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CREEPED VISUAL NOVEL Link, tutorial, extra art, Q&A, some chatter
The CREEPED Prologue is completely free and browser-ready. Gameplay is about 10 minutes. Please read the "tutorial" and notes before playing!
Follow Y/N and their dog, Max, through their grandparents' farm and a mysterious forest filled with...less than fortunate people!
PLAY HERE; works best on PC
This visual novel is powered by GOOGLE SLIDES! It has 0 programming and was created by one person in a little over a month, so please bear with any "bugs" and clunkiness!
TUTORIAL
>Click using mouse/trackpad >Go slowly to not break game >Do not use arrow or space keys
EXTRA NOTES:
>Works best on PC/Browser, I haven't tested the full game on mobile yet >In general, clicking the PNGs on the textbox (Apple, Teddy Bear, Hatchet, etc) will lead you to the right page >If you land on a page that tells you to "go back," that's when you should click the back-arrow key. If your cursor disappears, it doesn't register the click correctly >I recommend moving your cursor periodically to avoid it disappearing and sending you to the wrong page
EXTRA ART
some WIPS and the original sprite-style i was gonna choose LOOOOOOOL
Q&A
Q: Is this an x reader? A: This is a reader-insert, but it's not romantic and I try to keep it as neutral and unidentifiable as possible! Q: What's the plot? A: GENERALLY AND WITHOUT SPOILERS, your dog gets you into trouble and you're just looking to help him!
Q: Who is in the prologue? A: Tim, Brian, Toby, and Kate! More will be added in future chapters.
Q: When will future chapters be posted? A: Not sure! This took me about a month to do, and half was spent over winter break. I will try to get chapter 1 posted before summer, but I am a full-time student, employed, have extracurriculars, etc etc
ok thats all i only remember 4 questions feel free to ask more LMAO
CHATTER(because you know i can talk forever)
ok i just wanted to be able to talk about how the process was with this and how i feel about the results and whatnot...
ive been wanting to make a google slides visual novel since i was like 13 LOL it hit the point where i was repeatedly told i should just learn to code but i was like NOOOOO ITS GOTTA BE GOOGLE SLIDESSSS which is totally stupid but hey. i think that gives it some sort of simple charm that reminds me of being 16 and doing little projects in my room LOL i like working with the easiest tools . my bad
anyway. im just very happy LOL. it's not perfect but i feel like i came full circle in a sense?!?! i've been into creepypasta since i was 9 and it comforted me when things were really hard, and when i was 18 i was going through a really hard time and got back into creepypasta as a way to distract myself. i've always had a habit of throwing myself into fiction for escapism when things suuucked.
i'm 20 now but i've met SO many amazing people, had so many fun awesome exciting projects with friends, created tons of stuff im proud of, felt more motivated to create since i was like 13, have been inspired by so many amazing artists/authors on here, etc. just so so so lucky to find community in such a tight-knit cute fandom that thrives off of creativity and playing around! i hope i can keep the momentum and make a couple more chapters this year, but im kinda busy with school and work...LOL . i'm just excited to have this posted so i can have more discussion about it T_T
anyway thank you if you read this far and thank you if you played etc etc yaahhhhhh omg ok BYE THIS IS SO EMBARRASSING im just so grateful to be in this fandom
#creepypasta#creepypasta fandom#crp fandom#creepypasta AU#crp Au#creepypasta game#creepypasta visual novel#creepypasta vn#ticci toby#toby rogers#kate the chaser#kate milens#tim wright#masky#masky marble hornets#hoody marble hornets#hoodie marble hornets#marble hornets#brian thomas#slenderman#creepypasta x reader#slenderverse#fandom#fanart#sweetart#CRPED VN
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I did a (relatively) quick Koumei sketch just do something fast last week.
