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was messing around with coloring wof bases and made girlfriends or something
bases by tenebris-aurea on deviantart
#no real thoughts of story behind them#i mean i did think about omen a bit#i drew her with the idea that shed be a bloodmoon seer#tuis said in interviews bloodmoon nightwings can see visions of disasters or use telepathy#and she sees disasters#kinda imagined her like cassandra where no one believes her visions#except for copper. she believes her every time#maybe copper has anxiety and having omen there to let her know theres not ACTUALLY going to be a terrible disaster is comforting#idk havent thought too much about them but yeah#doodles#wings of fire#oc#god ive never fucking used that tag#should i make tags for them specifically? idk if ill ever draw them again#sigh yknow what sure#omen (oc)#copper (oc)
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hey spamton! anything interesting happen recently?
#Hes standing on a crate cause hes too short lol#Only a little embarrassed after the fact but he was so excited p;ease your honor hes just a bit silly#can you tell this one was storyboarded way ahead of time lmao his extra dilated eyes this time took a bit to get used to cause he looked#kinda weird#not used to it#i love him hes a dork :swirlinghearts:#I love this one so fucking much ive had it written out for agesssss#ty btw for being patient anon this is from JANUARY 9TH.. When i say i save some i mean it#sometimes i dont know what to write so i sit on it and then suddenly its the perfect ask ever for something i want to do#in this case something cute. i mean. look at him.#yo ucant argue with that.#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#this took longer to do than i wouldve hoped but GOD is it worth it hes so cute WAAGHHHHH#i love yapping in the tags i never realize how damn much i be writing in here#hi :wave:
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[vibrating a little too fast] Do You Understand My Vision Yet
#twst#twisted wonderland#cereal tries to draw#cater diamond#jade leech#trey clover#and some other guys but this aint about them#girl i do not even begin to know how to tag this one#trejeikei. treycayjay. caterjadetrey. girl fucking help#i still subscribe to jade having a crush on both of them at the same time and Being Weird About It lol#my fave thing in fanart is w/octavinelle if anyone is drawing shipping art of one of them with someone#the other two being either confused or disgusted or just bullying for fun about it#and then my other favorite is riddle being pissed as hell finding out his beloved card soldier besties are turning to the dark side#fraternizing with the enemy. [kissing a fish boy]#cater and trey both picking octavinelle for their union bday dorm choice is still so funny to me#AND THEN RIDDLE WENT AND PICKED JADE FOR HIS THEORETICAL BROTHER CHOICE LOL god dont even get me started on them#i am also obsessed with jade and riddles dynamic but god. no time for dat now goku.#cater voice hey siri what do u do when a boy holds ur hand and Wont Let Go#i love trey but i feel like i only ever draw him as a tiny head icon w/someone else talking about him fkshfkldshf#i mean ive drawn him in more things sometimes. usually treycay. i just dont post him very much#idk why hes so hard to draw LOL#i passively enjoy treyjade i think i used to look it up more in early twst days#but i ALSO like them both with CATER A LOT and u know me. love to tape characters together. into the polycule soup with you boy.#anyway in that first one cay i think was like 'wow jade kinda never expected u and trey to get together lol no offense -'#and jades like 🤝 well i dont mind sharing 😌#SHARING WHAT- theyre all holding hands now the end :]#riddle voice if u break cater and/or treys hearts it is On Sight jade leech#jade voice teehee well we wouldnt want that ill do my best 😌#riddle is not convinced.#anyway shoutout to ME and the like 1-2 people this might appeal to lol
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Ma there’s a weird fucking dog outside
I drew spice from @hoofpeet’s replacement ingo au because he’s just a spicy lil guy :) very creachure. Very good.
