#he has always talked about bisexuality with more care and understanding and respect than is typical of a straight person

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TSC CHAPTER ELEVEN SPOILERS AHEAD

STARTING OFF THE CHAPTER STRONG AS FUCK DISASTER BISEXUAL JEAN MOREAU AWARENESS

picturing jean in a pair of raybans is good for my mental health

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“Missed a couple spots. Need a hand?”

jeremy u flirt

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do the trojans ever realise that jean is NOT IN FACT deaf and standing right in front of them when they are talking about him?

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oh ok so chapter 11 is in fact worse than chapter 10

if anyone reading this has ever believed that they deserved the abuse, trauma/suffering they’ve experienced, i’m here to tell u right now that nobody deserves that and it is not ever ur fault, no matter what others might say or try to convince u. whatever happened to u is unequivocally not ok. please seek help from a professional if u are worried about urself or others in ur life.

if u have ever felt uncomfortable or violated in certain situations just know that no matter how ‘big’ or ‘small’ the situation may seem (i use these terms loosely because i do not believing in ranking peoples traumas), ur feelings are 100% valid and u always always deserve to be respected and heard.

i hope u know that u are not alone and never will be.

sending lots of love to all of u

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wtff jenkins is a girl?? did we all know this or have i just read too many fanfics always thought jenkins was a guy?

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It was sacrilegious even in the privacy of his head, and Jean hunched his shoulders against a blow that never came.

fuck that’s a good line. traumatic as fuck and makes me wanna cry for all these boys have gone through but god as an ex-catholic raised queer person i can tell u this line struck hard even though i cant relate to the specifics of the scene

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Jean didn’t mind cooking, but he didn’t say that. This was the first time his room truly felt safe and right, and he was content to hold onto it for as long as he could. He closed his eyes again, but now his thoughts were snagged on Jeremy. At length he broke the silence to say, “Two beds would fit in here.”

jean moreau u are so loved

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“You are not them,” Jean said. “Kevin would not have sent me here if you were.”

THE PARALLELS IN THIS BOOK ARE FUCKING KILLING ME PLS NORA LET ME LIVE IN PEACE THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME TO HANDLE

ANDREIL EXISTS IN EVERYTHING

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Just because he had to meet with this man didn’t mean he had to speak to him.

jean, u diss aaron earlier in the books but really ur just the same as him

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betsy dobson to the mother fuckibg rescue someone get this bitch a ‘worlds best therapist’ mug

and jean, dude do u know how fucking similar u and neil are, seriously like u guys should be besties like-

“It was not my choice,” he sent back in warning. “I do not need counseling.” He didn’t trust her at all, but there was no point spelling it out.

CHAPTER TWELVEE

dude wtf is it with me and napping while tryna finish this book, literally just accidentally fell asleep for 2.5 hrs when i could’ve been reading

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“Imagine getting changed so we can practice,” Jean said.

king is fed uppp

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“It’s not about size, anyway.” ​“Defensive,” Jean said, tugging his glove straps with his teeth. ​Jeremy straightened in indignation. “I don’t have anything to be defensive about.” Jean lost his grip and bit his lip, and Jeremy hurried on before either of them could think too much about that double entendre.

OKKKK JEREMY I SEE U

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“That’s not—I do care. I want you to play with us, and I want you to have fun again. I want to see what you can do on the court and what you bring to our defense line. I want us to finally win this year after coming so close and failing too many times. But it’s just a game, Jean. Your safety and happiness will always be more important than our season.”

GOOD GOD ITS WHAT U DESERVE JEAN

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“Every time you say that you take a year off my life. I’d really like to live to ninety, so please knock it off.”

now the trojans understand how the foxes feel when neil whips out his ‘im fine’ line,, also i’m never gonna stop saying that neil and jean should be besties it’s literally just a fact

“I do not believe you when you are drinking such filth,” Jean said, with a disapproving look toward her drink. Laila stared him down as she sucked a long gulp through the straw,

this book is so devastatingly depressing and explores some of the most horrible traumatic things that could happen to a person but it’s interspersed with some of the funniest scenes that it gives me whiplash

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“Pat and Ananya have wanted to fuck Cody’s brains out for almost a year now. I really thought Cody moving in with them this summer was going to finally get that ball moving, but apparently not. It’s getting kind of pitiful.” ​“Pat and Ananya have been engaged almost as long as Cody has known them,” Laila pointed out as she fit herself against Cat’s side. “You can’t blame Cody for being scared of where they might belong in something like that.”

NORA GIVING US THE POLYAMORY WE DESERVE AFTER CUTTING KANDREIL FROM THE OG BOOKS LETS GO QUEER REP

YK THAT RUNNING JOKE THAT USC IS THE QUEEREST TEAM AND NOBODY HAS AS MANY GAYS AS THEY DO??? IM SO FUCKIBG HAPPY NORA HAS BASICALLY MADE THAT CANNON

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CHAPTER 13333

jeremy is so hopelessly crushing on jean and that’s real of him

meanwhile jean:

Threat assessment, he told himself, and it was almost the truth.

sureee buddy

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They’d arrived holding hands and dressed in matching cream-and-teal outfits. Even their gold-rimmed sunglasses and teal sneakers were identical.

well that is definitely an outfit!

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“Speaking of happy endings, has Laila bought you a sex toy yet?”

EXCUSE ME

this whole scene was so fucking random but jean deserves great friendships

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ANOTHER TRANS TROJAN LETS FYCKING GOOOOOO CONGRATS ON UR TOP SURGERY XAVIER

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‘i’m sure the ravens wouldn’t have taken neil in if they’d known he was the son of a mob boss!!’

uhhhhh…

i don’t know how to tell u this buddy

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dude i just cannot stop think about the whole new world of fanfics we’re gonna get now that tsc has come out like the aftg universe is expanding and becoming more detailed it’s gonna be crazy

chapter 14!!!

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Jean eyed him. “For what purpose?” ​Jeremy looked to the ceiling for patience. “For fun.” ​Jean sighed as if Jeremy was the one being unreasonable.

oh jean we’ll get there eventually

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Jean was a starving dog on a short chain who’d learned years ago not to bite back.

OH MY FUCKING GOD GIVE ME PEACE

MY CHEST IS ACHING AT THIS METAPHOR

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SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP THE PARALLELS ARE DESTROYING ME I CANT FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE

“You are Jean Moreau. Your place is here with me, with us. I’m your captain. You’re my partner. We’re supposed to be doing this together, aren’t we? Stop leaving me behind. Look at me.”

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“I’m sorry. I’m sorry that he hurt you, I’m sorry that you’re still afraid to talk about it, and I’m sorry that you think I’ll never understand. I’m sorry that he tricked you into thinking you deserved it. But I’m not sorry he’s gone. I can’t be.”

“Neither am I.”

TEAR MY HEART OUT AND STOMP ON IT NORA JESUS CHRIST

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everytime one of the trojans says ‘we’re here to listen whenever your ready to talk and open up to us’ and then they go and demand he tell them every secret he’s ever kept

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kevin and jeans relationship in this book is so fucking well written, it’s tearing me apart and giving me so much life

they have so much shared trauma and the relationship is so complex but they understand eachother so deeply

He is not used to having a voice, and he has never had power. I cannot promise he will ever talk to you.” ​“I will wait as long as it takes,”

“Be careful with it,” Kevin said. “Be careful with him.”

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“Night practices with Andrew and Neil,” Kevin said. ​“Obsessed,” Jeremy

exy fiend kevin day representation

also

“No, Jean is fine. As fine as he can be, anyway. Yes, I know.” (kevin when talking to someone ‘offscreen’) i just know he was talking to neil

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She crossed the room and leaned over, catching Jean’s head in her hands so she could plant a kiss to the top of his head.

this is the love jean deserves

chapter 15:

“Your fourth line has a smart mouth, Coach,” Jean said. “I was hoping he would bite his tongue off in the fall and save us both some grief in the long run.”

jean i love u

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Jean wished he had the common sense to shut up,

he’s so me

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“And keep Kevin’s name out of your ignorant mouth,”

THEYRE SO IMPORTANT TO ME UR HONOUR

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i keep forgetting that jean only learnt english after he moved into evermore and that kevin probably taught him but i love the subtle little reminders every now and then when he has to clarify a word, like when he has to ask what a ‘floozy’ is and:

due to egregious injuries.” ​Jean didn’t recognize that word, but since Lucas was already running his mouth, he didn’t get a chance to ask.

it’s such a good detail that just adds so much more depth to his character

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“Permission to break his face, Coach?” Jean asked. ​“Denied,” White said.

