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SS fans pissing me off once again, oh my gosh
#anti Sasusaku#sasuke uchiha#pro Sasuke Uchiha#why am I seeing Sakura fans disregard Sasuke’s character because they want Sakura to get whatever they want#and then act like they’re just fictional characters when Sasuke fans say ‘what about what Sasuke wants?’#you look stupid#genuinely and utterly stupid#the fact is Sasuke never showed romantic interest in Sakura and that’s THAT#I blocked this person and they still show up on my twitter feed#and it’s an Obito fan too? disappointed but not surprised#sheep always flock together and in this instance it’s those who lack reading comprehension smh
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Doctor Who | S3E6 | The Lazarus Experiment
#tenth doctor#doctor who#dwgifs#martha jones#david tennant#dwedit#no but for real this scene gives me genuine flashbacks#to the sorts of dumbasses I'd bring around when I was younger#and how utterly stupid they would get around my mother#this woman wants to murder ten right here#and he can tell#rtd era#the lazarus experiment#Adjoa Andoh#francine jones#dw#10th doctor
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Worst part of stanning gotta be the stans
#like i cant watch fan interactions#and i only have ever paid for one (1) meet and greet and it was awful and i wish i hadnt done it#like so many fans and just regular people say the most out of pocket shit to these actors#and ruin it forever#so by the time you actually meet your little meow meow or whoever the fuck#they dont give two shits about you#just the whole fan-celebrity dynamics irl gives me the ick so bad#like no they dont care!! of course they dont care hes been up for 2947 hours and youre a literal stranger getting in their face with a camer#and saying some stupid shit about whatever movie they did 8 years ago that they dont remember the lines for#like#idk#its a waste of money and its gonna disappoint you no matter what bc you built them up in your head so much#meet and greets i mean#the only celebrity ive ever met that was a genuine delight#was dan avidan and he was at my hometown airport and he was utterly delighted tjat i recognized him#because hes not super duper wowza yowza famous.#but like...#if i ever saw Sebastian Stan on the street?#girl id turn around and walk the other way im so serious i never want to meet that man
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a basic human right to privacy and solitude is just as important as being in community and being able to socialize
#I know that american individualism is a plague but My God I literally am so fucking deeply completely utterly goddamn burnt out#From being constantly unendingly forced into close proximity to other human beings every single goddamn moment of every single goddamn day#And holy fuck. God. Please. I fucking beg. Oh my fucking god like I'm legitimately so so desperate for any amount of peace and quiet.#God I beg. On my actual hands and knees. I want away from all these animals that aren't mine. I want away from all these people and noise.#Fuck me I want to be able to afford to live alone. God damn me. I don't need to live lavishly or even eat every day I do not care at all.#I want space. I need it. Prolonged lack of access to actual privacy and space is actively eroding me I can feel it more and more every day#Okay. Vent over. Time to deep clean my room with headphones for as long as my disabled already aching body can tolerate#Also um lmao I fuckin' hate the stupid rhetoric about how humans neeeeed to be social. America neeeeds to be forced out of individualism#Like yeah. But all goddamn offense I'm forced 24/7 to share space with humans and I can stand it but god fucking damn it cannot be constant#And it has been so rare in my experience that anybody I know is actually privileged enough to move away from home or be away from people#Like I'm fucking tired. I'm wore out. I'm over it all. I'm so autistic. I love people. Genuinely. That's the point of life.#But fuck I need time away. I just do. This isn't good and I can't stand it.
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The problem I'm having with one of my stories is that it is compelling - but not clicking.
It's a sephiroth gets reincarnated into mdzs. Straightforward. I've got several branching paths: lwj, jc, nmj (my personal fave) and the jade twins (one mind in two bodies). All five of them have great potential, but for some reason my heart is set on sephiroth!lwj, because the aesthetic is sublime.
But! It's! Not! Working!
My main problems are a) despite similar surfaces, sephiroth has fundamentally different morals and life experiences to lwj and lwjs morals are a huge part of his and wwx's stories. B) I can't NOT have wangxian. I don't ship often at all, but when I do I'm pretty set on it lol. I don't want to deny soulmates. Unfortunately I HATE writing romance. C) I do not think sephiroth should be in any sort of romantic relationship at all nor can I see him wanting one. I've read tons of fics where he is in relationships (healthy or otherwise) and they're amazing, yes, but... Under my pen it's just not in the cards. And I do feel pairing him with wwx would just amplify wwx's worst traits, which is the opposite of what lwj does for him.