Bonus: He’s thinking 😈evil thoughts😈
#THIS! is the first time ive drawn submas art YEEEEEEEEEEEHAAAAAAAAWWWWW#was a really fun opportunity to just try to stay loose with the lines and sketching#its funky trying to get used to procreate. havent found a brush i like yet#anyway uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#replacement ingo au#submas#myart#pokemon#uhhhhh do i need to tag for eye contact#eye contact#sure why not#GOD TUMBLR MADE IT BLURRY AUURHGGUHRGGAHG EGG AUAGGHJGGH#fucking. can never figure out the right aspect ratio and always forget about it until its POSTED AUUGGHRHRAAAAAAAAA
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Girl what did Arthur do in the legends
He got Morgana pregnant with baby Mordred
#arthur pendragon#morgana#morgan le fay#mordred#arthuriana#asks#it has only recently occured to me that there are probably people in the bbc merlin fandom that don't know arthuriana#which is totally fine it had just never occurred to me before bc ive been so fascinated with them for like a decade#it kinda explains why i was always so lost when people are like 'this bbc merlin thing is problematic i cant believe it'#and im sitting there like what this whole shebang starts off with uther killing a guy who's wife he wants to bang#and then merlin uses magic to disguise himself as the dead husband (gorlois) so the wife (igraine) doesnt know the difference#and thats how baby arthur is conceived#like these guys are FUCKED UP lmao#although i guess that isnt the TRUE start of the legends since theres some about baby merlin being the antichrist but they baptised him#so he's fine now. just got sickass magic powers but now he uses them for 'good'#and kid merlin dishing out prophecies to uther's predecessor vortigern to help him build a castle#but arthur's conception is the start of the main shit obvs#good god i infodumped in these tags damn i havent had my arthurian nerd cells activated in a BIT so thanks op#and also sorry to be the bearer of fucked up news to you
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Let's talk about episode 11
I have SO many feelings about this episode for so many different reasons. So much happens, and it's hard to encompass everything into words, but I'll be damned if I don't try.
Starting off strong, let's talk about Yuuri's short program and the score he received on it.
I may have been the only one to notice this, but Yuuri's short program at the GPF in Barcelona was not given the usual amount of attention that it was at previous competitions. In regards to both animation and the commentary we usually get during the performances. A lot of it seemed rushed, almost like there was not as much time spent on it. Most of the focus was on Yuuri's second attempted quad flip, which he touched down for.
Yuuri received a score of 97.83 on this performance.
Now, I'm not a genius at figure skating. I only know what I know from Yuri on Ice, but doesn't the inclusion of a quad flip, especially in the second half of the program, boost the score?
Not to mention that Yuuri, as far as we know, skated a very clean program with very few to no mistakes other than when he touched down on the quad flip (which, as mentioned before, already boosts his score for even being included at all). When there are mistakes in a performance, they're typically addressed, and they're mentioned by the commentators or the performers inner monologue.
But there was no indication of anything actually being wrong with Yuuri's short program.
If anything, Oda and Morooka were all but singing Yuuri's praise during his performance, and seemed almost surprised to see that Yuuri hadn't scored higher.
So let's back track for a moment.
Yuuri skated a clean program.
There were no mistakes mentioned in any of the commentary made throughout his performance.
He added a freaking quad flip into the second half of the program, despite touching down.
When taking all of this into consideration, Yuuri's score makes absolutely no sense.
Previously, at other competitions, Yuuri's short program had received a personal best of 106, and that was without the quad flip. He had been consistently beating his PB every time he skated On Love: Eros. So for his score to jump so far backwards after skating a nearly perfect performance makes absolutely no sense.
They completely underscored him.
And I understand why they did it, but that doesn't mean I can't be pissed about it. Especially because of the way they underscored him.
They underscored Yuuri's short program to give Yurio the chance to break Victor's world record. And then they tried to make up for it by having Yuuri break Victor's world record during his free skate, only for him to lose because of how high Yurio's SP score was.
If Yuuri had scored just half a point higher on his SP, he would've won.
Now, I am very aware of why Yurio was the one who won. And I'm glad he did.
(well...sort of. Maybe I'd feel better about it if we had actually gotten a season 2...)
