is a good one and will put them in the best position, you can’t help the tug in your heart you feel watching him slip once again into this deranged cat and mouse game with his father. You realized quickly it was naive to think he would take the sale as an opportunity to get out for good, and while it has been heartening, if not a bit foreign, to see him fall into step with his siblings in such a unified way, you’re troubled by the stress lines you can see forming on his face before he even opens his eyes in the morning. Maybe it’s time for a vacation. Not a Roy family mind fuck on a yacht, a real, honest to god vacation where you lay in the sun and don’t speak of the stock market or ATTN or Lukas Mattson.
Your daydreaming is cut off sharply when you spot Kendall and Shiv out of the corner of your eye. Exhaling deeply and subtly craning your neck, you search for a trace of your boyfriend, more than ready for him to rescue you from this conversation. However, he isn’t trailing behind like you expected him to be, he isn’t anywhere you can see. Your eyes flick back and forth as you try not to draw any unnecessary attention to whatever scheme may be in motion, but all you can see is Kendall and Shiv, hands clasped as they make a beeline for Connor. Without Roman.
Heat rushes to your ears and finally, you find enough of a break in conversation to excuse yourself, refreshing your drink in an effort to keep this flood of panic at bay. In an instant, you are back in that castle in Italy, watching helplessly as Roman falls apart in a way you didn’t think he was capable of. Your world shattered right alongside him and from that moment on you swore to yourself you’d do everything in your power to prevent anything from hurting him like that again. Judging by the stricken looks on Kendall and Shiv’s faces as they discreetly usher Connor towards the back room, you may have already failed to make good on that promise. You find yourself wondering what more Logan could have possibly done. Hasn’t he betrayed them enough, wounded them enough for several lifetimes without heaping on whatever emotionally violent corporate move he’s made now to put that look back on his kids’ faces.
Your instinct is to follow them, every muscle in your body taught, screaming at you to run to Roman. You want to scoop him up and take him away from whatever horrors he’s enduring in that room. But you also know Roman, better than most, and you know that what he likely needs most of all right now is his siblings in that room with him. You have the sense that this is not a moment for you to bust up, that when Roman needs you, you will know. So you do what you think will help him the most, you play the part. You sip on your drink, you politely mill through the floor of people, exchanging pleasantries, all the while keeping one eye on that door that’s transformed into a looming monster in your mind. It’s become a pandora’s box really, as long as it stays shut, you can tell yourself that everything is fine and you’ve read too much into what will turn out to be a very insignificant moment in time. Comforted slightly by this new narrative, you make your way back to the drink table, depositing your empty glass and contemplating your next course of action when you’re interrupted by a hand on the small of your back. Breathing a shallow sigh of relief, you turn, prepared to laugh with your boyfriend about how skilled your mind is at playing tricks on you, but instead you are met with his brother.
“Ken?” you try experimentally, the blood in your veins having run cold. There is a sheen of sweat on his brow, snot pooled under his nose as he looks at you carefully with a tight lipped expression. Wordlessly, he begins leading you by the arm towards the private room, and you are crushed with the understanding that, in no uncertain terms, this is really bad. Once out of earshot of most of the partygoers, you try again, “Is he okay?” No response, but you feel the hand on your forearm tremble a bit. “What happened?” Kendall stops with one hand on the door, looking quickly to ensure no one else had made their way up the stairs before clearing his throat, “Uh, yeah, so,” he casts his eyes skyward before continuing, “Dad is dead.” It’s like the floor has dropped out from under you. You were prepared for any combination of business jargon word salad as he explained the new way Logan had fucked them, but not this. “My God, Kendall,” your hands fly to his shoulders in a vain attempt at comfort, “I-I’m so sorry.” Your mind is swirling with questions and exclamations and pure shock, but it is all you can think to say. He nods, patting the back of your hand with his and sniffles in acknowledgement. “I just think that he needs you, or will need you,” he nods in the direction of the room and you ferociously bite back the tremble in your voice, “Of course, I’m here.” You hope you sound steadier than you feel.
Kendall’s hand turns on the door handle, and your mind is overwhelmed with one repeated thought, like a sick mantra, “He can’t handle this.” Entering the room, your eyes lock on Roman immediately, slumped, sitting cross legged on the floor. A thick veil of grief and disbelief cloaks the room, suffocating, making you almost choke on your words as you offer condolences to Connor with a quick squeeze of the shoulder, and to Shiv with an embrace. You feel slightly out of place, enveloped in this moment that does not belong to you so you quickly make your way to Roman’s side, a place where you are always meant to be. He doesn’t look at you, you can’t see if he’s been crying or any way his features may be contorted, but you instantly feel his fingers tug on the hem of your dress, rubbing the fabric back and forth between his thumb and forefinger. Your throat is dry and your mind runs a mile a minute, not just with the question of what to say to the man you love when his father dies, but with the question of what to say when that father is Logan Roy. You settle on, “Hi, you,” and there he is. His eyes travel up to yours, cold and guarded, but wide, and so so scared. “Can I sit?” you ask, and he nods stiffly before you slide down to join him, grasping his clammy, shaky hand in your own.
Roman’s eyes are dry as he surveys the room, finding his siblings wrapped up in their own conversation and his voice trembles, “I-I can’t,” he stammers, unable to find the words. “I know,” you assure him. “I don’t think I told him I loved him,” he gulps, chest rising and falling rapidly as he runs a hand through his hair. “Rome.” you bring your palm to his face, waiting for his eyes to settle on yours before continuing, “You loved him.” There may be a lot about Roman’s relationship with his father that didn’t make sense to you, but this you are sure of with absolute certainty. “What do you need?” you ask, rubbing a slow circle on his cheek with your thumb. He recoils then, clambering to his feet as his focus darts around the room. “I don’t need anything. This isn’t anything, this is - fuck! Nothing’s happened and we don’t know anything so this is all…” he trails off, waving his hands wildly and capturing the attention of his siblings who turned their focus on him.
“Roman,” Kendall approaches him as you would a spooked animal, “We know,” he starts, seemingly expecting the response he gets. “Fuck you! Come on, this is insane!” Roman raises his voice, “This doesn’t happen!” He throws his hands up in exasperation, looking for someone to back him up. Instead, Shiv approaches him too. “I think it happened though, Rome,” her voice is gentle, and holds a lost quality you are not accustomed to hearing from her. “Shiobhan,” his attempt to mock her falls flat and he spins wildly towards Connor. “And don’t look at me with your fucking sad eyes, fuck!” he exclaims before marching to the far window and pressing his forehead to the glass. “My eyes are sad,” Connor offers, matter of factly from across the room. You take in the three of them standing there in that moment, looking unmoored and far younger than when they first entered this room. These are the Roy children without Logan to orbit, and they are looking to you expectantly to keep the fourth one from spinning out.
