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Please make posts on discipline and hard work!
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#ask#u do not need discipline#u do need to do hard work to manifest#get out of this grinding mindset#its the complete opposite to the law
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I neeeeeed to game with people moreee but literally all I have is minecraft pressure regretevator l4d2 lethal stardew content warning monster prom(s) and sky maaaaaaan
#jingling this like keys#I really. do want to play pressure more . sniffs#but Iām in the Grind Mindset where I go through rooms fast sigh#and regretevator ā¦ my connection is so bad that playing solo still lags out so much#same w l4d2 tbh#lethal I like playing modded but idk how much of it is stable rn#and stardew takes forever for me to get into again#content warning. its content warning. iunno#monster prom requires Very Specific energy and people man#s like. cards against humanity#I do have bbq simulator. havenāt touched dthat#AND ALL I DO ON SKY IS DAILES AND CANDLE RUN
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is it really my birthday if i don't feel kinda depressed lollll
happy fucking sweet sixteen to me ig
#no but like#on a serious note#nothing bad has happened till now#i haven't cried or gotten into any arguments#kinda feels like i'm waiting for the other shoe to drop#i mean it's still only 9 a.m. so we have time amiright#i don't want to head into a good day with a pessimistic mindset#but also if it doesn't work out it'll hurt all the more and i don't want that either#but i'm gonna try to get out of my head today#i have stuff to do#(cuz the grind doesn't end on your 16th birthday)#but yeah.....#mithi's own
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Sakura is so crazy cause like what do you MEAN you created an antidote for a poison that was developed over thirty (30!) Years in eight (8!!!) Hours.
Its so disrespectful honestly that was Sasoris life work and in what, like a few hours she just destroyed it? What the fuck Sakura.
#haruno sakura#sakura haruno#sasori#Thats crazy like wtf naruto was gone for like 2 years what the fuck was Sakura doing#She was on that grind mindset#She got that dog in her#Naruto was fuckin taking a wee dander around the country while Sakura was fucking training her ass off#Actually not just that she managed to repair her broken friendship with Ino too#Sakuras the Alpha the leader and the one to trust (trust)#I'm sorry#Actually maybe why her forehead is so fat it's because she's actually so smart her brain has got rock hard abs and can't be contained#Guys I figured it out#I've spent so long trying to figure out how the actual fuck Sasuke even began to recover from his trauma I never took the time to figure ou#Whatever the fuck Sakura did to get from- well a weak little baby to fucking hulk incarnated#Oooo fic idea#Sakura feels abandoned now that Naruto and Sasuke are gone and Kakashi is trying to kill himself again with his missions so she just#Fights#And heals#And breaks#And fixes#naruto shippuden#naruto#Sakura#Moldy-flowers
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I need to remind myself often it's okay to take as long as I need to work on projects/drawings
#dangerous grind mindset territory >:(#i get so weird abt wips like#unless its extremely relevant no one is gonna care rly how long it takes#like if someone shared a wip with *me* and they took a while to finish it or never finished it#id still be like ahhhh so cool#but then i get into a weird mindset of like: you need to finish this TONIGHT#and then it never happens lol#as i said its only random occurrences when i can sit down and finish smth in one night#i need to remind myself: these things take time#i think my brain is sometimes running on a deadline that doesn't exist#theres a weird point btwn:#enjoying encouragement bcs it makes you feel more motivated to finish smth#but also feeling this odd sense of guilt and obligation#i draw for myself but literally for my whoel time drawing i often feel obligation towards a nonexistent audience#some imaginary force thats gonna be disappointed if i dont finish smth in [illogical period of time]#its good to have some sense of motivation obv bcs how would you ever finish anything#but its weird to start feeling the same thoughts abt schoolwork for your hobby#basically: I hate setting deadlines for myself bcs it just never works out#if i say 'you must work on this tonight!' i will absolutely not be working on this tonight#funny feeling when you start being like 'aaaahhh everyone is gonna hate me if i dont post this soon'#i think its nice when i can post smth i talk about in a quick turn-around#but rationally i know that if people are interested they wont care how long it takes <3 bcs id feel the same#also i guess i get put out some times seeing how fast other people can create :/#catie has 3 moods(for creation):#a. complete and utter burnout#b. not burnt out but finishing smth takes more than just one day. maybe a wk or more#c. can finish a piece in one day or even one sitting. often draws several things right after the other#C is truly the goat š i feel blessed when i get into that mindset#blah blah blah please stop feeling beholden to something that doesnt exist. thanks catie.#catie.rambling.txt
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getting bitched at for leaving a bit early by mr "if anyone should leave early it's me" and i have to say. one, we had to convince his ass to leave when he had a fucking family emergency, he would not leave if asked he would tell me to go, and two, i have been so quiet and brave about my nausea levels today and i want to lay down
