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pluggedintosaverockandroll · 11 months ago

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you know it's exam season because i'm questioning all my life choices

#you know i don't mind going to classes actually but studying and taking exams makes me feel like i'm a cog in a machine #as i got older i started caring less about school actually not because i don't think it's important #but because it makes me feel like a product of capitalism #why did i choose this major?#do i even still like it?#do i want to work in this field later?#like i think that no matter my feelings on my major i'm not gonna change it #bc 1 i already got this far 2 i don't know what else i would wanna do and 3 i couldn't live with the feeling of failure #i just have to make it through another 2 and a half years of uni at least #and right now i just have to make it through the next week and a half #god i want exams to be over #i don't have any motivation anymore and i don't care about the classes i have to study for that much #anyways can you tell that my last exam didn't go well ?#i should be nicer to myself bc it's weekend and i am never that productive for uni in weekend anyway #anyways thanks for coming to my rant #kj post

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smrtnik07 · 10 months ago

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#EXAMS ARE OVER I CAN DRAW NOW!!!!!!!!!!#anyways these are outfits from hnk worn by my some of my favorite rocks #not gonna tag hnk i dont know if the hnk people would want this i didnt even draw the clothes on model i interpreted them myself #i dont think their dynamics are remotely close either (thank god) i just wanted to draw my blorbos wearing the clothes of my other blorbos #limbus company #art i made #sketched this while listening to an intro class on vector graphics..i dont like vector graphics

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redyarns · 23 days ago

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snippet (undertow, ch. 6)

IM TIRED OF THIS GRANDPA

#undertow #megop #transformers #peony speaks #GASPING FOR AIR CLAWING MY THROAT KICKING MY FEET #FIRST 3 SCENES ARE FINALLY FUCKING DONE OH MY GOD #IM NEVER DOING THIS AGAIN. ALL CHAPTERS FROM NOW ON ARE LIMITED TO 2-3 SCENES #fucking 5 scenes in one chapter WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING #oh my god im actually losing my mind #not to mention theres still a few things i want to tweak #AUGH #its so fucking jover man #the carpal tunnel is actually egregious #not to mention the sheer burnout???#like im gonna have to write something silly goofy after this chapters released #theres no way i can handle another one of these for at least a few weeks #oh my god im gonna pass out #literally why do i do this to myself??? why did i think this many scenes was acceptable #who in their right fucking mind would do this #anyway the fact that we're over 80k words but still nowhere near the end of the fic is diabolical #oh my god im so tired #u know im writing this when i have an exam tmrw?#i cant believe this #im hungry

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ramayantika · 11 months ago

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Okay but the life of the legendary Shovana Narayan altered my brain chemistry, a superb academic record hold, a maestro in kathak and then also a civil services officer with a long distance marriage and motherhood

If she could do this in the 50s and 60s, wtf is stopping me from doing so, when I have never wanted just one thing to define me

#samridhi speaks #also to my ex who told me things likw your relationship will never work out with him because of different life goals #lol this woman married a diplomat and they managed a long distance marriage too #her husband paved doors foe collabs with the West with Indian dance back then #this is the kind of love I want sure physical intimacy is needed and what not but God I am never giving up all of this to marry #and I still remember him saying you give those soft mothet vibes who is a part time mother and dancer #bye I will girlboss all my life and be all right in front of guys like some of my cousins who think we girls his sisters will just marry #and settle down amd to my ex too for thinking I will be easy and live out a simplw life #fuck everything the only understanding men in my life have been my father brother and my boyfriend at this point #weird that he never grew up around sisters but still is so aware and understanding of women and our desire for dreams #lol I am ranting but yes I have an exam in 6 hours my sleep got over by 2.30 #and then I was googling gpat niper prep #yeah it's first sem but I keep wanting to updatw on the info #and God knows what struck me to google dancers randomly who were into civil service academia and still being legends in the arts #then shovana narayan came up

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thebigqueer · 2 months ago

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literally having the worst day ever and i cant ever be happy (has only experienced minor inconveniences today but they keep adding up)