But if they were going to have Yuuri lose, they could've at least made it make sense as to why he lost. They could've easily had Yuuri make a few more mistakes because of his nerves, or even addressed the fact that he got screwed over, and it would've made much more sense. But leaving it completely unacknowledged makes it seem like he was underscored without any good reason.
I really hope I'm making sense here, because if I'm not, I'll cry.
Anyway, I digress. Moving on!
Now, let's address the events that followed Yuuri's SP score. More specifically, Victor's behavior for the rest of the night.
This has been a detail about the show that has bothered me since my first watch through. Let me explain.
After Yuuri's short program, when they receive his score at the kiss and cry, Victor asks himself what Yuuri needs from him, and wonders what he can do for him right then and there. It's a sweet moment of Victor being the concerned fiance we all know and love. It's obvious here that hes grown from his mistakes at the Cup of China, and has learned to be more mindful of Yuuri's emotions.
However, given this context, Victor's behavior throughout the rest of the performances completely backtracks all of that progress.
We all know that Victor isn't the most emotionally intelligent. He can be pretty tone deaf when it comes to emotions, and he tends to be a bit insensitive. But when he and Yuuri have their moment together in the parking garage at the Cup of China, he quickly learns that in order to truly be there for Yuuri, he has to learn how to support him through his anxiety, even if it means dealing with the discomfort that may come with seeing his lover so distraught.
Since then, Victor had done everything in his power to make sure he was supporting Yuuri as much as possible. An example of this is in episode 10, when it's shown to us that Victor has truly started understanding what Yuuri needs from him when he's dealing with anxiety by inner monologuing about watching over him.
And as mentioned before, he has a similar moment to this at the kiss and cry after Yuuri's gpf sp performance. This, again, being a major show of progress when it comes to Victor's character development.
But as mentioned before (again...), as soon as that progress is made, it's immediately reversed again just minutes later.
When Yurio kicks them out of the kiss and cry and takes the ice, there's a brief moment of tension between Victor and Yuuri when they find each other again after being separated for a brief period of time between performances.
Victor is shown intensely watching Yurio skate from a balcony (?) up in the stands. When Yuuri walks up the stairs and calls out to him, he freezes upon seeing Victor's expression.
This is a tense moment for a reason, and it holds a lot more weight to it than a lot of the fandom acknowledges.
This brief, but almost intimidating interaction between the two is over within seconds, but it sends Yuuri into a silent spiral of anxiety.
After Yuuri makes his presence known to Victor, and Victor urges them to find some seats to watch the rest of the programs, it's now Chris's time to take the ice.
The commentators mention Victor and Chris's friendly rivalry, and question how Victor must be feeling to watch Chris from the stands as a coach rather than a competitor. This sparks Yuuri's concern once more.
He begins to connect Victor's behavior from before, when he caught him watching Yurio skate, and right then, as he watches Chris skate. Whatever connection he silently drew between the two moments only seemed to cause him more stress.
So as Yuuri is silently spiraling next to him due to being outscored by both Chris and Otabek, Victor is completely ignoring him in favor of rubbing salt into the wound further by encouraging the other skaters more than his own.
It is obvious that Victor's complete lack of awareness of Yuuri's growing anxiety in these moments is having a significant negative impact on Yuuri's self confidence.
There is a clear conclusion we can draw here based on these interactions.
Seeing Victor react the way he did to Yurio's, Chris's, and Otabek's performances, led him to believe that Victor was disappointed in him and his score.
And while we know this isn't true, what other conclusion could Yuuri have come up with?
And it is probably because of this that Yuuri decided to bring up his retirement to Victor that night. He probably assumed that because of Victor's supposed disappointment, and his obvious longing to be back out on the ice himself, that he'd want to quit anyway.
At least, that's how I personally interpreted these moments. But regardless of how they're interpreted, there's a much bigger message behind them that's much less ambiguous.
And that message is that Victor still has a lot of work to do with his emotional and self awareness issues.
I love Victor to death, but he's not flawless. And episode 11 is a perfect example of that. He loves Yuuri so much, and he would never do anything to intentionally hurt him or tear him down. But he lacks self awareness, and it often leads to his true intentions being misinterpreted.
