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0mcsheep0 · 2 years ago

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I'm here for you (part 2 )

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DISCLAIMER: it is the continuation of the previous ''I'm here for you'', with the younger brothers. I had the idea to develop more about MC's point of view (to be more precise about what makes them feel sad). ( Part 1 below ) https://www.tumblr.com/0mcsheep0/711531618684289025/im-here-for-you?source=share

Warnings : sad topics in which the brothers would comfort you

Characters : Satan, Asmo, Beel, Belphie

GN!MC

-> The brothers when MC is feeling sad <-

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Satan (academic failure)

Satan is one of the most intelligent (if not the wisest) demons of Devildom; everyone knew it. He was also the closest of the seven brothers to you, the perfect sentimental and supportive guy. You often came into his room to study RAD for your future exams. He was patient and would explain any subject well. Last night, you were stressing out about that important math examen coming up the next day. You feel bad about it, even if you’ve been studying it for a week. As you were reading your notes laid on the bed, Satan checked up on you: « Hey there, MC. You’ve been quite academic for the past few days, and I noticed you’d neglected your health. When was the last time you had a consistent sleep schedule? Have you eaten this morning? You seem so tense; let me give you a shoulder massage ». How kind of Him! You got on your belly while Satan climbed on your back, his smooth but firm grip on your back muscles. « You think I will be good tomorrow? I’m afraid I will forget everything because of the stress. If so, I know I might get grounded by Lucifer… » you said with a sigh. ** The next day Even with Satan’s comforting words, you still couldn’t stay in place as you started your exam. It didn’t go as well as it was supposed to. Unfortunately, despite all your efforts, you still missed a few questions, which influenced your grade to lower at the bare minimum required. You felt empty after the test; you went home and locked yourself in your room. A few hours later, the blond demon knocked at your door, but even if it was locked, he used his magic to reach you. You were sobbing on your pillow. « Hey, kitten….. Levi told me you left RAD earlier. I know it was your exam this morning; I presume you are in this state because it didn’t go well, was it » he asked with a sad look. It didn’t go well? No, it was disastrous for both your final paper and your self-esteem. You were so confident about yourself; did you succumb to your anxiety? Even if you tried so, you could never be as good as the others. The worst part of it was that you tried! « Can I sit next to you »? You nodded. « Listen, MC; I’m aware of how frustrating you might have felt at the moment because, behind my look of the perfect student, I sometimes feel stressed too. You shouldn’t be ashamed of yourself. With practice, you will be able to perform under stress like a pro, I promise ». You smiled a bit; then Satan brought you into his arms for a loooong hug.

Asmo (bad image of your body)

Asmo always cheers you up when you are questioning how worthy you think you are. You are nothing but the perfection in his eyes, the little sunshine that brightens his days in this dark world of devils. We all know that Asmodeus is hiding behind his confident and cocky appearance, insecurities, and fears about others’ perceptions of him. When times like this happened, you comforted him by saying, Everyone has his thoughts about other people, some are bad, but some are flattering. You must always think good about yourself and not let others bring you down. You were always the one who comforted him; never would he have thought YOU would be the one who needed him. You were sitting on your bed, clothes scattered everywhere on the floor. There was a big party at Diavolo’s castle tonight, in which you should be present, and you wanted to wear something elegant for the event. The problem was that you needed to determine what to choose; all your clothes seemed too casual. You didn’t have the money to buy something beautiful, and anyways, those types of clothes were styles to fit demon figures (holes for wings/tail, large sized because I headcanon the demons to be naturally taller than humans). You were desperate, and tears were slowly filling your eyes because of the frustration you felt at the instant. You searched for something cool to wear for almost two hours, but nothing was good enough. You looked at yourself in the mirror, and intrusive yet exaggerated thoughts entered your mind. Could your silhouette be the problem? Maybe everything was looking wrong on you, and it was your fault. You could never look as great surrendered by demons; they all looked magnificent, and you are only a human.

*** knock knock ***

You recognized Asmo’s voice behind the door, announcing his upcoming in your room. He was also invited to the party, and you felt even worse when you saw how stunning he looked in his relevant outfit. « My, my MC… what is all this mess made for? Your beautiful clothes will be dusty and wrinkled! Have you found what you’ll be wearing tonight»? You looked at him, clearly looking exasperated. Asmo was now looking at you with a concerned expression. You? Crying over something as simple as a lack of items of clothing? That wasn’t like you, the MC he knew wouldn’t give up that easily over something unworthy. He thought about what could have made you feel that way; « Mc dear… you aren’t concerned about how you might look around everyone else, right»? The tears were now showing on your shameful face. « Listen now. You are the most pretty person I’ve ever seen in my life. You heard me right; I said the most pretty PERSON, which means I’m comparing you to every species I know. It would help if you didn’t even compare yourself to others ». Those words; you’ve heard them countless times from many people. As insignificant as they might have sounded, the comment went directly to your heart. Asmo, the one you loved the most in the three worlds, thought this much about you? You smiled, then stood up with a sudden burst of confidence:

« Well, my clothes won’t get chosen if we stay in place. Would you mind helping me with that » you asked the fifth-born.

Beel (guilt of eating)

Beel is the most thoughtful, generous, and loving demon of all the Devildom, and he shows it daily to his brothers and you. Constantly checking up on others, he is someone you can rely on every time for anything. You trusted him, so you told him about something that had made you sad for the past few weeks. To be exact, HE was the one who initiated the talk since he caught you doing something he would never understand; restricting yourself from eating. Last night, he sneaked to the kitchen for a midnight snack when he noticed your dinner still on the fridge shelf. How could you skip dinner? From Beel's point of view, dinner time is the most satisfying time of the day. He hesitated to eat it but finally decided to wait till tomorrow to ask you about it. The next day, you answered that you weren't hungry and that it was nothing to worry about since it wouldn't occur again. Beel smiled in relief and left but found your dinner again in the fridge a few hours later. The Lord of the Flies was surprised. He decided to bring the meal directly to your room to have an honest response to your weird behavior. Once he passed your door, the demon was surprised to see you on a weighing scale. You were startled by his arrival and started to cry. « MC? Do you feel ashamed about your weight? Is it why you skipped your meals? Taking such restrictions isn't good for your health; you might end up sick. Please, tell me what's wrong». You explained to him that, for the past few weeks, many lower demons had been mocking you for your weight. You weren't thinking badly about yourself initially, but the repetitive insults were getting to your head. You thought about it more often, starting to wonder if those imbeciles were, in fact, correct about you. Did you overeat? Was your figure pretty enough? Maybe occasionally skipping meals would change your looks, then those unkind demons would shut up. Beelzebub was shocked by everything you said. To his eyes, you are splendid, a perfect work of art. He never thought that stupidities like that would affect you that much. « My love, don't ever get influenced by nasty insults like that again. Those demons are jealous of how good-looking you are, so they try to put you down. Skipping meals won't bring any positive changes to you. If you want to change your appearance, we could work it out together with healthier measures. Please, eat the three meals you need daily; I don't want you to end up sick ». The red-haired demon then got closer to you and hugged you tightly. You are feeling a lot better now.

Belphie (sadness from leaving the Devildom)

It was supposed to be a casual day. Like every other morning, you woke up in your bed sheets, with Belphegor at your side, squatting the left side of your mattress. The weather outside sounded perfect for walking or organizing a picnic with the brothers. A tiny bat (I thought bats would be the ideal representation of ''birds'' down in Devildom since they are nocturnal) got closer to the window of your room as if it was calling for the morning. You straightened up on your bed, carefully resting your back on the wall to not wake the sleepyhead beside you. You reached your D.D.D. to look on Delvilgram; your post from the last day with Asmo on the beach might have gotten many likes! Unfortunately, the message that first popped on your screen faded your smile. Diavolo sent you the following statement: « Good morning MC! You have been staying in the Devildom for two years now; you must return to the human world for a while to see your family. I will pick you up at the front entrance in an hour ». You tilted your head down; time flies so fast when you enjoy your time with the ones you love. Like every time you leave the Devildom, a massive wave of sadness fills your heart. The memories of your good moments with Belphie, as he is the one you love, ran through your mind, and a few tears escaped your eyes and blurred your vision. At this moment, Belphie opened his eyes and frowned; « MC, why are you crying? Did you have another nightmare? Tell me everything ». You quickly announced your future leaving to the youngest brother, and he sighted of disagreement. Of course, he knew that day would come, but he hadn't acknowledged how quickly this day would come. « It sucks; I would have loved to keep you by my side every day, to wake up next to you every morning. I guess I understand that you have to go back to your family, but what about me? You will miss me, am I wrong? (…) Do you remember when we went camping outside the House of Lamentation to see the bright stars illuminating the sky? It was fun, wasn't it? (…) Listen, MC, I won't beat around the bush and will tell you how I feel about the situation. You know that I love you unconditionally and that I will always do. It won't change anything that you leave for another time; I will still love you once you return to me ». His words comforted you; you knew he was thinking everything he said. You smiled, then took him in your arms to enjoy your last moments together.

#obey me beelzebub #belphie my beloved #obey me satan #comforting thoughts #obey me asmodeus #sadness hours #obey me imagines #obey me shall we date #sad thoughts #obey me x reader #obey me mc

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mairablue · 2 years ago

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Hello! Could I request a jealous Aigonorus? So Y/N or Mc has this best friend that she jokes around with a lot and sometimes flirty jokes. (Gender of the friend can be whatever) but aigo see them being touchy and laughing and gets jealous because he thinks Mc friend is trying to steal his Mc?

I hope this makes sense! I hope you have an amazing day!! Sending lots of love!!

SCM- Department of Wishes

Aigonorus ♑ - Love eternal

A/N: Thank you for your request scarletloves 😊. I hope you enjoy reading this. 💗

You were writing your assignment; Julian was sitting across the table writing his own. This is your last assignment before the final exams.

" What's the answer of this question?" Julian looked up from his notebook to your notebook, then pointed at a paragraph written on the book.

" You should pay attention in the class. " he said with a cheeky girn. You rolled your eyes.

"Julian? Are you going home in the evening?"

" Yes. Mom told me told visit grandma and grandpa before the exams." he answered. " I will be back by Sunday evening."

" You should pay attention on the assignment. "

" Yeah, yeah . I just asked you one question alright. I have solved the rest myself. " you said.

You two have known each other for past 10 years; becoming best friends in elementary school.

Julian is your mom's friend 's son. You two often studied together. He helped you with your maths homework.

Today you had one those study sessions.

" Which one are you writing?" he asked. " Last one." you replied.

" Did you do the homework? ( name )."

" No! I completely forgot about it. "you said. You were frantic. You hated mathematics and you feared the maths teacher.