#irritates me sometimes. both the grind mindset this man has + the Conviction he has that he's The Hardest Worker Here#in his defense! i am always overjoyed to see the man bc he is very efficient reliable etc but#all he does is take orders out. um i get drafted into whatever area my manager wants me in#it's genuinely nbd if i hated the position i have i would say something it's just irritating when he doesn't take into account that i am#often busy with something he doesn't see the results of#stop assuming i work less :( i've been helping you specifically for the past hour :( i stayed after i was told to go bc i was helping :(#i said 'okie ill leave if we don't need the help' and we needed the help and i stayed. jackass i am not going this for the metrics im#doing it for your dumb ass. this is barely a vent it's like. i am genuinely friends w the guy. the grind mindset and#the competitiveness pisses me off. sir this is a fucking walmart
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last semester really Did something to me i feel like iāve completely lost the ability to work at all now i need a depression break for the next year or so idk
#i just ughhhhhhh#like iām still not over it#if iād just had like a week more#i canāt force myself into the work mindset i just want some peace but i donāt have it#do you know how hard it is to be on The Grind when dealing with all the physical health issues associated with midwinter#not to mention getting to stress out about just everything else in this life#i feel like last semesterās impact is like. it made me into a pessimist#like it hurt so bad iām convinced itās just about to hit me so much harder this semester#so iām trying so hard to brace for that that i end up panicking#and go into shutdown mode where iāve preemptively given up#even though logically i should be able to handle it just fine#but in my soul iām like iām already dead iām already dead#peach rambles
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sorry dawntrail coming out soon so now my brain has xiv worms again
#the Mage ramblea#tbf they never truly left we were just in a content lull#but now i gotta turn my mindset into a grindset and TRY to get properly geared up#LUCKILY i already have the more important things (accessories) and even if they go unaugmented i should still be in the clear wrt my ilvl#and when i can get it with raid coins i'll augment my weapon#so yeah. grinding out raid coins and poetics. thank god it's just a weekly thing.
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mother: it's like you're not interested in anything... you're not even interested in changing
me, at minimum 13 years into depression: š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”š¤”
#speakizys#that's the point of depression my friend#i have to haul ass to get out of the mindset and it is a grind and life IS good but if i stop trying i realize how uninterested i am
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anybody else sick of the grind? sick of the āoooh ive found something im good at!!! now how can i monetize it?ā
#āØamericaāØ#i enjoy making jewelry but now im so burnt out bc of craft fairs#i might only do one this year#cuz like#ive been wireworking for almost 4 years#and since i first started as soon as i started getting good you wanna know what i kept hearing??#āOMG thats so good!!! you could sell that!!!!!#thus creating the āØgrind mindsetāØ#and burning me out#and making the process go from#āwhat do i want to make?ā to āwhat do people want to buy?ā#sick of having my value based off of how monetarily applicable my skills and hobbies are š« #another case:#as soon as i started gaining a following on tiktok in like 2020#(i made flowart poi spinning videos and got up to like 12k)#i got excited and told my parents when i hit 10k!!!#and both of them went āhow can you start using your following to make money???ā#i lost interest soon after for a variety of reasons#but a main contributor was āthis isnt making money like i hoped it wouldā
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least to say it has been a week šŖ
#i am sooooo E X H A U S T E D i had a midterm this week which went well we thank God#and on that same day my friend had to be rushed to the hospital so ofc i had to go with her and spend the whole night and next early morning#with her bc iām a š¶ truueeee friiieeennndddd šµ#and then i had to go sleep catch up on assignments and try and just get back on that Grind Mode Mindset bc the semester is slowly winding#down šŖšŖšŖ AND THEN ATTACK ON TITAN FINAL EPISODE CAME OUT AND IDK IF I CAN HANDLE THE FEELS OF IT ALL#also i felt like i hadnāt updated yall in theee longest time soo thatās what this dump post is all about#mutuals my beloved <3#vk overshares in the tags
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Maybe you'll find this helpful? But I think the concept of intelligence sort of dissipates as you get older. Because everyone works by their own metrics and specialties. Like, I couldn't tell you the first think about biology, that doesn't make me less intelligent than a dedicated biologist. Just means they specialize in something that I don't. And applies to shit that I'm good with too. It's all just experience. Even within the same profession, you wouldn't look at two brilliant artists and go "yep that one's smarter," without coming across as extremely reductionist. It's sort of hard to have a good relationship with a false concept.