SCREAMING

THIS IS SO NEIL AND WYMACK CODED I LOVE IT

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JEAN MOREAU ON A MOTHERFUCKING MOTORCYCLE HOLY SHIT

catalina alvarez u wonderful human i love u

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jean realising how big the world is and the fact that he’s explored more of california than any other place he’s been before is making me tear up he never should’ve been kept trapped inside he deserves to see the world

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So long as she existed as fractured memories, she was safe and small and sheltered.

oh god don’t do this to me

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Jean gazed out at the endless horizon, feeling small and infinite from one moment to the next.

beautiful, just beautiful, absolutely immaculate

A cool evening breeze. Rainbows. Open roads.

A COOL EVENING BREEZE. RAINBOWS. OPEN ROADS

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SECOND LAST CHAPTER!!! LETS GOOO

“He is not going to hit you. Okay? We don’t do that here. You said you’d try to do better and that’s enough for us.”

starting off strong

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You’re one of my kids now.

don’t mind me i’m just sobbing

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no no no no no no no no no

holy shit no what the fucking fuck

don’t do this to jean rn oh my fucking god i’m sick to my stomach on the verge of fully crying right now

actually dreading reading on right now

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um ok yeah so i read it and to anyone who hasn’t finished the book yet beware there is a graphic violent scene followed by an intense panic attack in chapter 16 that’s is very difficult to read

i did cry and all i can say is thank fuck for lisinski’s timing

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Jeremy’s response was low but unhesitating: “I will not look away.” ​“I do not want you to look.” ​It frightened him how much it sounded like a lie,

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only redeeming part of this chapter is that neil’s back but i’m still in so much shock over what’s just happened that i cant properly appreciate him

chapter 17 the finale:

feeling incredibly somber as i reach the end of the book

please god destroy anyone who has ever hurt jean moreau

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nora’s really filling in all the plot holes left from aftg - why did nobody question why neil’s hair was dyed after evermore ????? why did nobody question neil being at evernote in the first place???

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i’m laughing at neil’s map print-outs he’s so uncool, also i keep forgetting this is still meant to be 2007

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jean-yves moreau oh my fucking god

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“says who?” Stuart asked. “The dead kid?

stuart hatford u are so funny, is this where neil inherited is sarcasm from?

stuart hatford says fuck riko and so do i

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Neil shrugged. “Do you have anyone who can take on local work?”

NEIL JOSTEN U ARE MY HERO I LOVE U U BADASS MOTHER FUCKER

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Neil offered her a disarming smile that would never sit quite right on his face.

devouring these scraps about my boy

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YOOOO WTF NORA RLLY JUST WANTED TO GIVE JEAN THE WORST FUCKING DAY HE COULD POSSIBLY HAVE HUH?? JUST DROPPED THE FACT THAT HIS SISTER IS DEAD MY POOR BOY

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Neil filled in the finer details with an ease that would have been impressive to listen to any other day

- yes neil is incredibly smart, thank u jean for confirming to us

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The only thing left to ask for was something he barely understood: “I want to go home.”

oh the complicated nature of home and one’s sense of belonging that persists throughout these books will never fail to make me feel absolutely everything. nora knows exactly what i want in a book

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“I can see the kitchen. There should be a door out to where the dumpsters are. We can make it back to the garage from there.”

to be loved by neil josten is to be offered a way to evade the fbi together

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“Tedious,” Neil said. “I’m trying to eat.”

my hero

Neil waited until he was done before deciding he wanted to finish his drink. Neither agent was impressed with their absolute lack of urgency,

i love u neil josten pls give me ur autograph

Neil, being the person he was, pointed at the fire hydrant adjacent to its front bumper and said, “That’s illegal, just so you know.” ​“Shut up and get in the car.”

i wish neil josten was real

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He couldn’t fear a government who was so easily infiltrated and manipulated

FUCK THE GOVERNMENT

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Neil flipped his takeout box open and started eating. “I’m allowed to visit people.”

he’s everything to me 🥰

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“You’re one to accuse others of intolerable attitudes,” Browning said, and Neil only shrugged indifference.

and—for once—without any of your usual bullshit.”

- browning u love him just like the rest of us don’t lie rn

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ngl i’m never getting over the fact that jean and neil are the same age like this is crazy to me nora whyd u have to do this i cant cope

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“The more people I hold onto, the less of a threat I am, because I won’t want to endanger them by acting out.”

oh neil look how far uve come, i’m so proud

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“Lock your door tonight if it will help, but Grayson will never bother you again.”

THANK U LORD FOR THE BRILLIANT NEIL JOSTEN HES ANSWERED MY PRAYERS U BEAUTIFUL WONDERFUL HUMAN IM SO THANKFUL FOR UR PRESENCE

all my favourite bamf! neil fics have him taking out a hit on someone for the benefit of the people he loves and i’m so glad that’s canon

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i’m going fucjing crazy i didnt think it was possible to love neil anymore than i already do

best friends ❤️

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jean tearing up and throwing away the notebooks and realising he trusts the trojans and the four of them going to eat one of cats new recipes after they waited up last midnight for him

A COOL EVENING BREEZE RAINBOWS OPEN ROADS AND FRIENDS

!!!!!

I CSNT BELIEVE ITS OVERRRRR I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS HOLY FUCK

[go-go-devil]

top 5 soulsborne NPCs... OTHER than patches. and top 5 games you hope to play next year!

Honestly I can't answer the second one since my autism is too unpredictable with when it allows me to actually sit down and play a new game, but I've got PLENTY of soulsborne npcs I'd love to gush about (besides the legend himself) so let's get to it!

Solaire:

May as well get the obvious out of the way lol. There's honestly SO MUCH going on with Solaire's character and motivations that goes far beyond the reasons he's usually so beloved. Yes, he's a genuine ray of sunshine willing to go out of his way to help us in such a desolate, cruel world, has a extremely pleasing/memorable design + wonderful voice acting, and is canonically bisexual. Obviously there's a lot to love from all of his surface level interactions.

...But he's also far more complex than simply being a nice person! He's a regular human devoting himself to an impossible mission solely for his own sake, and his doubts and desperation over it hits me so hard, especially in his regular ending T_T. I always found this quest to find his sun to be a metaphor for self-discovery as a means of fighting back against depression. I think Solaire knows fully well how terrible this dying world has become and has possibly even lived a bad life considering how happy he was to become undead and travel to Lordran, using his quest as a means of staving off the dread in his soul before it turns toward any suicidal inclinations.

No I'm not being edgy. I truly think all of this is intentional to his character, much like how I think the entirety of DS1's view on hollowing is a metaphor for depression and/or barring oneself from the world vs. actively opening up to it. That's why it's so important to support our grossly incandescent friend and Praise the Sun! ☀️

Griggs & Laurentius:

Decided to put them together since they're both very similar characters in my eyes.

I've found (on this site at least) that these two are often overlooked compared to most other DS1 characters, and honestly that's a damn shame since they've got so much to offer outside of their very useful magic teachings. For starters they're both sad, pathetic men who immediately love you for saving them from their own embarrassing predicaments which I think more games need for their male npcs lol. In all seriousness though, I always felt the game did a great job giving them so much character in each of their interactions; both in how close they grow to you and in how much they care about their respective crafts of magic. The pair also have similarly sad stories regarding what they lack, with Griggs's incredibly low sense of self-worth when he compares himself to Logan and Laurentius having always been an outcast even in his own community.

What I'm saying is that they're both much deeper (and also more tragic) characters than I feel they're given credit for, and I wish the rest of fandom would talk more about them.

