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i have my big presentation tomorrow and i’m freaking out, i’m already having a panic attack…
#i’m gonna be shaking tomorrow#i already know it’s gonna suck#i’ll skip my next class if i do the presentation 😜#give my self a little treat#if i don’t cry#i didn’t go to my last year presentation and my professor was so nice about it#like i emailed him about my anxiety and he was like it’s totally fine and i still passed#but this professor would FAIL me if i didn’t do this…#also i don’t wanna leave my group hanging 😫#i keep thinking to myself ONE MORE WEEK#i just have to get through this week 😔
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she’s like if the virgin mary smoked a pack of pall malls every day 🚬
#sims 4#the sims community#simblr#ts4#sims 4 edit#mysims#drawing/editing these tears took actual years off my life#editing this in general did but the tears were my hell#her name is norma jean named after her grandmother but she goes by either jeanie or jj#she works at the local convenience store and bartends at night when shes able to pick up shifts#shes the worst bartender in existence and refuses to lift anything over 2 pounds#she once convinced a customer to buy her a sweater because she looked a little cold while working#she lied and said her manager never lets them turn on the heat and casually mentioned pennys was selling her favorite sweater#and then described in detail exactly where the sweater was in the store#all she had to do was blink her big brown eyes and call them baby a few times and they immediately folded#she goes to church 7 days a week even though she hates it because that's what she did when her mom was still alive#and its one of the few things that helps her feel close to her mom#her mom died after she had to drop out of highschool to take care of her#she holds a lot of resentment for having to give up such a big part of her life#but at the same time blames herself for not being able to make her mom better#she doesnt believe in banks and hides money around her house to store it but she's also super forgetful#she'll randomly find money around the house and then treat herself like it was present she meant to leave for her future self#she loves crosswords but treats it like a fun game and refuses to check if her answers are ever right#there's ur fun little facts about jeanie 🫵🏼
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hasbro is killing g5 mlp, which means it's officially my city now...say hello to my new and suspiciously familiar "ocs"
#my little pony#mlp#g5 mlp#mlp g5#g5 my little pony#mlp g5 fanart#mlp g5 redesign#sunzy#stormblazer#izzy moonbow#misty mlp#misty brightdawn#sunny starscout#hitch trailblazer#zipp storm#pipp petals#opaline mlp#sprout cloverleaf#allura mlp#twitch mlp#sparky sparkeroni#sparky mlp#flurry heart#<- spoiler alert i'm making that old theory about flurry heart turning into opaline real in my personal visions of g5#i tagged this with sunzy but technically that drawing is a polycule with sunny izzy and misty#but idk wtf to tag for g5 stuff. i have so many visions nobody else gives a fuck about.#hopefully i'll start writing g5 fics now that hasbro is killing it...i need to save these characters G5 IS MY BABY I ADORE IT#i'm so miserable about how g5 has been treated so i'm going to do my own thing with it. i'm going to miss it soooo much so i'm coping.#stay tuned for more out of context self-indulgent niche au g5 mlp art.........this is how i am getting through the deaths of mym and tyt.