There's a lot more to say about what Victor's obviously unfinished character development says about what the plans for the show were, and how they connect and contrast the plans for Yuuri's character, but I'll save that for a different post.
All in all, this episode was incredibly frustrating to watch
Between Yuuri being underscored on his short program, and Victor being Victor, it was hard for me to not talk about it.
And let me know if you agree or disagree with any of this. I'm genuinely curious to know what other's thoughts and feelings on this episode were. Because I know that there's still much more about this episode that I could ramble about.
#yuri on ice#yuuri katsuki#victor nikiforov#victuuri#yoi#ice skating#yuri on ice episode 11#what the fuck victor#what the fuck judges#i love victor but oh my god does he have his moments...#i can't believe ive used that tag twice now#opinions#possible hot takes#guys this is NOT Victor slander i promise#victor loves yuuri so much#and yuuri loves victor so much as well#they can't live without each other#they're literally married#i love them more than life itself#They could never make me hate you Victor Nikiforov#love
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this is completely out of nowhere but i think i will be old and gray and it will be pkmn gen 79 and i will still be sitting there in my probable rocking chair saying "oh i cant wait until they make a pokemon special anime"
#man................#it would be so cool#but alas#god fucking imagine tho#this is brought to you by im listening to pkspe vocaloid parodies again#ive tried and failed typing parodies so many times it looks fake to me#michi tag#i dont actually know how many gens they could conceivably make in an average lifespan with the rate theyre turning them out#i think 79 is too many#but its for the bit so its fine#anyways the specific video i was listening to was cocohood + another#love that song#original and pksp version#and i got to thinking abt how batshit the rs chapter was and sapphire and ruby specifically#theyre relationship is like that one reddit comment#that was like ur just enabling each other ur perfect never change just dont inflict urselves on anyone else#except they make their issues everyones issues#i used to be really into uh#damn whats the shipname#omg i used to know all the ship names and i do i swear i just forgot theirs?????#it was something real stupid too#FRANTICSHIPPING#back when ship names were like that lmaooo#oh i hope this doesnt get maintagged oops#ANYWAYS i used to be really into them? but as i got older i was like :/#like truly it was mostly bc they were the only canon couple but also rubys like. EVWRYTHING was so irritating like bestie whatee you doing 😭#anyways where was ingoing with this? good question i dont know <3
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damn it feels so good to actually have friends who i feel safe around. like to have friends who im not worried that if they find out that i like "cringe" things they wont judge me. woah!!
@angry-avaocardo @silly1xxx @gollyimsosoevil
#appreciation post for my besties✨✨#also the tags got reallylong and rambly just me complainign about the ex friend and a quick update so feell free not to read them if you#dont wanna#theres nothing of substance in there lol#ugh god my old friend the one i made the really long post about asking for advice#i probably mentioned this but i never felt safe to talk about things i like with them#oh god i would never be able to show them defrag#and i probably wouldnt even be willing to ramble about like. the arg or smth to them#id be too worried of them making fun of me#but also they had a way of making it so i hung out with them the most even tho i didnt want to#“me and friend are going to the canteen you two wanna come?”#“[with none of my input] no me and Charlie are staying here”#the only person i felt safe talking about my interests to was a friend that i made when trying to move away frrom the toxic one#a friend who they would consistently ask if i was replacing them with and was so fucking jealous of him#in fact that friend is gollyimsoevil yea that guy#hes great he likes gay addison shit so yk bestie#also they were so good at guilt tripping that now i use their guilt tripping tactics on myself to try and get myself to do things lol#and they would make fun of me so often but GOD FORBID I MAKE FUN OF THEM#they were making fun of me to another person a few /years/ ago so i made some snarky comment about them#because i was really upset by them making fun of me#and they brought it up to me like 2 months ago before we cut them off#like dude you mock and make fun of everything i do so much that ive just stopped talking and completely zoned out whenever im around you#and youre holding some snarky remark that i made when we were like 11 /because you were making fun of me/#UGH#oh ye update on that if anyone cares it went fine they seem to have moved on and are just hanging out with different people now#they havent made any attempt to contact any of us but also havent cut us off#i havent cut them off either ive just left it#i catch them giving me and the other two friends who used to be friends with them dirty looks#but i kinda just ignore it#i have like 5 friends my age who are much much much nicer than them
