#he is so DELUSIONAL its crazy
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me when im at the delusional competition and my opponent is ted
#he is so delusional its crazy#i have no mouth and i must scream#ihnmaims#am#am ihnmaims#allied mastercomputer#ted ihnmaims#ted i have no mouth and i must scream
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is this what you wanted?
#bsd spoilers#bsd#dazai osamu#art tag#tw blood#tw injury#ohhhhhhhhhhhh 109 made me so crazy ive been chewing on bricks all month#like we have the old setup thats like: 1. dazai wants to die and 2. chuuya wants to kill him but in truth its now more like#1. dazai wants to live hes trying to live and 2. chuuya could never of his own volition harm dazai#& then 109 takes them at their worse & takes away all of their power & agency & story up until now#& gives them EXACTLY WHAT THEY WANT#but its not true! we've moved past this ending!#so now we get 1. what they want(ed) isnt something they couldve ever achieved by their own will (SAD) . maybe now they realize they want for smth else? (HOPEFUL) & their arc goes from there#<- completely delusional btw.#bungou stray dogs
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Ty for answering my asks! Recently, I saw some fanart of the gender bendered crew and it got me curios, how much would the plot change if Jimmy was a woman. I mean, she would still be emotionally abusive (esp to Fem!Curly), but at lest, I guess, the crash would've never happened (?)
Also, her relationship w/ Anya: if she was assulted still, it prolly would've been dissmissed, since it's between 2 women. Or, if Anya is male in this scenario, he couldn't really be able to talk abt it, since society decided that "women can't r*pe men", so it's not serious and he should suck it up. Man, it's just sucks to be Anya in any scenario my poor girl 😭
What do you think? If you have an opinion on that at all, that is
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I think the scenario's where the gender was flipped or any level of gender based intersectionality is expanded makes it so much more complex.
If this is the scenario with fem!Jimmy, it comes with the territory of questionable internalized homophobia. Does Jimmy brush it off in this scenario because she doesn't think lesbian encounters are real ones? Is she struggling with her identity and taking it out on Anya who may be openly queer compared a fem!Curly who is either straight or just not interested in Jimmy? Perhaps it's a sort of weird entitled that can occur in female dominated spaces "We're both girls, I know what you have, it won't matter." It's still is something I don't see Jimmy denying in this scenario, he never really denies it in canon just talks around it with Curly. Here I can see it's less about the pregnancy and more so about the internalized homophobia. Not seeing Anya as anything but an unwanted aspect of her femineity and the allure of it, there's a lot more objectification of both Curly and Anya in this alteration as I would believe feels better thinking of them in that light if they are just fodder in her mind. Guilty pleasures that no longer bring her such. It's a careful situation because I don't want this to fall into predatory lesbian stereotyping, Jimmy is just a person who does not respect other people or their choice, if it conflict with what he wants or perceived is owed.
The idea of Curly having to report it and outing her not only as a rapist but queer and the denial, especially in the case Anya and Curly are both out as she feels a sort of resentment she can't be secure with herself that way. If it is masc!Curly, there could be the jealousy of him being able to actively pursue relationships he wants while she feels she can't, Anya and Curly playfully flirt, its casual but it's something she longs for in the same way she doesn't. She obsesses over Curly because she wishes she could be Curly in a social sense in both aspect male or female Curly.
If it's fem!Jimmy and masc!Anya? It's a much more delicate situation. In this scenario Jimmy gets pregnant. Maybe Anya does a blood test after the incident and finds out Jimmy is pregnant. It's a very sensitive matter because if it's fem!Curly her first assumption is Anya may have done something. That is just the immediate assumptions in cases like this. I think the fact that Anya is telling her would make Curly think it's not that simple, especially since Jimmy isn't brining it up or really caring but everyone reacts differently. Jimmy is pregnant however, and that's a big deal, she'll figure that out eventually on her own but how will she react? Curly knows it won't be good, Anya knows too.
