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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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one of the things about having an unstable parent is that it can so easily ruin your future. you want to get out, but getting out takes having agency. it takes the resume and the grades and the stellar community service history.

but you have to choose your battles. you know if you sign up for an after-school activity, it'll be okay for a while, so long as the activity is parent-approved and god-fearing. over time, like all things, it will become an argument (i can't keep carting your ass to these things) or a weapon (talk to me like that again, see if you get to go to practice). sometimes, if you love the thing, it's worth it. but you also know better than to love something: that's how they get you. if you ever actually want something, it will always be the center of their attention. they will never stop threatening you with it. telling you of course i'm a good parent, i came to all of those stupid events.

you learn to balance yourself perfectly. you can either have a social life or you can have hobbies. both of these things will be under constant scrutiny. you spend too much time with her, you should be at home with family is equally paired with you're acting like this because you're addicted to what's on that goddamn screen. you cannot ever actually win, so everything falls within a barter system that you calculate before entering: do you want to learn how to drive? if so, you'll need to give up asking for a new laptop, even though yours died. maybe you can work on a computer at the library. of course, that would mean you'd be allowed to go to the library, which would mean something else has to bleed. nothing ever actually comes free.

and that bitter, horrible irony: you could be literally following their orders and it still isn't pretty. they tell you to get a job; they hate that your job keeps you late and gives you access to actual money. they tell you to do better in school; they say no child of mine needs a tutor. they want you to stop being so morose, don't you know there are people who are really suffering - but they revile the idea you might actually need therapy.

you didn't survive that fall the way other people would. you've seen other people scramble and get their way out, however they could. maybe you were made too-soft: the answer didn't come to you easily. it wasn't quick. it was brutal and nasty. some people even asked you why didn't you just work hard and escape during school? and you felt your head spinning. why didn't you? (they control your financial aid. they control your loan status. they love having that kind of thing). maybe in another life you got diagnosed sooner and got the meds you needed to actually focus and got attention from the right teachers who helped you clear hurdles to get up out of here - but for now? here?

the effort of trying. the effort of not-dying. that kind of effort was absolutely agonizing.

#writeblr #btw i got out #even though i felt this way #i was undiagnosed and was in a particularly fucked up situation #(it's complicated lol)#i had no money and no way out #no car no license . i still had a curfew at 22 years old #and still. i got out.#you can get out too.#i wasn't allowed to literally do anything after school we were pretty much only allowed 1 hobby #and STILL i got out.#it wasn't bc i was particularly smart or capable or clever. it's that 1. i got lucky & 2.#i knew there had to be The Rest of The World #and I wanted to at least VAGUELY get to the Rest of the World before i gave up trying #sometimes it's the spite that gets u thru it. that sense - fuck u #FUCK YOU ACTUALLY.#im gonna make my own life u stupid bitch. since u seem so convinced i could never REALLY do it.#whenever ppl are like <3 just cut out ur parents <3 im like <3 have u never been poor lol <3 #<3 i needed them to sign my loans <3 #<3 bestie not every person who is struggling is going to be able to make the grades and hero status to get a free ride.#and guess what baby!! we still deserve to get out and have a good life.

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sunshinem0ths · 10 months ago

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club meshis

#that one post that was like kabru and laios r in their 20s they should have been at the club !! got me thinking #i have explanations for all of these btw #also was gonna add some minor characters but i didnt have strong opinions abt all of them so i just left them out #dunmeshi #delicous in dungeon #dungeon meshi #marcille donato #senshi #falin touden #laios touden #izutsumi #shuro #kabru of utaya #mithrun of kerensil #namari #chilchuk tims #thistle

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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mentor

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #gojo satoru #megumi fushiguro #jjk art #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #pulled another allnighter fr Angst's sake cries i havent slept.......but i couldnt help myself i was out all DAY i hadnt drawn all DAY #do u know what that does to a mf i felt all antsy and Wrong #so i cracked an energy drink i think i may have a problem honestly but hey at least u get ur daily dose of megumi angst #remember how i said i considered including gojo in the yuuji/tsumiki/megu squared train piece #well this is me making up fr Not including him there #i ws right his and megumi's relationship deserves its own homage smile :)#anyway @ anon who wanted a gojo/megumi hug.....ik it's not exactly a hug but you can forgive me im sure <3 #dare i say it's better than hugs jeremy.....#honestly fr all my gripes w gojo i Did get kind of emo abt this?? but i feel like. the majority of my emotions r on megumi's behalf #also might have been the mukashi mukashi no kyou no boku on repeat that'll also do it #seriously debated putting translated lyrics as the caption but it feels like a copout doing 2 lyric-captions in a row #also i do have some shame. miku lyrics r a bit.#anyway art notes uhhhhh finally got gojo's hair to not look Yuuji #who knew the trick was to make it longer smh maybe sleep deprivation n 10 hours of staring at a screen Does make simple problems hard #oh file name 'proud of you' btw

