#give charlie therapy my fucking god

[ama-a93]

is that really you?

[spikeyjo]

Siri how do i stop the cycle without doing these bitchass tiny steps

[landitolover]

𝒈𝒆𝒕𝒂𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒄𝒂𝒓, in which, if charles didn’t care for you, maybe a specific red bull driver he doesn’t really like, will.. part one here! ౨ৎ max verstappen x famous!reader

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maxverstappen1

hey, i’m sorry about the break up

charles never deserved you though

yourusername

haha it’s okay

he didn’t do anything wrong though 😊

it was a mutual break up

maxverstappen1

ohhh, alright

that’s nice to know 😃

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IMESSAGE , MAX & LANDO January 4th, 2024

max

Lando

lando

Max 🤔

Rare text, what do you need mate?

max

by any chance do you have yns number

lando

oh my god do you

finally have the balls to (attempt) to pull her

max

i’ve always had the balls :/

charles just beat me to it

lando

he was quite charming

max

he’s a cheater, he isn’t very charming

lando

thats why i said ‘was’

max

ok but do u have her number

lando

duh? we’re like this🤞🏼

it’s xxx-xxx-xxx

max

okk thank you very much

lando

of course mate

goodluck you’ll need it

also u will be talked (possibly made fun of)

about in the gc. so be careful..

max

uhm ok mate

bye….. 😃

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yourprivate new year, new me 💆‍♀️

fuck🖕🏼men 🤮

January 14th, 2024

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alex_albon yk damn well ur the biggest lover girl

→ yourprivate uhmm wdym? i’m not

landonorris i know something u dont 🤫

lilymhe its okay baby ��

→ yourprivate 😔😔💖💖 ily

georgerussell63 wake up

→ yourprivate get out my private bitch 🤮

→ georgerussell63 cunt

→ yourprivate something u never serve..

danielricciardo wow this post ate 🎀

danielricciardo it would eat even more if u reactivated the main

→ yourprivate i’ll be back in like 9 months

→ landonorris HOLY SHIT ARE U PREGNANT

→ yourprivate NO??? WHAT??? WHY WOULD U THINK THAT???

→ landonorris coz u said 9 months and thats like how long it takes to give birth Idk

→ yourprivate u are so slow gn

IMESSAGE , MAX & YOU January 14th, 2024

xxx-xxx-xx

are you a rose?

cause i think you’re a catch 😉

yn

oh my god 😂 that was such a sucky

pick up line.. who is this? 😭

xxx-xxx-xxx

your future boyfriend, hopefully

yn

how’d u get my number though

i rlly hope you aren’t a stalker 😭

or i’m gonna contact the police

xxx-xxx-xxx

WAIT NO 😭

it’s max

i’m sorry lol

yn

oh my god 😭

i didn’t see u as the corny pick up line type

you changed this contact to ‘max’

max

what can i say?

also sorry for freaking you out

i asked lando for your number, i hope you don’t mind

yn

nah its fine 😭

max

are you okay though?

you deactivated, saw it all over twitter

yn

yeah no, i’m ok

well not rlly but I don’t wanna like .. talk about it

max

that’s totally fine

but if you ever need someone to talk to

i’m always free

and i have cats so.. free therapy

yn

thats how u get the girl !

max

charlie should have taken some notes

unsent message

haha i guess i know how to get you now ?

yn

you’re a flirt aren’t you

max

only for you

yn

😭😭

i’ll be back in a minute someone messaged me

max

alright

IMESSAGE , CHARLES & YOU January 14th, 2024

don’t respond

hi angel, can i come over?

i miss your kisses, cherie

can’t we get back together

yn

no we can’t

charles stop it. i don’t want you

you’re the one who cheated on me

if you were going to miss my kisses so bad, why’d you cheat?

don’t respond

it’s a new year though, new us.

yn

no charles

you need to get over it

i mean, i did

don’t respond

get over it? you deactivated on everything

that isn’t getting over it. you’re avoiding your problems

yn

yeah I’m avoiding you, you’re my biggest one

get a new girlfriend

it obviously isn’t that hard for you..

Delivered

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lilymhe u better not be talking about ch*rles

→ yourprivate no

landonorris is it ***

→ yourprivate 🤔🤔🤔???

alex_albon i thought u weren’t a lover girl

→ yourprivate i’m not

→ alex_albon caption says otherwise

georgerussell63 yw for the cake

→ yourprivate thanks georgie 😊

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January 23rd, 2024

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user ohh ik yn is laughing at his silly ass

user he’s going dark 🖤⛓️

user he wanna be aesthetic so fuckin bad

user this is not it ‼️ archive this post ‼️

user yeah, ur overrated

→ user we luv a self aware king

user not everyone dragging him in the comments 😭

→ user cause we all love yn 💆‍♀️

lewishamilton be so fr you have no sense of fashion, m8 😂

carlossainz55 🖤

landonorris yeah this post is not ittttt

alex_albon alright mate….

danielricciardo who did not cheer! 😂😭

pierregasly 🔥

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IMESSAGE, MAX & YOU February 14th, 2024

max <3

hey :)

happy valentines 🤍

yn

hii maxie

happy valentines! 💌

max <3

i bought you a little something

since you love snoopy

and me 😉

yn

you got one thing right

max <3

wowww

nevermind then

yn

kidding 🙄🙄

max <3

i’m picking you up

is an hour enough time

yn

yess

see you sooon 😊🤍

max <3

🤍

IMESSAGE, “YN FANCLUB 😊” February 15th, 2024

landoooo

how much r we betting that he did it

alexito

£100 he didn’t

lil 🎀

£100 he did

landoooo

i’m team he did it

georgie

he aint do shit 😂🔥

i’m team he didn’t do it

lil 🎀

is alex holding u gunpoint ???

landoooo

facts

max isn’t a pussy he def said something at least

yn

hi guyyyyssss

what are you guys talking about

georgie

we’re betting on ur little bf

did he ask you out

lil 🎀

ok wow 😭 straight to the point

yn

he did 😊😊😊

lil 🎀

HOLY SHIT

HAHAHAA

ALEX, GEORGE,

landoooo

PAYYY UPPP!!!! 💰

alexito

GTFOOO

georgie

🔥🔥 my ass is not paying

yn

u better pay them

also £100 is crazy???

look at what he got me 🥹 and he’s such a cutie

lil 🎀

SNOOPY 😭 I WISSHH

so down bad

🥹🥹 the cutest

yn

i cried 😔 he’s adorable

alexito

u guys are so cute

i hope it lasts!!

landoooo

daniel asked if u bringing back the main

cause like ur happy now

yn

2025 my year

plus u guys are in my priv why does it matter

georgie

right lmfao 😭

congrats on the bf though 🥳

hopefully he doesn’t turn out like our

good ol’ friend charlie!!!!

alexito

mate sthu

respectfully

georgie

wow that makes it a whole lot better, thanks m8

lil 🎀

how about u both sthu

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maxverstappen1 and here’s to my baby :)

June 3rd, 2024

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user didn’t expect a soft launch from max fuckin verstappen 😨

user HELLO???