Mephistopheles:

Sometimes a character doesn't have to be super deep for me to love them. Sometimes they can simply be an incredibly evil woman with a deep voice and great design who manipulates you until finally betraying you when you least expect it. 🐍⚜️🖤

With Mephistopheles I can actually understand why not too many soulsborne fans talk about her since she's probably the most obscure character in the entirety of Demon's Souls: one who requires you to have a pure black character tendency (which requires you killing non-hostile npcs to get) in order to even see her. As of now I haven't had the guts to try her questline yet, but I do plan on it trying it for my next DeS playthrough because holy hell is she hot- uh, I mean really a interesting character! Even though I said earlier I don't think she's as deep as several other npcs in the game, she's still a character with a lot of juicy lore surrounding the organization she runs and her choice of manipulating people into killing her targets instead of getting her hands dirty herself.

Also I fucking hate her Remake design oh my god it's so fucking bad I just wanna throw up everywhere what the fuck were they thinking T_T

Lucatiel:

My favorite character from DS2 (with Straid and Ornifex following very close behind), and of course she's basically just that game's Solaire equivalent with a gender bending design. My tastes are so predictable lol.

Besides her INCREDIBLE design and amazing voice acting, I feel out of all the npcs she does the best job at conveying this game's theme of connecting hollowing to identity. She comes into this land with so little regard for herself and already suffering early memory loss from the slow hollowing she's going through, and but unlike the other npcs (who are actually affected by the curse in any way) we have the chance to save her through our cooperation and going out of our way to engage with and get to know her. In this sense I see her as the reverse of Solaire's quest and honestly wish future soulsborne characters played around with the series' character tropes as well as she did.

Also she's trans. It's canon and I accept no criticism for saying this ;-)

Greirat:

I haven't finished DS3 yet but oh my soul do I love this little thieving rat man so much <3<3<3

I'm almost too afraid to say more yet since I haven't finished his questline and thus technically haven't fully absorbed him as a character yet. So far though he's done so much to endear me to him! His questline with the blue tearstone ring and overall connection to the Undead Settlement gets me soooooo emotional, as does his withered voice and charming demeanor despite all the horrors he's had inflicted on him and his few loved ones.

And of course that's not even getting into how a certain other npc interacts with him during his questline, but I cannot say any more since you specified not to mention him this time despite how much it PAINS me not to. All I'll say is that I am beyond disappointed in most of this fandom for sleeping on these two characters' relationship with each other -_-

[total-fucking-freakshow]

Can you tell us about your version of Lifty and Shifty?

An excuse to type an essay on my HCs for the twins? Hell yeah!

Short version:

Lifty

Lifty is an optimist, sensible in the long-term

Worries about his brother's mental and physical health constantly

Knows when putting his feelings first is necessary

Very social and quick to trust

Shifty

Shifty is a pessimist, no regard for long-term consequences

Tries to keep Lifty from worrying about his condition

"Edgy" and can't quite grasp the concept of self-care

Anti-social and trust is a lie

Below is the longer version. Gonna write an entire paper on my Lifty and Shifty HCs

My version of Lifty was always more optimistic and reckless, with more of a "you only live once" kind of mindset. This bears a large contrast to Shifty's constant pessimism and cautious nature regarding short-term consequences and effects. In addition to this, Lifty knows how to draw a line with his actions (He's not going to drink the very obviously labelled bleach just to find out what it tastes like), but Shifty doesn't. Their differing views and thought processes often lead to very heated arguments about almost anything (They argued over a spoon once), but often the topic of conversation is Shifty's deteriorating health.

Dynamic

Shifty is very logical when it comes to planning, while Lifty is more emotion-led. Lifty gets excited very easily, and is the type of person you wouldn't trust with a secret if it involves anything even remotely enjoyable. Shifty is quite the opposite, being able to keep his composure in most situations unless Lifty or someone close to him is in immediate danger (In which case he becomes a nervous wreck prone to sudden acts of violence if provoked) Shifty is also fairly quiet (Unrelated to his damaged larynx) while Lifty doesn't know when to stop the conversation, and will just keep talking until someone else breaks it up. Lifty is constantly reminding Shifty that he needs to take care of himself, but he can't even remember to drink water and eat on his own, so Lifty basically has a full-time job nagging Shifty to do the bare minimum to keep himself functioning.

Relationships

Lifty, being the social butterfly that he is, has quite a few friends (Russell, Toothy, Flaky, Cuddles, the list goes on...). He also finds it very easy to empathize with others, and as a result is a lot better at cheering people up than his brother. Shifty on the other hand doesn't consider very many people "friends". He only really has three, those being Russell, Flaky and Toothy. He has an extremely hard time trusting people, and finds it hard to empathize with anyone at all. Although he isn't able to understand anyone else's feelings, he still tries to be as respectful as he can when it comes to heavier topics. Shifty is absolutely terrified of Flippy. Lifty doesn't understand this fear, and thinks it's just one of those irrational fears. It is not.

Appearances

Shifty has a small rip in his right ear. Lifty doesn't. Shifty has a hat. Lifty doesn't. I don't know what you expect lol

Also Lifty is bisexual and Shifty is gay and asexual

I want to keep going but I'm going to be typing all day if I do. I can elaborate on anything if necessary. I honestly love talking about my HTF HCs, thanks so much for asking : )

[daniclaytcn]

I love and want buddie more than anything but first I also want Eddie coming to terms with his sexuality and I want him to feel comfortable with himself first, it’s not like he has to necessarily date another man but i wouldn’t mind seeing him flirting with men especially if buck is still unaware of his love (romantic) for Eddie.

i don't know if they would go this route if canon buddie is the plan, considering the fact that addressing this kind of storyline in a respectful manner would take an amount of screentime, precision and drawn-out development that simply isn't possible on an ensemble show. i've always been of the opinion that they'll just make it clear that buck and eddie are interested in men, but there won't be any effort to define or put a label on their sexualities. that's what fan interpretation and fanfic is for. my issue is that people have no problem hcing buck as queer, that he's been with both men and women, and that that wouldn't change regardless of eddie. but when it comes to eddie, there's a gross tendency to insist that he's buck-sexual, while dismissing his previous relationships with women—which, regardless of whether he's gay or bisexual, his relationship with shannon is of extreme importance to his character, and it's really depressing that his love for her and her impact on him is completely dismissed. i've talked about it before, but the way people compared his reaction when she died and when buck did is SO gross. they just cherry-picked moments to make it seem like he didn't care about her 'as much'. let alone the fact that he was grieving for months afterwards, literally resorted to illegal street fighting because he couldn't process that grief (of course, people make that particular arc all about buck, when they're not using it to depict eddie as an abusive aggressor). like, this fandom needs to take a careful look at why it can view buck and his sexuality and his relationships with women in the past with nuance and understanding, but they're seemingly incapable of doing the same for eddie.

[black-arcana]

BATTLE BEAST's NOORA LOUHIMO Shares Message In Support Of Pride Month

BATTLE BEAST's Noora Louhimo has shared a message in support of LGBTQ+ Pride Month. Taking place in June, Pride Month is a time when the lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender community, their supporters, and allies come together to celebrate love, diversity, acceptance, and unashamed self-pride.

On Saturday (June 1),Noora took to her Instagram to write: "WONDERFUL PRIDE month for LBTGQ+ communities and everyone who agrees for equal love, self and sexuality. I hope that one day we could live in a world where equality would be the norm in all communities.

"As a woman, I unfortunately still face unequal treatment and a certain kind of sexism seems to be built into people's core behavior (which comes from home education) and some don't even realize they are sexist. Also women towards other women and themselves. For example, it is really sad to see/hear women criticizing other women and their sexual expression or showy appearance/dressing. EVERYONE'S OWN LOOK has been the only way for women to express themselves and their own values since time immemorial. The cloak of shame was not invented by women. But unfortunately, instead of encouraging self-expression, we bark and be mean. What one says about another comes from how you see yourself and your own fear.

"Let's take off those cloaks of shame and burn them at the stake. Let's be on each other's side. Let's be on the side of those who need it. Let's jump into other people's shoes and understand that equal treatment is not an everyday life for everyone, but a struggle for it every day.

