#gonna need my brain to .. shut up!!!!!!

[wishchip106]

i’ve been using my brain more than its used to

gonna think about gay mutant road trip hope my brain doesn’t explode

[time-woods]

im not ready for his whimsy im not ready but im ready who knew one mans whimsy could strike one down

[xxplastic-cubexx]

it doesnt need to be said but its genuinely so funny how at-the-hip charles and erik are in krakoa like they really had the green light- the OBLIGATION- to be as obnoxiously close to each other as possible and abused that right to the fullest extent

[maudiemoods]

"I need that old man" noooooooo you need to get to class on time

[poobletoods]

[hplonesomeart]

Hey. Sorry about the inactivity, but pretty sure no one cared that much anyways lol. Been a looooong time since I kept that distant from Tumblr…at least now I know I’m able to survive without checking posts every day/being chronically online! I’ve got an intense love-hate relationship with this lifestyle I’ve dug myself into. Think I’m getting a little bit better with the balance even if school isn’t really giving me an option. Got a load of work I need to keep catching up on if I don’t want to disappoint my professors. We’ll survive somehow. Here take a quick batch of Puzzle doodles k bye

[gelarshiesprofruitboarder]

why do they do this and can they stop it please

[qoldenskies]

I was reading back through caged lungs and I realized just how many times Donnie got hit in the head during the last fight and how hard, no wonder Leo is concerned about brain damage.

Also, when Donnie goes to see April at the end of chapter 2, is he just dissociating really hard or is that an actual physical symptom from the…everything really!

not to mention the oxygen deprivation with raph throttling him! the last fight is so visceral and nasty and it was the final nail in the coffin when it came to donnie's issues physically and mentally, because although he would have been terrified of them regardless i dont think it wouldve been "inconsolable screaming heap at the sound of raph's voice" like it was in the early bit of CW.

and id mark that as dissociation personally. the second he registered as being in relative safety he kind of shut down because he wasn't able to process it, which had kind of been a running coping mechanism through the last month or so of CL. MIND YOU: IT IS NOT HELPED ALONG BY THE BRAIN FOG CAUSED BY HIS TIME IN ISOLATION, its a nasty concoction of problems. and also yeah physical exhaustion definitely doesnt help! he ran all the way to april's apartment while actively starving, after all.

although itll get better after [REDACTED PLOT THREAD] is handled, i think dissociation is gonna be something donnie will be dealing with for years, because spending four days in a quiet, enclosed dark space has some extremely messed up consequences for your brain and body. it was also in general something he used to cope under the abuse, so i could see him having issues with it when he's not in his right mind (sick or sleep-deprived, for example), i could see him regressing back to that old mindset when something like that happens. his perception of reality is permanently a little fucked :(

[gingersnaptaff]

Doing more on @gwalch-mei 's Christmas present (which I keep referring to as Gwyn and Gwalch's Gossip Corner (feat. An Appearance From Everybody's Favourite Scamp, Llacheu) and thought u might all like this bit about Gwalchmai talking about Medrawd. (Also, dw for anybody interested - I.e. @dullyn just said 'Pryderi has fun uncle status' that WILL be the case in this!)

[aeb-art]

cringe is dead or whatever so… here's a super rough comic about geo getting smooched at a new year's eve party o7 (the mall toons of course belong to @8um8le)

happy new year, go kiss a robot xoxo

[le-agent-egg]

ok this’ll be the raunchiest i’m gonna get on this blog for a HOT minute but since i’ve been doing nothing but being a hater recently i’m gonna say it. hooray more bitching about fanon ishimondo

i am soooooooooooo fucking sick of top mondo bottom taka shit. like yeah have your headcanons and such but it always feels so fucking infantilizing. kiyotaka “shorter by a couple inches” ishimaru is automatically put into the role of “bottom” because…? like yeah the first 72 jokes about him having childbearing hips and a literal stick up his ass were funny but the 73rd? now it’s a bit stale.

and also just… yeah making him a bit of a perv is kinda funny sometimes but either make him a slut or make him your uwu soft baby who doesn’t know anything about sex and needs his big strong boyfriend mondo to guide him 🥺🥺🥺

and just fuck me the way taka is reduced to “slut” in some fics is GRAHHGGG JUST WRITE YOUR FUCKING OCS AT THIS POINT HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THATTTTTTTTT

and this is just me scratching the surface with taka. i’m gonna talk about something else but i’m putting it farther because it’s a but triggering

now MONDO on the other hand. mondo mondo my boy my princess what did they DO to you. look me. dead in the eyes. and tell me that you think mondo “rejected 10 times because he yells when he gets nervous” owada is. a confident strong macho top who knows a ton about sex because of all the sex he’s had guys he fucks bitches and has sex and he’s a top and confident and- SHUT!!! UP!!!

not to sound like an ass and i know this might be a bit long winded but i feel like by forcing mondo to be the confident top you’re… kkkkkinda erasing/invalidating his trauma…? mondo’s so nervous all the time because he has absolutely terrible self esteem because of… you know… so i feel like by making him super confident and an angry sometimes (and tbh borderline abusive in some fics) top is… kinda invalidating that.