user this girl has style.. dressing him up? 😍😍

→ user I noticed the style change, didn’t expect all this tho

user i just know shes hot

user stop soft launching i need to know who it is

danielricciardo lucky man

→ maxverstappen1 i am very lucky

landonorris cutie

→ maxverstappen1 😘

→ alex_albon it’s official: lando is the one getting soft launched

→ landonorris shhh people aren’t supposed to know

lilymhe she’s the loml

georgerussell63 🤮🤮🤮

→ maxverstappen1 get out - the girl

→ georgerussell63 🤓🤓☝️☝️

IMESSAGE, MAX & YOU June 13th, 2024

max <3

the sunset is in two hours

i’m picking you up

and we’re going to the beach to watch it

yn

😭😭 okay max

max

see you soon :))

yn

yeah, i love you 🤍

max <3

say that again in person

not over text 🙄

yn

okay max 😭😭

max <3

i love you though

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user AAUGGHH IM GOING CRAZY

user why are the captions so romantic… secret artist ? 😨

→ user lol she’s probably writing them for him

user charles gtfo 😭😭

user i love them (idk who she is)

landonorris 4 months tmr cutie 😍

→ maxverstappen1 i love you baby 🥰

→ user 4???? WHAATTT

alex_albon tell her to stop talkin abt u bro 🤦

→ maxverstappen1 no can do buckaroo

redbullracing our driver sure has some pretty good captions

lilymhe my gf 💖💖

IMESSAGE, CHARLES & YOU August 5th, 2024

don’t respond

you aren’t smart

yn

huh

don’t respond

you’re dating max?

is this just some petty thing ? cause i don’t like him?

yn

uhm no lmfao 😭

yeah i’m dating him though

don’t respond

is he better than me?

yn

yeah lol

100%

don’t respond

you know, he isn’t really the type to commit

yn

noted ? pretty sure he would’ve left by now

if that were the case lol

don’t respond

ok.

yn

lmfao.

You have blocked this person

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October 1st, 2024

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user OH MY GOD

user the man..

user i fell to my knees

user who is that

user my girl came back better than ever

user FINALLY ????

user she came back and started to soft launch a man gn

lilymhe wowwww 😍😍 i missed ur main acc posts

danielricciardo SERVED CUNT 💋

→ yourusername mwa 😚

danielricciardo i prayed for times like these

maxverstappen1 last slide kinda kinky

→ yourusername u wish, never horny on the main

→ user LMFAOO

landonorris ooooo let the light innnn

georgerussell63 odd post for ur first one back

→ yourusername sthu

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user her smile ☹️🤍

user THAT DRINK IS SO YUM

user my aesthetic queen 🐳

user mystery man u are lucky

user she’s so captivating

user UGHHH 😔😔☹️☹️

charles_leclerc drink company’s don’t suit u

→ maxverstappen1 lol

→ user LMFAOO

→ user embarrassing urself...

redbullracing 💙💙💙

→ yourusername 🩵

landonorris papaya better actually ☝️🤓

→ yourusername errmm 🤓

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yourusername i want to wear his initial on a chain ‘round my neck.

October 10th, 2024

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user m.. suspicious

user is that not max’s new cat

user shes so cutesy

user IS THE CAPTION A LYRIC HELLOOO

user white men always win her over

landonorris mmmmmmmmmm 3️⃣🏆

→ yourusername sthu😭😭😭

→ user bro tryna give us easter eggs

lilymhe that bagel looks rlly fucking good

→ yourusername IT WAASSS

danielricciardo my bf guys

→ yourusername 😍 -m

redbullracing 🐐🐐🐐

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yourusername new ep soon. 6 songs. ‘solo, tiwwchnt, ciwyw, dbm, sdg, and getaway car.” i hope u enjoy it.. out the 12th ! <3

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user i’m in a getaway car too queen

user “and here’s to my real friends” 2019 rookies & lily 🥲

→ yourusername my babies 4eva

user DONT BLAAAMEEE MEEE, LOVE MADE ME CRAZY 😩

user who cried and screamed listening to this album

user i brought a 🔪 to a 🔫 fight

user AHHHHHHHH

user thank u for yn’s not so mystery man but thank u for this ep ☝️☝️

landonorris used to being the GOAT

→ yourusername 🐐

danielricciardo getaway car on LOOP 🔂

maxverstappen1 but would u run away with me ?

→ yourusername yes!

→ user WHAATT

→ user this confirms everything basically

lilymhe so proud of u wifey 🤍🤍

→ yourusername mwaaa 💋

georgerussell63 i support this

→ yourusername thanks pretty princess

→ georgerussell63 nevermind

alex_albon lily and i will be listening on repeat

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user THE CHARLES SHADDEEE

user oh my hod. i adore them.

user ugh they’re the most bf gf couple ever

user charles could never LOOL

user these pictures im on the floor

user they’re my endgame

lilymhe she’s so cute in these pics

→ maxverstappen1 she’s always cute

danielricciardo FAVS

landonorris when they solo >

→ maxverstappen1 you’re the reason why i’m with her, thank you 😄

→ landonorris of course mate

christianhorner congratulations! happy for the both of you 🍾

georgerussell63 this is so goat coded

→ maxverstappen1 wow thanks

yourusername happy 9 months baby 💋

→ maxverstappen1 ik houd van je 🤍

→ user NINE. MONTHS.

→ user STOP NINEE…😭😭😭

yourusername wow we’re so adorable

arthur_leclerc thank you for making yn happier than my brother ever did 🙏🏼

→ maxverstappen ofc m8

→ user LMFAO EVEN HE’S TIRED OF CHARLES

౨ৎ finally… i posted… so SO so sorry for not posting in awhile, this took so long to post but 😭😭 here u gooo…. also thank u guys so much for 400 !!! i love u all <333 💋

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[yannig]

So. I've finished binge-watching Pit Babe.

and I have opinions. (yes I am aware it came out like a year ago. who cares) so, with very little order :

Tony died!! Yeah!! ngl, at one point I hoped Babe's father would come in to kill him, but Kenta doing it is even more satisfying so i'm happy with it. also those knife sounds were great. 10/10 no notes.

Babe's father was very obvious as Babe's father the second we met him. it's not necessarily a problem, i just found it funny that they were trying to create a mystery around him.

i didn't know it was an omegaverse when i began watching the show, but it was a pretty sanitized omegaverse, all things considered. no mentions of heat/rut, knotting, mate, pack, mating bite, bond, nesting. the mpreg was only implied. the word omega was uttered exactly once. beyond Tony wanting only alpha kids (with no explanation of what an alpha is), the plot to get a child from Babe, and Babe's fixation on his partner's smell (and most likely, Babe and Charlie's fixation on each other's neck), i often forgot it was an omegaverse. i understand not wanting to scare newbies, omegaverse can be wild, but i was surprised with how little we got of the common tropes. its not a flaw, i was just surprised.

Sonic needs to tell North he loves him. the guy is clearly ready to die for you. just because he's too stupid to realize he's in love with you doesn't mean he isn't.

also this two idiots were still in the building!! i thought they got the USB and then got out to publish the videos! but no! these two idiots were still in the building! thank fuck Kim was close by!!! (he was probably there on purpose, yes, but still. they should have gotten out!)

