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a thread I really want for michael is his fight with lucifer.
#��ˏˋ ⭐ ˎˊ˗ ─ ooc. ❛ sorry I got a loud mouth ❜#cuz it was the hardest most painful thing he had to do#and neither of them could hold back#having no choice but really lay it out#it wasnt like their sparring before#each hit michael delivers is filled with dread#with anger and sadness#with duty
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Made a faintly insane list of of every animated movie I have good enough memories of to feel confident ranking, although some of them I would probably move around if I saw them more recently....
#Apparently “It's Such a Beautiful Day” is my favorite American Animated Movie which is not something i REALIZED before I made this...#movies i haven't seen since i was a little kid aren't on here which excludes a lot of Disney Classics. I have seen more animovies than this#i made up the word animovies to fit that sentence in that tag#also i watched all of the nge reboot movies but it was several years ago and I genuinely do not remember anything that happened in them#i remember not liking them compared to the tone of the series or original movie or thinking they contributed much#despite ostensibly fleshing out the world more#the lower you go on this list the more deranged it looks#i am not actually a big Pixar stan or anything. i do feel like this list makes LUCA being my highest ranked Pixar movie make sense tho..#like. contextualizes that choice by laying bare my Proclivities#i have not watched as much complete and utter dogshit slop as Emily#i DID make her watch Igor (2008) tho it was like... not actually terrible but i went in with my expectations on the ground#i made this list when we were watching strange world and strange world didn't end up on this list on account of me not actually paying#enough attention on account of the deep thought i was putting into this instead#texting#off topic#I have not been having an easy time doing creative things so you get movie and book opinions#i feel vaguely apologetic for some of the choices in this. but not really. It's ranked 100% by how much i enjoyed it there is no pretense o#objectivity
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Reading MW takes on Twitter is like reading a summary of the Bible from someone who only watched like a Family Guy family special about it
#did we play the same game? did we see the same themes yes themes as in plural#like my god get off ur fucking high horses or stop trying to make a unique theory just to be unique#like if it clearly doesn’t fit the plot it causes unnecessary arguments#people are weird and weirdly obsessed with making like the issues in the game solely interpersonal when it is clearly very institutional#with everything we learn about PE and how hard they make it to seek justice or safety#and ur treating it like the average person is a horrible troll monster#when the game really tries to show you how humans people become bad or can be enabled to do their worse through many different ways#but go ahead make it seem like all the men are like willingly Jimmy’s goon squad of predator enablers pls pls pls just look from another#view point I’m begging yall sometimes it’s good to leave those echo chambers#like taking parts of conversations out of context to make characters look better or worse is literally a tactic Jimmy uses ur using Jimmy#tactics to prove ur point dummy head#side tag tangent I am also very annoyed with how many people really do think Curly could’ve just had changes made to the ship during the#travel like a big point is that they barely had resources to just survive regularly#other than random scrap and wires for serious repairs they def didn’t just have locks laying about nor are the doors outside of medical and#the cockpit are suited to install locks like the whole point of the illusion of choice#is that at the end the options presented were never gonna be viable whether it was because of the time needed to execute them the standards#they were under or their lack of resources all mainly caused by PE no matter how much Curly#wanted to do something there’s very little he could’ve#even the ideas posed we have would have only happened after the assault and done little to actually stop the crash when you think about it#and it’s sad and sounds weird but that’s the case#mouthwashing
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i kind of knew in theory that all my hobbies involved my hands but i kind of just ignored it n was like oh well im sure id manage
top ten pics taken seconds before disaster
#tldr a lot of drawing + my dorm desk is Really Bad for my wrists and i didn’t realize has kind of fucked me up bad#i don’t do basically anything all week until it stops hurting and i draw a tiny bit and it goes back to hurting#i have literally nothing to do w myself bc brain doesn’t want to do anything but draw write or game and i Can’t Do Those Things#and even when my wrist stops hurting i have to basically exchange any time i’ve earned to do my classwork#leaving no time for myself and my own work unless i say fuck it and gamble more strain#i don’t want to say it’s depressing me bc it feels. pathetic? but as someone who Has to get ideas out lest they start rotting him#it’s… not great#on top of some irl frustrations it’s made for a kind of glum few weeks#oh well. back to laying on my side watching youtube i guess#sparks speaks#vent#? yeah i guess#“i’m not depressed” says the guy who wakes up feels his hand twinge and immediately almost starts crying#like. lame ass behavior but it’s not like it’s a choice#i just wish it didn’t make me so mean. i’ve started avoiding ppl cause i’ve been getting mad rlly easily#which is not helpinggggg
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Hear me out (or don't... it's fine I'm just venting and mean) yeah um I don't believe Chakotay was saved in Prod*gy s2.