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#if any of my lstwt oomfs find this im shooting myself#lifesteal shipping#lssmp shipping#lssmp#princezam#wemmbu#zammbu#angsts art#i turned them into my ocs atp the pnly thing that my interpretation of them only shares their personality and dynamic#saying that i rhink i deserve to draw ls zammbu as a little trear#treat*#but id rather die rhan draw uu zammbu for many reasons#anyway. ROBOT ZAM AND DEMON WEMMBU!#i have a bunch of hcs for them#basically wemmbu was created in a similiar way that most demons do#from the nightmares of children! its the same case with clown and therefore theyre both a similiar type of demons#they basically have a comstant area effect depending on their own self that effects the people around them#wemmbu drives people mad and clown makes everyone terrified#zam was a past therapy robot in a psych ward until he got extremely beaten up and then thrown out and thrn later found by clown and restored#by branzy#also wemmbu's star thingies are what allowed him to get into ls by giving minute (possibly the same person who had nightmares of him as a#kid) and minute having them in ls allowed wemmbu to sneak in#zam was brought in by clown because 'thats my son' I LOV FAMILIAL MEDIEVAL DUO#oh yeah this was a zammbu drawing uhm OBJECTUM WEMMBU JUMPSCARE? IDK!#my wemmbu design looks so fucking stupid without details but its ok i still love my cat wemmbu
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A Batfam AU where instead of going to get Dick to be Robin again Tim uses necromancy to bring Jason back from the dead. He just leaves Jason on the Wayne doorstep with a 'do better this time' sticky note. Batman can't find out who did it and Tim stays his little latchkey self with semi ok but distant parents (cus canonical they weren't really abusive just not there which isn't good but they could be worse). His parents bring him along on trips but again they love him but they just leave him to do as he pleases. so in Paris he ends up still getting trained by Lady Shiva. This keeps going and Tim just keeps reviving batfam members, if they fake their deaths and Tim tracks them down to check on them. They still have no idea who their shadow is, they can't find him, Tim likes it this way. Bruce goes MIA and Red Robin happens just minus Tim actually being Red Robin. The JLA doorstep gets a passed-out Batman with a 'I can't believe I have to keep doing this shit' sticky note on his head.
#now you're probably going Batcaves i see those fics all the time? and my retort is those are babyified Tim Drake fics. he then gets adoped#the batfam and has a coffee addiction. i want a Tim Drake that treats the batfam like how wildlife rehab centers treat animals. they make#themselves knowable of the subject. they're striving to improve their quality of care. establish safe working habits. share skills. put car#of the subject over personal gain. be professional and humane. protect welfare of the subject. release the subject as soon as appropriate.#it's just his subject is batvigilantes not a racoon that was on the side of the road.#tim drake#batman#robin#dc comics#dc universe#detective comics#batman comics#batman and robin#batman au#and i think Jack and Janet being abusive is getting boring. have them be ok parents. they give tim a long leash but fail to see hes using i#for his own fun. they never told him he CANT learn necromancy and revive bat vigilantes how was HE supposed to know it's a bad thing??#maybe they should have looked at what he was doing while they were off. (like Phineus and Ferb. He asked if he could learn self-defense.#he learned from Lady Shiva not at the YMCA. He asked if he could read a book on necromancy! you didn't tell him he's not aloud to use what#he learned! he asked if he could go to the cemetery to see Jason! you didn't say he couldn't revive him! and so on)#Tim: mom can I learn self-defense while in Paris?#Janet: that's a good idea there are so many pickpockets here a little training would be nice for you. do you know a place?#Tim: Yes! her name is Sandra#Janet: cool. if you think she's the best choice. here some money.#Tim: Thanks Mom!#janet drake#jack drake#fanfic idea#fic idea#fanfic ideas#batfam