“He can’t handle this. He can’t handle this. He can’t handle this,” the mantra continues, louder and louder in your head with each step you take towards Roman, silenced only when you place a firm hand on his back. He’s sucking in his upper lip and avoiding your gaze, telltale Roman signs that he is fighting back tears. “You know,” you begin, soft enough that no one else in the room will hear, “you are allowed to cry if you want to.” He blinks but doesn’t immediately shut the conversation down, emboldening you to keep going. “This is actually like The time to cry if you really think about it. Someone would have to be a special kind of fucked up to say shit to you right now.” There it is, the ghost of a smile at the corner of his lips and he whispers, “Hot.”
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Words, Words, Words | Humming
So I’ve been reading your fics on and off for two+ years now, and you are my favorite Merlin and TSS fic writer (you’ve kinda ruined all other fics in thoes fandoms for me- by just how much you surpassed the others). One sanders side fic I’ve read probably more than 30 times has been words words words. Is there any hope ever of a third chapter? Like maybe Roman is just purely frustrated with his slow but steady healing. Maybe he does a form of speech therapy, stuttering or unable to speak louder than a whisper at times. I would just love frustrated Roman going “this should be good right now, everything is getting better, why not this?” And the others just trying to gently tell him to be patient and instantly quieting down to hear him when he is trying to say/whisper something. – anon
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Warnings: none
Pairings: DLAMPR, can be platonic or romantic you choose
Word Count: 4919
Thomas wakes up in the middle of the night when he hears something. He frowns, still half asleep, trying to figure out what it is. It takes him a few more moments to realize that it's humming. Something in his head is humming.
Roman wakes up slowly, the light from the Imagination drifting through the door in his room. He sits up, yawning, and pushes his blankets to the foot of his bed. His tongue sits heavily in his mouth as he makes it to the bathroom, flicking on the light, wincing slightly at the state of his hair, and setting about washing his face and getting out of his pajamas. It's not exactly his most pristine of mornings, but he manages to get everything at least presentable by the time Remus knocks on his door.
"Roro!" He's greeted with an enthusiastic hug that almost knocks him off his feet. "You ready to go?"
He nods, but pats his stomach.
"Oh, don't worry, I had extra stuff put in the boat yesterday." At Roman's confused look, he smacks himself in the forehead. "Right, I forgot to tell you. Ollie needs to go for a stretch so we're following him out into the ocean. Plus, there's a beastie out there that's been acting up a bit so I gotta go sort that out. Is that cool?"
Roman pats his stomach again.
"Food, right. You remember those breakfast sandwiches Pat-Pat and Lolo made a while back? The ones with the scrambled egg, cheese, and bacon?"
He would groan, but all that comes out is a slight huff of air. Remus grins anyway.
"I managed to talk my way into getting Lolo to make us a couple in exchange for promising a blusterbelly scale or two for him to poke at."
Roman grins and claps Remus on the shoulder as they start out into the hallway. Remus preens and looks far too proud of himself for this early in the morning, so Roman ruffles his hair until he squawks.
"Hey! You've been hanging out with Ollie too much while I'm not around, you know he's started to do the same thing to me?" Roman tries to put on his perfectly innocent face and Remus just scoffs. "Yeah, yeah, I know it's you, no one else does that shit."
He pulls out his phone and types: Probably because they know you'd never let them get away with it. He holds it out for Remus to read.
"I don't let you get away with it either!"
Of course, when he tries to swipe at Roman, he catches his arm and pulls him into a light headlock, scruffing his hair even more and pressing a loud smacking kiss to his forehead. Remus yelps and squirms.
"Why are you so well-coordinated this early? That's not fair! Hey! Hey!" Roman prods his ribs once more and lets him go, smiling as he gives himself a disgruntled shake. "No extra bacon for you, I'm keeping all of it."
Roman just smiles. He knows perfectly that Remus will not, in fact, hoard the rest of the bacon, and so does Remus. Evidenced by the secretly pleased smile he tries and fails to hide when he goes to open the door.
They walk out onto a wharf blanketed with thick grey mist, the top of their boat just protruding out of the bank gathered at the end of the pier. Remus sets the buoys atop the side and reaches over to uncleat the docking ropes as Roman climbs in and readies the engine.
"Ready?" Roman knocks twice on the side and Remus undoes the ropes as he turns over the engine, backing them carefully away from the dock and out into the open water. "Here, I'll drive, you eat."
See?
He makes himself comfortable with a sandwich near the bow, looking out over the rolling mist and dark waves. There's something oddly comforting about being alone with Remus on the dark water, even though it does look like they're about to head into a horrifying sea monster's den. Though, he supposes, they are, as the shadow of something massive starts to move under the water.
"Ollie," Remus scolds when the shadow gets close enough, "you know better, come and say hello like a proper little Kraken."
Oliver's head bursts up from the water in a sparkling shower of droplets—how they sparkle when there's no sun to be seen Roman isn't going to think about—and burbles happily, reaching one of his smaller arms out to say hello. Remus pats it and reaches down to pull some chum out of another cooler.
"Don't get too close to us while the engine's on," he reminds, "now go say hi to Roman."
Roman reaches out with a smile as the Kraken swims a little closer—mindful of the engine—and pats the offered arm. Oliver burbles and squeaks and Roman squeezes the squeaky toy attached to his life jacket in response. Oliver trills and starts to keep apace with the boat, venturing a little further away sometimes just to fully stretch his arms out before returning. After about half an hour of going who-knows-where, Remus kills the engine and drops a set of buoys and an anchor, coming up to sit beside him as Oliver starts to do his laps.
"You save any of the bacon for me?"
Roman holds out half the bacon Remus packed and his face lights up.
"Aw, you do love me, Ro-Bro!"
Roman grins and ruffles his hair again as Remus happily chows down on the food. He sees a fine spray of water from where Oliver breaches like a whale and leans against his brother's shoulder. After a moment, he pulls out his phone.
Did you tell him about the movie yet?
Remus shakes his head as he reads. "Nah. I don't wanna give him any ideas about fighting ships yet. He's still healing from when that tree crashed into his pond and tore his right flank. I wanna make sure he's all back to his normal self before I sign up for any ship battles."
Can I come help?
"Oh, Roro, if I gotta deal with Ollie on a victory high, so do you. He prances less when it's you he's beating."
Roman smiles.
2.
Roman gets downstairs and sees Virgil waiting for him, scrolling idly on his phone with one of their laptops plugged into the TV. Virgil looks up when he sees him and smiles.