#first of all i didnt get a lot of sleep so im mad tired #second of all the place i usually get lunch on campus said they werent doing bagels at the moment and it ruined me #cuz i was soooo excited to get bagels #third of all i was already cranky so i got all in my feels last night #so i had a dream where my gf who isnt my gf and saw each other on one fo the campuses and she was w her friends #at one point we were both leaving and iw as watcing her and her and her friend knew i was there #so then her friend comes over and shes like '[gf name] loves you so much'#and i was about to cry tears of joy i was like REALLY???#and then her friend started laughing and gestured to my gf who isn't my gf's OTHER friend behind me and she was like 'jk lol she meant #this friend not you el oh el'#and then my gf and her friends were all laughing at me and i burst into tears #and then in full on sobs i was like 'i loved you so much how could you leave me'#and then my gf was just like 'well youre a bad person and you think youre sooooo myseterious and youre a terrible person and i never loved #you' and oh my god it ruined my morning #i know a lot of it was just psychological cuz i was already moody when i went to bed #and i have this werid paranoia where i think her and her friends talk shit about me #which i doubt they do but it still stresses me out #so thats probably why that hapepned #and then on top of all that. fourth of all im getting lunch and i literally see her outside. like i dont see her for days and of course #the day i least want to see her shes right there #i mean im generally doing better than september and i didnt feel the same sinking feeling #i used to in like sept but still like brooooo bro this day could not be worseee #the only good thing that happened was that i passed my physics exam <3 #also yeah again i said these are minor inconveniences im just frustrated lol #sunny rambles

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namiisei · 6 months ago

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Disappeared for a week or so. Will be back in a few. For now have this idea that came from a dream.

Nicobaster as Orpheus and Eurydice

Thank you for my TedTalk

#got caught up with exams #will catch up with everyone once its one #i want this over with #help me #pjo #nico di angelo #alabaster #percy jackson #primordial god! chronos x ananke! nico #nico pjo #percy jackon and the olympians #alabaster c torrington #alabaster pjo #a kairos moment

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littencloud9 · 4 months ago

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i should drop out

#whyyyyy didddd iiii chooososee thisss LOFE #LIFE #god i cant WAIT for exams to be over i have so much i want to do but. the horrors #three more left… i spent all week on the one i have in. seven hours. AND I STILL HAVENT MEMORISED EVERYTHING #LIKE WHY IS THIS ACRUALLY IMPOSSIBLE!!!!!!!!#and dont even get me statyed oncbhemistry k think id sooner kms #i cant do this anymore IM AN ACADEMIC VICTIM!!! LET ME OUT!!! n ABEJRBFMFNFLTNFNGM #ok bye

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faaun · 4 months ago

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ok let's catch up quickly

#so i went on a few dates w this guy. long hair beautiful face kinda looked like a girl (good) said yes ma'am when i told him to do smth #(also good) film student great at photography including candids. made a sheath of leather for a sword pin i have . et cetera.#he asked to cuddle and i was like iggg and then i felt Nothing and i was like ohhh yh ok ok yep lesbian #like he meets almost all my criteria but. yeahhh no . also at the end of that date he had some weird takes. anyway broke up w him and told #him actually im p sure im a lesbian (again) and he was like yk thats the second time this has happened to me this week but its ok bc ive #fallen for this girl from berlin. and then we cooked together. anyway . met a beautiful butch lowk in love w her. weve been on (1) date.#have two exams in a few days havent studied enough going to like end it all basically. my research partner kicked me off our research #(expected(it was always skinda sketchy)) which was devastating + it happened in a lidl 15 hours into a journey from bordeaux #to go back to the UK. my friends were kinda busy paying for baguettes but also they heard this whole exchange and are kinda mad at him #my friend of 10+ years is coming over in a few days. my evil ex situationship person that i decided to stay friends w because i kept #insisting they are a good friend and not evil and also extremely beautiful? turns out shockingly enough they were evil. tried to fix them #and then i realised due to their entire friendship group being ppl like me (Every Single One of their friends are ppl they met on dating #apps then led on then dumped and proposed staying friends w) and are collectively extremely attracted to them and not over them they #keep validating the most diabolical shit they say/do to hace a chance w them. they broke up w their ex and the way they keep leading #this poor girl on and making her heartbeeak worse and saying that they want more power over her and want her to beg for them back etc...MY #JAW HAD DROPPED esp bc i didnt even know the ex was in the picture BECAUSE ME AND ONE OF OUR FRIENDS (that they also dated) HAD JUSR SLEPT #NAKED TOGETHER IN THEIR BED W THEM. GIRL. anyway that is the least of the diabolical stuff they said but no we are moving onnn #this was b4 the beautiful butch btw. anyways . i have a mitski concert tmrw i think?? idek anymore #i used to have a crush on this guy very briefly and then it disappeared and then i realised if he fundementally changed everything abt #himself then maybe id like him but ofc i didnt tell him that but i still think abt it sometimes but anyway thats irrelevant now bc 99% sure #even if he did id still not find him attractive (lesbianism). please recommend good overnight moisturisers btw i have super dry skin #right. the friend of 10 yrs. we had a hard convo abt why she essentially bullied me in year 8 and it made me highly bitter but i also love #her and ik things are diff now its been like . Many Years . and shes going to stay a while I HAVE TWO EXAMS I DONT HAVE TIME but i love her #its fine. i think i might just switch into medicine and do the whole become a neurosurgeon thing (which was my plan B) bc plan A is looking #kinda impossible rn. I WANNA TALK MORE ABT WHAT THE EX SITUATIONSHIP PERSON SAID but i wont bc i dont wanna be too mean but also . MY GOD #i had a conversation w a philosopher friend about whether i have a moral responsibility to try to fix them bc unleashing this on society #feels wrong and he said 'probably but...run' so yeah im not talking to them atm. second date w beautiful butch on monday btw IDK WHAT TO #WEAR. she said she likes fems. im just gonna wear the shortest ralph lauren skirt i have w the cute leg warmers and hope 4 the best #its 1:15 AM im abt to drink coffee and start studying bc what the FUCK man. also almost finished watching the boys its very good #one of my best friends is struggling rn it is breaking my heart i want to take the burden from her i miss her very much