I think the main thing that made me dismissive of the concept is that I couldn't define a coherent metric for it. Even as an abstract concept. Is Intelligence a measurement of the amount of information someone knows? One's propensity to learn and accept new information? Is it a collection of general knowledge or is it specialized knowledge? What information constitutes one's intellect? Is it a static variable or one that's in constant flux? Like, I've generally been above average at math in elementary school, but then I hit a brick wall upon reaching higher levels of it, which involved invoking a different set of skills. So, what does that say about my intelligence on the matter? Another potential metric for the concept is one's propensity to think. But the act of thinking, itself, isn't a measurable concept either. Like, it's the closest approximation to how I'll use the words "smart" and "dumb." Basically as ways of saying "you gave me a lot to think about" or "I don't think you've put in enough thought." But there's a more accurate set of words for that: thoughtfulness, nuance, etc. For the sake of comparison, I'd argue that wisdom is an abstract concept, but still a real one. It's the measurement of one's life-experience. It is abstract because it cannot be objectively measured, but its components are commonly understood.
Also, when I coin the term false concept, I'm just saying it's a concept people invoke and attach meaning to despite the concept itself being rather meaningless. When I say an abstract concept, I mean it's a concept that lacks quantifiability and yet still holds meaning.
I personally find talking about concepts and philosophies to be rather annoying because language is fundamentally imprecise. I dont think thats a fault of English specifically. I think it's more that language is how a person translates their thoughts into a format understood by their peers, and I think my autism just gives me a heightened sense of awareness to its function as a translator. Every word carries a degree of nuance and air for interpretation that makes communicating ideals, especially with non-autistic ppl, tedious. That's also why I end up using a lot of big words and coining a lot of terms; feels more precise.
I want to be smart and be seen as smart by others, its one of the only things I latched onto as a pup that could make me feel like I had something that neurotypical people didn't. It's at best a silly fantasy, but since I'm white I don't really know if I can have a productive relationship with "intelligence" in the first place. Much to think about.
#not sure if thats helpful but i think my relationship with the concept improved upon rejecting it#since i get what you mean about wanting to feel special and stuff and being called smart a lot#tho i definitely have a different relationship with the concept than you#im also autistic and got called smart a lot as a kid#but i feel like whenever im called smart its like ''oh youre smart enough to do X if only you didnt have symptom of mental illness#it would be so easy for you'' which definitely makes the concept unpalitable to me#plus i had a tendancy to venerate people i viewed as smarter than me which was very unhealthy#especially when i had low self esteem and was practically looking for reasons to put myself down#but yeah i think the concept of intelligence is just a lie given to kids to make them feel better about grinding school#and should be expired as an adult especially one with tangible accomplishments#and that take's really ignoring the massive number of kids who never fit into the school system and adults that dont accomplish much#but i think those ppl dont need to hear this because theyve been disillusioned to the concept before reading any of this#and the point im getting at here is that i dont think intelligence is something worth your mental energy when it isnt even real#and the concept itself feels quite manipulative whenever i put any serious concsideration to it#like even if im mistaken and it is a valid concept i dont see a practical use for it beyond gatekeeping#so if the concept of intelligence stresses you out so much perhaps you could try rejecting it all together?#im not really saying this because i know you or am trying to impress you or anything a lot of these thoughts#are conclusions i came to a long time ago and arent particularly novel to me im more laying this out#because i think this mindset has a chance of being helpful or providing insight and I value being helpful
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Imma go combine two requests in that one.
Request 1: i was thinking if you could write something like jinx using her shimmer speed for fucking?