" Don't worry i will help you solve them", Julian said trying to suppress his laughter. " You should look at yourself. "

" Fine.", you crossed your arms infornt of your chest and huffed. " Well if you are done teasing me for today. I would like some actual help. "

He helped you in solving those math problems.

" Will you come to school tomorrow?" you asked.

" Yeah." He stood; putting the books, notebooks and pencil case in his backpack. " I will go to grandma 's house in the afternoon. "

You accompanied him to the door. Once he left, you came back to your study table and started arranging your books and putting them in your school bag.

Suddenly you heard a knock on the window. It was Aigonorus, as you hoped.

You opened the window and let him inside your room.

" How was your day, sweety?" he asked cheerfully. " It was fine. Went to school, completed the assignment; pretty boring actually. How was yours?" you asked smiling back at him.

" Followed my usual routine, fell asleep , Tauxolouve escorted me to my room , woke up, went to the living room , Leon and Karno scolded me for slacking off." he said in a tired voice.

" When are you exams starting?" he asked.

" From next month", you handed him a glass of water. " 20 th, i think."

You two laid on your bed and continued your conversation, until both of you dozed off.

The next morning Aigonorus dropped you off at your school. When he was about to leave; he noticed a tall guy around your age , approaching you. He had bright blue eyes and neck length brown hair.

Julian asked, " Who was that guy? Is he your boyfriend?"

" Yes he is my boyfriend. His name is Aigonorus. " you said. " We started dating last month."

Aigonorus was standing behind a tree watching you and this guy walk away.

The school bell rang, indicating the gate will be closed soon.

Aigonorus snapped his fingers and went back to heaven.

Vega gave him and Tauxolouve their papers ( wishes list). They went to the reflecting pool to grant the wishes one by one.

After two hours they had managed to grant almost all the wishes. When Tauxolouve decided to ask him, " Is something wrong , Aigo? "

Aigonorus quickly replied, " Yes , i am fine."

" Really? It seems you are worried about something. " Tauxolouve said.

" You want to talk about it?" . Aigonorus quickly snapped his fingers. He went to your school and looked into the classroom.

He saw that same guy; sitting beside your. He was whispering something to you and you were giggling. The next moment you whispered something to him and he laughed. This continued until a teacher entered the classroom and all the laughter and commotion died down.

You went outside the school building; Aigonorus was waiting for you. You walked up to him.

" I didn't think you would come to pick up from school. " you said. He didn't say anything in return, just kept walking beside you.

" Aigo what happened?" he was still silent.

You reached home dropped your bag on the chair and asked him," What's wrong? Why aren't you saying anything?"

You looked him in the eye, but he averted his gaze, and slowly asked in a timid voice, " ( Name ) , who was that guy, talking to you at school? " he had a bitter expression on his face.

He had never seen you laugh like that, at one of his jokes. You look so carefree and relaxed in that guy's presence. " Am i not good enough?" he thought.

" Aigo, that guy is Julian. My childhood bestfriend. We have known each other from the last 10 years. He is like a brother to me." you said.

You placed you hand on his cheek, " I love you, only you. " saying that you kissed him on the forehead.

" I was jealous." he admitted. " I have had similar experiences in the past." he look down at the floor, ashamed.

You introduced Aigonorus to Julian. It took them some time but eventually they warmed up to each other.

Next day during recess.

" ( Name ), i wonder how you managed to find someone like Aigonorus? He is out of your league; don't you think? " he whispered to you before running away while you tried to catch him.

" You are so mean Julian! " you said chasing after him.

" Don't pout like that, it makes you look like an angry duck." he said.

You and Aigonorus went on a date, few days later.

" I wanted to apologize to you for doubting you. I am sorry. " he said .

" That's alright, i don't hold that against you." you reassured him, and gently placed your lips on his and kissed him , which he gladly returned.

#scm #scm aigonorus #scm leon #scm partheno #scm huedhaut #scm teorus #scm karno #scm krioff #scm tauxolouve #scm ichthys #scm dui #scm scorpio #scm zyglavis #star crossed myth #scm fic #scm aigonorus x reader #voltage inc #love 365

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lost-my-sanity1 · 2 years ago

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TAG 9 PEOPLE YOU WANT TO GET TO KNOW BETTER

thanks bestie @hughungrybear for tagging me😗 here take my love.

THREE SHIPS

😀 how am I supposed to choose? but lemme try

1. patpran from bad buddy

2. tinngun from my school president (yes they were so quick to steal mah heart)

3. akkayan from the eclipse

(and because I don't really speak maths and have no relationship with it idk what are numbers so, tiwpor and soundwin from my school president, chopperben from never let me go)

FIRST SHIP

first ever? I think it's kartik and aman from shubh mangal zyada saavdhan.

that movie got me into the lgbtq+ media and I'm forever grateful to that.

LAST SONG

now this is where the problem arises cuz I don't listen to songs on a daily basis (cuz listening music is a very punishable crime in my house. yea desi parents don't make sense sometimes) but last played song (yesterday) is Blue by Troye Sivan

LAST MOVIE

it's doctor g. watched it two days back. cuz I don't generally watch movies, so it's like the first one in months!

CURRENTLY READING

books prescribed by the cisce because my isc exams starts from tomorrow.

but jokes apart I don't really read books. like why would I read books when ao3 exists. but aint reading anything currently. and like all my recent reads are bbs fics + 1 msp fic so yea

CURRENTLY WATCHING

my school president, moonlight chicken, never let me go, the warp effect.

was recently watching my gear and your gown but stopped after ep5 cuz couldn't find ep6. abandoned one which I shall catch up asap is gap

CURRENTLY CONSUMING

air currently. but shall have breakfast in a while

CURRENTLY CRAVING

😭 many things but two stood out. pizza, noodles

and if not food wise then more and more episodes of my school president, and moonlight chicken. don't want them to end. also more eps of bad buddy please?

and if not media wise but in general, then it's sleep. I just wanna sleep for 1 week gay.

ONWARD TAGS

idk if you guys did it or not but here we go

@sharingfandoms @janujaja @alan-apologist @hereforlou @hometothecanyonmoon @writtenalloveryourface28

#I liked this so much #🤧🤧🤧🤧#getting to know each other is so fun tbh #like I love you can't really keep a conversation going #can't really start a conversation. so I'll keep lil things about you in my mind #it's so cute jshsjsh #tag game #thanks for the tag!

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stormboundscholar · 1 year ago

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Good progress

Day 19/100 of Productivity

Hi everyone. Welcome back to my blog! I actually intended to post tomorrow, but I did a lot of work today so I wanted to update you guys.

Things have been going really well lately. I have been studying well, and all my assignments are finished or at least manageable. I found a lot of time to study today, and it really helped!

I started studying by doing my literature assignment at my lunch break. I must admit that I really hate that lesson, reading books is nice but memorising the names of obscure authors isn't really my cup of tea. It took nearly one hour to complete, but at least I don't have to worry about it anymore.

In the afternoon, we had a couple of free classes. Our geometry teacher let us study because we only had a single lesson, and we also had office hours after school where I could study. I had my geometry recourses with me because of maths class, so I did my geometry homework. It was mostly easy stuff, but I had to spend 2 hours solving the questions on it.

I got back home at 6:30 like usual. I had dinner, it was lovely. They had actually eaten before I arrived but I think that was kind of fair, I am usually the last one to get home. I also managed to start studying earlier as I eat faster when I am alone.

I took my books and continued studying at 7:30 pm. I studied some biology first, I know that I studied a lot of biology this week but the teacher keeps giving us a ton of homework! I studied biology for 2 hours, mostly some reproductive system stuff. There's a lot of hormones and a lot to learn, but I think that I understood the topic pretty well. After that was done I started to study some physics, and it was really fun. It was mostly about basic machines, and I like that topic. The reason is that it is more reliant on understanding the topic rather than memorization, which is a stronger suit for me . I spent an hour with physics.

That's all that I did today on the studying front. I also found some time to socialise, spend time with my friends. I used to be a little challenged with this stuff growing up so it feels really nice. I still feel that it is hard to connect with people but at least I have a lot of people who I can confidently tell are my friends!

Well other than that I got some news today. Our school is going to make us enter an exam tomorrow. It's not going to affect our grades so I don't really get the point, but I guess it could be nice to see what I can do. I have been improving my grades lately, so let's hope I can do well in the exam.

That's all for today! Good night everyone, and good luck.

#diary entry #studyblr #100 days of productivity #studying #online diary #100dop #self improvement #productive

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khodorkovskaya · 2 years ago

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embarrassing storytime

21.06.23

i embarrassed myself big time and now i can't think straight because i want to disappear off the face of the earth like arghdhhghgh

so i had an exam on monday. it was differential geometry which is one of the easier subjects. the prof is very chill, he's not a very good teacher but he's a good guy, you know the type.

and i uhhh... had a panic attack 5 minutes after walking into the exam room. i was shaking uncontrollably, asked to get some air and ran to the bathroom to throw up. like i was literally shaking and crying and throwing up.

so anyway, after throwing up i went back into the exam room and tried to write the exam anyway, all while shaking and still feeling super nauseous. there were lots of calculations and i kept getting things wrong like id write that 2*3 is equal to 5 and stuff like that. so yeah, i wrote god knows what.

and important context, this exam is eliminatory! so if i didn't pass, i would be kicked out of the faculty. and i would have to write an opposition letter to ask them to not kick me out. and get a doctor's note and everything. that's why i was also super stressed. because failing thing exam would possibly mean 4 years of studying down the drain.

so i finish the exam, hand in the paper, cry a little and rush to the maths counselor's office. i break down crying in front of him, saying that it's all over. he consoles me by saying they'll definitely accept the opposition letter if im kicked out, everything will be okay, ive been a good student so far, it's not that bad, etc. and he says that i should see the science faculty counselor and tell him about my situation.

so i call my parents like shit shit shit, im getting kicked out of uni. they freak out obviously. cos that means im gonna have to restart everything and graduate when im in my 30s. and basically not get a job, be a failure, etc. etc. they don't sleep the whole night, they're super worried, my stepdad and my mum get into a fight over all of this. the family is falling apart.

the next day i go see the faculty counselor and he says that if i give a doctor's note saying i suffer from anxiety before getting the grade, i have a 50/50 chance of being allowed to retake the exam. but it has to be done before they announce the grades.

i don't have a gp, i don't know any doctors, especially those who'd be okay giving me a note that says that i suffer from anxiety. my stepdad suggests that i call the therapist i used to go to back in 2020 and say that it's an emergency and that i need to see her asap.

i call the therapist, she doesn't reply so i leave a voice message, sobbing like "this is life or death, please can we schedule a session, this is urgent". thinking about this voice message makes my skin crawl like ughhh it was so bad.

then im like shit shit shit, if i can't get a note from her today, what if they announce the grades tomorrow and im getting kicked out ahhhhhhhhhh

so i message the geometry professor and the two assistants like "guys, i was shaking and crying and throwing up during the exam. im trying to get a doctor's note from my therapist before the grades drop. when are you gonna announce the grades i need to know??? i vomited everywhere, just fyi". again, very embarrassing impulsively written email.

and 10 seconds later the assistant replies like "everyone passed the exam, no worries".

and im like what.

then about an hour later the professor replies and says "i looked at your copy, your work looks pretty solid, you'll get a 4.5 and we'll announce the grades tomorrow, is that okay with you?". and im likeeeee bro

4.5

passing grade is a 4. a 4.5 is like really good. like reeeally good.

so im like shit.

what was all of this for??? why was i so dramatic for no reason?????

i made my poor parents panic for nothing.

i feel so bad.

and the therapist replied yesterday evening like "we can do a session tomorrow at 9am exceptionally". and like for what. what am i gonna say to her now??? that i was being a drama queen????

like i literally want to disappear like i feel so embarrassed. all of this drama for an easy exam. brb im gonna self isolate for a year. like i wanna kms.

and what do i say to the therapist?? like oopsie, i was just kidding. adjhdjjhdjfh i hate that i have to face the consequences of my actions.