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i had a thought abt how if spectra let their hair down itd probably make them look completely unrecognisable and i churned this out in like an hour maximum
bonus:
the seconds in command have opinions
#bakugan#bakugan new vestroia#mira fermin#keith fermin#spectra phantom#gus grav#ace grit#my art baybeee#i was hesitant to put this in the tags but fuck it why not#i couldn't figure out where to put baron im sowwy baron#fluffy hair fermins is one of my favourite hcs btw#gender is stored in the spectra#i drew everyone from memory and u can tell#u can also tell ive never done a comic thing before but i tried#the amount of hair products the fermins use... they could singlehandedly keep the entire industry afloat#the vestals are very gender tbh ngl#u can also tell i cannot draw men. bc i cannot. i am a lesbo i like women.#actually this was secretly me confessing that i hate ace's hair. why is it like that. spectra's hair is also a pain in the ass to draw.#god bless mid 2000s anime hair#OKAY im done rambling now byeeeeeeee
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i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.
#i literally like. i didnt tell u guys bc it was embarassing#but i had to hype myself up to eat a fucking orange the other day. like i was shaking and crying and i nearly threw up.#bc it fucking reminded me of All that and also bc its one of the only foods i got to eat outside ofm my one meal a day#while i was living there. bc my coworker gave me oranges sometimes#and one time she gave me a whole bag of cuties which was wonderful of her i miss her#but i pretty much like. bc during m-f i had a meal at work#and i could get something from the vending machine if i needed to#but on the weekends i had to either order food (which would always make me insanely nauseous bc of. the money stuff. yk) or just eat#what i had in my room bc i couldnt use the kitchen bc the roommates would be mad at me#and they might kick me out and id be actually fucked. its so crazy looking back that i genuinely the entire time i fucking lived there even#b4 the breakup the entire time i was in terror that theyd evict me. bc i wouldnt have been able to do anything abt it#i mean thats why i didnt like. leave him after he . and stuff. both bc i thought i didnt deserve anything better and bc i was terrified#theyd evict me and i wouldnt have any way to get home. it was terrifying#but ya. so for a couple weeks i rationed myself One orange per day lol. and on weekends that was all i was able to eat rly#idk. i hate ptsd. basicalllyyyy is the gist of ittt. and i keep thinking abt random fucking things they did to me#me when they jokingly tell me to starve myself when i literally have a fucking eating disorder. and when i told The Only Person i knew in#that fucking house abt it he told me i was being dramatic and i was just being greedy and etc. and then later when i got off work today i#saw on their fucking whiteboard in the kitchen i wasnt supposed to use Eat more <3 as one of their goals. while i went to sit in the garage#for the weekend eating a single fucking orange a day. god#idk. ive gotten better with eating i still have the scale but i ws able to go months without using it until the medical call the other week#and i havent used it since but. everytime i think abt all that itmakes me want to go back to it. i cant tho everyone would notice#i do still eat a wholee lot less than i did b4 washington but idk. idont remember if i even ate today i probably should but i dont feel#hungry but i cant even fucking trust that bc i Starved myself for so fucking long im too good at ignoring hunger. and i never was super in#touch with my body but im constantly numb now. idk.#ed ment#a2t#i ws gonna say more but it ws tmi + tag limit anyway. its just insane that my fucking ed wouldnt have happened if it werent for him and it#graduated i wouldnt have been isolatedinever wouldve had an ed. like 50% of my ptsd would be Gone if i just hadnt joined that discord. lol
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hope u guys don't mind me being a little queer sometimes and talking to myself in the tags, it helps clear my head since people can filter out rant posts easily