Request 2: If you still take requests, and when you get a chance, could you do a G!P Jinx x fem reader? The scenario I was picturing was that they are cuddling with the reader in Jinx's lap, and the reader is sort of grinding against her as they try and reposition themselves. And they're unaware of what it's doing to Jinx and eventually Jinx has enough and and fucks the reader right then and there.
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My good girl
Mentions of G!P, smut, rough sex, overstimulation, blowjob, bratty Reader, dom!Jinx
You finally got Jinx away from her work bench, cuddling for a while now, you straddling her lap while your head rested in the crook of her neck. You loved cuddling with her, inhaling her beautiful scent. In moments like this even Jinx was calm, not being her usual bubbly self. The only thing that you could hear was her calm breathing and feeling her hand caress up and down your back. Jinx showing affection like this is a rare thing so you enjoyed every second.
āI love you.ā You whispered, your breath tickling her a little, she pressed a kiss on your forehead. āI love you too.ā You loved hearing her say that, slightly shifting on her lap to reposition yourself a little, feeling how Jinxās body tensed up but she didnāt say anything yet. You did move again, your crotch grinding against hers and you leaned up to have a better view of her now, you could see her cheeks being flushed red and her expression showing a little bit of weakness. You didnāt think about anything not innocent so you didnāt really understand why she looked at you like this.
āWhat? You okay?ā You giggle innocently, placing a soft kiss on her lips, as you do so you shifted again. āNghā¦fine thatās enough.ā Jinx groaned as she flipped you over, now being on top of you as she pushed you into the mattress. āDonāt you think I noticed this?ā She grumbled as her hands pinned yours down, she was being serious but you still didnāt get it. āNoticed what? We were cuddling.ā You mentioned and she let out a little sigh before pressing her clothed crotch against yours, making you feel her bulge.
Your cheeks instantly heat up, surprised by her getting excited so fast. āI-ā¦I didnāt think you would get that hard because of a little shifting.ā Your words made her grunt, rolling her eyes annoyed. āYea sure. You grind against me and think I wonāt get hard? Nice try love, I am gonna give you what you deserve for lying to me. You know I hate being lied on.ā
Even though you didnāt lie at all to her and just wanted a innocent moment with her without thinking about your own movements and what they would cause, you felt excited to see what she will do to you so you just played along with her. Telling her you didnāt do it on purpose wonāt work on Jinx anyways if she is stuck in her own mindset. Thatās what you learned about her very fast.
āMhhā¦so you wanna put your little brat in her place?ā You just went along with the little game, not knowing what it would cause. āSo? Youāre so confident arenāt you? Let me fuck that confidence out of you then.ā She said with a husky voice, sitting up to remove her pants to let her hard cock free. Before you could react she grabbed you by your hair, making you sit up and shoved her cock inside of your mouth. āThatās itā¦use that bratty mouth on me.ā Jinx groaned as she moved her hips, letting her cock slide down your throat, making you gag a little bit on it. You tried your best to please her, letting her go all in and as fast as she wanted, your tongue swirling around her cock, hands placed on her hips to keep you up.
When she had the feeling she shut you up enough, only hearing your muffled moans and looking into your teary eyes, she decided to pull on your hair as she made you lean back a little, her cock and your mouth being connected by a string of your saliva as you looked at her beautiful pink eyes glowing of excitement. āThatās my good girlā¦I am not planning on giving you the pleasure to swallow it this time. Iād rather want to make a mess out if you. Brats do deserve that.ā Her smirk was very evil, you knew that look on her face. She really meant what she said.
Jinx removed your pants and panties as well along with your shirt, wanting to have you fully exposed to her, smirking playfully as she gazed down at you, spreading your legs to see you being dripping wet for her. Your own hands move to your breasts, wanting to touch yourself but Jinx didnāt like that idea, giving you a little slap on your wet pussy which made you whine out loudly, whimpering after. āNo touching. I am gonna touch you, your hands better stay away if you donāt want me to slap you again.ā She commanded you before adjusting herself properly between your legs, moving her cock inside of you deeply without a warning, making you moan out. āAh! Fuck Jinx!ā
Jinx only smirked playfully at your reaction. āDidnāt I tell you I will fuck the brat out of you?ā She didnāt wait for you to get used to her size as she started thrusting her hips inside of you, both of you ending up being a moaning mess, your tummy making a little bulge each time she thrusted into you made her know she was just hitting the right spot. Her eyes started glowing a lot again, a sign that showed whenever she used her shimmer which made her thrust into you in a inhuman speed, making you moan uncontrollably as your legs clenched around her, reaching your orgasm as your juices spilled all over her cock.