#june

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ashvibes193 · 10 months ago

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Hey tumblr,

Feeling happy to come here back with a lot of stories and upcoming events or simply programs in my words. Just Kiddin'! Today was physics practical for which I wasn't prepared anyway. I wanted to study but unfortunately didn't got much time for any revision. Today's day began on a depressing note when our Maths lecturer bloke out with her most unexpected and thorny words, which was very difficult for us to digest when she mentioned she's tired of us guys, THE BOYS! The only thing that attracts her in class is the girls of our class. That was quite heartbreaking, and wished she won't be happy to continue with us for next sem's. That's really a bad news for CSE guys, because we're being thrashed and slapped for some reason we actually don't know. Like we CSE students are the most sincere in the class but how she reacted today was totally out of syllabus. NO REPLIES NO WORDS for this.

After this surprising shock we were speechless and got indulged in our test for which we've prepared a bit, but in the end came out to be an open book test, which was the easiest way of exit but was not correct according to me. But anyways we did the most expected thing CHEAT and MATE.

After that we got a very inspiring speech from Randhawa Mam which was very needed after that morn surprise. She explained that how the exam is gonna easy if we prepare from now and then work on presentation then surely we could make through it. This was very unexpected but we really needed this.

Then comes the break which we spent discussing about farmhouse plan for Vansh's birthday, we then had our lunch in the restaurant in front of college and did the very work. After lunch we got busy in our practical completion and all. Vansh and Manav were searching for affordable farmhouse on Google but everybody else knew it was very late for that kind of plan. We got to see an excitement in Vansh's actions, like he was excited to celebrate his birthday with his dearest guys with US! I realized that later on.

Then after taking a windy break in the chemistry lab sitting in front of cooler, we moved for viva, we got to know that viva is gonna be online and that was the fuckin' easiest thing for us to deal with. But we already had the answers and we were through. KUDOS for our hardwork. LMAO!

After all this, I had a wedding in the night and there enjoyed a lot of dishes Chowmein, Pani puri, and Paneer, delicious meal, just loved it.

Then late in the night we guys had a conference call discussing about tomorrow plan and all. Everything was decided and I started chatting on group and I made some conditions that Tarun would get charged up. I know from very early that this guy is having a lot of gloomy moments in his life and has not expressed it to anyone yet. Maybe he's suffering from someone's betrayal or someone would have left him alone in the way. This pretty smiling face is not easy to wear around when the world desperately wanna see you crying. To spread joy requires a lot of courage and a lot of positivity. How the hell that guy could resist? Though sometimes behaves like a kid and behaves annoying, also he's short by height but has got a tough covering around his heart where on the other side there are many emotions hididen. Today I threw some words and he broke out, I know that it's difficult for me to know the real reason but someday or the other he would narrate himself.

On this note I need to go now as I wanna study. Till then GOODBYE Buddy!

#positivity #lifelessons #funny #life learning #spotify #artisits on tumblr #2 year tumblrversary #tumblog #tumblr

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calistaxoxo · 1 year ago

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Hi guys! Seventh blog on Tumblr!

Last night I got 3 hours of sleep, like expected. I was up doing homework and studying and did not go to sleep till like 4 AM and then had to wake up at 7 AM for my math class. Afterwards, I went to Kerckhoff for a bagel and an iced tea which was delicious! I did not really eat a full meal today now that I think about it. I snacked on Hello Pandas after my last class but that was about it. I have my first midterms on Wednesday for chemistry and math. Not going to lie, I am a little stressed out about the exams because I feel like I have not studied enough. But it’s okay I will just grind out studying tonight and tomorrow. Other than that, my day was okay and would rate it 4/10.

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cuntspunsgunsfuns · 2 years ago

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manifestation works

and here's what happened to me; my dream job, my final exams, money, make up, clothes i wanted, relationships, basically everything that i ever asked for and manifested, came to me. no bullshit.

i graduated last week, and there's (im not exactly sure if its called the SAT's) your final exams you have to take all of them when you're about to graduate and stuff. so mind you, in january i signed up for it, back then i had trouble with school learning and stuff, so i was pretty CONFIDENT that i signed up for nothing and i was gonna fail. and i wanted to study real bad, but i never did. so before the SATs i wanted to get a job like real bad after i was finished with school, and i was not close to getting one. and i was so lost, i felt like my life was over and i was so insecure about stuff, so i pretty much gave up trying. i was scrolling through tik tok and i found a video that was talking about how SUBLIMINALS work and that people are actually getting crazy results from listening to subliminals and stuff. i was desperate, and very much worn out but i still gave it a try, cause like it wont hurt and this stuff is really interesting to me. every morning before going to school, i sat In front of the mirror doing my make up and listening to a subliminal that was focused on like, getting my dream job. and i was getting ready and just imaging myself getting that call from the boss or some shit, and getting ready for work like it was all in my head.

deadass, i get a phone call saying that they were so interested by my application and they would like to offer me an internship just to see if i like it, if its something that its meant for me, if they'll see that i am capable of working here, and stuff.

guys, im gonna start working in september, and they pay me 2x more than what i thought they would.

i will always be thankful to myself for being patient and actually never losing hope, because sometimes it took too long for them to reach out to me, but in the end i got it.

i had three final exams left. and these were the most, intense, like the ones that count the most. and you cannot fuck up any of these exams because they are literally, the most important of all the exams you've done so far. i was not prepared, i didnt open a book to like at least try or something. i was walking in these exams confident about everything, like i know what im doing, i didnt learn shit but im here for it and im gonna pass it.

i had doubts but each time my mom asked me howd it go id tell her that i aced it and nothing to worry about. so math is the final exam, and its tomorrow, and im procrastinating each time, i tell myself ill study later but it ended up being 9pm and i was literally on PRIME VIDEO.

i go on yt, search a short video explaining hard math, dont understand one thing. so im like, why should i do this when i can just listen to a subliminal?? LOL. I LISTENED TO A SUBLIMINAL FOR 2 MINUTES. AND IT WORKED.

i dont wanna go into full detail but im writing this to remind myself how i did all of that. i always thought that i was crazy, because i could not understand, why, or how, each time i think about something it comes to me. i thought i was losing my mind lol. i think about a song that i havent heard in a loooong time or a shirt i havent seen for a long time and they just pop up. right in my eyes. in the same day in the same hour.

my subconscious mind is so powerful and i swear u cannot convince me otherwise. its helping me. and every thought just comes like it sounds super crazy but its so real and its amazing.

so thats why u should visualize, think about what u want, who u want to become and that will come to you. your subconscious mind is already getting it. because your thoughts already exist, your desires are yours and you just have to let them come through.

each time you talk bad, or bad mouth, talk shit about someone your subconscious mind records it and basically places that effect on you. like who you are, that negativity doesn't flow to that person, it comes to you. so whenever you open your mouth and say something hateful its only backfiring.

the same is with your thoughts. whenever you sit there and worry and just constantly doubt yourself, hate yourself, hate the future and think about how horrible its gonna turn out or ur not enough, thats exactly whats gonna happen.

u can control it. you can be it

#manifesation

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marblerose-rue · 2 years ago

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HI GUYS i am so sorry for the sudden drop in activity between allergies + college im just gonna clear off the rest of this week . i may do a big group type thing to catch up w/o giving myself too much extra work BUT i hope everyone is well!! <3

#not art #meandering #i did get a haircut today and every time i see myself in the mirror i startle myself a little bc i forget i got one AHBKJHDG #i have two exams next week . and a speech i have to give the week after and one of my classes is JUST NOW handing out assignments #OH YEAH my allergy symptoms r dealt with im normal again BAHBDJKFHGBDF when it gets bad it gets bad #this is my attempt at the fallen family guy pose without taking it too seriously #OH YEAH for a lot of you new followers: this is kaden shes my fursona of almost ten years (WELL she turns nine in november)#and i celebrate her birthday bc shes important to me shes my original meowmeow #also please keep me in your thoughts im on campus all day tomorrow and i really do not want to be i am no longer having fun/enjoying #my wednesdays . i only rlly enjoy one class on monday and its math . thats how bad it is BAHAHA no but rlly my stats prof is a sweetheart #hes very nice. he gave me an extension on a quiz i rlly didnt need but regardless :-)

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babuis · 3 years ago

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— feelings are for shitheads : Suna x Reader - [1]

Synopsis: Of course you would be the one unfortunate enough to end up falling for someone you already friend zoned.

Word count: 3.2k

Genre: fluff, college au, slowburn

Pairings: College!auSuna x Reader

Another fic based off of my own life :) Barely any Suna in this part tbh. Side note, Suna actually isn’t from Hyogo- he’s from Aichi! He was scouted by Inarazaki which is in Hyogo. I mention this in here so just a disclaimer.

Perhaps if you had broken up with your long distance boyfriend earlier you wouldn’t be this distracted the day before your last final of the semester. Your math textbook sat on the floor among the storm of scratch paper and worksheets, mocking you as your scrolled through your camera roll.

It shouldn’t be this hard to find good photos of you, you think to yourself. However, each photo you see of yourself alone is too old, too bright, too risqué.

And on the other side, all the ones you actually like of yourself is with your ex boyfriend.

You sighed as you scrolled back to the beginning of your camera roll- what constituted for a good Tinder profile picture anyway?

It had been almost a year since you had been single. Turning 18 during your relationship meant that you had never even thought about making a Tinder account- much less touch the damn app.

Yet here you were, sitting on the floor of your dorm bedroom, making an account to prove to your friends (and yourself) that you were totally over your ex boyfriend from back home.

Deciding to stop nitpicking, you chose your photos and included a video of your cat. Afterall, you and your cat were a package deal, even if you couldn’t bring him to university with you.