#bc i had not used this place in a while until late 2022 ive absolutely forgotten if i used to talk to myself in tags here before or not#i say this bc i now have people who actively see my art here n just throwing random rants here would be very rude so i prefer tags help#feels safer here too LOL#also feels a little scary but im sure that's normal for many that there are ppl who read all tags mein gott#NOT A BAD THING THAT PPL READ TAGS i wouldn't be writing anything if i wanted to kill people for reading tags lol#just stating observations aheem aheem#its like writing on a public bathroom's walls and people passing by to be like “damn bitch ok” /funny#also do not worry at all about how i express myself i do apologize if my words sometimes sound like im on the brink but like#violence is the only way i love to be expressive HELP#watch me be on the government watchlist for the shit ive said gootbyeeeeeeee#but do not feel worried i will be ok eventually every time. sometimes i just gotta explode oh so violently to deflate and feel normal again#WISH I COULD USE EMOJIS ON THIS DAMN PC#anyway the person im trying my damned to avoid is Sure Making It Difficult#at least the people i wanted to know why i was autotune crying baby for a while heard me out n im alive in that regard finally smile emoji#how long can you keep gently hinting you want to distance yourself from somebody until you lose your goddam mind and feel sweet relief when#they actually leave said group themselves after getting my blunt hints help help#oh i sound so fucking rude with just my side but mein gott i don't care bc it was never a serious thing to begin with#just shot my anger thru the roof for good reason and finalliegh im getting mutual distance from that person lol#never get close with ur fave artists worst mistake of my life /hj for real#u start off loving seeing them every time and then boom youre sad how things turned out every time you see them my god#also make sure ur minor friends dont feel like they need to mend things for the adults i feel so fucking sad for someone bc of this rn but#i talked to them n hopefully they understand aouhg.#anyway back to queer posting thats enough soup for today good god#ranting
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I have a maybe unreasonable amount of hatred in my heart for every single "learn [very complicated thing] in [very short amount of time (e.g. 100 seconds, 15 minutes)]" video
Like no i don't wanna hear your Reciting Confusing Phrases speedrun, i don't want your Wikipedia Page Smoothie, i wanna actually Process Information and Learn Shit
#these arent 'learn' videos theyre 'basic rundowns' at BEST#chatter tag#queues up a 4 hour video on a programming language ive never used in my life. fuck you#(i will not understand any of it but by god i will try)
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im. animating something 😁
#me tag🍭#i like animating more than drawing if im being honest with you#but i NEVER do it.#you can draw with no ideas but you CANNOT animate with no ideas#there’s too much planning and thought for that#not to mention how fuckin hard it is to find an easy to use free animation program#but since ibispaint added animation… 😁#i havent made an animatic to music in… well… ive just never done it#i tried once in like 2018-2019 and um. We dont talk about that#i fucking wish i still had the files but i never posted it and i accidentally deleted framecast and lost ALL my data >_>#not that having posted it would have done anything. because framecast shut down#god. i still hate that that happened
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fallen prey to saying stupid shit on the internet without thinking and coming off as incredibly rude and insensitive. i feel sick to my stomach. never commenting on anything else ever again. deserve to be squashed under someone’s shoe and ground into powder. in all seriousness this has shocked me so much that i am quitting every platform but tumblr for however long it takes for me to get some sense knocked into my dumb fucking skull
#actually considering deleting the clock app rn#what i said was so so bad and it could’ve been avoided if i’d fucking READ WHAT I WROTE and thought abt it FOR ONE GODDAMN MINUTE#i genuinely feel like i’m going to throw up being seen (fairly. justifiably) as mean is like the worst thing#and i don’t deserve to be wining abt this bc i’m the one who hurt someone but good god#PLEASE make sure that when you say something online you would SAY IT TO THEIR FACE#ive gotten to used to this brusque rude dark humor on the internet that i don’t relaizw using that humor INDISCRIMINATELY WITH STRANGERS is#Not okay#they made a video on it but the video got taken down so i deleted the comment. which might have been more selfish. i don’t know what’s