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#my poetry#Horuspoetry#This one’s never gonna get professionally published so here it is#I usually hate writing lowercase poetry but I thought the unfinished look it gives#poems worked with the subject matter#I also wanted to work in a space detailing the experience of growing up neurodivergent#where you are functionally gendered as a failure#A lot of the details (the burying or the hands-to-eyes) are based on my own life. As is like. The general feeling. Which was basically my#standard from ages 3-9. the description of things outside is based on the memories I have of my old backyard when I was really little#And of the park I used to go to#I have a lot of memories of thinking of myself as basically already dead but also not really *understanding* the difference between being#dead and alive?#Idk. I think the perspective I am writing from is that of the child#but also in some ways I’ve noticed the way I behave towards my memories of my past self resembles the ableist way adults treated me when I#was a kid#As if somehow#There was something just… wrong with me and me only and so I deserved it#So this was also an attempt to show compassion to that child and break from that belief. To say ‘this was fucked up’#And that I don’t believe that there was something wrong with me after all and even if there HAD been I wouldn’t have deserved that treatmen#No one does
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@shadowy-suitcase-herring-neck I hope you don't mind but I saw your emotional support dog for Dream and I wanted to do some doodles of him ^^
#UTDR#UTMV#Dream Sans#Swap Sans#Nightmare Sans#Killer Sans#Mateo is the goodest boy and he will get so many sandwiches#Blue might have a bit more self control but I feel like Dream and Ink would be giving him treats constantly#Dream deserves a little fluffy buddy to help him rest#Also I threw Nightmare and Killer in because I can't stop drawing them lately lol#It's okay Killer is friendly and he's had most of his shots#My Art
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not a single braincell to be found amongst them not a single damn one
#theyre perfect they are made for each other#dmen whos head are so empty if you shook them around nothing wold rattle up there#STOP ZOOMING IN ON FORSY ON THE BENCH WHEN HE HAS THE BRAIN EMPTIEST EXPRESSION ON HIS FACE AS YOU TALK ABOUT HIM#EKKY IS FINE HE ALWAYS LOOKS LIKE THAT#BUT PLEASE NOT FORSY#THE WORST TIMES TO ZOOM IN ON HIM JUST HAPPENS#ekky has the same dumb cute face my dog has when his food bowl is “suspiciously” less filled because he is greed incarnate and doesnt know#what self restraint is and he keeps eating chicken off the road and got a tummy ache and now he just sits behind me and hounds me down unti#i give in and give him his proper portion#forsy as my friends cat that i was very hesitant to touch because i have rough hands (because big dogs all my life)#and i was like this poor cat is gonna hate me and my friends like nah treat em like a dog i promise they like it check this out#(proceeds to spin this cat around with their foot)#so i treat them like one of my dogs and im like alright bud you like this a little too much but i love you too you are the light of my life#same kitty we tease by opening the door and go look! youre free! go on! to which they just go mweor?#and stalks back further into the apartment because hes a very good kitty because that isnt permission to go out#once again the most doglike cat i have ever met in my life#i look at them with so much love in my eyes its so apparent in any picture taken of me with that cat#and thats how i feel about forsy
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re2 and re4 leon when gf hides her other eye because her hair grows too fast: "that is perfectly fine and valid and i will support ur decision of hiding your pretty eye. :)"
re6 leon when gf hides her other eye because her hair grows too fast: "cut that shit off NOW... please, i said please."
#leon kennedy#leon s kennedy#resident evil#re6#yumeship#selfship#self ship#self insert#oc x canon#yumejoshi#my art#puppy love ✧#re6 leon is so goofy i mean hes depressed too all the leons are but hes sooo goofy and silly i love him#re6 leon is still sweet i just think hes more comfortable in the relationship so he acts a little more selfish bc he feels like he can yay!#it takes him a while to even build up to that point where he feels like he can be selfish without feeling guilty but i think he can!! just-#-give him some time and love and assurance!! all the leon's are so sweet and kind#also leon getting to see re4 yure makes him so ecstatic because hes like#oh shes sooo cute.... i mean my yure is cute too but-#-all yures are cute to me.. i want to treat her well. make her as happy as i can when i couldnt back then. (bc re4 leon is um. well u know)#anyway sorry for the rambling i love leon#2023
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Megamind and Zim
So, I'm a huge nerd (as you all know). And I've recently gotten a bit back into Invader Zim because my hyperfixations are a neverending cycle of whatever happens to capture my interest.