This wouldn’t lead to anything serious anyway, you decided. Since you were leaving Kobe University which was all the way in Hyogo to go back to Tokyo for the break anyway.

Within minutes of setting your profile up, you noticed at the bottom of the screen it said that 56 people had swiped right on you already. And despite not looking for anything serious, you felt your ego boosted immediately.

Your gaze shifted from your phone screen to the copious amount of work littering your floor. Since your exam was tomorrow, you knew that it was a good idea to resume studying.

However...

With such a shiny new toy in your hands, you couldn’t resist swiping.

‘Just 5 minutes,’ you promised yourself. 5 more minutes wouldn’t hurt.

However, 10 minutes and 20 matches later, your worksheets were forgotten as you were too busy texting back the random guys on the app.

Cramming for an exam wasn’t good for you anyway.

You smiled victoriously to yourself- this would prove to your friends that you were over your ex for good now.

You were better than being hung up over a guy in the year below you. It was silly for you to think long distance would work out. Sillier to think that your boyfriend would wait for you- that he was okay with only seeing you on breaks.

You were the one who left to go to school all the way in Hyogo, after all, leaving him in Tokyo.

However, nearing the end of your first semester of your first year, you couldn’t say you regretted the decision.

Your friends had nothing to worry about. The lingering texts between the two of you meant nothing- the huge question mark on your ended relationship meant nothing. They didn’t have to worry about you going to see him over this break.

You were over him. The flame app on your phone was enough proof of that. The 20 guys in your dms was proof of that.

As the clock hit 2:18 AM you felt your eyelids grow heavy. Your grip on your phone slackened, but not before you could swipe right on the last match of the night: Suna Rintaro.

Across campus in his own dorm, Suna’s fingers twitched as he stared at his latest tinder match, debating on whether to make the first move or not. He had been swiping on Tinder that night because he was unbearably horny.

It wasn’t like he couldn’t hit up any of his matches he already had. However, after talking to all of them, it was apparent that they all wanted something from him that he couldn’t give.

After a few conversations with them, he would get bored. And if he did make plans to meet up with them, he would conveniently forget and not show up anyway.

Ami had demanded for an apology after he pulled that stunt just a few weeks ago, and he couldn’t even bother to reply.

He knew it was a dick move, but he was currently thinking with his dick.

However, if he put “just casual sex” in his bio, he would get no matches. So he opted for putting “Clever bio” out of laziness.

The interesting ones would hit him up anyway.

His eyes flickered up to the little clock in the corner of his phone screen reading 2:20 AM.

He yawned, deciding not to hit anyone up for the night. It was too late now, and he was tired anyway. Not to mention, he would be leaving Hyogo to go home to Aichi soon for break anyway.

Y/n L/n he read your name, ‘she’s fucking hot.’

~~~~~~~

You slightly regretted your decision to procrastinate the next day as you practically chained yourself to a desk in the library before your math exam. You were studying with a classmate in the same major.

“Ya’ got this question wrong,” Osamu pointed out to you, underlining the problem in red.

You sighed, feeling slightly embarrassed at how terribly you were doing in front of a classmate you barely even knew.

You erased your answer and scanned over the problem again, reworking it on a separate sheet of paper.

“Why don’t you become a math major instead of a business administration major?” you quipped at him jokingly.

The black haired man snorted, “Nah, I’m gonna open ma’ own business. Why the hell would I want ta’ write random numbers all day?”

“I hate math,” you mumbled, showing him your reworked answer, “This right?”

“Mmm,” he hummed, “Alright, that was the last question. We’re good ta’ go.”

You groaned, rubbing your temples, “Man, I’m so fucked.” Your anxiety faded as quickly as it came, “Whatever. I only need a 60 to get a B in the class.”

“Nice,” Osamu nodded, “ya’ got this.”

You flashed him a wry smile, knocking on the wooden desks lightly, “Don’t jinx it- but thanks. We should have studied together earlier.”

“We can if we have ta’ retake the class,” Osamu snorted, “but I would rather not. No offense ta’ you.”

You waved your hand lazily, “None taken. Good luck.”

You packed up your things, bidding good bye to the man. Sending a quick text to your friend to confirm your lunch plans, you almost walked straight into the door if not for someone opening it to enter right as you left.

However, you were clueless to the action and continued to make your way to the cafeteria.

As you trekked across campus, you opened Tinder. However, you were unprepared for the huge flux of dms and number of matches you had gotten while your phone was off.

You scrolled through the matches, internally cringing as you see some of the people you had swiped right on in your sleepy haze.

Note to self: don’t use tinder late at night.

However, your thumbs stopped moving as your eyes caught onto a certain guy you couldn’t quite remember matching with. However, you couldn’t say you regretted the match either.

Suna Rintaro, You read his name to yourself.

And while you admitted the man was attractive with his foxy eyes and perfected, barely there smile- he gave you almost nothing to work with. A picture of a white dog didn’t tell you much and his bio consisted of only “clever bio.”

Biting your lip, you swiped up to message him.

After 5 minutes of thinking, you could only think of “clever introduction,” before hitting send.

It wasn’t your best, but if it didn’t work out, you would pin the blame on the male’s boring profile instead.

You grabbed some lunch before finding a vacant table to wait for your friend. You felt slightly nostalgic as you looked around. It was here that your friend and you had first met- with her accidentally spilling some water on you.

Bzzt Bzzt

Your eyes found their way back to your screen, a single notification telling you that Suna Rintaro had messaged you back.

Clever, the text read, Want me to put that through plagiarism checker?

You laughed a bit to yourself, quickly typing out a response, what else is a girl supposed to work with?

In mere moments, another text popped up from the male. How about you start with introducing yourself for real?

You can read my profile you quipped back jkjk. Y/n L/n, first year. You?

Suna Rintaro. First year. Where u from?

“Sorry I’m late Y/n!”

The sound of your friends voice caused you to close out of the app, deciding to focus on her instead of the pixels behind the screen. The girl was huffing as if she had run across campus.

“You look like you ran a marathon, Heiran,” you mused, scooting your things on the table over so the girl could put her food down.

“Running across campus might’as well be one,” said girl muttered, plopping down in the seat across from you. “Who were ya texting that’s gotcha smilin’ like that?”

You rolled your eyes, chewing on some beef, “Not who you think, that’s for sure.”

“Good, and I don’t want ta’ hear that ya’ met up with him over the break either,” she stared you down seriously as she stabbed a piece of broccoli on her plate.

You rolled your eyes. holding up 3 fingers together, “Scouts honor. Besides, I’m over him.”

“Suuuure,” Heiran eyes you warily, “This is the first break you’ll be home since ya’ broke up with him.”

“And? Heiran, it’s all good, I swear. I even downloaded Tinder yesterday and have chatted up at least 24 different guys,” You showered her the app on your home screen as proof.

Seeing the little flame, your friend’s eyes lit up, “Oooooh! Lemme see yer’ profile!”

You tapped on the app, letting her looking at your profile but snatching it back before she could snoop through your messages.

“Yer’ hot,” Yuki said, wiggling her eyebrows, “Anyone notable?”

You shrugged, powering your phone off, “Not really. I’m not really looking for anything serious- it’s just fun to flirt around. I’m leaving for home tomorrow morning anyway.”

At the mention of going home, Heiran’s eyes shined again and the conversation steered in a different direction.

Having too much fun catching up with your friend, Suna’s message remained forgotten in your pocket, leaving him wondering if you had already gotten bored (or warned) as he hung out with the Miya’s on the other side of campus.

~~~~~~~

It wasn’t until your second day back at home that you had remembered that you had the dating app downloaded.

“Y/n, you dog you downloaded Tinder???”

Kuroo had been looking through your phone as you played Smash Bros against Kenma on the couch. How the tall male knew your password was unknown to you but you barely had time to dwell on the thought before you lunged towards Kuroo to get your phone back.

“Y/n!” Kenma yelled at you, “get back here!”

You gritted your teeth, snatching your phone back, “He’s snooping through my phone!”

“Ok? What dirty e-sex are you having that you’re so embarrassed about?” Kuroo teased you, picking up the controller you had abandoned.

You rolled your eyes, shoving the male’s shoulder, “I’m not having e-sex!” you quipped back, “Besides, I forgot I had even downloaded it. My math final kicked my ass.”

You checked your phone for any signs of tampering, but when you found nothing, you opened Tinder. Seeing the opened but unanswered message from Suna made you blanch.

You had accidentally left this man on read for 3 days.

Tokyo, how about you?

Sorry for the late text, my math final kicked my ass.

You doubted you would get a response. After all, you were on break and nobody in their right mind would start something would start something with someone currently in a different prefecture.

However, just one game of smash later, you had gotten a response.

And here I thought you had gotten bored after 3 minutes.

Who uses a dating app during vacation?

In all honesty, Suna had debated on whether he would respond or not. After all, he wasn't really looking for an emotional connection.

But, at the same time, he wouldn't mind waiting until getting back to campus to fuck. You were just that fine.

He wouldn't mind indulging you a little, he supposed.

Me, apparently.

What are you up to?

Suna's dog, Moose, whined from next to him as he took a break from petting the dog.

Playing with Moose

His hand found its way back to Moose's head, scratching right below the ears where he knew his pet loved. The heat from the kotatsu made him blink drowsily.

You have a moose?

Oh wait no.

That's the name of the dog in ur profile right?

You wanted to smack yourself at your first message- who just had a moose?

And why did tinder not have a unsend option?

Suna chuckled as he read your messages.

Yea my dog's name is moose.

Sorry I don't have a real one laying around.

I see you got a cat.

At the mention of your baby, your face brightened, eager to gush about him to a random- albeit handsome- stranger.

Yea! Her name is Mayo.

Suna's eyebrows rose at the name. He thought Moose had a strange name, but Mayo was up there within the list of interesting pet names.

Moose and Mayo.

What are you up to?

Your fingers flew across your screen as you responded.

Waiting for my turn for Smash.

Unbeknownst to you, Kuroo and Kenma's match had ended a little while ago, and they were choosing to watch you instead of the screen.

The two friends shared knowing looks at the little grin on your face.

Despite his earlier teasing, Kuroo was glad you had downloaded Tinder and seemed happier. Despite you claiming you had been over your ex, he knew better.

This ex was your first ex and you had been madly in love. He knew the two of you still texted, dancing along the lines of friendship and dating.

With you living on the other side of him, Kuroo could see you late at night playing video games with your ex online since you always forgot to close your curtains.

Kenma was also intrigued at your reaction. It had been very long since he saw you smiling down at your phone in such a way.

Before the break up, more often than not, there was a slight frown on your face while you were on your phone when you visited home. Your ex leaving yet another message of yours unread or open.

It was always 'do you think he wants to break up?' 'why won't he answer?' 'who's this girl?'