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chloesimaginationthings · 4 months ago

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Michael learns of Jeff’s pizza from FNAF Into the pit

#myart #chloesimagination #comic #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf fanart #michael afton #oswald fnaf #Jeff fnaf #Jeff’s pizza #into the pit #fnaf itp #Jeff from Jeff’s pizza my beloved…#I did finish into the pit btw #(which I might replay soon to get the best ending)#CAN I JUST SAY I love Jeff #He’s just so chill #I like how he doesn’t really stop Oswald at all #he’s actually really nice to the lil guy despite how exhausted he is #so needed any excuse I could have to draw him out #Michael curious what happened to Freddy’s after it shut down etc #SHOCKED that the Jeff in Jeff’s pizza is a real dude named Jeff #Jeff is once again unphased by Michael just think he’s sick #it’s funny cause Jeff is called ‘zombie pizza guy’ ny Oswald in the books #so truly Jeff and Michael might just match in vibes pff #also may draw Jeff again.. I think he’s neat #might update his design too here and there but I think I more or less got him down

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secretly-a-trekkie · 2 months ago

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"I can't not hate you for that, a little"

#captain rex #star wars #the clone wars #aviiart #hello i got mad and drew a thing instead of attending to my responsibilities #what was i thinking when i drew this? absolutely nothing #caption is a quote from night in the woods #which is a very solid game btw would absolutely recommend #no sketch for this one just sat down screamed at nothing and then rawdogged the rendering #somehow worked out ok tho

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o0kawaii0o · 1 month ago

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On a break, what are they talking about?

#finished in time before the big update #so excited to play again #don't you hate btw when you got those days where you just can't get into drawing?#that was this one for me #turned out fine tho but man had to ease into it :)))#anyway I like seeing the villagers talking together in the game #fields of mistria #fom #fom ryis #fom march #fom fanart #o0kawaii0o

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scourgiez · 7 months ago

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Finally got around to drawing my farmer :P

#her name is eliza btw #my art #stardew valley #sdv #sdv farmer #sdv Elliott #elliott x farmer #eliza the farmer #fanart #sdv fanart #aka shameless self insert bc I started the game not knowing how into it i would become #and naturally I just made myself instead of thinking out an oc #oh well. still got my malewife so idc

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heph · 6 months ago

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Think a little lower, Dr. Wilson

#house would send his fellows to wilson for no good reason just because hes got hickies on his neck #btw it isnt implied or anything but this is indeed hilson #also i found out that wouse isnt a weird typo #its the ship name LOL #hilson #house md #malpractice md #hatecrimes md #james wilson #eric foreman #cameron allison #allison cameron #robert chase

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kayawolfhorse · 10 months ago

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Discuss

#this isn’t necessarily based on creature or sanity levels it’s what would be funniest for the Bit #also the idea of muppet & human duos is amusing to me. false and ren. pearl and gem. bdubs and etho. do you see it #zed and cub as unethical scientists is fun it’d be solid enrichment for them both #mumbo is equal parts muppet and man. maybe he’s a muppet that got turned into a guy idk #mumbo being over the line vs under it doesn’t mean anything i just ran out of room and didn’t feel like changing it btw lmao #kaya posts #hermitcraft #1k

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minecraftrelatedrandomness · 10 days ago

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dan povenmire (co-creator of phineas and ferb and voice actor of heinz doofenshmirtz himself): hey, jimmy! if i had a nickel for every time you weren't the first out in a minecraft life series, i'd have two nickels! which isn't a lot, but it's weird that it happened twice, right?

this is insane. wild, you might even say

#wild life smp #solidarity gaming #my post #trafficblr #trafficverse #trafficverse memes #i found this out on martyn's livestream just now btw. anyways WHAT??????#aqua live reacts #containment breach #for anyone wondering. link to the reddit post where i found this is in the post #f in the chat for jimmy solidarity he got killed in wild life again. yes the series has ended. yes he got killed again

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drenched-in-sunlight · 5 months ago

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