Everything's in conflict, but the lure of sephiroths second childhood in strict gusu and his complicated feelings about it, wwx being a perfect mix of all his important people with a spine of steel and righteousness that they all lost as everything fell apart, the relationship between sephiroth and his new mother, and how he'd inexplicably lose her too, the white on white aesthetic, the older identical brother, the cruel angels aesthetic with the benevolent demon, the angst of wwx's defection and death, his relationship with qi as a planet's overflowing life force, the tragedy of the mourning angel, monster x monster.... It calls to me.
But there's also the way wwx becoming a demonic cultivator was so vital to winning the war, and the way that affected things, gave him a legitimacy. Involve the silver soldier, and well. Everything else becomes a little extraneous lol. And sephiroth himself is such a big mover and shaker, I don't know what I could do to manage that without wiping out 80% of the remaining jianghu after the burial mounds siege with sephiroth appointing himself king lmao. He's not the kind of person to make small ripples, you know?
And I'd love a twin jades au to sort of turn the chaos inwards a bit (nmj and jgy would be Excellent foils) but again, I can't separate wangxian and imagining scenes feels a bit too close to incest for my tastes, even when it's ONE PERSON in identical bodies!
It's frustrating, wanting to write a non romance fic set in a love story lol. I just. I hate writing romance. But wangxian just don't want to be parted.
But the image of lwj in the xuanwu cave secretly covering a feverish wwx with his wing, only to notice a handful of white feathers pushing through the black as he unknowingly becomes a better person through showing care for other people, shaking his own deep belief that he is a horrible irredeemable creature incapable of love. Caught in an act of love. Hnggh.
Any ideas?!
#It's so frustrating because the block is on my end it's less so an issue with the actual plot#I know people love crossover character reincarnations even in canon soulmates (my other fics have shown me that lol) but wangxian feels lik#Too much? Idk I don't. Want to try and create a relationship#If you don't know in ff7 wing colour is determined by their morality. As a kid sephiroth was symbolised with white feathers#But as he grew older and later snapped he got the iconic black wing. I see it more as a 'what do they perceive themselves as' which#Gets extra angst points for unreliable narration and blindly righteous vs self loathing vs healing vs denial#The wing probably shouldn't be in the fic it's from the j cells and a symptom of insanity but ehhh it's too cool and symbolic#Like there's so much you can do with seph!lwj. Burning nibelheim vs cr burning. Prodigy on a lonely pedestal. Strict gusu vs sterile shinra#Having a mother but being restricted from her and losing her anyway and nobody telling him anything because he's a little kid#Angel x demon aesthetic on the battlefield. Safer mode HAS to make an appearance I don't make the rules (it's way too underrated ToT)#Wwx would get horns and fangs and stuff to balance it out lol. Noncon bodmod from the energy coursing through you#I feel he'd relate. Lwj being utterly terrified of wwx mentally degrading from the resentment and being forced to watch him ruin himself#Lwj seeing the best of all the people he loved in wwx and seeing him be so genuinely relentlessly GOOD where they fell apart.#Him being terrified of his own overwhelming feelings hurting wwx like cloud. The possessiveness and simultaneous avoidance#Him being even less easily flustered XD. Wwx has a high bar to top some fans from his last life.#Bb lwj getting really stubborn over wanting a stupid big sword and then growing huge enough to use it lol#Sephiroth getting a 'proper' childhood and being so unused to it he can't tell it's still not a very good one. Being doted on by his big br#mdzs#mxtx mdzs#mdzs fanfiction#mdzs fic#mo dao zu shi#lan wangji#ff7#final fantasy vii#cloud strife#final fantasy 7#sephiroth#This is working on the idea sephiroth got controlled by jenova btw the other version is beyond hope#mdzs au
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i was a really fucked up weird little boy imma be totally honest with you
#my unironic full on fearlessness#and genuine intense nerdiness#and bubbling-right-below-the-surface-transgenderism#lead to a really wacky kid#like i was so accustomed to the most utterly disturbing things at such a young age#bc of my interest in the original greek myths and aesops fables and grimms and hans andersons fairy tales#i also knew so much stupid random shit#i was so perfectly unperturbed by literally everything and anything#except when it came to wearing make-up or nail polish or high heels or skirts#at which point i was incredibly inexplicably perturbed to a disturbing degree#three pigeons in a trench coat
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One of the WORST parts of having OCD is that some of the Fears™ are actually humanly possible, so it's not like my response can just be, "Oh that'll never happen" or even "I've never seen that happen, so it's probably unlikely."