"The fact that I dress the way I want, demand respectful and equal treatment, am strong-willed, ambitious and determined, speak up for others and myself does not make me a 'bitch'. Crying, talking about my feelings/thoughts and being emotional to everyone doesn't make me weak. It makes me strong and happy when I am openly myself. At the same time, I want to encourage and support others to do the same.

"THIS IS WHY I HAVE THE BATTLE VITCH HORNS OF COURAGE. And I will always continue to fight for equality. In this world, evil is putting oneself above others, narrow realities and being greedy.

"I hope that I can have at least a little influence on how people treat each other with my own example.

"LOVE AND PEACE AND PRIDE

"#pride #equality #humanity #goodvalues #selfesteem #thecloakofshame #proudtobeme #proudofyou"

Louhimo revealed in November that she had been diagnosed with a ruptured left carotid artery, causing the postponement the band's tour. The 35-year-old Finnish musician has since said in an interview that she has "definitely started doing more warm-up before any singing and warming down and taking care of my overall health even more than before." She added: "I really appreciate life more now. I'm thankful for each and every day and every moment that I get to live, I get to love, I get to see. I get to see people. I get to be with my loved ones and with my animals here at home. And now I get to tour in the places that I've always dreamed of. And it's not something that you should take [for] granted."

When Louhimo first revealed her diagnosis seven months ago, she wrote on her social media: "I went to be examined because of a weird pain in the left side of my neck, throat, ear and chin. At ultrasound examination the doctor found the rupture that had already started healing, and he saved my life. I was hospitalized for more exams and finally got confirmation of the situation. I was ordered to have a break on everything that might stress or increase my blood pressure for the next month. Otherwise, I could have a stroke. As you know how passionate I am as a singer and performer, the blood pressure getting high is a guarantee. So, I did not want to take the risk to die with my boots on, not quite yet".

Louhimo joined BATTLE BEAST in 2012 with no previous experience as a metal vocalist but quickly acclimated herself as the replacement for Nitte Valo (a.k.a. Nitte Vänskä).

Less than two years ago, Noora, who in 2021 released her debut solo album, "Eternal Wheel Of Time And Space", under the NOORA LOUHIMO EXPERIENCE banner, admitted publicly that she had been struggling with eating disorders and her weight since she was "a little child" and said that she was "still trying to find a balance." She added that she had "been depressed and anxious sometimes 'without a reason'."

[endsupes]

Signs of affection

Physical: William is never far away in proximity and touch mostly comprises of either gentle leading with a hand guiding lightly/supportive or even aggressively gripping. He may also shield by blocking the view with his body. Mostly just any point of connection that's not exceedingly violent.

Words: rare, but he has the capacity to give compliments and speak about things that bother him or aspects of his life that haunt him.

Silent respect: this typically entails allowing handing leadership to someone whether its a small aspect ( his aunt taking care of terror) or something with great meaning ( asking hughie to say sorry to the boys )

Sexuality

over the years, Williams’ romantic and sexual life has been almost non-existent. this is the product of several things - the fact he is constantly working, that he’s often out on the field fighting for his life and the lives of others and too busy trying not to die as well a lack of confidence when it comes to romance, a growing disinterest in anything sexual, and the inability to understand or read flirtation and attraction from potential lovers without taking it unseriously ( obliviousness and an effect of his mental health issues both ).  often, any interest shown in him regarding sexuality and romance will not be picked up on and dismissed as casual conversation ( I.e he may flirt back but its hollow, empty words ) - it requires bluntness to get the point across to him - and usually it will be rejected because he has ‘better’ things to do which is usually work. it has been a long, long time since he’s been on a date and whilst everything William does tends to stem from love in a manner of speaking, he rarely sets time aside for romance. 

William is a very, very closeted bisexual and carries a lot of internalized homophobia - not regarding anyone but himself, he could care less about the sexualities of others, but is uncomfortable in admitting he is anything but the white macho man people assume him to be. he has always been uncomfortable regarding his own sexuality, but over the years it has grown worse. this is from the lack of physical intimacy ( despite not having it, he does miss it - William is a sexual person, enjoys sex, but has gone without for so long he now has several self-confidence issues regarding it ) and the fact that for him, it has always been a subject meant to be kept private - between himself and his partner ( he doesn’t really want to hear about what his friends/soldiers/team have been up to in bed, and doesn’t want to talk about his experiences or lack of either ). combined with his physical and health issues, it’s something he tends to avoid.

in his youth, he had a string of girlfriends - all of them were brief flings, no emotional attachment on either end, but not as many as he’d boast about ( the ego of a hormonal twenty-something boy in the prime of his life, with a gun and a military record doesn’t want to be seen as someone who gets rejected by pretty girls ). experimentation sexually was brief and short, uncomfortable with the idea - he’d been touchy-feely with men before, but eventually backed out, nervous and drunk, doing it for attention rather than anything else. he was never the best lover, but what he lacked in talent he made up for in enthusiasm.

Rebecca had only really been the most consistent sexual relationship he had for the obvious fact that they were married and really the only person he had ever felt particularly close to. Since her disappearance, he had spiraled mentally, only really seeing sex acts as a way to manipulate or extort information. But even then it was never something he relied on, more so, dangling a carrot on a string in order to get what he wants.

getting him to talk about it is an unlikely event, too. the only time you’ll hear of Williams’ romantic and sexual activities is if you’re the one he’s doing it with - he’s a private person in many aspects, despite the big heart, and likes to keep things to himself ( too stubborn to realise maybe talking about his issues could help get rid of them ). if you manage to break through to that though, he’s extremely appreciative in the moment, touches like he’s worshipping a marble statue with adoration. Gropping whatever, wherever, he's willing. however, it’s all emotional for him nowadays, and the idea of no-strings-attached sex is something he can’t get into - it has to mean something to him, and it always does, whether he admits it or not.

[bathiveroleplays]

Chip Star

WARNING: This character deals with a lot of sensitive topics like mental issues, death, horror movie-like violence, insanity, murder and more. If this is not your cup of tea, do not read or interact with the character

Basic Information

Chip Gracey Star

June 28th | Cancer Zodiac | Bisexual | Trans Male | Caucasian | Mid 20s-Early 30s

Appearance

Face and Voice Claim: Spencer Charnas

Chip has dark hair, grey eyes, fair skin that is blemish free save for scars hidden under his clothes and a strong, but average build. He is typically dressed in suits and ties. Pretty smart clothes to keep a fine image. He stands at a proud 6'2 and weights 182lbs.

Personality

Chip Star is a charismatic man with many charms. From good looks to his friendly personality and clever, well-timed jokes, people tend to adore him when they meet him. He is a showman at heart, always putting on the perfect show for anyone who comes across him.

He loves all things horror and stars in many horror movies. He's known for his villain roles. He can depict the perfect maniac on the silver screen and it's always a box office smash. He's not afraid to try anything once...

He adores his fans. He knows they are the reason his career is such a success. He loves their adoration, their respect and their praise. It makes him feel like he truly does do great things.

There is a dark side to Chip one can discover very quick if they are too careless or if he is feeling destructive. He can be a real maniac with rather violent tendencies and a masochistic/ sadistic side of him that makes him quick to delight in pain. Both for himself and of others.

He has a bad habit of really getting into the roles of the characters he plays. He puts himself in the mindset of a maniac and it causes him to do things that are...less than savory.

Background

Chip was born as Cecilia. His mother died giving birth to him. His father was a stockbroker and rarely home so he hired a nanny named Margret to care for his child while he worked and made his fortune.

Margret was a kind woman. She loved this child like they were her own flesh and blood. Chip came out as trans when he was 14 and Margret showed him support. After talking with the child to be sure, she offered to let his father know for him and Chip agreed. His father didn't really care and assumed it was a phase that would come and go but referred to him as his son from then on out and called him Chip. He even gave Margret money to take his new sone clothes shopping and to get his hair cut. His father was actually glad to have a son. Another man to carry the family name.

Chip could do just about anything he wanted and his father wasn't around enough to really care. He was always so absorbed in his work but Margret was there and supported Chip through it all.