Way stays a walking red flag until his very last breath and I hate that for him. don't get me wrong, I saw his death coming. he was unredeemable, and we don't want the audience to hate him, so of course he was gonna die. i really don't like this trope, I'd rather he left Babe and X-Hunter behind and got a new chance with Pete, who was clearly ready to give him one and also who he hadn't betrayed and hurt in the worst way possible. but no, that's not how the trope works. he dies. because we don't know how to redeem characters without killing them. and to make the matter worst, he dies having one of his most fucked up interactions with Babe yet, and that's saying something considering his track record, confessing his love for the nth time which was understandable but already awkward on its own, and then asking if Babe ever loved him back when he has made very clear several times that he saw Way as his closest friend and nothing else, begging for forgiveness for trying to rape Babe, i swear to god!! the correct thing to say at this point was "i'm sorry i ever hurt you, i hope you get to be happy with Charlie, don't blame yourself for my death". instead, he gave him enough therapy material for the next decade! with one conversation! how the fuck is Babe supposed to grieve Way, or make peace with anything he has done to him, after that kind of last breath!

(seriously, i probably have enough to say about Way to write an entire essay. the man was fucked up)

Kim has now been officially adopted in the family, he's even invited to the funerals! (i am aware he was still Tony's prisoner during Charlie's funeral, i just found it funny.) we did not see enough of Kim after Tony imprisoned him btw. he is one of my favorite characters in this show and he deserved more screen time!

Did Charlie stole a power that just- teleport him to Babe when he's in danger? this is a least the second time he just appeared out of nowhere to save Babe with no explanation, and with a perfect timing at that.

Babe deserved to scream at Charlie for faking his death. Or a least have a breakdown the like of the one he had with his father. The reunion scene was great and emotional and shit, and it was adequate for the context, but i needed them to have a real conversation about it later. will look for fanfics on the matter.

my man Babe is gonna have so many trust issues it's not even funny anymore. like mate. both his fathers betrayed him (and sold him, though for different reasons), his best friend of 10 years betrayed him in one of the worst way possible, one of his other teammates betrayed him, and his boyfriend has been lying to him the entire time the have known each other, to the point of faking his death without telling him he was alive. listen, i was berating him every time he pushed Charlie away at the slightest sign of dishonesty because I don't like that trope, but I think in this case he was justified. it's going to be fun to get him to trust anyone ever again!

also that man can cry! and make me cry with him at that! like, i knew Charlie's death was a fake out, and i knew it was coming, but episode 10 still got me in tears because Babe's grief was fucking real. giving him his senses back just for him to hear his lover flat-line on the operation table was incredibly cruel. also "He's still warm. Maybe he's not dead yet". are you trying to kill me? also also : did he say "i love you" for the first time at Charlie's grave? because i think he did.

overall, pretty good execution of the fake death trope, they gave us time to feel the grief before revealing he was alive, it worked. (did the plot around said fake death make sense? not... quite? but the feels were there and that's what matters)

Jeff is my baby and i love him. he got a lover and a support system and that's great, though they could do with better communication and still have shit to learn about respecting boundaries. which is saying something because Jeff tends to be pretty fucking clear about his boundaries. i'm watching you Alan. also i've decided he's autistic. for obvious reasons.

the whole "papa and mama" thing Babe and Charlie have going on is not my thing, but it is particularly weird in a context where the last two men Babe called "Papa" betrayed him and hurt him terribly. i get that what they have going on is different, like it's not a daddy kink (which would have been even weirder), but it still left a weird taste in my mouth. i just - i don't know what to make of it. i don't think they got the implication of it when making the show?

Babe and Charlie both need therapy to a desperate level, and i do not trust any of them to try to get it on their own. let's hope the rest of the family team manages to get them there. i'm mostly counting on Jeff to start the movement on this one. and then the others can nicely bully them into getting professional help.

[emilykaldwen]

Characters Ideas vs Putting them into Practice.

Abby's crying in this chapter.

I haven't written in over a month. I started a new job, then got really sick back to back. Honestly, I needed the break. I launched back into the chapter over the weekend (it's done, by the way, and heading off to @vampire-exgirlfriend so I stop touching it and judging myself) but I got to thinking as I worked on this.

Abby is meant to be sunshine, but this whole story she's been dealing with anxiety and now her tears. And there was a time where I'd be freaking out more about this. I'd be going

Oh my god I've fucked up my character, I've let too much angst in!

Oh my god I've fucked up my character, I'm letting something personal into the character that is ruining them!

And you know what? At one point of time, that would have been true, and I think it's a place where a lot of writers struggle and run into this confusing blocks.

A character idea never survives first contact with the plot.

And by that I mean: you can have all the best laid plans, but suddenly you're halfway through a chapter and Gwayne is asking Alicent 'Do you even want Aegon to be king' and you have to pause in the middle of the cafe and go:

Holy shit does she even want him to be king or does she need to do it for a whole bunch of reasons why is she crying and screaming at her brother when did this happen??

That's what it means to let the characters drive the story. Yes, you have the plot. Yes! You have plans and a journey, but sometimes the characters say 'turn left' instead of staying straight on. It'll get you there in the end, but the experiences will be different than expected.

I think this is where a lot of writers run into writers block because they're trying to force a character into a situation that no longer works for that character.

So Abby and the tears. Abby is and always has been intended to be a rock. She's the sunshine to the dour Targtowers. She's optimistic and hopeful. And those things are still true, but I realize now that this point in her story that we meet her in, she's like Riley in Inside Out 2. She has years of bottled up grief and sorrow and anger that has been put into this pressure pot in the back of her mind and coming back to her home to celebrate her wedding where her parents and her oldest brother are dead are going to release that pressure. And I was fighting it. I was going wtf Abby why are we crying here we're supposed to be giggly and happy.

But this is part of the journey that she's on in this story and I have to let it happen.

But then I look at a much younger me, who was going through a lot of shit, who wasn't in therapy yet, had a lot of untended to trauma, and I realized that when my characters had gone down similar paths, it was because I was actively trying to work through that stuff for myself through the character. Where I as a person was desperately seeking comfort and reassurance and was trying to obtain that through my characters. Which leads to... characters who face strife for the sole reason to be rescued and comforted and protected.

Now, these aren't bad things of course, and I'm talking more in a general story sense, not specifically fic (which at it's heart is wish fulfillment and fun and not judgy). We all see love and comfort and reassurance and want to give that to those characters. I mean there's a reason genres of stories that deal with this sorta thing are so so popular.

But something I had to learn as a writer was separating myself from that emotion and my character.

My character, Charli, was an orphan. Unloved and being used. She was fate's punching bag, beaten down over and over again, and everyone around her had to step in and take care of her, because I desperately wanted this to happen in my own life. But the thing was, I was pouring so much of my processing into that, that the moment someone criticized Charli's character, I felt so personally attacked because Charli was me. Because Charli was me at my most vulnerable and open and desperate for acceptance.

Charli is still a great character, but she was created as a manifestation of what I needed to work through at the time and what I was seeking.

So.

Abby is crying again but she's not crying because I feel alone in the world or lost or my repressed emotions and anxiety are getting the best of me. Abby's crying because she's finally being confronted with her grief in the haunted house that's been calling for her to come back for years. Of course she's crying.

So Charli was fine being where she was... but Charli also needed to grow and find resilience. That's part of the character journey.

And that's why we read.