#magi#ren koumei#magi koumei#magi fan art#magi fanart#relatively quick being two days#anyway have a precious bi nerd for the start of pride month#i'm happy enough with it. i need to just do sketches more often#have art i've been working on for months to over a year#my stuff#my fan art#my fanart#my art
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doodlin some joh’s
#kagoodles#trainer kris#trainer ethan#trainer lyra#rival silver#green background bc I’m a spinach head lately. and a mustard green enjoyer bc i had some good potstickers that had it in the filling#kris to me should be a little cartoonishly malleable. a smiling smirker. like >:]#i also think ethan has a little unevolved natu on his team. purely for the “you can evolve when you feel like it buddy” vibe#been considering what to make team wise for the joh's but a fun idea i've got brewing is that lyra and silver Both have chikoritas#i know he canonically has a totodile but i have a fun workaround for the future that i'm workshopping a lil#when getting starters silver thought he stole the only chikorita in the lab. then when lyra comes in elm gives her a Shiny chikorita#12 year old absolutely devastated hammering fist on the floor mad but he gets over it (but maybe still a Little salty)#learns to mellow out a bit with his potato dino over time and the evolutions for both of their meganiums have different flowers/colors/type#i know i've been out the whole month i've been unfortunately stuck in the post midpoint of the sem where the workload is Crazy#been prepping works for an art show at my college And getting projects done for deadlines and it is. a Toll#but I will get One illustration done. i've been planning out lyra's dress for a piece and the second to last pic is the test for it
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YOU GUYSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
AUGHS:FUJASI:FUYGABSFKJLMASFJGHASFNKLA
Man I was freaking out over 50 back in the day, this is insane. Thank you all so much for tagging along with my silly lil story.
Words cannot express my gratitude.
#guardian spiral#warframe#kicking screaming#throwing up#jesus christ#how did we get here#how the fuck#like?#I started this in december#its barely been over a month#im unbelievably lucky#Likely it was the 'right place and the right time' thing#but either way#gods what an honor#absolutely floored that people like the shit I make#its been so long since I've been able to do anything like this#and this is my first ever fanfic too#ive been writing for years but this is the first thing thats technically 'published'#gah#GRah#hghalshlfkjhas#heres to a hundred more chapters and 100k more words#nearly at 100k already jesus christ#I have so much more I want to do with this story#and once de gives us more lore I'll have so much more to work with#For once#my obsessive love of rules and order has payed off#I was actually gonna do my bachelors study focus for art on the horrors of being human and dealing with emotions#been working on paintings and ideas for that particular series since highschool#so Guardian Spiral has really just been an outlet for all of that research ive got stored away
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some feverish yumas 🌡
preview of a big collab project I'm working on
#rain code#master detective archives: rain code#yuma kokohead#whumpcode#illness whump#fever whump#art collab#pixeldoodles#im doing another collab with kazinsblog c:#this time its a whole comic story#re-making the workaholic yuma comic they were doing before#IF YOU MAKE THIS BOY SICK I WANT IN#I will show you how its done >:3c#it will likely not get done until next year (next month)#I've lined 7 pages and there are 15 in all#and I still have to color them#we're both working hard and its been a blast! >w<#hope you look forward to the finished product :3#fun thing to do over my winter break!#love putting this poor boy through the most hellish fevers ever#pushing himself to the limit because he doesn’t wanna disappoint#this is too easy#I love my little whumpee so much <3
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I feel like spiraling is always described as a quick thing but let me tell you. Girls will get afraid and slowly spiral for months I think.
#Like overall we're. Okay#Just wish I had disability getting approved soon or I find a new job or I can just somehow not be sitting in#Either the negatives or slightly above the negatives#Financially I am slowly dying and I'm not dead in the water because my beloved gf is amazing and thankfully can handle this#For at least a few months#But my long term thoughts are so uncertain#I just want to be around her and I just want us to live comfortably#I'm ever so slowly trying to crawl out of this over a year art block and that's a bit taxing mentally too#Idk I just want a bedframe that doesn't make me scared I'll fall every time I sleep or get on it#I wanna work off my fuckhuge loan debt#Its been so ungodly hard recently#I'm also thankful my dr rocks and meds have been helping with pain a good bit.#It just feels like I'm ever so slowly slipping into pretty much bed ridden territory again#Even with the meds. They help the pain a good bit (sometimes) but I still feel exhausted. And I'm getting insomniatic again#I just wanna sleep. I just wanna feel no stress for the first time. I've been stressed since fucking middle school#Or maybe even 6th grade because thats when the chronic pain started! Yayy!!!