Despite Margret doing her best, Chip often wondered why his father couldn't take a few days off or even just spend time with him at home. All he ever wanted was his attention and approval and praise but he never got it. His father was always just too busy for his son.

Chip began displaying signs of deeper issues the older he got. At private school, his peers bullied him mercilessly for a variety of reasons. Chip was trans and neurodivergent. Kids can be rather cruel to someone who has difficulty understanding social cues and such.

Home life may have been splendid but school life proved difficult. It made him understand that the world was a cruel place outside of his sheltered home. Cruel people made the world a hard place.

He became an angry child. He started getting into physical fights in middle school. He found violence, punching them in the face, throwing things at them, kicking, biting, scratching, it all made them finally listen to him and leave him alone and he found...he rather liked causing those who hurt him to suffer.

Chip discovered in theatre class that he could get many complex emotions he felt out while he was acting. He enjoyed it and decided he would be a professional actor.

He would later become a professional actor. His father helped him get into all the right classes, all the right auditions. He fell in love with the horror genre saying he felt "most at home" in this one. He always felt like an outcast, he always felt crazy, this allowed him to embrace his more stranger aspects and gave an outlet for his anger.

Note: Chip tends to black out almost when he becomes too absorbed in the role and almost adapts the personality and mannerisms of the character he plays entirely. It started as a way for him to get into the roles but it became something he could no longer control.

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

Serious question: how is it possible not to feel like we're doomed after reading such discussions? Like, it's clear people just refuse to care about women at all. They only care about men who call themselves women

I gotta be honest. I'm optimistic. If you're naturally pessimistic then you are already dead in the water, that's just the truth. But also, I feel like real life is better than online. I've had multiple pleasantly surprising conversations because I wasn't afraid to speak up. You can't be afraid to voice your opinion. Also, I don't understand the sentiment of being afraid to lose friends because of your disagreement on trans rights. I'll happily lose anyone who tells me that lesbians can like dick. Not only do I not give a single shit, but I've done it before and would do it again. Value yourself more. You don't deserve to be around people like that. Cut them off. You're not losing anything. I'm not in agreement with my friends on trans rights, but I have told them what's what. One of them has come to me privately to ask me questions on my beliefs, and we had a very respectful discussion. The thing is, I think these discussions are better in real life. Idk what it is, but people are sweeter when you talk to them face to face. Repeating what people say back to them helps them see that they're being ridiculous. I told one of my friends that liking both genitals makes someone bisexual, and she completely agreed despite the fact you can probably guess what we were arguing about that would prompt me to say that. A few months ago, I was in a group of people my age and we were absolutely clowning on a boy in our class who had said that trans women belonged in women's sports and who had called our teacher a terf . One of the boys in our group had never even heard the word terf before. A lot of the good people are offline or aren't heavily engaged in this specific debate. You gotta remember that the grand majority of people are straight and thus don't spend much time thinking about gay or trans people. I asked my mother what she thought of trans people and she said she "doesn't think about it". Imagine that? Never once thinking about this? A lot of people aren't aware of what's going on. Do you remember super straight? Straight people caught a whiff of the nonsense that trans people spout about sexuality and they went OFF. There's a lot more animosity towards the homophobia and misogyny of the trans movement than you think. Riley J Dennis' video about genital preferences was FILLED with people disagreeing with him and saying he wants everyone to be bisexual. Genuinely not a positive comment in sight. If you repeat trans rhetoric to regular people, there's a fairly good chance they'll think you're joking around. People want to be good. They take things at face value. A trans person say this? It must be true! They'll hit the 'like' button on trans positivity posts. But if you just challenge them a little bit then they almost always crack, in my experience. A literal perfect example is during the argument between my friends I mentioned above. One of them quite literally said "I've been agreeing with what you guys have said so far, but after hearing what [me] had to say, I agree with that as well." Like. You CAN'T be a coward. I remain positive because I don't think that things are as bad as a lot of you guys think. I genuinely really don't. I have so many more positive things to say, but I'm feeling burnt out so hopefully this makes you feel better, anon ❤️

[the-owl-tree]

fun facts about background cats in the isekei au?

Yippee, thank you for this ask!!! Love talking about these guys >:3c

Batears (She/He/They; Bisexual, leaning towards transfemme)

Doesn’t want kids. I’d initially planned for her to be infertile because, and I can’t remember the details of why, I wanted her to be a red herring in the book the story takes place of her being Frost’s kin (do not ask me to elaborate, I never wrote it down and I still don’t understand what I was thinking).

I’m wavering on the infertile thing for now. I’d rather treat it as just an aspect of her than some grand tragedy but I’d need to do more research.

Both her and Owl were pitted against each other throughout their lives to compete for the role of deputy. She ended up “falling behind” after the death of their father, she was much closer to him and the grief ended up forcing her to take some time to recover.

Big ass ears, her hearing is SHARP.

Her and Frostblaze have a solid mentor-apprentice bond. She’s straightforward and blunt.

The book they come from doesn’t give her much dialogue or appearances (hence her being inspired by the overshadowed sisters in Warriors), and she’s a bit of a wild card to Honey and the gang. She legit doesn’t know what to expect from her.

Loonsnarl (He/It - sexuality and gender undecided but SOMETHING is going on, maybe just apathy?)

Heavily inspired by Goosefeather, I feel that’s obvious lol

I wanted to take the “these events are doomed to happen” to the extreme with this guy. He is very much “this must happen and if it doesn’t, I will make it happen”.

He does everything with confidence, he says things with confidence, he acts as if everything will come to fruition. There is no room for wavering in the future, the path is decided and they must follow it through.

Splashpaw initially adopted this mentality after her first trip to the Mooncave…until something changed in her. Loonsnarl doesn’t always get along with his apprentice.

Hornettail (He/Him - Cishet

His main inspiration is Darkstripe and characters that will literally switch from being open minded to being wildly xenophobic from book to book.

The actual book they come from has it that it’s just bad writing. When Honey meets him, he’s just someone who will cling to whoever has the most power in the situation

The moment the pendulum swings out of his favor, he’s chasing after it no matter how pathetic he looks

Dawnstep (She/He - Lesbian)

Funny gal with a sick beard

Big bard energy, she loves singing and teaches the apprentice the best war songs (Honey finds the melodies catchy but the lyrics uh…gruesome)

In a butch4butch relationship with a SturgeonClan cat named Troutshine. (Side note, I think it would be funny if the territory was an ecological mess. Animals of all kinds just thrown in without care lol)

Fanon Lionheart is a big inspo for him

Sheeppaw and Elkpaw (she/her and he/him respectively, nothing decided yet but I like Elkpaw being transmasc)

Honeypaw’s lackies. She promised power and prestige when she ascended to leader and, as the more physically powerful sister, it was expected she’d be able to deliver on her word.

The two are insecure kids who were friends in the nursery, while it doesn’t excuse their bullying at all, they’re hardly evil masterminds.

In the book, they get a redemption arc and apologize to Frostblaze. In this story, I imagine it happens a lot faster when Honeypaw starts acting weird and avoiding them.

Childhood friends to lovers, I think it’s cute :)

Hollystream (she/her)

Duskflower’s sister, she was the one to step in and help raise Frostblaze when she died.

Her death still hurts her, the two were twins and very close.

While Beesnap definitely pushed for her daughter to see Frost as a rival and not a sister, Holly did the same. She also pushed Frost to go for the crown and in doing so, the two queens ending up destroying the potential friendship the sisters might’ve had.

Holly is quiet, subdued. However, she loves her goofy mate Mousesneeze and their antics, being with them has helped her recover in many ways.

I’ll probably make another edition in a bit but these are sort of the handful of cats I’ve got some concrete plans for. The latter half of the warriors in WolfClan need some fleshing out since admittedly some of them are just to pad out the Clan.

Thank you for the ask!!!!

[shadowqnights]

Can you tell me about Luci?