And while he would never think your worries were annoying, he was glad to see you slowly moving on.

"Alright little Miss Y/n," Kuroo startled you out of your little world, "I lost. You gonna avenge me or what?"

"Give me a sec," you told the boy, not wanting to leave Suna on read out of nowhere again.

Alright, it's my turn to get wiped in Smash Bros

I'll ttyl

Not even a few seconds later came Suna's reply.

Later

Have fun

You pocketed your phone, giving Kuroo the stink eye as you did so.

The rooster head laughed in surrender, handing you the controller.

"Don't be embarassed," he jabbed, "what type of e-sex are you having?"

"Fuck off!" You chucked a pillow at his head, which he caught easily.

Ding Dong

"The universe really doesn't want you to win a round," Kenma snorted as he stood up to get the door.

You rolled your eyes, wiggling on the cushion, "Sorry I don't play video games all day. You expecting more company?"

"Nah, it's probably my mom," Kenma replied, turning the knob.

"SENPAI!"

At the loud chorus of yells, you turned around to look at the door. Your eyes met beady green ones and in a split second, you had shot up from your seat on the couch to go and hug the boy.

“Lev!” you exclaimed, squeezing the tall boy as tight as possible, “I missed you!”

Despite being surprised to find you there, he hugged you back, just as excited, “Ah! Senpai, you’re at Kenma’s house! I missed you too!”

The Russian lifted you off the ground for a few moments before setting you back down and freeing you from the hug.

Kuroo had also walked over, choosing to give the younger boy a hug, strongly clasping his shoulders.

“I heard you became captain,” he greeted Lev.

Hearing his title, Lev sheepishly smiled, “Was I that annoying as a first year too?”

“Hey!” Indignant cried came from behind Lev’s back, making you lean over to see past him.

Kenma sighed as he saw the entirety of Nekoma High’s new volleyball team outside his door, “Lev...” he said warningly.

“Sorry! Sorry!” Lev clasped his hands together, looking guilty, “We let it slip that the Kuroo and Kenma were in town for their winter vacations and the volleyball team wanted to meet you.”

“We?” you questioned the male.

“Ack! Sorry for falling behind- the fried chicken smelled really good so I had to buy some!”

From the familiar voice, your body froze, completely missing the apologetic glance that Lev had sent you. He hadn’t known you would be hanging out with Kuroo and Kenma. If he had, he wouldn’t have brought the volleyball team with him, and in turn, his co captain-

“Inuoka?” you breathed out, barely audible.

Your ex, not expecting to see you, also froze, smile dropping from his face for a split second. The two of you stood their, staring at each other for the longest time.

Your heart beat loudly in your chest as you cursed out your younger friend for practically dragging you into the lion’s den. Despite all your insisting that Inuoka had no effect on you, seeing your ex in person again after months had your entire body reacting.

Curse his stupid, cute smile.

“Hey,” he grinned sheepishly at you, “It’s been a while.”

Not wanting to cause a scene in front of Nekoma’s new first and second years, you mustered up a smile yourself.

“Hey.”

As if reading your mind, Inuoka clasped a hand around your elbow, “Let’s catch up,” he said, pulling you towards your house, “privately,” he added under his breath for only you to hear.

You could only mutely nod, trying to give Kuroo, Kenma, and Lev your best it’s okay smile despite feeling like you were on fire. The place where Inuoka touched you felt like it was burning and you prepared yourself for what was coming next.

Whatever that was.

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ch3rryc4ndy · 2 years ago

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Only Way Pt. 3

Relationship - haechan soft!dom x fem reader

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Summary - barley passing math class, Your mom

insists on getting you a tutor. She ensures you her best

friend's son which you've had an irritating past with

would be the perfect fit for you. After a few sessions he

learns of a way to motivate you like no other tutor

could.

Warnings - 18+ MINORS DNI. Includes language !

Masterlist

My date with hyuck was perfect. We went to a coffee shop near my house and learned a lot about each other. He’s way more caring than I expected, I can tell he loves physical contact I guess that’s his love language. we haven’t got to see each other in a few days due to the over flow of work we both got but sooner or later we’d see each other again.

I walk out of math anxiously as I just turned in my math exam . Our professor would be giving us our grades in a few days so all I can do is wait in agony… I hope I pass this exam I want to get my first A in math EVER. I’ve gotten A’s in all tests and exams expect math…

My phone dings notifying me that Karina just finished class. I look down at my phone in confusion as I see haechans name pop up “ hey y/n it’s haechan, how’d the test go ? “ I read as I roll my eyes in a chuckle “ good, well I think I did good but who knows…I said that the last time. Also how did you get my number? Why are you in my contacts? “ I reply. “ Karina helped me with that “ he reply’s.

After our last session I honestly got motivation from his proposition but quickly lost all of it after I realized it’s really just sex…I mean what if he’s bad ? Just because he knows how to use that tongue of his doesn’t mean he knows how to fuck. Also I shouldn’t let sex motivate me to do well, I should be doing that on my own!

“ hey babe “ I hear Karina squeal from behind me “ hey rina, how did you get haechans number into my phone?“ I ask “ oh he told you that… well I ran into him while I was buying you some coffee and I got his number for you since I know you aren’t one to ask. Once I met you after that I put his contact in your phone and didn’t worry about it since you never check any of you contacts” she smiles “ weird much “ I chuckle as we hug each other tightly “ you are welcome my dearest y/n” Karina coos “ come over babe I have so much to tell you “ I say as she drags me along. “ of course, tell me all about that sexy tutor of yours “ she winks.

We make it back to my place and to my relief see no one’s home “ I’ll be right up babe I’m going to get some snacks “ Karina hums as I make my way up stairs. I hear my phone ring and see hyucks number calling “ hello ? “ I reply “ can I come over right now ? “ hyuck asks eagerly “ I’m sorry haechan Karina is over right now and I want to spend some time with her alone, we can hang out tomorrow if you want.” I sigh.“ Y/N TELL ME ABOUT THAT HAECHAN “ Karina yells out as she bursts into my room.

“ bye hyuck I’ll see you tomorrow- or text me if you want to “ I blurt out and hanging up the phone. “ KARINA I WAS ON A CALL WITH HIM “ I yell as I feel myself get red from embarrassment “ oh and how was I supposed to know that? “ she replies with her arms crossed.

“ sooo how is he “ she coos as we lay on the bed “ he’s kind of too good to be true….. There’s something he’s hiding for sure I’ve never met a guy like that “ I reply “ oh you need to stop being so paranoid, he isn’t like jeno y/n… he won’t treat you the way he did” Karina sighs “ and how do you know that? He was friends with jeno, what if he’s just lying to me to prove a point to jeno “ i mutter out as I start to feel convinced by my own paranoia.

“ y/n what motive? What point would he prove? Stop over thinking this “ she reply’s slightly agitated “ oh jeno would gladly do something like this, stop acting like he wouldn’t “ I chuckle “ I’m not saying jeno wouldn’t do this but why would haechan? He has no reason to do any of that “ she replies “ I don’t know….im sure many people want to please jeno for his status or money I mean he buys all his friends so much stuff who says haechan isn’t doing it for that “ I sigh

“ y/n stop it! Enough of this negative talk, tell me the good! How is it when you’re with him” she groans “ I didn’t tell you but we made out and he gave me head “ I say nonchalantly “ WHAT??!!l Karina yells loudly “ AND YOU DIDNT TELL ME THIS BECAUSE?” She says as she smacks my arm “ ow! “ I laugh out as she sits there mad.

“ so you guys didn’t actually fuck right “ she asks “ no….he said if I passed my next exam he would reward me, it kinda motivated me but now I’m realizing it’s just sex and that shouldn’t motivate me “ I reply “ well that would’ve gave me a lot of motivation “ Karina chuckles “ but was he good? “ she asks as she winks “ oh he amazing…… I’ve never came that quickly, not even with myself “ I groan

“ looks like my girl finally found someone to spend time with “ Karina chuckles as she hugs me “ I think he’s a good person y/n, I did my research and I didn’t see anything bad on him. He’s only dated one person and he got cheated on so I guess both of you just need someone to genuinely love “ she sighs “ I don’t do love Karina you now that “ I reply

“ sureee y/n “ Karina hums “ I’m serious “ I reply with my arms crossed “ and look who's calling “ Karina coos as my phone rings and haechan’s name pops up on my screen “ it’s fine he can wait “ I reply as I see Karina grabbing my phone quickly from my hands “ GIVE IT BACK “ I yell as she gets off the bed and runs into the bathroom “ please Rina don’t say anything weird “ I plead as I hear her talking in that tone she uses when she’s up to no good.

- haechan pov -

“ hey haechannn y/n’s been telling me so much about you but be honest with me, do you like her in a I want to fuck her or I want to love her kinda way “ I hear Karina blurt out “ I- hi karina “ I respond “ so are you going to answer “ she groans “ KARINA IM NOT PLAYING GIVE ME MY PHONE “ I hear y/n’s muffled yells threw the phone

“ Both if I'm being honest “ I reply in a smile “ good, she’s a little hesitant with you for reasons that will probably hurt that ego of yours but if you hurt her you will not see the last of me “ she threatens “ what would hurt my ego “ I scoff “ well y/n is worried you’ll suck in bed or even using her to get back at jeno or something, I know y/n has a lot in the little mind of hers she's quite the over thinker “ karina replies.

y/n thinks I wouldn’t satisfy her? I don’t blame her for thinking that honestly, it just makes me want to do the job right even more. Why would she think I’d use her? FOR JENO? That son of a bitch? I have respect for her and myself to not be in the same vicinity as jeno. “ she can think what she wants about me in bed she’ll be finding sooner or later. Also I would never use anyone to get back or prove a point, y/n is the first person to treat me like a person “ I sigh. A high pitched squeal echos through the phone “ Karina please “ y/ns voice echos “ well it was nice talking to you haechan, please treat her well “ Karina giggles.

- y/n pov -

I hear Karina unlocking the door as I stand in-front of my bathroom door with my arms crossed. “ I approve of that one“ karina chuckles as she hands me my phone and lays back on the bed “ what did you say…” I reply in a sigh “ nothing that you haven’t said already, don’t worry!! “ she replies in a smile “fine” I sigh “ I can’t be mad at you “ I laugh as I hug her “ you better have not said anything crazy….I couldn’t really hear you it sounded like you were whispering or something “ I reply

“ oh I was, you DONT need to hear my conversations “ she giggles “ rina….I have a feeling you said something crazy” I sigh “ mmmh maybe but let’s watching the movie “ she groans.

- time skip -

It’s been a few days since Karina coming over and I’ve been bombarded with messages of haechan pleading to come over, I don’t know why I’ve been making excuses when in reality I wanted to see him and always stayed home I had no reason to lie lied on why I couldn’t see him in person.