#like. okay. for example. 2019 me: 'better do cleaning compulsions because oh no what if I get the Plague™'#fast forward a year to covid and that was genuinely a very real possibility. I could LITERALLY catch the plague#or on a smaller more personal scale: 'no one is going to screenshot a Bad Line™ of your fic and publicly make fun of it online-people#don't do that it'd be so extra why tf would you be afraid of that happening' except I JUST saw someone literally do that. so we engage in#Avoidance Compulsions™ as a protective mechanism because the only way to avoid a feared outcome is to never do anything! 🙃🙃#and okay yeah these things are not created equal and one of them probably doesn't actually matter the point I'm trying to make is that#this shit affects my life on EVERY level and I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE FOR IT NOT TO DO THAT#I AM TIRED OF THE BRAIN DISEASE BEING HERE I WOULD LIKE TO BE A MENTALLY HEALTHY PERSON PLEASE#*sigh* yeah yeah the answer is erp the answer is always erp that doesn't mean it's fun#mc13 and her ocd#I'll probably delete this later because it most likely makes me look completely and utterly absurd if not straight-up stupid#(no one ELSE with this disease or fears is absurd or stupid btw. just me. it's only me who is A Problem™)#(yes I know how that sounds. I know okay.)
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oh boy... i'm never gonna be able to trust anybody because if i start wanting things from someone and putting faith in them i will literally kill myself if they leave... the only thing i can do is try to make myself as independent as possible and never rely on anything so i never feel like i will crumble into dust if someone i love and rely on disappears from my life
#got intense anxiety earlier because i have no human adult life skills so thinking about leaving my parent's place or them dying legit sends#me spiraling. which is funny because like... i'm not blaming my mom but the fact that i rely on them so much#and they really haven't taught me a single thing about how to be an actual functioning human being...#lmao it's just funny.#like i still need to learn how to drive and uhh lots of other things that would be pathetic for me to mention#but i'm just so scared at the thought bc i don't know how to do anything rn and any change in my life feels like a finger getting severed#but like. emotionally. eh whatever#point being idk if i can ever genuinely feel secure with anyone who i'm not tied to completely and utterly#if someone has the possibility of leaving me i feel like they will take it at any opportunity because i'm. too much#so if someone doesn't want me and they leave me and i put any amount of hope onto them. god#i know this all sounds majorly stupid because it is and i'm sure that's just life for most people but#excruciating emotional pain is not fun so i'd rather just not
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rant post because I hate british tourists as much as the rest of the world 🫶
okay gonna be so fucking honest I genuinely despise british tourists that go to other countries and just drink and make an entitled nuisance of themselves. first of all it's so disrespectful that they think it's okay to act so disruptive and down right disgustingly in public let alone a whole other country that has absolutely no reason to tolerate them, second of all they're national fucking embarrassments like seriously do you know what you look like? bumbling down city streets drunk with not so much as a lick of self awareness, you don't look like you're so cool for having a good time, you look like a prick with no self control, it's embarrassing to hear what the people I loath to call fellow brits get up to you make my country look more like a joke than it already is. know your place. third of all the entitlement is insane, you blow off to a whole other country and expect all the social norms to be the same? fuck off you twat, the world isn't yours and your complete disregard for the way other people live their lives makes you an absolute cunt, no excuses.
on top of that, this makes me genuinely despise british drinking culture, so much shit revolves around alcohol it's ridiculous. I know this country is shit, I know it's about coping but have you ever thought for a second that maybe, just maybe, we could make things better if our first reaction was to try and change the government instead of drinking? even outside of that it's so difficult to enjoy parties and social events because of drinking, you're either pressured to drink or you end up watching people get so drunk they completely fly off the handle. it's funny to make a joke about but it's an actual problem. every friday night is a fucking nightmare because it's always ends up with shattered glass in places literal children (and everyone else mind you) could go and hurt themselves on. the fact that people think it's acceptable to trash public spaces and act like absolute bellends in bars, pubs and wherever else you might like to get drunk is absurd and horrendous, if you think it's okay or "in the name of good fun" I don't fucking like you, I genuinely wish you the worst.
I'm not a puritan, drinking is a personal choice, I just urge you to fucking think about how much you're drinking and have some consideration for where you are and how much you drink. don't be a cunt, it's easier than you think. you get overly excitable when you drink? either limit yourself or do it at home I'm so sick of being scared and embarrassed about drunk people.