[mintartem]

Guitarhero with comfort Adam having nightmare

In his dream he see Lucifer and Charlie but what make him horrified how evil they become. No they weren't evil but how they become like that

Pilot Lucifer: Well done i raised you very well

Charlie: Thank you father i'm sorry i doubted you sinner do have their chances when they are alive

Pilot Lucifer: Adam what a surprise i have a gift for you. Show him the gift charlie

Charlie show him the decapitated head of sinner Cain

Adam: NOOOOOOOOO

Lucifer: Adam i did you a favor you are right sinner doesn't deserved redemption in hell. Your son is dead you should be happy with that heaven won't be tainted with sinner

Adam: NOOOOO

Michael: ADAM WHAT'S WRONG?

Adam: It's just a dream

Michael: What dream?

Adam: Wait where's Cain?

Michael: Cain is in Charlie hotel remember

Adam: Oh thank God

Adam explain everything about his dream then they both went to hell. Adam Saw Cain having therapy session with vaggie angel dust and husk. Lucifer in the kitchen making breakfast. After the two done is finish they both went to the hallway seeing michael and Adam. Adam hug them both

Adam: Don't ever changed Charlie and Lucifer I'm glad you weren't evil

Charlie: Changed for what?

Lucifer: Evil?

Adam: What i meant Charlie don't ever be evil and for you Lucifer I'm glad you don't fuck Eve

Lucifer: Ok you're weird

Charlie: Adam you ok you look so pale

Lucifer: *confuse Lucifer noises*

Charlie: *gives Adam sweets and water to calm him down because of how pale he is* would you like to tell me what’s wrong, Adam? I could try to help

Also, Michael comforting Adam after a nightmare (and vice versa) has always been my headcanon! It’s nice to see it here

[scream-at-a-whisper]

HI SCREAM !!!!!! how's the show so far you're based in liking charlie

(The first image comes from this fan animation on YouTube it’s so cool please check it out) JUST LIKE ME FR I KNOW HES A CHRISTIAN ALPHA MALE BUT HES ALSO SUCH A CUTIE PATOOTIE AND HES LIKE CHIP TO ME I KNOW HED BE STINKY AND GROSS BUT I WANT TO GIVE HIM A HUG SO BAD LIKE ON THE INSIDE HES AN AWFUL PERSON BUT THERAPY COULD FIX HIM I PROMISE OH MY GOD I LOVE WHEN HES JUST DISTURBED OR ANGRY BECAUSE HE LOOKS SO LITTLE AND ALSO CHARPIM IS BEING ROTATED IN MY HEAD RENT FREE AT ALL TIMES ACTUALLY TOU KNOW THAT JAPANESE YOUTUBE CHANNEL THAT REVIEWS SMILING FRIENDS EPISOODES? SHE GETS IT LIKE SHE IDOLIZES THIS TOXIC YELLOW FUCK IN THE SAME WAY I DO I WANT TO SQUISH HIM IN MY HAND HE LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE THOSE PEEP MARSHMALLOW THINGS I LOVE HIM SO MUCH IM GRGEGRGGRGRVRGRGRGRGGRFRGRGFRFEFAND THE LITTLE BIT WHERE HES LIKE ‘I did not expect him to do that haha that actually got me’ MAKES ME RUN AROUND FERALLH LIKE HOLY FUCK I WANT TO PUT THIS GUY IN A CENTRIFUGE AND RHEN THE VORTEX SND THEN GNAW ON HIM LIKE THOSE STIM TOYS YOU CAN CHEW ON.

So yeah I’m normal about him how bout you?

[occult-roommates]

What do you do with a newborn alien?

Well, the roommates were in a bit of a pickle...Ok, not all of them, but Kino definitely was, and it seems like they weren’t even aware of it...So, one Sunday afternoon, while everyone was watching a movie airing on TV, Charlie walked in the living room, and closed the TV. It was important.

Charlie: Kino, we need to talk. Daniele: Hey, we were watching a movie. Charlie: I mean, it was an Adam Sandler movie. You’re not missing much. Rudi: Fuck you, 50 first dates is unironically good.  Kino: What do you want? Charlie: Well, I’m just saying, but your kid is gonna be born in less than a month and well...We’re already making plan on how to accomodate having a baby here, but like...How do you plan on giving birth? Kino: By pushing it out of me, why??? Daniele: I mean, there’s other option, I’m a C-section baby personally. Rudi: Yeah, I teleported out of my mother’s womb. Kino: You can do that on Earth???!!!

Ok, Charlie had to stay strong. Sure, trying to have a serious conversation with Daniele and Rudi in the room is not the hardest feat a person can accomplish, but it’s up there.

Charlie: I mean, you’re an alien, you cannot just show up to the hospital in your alien form as if nothing was. Your blood is also blue, though you can lie about having fairy origin, fairies can have differently colored blood. I uh...I am still grossed out by that time I tried drinking the blood of a fairy guy and it came out dark yellow and I started gagging like mad. Anyway, you can also not give birth as a human, like literally, your human form has a dick! Rudi: Skill issues. Charlie: Will you please shut up? Kino: Ok but can you actually teleport a baby out of the womb? Charlie: No, you can’t. Rudi: Skill iss- Charlie: SHUT THE FUCK UP! Akva: Could you ask the government agent who discovered you and brought you here for help? I mean, he knows you’re an alien, surely he could also pay some doctor to help you have your baby and then pay them to keep the secret. Or I don’t know, maybe the government secretly has amnesia drugs. Kino: I can’t. I did talk about the possibility of me having a child with an Earthling, and was told that if it does happen, my child would be taken away from me so they could experiment on them. Akva: ...Oh...

At least, Akva was trying to be useful. Cause so far, the only option seemed to be having Kino give birth in the bathtub while one of the roommate or their girlfriend assisted them. Which is an idea Charlie wasn’t super enthusiastic about for obvious reasons. Literally none of them were college graduate, let alone have any sort of medical training. At best Akva was in her second semester as a physical therapy student, but not only are her grades...questionnable, but that’s still a far cry from being a certified extraterrestrial OB/GYN.

Charlie: Also I don’t want birthing fluid all over my bathroom, that’s gross. Daniele: Hey, don’t worry about that, I’ll just lick it all clean. Charlie: Oh...my god... Kino: I messed up big time, Ah...I a-am...I am so *sniff* sorry.  Akva: Aw, don’t cry. But like, I’ll admit, you should have been more careful with not getting pregnant. Especially since you knew your child could be taken away from you. Rudi: Pot calling the kettle black. Charlie: Ok that’s it, I’m leaving. Bye. Rudi: Could you check out on Dav? He went to the bathroom like 15 minutes ago, starting to be afraid he pushed a poop to death or something.

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[redpool]

NEW MOON

oops, i thought eclipse was before new moon

new moon is my favourite of the 5

mainly because i prefer the wolves

AHFGHGDHFHGCHG

CHARLIE!!!!!

ANGELA MY LOVE

jesus christ

lol

why do you say rabbit like that?

fucking hell

they're not even quiet about it.

the parallels to the R&J scene and the bit with the Volturi

lol, i thought vampires were supposed to be beautiful

DEMETRI!!!!!

lol

ew, shut up

ROSE MY LOVE

shut up Emmett

god

fucking idiot

i never thought these words would ever leave my mouth but PUT IT IN YOUR MOUTH

when i cut my finger my first instinct is to press on the wound so more blood comes out because it fascinates me, yours should be to cover it because you are in a ROOM FULL OF VAMPIRES.

how does the hair changing work for this kind of vampire?

because Jasper and Alice seem to have a different haircut every movie

THE CHIN TAP

FUCK

HOLY BALLS

clearly not

jesus sorry, I'm ignoring what's happening and trying to remember how to spell, apparently i can't spell it so clearly will have to do.

shut up, look at her bro

gasp

seriously

YAY TIME FOR THE WOLVES

look at her you little coward

shut up

there's not a single thought behind those eyes.

oh lovely, lead her out to the middle of nowhere then adandon her

what the fuck

thats not creepy at all

SAM!!!!!

is a bit weird tbh

THERE'S A POSSIBILTY THERE'S A POSSIBILTY

MM, MM-MM, MM-MM, MM-MM, MM, MM-MM, MM-MM, MM-MM

what are these nightmares from? PTSD or from the codependency?