“ mom Im home “ I blurt out as I walk into the kitchen “ hey honey I just finished up making some food for you since I know you’ve been working hard on that test of yours, have you gotten your results? “ she asks “ they came in today but I’ve been too scared to open them “ I chuckle nervously “ come on honey open them! “ she replies as makes her way towards me “ ok…” I sigh. I unlock my phone and go to my class grades “ I GOT A 98% “ I squeal as my mom pulls me into a hug “ WE HAVE TO CELEBRATE! let me call jaz to thank haechan for helping you “

“ there’s no need to mom “ I reply nervously “ JAZ y/n passed her exam CAN YOU BELIEVE IT! A 98%! “ she squeals “ yes yes come over “ she adds “ mom no Can we just celebrate on our own “ I whisper but my pleads go unheard “ ok see you soon! “

“ I’ll be back I need to go get some more bottles of wine, open the door when jaz and haechan get here okay” she smiles as she grabs her things to head out. “ ok mom” i smile waiting for her to step out of the house. As soon as she closes the door I run upstairs and throw all my mess into my closet and trying my best to look as clean and organized as I could. I grab a black mesh dress and some Dior pumps, throwing it on and straightening my hair as fast as possible. I feel myself start to sweat and run towards my deodorant and perfume spraying on my neck and wrists.

“ make up make up “ I mutter as I look around my room for my small bag of makeup “ AH “ I yell as I place it on my desk and put some mascara and gloss on. I hear the doorbell ring and groan as I haven’t finished but try and make myself as presentable as possible. “ perfect “ i sigh as I place my things back in place and make my way down stairs.

I open the door to be greeted by jaz and haechan both smiling at me “ congratulations! I know how stressful it was to pass that pain of an ass class! “ jaz smiles as she hugs me tightly “ yeah I’m glad I’m glad I did well, thanks to haechan “ I smile looking at him “ your mom went out to buy some wine didn’t she? “ jaz replies “ yeah she did but she’ll be back soon” I reply “ hi y/n “ I hear haechan purr from behind me as he looks at his mom and sees her to occupied with the food “ good job in the exam, I know you could do it” he smiles as he pulls me into a hug and buries himself into my neck causing a quiet whimper to escape my lips.

“ you look gorgeous as always “ he whispers into my ear “ thanks “ I smile as I step back and take in his outfit. I smile slightly as I see a black button up hugging his chest accompanied with some black slacks “ isn’t that funny you guys look like a couple with those matching outfits! “ jaz chuckles from behind us. I awkwardly laugh as I make my way toward the stairs “ I’ll be in my room jaz, haechan do you wanna come? “ I ask nervously as I look back at him “ sure “ he replies following close behind me.

“ you two are up to no good “ we hear jaz chuckle. “ why have you been ignoring me? “ haechan asks as he shuts the door behind him “ I’ve been busy” I reply “ and with what exactly? “

“ and thats your business because? “ I sigh as I turn on my tv “ if you don’t want to see me just say that y/n don’t lead me on “ he replies angry taking me by surprise “ n- no I do want to see you I’m not leading you on it’s just I was nervous to…I have no idea what Karina said to you and I have a feeling it was kind of embarrassing. I would never lead you on hyuck I can’t lead people on when I have feelings for them “ I blurt out anxiously.

“ you have feelings for me mmh? “ He smiles as he leans onto the pace next to me “ yeah I do “ I reply confidently knowing rejection was better than hurting myself in the long run.

“ good to see that the feelings are Mutual” hyuck smiles.

- Pt. 4 coming soon

#haechan #haechan fanfic #haechan smut #kpop smut #nct dream #nct smut #nctzen

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chaeryybomb · 4 years ago

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pairings: female reader x best friend!jungwon

summary: they told you that these were the golden years, but to you "golden" was a rusting metal spray painted yellow. the story of a seventeen year old trying to survive high school when all you do is try your best. but your best friend jungwon makes it worth the while.

genre: high school au, friends to lovers, fluff, tiny bits of angst if you squint, attempt at humour

featuring: jang wonyoung, kim sunoo & nishimura riki

word count: 4.5k

warnings: reader having a existential crisis most of the time, strong language, mentions of insecurity

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You slumped forward the moment the bell rang, letting your head hit the table. You could care less if a bruise would form on your forehead, you had much bigger things to worry about. Your teacher left the class wordlessly as the class was busy doing their own thing. And by that, everyone was buried nose deep in studying. You lifted your head to see the different books of the same topic scattered on your desk, a yellow highlighter balancing on the edge of your table.

Reaching over to grab the highlighter, you turned your head over to the side to look at your desk mate. Wonyoung sat there looking straight out from a k-drama, with her hair flowing down her back perfectly and her slender nimble fingers moving as she continuously wrote in her notebook. She was smart too, fluent in English and Korean, great at maths and science. And on top of that she was kind and friendly, everyone loved her. You did too, you had the honour of calling her your best friend. But sometimes you felt insecure around her, everything she did looked flawless and there you were just trying your best.

"Ack!" You yelped as you sat up straight, holding your forehead. Wonyoung rolled her eyes at you with a small smile on her lips, she had flicked your forehead to get you out of your thoughts.

Without taking her eyes off the textbook, she tapped your own workbook with her pen. Silently telling you to stop procrastinating. You pouted at her and looked at the clock, 10 minutes before lunch. Maybe a walk to the girl's bathroom would do you some good.

"I'm gonna go to the bathroom," you whispered to Wonyoung. She nodded and smiled at you before you walked out.

As you strolled towards the girl's bathroom, you passed by the bulletin board outside your class. A bright blue poster stood out with the words "ENJOY YOUR YOUTH" in white. Scoffing at the message, you continued on your way.

"I'm seventeen now, where's my fucking teenage dream?" You muttered to yourself. You were tired of waiting for your life to end up like a coming of age movie. Everyone told you that these were the golden years and you should enjoy your youth, but you swear to god if you hear another one of those cheesy sayings, you might just cry on the spot.

Reaching over to open the stall door, you halt in your actions when you heard familiar voices talking.

"I'm so worried for finals, my parents are gonna kill me if I fail English again," a girl complained. You hear the sound of tap water running. "How are you so calm during this time, Mirae?'

"What's the use of studying hard anyways," the second girl, Mirae, said. "We all know the top spots are gonna be taken by Jang Wonyoung and Yang Jungwon, I just study enough to pass."

The other girl snorted at her reply. "Imagine if those two got together, the power couple of the year," she suddenly said.

"Poor Y/N then, she's gonna be over shadowed by them."

"As if she already isn't. I almost forgot they were a trio until you mentioned Y/N," the girl laughed.

"What can I say? They're out of her league," Mirae joined in with her laughter.

The two voices faded away as you heard the door closed. Finally pushing the door open, you looked at your reflection. Your eyebrows knitted in annoyance and your face was morphed in a scowl. You washed your hands aggressively and poked the inside of your cheek. What bugged you was that they were right. You were the black sheep between Wonyoung and Jungwon. Both of them were smart and amazing, and you're just…you.

You love your best friends, you truly do. But you were constantly compared to them and you hated it. Everyone wanted them, you watched as guys tripped over to confess to Wonyoung and girls squealing when Jungwon smiled at them. The two of them always reassured you that you weren't beneath them but you were sick of their sympathy. You're so caught up in the news of who likes you and who hates them. You just wished people liked you more.

Storming out of the bathroom, someone accidentally ran into you and caused you to fell onto your butt. The student immediately stood up and scurried off, not bothering to even a mutter an apology. All I did was try my best and this is the thanks I get, you thought bitterly.

They said that these were the golden years, but you wished you could just disappear. God, it's brutal out here.

"Y/N, wait up!" Jungwon called after you.

You stopped in your tracks as you watched Jungwon waved goodbye to some students before jogging towards you.

"You heading to cram school today?" He asked you as the both of you fell into the same walking rhythm.

You shook your head, clasping your hands behind. "I moved it to Thursday instead, Wonyoung said I had to many things on Tuesday," you told him. Originally, you would be heading to the library to study before heading over to the cram school. But Wonyoung took one look at your schedule and decided that you did not had enough breaks, so she managed to convince you to take the Thursday slot instead. Thursdays are one of the days where you would not go to the library.

Jungwon seemed to be disappointed to find out that you had switched slots. Maybe he should changed slots too, but does he have any empty spots open for Thursday though? He'd have to check later. Instead, he coughed and stuffed his hands into his pockets.

"Do you wanna come over later? The new Demon Slayer movie is out," he offered, hoping that you'd accept.

Unfortunately, you once again shook your head. "Sorry Jungwon, I'd want to cram even more later. Finals are really creeping in and I can't afford to waste any time," you told him with a sad smile. As much as you would like to ditch the books and watch Demon Slayer, the glaring C on your last history paper was telling you otherwise.

You stopped walking when you had reached your doorstep. "Thanks for walking me home, Jungwon. See you tomorrow!" and with that you disappeared behind the door.

Jungwon waved goodbye as he watched the door closed. The smile on his face dropped and his shoulder sagged. Jungwon you idiot, of course she would want to study, he scolded himself. With disappointment on his face, he trudged home with a heavy heart.

"Change of plans, guys," he announced as he swung the front door open, unfazed by the fact that Riki and Sunoo were lounging on his coach. He accepted the fact that Sunoo had somehow gotten the keys to his house (suspecting that his mother probably gave it to him due to favouritism or maybe Riki had sneakily made a copy).

Riki's head poked out from the couch. "She rejected you, didn't she," the younger boy said with a smirk.

Jungwon's face ears turned red as he glared at the boy. "No she did not!" He immediately told him. "She rejected the offer to watch the movie, that's different!"

"That's basically rejection, hyung," Riki laughed.

The other boy just glared at him. "Shut up!" he sputtered out before hiking up the stairs.

Sunoo gave Riki a look, to which the Japanese boy just shrugged his shoulders innocently.

Jungwon walked out from the shower, a towel around his neck with one hand running through his damp hair. Sunoo and Riki had left earlier, finally giving him some peace and quiet. His phone screen was flashing from his study table, initiating that someone was spamming him (quite aggressively) with text message. With a raised eyebrow, he picked up his phone

[7:09 pm] wonyoung: JUNGWON

[7:10 pm] wonyoung: WHY DID Y/N JUST MESSAGED ME ABOUT HOMEWORK

[7:10 pm] wonyoung: ISNT SHE WITH YOU

[7:11 pm] wonyoung: I THOUGHT YOU SAID U WERE GONNA WATCH A MOVIE

[7:11 pm] wonyoung: DEMON HUNTER OR SMTG

[7:12 pm] wonyoung: WHY IS SHE ASKING ME FOR HW

[7:12 pm] wonyoung: DID U CHICKEN OUT???