I think the crash is instigated in this scenerio by fem!Curly actually doing more, refusing to sweep it under the rug because she can conceptualize that fear, likely she and Jimmy are the only girls on board. She trusts everyone, well did trust everyone, but it's just something you live with. She can't just live with that double standard but I feel like she really doesn't know how to address it. How does she bring it up to superiors without implicating Anya? What does she do with Jimmy, it still feels like she's catering to Jimmy but now the concern is primarily focused on the life this baby will be born into. If it is born at all. I don't think Jimmy would try to kill Anya in this concept but try to spin the narrative it was mutual up until she got pregnant. Curly doesn't really buy it but it's a lot of processing, a lot more he said she said but what Jimmy is saying just doesn't make sense. It gives Jimmy too much time to really settle with the fact she's pregnant and likely can't support a kid nor wants to give birth out in space. Jimmy feeling like she's being othered from the only other woman could also be a factor, maybe even starting into her thinking Curly is behaving like a "pick-me" for siding with a guy over her. The crash is more spiteful in terms of having to protect herself alone, due to Curly not outright supporting her delusions.
It really adds a certain horror to Jimmy's pregnancy hallucinations because after the crash they are about her, her symptoms the sign of showing. She doesn't want the child either and considering what being pregnant can do to your mental/physical state, especially some of the more negative symptoms, I doubt she is handling it well. A lot of Anya's struggles are with the stigmas around male victims. His body reacted so did he want it? He's gonna be a father and courts likely will make him pay or care for the baby even if they take Anya's side, their world is just like that. Would the other's blame him for not doing more, he is a man after all? Should he be considered lucky a woman was that into him? It's eating away at him because not only does he not feel safe, he actively blames himself.
In the case Curly is still a cis guy, its that weird feeling guys often get when talking about male victims of assault. I don't think he'd victim blame but he likely asks or thinks about how it could've happened, why wouldn't Anya just overpower Jimmy? Maybe he couldn't? Maybe Anya didn't have it in him to strike a woman. He wouldn't. Now he thinks of what he would have done if Jimmy did something like that to him. SImilary to my trans!Curly post, he's wondering if it could've been him. It's likely one of the first times in his life he has to think of that type of vulnerability in terms of himself and other men and against likely his girl best friend. I think that arm pat right before Jimmy crashes the ship would really make him feel weird, not like he'd have the time to really dig into those feeling but y'know WERE GONNA CRASH!!!.
In terms of Jimmy and Curly's specific relationship, it just gets messier if they aren't both guys or girls. There's a lot of misogny on Jimmy's side with fem!Curly. He often points out she's a woman captain or makes a point of her being one of the few independent woman in her field and how certain men hate that. It's insidious but Curly doesn't think about or like to cause she likes to believe Jimmy isn't one of those guys. He can be a bit antiquated, maybe a bit of a pig but no ones perfect! Here a lot of his resentment is more gear toward a woman having that power over him as Captain/filling the typical male roles he fails at. He can't stand that she's above him in almost aspect and he likely takes it out on other women. Similarly, fem!Jimmy and cis Curly is just as bad. It's a fact of not knowing if she wants to be him, wants him or wants to destroy him. It's obsession without anything positive. She feels entitled to his space and life and time and he has a hard time setting up boundaries cause, well, Jimmy's a girl, his bestfriend and it comes with all the stigmas around boygirl best friends. To him it's a sort of oppressive doting, he feels wrong telling her not to pick and like he's being controlling. That's how she'd spin it whenever he'd try to make boundaries with her.
They are still just friends but most people can't tell even if they can tell it's not healthy, in both cases. Either way I feel like if they were opposite genders to each other there would a specific infatuation Jimmy would have with Curly that would be less hidden but sort of unaddressed because the idea of Curly rejecting them would make them lash out in a way Curly may just leave for their safety. It's also Jimmy wouldn't want to be with Curly specifically but just want what would consistently provide/available.
If they are both girls, its envy. It's that sort of hate that someone fits the standards you don't, wanting them to be picked second or crack. She likes to get into Curly's head, point out flaws and act like it's just her being helpful. She wants Curly to be a girls girl but only for her. There's a sort of possessiveness like purposely jeopardizing relationships because why would a man come first? That girl hates me and is a pick me, why are you friends with her still, Curly? Like this is silly but think about how Regina George treats Gretchen Wieners and that's effectively how fem!Curly and fem!Jimmy would work but technically Curly has the sway of Regina.
I believe the crash would always happen. Jimmy would try to escape responsibility or really thinking about what they did in any world, any gender. It's about facing the consequences, losing things he refuses to let go of or having to deal with responsibilities he's not ready for. The switching of sex or gender really doesn't change those core aspects.