Lucinda is Interesting. she's a curious case because she's not really matched up with anyone but she's so crucial nonetheless -- she's not a main main character but a Lot of people revolve around her. She's very sultry and a huge flirt but yet can't commit to anything and even if someone who she thought was cute confessed she probably wouldn't say yes. (See: Aphmau. There was most definitely a mutual interest there before Aph met the very dangerous Katelyn, but even with all of the flirting nothing ever could have happened. Lucinda is secretly very afraid of commitment and would have backed down anyway out of respect for Aph's lordship).

Luci knows that she's attractive, and most people she meets are into her and she knows how to use that to her advantage, but at the same time there's a sense of unease about it all. She's bisexual with a preference for women and only really finds herself engaging with the more submissive men because she's into the thrill but not really romance. Lucinda is sex-driven but romantically frustrated, and it's not really any fault of her own that she's not ready for anything serious or long-term. She wouldn't show it, but it can get to her sometimes. Her fleeting thing of flirting with Aphmau was always intended to be light and fun and definitely not serious.

Lucinda also knows she's powerful, of course, but she's grown up shunned and hated for this legacy that she feels was given to her without permission so it's a complex feeling. She has a respect for her witchcraft and she's grown to admire her own power but its still a strange feeling. She can use it to heal and to attack -- most recently, she's saved Laurance's life, but she also knows that she's used it against KC as a part of their strange rivalry and that definitely stings a little. People in town like KC are well-liked, and by comparison Lucinda was a lot less worried about when it came to that duel. Most interestingly right now is her relationship with both Dante and Laurance, which is definitely something that's gonna pop up later.

Beyond her very personal feelings about her family -- in particular the fact that Lucinda is fighting to separate herself from the legacy of both of her parents who've hurt her in different ways, Lucinda has a really motherly presence, and she's incredibly important to both Laurance and Dante.

She and Laurance respect each other. It started off as just a mutual understanding because they're very similar, not just in wit and cunning but in some of the experiences they had in their hometowns and growing up. They kind of see each other for what they are, so he trusts her to take care of him and is willing to strip down and let her heal him and talk with him. It's important to me especially because Laurance and Aph were really hasty friends and at the time they really believed that all they had was each other. It closed the both of them off from other people because they only had that one confidant in all the world. They clicked instantly. It was impulsive and while they thought it would last forever obviously it really couldn't. You can already see them drifting a little. But Laurance is finding comfort in new people too and opening himself up to help a little bit, with Luci and Garroth especially, and also with Dante even though its strained.

Lucinda and Dante do not really see each other at all. There's not too much understanding there, especially not from Dante. He spent a really long time afraid of her and being guided by his biases when it comes to magic and power. But she's kind of fascinated by him and what's going on with him and you'll see it come up later that Lucinda really wants to protect Dante and offer him support. And he really in turn needs to confide in her. They'll bond eventually, they'll end up getting really close. There's some friendships in Loverman that mean so much to me, maybe even more than the main couples, and the bonds that Lucinda has with Laurance and Dante are two of those. There are more.

Other than Dante, Lucinda's also one of the most aware characters of Garroth and Laurance's arrangement. Right now they're stuck in their friends with benefits stage and can't really admit to anything serious but a lot of people are so busy that they can't really figure out what's happening behind the scenes. But Lucinda's always been very observant and she sees everything. She keeps everyone's secrets, including her own. She and Dante should totally chat about that huh

I like her :) its ok if u disagree with my character takes because i really don't care its my world and these minecraft blocks sure are living in it

[leatherlaceandrope]

Hi, call me Legion. This is my really kinky sideblog where I cum come to be horny. I'm a good and sometimes feisty kitty. Don't worry, I try not scratch and bite too hard. I prefer cuddles and pets most of the time. 😻😻😻

I'm a 31 year old trans creature man and go by he/him and it/its pronouns. It's complicated and kinda fluid, like it's 5d spacetime instead of just 4d. Also still feminine because I love cute and pretty things. And as my blog description says, bisexual because I specifically like to go by vibe more than anything else. So, really just plain queer.

I'm also a polyfrag DID system, so different parts have slightly different preferences. We're not likely to talk about it outside this post but it is important. It basically means our gatekeeper team has full control of what can and can't be done to our mind. Some of us refer to one of our oldest alters as Sir, because right now we need him to fill a dominant role for us. System relationships have been our main way of exploring what we like. If you do want to see that mess of recovery, it's @eldritch-queern-magicat.

As a whole, I'm not looking for any serious relationships. I don't care if I just happen to fall into one, but I'm not actively looking. There's a lot of other stuff I need to sort out first before I get to that point. This is simply about having fun with others.

Anyway here's the stuff I'm definitely into:

Hypnosis/mindlessness/brainwashing

Dronification/robotification/dollification

Objectification (with praise/aftercare)

Tentacles/monster fucking

Bondage

Pet play

Spanking/biting (not super hard though)

Edging/orgasm denial

Bimbofication/dumbification (because feminine yay plus I think way too much sometimes)

Mommy domme little boy

There are other things, but you'll have to message me privately for those because they're really not for everybody and are entirely restricted to fantasy roleplay (because puberty did some weird things I'm still figuring out)

Other notes about what I like:

I'm always a kitty-cat first but I'm not against exploring playing as other animals (this can be creative because I love animals in general)

Please call me a cute little thing or something like it, or pretty

Femboy, girlboy, or girly boy are cool, too

My top is my chest, and those are the only words I want used

Though you may call my bottom some variation of man/boy pussy/cunt

It/its pronouns aren't totally for kinky reasons but they do amplify some of the effects by nature of their common use

I'm often eager to please and make sure other participants are having a good time so I expect needs to be communicated clearly

I've got a history of being really shy with others so even a bit of praise can go so far because I want to be appreciated

You're gonna have to build up to some of the spicy stuff I'm not listing here to make sure you actually respect boundaries

And then my absolute HARD NOs:

Tickling, bodily waste (scat, piss, vomit, etc), weight loss/gain, age play, race play, incest, any physical endangerment (I'm putting breath-play (that isn't just holding your breath longer than normal) under this, as an asthmatic)

If something you're into isn't on the list of stuff I'm definitely into, but it's not listed as a hard no, message me and we can talk about it. I'm not just going to close myself off to new ideas or kinks even if I don't understand them. May even lead to expanding my yay list. I'm an incredibly curious person.

My DNI is the basics for a kink blog, really. I don't want bigots and assholes here, and ABSOLUTELY NO ONE UNDER THE AGE OF 18. No minors. This is an adult-only space. That said, if you don't have your age listed and easy to find, that's on you. I will not be held responsible for the ‘what if’ you happen to be under age 18 but just aren't saying so/are actually lying. But I will use my own discretion if I have reason to suspect you're under 18. If confirmed, you will be reported and blocked. I'm operating on good faith of only adults interacting with this sideblog. Any form of age indication, even if you just say 18+ only or something, still makes me feel more comfortable with interacting here than none.

If you want something for some non-sexual, still weird fun, allow me to direct you to my general audiences drone roleplay blog, @drone-unit8454. Just remember to keep the horny shit here.

No unsolicited real life pictures by the way! And pictures of genitals will be responded to appropriately by you ending up blocked. I'm also absolutely not be giving out any pictures of myself. I'm really shy about showing myself to people online. Especially since it's Tumblr. What I do accept are things like spirals and other such gifs. If you're not sure about something, just ask.

I have the most real world experience as a sub, but if you're exclusively a sub, I wouldn't mind acting as a soft, service-oriented dom. Like I said, I'm eager to please (but let's also take it easy starting out). Either way, I'll always try to be flexible within reason. My ask box and messages are open.

Will probably edit this thing as time goes on.