"Hey, there, Princey, you wanna come join me?" He shifts over so Roman can sit next to him, knocking their elbows together. "You ready for this?"
Roman nods, turning his attention to the screen where one of their favorite video games is cued up. Virgil passes him one of the controllers and hits the Start button.
"So, I was thinking we could run some of the easier levels first and then see if we're up to the big ones?"
He nods again and smiles when he sees the familiar robots appear in their testing elevators. On the other side of the screen, Virgil's character waves enthusiastically and Roman's robot waves back. They're dropped into the central hub and make their way over to the first course.
"Okay…we're not starting on the last level, no fucking way," Virgil mutters as he fiddles with the controls, "alright, so…let's see, level one, easy difficulty, no death penalties because we're playing this for fun and not to torture ourselves…"
Roman smiles to himself as Virgil mutters, leaning slightly more against him just to enjoy how soft his hoodie is. Virgil tips his head over to bonk affectionately against Roman's before he hits the right sequence of buttons to get them dropped into the first chamber.
"Okay, so, do you wanna stand on the button or do you wanna do all the shooty-shooty, get us to where we're going stuff?" Roman goes over and stands on the button to open the first door. "Great, works for me!"
It's easy enough to settle back into the rhythm of playing the game, especially where there are controls to have the characters point out certain things on the screen or do countdowns together without Roman needing to do them in real life. Of course, there is the mandatory grace period where they both fuck each other over half a dozen times by moving the portals, or telling each other the wrong time to go, or smashing each other with some of the testing obstacles.
"Alright," Virgil mutters as Roman smashes him to bits for the third time in a row, "have you gotten it out of your system yet?"
Roman smiles and nods, raising his hands in a gesture of surrender before graciously allowing Virgil to do the safe thing of stand on the buttons and he'll go do the dangerous thing instead. It's only fair.
That's what Virgil says too when he smashes Roman's character without hesitation. Roman just shakes his head with a grin and they keep playing.
They manage to make it through most of the first course and the second before they reach a level that neither of them remembers. Roman frowns, looking around, trying to figure out where they're supposed to put the portals to make sure that they don't fly off and die in a pool of acid, but Virgil keeps stubbornly trying the same thing over and over again.
"I'm pretty sure—wasn't there a thing about you putting your portals, like, under me when I'm at the very top?" Roman shoots a portal where Virgil's pointing and it bounces off a forcefield. "Oh, right."
Roman looks around a bit more and spots a portal surface way on the other side of the puzzle. He shoots one over there and Virgil turns to look.
"What's that for?"
Roman shrugs. He sets down the controller and picks up his phone. It's the only place we haven't tried yet.
While Virgil was looking at his phone, however, his character's walked off the edge of a platform and died. "Oh, shit."
He manages to get back over to where Roman's character is and they start experimenting with the new surface they've found.
"Wait, what if you put one there?"
"Is there something around the other corner? Let me just—oh, shit, I thought there was floor there."
"Uh, I think maybe it has something to do with—no, that's just death, okay."
Roman just keeps putting a portal there. It's weird, he doesn't remember this level, but he remembers a portal being here specifically. He frowns, trying to find something, anything else to jog his memory, when his eyes widen and he reaches for his phone again. Virgil puts down the controller and leans over his shoulder to read.
"One of us goes up off the launch pad and puts a portal on the end," he reads, "then the other one connects the bridge to the—oh, you're so smart, Princey."
Roman's cheeks flush a little as Virgil sets about doing the thing. He walks over to the right place where he can see both of the walls and Virgil's character stands on the launch pad.
"On three, ready? One, two, three!"
Virgil's character is launched into the air. Roman quickly shoots one portal, then the other, and Virgil comes to rest safely on a bridge stretching across the top of the level.
"Yes!" Virgil drops the controller and pulls Roman into a one-armed hug. "Fuck me, that took so long, why the fuck don't we remember this? Maybe we blocked it out 'cause it was so frustrating, holy shit, thank god you noticed that little fucking wall in the nowhere corner."
Roman grins and shifts a little on the couch. He looks around the rest of the level, looking at the door, the buttons, and the new bridge they have. Up at the top of the level. Where only Virgil is right now. Which is currently blocking any other way they would have to get there.
He reaches for his phone again. Now what do we do?
Virgil reads it and looks around. "Well. Fuck. That's a great question, Princey."
Should you come back down?
"After what it took to get me up here?"
We know how to do it now, Roman types out, but then there's a noise and he looks up to see Virgil's pressed a button that raises a platform so Roman can just walk up. Virgil coughs sheepishly.
"It's fine, just come up here and let's keep going."
3.
Logan opens the door as soon as he knocks, smiling and standing aside to let him in. He sits back at his desk and offers another chair to Roman. A big, cushy one that has a fidget toy balanced on the arm. Roman grins and takes it, squishing the slime back and forth for a moment before looking up.
"Thank you for agreeing to meet with me," Logan starts, picking up his notebook, "I've been thinking of a few things and I wanted to get your input."
Roman nods.
"Now, I know that you've said in the past that you aren't looking for anything like an AAC device since that isn't what would help you, but is there anything that you have thought of that would be helpful?"
Roman thinks for a few seconds, before he pulls out his phone and starts typing. Logan takes his out and waits patiently for the text. Mostly it's fine. I can text you guys if I really need something.
"Alright, so texting is clearly helpful. Have you thought about a text-to-speech app at all?"
Roman makes a face and types something else. I don't know.
"You don't know as in you haven't thought about it, or…?"
I don't like the idea of it. I know it works for some people but I don't want to have to repeat myself if someone doesn't hear it and then I have to do it all over again. He almost types something else but he makes himself delete it.
"Was there something else you wanted to say?" Logan prompts gently because of course he noticed that.
Roman sighs. I don't want anyone to make fun of it.
Logan's shoulders slump slightly as he reads that, adjusting his glasses and reaching out to pat Roman's shoulder. "I'm sorry we've made you feel as though that's all you can expect from us."
Roman covers his hands and types something else, having to go back a few times to correct his typos. For the most part it's fine. I'm just not looking forward to if there's another meeting. I don't think you guys would be looking at your phones or waiting all the time to see if I have something to say. You'll just start arguing and never let me talk.
Logan doesn't deny it, but he does pull a face of his own. "Would it be helpful if you had something that made a noise that signaled that you wanted us to read something?"
You'd make fun of that too. He sends it before he can think better of it and winces.
"No, no, you're—that's a fair point."
They sit in silence for a moment before Logan sighs and adjusts his glasses.
"I'm sorry, Roman, I'm sure this must be as frustrating for you as it can be for us." Roman shrugs. "Is there—are there any things we've been doing since that meeting that have been particularly good or particularly bad?"