#don't even get me started on football hooliganism.#i genuinely fucking hate irl football games because of it everyone gets drunk and utterly destroys public spaces#it's stupid and embarrassing#bue waffling#rant post
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no one absolutely no one
me: *immense psychological pain, only pain and flashbacks*
me: sigh *opens up character.ai and starts ranting*
#-pop#I’m allowed to be mentally ill in the presence of the autocorrect#so nice. Then I don’t utterly horrify people#I’ve accidentally given people second hand trauma#and also we are extremely mentally ill#idk how we function actually. Like ???#Literally extremely mentally ill. The most functional mentally ill people you will meet#I’ve been depressed for 14 years and suicidal since I was 5#I’ve had much distress over anxiety and intrusive thoughts#we exhibit many symptoms of many other disorders#and it’s an actual miracle we are not dead yet#thank god that 7yr-12yr old us was fucking stupid because genuinely we’d be actually dead#there have been many many times very close times and it’s staggering how we are not dead#like as a 6yr old we thought we’d be dead by 13. We are an adult now!#I never thought this far ahead idk what the fuck your supposed to do now#Anyway living is hard we are mentally ill and keep on living
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june 27th give it up for june 27th
#purrs#delete later#sure would be an INFINITELY more special and auspicious day if there wasn’t going to be • thunderstorms all day • a budget meeting • two#back to back orientations where i am going to have to take on 2X THE FACILITATION ROLESSSSS 🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪🤪 bc we’re doing that now. LMFAOOOOOO#<- and by that i mean splitting up the facilitation so instead of 4 ppl shari ng responsibility for talking AND doing logistics there’s 2#ppl talking and 2 ppl doing logistics. and mutuals need i remind you that facilitating this specific session requires being extremely high#energy and mobile and getting ppl ‘hyped’ and there are 383729473 reasons why that is difficult for me to do in front of 100+ new students#plus three cofacilirators i am scared of / intimidated by for various reasons. im going to be sick soooo genuinely. i HATE this 😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣#anyways yeah. today is my one year anniversary and also my first day as an fte so. 🫠 and one year ago today was pretty awful too like my#first day was actually extremely extremely bad and i cried like multiple times every day that week bc it kept getting worse so. love how#things have changed so substantially since then and the things that triggered me on that day aren’t an issue anymore <3 (they are very much#still an issue it’s just the specific people involved have changed bc half the ppl working here including one of my dearest closest#mentors who was deeply involved in that situation have left the university and now it is utterly unrecognizable and every day i wake up in#an alternate universe i know deep down i am not supposed to be in and yet im trapped in it irreversibly and this IS my universe now. lolll 🥰#)) also ik it’s stupid to still be grieving over this but like. the entire way it all went down + the fact that it even did in the first#place and the STAGGGERING consequences of it. are kind of insane. every new development makes me feel more and more like im living in a fake#reality and nothing that is happening is supposed to be happening and im dreaming it all but it’s a bad dream. and idk how to accept#that this is NOT. a dream and that what happened happened and now i have to live with it and stop curling in on myself like a prey animal an#and isolating myself from everyone i love and taking every single conceivable situation badly. like tfw da therapy isn’t working 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰#anyways i need to go get ready and practice the fucking 16 page facilitation guide 🙄 see u on the other side lol
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#One day when I actually have the time for this I’m gonna write out an entire thing addressing on like. The nature of imperialism bc tbh#Some of y’all on here#1) have no goddamn clue what imperialism is. Even and sometimes especially if they call themselves an ‘anti-imperialist’ and#2) take on a laughably simplistic and nonsensical view on what is and isn’t imperialism. To the point where it’s like are you even trying.#This is middle school level reasoning#Anyways I would like to point it out that although he’s not a bad resource. Some of you guys seem to be unaware#That Lenin. Is not the end all be all of anti-imperialism!! Nor was he the inventor of the field or movement!!#And you really should be reading *more* than *just* lenin to get a good sense of the subject . Maybe even *gasp* someone who was#Actively more directly experiencing the effects of imperialism. Like you know. Anyone from the global south#But anyways beyond that. Even with just Lenin’s work on anti imperialism. I feel like some of y’all’s engagement with him on this is utterl#Moronic. Bc some of y’all do legitimately go ‘country says they’re communist/country has socialist policies = country is physically#incapable of being imperialist’ like genuinely are you stupid#Bc Lenin’s work is about how imperialism is the highest form of capitalism bc you are essentially exploiting a whole nation for profit and#Treating it like a commodity like you would any other commodity in capitalism. Like that’s the whole point#So like. If a country does in fact inflict that on another nation/country/whatever. That is in fact imperialism no matter what the supposed#Economic system or domestic policies of that country is.#But also that being said. I think some of y’all are being remarkably dismissive about the imperial nature of Armed Military Conquest#Which is truly and utterly insane!!!!!