Well, since my brain likes to make connections between hyperfixations, I decided to start listing out similarities between one of my most precious blorbos - Megamind - and Zim. Just for funsies. :P
And uh, there's A LOT, actually. Which shouldn't surprise me considering they're both Very Dramatic aliens, but either way. I'm gonna post what I've gathered here for my own amusement. 😁
So here's what I got:
Aliens
Landed on Earth
Grew up parentless
Outcasts of society
Robotic servants/minions that were given to them prior to being sent to Earth (yes, Minion is a fish, but he does have a robotic body)
Black heeled boots and black gloves
Viewed as "evil" even tho neither are actually evil (Zim is self-centered, chaotic, and destructive but I wouldn't classify him as evil even if he himself might - his mission to conquer Earth is more to please his Tallest and be validated as a good invader than to actually be evil for the sake of being evil)
Have strong relationships with their rivals/enemies to the point where they give their lives meaning and purpose - both became depressed and unmotivated when those enemies were suddenly not around to fight (due to being "defeated" in Megs' case and pursuing "real science" in Zim's case in the unfinished ep Mopiness of Doom)
Both are frequently shipped with their enemies in fanworks (Metro Man for Megs, Dib for Zim)
Intelligent scientists and inventors but they're also goofy as hell and they create plans that continually fail
Speech idiosyncrasies (pronouncing words incorrectly for Megs, emphasizing certain words and poor volume control for Zim)
Very animated and dramatic/theatrical when speaking
Short (Zim more so than Megs but Megs is still, like, shorter than Roxanne)
Big egos that hide their severe insecurities
Significant amounts of angst to both character's backstories
Cool color skin tones
Bullied in school
Affinity for junk food
Many fans of their respective media are in the lgbtqia+ community - both characters themselves also read as some flavor of queer and fans often HC/interpret them as such
Both come across as some level of neurodivergent
Pretty neat, huh? Well, I took it a step further (bc of course I did) and decided to ALSO find as many similarities as I could between Roxanne Ritchi and Dib Membrane. Being the main human characters, it felt more appropriate than trying to compare Metro Man to Dib, even tho Metro Man largely fills the "enemy" role for Megamind (and bc I am a filthy shipper at heart, fight me*).
Anyway, so Roxanne and Dib:
Human (potentially questionable in Dib's case, but still)
Foils and equals to the alien protagonists
Intelligent
Sneak into alien protagonists' bases to take pictures and figure out "evil" plans to try to stop them
Have been kidnapped by aliens
Know the real truth of the alien protagonists, but their peers don't (Roxanne knows Megamind isn't really evil or dangerous, Dib knows Zim is really an alien - in Megamind's case, the people of Metro City do eventually come around, but not til the end)
Have false narratives about some aspect of their lives widely believed by the general public (most the citizens of Metro City think that Roxanne is dating Metro Man, almost everyone around Dib believes he's just crazy for thinking Zim is an alien)
Have companions who are also privy to the alien protagonists' true natures, but those companions are apathetic (Metro Man and Gaz respectively)
Concerned for the well-being of their fellow humans and cities
Like their aliens, both also come across as some level of neurodivergent (you kinda have to squint to notice it in Roxanne, but it's definitely there)
Alien boyfriends* (if you ship Megarox and ZaDr :P)
So yeah! Just some fun comparisons to ponder.
*Although I don't ship ZaDr within the canon universe of the show itself, I do enjoy it in certain transformative contexts. I'm v aware of the controversial nature of the pairing, so I wanna make that clear. I just like having fun with it.
#megamind#megamind 2010#metro man#roxanne ritchi#megamind roxanne#invader zim#zim#dib membrane#zadr#comparisons#aliens#alien character#alien characters#my posts#(yes i do ship zadr but only in certain transformative contexts pls don't come after me abt that)#lol i don't even care if no one gives a crap abt this this is literally so self indulgent#it's a little treat for me n my blorbo-rotating mind :P#my autism was hungry so i needed to feed it 500mg of compare contrast the blorbos
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i keep thinking abt akechis unaddressed undiagnosed osdd swag
#my art#doodles#persona 5#p5#it aint much but its honest work.#ill find more of them. ill sniff them out. no system character is safe from me#DROVE ME A LITTLE CRAZY BTW. THAT THEY WERE LIKE ‘WOW AKECHI HAS TWO PERSONAS? THATS WEIRD!’ AND THEN.#NEVER. ADDRESSED IT. EVER. AGAIN.#IT WAS KIND OF TREATED LIKE AN OFF SCREEN EVO IN ROYAL LIKE HE JUST HAD LOKI. NO MORE ROBIN. BOY WHAT HAPPENED TO ROBIN HOOD#the answer is that he died with the detective prince in the bottom of that ship. which also makes me feel insane#sorry the death of the self is so :exploding forever:#persona 5 is a game. you get to watch the protags rivals life be completely and fully ruined by the protag and then never do anything about#it. like damn akechi sorry about all that and also that you full on died to save us after it all and never recieved any thanks or acknowledg#ement whatsoever from anyone except maybe the protagonist. that was fucked up#LIKE HE ALSO WAS EVIL. HE KILLED TWO OF THE THIEVES’ PARENTS. BUT ALSO HE WAS EXPERIENCING EVERY NIGHTMARE EVER CAN WE GIVE HIM THAT ATLEAST#sorry my akechi rants. my disease
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hrgh every time I think I've come close to forgiving lance fucking parkin I skim the gallifrey chronicles. and then I remember the Horrors.