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#*beep* oh. hey. guess you're sleeping? maybe you're at work. or out with friends. i hope wherever you are it's good#or that it's getting better. i really do#i'm not good. but you knew that already. otherwise why would i be leaving this message?#sorry. i just need to talk for a bit i guess#cause it's like. every day i write a hundred posts and every day i delete most if not all of them#and i could not tell you why#this is my blog after all. my words and thoughts go here#but also. this is my third place. and i can't lose that#isn't that crazy? i can't lose the handful of notes from reblogging other people's posts#the idea that somehow i'm constructing myself in the cut and paste instead of doing something myself#and i do try to make posts of my own. but nothing's ever worth posting. i don't even let it rot in the drafts. it's just gone#and i try to think about what would stop me from doing this#which inevitably brought me here - what would i be doing if it were fifty years ago#and i think the answer is i'd be calling someone who used to care and blowing up their answering machine#and i think about old answering machines. the ones that need a tape to record the message#does dora just re-record over the tapes that harry fills?#does she trash them? i'm guessing she doesn't listen to them#i won't tell you what to do with this message. i'll spare you a call to action#it's not like a diary would fix this. i have a diary. i've been keeping one regularly for months now#i think i want to be perceived but i refuse to speak unless spoken to and i will not reach out on here unless i'm being a kindly anon#and when i talk irl it's all broken disjointed subjects without predicates#it takes such effort for me to talk that people stop asking me out of kindness. but there's still thoughts i haven't said#thoughts that don't need to be said. we don't *need* another person rambling on about whatever random fandom topic or half-assed scribbles#i tried making serious art and meta posts for like four years across different fandoms#it's all gone now. as is most of my poetry. lotta things i don't know or care to know#and i can't bring myself to do that again. esp if that's not why you're here. so like. it's easier just to remain quiet?#because. i know people *can* understand. but it takes effort#and i can't guarantee a return on investment. i don't know if the cost of teaching me how to talk again is worth it#god i want to infodump but that was beaten out of me. the need is still there but i can't. it hurts#idk. things are good and then things are bad and on the whole they're good and getting better
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Rise of the Mighty Morphin Power Rangers - Angel Grove High Students
A couple more students that attend Angel Grove High School with the Rangers, meet Angela; as well as some freshman who've just moved up from Stone Canyon Middle, Aisha, Rocky and Adam!
Angela Campbell is an older sister by instinct, but no push over. Since the beginning of their Sophmore Year, she's been enjoying a romantic cat-and-mouse game with one Zack Taylor, always interested in what scheme he'll come up with to earn her affections. Of course, he already has them, but the game's a bit too fun to let him win just yet.
Angela's younger sister Aisha, as well as her two best friends - Rocco "Rocky" De Santos and Adam Park - moved to Angel Grove from Stone Canyon to be closer to the Power Rangers, after seeing the reports on their exploits through the R4ngerN3T ClikClak account. The three of them eventually get recruited by Bulk & Skull to help collect eye witness reports and film fights when possible, getting themselves into more trouble those two already do for a good story. Though impulsive, the trio do have great potential that will not go unnoticed.
#rotmmpr#mmpr#power rangers#aisha campbell#rocky desantos#adam park#mmpr angela#my art#OKAY FIRST OFF I LOVE RISE ZACK/ANGELA I'VE BEEN WAITING TO TALK ABOUT THEM#basically seasons 1-2 take place over one year - six months each#so they'd be a recurring comedy bit for cold opens and sometimes whole early episodes y'know shenanigans#but then they'd get together mid-season 2 but still be very cute and try to one-up each other all the time#and zack tells her he loves her on the night of prom before the rangers gotta go fight zedd in the finale#and he's like ''i gotta go i have umm... i have something i need to do'' and she's like ''i know. go save the world''#bc she's figured out he's a ranger over the course of mid-2 to end of 3#basically the finale has a lot of characters close to the rangers finding out their identities - either bc they figure it out#or get told - and choosing to keep their secret#a lot of themes of trust and all that to bring it all together for the big final fight#anyway. stone canyon trio appear in s3 and help bulk and skull with rangernet - sometimes directly with them and sometimes on their own#aisha's the on-camera person usually - rocky's on boom mic - adam works the camera#they rush headfirst into danger and end up finding out the rangers identities after the team get their asses kicked by zedd#after he gets the phantom morpher late into the season#but then there's hijinx of figuring out which sd card they put the footage on and yadda yadda#until they find it again and bring it to b&s after THEY find out the rangers' secret#and it's a cute moment of like. the five of them agreeing they can't publish it for various reasons#and then in the final scene of the show we'd see aisha rocky and adam become the new yellow red and black rangers#after trini jason and zack graduate - they're also the main focuses of the post-series movie#where their big arc is coming into their own as rangers and resolving to be the best they can be#anyway i like them theyre fun - plus i LOVEE aisha's outfit i mashed together her movie look and an overalls look i found and AH she's cute