#this is long cause theres so many ideas to play with here and how jimmy and Curly would work but the specifc things happening with Anya#like if she wasnt pregnant thats a relief but its the sort of situation where she has to think about her own sexuality in the scenerio shes#queer and how Jimmy affect her. Its addressing it with Curly who may get it but maybe she gets it too much maybe its hard to hear about Jim#cause for all she knew Jimmy was straight and now she has to think of all the odd conversations and nights they shared beds and maybe#feelings she had but she has to focus on putting Anya first but what does she do? Outing someone is bad but this can be dismmised?#Would the pony express just punish both anya and jimmy and curly what if theres a dont ask dont tell policy? what if they dont care cause#they are all women. its not an issue if its just girls not getting along after “experimenting”. Back to male Anya and female Jimmy they wil#assume it was consensual and anya just doesnt want the kid often that is pushed on male rape narratives. Jimmy is pregnant and on edge#does Curly also have to factor in the child? I feel like the feast scene would be Jimmy delusionally thinking Curly is helping support the#child i mean he is the most well off the bread winner he puts food on the table he is the food! Would polle being Anya talk about how Jimmy#doesnt have it in her to foster a child to support one emotionally without damage? Why so focused on making Curly the idealized male#or provider in her life when she went after him? For female Curly is it envy that she did this to herself and Curly has even more prospects#than her now? What if Anya was fawning because he didn't want the kid but hated the idea of Jimmy killing it to spite him? Or perhaps using#it as a means of control because even if he doesn't want it i doubt he wants it to be punished or abused. It is a burden something no one#wanted but it is being fostered five months in and Jimmys showing a bump and Anya cant ignore all the implications of it being born to her#maybe he kills himself to avoid living in a world its subjected to that pain to to save himself from it. GOD the pills with Curly are worse#for male Anya fem!Curly because its so much more direct he cant shove something down a womans throat who is clearly unwilling it makes#him feel like Jimmy to watch her struggle against him and he cant do it and with Jimmy it is so much more direct about a mother feeding#theri child and abusing it like the nuance if any gender flipping was canon would tear this fandom apart now imma thinking crazy about this#thanks skull anon like really ur asks get me thinking#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#💀 anon#ask#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#captain curly#nurse anya#anya mouthwashing
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You mentioned that all the Wayne's post thirst traps. And that Damian's are like Victorian women showing some racy ankle. What does he consider a thirst trap then.
Have you ever seen a man in a dark turtle neck sweater.
#sophie speaks#sophie answers#also he thinks the rest of the batfam are pathetic and embarrassing but ALSO he's just. too competitive#its beneath him. but also he got like 20k more likes than dick without even posting ass in yoga pants so who is winning#his thirst traps are unbelievably obnoxiously artsy#'paint me like one of your french girls damian' 'what the fuck did you just say to me'#he would do it btw if you offered to nude model for him i think like you'd actually see his brain explode#thats off topic ANYWAYS all his posts are like beautiful lighting that makes it hard to see him#and hes always fully covered#suits and shit. he also likes those domtop shots where the camera is literally pointed at his shoes#people go crazy over that and while he wont admit it its very obvious he feels quite smug about it#its like a cold war for him he's never gonna speak it out loud but he IS winning (delusional)#in reality its pretty evenly matched. everyone except cass and duke have extremely feral fans tho#reader in www is one of them lets be honest#stan twitter queen you know her posts where going viral
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Not enough people are talking about the relationship between Telemachus and Pisistratus and its driving me mad
#theyre so gay its crazy#self discovery in telemachus' coming of age story!!#every time pisistratus is mentioned its because hes in love with telemachus#am i delusional?#maybe#the odyssey#telemachus#pisistratus#greek mythology#homer
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gonna get emotional abt this for a moment sorry. i have to believe taylor can win a slam. like i dont know what it is i cant explain it there is just something inside of me that thinks if i stop believing he can win a grand slam then everything i love about the sport of tennis must be annulled. so i have to believe he can.