[shinydixon]

seeing a vq/hellcheer go crazy in a comment and tell a steddie that chrissy is bisexual made me realize there is absolutely no chance of conversation with them. they're too far gone in their own delusion. they live in this bubble where they yell at and block anyone with a different opinion than theirs thus creating this echo chamber where the only opinions they have are coming from their own group. and pls don't get me wrong, chrissy could be bi. the thing is, they claim to love hellcheer so much and say that is canon but there wasn't a single scene where it was implied/stated chrissy was bi in canon. they also call her eddie's gf when she wasn't. they don't see chrissy as a character. they see grace, an actress who is bisexual and in a relationship with someone else and they don't respect that because they want grace and joe to live out what chrissy and eddie didn't. the truth is, chrissy doesn't even have ten minutes of screentime. the only time we really see her talking to joe is during the forest scene where there's this very innocent and kind interaction between them. it's when we learn that eddie is a sweetheart. then the scene where she gets killed. that's it. and the truth of the matter is, before eddie got this popular, before vol2 dropped with the guitar scene, the duffer brothers had no problem stating the forest scene was just to introduce vecna. then hellcheer got huge, eddie got huge, couples were dressing up as them during halloween (i think steddie is bigger than hellcheer and there were a lot of people dressing up as them too. it makes me mad how that's never brought up. thankfully joe hyped us up a lot, especially when he kept mentioning steve during cons.), and ooooh more money incoming, more people watching the show and suddenly to the duffer brothers hellcheer was something that could have happened and they regret killing chrissy right away. yeah. sure. joe has also says 'yeah, it -ship name- could've worked' to every ship question he gets. and people don't seem to understand he won't go into a profound rant about eddie's love life. he's said yes to steddie, hellcheer and johnatan/steve. he won't sit there at a con, look straight into a fan's face and say 'no, you're wrong, you absolute buffoon, this ship would never ever ever ever work' but anyway, yeah, that's what i wanted to say. vqs will forever drown in their own delusions and convince themselves they're the victms.

I love how Joe brings up Steve and when he does, he has that grin on his face 😭😭😭🤍🤍🤍

Also, it's no secret they can't separate chrissy from grace, which is something Grace kinda did in the past (chrissy got called regular white girl and she said "at least my cat doesn't think I'm regular"... Who was talking about you? They were talking about Chrissy lol).

Anyway, I don't care what vq say, considering they always makes up things, ⭐JOE IS CO-CAPTAIN OF STEDDIE ⭐

And about Duffer? They say whatever brings money in their pockets

[fastidious-and-a-mess]

I keep getting disappointed by how often I serch for riz fan content only to see Fariz (or other Riz ships included in it) I started watch fh cause I heard people talking about riz being aroace, good aroace characters are hard to find and I love all of them that I do find. so to see so much of the fandom just dismiss Riz being aroace in favor of their ships is very disappointing

disclaimer; in writing this response, i tended to lean more towards talking about fic and less about fanart because that’s where i’ve seen the most of what you’re talking about. also, in some places i strayed to talking about aroace characters in general and not just riz, which honestly i feel is appropriate because what happens to him happens to a lot of characters.

i totally understand what you mean. as an aroace person, it can be really disheartening to see things like “aroace people can still be in relationships!” etc etc.

honestly a lot of the fabriz content i’ve come across has been with demi!riz, which i don’t have too much of an issues with? in canon, he’s never had close friends like the bad kids before, so he’d never formed that close bond with anyone that would lead him to discovering his sexuality. i’ve read a few fics that do this pretty well, and in this context personally i think putting riz into romantic relationships is fine. not great, but not flat out erasure either.

although, sometimes it does feel like an excuse to be able to put him into relationships. like someone interpreting riz’s kind of vague sexuality in a way that allows them to write him in a ship without technically erasing his aro/ace-ness. and you’re absolutely right, that can feel very dismissive.

there’s a similar thing with people writing him aroace and still writing him into qprs. like, yes aroace people are often involved in exclusive and intimate relationships that, although explicitly not romantic or sexual, often involve a lot of the same mechanics as those relationships. but sometimes people just use that as an excuse to effectively write him into a traditional romantic/sexual relationship. they’ll think it’s fine because they’ll say he’s still aroace and it’s a qpr but i can tell there’s a very subtle difference between actually aro/ace people writing him in a qpr and allo people writing him in a qpr.

but then there’s so much riz content that just. chooses to ignore it completely. they’ll write riz into relationships with absolutely zero consideration for how he canonically is some flavor of aroace. to his aroace-ness implied or coding and not explicitly canon because they never label it would be like say fig’s queerness is only implied or coded because they never label it. fig kisses girls, and without labels that’s MORE than “enough” for her to be acknowledged as canonically queer, but riz has conversation after conversation after offhand comment about how he isn’t into the whole crushes relationships kissing thing, and for some people it’s STILL not enough to “earn” him a queer label. some people are quicker to accept a bisexual gorgug headcanon, which to my knowledge was never implied or suggested in canon at all, than to accept riz’s very canon aromantic/asexual identity. and it’s frustrating.

WHOOPS this was longer than i intended. as always. but anyways TL,DR: there are some instances where, when given proper nuance, depth, and care, riz can be appropriately written into a relationship without erasing his aroace identity. however, all too often people attempt to do that or say they attempt to do that and instead use those practices as an excuse to write him, effectively, alloromantic/allosexual. people just flat out ignoring and erasing his canon identity for the sake of their ships is also a common problem. so, even though there are a few nuanced exceptions, by and large i completely agree. aroace characters just don’t get the same respect for their identities that other queer characters do.

[brothermouse]

Do you think that patriarchal blessings could be homophobic/heteronormative in terms of who you're supposed to marry? I am a lesbian and my blessing details me finding my husband and the 4+ children that we're supposed to have together, and it honestly feels like God has 0 understanding of me as a human being because I don't want to marry a man, nor do I want any children.

Am I crazy for thinking maybe these AREN'T the words that I was supposed to hear about my actual life and instead something that I was TOLD rather than what's meant for me? I've always, ALWAYS been taught that the patriarchal blessing is law and something that you cannot escape as long as you are faithful, even if you don't want those blessings.

I just don't feel like I've ever really heard any LBBTQ+ members talk about their patriarchal blessings in terms of their queerness and I was interested for your thoughts.

Patriarchal blessings are a strange beast to figure out. Not quite scripture, not quite fortune telling, mystical yet codified.

I think you’re right that most blessings use gendered terms where those specific genders are inaccurate. I think that comes down to the way we receive the blessings. I imagine each Patriarch is different, but the way they receive revelation on what the blessing should say ought to be reasonably similar to the ways other revelation is received.

That is to say, with a few exceptions, revelation tends to be a vibe that is put into words. The vibes may be 100% accurate, but the words are going to be limited to the patriarch’s vocabulary.

For example; my blessing contains the following line: “I bless you that at the right time you will find a young lady…and that you will be happily married.” Now, knowing that I am bisexual, a “young lady” is is not the only option. Also, as I creep into my 30s a young lady is becoming one of the more problematic options. But here’s the thing: I received my blessing in 2008. Same sex marriage was legalized in the USA in 2015. My patriarch was probably in his 70s at the time. So, the idea that someone could marry either gender was probably not a possibility he had ever really considered. Not part of his vocabulary, you see? As for the “young” part, I’m convinced that this man would call any woman he met a young lady as, what he would consider, a sign of respect, regardless of age.

So he got an impression: “this person will get married at the right time to a good person.” Given the local culture and his own vocabulary, he said “at the right time you will marry a young lady”.

What I guess I’m trying to say is that the blessing itself isn’t the written words on the page. The ink on paper is just an access point. Something you can reference in your questions to God. I.e. “in this line, the patriarch said this, what did you tell him to prompt that?”

In your case it may be that God told the patriarch that you and a partner will lovingly care for and protect others. Because of the limits of his social and cultural vocabulary, he interpreted that to mean marriage with children.

It might be helpful to try and make an “Inspired Version” of your blessing. Prayerfully go line by line and rewrite it in your own words as the spirit dictates. Be sure to recognize that you, too, have a limited vocabulary to work with, and you may want to revisit and revise in the future.

Now, as for this:

I've always, ALWAYS been taught that the patriarchal blessing is law and something that you cannot escape as long as you are faithful, even if you don't want those blessings.

I believe that you were taught incorrectly. God respects your agency, even if humans don’t. He will not give you a “blessing” that you don’t want. It’s important to remember that all teachings not directly from the spirit come from imperfect mouths. If a teaching doesn’t pass the smell test for you, there’s probably a good reason.