#the 'time travel' makes no sense when you think on it. What happened to Prime Chakotay? He got killed they showed that.#At the end s1 Janeway finds an 'alternate chakotay in an alternate timeline' and that's the one they go and get#we saw the original get merc'd in the message. That ACTUALLY happened. Lmao.....#They didn't prevent THAT death because they didn't go to THAT Solum with the Infinity and stop it from happening#instead it was 'ALTERNATE#' implying other.#OG Chakotay wasn't taken over by the alternative one either nothing suggests that was the direction for him in s2#they didn't do anything like 'well you see chakotay because at the end of s2 when we converged timestreams you have merged with your other'#if they did want to recover the original from s1 then keep that clear instead of being convoluted dont use an alternate timeline wtf#instead the plot was focused on gywns stupid fucking paradox plot and her being fixed#chakotay was the one in a paradox too did that not matter nah dw about it he had to die for this outcome or someshit lmao why#In the extended message given to admiral janeway it shows him clearly getting left behind and surrounded. Sadly no one intervened.#I dont understand why they couldnt have just made s2 about his rescue alone IF they took their time it wouldnt be so difficult#to follow#above that the one they rescued was ruined by the 10 year gap so he wasn't 'saved' at all. God i hate s2 when you break it apart#I dunno the more i look at s2 Janeway and Chakotay the more upsetting it is. Janeway would NOT have settled for an imposter.#everyone going goo-goo gaa gaa over s2 but it's sloppy af imo and undermines a huge portion voyagers struggles#id really like them to flatly lay out their ideas because literally nothing ive heard explains the story or choices of s2 with conviction#instead it's oh clap for wesley or the new vulcan and other references yay#describe to me your timetravel clearly and i'll happily take a seat on it (there is still other crap stuff mind you)#this is the most repressed shit i my head i swear#im angry because s1 is so clearly mapped out to a brilliant degree and for whatever reason it's not in s2#i can see through it#insultingly people are eating it up and claiming it's better than ever nah dawg embarrassing#there are nice ideas inside s2 but they arent adequately rewarded#it doesnt compare to the timetravel in other trek because they kept it clear#i mean it could have been an interesting parallel to endgame but in the end janeway didnt even rescue him lmao they dropped her#why bother building up this mission only for her to give up and go 'i'll hand it over because im told to'. Janeway had fuck all this season#let alone settle for not fixing her own timeline and her own friends deadly circumstance dw just grab another one from the shelf i guess#the emotional fallout was absolutely missed because they didnt elaborate on anything. Plenty of show but no substance from the characters
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The curse of starting something new and suddenly seeing it everywhere is so real. If you asked me what 'Malevolent' was two weeks ago I'd have no idea but now i keep seeing it on every site I'm on ahsjsjdkkff
#I'm going to have to filter the tags i want to listen to this unspoiled#or at least as unspoiled as possible. as i was already spoiled on the first reveal before starting#ive blocked it in other places but somehow thought tumblr would be safe because id never seen anyone i follow post about it#and then BOOOM ajajsjjd#malevolent#rambles#its really fun! 10/10. very choose your own adventure horror game vibes as of part 16#in the way the characters discuss choices and the way things are layed out at least. its been a good time
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the way that I can't get either of my housemates to help cover the missing rent for february. girl we are going to get evicted
#will nawt pretend that an extra 200 from each of us is easy to come up with but 'I can't' isn't really an option#because the other choice is we get evicted#like those are the two things that happen#either we pay it or we get evicted its really that simple#and I don't have an extra 635 dollars laying around so.#ppl who have never been homeless before really don't take housing seriously huh#like I will also struggle to come up w that money but they are so nonchalant about it#like you do realize that if we don't pay it we'll be homeless right#like its not an oopsy that can be fixed later we will be kicked out#well. hopefully we find someone to immediately move in within the next week#happy birthday to me!#ghost posts#text