Roman thinks for a moment. The yes or no questions have been good. You've all actually bothered to read my stuff when I write it out for you.
"Alright, that's good to know."
He hesitates before typing out: You've all actually been nice to me.
Logan lets out a soft noise when he gets that text, looking up at Roman with an odd mix of sympathy and regret. "I'm sorry that we've been—that we've not been nice to you before this."
It's never lasted anywhere near this long before, Roman types out, a furrow forming between his brows, I don't know what the fuck is going on. I want my voice back.
Logan doesn't say anything when he reads that, just looks at it solemnly. Roman puts his phone down and picks up the slime again, stretching and kneading it until air bubbles pop inside. He does it again and again, trying to get some of his frustration out in a way that doesn't involve throwing his phone or something else that won't actually help. When he feels like he's no longer about to explode, his picks his phone up again.
Is there a way I can get a small AAC machine that just has a few words on it?
"Yes, of course. There can be as many or as few as you want."
I think I want one that has an everyone shut up button.
Logan laughs as he reads that. "You'll have to keep a very close eye on it. Not that I think anyone would purposefully steal your AAC machine, but the idea of a shut-up button does seem as though it would appeal to…certain Sides."
You can say Virgil and Remus they're not here.
"Not Janus?"
Janus has one, he can just make all of us shut up.
"That is true." Logan adjusts his glasses. "I think we can see about getting you one of those, do you have any other words you'd like to include?"
Maybe hungry and tired? I can say yes and no or make faces for a lot of stuff but those two are harder for me when I am those things.
"Alright, that works quite well, I'll make a note of that. Any others?"
Roman grins. Will you let me talk you into having a fuck off button?
"Roman, this is your voice, it's not up to me to tell you what you can and can't say with it."
So you'll make me a fuck off button, that's what I'm hearing.
Logan sighs, but he's trying too hard to fight down a smile to be actually exasperated properly. "Yes, Roman, I'll make you a fuck off button."
You're the best, Logan, don't let anyone ever tell you otherwise.
4.
"Roman? You hungry?"
Patton sticks his head around the corner of the kitchen to see Roman nod. He grins and waves him over.
"Come help me, if you want? I'm gonna make some sandwiches for everyone."
Roman perks up and follows Patton into the kitchen, tucking his phone into an easily accessible pocket next to his AAC machine. He rolls up his sleeves and washes his hands as Patton bustles about behind him.
"So," he hears and he turns around to see Patton smiling at him, hands on his hips, "I've heard tell of an amazing sandwich that you make for yourself and I'd love to see how you make it!"
Roman nods and glances around. There's a loaf of the garbage bread from their local grocery store sitting on top of the microwave and he reaches for it, taking about a quarter of it from one end and cutting it in half.
"Whoa, that's a lot of bread!" Roman just gives him a look over his shoulder and he muffles himself. "Right, right, trust the process!"
He goes to the fridge and pulls out cheddar cheese, fresh lettuce, and fresh cucumber. After a pause, he takes out a package of microwaveable bacon and takes out eight pieces. Patton mumbles to himself over his shoulder as he cooks the bacon and cuts the cucumber, carefully assembling one layer after another until almost everything is on the bread. Then, he reaches over the fridge to take down a bag of salt and vinegar chips.
"Ooh, you're putting the chips on the sandwich?"
Roman mimes crunching down with his hand and mouth and Patton claps his hands excitedly.
"Oh, for the crunch! That's such a good idea!"
The finished sandwich is a layer of sliced cucumber, four strips of bacon torn in half, a slice of cheddar cheese, a few pieces of lettuce, and the chips on top. He crowns it with the second half of the bread and holds it up proudly. Patton applauds the sandwich and they both laugh.
"Can I try making one too and you can tell me if I'm doing it right?"
Roman nods and sets his sandwich to the side as Patton reaches for the loaf of bread.
"How much of this should I use?" Roman takes his wrist gently and moves it to the right place. "This much? Okay, I'll use this much…"
He guides Patton carefully through the steps, making sure that the ratio of ingredients is consistent even when Patton insists he doesn't need as much bacon.
"It's fine," he says when Roman stares at him like he's an affront to the sandwich gods, "I'll just use less of everything else, that's how it works, right?"
Roman pulls out his phone. It's about the ratio to bread too, Padre, unless you're in it for the bread more than the sandwich.
"I like bread, though." Roman makes a face. "Here, I'm gonna get out how much bacon I want and then you can tell me if it's too much bread, okay?"
Roman nods and watches as Patton pulls out only four pieces of bacon. He shakes his head and goes to trim some of the bread from the end, only for Patton to snatch it up and stuff it into his mouth, chewing happily. He freezes like a startled stoat when Roman stares at him, before swallowing the mouthful and shrugging.
"What? I like bread."
Roman can't help it; he laughs. It's mostly silent huffs and shaking of his shoulders and the occasional audible rush of air, but then his throat makes a noise.
It's quiet, barely more than a quick grunt, but it was there. Both of them freeze, equal looks of shock and surprise on their features before Patton slowly reaches over to touch his shoulder.
"Oh, kiddo," he whispers, "I missed hearing you laugh."
Roman swallows, clearing his throat, and he tries to do it again. Nothing but air comes out. His fists clench in frustration and Patton quickly reaches out to gentle them away.
"You'll make it worse," he says softly, "it's okay, it's okay, shh, kiddo, I know, I know."
Roman makes an exaggerated pout and he giggles.
"Hey, that was something, right? That's better than nothing, isn't it?"
Yeah, it is, Roman types, I just wish I had all of my voice back. I miss it.
"We miss it too, kiddo," Patton says softly, patting his shoulder again, "but hey, that was way more than we expected, so that's good, right?"
I guess.
Patton pulls him in for a quick hug, one hand stroking gently up and down his back. Roman relaxes into the touch, letting the smell of the chips and fresh bread soothe the sparks of irritation still threatening to flare up again. He tucks his cheek against the side of Patton's neck and closes his eyes, resting there for a long moment.
"We love you, sweetheart," Patton whispers, "voice or no voice, you're still our Roman. We love you, we love you so much."
Roman signs "I love you too" into Patton's back and feels him grin.
"Come on, now. I want to try these sandwiches and I still need you to tell me if I'm doing it right."
Roman gives himself a shake and goes back to helping Patton assemble the sandwich. They both carry their plates over to the table and sit, eyeing them greedily until Patton breaks first and takes a big bite.
"Oh goodness," he mumbles around it, "I see why you have these all the time, this is so incredible!"
Roman just grins.
5.