[7:13 pm] wonyoung: omg u chickened out didnt u

[7:14 pm] jungwon: jfc wonyoung

[7:15 pm] jungwon: and no i did not chicken out okay

[7:15 pm] jungwon: she declined

[7:16 pm] jungwon: she said she had to study ;-;

[7:17 pm] wonyoung: omg u suck

[7:17 pm] wonyoung: i told u the movie idea was dumb

[7:18 pm] wonyoung: but do u ever listen to me

[7:18 pm] wonyoung: no

[7:19 pm] wonyoung: and now u suffer the consequences

[7:20 pm] jungwon: yea yea i get it im dumb

[7:20 pm] jungwon: now what's ur solution the great jang wonyoung

[7:21 pm] wonyoung: i am so glad u asked :)

[7:21 pm] jungwon: oh no

[7:21 pm] wonyoung: stfu im giving u a better idea

[7:22 pm] wonyoung: a n y w a y s

[7:22 pm] wonyoung: my ynradar is going off and she's s a d

[7:23 pm] jungwon: how would u know

[7:23 pm] jungwon: she seemed fine today

[7:23 pm] wonyoung: stfu jungwon its best friend things u wont understand

[7:24 pm] jungwon: i-

[7:25 pm] wonyoung: and as her future bf u SHOULD start to train ur ynradar

[7:25 pm] wonyoung: anw its exam season stoopid

[7:26 pm] wonyoung: and its when those kids start to talk abt how the both of us are gonna get top scores

[7:26 pm] wonyoung: and they talk down on y/n while doing so

[7:26 pm] wonyoung: assholes

[7:27 pm] wonyoung: so i propose to u

[7:27 pm] wonyoung: a ✨ study date ✨

[7:28 pm] jungwon: i

[7:29 pm] jungwon: that's

[7:29 pm] jungwon: actually not a bad idea

[7:30 pm] wonyoung: obv i came up with it

[7:31 pm] jungwon: can u not

[7:31 pm] wonyoung: anw a study date

[7:32 pm] wonyoung: she's struggling in maths

[7:33 pm] wonyoung: specifically taxes because she said and i quote

[7:34 pm] wonyoung: "why do we have to do taxes when we pay people to do it for us"

[7:34 pm] wonyoung: so pls help her and try to cheer her up

[7:35 pm] wonyoung: and confess coward

[7:36 pm] jungwon: i make no promises for the last one

[7:36 pm] wonyoung: aFTER EVERYTHING I JUST SAID

[7:37 pm] jungwon: what if she rejects me wonyoung

[7:38 pm] wonyoung: WE'VE HAD THIS CONVERSATION A LOT OF TIMES JUNGWON

[7:38 pm] wonyoung: SHE LIKES U BUT SHES TOO DUMB TO REALISE

[7:39 pm] jungwon: sigh

[7:40 pm] jungwon: fine i'll try thanks wonyoung

[7:41 pm] wonyoung: np i expect y'all to be a couple by next monday <3

[7:41 pm] jungwon: i-

Sighing for the nth time of the night, Jungwon sat on his bed. He allowed the towel to slipped off his shoulders as his thumb hovered over your chat icon. Truth be told, he always thought his crush on you was unrequited love. You never showed any signs of returning of feelings so he thought he would just ignore the feeling until it was gone.

But oh boy was he wrong, because he didn't knew that he would be spending his high school years by your side. And now you occupy his mind 24/7. Wonyoung could literally tell that he was in love with you, but somehow you never caught on. He allowed Sunoo and Riki to convince him to do the whole "movie date idea", but that failed. So Wonyoung's suggestion was his only option left.

He typed out the message, ready to send it out. If only he could just press the button. Come on Yang Jungwon, you can do this. Just press the damn button Jungwon. Suddenly his phone pinged loudly, scaring the lights out of the poor boy as he yelped and his phone landed with a thud on the ground. He peered over his bed, as if his phone was a ticking bomb.

Oh, it was a message from you.

[8:01 pm] y/n: hey do u know where wonyoung is

[8:01 pm] y/n: she isn't answering my texts

Oh no. He realised that your chat was open, the two ticks indicated that he had (unintentionally) read the message. He couldn't just leave you on read. That's just evil. Scrambling to get his phone, he immediately typed a reply to cover for the other girl.

[8:02 pm] jungwon: sorry i don't :/

[8:02 pm] jungwon: what do u need her for

[8:03 pm] y/n: mf was supposed to teach me a maths question but she left me on rEAD

This was his chance! It was the perfect opportunity for him to score a date with you. Okay, breathe in breath out Jungwon. Don't mess it up and just ask her, he mentally prepared himself.

[8:04 pm] jungwon: oh i could help you if you want

[8:04 pm] jungwon: yk with finals coming up and everything, i can help you study

[8:05 pm] jungwon: if you want of course

[8:05 pm] y/n: omg srsly??

[8:06 pm] jungwon: pls help me study my braincells are literally dying

[8:07 pm] jungwon: jdsjkda okay how about this saturday at your place?

[8:08 pm] y/n: yeah sure

[8:08 pm] jungwon: cool its a date then!

You blinked at Jungwon's message. A date? Wait, did Yang Jungwon just indirectly asked you out? Nah, nah. You were overthinking it. Yes, definitely overthinking. Don't kid yourself, why would Jungwon ask you out on a date? Jungwon is just a friend, you tried to convince yourself.

Keyword: tried.

If he really was just a friend, then why did it felt like butterflies were in your stomach when he said "it was a date"? Then why did you frowned when those girls said that Wonyoung and Jungwon would make a good couple?

Oh god, do you have feelings for your best friend?

Saturday came faster than you would have liked it to. Ever since that last chat with Jungwon, it gave you the sudden realisation that you did in fact had feelings for your best friend. You tried so hard to avoid him in school because you don't want the butterflies back in your stomach. It was basically confirming the fact that you like him. Well, avoiding him also confirmed the fact but you choose to be in denial about it.

You didn't tell Wonyoung about your study date but lately she's been sending you outfit ideas on Pinterest. Specifically, date outftis. And whenever you tried to ask her a question about school, she brushed you off with a random excuse. So it left you no choice but to save those questions for Jungwon.

Speaking of Jungwon, he had texted you 10 minutes ago that he was on the way. You were standing in the middle of your room with your hands on your hips. Both of your parents were out for the day, which left you alone at home. You had taken out the low table to be used later and it was currently in front of you. Colourful workbooks were neatly stacked on top of it.

You did a 360 turn around your room. Was it messy? You cleaned it this morning when you woke up. Did you had any clothes out? No, doesn't look like it. For some reason, you were a nervous wreck. You blamed Jungwon. He just had to call this a date, didn't he.

Should you change? Maybe you should finally look through all those pins Wonyoung sent. Wait, no, why would you have to change into something nice. Jungwon was here to help you study, just that.

Yeah, a study date, your mind emphasised on the word.

The sound of the doorbell pulled you out from your thoughts. You immediately went to open the door. Yang Jungwon stood there on the other side, with his signature smile. Had he always resembled a sheep? He just looked so fluffy.

"Hey!" You greeted him with a smile, internally wincing at your way-too-enthusiastic voice.

But Jungwon didn't seem to mind it. "Hey!" he greeted back.

You moved to the side to let him in. "Thank you for having me," he said as he bowed then proceeded to remove his shoes.

"Uh, do you want anything? Water?" You asked him.

He shook his head.

"Ah, cool. Let's head to my room," you started to walk back to your room.

"Where are your parents?" He asked.

"Out," you simply replied.

That was when it dawned upon you, that your parents were not home. Leaving you and Jungwon, alone. Together. In your room. Alone. With the boy you potentially have a crush on.

"Y/N?" Jungwon tapped on your shoulder. You had stopped walking when you were suddenly washed over by your thoughts. Snapping out of it, you sent him a small smile before opening the room to your door.

The both of you shuffled into your bedroom, you sat down in front of the low table while Jungwon settled down next to you. He moved to take out his books then turned to you. "How about we do some studying and if you have any questions, you can ask me okay?" He said.

You nodded and flipped your own workbook open, immediately starting to work on the first question. Jungwon copied your action and a comfortable silence engulfed the both of you. As the time passed, you found yourself stuck on a certain maths question.

You slightly turned your head to the side to look at Jungwon. He was concentrated at doing his work, you felt a sense of deja vu while looking at him. He resembled Wonyoung when she was studying. At the thought of Wonyoung, you suddenly thought of what those girls said at the bathroom.

They would make a good couple, wouldn't they, you thought. The power couple of the year.

The butterflies in your stomach faded away into an uncomfortable feeling. Just the idea of them getting together already made you sick. You bit the inside of your cheek, you really did had feelings for him. And now it scared you because what if he doesn't feel the same. You made a mental note to consult with Wonyoung later, at least you hope that you'll allow yourself to tell her.

Jungwon must've noticed you staring and gently tapped your head with his pencil. A contrast to when Wonyoung painfully flicked your forehead.

"What's wrong? Are you stuck on a question?" He asked.

You leaned back a bit at the sudden action. You were so deep in your insecurities that you had totally forgotten about the literal problem sitting in front of you. Yet you couldn't even bother to ask him so you just shook your head. "I'm gonna get something to drink," you said instead.

Jungwon watched as you stood up, then decided to follow you as well. "I'll come along."

The boy joined you in the kitchen, perched on one of the island stools as you grabbed a can of soda from the fridge. He studied your movement as you worked around the kitchen. Your features were neutral, you weren't smiling nor frowning. But he could tell that your shoulders were tensed. Wonyoung was right, you did seem down. And he cursed himself for not noticing earlier.

"You okay?" His question made you stopped in a mid-pour stance, the can of soda was tilted but not enough for the contents to be poured out.

You brushed his question off and poured the drink into the cup. "Yeah," you hummed.

Unconvinced by your answer, he pried more. "You know you shouldn't care about what they say, right?"

You furrowed your eyebrows at him, pretending like you didn't understand where he was coming from.

"You're not below us, you know that right?"

You couldn't help but scoffed at his words. Jungwon's lips tugged downwards "I'm being serious here, Y/N," his tone was stern. "You shouldn't listen to what they say. You're more than just-"

The sound of the can being slammed down shuts him up. Your fingers tightened around the can as you looked at him. You didn't had the energy to hear him preach the same old "Don't Listen To Them" speech. You don't need his pity.

"I don't want to hear it, Yang Jungwon," you said through gritted teeth. Not sparing him another glance, you threw the empty can into the trash as you grabbed your glass.

As you walked past Jungwon, he suddenly reached out and held onto your forearm. "Y/N," he said softly. "Please tell me what's wrong."

You sighed and slowly turn around to face him, placing the glass back on the counter. You took in a deep breath before you opened your mouth. "I feel like I'm not enough," you finally said. "Everything I do just doesn't seem enough. All I'm doing is my best but it's just crushing my ego because everyone is telling me that you're better than me."

