#group program

[darkobssessions]

I just finished posting something on a youtube video of Aurora called 'Aurora being hilariously out of context for 6 minutes straight ' who I am sure is autistic but the world views as 'quirky' as with many other autistics, especially women.

I found out about 2 years ago and it changed my life. Everything. My self perception, my engagement with others, unmasking, reframing my old experiences, deeper understanding and use of accommodations and better supporting myself.

I've gotten every kind of response from people, from 'we're all a bit autistic' and 'why does everyone need a diagnosis or label these days' to speaking to me like a 5 year old mid conversation after finding out. I use responses to study the perception of autism in the world.

Ultimately most people do not understand what it is, so many things they say are from that limited understanding. And the cognitive dissonance is glaring because autism is otherwise presented as the alternative person in every piece of media and people are more likely to praise and accept that but not real autistic people and their difficulties.

Finding out felt like coming home, and curiously, a hive mind that I belong to, or an alien planet we all come from. It was like a tribe I was always looking for but didn't know existed. All along it was me/how I am and it has a label and identity and group of descriptions and experiences that I can relate to and learn from.

I've processed a lot of my autistic journey in writing which you can use the search function to locate on my profile, and more private access in a community is available in a group membership I have posted the link to at the bottom of the comment I posted on YouTube found below.

My YouTube comment:

Let me tell you, there are many of us and we are out there. Been hiding for so long, or just coming out of hibernation, in darkness, dejected or struggling, sharing our gifts freely with the world. We have a sense of justice, a beautiful spirit, we remind people of fairies and yet we have a dark side, a primal side, we walk with the goddess, we make art, music, nourishing foods, knots and spells, and we suffer in silence the bullies and the discrimination, invalidation and misunderstanding. It is multilayered, cultural, genetic, as old as history, history itself in the body, across generations and timelines, worlds upon worlds intertwined and get at once expanded and expanding and contracting on equal measure, some of us dying for air. We are dying for the things our bodies and indeed the entire body of the collective organism consciousness on this planet need, We are the earth and all her creatures. We are the spectrum of the rainbow and beyond. A spectrum is infinite and complete and a question mark all at once. We just do what we want and need and simply, to other humans, we appear strange. People may project onto us labels, assumptions, titles and roles. They may welcome us and adore us, they may shun and abuse us. We are the gentlest creature, misunderstood so often by the world that it traumatised us, caused us to withdraw or rage out, or nourished, supported and encouraged. It is very simply this, autism presents differently females. I realised that I was autistic at the age of 27. The autism spectrum is viewed very stereotypically but the presentation in females is only now being seen in a different light, by the medical community that is whose benchmark was the male and the associated little boy behaviour and body. We are the manic pixie dream girl in movies, the Luna Lovegoods of the world, intense or withdrawn co-worker, the very strange and fringe people in society, the outright stars of the show or centre of attention. We are nobody to most, invisible as autistic to the world, using masking to survive and relate to others, or very visible and local publicly and breaking down privately. Meltdowns. Cacophony of emotions and chaos calmed only by familiarity of routine. Special interests and worlds to escape into and explore, creativity running through our blood. Our senses blunted by necessity in an onslaught of stimuli and demands from the world, or razor sharp and being wielded to present the most beautiful genius expressions of our minds. Look out for the autistic girlfriends of the world, the Luna Lovegoods in real life. Just like Wednesday Adams who captured the heart of the millennials, look out for the girls who are different, misunderstood or mistreated. Would you befriend someone like her in real life? Be honest and educate yourself about the subject so you can begin to recognise it and be there for your friends especially the women who, with access to information on the internet, increased awareness of the subject and many autistic individuals successfully speaking and advocating and writing and publishing their stories are all realising this about themselves. Luna was made fun of regularly, humiliated and shunned. And yet she shone brighter than the sun, the light of the moon was upon her.