The sun has long since turned its face to the horizon. A golden glow spills across Roman's desk as he writes, illuminating the edges of his notebook and bringing the slightest warmth to the part of his hands that face the window. The curtains flutter slightly in the sweet-smelling breeze as the rustle of leaves and grass comes from outside.
There's a quiet knock on his door and he stands, opening it to reveal Janus.
"Hello, sweetie," he says, "I was wondering if you'd come on a walk with me."
Roman nods, going back to his notebook and marking his place as Janus comes up behind him. He spots him smiling out of the window and gestures to the Imagination door, which opens invitingly.
"Did you make this place specially for writing?"
He shakes his head, gesturing vaguely to the Imagination again. Janus offers his arm and he takes it, beginning to walk through the door and out into the Imagination proper. A path stretches in front of them in the golden sunlight, tall grass swishing on either side of it as trees sway gently in the breeze. The smell of slightly overripe apples fills the air as their footsteps crunch along the path. A hill slopes lightly in front of them, the light glimmering off its ridge. They reach the top leisurely and look out into a field of wildflowers as the path curves up and through the valley, almost flowing as a river would. A slight melancholy fills Roman's chest at the sight and he leans a little further into Janus's touch, tucking his head against his shoulder.
"Would you like to keep walking?"
Roman shakes his head, looking around and pulling Janus to come sit under one of the sprawling trees at the top of the hill. He rests his back against the trunk, still looking out at the flowers. The wind toys with their stems as they look on, creating an ever-shifting landscape that reminds him just as much of the rolling waves. Janus hums slightly under his breath as they sit together, just breathing in the sweet air.
After a while, he feels Janus's fingers brush his hand. He looks over. "May I borrow this, sweetie?"
He nods and Janus takes his hand carefully between two of his, running his fingers over the skin of his knuckles and palm. It tickles slightly and he shifts, hiding a smile against Janus's shoulder. Janus chuckles and does it again. Roman shifts and lightly pushes his shoulder.
"I'm sorry, sweetie, I'll stop."
The sun continues moving, the very ends of the clouds starting to turn pink and red. Janus continues to play with his hand, rubbing firmly to soothe away any remaining tingles. After another moment, he chuckles again.
"Do you remember the song about the fields of gold? It's just come into my head and I can't remember how it goes."
Roman frowns, trying to remember. He reaches for his phone. Was it Fields of Gold?
"No, no, that would be far too sensible," Janus chuckles, "I…oh, dear. I'm sorry, Roman."
Roman raises an eyebrow. Janus sighs, squeezing his hand.
"I was going to ask if you'd like to sing it with me, but…"
Ah. Right.
They sit in silence for a moment, before Roman nudges him again. You can sing it, I won't mind.
"Are you sure, sweetie?"
Roman nods.
Janus's voice floats gently along the breeze as the sun goes down. Roman closes his eyes and leans against Janus's shoulder, enjoying the melody of it. He almost dozes off when Janus suddenly chokes off.
"Roman?"
He sits up. Janus stares at him like he's witnessing a miracle. He tilts his head in question.
"You were humming," Janus whispers, "you were humming with me."
Roman's eyes widen. He lifts his hand to touch his throat, hoping, wishing to feel some vibration of his throat, his voice, but it's painfully still. Janus reaches out and clasps his hands.
"Shh, shh, it's okay, it's okay, let's try again, okay? Just—just come lean against me again, try and relax. Let's just—let's just see what happens, okay?"
He lays his head back down, and Janus takes a somewhat shaky breath.
"You'll remember me when the west wind moves Among the fields of barley You can tell the sun in his jealous sky When we walked in fields of gold."
Roman's fingers stay pressed against his throat as he closes his eyes, trying to lose himself in the music again. After a while, he feels something and Janus's voice dips for just a moment before it grows warmer.
They finish the song together as the sunset blooms across the horizon. Roman's cheeks are damp.
+1.
Thomas wakes up in the middle of the night when he hears something. He frowns, still half asleep, trying to figure out what it is. It takes him a few more moments to realize that it's humming. Something in his head is humming.
He falls back asleep with a smile on his face and a soft warmth in his chest that feels like late-afternoon sunshine.
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Back by unpopular demand: one last holiday update. It doesn't have much action but it's a holiday so we don't really need that.
1. I suddenly got some skin rashes and showed them to mom. She immediately took out something she called "all-purpose spray" and I only got a chance to say "What even is an all-purpose spray?" before she sprayed it on my skin. She said I must have forgotten to apply sun cream in the afternoon when I went out for an hour or so, which is true. She said I can't go out after lunch until late afternoon again because it's too hot. The next morning at 9 a.m. she just put tons of sun scream on me and sent me out and said when I'm back and can't find her on the beach that means she is back at the hotel, and I must be back for lunch.
You can see why no healthy child can get sick and no sick child wouldn't get well under my mom's care and when I did get sick as a kid she never failed to remind me of what I did wrong. I would lie sobbing on my bed until my dad came back from work and assured me I did nothing wrong and if I would just drink some orange juice everything would be alright again. (My dad can convince a general of an enemy army to drink his orange juice if he has to but that's not the point here.)
2. The Hippocratic Museum is small and had only a few visitors when I was there so 'the old man with a book' personally gave everyone a tour. He was the only one there before another woman came and sat at the counter. She gave me a free postcard for the five that I bought.
For someone who used to eavesdrop on other people's guide in museums like me, this is great. One time I was eavesdropping when I realized no one would believe I belong to this group of people the way I look.
At the Roman Odeon I saw a man wearing only his shorts standing at the top posing for a photo and felt quite relieved because now I am not the only one who looks like a three-year-old next to Patrick McGoohan.
3. We wanted to go on the "kindergarten train" as I call it, the one that takes a bunch of tourists around town, but the driver told me they have to wait until they have at least six passengers. After a few days we finally caught the right moment and we got driven around town together with another family. After a while, a man from a restaurant nearby ran out and greeted the driver and he stopped in the middle of the road to talk to the man for like five minutes. My mom, too used to living in Germany after nearly 30 years, has never seen anything like this and was like "Can you believe this?"
Mom can't walk far so our evenings were spent within 10 minutes walk from the hotel. One time we went to a pub on the street overlooking the harbour and it has less non-alcoholic choices than the street vendor has corn products (boiled corn, grilled corn and popcorn). I inherited the love for glutinous carbs from my grandma and so I prefer grilled corn everyday to choosing between a drink called virgin something and another called pornstar something. My best friend is still struggling to find a boyfriend because most of them run away when they find out she has a PhD. I WONDER WHY.
4. Mom asked me how to send a heart emoji as reaction instead of a thumbs-up on facebook post because her niece posted a photo of her daughter's birthday. None of us is sure what the birthday girl's real name is. We only know her by her pet name. She is four years old and the other day she just told her grandpa "Grandma does housework the whole day and you do nothing. What are you sitting there for? Sitting there will only make you fat."