Jinx didnāt think of stopping yet, throwing her head back as she moaned out loudly, little strings of pink light following her eyds as she moved her head back. āJ-Jinx! Stop!ā¦I-I canāt-ā¦ahh!ā You try to beg her to stop feeling overstimulated, not even able to form proper words, your whimpering moans cutting of your words. Jinx loved everything about this, looking down at you with such a needy gaze, you were wondering how she could keep herself from cumming.
āNawā¦I am sure you can baby. You are my good girl. You can take it.ā She encouraged you, still pounding into you hard and fast, filling up the room with lewd wet sounds. Your juices helping her to slide in even more easier. āHnng! You are so good for me, taking my punishment so good huh? Yes thatās it, good girl, my good girl.ā She groaned in between her moaning, biting her lower lip, a sign she was close and so were you, cumming again with a whine, your legs trembling underneath her, arching your back, tears of pleasure running down your eyes and finally Jinx reached her high as well, pulling out to cum on your lower tummy, making a mess out of you. āGodā¦so sexy for meā¦ā She mumbled under her breath, jerking herself off on you before she leaned down, running her tongue along your wet folds, tasting your juices mixed together, feeling you twitch when her tongue reached your clit.
Jinx was satisfied for now, seeing you all done as you are still not ready to form words, being out of breath. āNext time donāt be so bratty and I will cum inside you instead~ā She said with her usual playful voice like she didnāt just dominate you and fucked you breathless.
She positioned herself back beside you, pulling you close to her chest as she began to be her soft, loving self again towards you, whispering so softly to you. āYouāre mine, remember that.ā You just nod, feeling your body already feeling sore and she knew that, keeping you close to her until you both eventually fall asleep in each others arms.
#x reader#fanfiction#female reader#x fem!reader#short imagine#lgbtq#arcane#arcane fanfic#jinx#jinx x fem!reader#jinx x y/n#jinx smut#jinx arcane#jinx x reader#smut scenarios#smut#g!p
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thread of things you can do to feel more puppy!!
warning, this is not for puppy regressors!! this is an nsfw post and probably not safe for u if you regress while online. stay safe, sfw puppies.
anyway. back to content for puppies who r fucking degenerates. iām a switch & not only do i own a puppy sub but i am also one!! this is applicable for both partnered and solo pups, dw, thereās likely to be something here for everyone.
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š¾ grind on pillows and/or furniture!! pillows are an accessible option for everyone, not everyone has furniture they can feel comfortable doing that on because maybe they donāt live alone or what have you. but pillows are an amazing option for any and all needy puppies.
š¾ snacks can help u feel puppy a lotttt!! while it can be fun to have your partner feed you little treats, you can also absolutely do this on your own. while youāre not in the headspace, set up small little snacks for you to have for when you follow rules or actions you set up for yourself. ppl often underestimate how satisfying solo play can be!! but it can be awesome. good ideas for pup snacks can be small cookies reminiscent of dog treats (scooby snack graham cracker cookies if youāre in the u.s., highly recommend), little cubes of meat and cheese, or dry cereal. it doesnāt have to be those things though, it can be anything broken up into small pieces. be creative!!
š¾ some people enjoy eating or drinking out of dog bowls but for some, thatās inaccessible or maybe just not to their taste. another option can be water bottles with spouts you have to suck on (oral fixation is so so so puppy!!). smaller sized snack bowls also work well for this. anything notably small can help a lot with headspace i find because a large part of puppyspace for many is feeling tiny and :3. if you know you know pfffft.
š¾ hereās a simple one!! have an article of clothing or jewelry you wear only during puppy time :) of course thereās the obvious ones; harnesses, ears, collars. but even just a bracelet or a sweater can work if you only wear it during pupspace and get your brain to associate it.
š¾ if you go into the headspace online (as iām sure many of you reading do if ur here), you can do certain typing things to help you feel even more puppy. using certain emojis or doing a little :3 or :> itās pretty common to have your voice change tone and your words get more simple when in a smaller mindset so it can be fun to have your typing also reflect this!! typing out āwoofā or āarfā r silly but they r cute and i recommend it, 10/10.