ANGELA MY LOVE

oh my fucking god

this is not going to help.

ffs

skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip

girl, just go to therapy, jesus christ

BELLA WHERE THE HELL YOU BEEN LOCA

SHOW ME THE BOY

GIVE HIM TO ME

ew, age is not just a number, you fucking pedophile

EMBRY, MY LOVE

AHSHDFVHGSDFV

good one, shithead

Charlie be my dad (NOT IN A SEXUAL WAY)

his voice irritates my brain

stop talking like that

skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip skip

idiot

that's not enough blood for a head wound

ANGELA MY LOVE

stop

secondhand embarrassment

aren't you with Jessica?

jesus christ

Jacob is supposed to be 16, oh my god

lol

dont start with that toxic masculinty shit

you gotta stop bro

oh my god

'And you think I'm sort of... beautiful..' shut all the way up

STOP

pfft

i'm gonna hurl

ooo

hes losing it

Harry <3

jfc

stop looking

oop

'everyone' then proceeds to only name one person

oh my fucking god

how is that a 16 year old?

what, you expect flowers to last that long? do you not how the seasons work?

that's Sam right?

oh, they're all here, never mind

jesus christ Bella

wait she's 18 at this point right? and he's 16...

put a shirt on

liar

jesus, they're both bad for her.

he's got a fucking 8 pack

PAUL!!!!

oop

jesus christ

i fucking hate this so much

oh my god

jesus christ

EMBRY!!!!! god i love him

EMILY!!!!!!!!!!!! BE MY MOTHER

awe

grumpy x sunshine

AHAHJHDSFVJHS

what the hell

are you a fucking idiot?

oh shit

i hate that Harry died but i get Seth and Leah out of it so, i'm conflicted.

idiot

what kind of cpr was that

yeah, while you were attention seeking, Harry was dying.

eyeroll

fucking hell, that's not how this works, you stupid bitch

oh my fucking god

this treaty has been around long before you were even a thought.

*eyeroll so hard i do a backflip*

why do i do this to myself?

just yell, you idiot

*eyeroll so hard my eyes get stuck*

DEMETRI!!!!

FELIX!!!!

JANE MY LOVE!!!!!!

I FUCKING LOVE HER SO FUCKING MUCH

has Demetri always sounded like that?

ALEC!!!!!!

oop

shut up, Jamie Campbell Bower

oh my god

Felix, did your hand get bigger?

creepy little pervert

i see why Michael is always cast as the creepy weirdo.

oh god, i just noticed the children

why are you acting like you literally didn't just try to kill yourself??

Jesus, with the number of times I've rolled my eyes I'm surprised they haven't gotten stuck.

I'm gonna barf

his arms are the size of my fucking head

awe

oh my fucking god

I'M GOING TO SLAM MY HEAD INTO THE FUCKING WALL UNTIL I FUCKING DIE

I HATE YOU

I HATE ALL THREE OF YOU

see what you did, you've fucked up both their lives.

you've been together for like 5 minutes

[cumbiazevran]

How would my ocs would feel about each other, with little to no explanation:

Juno Mahariel:

Rowan Hawke: Yes

Arviraven Lavellan: Went from that’s the coolest person in the Arlathvhen to this fucking nerd is my brother’s qpp. Demotion out of Cain instinct alone

Iraya Surana: Besties, but she’s slightly terrifying to them. Weird that she’s their coworker and they’re technically her superior, when Juno would give her mad wide berth if she’s up to something.

Carlota “Charlie Hawke” Amell: Ever met a person who is so fucked up that rearranges your entire worldview into realising that you’re actually sort of okay?

Vieradhalen Lavellan: Corruption of the Blight-Blood of the Reaver solidarity; bros, childhood bestie, it’s absolute whack-a-doodle time

(Bonus) Dirthalath Lethandar: That’s a funky man to whoa holy fuck holy shit what do you MEAN you’re the deity of the Vir Banal’ras, The Way of Secrets, the Spymaster-God— if they think too long about him, they’re going to have another existential crisis.

Rowan Hawke:

Juno Mahariel: GET A LOAD OF THIS FUNKY LITTLE GUY, goth hawaiian shirt appreciator solidarity

Arviraven Lavellan: Have you ever met someone you’d trust with your credit card information from the get go? Political allies, this guy has the right idea

Iraya Surana: Knows a power lady when she sees one, 10/10, would’ve flirted with her if they met each other single 

Carlota “Charlie Hawke” Amell: Family members to get a restraining order against

Vieradhalen Lavellan: They’d get each other on a fundamental level about certain things, Rowan is surprisingly at peace about the accidental, unnecessarily deep perceiving

Dirthalath Lethandar: Party bi solidarity despite otherwise being just some guy to Rowan. Never fully convinced about the story behind his real identity, despite knowing its true. the “unsung member of the Panthenon” bit

Arviraven Lavellan:

Juno Mahariel: Putative little sibling and the according violence of that. The cease fire is when Juno is acting as the Warden-Commander, but then everything they do as the Warden-Commander, River will use for putative sibling cain instinct means

Rowan Hawke: Absolutely yes. She gets it. Allies to the end

Iraya Surana: Trans solidarity, she is an icon, a legend and she is the moment. Ever met a person who gave you “you would’ve been a magnificent Keeper” upon meeting each other? Yeah.

Charlie “Hawke” Amell: You need therapy and to shut up. Now.

Vieradhalen Lavellan: The literal most important person in his life. Would tackle him and blackmail him bc he’s his older brother regardless, but that is the single most important person in his life

Dirthalath Lethandar: What if I told you you will meet one of your Gods, and in him there is not just a person, but your friend? Scholar to Scholar communication happening at all times

Iraya Surana:

Juno Mahariel: Bestie, beloved friend despite she isn’t the most expressive about it. She hopes they understand

Rowan Hawke: Iraya didn’t think the campy, communist jester act could be pulled by anyone, but hey, it’s always nice to be proved wrong

Arviraven Lavellan: Instant role model, instant respect

Charlie “Hawke” Amell: Would fight her in a pit. Literally catch these hands

Vieradhalen Lavellan: Please tone down the adrenalin sport addiction. Good Dalish boy, but for the love of fuck revert to the stoic, kind knight she thought you were on first impression

Dirthalath Lethandar: When You Are Loved By Wilfulness, You Will Never Be Forgotten

Carlota “Charlie Hawke” Amell:

Juno Mahariel: Respects the title. Other than that they do not exist. No, she won’t be letting them have an “audience” with Anders, no she does not care he’s their jurisdiction. Things change. Keep Justice, tho.

Rowan Hawke: Rabid, violent resentment. You had everything I wanted and you threw it. You’re better than me and you shouldn’t be. You would disagree with me and therefore I hate you.

