#going my own way lol

[written-in-flowers]

Okay, so this isn't an easy post for me to make. I've definitely flip flopped on whether I'd actually do it or not, but after talking to some friends and venting frustrations, I've made a decision:

I'm not going to post fics on Tumblr anymore.

I'll still be writing, of course, but I plan to exclusively post them on Archive of Our Own.

Because Tumblr, at the end of the day, is not a fanfiction website. It's a social media one, and I'm sorry, but I'm not a content creator. I'm not the type to be turning out fics and writings all the time, because let's be honest, the only way to stay "relevant" and get notes and comments is if you're posting constantly and I don't do that. Not to mention, the tagging system on this site is total crap. I hate having to constantly be playing with them for it to show up in my tags.

I feel like I have to "market" my fics for people to read them on here. I have to have a pretty moodboard or header, which I already suck at. I have to write down tons of info aside from just a title and summary. Fanfiction on this site feels like a business. I have to write what people want to read or otherwise I feel immensely discouraged. I have no way of knowing whether people are actually reading since not everyone likes/reblogs, and even then there's no proof they read it either. On Ao3, I get proper stats, comments, and even just a hit count to know if people have read it. Not everything does well over there, but at least I don't feel so fucking miserable afterwards. I put a lot of effort, time, and pride into my fics, so it sucks when I feel they're not being received well on certain platforms.

This doesn't mean I'm leaving forever. I still will reblog and talk to whoever messages me, but as for posting my work, it'll be over on ao3 now. If you still want to be updated on my stuff, you're free to subscribe to me on AO3 and you get emails whenever I post something.

I know most of you aren't going to care, because there are other, better authors on here, but for that small cluster of people who do read my tumblr fics, I'm sorry. This is just not it for me anymore.

[coddda]

I wish we could have met in some other way.

Lawlight Week Day 2: Soulmates

If you saw me repost and re-edit this several times uh No you didn't </3

Still frames/Individual gifs:

If you know what every frame is from you get a free cookie. by the way

[falmerbrook]

Meet the Saber-Skins

Helga is the companion of sorts to my Last Dragonborn, Elisere, and a few months ago I went a little ham developing her husband and kids. I've been meaning to draw them and introduce them for awhile now and thought this would be a fun way to do it!

I am incapable of just creating one single OC with no relatives. I always gotta give them a whole family. But this family is thematically important so I've put a lot of thought into them

[whaliiwatching]

a rendezvous beyond

and a halfway closeup just bc im rlly happy with how the bg turned out lol

[ikeasharksss]

hey im curious

feel free to rb & explain your answer in the tags!

[sysig]

Good skeles, like you lots (Patreon)

[stairset]

I do feel like the way Kyoshi was written in the Avatar reboot was lowkey influenced by the fandom's perception of her. Cause like in the original show she's really just portrayed as a pragmatist who's willing to kill if necessary. Like Aang is conflicted about killing the Fire Lord and she's like "well if I were in your position I'd do it but that's just me. Good luck." And then people started making memes where she's like a murderous psychopath who thinks extreme violence is always the solution. And it was funny at first cause it was just exaggerating for comedy but now everyone thinks she was actually like that in the show when she really wasn't. And then in the remake her introductory scene is her angrily yelling at this 12 year old that he needs to stop being a little pussy and be a ruthless warrior or whatever and the only explanation I can think of is that someone in the writer's room maybe looked at a few too many of those memes.

[kyonshi-8610]

ᜉᜓᜆᜁᜈ ᜀᜅ᜔ ᜎᜃᜐ᜔ ᜅ᜔ ᜂᜎᜈ᜔ ᜀᜇᜏ᜔ ᜀᜇᜏ᜔ ᜊᜓᜋᜊᜑ potaina ang lakas ng ulan araw araw bumabaha

[welcometogrouchland]

(ID in alt) I literally said I was gonna post this month's ago and then never had the wherewithal to describe it and so I didn't Lmao (said with pain). But since I'm thinking of opening my commissions I figured I should remind ppl that I. Yknow. Can draw.

Lots of Steph here (I had major art block making all of these and my brain worms for her kept me going) + some sprinkles of stephcass for Cass nation to enjoy!

[biblically-accurate-dca]

birthday !!!!!!

[vanityangel]

[inkskinned]

one of the things about having an unstable parent is that it can so easily ruin your future. you want to get out, but getting out takes having agency. it takes the resume and the grades and the stellar community service history.

but you have to choose your battles. you know if you sign up for an after-school activity, it'll be okay for a while, so long as the activity is parent-approved and god-fearing. over time, like all things, it will become an argument (i can't keep carting your ass to these things) or a weapon (talk to me like that again, see if you get to go to practice). sometimes, if you love the thing, it's worth it. but you also know better than to love something: that's how they get you. if you ever actually want something, it will always be the center of their attention. they will never stop threatening you with it. telling you of course i'm a good parent, i came to all of those stupid events.

you learn to balance yourself perfectly. you can either have a social life or you can have hobbies. both of these things will be under constant scrutiny. you spend too much time with her, you should be at home with family is equally paired with you're acting like this because you're addicted to what's on that goddamn screen. you cannot ever actually win, so everything falls within a barter system that you calculate before entering: do you want to learn how to drive? if so, you'll need to give up asking for a new laptop, even though yours died. maybe you can work on a computer at the library. of course, that would mean you'd be allowed to go to the library, which would mean something else has to bleed. nothing ever actually comes free.

and that bitter, horrible irony: you could be literally following their orders and it still isn't pretty. they tell you to get a job; they hate that your job keeps you late and gives you access to actual money. they tell you to do better in school; they say no child of mine needs a tutor. they want you to stop being so morose, don't you know there are people who are really suffering - but they revile the idea you might actually need therapy.

you didn't survive that fall the way other people would. you've seen other people scramble and get their way out, however they could. maybe you were made too-soft: the answer didn't come to you easily. it wasn't quick. it was brutal and nasty. some people even asked you why didn't you just work hard and escape during school? and you felt your head spinning. why didn't you? (they control your financial aid. they control your loan status. they love having that kind of thing). maybe in another life you got diagnosed sooner and got the meds you needed to actually focus and got attention from the right teachers who helped you clear hurdles to get up out of here - but for now? here?

the effort of trying. the effort of not-dying. that kind of effort was absolutely agonizing.

[deoidesign]

(characters from my webcomic)

[drawnfamiliarfaces]

close

too close?

(the correct answer is all 3 at the same time of course)

[miusato]

Honestly the main attraction for Shinjiham is how contrast their personality is and it is always funny for me to think about how people around them would react if they found out they're dating in this AU lol

[tomwambsgans]

greg said actually i wanna take YOU out and I'M gonna pay for it