"I feel like no one wants me and I hate the way I'm perceived. It's always poor Y/N this and poor Y/N that's because everyone just sees me as your shadow and I fucking hate it. I only have two real friends," you gestured wildly. "And lately I'm a nervous wreck cause I keep comparing myself to the two of you. I'm not cool and I'm not smart, and I can't even parallel park!" You threw your hands up in frustration, the feelings you kept inside were pouring out like a waterfall.

Jungwon just stood there as he listened tentatively to every word. He didn't knew that you felt this way, bottling up all your emotions like that.

"And I'm so tired of people telling me to enjoy my youth and that these are the golden years. I might just fucking cry if I hear those words again," you finished ranting. It felt good, it felt like a weight on your heart has been lifted. Then you remembered that you just dumped all of it on Jungwon.

You opened your mouth to apologise to him but he surprised you by pulling him into his arms. At first you were standing stiffly at the sudden contact, but it took a millisecond for you to melt in his embrace. His arms were gently around your back and you returned the hug by wrapping your arms around his torso. The two of you stay in that position for awhile, relishing in each other's embrace. You definitely needed this hug.

Tightening your hold on Jungwon, you realised how important he was to you. He was your best friend and he was always there for you. It was stupid of you to compare yourself to him, when all he did was tried his best for you. The taller boy chuckled when he felt you rubbed your face into his shoulder, he involuntarily released a contented sigh. You felt one of his hands stroked your hair, it felt comforting. That action itself was enough for the butterflies to slowly settled back in you.

After a while, both of you finally (unwillingly) released each other. He pushed a strand of hair behind your ears and said, "You're wrong by the way." Which made you tilt your head in genuine confusion.

"You are cool and you are smart. You're like the coolest person I know. And no one thinks of you as our shadow, you don't hear it but I've always hear the juniors praising you for helping them and how enthusiastic you are," the way he delivered his words was filled with pure awe for you.

"And who cares if you can't parallel park. You didn't hear it from but Jay hyung failed his drivers test three times just because he couldn't parallel park," and that got a laugh out from you. Jungwon smiled proudly that he managed to make you laugh. "And you're wrong when you said no one wants you. I want you."

You blinked once, twice and thrice. He wanted you? "You're just saying that cause you're my best friend," you replied.

"No," he firmly said. "I like you, Y/N."

(Jungwon doesn't know where he got this sudden surge of confidence, but the mood was the perfect time for him to confess. It was a one time chance and he had to take it.)

You chuckled. "I like you too, Jungwon. We are friends aren't we?"

"No, Y/N. I like you. More than friends."

"Oh." Oh.

"Yeah," he scratched the back of neck awkwardly. Oh no, did you not feel the same way?

While you on the other hand, were malfunctioning on the inside. Your best friend just confessed to you and you were frozen on the spot. Why couldn't he had done it over text instead. If he had done it over text, then you could've left the message unread and you could've spammed Wonyoung for help. But the thing is that it wasn't over text and you couldn't just tell him to wait here while you panicked to Wonyoung in your bathroom.

Yang Jungwon likes you. And you like him too, right? Because if you didn't, your cheeks won't be heating up right now and your heart would have not be beating rapidly like it was going to break your rib cage any second. If you didn't like him, there would have never been butterflies in your stomach. Yeah. You like Yang Jungwon, you like him a lot.

"Me too," you whispered, it was soft but it was enough for him to pick it up. Jungwon eyes snapped to you, doe eyed filled with hope. "I like you, too," you said, this time louder. And you made sure you looked him in the eye when you confessed.

You watched as Jungwon's mouth morphed into a big grin. He let out a sigh of relief and dropped to his knees, surprising you. "Jungwon!" you squeaked, bending down to help him.

"I'm fine! I'm fine," he assured you as he stood up with your help. The grin on his face was still there. "It's just that … you like me," he breathed out. "You like me back, wow. I-I can't believe it."

Your face was definitely burning with embarrassment. You punched him lightly on the shoulder, turning away to hide your face. "Believe it, you dork. I like you, okay!" Somehow his grin was able to grew wider at your words, Gently, he took your hand in his.

"How about we stop this study date, and I'll take you out on real date?"

a/n: thank you so much for reading this <3

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crypticspacecat · 3 years ago

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My Little Siren (2/4) (Yan!JoJoxBlack!FemReader)

Writer's block had me in a chokehold ngl lol. I won't post part 3 until after my trip next Tuesday. If y'all can guess which jojo this is, I'll give you a cookie lol

PART1

PART3

PART4

Also extra notes:

Here's a reference of y/n in this chapter: https://imgur.com/a/JyVxpGc

Also, the song used: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gJ50rvySDCk

Enjoy!

Math has never been your forte, but you are confident that you passed that exam. Walking to your dorm, you see a bunch of girls crowding around your door, including your roommate Tiana. You walk up to your roommate, confused about the commotion.

“Ti, what the hell is going on?”

“Looks like you got an admirer girl and a rich one at that!” She responds, eyes glued to the door. You follow her eyes to see the door covered in roses, looking similar to a rose gate. In the middle is a pinned envelope, yet to be touched. You walk towards the ominous envelope, maneuvering through the crowd of curious young women. With hesitation, you unpin the envelope from the door, opening it with trembling hands.

‘My love, your beauty continues to perplex me. Your eloquent voice and bright intelligence just make my love for you stronger. It’s hard to stay away, as your smile always brightens my day. One day my love, we will finally meet.

-J’

‘It’s him again.’ You think to yourself as you take another look at the roses. Despite the initial surprise, you can’t help but appreciate the mysterious gesture. The crowd soon dispersed, leaving only you and Tiana.

“Do you have any clue who this guy could be?”

“No clue Ti. Also, I don’t have class tomorrow so it’s gonna be wash day.”You mention, making her pat your back in solidarity. Since childhood, you’ve been raised to love your natural hair but lord knows that dense hair has its gripes. You go into your dorm to gather your hair products for tomorrow.

“What song are you gonna perform next?”

“I was thinking ‘Delilah by Florence and the Machine’.” You reply, undoing your pineapple bun. Tiana hums in approval, remembering the time you two went to see the artist in Seattle last year. You begin to detangle your hair while Tiana leaves for her evening class. This admirer is still in your mind as you finish sectioning your hair. So many thoughts considering this person’s identity.

Are they in my class?

Have I seen them before?

Do they even go to this school?

How did they find my dorm?

You prepare for bed, not sure what to expect tomorrow.

You wake up, feeling refreshed and ready for the day. You collect your bag of supplies, grateful Tiana left early so you can have the bathroom to yourself. The hot water turns on, filling the room with steam as you step into the shower. Hot water running through your hair and down the curves of your body, it's the most relaxed you’ve felt in weeks. The satisfaction of scrubbing your scalp free of dirt and hot water down your back has you in complete bliss. The sound of books being knocked over interrupts your peace, startling you.

“Ti, is that you?!” You holler, anxiety rising when you get no answer. You finish putting conditioner on the last section of hair before turning the shower off. You tiptoe out of the shower, still hearing those booming footsteps. Now realizing that it’s definitely not your roommate, you freeze in fear, afraid of what the intruder is possibly capable of. You hear the sound of rummaging and drawers being opened, confirming in your mind that you’re being robbed. The booming footsteps almost echo in the room before the door shuts completely. You muster up the courage to leave the bathroom, relieved that the assailant is gone, and start checking the room for missing items. Tiana’s side of the room was thankfully left untouched, but you can’t say the same for your space. Your belongings are scattered on the floor, your bed looking like someone just immersed themselves into your bedding. You then turn towards your laundry basket, which has been obviously rummaged through. You check to see that of few items are missing. A band t-shirt, your favorite black lace bra, and a pair of pajamas. Giving yourself a minute to process this, you’re no longer frightened, more perplexed than anything else.

“Who the hell steals dirty laundry?!” Tiana exclaims, tying up her braids.

“I have no clue. Probably some creep from the frat houses.” You muttered. Inside, you were still shaking but you at least wanted to keep your composure for work tonight. You make a note to report the incident Monday morning.

‘I'm drifting through the halls with the sunrise

(Holding on for your call)

Climbing up the walls for that flashing light

(I can never let go)

Cause I'm gonna be free and I'm gonna be fine

(Holding on for your call)

Cause I'm gonna be free and I'm gonna be fine

(But maybe not tonight)’

Your melodic voice entices the audience. Your flowing sky blue dress with flowers adorning the sleeves and voluminous afro adds to the elegance of the performance. You start to forget the frightening incident as you practically drown yourself in the song.

‘It's a different kind of danger

And the bells are ringing out

And I'm calling for my mother

As I pull the pillars down

It's a different kind of danger

And my feet are spinning around

Never knew I was a dancer

Til Delilah showed me how’

Despite the song being a lot different from what you usually sing, the audience is still receptive and cheering you on. You even spin around in your dress to add flare.

‘Now I'm dancing with Delilah

And her vision is mine

(Holding on for your call)

Different kind of danger in the daylight

(I can never let go)

Took anything to cut you I can find

(Holding on for your call)

Different kind of danger in the daylight

(Can't you let me know?)’

While you’re giving your all, a tall young man watches from the back of the restaurant. His eyes gleam at your curvy figure, and the way your body sways makes his heart jump out of his chest. The shine on your lips, your bright smile, he wonders what it’s like to kiss you.

‘Now it's one more boy and is one more line

(Holding on for your call)

Taking the pills just to pass the time

(I can never say no)

Cause I'm gonna be free and I'm gonna be fine

(Holding on for your call)

Cause I'm gonna be free and I'm gonna be fine

(But maybe not tonight)

It's a different kind of danger

And the bells are ringing out

And I'm calling for my mother

As I pull the pillars down

It's a different kind of danger

And my feet are spinning around

Never knew I was a dancer

Til Delilah showed me how’

If he could, he would’ve stayed in your dorm for a while. Your scent was just so intoxicating.

Mango

Shea Butter

Cherry Blossoms

Oh, If only he could’ve talked to you that day but he didn’t want to frighten you. He’s content with admiring from afar for now.

‘It's a different kind of danger

And my feet are spinning around

Never knew I was a dancer

Til Delilah showed me how

Too fast for freedom

Sometimes it all falls down

These chains never leave me

I keep dragging them 'round

Too fast for freedom

Sometimes it all falls down

These chains never leave me

I keep dragging them 'round’

As the song ends and the audience gives their usual praises, he leaves the cafe with a rapid heartbeat and a soft smile. He now knows what he must do to have you, his beautiful angel.

#jojo's bizarre adventure #black reader #x black reader #yandere jojo x reader #yandere jojo's bizarre adventure #jojo x reader #blackyn #jjba x black reader #x black fem reader #jjba x y/n

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