Arviraven Lavellan: No one would spark an inferiority complex in Charlie like this guy* (*terms and conditions apply)

Iraya Surana: Second in the scale of sparking inferiority complexes

Vieradhalen Lavellan: "No comment”

Dirthalath Lethandar: Absolutely Not.

Viera Lavellan:

Juno Mahariel: PINK PINK PINK GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS GLITTER GLITTER GLITTER TWIRL TWIRL TWIRL TOGETHER FOREVER WE’RE JUNO AND VIERA BEST FRIENDS

Rowan Hawke: Would achieve gym buddies status real quick

Arviraven Lavellan: Literally the most important person in his life. Would commit endless violence (affectionate) on them for oppressing him with a single Chore, but he is his brother’s sword

Iraya Surana: Let’s go lesbians lets go!!!!! Hey hey look at this!!! (does rock climbing parkour that makes Iraya ask Arviraven if Viera is always like this)

Charlie “Hawke” Amell: She’s the insanest person he’s ever met, and he’s met Corypheus and Solas

Dirthalath Lethandar: If I Ever Fail To Look After My Brother, I Beg You Do, Please (religious)

(Bonus) Dirthalath Lethandar:

Juno Mahariel: Child With Self-Esteem Issues Proves Harder To Convince About Them Being In Their Head Than What Dad Expected

Rowan Hawke: His favourite Hawke if he had to pick one

Arviraven Lavellan: What if the God was devoted to you instead of the other way around. They have given him back his purpose, his true and actual purpose, and this is a debt Dirthalath will never be able to repay

Iraya Surana: Child Entrusted To Your Care By Accident Quickly Becomes The Favourite

Charlie “Hawke” Amell: She reminds him of his sister before he was disowned back in the Elvhenan times, and this is enough to be extremely glad he never has to know she exists any more

Vieradhalen Lavellan: With some people, their divine calling is so tangibly belonging to someone else, that you can only look back at watch, hoping it becomes the best for himself because whether he wants to or not, he’s not his to protect nor bless. But he’s an expert in loving things that die to set them free.

[cpopnatural]

13x18 Notes

-I need this British bitch to die

-what is this Twilight ass lighting

-Cas should be here……….

-Charlie oh god they’re gonna make me watch you die twice

-Cas is like “I should be there!!!”

-she called him a nepo baby hahaha

-Gabriel :(

-“I’m not your type either” oh my god

-CAS SHOULD BE HERE

-Taro root??? Taro is the root

-I can’t believe they’re giving therapy to an archangel

-hahahahahahaha Sam said man up bitch you got shit to do

-WHAT DO YOU MEAN “GABRIEL I NEED YOU”

-IS THIS THEIR WAY OF DE-GAYING THE GOODBYE STRANGER I NEED YOU SCENE

-the thing is. Ketch has never had a platonic friendship with a woman

-why are they just making Ketch a good person now. And the music is swelling as if it’s supposed to be a touching moment

-I do not care about Lucifer’s midlife crisis!

-Jo is such a boring character I’m so sorry how are you this dumb women do not act like this

-this shit dumb as rocks tbh

-HIS WINGSSSS

-HAHAHA THE FUCKING FORCE BLAST

-THE CGI FLAMES

-Line from Hamilton I’m writing my name out of the narrative but it’s. Bye Ketch bye alternate universe Charlie

-Dean’s reaction the same one as me watching the show

Idk man shit is just not clicking this episode. Makes sense it was a buckleming bc this crazed wild stilted approach just does not work for actual non filler plot episodes 5/10

[theodoraflowerday]

heartstopper s2e7 live episode reaction

ok ep 7 of s1 is my least favorite one, let's see how this one goes

see, darcy can sleep over at tara's, learn something @ jane

oh wow nick could run a charlie stan account sweet lord

is it really a season of heartstopper if nick isn't zooming in on a picture of charlie and realizing things

NOT WEVE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR THIS DAY TAO'S MUM YOU ARE THE SUN YOU ARE THE ENTIRE SOLAR SYSTEM

I am sorry the idea of everyone in tao's family waiting for him and elle to get together sjfudkfudirudkrudirudkrudori

"do you have a girlfriend you'd like to invite, david?" OOOOOOOOOOOOOO SICK BURNS FROM SARAH NELSON

TORI TORI TORI TORI TORI TORI

we love a supportive squad <3

darcy baby girl oh no

how have literally none of you realized that isaac isn't into james lmao

BEN YAAAAAAAA ME TENES MAMADO SAPAAAAAAAAAAAA

"I think I'll go to prom" okay troy bolton

"I don't wanna wear matching suits" "me neither" sickening as FUCK y'all are the worst

DARCY HOLY FUCK

not everyone pitching in so darcy can wear a suit I'm going to start crying

I'm not immune to non-binaryism even if not canon idc man

isaac's face when everything fits in......... god. I'm in this and I don't like it

OH SHIT

OH SHIT THEY'RE DOING THAT WITH IMOGEN AND SAHAR AREN'T THEY

OH SHITTTTTTTTT

"interesting" INDEED TARA INDEED

elle's painting I'm sobbing lmao

PUNCH HIM NICK FUCK THAT

I can't believe this bitch went all the way there just to give himself some pat on the back, a piece of SHIT

okay nick is like. that's scary dog privilege lol

CHARLIE MOTHERFUCKING SPRING HOLY FUCKING SHIT

YOU DON'T GET TO AMBUSH ME INTO FORGIVING YOU

oh. my. god.

oh. my. god. i have tears in my eyes. oh my fucking god charlie.

fuck I hope this is the last we see of ben lmao

FUCK that was. give joe an emmy? please? god?

no I had to pause I'm crying so hard that was so cathartic I love you so much charlie spring

also okay the dinner I hope tori kicks david's phone AND his teeth out

M8

PAL

BRO

SUPPORTIVE STR8 FRIEND

he's got no right to know you don't owe him a thing

STOP WITH THE FATHERLESS BEHAVIOR @ SELF

oh my god I can't stop sobbing lmao

victoria's going to murder someone tonight

she asked that so calmly lmao "what is your problem?"

DON'T YOU DARE

OH HE'S DOING IT

OH HE DID IT

hdkfjdkghdkgj julio and jane all "why are we in this" JSKFUDOFUDLFIDLFUDLFJDKFJ

LETS GO NICK

maybe david SHOULD just stay w stéphane next time

and then they both can disappear into a black hole

sarah's faces are giving me LIFE my god this woman is a saint

WRECK THE BITCH STEPHANE AAAAYEEEEEEEEEE

SARAH IS GOING OFF OH MY GOD

julio and jane are out there like "oh jesus fucking christ this is making us seem like a functional family unit"

I can't get over it they're doing all this in front of julio and jane, tori, charlie, and god

he's not a very good dad is he?

oh

oh my god

oh my god nick no

oh fuck me I'm sobbing AGAIN WHAT THE FUCK

oh my fucking god

"I think it's a very sad way to exist" yeah

oh my god I need therapy after this

I'm literally calling my therapist after I'm done with this episode

jesus fucking christ that was bad. that was Really Bad I haven't stopped crying

oh okay thank fucking god for tori

YOU ARE A PATHETIC LITTLE MAN

sarah apologizing about the drama like the spring household doesn't have like 7 different mental illness diagnoses lmao

TORI IN THE BACKGROUND SAYING "YOUR BROTHER'S A PRICK" LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO

NICK?