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god i really am the queen of fb marketplace...... i am selling so much junk i didn't really use. i mean, some junk i really liked too, but c'est la vie mes amies...... you gotta make sacrifices when you're broke 💀
#lay text#last month i sold my beloved switch :'(#with my fave spongebob game aahhh........#this month i'm selling a bookshelf that i used to store my clothes in but like. i have no other choice gkdsjgj#i gotta make enough $$ to pay the rest of my rent in 2 weeks#and then i still won't have anything to buy essentials for myself & my buns so i need to hustle even MORE#rlyyyy hoping i can finally get paid by my client + get the $100cad odsp gives you when you work in a certain month#cuz i didn't fill up the paperwork for the last 2 months and i did make a bit of money both months so ????#hopefully when my odsp worker comes back from vacation tmrw she can hook me up with that $$ ;w;#pray for me............#all my issues would be solved#i mean not really but. i would at least be out of emergency mode. i would at least get more hay for my buns#fb stuff + the donation i got (tysm!!!) will be enough for rent but i'll still need hay + leafy greens. and feeding myself would be nice to
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It’s weird. I don’t normally cuddle with my other plushies (despite having 20 of ‘em) after the first day or so, even when I’m sick or hurt to the point where i basically have to be on bed rest, and yet. For some reason cuddling the ouaw plushes make me feel better. These little guys did not leave my arms when I was sick, and I keep alternating between Frost and Torbek right now (if not both, depending on my position and how I’m feeling)
I mean, they don’t make the pain go away, but they make it a bit more bearable. Until my grandma comes back with my pain meds, at least
#I feel really bad about needing everyone in my family to help me or to grab things for me#but I also don’t really have a choice if that makes sense?#it hurts to walk and to get into and out of bed#I mean hell. I just got up to refill my cup with something cold and fresh#rather than the room temperature water from last night#and I needed my aunt to help me get up#and my back is seizing bc Im having to sleep on the couch for the time being#and since I can’t lay on my back#where the cushions are firmest#my spine is screaming at me as if I’ve been up on my feet for 24 hours straight#another thing that sucks is that I can’t sleep#like I’m tired. I’ve barely gotten 4-5 hours worth of sleep in 2 days#but bc of the couch and the pain I just can’t. even after taking pain meds#actually the pain meds just made me want to vomit#even tho I took them immediately after eating dinner so it’s not like I was on an empty stomach#I’m just. not having a good time rn lol. I swear every week feels like a stronger gut punch
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anyone else up trying not to think too hard about the future or is it just me haha
#friday chats#there's just so many THINGS y'all#why the fuck is college so expensive. why the fuck is the college i want to go to so much MORE expensive#will the scholarships i applied to email me back? so far the answer is no#and i'm worried that NONE of the scholarships i have applied to/am currently applying to will do so#and then i'll have to go with my second choice and i really don't wanna go there bc it's where my parents want me to go#and it's all so much to think about. on top of my current schoolwork no less#not to mention i'll have to get used to living on my own and being far away from my friends and that's a WHOLE 'nother thing#and i just wanna lay facedown on the floor and cry a bit about it yknow?#i know some of you are out of college/currently in college how did/do y'all manage#genuine question btw please help#i am very overwhelmed
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Hirogaru Sky! Pretty Cure, Episode 15 but only Battamonda's scenes because I cannot believe he already went off like this
#hirogaru sky precure#hirogaru sky pretty cure#pretty cure!#pretty cure#precure clip#battamonda#you guys he was insane for this#I LOVE THE HIM. LOSING. BUT STILL CHOOSING TO LAY DOWN A FINAL BATTLE STYLE FIGHT SOLEY BC HE WANTS TO#AND IS UPSET#IN GENERAL oh anger problems i love this#also HIS VA!!!!!! OMG!!!!!#and i love his antenna things going up when he's upset it was more noticable this ep already#TIME SKIPPING HIS INTRO THING LIKE W H A T !!! A CHOICE FOR SURE they really have Plans for this season DON'T THEY!!#either way lookin real forward to finding out more abt him#hirogaru sky spoilers