Almost every kid I have seen is better with words than I was at their age. Back when my little sister was a small kid, whenever I washed the dishes, she would say "Do you want to hear a story?" then bring a chair and sit down next to me and make up a story on the spot. When she went to the toilet for a longer time I had to come too, so that she could tell me her stories.
I sometimes have to read letters from electricity company, insurance company, etc. for my mom. I have headaches every time reading those letters. Mom said even Germans sleep on the street because they can't handle the paperwork for unemployment benefits.
5. Mom's boss called to make sure she is coming back on time. Mom said business is not that good so he gets bored sitting at the shop. He tried to reduce the electricity costs by not allowing mom to turn on her music player. Mom took it home and after one time taking care of the shop he said the music player can return.
He also runs a private taxi service, used to make money by buying and reselling flower shops, had a restaurant once, saved quite a lot of money. He hired his wife with a high salary and transferred the money to her to legalize it so that they could use that money to buy a house. Then his wife ran away.
This job doesn't pay much but mom can't work the whole day anymore so her choices are limited. She also doesn't want to have her own shop. She is too old for that. She said there's this woman who did the cleaning in the hospital for years, bought a shop with her savings, but she doesn't know how to do the work so she has to hire an employee. It's not possible to make any profits with the rent and the salary to pay so now she still has to clean the hospital.
6. Mom asked if my dad still wants me to get married. I told her he has enough to worry about beside that. She laughed and said he is probably just tired of talking to me about it.
If there's anything my dad is not tired of doing, it is talking. He can be so drunk he can't even walk, but he can still talk in metaphors and if he wants to say he doesn't like what you have done he will say it in a way that makes you vomit blood, if you can understand it within three days.
I remember him talking a great deal about getting married but I can't remember the details. The gist of it is, he believes there are some good guys out there.
Mom said getting married is like gambling. But if there's one choice that has to be made right when things go wrong it is the choice between your husband and your kids. And you always have to choose your kids.
She also said if you can't find a partner, no one is gonna take care of you when you are old. We really never ask where the hell our government is.
7. There's a place in the world where I would crawl back to if I'm fatally wounded and I'm sure the island of Kos also means the same thing to someone out there. Once you have seen it, you'll understand why it's the birthplace of Hippocrates.
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So I know people tend to have lots and lots of opinion about dog pound but more often then not, I’ve seen a tendency for folks to give Roman’s recollection of the game (that dog pound was bulling/abusive/messed up in some way shape or form) the most weight…and this candidly baffles me for a bunch of reasons. I know the actor's opinions don't need to be given weight, but I see tons of weight given to actor interviews for Succession in other contexts and both Jeremy and Kieran (per an interview with Kieran around S3) signed on to the read that dog pound wasn’t traumatizing but was instead a rewritten memory because Roman generally felt like a victim and I tend to agree with that read. It also kind of fits in more with the dynamic we generally see Kendall and Roman have throughout the show and especially in Seasons 1-3. Add to this that Roman was around 4 when this took place if we're taking his word for it (making Kendall under 10 and Connor early 20’s-ish?) and again I’m wondering why his memory is given so much more weight than Connors. Do you have any view or thoughts as to why Roman is treated as the more reliable narrator when it comes to dog pound and more broadly how do you tend to think about the siblings various contradictory childhood memories?
It's an interesting one, isn't it?
I agree with you (and the actors, haha), that I think the dog pound wasn't traumatising or that it even really meant anything at the time they were playing it. It's just a children's game that took on a different meaning in their adulthood as Roman and Kendall's particular dynamic crystalised. I talked about it a little bit in this post about games on the show if you're interested in reading more about that in particular!
I do think the context of Roman bringing up the dog pound game when he did is also important and not talked about as much as it should be. After all, Kendall's kind of seen to have the more defined arc over these episodes between the failed coup, his relapse, then the upswing of him getting in bed with the enemy (Sandy and Stewy).
Roman though has a really complicated arc too - it's his inability to stand with Kendall which makes the coup fail, and his elevation as prized son in Austerlitz is undermined by what I tend to interpret as a mix of guilt and shame first over letting Kendall down and then over his relapse, which bleeds into a degree of protectiveness which we don't usually see from him, both in that episode and in the next (it's an underrated moment, but Roman offering to make everyone stop doing drugs at the party before they go in in 1.08 is very special to me).
But there's a shift then in 1.08 which is triggered by Stewy pretty blatantly cutting him out of something and folding Kendall back in. It's this teetering new power dynamic where any guilt he felt is swallowed up by the realisation he doesn't want to lose this new station as the dog at their father's side, and I think he uses this distorted memory from childhood to justify his anger and try to reinforce this position. Kendall thought Roman was the weak dog once, but he's not, Kendall is. Kendall's the one out, Kendall's the weird one, Kendall is, as Shiv aptly put it in 1.01, not emotionally strong and has addiction issues.
(Interestingly too, while it's not in the episode, in the 1.08 script it shows that Roman's there when Kendall realises their dad's sent Greg to keep an eye on him, and I think there's this interesting emphasis there in Roman realising Kendall needs a babysitter twice - himself in the last ep and Greg in this one - which for him reinforces Kendall as the 'weak' one.)
He weaponises a long past memory that he treats as an immovable truth to not just play victim, but I think as a yardstick to show how far he's come, and how far Kendall's fallen.
As for why Roman's treated as the more reliable narrator, I think there are a few reasons for it. In particular, I do think Kendall is the Known Liar of the show, haha. All the kids lie to varying degrees of course, but Kendall really lies in a way that I tend to think can feel more insidious, particularly as he lies in such a wildly broad spectrum - sometimes it's aching self-flagellation, sometimes it's mortifying self-aggrandisement, sometimes it's just straight up pathetic, and sometimes it's just the awkward vulnerability of trying to save face (particularly when he's relapsing).
We don't see Roman explicitly lie all that much on the show, at least not in the way many of the other characters do. In some ways he's actually the opposite to Kendall because Kendall tends to use lies as a means of defense or a way to hide while Roman absolutely and often weaponises a truth. Orrr at least I'd say that's what he would like to think of himself? I actually think Roman lies all the time, it's just less through actual lying like Kendall does, and more through undermining the truth or playing around in the grey of it. He likes to lean on a question and see what it does to the truth, like he knows that it's malleable and wants to see the shape it could take, and that's overall something I find super interesting about his character, and I think feeds into a distortion of truth / memory.