There are mortal things and there are divine things. As part of the Plan of Salvation, we are largely cut off from the divine things for our protection. As long as we get our information of the divine through flawed mortal tools we can easily be forgiven for getting things wrong. If you don’t understand your patriarchal blessing, that’s ok. You probably never will fully understand it. As long as you try to understand, that’s enough.

[ayamturd]

bisexual│mcyt hc

warnings: small mentions of hate, fluff

prompt: (requested 1 & 2) “Hello uh I saw one of your posts about the dream smp reacting to you coming out so I was wondering if you haven't already done it can you do dream smp reacting to you coming out as bisexual?” 

“Hello yamturd so I was wondering if maybe you could do tubbo, Tommy and Ranboo reacting to reader coming out as bisexual or lesbian if you haven't already done it :)” 

pairings: irl platonic! dream, ranboo, tommy and tubbo ; c!technoblade

a/n: if i offend or misinterpret anything in this hc, please feel free to message and correct me otherwise. i will always try to correct or delete this post if asked so <33

sending my love to all those who identify as bisexual <33

wc: (1.5k) - m.list

dream - 

considering his prideful personality sometimes, you probably wanted to play with his ego and drop subtle hints

not anything too obvious, but enough to make him kick himself when he realizes

though it was admittedly difficult since he plays into the dnf ship so much that he thinks you’re also joking more than half the time 

imagine you two were in a voice call one evening and randomly discussing the recent fanon and what would be funny to turn into canon (to mess with the fandom)

you’ve been recently shipped with two other content creators, both of opposing female and male gender, separately and together

“Honestly, I wouldn’t mind hitting that.” “Which one?” “Both.”

He’d laugh, but you didn’t.

“Wait, you’re serious? You actually identify as…?” “Bisexual. Yeah, I’m pretty sure anyway.” “Y/n, that’s amazing.”

takes pride in the fact that you trust him, but would feign being upset that you messed with him for as long as you did

be jokingly offended if he found out someone knew before him

“Wait…” “Yes?” “You told Bad??” “Yeah, he was one of the first.” “W— Why??”

It was your turn to laugh while he gawked in disbelief.

“It’s Bad! Of course I told him.” “… Fair enough.”

hate is a given, and he’ll always be there to support and defend you

he’ll always ask your permission before taking any action, however, because he respects you too much and knows you can fight your own battles

dream is someone will show relentless support, whether that be through words or moral support, he’ll always be there for you 

c!technoblade - 

i honestly feel like you never officially came out to techno

as you began to recognize yourself as bisexual, you slowly expressed yourself around him more openly to the point where he unconsciously knew

it’d probably would have hit him in the most random moment after months of assuming he knew

imagine you’re in the midst of battle when techno paused entirely with wide eyes 

“Y/n!” “What!?” “Are you gay??”

you would tease him when discussing your love life in one-sided conversations with him; him basically choosing to ignore you when you talk to him

“Honestly, Techno, how could you not want to hit that?” “Please, just stop.”

(i’ve written this before but will stand by this that) he truly doesn’t care for your sexuality

you’re a friend, someone he trusts and relies on, he doesn’t need to consider who you’re attracted to since he sees you for your skills and friendship

the only, and only time he is mindful of your sexuality depends on others unnecessary comments about it

the smp is a known judgement free land, but there will always be someone with ignorant opinions that he is always quick to shut down (or kill)

nothing much can be said besides the fact that you’ll always be y/n to him: a loyal friend and someone he would fight the world for

ranboo - 

oh sweet ranboo, dear ranboo

considering how openly supportive and kind he naturally is, you didn’t question the idea of telling him

i’d like to imagine that unlike most where you planned or waited to tell, the moment you knew, he would know soon after

imagine you called him before he began his lore stream to hype him up

you both were talking about more mundane things to calm his nerves as people joined when you brought it up

“Oh actually, before you start, I wanted to tell you something.” “Sure, what is it?” “Well, I— I’m Bisexual.” “…You’re tELLING ME THIS WHEN I’M ABOUT TO START MY STREAM??” “Y/n! I’m so happy for you, that’s amazing!”

he’s incredibly patient concerning how you wanted others to know or when you were ready to be completely out

similar to c!techno with the same beliefs you’re still y/n, and nothing has changed besides you coming out as yourself

he’s your go to when days are rough, because he knows how to help you understand you’re still loved as the same y/n and nothing less

“Hey, hey, listen to me. I love you, y/n. We all do, and you’ll never be alone when things get rough, alright?” (love /p)

knows how to silently deal with hate in his chat unless it becomes evident enough to address it (doesn’t want to bring attention to meaningless words until it becomes serious)

ranboo’s your rock and makes show that he’ll never believe anything other than that you deserve love

tommyinnit - 

as someone who took pride in defending the LGBTQ+ community, you had no hesitation when coming out to tommy

if any, your reluctance would come from accepting yourself to the point to be open with other people

it’s not as if he didn’t accept you, he could never imagine doing so in the slightest, but he probably wouldn’t know what to say initially

imagine you both were in the midst of playing bedwars together in a recording for a video

he had been busy gathering emeralds while you remained at the base, and the comforting silence gave you the confidence to blindly address it

“Hey Tommy?” “What, y/n? I’m in the middle of something right now.” “Oh, um, I’m pretty sure I’m bisexual.” “…” “…Tommy?” “…” “T— Tommy?”

it’d be dead quiet for a few seconds before you heard the noise of him rustling in realization

“Wait wait wait, you’re serious? You’re bisexual?” “Haha yeah, yeah, I am.” “WHA—!”

he was happy for you, to say the least

tommy loves to joke, and one he loved to make would be your attraction to both genders

you like women? pog!

you like men? a shame, honestly

if you were publicly out, his favorite bit would be to include you in his obnoxious swooning

imagine he was streaming while talking about his love for women

“Boys, honestly, the ladies just can’t resist me.”

The ding of discord notified you entering the call, the sound of your laughter immediately coming through.

“I agree, Tommy, I definitely agree.” “Y/n! You are attracted to women, and I am also attracted to women. You can agree women are amazing, yes?” “I can, Tommy. Women are indeed amazing.” “Good lad!” “Tommy, you do realize I’m not only attracted to w—” “Shush, we don’t speak of that.”

he showed his support by normalizing your sexuality, his acceptance quick and easily integrated into your lives

(this is getting long but—) tommy was well aware he lacked some knowledge when being in the LGBTQ+ community, but openly voiced his ignorance as a sign of awareness itself

he was always quick to correct either himself or others, he refused to accept slander of any type in his streams

would probably try to keep it light heartedly, but scold nonetheless

tommy was your figurative cheerleader, always there to include and uplift you, whether that be through the smallest gestures or loudest cheers

tubbo - 

poor tubbo

since he wasn’t the most careful with secrets, you probably withheld telling him till you were ready for most to know

this isn’t to deter anything of not trusting him, he’s still supportive and loving tubbo that wouldn’t dare do anything purposeful against you

if anything, you might have forgotten that he didn’t know when you were casually taking about it within a group

imagine you and Ranboo were trying to get him to sleep one early morning but gave up

you started talking about personal stuff and the topic of your love life came up, specifically the attraction to someone of the same gender

“I don’t know, Ranboo, I mean, I think I like them but at the same time I’m not sure.” “That’s fai—” “Wait, y/n. You’re gay??” “Bisexual, actually.” “WaAA—”

his very sleep deprived state was extremely happy and emotional for you

he’s like the little duckling with a knife, like he loves you completely but will try to hurt anyone that offends you

like tommy, he has no personal knowledge when being in the LGBTQ+ community but will solely learn for your sake

whether you’re younger or not, tubbo never fails to remind you that he looks up to you

he gives his all and won’t hesitate to provide in any way he can if needed

“You matter,” he’ll always say, “you’re important and no one else’s opinion matter.”

is proud to be your friend and expresses his platonic love in full, for you’re you and are so brave to be yourself despite all

choosing not to tag my usual taglist just cause its a headcanon with a specific request <33 (huge ty to @basilly​ and @inniterhq​ though for the advice/motivation to finish this)