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boiohboii · 6 months ago

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Pls pray for me, I have a final after tomorrow and studied 2/40 chapters 😭 i will get cooked fr

#i just want it to be over #i wanna pass #that's all i want #i don't want to redo any exams during break or god forbid retake the entire year

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fadeintolight · 1 month ago

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pont pont vesszőcske

#this year just feels weird. im selfishly not saying ~rawr so awful or tragic #because there are things ive achieved this year that im proud of and that were long due #im so happy i did that masters course and im so glad i landed a job that pays well even though its torture on my nerveous system #my mind is forever free from academic guilt and pressure #and i can afford things that nourish my soul and body when they werent accessible before #so this is the firm acknowledgment of the fact that im lucky and have an objectively good life #part of which i was given and nice parts i actually worked my ass off for #and for the first time in my life im at a stage where its all … freestyle?? lmao like ok girl you did the things now find new things to do #and theres none hehehe just human connections that are harder to build than a cv or a thesis defense and doesnt only depend #on the effort i put in #but also on how the stars and planets are moving or idk #plus i just remembered how my sister told me that the reason why i kept procrastinating on my diploma was bc it was an excuse to not grow u #and now the universe is kicking my ass all year to make me realize that i need to change and grow and build a life i could settle in #because this bitch!!!! took 3 of my 4 closest friends and made them move countries and get married or in one case just simply get over me #and not to make everything about me but its how humans work okay so ofc im internalizing a lot of other tragedies as new signs #from the universe screaming at me #to get away from the parasocial bonds that give me so much joy but also affect me too much #like LAUGH AT ME all you want but ive been wanting to see ts live since 2009 #and the only thing that kept me up in exam season at 4am was me and my friend sending outfit inspos to each other #like its silly i know but when that show got cancelled and i was hysterical i kneew the lesson was to grow up and stop investing so much #into lovely but also relatively short moments of my life #because i should be able to #look forward to other things after graduating than the eras tour but i WASNT okay #and i dont have to elaborate on how liam’s passing has been affecting me/us so i wont #but fuck that was a cruel reminder - to make things about me again- that though i can talk about this with friends on my phone #until my retina burns out or melts or idk what retinas do #i still dont have ANYONE in my phsyical proximity who would understand this pain and thats partially on me #and then my 85+yr old grandma got covid AGAIN for the 3rd time and my god she got better but in case i forgot she wont be with me forever #and i reached the tag limit so thats it anyway weird year very weird dont know what it wants from me #to the void

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orcelito · 2 months ago

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Did driving practice today. Actually did parallel parking practice this time, even tho I really didn't want to still. Finally got it into my head that I can maybe do this.

SO......

I have scheduled my driving test. For November 13th, 3 weeks from today.