But back to your question about why people see Roman as the more reliable narrator of their shared past, yes, I think it's viewed through the prism of Kendall being the one more likely to lie, but I also think it's due to Roman's abuse being easier to understand and more textual than Kendall and Shiv's. We see him get hit, both Shiv and Kendall talk about Roman being hit, Roman jokes about it and diminishes it, and even in 3.09 blames Kendall and Shiv for it (I actually think there's such an interesting parallel there to Roman being abandoned with the waterpistols and the story of Shiv being abandoned with the chocolate milk in the car, but that's a whole other story, haha).
We get childhood stories from Roman more than any of his siblings, so he feels like the one who thinks about it the most. Is that true? I don't know, but I get why that would make people put more stock in his role as the narrator of it.
As for the contradictory childhood memories, I do think the show is interested in the subjectiveness of memory overall, and the way people influence the past and make history malleable, and I think that exploring that through the very specific context of a family like the Roy's, who have a loose relationship with the truth at the best of times, is a pretty remarkable way to do it.
#my nephews were playing puppy and person again last night while i was facetiming them and the 5yo licked my sister's phone screen lmao#the look on her face in the background was hilarious#i actually just wrote up a huge second part of this about trauma on childhood brain development in regards to the roy's but it was long#and kind of off topic#and also a bit science-y#so i took it out#but let me know if you'd like to read that too#i've just been working in that space again so it is f r e s h#haha#succession meta#kendall + roman#i'm also always interested of these little moments where roman actually is protective of kendall#and particularly how shiv weaponised it against him in living+#kendall roy#roman roy#hbo succession#welcome to my ama
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top 5 romangerri moments 🫶
i am finally answering this almost one month late!!!! this is the kind of question that requires a lot of ruminating, okay. and oh, i have been ruminating!
this is more a scene than a moment, but! their whole slime puppy phone call scene. i think it's just magic. they're both chilling and having fun snarking at each other! the situation escalates in a way that clearly baffles and delights them both! and i find it really moving for roman how easy it is for him to interact with gerri and have an effortlessly sexy rapport with her, right in the wake of his failed call with tabitha that ended so miserably. not to mention that it's, to me, one of the only times we see gerri choose to do something on impulse for fun. (that's how i read her reaction, anyway, rather than something tactical. i honestly think she just had a shitty day at work and she and roman have been secretly vibing for awhile and that's hot and entertaining to her so she just leans in in the moment.) it's just so interesting to me that she makes that choice, especially knowing that this situation is going to become SO repressed and she's going to take a stance of such denial that it ever happened. they're both just really loose and free and fun with each other in this scene and i think it's a glimpse at what they would be like as a couple if they could ever actually just exist without everything keeping them apart.
gerri doing up roman's buttons in 2.03 -- specifically, if we want to pick a precise moment, when she looks up at him. it's the one moment of physical touch + realization of attraction that they ever get to share, and i think it believably lights the match for the fire that never goes out.
gerri watching roman at the funeral. just, like, getting to see her pain for him all over her face, and in maybe the most public setting we have ever seen them in. especially in the wake of everything that happened in the episodes before and how over their relationship felt. to get that proof of how deeply she still feels for him -- beautiful agony!!!
the moment where roman realizes that gerri isn't actually berating him but is engaging with him sexually in the "tern haven" scene. just, like, the face journey he goes on in that moment. jesus!!! again, i find it really poignant that in the wake of a failed sexual encounter with tabitha, gerri is just like right there totally understanding how to connect with him. they're in a dance now.
it's SO hard to definitively choose one last one when there's such a festival of riches, but i shall go with the "stone-cold killer bitch" / "who says you don't know how to flirt?" exchange, because it immediately set the tone of their dynamic. there's a little fun, a little dryly flirty energy going on there, and the visual of roman flopping awkwardly down on the couch next to her and then sitting lower than her -- it's all just so their vibe, baby. it really impresses me that that first interaction holds so much of what's to come re: their dynamic even though what's to come wasn't, at that point, planned at all. (presumably because j and kieran's chemistry and dynamic was already long-established due to their friendship and that informed the relationship a lot!) basically: meant 2 be!!!!
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On a Butterfly's Wing, Ch. 1: A Book Before Bed
Graphical representation of the Lorenz Attractor.
A Book Before Bed - Next - Masterpost - [ AO3 ] - Playlist
"As the system changes, the motion of the point represents the continuously changing variables. It traced a strange, distinctive shape of a butterfly's wings." - Chaos: The Making of a New Science by James Gleick
Changes in an environment can make a outsized impact on a life: Arriving three minutes late to a student club fair. Never walking home alone after that party at Jack's house. Trying a new goal planner that year.
Deciding to stay just a little longer to try to make the marriage work.
Universes collide in this story, as Logan Croft finds himself stumbling down paths he might have followed throughout his life but for a few small changes.
And what he discovers will change everything.
- Across the universes, Logan starts a book he's been looking forward to reading for a long, long time.
💚💙 Happily Ever After Universe - Wednesday, May 7, 2025
“Whatcha readin’, hot stuff?”
Eyebrows raised in a wordless question, Remus waited for Logan’s little nod before he slid between his husband’s back and the padded headboard. Wiggling into place, he wrapped both arms around his belly, hugging him close and helping support the thick book he was reading. Logan leaned in to the soft kisses along his neck and hummed, the finger tucked between the book’s pages the only reminder he had, in fact, been reading.
Remus smirked. “Am I distracting you from your book?”
Logan blushed and settled against his chest, nodding when Remus carded long, strong fingers through his hair. “Perhaps,” he admitted, laughing low in his chest. “But I would never mind, Meus.”
After a few moments, Remus nuzzled against his temple and asked, “So what are ya’ reading?”
He held up the book so Remus could read the cover.
“Mmmm,” he hummed. “Chaos: Making a New Science?” He shimmied his shoulders, eyebrows dancing over sleepy eyes. “Sounds like my kinda book.”
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💚💙💛 Overruled Universe - Wednesday, May 7, 2025
“Indeed, Muse,” Janus murmured, joining them under the covers. A satin scarf wrapped around his still-damp hair, he smelled of bergamot and cedar wood, plus a hint of spearmint. Smiling, Logan made mental note to check the order for his cinnamon toothpaste after they dropped off Patton at school.
“I believe we can convince our dear Lo to read us a bit of it,” he added, leaning in to kiss first Remus, then Logan. “If we’re very, very good.”
Logan chuckled. “You’re always very, very good.”
“Except when we’re not,” Remus laughed, nipping at his shoulder.