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#man. sometimes youre 13 again laying in bed fully dressed and you just. can't get up.#and i know i need to. i have to get up and eat and take care of myself but im just. /so tired/ of enduring#thought i was doing so well not breaking down considering everything. but its not like i really have a choice.#and i just wanna pull a blanket over my head and wash it all out. wake me up next year i dont wanna do this one
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WHAOFH
This is literally so fucking funny I was just laying down thinking about all the potential for stupid family/found family dynamics and was like. Man... I really haven't given Thrasir a lot of thought .... I wonder when she'll be summonable again..... Oh? Now? Hm. Okay. Freyja color sharing? Augh.... it May be useful to get her........ for studying purposes .......... maybe I'll give it a shot -- AH
#feh#i do like veronica i do have a soft spot for her... i'm just soooo fixated on the askr sibs lmfao#literally for real as i was laying down flat face down like. ah .... idk if i'll even get her..... like ever...........#maybe i'll have no choice ...... but to read wiki page........ <- my absolute last resort for studying The Character.#i REALLY prefer Having the character bc just the voice lines alone can IMMEDIATELY endear me to them#which is EXACTLY what happened like OUGHGHH..... THRASIR......... girl......... 🥲🥲💔💔💔💔#THE HOSTILITY AT ALFONSE. ALWAYS FUCKING GETS ME whether it's her or veronica it's always SO funny to me#and the softness at sharena....... ough....... AND THE. IMMEDIATE EMOTIONAL CONFLICT/SHUTDOWN.#ough.....#also hey. what even is thrasir's goal now. now that (as much as i try to ignore/deny it) bruno is like. DEAD dead.#like surely the bruno of her world is dead like lif's sharena and you know. everyone else on earth (zenith?)#but like. actually. maybe that doesn't even matter??? bc lif hardly even interacts w our sharena anyway????#feh lore always mindfucks me tbh i can't think about it too hard or i get all thunked out.#still i think it would be neat. if they brought bruno back. by. any means necessary.#thrasir
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IGNORE ME I'M SORRY I KEEP TALKING ABT IT i'm just so not used to my cat not being around and it kinda kills me inside to not hear him walking around or meowing or sleeping at the bottom of the staircase anymore... it used to be like a nightly routine where i'd go downstairs and make myself a drink and give him some water and now i just. don't even wanna go down there anymore.
#you really underestimate how different things will be when they're gone. 18 years of learning his new routines and favorite places to nap#and it's just all. gone. not like i didn't experience it but just the fact that i will never experience it with him again... it's so hard#& that's like the last vestige of my childhood gone too. i mean i got my current dog when i was around 13/14 and she's gettin' up there too#so it's just like. my life dropped out from under me and i'm desperately clinging to what is left but there's not much#everything feels so hollow and i don't know hoe to vocalize that because my family is always trying so hard to heal and i don't want to#make their grief process any harder by accidentally awakening the same latent feelings in them. or whatever#i just miss him so so much but i know we made the right choice. he was old and we had a lot of good years together and we saved him from#spending his last few days in suffering by ending his pain early and offering him as much love and warmth and comfort as we could#and i know he appreaciated it and i know he loves us all and like that's not the part i have issue with#it's just. his lack of presence. i don't deny that his ghost may be around (my famjly is very spiritual like that and i have heard him) but#physically he's gone forever except for chunks of his fur and whatever else is laying around#loss is just so fucking unfair because it's completely understandable and makes total sense but it will never ever be unable to be felt...#idk. i'm just exhausted and sad and i miss my little guy. hell i still miss my dog and that happened like 5 years ago#love never goes away it just changes shaoe and makes you really really sad and kinda wanna kill youself but that would make THEM sad#so. you gotta live. you gotta be brave.