#listen bc when I read through and play around with AHistory I'm inclined to enjoy and respect his work as a curatative fan historian#but his actual prose writing#it. it beggars belief it truly does it's just atrocious#megan whines into the empty abyss of cyberspace#everyone in the EDA discord who thinks father time is the worst of it oh boy babes the worst is absolutely yet to come#like I get *why* they gave him the last book of the line because he does (mostly) know his lore extremely well#so it kind of makes sense that he'd be picked to wrap up all the myriad loose ends#and also he's well liked and afaik pretty personable unlike some fuckers I could name and didn't spend years burning bridges#but oh my god oh my god literally everything to do with Fitz and Trix is just. awful. terrible.#guy who absolutely does not understand or respect any of the three of that team TARDIS but especially Fitz#also The Thing With Sam#never happened fuck you lance#also given just how many asspats he gives himself over his command of the lore he fucking got Sam's middle name wrong?!#also it's soooo obvious how much he loves Anji because she's a Capitalist GirlbossTM#he really does not grasp her character development or personal arcs but he thinks he's killing it#like she *is* a Capitalist GirlbossTM but that's not all she is but he's not actually interested in her interiority at all#he just enjoys that she's a fiscal conservative#god the fact that trading futures is the literal very next book after Anachrophobia#one of the best books in the series that explicitly calls out Anji's pro-capitalism stance using time-war-for-profit played for utter horro#immediately followed by...almost the exact same premise but Zany RompTM#it's not that capitalists misusing time travel for profit is inherently bad it's just *these guys* who suck#no lesson is learned! then you fucking get to the fucking gallifrey chronicles and Fitz actually deciding that this very same scheme#'wasn't perhaps unethical' just because it's Trix and Anji doing it#like yeah sure Anji and Trix can have a little insider trading. as a treat. but that is literally the definition of unethical lol#the only reason time traveling to acquire stock tips isn't massively illegal is because it's not fucking real like??#of-fucking-course it's unethical you walnut#parkin you smug annoying self-obsessed lore-obsessed pregnancy-obsessed just barely-plausibly deniably not homophobic asshole#I'm avoiding even bringing up the actual beef with TGC because first of all everyone fucking knows but also it's just.#it's such a goddamn shit awful trainwreck#if parkin wasn't a Fitz-hating homophobic coward he would've ended the gallifrey chronicles the same way he ended the dying days. wink.
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ice cream after a fun day of being nerds together!!
#hero treats hermie like a little sibling. its canon to me#theyre literally in laws in canon anyways#im ngl this was just self indulgence bc i miss my younger brother i miss driving him around and hanging out w him and eating ice cream w him#plus its my two fave npcs of the season!! happy happy#giving hermie tons of family members is cathartic for me#hermie the unworthy#hermie unworthy#hermie the unworthy fanarr#hermie unworthy fanart#hero oak#hero oak fanart#dungeons and daddies#dndads#dndads fanart#my art
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also given that the logic of said superiority authoriority is an entitlement to deny someone's personhood & use them as an object for your purposes, from obviously getting to direct what they must do & can't do, to enjoying whatever gratification from lashing out / demeaning which is also going to serve as an affirming exercise in authority when one can do that from an insulated elevated place....a crucial part of whatever form of this violence, from the most nanoscopic triangle in the sierpiński triangle pyramid scheme hierarchy, to the hypothetical largest (zoom in or out to whatever degree: the same shit also), being that indeed the superior parties need the deserved insulation from any Consequence to exerting their superior status, including indeed from having to witness the consequences For the "inferior" parties, such as whatever externalizations of suffering they recognize as such, which either (a) need to be put away (b) are manipulative performances or otherwise exaggerated (e.g. being a pussy / not even having the sense to realize how little suffering they're Really experiencing) or (c) can be fun to witness if you decide you enjoy that as an affirmation of power as per your ability to completely detach from any avoidance of causing pain, harming for its own sake, b/c you Can