#i think its the idea that you have to be like. one of one to win it. you know?#like the idea that anyone who isnt carlos or jannik is just never going to win one..........i fucking hate it so much#and i think taylor is the epitome in my brain of that concept#somebody who gets brushed aside in favor of brighter and shinier players#shits crazy cause i do love taylor but im not even like a devout fan...but there's just something about him in particular.#ill say it! i think if he can win a slam then so can karo.#i think ppl hype up karo more than taylor in terms of winning a slam but in truth i think they're in similar positions#players who are so good on good days and have the ability to beat almost anyone but seem to inevitably fall at the last few hurdles.#it seems like if the stars would just align. then. THEN.#but the stars dont align and instead you just keep falling into this pit of despair like oh. ok. my guy will never make it then? ok.#like how are we supposed to just live with that#im saying. i refuse to believe it.#i hope desperately that taylor wins a grand slam and i truly in my heart believe he can and will#is it delusional? maybe. i dont care
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fuck i thought about sol bufo too hard again. did anyone tell him he hibernates when its cold or did he have to learn it all by himself. makes me sick to my stomach because i KNOW its not a reading of his character that was intended but T_T growing up alone where theres nobody else like you, or at least nobody who knows more about you than you. you have a history but no one to tell it to you. does he know the bullywugs are a family oriented people with really nice teeth. this is so stupid but im crying forever and ever. this city frog can hold so much cultural displacement and estrangement in him
#i know im straight up crazy for reading his character as. basically.... an asian immigrant ..?#AS IF ITS MY FAULT#caldwell just so happened to create a character that is so relatable in ways he cpuldnt have possibly forseen#hes homesick but he doesnt even know what his home is yaknow#:-( < im so normal about this. i am relentlessly projecting. i am sick in the head and delusional#(altho shld clarify im NOT an asian immigrant. just asian and not in asia.#and its all caldwells fault because he made the frog unable to be cold and it was too relatable for me#ramble tag
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the funniest piece of casual misogyny in the bg3 fandom ive ever seen was somebody saying that astarion is canonically nicer to male tavs than he is to female tavs. as in implying that larian redid the motion capture and rewrote the script SPECIFICALLY for when astarion is interacting with female tavs to make sure everyone would be aware of how much he hates women. how are u so misogynistic that u start hallucinating that ur fav character is misogynistic too
#this is so delusional that it sounds like a troll but i promise they were serious#anyway. this is a safe space for women youll never catch me doing that weirdo shit#i feel like theres been a huge wave of ppl being unafraid of just flat out saying how much they hate women in this fandom and its fr crazy.#i think as long as my girlies arent hurting anyone they should be allowed to do whatever they want forever#especially imagining themselves fucking a fictional man without having someone in their ear telling them that he thinks women are disgustin#bg3#astarion#jackal speaks
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ted the whole story
#he is so DELUSIONAL its crazy#im better than you all *starts fucking hallucinating*#i have no mouth and i must scream#ihnmaims#ted ihnmaims#ted i have no mouth and i must scream
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OH OH OH OH OH FULL NAME FULL NAME AKANE KISHIDA
I figured she was the one to get in touch first based on Jo knowing she wanted to see her son, but I have SO many questions about that... how does she know her son survived... how does she know Ichiban was her son and not Aoki... how does she know who Jo is and how to contact Jo... (<- tearing my hair out as we speak)
Anyway when you have the opportunity please view the gameplay footage...
obsessed how its addressed to Mr. Jo Sawashiro i dont know why that detail tickles me... thats cute..
chicken-and-egg kinda deal with Who Contacted Who first. like id ASSUME sawashiro'd get in contact with her first if he was feeling guilty enough about The Whole Situation and was willing to dig into arakawa's past imo, esp since akane wouldn't have any reason (or ability to) know who he was until after he joins the yakuza.. and i mean.. shes long gone by then.. tho that's assuming they got in contact early on and they didnt JUST start communicating within the past few years.