This resource changed my life:

https://www.google.com/amp/s/taniaannmarshall.wpcomstaging.com/2013/03/22/moving-towards-a-female-profile-the-unique-characteristics-abilities-and-talents-of-young-girls-with-asperger-syndrome

Check out my memberships for tips and resources, art and experiences, the first tier being access to this blog which obviously you my followers can freely peruse! You may join my private group membership on the second tier though:

https://www.patreon.com/yasmeensnaturalorder/membership

[timeless-clarity]

As the colder truly season sets in, I reflect on my notes from last year's winter emotional wellness protocol, leaning into the value of slowing down. Anyone else doing the same? I will be launching Deep Winter, Self-Study in January. My annual group program to support people who struggle with the winter blues. More info to come, here on Tumblr and on claire-farrell.com/

[serial-unaliver]

another thing I hate is when people say engaging with a persons delusions is bad because it validates the illness.

i'm not sure how to tell you this, but psychosis validates itself. delusions involve a lack of awareness that you're experiencing a delusion and others referring to the delusion as a delusion can create distrust. if someone is more content having others engage in symptoms like this in a positive way there's nothing wrong with it and it may make it easier to cope.

[bruciemilf]

I reject your "Dick is the only responsible sibling" agenda, and bring you it's superior.

[bixels]

The idea that uni protesters are "elitist ivy-league rich kids larping as revolutionaries" on Twitter and Reddit and even here is so fucking funny to me if you actually know anything about the student bodies at these unis. Take it from someone who's going to one of the biggest private unis in the US, 80% of the peers I know are either from the suburbs or an apartment somewhere in America, children of immigrants, or here on a student visa. I've heard about one-percenter students, but I've never met one in person. Like, don't get me wrong, the institution as a whole is still very privileged and white. I've talked with friends and classmates about feeling weird or dissonant being here and coming from such a different background. But in my art program, I see BIPOC, disabled, queer, lower-income students and faculty trying to deconstruct and tear that down and make space every day. So to take a cursory glance at a crowd of student protesters in coalitions that are led by BIPOC & 1st/2nd-gen immigrant students and HQ'd in ethnic housings and student organizations and say, "ah. children of the elite." Get real.

[beautifulstorms]

Olivia Smart / Tim Dieck, FD Dune • Skate America 2024

[mynameisnowwyrm]

My drawing program crashed while i was making this and merged layers that shouldnt be merged, the green fog around them was supposed to be a multiply layer. Got it to a point where i was happy with it again tho.

[7goodangel]

Me, several years ago: "I'll never try digital 3D art... just have no interest to learn it. Already have learned other art forms that I barely use anyway... so why add to that ?..."

Me, currently: [Is attempting to model a donut in Blender] "... uh... I can explain..."

[lethal-effect]

Jammer protecting Evan + Evan worrying about K + Evan and Sam bonding WE ARE SO BACK BABY

[cozylittleartblog]

random note about king on that animation, i got really lucky with how simple his animation was and how clean my sketches were to begin with that i was able to do very minimal cleanup on what i had sketched (and add back. his horn. it's supposed to take place just after echoes of the past, Oops) and call it done that way instead of having to redraw the entire thing like i had to on his dad

first sketch > line cleanup > nearly final animation (i'd added slight eye movements last-second but otherwise that's the final)

[eggplantgifs]

Kazuki Tomono: Halston » 2023 Japanese Nationals

[feroluce]

Thinking today of henghill on some cold planet, one like Jarilo-VI or wherever, and Dan Heng getting his tongue stuck on some metal part of Boothill's VSKJSNSJD

Like Dan Heng is stuck to his neck, so Boothill has to pick him up and carry him to try to sneak them around to somewhere warm to thaw his tongue out. Don't worry, poor Dan Heng is just tired, that's why he's carrying him like this, no no he's fine don'tlookthatcloselybye!!

(Also Boothill is carrying Dan Heng bridal style. Obviously.)

And now, I get to show you all @hydrachea 's newest blessing upon this ship, because she took that and RAN WITH IT-

Crying imagining Dan Heng still stuck and trying to throttle Boothill to keep him from talking anymore JSJIZJSKKE

[moeblob]

son boy raccoon trash can man suffering in a dnd au as a cleric bc his warlock will not stop committing murders and he has to keep coming up with reasons murder is valid to convince the gm its fine and under control

[slyandthefamilybook]

I think a lot of people's politics (especially on here) can be summed up in that they'd rather wait for Nazis to sprout than remold the conditions that allow them to exist

[cybernomads]

I think I slipped the net, but I cut myself free, I'm not losing yet, so don't forget me.

[nevarroes]

uni group project so bad it makes me wonder if im insane