all which is to frame how Interesting it is that after all those moments of going "well, they keep bothering with reaction shots of winston noticeably feeling hurt & expressing it, sometimes also verbally. it's like it could be setting up something" it set up Nothing; while once again just like has been done dozens of times a scene just Ends on winston being rejected &/or hurt, no resolution then, no resolution ever, and in the case of 7x03 was so significant an attack that just like in 4x11 when mafee gets to take out his own Loyalty Insecurity on winston while everyone else hangs around in tacit to overt approval, everyone just leaves the room & we get winston staying behind in the Most distant position aaand scene's over! thread's over! david levien get back here after you Liked that 4x12 livetweet of mine pointing out "so see & winston was right anyways??" like....that is: we are given the Perspective of someone who is also now Leaving winston behind, thus immune to the consequences of however that treatment could actually affect him or how he might struggle to deal with that now (who cares! the answer is: Alone) like Whatever, next time we see him he's completely fine now. and i'm just so happening to think that all the little moments of getting to see winston wither & withdraw & etc in reaction to being shitted on was also us being granted the perspective of Gratification that he's punished for speaking or existing or whatever, without it ever going anywhere or mattering beyond that instant. we too are the ones who surely get to relentlessly bully the autistic person & damn if we don't at least enjoy someone getting to go off the rails restoring their ego by doing absolutely whatever they want to him, which just so happens to be perfectly aligned with getting him Back In Line. pull yourself together winston! the only consequences you're experiencing we wanna deal with are the ones where you give us the algorithm we decided we want, actually. and now let's look across the rest of the season where the consequences for wags for being this way (or anyone else for standing by, ready to benefit, with philip bafflingly declaring as well how actually it was brutal in a good way) is approximately fuckall even as of course nobody's pretending he's one of the personal growth guys out here: rian is though, and didn't have to "grow" out of abusing winston or thinking that was fine & good or that of course she's inherently superior! and in the end we have more affection and interest for the Epic Asshole than their Cringe Targets
#yeah once again really appreciate being given the Rewards of that Fantasy of pwning these losers#we get to Glimpse winston going :/ :( b/c that's how we know he was aptly punished for trying to act like he's a fellow person#when we're grabbing his head forcing him back into place in a bigger way it's more important we then dust our hands off & Leave#winston leaving May be that eventual acknowledgment of consequence for w/e scraps of sympathy (pity) billions has for him#but it's made into an episode abt wags w/marked Little care for winston's role & once again Just A Fun Power Trip! for us viewers too!#thoughts amped up from the harmonic resonance of a more zoomed out triangle in the self similar fractal of pyramid scheme hierarchy....#the inferior may be beset w/mass death & violence but um my nice dinner out please?? same No Consequences For The Superior logics#prince shits on winston ep 1? cool! we're giving him a chance. shits on rian ep 12? whoa! whadda hell blunosaur....hang on a minute....#winston billions#how gracious to align us as viewers with the people comfortably shitting on those Beneath Them for kicks & status#and ''pitying'' the Inferior parties doesn't disrupt your superiority so don't worry about that#rian talking to winston like a dog & pitching right in for hurting him via ''he wasn't ever worth listening to But here ya go'' as Pity....#taylor moved away from their being willing to hire him; listen to him; even At All step in even a Tiny bit to insulate him....#towards wanting to forever ignore him & express contempt & tell rian the pitying is Too Much & be right there w/wags in 7x03...?#guess that was just like ''well they can't possibly have an arc of keeping up Any supportiveness / basic recognition of this loser''#but they also don't have to interact w/their own willingness to Insistence on being awful to him either#wasn't even the consequence of [once again we need his epic output...but have treated him like shit?] nah just took it from him :)#anyways; riled. riling times#sure having plenty of firsthand experience with a Refusal to accept like responsibility of produced suffering#there's plenty of room for distress; particularly if translated into irritation/anger; as dismissable to ''haha funny. now anyways''#then there's the option of Resenting whatever evident pain. you can't Tyrannically impose that consequence on Me!!! why i oughta#see also the tyranny of winston Speaking (demanding listening) Being Present (demanding navigation of that) having wants; feelings (NO)....