š¾ find something you can safely bite on!! nothing you could choke on or that could hurt you. chewelry is rlly good for this, iād recommend looking on etsy for some. but you can also just buy a new actual dog toy (fresh, not used, clean it before). puppies need to teethe!! the urge to bite is super common.
š¾ if you have enough privacy, play fetch with yourself. why not?? you can bounce a ball off the walls and even if youāre in a small room where you donāt have far to get to it, youāre still pretty likely to get excitable abt it!! if youāre doing this outside donāt put the toy in your mouth, if youāre indoors you can probably feel more comfortable to do this safely if youāre using something big enough not to choke yourself with.
š¾ ride toys!! itās hard to do things yourself, riding or suction cupping a toy to a wall so you can just lay down and move ur needy hips against it can be wonderful for puppyspace.
š¾ suck your fingers or your partners fingers!! puppies need our mouths occupied. gently chewing on fingers, probably not enough to hurt (maybe tho, good for you), just enough to feel like youāre gnawing a bit, is SO so so good. this doesnāt even have to be sexual, drifting off to sleep with fingers or a gag (nothing that you could accidentally swallow) in your mouth can help you wake up puppy!! i wouldnāt recommend sleeping with a gag in long term, thatās more for naps or on special occasions. like i mentioned before; oral fixation oral fixation oral fixation!! you should also suck toys and cock š¤š¤
š¾ wag your hips or kick your feet!! itās like wagging ur tail :> wiggles can come naturally when in pupspace so embrace them as ur āphantom tailā pfffft
š¾ āpuppypartsā āpuppycuntā āpuppyholesā āpuppycockā āpuppyanythingāšš
remember, if some of these arenāt applicable to you and how you like to play, you are not any less puppy. these are general, not one size fits all. there are countless different ways to be puppy and i donāt think any two people should be doing it the EXACT same way. we all have our quirks, we all have our individual headspaces.
have fun and play safe, puppies š¾š¦“š¾
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Daddy's Boy
šŗšøPairing(s)šŗšøā Step Dad Ari Levinson x Step Son reader ā CWā ā top Ari Levinson, bottom male reader, feminization, readerās ass is called boypussy, edging, possessive Ari, Ari calls you his boywife, gay, gay-sex, cheating, infidelity, anal sex, anal fingering, thigh fucking, and cross-dressing. Ari makes his fantasy come true and confesses that he always wanted you. šŗšøRatingšŗšøā Explicit šŗšøRequestedšŗšøā Yes
šŗšøWord Countšŗšøā 1.9k
šŗšøSummaryšŗšøā You were caught by your stepdad, Ari Levinson, cross-dressing. The only condition for Ari not to tell on you was for him to fuck you while wearing the dress.Ā
Read before continuing: IF YOU ARE YOUNGER THAN 18 OR ANY OF THE WARNINGS MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE, DO NOT CONTINUE READING!Ā
You secretly wore womenās clothing, whether it was underwear, leggings, dresses, or typical everyday clothes. You felt more comfortable wearing them, and you always thought you looked hot in the mirror. You often secretly buy feminine clothes or try on your motherās.Ā
You never told your mother about your cross-dressing, and you definitely didnāt tell your stepdad, Ari Levinson. You feared how both your parents might react, especially Ari.Ā
Ari Levinson was, excuse the cringe word, an alpha man. He was tall, standing at 6ā0 "(182 cm), and muscular. With his chiseled body, as if the Greek God sculpted him themselves, and his bulging biceps, you can see why your mother fell in love with him. He was also very hairy, with bushy facial hair and a hairy chest, especially his happy trail that led down.
Whenever you cross-dress, you usually lock your door. Your mother didnāt care but Ari, on the other hand, did. He would say that you didnāt have to lock your door or that you could trust him. He would stand close to you, his rough hands grazing against your hips. He was weird at times.
You never understood why he acted like that but you never questioned it.Ā
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Today was going to be a great day, you felt it. Your mother and Ari were both on separate business trips for two weeks. You were finally home alone after a long time, and you decided to use the time to try on the clothes you bought.