BUT EITHER WAY just gotta wait and see for it all to play out.. in three months <- still cant believe its coming out january 26th 👁️💋👁️
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IM OBSESSED WITH THE GAMEPLAY FOOTAGE im soooo glad i was right in how they were going to handle the style change aspect (though i guess it wasnt a hard thing to predict but still..). I LOVE HOW KIRYU CAN ACTUALLY ROAM FREE THAT'S SO COOL i remember people kept speculating on how the gameplay was gonna go with how different ichi and kiryu's playstyles are and this is SUUCH a rad way to answer that question. my excitement is immeasurable and im gonna throw up
#snap chats#lest i neglect chitose's fighting style looks SICK. the neck stomp did remind me of juri han sorry im sick in the head EITHER WAY#the ballet skills... explains why she seems so skinny tbh. like maybe im delusional but i feel like her model is Extra slim yk#i hope im right... oh but speaking of diversity i love how they got people speaking english#Typical Westerner Answer Is Typical IM JUST SAYING its a nice immersion aspect. also im nosy let me eavesdrop#-5 points on the immersion aspect for the fact katy didnt immediately apologize after ichi bumps into her#any american would start profusely apologizing excuse you. BUT SPEAKING OF MOVEMENT#maybe its too early to make this assessment but i like how more concise ichi's walking is#back in Y7 one issue i had was just how.. not 'slippery' he was but it certainly felt like his shoes didnt have any traction#but now he seems to walk more precisely. hope im right....#crazy eats looks so fun... they have no idea who theyre playin with when my dumbass has all these tony hawk and jet set radio hours#im rambling on too much i still have to answer your other ask LMAO thank you for writin in an sendin the gameplay demo :]
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Speaking of Terminator and Linda Hamilton I'm sure this has been said 100000 times but isn't Gregori from st3 just a knock off T-800 Arnold Schwarzenegger
#and he kills alexei how is all by intents and purposes a knock off ted. and its not just me okay someone else said it im NOT delusional!!!#which is not exactly how it happens in the terminator movies (well hes trying to kill sarah connor so john connor is never born)#anyways nana wheeler linda hamilton proof keeps on piling up IDK im not crazy youre crazy. im right.
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im so fr i don’t think anyone in the world cares about jarry as much as i do. maybe emerald fennell but thats IT.
#i think about them and cry on a daily basis#and im always looking for excuses to gush about them and tell the same ppl who already know all about their love#barry comes up with infinite and beautiful ways to talk about jacob#and i come up with infinite and beautiful ways to talk about jarry#ive said this on twitter before but fr what fuels me the most isnt even delusions and theories that i mostly stay away from#its the actual real life words that have come out of barrys mouth about how much he loves his baby boy ykwim#like i may be crazy but i am NOT delusional#these things are real#i don��t even have to connect the dots because barry is so open about loving jacob#it’s just there to be observed
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I'm so delusional! He isn't real! Still am sad over it tho! Still very much would like to cannibalize him! I feel very empty without him! I made space for someone who can't take it! Even if he was real! He wouldn't love me!!!!
#genshin impact#genshin#girlblogging#girlhood#sad!#sad! oh well#love him#maladaptive daydreaming#delusional#delulu#breaking my heart#stupid boy#ily#ilysm <3#its gonna kill me#im waiting#for him#as if!#he could magically become real#i feel crazy#i worship the ground he walks on#i wrote a song#about him#but still#isnt#real#im so desperate#gonna try#reality shifting#again
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I wanna jump the hoops Antonio is jumping when trying to justify Roxanne
#he can’t be that delusional I am sorry what#he be like iTS ALL PART OF A SIMULATION THEY ARE ALL LYING TO ME#Like……. king………. maybe she is the problem……#Roxanne HATES this man like !!!!! she does NOT like you dude I am sorry#idk how to feel about this season yet tbh#the ultimatum#I’ve never seen a man so deluded like that’s crazy the way he disrespects himself and bids into roxannes disrespect
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trying so hard 2 b normal abt him (it is not working)
#crazy of him 2 have such a handsome face hes so so so so so pretty....#moles.......i am not ur strongest soldier#and his NOSE ..#im gonna have delusional clown thoughts abt him time to lay on the floor for prolonged amounts of time#hes so my bf its SICK . loml#iri.txt#glikia mou#im gna bite him . this is so sick
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#me i am the one laying down#cw vent#negative#i feel literally CRAZY please do not look at me do not perceive me I AM HANGING IN THERE!!!#theres just something so genuinely debilitating about loving childe so much#someone whos not there for me at all someone who CANT be there for me at all its crazy i feel crazy#is it odd to say i feel as if i’m connected to him yet also not#sorry for being delusional in the fucking tags#i dont know how to explain how i feel. its also odd realizing other people can view him in this same way and its just aghhhh;#this might just be because i'm going through it right now so my emotions r a mess but#“i could fix her” but he is making me worse
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