plus are we forgetting his line of “you’ll start spreading my legend” 🤨 sure buddy your “legend”

plus the whole “oh the bigger (literally) person in the gay relationship has to be the top” feels. kinda homophobic in a way. like if you wanna make taka the woman just say it ffs. taka isn’t oblivious to sex and stuff oh my god he 110% knows more about sex than his lame ass boyfriend does. ugh

tldr for here uh mondo should be getting fucked in the ass lmao

now this is just a couple problems i have but i’m gonna put a little break for some other big big problems i have with this. so. tw for sa.

one thing that i was talking about with a friend semi recently that infuriates me to no end is how certain people on ao3 (which to be fair i won’t name because i’m not a total ass) interpret taka as an sa victim only to. how do i put this. write him like a submissive slut like 2 fics later. as someone who has gone through some form of assault myself, something about headcanoning taka as a victim, yet also as someone who’s just an innocent baby who doesn’t know anything about sex, but ALSO as lowkey slutty (only to mondo tho) feels SO SO ICKY. you can write taka as an abuse victim, but don’t like??? do weird shit with him later as if that headcanon only applies to one specific fanfic??? this is again really incoherent and barely scratches the surface but. what the fuck. yeah don’t like don’t read fiction doesn’t affect reality until you’re literally writing taka fantasizing about being r*ped.

and mondo sometimes just… he’s written so controlling and even straight up abusive sometimes. like it goes beyond “he would not fucking say that” because mondo isn’t just written as a hot macho dom, he’s literally just. mean. if you’ve seen me ranting about booktok you’d know why i have such a big problem with this. it feels so gross.

anyway yeaaa i might make a followup for this later but sorry for ranting about fictional characters having sex on my blog

[byanyan]

just a head's up: while I hesitate to call hiatus of any kind bc I want to give myself the freedom to write when I have the energy/focus/etc., I will just note that I'm gonna be even slower than usual around here for... idk, probably for a bit. I'm in the worst state mentally that I think I've ever actually been in and it's uhhhh. it's not great lmao. writing is my main escape & distraction so I don't want to step away from it but doing anything is hard as fuck rn so I'm really not interested in pressuring myself to get shit done when it comes to the hobby I'm supposed to be having fun with. I'll be slow, I'll be selective, and it's possible I'll be dropping a lot of drafts?? maybe?? OR at least like. temporarily removing a bunch from my drafts (to be added back later) just so the number is less big & overwhelming lmao.

thank u guys for ur patience w me & for writing w my glittery lil creature, I appreciate u all sm 💜

[venisonhare]

I'm like one rahadin ship art away from stalking the roll20 player page. I failed to romance him the first time I played (we dropped a pillar on him at the amber temple...) Im gnawing at the bars of my enclosure its so hard to find queer groups to play with

[thebubblesareevil]

So I really need to finish a fanfic before starting another one because this is starting to become a habit because I have an idea for a fanfic for a fandom IM NOT EVEN A FAN OF!!!!!! 🙈🤦‍♀️

But…..that being said I would have to actually read the books or watch the movies if I wanna have a story and know the characters but other than that I’m just gonna summon the polys, bisexuals, and twilight fans for help or just to convince me not to write this.

I kinda wanna do a rewrite of twilight eliminating the completely toxic relationships told entirely from Jacob’s POV. HEAR ME OUT!!!

So I heard the whole reason he was in love with Bella was because she was gonna give birth to his soulmate or whatever but….mother dearest only does half the work there 👀 . So the whole fic would be Jacob coming to terms with not only being bu but also being poly.

Keep in mind that I’m and asexual female with no dating experience other than listening to my sisters woes and threatening their boyfriend with a field hockey stick if they got too handsy.

(Didn’t stop that one fucker from stealing all my tools while I was at college though 😡)

ANYWAY! The whole soulmate thing can be changed to like, insta pack bonding with their daughter and I feel like it would also be an over all better ending. Also no hair cutting!!! The explanation for that was bullshit!

Why the fuck would hair length affect fur length when they transform into giant fucking wolves with fur all over their body!?!?!?

So just imagine them getting together and Edward using his hundreds of years worth of hair braiding xp from having 2 sisters and helping Jacob braid his hair.

This idea has been rolling around in my head for awhile but once again I am a white asexual female with no dating xp that has watched maybe 2 1/5 of the movies and never touched the books. If I’m gonna write this I’m gonna need help

And hey! If anyone wants to use this as a prompt, go for it. If it already exists? Cool, let me know. Not sure if I’ll read it cus I’m not really into twilight but I feel like I’d like it WAY more if it wasn’t so toxic

Completely unrelated but I now associate polyamorous folks with parrots. 🦜 this is just how my brain works. You are all parrots in my mind now, flocking together and showing off your pretty feathers!!

[ilovedthestars]

question, apropos of an ask about my OCs sitting in my inbox (waiting for me to have enough braincells left after homework to answer it)

i realized that when i talk about my murderbot OCs on here i'm kind of. assuming that people already know who they are. but only two of them are actually in a fic on ao3, and the others I mostly talk about on discord with a small handful of people.

i don't think i've ever done a "hey these are my OCs" post on tumblr. and i honestly feel kind of weird about the concept but. maybe someone is interested in the Lore that hasn't made it to ao3 yet. so, interest check:

Names you may or may not have heard me throw around: OldUnit, Niri, Aybee, Hope, Enigma (the polaris crew); Yuma and Crowbar. These are all OCs that exist within the Murderbot Diaries universe.

[running-in-the-dark]

it's almost 4:30 and I cannot fucking sleep