Ari was told the mission was called off and told to return home. He groans in annoyance at the waste of time but at least he gets to go home, especially since he gets to see you, his precious stepson.Ā
He knows he shouldnāt but he couldnāt help himself. He was practically obsessed with you ever since his wife, your mother, introduced you to him. He often touches himself to thoughts of you, using your boxers to jerk off, and other nefarious thoughts. He also prevented any man from ever having a relationship with you because of his mindset that you belong to him.
When he entered the house, he couldnāt hear the usual sounds of you playing games, laughing, or snoring. His loud footsteps rang as he walked towards the master bedroom, seeing that the door was cracked open.
Looking in, Ariās jaw dropped as he saw you wearing revealing clothes. Tight leggings that hugged your luscious ass and thighs and a small skirt that barely covered anything. Ariās cock jumps with excitement as he watches you twirl around and check yourself out. He was rubbing his bulge, burly hand rubbing over the tightening fabric, letting out quiet groans.Ā
You were blissfully unaware of Ariās presence until two hands grabbed your hips. Already knowing who it was, you started panicking. āI-it not what it looks! It'sā¦ uhh.ā You stuttered as you tried to explain, but there was no way you could change what was really happening. Your blabbering stopped when you felt something large and thick grinding against your ass.
āThereās no need for that, baby. It's quite obvious whatās going on here.ā Ari said in a deep husky voice as his burly hands roamed your lower body before moving to the upper body. He groans as he grinds his bulge against your perky ass. You could feel him breathing down your neck.
āIf you donāt want your mother to find out, youāll do what I say.ā
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Your heart was beating rapidly and your breathing quickened. You were in the kitchen, making a simple meal for you and Ari. Following Ariās order, you wore a skirt with no boxers and a shirt. The cold air was brushing against your bare ass and somewhat erect cock. There should be no reason why youāre getting turned on, but you were.Ā
Suddenly, you felt those same hands grab onto your hips, the same erection now grinding against your bare ass. You could now feel how big it was and it felt intimidating. āI always imagined you as this.ā Ari's husky voice said as he leaned down into your ear. He started pressing small kisses around your nape and licking long stripes.
For some reason, it felt oddly domesticāsomething that is often between two lovers. Youāve never been in a relationship before, but now you can see the appeal: having someone to wake up to, someone to show you affection, and other special things. You started melting into Ariās embrace, becoming vulnerable under his touchā¦
āI knew you cross-dressed. It was quite obvious, Iām surprised your mother didnāt find out. Iām not complaining though since I have you like this. My boywifeā¦ā Ari purrs as he unzips and pulls down both pieces of his garments. You can feel your stepdad's large cock pushing in between your thighs. Ari gasps from the warmth and softness of your thighs wrapping around his cock.Ā
Your breathing quickens with soft moans leaving your mouth. Ari started thrusting slowly, his large cock fucking your thighs. The area around you and Ari was hot, the sensation of sex making you feel like you were floating. The kitchen was filled with a combination of moans and groans. āShouldāve gone with youā¦ you shouldāve been with me! Not your momā¦ shouldāve made you my stay-at-home boywife.āĀ
You could feel your face burning from what Ari said. You didnāt know Ari thought about that or even about you like that. Ari pulled you by the chin and pressed his lips against yours. Both of you melted into the kiss as the older manās grip tightened, his thrust slowing down before pulling out.
āYou taste so good, just as I imagined.ā the older man says, pulling back to breathe before continuing. Using his strength, he manhandled you and brought you over to the kitchen counter. Your mind was shutting down from Ariās actions. The sensation was euphoric; his scruffy beard scratched your chin and his soft lips and dominant tongue found its way into your mouth.Ā
Ari pulled back causing you to whine. āNo need to whine. Iāll give you something much better.ā The older man says as he lathers his fingers with saliva. After determining his fingers were wet enough, he slowly started pushing them toward the tight ring of muscle. You gasped as you felt Ariās thick finger circling your hole before pressing inside.
āA-Ari!ā You cried as your ass started clenching around the intrude. Ari groans from his fingers being sucked deeper into your velvety depths as adrenaline rushes through your veins, causing you to grasp onto Ari for support.