NICK OH MY

oh

oh fuck

OH DARCY NO

DARCY NO OH MY GOD

oh my god

oh no

[scribble-brain-aced]

most coherent thing i’ve ever read.

but also yes!!! exactly!!! Vox literally told pentious to kill himself and yet, in It Starts With Starts, he definitely looks sad, but like… cartoonishly sad. not genuine “my idol hates me and i’m a useless failure” sad. just..

okay i can’t find it, but this gif actually helps make my point. he looks dramatic, which, yeah it fits, but again, COMEDICALLY, CARTOONISHLY dramatic. they couldn’t have make the movement feel more listless or sad?

and also the assault scene. i genuinely like the delivery, and the joke could work, BUT the implications.. definitely bad. i think it would work better if he wasn’t dragged into the room. you would see him in the background, fighting everyone off. he’s canonically a terrible fighter, but maybe show him hypnotizing them so he can explain that “WAIT, no, i just said something really stupid, i dont actually want this.” the club being called ‘Consent,’ it WOULD work, so that the audience is completely 100% sure that yes, he is fine, and maybe even see one of the club people giving him advice! better than dragging him into a room and leaving members of the audience worried.

and his death. ugh. alastor’s injury was treated more seriously! he’s not even dead! at the VERY LEAST, take out Adam’s line, but if i could have any say in the production, i would say to prolong the “blast of holy light” to maybe a couple seconds, maybe even record a cut-off scream of pain. then cut to the crew reacting to his death, and let them cry. weep. sob. they’ve known the guy for 6 months, they’re not just gonna say “you did good, buddy” and go off to kill adam immediately.

Charlie, Cherri, and Angel especially, i think should be affected. you can’t tell me that charlie and pentious aren’t friends, or at least close. cherri and angel dust fought him a lot, but after being able to actually TALK and get to know him, they’ve gotta be frienemies at LEAST. Angel-Dust-and-Pentious friendship!! Cherri genuinely loving Pentious back but not knowing what to do so she pushes him away until he’s just a rival on her mind! and then they see him die. and they don’t know how to feel. and then the grief hits them. and they’re CRYING. WHERE WAS THAT IN THE EPISODE.

also random scene idea!! pentious is treated as a joke. i think it would be cool if we had gotten an episode where he realizes that nobody is taking him seriously. he says a stupid thing or two, and he doesn’t know WHY people are looking at him like he just told a joke. he was being serious. please just pay attention. is he really that much a joke? and the throughout the episode, he just gets slowly fed up until he snaps and starts ranting, and nobody knows what to do, until they realize that oh, he actually ISNT joking. he’s not trying to be funny or pathetic, he’s genuinely trying and nobody is seeing that. and then cue the therapy

i have so many fucking thoughts, this guy could have had SO MANY ISSUES AND TRAUMA TO WORK THROUGH. the victorian era sucked, he’s been in hell longer than EVERYONE at the hotel except for Charlie, his idol thinks he’s useless, his only friends for god-knows-how-long were the egg boiz!! his own inventions!! THE MAN HAS ISSUES AND ITS JUST TREATED AS “haha, yeah, he’s like that! :)”

HE WAS FULLY PREPARED TO KILL NIFFTY IN EPISODE 3. END HER FUCKING LIFE.

aaaauuuggghhh there’s so much potential!!!!!! they better use it in season two

Sir Pentious feels like he's barely anything more than comic relief and he's honestly treated as too incompetent andinnocent despite him being an inventor and probably very clever.

In my opinion, I hoped he'd be more villainous, even if still slightly goofy -- like he'd be like a loner shunned by society mad inventor when he was alive kind of guy and desperately tries to fit in Hell by being all "evil" but ends up coming off as sort of goofy, like Master Frown from UniKitty but can be truly evil/bad at times. Even if he was bad at trying to fit, in he's still done shit to get into Hell if you know what I mean.

I wish his trust issues were more fleshed out and taken more seriously. I wish his death wasn't treated like a joke, that he wasn't treated like a joke.

I don't like how he ended up in the show, he definitely could've been more, especially if the show got more runtime. Sir Pentious was my favourite character in the pilot, so Niffty is literally me when I saw how he turned out to be.

To be honest, I wished that Hazbin Hotel focused more on the characters backstory and the actual process of how they improve themselves in the hotel. We didn't get much of that.

This might not be very coherent. I'm running on rice cakes and four hours of sleep.

[lightadarttomendyourheart]

i came here to write about jake but i dont think i want to. and i wasn't going to write that i miss him or im sad. the exact opposite actually. i thought to myself today, i dont even miss him. like at all. im not sad. at all. it's perplexing. we dated for almost 3 years and im happy. im at peace with the choices i've made. i haven't even kept myself super busy. i probably havent really let myself think about certain things too deeply, but also why should i? i made my choice and i dont want to look back.

im talking to new guys on dating sites. yeah its fucking shit, but theres one guy im actually really excited to meet. it could go south so quickly and i might not even end up meeting him cause thats how these things work 80% of the time. and im honestly not even sure ill like him when i do meet him. he seems uptight lol. but he knows A&B. he listens to group therapy and nora en pure's podcast. which is so refreshing, to talk to someone who's not a raver dude but likes anjuna. he's got a serious career. idk how he feels about cats.. but either way. its going well so far. and its not like im looking to get into another serious relationship right away. but its nice. im excited to be single and go on dates, good or bad, and just live my life. make personal connections with guys. have SEX. god i need sex.

every time ive been in edmonton while jake and i were dating i missed him so much. i never miss him on my trips, but here was always different. this time, i really dont. of course i think of him and i hope he's enjoying his time back home with his family. but i also have no interest in knowing what he's doing. cause its probably some fucked up shit tbh lol.

i think ive really turned a corner in my life. ive never ever been this happy after a breakup. i also have never been the one breaking up when ive been in longterm or serious or super in love in relationships. this is new territory. it feels healthy. makes me think and believe jake and i were never gonna work out. but i kind of knew that the last couple months of our relationship. i fell out of love. it's real. it's a thing that actually happens. i really didn't think it did. i thought once youre in love with someone, that's it. you never fall out of love. and honestly, with charlie and especially ryan, i'll always have a soft spot in my heart for them. but i can see myself completely moving on from jake and never giving him a second thought. well, i settled. it was never passionate. jake also never hurt me like they did. but i cant believe that that kind of love only comes from hurt. because i know before all the hurt how deeply in love i was with them.

well, here's to a new year. a new city. a new job. a new chapter.

[waldensblog]

So I finished New Moon as part of my twilight re-read, and... I kinda violently dislike the Cullens now? And I am absolutely 110% on Charlie and the Wolves side. Long ass rant below the line.

Bella gets a papercut at her 18th birthday, and is about to be murdered for it. Edward is completely 100% right on the car-ride back that if she went to Angela’s house or something, this shit wouldn’t have happened. So at first it’s like “oh good, Edward realizes this is very bad for her, since he does love her, he’s going to make the selfless choice and leave.”