best#-to do in that situation? i’m going to change my fucking username and pfp atp and go off the app entirely because i’m so fucking adhd ames#**ashamed don’t know why is autocorrected to that#ok just deleted the app ‘and all of its data’ so idk if that means my videos (edits) too but atp whatever#maybe it’s impulsive but at least this way i will not know what’s going on ! and never hurt anyone again hopefully. i really hope he saw my#-comments before his response was deleted because i want them to know it was not intentional and i am truly so so sorry#i don’t know how i’m going to function for the rest of the day. i’m going to think about this when i go to sleep for the rest of my life#i feel sick#i’m evil#and being evil isn’t fun silly times it literally makes me want to throw up from how bad i am#too much ranting in the tags and i deserve to be fucking shot in the mouth#but i need somewhere to put this that no one will see this but that is also public so that someone might see and know how sorry i am#feel like fucking bojack horseman#unironically how am i supposed to go on living. how can i live knowing i’m so bad. if i don’t kill myself im being selfish because i’m mak-#-omg everyone deal with my presence and live with a bad person.#i think i’m going too social media entirely except for tumblr maybe bc i can’t or don’t rly talk to anyone on here#i need someone to like give me a good meaning but not in a cathartic way in a way that it genuinely hurts so bad and makes me feel the full#suffering i deserve
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roxas' reaction to getting strange dreams and fighting weird monsters with a giant key is to not tell anyone not even his friends about it and just alluding to it by saying "ive had a lot on my mind lately" is so real
#like the realest reaction to shit like that#like i personally if i had weird dreams id be like you would not BELIEVE the dream ive had/been having recently#but if i had to fight weird monsters with a key i would absolutely not tell anyone and i wouldnt tel anyone about my dreams either if i can#see the giant key i suddenly have in them#like you know#roxas is a protagonist that does NOT want to be a protagonist lmao#like i know if characters had real people reactions there likely wouldnt be a story but its just funny to me that roxas is experiencing all#all this and still his biggest concern is about heading to the beach or whatever#god i miss him#wouldnt it be fucking amazing if they let us play as roxas for real in another game id be ecstatic#days doesnt count cuz ive never played it yet <3#i have the ds game but i havent touched it yet bc i was supposed to get thru com and uhhh never did lmai#michi tag
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woo gardening
the dish in the middle is for bees. im gonna put blue marbles in it and then fill it with water. the water is so they dont die of thirst (which is apparently a common thing to happen to bees?) and the marbles are so they dont drown
i have extra marigolds along with some seeds and bulbs that i didnt get to fit in there (its also bcus i had an odd number of each type of marigold and i for some reason felt the need to make this somewhat symmetrical)
i didnt get to use any of my bachelors buttons seeds. of which i have a shit ton. hopefully my mom figures out a good spot for me to plant everything else bcus i want to plant the fucking bachelors buttons
#i tried to use a shovel at first but then just gave up and used my hands to dig#also these all came from nurseries (i think thats the term im looking for?) near where i live#no lowes or home depot here folks!#…ok so the dirt came from either lowes or home depot (i forgor 💀) but the plants are from actual nurseries#anyways uh planting shit is fun bcus you get to act like a creature but in a socially acceptable way#also. just remembered. massive fucking bug bumped into me while i was digging#i didnt get to see what kind it was but it felt soft? for some reason? so maybe a bumblebee since theyre fuzzy#can yall tell that i like marigolds#if only i had alliums but everyone in my family except me doesnt like them#well. except me and my sister (middle not youngest) but she has decided that if i like something she likes it so she doesnt count#eh chives are alliums and my mom always plants herbs so i guess well end up with some eventually#man half of this post is in the fucking tags#i like plants ok#uh#idk if i should actually tag this#fuck it i want the world to see my wheelbarrow#i. i thought it was spelled wheel-BARREL. its. its not spelled wheelbarrel oh my fucking god im a dumbass#in my defense ive never seen the word written until now#gardening#flowers#plants#idk what else to tag#uh yea bye
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