#or you're at more of a loss? you ofc simply get to literally/figuratively walk away :) turning away from winston. ending the scene. shrug#anyways winston is inherently an Other who just so happens to deserve to be Our punching bag & inferior in life yippee wahoo#and by ''just so happens'' we mean clearly Deserves it based on nothing abt what Consequences his actions do or don't have lol lmao#his deserving this inferiority is something more Inherent about him okay lol lmao XD a sentiment unchallenged all 5 seasons he's here#how fun every time rian starts talking to winston with insults & punishment Prompted by his audacity in existing loserishly#what a rollicking episode as wags decides he'll prove his superiority over someone today & everyone claps as he assaults winston. nice!#it was so essential b/c now we can Take his coding w/o having to interact w/him (save 1 meeting just w/sacker!) cool!!! good!!!#lord even knows Where Do I Start Where Do I End It well anywhere & nowhere always & never. the lil topic of ableism & abuse
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see and i guess the thing that makes me crazy about the whole relearning intimacy is that xarrai is doing the same thing. in different ways and for different reasons they are both people who have almost never been touched if not for pain or sex or some other sort of Use. and i think that for the two of them that shared experience makes the whole thing like… almost kind of funny? here we are, two guys who are supposed to be experts at intimacy, and we’re giggling like schoolgirls after the most chaste little kiss. it’s all just another joke only the two of them are in on, another conspiratorial little moment they share. or at least it’s easier to see it that way than to see it for what it Is (being madly in love)
#i never post abt them being happy it feels wrong. LMAO#a little self indulgence today as a treat :)#just… finding joy in the closeness and the intimacy#and being so drawn to it like moths to a flame#even between moonrise and the ritual where every other conversation they have devolves into an argument…#still xarrai is close enough to touch him. still they come back to him every time#neither of them Wants to give this up even when everything feels like it’s falling apart. even when they struggle to trust one another#they’re both aware it could be all part of the game. it IS all part of the game sometimes#they KNOW how to weaponize this closeness and they do. both of them. over and over.#both of them wielding touch the same way they wield promises and yet. and yet.#sometimes it’s not. sometimes in the fleeting moments inbetween they find something real. in chaste kisses and cold hands on skin and#all of it.#they’re at each others’ throats the night after the ambush but they still sleep tangled together#it’s different after the ritual too it’s all different like after the tiefling party the two of them are Constantly touching but#the context and the feelings and all of it evolves so so much. okay bye i need to do my job now LOL#漫言#oc. xarrai#r. hold me like a knife#astarion
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#I'll put depresso talk in the tags to spare innocent bystanders#I just cannot figure out if the little cat is done for or not#like sometimes she seems better and is meowing super loud bc she wants to go out#and then other times she just seems... idk i look at her and im like is this it?#are you going to go to sleep and not wake up?#the most frustrating thing is that she was always skinny since she first wandered up to the door#and one day she'll love food and then the next she does not go near it#like treats that she would decimate one week the next she wont even look at and then the week later she will#she ate some chicken breat i cut up small today so shes not totally empty but shes def not interested#is this the normal thing she always did or is it like the same thing with my old dog#like its impossible to tell if shes just being her weird self + recovering from last week#or if its like something more serious#i looked at the paperwork the vet gave me and turns out they never did a blood test so ??????? wouldnt that be the first thing you'd do#idk man its just worse than not knowing for sure#if i knew there was no hope id be sad but its an answer#as of right now its just an unknown quantity and i dont know what to do for her#whatever shes going back to the vet tomorrow hopefully they'll at least give her some fluids since shes not drinking enough#and check her teeth and just see whats happening#Honestly after watching my Nana horrifically die in march I really dont want another death this year#especially since this cat kinda showed up not long after my nana and was a bright spot#like i wish she could just be healthy and happy
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