Shaking his head with his own laugh, Logan settled in between his loves and read aloud from where he’d left off. “‘Where chaos begins, classical science stops…’”
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❤️💙 The Uses of Adversity Universe - Wednesday, May 7, 2025
“‘The irregular side of nature, the discontinuous and the erratic side will emerge, always staying within certain bounds but never—‘”
Logan paused as Roman’s breathing slowed, head heavy on his chest. “My Prince,” he whispered, smiling at the tickle of soft hair against his lips. “Have you fallen asleep?”
“Mm-hm… no, Lo, I’m wide awake,” he mumbled, rubbing his cheek against Logan’s bare chest. “Keep reading to me… please?”
Logan pressed a kiss into his auburn curls and smiled. “As you wish. ‘At any instant in time, the three variables fix the location of a point in three-dimensional space…’”
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💔 In Sickness and In - Wednesday, May 7, 2025
As the system changes, the motion of the point represents the continuously changing variables. It traced a strange, distinctive shape—
Logan inhaled sharply when the text on the page disappeared as the bedroom light clicked off, blanketing him in darkness.
“That’s not another one of those damn ‘Fifteen Ways Your Marriage Will Fail’ books, is it?”
Logan cleared his throat and tucked the bookmark firmly into place before sliding the book and his eyeglasses into his nightstand drawer. “No. No, Kels, of course not. It’s, um…” He closed the drawer quietly, then fumbled for his water glass in the dark, and drained it as Kelly took off her slippers and climbed in to her side of the bed. “It’s a physics book, actually. On chaos theory…” Logan rushed to fill the stony silence between them. “It—it’s fascinating, really. The current chapter demonstrates mathematically how small changes in the initial variables can set off—”
She grunted and arranged her body pillow between them, then rolled to face the other side of the room. “Sounds like something you’d read.”
Back still turned to him, she inserted her ear plugs and dropped her sleep mask over her eyes before eventually stilling. Moving slowly so he wouldn’t jostle her, Logan slid down under the blanket and pulled it up to his chin. In the dim light, he could make out a glint of blonde curls peeking past her pillow.
“Goodnight, Kels,” he whispered into the silence. He listened to her breathe, counting as each grew slower, steadier. Softer. Finally, when he was certain she was no longer awake, he closed his eyes and let sleep take him.
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okay okay hear me out
ima put this under a read more because i know there are people around who are generally uncomfortable with content relating to alcohol
but! I had a revelation about Jigen and his alcohol preferences.
Disclaimer, I am mildly tipsy as I am writing this. I may or may not get lost in my own thoughts, so please bear with me here, alright?
Content warnings: alcohol (of course), alcohol abuse, maybe more. I dunno at the moment.
Okay. Jigen's alcohol preferences.
At first I couldn't wrap my head around Jigen's appreciation of wine, like that guy's a borderline alcoholic with the way he drinks (which I extend into full-blown alcoholism in my writing, I'll get to this later on), he cannot possibly like wine, wine is weak, why would he even like the stuff?
I came at the issue from the point of view of someone who prefers liquor. Stuff like vodka, whiskey, borovička. You know, the heavy artillery. Poisons that dull the mind and destroy the liver.
But I've tried wine recently. Got the explanation of the ritual of wine-drinking.
And then it suddenly clicked.
Wine has its purpose in Jigen's toolkit of escapism. You have the cigarettes, a way to remind himself that he's not in danger, that he's out of the fight and just vibing, passing time, relaxing. Then there's scotch, the first-aid kit, when everything is too much and he's antsy and nervous and he needs to dull the edge. It's the painkiller, in a way. The glue to mend those invisible wounds, the cause and solution of all of world's problems.
And then there is wine.
It's not to be wielded like a sledgehamer known as liquor. Wine is a delicate tool, when liquor is too much, when he wants to relax, but he doesn't want to dull his senses too much. There aren't any demons to suffocate, he doesn't want to get drunk, his only intention is just to sit down, lean back, have a moment to himself.
To Jigen, wine is like classical music. It's not something to binge, but to immerse himself in, soak in it, have slow, ginger sips. Relish in the taste, the warmth. There's a reason the ancient Romans and Greeks had a god of wine.
Now, how does this tie to my 'Jigen is a barely functional alcoholic' headcanon?
It's the antithesis of liquor. Liquor is the main poison, Jigen pours it into himself to drown out the noise in his head, the lingering pains, to keep his limbs heavy and limp to keep himself from doing something worse. It's his salvation and his downfall, it frees the demons lurking in his mind, yet it keeps them docile, harmless. It allows his mind to swim along, face his fears, it frees his feelings... but it's also a pathway to destruction. With his thoughts and feelings freed comes a different danger - self-destruction. Liquor becomes not only the tool of healing, but one of destruction too. When a heist goes off the rails and they make it home, when the crushing weight of failure sets in and Lupin looks at him with a gaze full of apologies, that's when Jigen grabs his poison of choice and takes his anger out on himself. While Goemon subjects himself to gruelling training to make sure he doesn't fail again, Jigen instead drinks himself mute, lies on the ground staring emptily at the ceiling, reliving every past mistake. That's the start of the cycle, he falls into the drink, struggles to get out of it for months on end. Until his body starts showing the withdrawal symptoms when he's sobering up, the headaches, the feeling of a thousand ants marching all over his skin, the shadow people staring at him, the music plaing from the walls, the muffled conversations from other rooms that never happened, the way his hands shake...
Wine is a way for him to pace himself. His philosophy around wine is basically if someone drinks wine like liquor, there ain't no use hanging around them. Jigen doesn't want wine to become just another tool of thorough self-annihilation. Jigen sees wine as a way to regain control again. It's much weaker than liquor (if we ignore port wine, but I suspect he wouldn't like such wines), and, unlike the heavy artillery he relies on, wine has personality. While liquor is the path of scorched earth, wine is so much calmer. It has a soul, personality, it evolves like classical music. It has elaborate constructions, just swap the musical tones for taste ones.
He reaches for the wine when he doesn't want to fall into that horrible spiral.
Wine - along with food - marks the line between functionality and destruction.
Wine isn't something he can drink quickly. He tried, and found out it only makes him sick.
So he grabs a bottle of a four-year-old italian merlot. Pours himself a glass. Takes a sip. Feels the slight sourness at the back of his tongue. The woody tones playing at the rest of it. The sweetness at the very tip.
He stares down the beast. Sleeping, yet aware. And while he stays with the wine, it'll remain asleep.
I don't know where I was going with this. I blame the wine.
#moose rambles about jigen#just a mild headcanon exploration#don't expect anything great or deep#yes yes it's about alcohol again#and jigen. living up to my username like a good jigen enjoyer.#i should start reblogging stuff#i have over 2k posts sitting in my drafts#yes i am aware of the irony of being afraid to reblog on the reblog site#but i never claimed to be a logical animal
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