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Finally decided to jump in AO3′s Mariocest collection, which is really good btw I recommend Priorities Rewritten by Karatecake, easily my favorite one I read all night
Anyway I accidentally ended off on an Angst/Unrequited Love/Dark fic because I apparently cannot read warning tags so now I’m sad and it’s 5am so I have to go to bed sad
#I don't know how to use AO3 I love it it's so cool people there are incredibly powerful#I am just stupid#I have no reason to actually tag this Mariocest I don't wanna be the guy flooding the tag with personal posts#but it might end up there anyway sorry read the fic I linked and don't read anything else I guess dkfgjdfkjgk I'm annoying#Aaaaaaaaaaugh#I'm SUCH a bad Angst/Non-Con guy it just BUMS ME OUT#I have no idea how people do this more power to you and all but man#MAN#I don't even know how I got there it was ALSO the only Smut I read because I don't care about Smut#How did I GET HERE#I didn't read the damn tags is absolutely what happened it was my own fault#I did this#The best Mariocest fics aren't tagged Mariocest btw they're Mario/Luigi + Sibling Incest only#And a few that should be tagged Mario&Luigi but kfgjdkfjgf I don't think the kids are ready to know that difference just yet#I'm making this post to procrastinate going to bed because I'm legit gonna just lay there and be sad over this fic I read#And I don't know how to fix it#Hhhhhhhhhhhh I wanna write a Mariocest fic but how and about what other than the Bros Kiss huh#Brain tumble#Aight off to bed to be sad and mildly triggered by my own choice (accident) to read Fucked Up Shit#I dub-coned myself with a Fanfiction. I consented but did I really#Anyway.Good night to my Baled Mario plushie I kissie him head and know he is fine and nothing is wrong between him and Luigi#They are in romantic love
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James 1
James, a slave of God and of the Lord Christ Jesus: To the 12 tribes of the Dispersion. Greetings.
Consider it a great joy, my brothers, whenever you experience various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. But endurance must do its complete work, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing.
Now, if any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives to all generously and without criticizing, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith without doubting. For the doubter is like the surging sea, driven and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. An indecisive man is unstable in all his ways.
The brother of humble circumstances should boast in his exaltation, but the one who is rich should boast in his humiliation because he will pass away like a flower of the field. For the sun rises with its scorching heat and dries up the grass; its flower falls off, and its beautiful appearance is destroyed. In the same way, the rich man will wither away while pursuing his activities.
A man who endures trials is blessed, because when he passes the test he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.
No one undergoing a trial should say, "I am being tempted by God." For God is not tempted by evil, and He Himself doesn't tempt anyone. But each person is tempted when he is drawn away and enticed by his own evil desires. Then after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin, and when sin is fully grown, it gives birth to death.
Don't be deceived, dearly loved brothers. Every generous act and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights; with Him there is no variation or shadow cast by turning. By His own choice, He gave us a new birth by the message of truth so that we would be the firstfruits of His creatures.
My dearly loved brothers, understand this: Everyone must be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to anger, for man's anger does not accomplish God's righteousness. Therefore, ridding yourselves of all moral filth and evil, humbly receive the implanted word, which is able to save you.
But be doers of the word and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. Because if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man looking at his own face in a mirror. For he looks at himself, goes away, and immediately forgets the kind of man he was. But the one who looks intently into the perfect law of freedom and perseveres in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but one who does good works-- this person will be blessed in what he does.
If anyone thinks he is religious without controlling his tongue, then his religion is useless and he deceives himself. Pure and undefiled religion before our God and Father is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself unstained by the world.
#emphasis mine on phrases that jumped out tonight#I really love verse 18#where James explains that it is by God's own choice that we are saved#that God made that conscious decision to show each of His children individually what His salvation can do#that He would look at me and say#this is one who I will reveal My message of truth to that she may be born again into My family#that she may take on My characteristics by My own hand that will strength and sanctify and pursue her every day of her life#like how amazing that God would lay that out for every one of His children#the Bible really is the greatest love letter ever written#Thank You Lord for these wondrous things you have done and the plans you have for each of us!
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