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ngl i find it kind of wierd when people tag my arthurian stuff as fanart because i really do not think about it that way at all haha
#not that i have anything against fanart#literally like 50% of my output the last 3 years has been babylon 5 fanart#but i don't really think about it the same way#i feel an ownership over my arthurian art that i do not feel about fanart#like the stuff i've been doing recently is actually for a graphic novel i want to try and get published one day >__>#best way i can put the divide in my head is fanart is for something that is someone else's ip#whereas arthuriana belongs to us all and we all get to own what we create from it in a very real way#if that makes sense haha#idk i think it's very much a matter of personal perspective and i know other people have a definition of fanart/fanworks that is broader#and ANYWAY im not like demanding people tag my work a specific way#it's just something i've noticed that i found interesting#because i just never think of arthurian art as fanart unless it's art of a specific show or novel or adaptation like that bbc show salkjdl#if this somehow starts wank i will take another month off the internet alksdjlksjlkdsa
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It's strange how I kind of went from consistently disliking my art, to like, disliking individual pieces, but when I look at my overall work I just get filled with so much joy and pride
It's not like I'm doing anything groundbreaking or utterly amazing, but I guess it's the thing of like, seeing myself as an ordinary human capable of creating things? I just see so much beauty in humanity's capacity of creating things, and I guess I had to teach myself to see that beauty in my own capabilities as well, no matter how mediocre they are
It's hard to say I like things I create because I fear people will think I'm full of myself, but I just have so much pride in my work. If I start looking too closely at my art, I start seeing all the mistakes and everything I hate about it, but if I step back and take in the bigger picture of all I've done and how far I've come? I don't know, it's a strange feeling to describe
It's best described as this sentiment of fulfilment that makes me realize that there's nothing else I'd rather be doing with my life other than creating art I love and sharing with people
#Jay Talks#turning off reblogs because I'm paranoid over people interpreting me the worst way possible#I feel like creating my website last year was what helped me come to this realization the most#I love creation#I've been drawing seriously since I was like 11 or smth#And only now at my mid 20s am I getting to a point of being okay with what I create#I still have a lot I dislike and things I want to improve#But it helps not loathing every sketch that leaves my hands#Cherishing every bad drawing as a stepping stone to something greater#All the outdated art that gives me psychic damage to look at#All the out of character OC art that doesn't fit anything I have#All the art with bad wonky proportions and terrible anatomy#I still can't look at those pieces without shriveling up in cringe#But I'm learning to celebrate those pieces not for what they are but for where they took me#idk is this anything#Don't mind me my mental health has been in the gutter these past months#Finding peace in my escapism and pride in my work has been so freeing...#It's hard to celebrate my joy when so many artists struggle with enjoying their work#I can't help but feel like they'll think I'm rubbing it in...
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It's really funny looking back at my old concepts for this doll/character and seeing oh I was going for x vibe and now that I'm redoing it (and with better techniques/tools/practice kind of) it's going so much better than it did before
#twist rambles#like. why did i want to do full acrylic on the lips 😭 it does NOT look like real lip texture i promise#this is mostly thanks to a VERY helpful bjd forum member who was very patient with me but i feel that even tho I've taken over 6 months off#doing faceups this one is better than the one i tried to do last on her. weirdly parallel to the first faceup i did on cordy tbh bc that was#after YEARS of not practicing or doing it but doing more art related stuff. and it turned out very well for the time i was doing it#and thats how this is going. i think doing digital art has helped a lot weirdly like I'm working in more subtle layers and building it up#which works better for well. guy w insanely shaky hands disease (esp rn. ive been up nearly 24 hrs). so im glad its going well so far :)#hope that will continue bc i rly am happy w it thus far. rn just waiting for like 5 min until the sealant is dry and then... more eyebrow#work :/ <- hates doing the eyebrows. would love to never ever ever have to do eyebrows again okay.
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It is so frustrating I have so many things I want to draw at all times but usually when I finally have time to draw anything I am not really enthusiastic about any of my ideas anymore. I want to draw 2 things a week not 2 things in 3 months.