āIt's okay, baby. I need you to breathe for me. Thatās it, such a good boy.ā Ari praises you, feeling your body calming down and becoming less tense. He pushed his fingers deeper till your rim touched the base of his digits. When Ari called you a good boy, you felt your body melt into him from the praise, your smaller body pressed against Ariās much larger and hairy body.Ā
Your hands roam the older manās chest, marveling at how muscular the older man was. You could see the skin twitch from your touches while Ari groans.Ā
Your cock has been neglected and Ari decided to give it the attention it needed. Using his other free hand, he wraps it around and starts stroking it. It was then Ari found the sweet spot and his fingers repeatedly touching your prostate. The house was filled with your moans from too much stimulation; your aching cock being stroked and your ass being stretched open with your stepdadās thick fingers abusing your prostate.
āD-daddyā¦ Need more.ā You whined and whimpered as you began riding his fingers. Ari grins before pulling his fingers out and replacing them with something much bigger. You were confused until you felt something large and thick ram its way into your assābreaching the ring of muscle as it pushed itself to the hilt and the cockhead pressed against your prostate.
āYou feel so good wrapped around meā¦ f-fuckā¦ so tight for me. I could be inside you the whole day.ā Ari growls as he aggressively thrusts into your tight hole. The echoes of skin-on-skin slapping and loud squelching rang through the houseāmaybe even next door because the walls were so thin.Ā
You instinctively wrapped your legs around the older manās waist, pulling him closer and feeling his cock go deeper inside you. With Ariās aggressive thrusts and his cock hitting the prostate, you couldnāt process anything that was going on, not even what Ari said next. āYou donāt know how much effort Iāve gone toā¦ To make sure you were untouched so I could be the one toā¦ fucking hellā¦ whisk you away.ā Ari groans as he pulls you closer to him. His thrusts were getting sloppier signaling his climax.
Even though you were basically fucked dumb, you still understood, to some extent. Any man that you ever talked to or contacted suddenly no longer wanted to continue. All of them ran away and you went to your precious parents, especially your stepdad, for comfort.Ā
Despite Ari confessing to ruining your love life, you werenāt mad at him. A loud voice in your head told you to accept this man as your own, pushing aside the fact that he was married to your mother. āGonna cumā¦ cum with me,ā Ari growls as he starts stroking your cock intensely.
You could feel the older manās cock twitching inside, his heavy balls tightening as cum was pumping through the epididymis. Ari grabbed your head and pulled you towards his lips. At that same time, he gives one final thrust. Your cock was doing the same thing, it was throbbing badly as it was about to explode.Ā
Your body went boneless. Your aching cock spurts its load all over yours and Ariās hairy chest. The older man lets out a low groanāhis cock pumping thick cum deep inside, filling your stomach with an unfamiliar warmth. Ari pulled back before giving small kisses on your cheeks and forehead.
āGood boy. Youāre perfect,ā Ari says, pulling his softening cock out of your abused and puckered hole. A loud pop echoed as thick globs of cum oozed out, the counter and cabinets beneath painted white.Ā
After a few minutes in silence beside the quiet pants, reality set in. You had sex with your mother's husband of ten years, your stepdad. It feels so wrong but right at the same time. While you were having an internal crisis, Ari grabbed some paper towels and started cleaning you.
āDonāt feel ashamed. Your mother isnāt as fateful either. Once the divorce is finalized, Iām taking you with me.ā
THE END
A/n: Hello, my strawberries! I hope this is good and congratulations on making it to 2025! Very special thanks to my proofreader @sagethegaywitch
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I feel like I'm so behind. Being 25, infantilized but also caretaker for my family. I should be out on my own but it's impossible to get an apartment and have money and I'm not even sure where to start. Like how do I get more money and the fucking will and get tired of being okay with my abuse. I feel like such a failure. Like why should someone want to be with me or anything.
#personal#there is just so much on my mind and in my heart#if i let it all out ill explode and wont be able to get it controlled#i need the worlds biggest hug but also dont touch me bc i wont let go and i will break down#im so tired#of feeling alone#of being alone#of hating myself and my body and the more weight i lose the more people like me#and feeling worse bc i like me and skinny people not fucking understanding that my mind will never forget the space i took up#while trying to minimize myself for others like the stigma with being fat will NEVER leave me even of i became bones#knowing that the weight i lose will just leave me with the weight of my loose skin and more reasons to hide#im stuck#i just want a place of my own where i can be and i think that will help my internal self a lot after getting over that beginning loneliness#i dont have the grind mindset i didnt even think id make it to 18 let alone 25 what plan should i have been working on#god help me
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