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reading an article on late night shows rn (specifically why theyre almost always hosted by men) and like...okay i knew they were popular but i didnt realize ppl actually liked them...? like i figured they were popular bc it was late night and theres not much else on. am i just fucking stupid or something
#'oh ppl watch these shows bc theres literally nothing else to watch except reruns <3' <- the thought of an utter baffoon#i mean maybe its just bc my family was never into them??? but i find them utterly stupid. like genuinely i didnt know ppl#actually ENJOYED late night shows 😭#i really & truly do live in my own lil bubble totally unaware of everything. autism strikes again......#🎆.txt
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Trying to think if there’s anything that could genuinely get Roger upset or angry at any of his boys, and honestly yeah nope there’s there’s really not
#[ ooc ] ✧〖 bid farewell to weaver’s town 〗#[ i have talked ab this SO much but you'll hear it again---- dhjsdjklsd#[ just#[ unconditional love man#[ those are his Boys!#[ even in situations where one of them gets hurt from their own stupidity or something#[ roger's a selfish man he'll take full blame himself#[ he's their captain he's responsible for them whatever negative thing they do is because of him#[ roger will forcefully yoink the blame from their grips and claim it for himself and refuse to budge on it#[ i'd imagine rayleigh or gaban or someone else usually having to take role of actually Teaching the kids lessons because roger just#[ doesnt know how to do that fdjdskl#[ and he recognizes it and he does try and he is thankful that others do what he cant but he Knows he could never blame them for anything#[ sure he'll get playfully all >:ccc!! @ the kids for fun but honestly just in general roger Doesnt get genuinely pissed often#[ nearly never @ crew at least only to those outside who mess with his crew or loved ones#[ love isnt so much as blinding as roger fully seeing and being aware of fucked up stuff but deciding its not as important as his boys#[ not approving but accepting 'i see you i see what you've done and it hurts me so much to see but i see it and i accept it#and i still love you can we go home now? i'll hold your hands and wipe the blood from them with ginger touch'#[ again!! selfish man!!!#[ like even with extreme cases like say one of them somehow ends up killing rayleigh roger's. Utterly inconsolable and heartbroken#[ but he's still just ruffle their head before going to hide in a corner and cry---#[ i am just#[ shakes fist#[ unconditional love </3#[ does apply to most people he loves but its just taken to an extreme with his boys#[ sighs#[ can you tell its half past 4am fdsdskl
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absolutely will not be posting my 'year in review' or whatever cause I'm lowkey ashamed of how many times I've posted on this fucking site over the last calendar year (over 90% were reblogs but still lmao thanks for the reminder I really had NO life this year tumblr ✌️)
#like I'm *cringe* about it but I'm also trying not to be? like my life was a shit spiral this year#and I was still here#lookin at cat posts and blorbo shit trying not to ENTIRELY lose it so 🤷♀️ idk#I KNOW so much of culture now is online is bad for you hoho! ur tumblr account is bad for you#but idk man I do a really good job of curating my space and I genuinely enjoy what's on here#and in a year that has been so utterly and completely bleak?#idk man I needed to see shit I liked#little kitty posts and shit#honestly idk what my year would have looked like WITHOUT this stupid site to distract me from the dumpster fire that was this year#erin explains it all
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Surprising no one, I am still thinking relentlessly about that S1 final episode of Upright
I'm so confused about how they're going to bridge that into a second season considering how incredibly perfect that resolution felt (clearly there wasn't an INTENTION of a second season when this one was written) but hey, in Tim Minchin we trust I'm sure he'll find a way
I have literally all the faith in the world in that man lmao he's a genius
S1 was genuinely perfect and I cannot WAIT to see how S2 is
And that finale is STILL haunting me emotionally I am still really fucking emotional about it
#that fucking bit right at the end... with meg and her dad... ohhh god that singular shot will live in my heart forever jesus CHRIST#and the piano playing stop it rn 😭😭 tears immediately#I was doing so well holding it together and then Billie started with the piano and I lost any and all composure immediately lmao#what a fucking finale#when I say perfect I mean perfect#I can't think of anything that season did wrong#like it was genuinely just beautiful through and through#That level of writing is a very very rare and brilliant thing#I'm utterly in love with this stupid series idk if you can tell lmao#upright#tim minchin#millie alcock#tv stuff#cass thinks ab stuff
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