#I was obsessed with rdr for months but only managed a single drawing#I have one drawing of one of my favorite swtor ocs even though I've had her almost a year#I want to draw yseult and johann 23082408 times#not to mention how much art I wanted to make of my bg3 ocs and... didn't#there are still scenes and comics and ideas of Vinka from 2 years ago I wish I had the time to draw#not to mention all the content I want to create for my original stories#also there's so much skeleton art still to make#I've wanted to get back into pixel art forever#I don't even attempt fanart of canon characters anymore because I just don't have time#and I'd rather focus the time and energy I have on personal things with no other content for them I guess#Oh also I've been meaning to redraw my changeling for like a year now too....#I could do so much with the time I spend at work doing useless things that help nobody and don't bring me any joy#sigh#anyway rant over#better to use my time to actually draw than complain
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sorry if i've been quiet, the anxieties have me.
but I have therapy tomorrow :) so hopefully things only go up from here.
#vent (kinda- happy ending) in the tags#filling in spaaace filling in spaaace#uh when i say “quiet” i mean like. in general over the past year#this time last year i was convinced i was going to die- among other things#the fact i'm still here is something i'm thankful for every day#something does not want me alive and every day i'm here is my way of giving whatever the fuck that is the middle finger#i'm here and i'm alive so fucking deal with it#that said; my mental state has been fuuuuuuuucked#also this time last year i was trying to recover from a really traumatic experience that lasted for 9 months#i'm still not recovered from it actually not even fucking close#i'm finally getting to a place where i feel that i can start talking about it (not to randos online tho sorry) but it took ages#but just knowing that the anniversary of it being “over” is coming up is like. doing something to me.#i still have a month- that anniversary is in August but like. shit.#this is why i haven't been uploading art like i used to when i was in the su fandom#i've been drawing slower and less frequently#and the art i do draw i don't always post (which was true even back then i probably only posted half of what I drew)#so i know that- at least back then- people have been worried about my sudden slowing down of artwork. this is why.#that said i've slowly been getting back into it. i actually got the urge to write today while i was at work (tho it faded when i got home)#which is a huge improvement#i am doing better!#the askblog has been helping a lot actually#even if it... does remind me of a different time (before everything went to shit). but like i think that's *why* it helps y'know?#but it also gives me a lot of anxiety so i can't do it all the time#my anxiety in general has gotten really fucking bad over the last month and a half and i'm not sure why. like it's always been there but.#but now it's like a hunched beast and literally appears out of nowhere#at least before i was always pretty sure what was causing it but now i have no idea#but thats what the therapy is for. that and the trauma fdgshajk#no doubt the two are linked probably#but soon i'll be better. soon i'll be able to move forward on all the projects i wanna work on#soon i'll be free y'know?
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Thinking about what happened in the summer
Kids are... Really different when it comes to spending three weeks without their parents
Some start crying near the end of first day
Some start crying after couple of days
And some don't show anything while feeling the same
And being... I think English has a good word for that, let's go with a teacher but mix it with caretaker a little bit
I think seeing a kid cry at the end of that first day finally short circuited my brain, teens are way harder to understand that pre-teens who are literally still kids
They come around after a week, settle down and find new friends and your job stays the same mostly to be the one controlling their behavior
And then you'd have a kid crying again, because they miss home and the only thing you can really do is comfort them that they're not stuck here forever and that time flows so fast they won't notice it
And maybe they didn't. Time really did flew and they were leaving
Parents visited kids sometimes, of course, and it was so scary at first but they were mostly friendly and nice
Maybe because of that group chat that let them see that their kids are fine and are having fun
In the end for kids it was painful at first, but fun in the end. I got hugged more times than I could count when they were all leaving
And then poof
Back to your own life you go, like nothing happened