And then this motherfucker manages to find a way to do in a selfish-ass manner. He barely says two words to her for DAYS and tells his entire family to skip town without saying ONE WORD to this girl whose grown very attached to all of them - especially Alice. Apparently she wanted to say goodbye but Edward decided it’s better this way. Now... it’s easy to just be mad at Edward for that, but no. I’m furious at all of them, Alice included. She could have ignored Edward, told him that’s a dickish move, and said goodbye in person, or SOMETHING. Like Charlie says SOME WARNING WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE. 

And then Edward, Mr. “Don’t go into the forest please, it’s dangerous” decides the best way to break up with Bella is to... bring her into said forest when breaking it off and leave her there. He even takes the fucking time to forge a note saying where Bella went - maybe because he knew she’d end up on the forest floor like that? Edward... what the actual fuck? No really, why not break up with her in her BEDROOM where she’ll lie in her bed, be safe... this is just... dude... wtf. 

Bella is then depressed for MONTHS on end, and Charlie is doing his fucking best. Unfortunately Bella never did get to have a slumber party with Jess and Angela, honestly - I think that would have helped so much. She spent so much time being depressed, feeling there was a hole, etc. and never got to the stage of being angry - furious, at all of them. She wouldn’t have needed to give details, she could have just gone on a tangent about the literal leaving-her-completely-out-of-the-blue, while Angela nodded and Jessica fist-pumped like she’s at a fucking rave. I was robbed, robbed of this possibility. Rather than go through that kinda healing, she basically ignores all her friends. 

And I think Bella was honest-to-god enthralled. She refers to it in Twilight as Dazzling, and we see that vampires have this uncanny ability to persuade someone - nurses, waiters, teachers, etc. whether they are conscious of it or not. I can’t help but think that when Edward decided he was going to talk to Bella, try and date her - he enthralled her (whether he knew it or not), and that’s why she just can’t get past it. She should be furious at him, but she isn’t.

Bella ends up spending time with Jake - at first she’s kind of using him, she wants the motorcycles to get hallucinations of Edward, which - Girl, get therapy, please. But over time she really grows fond of him, they become best friends, and I can actually see her falling in love with him. I know Meyer clarifies on her website that she did fall in love with him in New Moon, and I can fucking see it. 

At first she tells him she doesn’t share his feelings, but then she says “Maybe I could” and compares him to Paris - I don’t like that she’s seeing him as 2nd choice, but it’s clear that she does love him. He is her sun, he makes her feel whole again, she becomes a “wolf girl”, standing there in her dream beside Emily, another “wolf girl”. He puts his arm around her, holds her hand, calls her “honey”, others say she’s his “girlfriend”, and she doesn’t decline it. Then Mike straight up asks “are you dating him?” and Bella answers “not in the technical sense”. I’m sorry but... an answer like that is... she loves him, but is afraid to move on. She even then almost does - they almost kiss in his car when Alice shows up.

And of course... Bella, enthralled as she is, decides to go to Alice. Personally, if my 18-year old ass had been in that car with Jake deliberating “shift or get her to safety” and I saw Alice’s car, I’d have been like “Wait I know that car! Yeah let’s get the fuck out of here!!!” and held my middle finger to the window as he sped off. Like you really want to go see this “friend” who straight up ghosted you for months? Naw, not me. 

Jacob, despite being treated shittily, is more than understanding. I think the wolves are immune to enthrallment, and they can see it for what it is - so they try. Jacob comes back, he tries to talk to her, and they again, nearly kiss - it’s so close. But then shit happens, and oh no, Edward’s gonna kill himself because he’s a fucking drama queen. 

Bella, feeling responsible decides she must help. So she ditches Charlie, ditches Jacob, and runs off. 

When she comes back with Edward in toe? Oh.my.god. the rage, the seething from Charlie, like... I get it. I feel it. I side with it. Charlie straight up asks like... how dare you show your face? And no really, how dare he? Dude ditches town with no word, leaving Bella an absolute mess, then he brings her back after she ran off suddenly. Like from Charlie’s POV he’s gotta be thinking “Billy is fucking right, fuck this family.” Charlie then tries to forbid Edward from being in the house or seeing Bella, and she says no - obviously, being 18, he can’t make her do anything - but he’s concerned, and honestly, I’d be fucking concerned too. Her behaviour is irrational af from his POV. 

When Jacob shows up at the end, he isn’t even aware that Bella had been trying to call him. He thought Edward was controlling her movements - and again, it’s easy to see why he thinks that. From where he’s standing, Bella is enthralled, and is acting extremely irrationally. He’s trying to protect his best friend from what he sees as an obvious abuser, and the only way he knows how is to get her in trouble with the motorcycles (kinda odd to me that Charlie would ground Bella that specific way instead of letting her go to La Push, you’d think Charlie would be driving them together there frequently, but I digress). 

Jacob is sorry to get her in trouble, but he’s a 16-year old boy, and he’s doing his best. Then when Bella reaches out to him - Edward actually, literally, holds her back. How, exactly, is Jacob supposed to interpret this beyond Edward controlling her, even where she isn’t enthralled. Of course he’s pissed off. 

Of course all the wolves feel so strongly against the Cullens. Who found her on the forest floor, the dangerous-ass forest floor after Edward left her? Sam. Who was there for her when they weren’t, making her feel like a person again? Jacob. Who protected her from a vampire that the Cullens, as a collective, should have had the fucking brains to realize would absolutely come to Forks? The wolves. Who is responsible for these literal children shifting? The Cullens. Who has a ton of money and could easily do just about anything they want and decide to buy like 6 expensive cars and live in a mansion, hoarding their wealth? The Cullens. Who are immortal colonizers that damn well know what living there does? The Cullens. 

So yeah, my first time reading it, I was Team Jacob, but I didn’t hate all the Cullens. Now? Nah, fuck all y’all. Team Wolf pack, team Charlie, all the fucking way. Maybe I’ll feel differently after Eclipse, idk, but right now? Fuck them. 

[unqualified-therapist]

GOD OK LET ME GIVE MY TWO CENTS ABOUT GEGG BECAUSE HOLY SHIT

a lot of people imagine that q!slimecicle age regresses when he turns into gegg. going quiet, calling quackity papa, just wanting to be loved, but still being a silly destructive boy.

age regression is a method of therapy in which people shift into the mind of a younger creature, commonly to deal with high levels of stress that may occur. people who have childhood trauma are known to age regress more than people without childhood trauma. you know who has high levels of stress in his life and childhood trauma? q!slimecicle.

for anyone who doesn't know, q!slimecicle canonically grew up with an abusive father and seven siblings. his father killed his siblings, and he also grew up in a very tight and enclosed space. from his parenting behaviors, we can pick up nuggets of the trauma little q!slimecicle may have gone through.

gegg is a manifestation of what charlie could have been if his childhood hadn't been stripped away from him, if his child hadn't been stripped away from him. gegg is an extension of charlie, of his hopes and his fears, his insecurities and the things he loves. i want a fucking gegg "villain" arc too.

i dont know if it will actually be a villain arc, and im okay with that. gegg is a little egg who is unloved, and charlie sees gegg as a part of him, so he feels like people don't love him because they dont love gegg.

he wants people to love gegg, he just wants security, stability, a healthy community. give gegg an arc where people realize hes just a manifestation of charlie's self-hatred and trauma who just wants love, because when he experiences things, charlie feels them as well.

I am unironically hoping for a Gegg villain arc. As in he's a manifestation of q!slimes insecurities. Also it kinda follows how slime is pushing more that Gegg is separate to him like in Forever's stream.