#not art#irl stuff#some thoughts#Every time I tried mixing my 'usual' behavior with the one I had back in the camp it felt like adding acid into water in the wrong order#Because it didn't feel right and it felt right at the same time#Like I just suddenly got a brand new way of behavior all together and it was so different that I stopped recognizing myself#Literally I'd work all day without much of a thought head full of WHERE EVERYONE IS ARE THEY SAFE??? And then at break near night go 'huh'#And at first I tried desperately to catch the usual behavior and bring it back on the break#And it never led to anything good because I'm supposed to be fully like in daytime 24/7#I did that one sketch of silly guys to just keep at least something in my head aside from being fully aware 24/7 of every passing second#I still don't know if I miss that or not#It felt so nice to not feel like I have no goal in mind anymore#A goal of 'get to the end of this with all of the kids fine and safe' without ever swearing or making them feel threatened was... Exhaustin#I never became some super sweet person to know so I did what I knew best - talked a lot telling about the things they liked#And if a kid is curious being interesting by telling stories that they didn't know about the things they liked is a way to be liked#Most of them probably forgot about me existing there but some probably didn't and would return next year again#Honestly I don't know why I failed so many exams when becoming a teacher is the only thing that makes me truly happy now#And super tired because THAT'S WORK and it's exhausting as hell some kids love to fight and you need all your diplomacy to work with it#Maybe that's just me missing my time with siblings when they were little I didn't get much time being a good elder sibling to them#I can't associate this work with becoming a parent for a month because I'm still not so different from those kids#Like... I've literally have been told by older kids that they mistook me for a teen like them#Excuse you but I'm like 7 years older than that#It was funny tho because I was considered a bit closer to them all instead of being a big bad grown-up#Yet some kids despised me because of that in the first group because welp not being an authority figure sucks#That being my first job sucks even more because I had no idea about the unspoken rules while everyone had aside from me and mom#Second try was way better because I knew exactly what I had to do even if I was terrible at making us participate in dances and songs#Thankfully it started raining and don't you dare let kids get cold from being in the rain at night that's just ridiculous#So it was like we had a slumber party with me letting them watch GF on my laptop and read some comics#It was way better than being forced to look at the other groups winning all over again. Kids disliked losing so many times in a row#And in the end the things we planned weren't exactly enough but when they were kids were happy and I was happy because we put so much effor
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after 5 years of running this blog, i've made the decision to open up a patreon!
my life circumstances are changing, and patreon will greatly help me make ends meet and pay rent. nothing about this blog will be changing - i'll still be posting a cat doodle every day, same as i always have.
i have a $3/month tier and a $6/month tier - both work as tip jars, with the latter being if you feel especially generous and can afford it.
right now i have transparent and/or higher-resolution PNGs of certain catcrumbs that i've used for redbubble up for members, if anyone wants to make emojis or such. i'll also be taking requests for drawings to be transparentized and/or put on redbubble. in the future i may start offering additional rewards - bonus art, requests, maybe physical stuff - but my life needs to settle down a bit before i do anything like that.
your money is of course yours to do with as you see fit (and there are many many good causes out there that i urge you to donate to), but i hope that if my little drawings have given you joy over the years and you have the room in your budget, you'll consider supporting me!
i also have a kofi and redbubble if you'd rather support me that way!
no matter what - i genuinely appreciate all the kindness i have been given. i try very hard to keep catcrumb a self-driven art exercise - just one cat a day, doesnt have to be perfect or even good, just has to be a cat - but i couldn't have kept up the hobby without so many people's joy. it's been a genuinely incredible experience for my silly little scribbles to have positively touched people's lives - in-jokes between friends and partners, a gentle reminder, tattoos and baby clothes, something to look forward to... it's really been a flood of human kindness.
thank you all so much for all the joy - here's to more! :~D
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The chronic pain has been so fucking bad lately
#And usually colder weather is easier on me idfk#Had a full blown panic attack that my beloved saw...#Not the funnest of times.#But yeah its getting so bad I don't know how much longer I can just. Work. In general#I wish I could take a walk and bring my cat along because she loves being in a harness and going outside#I wish I could swim in the summer#I wish I could go a day without pain shooting through half of my body and I have to brush it off & any thoughts of it being a heart attack#I'm so fucking tired these days#I need to do so many things still. I have comms from months ago I still need to do. I feel like I can't hardly work on art#Without having a full blown meltdown because I've lost so much skill over the years#I've watched my life slowly deteriorate in regards to my health and every result from doctors come back as average or exceptional#Idfk what to do any more#I turned in disability papers in MAY and its still months away from being fully processed l#And is likely to get a no from the first time l#How do I survive another year like this. This past one nearly killed me#I desperately need help and I have no idea where to find it#My poor girlfriend has been getting a short straw for a while regarding how we split payments and god I wish I could#Do so much more. She deserves comfort and so do I.
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